#prayer circle that she doesn’t get jumped by antis

[alaynestcnes]

A popular asoiaf tiktoker recently posted a video about the Ashford Tourney and stated that Jonsa is very possible as an endgame 😳😳 I’m legitimately shocked since apart from Alt Shift X and Adam Feldman, no other BNFs have endorsed /entertained Jonsa as an a legitimate possibility … I think people are lowkey starting to warm up to it?? I even saw another video last week which garnered a lot of likes about Sansa falling in love with Waymar Royce who resembles Jon and there were only like two antis in the comments …. I used to pray for times like this lmaooo 😭

mfw that vid came on my fyp and not only was it treated favourably but the comments were also largely positive

[woodchoc-magnum]

911 4x07 “There Goes the Neighbourhood” Reaction

Under the cut!

A solid, enjoyable episode - I laughed multiple times during this.

A sad lack of Eddie Diaz but that’s okay, he had a big episode last week.

Thoughts:

The rocker moms at the start had me lolling

Look, was it sexual harrassment? Sure. But that lady saw that Diaz ass and realised she had a golden opportunity for some slappin’

Veronica certainly was interesting. I’d love to know how the date started? Like... did she just dislike him instantly or did he say something to piss her off... she was openly hostile right from the get go.

Kinda weird that the last episode ended with Eddie on a date and this one started with Buck on a date, you know, the man who hasn’t dated in anyone in a season and a half now 👀

I don’t pretend to know what the writers are doing but what are they fucking doing seriously

Why did Buck decide to jump into the dating pool again now? Is this just a straight-up reaction to Eddie dating? WILL WE FIND OUT NEXT WEEK? Fuck I hope so

I want a REALISATION, PLEASE

Moving on - I would’ve kicked Albert out the moment he stole that cheesecake

There are some things that are sacred. Women come and go but CHEESECAKE IS FOREVER.

Am I... anti-Albert? After that? Yes.

Also like I know Buck is a social person but I am a person who cannot survive without my own space so for him to have had literally no space for himself for the last six(?) months like... I wouldn’t be coping at all.

Good god NIA IS SO FUCKING CUTE - they have 10/10 nailed the casting there holy SHIT

Okay so Michael’s wall of windows is great but HE LIVES ACROSS FROM THE HOTEL CECIL

I AM LITERALLY WATCHING A DOCUMENTARY ABOUT THAT SPOOKY ASS HOTEL

I could not BELIEVE IT

Also when Bobby gets involved was just 10/10 so. fucking. funny. And the Austin Powers music? I was DYING. HILARIOUS.

Like all the men on this show are just as bad as each other and the women just put up with it

The entire turkey scene was 10/10 as well - Buck and Eddie finally managing to catch it? So good. And they weren’t wearing masks! Honestly I hate that the masks cover their faces, I know they’re necessary but I can’t wait until the day when they don’t have to wear them anymore.

Buck telling Eddie he needs a “safe space” - DUDE. If they’re not foreshadowing Buck moving into Eddie’s house - does that mean he kicks Albert out? Maybe? He could kick him out; it’s Buck’s fucking apartment.

I mean I realise it is wishful thinking for Buck to move in with Eddie - I am 90% sure Eddie doesn’t have a spare room, and if he does, they’ve never shown it - but GOD I WANT IT. Buck’s not a guest in Eddie’s house!

I love the Hen & Athena friendship - and Hen and Karen are SO GOOD TOGETHER, honestly I was so happy to see Karen. And not all the parents on this show are super terrible - there’s hope for Hen’s mom yet.

No mention of Ana 👀

And then the big reveal at the end that Albert is dating Veronica... look, I was anti-Albert after the cheesecake stealing incident (NEVER FORGET) but... he could’ve told Buck? It’s not like Buck was pining after this girl. Why didn’t he just tell him? So fucking weird.

Let’s wildly speculate (and I’m always wrong!):

So we know that Buck and Albert are on the rocks as roommates (cheesecake thievery). We know that Taylor Kelly comes back in the next episode (I one hundred percent think she’s married). We know that Buck is looking for a safe space. We know that Buck has a one-on-one scene with Christopher and there was also a BTS video of Oliver in the same outfit as he wears in the scene with Christopher at the hospital. There are also those set photos from the airplane emergency where it kinda looks like Buck and Eddie are fighting (though I remain unconvinced about that). We know that Ana is in the next episode. The next episode is called Breaking Point.

WHAT DOES IT MEAN?

I have no idea.

Genuinely have no fucking clue.

My gut tells me that... Buck and Eddie probably aren’t fighting, especially not about anything jealousy-related because Buck doesn’t seem to be that jealous of Ana? Unless things dramatically change in the next episode.

The hospital thing, I don’t know. 

Why do Buck and Christopher have a one-on-one? My original wild theory was that Eddie was sick but I don’t think that’s going to happen either (he looks fine in the set photos).

Can I wildly speculate for one second (this will not happen) that Eddie gets food poisoning on a date with Ana?! Because... I’d enjoy that. Not Eddie’s suffering, of course, but like... Buck to the rescue, kind of thing.

It’s not going to happen; moving on.

The theory about Buck moving in... I mean, I want it. @from-nova​ made a brilliant post about that and I so hope she’s right.

If Eddie does have a secret hidden spare bedroom, it could happen? But he’s only got a small couch, so where the fuck would Buck sleep? “Oh hey Ana, so Buck’s moving in with me and I don’t have a spare room so we’re just gonna share a bed also he’s been co-parenting my son with me for the last three years, so did you want to order now?”

