#post 8x6 fic

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

wip wednesday

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thanks darlins!

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“Shit,” Buck says when Eddie gives him a reprieve. “Y’re good at that.”

“Hmm? At what?”

“Kissing.”

Eddie giggles. Fucking giggles what the fuck.

Buck wants to bottle the sound. Wants to force Eddie to make it again. Wants to record it and use it as ammo in the future.

“Buck, why do you look mad about that?” Eddie asks, bruised mouth curved into a slashing kind of smile, once that could cut Buck wide open. He sort of hopes it does. Thinks about asking Eddie to try.

But Eddie asked him a question and Buck doesn’t really know the answer. He’s not mad per se, but…He can’t say he expected it exactly. Not that he expected Eddie to be a bad kisser, just–

“I don’t know. It’s just–I don’t know. I’ve kissed a lot more people than you have so I guess I’m wondering how you got this good.”

“Jesus, Buck. Ever thought that maybe it’s not about quantity?”

Buck frowns. “No.”

Eddie cackles, mirthful and amused and probably frustrated too based on the squint of his eyes. “Poor thing,” he croons, curving his back in a way Buck didn’t think possible and nudging their noses together. “Upset that I’m better than you?”

“Okay,” Buck scoffs, “you’re not.”

“Does it matter when you’re reaping the benefits?” Eddie asks, calm and collected though the rich throatiness of his voice gives him away. As does the little circling thing his hips are doing and the sweet little touch his thumb leaves behind Buck’s ear.

tagging @spaceprincessem @shitouttabuck @bigfootsmom @lemonzestywrites @spotsandsocks @shyaudacity @sibylsleaves @daffi-990 @queerdiazs @jeeyuns @exhuastedpigeon @honestlydarkprincess @transboybuckley @try-set-me-on-fire @lonelychicago @bi-buckrights @monsterrae1 @absolutelybifurious @devirnis @colonoscopys @hippolotamus @dr-shortsighted-owl @hotshotsxyz and anyone else who wants to share!

[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale CODA or a "Fix it": “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 6 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 6 of 10 chapters completed: 85.7K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here's a snippet from Chapter 6 of Buck and Eddie talking while they're sitting inside of a restaurant and their eating breakfast.

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Eddie uses his napkin to wipe his mouth and after he takes another sip of his coffee, he says, “Buck, I’m going to be honest with you and explain that this is not going to be easy because my mom is controlling and when she wants something, she nags and belittles people… including family members until she gets it. She tries everything to undermine the other person and the things she says will hurt. I said all of that to say… this fight to get Chris won’t be easy and if she proceeds with a custody battle it’s going to be bad.”

Buck doesn’t break eye contact with him because he’ll do whatever it takes to help Eddie get his son back. He knows Eddie’s a great dad because he’s witnessed it with his own two eyes and he knows how much Eddie loves his son.

“When I changed my will, I should have told you about it but I didn’t and there’s a reason but I’m not in a good enough headspace to get into that yet. Once this stuff with Chris is resolved and I’ve unpacked it all in therapy, we’ll discuss it but me naming you to be his legal guardian was the best decision I’ve ever made. It wasn’t fair for me not to tell you about it and for that I apologize but it’s like I said before, I know you’ll fight for him the same way I do and that’s what I want for him. This custody battle will be ruthless and we both saw what Hen and Mara went through to get their foster license back but this is different. Things are likely to get very messy really fast and I want you to know that I understand if you don’t want to go with me. So, before we leave here to go to the airport…” He trails off when Buck starts talking.

“Eddie?”

“I’m serious, Buck. I understand and I’ll pay for your airfare, so you won’t have to worry.”

How will Buck respond to Eddie's offer to pay for his airfare so he won't have to go to El Paso? 👀

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - As Eddie hits rock bottom, he has a difficult time trying to pull himself back up and Buck does what he always does, he never gives up.

Chapter 5 - Buck’s inside Eddie’s home and he’s standing right in front of him explaining he’s here to help. Eddie’s happy to see him and he’s finally ready to make several confessions about the things that have been happening and the way he’s been feeling.

