#pls fix the app lol

[xkaiteki]

i hate scrolling through this app and then out of no where it just puts me in some random part of it and then i gotta scroll down or up to find my spot where i was lol

[anyalovesu]

we're not saints at all.

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necessary reminders :

contains 🔞🔞🔞 minors dni

🔞 is not pw authenticated , read at your own discretion

( cw : cunnilingus , p in v , technically unprotected sex but both of them are established to be clean and jas has an iud , breeding kink lol )

mdni pls pls pls pls

also not beta read im having problems with tumblr rn ( my wifi is refusing to load images on my tumblr app rn , if u know how to fix this hmu pls im literally going to lose my mind alr )

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“You know what, when I have a kid one day I’m going to bring her shopping everytime,” Jas blurts out as they stroll through the department store looking for a dress to wear for the event and whatever piques their eyes.

“The kid will get mad at you, kasi paikot ikot ka,” Tobi laughed at her. “Hindi ka natatapos mamili ng kung ano ano.”

“Para namang natatapos ka?” Jas rolled her eyes at him, gripping Bianca’s hand on one and the other holding Tobias’.

“You guys are talking about kids na?” Curiosity got the best of Bianca as she blurted out the question, glancing over at her brother as they walked. 

“Why? Are you not ready to be an aunt pa?” Tobi asked softly, knowing all too well that even if it’s Jas that he has to convince to not have children yet, he would definitely put it on hold if Bianca wasn’t ready for it. She was his world too, after all. 

“Not that,” Bianca deflects. “Nakakagulat lang. Nanliligaw ka palang nasa anakan phase na agad ang conversations n’yo. Does Ate Jas even want to be a mom na?

Tobi raises his eyebrows at Jas, who seemed to be deep in thought about the sudden surge of questions. Tobi has heard her ask for his kids multiple times in bed but it was never brought up to conversation out of bed. It wasn’t brought up either because with their set up before, it was not ideal to make that kind of plan for the future.

Jas nodded, purposefully. The answer is always yes. She’s not afraid to admit that. Though admittedly it’s still too early for her to be having children—with her career just starting to thrive, it would be a hindrance to her abilities as a mother to balance all that. She wasn’t as skilled in time-management as her own mother was, after all. But yes, she did want to be a mother. Raise a kid with her best friends like she was with her mom and her Tita Philomena raising her and Alistair back then. Despite being an only child, she never really felt like she was alone… even when her mom’s job got too demanding sometimes. She wanted her kids to have that kind of life too.

“Not now,” she chuckled. “Hindi ngayon syempre. Lagot tayo kay Mama Honey if I end up pregnant and unmarried. Sasakalin ako noon. But it’s on the list.”

“How many kids do you want, Kuya?”

“As many as your Ate Jas wants,” he shrugged. “Hindi naman ako ang magdadala at maglalabas. That’s a question for someone who’s willing to bring life to the world.”

“I want a lot of pamangkins,” Bia chimes happily as she walks over a white baby dress. “I wanna dress them up like Ate Eli did with me when I was a kid. Gotta make sure wala silang dugyot era.”

“Sino may sabi sa’yo wala kang dugyot era?” Tobi joked. “Alam kong tinago mo sa kwarto lahat ng picture mo noong mukha ka pang sipon na tinubuan ng bata. Swerte ka walang backup noon si Elijah.”

“Anyway, I want many pamangkins,” she smiled. “It would be nice to see you finally settle down.”

Bianca wasn’t one to show affection all the time. The closest most people got to Bianca’s affection was her inflicting her chaos on them, like her very chaotic friendship with Cielo Yang. Despite being seen bickering, the two have been known to stand by each other’s sides in crisis—by crisis whenever Cielo Yang finds himself in a situation with fair-weathered friends who only stuck around for the sound of being friends with him. He is, after all, well-connected and well known in the school for being Elijah Yang’s little brother. Best believe Bianca blackmailed her way into making those kids leave Cielo alone despite her being 2 years younger than he was.

Hugs were never the Park family got used to. Maybe occasionally whenever Elijah was around, but on their own, Bianca could not remember the last time she saw her family have one good cuddle. Everyone has always been busy with their own thing. She was lucky to be around her brothers in the absence of their parents but that was it. 

This is why the thought of her brothers, finally being with someone who is clingy, always wants to be with him, always wants a hug—warms her insides. She’s seen the good it has done for Leon, she’s glad to finally see it with Tobi. Jacynthe is good for Tobi. She always called it.

“We’re gonna have many kids para marami kang aalagaan,” Jas chuckled at her. While it may seem like an empty promise now, she was sure that it’s going to be Tobi that she’ll have a family with. No one else. 

If it’s not with him Tobi she’d rather die alone—which is a bold statement to make. But she was sure of it. She will make it work. She will not fumble. She’s going to birth children with his DNA whatever it may take.

“We should start doing that then,” Tobi playfully whispers in her ear, arm snaking around her waist as he does so.

“Keep it in your pants, Louis,” she hissed at him, jokingly slapping his abdomen, making him double over while he laughed. “You promised ha!”

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“Hindi sasabay si Tita?” Tobi asked as he took Jas’ suitcase that she was lugging towards his car.

“Yeah, Sunday morning na raw s’ya magdrive to Isabela,” she smiled at him, pressing a soft kiss on his cheek as he carried her luggage up the trunk of his car. 

It was Saturday evening when they decided to drive so that they would have more time to prepare for the party. Jas ended up just buying a new iPad for Isolde after consulting with Hailee and finding out that she will be taking up a pre-med course for college and will be needing a new one to replace her old outdated iPad.

“I have you all to myself then?” pabirong ngumisi si Tobi sa kanya kaya naman agad itong nahampas ni Jas. 

“Gabi na!”

“Better! Walang masyadong makakapansin!”

“At least wait until nasa hotel na tayo!” Jas argued with him. Tobi was only teasing, she knew that. He never forced her into anything she wasn’t comfortable with anyway. Sure he can be persistent with the other things, but anything that comes remotely close to their sex life, was a solid boundary if ever Jas says no.

“You’d be too tired sa byahe,” he smiled at him, eyes disappearing as he did before planting a soft kiss on her forehead. “I was just joking naman.”

Car rides were never quiet with Jas and Tobi. Jas was playing their demos on the car sound system, trying to rewrite some lyrics and occasionally recording more clips whenever they thought of a better lyric to replace it. Tobi used to think they did that for work whenever he would drive her home after hooking up back then. Doing it now seemed more… intimate—like he was finally baring the meanings to the songs he wrote and why he wrote them while simultaneously rewording and adding more words to the poetry they’ve produced.

At ‘wag kang bibitaw, ‘wag kang mawawala

Oh aking dinadala ang bawat piyesa ng ikaw

Anong gagawin kung wala ka?

“Were you really that hurt when you heard I was leaving?” Jas blurted out as she felt a squeeze in her chest as the last post-bridge of the song that they just finished the demo for this morning rolled out. She has been feeling that anguish ever since she first heard him record the few lines that he wrote for the song this morning.

Tobi nodded while still keeping his eyes on the road. He didn’t want to feel that way again. But it had to be talked about. What happened before they made up was still left untalked about which was concerning to say the least but it is a relief that she brought it up now.

“Lovey?”

“I was more scared than hurt,” he sighed. “It was happening all so sudden. I haven’t been serious with anyone before you came along and it wasn’t supposed to end up that way. I was so hurt with what Kashi did to me back then na akala ko hindi ko na kaya magmahal uli. So when I heard she was coming back I made the most idiotic decision to meet with her to see if I still felt that. But it only led me to realize that Kashi can never make me feel like you do.”

“Hard?”

“Down bad in love, pretty,” he snorted, correcting him as he reached for her hand, bringing it to his lips to kiss her knuckles. “Ang bobo na I needed an ex to make me realize that but then I heard that you will be moving to LA for Hyacinth—goddamn, I almost lost my mind, Jas. I thought it was pointless and I wasn’t going to be able to make it up to you for my idiocy. I was so fucking scared that I wasn’t going to see you again that I texted my mom and begged her to help me.”

“She did mention that,” she chuckled at him. 

“She did a great job convincing you, thank god—”

“She didn’t have to convince me, lovey,” she smiled softly, warming his cold hands with both of hers. “I mean of course I wanted to throw myself out from the Peak’s deck, but if anything your mom really just made it easy for me to admit that I was just as stupidly in love with you. Ang corny pakinggan which is so off-brand for the both of us, but yeah. Stupid is the right word, I think.”

“The mere thought that you fucked up and I was losing you made me want to rot in bed back in New York,” Jas continued. “Jusko! Pinipigilan na ako ni Khloe na magsulat kasi hindi na daw n’ya kayang marinig yung linyang ‘anong gagawin kung wala ka’. Ang tanga tanga daw pakingan kasi nakaya ko naman ng wala ka but the thing about that was you make life easier for me and I don’t think you even notice that.”

“I don’t think I do, pretty,” he smiled.

“Normally, hindi ako papayag agad na pumunta ng Isabela if it’s not for something really important. I mean, yes, Isolde is important to me—but I’ve been absent on almost all of her birthdays, it wouldn’t matter to her that much if I’m not there because she knew I was busy. But the thought that you will be there too makes me feel better about going there. Kasi I know I won’t be isolated. Hindi ko masyado mararamdaman na ako ‘yung pinsan doon na alam ng lahat kung sino pero hindi naman nila talaga kilala,” Jas explained as she looked at the window, watching as the tiny droplets from the light showers a while ago make lines on the glass pane as the car moved. Tobi could not help but glimpse and see the sparkle in her eyes that he cursed himself for dulling in the past weeks that came before. As much as he wanted to keep watching her, he had to tear his eyes away from her and bring his eye back on the road, trying to focus on it instead of the goddess divine that was yapping his ears out right now.

