#ppl were talking about it and i didnt see it and then 20 eps in Ali did the laught and i was like

[clover-punk]

F@tT PSD 21 spoilers(?) below the cut, regarding The Call.

Oh my god... I cannot believe the brnine/gucci people were right. Someday I will learn how to pick up on this before we get to the point where Ali does The Laugh (you know the one).

And then Austin (through Gucci) compares them to Primary and Satellite!?!?!

I'm dead. This killed me. I feel insane. (But like... in a good way)

[ginalinettiofficial]

hey what’s up hello okay so i finally just finished s2 e52 of dndads (had a very crazy work week so was listening in bits and pieces) and here’s the thing is that im also currently relistening to the whole season and earlier in this week, the most recent episode i finished, was halt and catch fireball, and before that ya know was mrs. swallows oak garcia’s home for peculiar teens or whatever that one is called where they are just. at normal’s house and we got to actually get to know rebecca a little bit and i have got to say that i don’t know if i could’ve picked a more painful and wild older ep to listen to as a precursor to dood riddance i really don’t!!! literally half of the shit in dood riddance just circles back to that arc in the swallows oak garcia home and it’s CRAZY

like first of all. the red vines, which they called twizzlers the entirety of e52 which was MADDENING as a person who legit just finished e30/31 where the red vines were introduced

but then like. e31 is where taylor gets the anime sword from nick!!! that he loses in e52!!!

there were a few other things that i’ve forgotten in the half an hour since i finished the ep because my brain is a sieve on a good day and i’m just getting home from two back to back 13 hour shifts (with an extra 1hr10/20 each day for the commute) so the brain machine is so fucking broke rn

but mainly. i wasn’t loving e52 esp after dood left i just was not vibing with it, i feel like the vibes were off in the room in a way that translated into the ep for a bit there, but then anthony in those last like three minutes brought it back around and with the roll of rebecca??? after i legit JUST finished listening to the eps that feature her the most prominently and like truly showcase not only normal’s relationship w his mom but also, as is said several times in e30/31 and their teen talks, just how similar normal IS to his mom and how he really clearly is a total momma’s boy and very much so seemed to be a kid who sought solace with his mom more than anyone else in his family and just. having legit JUST reestablished that in my own, made the end of e52 DEVASTATING for me in a way that idk if it was for other ppl??? idk haven’t checked the fandom yet im very disconnected this season but just.

like

i think that okay so we have ten parents it could’ve been, right? and five of those are the kiddads, and none of us want to see them die, so in that moment when anthony was telling us what was gonna happen, obviously my instinct was like “oh god don’t do this don’t do terry jr again but truly permanent” and then my next instinct was that it would be potentially even MORE awful if it was scary’s dad because finally there he is and that’s ALL she wants and for willy to take that moment from her would be INSANE and then (mind you this was my thought process over the course of literally 10 seconds, my brain is ping ponging in my head and has been since the second i got in the car to head home i need to sleep) and THEN my next thought was, oh god, but how fucked up would it be if it were marco??? oh god, how fucked up would it be if it were cassandra?!?!?!?! and then it was time for the roll and truly in those brief seconds basically my brain flicked through every potential victim and said “oh god THAT one would be the WORST”, EXCEPT for veronica and rebecca, and it made the hit of it being rebecca who was low down on my instinctual list to think of but then the second he said her name i was immediately ricocheted back to earlier in the week when i was listening to halt and catch fireball and mrs. swallows oak garcias home and how many emotions i had about normal and his mom just relistening to those episodes and then the fact that i DIDNT think to worry about her just

all of that combined to make that a CRITICAL HIT FOR ME OKAY like i am SO fucked up over this truly that was WILD and i applaud anthony burch for it and now am excited for the finale even though ive spent the last three eps just dreading it for several reasons but now im excited and devastated and i love that

anyways. that was word vomit i just NEEDED to get this out because the connections between those two episodes really will not stop hitting me in the head and i need to impart that onto SOMEONE. if u read this. ur a real one. rip rebecca swallows oak garcia you were a legend and i am so sad about u

[blueiight]

This is the official dialogue per IMDB. I guess you could say it's questionable but Daniel does call out the BS about how they were scattered and then Louis has to admit he just didn't wanna share it last time?

Daniel Molloy: So, it begs the question, where were all these diaries in 1973?

Louis de Pointe du Lac: Scattered. One in New Orleans, another in Paris.

Daniel Molloy: Bullshit.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: [long pause] Claudia was… everything. I loved her unconditionally. All the noise, the chaos, the crisis of my former existence, silenced. The simple joy of her hand in mine.

Daniel Molloy: You had a daughter.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: I had a daughter.

Daniel Molloy: I've got two. The love is kind of…

Louis de Pointe du Lac: And if you were to come across their diaries and learn, in detail, how and when you failed them, would you share those failures with a brash young reporter you met at Polynesian Mary's?

So I think Louis just couldnt face his failures then or share them with someone he met in such a casual encounter vs now trusting them wth an older Daniel who has kids of his own

thank u for the script! i agree that louis didnt want to face how he hurt claudia.. even now, when recalling the day he doomed her to being trapped in a physically eternal adolescence[+ her later, even crueler death], he still frames claudia as 'his light, his redemption' [for what, lou? his past of tricking? when her life would be so tragic with or without louis?] but as to if he knew the full content of claudia's diaries in the 1970s we wouldnt know yet + daniel dont rly got the perspective to know whether louis did or didnt have them neither? i dont think we as the audience were meant to take what daniel said here as some sort of confirmation that louis always had the diaries. n tbf would louis rly wanna share those diaries w a 20 something he met at a gay bar tho even if he had them? if we r meant to think louis had claudia's diaries in the 1970s based off this scene id be interested in how the show would do this.. i just find it rly interesting how louis seems to be motivated to gather this truth + reconciliation committee over his own life knowing in his read of claudia's diaries that she resented both lestat and louis, who cut out which parts exactly, as well as other extenuating factors i done said before contrasting his mindset in the 70s v. now.. im not tooo committed to any particular line of speculation but i took dan’s saying its bullshit bc all he know is 1) claudia literally isnt there in the modern day and its clear other ppl have censored her diaries and 2) he suspects louis’s involvement in why/how.. he says bullshit on the diaries being scattered but we know louis and claudia traverse both new orleans & paris so i took it as dan's pov also being biased just as any other? dan is using this interview as a means to doubly probe into louis’s psychology, and he doesnt have the most generous read on louis's 'reliability'. this 'trust' or reliability as i put it erodes the further the interview goes on, the less daniel knows the more hes afraid of, and when hes afraid like bogosian says, he becomes more combative + less concilatory/actually conducting a proper interview lolol. his prior knowledge of the 1970s tapes is being subsumed by the modern interview. the old tapes just got burnt by lou last ep after all, and what we see on screen is not word for word beat for beat what louis is telling daniel [or otherwise showing daniel thru the mind].

side note: something i find interesting in the script..

