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weirdlyfitting · 6 months ago
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Was trying to sleep then this mf showed up ☹️
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sirenlulls · 2 years ago
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radio → f. pugh
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pairing — florence pugh x actress!fem!reader
summary —where the most anticipated movie of the decade leads to you being shipped with nearly everyone except your actual girlfriend
written for my 100 follower celebration!
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yourusername i pinky swear i'll take all spoilers... to the grave...
thank you to anyone and everyone involved in the making of this movie, you truly became my family over the past few months. i love you all 💞 (i hope everyone enjoys the little dump of my fav little babygirls)
florencepugh i miss it (and you) already!!
yourusername we've got a lunch date tmrw wdym 😫
username lunch DATE?????
username girl stop being delulu 🥱
tchalamet 🔥🔥🔥
yourusername 1/10 comment, so boring.
tchalamet rude.
username no bcs they'd be so cute together...
username i see the vision
username and the way they were so giggly in the press vids??? it smells of a relationship in here
harrystyles it was fun getting killed by your crazy fiance!
yourusername what did we say about spoilers harold? 😁😁
tchalamet have to kill you irl now too
username now idk if i'm just bi..... but her and harry......
username I GET U!!!! and the vids of her from hslot during the summer?? THE LOOK OF LOVE
username MOTHER IS MOTHERING
username pls tell me it's not just me who's lowk upset that so many of the comments are shipping her w timothee and harry
username no i feel it too like grow up, touch some grass, stop worrying abt the dating life of a 25 yr old celeb
username ur literally the reason i realised i like women
yourusername just posted a story!
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yourusername lover, you should come over has been on blast 🤭
username ITS NEVER OVER
username ALL MY LOVE FOR THE SWEETNESS OF HER LAUGHTER
florencepugh pretty girl 💞
yourusername that is ALL you
tchalamet 🤢🤮
yourusername 🥰🔪
username oh the twitter girlies were WRONG wrong 😭😭
gemmachan beautiful people ❤️
yourusername love u sm mama
harrystyles the real reason louise tried to help carla run away:
yourusername you really never learn do you?
harrystyles ...gay rights! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈😁😁
username he's got the spirit ❤️
florencepugh i love you 💞
yourusername i love you more 💕💕
username bungee jumping w no rope rn 🤣🤣🤣🤣
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11queensupreme11 · 11 days ago
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Wow. Just wow. I must tell you, you know how to put a tense dramatic dot at the end of the act. SO MUCH HAPPENED IN THIS CHAPTER. To be honest, I didn't expect that we would get the murder of two gods. (By the way, Zagreus, I think, had something to do with reincarnations in his domain, maybe he will return?) Thanks for keeping us on our toes and not letting us forget that our clowns not only commit violence against each other, but also actively interfere with the lives of those who at least breathe in Percy's direction. But now it is clear that no one plans to fight for Poseidon in Ragnarok. If Hades does go out to fight, it will only be to show the lady of his heart that he is better than her father. In any case, this scene was very cruel, and it was very scary. It is perfectly conveyed how the gods in ROR kind of cruel and uncaring - Zeus somehow did not worry much about the death of his sister and lover. Percy's arrival seems to be the first thing that's made them feel anything. I'm starting to understand why they can literally go nuts over her. Speaking of Percy, how do you plan on keeping her alive? How do her suitors plan on making moves on her? In her condition?! HOW MUCH NON-CON SOMNOPHILIA ARE WE IN FOR?!
Also, the entire main cast of the fic shined in this chapter. Poseidon? Totally nuts. Hades? 20 grieving fathers out of 10, now he's going to tell everyone that Percy is rightfully his because Poseidon took his child. Loki? A couple of lines of dialogue, but how he feels the stream of cringe. Anubis? Best delulu dog. Apollo? Babygirl, but for me, he's often in high positions.
Yan's reaction to our girl's illness was... interesting. To be honest, I am now completely sure that Percy surpasses many in ROR universe in terms of power (influence?), because she managed to stop their fight (they done it voluntarily) and make them work together (partly voluntarily).
Thank you for chapter, queen💖 And Happy holidays!
P.S. I wanted to draw you something festive, but in the end all i drawn was some eww sketches with greek yans. They are unfinished, and I am ashamed to send them. I try be able to improve by the new year and draw something decent. (Wattpad doesn't like me for the second time. It seems that I have problems, please forgive me)
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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO @yagodnyizefir DON'T BE ASHAMED TO SEND THEM, SEND THEM PLS PLS PLS WATTPAD'S JUST A BULLYING JERK OKAY, THEY'RE OVERLY SENSITIVE
no fr, they are EXTREMELY sensitive. a long time ago, i had this gif of a pair of heels that a woman was wearing.... AND IT GOT FLAGGED DOWN FOR BEING INAPPROPRIATE. it was literally just shoes 😭😭😭😭 i think someone might have a feet kink over at their flagging system or something
so yes, WATTPAD IS THE PROBLEM, NOT YOU!!!! 😭💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
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maxzinn · 8 months ago
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Damn why is the HSR fandom becoming way worse than genshin? And whenever there is any controversy aventurine is always somehow involved like leave my boy alone 😭
I'm a cis straight woman okay and no matter which fandom i interact with they always look down on me and assume shit about me even though i try to be nothing but understanding I have had so many tell me that I can't like a certain male character romantically because he is only for the boys/gays. Even like when you tell them you like a certain game/franchise/anime/singer or band they're like 'you have to be queer for liking this' and for some reason they try to convince me that I'm queer even though I'm not and they think that me being cis and straight makes me 'basic' and 'boring' I love jjba, Nana, Castlevania, Final Fantasy, Hsr and genshin impact but literally every fandom I've been is filled with a bunch of judgemental pricks which is sad because I was so excited to talk about my interests :( at first i thought they were being like that because I'm asian but then i realised it's because of my 'basic and boring' sexual and gender identity
and for some reason when I tell them that I'm cis straight they immediately assume I'm a white privileged woman (like i said I'm literally Asian) and i haven't struggled a day in my life which isn't true at all it's so ignorant to assume all of this about me just based off my sexual and gender identity and when I try to speak up they tell me that they're just 'giving me the taste of my own medicine' like what??? What does that even mean?? I'm not even homophobic i come from a conservative country and family but I have done proper research and educated myself on this topic and i treat everyone with respect so why can't they also be decent human beings and respect me too? I still try to be understanding but I can't stand the air of superiority among these people and they're usually under the age of 25 too because other queer people I have interacted with who are older than me don't behave pathetically like these people
(sorry this was so long you can ignore it if you want and sorry if my english is bad it's not my first language 😭 anyways I hope you have a good day/afternoon/night)
(This post is also long sorry hehe)
No cuz for real, it’s getting way more annoying in the fandom (no offense) and it’s even worse on twitter and hoyolab.
In my opinion, I think the toxicity mainly starts with people forcing to everybody that every character in hsr is queer coded and all that stuff. I keep seeing all that posts and comments that this certain character is “implied” which is not true??? It makes me wonder if they even know what the word “implied” means, cuz it basically/indirectly means that it’s canon.
I’m so done with those posts that claims “robin is lesbian and girlkisser so gtfo men” like stfu?
If you have seen the replies on tuonto’s twitter post, there’s like a LOT of people saying that. Like, hc her as lesbian if you want but DONT act like it’s canon and stop forcing your hcs on other people pls.
And when others reply to them saying that it isn’t canon and that they shouldn’t force it, they just straight up say that those people are “homophobic and lesphobic”.
I have no problems with gay/lesbian ships cuz I support all ships equally (except the illegal and problematic ones), but these delulu people are ruining it for the fandom tbh.
It’s funny that being straight/cis is seen as basic and boring now. And that part where you’re being forced to be queer is funny af 😭 are they ill?
You can like all the male characters that you like, none of them have canon sexualities and they’re certainly not canonically gay. If some person says that you shouldn’t like a certain male character cuz they’re only for the boys… then they’re ill, don’t listen to those bs.
It’s so weird that people now argue and force a sexuality onto fictional characters and just assume a certain character’s sexuality based on stereotypes (like aventurine for example) then claims that they’re a queer representation when said “representation” is just based on stereotypes.
It’s weird that a character’s sexuality matters so much when it doesn’t even matter that much, just enjoy the game and the plot? Stop projecting yourself onto them, they’re their own person and they have their own personality. They have nothing to do with your sexuality. And most of all… they’re literally PIXELS
And pls, liking a certain franchise doesn’t reflect anything on your sexuality. You can be a straight woman and like drag shows, you can be a straight woman and like BL and GL. Men can be straight and love skincare, men can be straight and like fashion/makeup. ITS NOT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?? Just stop stereotyping people 💀
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lonelywhalien22 · 2 years ago
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(2/2) Also . . . I can't believe you saw that post about the coworker sdkjfksdf;df - I was just getting off work in the more and I was kind of stunned when I posted that LOL 🤣😂
For some context hahaha: We have a shared workroom and he was coming on for the day and I was just getting off (read: sleep-deprived, not thinking straight hahaha). Just for personal reasons, I won't say what my profession is 😅 (though I'm sure some ppl are able to guess). He's in higher up position than me, but he works on a different team. I've only seen him in passing and said 'hi' in the hallways, but late last week, he started paying attention and talking to me more . . .???