I don’t know.

I just feel like next week’s episode is going to have something big Buddie-related? I have a FEELING.

Does Eddie get jealous about Taylor? We all remember the Season 2 murder strut.

It seems too soon for Eddie to tell Christopher about Ana?

I don’t know. I’m anxious. This has been rambling.

My fear is that they will end the next episode with Buck and Eddie fighting and I really don’t want that, so I’m manifesting for that not to happen.

This whole season has been about Buck and finding his family and finding his place... the recurring theme of the invisible string, them constantly showing Eddie supporting Buck; constantly drumming in that Buck and Eddie talk to each other about everything... Buck is searching for a safe place, where is safer than Eddie’s house?

What if he moves in and it just... clicks? Like... everything falls into place for him. This is where I’m meant to be.

God, I hope. I REALLY REALLY HOPE. 🙏

Also fingers crossed for Eddie dumping Ana next week PRAYER CIRCLE

She says one fucking thing about Buck and/or Christopher and he’s like “we’re done.”

I want it.

[found--family]

‘Supernatural’ season 15, episode 15 screener secrets: We’re ‘Highway to Heaven’-ing this bitch

[everything is from this Hypable article] 

This week on Supernatural, Amara returns and are angels solving people crimes now? Hypable previewed Supernatural season 15, episode 15 “Gimme Shelter,” so read on to find out more.

After a sweet and fun return to ease us back into the world of Supernatural last week, things are heating up pretty dramatically – I knew there wouldn’t be much more time for messing around.

“Gimme Shelter” sees Supernatural dip its feet into what the Winchesters currently believe is their big plan – eliminating Chuck by also taking down Amara, resulting in what they believe will be a cosmic-being-free balanced world. But first, they have to find her. Sam and Dean get a pretty good lead on her location, which results in a very interesting conversation between Amara and the boys – especially with her most favoritest Dean, of course.

Meanwhile, Castiel is persuaded into taking Jack to investigate a nearby case in Missouri – which all three adults suspect is probably the work of a human criminal – for the sake of humoring Jack and keeping him both busy and supervised. On the way home, they have a very interesting conversation of their own.

Spoiler Warning: This article contains generalized spoilers for Supernatural season 15 episode 15, “Gimme Shelter.” If you do not wish to be spoiled at all, do not read this article in advance of the airdate.

The official synopsis for Supernatural season 15, episode 15 reads:

MATT COHEN DIRECTS — Castiel (Misha Collins) and Jack (Alexander Calvert) work a case involving members of a local church. Meanwhile, Sam (Jared Padalecki) and Dean (Jensen Ackles) go off in search of Amara (guest star Emily Swallow). Matt Cohen directed the episode written by Davy Perez (#1515). Original airdate 10/15/2020.

If you want to know what to expect from this week’s Supernatural, here’s 10 teasers plus 15 single word clues from our advance viewing of Supernatural season 15, episode 15 “Gimme Shelter.”

‘Supernatural’ season 15, [10] episode 15 screener secrets 

1️⃣ During the filming of this episode (27 January – 5 February) Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles both spent much of the week at home with their families in Austin, a detail which was made clear on their and their wives’ public social media accounts – possibly the result of scheduled time off as they’ve mentioned occasionally requesting? The result is that the episode is weighted much more towards Cas, Jack and the murder investigation they’re chasing than towards Sam and Dean, but on the flip side, the Sam and Dean arc is more crucial to the long game of the show, so what it lacks in minutes, it makes up for in impact. 

2️⃣ However, the episode still begins and ends in a grounded family group way, at home in the Bunker – one of those “we know we should be doing this together but there are Reasons we have to split up” situations. This detail, in my opinion, really speaks to the motivation of the creative team towards honoring the four leads as parts of a whole – in earlier days, this kind of episode would have been two entirely non-touching threads. This one is, if not a tapestry, at very least a braid – tied up together at both ends, and intertwined in the middle.

3️⃣ You might have seen pictures or ominous trailer footage of Castiel and Jack digging a hole at the crossroads. We all know what that means! However, don’t worry. They simply want to talk – and the demon they summon has some really interesting – and dare I say positive? – news about the state of Hell under Her Most Gracious Majesty Queen Rowena. Let’s just say the demon is actually pretty friendly… and extremely bored.

4️⃣ The two main guest stars on Cas and Jack’s side of the episode are both actors who have been briefly featured on the show before, in a couple of pretty famous episodes – one from season 2 and one from season 5. I don’t think there’s meant to be any meta or Easter Egg element to this, just the usual Vancouver casting industry cycle (see the ‘Weren’t You In Another Episode‘ reference page on the SuperWiki) but one of them is one of those cute “I appeared on Supernatural as a child and now I’m here as an adult” situations, and the other, well… the original character’s very name has become the stuff of Supernatural legend, and if I were in charge of this episode I would have put the actor in a particular piece of footwear and made sure we got a shot of it, just for kicks.

5️⃣ Castiel steps into a prayer circle when the church group members are meant to give a testimony – presumably of their journey so far and their relationship with faith. That’s what Cas chooses to share, at least – in a non-specific, humanized way – and fans of the character will be moved to hear the ways he verbalizes his own growth.