Louis de Pointe du Lac: [long pause] Claudia was… everything. I loved her unconditionally. All the noise, the chaos, the crisis of my former existence, silenced. The simple joy of her hand in mine.

Daniel Molloy: You had a daughter.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: I had a daughter. Daniel Molloy: I've got two. The love is kind of…

trashbag deadbeat dad whos daughters prolly refused to talk to him if not cut him off completely the older they became [daniel] meets emotionally codependent mom/vampire sibling ..

[dipskits]

ok so @deadg1rls​ tagged me

Nicknames: binnie! and sammy! and i had been thinking of starting to use macy from my birth name.......

Height: 6′/184cm 

The last thing I googled: i looked up shel silverstein books bc i wanted to put one in a drawing i was making!!! i ended up just drawing one i had here because none of the pictures were what i wanted. i didnt even use the guy’s actual art or anything just the spine of the book lol

Favourite musicians: im my own favorite musician!!!!!!! :3 my favorite producer is tyler the creator, my favorite singer is girls rituals AKA blacksquares AKA devi mccallion, my favorite rapper is kendrick lamar and i have a lot more!!

Song stuck in your head: the first song i listed under favorite songs!!!!

Following: im following a lil over 3000 ppl but it’s probably just a couple hundred or so posting multiple times in a week if i had to guess...i recognize most people bc most people i see just post a WHOLE lot...

Followers: i have like...300 followers here and a 3,800 on my alt that i stopped using bc it wasnt personal enough...

Do you get asks? hardly ever...i think i might want to try talking to people on here more and asking for them...the most i ever received was like 10 or 20 in a night when i posted an ask meme on that other blog

Lucky numbers: 6, 21, 621, 86

What you’re wearing: 

Dream trip: theres SO MANY places i want to go...mostly because of people i want to meet and nature i want to see...i’ll list off places in order that i remember them...

the seattle area, north carolina, lima, boston or anywhere in MA, the german part of the black forest (last 5 are bc of people i want to see (but also the nature is great everywhere there) california (probably venice beach and long beach specifically) ...

Instruments: i like writing & messing around on keyboards, harmonicas, 

Languages: english. !!! working on ASL actually. also i know VERY basic french & spanish, the second a bit better bc there’s more stuff that gets referenced often in my experience. i also used to know toki pona but it’s a really rare goofy one..

Favourite songs: aaa ok so i have like tried to make a list of 100 of my favorite songs and i couldnt get even like 5 in a row and be certain so this is sorta hard for me because i like so much and it feels hard to put some stuff below other stuff but! here is some stuff i like right now! mostly in order of how much i like it or how much im thinking about it! 

note that if i were to make a list like this on a different day...even a different hour of this day, it would probably look a lot different! because i would be thinking about different stuff...

1. this is one i made!!! i have been thinking about it so much. it’s my favorite thing ive ever done. it doesnt even have a name but i love it sooo much

2. I THINK by Tyler, the Creator

3. Flags by Valleanenowe

4. die or be killed by devi mccallion & katie dey

5. bloodstains remix by laura les

6. Frozen by AARON CARTIER

7. any song from Stars & Stripes EP by calvin

7. this shit

8. Scenario by ATCQ

9. Billy Not Really by Death Grips

10. the first outro in naruto 

Random fact: my adhd has felt...more like adhd lately...like specifically hyperfocusing and thinking about times i’ve had things that were specifically RSD...i’ve been thinking about how i can never do anything with half of my effort, even if i don’t do everything all the way. i put my heart into whatever im doing! even just having silly little conversations...

iit said tag 21 peeople but i went a lil higher bc 2 or 3 are probably inactive nd wont ever even see the notif...i think most people i @’d are at least a lil active tho :3

@ewanenoellav @mountainofneedles @halfasleepmostlydead @dystol @rowingsworld @howtodestroyangels @destinae @clairaudienceclairvoyance @mechanicalpaw @erosandmilk @c4gdotnet @lentilbf @towniebutch @cwustysean @61ue @ulrikhaug @mouthmoodz @pigwithsock @segaufocatcher @lsd-xm @xxsunshinehaloxx @lymphnodehaver @homosexualityandcriminality @boards-of-kaneda

[softwonjunnie]

my thoughts of the final ep

this gets a lil long so click the button to read it all lmao

before the ep;

okay so i already know hyeongjun, yohan and eunsang will be in the top 11 but it will be fun to see where they place!!

also if dongpyo and donghyun dont make it in the top i will sue someone

and i am so not ready for this 4 hour thing lmaoooo its too long mnet why

during the ep (very out of context stuff);

aAAAAH HYUCK IN X1-MA

daehwi is so cute :(( chaeyeon too :(((

aaah wonjin u fit the center so well, pls get the center position!!!!!

donghyun fits the to my world concept to well pls center

“three months” yohan you’re full of bullshit!! he takes feedback so well aaaah so good

hyeongjun being scared of going to the front when it’s his time to be the center lmao so cute

keumdongie is 110% perfect for the center, plsssss guys vote for the right boy

wonjun & hyuck’s hand heart, help my heart

dongpyo legit describing himself as what the center needs, thats my boy

yuvin’s “i’m still growing” iM QUAKING

dongpyo’s satoori gets me every time help

YUVIN LOOSENING HIS TIE AAAH AND HANGYULS DEEP CUT SHIRT

kookheon looking so happy for yuvin :((

“boy” was supposed to be the non-sexy song...... as if

i need yuvin to do the music works-move if he gets into the final lineup

DONGPYO AND KEUMDONG AS CANDIDATES FOR 9TH PLACE AAAAAAH

KEUMDONGIE WHY ARE YOU SO SEXY ?!

