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#So I'm putting all this in tags because I'd prefer it not get out into wider Tumblr. I pondered even posting it but I think some of y'all#are following the drama and/or praying for my family so I figured I'd post an update. Just pretend there are commas and it's all readable.#Got a hearing date today. February 6th. Now I need to get affidavits and medical records. Not much to do in the way of affidavits because#either he made sure no one saw anything or I made sure. (Shame is a heckuva thing.) I really need the medical records from the assault.#Can't get them because I am currently without ID. I am currently without ID because I have had a beginner's permit for ~10 years now and#those have to be renewed in-person every year. Can't get to DMV to get it renewed because... no car. Can't use Uber because you have to#provide your own car seats and where am I going to put three car seats while I'm at the DMV? Can't use bus because... bus lines.#...it's stressful.#Also I'm still not sure about the theology of all this but it's also impossible not to see the Hand of God in freeing me and the boys from#this man so either God will help me work out the theology of it later or I'll ask Him when I get to Heaven.#Practically speaking I will not ever permit him and the boys unsupervised contact again if I can help it because he WILL neglect them#at best and physically hurt them for his own amusement and/or beat them up because of his temper at worst.#...anyway any and all prayers are appreciated.
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An interlude. What now?
Happens between Empty Prayers and Dreams of Red.
Nemo tries to be serious and Think of the Future. It backfires.
Characters: Dark Urge (Nemo), Enver Gortash, Astarion, Karlach, Wyll, Shadowheart, Gale, Lae'zel.
TW: mentions of cannibalism, questionable way to raise children (Nemo wtf), canon-typical Durge behavior.
Info about Nemo's assassins:
https://www.tumblr.com/maegalkarven/732101148639707136/so-i-actually-created-most-of-the-notable?source=share
"You do realize we all are doomed, right?" The question comes out of nowhere amidst of one of the calmest nights they have. It breaks the feeble illusion of peace right away.
"Now, you don't have to put it like that," Gale tries. "We still have some choices-"
"Blowing yourself up is not a choice," Wyll cuts out, uncharacteristically sour.
"But-"
"No, Gale," Shadowheart agrees. "No more stupid self-sacrifices for the gods who do not deserve that. Besides, you remember what Gortash said? What if you have done as Mystra wanted you to and detonated the orb in the illithid colony, it would turn every parasite-infested person into mindflayer?"
"I'm not sure how much we can trust a word of the former Chosen of Bane."
"Fair," the former Chosen of Shar agrees. "I wouldn't trust him either. But something tells me this time he was telling the truth."
"He also sits just across you, if your memory is that fragile," Gortash comments. "And thank you, not like I was thinking of impending doom and our deaths for every hour of every day now."
"Not like you kickstarted this whole event," Karlach comments.
"And what would you have me to do, let Orin kill Nemo?"
"Well, you could have not tried to conquer the world using the extremely dangerous magical artifact and, you know, the Elder Brain."
"You keep saying that, but I have yet to hear a single idea how to fix it and for us, you know, not die drastically and like fools."
"Everyone always dies like a fool," Astarion comments. "Death is dumb like that."
"If you'd only let me finish," Nemo raises his voice. "And stopped this 'woe are us, we are doomed' crying-"
"We are listening," Wyll tries. "Oh, well, at least I am trying to."
Nemo sends him a grateful look.
"Alright, let's start it anew, you literal bickering children-"
"Hey-"
"Gortash started it-"
"Oh, fuck off-"
"Quiet," and surprisingly, they all quiet down. This is who Nemo is forced to work with these days. Unbelievable.
"We are screwed. This is not me being overly dramatic, this is not me being pessimistic, this is the actual truth we're dealing with. The Elder brain has one stone and if it wasn't breaking out of the hold before - which he was, very much - it's clearly out of it now. Now, the questions why it hasn't turned everyone into mindflayers and why it's playing laying low for now is a mystery, but-â
"It's luring us back to it," Astarion comments. "What? Can't we offer our thoughts too? I didn't know it's One Man show you're having here."
"You have no idea how many people have been stabbed over interrupting him mid speech," Gortash comments. "Me included."
"Oh yeah, well, maybe try to not talk over me, asho-"
"I wasn't talking over you-"
"Just like you aren't doing it now?" Nemo glares at him. "You're lucky I need you alive."
"Thank you oh so kindly, the gracious one-"
"Tsk'va," Lae'zel interrupts the quarrel. "You two desire to tear into each otherâs flesh so much it makes you stupid. Go get the urges out of the system and come back when you're capable of being rational."
This comment, made with intention of calming things down, has rather the opposite effect.
"You're the one to talk," Nemo hisses as his face reddens.
"I do not âdesire to tear into his fleshâ," Gortash argues.
Astarion laughs.
"Yes, and I am not a vampire spawn."
"Can we not fight?" Wyll, an unfortunate voice of reason amidst this chaos.
"Oh, I don't know," Gale smirks. "I rather find it amusing to watch."
"You know what?" Nemo snaps. "Go on, detonate this orb. I'm done with it."
"Now I'm not going to, purposely because you asked me so nicely."
"I fucking hate this family."
"Karlach, you already said that."
"It doesn't mean I hate it any less."
"I miss my children," Nemo suddenly chimes in. "They listened to me."
"Your who?"
"Oh, please," Gortash snorts. "I once saw one of your children stab her brother over something minor."
"It was their brother and it was nothing minor. He took their target, that's just rude."
"I'm sorry," Gale tries. "Can we backtrack now? What children are you talking about now?"
Nemo blinks at them.
"Oh," he exclaims. "My assassins, of course, the ones I personally brought into the fold."
"And the reason you address them as children is because..?"
"They were orphans Nemo picked up from the streets," Gortash mentions. "At least that's what I was told."
"Excuse me, what?" Karlach, indignation flaring with her fire. "You stole children?"
"First of all, it's kidnapped and not stole. Second of all, they came willingly," Nemo scoffs. "And really, do you think they had any other choice? Do you think any good life was waiting for them? I saved their lives."
"You've abducted children into the cult and made them killers," Wyll speaks. "Nemo, this is-"
"Wrong?" He interrupts. "How wrong can it truly be? They would die without me, or better yet, get killed. Do you think there's mercy for a girl who took a life of her stepfather? Whose mother blamed her for the murder even if said stepfather was in dire need of killing?" He pierces Wyll with a sharp stare.
"Do you think Flaming Fists would save a little tiefling boy with too much magic in his blood? Do you think they'd get to the mad crowd in time and protect the boy from it? Do you think they'd even care? Â A tiefling child, an evil child, a hellspawn. No one would miss him, no one would cry for him. And," he smiles and this smile looks poisonous.
"Do you think your honorable father would spare a child whose survival was linked to the deal with the fiend? Do you think he, who exiled his own son, would look at destruction of the House Et'rris, at the only surviving its member, linked to a devil, and help them? Save them?" His voice drops to a low tone.
"How dare you judge me? You were not there to save these children, I was. What did I do but gave them a second chance? What did I do but gave them home? Where else would they go? Who else would feed starving orphans on the streets, Duke Ravengard?" He laughs an ugly, bitter laugh.
