#please note that I didn't read any other criticisms on this movie

[tea-and-secrets]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to confess this, but I really need to get this out of my chest. Feel free to make a post redirecting me to another confessions blog if you'd like, in the meantime I'll just spit out what I wanna say. This will also be a long post, please excuse my ramblings.

on May of this year, a movie from A24 came out called "I Saw The TV Glow", a horror/drama film based on transness created by a transfemme individual. I didn't hear about it when it came out, I haven't seen any trailers or anything, but as soon as it started airing on local theaters on the US, everyone was talking about it. My TikTok FYP kept showing me dozens of videos of trans people crying after they watched the movie, how it was a beautiful touching and anxiety fueled movie that resonated with so many people from the trans community.

I was interested and my expectations were high, I like horror movies and I haven't seen many movies tackling on transgenderism. I told my partner (who doesn't label themself but they sure are every But cis) about the movie and they actually heard about it and was also interested. Since we're a super long distant couple (I live outside of the US while my partner is from there) we couldn't watch it on theaters, but we planned on watching it online at some point.

Well, that "some point" was a week ago. We got on call and watched the movie and... I was kinda disappointed. I didn't Hate the movie, I still think it was good and my partner thought the same, but we didn't see it as a amazing film like so many people were claiming. We both agreed it was a 7/10 movie with a great message, but in the end it was nothing special.

The confession comes from me feeling guilty about this. I feel bad for not liking this movie as much as a trans person compared to every other trans person that loved it. My partner and I read articles about it and even watched videos covering the ending that left us confused and unsatisfied. Later on I searched the movie tag here on Tumblr, and saw many posts of people (trans people) criticizing those who laughed at moments and questioned the movie and started picking it apart after the movie ended instead of staying in silence. I think that's kinda ridiculous considering that was our first reaction to the ending, but apparently everyone on the notes were agreeing with the original posters, even accusing those that did those as "ignorant cis people".

I'm sure people will say: "You didn't like it because you're not a trans woman/trans femme". And you're right about one part: I'm a transmasc non binary person, but that can't be the reason since I've seen trans men and transmascs enjoying and relating/resonating with the movie. "Well clearly You didn't have to hide your identity" I Have to hide my identity to so many of my family members. I can't even get the haircut that I want, I don't have the clothing that will make me feel like im dressing myself, I don't have access to top surgery or testosterone injections. I know who I am, I just can't fully be that person yet. "Maybe you didn't get the message and symbolism" I watched the movie Knowing the symbolism, people on TikTok weren't being really vague about it lol. It's about suppressing your gender identity, suppressing who you truly are and the dangers of doing so. Not transitioning can kill, and Has killed, so many people. No matter who you are or how old you are or where you live, there's still time. There's still time for you to dig out your suppressed identity and turn into your true self. I think the message is Beautiful and So Important, it's just Something in the Execution that didn't work for me, I can't even explain it.

I know that in the end it's not that deep, it's just a movie that a lot of people Love while I just mildly enjoyed. I just wish I cried and adored this movie like everyone else did, I wish I connected to this movie like everyone else did. Maybe one day I will not care about this anymore, but I don't know when this guilt will go away. Hopefully soon.

This is just a me issue btw, my partner feels fine with just finding the movie okay.

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[crmsnmth]

Hello

Version 6.0

Introductions are stupid.

Hello. How goes it? My name's Chris or a thousand nicknames. I'm a 36 year-old male (most of the time.) I still dress like I did in high school. Call it a Goth/Punk aesthetic.

I live in a small town of about 2000 people right in the center of the ever drunken state of Wisconsin. It's not even close to has fun as it sounds, and it didn't sound like much fun to begin with. Especially considering I'm going on three years sober.

For work, I am a kitchen manager/lead line at one place, and a line cook at another. I work seven days a week. I choose to do it. It gets me out of my house, gives me something to do, and forces me to be social. And I honestly, I really like what I do. I've been in the industry for 20ish years now, so I better like it.

Music is highly important to me and I don't go very long without hearing it someway. I listen to all music, and I'm not just saying that. If you go through my main daily playlist you'll find everything from Gwar to The Spice Girls to Zach Bryan to Mindless Self Indulgence. My favorite band of all time are The Descendents. Amigo The Devil is pretty much right up there too. But you should tell me your favorite song or one that means something to you. I'm always on the lookout for new songs to add to the playlist.

I am a major cinephile, especially 1980's horror, specifaclly slashers. And I love weird movies, art-house and the like. My favorite movie of all-time though is Tommy Wiseau's brilliant masterpiece "The Room." I am 100% serious. That movie was the best thing to ever be placed on film, and no one will ever able to top it.

My brain is a chemical imbalance. I'm medicated.

I am a raging cynic.

I am a recovering addict, long term. Almost 9 years

I am sober almost 3 years now.

I write more than any sane and healthy person should write, but I never claimed to be sane and I am not all that healthy. I try to post at least once a day, but some days I can hammer out 20 poems. The notes app on my phone is absolutely terrifying to look at. A thousand files all called "Untitled."

I don't write for anyone's approval. Not even my own. I do this because it is my healthy outlet. I do it because it's an addiction that isn't actively trying to kill me. I do it for my mental health. I do it to get things off my chest, and share my story in the hopes that it helps somebody out there. I do this to show that I'm reaching my hand out, and strangers or not, I'll always haven an ear to listen. I know what it's like to be completely surrounded by people and yet still feel so so alone.

Since I do write so much, what kind of topics can you find here? I'm pretty predictable when it comes down to it. So, all of this stuff:

The Girl with the Ocean Blue Eyes*, Kid*, The Broken Mirror Girl*, My Junkie Angel*, The Girl From California*, Vex*, love, lost lovers, hopelessness, isolation, solitude, drug addiction, alcoholism, depression, forgotten faces, mental illnesses, rage, hate, rejection, joy, insignificant moments, slices of life, laughter, beauty, Self and Self-reflection, self-hate, art, other writers, panic, infatuations, obsession, therapy, group homes, rehabs, jail, grace, nature, loss, hope, fear, grief, anguish, philosophy, anarchism, nihilism, religion, god, the devil, ugliness, politics, serial killers, cults, suicide, death, destruction, chaos, music, validation, closure, memory, enemies, friends, rock bottom, sex, violence, rock and roll, sin, self-exploration, bipolar disorder, schizoaffective disorder, pain, self destruction and so much more.

I will always love constructive criticism. But please, for the love of it all, don't just tell me I suck. Give me the reason why you think I suck. Help me get better at this. If you can't think of a reason why I suck, then kindly fuck off. Shut your food-hole and stop being a dick just to be a dick.

This is your trigger warning, a blanket sweep. If you read through the topics I write about, you probably already figured out some things can get a little dark. I make music as well as this writing gig. Go tell me how much I suck at it. Please?