EUNSANGS NOSE THING

eunsang tries out for center and all positions and everything all the time, pls just let him be center  

donghyun isnt even a candidate for center???? are these ppl blind or something

can i just say that i’m hella dissapointed at mnet for not making the boys sing live?? it’s super boring to look at them running around and lip-syncing

also thanks mnet for hiring your worst staff to cut the live performance of to my world lmao it looks awful

also mnet are great at slowing down the final episode to make it so long, applause for that?? no jk it’s horrible, it could've easily been cut down to like 2 hours or less... i’ve just watched both performances and it’s 2 hours and 45 min left.... they’ve been talking about the 11th place boy for like 4 minutes now.... what is this

guess if this bih didn’t just cry when they thanked seokhoon

dongpyo and yoonjung :(((((

dongwook is the best representative of all seasons, i love him

HYUCK AND WONJUN DOING HEARTS AGAIN WAAAAH

dohyun can play the piano?!!!!! i was expecting for him to joke around when they said “dohyun play” but then he did it so effortlessly

lee eunsang is a vocal legend !!!

dongpyo is crying, yuvin is crying, seungyoun is crying, (jo) yuri is crying, everyone is crying

WONJIN HAD A MULLET?!!!!

seungwoo’s message to dongpyo, kill me

aND DONGPYO MADE ONE TO SEUNGWOO TOO im crying too much already

hyungjun nations crybaby

jinhyuk didnt make a message to jinwoo...... :(

suhwan saying he’ll become a better main vocal than yuvin :)))

they’ve lined up now for the results.... i’m not ready...

omg i always say their names along with dongwook in my head, and when he counted up the boys’ names and he said “brand new music lee” my mind said daehwi?? omg

dongpyooooo :( getting major daehwi-feels here

seungyoun rising from such a low rank!!! gj!!!!!

wait a sec.... 4 places left and we have eunsang, hyeongjun, seungwoo, jinhyuck, wooseok AND mingyu left?....... AND YOHAN WHAT

nations crybaby yES

the only three month trainee who deserves 1st place

my baby boy in x position... darling.... guess if i cried even tho i knew about him debuting already?

after the ep;

well well well

its so sad how it’s ending already

it feels like yesterday when i first saw the videos of the ppl nominated for the x1-ma centers

time flies by so fast

i’ve gotten waaaaay more emotionally attached to these boys compared to any of the other seasons

idk if im happy or sad bc it makes me so sad to see the eliminated boys

donghyun :(((( you made it this far and im proud of you to make it into the top 20. you fought hard all this time!! good job!!!!! we love you

i remember picking out dongpyo, donghyun and hyeongjun as my faves from those first pictures that came out...

and i remember how i found the ep1 live stream on youtube and just wanted to watch a super small part - and i turned it on right at starship’s performance. and i was so heartbroken at hyeongjun performing so poorly because he looked so cute, but he fought back!! and he did so well and came in 4th (!!!!!) place! i love him

and i remember how i first saw donghyun and thought “ah! he looks a lot like donghyun from season 2!” and then i was gonna write down his name and..... wait a second

now that i look back at my list i wrote in the beginning with trainees to look out for...... im shook

i wrote down song hyeongjun, ham wonjin, don dongpyo, lee eunsang, lee wonjun (ah bby :/ ), keum donghyun, nam dohyun, kim yohan, cho seungyoun, kim sihoon and yoon junghwan

8/11 were in the top 20, 6/11 got into the final lineup and the others are hella talented and were eliminated too early

but i guess overall i’m satisfied with the outcome?? like i would’ve wanted wonjin and donghyun in it but i’m not too bothered tbh. it’s alright

i would’ve wanted jinhyuk and wooseok to change places bc i think jinhyuk would bring more to the group, him placing 14th is bullshit

the most saddening thing tho is that the starship boys are all split up now for 5 years so we probs won’t see a starship boygroup now for another 2.5 years so bye guys

conclusion i love pdx101

i love the trainees

and i love you guys who follow me and send me love and support, let’s all support our wonderful boys together!!! pdx101 fighting!!!!!!

[misterbitches]

@flootweed ​

ATOTS

That's super fucking romantic? Like tragic but in a nice way. i love that shit. i'm a monogamous slut for romance pghiosuag even tho we have to learn to live alone too but it's just like the NOTION is nice?!??! awwww i told my mom that SOPHIE's gf was like "she died taking a picture of the moon" and how it was like idk. the gf was just processing it and she thought it was romantic and my mom was like "wow.....depressing" bc think she thought it was stupid millenial shit i was like no mother doent u see she died in the BEAUTY LMAO but then i told her jessica walter's husband died the year before and then she died and she was like "aw...kind of romantic" LMAOOOO i guess two people have to die. why did i tell this story? i am so sorry. the show ended today right (ep 10?) i didn't realize it was that short. so i hope it was a happy ending? (tell me) i understand why you love the atmos! it's like, not really been done. there's this BL that i hear isn't too great but it does take place in a rural part of thailand and there's way less budget. a lot of ppl seem to like it. ep 6 LW / LW in gen gotta be honest, rushed through it. i knew spoilers from jump cause BL spoilers are just absolutely nothing and sometimes ur just like i need to know. i do not understand the ~silently lookin 4 u~ trope it always backfires and is also DUMB. so happy about tiffy. a girl who likes girls but ends up with a man bc of mommy and also the man is ok....it's me. she's gorgeous and actually [h*lf] gay so it's great. god ok i feel so old again. lmaooo but i was like obsessed with lady gaga for that reason (dont ask...also how i got kinda popular on tumblr way back in the day) and shes just absolutely fucking beautiful and bad ass. (which kind of doesnt helpcos they r all skinnty but that's FINEEEE) right? i mean like i guess cos we knew abt it? i can see why he was so pissed off, too? i mean i'm so fucking like...sensitive to being told what to do so i was angry for him from jump. i guess i was also looking at it different wholetime cos i knew the spoilers? i'm assuming u did too lmao. so we knew hed be pissed and leave. and frankly that's what sib gets. just for you my friend i will watch it and update. i think MANY times in shows in gen but it is something you notice a lot in BL bc they are just absolute novices most times. in this case, gene's actor mostly well (and i like him as a person just cos he was on that thai 3 girls in a car show and used to date on eof them lmao) can act so i will look over that scene to see how sib's actor plays off him. but the pausing in between sentences or for so long even decent actors or actors doing better. kao is not bad, not great so they will talk slowly because dramatic acting but the problem is most times it's too long. even if the person is an adept actor it won't always work and YES THEN THAT MEANS THE EDITOR COMES IN AND SNIP SNIP SNIP! it's too long. and sometimes it just does not work even if you can act. but it is GLARING when they cant or are average (someoe said this about tharntype and my god lmao tharn..is...so...slow...in...talking...the actor idk his name it's one of em, the other one with the nose (type) is....different not better but he certainly does not talk as slow. they arent bad but they are not good so.) also sometimes they are forgetting their lines. some ppl find this charming. clearly we do not lmao. what is their relation? what is going on there? i don't have a problem with stepbrothers as long as they didn't grow up with that sibling bond. many times blended families really have to watch out for that kind of fraternizing but it's always when theyre older and teenagers bc they didnt grow up w/ each other....i mean they have chemistry so i'm whatever. but. hennYYWAYYYS.actually it's bc im an idiot i didn't read it as Mhok (singular) and aey's father. Yes and his sister who i think i may hate? im like bitch okkkkkk but. his name is lhong. and he is a psycho. i mean so is type. so. oooh it could be that he stole! but also i'm pretty sure cos hes gay lol or did they

not make that explicit? the thing is i had to skip through most of that scene too because the drama was WAY too much for me. too much. lmao. the sister thing i got and it made sense and iliked that. oh yea he is gay and they know. that's a big one.