6️⃣ Speaking of growth, some of Dean’s is spelled out for him in the most miraculous way by Amara. After Sam and Dean meet up with her and have a conversation about Chuck that’s ultimately a bit of a non-starter, Dean returns to ask her another, more personal question. Her response gave me legitimate chills. It’s a very weighty mic drop and the combination of the level of impact and the level of clarity (it’s entirely airtight, no room for interpretation) feels like the culmination of all the self-actualization work the show has been doing on Dean in the last four years. (I wish I could tell you Sam got a big special moment like this in the episode, but he doesn’t. Amara’s return was always going to be Dean’s thing.) Amara’s speech to Dean… it doesn’t feel isolated, like the idea of it was invented just for this episode. It feels more like concrete evidence of what the show has been trying to prove for ages. And the funny thing is, Amara is the anti-Chuck, right, and all season, we’ve learned about the version of the story Chuck thinks is good, and we’ve been told to root against that. Chuck’s version of Supernatural isn’t how the writers really feel. But I think Amara’s might be. Dean has obviously struggled to see what she tells him, all in one piece, but here it is – this was the point, laid out on the table, from the entity behind the curtain – both onscreen and off. Amara knew what she was doing, and so did the writers. This was always, always the point.

7️⃣ Even before this massive scene, Amara’s return is just great. Emily Swallow does such an incredible job with this character – she really is the anti-Chuck even without the whole writer comparison. Swallow imbues this character with such an incredible peace and stillness in comparison to Chuck’s histrionics – this was true in the way she spoke and behaved even in season 11, but this Amara also feels kindness and patience and tolerance. She radiates power, even when she’s also slightly goofy. There’s no fight, there’s no antagonism, but the boys in her presence are like little fish in a vast ocean – they quickly realise they have no real control in this conversation. The way that we leave her indicates she’ll be back and has more to say or do, and what she shared during her reunion with Sam and Dean makes me really curious about the role she’s due to play in the show’s endgame.

8️⃣ I’m not very religious but I really like the version of a church group or ‘faith-based community,’ as they say, featured in “Gimme Shelter.” Supernatural has a shaky history in terms of how the show portrays people in-universe who believe. Sometimes they’re treated like a joke, or stupid, or dangerous, or hypocrites, but occasionally civilian acts of faith are shown as great and powerful things, even in a world where we know that what they believe in isn’t strictly accurate. That concept became an even bigger question mark for me when we got the reveal that Judeo-Christian God is not only absent, but our actual villain. However, this was a really nice look at why faith can still be a framework for a good way of life – loving thy neighbor – for some people, no matter the truth about Chuck. The episode also features a callback to writer Davy Perez’ very first Supernatural episode “American Nightmare” in terms of the way that some people have weaponized faith and religion to the detriment and harm of others or even themselves, but this factor does not negate the positive point mentioned above.

9️⃣ Supernatural alum and newly minted director Matt Cohen really got the full old-school Supernatural episode experience when it comes to leaning into the spooky horror element. The murderous case-of-the week featured in this episode is heavy and lingering on the gore and even contains a little bit of a jump scare, so view responsibly.

🔟 So, um, you know that line, in this week’s teaser trailer? The line that a lot of people are freaking out about because it seems to pertain to something important that we know about Cas’ fate that Dean and Sam aren’t aware of? Yeah, it is 100% absolutely not about that at all. It is about something super important, but it’s not that. It’s also the last line of the episode, but trust me – it’s not a cliffhanger and it’s not a red herring and it’s not a twist. The information is gleaned within the episode and you’ll know exactly what Cas is telling Dean about after seeing it – narratively, that’s the reason it isn’t in the episode, because the show clearly assumes you’ll get the picture and can skip a rehash of information. But what you were probably expecting – maybe even hoping for – it’s not that. You’re gonna have to hang on for that one.

Finally, have 15 random yet significant words from this week’s episode without any context whatsoever: Gaia, Ronald, mother, pierogies, cats, philosophy, target, blind, permission, lockdown, Kool-aid, buffet, gift, trial, choice.

‘Supernatural’ airs Thursday at 8/7c on The CW

[initiumseries]

CAOS Part 3 - review

Uh, okay, so I think by now, we all know this show is terrible. Netflix gives showrunners a lot of creative freedom, and I think, for better writers, you could get some really interesting content, but they just seem to keep giving these assholes who wrote the travesty called Riverdale, so many opportunities to make more shitty television, and I feel like they really deserve to be limited in their ability to create/write if not stopped completely and thrown into a well with Julie Plec.  Anyway, I’ll try to break this down as best as I can into different piles of shit and this will contain spoilers:

Characters

Prudence and Ambrose

So, to be really honest, I watch this show exclusively for Prudence and Ambrose. Because, well, look at them: 

I wish they had more chemistry because they are super hot together, and I still ship it. A young Black couple? On TV? In this sea of shitty interracial relationships? I’ll take it. Anyway, of course, the progression of their relationship is ridiculous and frustrating. Ambrose decides at the last minute, not to kill Father Blackwood because he has a weird time egg thing that they don’t really understand, also he has the twins under some weird mind control for no clear reason, so they stay their hands. It doesn’t make sense, but it becomes clear, Father Blackwood has an insane amount of plot armour and ultimately would have to serve as a vessel for Satan. Father Blackwood uses the manipulated mind of the other weird sister to sic her on the coven, and she ends up killing Dorkus, whom Prudence finds. She then blames Ambrose for not allowing her to kill FB, and they break up. Now...this would kinda make sense, if not for the fact that they trapped one of the pagan witches and forced her to change everyone back, but no one bothered to do anything about the mentally ill witch who you all strapped up for a reason? Lol ok. Seems like an oversight on your part Prudence, but...okay. Clearly manufactured breakups are exhausting, especially since [young] Black couples with no serious relationship dysfunction are now an endangered species. It’s also frustrating because we barely got to see them....*be* together, especially after they returned home. 