I know about the typos. I am very aware. You don't need to tell me. I'm probably not going to fix them. Besides most of the time, you can figure out what I meant.

There's my bare bones. If for some godforsaken reason you'd like to know more or have any questions, don't hesitate to let me know. I may be really bad at the whole social skills thing, but I'm always happy to have a fifteen second conversations.

*NOT THEIR REAL NAMES

[queer-ragnelle]

I read for spoilers for The Bright Sword, it sounded self indulgent -- The Lady of the Lake is the girlfriend of unprepossessing OC, fix-it for King Arthur but also colonialism is bad... am I picking up the right vibes or should I just read it and form my own view? 😂

Hi anon! I'm going to put my longer answer under a cut since the book is still really new and people may want to avoid spoilers. But firstly, all good stories are self indulgent. Writing for the market is dead, writing for yourself is thriving! So that never deters me from any book or movie. Please do some whacky stuff, I love it! Secondly, I encourage you to ignore bad faith spoilers that only offer criticism without any bright sides. (See what I did there?)

The Bright Sword has the kindest portrayal of Sir Palomides ever written and that means something to me!! It should mean something to anybody invested in the Arthurian literary tradition, I think, as it's been a long time coming. It’s no small thing. I really enjoyed the main cast—Bedivere, Palomides, Dinadan, Dagonet, Nimue, Morgan, Constantine, and OCs Collum and Scipio—they’re all wonderful in their own ways! They're queer, dealing with mental illness, disability, all sorts of things I've wanted from Arthurian retellings for years and haven't gotten in a satisfactory way. I bought the book for those characters and Lev Grossman delivered!

TL;DR I recommend the book! There was more done right than wrong. I shared lots of samples on tumblr and in my Arthurian Theater Server as I read along so people could make their own judgement based on the text itself, and they also liked it.

So my longer answer is—I thoroughly enjoyed the first 30/40 chapters. I couldn't put it down! I was reading at work!! After 31 it crashed and burned a little. There were still a handful of flashback chapters to "the good ol' days" between 31-40 that I also liked, but didn't care for the main post-Camlann conflict resolution, unfortunately.

However, I think I understand how Lev Grossman ended up there. In his Author's Note he stated his inspirations—Mary Stewart, Bernard Cornwell, and Nicola Griffith. And in his Reddit AMA the other day, he said it took him 10 years to write The Bright Sword. I believe all of this culminated in a bit of a disconnected story, as the ending seemed to blindside me. Let me explain.

In Bernard Cornwell’s Warlord Chronicles trilogy, Lancelot is a huge piece of shit from the start. Cornwell’s clearly an Arthur enjoyer. I don’t prefer that approach, but I respect it, and I love Cornwell’s writing. His main character, Derfel, was also plainly a huge inspiration for Grossman’s Collum. That’s a good thing! What I didn’t enjoy was The Bright Sword seeming to shift gears suddenly near the end and make Lancelot out to be a villain that didn’t feel sufficiently foreshadowed. Prior to that, he felt much more like Mary Stewart’s poet-eyed Bedwyr (a hybrid with Lancelot) or Nicola Griffith’s sweetly awkward Lancelot, only to turn around and, literally, snap. BOOM! Cornwell’s garbage-tier Lance. [Insert “He would not fucking say that!” meme here.]

Now regarding Nimue: in Stewart's series, Ninian is with Merlin and then later marries the Fisher King. In Cornwell's series, Derfel is a childhood friend of Nimue and eventually her lover. And in Griffith's book, Peretur ends up with Nimue. So Ninian/Nimue has a long tradition as a spouse/lover of other characters and I enjoyed all of those examples. In The Bright Sword, she was a badass the entire novel, fighting in the battles with intense magic, and she even got her own pov chapters. I liked Collum well enough, he's not my favorite Arthurian OC, but I definitely didn't hate him! His back story was a little eye-roll worthy and his infatuation with Nimue was meh at times, but he’s literally 17 leaving home for the first time. That tracks. It’s not a deal breaker for me by any stretch. Cursed (2020) is where the worst Lady of the Lake romance is at. Nimue/Arthur with some weird shoehorned Gawain love triangle thing? Blech. Get it away from me. It can always be worse!

As a known Arthurian OC enjoyer, I’ll go on record in defense of Collum. He’s fine and characters like him are often paired with canonical characters. I much prefer Nimue end up with someone her own age, whether it be Pelleas or an OC, than stay with Merlin. And The Bright Sword goes to great lengths to show that Merlin is a creep and Nimue a victim who was in the right to bind him in the cave. So this didn’t bother me that much at all.

As far as "fix-it" King Arthur and colonialism bad, not sure what you mean by that. Arthur is dead. That's literally the plot. Did you mean writing Arthur as a decent husband to Guinevere in flash backs? Lots of books and films have done that already, Lev Grossman isn't the first to write Guinevere in love with her husband and an Arthur who is on-par or even better than Lancelot. Personally I prefer when it's balanced but this isn't new or noteworthy. Now, obviously colonialism is bad. That’s the point of King Arthur—the Saxons are colonizers he expels. Not sure what point the spoilers you saw were trying to make there. But it’s irrelevant since The Bright Sword doesn't touch on colonialism very much. Palomides travels west from Baghdad after hearing outlandish stories about Camelot but none of his friends have ever encountered westerners before and they have wildly inaccurate ideas. So Palomides wants to go there and write a book about it (which he does). There’s no talk of the west reaching east from his perspective, and the Saxons are moot, as the focus is a land in want of a king after Arthur’s death, not expelling the Saxon invaders. Could the spoilers have meant monarchy? I don't think anyone is reading Arthurian Legend, which is strictly fantasy, to dismantle the monarchy (or the crimes committed by real life monarchies, such as colonialism). Fantasy, and by extension Arthurian Mythology, is not true to life in any stretch. So that feels like an unfair criticism to make of the genre, even when it takes historical inspiration.

But anyway yes I think you should read the book for yourself! I always advise reading a book before passing judgement. Sometimes a trusted friend will read a book and tell you, knowing best what you like, that it’s not for you. That’s all well and good. But I generally don’t trust the internet’s opinions at large. Much better to feel it out on your own time. I’d love to hear from you again once you’ve read it! Let me know! Have a great rest of your weekend. :^)

[hacked-by-jake]

SPOILERS

Alright I have way too many thoughts and emotions so there ain't no way I'm gonna be able to organize everything into a nice sentence but I still gotta get it out 🤣🤣

First off, my notes app with some of my thoughts I wrote down while playing (in chronological order):

Where's Jake?

No premium?

