#pov you are aloysia

[chaoticcomposition]

hey my girlfriend saw you from across the bar and we hate your vibe. she's gonna beat the shit out of you

[leia-organaa]

Deleted my other reblog because I wrote it in a fit of rage and fury.

I admit that this author is very good and I can see why they’re known in the fandom and also infamous in a part of it. I liked Paracelsus (helps that it’s a historical AU and the conflict and drama make sense within the context, especially if you read it as something that may have been written during the time in which it was set), but there’s something about this current fic that rubs me the wrong way, but anyway I will continue and give it a chance. I’m not sure if I understand or empathize with Mulder’s POV here. It’s frustrating and infuriating. I also dislike how he sees and describes Scully, although I do understand her motivations and decisions. He, as a man, will probably never understand that, even if he is the father.

It’s just that I’ve seen this and the author’s other fics in people’s recs a few times, so I was surprised to feel uncomfortable while reading it, and honestly I’m not sure if in a good way.

I’ve read a few long/ish fics with lots of drama and angst where I feel more sympathetic towards both characters. Fics where even Diana chapters are included that make me feel less frustrated than I do here. So maybe this isn’t really for me but I’ll keep reading on just to see. I think I’ll go back to some lepusarcticus and Aloysia Virgata and Cecily Sass to feel better after finishing the first part of this.

The number of times I have seethed and yelled “I am gonna kill this son-of-a-bitch” or “you motherfucker” or “selfish bastard this is all your fault” at Mulder while reading prufrockslove’s fics. Right now I’m at Dr. Scully's School for Exceptional Boys. When a fifty-something still exudes the same angst and self-centred blindness as a fifteen-year-old I just want to slap him until he comes to his senses. I also want to hug Scully and sucker punch anyone who’d hurt her whether physically or emotionally (yes, including Mulder) because that woman has been Through It All and sacrificed everything, including herself. I’m only in the first part, but it pisses me off that he has the chance to live the life she wanted with their son, meanwhile she’s forced to stay away. God, women can never catch a break.