"The Council of Four? Don't be ridiculous, they never even looked down to see the low folk struggling. Those children, all those children would die if not for me. From the so-called justice, from an angry mob, from prison, from starvation. I found them, fed them, cared for them. I made them best of the best, the perfect murderers, the perfect shadows of the night. And who can hurt them now, when they're the worst things haunting Baldur's Gate? Who would dare to strike at them but their own? I made them strong."
The stunned, eerie silence falls over the camp.
Then Karlach raises her voice.
"What did you feed them with?"
"This is irrelevant."
"No, it's not."
"It was a good meat: not rotten, not touched by any diseases, I even cooked it-"
"I fed children the human flesh?!" Gale asks in horror.
"Of course you'd assume it was human," Nemo scoffs. "It was elven too, you know. Some dwarf meat, even halfling or tiefling there and there-"
"You did what?!"
"It was that or starving on the streets! And anyway, I was fed humanoid flesh my entire life and I turned out alright-"
Astarion scoots a little closer to Gortash.
"He did not turn out alright," the pale elf whispers, watching the argument rising to new, dangerous heights. "And you knew that, didn't you?"
"What Nemo eats flesh?" Gortash hums. "It wasn't a big secret."
"And what he feeds his...children the same?"
"It's a Cult of Murder," the man shrugs. "One expects some level of atrocities from it."
"That's not the answer."
"That's the one you'll get," Astarion watches Gortash watching Nemo, a small satisfies smile dancing on his lips. "I don't particularly care what he feeds his assassins, only what all of them seem to care very little for table manners."
"So I'm guessing you've met them?"
"Yes."
"...What are they like?"
"Why don't you ask their benefactor that and not the man who saw them once or twice?"
"Because their benefactor is currently in a screaming match with our companions," Astarion's shrugs. "Though he seems to be holding his ground just alright."
Gortash snorts.
"He used to lead fifty or so bloodthirsty murderers and made it look easy," another long, heavy look at Nemo. "He is good at handling people. Bhaal convinced Nemo the best thing a bhaalshapwn can be is a perfect blade, which is a shame, really. Nemo would do wonders in high court; he has enough charisma and intelligence to wrap the nobles around his fingers without them so much as noticing it.â
"It sounds like you admire him," Astarion comments, trying very hard not to feel slighted at that. Of course tyrant admires his nearest in dearest, it was to be expected. And anyway, doesnât Nemo deserve to be admired?
But why does it sit so ill against his skin?
"Of course I admire him," the tyrant replies, not even looking away from the assassin. "He is brilliant. His part in our plans is not to be overlooked; everything came falling apart the moment Orin replaced him. Bhaal might have been content with a mad woman who could not control her urges, but our plan could not. She made a mess of things, ruined several of carefully constructed plans and hadn't even noticed. The amount of people I had to tadpole simply because Orin was acting unwise is-" he sighs. "Where Nemo would just waltz into the room, smile and bullshit his way through everything, Orin made things worse."
Astarion hums.
"I once saw Nemo convince an orthon to kill his minions, then his pet, then himself," he mentions. "So I can easily see him doing that."
"An orthon?" Gortash looks surprised. "Where in the Nine Hells did you find an orthon?"
"In a Gauntlet of Shar," Astarion shrugs. "He made an ill-fitted deal with Raphael and tried to get out of it. Nemo tricked him into false getaway."
Three's a long silence after that.
"Raphael," Gortash speaks slowly, as if tasting the words. "It's been a while since I've heard that name. How did you stumble into him?"
"More like he stumbled into us. He appeared from the thin air, laid heavy on those sweet talks of his and tried to talk Nemo into a deal. Probably still trying, all things considered. I am not sure what exactly he wants from Nemo, but he is insistent."
Gortash grows silent once more.
"I would advise against strikingly any deals with that particular devil," he comments after a pause. "Deals with him are even fouler than the deal with the devil would be expected to be. Raphael is clever; he is patient and knows how to play the game. Worst of all, he is at advantage of knowing Nemo while Nemo does not know him, and in the position where he is holding a grudge against the dear assassin of mine."
Astarion bites down the bitter taste of the way Gortash claims Nemo as his.
This can wait. His questions would not.
"Why would he hold a grudge against Nemo?"
Gortash actually laughs, a short lived and curt sound, but laugh none less.
"Because Nemo has done something Raphael failed to do. Raphael has been lusting after the Crown of Karsus for millennia, but was never able to relieve it from Mephistopheles' vault. Together Nemo and I successfully orchestrated and executed the plan what brought the crown into our hands."
So this is what Raphael wants.
"He is after the crown," Astarion comment. "And he thinks Nemo will be able to get it for him."
Gortash nods.
"And I can't express enough how this is absolutely a thing what cannot happen. Raphael is bad enough without a otherworldly power what is the Crown of Karsus in his claws."
"So," Astarion studies the man closely. "Better the crown in your hands then?"
Gortash smiles.
"Providing what we can get it off Elder Brain first and live," he comments. "But yes."
#empty prayers au#dark urge: nemo#bg3#dark urge x gortash#gortash x durge#lae'zel really said: you want to fuck each other so bad it makes you look stupid#it is like 1 line she has bc I have hard time writing her but isn't she valid for it#nemo is petty bitch but also OKAY-ish stepparent of turned out OKAY-ish 8 children. don't judge him he did his best#what's a lil cannibalism in the family#nemo saying: 'i was fed flesh and turned out alright' the same way ppl say 'i was beat up and turned out alright' like sweetheart. baby#you didn't turn alright#you're so not alright it's tragic#girl who killed stepdad is clotilda#the tiefling boy is vivias#he's also the brother some assassin stabs#i wrote 'brother' and then realized vivias is the only boy nemo adopted so#sorry bby#the assassin stabbing him over a kill is writt#they're a bitch and I love them so much#gortash not mentioning a thing about maybe knowing raphael...dude I see what you're doing#also everyone desires the crown of Karsus...EVERYONE#Gortash's new goal is to get crown of Karsus for himself now ESP after he found out Raphael is trying to talk Nemo into giving it away#shadowheart who probably ate humanoid flesh several times in the course of her life bc it's shar's thing too: *is suspiciously quiet*#astarion: nemo talked an othon into killing all his allies and then himself#gortash: nice!
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How does Catholicism work in the Black Clover universe? I donât think weâll ever get an answer about this but what is a God in a world of magic? People coming back from the dead? Walking on water? This is normal.
#I really wished this was fleshed out#from what we can see the Catholicism in bc are just the sisters of the cloth and some prayer#also since Asta grew up in a catholic setting#has that made his relationship with liebe strained in any way#and if not liebe then what about his family back at the church#black clover#black clover anime#mention of religion#religion mention
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thinking about Her in these trying times. is she still alive? if she's alive I need a scene between her and nat more than i need air. did she die in the intervening years? did she die while they were in the wilderness?? i genuinely don't know what would be worse but i need to know. I NEED TO SEE HER.
