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[eddiebabygirldiaz]

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“Shit,” Buck says when Eddie gives him a reprieve. “Y’re good at that.”

“Hmm? At what?”

“Kissing.”

Eddie giggles. Fucking giggles what the fuck.

Buck wants to bottle the sound. Wants to force Eddie to make it again. Wants to record it and use it as ammo in the future.

“Buck, why do you look mad about that?” Eddie asks, bruised mouth curved into a slashing kind of smile, once that could cut Buck wide open. He sort of hopes it does. Thinks about asking Eddie to try.

But Eddie asked him a question and Buck doesn’t really know the answer. He’s not mad per se, but…He can’t say he expected it exactly. Not that he expected Eddie to be a bad kisser, just–

“I don’t know. It’s just–I don’t know. I’ve kissed a lot more people than you have so I guess I’m wondering how you got this good.”

“Jesus, Buck. Ever thought that maybe it’s not about quantity?”

Buck frowns. “No.”

Eddie cackles, mirthful and amused and probably frustrated too based on the squint of his eyes. “Poor thing,” he croons, curving his back in a way Buck didn’t think possible and nudging their noses together. “Upset that I’m better than you?”

“Okay,” Buck scoffs, “you’re not.”

“Does it matter when you’re reaping the benefits?” Eddie asks, calm and collected though the rich throatiness of his voice gives him away. As does the little circling thing his hips are doing and the sweet little touch his thumb leaves behind Buck’s ear.

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[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 2 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 2 of 6 chapters completed: 31.7K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here are two snippets from Chapter 2, one of Eddie trying to talk to Chris and the other of Buck talking to Bobby.

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Eddie

He’s happy he’s going to get to talk to him especially after the day he’s had. Chris answers during the first ring.

“Hey Chris.” He cheerfully greets.

Chris solemnly responds, “Hi.”

He recognizes that look because it’s the same one he always wears whenever they talk but he pushes his own feelings aside and asks, “How was your day?”

“It was ok.”

“Did you do anything fun?”

“No.”