Nick & Sabrina

So, I know from the beginning, we were supposed to believe that Nick and Sabrina had that kind of, Bad Guy, seduces the girl Good Girl, luring her into the dark side, hot, intense, passionate relationship. But their lack of chemistry and really shitty acting just made them really dry (which I get into here). I don’t believe them, and I definitely don’t believe that Sabrina would, once again, break a shit ton of rules to get Nick back. I just don’t buy that they had that kind of an intense, desperately in love, kind relationship, because they do not look all that comfortable around each other, much less in love. 

I personally find Sabrina utterly unlikeable as a main character, largely because who IS she? She has no personality, she just does whatever the plot needs her to do in the moment, and the actress makes Sabrina appear smug and unremorseful while she fucks up everyone’s lives. There is a lot of exposition of everyone telling us she’s this power hungry, manipulative character, but we never see that. She just does stuff and everyone is all “Sabrina how could you?!” and there are never, ever any consequences. I would have liked to see her push so hard to get Nick back and the struggle being, sure she wants him back, but mostly she’s doing it because she can. But that’s not what happens. 

So Nick ends up in this weird drug addiction, alcohol, sex demon spiral because he has parts of Satan still in him and it all just falls so flat and lame, because this show is SO bad at pacing, and these actors suck, so nothing is believable. The idea of him scrubbing his club foot, having nightmares, suffering PTSD, is fine, the execution was trash. Nick sees Caliban and Sabrina have one interaction and he’s like WELL, GUESS I GOTTA CHEAT. And just ends up in some S&M situation with sex demons and heavily self medicating, but none of this has any weight, and we don’t really see him...spiralling. He just immediately resorts to these things and it has no real impact on anyone or even him really, and that’s it. 

Harvey and Roz

Uh, they’re probably the most confusing match here, because there is no lead up to their relationship, there’s not suggestion, there’s no pacing. Just BOOM, we’re into each other now. BOOM, Roz is the only sexually active person in her friend group (lol of course the Black girl is sexually active. Gotta maintain white innocence at all costs), so she’s just ready to jump Harvey’s bones any second now. So of course, the show punishes her by having the pagans turn her to stone. And as if that’s not bad enough...

Which I talk about here and here, because honestly I’m just sick of this show’s antiblackness.  Theo & that other guy

So I was watching this unfold like, yeeaahh, they’re gonna make the trans guy get with the enemy aren’t they? And yes, they did. Cool, they didn’t kill him off, but I’m still perplexed at how Theo isn’t even a little upset that this guy was basically sent to infiltrate his friend group and sat by while his people harmed Theo’s friends, and also...used him? Like...we just...are gonna...gloss over that because he changed his mind? Lol ok. Sure.

Mambo Marie and suddenly Zelda?

I...I mean her name is Mambo Marie. I love the idea of Black witches finding Black spirituality and magicks through Vodun and a Hatian Priestess. But they quickly undo that, by ensuring that Mambo Marie only teaches Prudence in the presence of these white witches. And we see her...doing...an African drum circle (eye roll), only to be interrupted by the High Priestess of White Feminism, Zelda Spellman. It quickly devolves into thinly veiled racism where Zelda doesn’t trust Marie because she’s Catholic (says the woman who worships Satan, has an anti Pope and prays to Lilith with the same prayer for Mary mother of Jesus? LOL. Not even unpacking the fact that Vodun is an African spirituality having 0 roots in catholicism WHITE WRITERS). Then suddenly, out of nowhere, Marie and Zelda are a thing for no reason? After the way Zelda treated her? Why did Marie even stay? This isn’t her problem. This is a white witch problem. Okay. That’s too much to unpack. 

Plot

So, my biggest problem with almost all Netflix English programming is that they are so obsessed with aesthetics, and don’t pay enough attention to actual character chemistry, plot, story flow, details, pacing etc. Like...things that actually make stories interesting to watch. So they slap all these people together and throw them into aesthetically pleasing backgrounds, shake it up with so much exposition that nothing actually happens, and are like BEHOLD A STORY. And CAOS is *especially* guilty for this.

First of all those musical breaks were annoying as fuck. Musicals serve 2 story functions: advancing the plot or telling a story. These musical numbers did neither and were honestly ridiculously gratuitous, highly annoying and totally pointless.

What time of year is this? Why are we having pep rallies and how the fuck and when did Sabrina and Roz join the cheeleading squad, and why?

for the aesthetics and not for any real plot reason. It just seems stupid because now I don’t know how much time has passed between Nick going to hell and this, because you’re all handling it like it’s been a few weeks and is still relatively fresh, but suddenly, Theo, Harvey and Roz are in a garage band? You’re a cheerleader? For what? Since when? Why? These choices introduce more questions than they answer and serve no narrative purpose. So much wasted time on shit that doesn’t matter. 

Sabrina is supposed to be fighting Caliban (who is literally the only person she has chemistry with on this show and they killed him bc ofc they did), for her seat on the throne, and yet the trials only seem to come up when it’s convenient, and also seem to be directly related to her dealings with her coven, which is also convenient.  I’m so confused about Satan. His powers come from being a celestial being, and so, because his coven mistreats him he’s like...lol okay, well fuck you guys and goes through all these convoluted small motions to greatly inconvenience them and withdraws his powers? This is so petty and pathetic. Also, what’s the point? He could just wipe them out and start over, instead of skulking around inside FB then suddenly decides to track down Lilith. Again, convoluted. This plot is all over the place. Why does Satan need Sabrina to be Queen of Hell in the first place? He seems perfectly healthy. Why can’t he just rule it? Like...that makes no sense. What is he gonna do? Retire? WHAT is going ON?

