It is surreal,
to feel as if you don’t exist,
to float,
to be there yet distant,
to disappear into your mind
or simply to fade.
to cease to exist,
to cease being.
eventually, everything fades
into background noise
and once more, i am here,
unsure of how long
I will remain.
It is surreal
to know you are there
but to feel as if you aren’t
and to think in halves,
as if you are being torn apart
by the life that surrounds you
and the emotions too distant
to grasp.
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Season’s Past
Fandom: Original Work
Theme: Winter/Snow
Originally Posted: December 12th 2018
Freshly falling snow
in the middle of the breeze,
winter calling,
chiming, coming,
frozen fingers
hold mine close.
❝Please don’t let me go.❞
The words are quiet,
softly spoken,
too warm for the winter
that holds my soul,
not cold enough,
nothing like the biting frost,
the raging winds
that capture every movement,
fallen leaves swirling,
the remnants of a season’s past,
nature’s most beautiful dance.
❝You will never fade from my mind. ❞
I hear within those words
such conviction in my voice,
but that is a lie,
a promise so easily broken,
for in the end a wish came true.
All I wanted for Christmas
was to forget about you.
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You think too much
of the right words,
I think too much
of the worst,
so we'll stand together
in the grave we dug
as we're buried beneath
what we wanted to call love.
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This year I will:
forget about the friends I couldn’t keep
tell her I love her (but never that I’m in love with her)
spend every moment with the people I love
take care of my cats
try to write the words I can’t say
live every day like it’s my last
stop letting my anxiety get the best of me
ignore the anger that bubbles up
fix every flaw others can see
love myself
(even if I know I won’t)
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❝Follow your dreams. ❞
said the elders,
with their tongues of silver
and eyes of gold.
Of course, they did not mean
the dreams in which you wrote
the dreams in which you imagined worlds
the dreams of your own.
Follow their dreams,
the path they have laid out
for those who grow
to have cold fingers
and steel hearts.
innocence lost to false desires
instilled by the way society thinks we should be
(but it is not the way we wish to exist)
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Fandom: Mystic Messenger
Character: Take a guess ^_^
Originally Posted: October 24th 2018
So here’s a short preview of my piece for the calendar @2019loveforallseasons, please check out the project and look out for preorders later this month!
If the player is careful enough,
he can feel it all -
the might of legends,
the spark of magic
through his veins,
the blood of gods
running within them.
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A preview of my poem for @saeranzine.
He changes, another flower, same soul.
He was the kadupul full of hidden self-worth,
the pink camellia which is all he wants to say,
the lily of the valley with the irritant touch
and the red carnation he has become.
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Change In Stages
Fandom: My Hero Academia
Prompt: Change
Character Focus: Todoroki Shoto
Happy poetry day everyone!
His life has come in stages,
changing constantly
with the orbit of the moon,
the tides,
the stars,
the sky,
the sun,
everything with motion
he has changed with,
he has followed
whether fast or slow,
wanted to or not.
Perhaps it takes a while
for things to truly change
when his father - a
scorching star,
one Shoto could not
bear to be near - had
promised to change
to someone he
could be proud of
could want as a father
could grow to care for
could learn to forgive
(could, one day,
if he dared to believe,
be someone Shoto even loved,
no matter how far away
such a time seemed,
small steps to
forgiving - but never
forgetting - were all he
could do).
That is not what it begins with,
no, it begins with school
with joining U.A
and with the sports festival,
with anger and fighting
with powerful words
with care and concern
with friendship
with peace,
it all begins with green
and a blinding smile
of a future hero - one that,
for once in his life,
Shoto was sure he
would wish to know.
It changes with a murderer,
with fighting alongside friends,
with saving them,
with flashes of green lightning
and crimson mixed with blue,
with the hottest fire
and the coldest ice
blending together to protect.
It changes with each day,
everything seems
to fall into place,
and perhaps Shoto knows
his life was never the best,
but he has friends who care
he has a family that
seems to love him - a brother
he barely knew, a sister
he has always loved.