WBL

haven’t watched color rush! did you like it? i have seen wyel, parts of mr heart, and ofc to my star :) 

ohhhhhh ok. i get you. yea he definitely wasn’t being ooc cos i think that....what u said. and also like....ugh i cant even think rn. i like sam lin a lot so i like gao shi de but i gotta say. lmao. hm. first of all. yes it is creepy what he did. it’s fucking weird. and sad that his whole life revolves around him. it’s not as fucking weird as LW but still like when he did the door thing. i was like UMMMMMMMMM cos i really didnt want it to be constructed. and when it was i was like imma suspend my disbelief. but if anyone dared...

and so what he did in s2 i think he just couldnt realize that he was loved back which is why it’s good he WAS ALONE for 5 yrs imo. but he gave shu yi 0 choice and for that i am pretty sure i would be even angrier. i do think though that the father’s role is pretty important but i can see how the show is like....letting that go? bc as fucking weird as GSD is, he was still like...20? i guess and shu yi’s dad is like. crazy? i am also like he really had to fucking start a company to get noticed like are u joking? is it also that easy? and also why? lmao i just. ugh. i think that probs bothered me the most...priorities.

i like the show! well idk if i love it but sure. i think it’s decent lmao. i understand what you’re saying. for here it bothers me less but i certainly don’t think it was OOC. immature and stupid but like...that’s.....what they are. i also don’t have a problm with the timing from a technical point.

however, when i started the show? i had NO clue what concept of time it was. and that was very annoying. tehy redeemed it bc of the comedy aspects (the first time shu yi sees shi de is so fucking good, i really loved the shot and editing; it’s hilarious and silly) and i started to go with the flow of the show through that. but the fucking concept of time in the show in general esp with repetitive outfits (i understand that they are more likely to wear multiple outfits as well, it’s just that you have to split it up or it i sconfusing visually and looks like the same scene twice or just a full day of shooting which it could be but then something should change in the clothes. this is just an ex~~*~*) and partof that is they have this already controlled narrative i guess. 

i have to admit as well...i skipped episode 1. and most of 2. i was like i rly dont want to see someone slap a pereson even if they were like. not together. it’s just not cute also not in front of ppl. and then when they were yelling and bla bla i was like listen ladies lets calm down. too much angst in a boring way. what they have now is good. also they should probably like estrange the father but i doubt they will. 

i cannot make up my mind totally now bc i see what ur saying i guess i just don’t feel that way as much but i guess i have to think about it more, too. i do think he was contorlling in getting him or like when he didnt want shu yi to find out whwatshisface liked him. i guess for me it would be if he is still that way in the rship. but even tho he’s at fault for what happened, i’m also like but his dad? but also like...did he try? why did he just stop contacting? but then i guess he emailed everyday? DO U C MY QUANDARY.

alsoi have to say i do not care abt their backdoor being opened lmao like wow business? no thanks

LMAO. did they cry a lot in UWMA? i only know the teamwin parts. which one is fluke the really pale one who died? idk what it is about that kid but i just cant watch him. it’s not his fault it’s mine.

DUDE i still dont understand the husband and wife thing and ive looked into it multiple times. ive kinda just classified it as one of those things that make me uncomfortable but arent problematic lol. it you have any insight about it id love to hear it tho !!

it’s stupid. that’s what it is (husband and wife.) it’s just something they say like many gay couples may use pejoratives in conjunction with them, the f word etc. or even imply something about being a top and a bottom. whatever. but these arent gay spaces or gay storylines. sure gay men may direct them but since BL operates and relies on patriarchy without a doubt and also stereotypes poorly kathoeys or won’t cast trans women in anything substantial and use them as jokes (and see this is one of those things where it’s like...ud never see this in the US tho like our concept of third gender or kathoeys but life stillBOOOOO.) so it’s just useless when they put it into the scripts because it’s for people to consume and lots of girls are. obviously. so the idea that if you are being penetrated and u r the wife and this is used like literally anywhere but not from gay or whatever men is gross. are cis women’s vaginas sieves to them? are trans women not women? do we have to categorize people by PHALLIC OBJECTS IN OUR BODIES SPECIFICALLY A WOMAN? it dont make no sense. plus really most ppl just experiment, there’s more ways than one to have sex, we have lives so most times it’s not just full penetration for hours anyway. it’s just so gross. like oh that’s really funny lol ur the wife cos his dick goes in ur butt XD i get it, same. i say “i’m wife’ whenever there’s a penis in me. fucking kill me. it’s not a big deal but it’s just dumb and gross. if they use it they could try and subvert it too like i like how my engineer has  a whole absurdly stupid episode about it. but in TT the dad says “if ur the wife i wont accept it” and i was like u know what gals? im good. goodbye.

pgojaihousgajigko THAT’S SOOOOOOO OOWIEOFUGHOIJ WEIRD. FANDOM IS REALLY WEIRD. i have read rpf and written it once upon a time but dont do it anymore  uch. i mean it’s weird. no doubt about that. invasive, weird, strange. but very unreal anyway. it is. plus i dont like celebs or fame and think of it as a gross capitalist scheme so i had to stop (also so weird?) but i know very many people like lean in. lean in. LEAN IN. this youtuber i watch did a video on like insanely popular ships (like that 1d one) and their insane fandoms and i just couldnt. it’s so embarrassing? and then they’re so bold????? about it? 

yea it would be cool (more queer men or visibly we should say or like out whatever.) but it doesnt necessarily mean that will be good or beneficial i guess? i mean like. i dont know. so much about the genre is about wish fulfilment for young girls. its literally selling some fantasies because the other thing is for BL (i read a paper on this...) esp for girls in more conservative societies they cna maybe replace themselves in the character? but they may not feel a threat as a woman or like their life will fall apart if they engage in sexual things with anyone really. and that’s where i’m like....for a lot of these are they just writing a story and just replacing two men? bc they also seem to think it owrks like that. and in a way that’s what it is bc of the writing and how they use certain terms. you can tell the piece is about pushing a product and less about the real affects of a story. i think ITSAY is a great example of a really intelligent great piece of work that contains multitudes. and the girl was amazing. it just depends on the goal. and for most of the ppl the goal isnt...to do anything. so i dont know. idk how to talk abt representation anymore. it both is and isnt.

 i really liked tingting from my engineer a lot (idk if u have seen) she’s so fun and unapologetic. i love how much she drinks and if someone tells her to be ladylike she says no. and i appreciate that in the show when girls were rude to her she said nothing about the girls but said “NO IM NOT LUCKY TO HAVE ALL MALE FRIENDS?” i really want to see her more in the next season. obviously tiffy is goat. super excited to see how their rship develops.

