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[ameliacf13]

i still don't get why you think working with the ypg was a bad decision and why do you were racist/imperialist for it

Okay this is a conflation that I think happened because I'm not really good at explaining things. I'll separate them here, definitively.

Joining the YPG is not what made me a racist/imperialist. The personal beliefs I held at that time fall under that category. My decision to join wasn't motivated by a revolutionary fever or drive for mutual assistance, but by those beliefs. Context for what happened immediately before I joined: the 2014 Parliament shooting. Nationalist fervour was sort of a thing after (for me).

I think joining the YPG was a bad decision because of the objectively and morally bad motivation. Besides that it fucked with my life for years when I came back to Canada. My experience resulted in mental health issues alongside all that.

I don't think the act of fighting for a cause is wrong. I don't think being revolutionary is wrong. I certainly don't think fighting against people (ISIS, the only group I fought against) that murder and rape their way across the land is a bad thing. But I recognize that my motivation to do so was wrong.

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You already know who I am, (because I’ve gushed about ‘The Book Smuggler’ on Ao3 and in your DMs before), so I hope that sending this on anonymous is fine. I have so many questions, and I thought I’d wait until the next chapter, but I simply cannot wait anymore. Having said that, please don’t feel pressured to answer any of these if you feel like they might spoil the plot of future installments. Once again, thank you for sharing your writing with us!

Going into this series as a dormant-but-not-dead LietPol fan was a grave mistake on my part, because although I know that Tauras and Feliks are a closed chapter (romance wise), I still catch myself secretly hoping for PRECISELY what Feliks had hinted at when he had brought up Aurelija’s wedding.

For the sake of your readership’s imagination, if you were to go down that path, would you see Feliks start an extramarital relationship with Tauras? I’m disinclined to believe that he would break off this marriage and lose his privileges - not after he had fought so hard to protect his and his family’s reputation. Or would he consider Tauras’ recklessness too great a risk? Affair or not, does Feliks still love Tauras enough to endanger his standing for him?

And if Tauras were to return to Kaunas, would his father accept him? I recall that in one of his conversations with Ivan, Matas voices his suspicion that Juozas had already forgiven his errant son. Maybe it’s foolish to think this, but a part of me hopes that Juozas has not forgiven Tauras, because the thought of a father having long forgiven a son who is woefully unaware of this is a pill too hard to swallow.

A follow up question to this is: has Tauras forgiven his brother at last? Throughout the series, we see Tauras wrestle against his own judgment to forgive his little brother. In one chapter, he is as resentful of Matas as he had been in the aftermath of his fight with his father, in another he wonders if Matas knows that he has long forgiven him. If my calculations are correct, Matas must be close to 15 now, yes? When and how do you think Matas came to understand that his interference all those years ago ultimately caused him to deprive Tauras of his love and standing in the family?

Last, I used to see Ivan as the embodiment of ‘lawful evil’, HOWEVER the latest chapters have really given me a run for my money, because now, without his much-awaited career promotion, I’m dying to see where he stands with Tauras. Will he abandon his loyalties? Throw in his lot with Tauras and maybe even contribute to Tauras’ reconciliation with his family? I bet that Matas would really, really love that as he seems to be fond of Ivan (and Ivan of him, but I’m not sure).

Also, please give us a hint of who Aurelija will be marrying.

I’d have a couple more questions to ask about Gilbert and Toris, but they are more historical in nature than ‘TBS’ specific. If I haven’t stolen too much of your time, I can insert those on another occasion. Thank you for everything!

Oh buddy, you just made my everything with this ask, thank you so much! Some things I will answer and others I will hint at.

WRT to Feliks and Tauras...relationship-wise, they are very much like Daisy and Jay from The Great Gatsby. Tauras fell head over heels in infatuated love with Feliks when they were younger and in doing so, it created this ideal image of Feliks in his mind. After Feliks, Tauras really doesn't pursue romance because of 1.) fear of further retribution and 2.) that person would not be Feliks. Tauras held such a torch for Feliks because he was his first love and he felt guilt over what happened, with Feliks being sent into the imperial army. It's only after Tauras returns to Lithuania and has that run in with Feliks does he realize Feliks would never be able to fully commit because he's more bound by societal expectations for men of his class and holds his status so highly. I think if Tauras had taken him up on that proposal, Feliks would definitely start a side fling with him. He would not divorce his wife. Tauras and Feliks' relationship would become the subject of gossip at parties, which is what would ultimately end it as Feliks likes to spread the hot goss, not be the target of it.

I feel like when Feliks saw Tauras and proposed he make amends with his family, it was like this lightning moment. Like Feliks had all these thoughts crash through his head. He knows they'd be doomed in the end, but it's not gonna stop him from trying at least to get Tauras back in some capacity, like your brain screaming at you not to do something but you go and do it anyway. Feliks does still love Tauras which is why he lets him go free, but he would not be willing to give up his status and money -- they're like his shield and he does not understand how someone like Tauras can live an impoverished life and not out in society.