It was so strange because I literally didn't think this man would go from 0 to 100, but we were just making small take and he just goes: "We should go get some coffee sometimes."
AND LIKE SJSDFKSDJ maybe I'm overthinking it and he just wants to go get coffee as friends . . .?? But I was just really taken aback because we aren't even tight like teammates like that 🤣😂
I told him I'd think about it 💀😂 I felt kind of bad bc he looked embarrassed after LOL, but I was taken off-guard! And everyone else in the room was like 👀👀👀
We haven't even his number (I don't want to ask and I think he's nervous to ask now bc of the power dynamic) and I only have a week left here, so who knows what will happen. I don't think it's going anywhere, but hey - he's still talking to me LOL.
Overall verdict: He's cute . . . ish?? Like not my usual type, but he takes care of himself 😭😂 I'm not sure if I'm a big fan of his personality though based on what I've seen? He's kind of brash and to some extent bro-ey . . . He kind of intimidates me ngl lol and I like witty, soft boys (read: jeonghan vernon) ._.
There was another senior from another team I had a crush on, but he moved onto a different floor 😭😂 HE WAS EVERYTHING YO LOL. (but I never talked to him sdkfjdskfjdsf)
Anyways, sorry this was so long, but you asked for the tea and I've been dying to tell someone LOL.
P.S. So excited for you to see Ed Sheearan!!! He's one of my favorite artists <3
took forever to respond because i had lots of thoughts to this part hehe
@twogyuu pls know that i spend way too much time randomly checking tumblr during the day/night so i've caught like 90% of ur delulu❤️posts/random interesting thoughts that u delete after a few minutes 👀 👀 👀 👀
*me laughing evilly as i take the biggest sip of tea known to human kind before spitting it out bc i burned my tongue lol*
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omg why does your description of this interaction sound like a meet cute lol - just reading that beginning part i was on the edge of my seat 😂 now follows the thoughts of someone who has literally *0.0001%* irl romantic exp. but spends wayyyy too much time reading/watching/thinking about these sorts of things and human relationships in general (infj + enneagram type 4 wing 5 watch out lol), so take from this what you will (below the cut bc i ramble):
suddenly talking to you more often? asking to 'get coffee sometime'??? i'm like 99% sure he's into you my friend so if you agree or give him ur number he's gonna take that as a go so keep that in mind lol. this guy once asked for my number way back when i was a junior in hs and i agreed and then he legit texted me nonstop for a week before confessing his feelings - all via text. and then i rejected him bc i wasn't interested at all. 😭 so like now i don't like to give guys my number unless i actually wouldn't mind them texting me directly like that lol. i'd rather give like an insta or something.
this is just my brain thinking out loud bc i like thinking about these scenarios, not at all telling you what to do - the power dynamic def makes this yikes but if you're gonna be gone soon then that kind of eliminates that part in terms of concern. in my experience of being on both sides of the interaction, when someone says 'maybe' as a response to that kind of advance/request to hang out without any alternative plan, most people assume that's a 'no' or at the very least the rejection will keep them from asking again or following up. unless he's the type of guy that doesn't take no/ambivalence for an answer (ew) he's prob not gonna ask again so if ur interested, it'd probably have to happen from your end.
*high key* screamed internally when you said he was a bro-ey type. any time i hear that my body instantly recoils lol. is it just like the obliviously loudish but good-natured type of bro or the type of bro that takes up space and air in the worst, most entitled/rudish way possible bc one of those makes me 😳❤️ and the other makes me wanna 🤮 💀
Rip I've def felt that where there's a guy you were totally into but like you never interacted/maybe he didn't even know you existed but you still think about them 😭 I wanna say reach out to the one ur really interested in but my scaredy cat self wouldn't even take my own advice lol. I always pine from afar or literally act like a guy doesn't exist if I like him 🤣 (don't be like me but if you do this ur not alone so don't feel bad). Unless I change my stupid ways I feel like a guy will have to be genuine friends with me for longggggg af before he ever made a move to keep me from being scared af and running away. Which is embarrassing. Gotta work on that lol.
Rooting for you no matter what happens lol <3 I'll be waiting for whatever installment of ur love life you decide to share next 🍿 (only if you want to of course <3)
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sobun1est · 1 year ago
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Posting live! WATCHING THE LIVE COMEBACK SHOW
¡¡¡¡STRONG LANGUAGE!!!!
Intro: back for more (txt ver)
I do not understand shit lmao gotta learn Korean asap
They slayed the intro tbh, as always
THEY LOOK SO GOOD BUT GOD SOOBIN YOU SCARED ME TF
Sitting arrangement (left to right)
Soobin, Hyuka, Beom, Yeonjun and Tyun
Istg I don't understand anything of what's happening lmao
Why are we talking about temptation rn?
Soobs I don't understand (but I love you)
It's 1 am here pls I'm so tired 😔
Guys I truly give up I don't understand anything here
GUYS WEVERSE HAVE CC LETS GOOOOO
It's kinda amm late on the translation but at least I know what their saying
Love how the mc has asked Tyun like three times to speak, loving the Tyun biased here (for legal reasons that's a joke)
SOOBIN LOOKS SO GOOD HES MY BOY FR
They are vibing to (and talking about) growing pain now
CHASING THAT FEELING
pretty sure they are going album order, that makes me wonder if they are going to talk about back for more and do it like that
I mean back for more is the third track so we'll see soon enough
OH YEONJUN DANCE?!? HE SLAYED YEONJUN MY MAIN DANCER, HE KEEPS GOING GET THAT BABES (he danced chasing that feeling ofc)
YES BEOM CREDITS
"ammm" - beomgyu 2023
OH?!? PRETTY BOY GOT ME GOING CRAZY AT 1 AM (still beom)
THEY DID TALK ABOUT BACK FOR MORE, moa saying the fan chant tho
BEOMGYU RECOGNITION I LIVE FOR THIS
Tyun talking about the dance of back for more
OH OH?!! TAEHYUN A WARNING WOULD OF BEEN NICE!?
Oh Hyuka standing up yasss, THE JACKET OFF MOVE
DREAMER MY SONG FR
"ohhh" - moa 2023 (who wouldn't been amazed at Beomgyu tho)
yeonjun giving soobs and tyun credit ayooooo
Soobin I will go delulu stop :))
Guys this is so unrelated but I love soobins voice like not only his singing but his speaking voice (can you tell soobin has been my bias since the start?) I am so astronomically bad for this man istg
THE BOP THAT IS DEEP DOWN OMG ANOTHER FAV OF MINE
I gotta appreciate that the mc know how to pronounce the English track names
HYUKA WINK I REPEAT HYUKA WINK
The crown is important STOP I DONT WANT LORE RN 😭😭
Not mc tearing up for deep down
HAPPILY EVER AFTER I'm still mad for the 0 beom lines istg
Oh yeonjun and tyun participating for this track? Slay
Istg don't ask beom anything about this track or I will start crying 🤞🏻🤞🏻
"HEH?" - tubatu 2023
SKIPPING STONES (SOOBS)
Soobs explaining the song, slay just when I made the skipping soobs joke
Soobs and beom indie songs gang
"stop" - Hyuka cause soobin's annoying with his music
Beomgyu said "...when I go to work" I deadass got so confused I forgot his job for a sec 🤡🤡
YES HYUKA THE LYRICS CAUSE OFC I UNDERSTOOD THEM
BLUE SPRING MY FUCKING SONG
Stop it or I will cry thanks
THANK YOU MOA FOR FINISHING IT
Beom explaining blue spring 😭😭
Beomgyu so cute 😭😭😭🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻😭😭😭
Ohh hyukaaaa I will cryyyyyyyyyyyy
ME NEITHER I WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF BLUE SPRING FR
THEY DID TALK ABOUT DO IT LIKE THAT
the mcs reactions are so representative slay
YAS yeonjun speak 🤭🤭
Am I being delulu or yeonjun hasn't really talked...?
MOA YES THEY CALLED ME
is it me or this we speedran this
OH PRESENTATION TIMEEEE
Song: Happily ever after
ISTG IF BEOM DOESN'T SING I WILL CRY
Ohh fun interaction there
The vocals live >>>>>
BEOM LINES LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I'm so Incredibly happy for that
SOOBS VOCALS HELLO?!?