୨୧ continue here ( tobi and jas' tweets )

Jacynthe stirred awake as the warm sunlight from the glassdoor of the balcony greeted her, though it was not without noticing that the other side of the bed which was empty when she fell asleep was empty once again. If not for the disheveled sheets and Tobi’s lingering warmth on his side of the bed, Jas could easily think that Tobi had run away from her last night and never slept next to her at all. 

Rolling over her side of the bed’s nightstand she reaches for her phone to call him to ask where he was, to which she was surprised to find out that he had left his phone behind. Why would he even leave her like that? Is he avoiding her? He didn’t want to go to bed with her last night and was taking too long in the bath and now she’s waking up to an empty side of the bed with him nowhere to be found. Maybe he doesn’t want to be bothered?

Jas finally decides that maybe it was all in her head and dragged herself to the bathroom to get ready. She was told that their room was in between Hailee and Isolde’s and her grandparents’ respective rooms. But at this hour, Hailee is probably out working out and Isolde would probably still be getting her beauty sleep. Alright. If Tobi does not want to be bothered then she should make an effort not to. Off to her grandparents’ hotel room she was, but before she could even open the door, it swung itself open, revealing a bright eyed Tobias with a paper bag on one hand and the other holding up a carton of coffees. 

“Ay ang aga mo naman gumising,” Tobi chuckled at him as Jas swiftly moved to the side to immediately to let her suitor in and closing the door after him.

Tobias would be too dense to not see the expression on Jacynthe’s face. She was a morning person, he swore that nothing made this woman happier than a little sunlight in the morning. The only reason he thought he’d be able to get away with buying coffee so early in the morning was the fact that they arrived so late last night and thought that she would want to sleep in. The way her eyebrows were almost touching was enough evidence that someone was indeed upset that she woke up alone this morning.

“I called for room service kaninang umaga, their coffee is shit,” he explains softly as soon as he sets their breakfast on the table, walking over to Jas to properly apologize for leaving so early. “Baka samaan ka lang ng sikmura.”

“I’m sorry for leaving you alone in bed, pretty,” he hummed before pushing her chin up with his index finger to make her look at him. “Bumili lang ako ng almusal natin. Sorry po.”

He was too cute to stay mad at but incredibly hot in the broad daylight with his dry-fit shirt and sweatpants that he most probably slept in last night. God. She could already feel it pooling between her legs as she feels her knees weaken at the sight of his face apologizing to her like that. It didn’t help at all that she was sexually frustrated from not getting it last night.

Jas couldn’t give two more fucks about their food turning cold. If she does not get fucked in this very moment she might as well just die, it would make no difference. Thus, in a blink of an eye Jas’ lips were on his. Tobi does not hesitate to kiss back as Jas guides him to walk backwards to the bed, his knees hitting the edge as he falls on his butt, breaking the kiss as he does.

“Pretty, your grandparents are in the next room,” he pants, as he tries to slow down Jas from taking his clothes off.

“Do I look like I care about that right now? I’m literally 25,” she rolls her eyes at him, which in truth annoyed Tobi that she’s getting that attitude out of nowhere. But it did not bother her in the very least that Tobi was showing disdain for her attitude, she knew what she wanted and she was desperate for it. 

“Please, remove this na, lovey,” Jas lets out a quiet whine, understanding that Tobi was only worried of her grandparents hearing, especially now that they are very much aware that they aren’t technically officially together yet. “I’ll be quiet, lovely, please.”

“Work for it then,” Tobi raises a brow at her, as if challenging her to do the work herself if she wanted it so badly. Jokes on him though because Jacynthe doesn’t turn down a good challenge, especially now that it’s going to benefit anyway.

Jas takes no time tugging his shirt off and helping him out of his pants as Tobi watches her intently, taking off her silk button up pajamas and shorts that leaves barely anything to the imagination. 

Tobi then reaches for her body to pull her close to him, watching at the cold breeze from the hotel air conditioning hardened her nipples. “Let me prep you first, hmm?”

“No need na—”

“Ah, no,” Tobi refuses, standing up as he places soft but domineering kisses on his girl’s lips before maneuvering her down to where he was previously seated, spreading her legs and throwing them on both of his shoulders as he kneels before the glory sitting before him. “Always need to prep my pretty little hole, right?” he says, leaving teasing kisses on her thighs slowly working his way to her inner thighs before finally lapping at her already sopping wet cunt. 

“Shit, Louis–” Jas accidentally moans a little too loud as soon as she felt his warm tongue licking a long strip up to her bundle of nerves, his finger separating her folds to allow him more access but he stops as soon as he does so, glancing at the beauty beneath him, propped up on her elbows already panting heavily from such little actions.

“I will stop if you keep on moaning that loud,” he calls intently, as if warning her. The younger one knows better than to test him because he will in fact stop if she does. “Understand, pretty?” He asks, just as the same time he prods a finger in her making her purse her lips tightly into a thin line, eyes shutting as she holds back a whine. Jas nods, trying to avoid making as much noise as she could.

“Say it, pretty,” he orders sternly before going back to sucking on her sensitive nub. 

“Yes, I understand, lovey,” she whines pathetically, trying to keep her voice as low as possible. 

“Good girl,” he hums against her, sending vibrations through her body making her hold back another whine and trying as she might to mask it with slow breaths through her nose to avoid making any more noise.

Tobi continues to flick her nub with his tongue while his finger—now fingers as he already has two curling up to his g-spot, making Jas buck her hips against Tobi’s mouth, sending even more waves of pleasure to her entire body as she does so.

“God–ah–fucking damn it, Tobi, I’m so close,” she whines as she her arms gave out leaving her sprawled on the bed clutching the sheets on the unmade bed as her legs shake around Tobi’s head. “Don’t stop, lovey, please—”

“Hmm?” Tobi hums as he tears himself away, still convinced that Jacynthe has to work for her orgasm this time. 

“Lovey!” Jacynthe cries, tears now freely streaming from her eyes down to her ears as her orgasm was torn away from her just seconds before it does. “Ang sama ng ugali…” 

Tobi could not help but chuckle at how helplessly and sexually frustrated she was because she still managed to pull herself up and help him settle on the bed through her tears. 

He was now propped on the bed, back resting against the bed’s headboard while Jas hovered over him, looking at him as if begging that he does the work. Unfortunately, she brought this upon herself and Tobi was determined to let her have the experience. 

“Careful, pretty,” he says as he grabs on to her thighs, carefully guiding her as she aligns his girth to her cunt. 

“Yeah, I should—I’m about to fucking impale myself with your dick,” she spats angrily, clearly upset that Tobi, someone who’s more than capable of making her cum right then and there just decided that he wasn’t going to let her do so. “I should be careful!”

“Watch that pretty mouth, pretty girl,” he smirks as he eases himself into her, trying not to go too hard just yet.

Tobi wastes no time as he guides Jas down to his lap, his cock fully sheathed inside of her like, fitting like a glove. “Fuck, Tobi,” she whines against his neck as she clings to him, overwhelmed with the pleasure from being full of her suitor’s cock. 

“You promised to be quiet, pretty,” he chuckles. “Now be quiet and move.”

Biting her lower lip as a terrible attempt to keep her moans in, Jas does what she had to do. Lifting her body up before dropping back down, feeling his length touch her cervix as she does. “Shit, pretty,” he hums against her chest, hands moving to take one of her breasts to his mouth, tongue playing around her already hardened nipple as the other hand toyed with the other. 

The euphoria consumes Jas as she bounced on him relentlessly. 

“Ang bait bait mo pa sa harap ng lolo mo kagabi tapos nakakandong ka sa akin ngayon?” she blushes from the embarrassment at what he just had said. They were greeted last night despite it being incredibly late by her grandparents. Jas was seemed like the innocent little sweetheart that her grandparents seemed to be used to—here she is now though, “Fucking yourself with my cock? So dirty, Jacynthe.”

“Not my fault you’re like so fucking hot, you son of a bitch,” she retaliates.

“Also not my fault you’re like a bitch in heat, humping my cock, pretty,” his condescending smirk almost pushes Jas to the edge as he grabs on to her ass and helps her go faster and harder on his cock. The sound of skin slapping and panting filled the room, one could only hope no one suspects a thing on whatever the fuck is happening inside their hotel room right now. “That’s what you are right? Prinsesang prinsesa ka pa naman dito sa Isabela. Ano nalang ang iisipin nila kapag nalaman nilang ayaw mo magpakain kanina dahil kastang kasta ka na? Hmm?”

“Fuck, lovey, I’m close,” Jas whimpers quietly to his ear, tears flowing down her face once again as Tobi began fucking up to her, holding her hips up as she clings to his neck, sobbing from the overwhelming pleasure that was shooting continuously up her body. 

“I know—shit,” he hums, “Squeezing me so good, pretty. Keep doing that.”

“Where do you want it, pretty?” he asks, hand reaching to grab her face make her look at him as they both neared their highs. 

“Inside, lovey—fuck—cum inside, please, please—”

“Want lovey’s cum inside you, pretty?” he coos condescendingly before he pulls her to place a kiss on her lips, which she returns immediately, lips parting slightly to allow him more access to her mouth. 

“I’m…” Jas mumbles in between a pant and a sob as she falls completely limp against the older as soon as she feels the wave crashing over the grave that she had just dug for herself. Tobi came not long after, leaving them both spent.