(the only thing that
does not seem to change
is the shadow of the lost
that hangs over him each day,
a brother he knew so well,
a brother he lost too soon,
and a mother he had hurt,
who had forgiven him too).
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Heart and Soul
Fandom: My Hero Academia
Character Focus: Todoroki Shoto
Originally Posted: October 1st 2018
He was born with a soul of ice,
forged beneath
the coldest of places,
but his heart was fire,
passionate, warm,
created from the flames of cruelty,
but he did not allow
himself to be deterred
by the fire,
leaning towards the ice,
cold to the touch
but warmer than the fire
and kinder to him
than heat had ever been.
Perhaps it is this soul
that is the reason
he cannot accept defeat,
or maybe that’s his heart.
never fading,
never breaking,
never falling,
and over and over again,
the ice of his soul shatters,
while a fiery heart
burns so much brighter.
There is no love within that heart,
simply hatred,
the type that consumes
until there is nothing less
but the empty shell
of a cold soul,
a shattered heart
and silenced wishes of a child
for his brother’s return,
his mother’s comfort,
his father’s love.
However, slowly, he melts,
love finds its way to him
and fire dies down,
ice begins to thaw,
coldness disappears,
distance seems to fade.
Gentle touches to him,
like a thumb wiping his tears away,
a hand caressing his cheek,
lips on his own - slow, soft,
and kisses that were soothing.
Another’s hand in his,
fingers interlocked,
grip loose but firm,
and a lover’s embrace,
tight enough to keep him
from falling to pieces,
gentle enough to stop him
from being scared
and words quiet enough
for only him to hear,
powerful enough to comfort,
kind enough for disbelief.
The words are what saves him
from falling off the edge
of the walls he’d built
so long ago,
which only crumble
around the one
he loves so dearly.
Perhaps once, his soul
was a cold as ice,
more bitter than it should have been
and his heart was hateful
and had consumed him,
much like the hate
consumed his brother once.
He knows his life is fractured,
that sadness comes in stages,
that he shouldn’t
let himself fall victim
to negativity
like so many before him.
So perhaps sadness
comes in stages,
of loneliness,
of hatred,
of inadequacy,
of abandonment,
of fear,
but happiness comes as a wave,
as gentle touches,
as soft kisses,
as movie nights and sweets,
as words more powerful
than the Earth
and he knows,
how he knows,
that maybe sadness is fading,
that happiness is to come,
that so long
as he lets himself love
he will be fine.
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Seasons Change (But People Don’t)
Fandom: Mystic Messenger
Characters: Saeran Choi
Prompt: Seasons
Originally Posted: June 5th 2018
@saeranchoiweek
On the wind
in the spring,
there is pollen
and the smell
of
new life
and new days.
The fragrance of
a freshly printed book
entwined with
flower petals
which have been
pressed in it
during the short life
the book had lived.
In the summer breeze,
petals fly
for daffodils
begin to wither away
and new flowers,
summer not spring,
take their place.
The summer breeze smells
like ice cream
with a brother,
the clouds he used to see
in the bluest sky
and memories
of leaving,
only to return
and live a nightmare
over and over
again.
Autumn smells of petrichor,
rain pouring over
leaves in shades
of red and gold,
everything in between.
He remembers days
of tears
which flooded
from his eyes,
down his cheeks
and thoughts
of whether he would live
to see the first snow
of winter.
The winter is cold,
his thawed heart
freezes once more,
having only just recovered
from the way
the summer
scorched it.
Winter smells
like new starts
and being forgotten,
the taste of candy
on his tongue
and mourning
for a brother
he used to love.
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I Can’t Remember
Fandom: Mystic Messenger
POV: Saeran Choi
Prompt: Memories
Originally Posted: June 8th 2018
Another late one rip-
@saeranchoiweek
I can’t remember
if I was anything before,
if I was a person
or just more
than a weapon
that believed
it was human.
I can’t recall a past
that was true,
only fabricated lies
I refused to see through,
words woven by
a devil
who never saw
through the eye
of those
she forced to break,
as they curled up
and allowed
their old selves
to fall apart
and die.
