#prepare to see a bunch of posts from me at 1am lmao

[amabiliaaa]

ugh dont feel like writing the next chapter of odaa so i’ll just do a drabble dump instead :)

[denialanderror]

Okay so this is probably going to be the most sincere post I’ve ever made (and quite possibly the last sincere post I ever make). It’s been one hell of a year but I’ve gotten to know a bunch of you, be it your posts on my dash making me laugh or having conversations about god knows what at 1am. I think it’s safe to say tumblr has taken over a huge chunk of my life (sadder words have never been said) so here’s to all of you bozos.

@imhereforbvcky​ I had to start with you. We’ve been talking for over a year now and still you put up with my shitty humour and pestering snapchats. God, you take the piss sometimes though. But I’m glad you dish out what you receive, I don’t know if we’d still be talking constantly if you didn’t. Except also fuck you because we’ve now gotten to the point where I’ll see something (ahem cereal) on Amazon and I can’t help but send it to your door. It’s an issue. But on a more serious note, 2017 has fucking kicked my ass and I think I can safely say that it would have been far far worse if I didn’t have you to rant to and support me through it all. You’re a fucking gem, Mee. And I sincerely hope 2018 is a little kinder on the both of us.

@rotisserierogers Oh kumi, you give hard ons in my heart (I’m still laughing at organ boners). I think it’s safe to say that whenever I need to Yell™ I head to you. You’re somehow the both aggressive and motivational and it’s incredible. You were one of the Big Blogs I took my head out of my ass to speak to and I haven’t looked back since. You’ve ruined my sense of humour (who the fuck am I kidding though it never made any sense) and it’s been a wild fucking ride but thank fuck for you and your shit ass sense in food (rasmalai ftw). But hoe. Please. For the safety of everyone around you. Stay away from the kitchen. Come to my house for gods sake and let me feed you just... stay away from the stove. We’ll bring our son. It’ll be great. 

@whothehellisbella​ Okay you’re a talented piece of shit and I hate you for it. But honestly, thank you for pushing me to be Extra™ whenever I can and for letting me yell about theatre! You’re a sweet little fuck but a sassy fuck and I’m so glad I can call you all the curses under the sun and you’ll just be like “no u, hoe” without batting an eye. It’s great. I think you were one of the first people I spoke to? Idk i’m getting old, either way you’re an absolute doll, you are genuinely supportive and such a kind soul and I wanna thank you for putting up with me. But also pls teach me your selfie ways i stfg I have no idea how to un-potato myself. 

@poealsobucky Oh boy. Michelle. What a fucking ride. I’m still not over how awkward my first message to you was, the fact that you still spoke to me after that mess is beyond me (fuck you Mee). But you’re one of the nicest, most understanding people I’ve met on this hellsite. You understand my insane ramblings and the motive behind my bitchy moods and you deserve so much more. I wanna thank you for letting me feel safe to message you about literally anything and everything without fear of being judged. We didn’t speak until later in the year but I adore you and your wise-beyond-your-years advice. Now go get yo’self a glass of wine, you deserve it.

@mynameisnoelle We started speaking after Michelle showed me your username and I thought “that’s so fucking smart! I love it!” Too bad you’re a dumbass irl. Okay but no, I fucking love you, Noelia. You’re literally just as insane as me and it’s magical. Thank you for letting me spam you with whatever is taking over my life on any given day and for screaming along with me about things (babies and dogs, mostly). And I swear to god girl, if I ever get to Spain, we are meeting up. 

@buckys-fossil Sam! Sweet, gorgeous Sam. First of, thank you for the lipstick good god it changed my life. And thank you for being just as excitable as me about the dumbest shit (although I’m still going to force you to read Harry Potter) and encouraging my insanity. Your videos of your dog always make my day a little brighter and I’m not even going to deny stalking your instagram, you’re hot af. I love you, peanut. 

@crappy-camel @theassetseyeliner @barnescrazy Ah yes. The Children™. You guys will send me to an early grave, I swear. Macy you’re literally insane, I am worried about your health tbh but you’re also a huge fucking softie and I wish you the best. Erin any time I see your photos I can’t help but think “how the fuck is this girl so trendy? I looked like trash when I was her age” because oh boy was that a look. Good old suppressed emo teens. And Vena you Canadian blessing. You’re freaking gorgeous but fuck you and your Twizzlers, eh? Ngl though I’m considering marrying you for that nationality ya dig?