Why and where is nymos

Why are we playing candy crush instead of hacking

Again: Where's Jake, he prob sees our chats and knows whats happening (hopefully)

The characters seem like an almost identical reflection to duskwood

What happened to Richy, please don't die on me 😩

Where's the others

We're now paying to see the secret chats

Why's this game taking so much of my money

Ash really be making me cry about Jake again 🥴

Eric be throwing himself at us when I still want to stay loyal to my hacker boy 💀

The ending: I KNEW MY BABY WAS ALIVE I LOVE HIM, I DEMAND HE TALKS TO US NEOW 👹

AND ALAN I MISSED HIM TOO MWAH MWAH

Rant 1:

The money milking makes me sick and don't even get me started on the ai 🫡 I spent 17 bucks today, halfway through the first episode and already out of all the materials I bought. It's disgusting how Everbyte has completely flipped and is practically scamming their players. Based on the prices, it's almost 3 dollars to view one picture 🙄 I would be more than happy to buy a premium package like duskwood for $20 or even 30 but $17 for not even half an episode is a crime 😭😭

Rant 2:

It's crazy how long this game took and yet it's way worse than duskwood. I was expecting a few additions, not subtractions.

Rant 3:

There is no way to see previous media and calls like in duskwood and no chat history like they promised. I never would've thought it was possible, but these mini games are way worse than duskwoods. And I realized how childish it all looks, I hate how we get no explanation for anything we're doing in the game.

Conclusion:

I'm pissed but seeing the anonymous mask gave me life. I need to go replay duskwood to cleanse myself of moonvale 😮‍💨

Pahahaha you're really killing me with your thoughts, I love your humor so much. 😭

I really should also start to write down my first thoughts while playing but I fear I will write down something to every little sentence I read. xD

But it's so true, where's Nymos? Give us Nymos back! My emotional bond with this unreal little dude is huge so I seriously need him. It's literally a program but it's a he you can't change my mind because I imagine Nymos as Jake best friend who's exactly like Jarvis from Marvel. (Sorry if you don't know it but then I really recommend you to watch the Iron Man movies. (Actually all marvel movies but we're talking about Jarvis here so you best see or more like hear him in Iron Man)

Btw my headcanon is that Nymos is not just any program but also an AI. So and now I will expand the headcanon and say Nymos is an AI that is against AI art and nobody can stop me, hehe.

The Candy Crush comparison makes me laugh every time and it hurts me because it’s true. xD

The thing with the characters being identical with the Duskwood characters... It's a hard topic in my eyes.

Some people say it way too early to judge this. And it's true. We didn't saw much now. But I do think we can already judge them a bit by what we saw. And when we compare it with how the Duskwood characters were in the first episode, I do think you can see that there's not much yet, sadly.

Like, we had Thomas, the idiot in love with problems to take criticism. We had Jessy the hanger-on that were clinging to Dan but then decided to change sides. We had the funny sunny boy Richy. The pretty cold acting Cleo. We had bitchy Lilly and of course we had the grumpy and unfriendly Dan. They all acted pretty strong from second one, in my eyes.

But I somehow absolutely don't think the Moonvale characters are like the Duskwood characters. Because well, I really think they need stronger personalities.

We have Eric who's a pretty normal guy and even though he tripped twice in one episode he's not at all like Thomas.

We have Ash who's like a very, veeery light version of Jessy and Lilly, in my eyes. Somehow kind but somehow absolutely not trustworthy.

We have Violet who's just.. there sometimes. Even the drunken police chief is more expressive.

Well and Charlie is.. Somehow like Richy and in my eyes has the strongest personality so far.

Oh and not to forget Brian who wasn't even there. Lol.

So yeah, I understand both points but I might see it a bit differently.

"Why's this game taking so much of my money" had me on my knees, laughing and crying at the same time because it's almost funny what Everbyte did and it's just as sad.

During my first playthrough I was also like: Someone give me a crucifix I need to get rid of Eric as soon as possible.

But while replaying I just had to see what happens if you decide to get closer with Eric and I swear it didn't disappoint me. It was hilarious and truly, I want this with Jake. I need such a chat with Jake! Everbyte, please!

I mean, I'm not flirting with Eric because I think he's hot or anything. Sadly, his character isn't interesting to me in this sense. (I need the mysterious guys xD) But I just had to try it and I mean, who knows if it will be important later. It's manipulative, I know, but don't judge me. And also, there's still this little hope for a jealous Jake. *ahem* Sorry, I promise I still feel bad for flirting with someone else. 😩

But gosh, the side story end. It was worth all the wait, really. I said before, I don’t forget about the negative things because of it but I'm just a silly, lonely, disappointed girl in love with a fictional hacker, let me have this adrenaline boost!

And yes, I was so happy when I saw Alan's body cam. I immediately knew what that means but at first I was just so happy to "see" Alan as well. I really like this guy, I can't stop myself.

About rant 1: I love the comparison with "So expensive is a picture" it is just as true and actually shows again how incredible it all is. I’ve said my opinion many times now, and I still want to protect Everbyte and give them a little empathy. But it's sadly just true.

I had a thought about that (what you said in rant 2) before and wanted to make a post about it later. So I hope it's okay if I get to it later.

Rant 3: This is actually one of the things that botherse the most. We can't rewatch calls, videos and pictures. The chats are disappearing and are gone forever. And they told us it will be different and that's so annoying. Not being able to see it in the app is just bothering for me. And yeah, that they broke the "promise" is as well. We all were so happy about the chat thing and now...

I actually like the look of Moonvale even if I would prefer something much darker. Especially with the mini games. The background is AI, of course, so. It would look much better with a real background.

And the damn mini games... I loved the ones in Duskwood so much. I really did. It was so much fun and I was one of the people who found them very easy.

But now the Moonvale mini games. By lord. Even though they're much easier for me in my replay, the first time I was actually this close to throwing my phone against the wall. I mean, I even went to sleep at some point and finished the game the next day! Everyone who follows me since duskwood knows I would rather shave my head than that. But they're just pain. And I seriously hope Everbyte will make them a bit easier or give us moves! Because this was often the biggest issue for me. Not enough moves. But they want you to buy gems so... 😒

Your conclusion sound good. I'm definitely planning to replay Duskwood as well. If I want or not. I have to. I need the comforting atmosphere and my emotional support hacker.

So I would say, see you in Duskwood, my detective friend. 🫡

No, jokes aside. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me and us. As I said, I love your humor and the way to describe the things. And I really enjoyed answering it. 💚

I hope you could calm down a bit as well. I definitely needed some days before I could see it more clearly.

And as always a huge pleasure to see you here again. 💚😌

[pseudowho]

Hi! i’m pretty new to tumblr and actually have met 0 people from it so i thought i’d ask you because you seem welcoming and i love your posts. how are you able to write fics without hating all of them? every time i try to write something i immediately reread it and find it to be the worst writing ever. any tips on improving?