I can’t seem to find
the memories
in my mind,
the ones you claim
existed before
all the hurt and pain
that I have endured
over the years.
I wonder if they’re true,
or if I’m simply a naive child,
wishing for an easy way out,
knowing that
it is futile -
no matter how
we pretend it isn’t.
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Do I Deserve This?
Fandom: Mystic Messenger
POV: Saeran Choi
Prompt: Forgiveness
Originally Posted: June 10th 2018
Do I deserve this?
You treat me well,
as if I never
caused any trouble.
You say you forgive me
as if I did not
murder the man
you call a father,
as if I did not
try to hurt you
and use the
woman you love
to fulfil - or,
attempt to fulfil -
my own agenda
of ruining your life.
Do I deserve this?
You want me to
be happy and
smile, you wish
for me to
accept love
and care
from people I have
hurt, time and
time again.
You tell me to
forgive myself
as if it will
help me keep
any shred of sanity
I have left.
So, I ask,
do I deserve this?
I know the answer
is that I
don’t.
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Sun, Moon and Stars
Fandom: Mystic Messenger
POV: V | Jihyun Kim
Relationships: V x Jumin
Originally Posted: May 13th 2018
For @jumeowss
You are the sun, moon and stars.
You are the center of all I am,
and I am simply the Earth,
spinning around you,
unable to let go and leave.
You are the moon,
for I cannot live without you,
and we are drawn together,
unable to be apart,
for the moon stabilised the tides of Earth
just as you are the stability I have.
You are the stars,
for you are out of my reach,
but I watch for you,
blindly grasping,
in hopes that I will reach you someday.
You are my sun,
my moon and
my stars.
Everything I ever wanted,
no matter where we are
or who we become.
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True
Fandom: N/A - Original Work
Prompt: Truth
Originally Written: January 2018 (no exact date known)
This was originally written as an entry to a poetry competition earlier this year. It was not a winning poem, but I’m still sort of proud of it!
What is true?
Is the life we live true or is our freedom,
so delicately given yet so forcefully stole,
no more than an illusion given
by those who wish to hide corruption?
Are the words we think are ours truly
those belonging to us or simply put into
our minds by another being which tricks
us into believing we speak our minds,
even when we know the words are not ours
and the true people we are
have been caged inside.
Do our opinions really matter
or are we told they are to give us hope
that we are worth something in this world?
Are we really honest or do we lie to
ourselves in a world of liars and cheaters
simply because the lies we have told are
fewer and less powerful than those others have spoken?
Nothing is true – that is the only truth there is.
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Feelings
Fandom: Mystic Messenger
POV: Jaehee Kang
Relationships: Jaehee x MC
Originally Posted: June 2nd 2018
How do I put it into words?
My feelings for you,
which I should
not have,
should I?
Should I indulge myself
in fantasies of
a life by your side,
a lover’s embrace
and eating dinner
in a candlelit room?
It would hurt
if I were to
allow myself to feel
for you the way I do,
with cheeks tinted pink
and words of adoration
on the tip of
my tongue,
never to be heard.
Is it best if I keep quiet?
It is. I should not
speak of such ideals,
of wishing to hold your hand
and, in the same way,
hold your heart
as if it belonged to me,
while you had mine
which is yours.
It will only hurt
if I were to
allow myself these feelings,
these fantasies and dreams
of being in love,
of valentines dates
and red roses,
boxes of handmade chocolate
delivered with red ribbons,
smooth silk,
and to think of a life
with you
is only torture
to myself.
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Live
Fandom: Mystic Messenger
Poetry Month Day 26
POV: Saeran Choi
Originally Posted: April 30th 2018
What does it mean to live?
He is unsure of the meaning,
for some say living is breathing
while others claim it is happiness
while doing so.
He does not understand the difference
that so many claim to exist
between living and simply surviving,
he doesn’t think he cares - he does.
He doesn’t know what living is
or what it means, but he tries,
he keeps breathing - forces a smile -
while he is trying not to cry,
his chest heavy with the weight of despair.
He does not live - not like this -
but he isn’t surviving either,
he doesn’t think.
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