By the time they were done, the sun was already shining too bright. It would not be long before her family starts looking for her so as soon as her breathing calmed down, Tobi carefully pulled himself out of her and got up, making Jas whine at the emptiness along with the cold air that embraces her in the absence of Tobi’s warmth.

“Leaving na uli?” Jas asks, post sex haze mixing well with the sunlight from the glass door making her look like the absolute goddess that she was. 

Tobi could not help but lean back to the bed and press a long wholesome kiss on his girl’s lips. “You’re coming with me, pretty,” he chuckled as he helped get up and hoisted her up to go to the bathroom. “Go pee muna, I’ll fix the bath while you do.”

Jas does what he says. He’s always been like this, she thinks. Has it been the same for every girl that he has slept with? She doesn’t even want to know. She already won, there was no point in wondering if the other girls have experienced the same thing as she did. That, in hindsight, was something that she never would’ve thought she would be thinking after sleeping with someone. It has always been a constant battle of trying and doing the most to make sure she doesn’t get left in the end, but here she is… finally… with the assurance that she has always deserved that Tobi will never leave, if he does, he will always come back home or she will be going with him.

She finally has what she deserves and no matter how complicated it got before they got here… Elijah is right. Everything will always end up well. The Park boys have that attitude of never leaving things unresolved. No matter how long, they will always go back and fix what went wrong.

“Wear this first habang nagpupuno pa yung bathtub, pretty,” Tobi picked up her arm and helped her get into her purple robe that she had brought with her in her suitcase. “Baka ubuhin ka sa lamig.”

“You’re so cute,” Jas snorted, leaning in to give him a hug as soon as he finished tying her robe. “I love you, Louis.”

“I love you, Jacynthe,” he replies to her before he moves to check the tub, which by now is already a quarter full.

Jas could not help but stare at him fondly as he nerds about the water on the tub. “Is this temperature okay with you, pretty?” he asked, even asking her to hold out the back of her hand and dropping a couple of drops on it to let her have a feel on the water. Jas assures him that it’s fine before he goes back to their suitcases where he retrieves a bath bomb. 

“Why do you even have a bath bomb?” Jas laughs. 

“Bianca got you these behind your back yesterday,” he snorted before he dropped it on the water, allowing it to fizz. 

“Cute n’yong magkapatid,” she chuckles as Tobi peels off the robe that he had just put on her from her and guiding her in the bath before taking his off and joining her. 

“You’d be a cute girl dad, Tobs,” she blurts out as Tobi rubs the shampoo suds on her hair. “You have the experience to be girl dad. Kayo ni Leon.”

“I suppose, I do,” he smiles at her as he makes a make shift crown on the top of her head with bubbles. “It would be a breeze. You’d be a good mom too.”

“Sometimes I wonder if I really could though.”

“Why would you think that, pretty?”

“I mean, unlike you guys and Eli, I didn’t have younger siblings,” she hummed as she reached for one of hid hands to fiddle with. “I saw my younger cousins here rought about twice or thrice a year. I don’t even know if I’d be able to hold a baby and make them stop crying. The thought of not being able to do it just scares the living crap out of me. I don’t want to be a disappointment. Especially after my mom raised me so well on her own.”

“When the time comes, I’m sure you’ll do fine,” he smiles at her. “Sasamahan naman kita. I’ll help you with our future kids alright? We’ll make sure they won’t have the same experiences as we did as kids.”

“Thank you, Louis,” she grins, turning her body just enough to be able to kiss him once more. “You make me so happy.”

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“I suppose you are the Tobias Park that everyone is talking about?” Governor Kang smiles at Tobi. Despite the dark demeanor that the politician exuded to most, he was nowhere near the strict governor that everyone knew him as. He seemed to soften up at the sight of his grandchildren, Jacynthe especially.

“Good evening, Governor Kang,” magalang na sagot niya sa matanda bago nagmano sa kaniya. “Opo. Ako po si Tobias Park, manliligaw po ni Jas.”

“Manliligaw, I see,” he nodded at him, reaching out to ruffle his hair. “Kahit kailan ay hindi nagsama ng nobyo o manliligaw dito si Jacynthe. Nababalitaan nalang namin na sinusundan na pala s’ya ng mga ex n’ya.”

“Tobi saved me from the said stalker, Lo,” Jas smiled at him softly, going up to him to hug his arm. “So you have to be nice to him.”

“Salamat at tinulungan mo si Jacynthe,” he replied to him.

“Ay wala po ‘yon, Governor–”

“Lolo Javier,” he corrects him, with a soft smile before he glances back at Jas who clung to his arm. “Lolo Javier ang itawag mo sa akin. Anyone my dear Jacynthe trusts enough to bring her must be extremely special.”

Kyle was right after all. Despite all the rumors that surrounded their family, the Kangs were welcoming people. 

“Tobi!” an elderly woman chimes as she takes the other arm of the governor. “I am Madeleine Kang, Jassy’s Lola! I suppose ikaw ang boyfriend ni Jassy?”

“La, manliligaw palang!” Jas tried to argue. 

“Mamma mia, Jassy! Doon rin magtatapos ‘yon!” the woman giggled as she walked over to Tobias to give him a hug. “You’re a special boy, no? I trust that you’re going to help Daphne to keep this lady in check. You know she can be a little wild sometimes! Tapos would always refuse help even if we offer it.”

Tobi looked at Jas softly as she walked over to hold his hand, wary that her grandparents might be intimidating him too much. The older couple takes this as a sign to leave, as Madeleine Kang happily pulls her husband away. However, he couldn’t help but wonder what pushed Jas to think that she was the odd-one-out among all these people that seemed to know her to this extent. Her dad hasn’t come around either, thinking he might be absent for the occasion.

“Are you okay, lovey?”

“I’m okay, pretty,” he smiles at her, squeezing her hand to confirm his sentiment. “Ikaw?”

“Just a little uneasy,” she hummed. “I kept overhearing the titas shit talking me and mom over there.”

“Alam ba ng mga mga lolo mo?”

“It’s nothing I can’t handle, Tobs,” she smiled at him, choosing to swallow the criticisms that she and her mom kept on hearing from that specific crowd in the family. “Besides, none of them really cares enough to get to know me beyond the way that they already do.”

“Kahit na.”

“Alam mo, I figured early on that they are still very convinced that my mama used up all my dad’s money for her med school. Alam lang nila namatay yung parents ni mama. I don’t think any of them bothered to find out that we both lived off her inheritance and her trust fund and completely nothing from dad in the first few years na wala sila lola. Dad was a complete slob when it came to paying child support. I barely got anything from him, really. Noon lang tinanggap namin s’ya ni Mama uli. But after he cut him off again for cheating on mom on multiple occasions after we forgave him on multiple occasions as well, I don’t understand why they still have it in them to think that mama and I couldn’t have made it without him.”

Tobi mentally notes the answer to his questions a while ago. Having this big of a family did have its cons. Most of it he wasn’t able to experience since he had a relatively small family and most of his cousins were living abroad. Well, technically they moved back now. But even then, these kinds of drama weren't really present in them. They were all distant and individualistic to care about how the other family was holding up.

“Tigas ng ulo kahit kelan,” he shrugged before pulling her into a hug. 

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[rimouskis]

How do u make your yearly budget ? I remember you posting about your budget spreadsheet once. Pls I am v interested on how you set it up

I simply must ask if you're the FBI agent in my phone, because I genuinely just sent a message to a friend saying how excited I was it's the end of the month, meaning tomorrow I get to start with a fresh new slate in my budget hahaha

alright let's talk:

I don't do a yearly budget, technically! I budget month-per-month. There are lots of styles of budgets—some allowing for a yearly/more Long Term view—but what worked for my income level was a month-based system.

I lurked on r/personalfinance on reddit for a long while and actually pilfered my budget template from there!

I use this one, which I like both because I've used it for five years and because it's just plain ol' simple. I don't need charts to automatically populate and I don't want to categorize every purchase I make. I just want to see how much money I have per month and how much I'm spending.

That's also crucial to how I personally do budgeting. I don't set aside $X for food and $X for activities and $X for going out or whatever every month. That isn't productive to me; my life looks different every month depending on what's going on. I don't use my budget to be prescriptive; outside of my fixed expenses (rent, utilities, etc.) I just use my budget to track 1. where my money is going and 2. how much of it I have left.

If you want something with a bit more frills, there are lots of other options (one, two, three) on reddit, but I've [personally] found all their bells and whistles overwhelming. If they have useful features you want to use (like, some will have tabs for you to track debt and payments toward it), you can experiment with them, but I don't recommend them for someone new to budgeting.

...I also don't inherently recommend my preferred spreadsheet, either. It doesn't work for everyone. I've shown it to some friends and they almost immediately knew it wouldn't work for them. The reason it works for me is because I am kind of neurotic about budgeting.

To me, "peace of mind" is maintained by having a really close eye on my finances. That means that I track what I spend daily. I manually input every purchase into the spreadsheet. I manually put every paycheck into the spreadsheet. I keep the Google Sheets app on my phone for this very purpose.

That isn't something everyone's willing to do, and there's no shame in that—we all find the different tools that work best for us! But if you don't think you're able to keep up with manually tracking every cent you make and spend, I don't think that this method will be good for you.

If you need more automation in your budgeting, where you can get things autofilled and so on and so forth, I would have pointed you towards Mint, which I've heard good things about, but it's sadly shutting down this March. The article I linked provided an alternate recommendation, but I can't personally vouch for any of those services.