@valhalla-ally Ally! I fucking love ya! I don’t remember how we started speaking but holy fuck, you quite literally changed my life (woo uni) and I never really thanked you for that. You’re such a hard worker and quite honestly, watching your reactions to that Loki fic was one of the highlights of my year. You’re such a kind-hearted person and you go out of your way to make sure I’m okay and help i any way you can. I love you, woman, you deserve so much more recognition. 

@meleedamage We haven’t talked much in terms of messages and shit but holy fuck, your posts have made me inappropriately laugh in public too many times. Any time I see you reblogging something from me, I prepare myself because I know it’ll be absurd, filthy and punny and I will probably have to stifle a laugh. You’ve made my dash immensely better and I wanted to thank you for making me laugh.. and yelling at me to reblog my drawing more lmao.

@soldatbarnes I’ve been such a shitty mutual when it comes to fics this year and I’m sorry but I’ll have you know, I have pretty much all of your fics saved on my tbr list because you’re insanely talented. And fucking gorgeous! I love seeing you on my dashboard and when we’ve spoken, you’ve always been such a sweetheart. Thank you for letting me ramble and forgiving me for being such a shitty reader. 

There are so many more people who’ve made my time on tumblr that much better but my laptop is about to die and I can only handle so much softness. This is unnatural. I feel weird. But to everyone I’ve spoken to this year or has made me laugh when scrolling, thank you. You make tumblr what it is and I probably would have gotten bored and left long ago if it wasn’t for you guys.

[princess-havok]

So about the Dreamcar show

Y’all, so much happened. 

In bullet form for readability/it’s 1AM and I have work in the morning because I’m an adult.

Pre-show

I got there like 45 minutes after doors opened because my days of lining up mega early for shows are over.

That’s a lie

I just had to work til 5 and it was raining all day so I didn’t wanna sit outside anyway

So I walk into the venue, and??? It’s so empty??? Like what the fuck??? I went to the bathroom, which is wayyyyyyy at the back and in the basement, I hate getting to it during packed shows because you CAN’T MOVE. That venue is not safe and there are not enough exits BUT ANYWAY.

When I got back upstairs I went to the merch table and bought a tank top

Warning if you see Dreamcar: it fits weirdly small???

But I love it

Also they didn’t do that thing I hate when bands jack up prices by like $10 because of the conversion rate.

It’s $35 online and I paid $35CAD.

Joke’s on you that’s only like $20US

Help our dollar is a fucking joke

Then I went to the stage and despite the opening band staring imminently I was only two people from the front???

Superet

I mean, I don’t know if I would go seeking out their music but they were really fun and had fantastic energy. The lead singer kept making eye contact with people in the front and it was slightly awkward but also endearing as hell. I kept getting distracted during their set because I decided most of the rest of the band looked like other people

The keyboard player looked so much like Jamison Covington from JamisonParker

Does anyone remember them? They had like one album in maybe 2005 and I loved it

But it’s so emo

Listening to it now is like??? Was my world ever that dark? Damn son.

The drummer looks just like a dude I went to high school with and played in Concert Band with

But it is not.

That dude is a DJ now though

The percussionist lowkey reminded me of what’s his face from Cabin in the Woods... the stoner one. 

Cabin in the Woods is a great movie

Dreamcar

I mean is it any surprise that they’re great live? All of them have been performing for so long so like... they know their shit. But there’s a lot happening all at once, it seems like. You’ll maybe see when I post my video of All Of The Dead Girls once it finishes uploading to YouTube. But I guess it’s partly because Tom, Adrian & Tony are so used to playing together but sometimes it’s like there’s their show happening and then there’s Davey being Davey around them and it is a lot.

Someone yelled “You’re good!” between songs and it got a good laugh out of Davey who was like, “I’m glad you think so???”

Like what an odd thing to say???

The other three have mastered the art of keeping Davey on topic

If he sounds like he’s about to go off on a tangent just start the next song it’s great

“If only that would work during interviews,” I’m sure Jade/Adam/Hunter is muttering to himself in the distance

They covered Don’t Change and it was amazing, I wanted to get a video of it but it was such a different (more upbeat) version I didn’t even clue in on time lmao

During the bridge of Kill For Candy, Davey and I shared a moment during the first “Let it dissolve on your tongue” and it was magical

Post-show

It rained literally the entire day here, so when I walked out of the venue and it wasn’t raining anymore I thought, y’know what, I’m gonna stick around for a bit, try my luck meeting these dudes. But only until 11:00. That’s my cut-off. I’m a responsible adult.