Chapter 6 - As Buck and Eddie prepare to leave Los Angeles for El Paso, Eddie initiates another conversation with Buck regarding his will and before it ends, they’ll outline a parenting and legal guardianship plan that will prove they’ve been coparenting Chris for the last 7 years and the way they’ve been doing it is in Chris’ best interest.

Chapter 7 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 8 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 9 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 10 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 - 6 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[bidisasterevankinard]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers! Spread the self-love <3

hi<33 thank you<3 I waited for a little bc I wanted to post my latest fic first

We will find the way to our future - my mpreg break up/make up <333

I want to dance with you tonight (and for the rest of my life) - fic where bt actually had a chance to dance on the wedding

triple happiness - moreg based on the 8x6 stills, in procees but I'm already in love

Falling in love  8x5 Tommy coda

Hold me on my bad day  - Tommy whump

[shipskicksandgiggles]

rereading the eddie confessional fic i wrote back at the beginning of september as I'm writing fic post 8x6 is causing me to chew glass. I had this shit nearly nailed down two months ago WHAT DO YOU MEAN

[pinkpeachteay]

Currently cooking a Buddie fic with a heavy focus on Eddie's catholic guilt. Lowkey stressed about 8x6 and if I should start posting before it airs or keep writing and start posting chapters only after it's done 🫠

How do people write long canon compliant works while a season is airing??? TEACH ME YOUR TRICKS.

[half-bakedboy]

WIP meme

I was tagged by @sugarandspace [you’re a queen and ily to pieces, my wife 🥺]

rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you and interests you and i’ll post a little snippet of it or tell you something about it!

Shadowhunters: 

Malec Foster AU - Parts 1-3/6 Clizzy Military Clizzy Victorian Jimon 5+1 Band Shirts Jimon Book Malec Body Swap Malec Body Guard Malec Knife Fic Malec Wild Hunt Reyhill Broadway Reyhill Fake Dating

Sterek: 

6A - Coda List All the codas [this doc is almost 2 pages] Frat Derek (THIS IS CARIFS FAULT) LAWKI AU FUCK  Professor Derek/Student Stiles Derek doesn’t have a middle name, but Stiles keeps making them up anyways childhood friends au Tumblr Prompts (WRITE THESE FIRST) This is Morgan’s Fault this will really be the proposal idea thing she promises herself Stargazing “YOU WALK A VERY FINE LINE BETWEEN STUPIDITY AND BRAVERY.” - Carif 2020

Criminal Minds [but really just HotchReid cause who am I kidding]: 

7x2 Coda ft. Petty Reid 8x3 adjacent but Reid gets job offer 8x6 baseball game but make it hotchreid [spoilers] death and hotch sits outside spencers door Buffy fic thats not a at all like the buffy scene aka hostage reid Reid getting shot in season 9 - IDK but you wanna do something 10x6 Cinderella Episode Idk what you wanna do with this one either but damn was it adorable Hotch calling Reid our in his “tell” 10x20 After Haley’s dad leaves

This entire challenge is rude and it is just clear as to how much of a disaster I am aksdjf;alksdf Why do y’all let me write?!

Tagging: @hopesilverheart, @nogitsunes (i know youve named things so now youre fucked), @skylar102, @lightwormsiblings, @royaltybane, and @moonlight-breeze-44 

[good luck yall this was embarrassing™]

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

tease tidbit tuesday

tagged by @wikiangela

thanks darlin!

post 8x6 fic is coming along NICELY :)

“Buck,” Eddie breathes and it sounds devastating.

Buck doesn’t want to hear his name said any other kind of way again.

“Buck,” Eddie says again, everything about him startled and giving off alarms that ring in Buck’s ears and scratch at his skin. “We shouldn’t–I’m not–” he breaks off, brow furrowed like he’s trying to figure something out and is apprehensive about the answer.