[nylenol]

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Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 other blogs to answer as well. @youriko-is-my-jam @jhaskii @bearsketches @bingobanjo @radonodera @friskbitz @boy-o @nekekur @nyaalien @tsuru-yo @originalbookwormninja @scytherion @minichen123 @o-h-k-a-y @honking-honokas-honkers @teabeanssss @catonatrain @prxttypeach @featherpaws

1. Last drink: arizona tea

2. Last phone call: my mom xd

3. Last text message: “we need all the clubs to reply before i can make the flyer” (to my club president, we’re coordinating a multi-club event for school)

4. Last song you listened to: closer by tegan and sara, that song slaps

5. Time you cried: last friday over my grades lmao

6. Dated someone twice?: not even once r u kidding me

7. Kissed someone and regretted it? kiss whom!!! i dont have anyone 2 kiss and its a crime against humanity

8. Been cheated on? nope and i hope never

9. Lost someone special? ya

10. Been depressed? always B)

11. gotten drunk and thrown up? nobe

favorite colors

12. turquoise

13. pastel pink

14. neon colors in general

in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends? yes!!

16. Fallen out of love? lol

17. Laughed until you cried? yes multiple times

18. Found out someone was talking about you? yeah

19. Met someone who changed you? yeah? everyone i meet changes me a bit i think

20. Found out who your friends are?: i been knew i think

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list?: nah

general

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl? like 80% lol

23. Do you have any pets? nope :(

24. Do you want to change your name? no, it has a lot of significance 2 me

25. What did you do for your last birthday? School, got boba w/ friends, nothing much

26. What time did you wake up today? like 8 AM but i didnt drag myself outta bed till 10:30

27. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleebo uwu

28. What is something you cant wait for? April in general! have a school trip, district convention for one of my clubs, seeing a friend :)

30. What are you listening to right now? closer by tegan and sara again lol

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom? Ya

32. Something thats getting on your nerves? MYSELF im dumb af and have the work ethic of a rock and i need 2 change it within the next few weeks

33. Most visited website: Tumblr/Facebook r tied

34. Hair color: dirty blonde ? its brown in some places and blonde in others

35. Long or short hair: looooooooong its almost at my knees rn, probably gna cut it in summer

36. Do you have a crush on someone: as if i can read my own feelings! ha! you fool!

37. What do you like about yourself: im pretty weird but its not bad weird (so im told); it’s easy for me to talk to ppl and i stand out a lot

38. Want any piercings? yeah but im scared of them ripping xd happened to me once as a kid so now Never Again

39. Blood type: dunno

40. Nicknames: Sanders/Bernie, Sandro, Sondre, etc., any of my handles on social media 

41. Relationship status: emotionally unavailable lmao

42. Zodiac: emo pisces

43. Pronouns: She/her

44. fave tv shows: Love Live!, PMMM, Aoi Hana, etc., love live is my main hoe tho

45. Tattoos: not rn, but i wanna get something small on my ankle or something one day

46. Right or left handed: Right handed

47. Ever had surgery: pls no

48. Piercings: used to in my ears (asian baby earring piercings), one closed up tho

49. Sport: water polo/swim

50. Vacation: every few years to VN

51. Trainers: pokemon? yes

more general

52. Eating: just polished off an entire tray of blueberries in 10 mins

54. Im about to watch: new citrus ep

55. Waiting for: me to finish this so i can work on the 190274147236 things i gotta do (a welcome distraction tho)

56. Want: a gf! hit me w that gay shit financial stability

57. Get married: ya eventually

58. career: i wanna do concept art for gamez xd

which is better?

59. Hugs or kisses: both? but hugs preferred

60. Lips or eyes: eyes but also both

61. Shorter or taller: either is fine, same height is optimal

62. Older or younger: same age

63. Nice arms or stomach: nice bonus but neither required (i want 2 be ripped tho)

64. Hookup or relationship: relationship

65. Hesitant or troublemaker: im a huge troublemaker tbh

66. Kissed a stranger: no

67. Drank hard liquor: no

68. Lost glasses: no but i WILL once i get them made

69. Turned someone down: yeah

70. Sex on first date: nono

71. Broken someones heart: yeah

72. Had your heart broken: xd

73.Been arrested: no but the one time I thought i was gonna be i had a stroke almost

74. Cried when someone died: no

75. Fallen for a friend: :) ya

76. Yourself: very much so

77. Miracles: yes!

78. Love at first sight: i think it’s possible, in a sense

79. Santa claus: never really believed in him but that man did exist at some point

80. Kiss on a first date: depends on who?

81. Angels: pretty thought but no

other

82. Best friend’s name: benjamin he a thot

83. Eye colour: dark brown

84. Fave movies: the handmaiden is an all time fave

85. Fave actor: all the ll seiyuu! literal rays of sunshine

[shytiff]

Small September Wins

1 - its JK's birthday, and BTS also got #1 Billboard 🥺 and then dave uploaded a video of him shaving his eyebrows. Somehow theres a lot of stuff happening as Sept starters! I hope all goes well in this month. Aamiin. DL, 6P

2 - DL, e (exercise), finished to 4 padi (took a while, but i still try to be proud), watched in the soop ep 2 yay!!!