He rubs his hand over his face because he can’t figure out what he’s doing wrong. After a few seconds of silence, he says, “Chris, I’m really trying here and I know I messed up earlier this year… I’ve apologized for it and I’ll keep doing it until you talk to me but can you please tell me what I can do to fix our relationship?”

~~~

Buck

After Bobby starts combining the ingredients in a bowl, Buck says, “Hey Bobby?”

“Yeah?” He responds with raised eyebrows.

“Can I ask you a question?”

“Of course, you can. What’s on your mind?”

“Well… it’s about relationships and I—I know we haven’t talked about them in a while but I have some questions and I hope it’s ok for me to ask them.”

He slowly nods because Buck hasn’t spoken to him about his relationship with Tommy at all and earlier this year, he was trying to prepare everyone for his departure without telling them he was planning to leave this earth but based on the things Buck’s saying, it’s likely he wants some relationship advice.

After a few seconds, he says, “Ok, I’m ready to talk whenever you are.”

Buck nods and with a half-smile, he admits, “When I was dating Abby, you said I should step in with her and uh… I did but it didn’t work.”

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 4 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 5 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 & 2 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[shipskicksandgiggles]

rereading the eddie confessional fic i wrote back at the beginning of september as I'm writing fic post 8x6 is causing me to chew glass. I had this shit nearly nailed down two months ago WHAT DO YOU MEAN

[pinkpeachteay]

Currently cooking a Buddie fic with a heavy focus on Eddie's catholic guilt. Lowkey stressed about 8x6 and if I should start posting before it airs or keep writing and start posting chapters only after it's done 🫠

How do people write long canon compliant works while a season is airing??? TEACH ME YOUR TRICKS.

[half-bakedboy]

WIP meme

I was tagged by @sugarandspace [you’re a queen and ily to pieces, my wife 🥺]

rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you and interests you and i’ll post a little snippet of it or tell you something about it!

Shadowhunters: 

Malec Foster AU - Parts 1-3/6 Clizzy Military Clizzy Victorian Jimon 5+1 Band Shirts Jimon Book Malec Body Swap Malec Body Guard Malec Knife Fic Malec Wild Hunt Reyhill Broadway Reyhill Fake Dating

Sterek: 

6A - Coda List All the codas [this doc is almost 2 pages] Frat Derek (THIS IS CARIFS FAULT) LAWKI AU FUCK  Professor Derek/Student Stiles Derek doesn’t have a middle name, but Stiles keeps making them up anyways childhood friends au Tumblr Prompts (WRITE THESE FIRST) This is Morgan’s Fault this will really be the proposal idea thing she promises herself Stargazing “YOU WALK A VERY FINE LINE BETWEEN STUPIDITY AND BRAVERY.” - Carif 2020

Criminal Minds [but really just HotchReid cause who am I kidding]: 

7x2 Coda ft. Petty Reid 8x3 adjacent but Reid gets job offer 8x6 baseball game but make it hotchreid [spoilers] death and hotch sits outside spencers door Buffy fic thats not a at all like the buffy scene aka hostage reid Reid getting shot in season 9 - IDK but you wanna do something 10x6 Cinderella Episode Idk what you wanna do with this one either but damn was it adorable Hotch calling Reid our in his “tell” 10x20 After Haley’s dad leaves

This entire challenge is rude and it is just clear as to how much of a disaster I am aksdjf;alksdf Why do y’all let me write?!

Tagging: @hopesilverheart, @nogitsunes (i know youve named things so now youre fucked), @skylar102, @lightwormsiblings, @royaltybane, and @moonlight-breeze-44 

[good luck yall this was embarrassing™]

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

tease tidbit tuesday

tagged by @wikiangela

thanks darlin!

post 8x6 fic is coming along NICELY :)

“Buck,” Eddie breathes and it sounds devastating.

Buck doesn’t want to hear his name said any other kind of way again.

“Buck,” Eddie says again, everything about him startled and giving off alarms that ring in Buck’s ears and scratch at his skin. “We shouldn’t–I’m not–” he breaks off, brow furrowed like he’s trying to figure something out and is apprehensive about the answer.

“This is a bad idea,” Eddie settles on saying. It sounds true, like he means it, but he’s swaying a bit, as if caught in a daze, and can’t look away from Buck’s lips, so…Buck isn’t exactly sure what to do here.

But he does know what he wants. He knows what he’s feeling, for the most part anyway. And he knows what hasn’t worked for him and he knows that Eddie kissed him like it was salvation.

So, Buck says, “Gotta be honest, I’m kind of sick of good ideas,” with a low tone as he swipes his thumb over the red curve of Eddie’s cheek.

Good ideas haven’t really gotten him much and he reckons he is due for a couple bad ones. Even if no part of Eddie could be bad. Even if he’s having a hard time convincing himself that this is in fact a bad idea, because anything with Eddie can only be good, only ever has been good, even when it’s been awful.

tagging @spaceprincessem @shitouttabuck @bigfootsmom @lemonzestywrites @spotsandsocks @shyaudacity @sibylsleaves @daffi-990 @queerdiazs @jeeyuns @exhuastedpigeon @honestlydarkprincess @transboybuckley @rewritetheending @try-set-me-on-fire @lonelychicago @bi-buckrights @monsterrae1 @absolutelybifurious @devirnis @colonoscopys @hippolotamus @dr-shortsighted-owl @hotshotsxyz and anyone else who wants to share!

[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 4 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 4 of 7 chapters completed: 62.2K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here are two snippets from Chapter 4. One is of a conversation Buck's having with Maddie and Josh at Metro Dispatch and the other is of Eddie talking to the priest.

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Buck

“Listen… Tommy isn’t a good guy and it’s a good thing you aren’t with him.”

Buck’s speechless for two reasons.  First, he wasn’t expecting Josh to say that and second, he didn’t know Josh even knew Tommy but when he thinks about it, he figures he should since Harbor Station is part of the LAFD and since dispatchers communicate with them, he believes they may have interacted numerous times.

After a few seconds, Maddie asks, “Josh, why would you say that?”  She questions his comment but she has her suspicions especially since Chimney told her about the way Tommy treated him when he first got assigned to the 118.  She was appalled by the fact that he’s a racist and a bigot and the only reason why she didn’t say anything to her brother was because she thought Buck knew and he chose to ignore it since everybody at the station tells each other all of their business.

Josh gets ready to respond but Buck speaks first. “Uh, why do you think it’s good that I’m not with him anymore?”

“Well… for starters, you deserve better than a racist, bigoted asshat who laughs at your misfortune.  I know all about him and his coworkers laughing at you when you found that corpse before Halloween.”

Maddie frowns because she didn’t know about that since Buck didn’t tell her.

“How do you know he laughed at me?”

“Because Carson was at Harbor Station that day installing their clean agent fire suppression system and he overheard them.  Carson knows who you are because I told him you’re Maddie’s brother.”

Buck’s trying not to spiral because even though he knew Tommy laughed at him, it seems more real now that Josh is telling the story and he wonders if other people know he laughed too.

“Listen… I’m not trying to be all up in your business but guys like him don’t want anything serious.  They’re the type who just want to… you know?”

