#plz stop making fun of my self harm it’s really not cool

[im-sick-of-the-poison]

This person thinks I’m a mind reader and are only doing this because on another post I said that I was pansexual.

Edit: maybe it’s not because I said I’m pansexual. It’s probably because they are a dickwad who doesn’t know how to handle their emotions.

[abbysapphic]

WAIT A SECOND (#3.5)

WATCH OUT!!!!!

This theory about Pink Diamond contains the following triggers: 

Suicide ; bullying ; self-harm ; anxiety ; death threats ; Bad english grammar ; and a lot of other unfunny things.

If one of these make you uncomfortable that’s fine! Just ignore it! Don’t pressure yourself and stay safe <3 !

Remember this post?  

Remember one of the possibilities?

Well here’s the post where I’ll develop this theory. (English is still bad and I’m sorry).

First of all, I’d like to give my opinion about PD.

we know that she owned only one of the solar system’s colonies.

The Earth, its moon and....a part of the sun? Meh whatever! 

and this while YD and BD have much more than that! WD even owns litterally ALL of the solar system! (I think that’s because she found the said system but that’s not the point!)

That leads to think that either she’s the lowest Diamond, either that’s her first colony.

Let’s assume that it’s her first colony! Not because she’s the youngest! But, imagine, the Diamonds are away to conquer other planets. Are they really going to leave the Homeworld unprotected and leader-less? I DON’T THINK SO! 

Belly gems have been shown as being quite motherly but also like....hum.....

yyyyyYOUSEEWHATIMEAN!!!!!

So I think PD was left on Homeworld to “babysit” her fellow diamonds’ gems and to beat the crap out of anyone who would DARE to attack. 

But after thousands of years of babysitting, PD would grow tired of this. She asks for her own colony and the diamonds give her the Earth because it’s probably the easiest planet (With lots of ressources and stuff). (WD could’ve replaced her as the homeworld’s babysitter since it doesn’t look like she owned specific planets) 

Ok that’s it for PD in general! 

Now, the theory!

Here’s the context: a diamond who never dealed with a colony on her own and who’s probably (as her color leads to think) naive, innocent, immature etc. She’s aware that it’s very serious business! No time for foolishness, emotions or fun. She also knows that her fellow diamonds are counting on her to succeed into Earth’s colonisation.

Guys! That must put so much pressure on her! 

And then, BAM! Some love-boosted Quartz comes out from legit nowhere and starts a rebellion.

PD doesn’t understand what the smokes is going on! She wants to ask for help but she can’t! Her friends are doing so much for her! And she promised that she’d be able to take care of this alone!

She asked for a colony: she’ll deal with its disadvantages!

Then, as Blue Zircon said:  Rose Quartz couldn’t possibly approach PD.

And how can you hurt or scare someone that you can’t approach? Think about the many attacks in real life with terrorists (sorry to bring this up :( ). How do they scare high ranked people?  They kill other people, they radicalize their target’s former allies, they threat them....

Now, let’s go back in SU’s universe! 

Rose convinced homeworld gems to join her (a bunch of them were unhappy with their former situations) and she got rid of some of PD’s gems, bubbling or shattering them. (By the way.....I seriously think that the broken injector from Beta is the product of a CG’s raid)

*Steven’s voice* What...happened to that injector?

I’ll tell ya Stevo! YOUR MOM HAPPENED!!!

hrm....

(Also Oh my god am I seriously comparing the crystal gems to terrorists?! Kill me plz!)

PD grows even more afraid.  That even gets worse when rumors of the rebellion and a coming war arrive to YD, BD and WD’s ears. The three immediately contact/visit her and demand an explanation, ask if everything’s okay etc.

PD doesn’t want to bother them. After all, they already have so much to do! She says everything’s cool! There are just a few skirmishes but isn’t that normal when you lead your first colony?

The diamonds aren’t stupid. They know something’s up. They go on Earth, install their stuff (BD’s Sky Arena ; WD’s upside-down pyramid (I read somewhere that the Moon Base could be hers as well) ; YD’s....something) and they find out about Rose Quartz. Obviously, they’re kinda upset! “Why haven’t you said so?!” “Don’t you trust us?!” “Why do you do this to yourself?!”...

PD understands their worries but she still refuses their help. They have their own businesses and she’s a diamond like them! She can take care of this! 

The diamonds are still dubious but that’s true! Their own colonies/Homeworld need them! They leave the Earth, leaving a bunch of rubies as back up guards.

On her side, PD feels humiliated. “Seriously?! I really need to cling onto them as I always do?! I’m such a disgrace to the Diamond authority!”

Then, war happens.

Rose Quartz, seeing that PD hasn’t given up yet, decides to go even harder.

Death threats.

“If you don’t stop Earth’s colonisation, we’ll kill you!” “Go back to Homeworld! Or else....”

PD panics. Her naivety leads her to consider these as true. But she still refuses to talk about that to the diamonds. Her pearl gets worried too. She tries to contact the other diamonds via their pearls. PD learns about it and gets so mad she shatter (or bubble) Pink Pearl and force poor pearls to “Keep their mouths shut” (Hence Yellow Pearl and Blue Pearl’s looks during the Trial)

But now, new problem: PD’s all alone!

She can’t talk about her feelings to her court because her pride, not to the diamonds because she doesn’t want to panic them, not to her pearl anymore.

She starts losing her sanity. She looks for comfort into causing harm to other gems by creating cluster gems, she sends weird and ambiguous messages to her gems, she totally ignores YD, BD and WD, she neglect her colony and the war......

Eventually, as Rose Quartz’s about to win, she loses it.

I’d like to point out something. You know that PD’s gem is on her belly. Well picture her shattering herself with some kind of sword. Doesn’t that remind you of anything?

(Pic not by me)

Thaat’s right folks! And do you know the Seppuku’s symbolism?

“A samurai practice, seppuku was used either voluntarily by samurai to die with honor rather than fall into the hands of their enemies (and likely suffer torture) or as a form of capital punishment for samurai who had committed serious offenses, or performed because they had brought shame to themselves.” (Wikipedia)  

PD didn’t want to face the diamonds’ disappoitment. She didn’t want to live with the shame of such a failure!

She went to a place, far from the battlefields, ordered to every gems that still had the will to live to just get off this cursed planet and go back home.....and shattered herself, leaving obvious hints leading to this mess’ responsible:

Rose Quartz

This gem shattered her from the inside. PD just had to end it by shattering the outside.

Now what do you think? Don’t hesitate and give me your opinion(s)! That could be really interesting!