3 - DL, e, edited 3 articles, 5P. Drank janjiw’s hazelnut latte and im still not sleepy (its currently 11 pm). like usually bcs i dont move a lot and its a boring routine day to day, im not 100% “awake”. most of the time im running on probably 90-95%, like there’s still that feel of tiredness looming behind, a slight feel on the head. (except after exercise or freshly woken up and bathed) but after coffee, my head doesnt feel the usual tiiiny weight, my eyes somehow feel like they’re fully open lmao. i see the bed and im not even thinking abt laying down and sleeping. my head feels clearer, if that makes sense. is this how other ppl feel all the time? but i feel sbux’s coffee doesnt quite have the “effect” on me like janjiw do. maybe bcs it’s arabica vs robusta. and today my back feels somewhat strong and not tired!! my legs were sore from yesterday but i can sit and do stuff for a while and not feel like ugh on my back

4 - DL, edited 1 article, MPI briefing

5 - DL, planned to run and i even changed but the weather turns SUNNY all of the sudden, and when i change back into normal clothing the suns gone lmao, watched parasite (and afterwards seeing the posters and tidbits about it), ordered damm eat (quite good, but the butter rice was a bit lacking), attended ma 50th anniv on zoom and wadah gerabah (kdm's seminar on financial planning)

6 - DL, e, 2P, ordered koper bebek pak boss (kgn!!! Taste good and oily as always just the way i like it), finished listening to Tentang Anak: Montessori just bcs i was curious

7 - DL, 2K (kompre lisan kak shela), A, the lecture was all day long so its a great distraction while im fasting, the dinner was spicy chicken so i was chugging a lot of water and my stomach was half water half food

8 - DL, D (Dhuha), 15K

9 - DL, 5K, met up with atikah and lau @ mcd citra 7, talked about coding design and branding (a refreshment from medschool vibezz), did delirium ppt for thursday submission (amazed i didnt do it 2 hrs before deadline)

10 - DL, pelatihan apd, google meets with shiko to do delirium ppt, edited 2 articles

11 - DL, E, 8K, wow nemos first webinar is finally published

12 - DL, e, joons birthday!!!!, eidcp (shock and pain), in the soop 4, mpi briefing, played among us with shiko

13 - DL, 20K, 3IKK (Cicil soal DK IKK)

14 - nugas EA bersama manusia2 terstruktur dan rapih anti deadliner club im like wow so this is how other rotations work? lmaooo

15 - DL, did KMKP QA together with B9, cicil DK IKK but my progress was sooo slow, slept in early even though i dont deserve it since i can feel the looming fatigue

16 - DL, lazed around the first half of the day wtf tif ingat kompre :((((, read kak diptas note on acls but i forgot it already (its only been a couple hrs) fkdigital obesity, did DT EA

17 - ask something for the first time in mpi class by my own will lmao. Todays class was very spontaneous. Listed sponsors contacts. DL, 3k

18 - DL, sent soal pld to alya, qc soal pld, finished ppt 1 hr before discussion, slept in until 9 am, my mood feels better after playing among us and werewolf with candra jiwa. i was alive until the very last seconds until i finally died and the evil won. i for sure CANNOT be a detective. Played until 12 am. my sour soul was cheered up, so glad i joined

19 - DT resume submission while lying in bed, kompre briefing, in the soop 5 while exercising (Emi Wong, standing HIIT), rapat sponsor nemo, read PPK Primer, diskusi asinkronus, my will to do things deteriorated again

20 - DL, hamstring and glutes sore af, 4IKK, read some PPK Primer, played among us with dajen and anak merpati, group call w shiko

21 - DL, did geriatri assignment, cicil ikk (even though turned out i did the wrong questions ffffffff), cbl at night from 19:30-21:00. Tried indomaret point's baper coffee and it did make me focus more on my laptop and deadlines to catch. Bts tiny desk concert omg!!!

22 - DL, cicil IKK as always~ geriatri discussion, drank indomaret points caramel latte and studied a bit for kompre. Somehow my stomach is less bloated when i drink coffee the night before :/

23 - DL, 1A, kompre study, dk ikk 17:00, coffee (palm sugar, indomaret point). Im not drowning in assignment... Yet

24 - DL, EA task training and simulation, cbl from 13:00-17:00 powered by sbux vanilla latte, passed out until 20:00, ate sum food, did DT

25 - wtf its friday already?!, DL, task training, spontaneous J-2 announced meeting with dr Dyah, tried ara's cake, rapat nemo and sponsor nemo, caramel macchiato~, ICORPS RSUI, cicil ikk terosss

26 - DL, have no will to do stuff, read some bitly kompre, ordered burgushi chicken mentai, cicil IKK

27 - 1A, alhamdulillahh finished reflection after a lot of stumped moments, it literally took me a day to make wtf. Its only 2 pages. And thats about it lmaooo. Played among us with solid

28 - DL, 1A, woke up at 11 am lmao, horein sam, cicil dk ikk, group call shiko. Didnt do a lot od things today but my mood is definitely better

29 - DL, will sleep at about 11 pm ish (slept through prof men’s lecture huhu) --> after posting this played my phone and slept at 12, anamnesis practice with ness ren, finished tugas harian geri

30 - DL, anam geri, finished status, and then did nothing else except reading painter of the night :(((( i didnt even do ikk. I got no fighting spirit today

[kurururugisuzaku]

tagged by @kathwolfie thanks dude lol

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

Tagging: i know i gotta tag 20 ppl but idk if i even can lmao so im not gonna!!!! u see this on ur dash, u wanna do it u do it goddamn this is ur call

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: my dad??? i think????? 3. Text message: my friend nancy at 9am while she had not gone to bed yet lmao shes a bigger mess than me >:) 4. Song you listened to: The Lost One’s Weeping- the KAITO version lol 5. Time you cried: um yesterday when april and andy got married on parks and rec either that or when i was thinking about dogs 

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: no 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. Been cheated on: no 9. Lost someone special: i dont think so??? 10. Been depressed: hahahah 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: no im underage and a Good Boy

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: mint green, blue, and red!!

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: how can u fall out of love when uve only ever fell in love with fictional characters lmao 17. Laughed until you cried: nope and i have never done so ever 18. Found out someone was talking about you: im not entirely sure what this entails but the answer is probably not lmao 19. Met someone who changed you: idk??? unless u include fictional characters nah 20. Found out who your friends are: again idk????