How did Sabrina come back in time to herself stuck in stone? Is that trip to Pontius Pilate (lol) supposed to have created a loophole for her to save herself and everyone? This is giving me hardcore Twilight Breaking Dawn vibes, where, the show finally, FINALLY gets interesting, there’s real stakes, shit is actually happening instead of everyone talking about things happening (Hilda ending up killing her fiance was literally the only time I felt something watching this show because it was genuinely sad, and well acted, and Hilda coming through with that doll at the end was pretty disturbing, I’ll give them that), and ofc, Sabrina goes back in time and undoes it all. Lol. Okay. God forbid there be real consequences to anything on this show.

Final thoughts

Once again, the white feminism runs high on this show. They treat this Black Vodun Priestess Marie, like garbage, allude to her “foreign” magic, but Marie is sitting here like “we’re not men, we’re women, let’s work together.” This is why I hate white writers writing for Black characters. Black characters should have Black motivations, and a Black Vodun Priestess, should know that white women and Black women do not have aligned motivations just because they share a gender. Once they started with the bullshit right from her arrival, she should have handed Prudence her card and peaced tf out. Instead she tolerates the isolation, ostracization and thinly veiled racism...and decides to stay, and help. WHY? Marie has gained nothing by sticking around helping these ungrateful ass witches. I honestly would have preferred Prudence asking her to stay to learn more about Vodun, and them building a mentor/mentee type of relationship, especially since Prudence was the one who invited her and stepped to Zelda to defend her. I want(ed) to see that relationship go somewhere. The deliberate denial of healthy Black female friendships on tv is frustrating.

 These witches finally finding their power in their ancestors and I donno, some female creator or whatever, reminds me of white women “finding” wicca and praying to “Gaia”, (reminds me of BTVS s4 when Willow joins the wicca group) which is basically what happened but lol okay whatever. I guess they aren’t satanic witches anymore. Lol, I love how Harvey and Roz and Theo are teenagers, human teenagers, who have lead largely normal teenage lives up until this point, but see their loved ones tortured, deformed or murdered in hell, with basically no residual issues, and are all like, YES, let’s roll up on these adults with shotguns and swords and kill the FUCK outta these people!! That absolutely sounds normal! Like...what? Lol. God this is just so bad.

Also, I’m so confused by this aesthetic choice for Sabrina as Queen of Hell. Like what the fuck. Why is she dressed like a Victorian era queen, with shoulder and a broken rib bodice? What?!

This show is truly awful, this season made no more sense than the last two and now that Prudence and Ambrose aren’t together, I might be done watching. 

-20/10

[tfw-needs-baby]

midam | mated

read on ao3? -- mated

‘Castiel, I thought Michael and I were already mated!’ Adam huffs, sitting across the table from him.  

‘Well, no. You aren’t mated. Both of you are simply dating, he just calls it mating.’ Castiel replied, showing Jack how to solve a chemistry question. ‘He wants to spend the rest of eternity by your side, joining his grace and your soul together.’

‘But isn’t that more of a friendship thing? Like you, Sam and Dean?’ He replies, and the angel shakes his head in disagreement. 

‘What the three of us have, it’s powerful. I bonded with two soulmates, which technically makes me their third soulmate. My grace is interwoven with the souls, making us sense each other’s emotions and telepathically talk to one another. I’m able to enter their heaven.’ Castiel smiles. ‘We also have marks, to show that we are fully and truly mated.’ 

‘Really? Do you get to choose?’ Adam’s curious now. 

‘Yes. You will have the option to choose your own, and fate herself will have one to place.’ Castiel spreads his wings wide, and Jack jumps at the sight of them. 

‘Awesome! Can I show uncle Adam my wings too?’ Jack jumps out of his seat before Castiel can give a reply, and light, golden wings, similar to Lucifier’s appear on his back. He gives it a tentative flap or two, smiling at the sight and stretching them out. A couple of feathers fell to the floor. 

‘Kid, they look beautiful.’

‘Thanks! I make sure to clean them almost everyday, sometimes me and dad take our other two dads out flying.’ Jack flushes with pride, and Castiel smiles at the two of them bonding, flapping his wings to grab Adam’s attention.

Castiel’s wings are a midnight color, more raven than black. They look like they hide the stars. He takes off his trenchcoat and regular suit coat, losing the tie and unbuttoning the shirt, and Adam puts his hands up. 

‘Woah, okay, I’m currently in a relationship --’

‘I know, Adam. I’m simply trying to show you my bond marks.’ Castiel takes off the white shirt, turning around and closing his wings together, then arching it above his head, revealing two marks. 

S.W. D.W. 

It looked familiar, and he realised he saw those same engravings on the table that Michael has shamelessly fucked him on. Castiel looks at Adam’s flushed face with a curious tilt and a small smirk, like he knows what his big brother has been doing to Adam. 

‘The two of them wanted their initials.’ 

‘Possessive much?’ 

‘Possibly.’

Jack looks at the marks, grinning. ‘You have to show him the stars!’

‘Oh, right. I forgot about those.’ Castiel spreads his wings out, making sure they face Adam and then, dots. Small, glowing white dot spreading everywhere, lines fading in and out to show constellations. Huh. Guess they really do hide the stars. ‘These are the ones fate gave to me. She was very considerate, for Dean has his constellations hidden in his freckles and Sam has it all over his back, upper shoulders and thighs. A speck or few on stomach and chest.’