I've been tempted by YNAB a time or two — I like the idea that they intentionally work you towards living off of old paychecks instead of the money you earn month-of [which is a financial goal we should ALL strive for, even though it can be very hard], and I like that they encourage giving every dollar a "job", but you don't NEED their service to do either of those things. I don't like paying money to save money, you know? lol

I keep a secondary, simple spreadsheet with my "rolling funds" in it — money I set aside every month (which I input as a monthly "expense" in my normal spreadsheet) which I allocate to specific funds, like car funds, travel funds... I even had a "hockey game fund" for a few years, haha.

I prefer that method to paying for a service to do it for me. I'm sure YNAB has some nice bells and whistles, and it's clear MANY people love being integrated into their system, which has some automated bits that definitely make budgeting "easier," but I like Ye Olde Spreadsheet. Having to input every purchase keeps me accountable, I feel. Also it sometimes discourages me from spending money, haha, which is probably a good thing in the long run.

idk. I'm a huge advocate for budgeting. I know it can be really hard for some people, but I sincerely think there's some budgeting method out there that will work for you, you know? I credit my budget spreadsheets for keeping my head above water during the many times where money was/is tight. Knowledge is power and all that.

Not to sound like a #girlboss shilling my financial advice on tiktok (of which there are too many), but being aware of where your money is going is sincerely the biggest, most important step you can take towards building financial safety for yourself. My budget saved my ass this last year.

If you have any other questions, shoot them my way. I know it can seem daunting, but I totally think it's worth it! <3

[ghostoffuturespast]

WIP Whenever

Tagged by @streetkid-named-desire! Thanks for thinking of me!

Writing

Quite literally nothing has happened in this department since I finished So It Goes two weeks ago. Taking a bit of a forced writing sabbatical because my work schedule has been insane (and will continue to be insane until August, summer's my busy season) and I've just had a bunch of random social/housekeeping things I've had to take care of on my weekends. Hopefully things'll settle down soon.

I've got a lot of smaller projects on the back burners at the moment that I've been mulling over, but I haven't had the time to do any actual writing. Been jotting down notes when they come to me though. I also need to go back and give SIG a polish too (and take notes lol), there's a lot of formatting and continuity things that need to be fixed.

And I'd like to try out some other writing software/apps. Google Docs is great for working across multiple devices and any general word processor is fine for shorter writing projects, but considering how massive SIG ended up being and the likelihood that Part 2 Electric Boogaloo is probably gonna be a similar length... It'd be nice to have something that's got a wider array of tools, better file organization, and won't crap out on me after hitting a character limit.

(If anyone has any suggestions, I'd be happy to hear them! I've got a couple of candidates so far but candid reviews would be appreciated.)

VP

Still taking VP even though I haven't booted Cyberpunk up in like three weeks. I have a substantial backlog to work through and have the tail-end of the base game missions to post still. I am currently at the beginning of PL again and did take photos of the main missions getting into Dogtown. Got some pretty epic shots if I do say so myself.

Gardening

Trying to see about getting my front yard and my hellstrip converted into a pocket prairie! This is the preliminary design, which makes no sense without the plant list, but hopefully once this gets approved by my HOA I can start working on it. I'm planning on doing my own installation, so this'll definitely be a whole summer project.

Reading

I've been very slowly getting back into reading again! It's been nice. Mostly non-fiction books I can get away with reading at work, but I'm coming around to read folks fics too. It's just finding some free time to sit in my new reading chair rn...

Tagging with no pressure: @fly-amanitaa @merge-conflict @vox-monstera @baublekute @shimmer-like-agirl @mynonsenseistingling @dani-the-goblin

[zxombii]

@stawberrymlikshake im not a expert but just. bare with me (i get unmotivated easy)

hope ur ok with that :3

(THE BAD QUALITY LOL)

edit at 11:02: i was writing and it kicked me out of the drafts section randomly and it deleted my progress im going insane tumblr fix ur app pls im actually going crazy.

[run2yoongi]

puppy love | jjk + kth x reader. ch.2

you’d met jeon jungkook and his best friend kim taehyung in your first year at university. it didn’t take long for you to fall for jungkook, however it was clear that he was less than interested in romance. you pushed down the frustration and jealousy when jungkook talks about his weekend exploits and dating app matches, telling yourself that being friends with benefits was better than being nothing at all. you didn’t expect that one of the benefits of your arrangement with jungkook was going to be his best friend, taehyung.

↳ pairing: fuckboy!jungkook x reader, taehyung x reader

↳ setting: college au

↳ warnings: alcohol consumption, spanking, teasing, drunk foreplay, fingering, handjob, possessive jungkook, crying, oral (m receiving), facefucking, angst :((

↳ side note: word count is 3.8k! ok so like theres one scene that mentions animal discipline and i just wanna clarify, i do not condone any sort of physical discipline on dogs lol. again, this is the first work i’ve posted in like 9 yrs so if you enjoy, pls let me know!!

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you were exhausted. taehyung had been helping you through practice exam after practice exam and you were now at the point of considering just failing your final exam instead of putting yourself through this torture. “still got a few wrong.” taehyung muttered as he flipped to the final page of your answer sheet. “i’m fine with that, tae.” you sighed. he was determined to keep you in the library until you got at least a 95% mark on your practice exams. that’s what you had drunkenly agreed on the night before, anyway. you didn’t expect him to keep his promise. 

it was nearly 9 o’clock at night and the library was set to close soon, but you knew that taehyung would insist on moving the study session back to either of your dorms until you met his expectations. “only 90 percent.” he sighed, closing his calculator app. 

you figured he was getting satisfaction from seeing you try and fail over and over again, but you had been sitting for so long that you were struggling to feel the lower half of your body. “we can pick this back up tomorrow.” you suggested, having no real intention of doing this all over again the next day. taehyung looked up at you, unimpressed. like he could read your thoughts, he said “i know you don’t mean that.”

you rolled your eyes and stood up from the university library seating and stretched your arms. “you’re right, but i feel like if i have to stare at another exam paper tonight, i’ll start going blind.” you argued, shifting your weight between your legs in an effort to regain feeling. a wave of soreness hit you and you let out a quiet groan. all jungkook’s fault. you reminded yourself to stretch next time he insisted on trying new positions with you. 

you didn’t notice taehyung’s eyes fix onto your lower stomach as you stretched, nor the dark expression dance across his features as you complained about your aching thighs. “you seen ‘kook today?” you asked innocently as you reached for your bag. jungkook was taehyungs dorm room neighbour, of course he’d seen him. “nope.” he replied, popping the ‘p’. “he’s probably with that girl that works at the uni bar.” he added. he knew it was cruel. 

taehyung, like you, had gotten used to ignoring the bubbling of jealousy and bitterness in his gut when the person he was interested in spoke about someone else. there wasn’t much he could do. he tried not to be bitter about it, but sometimes he spoke before he had the chance to think. 

you just nodded in response, securing your bag and gesturing to the elevator. “i think i need a drink after that psychological torture.” 

-

jungkook was not at the uni bar, luckily. you didn’t particularly want to see him flirt with the staff there, so you let out a relieved sigh as you scoped out the crowded venue. it was a sticky, hot night- you hadn’t been expecting it as you left the air-conditioned comfort of the library, but the heat washed over you leaving your skin covered in a glistening sheen as you adjusted to the humidity.

taehyung set down two glasses in front of you and you smiled at him thankfully. “i’ll get the next round.” you promised. 

you sipped at the sour margarita and relaxed your shoulders, finally letting yourself get out of your academic headspace. truthfully, it had been a while since had spent time alone with taehyung outside of tutoring, leaving you slightly nervous and stuck for things to say that didn’t revolve around political theory or grammar. 

or jungkook. 

you shook your head, determined to allow yourself a fun night without him crossing your mind. “you okay?” taehyung asked, arching his eyebrow skeptically. “yeah, just recovering from the suffering my evil peer mentor put me through.” you replied, smirking to cover up any tells that you were lying.

“i was just doing what you asked me to do.” he laughed softly, leaning back into the booth seat opposite you. “fuck, it’s hot.” he said to himself, shrugging his oversized hoodie off his shoulders. 

“was wondering when you were gonna take that off.” you mused, eyes quickly darting around the room looking for anyone you recognised, you missed the way taehyung’s mouth parted slightly at your words. your eyes caught one of your classmates from the previous term, one you’d bonded over a mutual passion for Agust D with. “ah- unnie!” you called out as you swiftly launched out of your seat and made your way over to her. 

taehyung whipped out his phone and opened his messages, not thrilled to be left alone with his thoughts.

to: jjk

you coming back to dorm tonight?

his phone buzzed within seconds, a reply received straight away.

from: jjk

im here now lol, where are you?

taehyung decided not to reply, lest he come and sweep you away before you even had a chance to finish your drink. he locked his phone and ignored the consistent buzzing, swallowing his guilt with the sugary taste of his drink. you returned shortly after, with a basket of chips in hand. setting it down on the table, you grinned at your friend. it’s always easier to talk over food. 