~~~

Eddie

“Would you like to go into the confessional, so you’ll have privacy to speak freely?”

“No.”

“Ok.  Did anything specific bring you into the church today?”

“Yeah, I’ve been feeling kind of worthless lately and like my life doesn’t matter.  Honestly, I’ve been feeling like that for years but…”  He trails of and stops talking.

“I understand and we can stay out here and talk if you want.”

“I think that will be better because it’s been years since I sat in a confessional.”

The priest nods, then continues.  “Earlier you said, your life doesn’t matter and it’s felt like that for years.  Is that the feeling that brought you here today?”

He nods but he doesn’t verbally respond.

The priest takes a few moments before he comments.  “God creates every life with a purpose.”

“Hmm.”  He hums.

“I take it you don’t believe that’s true.”

“If it is… then I can’t for the life of me figure out why he created me since my life is bad and not at all what I wanted or expected it to be.”

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - As Eddie hits rock bottom, he has a difficult time trying to pull himself back up and Buck does what he always does, he never gives up.

Chapter 5 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 7 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 - 4 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 5 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 5 of 7 chapters completed: 72.6K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

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Here's a snippet from Chapter 5 of Buck and Eddie talking while they're sitting on the beach.

___________

Eddie confesses, “She asked me for a… divorce.”

The silence between them is deafening as they allow his words to surround them.

As his confession reverberates inside of Buck’s mind, he takes a moment to review them then he tries to decide the best way to respond. After he does, he asks, “Ok. What um… did you say?”

“Honestly, I didn’t say anything because I couldn’t wrap my head around it.”

Buck slowly nods as he attempts to process the information. Back then, he wasn’t sure why Eddie was so dead set on reconnecting and recommitting his life to a woman who showed him many times she didn’t want to be there. Eddie said he was already reluctant to let her back into Chris’ life then he did but that was after she showed up at the station unannounced and loudly said in front of him and Chimney, they were sleeping together. A few days later, when he mentioned it to Chimney, he said it wasn’t any of their business, so he dropped it.

He’s not sure what he should say but instead of spiraling, he chooses to reply with the only thing he can think of. “You uh… said she suggested it but did you want a divorce?”

Eddie sighs and takes a moment to determine the best way to respond. He figures he should easily be able to say it but once the words come out of his mouth, they’ll be real and he’s not sure he’s ready to face that. “I—I… ok, here’s the thing. The only reason why I was trying so hard to get our family back together was because she told me she was pregnant.”

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - As Eddie hits rock bottom, he has a difficult time trying to pull himself back up and Buck does what he always does, he never gives up.

Chapter 5 - Buck’s inside Eddie’s home and he’s standing right in front of him explaining he’s here to help. Eddie’s happy to see him and he’s finally ready to make several confessions about the things that have been happening and the way he’s been feeling.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 7 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 - 5 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[canonicallyobserving911]

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - 8x6 "Confessions" through mid-season finale Speculation: “I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Chapter 3 is now available on AO3.

“I can’t imagine anything more painful than going through life alone. Except maybe one thing… going through death alone.”