TYUN YOUR VOCALS ISTG
THANK YOU BEOMGYU FOR SINGING
HYUKA AND YEONJUN ARE KILLING THOSE VOCALS
GUYS AM I GETTING WREAKED AGAIN BY MY OLD BIAS LINE?? (Soobs, Beom and Tyun)
oh thank you little ad there for the txt episode
WE BACK
NOT CROWN IN ACOUSTIC VER 😭😭😭
BLUE HOUR TOO 😭
It's like an acoustic (is that English even?) mashup
Bc also SUGAR RUSH RIDE
RUN AWAY IS HERE TOO 😭
CAN'T YOU SEE ME? IS HERE TOOO
STOP I WILL CRY GOOD BOYS GONE BAD 😔🫢
So the final order for the acoustic mashup or whatever in order:
- crown, blue hour, sugar rush ride, run away, can't you see me? And good boys gone bad -
THE BEOMGYU SARANGHAE 😭😭 MOA YOU'RE SO REAL FOR THAT
ALL THE SONGS ARE INDEED GREAT
KEYWORD TALK MOMENT
it's a game that I will not understand so I will probs not comment on anything
I am so tired istg the things I do for tubatu
SOOBIN IM WARNING YOU RN IF YOU CRY I WILL CRY SO DONT YOU DARE
Soobs: (he picked L = like)
"the light between oceans"
Fr what the f is going on..?
Idk what's going on but blue :)
"R" - hyuka 2023
Hyuka: (R = right)
SOOKAI MOMENT
The fear in soobs eyes LMAOOO
"SOOBIN Hyung, SOOBIN Hyung, SARANGHAE" -hyuka 2023
Soobins face 😭😭😭
THERE GOES YEONJUN
🫡🫡
The fear in everyone's eyes I'm so sorry for laughing but they are TERRIFIED
BEOM: (L = lyrics)
Speaking stones is being mentioned here
BEOM LIL DANCE 🤭🤭😭🫶🏻😭🫶🏻🫢‼️🫢🫶🏻😭
MY BLUE SPRING 😭 BEOM DONT DO THAT TO ME I'M NOT STRONG
Ok but his vocals sooo pretty
STOP SINGING BLUE SPRING ISTG ILL START SOBBING
Yeonjun: (E = exchange)
He wants Beomgyu's computer lmaoo
BEOMS FACE 😍😍🫶🏻🫢😭🫢🫶🏻😭‼️
Ohh I think he lent beom a book and hasn't got it back lmao
They still beefing about the computer
Let my boy soobs think, he want the LP player
YEONJUNS FACE 😭😭‼️‼️ LMAOO
Soobs sentimental era !! !! !!
I really need to learn Korean bc I'm not getting the jokes here 🫡😔
Hyuka wants his whole closet lmaooo (who wouldn't tbh)
Hyuka and yeonjun same size ? Damn
SOOBS GETTING THE LP PLAYER ‼️
TYUN: ( A = Autumn)
Best txt song that fits autumn : FAREWELL, NEVERLAND
THANK YOU FOR THOSE VOCALS KING
TAEGYU DUET ‼️‼️(GHOSTING)
HYUKA VOCALS YASS KING
One more letter let's go
MOA: ( so confusing but they choose E = express)
Moa love for 30 secs? Yes please
I'm loving this mc istg
Txt love for 30 sec
TAE THANK YOU FOR THE KISSES KING
HYUKA WINK PART 2
SOOBIN STOP DKEBEKSKHE
YEONJUN AND BEOMGYU SLAYED THAT
Tomorrow by together "SARANGHAE" - MOA 2023
MOA "SARANGHAE" - Tubatu 2023
AINT NO WAY SOME OF THIS GOT DELETED ISTG
SOOBIN saying variety shows on the way!
Thank you for the mention tyun!!!
FIGHTING TAE
YEONJUN ENGLISH 🫶🏻🫶🏻
"our.....songs" - yeonjun 2023
Beomgyu 😭😭😭😭
Beomgyu pulling the English lmao AND JAPANESE TOO my multilingual king
HYUKA saying sorry?? For what king? I'LL WAIT FOR YOU A LIFE TIME IF NECESSARY SHUT UP
ly too guys 🫶🏻
THE JAPANESE HYUKA TOO!!!
Soobin not only for three weeks, for a life time my boy
MORE PERFORMANCE?!?
I think is gonna be chasing this feeling
TUBATU I LOVE YOU 🫶🏻🫶🏻
THANK YOU MC‼️‼️
Song: IT WAS FUCKING MOA DIARY
MY OTHER SONG FR
I DON'T TRUST YOU IF YOU DON'T LIKE MOA DIARY FR
VOCALS KING TAE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
WAIT DO IT LIKE THAT (TXT VER) TOO?!? DAMN
It is kinda sad to see that if Beom gets lines soobs gets less and vice versa 😔 they already get little lines (obviously it not any of tubatus fault but an observation)
YAS YEONJUN MAIN DANCER
They put the chasing that feeling MV at the end I'm guessing
IT WASN'T THE END PEOPLE¡!!!
CHASING THAT FEELING PERFORMANCE AND OUTFIT CHANGE!!!
This is my way of seeing the full choreo and I'm loving it
MOA killing that fan chant!!!
THE VISUALS?!? THE VOCALS?!?
Tubatu is my sanity a joke to you?
TAE THANK YOU FOR BLESSING US WITH YOUR VOCALS KING
The prettiest ending fairies 🫶🏻
BYE TUBATU!!!
If anyone reads this till the end you a real one, idk why you would but anyways Stan txt <3
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lorensonebraincell · 1 year ago
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sTOP i took one (1) look at paediatrician!bf and i'm already deep in delulu oh dear
bai please the stickers that he keeps stuck to his desk 😭 i was literally thinking about this the other day but adult workplaces should really implement sticker charts and reward systems like who decided that only children get stickers ??? why not adults too ???
and and and oh my god this makes me so excited because the kids section in kmart is literally my second home i want to go on cute shopping dates with hwa where we go buy toys and lego and stickers and games and little furniture for all the little children we work with I'M GOING TO COMBUST
AHAHAHAH I'M IMAGINING MYSELF AS THE PARENT WATCHING THIS HANDSOME DR PARK SNEAKING UP WITH HIS SYRINGE AND THEN GOING VERY SERIOUSLY nyaaaaaaah~ I WANT HIM SO BAD HE'S SO GOOD WITH CHILDREN <333
hwa knowing your surgery schedule off by HEART???? he's really raising the standards like higher than mt everest rn
THE WORK WITHDRAWALS 💀💀💀
GOOD LORD
DOCTOR SEONGNYAH I- I'M LAUGHING SO HARD AND OFC IT HAD TO BE WOO CALLING HIM THAT is woo also a paediatric doctor because he would be SO GOOD WITH THE KIDS THEY WOULD LOVE HIM SO MUCH ADFSDKJFHFS STOP YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME
gaH i know we're supposed to be drooling over hwa but NEUROSURGEON READER AHHHHH I'M IN LOVE <3333 doctor power couple being cute and talking about their appointments and being so genuinely supportive of each other and what the other person's doing is my ROMAN EMPIRE
PAEDIATRIC!NEUROSURGEON YEO AS WELL??? bai you're spoiling us I NEED HEADCANONS FOR ALL OF ATEEZ AS HEALTH PROFESSIONALS AND IF YOU'RE NOT DOING IT THEN I AM BECAUSE ateez in doctors' coats ??? yummy
he was born to love you, and only you JUST EXCUSE ME SCREAMING INTO MY PILLOW AT 4AM i hope you are fireproof PLS AJHDFSDG
under the night sky full of constellations, you two were still the brightest UM HELLO ??? ? POET BAI DEBUT WHEN ???
