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[auraxins]

okay im posting this fic and then going for a shower and hopefully by the time im back its been long enough that even if it takes a little while it definitely shows up everywhere

[berryshiara]

I posted 1,153 times in 2021

87 posts created (8%)

1066 posts reblogged (92%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 12.3 posts.

I added 2,350 tags in 2021

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#femshep - 344 posts

#asari - 199 posts

#beautiful - 152 posts

#wow - 144 posts

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#awesome art - 117 posts

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Baby Turians

are called Fledglings

and a group of baby Turians are called a Flurry

A Flurry of Fledglings.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

13 notes • Posted 2021-09-27 18:34:14 GMT

#4

WIP Whenever What ails you...

(Notes: This is a writing prompt that @natsora generously challenged me to do. The criteria was a Shiara fic with the following prompts,

Im sorry, I’m so sorry. Passing out A makes a mistake and b pays the price.

Since I was tagged for a WIP Wednesday, I decided to do this as a whenever because its obviously isnt Wednesday. And I wanted to let you know, I was working on it. :))

Our story begins... Illium 2185

Work… it had been increasingly difficult to do the closer the day came around. 

Shepard… 

Liara sat at her desk, eyes focused not on the wealth of information coming through the vid screens but the single holo picture of her newly resurrected lover. Emotions roiled within, leaving her feeling as if she were fighting a maelstrom. Trepidation at today's agenda left the normally cool headed Asari… rattled.

It bothered her that she found herself unable to jump in, when all she wanted was what they had lost… no, what she had lost. For two years she grieved, fell apart, experienced hurt so deeply that it had felt as if she could die from it. In her delirious need to fill the holes left in her soul she had hunted for Shepard… found her, and even gave her to a terrorist organization on the slimmest chance that she could be brought back. 

How many times did she feel she had betrayed her love for that desperate act? How much more hurt had she heaped upon herself for the actions she had taken? How many more was there yet to be had?

When Shepard had reached Illiam she had been beside herself with emotions… ones that mirrored the ones she felt now. Were there really words for them? 

Liara sighed, forcing herself out of the chair trying to find any distraction, but emerald eyes haunted her. That day Shepard came… she had wanted more than that kiss. The needs that filled her had damn near pushed her into an early unwanted heat… it’s madness had clawed at her, raking across the soul, drawing blood. If Shepard had been alone would she have had the fortitude to tell her no? Did she have that strength now?

Goddess she felt crazy…

Soul sickness was a terrible curse… still she pined for her mate. Hungered for the bonds that had been, cried for the home that was... it left her terrified what would happen if she let herself have this concession. That kiss had nearly undone her…

The madness bubbled so near the surface Liara found herself suddenly considering the time allotted to her with her Léaina and how hard it would be to bump it up. ‘Calm down Liara…” She murmured, forcing herself to take a deep breath… in through the nose, out through the mouth.

An action she repeated several times even as she made a mental note of how close it was for Shepard to arrive. A truly counter productive experience if ever she had one… Growling in frustration Liara  found herself bringing up her omni tool  to send a quick note to Soteria, asking if she would be able to help with the time allotment change for her next session. 

To her surprise, her Léaina sent back a quick response, one she did not anticipate at all. “I’m calling you… pick up.” Second’s later her omni tool said just that.

With a spike to her vitals she answered, and prayed silently to Athame that the quiver she felt did not register in her voice. 

“Liara speaking.”

“Hey sweetheart.” 

To her surprise a sense of relief filled her the moment Léaina Soteria spoke in that warm contralto voice.

“I have this feeling your day is a lot more stressful than you anticipated. So, I wanted to personally remind you that you have my time whenever you need it, for whatever reasons, not only because of your Oestrus cycle. If you feel you need to move up tonight, or tomorrow, we will do that. Even if you need to talk, I am here for you; my Cria. I know from last time that you are going through something stressful, because of this, I felt it pertinent to remind you, I am here.”