“don’t you have exams coming up too?” you asked, searching for an opportunity to give tutor-tae a taste of his own medicine. “of course, but i’m already getting 95 percent on my practice papers.” he replied, hiding his smirk with his cocktail glass. “of course you are.” you sighed, silently wishing that you had a mind like taehyung. he seemed to pull everything off so effortlessly, that’s the reason you were so eager to accept his offer to tutor you. as if he had some academic secret that would make everything instantly easier for you. how naive. 

you decided to slam the rest of your drink, convinced your tipsy-self would have something to talk about other than studies or your crush. by the time taehyung had gotten to the half-way mark of his drink, you’d come back with a second round. as the night continued, a seemingly continuous flow of people came to say hi to either taehyung or you, offering drinks and inviting you back to spontaneous dorm parties that neither of you really had any interest in attending. 

you’d begun feeling light headed and decided to swap the margaritas for water, when taehyung returned from a chat with one of his friends, jimin. he slipped in next to you on the booth seat, your eyes widening at the contact of his palm on your knee. taehyung could certainly hold his liquor better than you could, but he was clearly tipsy as well as he swayed slightly, your shoulders occasionally hitting into each other. “you know, we should do this more often,” he slurred. “you and me

without jungkook.” 

you were taken aback at the mention of your crush's name. you tried to process his words, rationalising that he was saying them innocently, he just wanted to be your friend too. “maybe you’d get over him quicker.” he muttered, tapping your knee before withdrawing his hand. your jaw dropped and you quickly turned yourself to face him directly. “wh-what?” you stammered, a feverish pink hue spreading over your cheeks and ears. taehyung let out a laugh, throwing his head back and clapping. “you think i couldn’t tell?” he questioned between short breaths. you broke your stare, looking to the floor in shame as your face grew hotter with embarrassment. “don’t tell him.” you mumbled, trying to save the last of your dignity. his laughter faded out and he extended his arm to spread over your shoulders, giving you a quick squeeze. “your very obvious secret is safe with me.” he assured you, a humorous glint still shining in his eyes. 

taehyung teased you the rest of the night, deriving joy from how easily embarrassed you were. it was cute. when you’d clearly reached your limit with his teasing, he eased up and started telling you about the friends that you’d met that night. you didn’t miss that his palm kept drifting back onto your knee, though. you really didn’t mind. maybe you would be able to get over jungkook this way. 

– 

you’d been so, so wrong. after returning to your dorm and having a hot shower, you were still flustered. taehyung's teasing and touching, the heat and being constantly reminded of your crush had you worked up. worst of all, your inhibitions had already been lowered by the time you had your third drink. you bit your lip as you opened up your messaging app. 

12:28 AM 

to: kookie ♡

how was your night?

you hid your phone under your pillow and began putting away the contents of your bag, determined not stare at your phone until he replied. you had begun your skincare routine when you heard your text tone go off.

from: kookie ♡

disappointing. lost my volleyball match :( 

better now though, what are you doing up so late?

you grinned reading the message over while smoothing your sheet mask over your jaw.

to: kookie ♡

just got back from drinks with tae 

he didn’t reply for another 15 minutes, adding to your frustration. you opened your laptop and turned on some random stream highlights from your favourite artists’ recent VLive. if there was one person in the world who could distract you from jungkook, it was probably going to be Agust D. 

from: kookie ♡

want me to come over?

excitement bubbled in your stomach, and you quickly discarded the face mask and applied your moisturiser. 

and some lip gloss, for good measure. 

to: kookie ♡

let me know when you’re outside, i’ll sneak you in :) 

you knew it only took about 10 minutes from taehyung and jungkook’s dorm to yours, so you used the time to apply some hair detangler and tidy your room before he arrived. your hair always seemed to get messy after he came over. 

your text tone rang out so you quietly snuck out of your room. you knew there would likely be people in the common area, but you still didn’t care to get yelled at by the people on your floor for walking too loudly, or whatever. 

jungkook was waiting outside wearing an oversized black hoodie and his grey sweatpants- an outfit which you’d become very well acquainted with in the last few months. your silk pyjama set grazed your skin as the breeze swept in passed the heavy dormitory building doors. “had a good night?” he asked, silently sneaking in through the doors and following you into the fire escape stairway to avoid the inevitable onlookers loitering in the ground floor common room. “mhmm, five exam papers down. it was tantalising.” you smiled insincerely. unlocking your door, you were surprised when jungkook didn’t wrap you up in his arms as he usually did. 

you turned back to him, confused. “good to hear that hyung is looking after you when i can’t.” he mocked, mischief playing in his stare. you furrowed your brows, not fully understanding. “i wouldn’t call the torture he put me through ‘looking after me’, ‘koo.” you replied. his eyebrows flew up in surprise. “torture? i didn’t take him for a sadist.” 

the cogs in your brain started turning and your eyes widened in shock, your hand flew to cover your mouth. “th-that’s not what i meant! i just meant…” you stammered, too flustered to finish your thought. as you computed what jungkook was implying by ‘looking after you’, your mind played back the memory of taehyungs palm on your knee, squeezing it gently. his glistening skin as he took off his hoodie. the image of his skin on yours. 

“i’m just teasing,” he admitted, taking a step closer and slotting his arms around your waist. “i had to interrogate him after i got your text, though.” 

oh. 

“i’ll be honest, i don’t like sharing my toys very much y/n.” he spoke as his face drew closer to yours. you looked up at him in anticipation, the excitement stirring in your stomach. your frustration began to compound at the same time. if you don’t like sharing, then make me yours. 

you pushed the thought back. he was just teasing you, and you knew how to play that game. “you’re gonna have to learn to like it, ‘koo.” you purred, your hands slipping under his hoodie to stroke his back in the way you knew gave him chills. then, you pulled the bottom of his hoodie over his head, taking in his perfect body under the dim light. he always felt a little more toned after volleyball. you hummed in appreciation of his hands working to unclothe you too. 

you caught the marks you gave him the other day on his neck and smiled smugly at your work. “am i?” he replied softly, chuckling as your striped silk shorts and top fell to the floor. “mhmm.” you hummed. he pushed you over to the bed, but before you could lie on your back, he sat down on the edge of the mattress and brought you in front of him. pulling you closer, he planted a trail of soft kisses on your rib cage, before turning you around and placing you over his knee. he held your hands behind your back with one hand and held you upright on his thigh with the other. his movements had switched from soft and tender to rough before you could hope to adjust. using the hand on your waist, he guided you back and forth on his muscular thigh, a wet mark glistening on his sweatpants already from your sex. 

“i guess i can’t expect my little puppy to follow me around forever.” he sighed darkly. you couldn’t see his expression, nor judge how serious he was by his tone. “but you know what happens to puppies who misbehave though?” he asked, his lips grazing the curve of your ear. 

you whimpered in response, understanding where this was likely going. 

smack! 

you let out a yelp in response to the intense stinging on your backside. while it stung, it had rocked you forward on jungkook’s thigh, creating a burst of sick pleasure that you craved. “discipline.” he answered for you before laying another smack on the flesh of your bare ass. 

this usually happened whenever jungkook lost a game or felt like he’d been slighted in some way. you weren’t one to complain though, you were sick enough to revel in the attention he gave you in times like this. 

“you like playing with my friends, baby?” he asked you, his palm brushing over the reddening mark on your backside. “n-no, only you.” you replied, eager to please him. “nothing even happened-” you began to speak when… 

smack!

anger began to build in your chest. jungkook could go out and fuck with whoever he liked. but when you decide to get drinks with taehyung, it was something to tease you over? you were friends. had he not been reminding himself of that every day, like you were?

whatever game you were playing, you'd lost.

you didn’t know what to say, you just let out a sob and tried to push back the tears that were forming. jungkook softened his grip on you and turned you around onto his lap. “did i hit you too hard?” he asked, his hand brushing the hair out of your eyes. “i’m sorry y/n, i shouldn’t have done that after you were drinking.”

“i-it’s not that.” you admitted, looking away in shame as you slid from his lap to spot next to him. “was it what i said?” he asked, pulling you into a side hug. “you know i don’t mean it, i was just teasing. taehyung told me you just went to the uni bar.” he admitted. 

“but why do you care?” you asked, looking up at him. you felt pathetic. trying to deduce if jungkook actually cared about your sex life as if that would provide any comfort when he was bringing girls back to his dorm every other week. “because you’re both my friends. it’d be weird.” 

you tried to see things from his point of view, but you didn’t get it. taehyung was your friend too. if you wanted to fuck him, so what? it shouldn’t matter to jungkook, he’d probably fucked people that you were friendly with already. 

“he’s like, my childhood friend y/n.” he clarified, seeing the irritation on your face. “i’ve known him since i was twelve. and you're..." he trailed off. "i wasn’t serious anyway.” he looked over to the door, obviously uncomfortable at the thought of sharing you with taehyung.

you nodded, exhausted and still buzzing from your drinks at the uni bar. “i’m sorry.” you mumbled, not wanting to ruin the mood any further by arguing. “don’t be.” he spoke, pulling your laptop over. “let's just watch a movie.” 

– 

as expected, watching a movie didn’t really end in you watching the drama you'd picked out. about an hour in, you found jungkook lifting your leg up as you lay on your side his other arm wrapped around your waist and fingertips toying with your damp core. he groaned rubbing his clothed cock against your plush ass. “feeling better now, baby?” he whispered at you, fingers prodding the entrance between your folds. “could be better,” you retorted. you let out a choked gasp as he slipped two fingers in your core, plunging them in and out slowly as you tensed in his arms. 

“yeah? better than this?” he asked. you didn’t dignify him with a response. instead, you reached behind you and reached for his aching cock over his sweatpants. he moaned loudly which earned him an icy stare. if you got a noise complaint, he wouldn’t be the one having to deal with it. he quickly removed his hand from your thigh to slip his sweatpants and briefs down to his ankles. your lips parted at the sight of his thick cock smacking against his hardened pelvis. 

he guided your hand back to his cock, stimulating the tip with firm strokes. you could see a bead of precum forming already. he stretched you out on his fingers, pushing in deeper and accelerating his pace as you tightened your grip on his cock. after the day you had, you just wanted to cum and your friend was getting you there quickly. 