‘Oh my -- I can’t even say God, because he’s an asshole. Okay, can I touch it?’ Adam jumps across the table and Jack is already touching his wings. 

The angel nodded in agreement, more focused on Jack touching his wings and reading the constellations aloud. ‘This one forms a pentagram, which is the same thing as my anti-possession symbol! And this one is Leo!’

‘Awesome!’ Adam says eagerily, pointing to one forming right in front of Jack. ‘What’s this one then!’ 

‘Oh! That’s Aquarius, well, now it Aries!’ The nephilim replies happily, and Castiel turns around, beaming. 

‘I don’t remember teaching you about the zodiac constellations.’ Castiels says, and Jack thrusts his right arm backward, book flying right into his hand to show his dad, catching it with ease. It’s a leather notebook, decorated with band stickers and says <A Guide To The Stars Above, by Jack Kline - Winchester.> It’s even got the cute <keep out!> sticker posted at the bottom in bright red letters. 

‘I’ve been teaching myself, when I’m at home with Raphael and you and dads are on a case.’ Castiel reaches over his shoulder to grab the book, skimming through the pages and notes and doodles. 

‘I’m impressed.’ 

Jack beams with pride again, and that's the same moment the Winchester duo runs through the library door, worried and glowing dots showing through their clothing and Deans face. 

‘Castiel? What wrong?’ Sam says, scanning the area and relaxing a bit when he sees no threat of immediate danger. 

‘Ah -- I forgot to tell you, Adam.’ Castiel lowers his wings, stars disappearing and the Winchester’s spots stop glowing. ‘They can signal your mate, telling them that you are in danger and a small line will appear in front of them, leading to you.’

‘You want to be Michael’s mate?’ Dean asks, and Adam nods his head. 

‘Oh.’ The older Winchester doesn’t exactly know how to feel about that, he has to keep reminding himself that this isn’t the Michael that took over his body. He sighed, giving a thumbs up as a sign of approval. 

‘Wait, does that mean -- are you and Uncle Mickey getting married?’ Jack jumps excitedly, and the Milligan blushes. 

‘No, I’m just -- well, maybe? Does this count as marriage?’ Adam asks, and Sam shrugs. 

‘If you want to, then go right ahead. Except you have to be naked for this.’  

‘What?’ 

‘And it hurts alot. Make sure you don’t die of blood loss.’ Dean adds on, just to scare him. 

‘Not helping!’ 

‘Michael, can we be mated?’ Adam asks a few hours later, and Michael looks up from the book he’s reading. He’s in a human body, chocolate skin and blue eyes, black hair slicked back. And annoyingly tall for a vessel that size. 

He blinks twice. ‘Adam, did I not ask you to be my boyfriend?’

‘What! No, you did, it’s just…’ Adam scrubs a hand over his face, spinning on his heel to leave. ‘Nevermind. It’s stupid.’ 

Michael appears in front of him then, book making a loud thud as it falls to the floor. He holds Adam’s hands into his, not gently, but possessive, making him smile. ‘What is it? Please, I don’t want you to worry, it causes wrinkles on your human form.’ 

‘I wanted to be mated to you, for all of eternity. Like Castiel, Sam and Dean.’ Adam tries to say it firmly, but his voice keeps cracking and and Michael’s breath hitches. 

‘All of eternity? I do not even know if we have that, with the threat of fath-God keeping everyone awake at night.’ Michael replies, and Adam kisses him. Softly, gently, pouring in nothing but love. It’s only a few seconds, and minor kisses like those somehow manage to make butterflies in his stomach.

‘Then why not now? Even if we don’t have that much time left, I still want to be by your side.I’m sorry, that probably sounds desperate --’

Michael kisses him quickly and hard, and passes a soft smile. ‘That was both meant to shut you up and tell you that I love you. Castiel told me about it.’ 

‘Can we not talk about Castiel in the middle of heartfelt moment?’ Adam says, but still ends up giggling like a kid. 

‘But, I want to be mated to you too. But, you will not die. I’m an archangel, so if you do die, you will end up in the empty. Castiel bonded with two humans, so if he dies in his angel form, he will become a human soul and live in the Winchesters heaven.’ Michael was nervous. ‘Are you sure you want to spend the rest of eternity with me? I’m know to be… commanding.’ 

‘Oh, I love it when you command me.’

‘Adam! I’m serious!’ 

‘Alright, alright. I really do love you and want to spend eternity with you. Besides, I spent ten-thousand years with you in the cage after all.’ 

Adam is sitting naked in a circle made out of white blood. 

‘It’s pure blood. From a couple of demons that became angels.’ Michael says. Adam didn’t ask. The eldest archangel lays a knife with a grass handle right in front of him, covered in Enochian. There are 7 bottles, each the color of a rainbow. 

Uncapping the red one, he spills it onto Adam, chanting some Endochian prayer, and it feels like a large amount of anger and shame spilled into him. For crying out loud, he’s in their bedroom naked, sitting on the cold floor and being poured with -- what was this? Oil? 

Michael places a hand of pure grace onto his shoulder, and there’s a balance of euphoria and anger inside of him, making Adam glance at his mate curiously. 

‘Adam, these will make you feel an onslaught of powerful emotions, but do not act on them, or it will be a while before I am able to perform this ritual again.’ Michael says, and Adam can only nod in agreement, not trusting his voice. 