As if sensing Liara’s mental state she continued.

“I want you to put one hand on your stomach, and one on your chest, when you breathe in, push the hand on your stomach out, hold it… and out through the mouth.”

When Liara had done this deep breathing exercise it had felt as if she were gulping air to no effect, now, under Léaina Soeteria’s guidance she slowed the breath down, holding it as Soteria continued the instruction.

“As you do it again, I want you to focus on feeling your pulse begin to slow, the tension in your neck dissipating as you relax your shoulders.”

She drew in that breath, holding it for a count of three before expelling it through pursed lips.

“And a final breath…”

With Léaina Soteria’s guidance she was able to find the calm that she had blasted out the airlock while thinking about Shepard.

(End for now)

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14 notes • Posted 2021-01-03 03:01:05 GMT

#3

Chapter 7 is now up! Fen continues her chosen course, but finds out some uncomfortable truths along the way. The continued story of my Ardat-Yakshi Foínix Éleos. Her struggles to find her place in the universe, and come to terms with the woman she is and the woman she wants to be. Meet her quirky crew, devoted friends, and found family. Pallikári Teíchos & Foínix Éleos drawn by @maskydoo-main @maskydoolovesmasseffect

for Citadel Fashion Week 2021 She does such a wonderful job with them. Ty so much Masky for breathing life into them with your art. ♥

24 notes • Posted 2021-09-12 23:57:13 GMT

#2

HELP BUILD Mass Effect Yellow Pages!

Hello o/! Im Berry, and I am asking for a moment of your time please. IF YOU!

Thats right, you who are reading this. IF YOU are a writer, or world builder of any kind, and have made your very own business WITHIN the Mass Effect world, WE wanna know! If you have a head cannon about any already known in game businesses we wanna know! My friend @maskydoo-main @maskydoolovesmasseffect has created a list for business inside Mass Effect that are clothing makers, and apparel for wearing list.

BUT! It has come to my attention that I want a more comprehensive list for ALL fan created business! I want to be able to use them in my story building, and or cameo them in my fan fictions. And I bet im not the only one who would love this.

Reblog this post and I will start a Yellow Pages for Mass Effect. Or DM me with your info!

I wanna know head cannons, owner names, and race, where it is located, tidbits and trivia about your business, when was it founded, how long has it been in service, what are the services it provides, what happened to it during or after the war. I WANNA KNOW IT ALL!!!!! Here are mine to get us started Business of Mass Effect & Andromeda WIP

Thanks guys!

Please note, if you put your business on this page you are consenting to other content makers to use it.

56 notes • Posted 2021-04-20 22:19:20 GMT

#1

World Builders of Mass Effect

Mass Effect Fan Codex!

our url has been updated!

So you know that post with the google doc for business of mass effect? @maskydoo-main @maskydoolovesmasseffect decided we could do it BIGGER, BETTER! Now instead of just Business of Mass Effect We invite you to share EVERYTHING! Planets, People, Places, Plants and Animals, Drugs and their effects. Your OC if you want. There is so much more you can share here than the previous post.

Welcome to the Mass Effect Fan Codex Made by and for fans like you!♥

62 notes • Posted 2021-04-21 19:51:55 GMT

Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

[grapefruitwoozi]

I was tagged by @kyebumzu-official (thank uu~)

i tag: @soonhosh @k-linyong @krbiy @ilovewoozi 

Your top 10 biases?  

Amber Liu f(x)

Lee Jihoon (seventeen)

Kim Namjoon (bts)

Kim Hansol (topp dogg)

Kim Kibum (shinee)

Rocky (astro)

Kim Yugyeom (got7)

Joy (red velvet)

Yoojung (ioi)

Chele (nct dream)

First group I listened to/liked? snsd!!! awwwh

Do you prefer boy groups or girl groups? depends on how gay i feel each day Favorite female group? f(x)!!!!!!