“This is a bad idea,” Eddie settles on saying. It sounds true, like he means it, but he’s swaying a bit, as if caught in a daze, and can’t look away from Buck’s lips, so…Buck isn’t exactly sure what to do here.

But he does know what he wants. He knows what he’s feeling, for the most part anyway. And he knows what hasn’t worked for him and he knows that Eddie kissed him like it was salvation.

So, Buck says, “Gotta be honest, I’m kind of sick of good ideas,” with a low tone as he swipes his thumb over the red curve of Eddie’s cheek.

Good ideas haven’t really gotten him much and he reckons he is due for a couple bad ones. Even if no part of Eddie could be bad. Even if he’s having a hard time convincing himself that this is in fact a bad idea, because anything with Eddie can only be good, only ever has been good, even when it’s been awful.

tagging @spaceprincessem @shitouttabuck @bigfootsmom @lemonzestywrites @spotsandsocks @shyaudacity @sibylsleaves @daffi-990 @queerdiazs @jeeyuns @exhuastedpigeon @honestlydarkprincess @transboybuckley @rewritetheending @try-set-me-on-fire @lonelychicago @bi-buckrights @monsterrae1 @absolutelybifurious @devirnis @colonoscopys @hippolotamus @dr-shortsighted-owl @hotshotsxyz and anyone else who wants to share!

[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 2 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 2 of 6 chapters completed: 31.7K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here are two snippets from Chapter 2, one of Eddie trying to talk to Chris and the other of Buck talking to Bobby.

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Eddie

He’s happy he’s going to get to talk to him especially after the day he’s had. Chris answers during the first ring.

“Hey Chris.” He cheerfully greets.

Chris solemnly responds, “Hi.”

He recognizes that look because it’s the same one he always wears whenever they talk but he pushes his own feelings aside and asks, “How was your day?”

“It was ok.”

“Did you do anything fun?”

“No.”