He closes his eyes, and lets the emotions run through him. Passion, envy, grief, shock. He can envision the colors being spread on his body too. Focuses on Michael’s voice. And then Michael makes him stand, and he feels a prick in his shoulder. The archangel is writing Endochian all over his body, and the Milligan can feel the blood sliding down his skin. It’s not deep, just enough to open up his skin. 

Michael moves Adam’s hand to cover his eyes. ‘I need them closed shut, because my trueform will hurt for you to look at.’

He leaves his hand over Adam’s eyes, just in case. And he kisses him. 

Everything is white. 

Adam screams. 

Nothing. 

🌻

‘Adam? Adam, you can open your eyes now.’ Michael says, smiling. Adam is still standing up naked, nothing has changed, the room is still in the same state as before and yet he feels lighter. The enochian on his body and the colorful oils are gone too. Like a heavy weight has disappeared. He moves his wings to rub at his eyes. 

🌻

Wings. 

Things that birds have.

Those, feathery, flappy, large expandable things that angels have.

Well, yes. Wings. Have you never seen wings before?

Adam jumps at the voice, looking at Michael, whose wearing a smug smile. He’s clearly entertained by his boyfriends disbelief. 

Aren’t you going to say anything?

‘I’M AN ANGEL?’ Adam’s scream tears through the bunker, and Michael winces at the sound. Adam clears his throat, using his human voice this time. ‘I’m an angel?’

‘Yes. I forgot to mention, when you are mated to an archangel, if the mate is human, then they can become an angel.’ 

‘So why aren’t my other two brother’s angels?’

‘Castiel would need permission and grace from an archangel to do so. However, he’s planning on surprising them for their friendship anniversary.’ Michael grins, touching Adam’s wings, and he flinched violently. They’re sensitive.

Michael lets his wings show behind him, pure white with blue streaked at the top. It reminds him of the clouds, forever changing. His hands trace Adam’s back, which is a mess of all sorts of flowers. He couldn’t choose just one, so he went with a flowerbed, hiding a shield underneath. Michael’s mark is two swords starting at his shoulders and crossing each other, flowers intertwined. A blue flame has both the swords on fire. 

‘Where is the mark fate gave us?’ Adam looked at himself, and feels a small burning sensation on his shoulder. Michael shrugs of the white collared shirt he’s wearing, and looks at the mark. It’s a cage, but the door is open with a color changing heart, glowing. The same thing is on Michael’s arm too, and he focuses on it. It stops glowing, and it’s just a rainbow striped heart. 

‘Awesome.’ Michael states, and Adam kisses him eagerly. 

‘MICHAEL!’ Catiel barges into the room, Sam and Dean right behind him. ‘A new angel has been born -- oh.’

Sam and Dean both groan, covering their eyes. 

‘Adam! Put on some clothes, man!’ Dean says, wondering what he did to deserve this. Well, he’s committed a list of sins. ‘I can’t bleach my eyes out.’

‘Wait,’ Sam peeks through his fingers. ‘Are you an angel?’

‘I guess? When Michael and I mated, he turned me into an angel.’ Adam replies, waving his hand at them. ‘Can I get privacy now? I’m still naked.’

‘Yes, you may.’ Castiel replies, as Dean starts whining about him not turning into an angel when he mated.

Michael turns to his angel, rubbing his neck nervously. ‘So, all of eternity, huh?’

‘Doesn’t sound that bad.’ Adam kisses him. 

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Some Thoughts On Wendy Williams' Announcement & Some Tough Mama Love

Hello. Welcome today to this episode of Bella & the Babe. It's becoming almost like Bella & the Babe TV. I talk to you all almost every single day practically about some topic related to self-care, self love, motherhood, and mindfulness. That's where I get my jam, and I really enjoy talking about it.

Today, I am coming on specifically to talk about the Wendy Williams announcement about Graves Disease, and what that has to do with us, as mothers. You're thinking, "What does that have to do with us?"

But before I do that I want to quickly go ahead and share this video out. I want to share it to make sure that the mamas in my Mindful Mama Community, right here on Facebook, have access to this, and that they are able to see this video. So, let me go ahead and do that really quick.

Yes, so if you're tuning in right now, you're tuning in because you want to understand what the heck does Wendy Williams's recent announcement about her Graves Disease have to do with me as a mother? Have to do with me as a woman, and this whole idea of doing it all?

Hello, welcome. My name is Brooke-Sidney, my company is called Bella & the Babe, which is all about empowering authentic and mindful motherhood. And essentially, what I do is I help tired and guilt ridden moms get free of mama guilt, find more time for self-care, and love the lives they're currently living.

Basically, why I wanted to get on today is I wanted to talk to you about the Wendy Williams announcement. And I am by no means an expert on Wendy Williams, let me get that out of the way ... and what we can all learn from her announcement, as well as other messages that she has shared. Because sometimes we don't get it when it comes from just me, just the other mama on the street. But, when we can hear certain messages sometimes echoing in our cultural chamber, then maybe, just maybe people will start to listen. And my hope is that mamas start taking better care of themselves. That's really my goal for today.

I don't know if you guys follow Wendy Williams. She's a major talk show host. She has her own show, she's been in radio. She's been doing the darn thing for ... shoot, I don't even know ... 20 plus years, I would imagine. I myself am not a big Wendy Williams follower. I'm all for women doing their thing though. So hey, go get 'em, Wendy Williams. Just for me, I just don't watch a lot of television, and I definitely don't really watch gossipy television - but that is me. I still think there's a place and a time, and I'm all about her getting her coin and getting that bag.