Favorite male group? uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh bts, topp dogg, and seventeen are all p tied tbh so idk Favorite female solo artist? can i say amber??? bc amber if i can count her as a soloist. But if not then Lim Kim!!!! (pls appreciate her shes so great) Favorite male solo artist? jay park  Top 3 Groups? f(x), topp dogg, bts Favorite Kpop Song? i dont know like, favorite over anything always, but right now its fxxk it by big bang

Favorite happy Kpop song? chewing gum by nct dream hELL YEAH

Favorite Kpop sad song? rainy day by topp dogg

Favorite Kpop smut song? listen i cant think of any smutty kpop song rn for some reason and this isnt even kpop but lu by luhan is my shit lmaoooooo its barely even smutty but idc

Favorite Kpop song of 2017 so far? knock knock by twice or never ever by got7

Favorite debut? astro!! :’))

Favorite debut of 2017 so far? tbh idk lmao

Favorite mv of 2017 so far? knock knock 

Favorite mv? uhhhhh im not sure tbh

Favorite album/mini album? i do not know at all

Favorite album/mini album of 2017 so far? idk that eITHER IM AWFU L WHOOPS

Your ultimate bias? amber liu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Favorite GIF of your ultimate bias? 

Favorite picture of your ultimate bias? literally all of them i cant pick 

Favorite thing about your bias? shes the most wonderful, sweetest, genuine person in the whole entire world. shes so real and honest and shes so open i’ve never seen anyone be as wonderful as her and i just love how genuine she is. she loves everyone and its amazing

Was he your bias from the start? im not sure if this means like, out of all the groups i like or just out of f(x) bc if its the first then no, because key was but then immediately after i found out abt amber i fell in love so she became my ult. and for the second one, yes bc i never even looked at the other members like “are they my bias??” bc like, amber.

Have you ever changed biases more than 3 times and in what group? nah. not more than three. but i changed biases in got7 and shinee lmao. 

Favorite Ship? soonhoon, namjin, verkwan, taekook, and yoonmin are all p much tied lmao

Do you ship the “mom & dad” in your favorite group? yeah!

Who’s the mom and dad in your favorite group? namjoon n jin

Who do you end up liking more in groups; Leaders, Maknaes, mood makers, vocal, rap, “mom”, “dad”, English speaker, drummer, guitarist, pianist? tbh idk i like any one ??? i guess most of my biases can rap? like they arent all the rappers but they can rap? or english speakers too idk my biases r all different lmaoo

If your bias got a girlfriend/boyfriend how would you feel? I would be happy for them n just hope their boyfriend or girlfriend treat them well and keep them happy (also lowkey salty it wasnt me lmao lbr)

How would you feel if your bias came out gay/lesbian/bisexual/etc.? if any of the girls did id be like oh hELL YEAH FUCK YEAH MY BABIES COME LOVE ME AND KISS ME but any of my biases in general if they came out id be like “welcome to the gay life babies we got refreshments n love for u~”

Do you think any kpop idols are gay/lesbian/bisexual/etc.? definitely. i think theres no way EVERY. SINGLE. IDOL. is straight. its just not realistic.

If so; who? I'd rather not say bc i dont feel like fighting with ppl but i do have a lot in mind

Favorite kpop blog? currently its @blood-sweat-and-sin 10/10

Favorite kpop scenario blog? i dont have a fav lmao

Favorite kpop smut blog? i dont have a fav for this either 

Favorite Kpop fanfic? uhhhhh idk ive been enjoying this kim hansol fic called “my butterfly” on wattpad, its really good but they havent updated in a while cries. as for finished ones idk heres my wattpad finished list 

Favorite show with kpop idols? i do not know

Do you prefer saying “Oppa” or being called “Noona”? bye g2g

Is it cuter when KPop Idols know your language or don’t know it and try to speak it? when they dont really know it and try speak it bc their accents sound super cute and the english is broken :’) i lov

BIGBANG: “Bang Bang Bang” or “We like 2 Party”?

iKon: “#WYD” or “Rhythm Ta”?