OH MY GOD
OH MY GOD
THEY
OH MY GOD BAI
THEY
THEY THEY THEY
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
STOP THE WAY THAT I DIDN'T EVEN CATCH ON IMA CLOWN BUT GOOD ON HWA FOR JUMPING IN WITH THAT PROPOSAL AOSDFNSDJKG you captured the hesitation and shyness so well uGH
um why does no one flirt with me using medical pickup lines ?? like you could say one (1) thing and i'd be ready to marry you
ask your department head first FOR A BLESSING? AHHAHAHAH HWA PLEASE HE'S SO CUTE AND SILLY he really is just head empty no thoughts only marrying reader <33
GOODNESS ME can you tell that i LOVED LOVED LOVED this fic bc if not then I ABSOLUTELY LOVED LOVED LOVED THIS FIC it was literally all my favourite things in one fic thank you for this wonderful cute fluffy christmas fic bai ilysm
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🩺 pairing: paediatrician!bf!seonghwa x neurosurgeon!gn!reader 🩺 genre: fluff, doctor au, established long-term relationship, festive fic 🩺 summary: in the early hours of a shared night shift right before christmas, the present turns into a gift, and seonghwa can't be happier and more in love 🩺 wordcount: 7.8k total 🩺 warnings/tags: slightly edited, the fluff is strong, simpery is real, two doctors with heart eyes, marriage, proposals, family, hwa is yearing, woo cameo, woo+hwa banter, yeo+yunho mention, mom+kid side ocs, needles/syringes, injections, hospitals, night shifts, unconventional marshmallow toasting, a lot of love and sharing life <3 🩺 taglist: at the bottom of the fic 🩺 a/n: happy holidays and merry christmas~ the idea for this was in the drafts for ages, reignited hardcore by @starrysvn(...the cameos hehet), and it feels right for the festive season~ much love! comments, reblogs, notes all appreciated
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Clean and comforting. The poster-room of an office, personalised, and yet retaining all the professional qualities necessary. The gentle swaying of the tulle that transformed the twinkling of a myriad of skyscrapers outside and a magnificent deep navy and inky black star-filled sky into a soothing haze, the ticking of a clock adorned with illustrations from the doctor’s favourite franchise. There was a unity even in the multicoloured shelves and cupboards. Stickers, kindly left behind by particularly pleased, proud and excited patients turned into permanent decorations on the sides of the otherwise strictly uniform desk, bringing relief and encouragement to its occupant. The newest additions - a small desk Christmas tree that was decorated on theme with the rest of the space, and a couple of garlands elegantly hung on the top cupboards and above the tulle served as reminders that it was, in fact, the festive season, and celebrations were only a day away. Even so, healthcare could not take a holiday, and the hospital was busier than ever.
“Hey… do you like… Lego?”
It had been long enough since the beginning of the appointment, as Doctor Park Seonghwa had noted, but the little patient sitting in front of him was still refusing to succumb to the wrath of a ‘spooky scary needle that makes him go ouchy’. Seonghwa could not blame the boy though - if there was something he never did, it was to project a child’s behaviour outwards into adult societal expectations. As a matter of fact, he rarely did that for adults too. He never saw the point, nor did he wish to impose some alternative spin on reality onto anyone who he had the pleasure of meeting, especially his patients or their relatives. As L/N Junseo crossed his arms in disapproval, Seonghwa could not help but spin a tiny fraction on his stool that he used during appointments such as this, and sneak another piece of sporadic scrutiny towards the mother. As he had assumed, there was little comfort to be offered from her side - she was sitting in a corner across the room, fanning herself and sending worried glances in the approximate direction of both the doctor and her son.
So, he had no choice left. He had to pull the most powerful weapons out of his arsenal - inspired by the many pieces that served as baubles on his desktop tree. Seonghwa was grateful that he had the foresight to not unpack the disposable syringe before checking the kid’s tolerance. Judging by the smile that spread across the boy’s face, and the confused expression gracing his mother’s, Seonghwa knew he hit the jackpot and there was potential for him to catch a break if the appointment did not run over, and if he was lucky enough, perhaps the main reason behind his rush would be free too. The simple thought inadvertently crawled into Seonghwa’s mind, and he lowered his gaze to suppress a shy smile and return to being the amiable paediatrician that he needed to be.
“Now, mister Junseo, will you wait a couple of seconds for me?” After receiving his patient’s enthusiastic nods of approval, he spun around on his stool, and rolled towards the cabinet that occupied the majority of the right wall of his office.
Stopping himself from crashing into his desk with a fast hand, he opened one of the lower doors to reveal a series of colour coded and labelled trays, each one filled to the brim with even more vibrant hues, but maintaining a strict order. Pulling the first and then the second tray from the top, the doctor inspected the contents, and decided to give the final decision to Junseo, turning to him with a grin on his face.
“Dinosaurs or spaceships?”
“Spaceships!” just as Seonghwa had thought, this question broke through the storm clouds of doubt and fear, cutting right down to Junseo’s primary interests, some of which the young doctor just so happened to share – the only difference was that the latter had to also remember that he had a job to do, and that job involved convincing, or cleverly deceiving with good intentions, a little kid into a routine shot. It was hard not to wonder what your, his life partner’s, reaction would be if you were in this room with him, considering that this environment was probably the furthest a space from your natural habitat - the operating room, could be.
“A man of good taste I see. I mean, dinosaurs are cool too, but I will let you in on a little secret… I have matching spaceship band aids,” As he pulled out the tray that contained some pre-built spaceships, with the bricks being from a younger-child-friendly set, along with stray pieces that turned the set into the perfect cognitive and sensory exercise, Seonghwa took time to explain his actions to the boy. In a way this was not too dissimilar from the preparation of instruments for surgery, so perhaps you would find joy in this interaction to the same extent as him. He shook his head lightly, reeling himself back to the matter at hand.
Sometimes, Seonghwa pondered whether too much of his budget, and, on occasion, personal finances, went towards making his office be more of a playground than what one would imagine ‘a doctor’s lair’ to be – in his mind, that was your office, one that he visited enough times to memorise. An ode to modernity, with books and documents, diagrams and an anatomically accurate model of a brain with various labels - just what one would expect of a real doctor. But both fortunately and unfortunately, this was a style that Seonghwa would not attempt to achieve in his own office. There was a mat on the floor made out of foam puzzle pieces, there was every form of toy transport he could find, animals, dolls… he swore he appeared in toy stores more regularly than in the pharmacy at this point. But the joy with which his patients’ faces lit up was more than encouraging, reminding him that he was on the right path, he was doing well, and that everything was worth it.
“NO WAY!” Junseo yelled out, excitedly kicking his feet. The paper towels that lined the bench rustled slightly, the link between the sheets being stress tested – much like the mother, who appeared to be speechless, but at least no longer faint.
Seonghwa imagined that his present conclusions and responsive actions were not too distant from how teachers felt when they saw a certain type of action be executed by a child, and then saw its origins during parent teacher conferences. The conclusion had come to his mind on its own accord but resounded loudly enough for him to send a reassuring gleam to Missus in the corner, and observe her delayed reactions as she, evidently, was battling the instinct to throttle him to the ground and save her child from danger. How wild and fascinating the generational sharing of fears and burdens was. Seonghwa turned his attention back to the star of the show, who was eagerly waiting for the eloquently advertised, and much anticipated, spaceships.
“Yes way! And I can show them to you later.” Seonghwa responded with a chuckle, setting the tray next to the boy, making him turn to the side and better expose the arm that was to receive the intramuscular injection. Even though Junseo was now fully immersed in the toy provided, he still expressed his gratitude, forcing the man to use every ounce of strength in him to not melt.
“Thank you so much Doctor Park!”
"No, thank you! Lego is my favourite, you know, but if you picked dinosaurs, you could have heard my tyrannosaurus rex impression." He could hear some shuffling outside of the room, turning into a thud as he introduced his ‘special ability’ when it came to distraction tactics. It was straining, conducting all his appointments without a nurse, since quite a number had arranged to go on holiday for Christmas, including his favourite in the form of a tall man with the brightest smile and enough energy to power the whole building - Jeong Yunho. Was it a challenge for Seonghwa? Perhaps, but he was coping. Besides, would he really want anyone here with him except a certain someone who was not even in this specialisation?
"Awh... no... but that sounds so fun I wanna hear, I wanna hear!!!" The cute boy was practically begging, giving Seonghwa his best puppy dog eyes with a turn of his head – that would not do for the doctor’s mission, however, Junseo needed to be practically in a different realm for it to work.
"Could you attach this jet engine please?" In the softest voice he could muster, Seonghwa guided attention back to the spaceships, commenting on how well Junseo was assembling them. He infinitely admired the ability that children had to disregard common practices, ignore rules and simply create. As Junseo would get older, he would undoubtedly have to succumb to standardisation, but in the meantime, he could enjoy picking a wild palette of coloured bricks, not think about astrophysics when constructing the ships, and be perfectly satisfied with what he was crafting.
"Mhm..."
Using the moment of distraction, Seonghwa turned and reached for the hand sanitiser pump on his desk, cleaning his hands. With practised motions, as he returned to his seat in front of the kid, the doctor took out the prefilled syringe out of the pocket of his white coat, peeling the decontamination seal to fish the item out. He had a small window of opportunity and needed to act fast to seize it. From the other pocket, he produced a packet with an alcohol swab, carefully tearing it, as far away from Junseo as possible so that he would not be shocked by the smell.