He rubs his hand over his face because he can’t figure out what he’s doing wrong. After a few seconds of silence, he says, “Chris, I’m really trying here and I know I messed up earlier this year… I’ve apologized for it and I’ll keep doing it until you talk to me but can you please tell me what I can do to fix our relationship?”

~~~

Buck

After Bobby starts combining the ingredients in a bowl, Buck says, “Hey Bobby?”

“Yeah?” He responds with raised eyebrows.

“Can I ask you a question?”

“Of course, you can. What’s on your mind?”

“Well… it’s about relationships and I—I know we haven’t talked about them in a while but I have some questions and I hope it’s ok for me to ask them.”

He slowly nods because Buck hasn’t spoken to him about his relationship with Tommy at all and earlier this year, he was trying to prepare everyone for his departure without telling them he was planning to leave this earth but based on the things Buck’s saying, it’s likely he wants some relationship advice.

After a few seconds, he says, “Ok, I’m ready to talk whenever you are.”

Buck nods and with a half-smile, he admits, “When I was dating Abby, you said I should step in with her and uh… I did but it didn’t work.”

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 4 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 5 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 & 2 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[canonicallyobserving911]

Blog Posts and Fanfics Update: Canonically Observing 9-1-1 & Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

I haven't done a post like this since after season 6 ended and after season 7 ended earlier this year, I didn't do one because that was a horrific time in the Buddie fandom with all the toxicity and frustrations that were taking place (related post linked here). However, after the way the 8A mid-season finale ended, I took a few days to determine how I was going to participate in fandom during the hiatus because I wasn't happy with a lot of the stuff that happened. I've already posted about the way I wanted to see more Eddie and Chris scenes along with how Eddie wasn't shown going from point A to point B in his decision making regarding him considering a move back to El Paso (linked here).

I'm fully aware it's a setup for Buddie but Eddie's my favorite character and I'm not happy with the limited amount of screen time he received. This is not something I'll go back and forth about and I don't need to be convinced that things "might" be different during the second half of season 8 because IMO, it's always been like this and he's always sidelined while other characters get more and better storylines.

Also, after 8x6 aired and Buck's whatever the hell he was doing with the PLOT DEVICE ended and Eddie was doing something that gave him joy, I was excited to see where the show was going to take Buck's, Eddie's and Chris' storylines (related post linked here). But IMO, 8x7 was a huge waste of time and nothing happened to move any of the main characters' arcs forward and 8x8 spent even more time on side characters who won't be around any longer. With all the editing and pacing issues, the abundance of guest stars and the "Hotshots" storyline that went absolutely nowhere special, the last two episodes seemed to be rushed and not thoroughly planned out. So, needless to say, I wasn't happy with how it ended.

Therefore, I spent the last few days thinking about how I'm going to spend the hiatus because 14 weeks is a long time and I will not spend the next three and a half months rehashing the mediocre parts of episodes 8x1 through 8x8.

Here's an update for my blog and fanfics.

During the Hiatus...

Blog posts

I'll be reblogging my Buddie and Buckley-Diaz Family posts that highlight Buck's and Eddie's casual and emotional intimacies along with those that illustrate how they've already built a family and a life together. Additionally, since I still have a few METAs and speculation WIPs blog posts, occasionally, I'll complete one and post it.

Fanfics

I'm still writing fanfics and I'll post notifications when new chapters are up on AO3 for my two WIPs multi-chapter fanfics and for new Buddie fanfics that I write. Lately, I've been in my Married Buddie Sick!Fic era because I like writing them taking care of each other and I'm back on my Singer!Buck headcanon because I believe Maddie taught Buck how to sing, so I've written another fic about him serenading Eddie. Also, I have five series that are still in progress, so I'll continuously be posting new fanfics as well.

My goal is to start 8B with the same excitement I had after 8x6 ended because I want my fandom experience to be fun again like it was before season 6 ended. I love writing METAs, doing speculation, making GIFs and writing fanfic and I'm planning to keep doing those things but I won't spend my time between now and March 6th rehashing the past because I'm looking forward to Buddie CANON.

Find me on AO3 at Fanonwriter2023.

[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 4 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 4 of 7 chapters completed: 62.2K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here are two snippets from Chapter 4. One is of a conversation Buck's having with Maddie and Josh at Metro Dispatch and the other is of Eddie talking to the priest.

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Buck

“Listen… Tommy isn’t a good guy and it’s a good thing you aren’t with him.”

Buck’s speechless for two reasons.  First, he wasn’t expecting Josh to say that and second, he didn’t know Josh even knew Tommy but when he thinks about it, he figures he should since Harbor Station is part of the LAFD and since dispatchers communicate with them, he believes they may have interacted numerous times.

After a few seconds, Maddie asks, “Josh, why would you say that?”  She questions his comment but she has her suspicions especially since Chimney told her about the way Tommy treated him when he first got assigned to the 118.  She was appalled by the fact that he’s a racist and a bigot and the only reason why she didn’t say anything to her brother was because she thought Buck knew and he chose to ignore it since everybody at the station tells each other all of their business.

Josh gets ready to respond but Buck speaks first. “Uh, why do you think it’s good that I’m not with him anymore?”

“Well… for starters, you deserve better than a racist, bigoted asshat who laughs at your misfortune.  I know all about him and his coworkers laughing at you when you found that corpse before Halloween.”

Maddie frowns because she didn’t know about that since Buck didn’t tell her.

“How do you know he laughed at me?”

“Because Carson was at Harbor Station that day installing their clean agent fire suppression system and he overheard them.  Carson knows who you are because I told him you’re Maddie’s brother.”

Buck’s trying not to spiral because even though he knew Tommy laughed at him, it seems more real now that Josh is telling the story and he wonders if other people know he laughed too.

“Listen… I’m not trying to be all up in your business but guys like him don’t want anything serious.  They’re the type who just want to… you know?”

~~~

Eddie

“Would you like to go into the confessional, so you’ll have privacy to speak freely?”

“No.”

“Ok.  Did anything specific bring you into the church today?”