Monsta X: “Perfect Girl” or “All in”?

BTS: “Save Me” or “Fire”?

EXO: “Monster” or “Growl”?

Astro: “Breathless” or “Hide&Seek”?

Red Velvet vs. EXID: “Ice Cream Cake” or “Up & Down”?

4Minute: “Crazy” or “Hate”?

NCT U vs NCT 127: “The 7th Sense” or “Fire Truck”?

Got7: “Just Right” or “Fly”?

Amber vs Ailee: “Borders” or “Insane”?

FTISLAND: “Take Me Now” or “Pray”?

History: “Queen” or “Might Just Die”?

KNK: “Knock” or “Back Again”?

Day6: “Congratulations” or “Letting Go”?

Block B: “Her” or “Toy”

ZICO: “I am You, You are Me” or “Boys And Girls”?

B.A.P: “Feel So Good” or “Young, Wild & Free?”

Seventeen: “Very Nice” or “Adore U”?

Taeyeon: “I (feat Verbal Jint)” or “Why”?

G-Dragon Vs. Taeyang: “Who you?” or “Eyes, Nose, Lips”

BTS: “The Most Beautiful Moment In Life Series” or “Dark & Wild”?

Day6: “The Day” or “DAYDREAM?”

BIGBANG: “A” or “M”

Monsta X: “The Clan, Pt.1 ” or “Rush”?

Seventeen: “Boys Be” or “First Love&Letter”?

EXO: “Ex’ACT” or “Love Me Right”?

Astro: “Spring Up” or “Summer Vibes”?

Vixx: “Chained Up” or “Error”?

EXO or BTS? bts

SISTAR or Red Velvet? red velvet

NCT U or NCT 127? nct dream

Girls’ Day or Girls Generation? girls generation

Seventeen or GOT7? seventeen

Winner or iKon? idk

Block B or Beast? block b

Romeo or Astro? astro !!!

Jimin or Jungkook? jimin~~

Xiumin or Chanyeol? xiu!!!

Taeyeon or Ailee? AILEE 

G-Dragon or Taeyang? gd!

Amber or Henry? Amber!!

Wooshin or Hwanhee (up10tion)? wooshin~

Jeonghan or Dino? lee chan!

Taemin or Jonghyun? jjong

Seulgi or Irene? seulgi

Got7: Markson or Markjin? 

Red Velvet: JoyGi or WenRi joyri

BTS: VKook or JiKook?

EXO: Hunhan or Kaisoo?

Monsta X: Showhyuk or Jookyun?

Topp Dogg: Hanjoo or Xenissi?

NCT: TaeTen or JaeYong?

Seventeen: Meanie or Jeongcheol? soonhoon

iKon: Double B or Double J (Junhwan)?

[berryshiara]

WIP Whenever What ails you...

(Notes: This is a writing prompt that @natsora generously challenged me to do. The criteria was a Shiara fic with the following prompts,

Im sorry, I’m so sorry. Passing out A makes a mistake and b pays the price.

Since I was tagged for a WIP Wednesday, I decided to do this as a whenever because its obviously isnt Wednesday. And I wanted to let you know, I was working on it. :))

Our story begins... Illium 2185

Work… it had been increasingly difficult to do the closer the day came around. 

Shepard… 

Liara sat at her desk, eyes focused not on the wealth of information coming through the vid screens but the single holo picture of her newly resurrected lover. Emotions roiled within, leaving her feeling as if she were fighting a maelstrom. Trepidation at today's agenda left the normally cool headed Asari… rattled.

It bothered her that she found herself unable to jump in, when all she wanted was what they had lost… no, what she had lost. For two years she grieved, fell apart, experienced hurt so deeply that it had felt as if she could die from it. In her delirious need to fill the holes left in her soul she had hunted for Shepard… found her, and even gave her to a terrorist organization on the slimmest chance that she could be brought back. 