"Now, Junseo, could you sit a little closer to me, so... oh thank you!" The child obediently shuffled, not taking his eyes off the Lego pieces. "You might feel a little cold on your arm, but don't worry I will roar that away, okay, you with me? Ah wait, how do we make that ship the strongest in the galaxy?" breath in, breath out. Watching the child’s movements so that he would not accidentally hurt himself. Lifting the sleeve of the t-shirt the Junseo was wearing ever so slightly, Seonghwa crept towards the bench on his wheeled stool, praying to every higher power that he would be done with this appointment soon, but retaining his professionalism. It was now or never.
"Imma show you-"
"Nyaaaaaaah~"
As soon as Seonghwa started, he was done, and the syringe was long hidden behind his back as he pressed a cotton ball to the area, though Junseo could not care less, having broken into a fit of giggles over the interesting interpretation of a t-rex. No matter how exhausted he was, this was one of the things the doctor lived for – having the ability to make medicine, doctor’s visits, and hospitals just a little bit less miserable for the little ones, something of a game or an adventure, him being of the opinion that these pocket-sized humans did not deserve to be exposed to the struggles quite yet. If it was in his power, he would have changed the ‘quite yet’ to never, but that was far too utopian, and something wiped out of him in first year of medical school. So, Doctor Park simply tried his best.
"DOCTOR PARK THAT WAS NOT A ROAR!!!" Junseo proclaimed, still giggling as he clutched onto a bright green brick. Seonghwa chuckled, sliding to the left to dispose of the syringe in a biohazard bin, stretching himself out so that he could still keep holding the cotton ball. Out of the corner of his eye, he could see the mother beginning to come to her senses, the ‘high alert’ mode dropping to a more manageable, generally healthy parental worry.
"Then come on, show me what you've got. I bet you have a-"
"ROOOOOOOOOAAAAAR!!!" With him being startled by what he should have expected, he could not help but throw a glance at the other adult in the room, finding her surprised. Hands clasped together, she whispered ‘goodness gracious’, and upon finding out that she had a one-man audience, gave a sheepish grin and looked down. Seonghwa was calming down from his ‘performance’, the doctor, actor, caregiver and child-friendly comedian in him began to leave his body, giving way to a straightforward happiness of a man who could see that he helped out people in need.
"Wow now that is IMPRESSIVE Mister Junseo! Ah wait, could you hold this for me?” he gestured towards the cotton ball, and once the boy complied, backed away to get some more hand sanitiser. “We are done!"
"Huh? Wait... no ouchy?" genuinely confused, the toddler asked, dropping the Lego pieces entirely and blinking in slow motion.
"We scared the ouchy away with spaceships and your awesome roar, didn't we?"
"WE DID!! WE DID!!" With the cotton forgotten, Junseo was about to hop off the bench, his hands pressed into the dark grey material he had been sitting on, but before he could Seonghwa caught him, easily picking the boy up in his arms despite the weight that it put on him. After all, patients came first, and this was always a clear sign that he was trusted – besides, the kid did not have any other ailments, so a little hug would not hurt anyone, especially not Seonghwa’s soul.
"We did! I promised you a cool band aid too so... ah hold on let me... watch your head please." With Junseo still in his arms, Doctor Park ambled towards the other side of the office, closer to where the mother was now standing, to reach into one of the shelves and retrieve the packet of what he considered to be something akin to achievement stamps. A final well done from him to the patient, for being so courageous and letting Seonghwa poke them with a needle.
The rest of the appointment went by in a blur. The boy was safely back in his mother’s arms, sporting a colourful bandaid, babbling away about spaceships, quietly repeating Seonghwa’s dinosaur impression, and emphasising for the umpteenth time that ‘the injection actually did not hurt at all’, much to the mother’s delight. She looked to be on cloud nine as she held her bundle of joy, and even though he was bouncing on her lap to the point where the doctor would assume that she was in discomfort, the woman showed no sign, and instead gleamed at him, expressing genuine gratitude.
"So sorry for all the trouble and that I could not help in any way, please accept my-"
"No need no need! Junseo is such a sweet boy, and it was all his bravery in the end. I am just doing my job." He tried to assure her, flipping through the vaccination booklet she had provided and filling out the details of the shot. While checking the date just in case, despite him having a mental countdown to Christmas with the precision down to an hour practically built into his brain, he still noted the clock on his computer, memorising the time in order to figure out when approximately you would be done with the surgery you had arranged for this evening. Maybe he would have enough time to stop by your department, and manage to catch you there to ask about what plans for celebration you two would dare have in between busy schedules. His attention was guided back to the jovial duo on the armchair, as the mother spoke once more.
"You perform miracles, Doctor Park. Really. You are truly one of a kind! Before today I was convinced that he was wired to cry at every appointment..." she lowered her voice a little, just as Junseo turned away to pick at one of his trouser pockets.
"If you are worried about him developing any phobias and the like, I can recommend some amazing medical experts who can work with you and him?" Whenever anyone voiced a concern, he took it as part of his responsibility to respond wholeheartedly, and as such, once he completed the record, offered assistance. Perhaps this was also a safe zone for him, a removal from what otherwise would inevitably make his heart melt or ache. But to no avail.
"Oh no, no, I think I found the cure right here. Really, my husband will be so impressed about this!”
Husband. Happy family. There it was. Seonghwa felt the corner of his mouth twitch as he lifted himself off his chair, shut the booklet and returned it to the mother, and wife. It was difficult to convince himself that this was not jealousy tugging at his nerves and heartstrings, as the more he pondered the image of what had to be a perfect union, the dinners, the days out in the park, the little meet ups for lunch if either partner was otherwise busy… the domesticity got to him and made him want to slam the table in frustration. So, he did the next best thing, and clasped his hands behind his back so that he would not dare act out of line.
“Is that so?” he forced out, remaining composed as he returned the mother’s bows while she ushered her son forward and stood up to head for the door. He could not help but imagine the duo walking under the lights that adorned every shop, every street and coming home to their own tree, coming together as a small family in a cosy atmosphere. Similar routines, similar time off, the space to love and to live and to enjoy being ‘one’ to the fullest. 
“I think he will want to come with us next time, to meet you, really… of course if you don't mind us scheduling check-ups with you from now on?" meet him… so Seonghwa could see the whole assembly… Really, right in the moment when his head was filled with thoughts of you, he had to be reminded of just how adorable some aspects of paediatrics could be, to the degree of malicious irritation. 
He bet that the reason why you were so relaxed about your relationship was because you were not in direct contact with families and cute kids, for the most part. The closest you came to communicating with patients was in briefing, de-briefing and maintenance of their condition pre- and post- operation. He had to see the bad and good, the downs and ups, the rollercoasters and the memorable highs over long periods of time. Some of his patients he had known for so long, they were basically his relatives, and the personifications of sunshine that would rush to greet him, nearly stumbling over tiny shoes and sometimes barely reaching his waist, or even mid-thigh, restored his faith in the universe. It was exactly because he was aware of the downsides, and still desired this closeness and this next step with you, that he was cursing time itself for not allowing him to express this hope properly. Sure, you had discussed marriage, and both of you were more than committed to one another, but no words had been said about the part where someone popped the question. Was there ever going to be ‘the right time’? Especially when both of you were at the early stages of your medical careers, and were caught adrift in the chaotic shifts, training, exams and had to sacrifice yourselves for thousands who came through the doors of the hospital.
"Ah, whatever you would prefer, Missus Hwang. It would be an honour.” He squashed his nerves for the remainder of the appointment, and peacefully parted with the two visitors to KQ Hospital, wishing them the happiest holidays and for a stable recovery from the vaccination. 
Seonghwa remained standing in the corridor, his back propping the door to the office. Closing his eyes, he listened to the opening of the elevator, and let out a breath he did not know he had been holding once Junseo’s excited, shrill voice was muted by the doors. Gears moved into action as the machine carried the mother and son away from the paediatric ward. The doctor rolled his head in an attempt to relieve at least some of the tension that had built up from the back-to-back out-patient care, the abominable late nights, and the vexatious haze that plagued him in his own life.
It was going to be a long night. And he was barely a quarter of the way through his night shift; perhaps the winter cold and the shorter days were to blame for the melancholy mood. As he straightened himself up once more, Seonghwa instinctively reached for the phone that was hidden in the pocket of his black trousers, hoping for any kind of distraction. Checking the time, messages, whether you had even seen his text about the maintenance people coming to check the plumbing next week… any sign that there was a world beyond his job. But the communication flatlined, and he resorted to simply staring at his lockscreen: a picture of the two of you during that one vacation that you had managed to book together. The one where, three days in, both of you had severe work withdrawal, but thankfully laughed it off and soothed the pain by falling asleep in each other’s arms. That was what he missed. The simple things. If there was one thing he wished for this Christmas, it was for you and him to spend it together - no one else, no pagers going off incessantly, no family members intruding on your time, not even friends. He missed you, even though you were right there. Of course, he still felt blessed to be able to embrace you almost every time you two would be floating into dreamland - be it in the morning or in the evening, aside from when shifts did not align, but he craved more, always. Maybe he was being greedy, wanting for even more of your time. Nonetheless, he hoped that his readiness to sacrifice all of his for you would, at some point, result in his most romantic dreams, akin to castles in the sky, coming true. He wished to well and truly build a life with you. Seonghwa had never thought that he would pay so much attention to labels, but something about settling down officially, being together ‘in sickness and in health’, as he had heard in the vows at his friends’ weddings, was leaving him in a state of longing, constantly, until it was a permanent buzzing in his head.