“god you feel so good.” you moaned, widening your legs for him. he moved his fingers over your clit with renewed enthusiasm. you threw your head back as you grew closer. “not yet, baby.” he instructed you, knowing the look on your face too well. you groaned, ignoring him and feeling your release edge even closer at his ministrations. you quickened the pace of your strokes on his cock, much to his pleasure. he was bucking his hips to meet your hand, desperate for more friction and control. he increased the pressure on your clit with his two fingers, and you let out an unrestrained moan as you came. “fuck, fuck!” you panted, his fingers plunging back into your core as he stroked you through the waves of your orgasm. 

you released your grip on his cock so you didn’t accidentally injure it as every muscle in your body expanded and contracted. your back fell onto the mattress as he removed himself from behind you. “greedy girl. doesn't know how to listen.” he tutted as he placed a thigh on either side of your torso. “mm- ‘koo,” you hummed, slowly gaining your grasp on reality back. he dragged the tip of his cock along your bottom lip, smearing a layer of translucent precum over the skin. 

your parted your mouth and stuck out your tongue slightly as he tapped his cock on the muscle. "you know how to make it up to me though," he smiled, sliding past your lips slightly. you stretched your jaw trying to accommodate his length without choking. he let out a guttural moan at the feeling of your wet, warm mouth welcoming his dick. before he could bottom out, he pulled out. “this ok?” he asked softly, his thumb slowly stroking your jaw. “just really wanna fuck your pretty little mouth.”

you nodded at him, wanting to see him cum because of you. 

he slid is cock back past your lips and rested a hand on the headboard of your bed, slowly rocking his hips. you slid your tongue along the vein of his cock and hollowed your cheeks. he let out another moan as your tongue brushed the slit of his tip. leaning forward, he gently wrapped a hand around the back of your head as he cautiously thrust into your mouth. you continued, digging your fingernails into his thighs as he used you to bring him closer to his orgasm. “such a good girl.” he fawned, looking down at you with your mouth full of his cock and your glassy eyes staring back up at him. you hummed on his cock, sending a wave of vibration through him that brought him even closer. “can i go faster?” he asked, pleading. “mhmm,” you replied.

throwing his head back, he fucked your mouth harder, faster. letting out gasps and moans as you took him. your eyes were tearing up as he hit the back of your throat, gagging you. “i’m so close baby,” he hissed “fuck. where should i cum?” he groaned as he pulled out, feverishly stroking himself. you let out a soft moan at the thought of him cumming over you, a secret fetish that you hadn’t shared with him yet. you didn’t even have a second to answer before his cum shot out and landed over your chest, some making its way onto your neck. “fuck!” he yelled in pleasure as he finished himself off. 

you smiled at him as he panted, holding himself over you to catch his breath and take in the sight before bringing you a warm towel. “‘m sorry.” he mumbled as he wiped you up. “you’re too fucking hot sometimes.”

you just laughed and took the towel from him before making your way to the bathroom. at least you had that going for you. 

by the time you returned from the bathroom and fixed your hair up, jungkook had drifted off to sleep on your bed. letting out soft snores as he held a soft rabbit plush in his arms. 

how were you ever going to get over him?

–

taehyung waited until two in the morning to see if jungkook came back to his dorm, but he didn’t. it didn’t take a genius to figure out where he’d gone after just being grilled for ignoring his texts and hiding the fact he was hanging out with ‘his friend’. 

he considered changing his approach to you next time. he probably couldn’t tease you out of your infatuation with jungkook. instead, he could show you that there were other options available. that someone else could take his place. he was sure it wouldn't bother jungkook, you two were just friends after all.

[snowandwolves]

hey it’s your neighbrohood (i'm not even gonna fix that i like that lol) lengthy ask anon - i am having a shit day but thinking about summer in the lighthouse au with Ava in a tank top and tool belt made me feel better so thank you for that

i have more qs kinda a lot today bc i am just so done with this day but you can pick and choose which (if any!) to answer. hope you have a good weekend ❣️

any thoughts on how Chanel meeting Bea would’ve gone?

did Bea pre-plan to tell Ava at the lookout or did she spontaneously capitalize on Ava already going there?

whose bedroom in the lighthouse house did they sleep in most often?

has Bea seen a storm from the lighthouse before?

D gave Ava new shoes, but did she ever get a new backpack?

that brief reference to Shannon broke my heart - do you have thoughts on how she passed?

do you have thoughts on how Camila and Lilith got together? and how Lilith even learned/chose to barista?

did the “DIBS” moment just come to you in a moment of inspiration or something bc it still makes me giggle just thinking about it

speaking of writing, did you write each section linearly or did you jump around or something else?

your note in the epilogue sounded like you don’t read fic when you’re writing? what's on your to read list?

HI LENGTHY ASK ANON omg, sorry for the late response, it’s been busy and i need a year-long weekend without risking going broke 😂 been itching to respond to this so imma do that now 🥹

1. probably chanel just exposing ava like “so you’re the one she’s been losing brain cells for” and ava just slapping her elbow and being all “omg shut up i trusted you” and bea not wanting ava to feel embarrassed so she’d prolly say “she also has that effect on me” then chanel would stare at them blushing and then say something like “ok that’s adorable. i need a drink and you need to tell me more”

2. she’s definitely been DYING to say it, but then when ava told her that she’s going to the lookout, bea decided to do it there just to give ava a moment she won’t forget 🥺

3. ava’s! because bea’s room is suzanne’s and the things they get up to with a bed nearby is just,,, not for suzanne’s room 😂

4. i’d say yes! though she prolly didn’t intend to. i have it in my head that she just got stranded there while cleaning it and unintentionally gave herself a come-to-jesus moment 💀

5. backpack i think she bought for herself. for some reason, i also have it in my head that she’s in a group chat with her family (salvius clan + chanel) where she asks them for their opinions and everyone choosing the more expensive option and ava being like “pls i’d have to lose a kidney” and everyone in the group chat transferring her various amounts of money and ava just staring at her account like “thank god you’re all rich. now, i’m rich by association” 😂

6. this one, nope, i haven’t actually thought about. let’s say an accident? omg what if that’s a reason why mary doesn’t ride a motorcycle anymore…? it wouldn’t have been her fault but askdnskd ok i hate me 😭

7. so this one gave me a cute scene i ended up daydreaming about 🥹 cos what if camila taught lilith how to make drinks before she got formal training for it and start a cafe? what if, while in the process of making a cappuccino, camila just randomly tells her “i like you a lot”? what if lilith fumbles and accidentally burns herself and camila just giggles and takes lilith’s hand and takes care of it, just waiting for lilith to manage words? 😭 WHAT THEN

8. i definitely planned it to be as hilarious as possible but i also didn’t think i’d be using DIBS for it. that was a fun moment to write 😂

9. my writing process is kind of a mess. i do try to write linearly so i don’t have to worry about pacing and transitions and flow. but then i’m in the middle of work or folding my laundry or literally just eating and a scene/line/whole ass paragraph just comes to me vividly 😂 this is why i have my notes app perpetually open. i write the basics of anything that comes to me and then go back and figure out a way to use it if i can. this is also why i have v many fragments that didn’t make the cut 💀

10. idk if it’s just me but i find it hard to read fic and write my own at the same time 😭 so i have,,, a long list actually. literally anything that’s been published and completed in the last 8 months i’ll be reading 😂

anon, i hope your days have been better since you sent this. you deserve the kindest, gentlest, best days 🥺💙

[milky-fixx]

take your pick.

a/n: i have this idea i've wanted to write since last vday! basically a sort of CYOA, but it’s choose your own date. i just really wanted to write a multifandom blind date drabbles. these will be sfw, and not exceedingly long since i’d never get it done if that was the case LOL. i tried to keep it to seven of my fandoms, but motivation and time permitting, may add more fandoms? who knows. btw, this is just meant to be a silly thing LOL pls don’t take it seriously :))))

various x reader

fandoms: devilman crybaby, bleach, genshin impact, hunter x hunter, jojo’s bizarre adventure, jujutsu kaisen, one punch man.

You, by all respects, lead a fulfilling life. You have a nice job, you’re doing well in school. You have a wonderful network of friends, and a supportive boyfrien—

Well. Scratch that last one. Maybe you don’t have all these things. Or even one of these things. Maybe you have none of these things. 

But that’s okay. It’s not like you’re dissatisfied with your life. It’s not like you love it either, but on a scale of 1 to 10, it would rank at least a five on most days. And that’s better than nothing, right? 

Right?

There’s a lot of things you can’t fix overnight, no matter how many pep talks in front of the mirror or pints of ice cream you devour on late nights, but your friend suggests a band-aid solution—it is the easiest thing to address, after all, considering just how many bored, single men exist in the world. A local dating app recently came out in your city, and the developers were kicking off its beta release with a February blind-dating event. It wasn’t even a day after she told of you about it that she was at your door, demanding she help you set up your profile on the app.

“But I’m not lonely,” you protest.

“I saw you crying at videos of puppies the other day,” she says, scrolling through your phone, before typing furiously. No doubt trying to spice up your profile. You wonder what light she’ll portray you in this time? The artistic recluse with an air of intrigue? The peppy optimist with a dark past filled with daddy issues? She’s definitely used that one before... “You baby-talk your pet goldfish.” 

“I like animals,” you say defensively. 

“All you do in your free time is binge telenovelas,” she continues, as if reading off a mental checklist she’d made of you. “You used to have those posters of cute boyband groups on your walls.”

“Shh! We don’t mention that stage of my life.”

“Mmhmm,” she says, swatting your hand away when you reach for your phone.

Your hand falls onto the couch as you groan. “I don’t wanna meet some weirdo though.” Your nose wrinkles at the memory of her past efforts at finding your next fling. “Remember that double date I went on with you?”