With that being said, she does a lot of things. She has a very big following. She is very visible. She has her own TV show. She's got a lot of demands on her time, but she also has a family. She has a husband, she has, I think, at least one kid. So, she is definitely a mama, a mamapreneur, a mama business leader. She is doing it. So, I think over the past couple of weeks, she's been passing out. She has been fainting. I think she's known about her disease, or her illness, but she has decided to reveal it most recently. So, she has announced that she has Graves Disease, which is this autoimmune disease. I am not a doctor, I am a lawyer and a self-love guide for mamas, that is not my field.

But the point that I want to really make today with her story and what she shared in the past, is that she came onto a CNN Money interview, where she shared that women can't do it all. And I have been talking about this for years now.

I think that us, as mamas, and us as women, especially I would say like, Gen X, Millennials on down, we were fed the story that we can do it all. That we can have the career, we can have the family, we can have this amazing legacy. Like we can do it all. We can cook, clean, take care of the kids, go to work every day, smash it out there, be a rock star there.

Then, we can have all these other extra-curricular activities, run a non-profit, give back in the community, be a philanthropist. Like do it all, everything. But yet, be at home in the kitchen, serving it up in the bedroom. I'm just being real. All of these things are the messages that we are taught that we are supposed to be, as “super women.” And quite frankly, there are men and society that is buying into it. And if you don't know, or are not willing to admit, it is freaking hype. It is not the truth.

I have so many people that come and ask me, "Okay, I want to get better at self-care. I want some more time. My health is suffering." Take the Wendy Williams example. "My life is suffering, I'm not doing well with work, I'm not doing well as a mother because I'm trying to do it all." And I am here to tell you, just like I tell my clients, just like I talk about on any platform that I have, be it podcasts that I'm interviewed for, anything that I have to talk about as it relates to this "balance," -- it doesn't exist.

Balance does not exist, prioritization exists. Making time for the things that are important to you - exist. That is the key. Something is going to fall to the floor. And as Wendy Williams says, "Something is going to suck." I hate to break it to you, you cannot do it all, all the time, and everything goes swell. There's a key here, there's a reason I'm telling you this. Is that we have to start figuring out what is important to us and not compromising our health.

The way that we figure out what is important to us is to spend more time with ourselves, with Spirit, whatever that works for you, in meditation, in prayer, in some centering activity for you to get quiet, and take care of yourself.

It is anti-cultural to slow down. It's anti-cultural to say, "I can't do it all. I'm not the super woman." It's anti-cultural to say, "I need help." It is almost as if I should whisper it and say, "You have permission." You have permission to ask for help, and to spend time taking care of you, mama. You, woman out there. You, amazing being. Because the truth is that if you don't take care of yourself, there's gonna be a health scare. I hate to put it that way, but it is the truth. There is gonna be a health scare. There is gonna be a “some scare.” There's gonna be something that happens that's gonna wake you up if not now, later. Why wait until later? Let's start taking care of ourselves now. Let's start being honest about our lives now. Let's start reconnecting with ourselves, so that we can prioritize and live the lives that we want to live, and live them out loud.

I'm all about creating. I'm not bullshitting. I'm all about creating a tribe of empowered and mindful women that are not afraid to live this life out loud. That are not afraid to say, "I take time for myself so that I can be my best self for myself and for my kids, and for my spouse, and for my lover, and for everyone that I interact with every single day. And I am okay with it. And not only am I okay with it, I am great with it. And I want you to do the same." Because that's how we connect with our power. That's how we connect with our strength. That's how we stay healthy. That's how we stay tuned in to our greater power, whatever that is for you.

So I am encouraging you, I am inviting you, to spend some time figuring out what works for you, to spend some time being quiet, to spend some time really evaluating what your priorities are. So look back over 2017, and this first month and a half of 2018, and see how well is that working for you? Are there areas of your life that could be working better? Is there joy in areas of your life that you're leaving on the table? Could your health be better? Could your relationships be better? And more importantly, could your connection with yourself be improved?

If you answered yes to any of those things, let's work on it! Let's get it together. Let's work on our self-care. Let's work on our mindfulness. Let's begin to make strides in these areas so that we can improve our 2018, and leave a legacy when we're ready to go. Not because we didn't take care of business. And by taking care of business, that means taking care of ourselves.

So, if you want to learn more about mindfulness and self-care for mothers, I have a free group. I have a free community, jump on into it. And for those of you that right now know that you want to make a serious commitment, meaning you want to work on it on a monthly basis, join my Mindful Mama Membership Circle, where every month you get a lesson. You get an affirmation. You get a guided meditation from me. You get additional tools, worksheets, workbooks, journal prompts, whatever is needed to hone in that particular message around self-care and mindfulness. I'd love for you to join me. We have founding member benefits, and a founding recurring rate that will go away soon. Definitely the links are here, I invite you to join me.

I would love to hear how your 2018 is going. And what you think about this Wendy Williams thing. About what I feel like is the expose, which I have been preaching for I don't know how long, and talking about, that we can't do it all and the super woman idea is a freaking myth - and it's only hurting us as women. The longer that we perpetuate this, that doing it all is the equivalent of being a super woman, we're only hurting ourselves. We're already freaking super women, and the moment that we figure that out and take care of ourselves, we're even greater, because our powers are strengthened!

So, I invite you again, check out my free Mindful Mama Group. Join my email list, get connected. Or for those of you that are more serious and know that you want to take concerted efforts to really get in touch with yourself, and love this motherhood journey that we are so privileged to be on, join my Membership Circle.

Thank you so much. Like and share this video. Talk to you soon.