Hello! I'm disgustingly welcoming and friendly. Well done for finding me.

please note: I'm really not an expert on what makes writing 'good'. Please don't consider me to be one

r.e. hating it, I very often hate my own writing. It does help that others don't seem to. Validation isn't everything, no, but it does go a long way. What goes further is, instead of looking at your writing and hating it, try to look at your writing with a critical eye. What do you dislike about it? Why? What are you trying to capture, and how is it best to create that?

You should figure out what kind of writer you are. Is this an exercise for you to feel soothed, or cheered? Is this an exercise to make others feel soothed or cheered? Both are equally valid, but they can change the direction your writing takes, leaning from how it makes you feel to how it makes the reader feel.

Equally, you can have both!

I'm very much a for the reader writer, and when I write something, it's with an unconscious lean towards making other people feel something. It ends up feeling methodical and calculated as opposed to personal. I like to garner the emotions I'm seeking from an audience. I find it satisfying as a writer.

Like I said, I've been asked this a lot, but I'm honestly not the person to ask. I've been writing for a year and didn't know I had any ability for it until it happened. I'll tell you some things that I think have contributed to my writing:

Read more, and good literature: try Shirley Jackson, Ursula leGuin, Ray Bradbury, Tasha Suri, Natasha Pulley, Jeff Vandermeer, Cormac McCarthy. This is going to sound arrogant and arsey, but I'll own it: most published smut has a lower literature quality than non-smut. Veer away into fiction. The writing quality will inspire you. You may already do this, but if not, give it a go.

I picture stories like movie scenes. Then I wrote the scene.

Often, what can be said loosely in 10 words, can be said tightly in three or four. There is a perfect word for a feeling, or situations, or vibe, or facial expression, etc. Seek them out.

Imitate-- find an author whose work is profoundly beautiful. Try to imitate their style. It's a great way to practice and discover your own style along the way.

Accept that your writing will improve the more and more you do it. If you keep writing, you'll look back on what you wrote a year before and it will make you cringe. This is normal, and healthy.

More than anything, keep going and trying. You'll never improve if you give up.

☝️ us talking writing, sharing a milkshake, idk

Love,

-- Haitch xxx

[thelunarsystemwrites]

Looooong ass vent

TW for: Self hate. Lots of swearing. Use of not nice words. Eating disorders, purging, self harm, suicide, rants, venting, tons of triggers, dissociation, lying, all caps, me whining, me being a bitch, mistreatment, body shaming, hateful stuff, mental illness, all that- like seriously this has more TWs than I can think of. .

I'm a jealous person. I'm sorry, it's true. I'm jealous when other people have art that gets 40, 50, more notes. I get jealous when my friends have better friends than I ever could be. I get jealous of song writers because damnit please I want to make music. I get jealous of others art,voices, bodies. I get so jealous I get mad at nothing over nothing. I get jealous at others art styles, at other success, i get jealous at my own FRIENDS wow I'm awful

I'm selfish. I'm greedy because I can't just- be fucking happy with what i do have. I can't be patient to get better at drawing, better at recording my voice, more freedom. I am never satisfied, I'm a fucking whore for any sort of love and attention and likes and reblogs. You hear me? I'm, a, whore.

And I'm fucking awful because I can't take criticism for shit, I get so fucking unhappy at it and I lie and I say I'm happy to receive it. I lie all the time like this, I'm a dishonest whore, that's worse than a normal whore! I get so bent out of shape!

And I want to make it big in the Tumblr community BUT FUCK IT BECAUSE I NEVER FOCUS ON ONE THING

M so impatient

And when I talk to my friends I-

I forget all that. I calm down, I feel... wanted.

But I'm burdening them. I'm burdening them I'm burdening them I'm I'm fucking selfish and horrible because they give and give and give and I take like a needy selfish greedy whore.

AND I DON'T SHUT UP, I'm sorry I'm sorry I never shut up

...I'm... awful. And... I shouldn't keep posting shit like this, because nobody should have to read my rambling and shit and I'm overreacting and I want to die and

Im useless irl BTW. I've been nothing but a stupid moody bitch the past two weeks, I stay up all night doing nothing and wake up at 5 pm like a useless piece of human shit that should burn in the garbage

I keep forgetting who I am, who is talking too

Im sooooooooo uselessssssssssss

Its fucking because I think my family would be happier if I didn't exist. Because that'd be one less stupid moody bitch that can't do anything and hides in their room all day that they have to deal with

Im lazy I get apathetic I have no motivation to do anything and I don't cry at sad movies like a broken robot and everything about me is wrong

And my father wanted a daughter so fucking badly, but I'm not a girl I'm nothing and he'd be so mad if I ever told him

And BTW I'm literally awful like I've run out of things I'm a jealous whore

M a whore because all tye time I think of stupid sexual stuff and then I feel disgusted I'm disgusting I barely take showers

I'm pathetic btw I never finish anything I start I have so many half assed AUs and drafts and fanfics and art and chores and needs and shit

and I sit in my room all day and play on my phone like a fucking loser. Im also really stupid btw, I don't know half the shit I'm supposed too and I can't spell shit or know history AND I HAVE THE ABILITY TO LEARN BUT IM SUCH A STUPID FUCKING BITCH I NEVER DO ANYTHING

I'm also a hypocrite because I get so snappy and shit with my siblings when they do nothing wrong except be annoying or something but when I feel justified I shouldn't because I'm still a shitty person

I barely reach out to my friends unless they text first, I'm a horrible friend that never listens I'm sorry I'm sorry I never meant to abandon anyone

And I can't take blame or accountability I'm sorry I am shit why do I keep trying to hide behind myself??

Its past 6 am,people are statving and in here venting like a bitch

I never shut up

I Bother people

i sleep in and I'm moody and I demand attention like a whore whose demanding love idfk

I never know anything, I'm rude as hell

Im sorry

and I'm protective over shit nobody cares about, I'm so damn defensive

Im sorry I'm not doing better I'm sorry I'm not improving myself. I'm so mad at myself I have so much anger at myself I direct it at innocent people I'm sorry

I HAVE NO EXCUSES, IM SO FUCKING SELF AWARE OF THIS BUT I KEEP DOING IT KM SO DAMN FHCKONG DUM IM LUTERALLY COUNTING HOW MANY WORDS OF SELF HSTE

Its justified BTW, i deserve hate

I feel like I'm lying abt being a system and artistic and depressed and anxiety like what I'd I just suddenly decided I had them?? I swear I promise I'm not faking I'm not I don't want to lie I want to be good I never meant to hurt anyone BUT I FEEL LIKE IM A FAKING BITCH