“He was a nice guy—” 

“He came straight out of prison! He brought his parole officer with him.”

She meets your gaze, nodding painfully. Yes, she did remember her date bailing only to be replaced by the parole officer. The two of you share a look before bursting into giggles. As the laughter recedes, she puts down your phone.

“But seriously—you’re going on that date.”

You sigh. “Dating is so hard, though. At least when I’m on my own, all I have to worry about is myself.” 

She squints. “Weren’t you wearing those sweats when I stopped by two days ago?”

You look down, examining with renewed interest at the crusted-over pizza sauce stain on your pants. "...Maybe?"

She sighs, putting down your phone. Reaching for your shoulders, she gives you a good shake. You can almost feel your brain rattling around—or maybe that’s the lack of sleep speaking. You blink, disoriented.

“Try it, please? Putting yourself out there might be a nice change of pace. You’ve been such a shut-in lately. Who knows—you might even enjoy yourself,” she says soothingly.

You consider it. You really do. Your plans for that week—and the week after, and the week after that—were the same really: stream shows all day, browse social media until your eyes burned from being glued to the screen, fall asleep with the lights on and starfished about your bed.

What was the harm in changing things up a bit? What could go wrong?

Truthfully, many things could. At least you might get a good story out of it, though. 

You sigh. "Fine. Let's do it." 

She cheers, drawing you into a hug. You pat her forearms awkwardly, attempting to slip your phone out of her lap discretely. She notices through, slapping her hand over yours. You frown. 

“So... who’d you set me up with this time?”

She purses her lips. "I can't tell.” At your look of confusion, she clarifies, “Because it's a blind date, no one's profile has their faces. It just has bios and pictures of random things."

“Random things?”

This time she hands you your phone, showing you the matches that have popped up. An assortment of items meet your view, underneath the prompt.

“Pick something that best represents your ideal partner."

You squint, clicking on random images to view the profiles. Hmm. While the bios give you some insight into their personalities, each image is oddly specific and gives away little of the appearance of the person you’d be going on a date with. 

"Well, the app has great ratings so far,” she offers, noticing your hesitation. “Plus, If they live here, they can’t be that weird, right?”

True... Ruling out the fact that you could accidentally be going on a date with a foot-licking creep. It wouldn’t be the first time.

You scroll through the images, pondering them.

What have you got to lose, really?

WHICH ONE WILL YOU PICK?

a. devilman

A photo of someone tying their running shoes. The presentation is a little bland, but you are curious about these references to demons and devils. You are not sure if the location glitched, because why is he 666 km away…?

b. jojo

The eccentric cover of Prince’s 1999 album. Whoever wrote this seems to be flirty, confident—definitely someone who knows how to have a fun date. You’re curious about what his hair looks like, if he goes as far as to mention it.

c. darknight

An elegant photo: a bottle of… wine? grape juice? clutched by a gloved hand. Their bio is short and to-the-point. They seem to be someone who doesn’t like mincing words.

d. Prince of Silence

A traditional background, sakura petals scattering in the wind. The person must be one of aesthetics. Their bio is a simple haiku. You are a bit thrown off by the age though… surely, that must be a typo.

e. The Phantom Thief

A book with indecipherable text splayed upon a cluttered desk. It gives off the impression of long nights spent poring over readings. The bio is equally as intriguing—it seems this person is intellectual and enjoys philosophy.

f. infinitely cursed

A simple ring whose gemstone glints in the sunlight. An earnest bio—whoever wrote this seems to be the protective sort, if not somewhat lonely.

g. Speed of Sound.

You are… not sure what to make of this photo. Are those ninja weapons? The bio reads more like a listing for a hitman. Plus, who is this ‘Saitama?’

[adonis-koo]

Do you want a bigger fandom or do you like it, how it it’s right now ( I think you deserve more recognition because wicked and your other stories are so gooooooddddd )

Feels weird to refer to my readers as a fandom lol, truthfully I don’t think having more readers will fix the issue, I already have almost nine thousand followers, I’ve been on this app for probably five or six years now so naturally people have probably come and gone from my reading, some people only support certain fics etc. And I have no issues with this! Read what piques your interest on my blog and if it’s only one fic that’s totally fine!!

But overall I don’t really want more followers in this sense because I don’t think it’ll fix anything. An example is Wicked gets about seven hundred notes per chapter, about six hundred and twenty of those are likes and I’ll get maybe fifty reblogs and roughly ten to fifteen comments on the actual post (WHICH I just found out I’m now able to reply with THIS blog rather then my main account which is a total game changer with giving even more interaction with readers)

On a regular chapter though I could average about twenty to even thirty asks, mixed between users and anon’s, last chapter interaction had to be prompted; I only received two asks the whole day and a half and only after posting about the lack of engagement did I received an average amount of engagement.

This update for wicked has had a sharp drop off in likes at only close to four hundred, maybe thirty reblogs and probably 5 to 10 comments, however my asks were once again very dry, I only received two asks within the first three days of updating (it usually only takes 24 hours for asks to start rolling in).

Generally engagement will generate more engagement, that’s just how it works. But no engagement = no engagement 🤷‍♀️

I’m not trying to actively complain, I experienced this heavily with tease once i got close to chapter 20, so it’s not an unfamiliar concept to me. People want long fic’s but I’ve found that if it extends past fourteen to fifteen chapters, people begin to get bored and drop off, that’s what’s happened with wicked I suppose.

Anytime I feel discouraged I remember an old tumblr post that talks about imagining all the people who have read your fic being in a room with you, 400 people is overwhelming to imagine being in a room with me! But it doesn’t change that I sit here a lot of days and think about the people who only drop a like.

It’s like saying; your fic is really good, it made me feel all the feelings, I loved to consume it and I’m now onto the next. It’s good!!! but it’s not that good; it’s good but it’s not good enough for me to click twice to reblog it; it’s good; but it’s not good enough for me to bother writing you an ask or dropping a comment, it’s good; you want engagement? okay I’ll just write ‘part 2???’ or how about ‘update pls!!’

I’m not really talking about anything new, this has been an ongoing issue in writing for an unfortunately very long time; even my biggest fic Sate just hit 5 thousand notes! I had enough engagement with the fic that I considered it a personal success but when you look at the statistics of it, it’s kinda messed up that it had to take five thousand people just for six hundred to reblog it and only twenty three people to drop a comment.

Anyways I didn’t mean to ramble about this, I guess it’s just been on my mind as I wonder about what direction I take this blog and if I want to keep writing, to answer your question; I don’t really put much stock into my following because it evidently doesn’t really count towards what I write, I’ll always be flattered when people chose to support by following but it’s not a number I put a lot of value in

[scarletsxnss]

hiii if you're seeing this, i'm sorry for having so many accounts. tumblr keeps shadowbanning me and i think i finally found the solution, even tho it's stupid. i wont bore u w the details but i'll put my fix under the cut if you're curious

regardless, i'm gonna slowly do all the stuff i had going on in hopes to get this hobby back up n running! ty for ur patience and dealing w this chaos

so it seemed like whenever i logged into tumblr on the ios app, it would ban me then? idk why specifically, but it seemed to do it every time that happened.

SO instead of depraving myself of the app bc i love scrolling thru, im making the blog one last time (idk if i have more attempts in me) withe the word 'sins' censored from the url lol i cant really avoid the other trigger words on my replies so im hoping posting incest, smut, and dark themes, wont effect the ban

on top of that, for good measure, im actually using an oldddd blog lol this is a recycled one from 2019 if you could believe that. so hopefully this works itself out and i dont need to do this all over again

i mean, pls tumblr, dont shadowban this 4+ year old account

[bruisedboys]

hey do u have the latest update of tumblr? i wanted to see if its like this for anyone else but tags dont work for me for some reason 😭 i used to be able to click on a tag from a post and pick “search tag in that user’s acc” and it would show all the posts with that tag in that user’s acc but now when i click it it just says empty even tho i know its not 😭 now i cant find ur old works aaa pls lmk if u or anyone experienced this/knows the solution! xx

hi honey! I don’t, and now that you’ve mentioned it I kinda don’t want to update my app just in case something weird happens lol!! that sounds irritating though, if anyone knows how to fix it please let us know!

also, my navigation is linked at the bottom of my pinned post, and you should be able to find my masterlist there! all of my old works are linked in my masterlist xxx

[alitgblog]

"live" blogging s7, vol 1 (some analysis, some jokes lol)

first off, I totally forgot there were other casa amor girls so opening the app to see them on the banner I was like oooo

the S7 MC isn't too bad art wise, like it's definitely better than I thought with the preview, but

I do think the skinnier size MC is super skinny and the bigger one is not that much bigger, which is a little disappointing (always appreciate more size inclusion). ideally I think there would be one more size up i think but I do understand that means they'd have to fix all the clothes 3 times.

speaking of clothes they've always been bad at the beginning of the season since like s4 and this is no exception. I wish we got more options in the beginning and then the others they tack on later

the skin tones really are only three shades with each having one warmer variation, which is kind of nice to have people get that option in tone, but I do still wish there were more shades variation in between (and darker ones in general)

for absolutely no reason I have decided that my MC is also gonna be the S5 MC from my first playthrough getting a second chance after a second failed relationship with Suresh (let's just pretend she didn't win her season lol) and she's cute in this style (but again i wish we had the right skin tone for her). I guess if fusebox is backing out of bringing back Eddie then I'm bringing my MC

Her name is Junie and she's doing a lot better now mentally and has gained a little bit of healthy weight and finally loves herself now so fusebox better not make an embarrassment out of her again.

this actually works out pretty well bc usually the casa amor girls on the show arrive at the same time unless something is special about one of them who can show up separately like MC does here (ok fine I've only seen that happen in LI USA S5 and I guess s6 of the game)

Ep 1

Bonnie being an LI feels solely like penance for me thinking Iona was hot but sad she wasn't even a friend really let alone an LI in s3 so thank you but for narrative purposes I'm making Junie straight

Uma is gorgeous

also fusebox is not beating the reused assets allegations even those poses are just too eerily familiar

"I wanna try the slow burn" *has war flashbacks to the Ozzy route I never finished*

short king raf

ok Alex picking MC when Summer was flirting so hard is actually very funny to me

I understand bc it's a gem choice i didn't pick that we didn't get the last card but very funny that they were like we're just not gonna give Summer a chance at all actually

Let's goooo confirmed Joyo is Indonesian (I'm filipino so i was hoping filipino so I could draw him singing karaoke but I am here for any southeast Asian representation at all 🥳)

however I am upset with the use of "rizz" again. maybe once or twice but if they do it again I'm rioting

Alex nerding out is so cute. also who wouldn't want a bob the builder boyfriend for home improvement projects lol

am i too old to understand what normcore is?? like I barely understand e-girl aesthetic but there's more??