#kit speaks#yellowjackets#yellowjackets spoilers#we don't even know her first name but i'm obsessed#like jeez you lose your entire family in a plane crash (including your distant husband) except 19 months later one of your sons comes back#and he's haunted and says little prayers to himself and starts doing drugs and there's nothing you can say or do for him#and you're pretty sure he ate his brother your son out there but you don't Know that and how can you deal with that???
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I have this morbid idea, for 616 Marc to spread his "madness".
Like his new friends? I keep seeing how much they mirror Marc's own history of finding a purpose. And I have this funny prompt where it affected the familial relationship of all of them.
It's a weird turn, where things went to a bit dramatic. There is no magic or space mumbo jumbo. It's a bit more grounded than my previous posts.
Warning, it's a bit...not exactly hunky dory. It's actually pretty bad in a way. I'm weird like that.
Badr tried to stop Marc since it clear that Khonshu is not happy at both of them. But Marc roped him to ignore Khonshu's orders. This made Badr uneasy but he trusts his brother's word more, so he donned the suit again. Until he keeps falling on his face for no reason and the statue in his office suddenly cracks and exploded. Showing that Khonshu is not pleased with him even more.
Now he got a full-on mental breakdown and end up choosing to go to Wakanda and get some spiritual training from the head priestess of Bast.
T'challa noticed that Khonshu is acting more and more like how Bast would act so he contacted the head Priestess in his home, but she refused to leave. Saying that if they truly want her help, then they should put the effort to actually seek her than have everything given in a platter like they are babies.
Marc is still in denial about Khonshu firing them and is a bit upset that Badr left. Blaming it on Khonshu.
Reese's own studies start to get compromised as she is get more and more worried about Marc, and her parents start questioning her devotion to Marc. She doesn't realize as she is getting more and more distant from them. Her family chose to respect her privacy and they didn't say anything since Marc seams to be good for her.
At least, at the beginning.
Now they are noticing Reese barely stays in the house anymore and they can feel this uneasiness every time she leaves.
Reese fights back, defending that she is much safer with Marc. This results in a rift with her family.
Her father eventually got targeted by one of the angry gangs Marc pissed off. And Reese end up getting kicked out when she lost her temper and attacked her mother when the woman blamed Marc for getting her husband's legs broken.
Her mother though, didn't turn to a vampire. No one noticed as they are too busy trying to stop the bleeding from Reese's claws. This is another one of Khonshu's doing, but he didn't show himself nor demand that Reese's mother become a priestess. Just reversed the vampirism.
They just wave it off as being very lucky.
Reese eventually moved back with her parents. But there is a permanent cold wall as her parents now see her as less of a daughter and more of a stranger who can kill them anytime.
The only reason they accepted her back is that they Marc talked to them, and expresses his disappointment at them for making Reese sad. Though it's more like an intimidating threat since he is in a bad mood and is subconciously finding anything to get angry at. Even if he tries to be polite, there is an undertone of uncontrollable anger there.
To which Reese's actual father ask why Marc is acting more like Reese's father now, expressing how distant and disconnected Reese have become ever since she started working for Marc. Almost as if she don't see them as her parents anymore.
They tried to explain the attacks, threats and dangers they have been experiencing as someone manages to trace them after they saw Reese staying with Marc for months.
Marc tries to assure that he will do anything to protect them, but they don't believe him anymore. Especially after the news that he is no longer Moon Knight and don't have the protection of a god.
Eventually, they decided to move away as it is too dangerous for them anymore. And that Marc seems to be doing a better job of being a parent to Reese, so they just gave up.
They explain that Reese can go with them or stay with Marc. She chooses Marc and expresses how disappointed she is on her family for choosing to move. Calling them cowards.
Reese's parents remind her that they are ordinary people, not mercenaries and have no knowledge on how to fight. And as much as they love New York, they will just end up dead. Reese tries to reason that Marc won't let it happen, but then they point out that they can see that Reese is starting to have this semi-blind devotion on Marc. One that they are very worried about, but they know that they can't win against the Midnight Mission. And that they can't always depend on Marc for protection all the time like he is some god
It ends in a fight, but Reese was suddenly blown a few feet behind before she did a fatal blow on both her parents.
Reese then explode on how they are useless, ungrateful sh*ts. And how Marc is way better as he actually did something to help, giving her a job and helping her with her new powers, unlike her parents who only acted distant and expressed disappointment.
There is now a silent agreement that they will never talk to each other again as she pretty much rejected her birth family and chose a new one.
Then she realizes what she said to her parents, and greatly regrets it. To cope with that, Reese practically devotes all her energy to Marc. Mostly cursing her parents for not understanding Marc the same way she does, while trying very hard to not hate or blame herself. For both attacking her parents and saying those things.
Edit:She eventually dropped put of college to work at the Midnight Mission fulltime. Moving into the hotel, refusing to set foot on her old now empty house that only gives her bad memories of a life she left behind. And like Marc, she buries herself in doing Marc's work until it is starting to weight down on her as she refuses to make amends with her past.
And since she doesn't have the backing of a god, (or one she can just put all the blame on since she willingly accepted Marc's help by her own accord) she got in too far with a job that is too dangerous, went full Vampire crazy as a last resort, and eventually failed a mission that got more innocent people killed.
This mirror's Marc turning away from his birth father Elias and picking Khonshu as his new "father".
Soldier's mother's illness is getting worst, he copes by attaching himself to Marc more and more. Pretty much to a point of co-dependence that is getting eerily similar to Marc's unhealthy dependence on Khonshu.
He eventually decided to try and turn his mother to a vampire to stop the cancer. Though Marc told him it is a horrible idea, but this did not stop his anxiety. If anything, it made it worst since as a vampire, he is practically immortal while his mortal family/friends will all die and leave him. A fact that Soldier is still having a hard time accepting, and chooses to ignore it as much as he can.
By burying himself on Marc's work to forget his problems, just like Marc himself.
It reached a point that he start slowly having suicidal tendencies when he would rescue others. Since he can no longer die like a normal person, he would chase after death recklessly at the guise of altruistic behavior so that one day, he will die, be free of this curse that is immortality, and be at peace like his mortal family.
His mother eventually starts to ask if Soldier will keep staying with Marc, as she can feel herself dying and wants to spend the last moments of her life with her son. Soldier though, have grown way, way too dependent on Marc's presence and would leave before he got an emotional panic attack, saying that he can't leave Marc alone to suffer. When in actuality he is the one suffering inside as he stays further away from his emotional rock called "Marc Spector". That and he is still feeling guilty at the fact that his mother is dying while he is practically immortal.
Soldier's mother does explain that she is glad that Soldier have someone to look up to, but it seems that it is only creating a bigger rift between them as while Soldier was a henchman, he wasn't emotionally attached to his old boss. But now he is an emotionally dependent acolyte, and his mother can see it as her grandfather used to be a fanatical member of a doomsday cult in the mid-west.
She easily noticed that Soldier would sound like her grandfather when the man would talk about Marc. And this only alarms her even more as her grandfather once tried to kill his wife to "save" her. All she can do is pray to anyone listening, that her son will be safe, loose his unhealthy dependency and come back to his senses.