I binge food and throw it up, I hide food like a greedy pig just to purge I take others food because I'm so gluttonous and I LIE about it

and I vent and vent and vent and... and I still hate myself

I'm so fucking manipulative because anytime I talk I CSNT STOP IMSGING HOW THE CONVERSATION WILL GO, I CANT STOP TRYONG TO FUCKING GET MY WAY IRL, AHHGHGBTIDDHDH I ALEATS ACT LIKE I KNOW EVERYTHING WHEN I DONT and I purposefully annoy my siblings so they leave thr kitchen so I can binge like a fat pig, I'm a hypocrite too in every aspect. I'm toxic ok im awful

I s/h and then i forget about it so its not even a problem but I whine like it is and I want to do it so badly rn I wanna go deep

AND I RUINED MYSELF WITH UGLY SCATS they're so ugly like me inside and out

And I wanna cry and

and I'm so awful because like I get so... idk, I am. I've done shifty things, I'm a shit person. I act sweet than a condescending little bitch

and sometimes the smallest things set me off

Im jealous of everyone else

Hell I'm fucking jealous of people I've never met, I want so much so badly I'm so greedy and lustful for it and selfish

In... conclusion? The world, would, be, better, without, me

I'm useless, lazy, stupid, jealous, slutty, angry, sad, pitiful, pathetic, fat looking, no good child, moody, stereotypical, ugly, hateful, chatter box, greedy, selfish. Gluttonous, messy, dirty. I'm all the bad stuff

Dont lie, these are facts. I have so much awful in me, the world wpuld be better off without me

[figkeele]

8, 13, and 24 for spiderverse/your current main fandom. I hope it takes your thoughts away from the shitty day. Also, *hugs* ♥️.

Aww, thanks! Silly things do help!

Note for any poor soul reading this, this will be not just spoilery for Across the Spider-Verse, but absolutely negative! :D It's a choose violence ask after all.

Also, considering the movie is out for like 7 days, thankfully I could detach from the fandom before I GOT VERY UPSET. But I needed to unfollow people already for my blood pressure lol. It is a silly thing! I'm very well aware of it.

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

People think the writers already knew the twist ending of the second movie when they wrote the first one. That the 42 motif that we see everywhere in the movie is a NOD TO Earth-42! When it's clearly not, omg, why would it be?

In the comics (and other places) Miles is bitten by Spider no. 42, and the latest comic run had 42 issues (a nod to this big number), Miles won the lottery with the number 42. It's a thing. Oh my god! I can't take this anymore, please just kill me.

Sure, they might have had some ideas of doing the fate vs. free will thing, so they put in the spider from a different universe - or, they just built upon the blocks that were already there. But this 42 thing... this was always an easter egg, a nod to the comics.

13. worst blorboficiation

Miles G. Morales. Yeah, he's not grief and guilt-driven like all the Peters usually, but that doesn't mean he's a cinnamon roll! I know, I shouldn't base my Miles knowledge on comics, but... but... When he just fucking straight up smashes the cure for his clones??? He can be impulsive and fucking angry, people.

So the thing is, I see a lot of debate around how cheap a move it was that they made an EVIL MILES (when come on, he's my favorite comic villain stfu), because clearly, Miles is ALL GOOD.

And while yeah, he's not course correcting (due to grief and shame) when he gets his powers like Pete, he's not a cookie-cutter good person. He is a force to be reckoned with, for sure, but for good or evil, it depends on his world. In the original 616 continuity, he's a straight-up villain, Wilson Fisk's best friend. So like????

So no, he isn't destined to be the Prowler, nor he is the purest fluffball people make him out to be. And I really hope, in the next movie we see, that even if Miles-42 would have gotten his power, he would not have been a good person, it's not the powers that make him. No great power, great responsibility here, sir.

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

"My favorite Spidey wouldn't side with Miguel, they would try to save Miles's dad" vs. "To be a superhero it means you always choose the greater good."

Everyone has such a fucking black-and-white opinion about this and tbh, yeah, I think a lot of Peters (especially 1048 Peter) would not side with Miguel. So this was a specific thing I didn't like about the movie, but if you dare to criticize it, then you are just dumb and you don't get what it means to make sacrifices.

But the point is: while the theme of this fucked up trolley problem would be interesting, it doesn't mean coldheartedly straight-up murdering people lol. I still don't think the movie handled this topic very well, but the discourse around is... just making me nope the fuck out of fandom.

[writingstoraes]

Running Low (Jeong Jaehyun)

pairing: jeong jaehyun / fem!reader

theme/s: angst (slight lol), fear of commitment, i think that's it

notes: not revised and not proofread so please expect grammatical and or typographical errors, please feel free to lmk what you think through commenting or messaging! i accept criticisms, please just word them well :))

summary: Just when Jaehyun thinks he couldn't be any more of a coward, he leaves you a letter as he abruptly leaves your shared apartment on the day of your birthday.

All his life, Jaehyun tried to be kind. Most days, he had the longest patience anyone could ever have. He was understanding, patient, humble - just like how his parents raised him to be. The perfect gentleman, the term his members often used to tease him.

But today, if anyone ever found out what he was about to do - he is going to be deemed as the biggest asshole ever in the world and all other universes that existed - if there are any.

Because who leaves their roommate without a proper goodbye and tries to make do with one damned letter that can't even contrive the fullness of what he felt? On their birthday, too?

It's not like he wanted to be an asshole. He didn't want to leave this way nor did he want to tie up loose ends with you like this. But he was afraid. Afraid he won't be able to face you and tell you what it is he wanted to say and thought you deserved to hear. Of course he wanted to talk to you, hell, he wanted to be with you every second of every waking day - though you living in the same space and being very good friends for the past year made it seem easy and convenient, it really was not. In fact, it only made things more complicated.

He won't admit to being a dick, but he'd openly accept he was a coward. Instead of trying to gather the strength and profess in words how he actually felt for you, here he was fumbling with a pen trying to write a letter of departure thinking it would suffice. And no, he knows it won't ever be enough and it's cruel of him to leave a piece of paper with hopes of everything being okay after you open and read what he had to say. But he cannot, for the love of life, think of any other way he can do it.

At least this way, he gets to let you know how he truly felt, what he truly thought of every time he looked at you, how his heart raced every time you were close, and even how you walk through the door and he just gets the urge to walk up to you and attach his lips onto yours.

At least this way, the weight in his chest lightens - even if he has to run away after he seals the envelope.

He doesn't really know if you felt the same. He didn't think much about it, as he was occupied with convincing himself it didn't matter if you reciprocated - because what he felt for you was heavy enough to accept the possibility that the two of you may not be headed to a road that lead to a happy ending.

However, there was something in the way your eyes meet - as cliche as it may sound, it's what he liked about you, that you turned the cliche into reality. That the tooth-rotting fluff and swelling of one's heart is actually possible and not just what directors do in movies to capture the audience. He was about ninety percent sure you felt it too, but the remaining ten dragged him down into a pit of fear.