Bryson and his sister Jess have the most realistic sibling relationship from the last two seasons bc I also would mess with my brother's partners. and I once again am mourning the idea of a protective brother slow burn storyline in s6 instead of whatever Amelia was doing

"I won't bore you with the details" no pls do it I wanna know and I don't wanna pay the gems

all the guys have great personalities so far and idk if it's because I'm paying attention more this time or it's just better but oh no I'm falling for all of them

the drama set up with the guys and their partners is promising writing (namely the triangle with Geri, Bryson, and Joyo but maybe just because im torn between those two anyway) I'm shocked but cautious it's episode 1 lol

ep 2

early doors?

the gem party outfit is so 2013 disney channel, I actually will be taking the free outfit

wait why is it not night time for truth or dare why did they change clothes lol

joyo, get out of here with the graphic tee and blazer combo. Maybe this is why Bryson doesn't like you, and it'd be justified (tbf him being a bad dresser has been established already though)

oh God I didn't see his pants too jfc let him borrow some clothes

I'm into the frenemy relationship with Summer, like there's always a female villain in the game and they're almost always entertaining to me at the beginning (minus maybe Kat and Ivy)

I'm warming up to the all the guys like how can you pick

I'm starting to realize I personally have a problem because I always go, at least initially, for the chefs/foodies (Jake, Bobby, Camilo, Roberto) and I like Bryson rn and I think my MC would go for Bryson based on how I played her in s5 but I'm slowly inching over to Joyo and honestly i see the vision for Bobby clone I mean Raf and it is absolutely bc they've mentioned cooking

stop talking about feet pls not again

I expect this from Summer but Uma coming over to try to steal my man?? I appreciate her boldness though and at least she's not going behind anyone's back

ep 3

as someone who doesn't have the modded app and will not pay real money for gems, I feel very happy with choosing to eavesdrop on the guys' conversation. I feel like usually a lot of the gem scenes aren't worth it but this one is fun

Joyo does skincare but can't dress and Bryson is a fashion expert but makes fun of skincare. If they joined forces they'd be unstoppable, thank God they hate each other

hey what the fuck happened to cassius

so in summary im pleasantly surprised and hyped for this season at the moment. and lastly, pls don't drop the ball on stick or twist again please please pleaseeee

[merthurweek2024]

hi!! i just found this event and i already have so many ideas, i had no idea any merlin events existed but i'm so happy i'm not the only one still fighting/stuck in it 🥰 i have a tiny stupid question about the prompts: do you allow fics written in aus, or only in canon? i usually feel more comfortable writing au and/or canon divergence fix-its, so i just wanted to make sure i wouldn't be breaking any rules !! 🥺

HI LOVELY IM SORRY ITS TAKEN ME A BIT TO REPLY (imma be honest. im a dumbass and thought i answered this ask but it was all in my head LOL)

and omg pls you are not alone!! our once and future fandom are a swarm fighting to survive every year and we only seem to be getting stronger. we will die with this app with our ship🫡

no question is stupid!!!🥺♥️ aus are perfectly okay. you can literally write anything you want—no rule breaking to worry about.

i tend to write in canon only but thats bc im lame and cant master the art of aus. you can write anything you are comfortable with!!🥰

im so glad you’re excited about this fest!! im super excited to see what you’ll create 🥺♥️

[love-me-a-lotta-whump]

Hello! I want to start making some whump lists of my own and I was wondering if you possibly have any tips? I’m having trouble with the wording and I feel like I might be over explaining but I’m not sure. If you could help that would be amazing.

Hello!!!

I do have some tips!

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1. Wording

Since you asked specifically about wording I’ll start there. What I do is use words for tropes that the community most commonly uses. For example: drowning, kidnapping, hostage, shot, etc. I personally like to be specific with certain things. I’ll say what they were shot with or if they are restrained I like to specify handcuffs vs rope vs zip ties vs ✨chains✨. With some tropes that are not as commonly spoken about or may not have a name I will use wording I feel best describes it like “heavily lidded eyes”. Idk how else to word it but that’s how I do it.

2. MULTIPLE COPIES

Those who have been around my blog for a while know about me losing lists. I now have lists saved in 3 different places. (Soon to be 4) Even if you make your lists in Tumblr drafts, SAVE THEM ELSEWHERE! I keep them in my notes on my phone, Google Docs, Microsoft Word and soon an app on my iPad. I have lost MONTHS worth of lists before in The Incident. I won’t do it again and I hope you never do.

3. Stay Organized

I have my Whump List Library (masterlist) and my Whump List Directory (sub masterlist?) all (mostly) organized. It helps people find your lists easier and tbh it helps you find them easier! I am always so happy when I can easily update or fix a list because I stay organized. Also if you have multiple WIP lists, it’s best to keep those organized as well.

4. Figure out YOUR systems

If you want to add time stamps, colors in your formatting, stick to 1 or 2 countries, add different links, etc. do it. Do whatever you want to do. I have changed formatting twice and it’s such a hassle to fix especially once you get to a certain number of lists.

5. Recs and Requests

If you decide to accept recommendations and requests, PLEASE remember you can say no and you don’t have to do them. I say this because I struggle with it. But if you have no interest in making the list, don’t do it. However I will say taking recs and requests have been AMAZING! Some of my favorite dramas ever have been requests and recommendations.

6. Pace Yourself

It’s all fun until you realize you’re forcing yourself to work on a list after a long day of work. Make sure you keep it to where you enjoy it. I personally try to update people if I feel like list uploads are going to slow down, still, but don’t force yourself to make them just so you can get them out. (Another one I’m guilty of lol)

7. Misc.

Even if someone has already made the list, you can still make it in your own way. Having multiple lists never hurt anybody.

Team up with other bloggers! I have and it’s been amazing! (I tag GIF makers’ GIFs to tropes in my lists) (Some bloggers have adopted my incomplete/dropped lists)

SAVE MULTIPLE COPIES (I know I already said it but pls don’t lose your progress omg pls don’t)

Continue asking for help/advice if you feel you need it.

Make a to-do list, keep it organized and in multiple places.

SAVE MULTIPLE COPIES

Figure out which streaming services work best for you and get good at finding dramas/movies that aren’t on regular streaming services

SAVE MULTIPLE COPIES

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I hope this helped!!! If you need any more help please feel free to DM me or send another ask!

[artficlly]

For whatever reason your Lady of The Ghost masterlist

Isn't working properly on mobile. It opens up a separate tab on my internet browser rather than opening on the app. I really want to read this series so I went and scoured your tags. I found chapters one through five and I liked them each. I apologize for the rapid likes. ❤️

hi tysm for letting me know!! i only really use tumblr on my laptop because the app is super buggy grr, i don't know if that is what is causing it or what. :( i'll try redoing all the links and see if that helps lol.

anyway tysm for reading!!! i'm glad you like the series! actually reminds me that i need to finish writing chapter 6 rip. i started on it forever ago but got distracted with a graphic novel project that has just burnt me out so bad :(

but yes if any tumblr whizz is reading and knows how to fix my masterlist pls let me know!! i just checked on my phone and like most of it is broken i am going to be fighting battles for real resetting all 5 thousand links

[ticklishfiend]

ok quick rant then i’m finished and i’m posting the fic with my fingers crossed LMAO pls ignore if u don’t care bc i srsly don’t care

apparently i’m being punished by this fucking hellsite for using google docs. ah yes, my mistake for thinking this dumb fucking app could handle a simple COPY AND PASTE TRANSACTION.

i copied and pasted, all the words were black and u couldn’t read it. so i figured out why it was making the words black, fixed that, and suddenly for WHATEVER REASON all my italics are gone!!!! great :D

if u write/read tickle fics, or just anything in general tbh but especially tk fics, u KNOW italics mean everything to the way things are read and how the entire fic can be interpreted, at least in my opinion. so when it deleted all my italics i nearly lost my shit lmao. i realized the only, ONLY solution to my problem was by going through each and every paragraph INDIVIDUALLY and changing the color back from black to white!! oh what a joy to be a writer on tumblr!!

yeah i sick and fucking tired of this app/website. this is why i don’t fucking post anymore. i like the community here, how the engagement feels more personal, but i can’t STAND having to actually USE this app. it’s terrible, it’s impossible.

i apologize for the long rant but i am just seriously so mad right now lol that took literally an hour of my time i could’ve been sleeping, but when i have a problem i intend on fucking fixing it.