Someone is actually listening in the shadows.
Tigra's son starts to notice his mother's growing fixation on Marc, and feels a bit bothered at how her mother is trying to push Marc to be a new father figure to him. Even bringing the boy to the Midnight Mission one night to visit. William is just too polite to voice it out, but he can feel something wrong in the air inside the building, like someone telling him to leave. Yet everyone tries to act like it fine.
William is intuitive enough to see that they are all lying.
He is also seeing less and less of his own mother as she spends more time taking care of Marc.
Tigra hopes to get a solid relationship with Marc but it just won't reach that point of perfect commitment so she keeps trying and refuses to give up. But she doesn't see that she is slowly starting to leave her son behind in her endeavours.
William also tries to investigate about his father more, but Tigra changes the subject and tries to get him close to Marc. To keep them distracted as Marc is starting to get more anxiety attacks as the truth starts to officially sink in.
Eventually, William got tired of his mother constantly pushing Marc that he starts to cry at night. Wishing to have his old mother back, before Marc got her attention more. Creating this emotional rift where he asks to be dropped off at the daycare instead than stay at home. Hiding everything behind a smile but slowly breaking inside.
One night when he got tired of his mother pinning on Marc almost to a delusional degree. Even he is starting noticing this and decided to wandered into the streets just to get away. Deliberately getting lost for hours since he knows that his mother is too focused on Marc the entire night to even call anymore. Which got even worse when Marc died as Tigra practically became distant towards Wiliam. Choosing to be silent to avoid lashing on to her own son. But to William, it's like his mother was replaced with someone else.
William even nearly getting targeted by thugs. Said thugs would suddenly find themselves sucked backwards by a strong wind and get impaled with some metal rod stick that just so happens to be on the right spot.
William then found himself wandering back on his home unscathed, even though he really didn't know where he is going and was just following the lit streetlamps, unaware that he was nearly attacked.
Later in the day, street officers went to fix the streetlamps that were actually broken for 3 days straight.
#rants#marvel comics#mcu#marvel#crossover#fanfiction#Just random ideas#It's actually depressing now that I think about it#Tragic really#Don't know it I might expand this but I just want to get it out.#Moon Knight#Midnight Mission#Fic ideas#This is actually inspired by IRL cults#And a bit of my own family's experience#Yes there was a a cult in my country#And it wasn't the most nice one#TBH I read the run but I just keep seeing the dangerous implications of Marc's attempt on a cult.#Like sure We see how good it is on the team#But how about their families? I want to see it all go down in flames#Congrats 616 Marc you helped others#now they are just as messed up#codependent with a twisted sense of justice and horrible family relationships as you#Khonshu cameo#though he isn't the focus#more in the background secretly keeping everyone alive.#Listening to the prayers of everyone else and how they are indirectly badly affected.#I'm actually thinking about a post from his perspective#Khonsu
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#i still havent been able to get the pic of my entire family celebrating the holidays together out of my head.#my parents ruined every christmas they could. every holiday. every birthday. everything. there could be nothing special#w/o my dad calling my mother a fat pig or my mom interrupting his dinner prayer to call him a lying hypocrite.#w/o police getting involved&having to explain why my dad had my mom in a headlock or my mom had punched him in the face.#we could have nothing bc their need for misery outweighed their desire to give their children any fucking joy#every fucking time.#but i have to sit here&wonder if im in the wrong bc im being gaslit into missing a family+memories we all know damn well#never fucking happened. i blacked out half my fucking childhood&still know thats true.#i have to wonder if maybe-- just maybe-- they would actually apologize for everything they did if i ever called or wrote.#if maybe they would welcome me back w/o expecting an apology From Me.#but then i remember how the first thing my mother said when getting in touch w me after two years was how disappointed she was in me#for not thinking to tell anyone in the family that i was homeless. how selfish i was for it.#how she only contacted me after getting my email address-- the same one ive had since high school-- from family#bc shed been crying to our entire extended family about how worried she was about me so they managed to find my gofundme#¬ a single person in my family donated to it-- but they all had a lot to say about it. didnt they.#&somehow i know that theres nothing for me w any of them. nothing at all but more disappointment.#&photos of all of them smiling that i have to remind myself are definitely not real.#bc how many of those exact photos had i been in? no matter what the answer is i dont remember a single one being real.
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its literally so insane that my brother has like parents who arent young like thats insane... they were 34 when they had him... they were 20 when they had me which like isnt Insanely young but its still young yk. young enough that ppl r like Omg yr parents r so young ! when i say how old they are... but theyre gonna be 40 next year WHICH IS CRAZY. 40 year old parents hes like a kid from a disney channel show.
#and that mf lives in a house my parents own. Not for long lmaooo anyways.#<- bc my parents r prolly gonna lose the house bc my dad lost his job bc he assaulted somebody again. AWESOME FAMILY ! but anyways.#but its crazy. n my mom has been planninh a disneyland trip 4 ages... why r my family becoming like. almost middle class its scary ... guys#go back 2 being poor im scared and also thats so unfair that they waited until like a few months b4 i moved out to start marginally#getting their shit together. go girl give me NOTHING !#but like its crazy how different our lives will be. like my parents relationship i Highly fucking doubt its gonna get better LMAO theyll#probably get divorced once they lose the house. god willing at least. but yk...#and hes got like Adult siblings.... me in talking abt myself. i left the house the same year he started kindergarten. its insane. and im#not gonna be there to see him grow up. Kills my .#i do like. idk. i want 2 try n stay out here but i also. sometimes i do judt think abt going back home just so i cn be closer to him#but. yk. thats not rly feasible rn. so.#hopefullyyy next year theyll all be able 2 come up n visit me for the summer... since ill have my own place#my like Prayer is that maybe in a couple years him n annie and lamp could start spending the summer with me.... thatd be rly cool#lamp idk what their plans r i think theyre gonna stay down there#weve talked a bittt abt them moving up here and it seemed like theyd enjoy that ? but theyre rly close with annie as well so idk...
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2023, you gotta chill!?!
#wtf 2023#I really really hope Jeremy renner survives this horrible accident#jeremy renner#my thoughts and prayers goes out to his family
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today is the actual funeral. last night was the first time iâd said a Hail Mary in years.
i saw his body. iâve got to hand it to the enbalmers. i saw him and i thought he was going to breathe. i thought he was going to turn to me and ask if i could get him a cigarette.
i miss him. i barely knew him and i miss him so bad.
#i was listed as one of his great grandchildren. did you know that? i was listed as part of the family.#i always feel out of place in this town in this city this family and he made me feel like home#i miss you grandpa. and iâll miss you every day.#i think⊠i think i need to go back to church. even if i only say a few prayers and donât listen to the sermon. i donât know-#if itâs what he wouldâve wanted. but iâll go anyways.
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@buddhistmusings something I thought would be interesting for you to read and perhaps touch on.