Much to his luck, a day before your birthday, you weren't in the apartment. You spent the day with your parents since they insisted that they get you a day before your special day as you will be celebrating it with friends. It was just what Jaehyun needed: you, gone for a day so he can pack up and write the goddamn letter. He knows you'll be home in a few hours or so, all the more reason for him to pack up and quickly move.

Today was your special day. You were never the type to look forward to birthdays because what's so exciting about growing a year older and gaining more responsibilities? But this year, this year was different. And in some weird, twisted way, you were excited to celebrate.

You didn't spring for the typical party-at-home celebration since you wanted to do something different, so you decided to book an appointment at one of the fanciest restaurants and celebrate another year of your life there. It was going to be a night of luxury food, the best champagne, you and all the people you love and adore dressed formally as if it was a gala afterparty.

Ecstatic as you were, the keys in your hand jingle as you insert it into the keyhole. You previously noticed it was locked, assuming Jaehyun wasn't home so you didn't pay it any mind. You enter the apartment and felt like something was different and you didn't like it, but you convinced yourself maybe you were just too excited for tonight.

And as destiny planned, all your enthusiasm vanishes when you sit at the restaurant with a heavy heart and eyes that wander trying to see if a certain someone walks through the door. All your friends will be asking how you were and are all over you to wish you a happy birthday, but heaven above knew your mind was somewhere else. That there was one person you wished to see that night but he was nowhere to be found.

You walked inside only to see three things on the counter: a white envelope with your name written in a very familiar handwriting, a key, and one rectangular box with red ribbon on it and a card that said "happy birthday".

You will convince yourself that it's all okay, that potentially losing him was not as bad as it seemed. You will talk yourself into deciding you haven't felt anything toward him and a roommate was all you lost. Denial was your best trait, after all.

But maybe, this piece of paper was all you needed to come into one whopping realization.

Dear Y/N,

From the moment I met you, staying away from you was the last thing I ever thought I was going to do. The moment I basked in your presence, I was so sure my life would never be the same if it didn't have you in it. Walking away from you is the hardest thing I have ever done, writing this letter as goodbye is the second.

A year ago, you were just Jungwoo's friend that needed a place to stay. A year ago, I was satisfied and content in the solace I found alone in this very apartment - but then you came and turned my whole world around. My only intent was to help a friend, never did I expect you would be part of my daily routine.

You are the last person I ever thought I'd feel this way for. But I'm not complaining. It's not a bad thing that I fell. If anything, this may be the best thing that ever happened to me. Because... you were like an exam I didn't study for yet I still got an A. Having you in my life felt like unexpectedly catching a beautiful sunset on the way home and you walk in continuous awe. You're the tiny surprises and unprecedented whims life had to offer - like finding a dollar in the pocket of your jeans before you do your laundry or putting your playlist on shuffle and an old song you used to repeatedly listen to starts playing again.

I'm sorry that it has come to this. I'm sorry that I left without personally saying goodbye and that's only because I can't muster up the courage to do it. I know I won't be able to look you in the eyes and tell you that you shifted my entire existence: body, soul, and mind, that it's eating me alive and knowing I won't be able to hold you in my arms is shaking me to my very core.

Realizing how deeply I felt for you scared me. There are no other terms to use to best describe it. It frightened me. My feelings for you instilled fear in me and I have no idea what to do. I've tried to lock it in a box and stash it away in my head but it's dying to get out every time I'm with you. There have been many times where I told myself to just take a deep breath and tell you the words I've been wanting to. There were so many instances that I fought the urge to come up to you and tell you I wanted to be with you.

I was scared. I still am.

I was scared because for once, I cared about someone else more than I cared about myself. I find myself longing for your presence when you're not around and my heart is filled with glee when you laugh at the smallest things. When I'm out, I see something even slightly remotely related to you, my first thought is "She would like this." and that alone, terrified me. Someone mentions your name and my head turns in an instant.

I was afraid because for once, I was willing to put you before me, before anyone else.

I'm scared of what comes after. I'm scared of not being the guy you deserve and not treating you properly. I have no idea how to maneuver these feelings which is why I have never told you anything. The fact that you and I could be together yet I have so many doubts and worries scares me.

I want to work on myself and figure out the wholeness of what I feel before doing anything rash because you do not deserve that.

There are many things about you that I love. You make me feel so much that I get the desire to write a hundred songs. Talking with people for hours was never my strongest forte, yet I never run out of things to say when it came to you. And even in the opposite of that - we have silences so comfortable all aspects of me are calm. You are the definition of comfort, of my solace.

I wish my mind was not as fogged as it is right now. Maybe then, running away from the extent of what I feel about you wouldn't be the solution I had in mind.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not telling you all of this in person. I'm sorry for not giving you a chance to tell me your response to the words I have written. I'm sorry that I let fear get the best of me.

Most of all I apologize for being a coward.

But don't you worry, I know you like keeping things clean and organized. I cleaned up before I packed my things and rearranged some displays so the place doesn't look too empty. I left my key, too.

Before I forget, happy birthday.

Hope you like the gift.

Please take care.

Yours,

Jaehyun.

notes: i'm really curious on how the readers will perceive the storyline of the fic and jaehyun himself! do you understand where he is coming from or was this really a dick move? please let me know by replying or messaging! it would mean a lot ><

thank you so much for reading up to here and please take care of yourselves! if anyone wants to chat, i am one message away :)

[divinefireangel]

Being in Quarantine with Justin H Min will include:

Disclaimer: This is just a work of fiction. If this piece of fan fiction is offensive to any celebrity, fandom or culture please let me know so I can take it down. Also note that this is my version of a character or celeb, which will vary from person to person.

Author's Note: I'm back with my 2nd Justin HC 🥳. I know a few of you wanted me to write more so here you go! I hope you like it!!

Copyright: Please note that this is my work and if you want to publish this on any other platform, take my permission before doing so. Taking an author's work and posting it somewhere else without any intimation is just disrespectful. I readily welcome suggestions and criticisms. That being said, Happy reading! 🤍

Warnings: A little bit sensual, but I've mentioned it as "NSFW" where it starts. Nothing explicit either way. 15+ and female readers TwT sorry (nothing specified with respect to appearance, etc of reader). It's mostly the NSFW part tho.