“Yeah, I’ve been feeling kind of worthless lately and like my life doesn’t matter.  Honestly, I’ve been feeling like that for years but…”  He trails of and stops talking.

“I understand and we can stay out here and talk if you want.”

“I think that will be better because it’s been years since I sat in a confessional.”

The priest nods, then continues.  “Earlier you said, your life doesn’t matter and it’s felt like that for years.  Is that the feeling that brought you here today?”

He nods but he doesn’t verbally respond.

The priest takes a few moments before he comments.  “God creates every life with a purpose.”

“Hmm.”  He hums.

“I take it you don’t believe that’s true.”

“If it is… then I can’t for the life of me figure out why he created me since my life is bad and not at all what I wanted or expected it to be.”

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - As Eddie hits rock bottom, he has a difficult time trying to pull himself back up and Buck does what he always does, he never gives up.

Chapter 5 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 7 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 - 4 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 5 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 5 of 7 chapters completed: 72.6K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here's a snippet from Chapter 5 of Buck and Eddie talking while they're sitting on the beach.

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Eddie confesses, “She asked me for a… divorce.”

The silence between them is deafening as they allow his words to surround them.

As his confession reverberates inside of Buck’s mind, he takes a moment to review them then he tries to decide the best way to respond. After he does, he asks, “Ok. What um… did you say?”

“Honestly, I didn’t say anything because I couldn’t wrap my head around it.”

Buck slowly nods as he attempts to process the information. Back then, he wasn’t sure why Eddie was so dead set on reconnecting and recommitting his life to a woman who showed him many times she didn’t want to be there. Eddie said he was already reluctant to let her back into Chris’ life then he did but that was after she showed up at the station unannounced and loudly said in front of him and Chimney, they were sleeping together. A few days later, when he mentioned it to Chimney, he said it wasn’t any of their business, so he dropped it.

He’s not sure what he should say but instead of spiraling, he chooses to reply with the only thing he can think of. “You uh… said she suggested it but did you want a divorce?”

Eddie sighs and takes a moment to determine the best way to respond. He figures he should easily be able to say it but once the words come out of his mouth, they’ll be real and he’s not sure he’s ready to face that. “I—I… ok, here’s the thing. The only reason why I was trying so hard to get our family back together was because she told me she was pregnant.”

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - As Eddie hits rock bottom, he has a difficult time trying to pull himself back up and Buck does what he always does, he never gives up.

Chapter 5 - Buck’s inside Eddie’s home and he’s standing right in front of him explaining he’s here to help. Eddie’s happy to see him and he’s finally ready to make several confessions about the things that have been happening and the way he’s been feeling.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 7 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 - 5 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[canonicallyobserving911]

WIP Wednesday

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through season finale CODA or "Fix it": “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 6 will be posted soon.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 5 of 8 chapters completed: 72.6K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

This was an 8A speculation fic but after the way 8x7 ended, I changed it to a CODA or "fix it" fic for the entire season.

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Here's a snippet from Chapter 6 of Buck and Eddie talking after they both woke up from nightmares about the other one. They're leaving for El Paso, TX to so Eddie can confront his ridiculous parents. (This is what should have happened in CANON.)

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After Eddie enters the living room, he glances at the clock and sees it’s 4:32AM and when he turns the corner, he sees the light in the kitchen is on, so he walks in that direction.  Once he goes inside, he sees Buck’s head is lowered and he’s standing in front of the sink but he’s hesitant to call his name because he doesn’t want to startle him.

When Buck’s head moves, in a low voice Eddie asks, “Hey, is everything, ok?”

He looks up and turns his head to the left.  “Uh… sorry.  I didn’t wake you, did I?”

“No, I woke up and…”  He trails off because he doesn’t want to mention the dream he had.  A few seconds pass and he continues.  “I didn’t wake you, did I?”