Before Williams was executed, his attorney, Tricia Rojo Bushnell, issued the below statement: âTonight, Missouri will execute an innocent man, Marcellus âKhaliifahâ Williams. The victimâs family opposes his execution. Jurors, who originally sentenced him to death, now oppose his execution. The prosecutorâs office that convicted and sentenced him to death has now admitted they were wrong and zealously fought to undo the conviction and save Mr. Williamsâ life. More than one million concerned citizens and faith leaders implored Governor Parson to commute Marcellusâs death sentence. Missouri will kill him anyway. âThat is not justice. And we must all question any system that would allow this to occur. The execution of an innocent person is the most extreme manifestation of Missouriâs obsession with âfinalityâ over truth, justice, and humanity, at any cost."
Edit: he was a poet.
#cw death#tw death#reading this case years before didnt stress me out because i genuinely thought with everything coming to light#with dna. officers. jurors. victims family etc that he would finally be free and live the rest of his life to the best after suing the state#how fucking horrible that the victims family and the mans family will continue to suffer with injustice#prayers to this man đ
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i just finished reading the world according to garp and oh my god. what a book! so now i immediately have to read everything else john irving has ever written
#like genuinely that was one of the best most beautiful books iâve ever read#i originally only bought it because iâd been looking for his book a prayer for owen meany#(which i wanted to read because the jimmy eat world song goodbye sky harbor is based on it)#and couldnât find it ANYWHERE. but then i saw this and of course iâd heard of it before#so i decided to try it while i look for a copy of the other one. and actually i had to wait a little to read it#because i was already reading like four other books. but i read that first section and i was immediately hooked#and so i tortured myself waiting to read it for like two weeks#anyway i think itâs possibly changed my life. certainly my ideas about writing#and i did manage to find a copy of that other book i wanted in the meantime so yay!#as soon as iâve recovered from garp (which honestly may take a whileâi sobbed through the last like 200 pages) iâm going to start it!#itâs these kinds of books that always have such an impact on me i think: weird families full of eccentric people who love each other so much#books that are really bursting with life and with love like my family and other animals by gerald durrell#also books that make me cry thatâs an easy one#but hooooly shit i didnt realise this book was SAD? i thought it was a comedy!#i was wholly unprepared to read THAT chapter on the train out of nowhere!#i already loved it before that happened and wouldve given it five stars but the rest of the book just made it an instant favourite
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I'm never forgetting the Palestinian babies that were left to starve to death then rot in their beds by the IOF.
I'm never forgetting the Palestinian doctors surrounded by bodies of dead children begging the world to stop the slaughter.
I'm never forgetting the Palestinian children who held a press conference in English to beg the world to stop murdering them because they want to live.
I'm never forgetting the Palestinian Priest who said "We will not accept your apology after the genocide" to the world.
I'm never forgetting the Palestinian Imam who used the speakers of the Mosque, not to call people to prayer but to call out to God while the world around them was burning from American supplied Israeli bombs.
I'm never forgetting the grandfather who held his dead grandchild in his arms. Or the father carrying the remains of his two children in plastic shopping bags. Or the mother holding her dead child in a shroud. Or the father sitting among the rubble after he lost his whole family. Or the girl trapped under a broken building begging for people to save her family first. Or the boy who cried when he saw his brother alive. Or the girl who asked if she was still alive after being pulled from the rubble. Or the boy who carried the remains of his brother in his backpack. Or the old man the IOF used for a photoshoot before they shot him dead after getting pictures. Or the little boy wearing plastic gloves to pick up the remains of his family. Or the graves desecrated. Or the body of that small baby girl left alone in a tent because no one knew who she was or if her family was alive, small and alone and not one person who knew her name to bury her. Or the young boy who was shot in the street while his sister watched from the window. Or the men and boys who were stripped naked in winter. Or those tortured. Or those made to stand in open graves. Or the people who were raped by IOF soldiers. Or Palestinian workers kidnapped by the IOF and then labeled with wristbands, each one reduced to a number, then made to walk back to Gaza to be killed in the world's largest open air concentration camp. Or the people of Gaza starving because Israeli Zionists are blocking aid trucks. Or the Israelis dancing and celebrating the death of Palestinians. Or the lies spread by Zionists and their supporters. Or the people profiting off the oppression and deaths of Palestinians. Or the people of the West Bank being killed or kidnapped by the IOF. Or old woman who was older than the creation of the terror state of "Israel" who was shot by snipers for saying that. Or the Israelis dressed up as Palestinians to enter a hospital and kill three Palestinians in their beds. Or every single Palestinian currently kept in an Israeli prison. Or the journalists, doctors, poets, men, women, children, and the unborn all massacred. Or the fact that WCNSF exists now. Or the woman who refused to wash the blood from her hands. Or the dead, unburied and unmourned.
I'm never forgetting those who chose silence in the face of a genocide.
I may not know all their names but I will not forget the over 30,000 Palestinians dead. Or the over 60, 000 people hurt. Or the unknown number of people missing, still lost under the rubble. Or the 12,000 children slaughtered. An entire generation crippled or murdered.
I will never forget these things when Palestine is free.
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the house i grew up in was a little bit of a fixer upper. for the first 19 years, my dad just sort of slowly fixed it, but pretty early on in college, he came into a large amount of cash and decided to just do the whole thing at once. so he rented a different house for like, 2 months that was just a block down from us, and then got a bunch of contractors to fix original house ASAP. it was kind of crazy, but it compressed many years of work into like, three months.
the sitting in a new house for three months was actually pretty fun. and i shouldnt really complain at all (staying at home while in college is a sweet deal)
but.
but. my parents are fairly hard of hearing, and their bedroom in the old house was in the furthest possible annex from everyone else. wheras in the rental it was just in the middle of the house. so without going into details, i was extremely aware that my parents were having sex like, eight times a day. my dad had just retired and i guess they were celebrating, which is great i guess, having parents that really like each other is way better than the alternative, but also, it did make me envy their deafness. i kept headphones on for so long that year i got literal ear calluses.
at the same time, the house my buddy from the shoe incident grew up in flooded. turbo flooded. they burst like, two pipes at once and the damage was so severe they had to redo all the flooring and all the drywall. his family actually had homeowners insurance, which is either incredible or suspicious for a family that used the drained pool in their backyard to store rusty scrap metal. so insurance was handling the work, but in the meantime, they were crammed into a very small hotel room space. we did the math on it then, it averaged about 80 square feet a person.
so one day i got home, and i was chilling, and then six rolled around, and apparently six o'clock was sex o'clock because my parents decided to flex their cardio. i grabbed my headphones and prayed that god would do for me what he did for beethoven, but that failed to work, and then seven rolled around and my parents were still at it, which again, very impressive, but was pushing me to swap out judas for mozart in those prayers. there's a definitive point where you stop praying to be deaf and instead pray that god could take you to a nice field and pop you like a gore-balloon.
i was about five minutes away from that point when my friend called me and basically said i have been stuck in a 500 square foot space with 6 people and i didn't have many marbles to start but what few i had are gone. please. if we are friends, if we were ever friends, take me out of here just for a moment.