This is a lie

It’s cute that I believed it though

Also it was still raining but it was a very fine mist so it wasn’t that bad

This is also a lie it was terrible and my hair went to shit

There were like 25 people waiting, at the peak of it. After about an hour, some people had left so there were maybe 20 or so. Not bad at all, right? About half of those were No Doubt faithful, who seemed to be a very tight-knit group who all knew each other from various No Doubt events and trips and stuff. They were super nice and -- bonus! -- most of them couldn’t be fucked about Davey. But we did talk about the show, how awesome it was, and the fact that Davey is secretly jacked was mentioned -- not even by me!!! And most of them agreed that a) it should’ve been a longer set and b) they should’ve covered some No Doubt because Davey singing I’m Just A Girl would be delightful.

Somebody made the joke that the guys snuck out past all of us and were probably on the public transit bus that went by

“But then they’ll get to Sherbourne station and get shanked.”

If you know Toronto at all you know that’s probably true

If there was anywhere in this city where a repeat of “what are you gonna do about it, pink shoes?” was gonna go down it’s motherfucking Sherbourne St.

Finally at around 11:15 or so, security & tour management came out and set up a barricade by the bus, telling us all to line up in twos. Ok cool. We did. 

Tom came out first and the orderly line went to shit because he just like, walked right out to chat and take pictures and sign autographs. I was trying to stay near the barricade and missed him entirely. Oops. 

Tony came out next and did the same thing, but actually on my side. I got a picture with him and he signed my ticket.

 Adrian stayed by the barricade but was very chatty with people. I also got a picture and autograph from him.

All of them seemed to like, know some of the No Doubt die hards who were there and I think that’s so cool, they’ve always seemed like this huge, untouchable band to me but they’re so cool with their fans

All three of them got on the bus, and because of the No Doubt fans stepping back I was pretty much at the barricade. The tour manager came back and asked who we were still waiting for so of course were like, obviously Davey. So then came the new instructions:

Single file lineup please (I ended up third, so cool)

No photos

This is 900% ok I’ve seen my pictures with Adrian & Tony I know what I look like

I’ve been standing in the rain for two hours I look like I live in garbage and a family of raccoons have been living in my hair for the winter

No hugs either

Also fine because who honestly wants to hug a bunch of damp strangers???

Just a chat, an autograph, and keep the line moving

Awesome, we’re grown ups, we can do this

Oh shit now I have to think of something to say

So then Davey appears in that long hoodie/cloak... thing... which I SHOULD have asked where he got it because I love it but obviously I think of things to say after the fact, so whatever. He was really chatty and smiling at everyone and it was so nice. The first two conversations happened as I was trying not to awkwardly stare at Davey. I’m not gonna be the one who makes it weird.

This is also a lie

I don’t think I made it weird though

When it was my turn, he asked how I was and I said “amazing” because I was, and the teenage version of me fainted then and there, she was not at all prepared for this moment.

I might’ve rattled off something about how his music, whether AFI or Blaqk Audio or Dreamcar or any other project, has been such a big part of my life for almost half my life now, so thank you and I wouldn’t be the person I am today without it

I don’t think that was weird

It was true, too

“Thank you, I hope that’s a good thing.”

I mean.

Obviously.

So I said it’s absolutely a good thing, thanked him again, and mentioned I would see him in like 3 weeks (!!!) for some AFI shows. 

‘Cause y’know. He’ll remember.

And then I walked back to the subway and went home, 18-year-old me screaming internally.

tl;dr I saw Dreamcar, they were amazing, I finally met Davey Havok after 15 years.

[remembermemorablememories]

Friday, August 17, 2018

post #221

main points:

- struggle with functional test PR, then learned that there’s an infra issue so i just made a new file

- lunch with the team out on the patio

- submit minor label PR fix

- submit PR for updating the mock for a generated file of an RPC call 

- get functional test PR working

- hang out with tiana for a bit (her last work day :o)

- happy hour and ice cream with harvy, roberto, john, tiana and amandy

- wrap up functional test PR, ready to review for monday

- melee with john + mario kart

- uber home, then uber to sam’s place

- meet up with the whole gang!! (hugh, jwoos, diana, sam, ji hwan, several other peeps)