"So... Doctor Seong-nyah-" rudely tearing through his daydreams, a familiar voice startled the doctor, causing him to gasp and shove his mobile phone into his pocket with panicked haste.
"Wooyoung, don't test me, you are not my patient." Seonghwa gasped, and retorted with sudden venom, spinning to face the man who, evidently, had been loitering around in the corridor behind him for a lot longer than he would ever accept.
"But I want a sticker or a bandaid please~"
But the action only resulted in a stupor, as right there, hands in pockets, the ghost of a mischievous smile on perfectly tinted lips, was his favourite person. Doctor L/N Y/N, neurosurgeon, and definitely the one who had changed his brain wiring to short circuit every time he saw you. Before Wooyoung got any cheekier due to the lack of a response and the less than discreet gawking from Seonghwa’s end, he forced out a random commentary; anything to keep himself from going into cardiac arrest.
"You keep stealing my Disney princess ones anyways!?"
"Can't help it. Besides I've seen you snatch the toy sword so consider us even."
A light blush was threatening to coat his cheeks as he gazed at you, mesmerised by your cheerful reaction. Without a doubt you were imagining the scene, and had you been alone, would coo at ‘just how endearing’ it was. This was not the kind of ‘break between appointments’ that he was imagining, and while you were here, before him, very obviously free, Seonghwa was questioning whether this was a manifestation of luck or a curse.
"That was for safety… and… uh… hello my love.” he mumbled, while you smiled at him, and gave him a gentle wave, already anticipating that even if you were to speak, you would crack and reveal what you had been planning - a major step forward that had been plaguing your mind at almost all hours, even in rare snippets of quiet. Technically, what you had said to Seonghwa was true - it had been an operation, just of a different kind. Careful to not let the mandatory Santa hat you had tugged on your head as part of your department’s senior residents’ effort to ‘keep the spirits up’ slip, you adjusted it to be more snug, and rapidly returned your attention to your boyfriend, who was intently studying you, admiring every detail as though he had not seen each one a million times over.
"Y/N here found the dinosaur impression cute, just so you know." Stuck in a limbo between locking himself in his office and throttling Wooyoung to the ground, Seonghwa chose neither and was simply amazed at how you could remain so nonchalant.
"Were both of you… listening to the… but that is not-”
You and Wooyoung exchanged a knowing look, causing suspicion to rise in Seonghwa. He was not fond of it. Not in the slightest. There was something brewing, and that glint in your eyes was less than reassuring. What were you hiding from him? A million questions a second ran through his mind as he subjected you to scrutiny. First off, you had said that the surgery could be challenging. And yet he could not detect the slight furrowing in your brows, the slouch, the pursed lips that you normally had if you were monitoring a patient in critical condition.
"They were around the department, and I just so happen to know that you are a certified clown so..." Wooyoung began, purposefully winding the taller man up until he was ready to break the Hippocratic oath and cause harm.
"Says the person who can literally replace the fire alarm with his-"
“This is why you should follow my methods and do the whole ‘energy drink and coffee” cocktail before those ghostly long shifts, I tell you-” crossing his arms, Wooyoung appeared to be enjoying every moment he spent teasing his fellow colleague, ignoring how you were starting to get impatient, glancing down the corridor and back to the bickering friends.
“How even-”
"Well, I would more than like to consult the lovely, charming clown please, because I have a whole circus on my hands and need some help.”
That was all that was needed to regain all attention back. Seonghwa gave Wooyoung one last sidelong stare before focusing on you, attempting to figure out just what you were scheming. He knew better than to pry, however, if there was anyone in your relationship who was an expert in dissecting, be it literally or metaphorically, it would be you. That was exactly why he stood and waited with bated breath, fingertips dancing on his upper thigh. In trepidation, the young man’s mind replayed every shared moment with unfathomable clarity, leading him to wonder if this mischievous glint in your stunning orbs was further foreshadowing, much like your sudden announcement that you would be working the same hours as him today, and upon questioning passed it off as “a bit of Christmas luck”. 
“Right…” Wooyoung’s voice appeared distant, barely audible against the thrum of nervousness and lighthearted suspicion. Running a hand through his wavy, neatly parted long hair Seonghwa gave you a lopsided grin before following you down the corridor and giving his colleague an amiable wave, along with a cheerful call of “see you later”. His friend had the whole night ahead of them - much like you and Seonghwa. Except, unfortunately, you and your partner were floors, departments away. Not that far in the grand scheme of things, but far enough for Seonghwa’s heart to start hurting when he least expected it.
Just like now, despite you being within arm’s reach, the proximity reminded him of just how much of a luxury such moments were, and how, should anything go wrong, you would metaphorically evaporate. The beeping of a pager would be enough to make you or him leave, that damned device having to be strapped on and prioritised above everything else. As less and less time remained until Christmas, the probability of it going off climbed higher and higher, so every step was a risk, and every scheduled consultation or out-patient care call when Seonghwa was mandated to hand off his monitoring duties to another resident - a temporary salvation.
You were in your scrubs, and were sporting a standard issue doctor’s coat, ever so professional. Though your back was facing him, Seonghwa could easily imagine the identity card clipped to the pocket above your heart, along with the embroidered hospital name and emblem, and your department. Neurosurgery. The top of the top, an art and a science so complex that Seonghwa was in awe of you eternally. How you dedicated your life to the mystery behind a person’s eyes, and how you could heal the terrifyingly enigmatic organ with astounding success. Determined, passionate in all ways, that was what had drawn the enamoured man to you, and what had made him fall deeper and deeper and vow to stay for as long as you would allow him. Would you be fine with him tagging along, just like this? Would you be willing to walk in the same stride?
“Hwa,” turning your head, you exclaimed your boyfriend’s nickname and then turned back to scan your pass to let you both through to another corridor, “how has your day been so far, lovely?”
“It’s been good, not too bothersome. Last appointment was a vaccination - not sure how or why the literal holidays were chosen for this, but who am I to judge,” looking around, Seonghwa responded. Quickly, he caught up to you, and in a matter of moments you felt how his fingers intertwined with yours, and his palm was pressed against you, as though a mirror image. Jigsaw pieces falling into a perfect union, your hands, stilled in harmony. 
“Maybe not everyone wants to skip school,” you mused, poking fun at the times when your boyfriend did just that - at least before university and him choosing to major in medicine hit like a truck; in the blissful middle and high school days, so easy in retrospect - a fever dream. 
“I’d love to hear what the little patient would think about that one… but really, Christmas? Why would you run the risk of having side effects over Christmas?”
“That’s true… but I bet you made the appointment a really good time. In fact, from what I have heard I am sure you did,” you teased, making Seonghwa squeeze your hand and click his tongue in pretend annoyance.
“Hey, I’m trying my best here-”
“-and you are making the world a better place,” you cut him off, squeezing back and urging him on, closer and closer to your final destination. 
Seonghwa shook his head, bewildered at the sudden outburst of affection. You were normally not the kind to get too sappy at work - if anyone, it was him who would gush about the simplest things to you during a brief lunch break, while you would be nodding along with a grin on your face. You were excited about something, without a doubt. What it was, however, was beyond him, so he let you lead, while playfully questioning your behaviour.
“What’s gotten into you? Did you forget to put the plates back in the cupboard at home?” he squinted, slightly relieved when you chuckled but still left without a concrete answer:
“Can’t I praise the love of my life every once in a while?”
“You can, but-”
“-Besides, Yeosang, you know, my friend from paediatric neurosurgery, he said kids who you had treated talk about you non-stop. Maybe you should pay some of them a visit. If their treating doctors allow it, of course.”
Eyes widening, Seonghwa barely noticed you slipping away from him to grab a large bag you had stationed by a heavy exit door, and in bewilderment was concerned if he should believe your overwhelmingly kind message. All those little lives he had the honour of getting to know and trying his best to help… remembering him? It was at times like these, even the hardest days were worth it. For the present and for the future. He returned to reality only when he felt a gust of freezing cold air hit his form and goosebumps ran over his skin. Your proud, loving smile greeted him and encouraged him to walk on. When Seonghwa attempted to query your spontaneous adventurism, you waved it off - forward, only forward. Making a note of something fluffy in texture peeking out of the bag, he hoped for it to be at least a scarf; a doctor should know to not expose themselves to the risk of colds. 