and i was still pretty mad at him, but i had pity on the poor guy. also helped that i was desperate to leave the house. so i drove the chickenshitmobile to the hotel and i picked him up, and then we did our normal hangout activity, which was go to food city and buy produce. his normal house was, on a good day, nasty, and his backyard was, as i stated before, mostly used to store mosquito larvae and rusty metal, so what we'd always done before was just walk to the grocery store a half block away and leer at vegetables.
so we did that and it was like old times again. they had some radishes that were expired, so i could buy like, literally an entire grocery bag of them for about $5. so i did. i really like radishes. he got a coconut because he liked fruit and beating things with hammers.
which probably would've been great except we didn't have a hammer, so instead we spent about 30 minutes stomping itike it owed us money. when it finally cracked we cheered like we just got the winning touchball at the superdome and then he ate some of the flesh, and i ate some of the radishes, and we admired the black, starless sky of the city before i took him back to his hotel room.
and then we got pulled over.
i forgot to turn my lights on because the street all around the food city was ludicrously well lit. so it went from being pretty bright, to pretty bright and flashy, then i pulled into a parking lot and a cop came to ask us for IDs which is where everything went to shit:
iâd forgotten my license at home.Â
the cop was was actually kind of chill about it - he said he could get by with just an address. except i did not know my address. i hadn't memorized the new one yet. so i told the cop, my house is getting remodeled, i don't know my address right now. and then he went to my friend, and my friend said the exact same thing. house getting remodeled, staying somewhere else, no address, sowwwwwwy.
now the cop genuinely didn't know what to do. he went back to his car, and i was stressed that i was about to get into HUGE trouble so i started eating the radishes and my buddy started eating more of his coconut, and we actually managed to eat like a quarter of both before the cop came back. we ate enough produce that he could smell something weird in the air, and he asked what the smell was, and i said radishes, and my buddy said coconut, and the cop said which, and then we produced a large bag of droopy radishes and an absolutely brutalized coconut, and the cop was just like
so my buddy tried explaining how he was sharing a 500 square foot apartment with 6 people and wanted a fruit he could fight with power tools, and i tried explaining how i'd actually tried buying my parents like, board games and puzzles and stuff but nothing worked - the only thing my parents seemed to like doing right now was each other, and we both went on long enough and pathetically enough that the cop eventually went:
ok. stop.
and we stopped.
and he said do you know why i pulled you over?
and i said, because of my headlights, and my friend (who is hispanic) and the cop both looked at me like like i was the dumbest person in the entire world. and then the cop said no. that's why i'm allowed to pull you over. i checked your car because this neighborhood has a terrible sex trafficking problem, and i pull over every car i can to make sure no one is buying or selling sex. and you two are obviously doing neither. now i could give you, like, four tickets right now, but that would do nothing to make this area safer, so just turn your lights on, go home, drive safe, and try to be less stupid in the future.
and i said okay but i was thinking, you know, damn, this is just how i live man, i don't have a hidden third gear i can shift into. people can't just get smarter because it would be convenient. it's always convenient to be smart. i am literally trying my best.
but i didn't say anything because i was, slowly, learning how to filter what i said. instead i nodded and the cop left then i dropped my buddy off, and the last thing he said was said he owed me for responding to his SOS. I said he owed me for a lot of things, and he agreed that was true. then i drove home with my lights on, 5 under the speed limit, and arrived to a peaceful quiet home. I couldâve wept with relief but instead I went to bed.
the relief was short lived. i was woken up at 6 am by my parents. i swore, and then i prayed, and when i did not explode, i swore again. then i got up to make breakfast before my first class.
#babylon-lore#anecdotes#funny stories#the second dumbest traffic stop of my life#the first happened on a date with my wife#and it's a pretty good story#i#ll get around to that one eventually#like its not shoe story good but it's a funny little incident
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summary: clan leader!gojo needs a favor from your clan but as the leader you refuse, so he proposes to give you a child since your husband is unable to.
"and what am i to do when the child comes out with a white head of hair and blue eyes?"
âif that happensâŠâ he undoes the knot that holds your kimono together and pushes the material down your arms with no resistance from you, ââŠthen iâll kill your husband myself and marry you.â
nsfw ahead cw: historical au, infidelity, pregnancy, creampie, child birth, satoru is pathetically in love. featuring samurai bodyguard geto and toji.
âi thought we had solved all our business with the gojo clanâ your husband says from the door he leans on.
âand i didâ you emphasize the i since the head of your clan is you and only you went to the clan meetings that got things solved. you tapped your lips a little bit more to place the reddish pigment looking at the mirror, âbut satoru summoned this meeting and gave no details.â
âsatoru huh?â your husband points, not letting go unnoticed the fact you used his first name without formalities.
âall rightâ you take one step back checking if your kimono is proper, âsee you tonightâ you peck his lips lightly to not ruin the tint on yours and proceed to the carriage outside.
for years the gojo clan and yours avoided each other due to some very old beef that no one remembers or even was alive when it happened, so when your mother passed and you assumed as the new head you soon decided to reach out to make peace with the current head of the rival clan and a friendly relationship was restored. more often than not you two met, sometimes with other clan members or even other clans when necessary, but today gojo insisted on being just the two of you.
toji, your bodyguard, opens the carriage door when you arrive and give you his hand for you to step out.
to avoid any issues the place of the meeting was always the temple middle way your residences. from time to time your families attended the prayers there, thatâs when your husband saw satoru for the first time.
âwhereâs his wife?â he asked the first time you pointed the white-haired man as the clan head after you made peace.
âhe doesnât have one.â
âfiancĂ©e then?â
âi donât think soâ you both watched discreetly as he greeted the monks.
âi find that quite odd. what about the black-haired man?â he pointed to geto, gojoâs bodyguard, âcould they be involved romantically?â geto leaned to whisper something to his master, a little bit too close if you might add, a few more inches and his lips would be touching satoruâs ear. his romantic life was no business of yours but you didnât like the idea of him having any partners, didnât seem right, though deep down you knew it was very unlikely for a handsome man like him to be alone. both men somehow found your curious gaze.
âgetoâ you greet the known bodyguard as you enter the temple, and he bows to you, your bodyguard nods at him as well and youâre guided to the secret room.
the conversation went on for almost an hour, satoru served you tea when he noticed you finished yours, which was unusual for a clan head to do such a mundane task but he always insisted no servant join on your private meetings. you always thought he was particularly paranoid about spies, but that suspicion was dismissed when you had your first meeting with other clan heads and he didnât oppose the people that stayed in the back of the room waiting for their masterâs orders.
âsatoru we went over this on the last meeting, why am i here?â you are getting impatient, satoru always seemed relaxed when he was at the temple like itâs the one place people donât come to him with problems, so he tended to do things without any rush at all.
âso impatientâŠâ he smirks, âi was getting to the point but fine. i need your doctors for a few weeks.â
because of the many wars and the necessity to heal mainly the samurai your clan became specialized in healing techniques and remedies instead of combat.
âis someone injured?â you raised your eyebrow, it wasnât likely for satoru to ask for something like this when he couldâve sent a letter.