- clubbing at monroe

- trying to go to house party at john’s but then he left so we went elsewhere

- tried to get mcdonald’s but it was closed

- went to chinatown for some sam wo fried noodles and rice (yum)

- uber home and pass out at like 3:30am

(writing this on tuesday august 21, blog posts have been backlogged cause i’ve been busy every day the past five days)

today i:

- woke up at 9am ish. damien went to SF for his last day. karl had to pack/do some stuff so i ubered by myself to work at around 9:20am

- spend some time wrestling with the functional test PR. at some point i asked my mentor why my newly added code was causing the old one to fail (despite the logic being completely separated). there was an infra issue with multiple tests in one file so i just made its own file

- had lunch with the team out on the patio. just chillin

- submitted the minor label update PR for each row. this then unblocked me for selecting rows for the functional test

- submit PR for the generated file from an RPC call. this unblocked me because the mocked generated file now allowed the final row to show

- finally got the functional test working (or so i thought at the time). bumped into tiana. she was walking around the office since it was her last day. we chatted a bit and she took a photo of me and my mentor with her cool polaroid camera. it’s a nice aesthetic. she’s been taking a bunch of those photos and had a huge collection

- went downstairs with roberto, john and tiana to go to happy hour. there was a bunch of ice cream in addition to the usual food. the food was all junk food LOL. corn dogs, sweet potato fries, deep fried bacon mac and cheese... i couldn’t finish all of it cause i felt sick after eating half of it lmao

we just hung around on the patio near the ice cream stands. harvy and amandy shortly joined us afterwards. we were there from 4-5:30pm ish.

- went back upstairs and cleaned up the functional test, preparing it for review on monday. then went to play melee with john until about 7:30pm. we also played the usual mario kart shine thief + one world cup race

- ubered to my place to drop off my backpack and recharge my phone for a bit. then ubered up to sam’s place in SF. i swung by the deli nearby her place to pick up some cider as requested, sandwiches for me and jwoos, sprite and some chips

- met up with jwoos and david outside of sam’s apartment complex, since they also had a similar ETA to me. sam came downstairs to pick us up. and so did diana!! it was nice seeing her again. we went back upstairs and met everyone else (a lot of them were hugh’s friends LOL). i saw hugh too and it was nice seeing him again, i haven’t seen him in like a couple of weeks. we pregamed (i just drank some cider). ji hwan also arrived a bit later and after a while we ubered over to monroe around 10pm in two XLs

- the club was pretty packed. but the music was pretty on point. it was a lot of fun. it was also really humid and sweaty inside with tight space (yikes). jwoos david and i bought some drinks. i got a gin and tonic (cause idk anything else to drink). we had a fun time dancing for about an hour and a half. hugh and some people left to go see moon boots shortly after we arrived. (there was no cover fee to enter so that was nice). i also bumped into shreya on my way out LOL. what are the odds?? 

- we left after diana told us we were going somewhere else to a house party. we ubered to somewhere south of SF to a guy named john’s house. me jihwan and a guy named edwin were in one uber. diana chelsea jwoos sam and david were in another uber. but as we were going up, he was leaving.. LOL. and we didn’t want to randomly crash his suitemates party. we ended up going upstairs to use the bathroom/see what was going on. it was really low key. we also felt like we were intruding cause we knew no one there so... 

we went downstairs and diana wanted to go to another bar. the rest of us wanted to eat LOL. so diana edwin and chelsea went to the bar. david jwoos sam ji hwan and i tried to go to a mcdonald’s down the street. but they were closed (drive thru open only). it was like 1am so i guess that’s fair. we stood in the drive thru trying to get the food but they were closing shop on the drive thru too.. sigh. LOL it was p funny though, five of us trying to stand in the car lane. we looked like really drunk people yelling into the microphone thing (we weren’t that drunk)

after some googling we decided to get some tapas. but once we got there, we realized they weren’t serving food anymore.. rip

- around 2am we decided to uber back into SF to chinatown to a place called Sam Wo chow mein. sam knew this place was still open at this time cause she’d been there previously. the food was pretty good ngl. but it was really oily. lots of MSG lmao. i got some noodle soup. i wish there were more noodles. there was a bunch of meat

- the five of us finished eating around 3am. then jwoos david and i ubered back down. i got dropped off at my place and then just went to sleep around 3:30am. no shower. too tired

the end

overall, a very fun and exhausting day. i feel like this was how our weekends were in new york last summer. this is the first night i’ve been out clubbing this summer and out so late