You led Seonghwa to one of the many secluded areas of the hospital - forgotten by most staff, this portion of the roof was the prettiest at night, when the lights of surrounding high rises and the rest of the metropolis stretching out as far as the eye could see all glimmered like a blanket of stars laid down on the precious planet. The city, forever awake, bustling with activity. A hand brushed against his upper arm, and he turned his head to see you holding his coat that he swore he had left in the call room. Gingerly, the article was in his grasp, and yet another question was travelling for you to tackle:
“Now when did you get this? I know I did not just leave it lying around.”
“Mhm, call room. Coat hanger. By the door. I am very aware. I picked it up on the way.”
“Sounds like someone had a lot of time…” trailing off, Seonghwa put on the coat, watching as you did the same. Apparently, that was not all that was in the bag, and with each item that was revealed, his surprise grew and grew.
“Just enough to prepare a little something,” in one swift movement, you caught your boyfriend off guard with sudden Santa hat attack - nearly covering his eyes with the white fluff, previously styled hair shooting out in different directions from under the accessory, you still deemed the mission successful, and giggled, elaborating: “now, we match.”
He could not not love you. Much like the nights in December were dark and his exhales turned to steam that was to be whisked away by the wind, he was confident in the fact that he was born to love you, and only you. It was funny to think that years ago he thought of other kinds of forever, only for them to fall apart in months. Seonghwa mused about different realities, but was never afraid of losing them until inevitably happened; not because he did not care at all, but because his heart was never in the right place. Now that his heart was home, it was clear. Most of all, the clearest sign of the truth that belonged to your relationship, was the subconscious fear, continuous and blended into every note of adoration. It was in his love for you that he found what it meant to be afraid to lose. 
The young man did not want to lose these priceless moments - how you would make an elaborate plan and surprise him with it. How out of nowhere, before his very eyes was a blanket that you laid down on the roof, a portable heater that emitted a glow akin to that of a campfire, and a large wool throw that he assumed you wished to use to keep you both warm. That shine that he swore was coming from something heavenly within you as you dragged him to take a seat, your adorable cooing over him as you wrapped the two of you tight with the throw, and scooched until your body was pressed against his. On instinct, Seonghwa’s arm was around you, and he leaned in until he could smell the faint, comforting aroma of your strawberry shampoo. Staring into the heater, he imagined a gentle flame, falling into a beautiful daydream - a world where there was just you and him.
This was a long-standing fantasy of his, a picture of which he had painted for you many times while you counted stars on the ceiling of your bedroom, drifting off to sleep just before the chirping of the birds, the dawn bidding you farewell and wishing a good rest. Somewhere nowhere, in a place with no name, surrounded by no one and nothing, you two could stay for a little while and indulge in simplicity. An escape from the daily stresses, a dive into the daily bliss of being enamoured and having found one’s soulmate. In a little cottage that you two could rent out, with a little spot outside so you could pretend like you were properly camping, Seonghwa prayed for time in an earthly utopia. 
“I couldn’t find sticks, So I hope you are fireproof,” a marshmallow was held between two delicate fingers right before his eyes. A large, white cloud and a hint that you might have been listening a lot more intently than you had let on. 
“I- are we- are we about to be toasting marshmallows?”
“Yes.”
“Okay,” the doctor followed your lead, stretching out his hand to the heater, imagining the marshmallow roast away; if Seonghwa were to squint hard enough, he could almost see the colour change.
A giggle escaped you, and you huddled into him, at peace due to the safety which you always said he naturally oozed. Without fail you told him how he was a walking spring day, a blessing, a shining star. The more you said it, the more confident he became in accepting the words as truth, and then, one day when he caught you admiring him from afar while waiting for him to finish rounds, acceptance turned into a fact. By loving you, and by letting you love him, Seonghwa learned to love himself. Thoughts of fond memories prompted him to give you a gentle poke, making you lift your head in perplexion. This, however, was quickly dispelled by a the sweetest kiss, deepened by a gentle hand that found purchase on the nape of your neck.
Lips so familiar, so addicting; each time they met was the kindling of a miniature paradise. A journey through time, to end only in the future, the present turned into a miracle in which he could immerse himself, all of his senses attuned to you. The touch of your lips was the rays of a sun in May, kind and soothing, blossoming into the finest beauty and the most satisfying serenity on verdant green leaves and gorgeous flowers. The only thing he could hear was the breeze creeping across the not quite as picturesque cement and metal, and the ghost of a mumble of “I love you” as you parted for air, still close enough to share it.
Lost in your eyes, Seonghwa wished he could never be found. He was willing to endlessly draw the maze that trapped him in them, adapting it to formulate a personal infinity. Eyelashes, eyebrows, nose, cheeks, lips, every blemish and freckle and scar were all priceless to him. You, in all your personal divinity, a universe that so intently studied him, loved every part unconditionally and invited him in to do the same. A symbiosis, a system of two stars orbiting one another - a gorgeous celestial waltz was how he saw you and him. Under the night sky full of constellations, you two were still the brightest. Seonghwa’s heart was full. He ever so softly let his hand slide to the side of your face, thumb gliding slowly over the skin of your cheek. Once, twice - perpetual motion, each one marking another second in which love grew stronger, and the yearning for his dream more intense. If only he could put it into words. And yet, courage only allowed him to muster a mere two which were far too general, ambiguous:
“Thank you.”
“I am glad we could do this,” you answered, sharing in his delight. You did not need anything else, seeing past the mellow, pleasant triviality.
“I think the only downside is that now I want to do this all the time,” his hand guided your head into the crook of his neck, so you could sit side by side, looking out into the urban expanse. Silence weighed on you, until a long-awaited suggestion reached Seonghwa’s ears.
“Well… we could. At least for Christmas.” 
“As if we will be taking days off, yeah.”
“Who says we won’t?”
“I- huh?” 
You took his hands in yours, and shuffled for you to be face to face. Much to your astonishment, when it came down to the critical moment when you would start being blatantly obvious in your intentions, you were not as anxious anymore. Everything felt more than right, and the comfortable quietude resembled the globe holding its breath for you. 
“I have an idea,” your boyfriend was intrigued, but doubtful. He had hopes, sure, but he knew better than to keep them up, “so… ahem, well, for us it is standard practice to not schedule anything major on holidays, just in case, and thankfully I could… reschedule some things…”
“Uh-huh,” he nodded along, raising his eyebrow. Your hands held his more tightly on their own accord, shaking a little as you spoke.
“Well, so, yeah, you know how the head of… the head of paediatrics is a big family person right?”
“Yeah, comes with the job I suppose, and?” tongue darting over his lips, Seonghwa began to sense what you were getting at, and he swore there was not enough oxygen to sustain him, and a dizziness settled over his mind, clouding it, leaving behind only you, you, you-
“Hm… well… I think they would be more than happy to let a new family celebrate together… yeah?”
“...Yeah…yeah?”
“So what I’m saying is-”
“Will you marry me?”
“Beat me to it,” gleaming, you pulled him in, stopping a mere few millimetres away, seeking approval.
Hints of tears welling in his deep brown eyes induced your own. Pressed forehead to forehead, you memorised every tiny detail, how you felt, how Seonghwa felt, how you were both fondly mumbling ‘yes's and ‘always’s and ‘I love you’s over and over again; vows uttered at the beginning of a new chapter of a miraculous life, in perfect harmony.
“I’m sorry for the ‘no ring’ situation-”
“I’d marry you with paper rings,” Seonghwa responded at the speed of light, quoting one of the many songs that both of you loved to listen to, and would blast in the living room many times over, “how did you even plan this-”
“Don’t bash me, but Wooyoung was an accomplice-”
“Of course he was,” he flicked your nose with his and guided you into another kiss, your hat sliding away and almost falling to the ground, saved only by Seonghwa’s reflexes. Smiling against your lips, he only deepened the sensual expression of devotion, parting simply to confess,
“To think we were rehearsing the same thing but I was too scared to say it.”
“You are too precious. And I’m sorry if I’m too scary, angel,” you winked, earning an amused, airy laugh.
This could not be the furthest from how Seonghwa felt; the notion of you terrifying him was hilarious. Everything but you was the issue. You were his safe haven, his clarity. The one to whom he had already given away all his hours, be it in closeness or in his dreams both in the day and night. You were his and he was yours, and now that the one change he had been begging all the goodness in the galaxy for finally happened, he wanted to shout this from every rooftop, starting from this fated, isolated spot that must have been made for just you two. 
“No, I am just more certain that you can read minds,” he gestured to the heater, the untouched marshmallows, the stars, and finally stopped at you, alluding to what was to be your proposal, turned mutual.