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i dont even HAVE a facebook 23. Do you have any pets: sadly no 24. Do you want to change your name: in my heart i already have but ye lol  25. What did you do for your last Birthday: that was very close to a year ago so i do not remember lmao 26. What time did you wake up: somewhere from 9:30 to 10 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: LELOUCH OF THE RESSURECTION 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: literally two minutes ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: should probably like to exercise 31. What are you listening right now: Whims of Fate from Persona 5 lol 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: its possible lol i dont remember peoples names rly well 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: POPUP ADS CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES 34. Most visited Website: AO3 probs either that or youtube 35. Mole/s: i definitely have at least one and the only one i can identify at the moment is on my left arm 36. Mark/s: im not sure what that’s supposed to mean??? like tattooes??? cause i dont have that  37. Childhood dream: my parents always told me i wanted to be a lion and GUESS WHAT I AM ONE IM A LEO also i wanted to be a spy or more seriously a vet 38. Haircolor: i dye it black but it’s kinda faded so more like dark brown rn 39. Long or short hair: short 40. Do you have a crush on someone: i dont think so??? i havent had a crush on someone for over a year 41. What do you like about yourself: a lot lol my face is so cute and so is my hair and i have a great personality im a little egotistic lol 42. Piercings: yep! both my ears are pierced!!! 43. Bloodtype: idk lol 44. Nickname: technically elliot is not my legal name but also yesterday my dad called me elli and it!!!was!!!!so!!!!cute!!!!! 45. Relationship status: single pls someone date me 46. Zodiac: leo 47. Pronouns: they/them 48. Favorite TV Show: ???? i watch the office and gilmore girls a lot i know my fav anime is code geass so theres that at least 49. Tattoos: none 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: ive had six teeth removed lol two the first time (molars on the bottom) and then my wisdom teeth cause my moms side of the family has big teeth apparently???? 52. Hair dyed in different color: its like that rn lol i used to dye it other colors too 53. Sport: HAHAHAHAH 54. (question wasn’t here) 55. Vacation: um i have orientation for my college this week that probs the closest im gonna get travelling somewhere else lol 56. Pair of trainers: ok i had to google the word trainers cause i wasnt sure if it just means tennis shoes or all shoes and im still not sure lol im gonna say both which i have this rly nice pair of black combat boots and i have these black adidas tennis shoes which is much less exciting lol

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: i like sugar lol i had cinnamon buns for breakfast 58. Drinking: i always have a water bottle next to me!!! 59. I’m about to: oh! that new touken ranbu series has a new ep coming out today i think so im gonna watch that! 62. Want: it to stop being so hot that or candy 63. Get married: sometime maybe im not sure lol 64. Career: i wanna be a private detective!!!!!

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs!!!!! 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: i like to be taller than others lol  68. Older or younger: idk??? 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: ARMS 71. Sensitive or loud: i mean im p loud lol so probs sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: hook ups would be weird for someone who thinks sex is gross lol 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: again idk???

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: nope because ive never kissed anyone lol 75. Drank hard liquor: nope cause im a Good Boy  76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no cause i dont need em 77. Turned someone down: idk but probs not cause no one ever asks me out lmao 78. Sex on the first date: nope cause sex is gross 79. Broken someone’s heart: probably not lmao 80. Had your heart broken: none of these questions have the answer yes CAUSE IVE NEVER DATED ANYONE GET OFF MY BACK 81. Been arrested: i would rather kill myself??? cause a) there goes my dream lmao and b) im a Good Boy 82. Cried when someone died: unless its a fictional character nope cause ive only one irl person who died and i am notoriously heartless 83. Fallen for a friend: yeah but that was when i was tiny and didnt realize i had lol

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: hell yeah im awesome 85. Miracles: i dont think so??? 86. Love at first sight: not rly 87. Santa Claus: no 88. Kiss on the first date: if its just on the cheek or smth

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: nancy! 91. Eye color: i think theyre green 92. Favorite movie: um the princess bride probs

[rawitafk]

From Produce 101 S2 to Wanna One

Hi ya! I’m back!! Waw its beeeen soooo long since last time I wrote something here. Many things happened to me when I was hiatus here.. I watched BTS CNBLUE and EXO concert again!! Yesss!!! And now, guess what?! I have new favorite group! Duuuh its so hard to resist this group.. bcs I’ve been with them since D-0 even way before! The group is called Wanna One! Do you remember when I promised not to like any other group than CNBLUE EXO BTS? Lol sorry I broke my promise and I stan this group so hard! Btw I have done all requirements to be a full doctor, and now I’m officially a full doctor!! I will turn 27 years old this september.. ewrr time flies and here I am, still stuck in Korean world.. HAHA.. but I do hope I will find my other half soon! Aaaamiiin! Back to previous topic, sorry for interrupting haha.. Lemme explain you about my new favorite group, Wanna One. The group consists of 11 members, chosen by National Producer from a show called Produce 101. What is produce 101? Produce 101 is actually a survival show where 101 trainees from different labels competing to be top 11 based on voting system. So basically, Wanna One consists of 11 members from various labels.

Wanna members, in their ranking order, are: 1. Kang Daniel (vocal/rapper, born in 1996, MMO trainee) 2. Park Jihoon (vocal/rapper, born in 1999, Maroo ent trainee) 3. Lee Daehwi (vocal, born in 2001, Brand New Music trainee) 4. Kim Jaehwan (main vocal, born in 1996, individual trainee) 5. Ong Seungwoo (lead vocal, born in 1995, Fantagio trainee) 6. Park Woojin (main rapper, born in 1999, Brand New Music trainee) 7. Lai Guanlin (rapper, born in 2001, Cube trainee) 8. Yoon Jisung (vocal, born in 1991, MMO trainee) 9. Hwang Minhyun (lead vocal, born in 1995, Pledis trainee, Nu'est member) 10. Bae Jinyoung (vocal, born in 2000, C9 ent trainee) 11. Ha Sungwoon (main vocal, born in 1994, Ardor&Able/StarCrew trainee, Hotshot member)

So based on the ranking, their center is Kang Daniel. The leader is Yoon Jisung bcs he is the oldest and wisest like a mom (the members call him jisungmom). The second oldest Ha Sungwoon is called “Aunty” or 이모 bcs he talks too much lol. And the father is Hwang Minhyun bcs he has father-like figure.

Before stanning this group, I watched all Produce 101 S2 eps. I didnt watch first season bcs the trainees were girls (I only know their debut group I.O.I) hahaa.. and for S2 bcs they are boys so why not trying?

Okay so there were interesting story about Produce 101 S2. People said its gonna be a flop variety show like boys24 at first.. but then many ppl attracted to this show bcs Jang Moonbok, a trainee with long hair with previous experience when auditioning a show called superstar K. He was a child back then and his rap was not clear and ppl call it funny. So many people esp men, got interested to Produce 101 S2 bcs they want to see how Jang Moonbok improve his rap and performance. Beside moonbook, the show also got quite known bcs 나야나 (It’s Me/Pick Me) performance by all PD101 S2 trainees. Ppl found attractive trainee called “wink boy”. Yes he is Park Jihoon!

Okay now its time to talk about me.. my journey with Produce 101 lol. At first I know this show was gonna airing soon but for exact date, I had no idea, so I didnt tune on mnet and missed the first eps. I found couples videos of their trainees: the PR videos, meringue-time videos, eye-contact videos. I know some other trainees beside moonbok and jihoon, like nu'est members, samuel, ha sungwoon (just know the name bcs of BTS’ Jimin, but I didnt recognize his face), and I have no idea about other trainees. I actually didnt know which trainee I should support, so I chose it by seeing the their eye-contact video thumbnail. I found an interesting one, he looked handsome, and I click it, oh he sang Dean “half moon” my favorite song! His voice is good and sweet, and his face is handsome. Then I checked the name, ahhh it was Ha Sungwoon! Wow he is that jimin’s friend whom I didnt recognize his face before. He is good! So I decided to pick this guy as my favorite.