“No, I just woke up and I um, couldn’t go back to sleep.”  He chooses not to mention the dream he had about the well and he wonders if Eddie even knows how he reacted especially since he never said anything.  He doesn’t believe Bobby, Hen or Chimney did either and it’s the reason he considers it to be another trauma to add to their existing pile.  If he’s honest, he’ll admit it still hurts to know Eddie doesn’t remember the shooting.  His heart fell out of his chest that day and he hoped Eddie would understand how much it hurt to know that he would be left here on this earth without him.

They fall silent and hold each other’s gaze for a few seconds until Eddie breaks the sound barrier.  “Do you want to talk about it?”  He doesn’t have to say what it is for Buck to understand.

Buck wants to respond with ‘I woke up after screaming in my nightmare that you were leaving me’ but he decides against it.  “Uh, I’m ok.”  He lies.  “I just woke up and uh… I tried to go back to sleep and I couldn’t.  But why are you up so early?”

“I suppose you can say it was the same for me.”

Buck nods in response.  “Since we’re up and we were planning to get up at 5:45AM anyway, if you want… we can get dressed and leave a little earlier so we can stop for breakfast. I—I know a great diner that’s no too far away from LAX.”

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - As Eddie hits rock bottom, he has a difficult time trying to pull himself back up and Buck does what he always does, he never gives up.

Chapter 5 - Buck’s inside Eddie’s home and he’s standing right in front of him explaining he’s here to help. Eddie’s happy to see him and he’s finally ready to make several confessions about the things that have been happening and the way he’s been feeling.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 7 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 8 - Will be posted soon.

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[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

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Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 3 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 3 of 6 chapters completed: 50.5K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here are two snippets from Chapter 3. One is of a conversation Buck's having with a victim during a call and the other is of Eddie having a heated conversation with his mother about his son. (I don't like how the show is handling the Eddie and Chris situation so I'm fixing it.)

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Buck

Once Buck looks at Ed again, he can see he’s worried so he tries to get him to talk.  “Ed, uh… you said you and Chuck were firefighters until you retired but you um… didn’t say which firehouse you worked from.”

“I didn’t but it was the 142 until I went to EMS Operations and Chuck got promoted to captain.”

He keeps talking about the lives they’ve lived and Buck learns a lot more about the two of them and he’s not sure if he should call it déjà vu or future déjà vu but he knows there are lots of resemblances and similarities between him and Eddie and Ed and Chuck.

After a few moments, Buck nods and when he takes a good look at Ed and Chuck, he thinks they look like older versions of him and Eddie.  Ed has brown eyes, olive skin, dark salt and pepper hair with a curl that’s sitting on his forehead and from where he’s hanging, he looks like he might be the same height and weight as Eddie too.  Also, he’s a medic who served in the Army.  Chuck appears to be the same height and weight as Buck.  His hair is curly but it’s mostly gray and the things Ed said about him reminds Buck of Thomas' and Mitchell's relationship.

Buck looks at Ed and notices he’s fading in and out of consciousness.  “Hey… Ed, stay with me, ok?”

Ed slowly nods, then he turns his head and looks at Buck.

“Tell me about Chuck.  When did you two meet?”

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Eddie

“Mom, please… I don’t mean to interrupt you and I’m not trying to be disrespectful but Chris going to El Paso was supposed to be temporary.”

“But Edmundo, I told you while we were there it might be indefinitely.”

“You’re right you did but I didn’t agree to it and neither did Chris.” 

She tsks and continues.  “He’s been here living with us since May.  He’s happy and he’s thriving so I don’t understand why you have a problem with us being his primary caretakers.  He’ll always be biologically yours but we should raise him because we know what’s best and furthermore, we’ve already started the installation of the pool, so he won’t have to go to that lake anymore.”

“Mom, I didn’t tell you to do that.  The way you’re acting is like Chris is your son but he’s not.”

“I know that but he’s our grandson and his happiness is what’s important.  So… don’t drag him down with you, Eddie.”

Once again this conversation feels like a fucking déjà vu movie or some shit and this is bigger than a damn song because she said the same thing to him more than 7 years ago before he relocated them to L.A.

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 5 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

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any moots wanna beta read this 14k post 8x6 buddie fic after i do my edits?? <3