How many times did she feel she had betrayed her love for that desperate act? How much more hurt had she heaped upon herself for the actions she had taken? How many more was there yet to be had?

When Shepard had reached Illiam she had been beside herself with emotions… ones that mirrored the ones she felt now. Were there really words for them? 

Liara sighed, forcing herself out of the chair trying to find any distraction, but emerald eyes haunted her. That day Shepard came… she had wanted more than that kiss. The needs that filled her had damn near pushed her into an early unwanted heat… it’s madness had clawed at her, raking across the soul, drawing blood. If Shepard had been alone would she have had the fortitude to tell her no? Did she have that strength now?

Goddess she felt crazy…

Soul sickness was a terrible curse… still she pined for her mate. Hungered for the bonds that had been, cried for the home that was... it left her terrified what would happen if she let herself have this concession. That kiss had nearly undone her…

The madness bubbled so near the surface Liara found herself suddenly considering the time allotted to her with her Léaina and how hard it would be to bump it up. ‘Calm down Liara…” She murmured, forcing herself to take a deep breath… in through the nose, out through the mouth.

An action she repeated several times even as she made a mental note of how close it was for Shepard to arrive. A truly counter productive experience if ever she had one… Growling in frustration Liara  found herself bringing up her omni tool  to send a quick note to Soteria, asking if she would be able to help with the time allotment change for her next session. 

To her surprise, her Léaina sent back a quick response, one she did not anticipate at all. “I’m calling you… pick up.” Second’s later her omni tool said just that.

With a spike to her vitals she answered, and prayed silently to Athame that the quiver she felt did not register in her voice. 

“Liara speaking.”

“Hey sweetheart.” 

To her surprise a sense of relief filled her the moment Léaina Soteria spoke in that warm contralto voice.

“I have this feeling your day is a lot more stressful than you anticipated. So, I wanted to personally remind you that you have my time whenever you need it, for whatever reasons, not only because of your Oestrus cycle. If you feel you need to move up tonight, or tomorrow, we will do that. Even if you need to talk, I am here for you; my Cria. I know from last time that you are going through something stressful, because of this, I felt it pertinent to remind you, I am here.”

As if sensing Liara’s mental state she continued.

“I want you to put one hand on your stomach, and one on your chest, when you breathe in, push the hand on your stomach out, hold it… and out through the mouth.”

When Liara had done this deep breathing exercise it had felt as if she were gulping air to no effect, now, under Léaina Soeteria’s guidance she slowed the breath down, holding it as Soteria continued the instruction.

“As you do it again, I want you to focus on feeling your pulse begin to slow, the tension in your neck dissipating as you relax your shoulders.”

She drew in that breath, holding it for a count of three before expelling it through pursed lips.

“And a final breath…”

With Léaina Soteria’s guidance she was able to find the calm that she had blasted out the airlock while thinking about Shepard.

(End for now)

Special Notes: I write all my Asari with the premise that they go into Heat for their reproductive cycle. I find it a fascinating contrast to their big brains, and perhaps a necessary evolutionary adaptation for long lives and low birth counts. It is called their Oestrus cycle. They become attractive to other species who can smell these changes in them, and to eachother... while also having an insatiable desire to mate. Because of this they have a class of highly trained Asari called - Léaina - Trusted women who help asari through their heat. There are private Leaina and commercialized Leaina. They are guardians & protectors, psychiatrists, and spiritual advisors. Léaina  literally means Lioness in greek :P it felt like the right choice.

They have sanctuaries called Den’s where those afflicted with their oestrus will go, to protect them from the madness of themselves, and others affected by it. They can be a single room sanctuary or a large commercialized den where many rooms and many Léaina work.

Cria - is ACTUALLY the name of a baby alpaca, like cats have kittens, but i wanted it to be a word one said that meant they were someone who the Léaina not only felt responsible for, but also attached to. Like their little ones who needed protection, guidance and help when necessary. I thought what better than the name of a baby under a mothers care? :3c

(More to come later~)