âno. but we are expecting a conflict soon andââ
âlet me stop you there satoruâ you raised your hand and for a second you saw a glimpse of annoyance cross his features, âwe donât get involved with battles anymore, the healers go through extensive training and i canât risk losing them in battle.â
âso instead of putting their knowledge into practice you rather keep them locked in a room reading books?â
âthey are busy with research at the momentâ you raise your chin unwilling to budge on the matter.
âis that so?â he tilted his head smiling âand how many people does it take to figure out your husband is infertile?â
you widened your eyes, this is way too personal of a matter for someone else, especially another clan head, to know.
on the other side of the door, geto and toji guarded the room, they were close enough to listen to the conversation and without turning his head geto looked at toji with his eyebrow raised, to which toji only nodded confirming the rumors.
âyouâre not the only one with little birds across territories, sweetheartâ his smile only seems to grow.
âthat is no business of yours. besides, lending you my healers will only harm my clan and, as i said, put them at unnecessary riskâ you managed to find your composure back and avoid the infertility topic.
âdonât you trust i have the best warriors? you seemed to when we came to your aidâ he reminded a time you asked for their men.
âi paid for that.â
âand what makes you think i wonât?â
âwe donât need money.â
âiâm not talking about moneyâ he drops the volume of his voice.
âlisten, satoruââ you rise to your feet sensing the tone of this conversation is off.
âiâm listening, for a very long time iâve been listeningâ he rises as well and takes a few steps in your direction, âyou know what i listen to? the rumors about your family threatening to make your brother head of the clan if you donât bear an heir soon.â
you take a step back.
âor the resources youâve been spending to research a treatment for your husband. tell me, darling, can he even get it up for you?â he is too close now, you can see all the details of his insanely blue eyes.
âheâ thatâs not a problemâ you accidentally confess.
âof course itâs not, look at youâ his finger brushes your cheek and the touch makes you burn under your skin, âi could give you a childâ he lowers his head to your ear, running his lips on it, âa healthy, smart, beautiful childâ he presses his hand on your belly over the thick material of your clothes, âand it wouldnât even be an effortâ he presses his hardened member on your hip.
âand what am i to do when the child comes out with a white head of hair and blue eyes?â you look into his eyes challenging him to a solution.
âif that happensâŠâ he undoes the knot that holds your kimono together and pushes the material down your arms with no resistance from you, ââŠiâll kill him myself and take his place as your husband.â
you gasp, not expecting such an answer from the man you always watched trying to find a way to avoid violence.
satoru kisses your jaw then your cheek and when he gets close to your lips you turn your head, your conscience only now, in this intimate act, attacking you.
âheâs not fulfilling his dutyâ he whispers, letting go of the knot on his kimono, taking your hand and putting it on his chest. you open your eyes, not even aware you had closed them, and see his sculpted torso, so close to you, so warmâŠ
âitâs not your fault, canât you see?â he raises your chin, âit wasnât meant to be, unlike usâ you know heâs just telling you what you want to hear, but in his voice everything made sense.
âyouâll seeâ he picks you up and lowers his body with you back to the mat in the middle of the room, his kimono is still around his arms while yours was forgotten somewhere else, leaving only the very thin, dress-like, white undergarment that pretty much showed everything.
satoru lowers his head to your chest, his tongue wetting your nipple over the material, âi bet youâll become even prettierâ he replaces your breast with his hand, big and hot, and goes to the other nipple, âwith your breasts heavy and a big bellyâ he sucks on you, hardly, you put your hand over your mouth.
satoru raises your legs over his shoulders, âyour feet will get tiredâ he kisses the inner thigh, âbut youâll still come and see meâ you thought it sounded like a question, it was a statement.
his head goes down, as he kisses your folds your back arches, he licks a stripe ending on your clit and flickering it.
satoru starts to lose himself, he gets too intoxicated by you, almost forgetting time is running against him here. he doesnât have much longer until your bodyguard gets suspicious and calls for you, and by the way your hand is tight against your mouth he doubts youâll be able to give a proper response.
he wants to make you cum before he shoots his load, suguruâs intel told him you asked one of the doctors if the woman needed to come to increase the chances. it doesnât take much medical knowledge to interpret that question.
you cum on his tongue pulling him out of his dreams where he imagined himself doing that every night after those boring fucking meetings he has to attend at every slight inconvenience in his clan.
âitâs gonna be okay, just relax for meâ he pushes his length slowly before you get the chance to see his size. you whisper his name behind your hand and he canât stand not seeing your whole face, so he takes your hand out of the way and kisses your wet lips pushing his tongue and swallowing your moans as he goes deeper and starts to pick a pace.
satoru holds back a curse, reminding himself heâs in a sacred place and although anyone would say thatâs ironic given what youâre doing in the temple he would argue thatâs even more sacred than what most people prayed for.
you start to feel his weight down on you as he trusts get sloppier, heâs still kissing you, holding your lips with his when he twitches and fills your insides, in your drunk mind you think itâs so much more than what youâre used to.
after he catches his breath he pushes himself up and out of you, you allow yourself to close your eyes for a brief moment but you open them wide again when satoru pushes his cum back into you with his finger, âkeep it deep and warm for me, yes?â
one hour later you pass through the door your bodyguard slides open for you to enter your chambers. on the way there you realized thereâs no chance he and geto didnât grasp on what was happening inside the room.
âtoji?â you call before he can close the door and go to his personal room, he stops, indicating he listens although he doesnât respond with the formality others usually do, âi trust you wonât share with anyone what happened todayâ you speak firmly looking the tall man behind you over your shoulder, his scar stretches slightly with his smirk, the man bows and closes the door.
they said it was a road accident, the horse got spooked and ran, by the time they found it there was no rider so they searched your husband and found his body down the mountain.
the ritual was long, you wore the traditional widow clothing, accepting the kind words of the clan members and the prayer of the monks. though you really were sad, all this pity was making you sicker thanâŠ
âat least you didnât have kids, no child deserves to grow up with a dead fatherâ an old lady says to comfort you while holding your hands.
âexcuse meâ you turn around walking slowly to not raise suspicions and as soon as it is just you on the other side of your home you bend your torso and throw up all youâve eaten before the funeral.
you cough and when a tissue enters your field of vision you immediately take it and clean your mouth.
you feel your stomach empty but the light volume below it reminds you of whose fault it is.
you raise with the tissue on your lips to say thank you and the sight of the white-haired man makes you choke.
âshh, itâs okay, iâm here as an ally, to give my condolences to a friend in griefâ thereâs absolutely no seriousness in his tone.
âwhat about the war?â you ask through heavy breathing.
âthat was childâs play, donât worry, your healers will return safe and sound in a few daysâ he puts his hand on your shoulder to calm you down, you do.
satoru takes a second to drop his sight to your belly, it has been a month since your last encounter, and by your sensitive stomach he knows that one time was enough for you to get pregnant.
âdo you think you can hide it for another month until the wedding? then when the child is born weâll just say it was a premature birthâ god, your former husbandâs body was barely cold and gojo is already planning the wedding and what to say about the baby.
âwhy now?â you look up at his mischievous eyes, he knows what youâre asking truly.