Fic Summary: Eddie feels completely alone, he isolates himself and the weight of it causes him to slip into a deep depression. Once he accepts the fact that he’ll die alone, he has a decision to make regarding his life. Buck finally gets clarity about his relationship status and once he does, realization sets in and he becomes frustrated that he didn’t see it coming. Will they finally figure out they’re each other’s person before it’s too late?

Currently 3 of 6 chapters completed: 50.5K Words; Rated: Teens and Up Audiences

One chapter will be posted at a time.

___________

Here are two snippets from Chapter 3. One is of a conversation Buck's having with a victim during a call and the other is of Eddie having a heated conversation with his mother about his son. (I don't like how the show is handling the Eddie and Chris situation so I'm fixing it.)

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Buck

Once Buck looks at Ed again, he can see he’s worried so he tries to get him to talk.  “Ed, uh… you said you and Chuck were firefighters until you retired but you um… didn’t say which firehouse you worked from.”

“I didn’t but it was the 142 until I went to EMS Operations and Chuck got promoted to captain.”

He keeps talking about the lives they’ve lived and Buck learns a lot more about the two of them and he’s not sure if he should call it déjà vu or future déjà vu but he knows there are lots of resemblances and similarities between him and Eddie and Ed and Chuck.

After a few moments, Buck nods and when he takes a good look at Ed and Chuck, he thinks they look like older versions of him and Eddie.  Ed has brown eyes, olive skin, dark salt and pepper hair with a curl that’s sitting on his forehead and from where he’s hanging, he looks like he might be the same height and weight as Eddie too.  Also, he’s a medic who served in the Army.  Chuck appears to be the same height and weight as Buck.  His hair is curly but it’s mostly gray and the things Ed said about him reminds Buck of Thomas' and Mitchell's relationship.

Buck looks at Ed and notices he’s fading in and out of consciousness.  “Hey… Ed, stay with me, ok?”

Ed slowly nods, then he turns his head and looks at Buck.

“Tell me about Chuck.  When did you two meet?”

∞∞∞

Eddie

“Mom, please… I don’t mean to interrupt you and I’m not trying to be disrespectful but Chris going to El Paso was supposed to be temporary.”

“But Edmundo, I told you while we were there it might be indefinitely.”

“You’re right you did but I didn’t agree to it and neither did Chris.” 

She tsks and continues.  “He’s been here living with us since May.  He’s happy and he’s thriving so I don’t understand why you have a problem with us being his primary caretakers.  He’ll always be biologically yours but we should raise him because we know what’s best and furthermore, we’ve already started the installation of the pool, so he won’t have to go to that lake anymore.”

“Mom, I didn’t tell you to do that.  The way you’re acting is like Chris is your son but he’s not.”

“I know that but he’s our grandson and his happiness is what’s important.  So… don’t drag him down with you, Eddie.”

Once again this conversation feels like a fucking déjà vu movie or some shit and this is bigger than a damn song because she said the same thing to him more than 7 years ago before he relocated them to L.A.

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 - Eddie’s avoiding conversations with everyone at the 118 to prevent having to talk about how lonely he feels. On the other hand, Buck excitedly prepares to spend a romantic weekend with his boyfriend only to learn something he should already know.

Chapter 2 - Eddie appears to be happy whenever he’s at work but the truth is he’s masking his high-functioning depression with smiles and laughter. After another call with Chris, he falls deeper into depression and for the second time since he’s been living in L.A., he considers risking it all because he has nothing to lose. Since Buck’s got clarity on his non-existent romantic relationship, his fear of being left behind resurfaces and it causes him to spiral and he thinks he’s lost everything. In his search for answers to his relationship problems, he starts asking the questions he should have asked years ago.

Chapter 3 - Both Buck and Eddie experience déjà vu numerous times over the course of three days and during those encounters, Buck’s reminded of his own definition of love while defining moments from Eddie’s past resurface and he finally forces himself to confront them.

Chapter 4 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 5 - Will be posted soon.

Chapter 6 - Will be posted soon.

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Read: chapters 1 - 3 are available on AO3.

Continue reading on AO3

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

any moots wanna beta read this 14k post 8x6 buddie fic after i do my edits?? <3