Fuck this man got more hot okay

I didn't even think it was possible lol

Yeah so you both go to Toronto for his work because you don't wanna be separated from each other 🥺

Literally all you do is sleep and eat and read

You cook new things everyday

You have to make the best of the time you have anyway

It's mostly him cooking cuz god knows if this man can cook or not lmao

Daily routine may include but not necessarily limited to :

Waking up late

He wakes up early to workout

Sometimes you pretend to sleep just to see him workout ;)

Then you both shower together

And read while cuddling on the couch

When the sunlight shows up you both move to the sofa and continue reading

Running your hands through his hair which is now a lil longer than the buzz cut tg

Giving each other massages

Mainly you giving him massages

Napping together

Tracing his biceps

Cuz he has never had them and you just wanna appreciate the effort he put in to make them bigger

Making his protein shake much more consumable than what ever the hell he does

You try and bake stuff for the cast and crew to take once the quarantine is over

How well it turns out is all you and your baking skills sis

You try to make boba

Doesn't come out great cuz it's difficult to make

You try and distract him from his zoom table reads lol

And you fail 💀

Cuz he ignores you :(

But as soon as he closes his laptop he runs to you and kisses your face all over till you start to giggle cuz this man's is a simp for you

See. You are young people with needs

NSFW

He has more needs 😉

So he tries to get his freak on as many times as he can

Before going to bed

On the sofa

The couch

The kitchen table

The shower

The fucking floor (pun intended)

Whenever he gets bored from reading or wants to take a break,

Make out sessions

sO MANY of em

Even if all you want is a kiss, he's like no, no you don't

And BAM

Y'all make out till you can't breathe anymore

Biting his lip

Biting his ear

Chewing on his gold chain

Pulling his gold chain

Are a few highlights 🤤

And just imagine him running his hands up and down you

Like your waist and hips and butt and back and boobs and stuff uk

That freaky shit XD

He just can't get enough of you

Watching movies before falling asleep

Well trying to

Because he can't keep his hands to himself

Lingering touches that seem innocent but are not

I feel like his fave cuddle positions are when either you or him are laying in the other's lap

Or when your back is pressed to his chest

That's mainly when he gets handsy

Runs his fingertips through your hair and shoulders and down your hand till he reaches you palm

Pulls it back and kisses the back of it and intertwines his fingers with yours brb crying

Kisses and licks your neck when you are sitting like that

You can literally feel those fangs scarping your skin

It's just plain hot

NSFW over

Tries to put his face in the crook of your neck often

You whine cuz his non existent beard is prickly

But he does it anyway cuz it's cute and he knows it

Taking tons and tons and TONS of selfies

Sending them to his fam

Them being oh so adorable and loving your relationship

You kiss his jaw a lot

Cuz it's sharper now and that's also probably the height you can reach anyway (Calling all short ones out here ✌🏽)

Having deep talks too if you have time left after all of this lol

And everyday falling in love all over and over

If you've been dating for a while, he probably decides to propose as soon as he finds a ring worthy of you 🥺

Since he wakes up before you, he will definitely stare at you while you sleep

Baby boy might even tear up thinking that he can never love anyone as much as you 😭

And you feel the same way

Screen shot credit:- Me

Honestly all this is that goddamn insta story's fault.

Look at him 🥵

Update: He can't cook even if his life depended on it 😂😭 It's okay babe I can cook for you XD.

Gifs/any media belongs to rightful owners.

[chickawah23]

Hi, I'm the Anon that talked about Billy Lynn, I got the information about the film taking a massive dip in viewers in China within 48 hours specifically due to JA's portrayal being uncompelling and unrelateble from Wikipedia, the source for that information is cited as being a 11/14/16 article from China Film Insider by Jonathan Papish.

I'm not trying to bash the beard, he was genuinely a big reason for why the film did so poorly after 48 hours according to the Chinese movie goers who went to see it and recommended others not to do to his poor performance, China Film Insider directly takes news about film industry happenings in China and translates it for a Western audience, the source of the information that the China Film Insider used for their article was literally from Chinese entertainment news.

It'd be disingenuous and possibly rascist to pretend that the recorded complaints about JA's poor, unrelable portrayal of his character making Billy Lynn unwatchable to Chinese movie goers back in November 2016 didn't exist just to protect the non-existent reputation of a rich white man who owes his entire career to nepotism from Taylor after the objective commercial and critical failure that was Billy Lynn.

Film critics and entertainment media the world over have found nearly all of that man's performances to be very poor since 2016, with the exception of The Favorite, which was generally considered to be acceptable within the US and internationally. There is no reason to censor this publicly available information with citated sources on Tumblr just because some people don't appreciate the objective opinion that thousands, if not tens of thousands, of people outside of Taylor's fandom have of JA being a terrible enough actor that they've made their opinions know to the their national entertainment news outlets throughout the entire planet 😒

😪 This is the cite you referenced. Link and highlighted screen grab:

I read this review that you referenced and it says “moviegoers couldn’t relate to the central character.”That to me sounds like a critique on the universality of the story or poor storytelling. The article also discussed the poorly translated title being misleading for moviegoers in China.

That being said I did take the time to look at more reviews of the movie and the consensus for JA is that he was bland and blends into the background in the film. So it is what it is. The movie was poor all around besides Kristin Stewart who seemed to be the only one who got good reviews.

As a final note, Please don’t use the term “racist” that flippantly in my inbox, anon. No one cares enough about this dude to “protect” him. I roll my eyes at the nepotism and his inability to stand on his own two feet outside of his “lady’s” shadow any time I see things about him on here. And to be very honest I don’t care enough about him to expend anymore energy looking any further than I already have into his film history. So I’m over this discussion.

He was a no name actor in a messily made film by an Oscar winning director. That was the point of my Dress post that I made because I like making jokes about this silliness of this stuff on my blog.

Please unfollow or block me if you don’t like what I say. I don’t have the energy for the vitriol tonight. I really don’t.

[riceball1759]

Why I watched 'Demon Slayer' & you should, too.

Hyper [Otaku] Librarian at your service! Hubby and I just finished binging this years tour de force of amine: 'Demon Slayer'! But we didn't just stop at the end of the anime. No, we signed up for that 2 week Funimation free trial so that we could watch the movie! Let me tell you how this has affected my life: I was fine with commercials until the fact that there are TWENTY-SIX (26!) episodes just drove us to signing up for ad-free with Crunchyroll. This will grab you by the emoticons and not let you go until this will end.

For the record: It has been a long time since I've seen an anime from the past decade-and-a-half with any more than 14 episodes. It's just not done anymore for various reasons. HOWEVER, Demon Slayer has been granted this honor. Let me tell you why (and then you'll want to join us). This will be long, but worth it!

The Story: This is set in the Taisho Era (c. 1912-26). "Since ancient times, rumors have abounded of man-eating demons lurking in the woods. Because of this, the local townsfolk never venture outside at night. Legend has it that a demon slayer also roams the night, hunting down these bloodthirsty demons. (manga description)" Enter Tanjiro: the eldest of 6 and provider of his family, making and selling charcoal to the small town closest to them -it's a simple life, but a happy one. One night, his neighbor makes him stay over because he was too late coming home his family is slaughtered by a demon -leaving only his eldest sister Nezuko barely alive... Only to discover that she's been turned! But, she's unique in that she won't kill humans -she'll do anything to protect her brother. Now, Tanjiro is determined to cure his sister and stop demons once and for all -ON TO BECOMING A DEMON SLAYER!