So back to pd101 story, I missed the first eps so I watch the 2nd eps and I saw amazing perfomance from my pick, Ha Sungwoon with his labelmate Noh Taehyun. They performed Block B “Very good”. It was amazing and breath-taking! Damn I love it so much! They got A grade and I was so happy! I thought “this is good my pick is qualified and indeed talented! I’m not wrong in choosing trainee!. Ah btw, 1st and 2nd episode for Produce 101 is for company performance. So all trainees from same label perform something and then they were given A-F grade individually based in their performances by the trainers. It took so long to watch all performances tbh haha.. while watching, I recognized a pink-hair trainee, Kang Daniel! He was cute but not that attractive for me, but he was easily recognized bcs of his pink hair. Also yoon jisung bcs his reaction was always dramatic. I also recognize for level A trainees such as Ong seungwoo and BNM boys daehwi woojin, sewoon with his vocal and guitar and Jaehwan with his skyfall performance! Also cube performance (Yoo Seunho and Lai Guanlin) with basic dance HAHA THEY WERE SO CUTE I CANT! They were called byeongari trainees.

Okay theeeen the broadcast keep going on. My pick, sungwoon, was ranked 30 something.. so sad! The first one was Jihoon (yeah Wink power) and second one was moonbok. For the rest members I didnt remember exactly but I remember only ong seungwoo, guanlin, daehwi, jinyoung, minhyun who were on top 11 for the first ranking announcement. As the episodes continue, there were many changes on the ranking. It was quite drastic tbh.

For the first elimination ranking, my pick sungwoon was 21. Jihoon 1, jisung 3, ong 4, daniel 5, daehwi 7, guanlin 9, minhyun 11 Others were not in top 11. I thought “it needs lot efforts to get sungwoon to top 11 omg his rank is only 20 over its gonna be hard). Woojin was also came from bottom rank, he was 20 something too but I forgot.

So after first elimination, the trainees left was only 60 and they were divided to perform based on vocal, rap, or dance. I always read pd101 updates, basically many knets love woojin and I was sure he could make it on top 11 but not with sungwoon.. Sungwoon teamed up with minhyun jisung jaehwan hyunbin to perform "Downpour” as vocal team. Omg I really love it! Sungwoon was so emotional and all trainees including me, cried together. It was so touching. Up until now I never get bored seeing and listening to their singing. Also my another favorite team is Get Ugly team. You know what? DANIEL DYED HIS HAIR TO DARK BROWN. NO MORE PINK HAIR! and guess what? AWESOME.. HANDSOMENESS INCREASED BY 100% LOL. And his Get Ugly performance is my favorite.. it was rvjwkalwgqkwlwjsbs DOPE. ALL HIS MOVES ARE AMAZING. B-boying and showing his abs haha.. I was pretty sure this boy can make to top 11, but so sad he was ranked 5 on his team and woojin was the first one (that makes me sure he 100% would be top 11).

Second elimination ranking announcement, sungwoon was 25.. and the rest wanna one members were 1-15.. ahh I felt more desperate.. i was so afraid he wouldnt make it. But sungwoon kept showing his good side and his effort to be recognized even the trainer praised him! And his downpour solo cam was always on top 100 video. I had a little hope but still hard to believe he could make it.

Okay next one is concept evaluation.. there were 5 songs to be perfomed: Showtime, Oh Little Girl, Open Up, I know you know, Never. Poor sungwoon, he was supposed to be on Never team but got moved to Showtime haha.. and Daniel got punishment for showing a clue which song he wanted to perform and moved to Open Up. The rest of Wanna One members are Never team, jihoon jinyoung are oh little girl, jisung is showtime along with sungwoon. Never is a very good song, I like it. Their performance is good but I love Open Up performance more, especially daniel oh gosh why is he getting hot and hot seriously!

Finally! Third elimination ranking announcement, there were unexpected moment! A BIGGEST PLOT TWIST! my sungwoon, shoot up to ranking 3! Can you imagine how shock I was? He was 25 before!! I was so desperate and I thought he wouldnt make to final but he was rank 3! Amazing! And daniel, he won concept performance and ranked 1!! Ohyeaaah my picks got high ranking xD.

And the final.. the moment of truth…. they announced rank 10 first.. then up to 1.. daniel won! My sungwoon wasnt called yet.. for rank 11 there were 4 candidates: jonghyun dongho sungwoon sewoon.. I was sure it would be jonghyun but then jonghyun ranked 14! Oh my god! Sungwoon might be number 11! And then dongho ranked 13.. now sewoon and sungwoon left… theeeeeen they called SUNGWOON! OH GOSHHHHH MY PICK MADE TO TOP 11!!! I’m so happy bcs at first I thought he couldnt make it bcs he was always 20ish on eps 1-9. And I’m happy for daniel too, bcs he could be number 1 despite all situation he got. Tbh I thought jihoon were gonna be the winner but daniel secured his position! He never became a center and was rank lower on his team, and finally fully recognized for his Open Up performance!

Wawwww what a long story!!! So thats all my pd101 story.. next one is about Wanna One!! Wanna One members are funny, entertaining, handsome, and talented. Daehwi can compose a song, daniel woojin can make a choreography, and no need to doubt our rap and vocal members! Ong is seriously funny too tbh, when he performed Thats what I like, i thought he was serious person but thats no no haha. Minhyun is also charming! Woojin is also funny especially when he speaks satoori lol.. and jaehwan? Oh gosh his laughing makes me stomachache haha he is so funny kinda remember me about baekhyun. Guanlin is seriously hot too, especially when he plays basketball.. every shoot hes done is always accurate! Jihoon's wink jeojang gguggaga are also being hit everywhere! And my pick sungwoon he is funny and so talkative haha. Every Wanna One members have their own charm and I like it! We have ongniel is science pink sausage, saranghae minhwan, eolganz, sodu a.k.a jinhwi, panwink a.k.a. laji unit.. all members have good variety skill too tbh!

They debuted on August 7th with an album called 1x1=1 (To be One) and Energetic is their title song. The song is not that good when I first listened to it but it has been growing on me as time goes by and I like it very much now! The choreo is good! And btw, Wanna One fans are called as Wannables! YEAAAAH I AM WANNABLE!! I support this group fully now. But so sad if I remember the fact that they will disband on 2019. I have only approx 1.5years to support them, and I will give my all! I hope they can win a daesang!! Go go Wanna One!!