âi donât know what youâre talking about, it was an accident right?â he touches your face, brushing away a tear that came out, more of a natural body reaction of your gagging than a sadness reaction.
âsatoru, tell meâ you demanded.
âi just reflect a little you know? when i said i would kill him you never asked me not to. besides, i donât want another man to think they own whatâs mineâ his eyes are darker, you think heâs talking about the child in your womb but by the intensity of his gaze, you realize heâs talking about you. âif you need anything tell suguru, iâll have him staying in the village until we announce the wedding.â
âno, i have toji, donât want anyone suspecting getoâs intentionsâ you defend.
gojo doesnât seem to like it, but he doesnât argue either, âeither way, i want to see you. meet me at the temple in five days, weâll talk about the arrangementsâ he leans in and kisses your forehead before turning away and then back âi almost forgotâ he reaches for something inside his sleeve and pulls out a shiny golden bracelet with gems and puts it on your palm, you know you canât wear it now but god itâs gorgeous, âcame from the west especially for youâ he puts his hand on top of yours and leaves it there for a long moment as you look into each other's eyes. satoru is fighting the urge to kiss you, if someone catches you he canât say heâs comforting his recently widowed friend, so he forces himself to let go of you and go head back to his village.
the midwife instructs you to push harder as her helper dabs a wet cloth on your forehead. youâre squatting, on your knees giving your all to push the baby out.
finally one last push is all that it takes for the little one to come out, you want to lay down and close your eyes, but you need to see the baby first so you mumble something with your arms open, the midwife cleans babyâs face through crying and screaming.
âitâs a boyâ she whispers putting him in your arms. satoru enters when he hears the cries and kneels in front of you. behind him are both suguru and toji, who arenât allowed to enter but the men are also very eager to see the child they canât help but try to peek.
you balance the boy in your hold for a little bit till he stops crying and when he opens his eyes you see the blue sky.
âgive him to the father, weâre not overâ the midwife says.
âwhat?â you, satoru, toji and suguru ask. the last two get an angry look from the midwife and remove themselves from the scene.
âthe next one will come out soonâ she puts new towels below you.
âtwo children? at once?â you ask in disbelief then look at satoru who can only smile apologetically.
after god knows how long youâre finally allowed to rest as the babies were cleaned and fed. the second one was a girl, with identical blue eyes as her brother and father.
âi canât believe you put two kids in meâ satoru is outside the wooden tub, breaking all tradition by helping you bathe after the birth.
âcanât say iâm sorry for thatâ he rubs your shoulders, âyou were incredibleâ he confesses now that thereâs only the two of you. satoru refuses to even let your feet touch the floor, he takes you out of the tub once the water starts to cool down, placing you on a dry surface and getting on his knees to dry your feet, you reach out to touch his face.
âi love you, satoruâ you blurt, overwhelmed by your feelings for the man who was once your rival.
he looks up from his position, taking the hand on his face and kissing your palm, then your pulse, he kisses inch by inch of your arm until his lips are on yours, âi love you.â
"pay up, pretty boy" toji approaches geto.
"excuse me?" suguru looks up from the sword he's polishing now that gojo dismissed him for the rest of the night.
"i said it was gonna be a boy."
"yeah and then a girl came out right after so the bet was invalidated."
"there's no such a thing, the boy will inherit it all anyway" toji crosses his arms, geto laughs, fishing a coin from his pocket since he knows toji will say anything to win the bet.
"and what makes you say that? there's two clans and now two heirs" toji snatches the coin as soon as he sees the silver glow.
"that's just how it has ever been" he turns his back to geto who drives his attention back to his sword.
"things are changing old man.
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I'm not happy.
I'm not happy about his death, because death isn't something people "deserve".
(Though some people would never stop otherwise.)
But I do take a big sigh of relief -
Bc I was young when Hezbollah had tried to kill me the first time.
And I had 2 younger siblings at the time.
And my youngest sister, a teenager, isn't even twice the age I was when I first felt the explosion after a missile hits.
(She's still a minor, and lives in our hometown. But the house we moved in when I was 10 has an indoor shelter.)
She isn't safe from missiles.
(well, you know, she's "as safe as can be" aka no immediate life threat)
But at least THIS is one person that would never try to hurt her.
And that's a good thing in my book.
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When we celebrate Nasrallah's death it is not because we love death, but because we hate it. Nasrallah caused countless deaths of innocents, such as the children shown above. We celebrate because he can never cause harm again. We remember those from northern Israel who have been displaced due to Hezbollah for so long now, the fires Hezbollah's attacks caused in our homeland.
We do not celebrate his elimination because it is death, but because it puts an end to the deaths he brought onto others.
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My favourite things about the whole OceanGate disaster, in no particular order
That the vessel was originally named Cyclops II but the CEO renamed it to Titan, so itâs even BETTER than the Titanic
He also called it indestructible
The guy piloting the vessel is an ex-naval captain who has been on several titanic manned trips. But the guy is 77 rn
The billionaire from Pakistan is apparently friends with King Charles. Youâd think for someone whoâs besties with a guy whose job was literally being born, heâd care more about protecting his bloodline. Instead, he brought his 19 year old with him
Meanwhile, the stepson of one of the other billionaires (I think the British one named Hamish) went to a Blink 182 concert. When questioned about this, he basically went âmy family would want me to go to the concertâ. Today, minutes after posting about asking for thoughts and prayers, he @âed an OF model on Twitter, asking her to sit on his face
Bc itâs part of the safety demo & music track list for the trip, there is a VERY good chance that if thereâs still some power left in the sub, itâs playing an instrumental of My Heart Will Go On on loop
Also, the vessel is a submersible bc it doesnât meet literally any of the safety regulations to be called a submarine. Which the CEO knew, because heâs blatantly said that safety regulations get in the way of progress
The CEO once stated that he thought the future of humanity was not in space, but in the ocean when the surface becomes uninhabitable
Apparently the controller heâs using has REAL bad reviews because the connection always fails
These idiots paid $250k EACH but they had to pack their own lunch. Not even a damn charcuterie board
The pilotâs seat is on the toilet. So whenever someone needs to go, the pilot needs to move
Thereâs 1 window looking out. Thatâs it
Itâs about the size of a minivan
The sub uses texts (but only to the CEOâs phone) to communicate, as well as StarLink, but they can only access that if they surface
The door literally cannot be opened from inside
There is a decent chance that at least 1 person has been cannibalized (my bet was the pilot since heâs not rich, but bc of the banging sounds, heâs probs not dead, so it may be the CEO)
Theyâre supposed to run out of oxygen tomorrow (22/06/23) at 7 am est, but tbh, the CO2 scrubber system will probs fail before that
The toilet is a plastic bag
This is only the 3rd time in 3 years the vessel has gone to the Titanic. Every other time, thereâs an issue and they gotta turn back within like 4 hours
A lot of major news networks are trying to remain positive, but itâs a HILARIOUS comparison when you go to social media and every single person is like âyeah that shit is built like a cardboard boat, theyâre fuckedâ
The companyâs name is literally called OceanGate
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