“Just because I poke around brains-” you began, only to be stopped by unparalleled cuteness in the form of a scrunched up face and a tiny smirk.
“Yeah, yeah, you aren’t even a cardiologist and you stole my heart-”
“Park Seonghwa, cease the flirting, we are getting married-” playfully, you slap his shoulder.
“Oh, you only saw the beginning,” a wiggle of the eyebrows. Your very soul fluttered at the sight of his megawatt grin, and the innocent peck left on your cheek.
“...I hope so,” your wish. To cherish the many sides, colours, shades, edges, angles of your spectacular Seonghwa.
“It’s decided. I’ll hit you with all the festive pick up lines starting tomorrow.”
As you settled back into an embrace, regarding the golden glow of your inner oasis that transposed onto all, previously dark, surroundings, you unwillingly played the role of the realist.
“Ask your department head first.”
“For a blessing?”
“No, silly, to confirm your freedom.”
“Yes, Doc’,” in jest, your fiance saluted you, and you wrapped your arms tighter around his waist, brushing your jaw against his shoulder.
“Page me after."
“I will page myself across the hospital to tell you.”
“Awh, my Seonghwa Claus and my present in one,” absent-mindedly, you reached for a stubborn strand of his hair to push away, and twirled it around your digits, careful to not ruin the perfect balance of the themed hat beneath which they tried to establish their own order, threatening to disturb your elated angel. 
“My future spouse- oh I’ll be saying this so often.” 
From one day to the next, under the sun and moon, with many seasons passing by, you became the time that you seeked and previously fought against. As you looked to one another for more and more in your lives, it was destined that eventually, the idea of any other path would be simply impossible. At the end of a year came a new beginning, witnessed by the observant stars and by the long winter night.
“Me too, my love, until I can call you my husband.”
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nightswithkookmin · 3 years ago
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Hi Goldy, hope you are doing well. I just want to ask, what do you think is happening with JK and JM? Jikookers have noticed that since JM's birthday, verified accounts have greeted him with Jikook's pictures and 3 days ago, during the 4th anniversary of GCFT, Universal Music Philippines posted on tiktok and twitter a jikook edit with Troy Sivan's Angel Baby as BGM. it's very suspicious even if UMG will be BTS's US distributor come Dec 1. do they know something? 👀
The accounts that posted Jikook on JMs birthday was sus as fuck not gonna lie
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Couldn't tell you if they were just being dumb and reckless or calculatively supportive and sending out subliminal messages of love, encouragement and again support for Jikook
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It's embarrassing to say out loud but i wept that day when Jimin brought JK to his vlive on his birthday☺
I think a lot of people are well aware how much Kook means to JM and with all the abundance of speculations on their relationship I think it would be insensitive for anyone to not keep an open mind and hold space if they are real- which I think they are- that they will make them feel loved and accepted by their fans.
I'm uncomfortable when some shippers outrightly dismiss them and bully their shippers just for celebrating whatever it is that is between them.
So what if it turns out shippers were right all along hm? What then? I think people should learn to entertain the possibility of it being real and check their anti homosexual attitudes within the fandom.
If there is a queer member of BTS- and there absolutely is- I think it falls on us to make them feel as accepted and loved as much as possible. Idols who've come out as queer and do have the support of their fans are thriving- relatively speaking.
All these anti gay behaviors anti shippers and the fake wokes exhibit honestly is very harmful and disturbing in the grand scheme of things.
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These accounts may just be Jokers. There are human beings behind those accounts after all.
Some of course might just be clout chasers who think associating with a ship will boast their analytics. There are similar brands who'v posted Taekook and shown their support for their ship in recent times too.
It might mean something it might mean nothing at all.
Plus this isn't exactly new in the fandom.
Personally I hate that neither bts, staff, or any of these blue nike birds are saying Jikook's official ship name with chest. I roll my eyes whenever I see Jm & JK.
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JiminiewaJungkookie. It's cute but you know... respect the ship thank you.
They skirt around the tag Jikook as if to distance themselves from shippers and that my friends is how them finna catch an ass whooping from me.
If they know something, I don't think it's their place as media outlets to say anything much less to hint at it. They can hop on their personal accounts and talk their shit but from official company channels????
Pls don't don't make me more delulu than I already am😭
There's only so much of my sanity I'm willing to gamble with.
If he knows all these people are seeing right through him we are fortunate he shows up online at all. He's gonna be blushing for a while. Lmho.
The UM Philippines account claims it serves Tea of '"favorite artists" and I think I saw a comment or two about Justin B. and his wife... 💀
That troye Sivan edited to Jikook post has a link that leads to a sales page.
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And I don't know if GQ posting Jikook is a special case in this instance because they do post photos of BTS as they do cover them in their magazines and shit and I don't recall correctly but I think that picture they posted was already in their archives...
Yup they did. The tagged their archives in that birthday post. Don't know if it was a case of that was the best photo they had of him or whether they didn't have a recent solo photo of his.
On RMs birthday they posted this... i don't think it means they believe Joonsope are in a polyamory. It's either sheer laziness on their part or a case of the best shot we could find. I personally wouldn't read too much into it but go off i won't stop you😏
Sometimes it's also a case of they are looking for a specific genre of photo but it so happens that the high quality ones have JK in it.
Some people like to post goofymin photos on his birthday and a lot of his goofy photos are with JK. It would be weird if they just cropped them out ya know? We would have dead them to be honest. Jikook are dorks and just plain silly sometimes. Lol.
The gcf anniv and all that could be just coincidence... or like i said, it might all have been a calculated move too. We would never know.
I love it though. It doesn't do anything to my delusions about them but I love it🤣
I love a lover hate a hater. As long as they are not hating on Jikook what's the harm?
*dramatically disappears into thin air. Puff.
GOLDY
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bonvoyagenoona · 3 years ago
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That would be awesome! I can just make a trip out of all BTS concerts, do some sightseeing, food tripping, watch the boys kick ass ! Vancouver is definitely a cool place, I hope they do come to the city as it has soo much to offer. I'm not a big fan of big cities, I like small, quiet towns and Vancouver is a good middle ground for me. Food was great, shopping was good, the hikes were great and so close by! Except rent was atrocious, I missed the snow and I hate the rain. All in all, the city was great but just not the rightplace for me to live in.
So my friend says that sometimes she has to take time to understand the emotions your characters are going through but she gets really drawn to the stories. She just finished Bear With Me and she was very frustrated with Red being blind to Jimin. But she said it was like watching a teleserye! HAHAHAHAHA but nothing beats TRTY. In fact she wrote you a little something,
DEAR BVNOONA, THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME CRY.
Also
PLS GIVE ME A JK AND JIN LOVE TRIANGLE FIC TO FEED MY DELULU BRAIN 🤣🤣🤣
I just copied and pasted her text message exactly HAHAHAHAHAHA how wonderful you are, Cheryl 🥰 thank you for sharing with us.
That night was chaotic indeed!! The uber had the AUDACITY! to cancel our ride! After we'd already been waiting so long for it ... 😭 then dancing around like dumbasses at Fremont Street, munching on those hot cheetos like nobody's business. Sipping on vodka slushies while walking around Fremont Street after pre-gaming with the vodka, losing on slots at the Golden Nugget ... oh what chaos indeed.. but my favourite meal! My absolute must-have when in Vegas, tacos al pastor amd lengua fries at Tacos El Gordo! We had to skip the buffets because we misjudged how busy it would be but I made sure we had them tacos!!
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Ahh, you truly are an outstanding traveler -- you make trips so wonderful!! I started getting nostalgic for traveling just listening to you share your ideas about BTS concerts and recapping all the great things about Vancouver! I feel you on needing the right vibe for cities, and it's so cool that you've been to so many places and gotten to have all of these different experiences! Getting to try a bunch of places on and see how they fit is a really cool process. You learn so much!
LOL omggggg I'm cackling, hi to your friend, thank you for reading with me, and I'm sorryyyy! 🤣 I hope you enjoyed the teleserye that is Bear with Me and didn't scream too loudly at Jimin and Red to get their stuff together 🤣🤣 And I do hear you on the Jungkook and Jin love triangle! I'm months behind, but I will put it in the asks queue 🤣🤣 Oof, Jungkook and Jin, that's gonna be another emotional rollercoaster for me, lemme tell ya, so I'll bring you along for the ride 🥴
Uhhhh, ok, WOW at that Uber. But yeeesssss, tacos al pastor, the best!!, and just so, so happy you got a chance to do your must-have! That looks so yummy! Ahh, brings me such joy to know you had such an amazing time, and maybe even spread that joy to everyone who got to see you dancing and doing your thing along Fremont. Love how you got to relax, but you also shared that sunshine!
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