I've been turning Tauras and Juozas over in my head as we near the end. And my original intent was for them to have one final meeting, and it still may happen...but as far as Juozas forgiving him....I'm not going to say yes or no just yet. Matas is somewhat of a dreamer who sees the best in people. He blames himself for what happened to Tauras and wants to believe their father has forgiven Tauras deep down. He also might be conflating his own guilt and hope that Tauras has forgiven him and projecting it where Juozas is concerned.

Matas is eight years younger than Tauras, and when the main story line takes place, Tauras is 27/28, so he would be 19/20. Being from a devout Catholic family, he would have known at the time what his brother was doing was shameful -- Tauras wasn't married and he was with another man. I think he began realizing his brother was in love when he started to have and understand those feelings too, probably when he was a teenager.

I will say he and Tauras do have a moment .... probably not in the upcoming chapter, but definitely in the one after it :)

I love your description of Ivan as the embodiment of lawful evil! It makes me happy because I feel like I was struggling with his character a little. So...everything you mentioned was part of my original idea for this. It maaaaaaay still happen...but I also see Ivan as the type to dig in deeper when he doesn't get what he wants. I'm not sure he would give everything up to help a person he's viewed as a traitor for so long.

Aurelija's marriage is politically motivated, ahahah...it's just lucky for her she actually loves the guy, and he loves her too. He's probably a Lithuanian or Pole whose family is of a slightly higher status than her own.

I would love to answer any more questions about Tauras and Gil! Feel free to send them on! And if you have any more after reading all this, I'd be happy to answer them too :)

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I know it'd be weird to come to your centric blog and ask but may I for what regressions in this context even are? I saw a Ventus and Vanitas regression headcanon post but I didn't really understand it - I only really noticed the brothers like relationship and so still enjoyed reading but ultimately was quite confused. I was thinking maybe like how people regress in age mentally when faced with certain situations but was more confused with that scenario since the poat was talking about changing physical size (and the regressing mentally to the age of a toddler or baby -while not unheard of- was still slightly farfetched to me). If you ever have to time, could you tell me what the 'age regressions' mean in that specific KH context? Many thanks would you to indulge me. :)

Oh no worries, your great!! And asking great question!! :D

When people age regress, it's a mental thing. It can seem a bit farfetched, even I'm not fully convince someone 100% reverts back for a small period of time, but it is a mental thing where something thinks and acts like a young child.

Now, whether you fully revert to a young child completely depends on the person. I've personally never experienced it, I've experienced age dreaming, which is more what my post are based off.

Age dreaming is just like age regression, but you don't fully revert to a young child. You may do childish or kid things, but you can still do adult things or can think like an adult.

They do not turn younger or anything like that, so it's not a physical thing (I also thought it was physical when I I first learnt of it, don't worry)

Also, I wasn't sure if you were concerned of it or not but I'm going to bring it up anyhow, almost all my post are 100% platonic. Unless it specifically states they're dating or it's tagged with a ship name. And they're obviously not shipped if they're siblings, step, half, or whatever kind of family. Also, is there is a ship in it, they aren't dating while one is regressed. One might become a CG role, but most times littles don't have/do romantic things while in their headspace.

But yeah, for the most part age regression is a coping mechanism where someone thinks and acts like a child. Sometimes people fully rever to the headspace, others can still do adult things and not fully revert but just act and think like a child.

Age Regression is a coping mechanism btw!! Often used for past traumas, or stress, or sometimes just for fun! Most activities include watching childrens cartoons, cutting the crust off sandwiches, crying into a stuffie (not all the time is Age regression happy, as seen through Vanitas's posts), and similar activities like that.

Be wary about Age Play!!! That is not a coping mechanism, that is a kink where someone acts like a child during intercourse!!! It is weird and gross!!! Some of it's tags are DD/LG or MD/LB, please be safe out there and avoid these!!

Age Regression DOES NOT EQUAL Age Play

In the contexts on Kingdom Hearts, we'll use the Wayfinder Trio + Vanitas, let's say that Vanitas regresses. Aqua, Terra, and Ventus could all babysit (watch/hang out) him. Or they can be his CG (wich is like babysitting but most times with a title)

Titles for CGs are mostly things like Dada, Mama, things like that. But Bubba or shorten names (like Ven or Vani for Ventus and Vanitas) are also CG names!!

Now let's grab Terra and Aqua! Let's say theyre dating, and Terra regresses sometimes. During the time Terra's small, Aqua and him wouldn't nessecairly be dating, or more not do any romantic acts. Aqua could be his CG, or Ventus could be his CG, or even Master Eraqus could be his CG! It doesn't only have to be your partner, it can be your brother or best friend!

I really hope this help and if you can have more questions or are confused at all, please let me know!! You can DM, or ask by commenting, or send in another 'ask', I'd love to answer any questions someone has!!! No matter how 'silly' or 'weird' they sound, knowledge is a tool that should be spread!!!! :D

[kamiana-ruzha]

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