The Hype: Does it live up to it? Yes, it does. Kyoharu Gotouge (the mangaka) credits 'Bleach', 'Naruto', 'Jojo's Bizare Adventures', and 'Gin Tama' as major influences in his work. Can you see it? I sure can! All of these are major hits and have specific elements that are essential to their popularity: samurai-like swordsmanship and code of honor, a main character that never gives up on becoming stronger for the sake of protecting others (and is highly empathetic to all incl enemies), "leveling up" always shows how much stronger new opponents are, a strange sense of humor that doesn't always hit the right notes, demons=vampires=evil, and (my last listing) the reference to scent strikes me very similar to reiryoku/spiritual power in 'Bleach'. With all of these similarities, how does 'Demon Slayer' set itself apart and secure this level of popularity? While all of these elements are ever-present in a shounen battle manga, the setting and plot are unique enough to keep engagement for long-time fans of the genre (also, kids just want the fight scenes). The major set-apart is the emphasis on familial bonds -especially siblings of the opposite sex. I've never seen a main character so devoted to family in a battle manga (it grieves him to leave her side). That alone brings in more than the usual audience numbers.

Criticism: No creative work is perfect and this one is no exception. There are plot holes (some glaring), but this is what you get with a "freshman" series. Yes, 'Demon Slayer' is Gotouge's debut series! While his one-shots have been published, this is the first serialization. For us veteran otakus, it does show. So yeah, plot holes are my biggest issue. Regardless, with a hit like this, we can only guess what this person will come up with next.

Wrap-up: Being an AnimeNewsNetork.com user, I don't use star ratings. There are 11 ratings: from "Worst Ever" to "Masterpiece". I've rated this as "Very Good, don't miss it" and you have found out why lol. Seriously, you can't go wrong with this series (unless you just can't stand battle manga, then please don't watch) and you'll thank me later!

*Where to watch: Crunchyroll (subs), Netflix (only dubs?) and Hulu (subs/dubs) have the series. Funimation is the only one with the movie (subs/dubs), series, and extras. It also aired on Toonami, but idk if it's still on the schedule.

Note: Funimation and Crunchyroll are free for 2 weeks with a new sign-up (do it online because Roku only will set you up with the more expensive option -unless you want the offline option). Netflix doesn't give you a break, so if you aren't already subscribed, don't bother. Hulu can be bundled with Disney+, but also offers a student discount for those who can provide proof (you still get ads, but they're not that annoying).

**Read the Manga! The series ended at 23 volumes as of Aug 3rd! So, go buy at your fave retailer (mine is RightStuf) or borrow from a friend (be nice) or your local library (they might even have digital copies). Enjoy^_^

Thanks for reading!

[hehesarcasm-writing]

Todoroki fic for @trashdolphin/@simpgameplays

I love you! 💖

Prompt- movie night

Warnings- none 😁 have fun

Other details- this is a "collab" with @stephiecarie

(Here is Bakugou's Pov written by her) and the mc's skin tone is suited to simp's, please don't be offended by it 😗

➩Lets Start➩

A tired hand wrapped around your waist as you tried to get some popcorn. It was a signal for you to stop, as you were just barely too short for the cabinet. As a sweet and gentle kiss was placed on your forehead, Todoroki got a bag down.

He wouldn't usually let junk food slip by, but it was movie night! Who was he to say no to your cravings?! he can't, HE WON'T It was already late in the night, as you both stayed up together; only now getting ready for the movie.

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You both had stayed after school to study, causing the two of you getting home later than usual. Your boyfriend of one month, suggested to stay a little longer; but it was your guy's movie night!

The annual movie nights started way before the two of you had begun dating. Getting used to the routine you both had made, it just stuck.

Going your separate ways to change into some comfy clothes, shouto wearing sweats and a t-shirt, you wearing and tank top and shorts. You couldn't wear a long sleeve as you liked to sit on his left side; continuously making you warmer with the occasional cool down from his left.

Before settling in to pick out a movie, you decided it was time to do your skin care routine. Having not done it in a while and all the studying being done, you thought it was needed to help relax you both.

Of course he joined you in the bathroom, helping you gather up the lotions and soaps. Saying you both had clear skin was an understatement. Neither of you used unnecessary products, such as drying masks; having the nice soft, and non-oily skin preferred by many.

Going through the long over due face routine, your boyfriend decided to play nice music in the background. He was quite interested in music actually, helping him find a new song he might like every now and then; it always did bring a smile to his face when he listened to a song you found for him.

Now making your way to the kitchen, neither of you choosing to eat as to make room for comfort and junk food. You begin to stretch your tired limbs to get some popcorn.

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The now cooled bag being poured into a bowl, hearing the pops and smelling the salty butter made your stomach growl. Shouto saw this anxious expression and knew he had to feed you something. Not having any other food, and plainly not wanting to make/waste any, he simple picked you up and placed you on top of the counter.

"sigh, hey baby?" Feeling tired and bored, you just wanted to watch the movie. "What is it, y/n?" Even knowing what you were gonna say, he had to ask just in case. Humming from his sweet tone "Are we ready yet? I wanna-" "I know, almost. Come here, please?" He said, cutting you off.

Following your boyfriend's plead, you joined his side. Picking you up and holding you was easy, his toned muscles cradled you nicely, pressing you flush against him. He began peppering your face with kisses, going down to your collarbone, almost pushing past your shirt. You panicked as you realized he was getting ahead of himself, forgetting how long you've been dating.

"Ahh, Sho... As much as I like this affection, d-don't you think w-we should..." Your face going red as he looked at you, wide eyed. With a waterfall of realization flowing through him, he noticed what he was doing. "I- I'm so sorry, y/n... I didn't realize, and I hope you're not uncomfortable"

He looked down solemnly, still being in his arms, legs wrapped around his waist, you kissed his forehead.

'I just wanted you to feel better.' he thought to himself, feeling embarrassed as you kissed him sincerely.

Red still making its way up your face, you continued as he looked up at you. Slowly but surely, forgetting about the movie; as your lips collided with his, almost unable to breathe between kisses.

He began to crave your touch even more, bringing you both to a wall. Pressing your back against it to bring you closer to him as he began to suck on the sensitive spot on your neck. The room getting increasingly hotter by the second. Tugging on his hair to maybe pull him away, as you were both still new to the relationship, only seemed to make him grow more aroused.

"Sh-shouto~ stop... W-we can't-" getting cut off by his kissed melted you. He never slowed down, making his way to the door, continuously swirling his tongue with yours. You tapped his shoulder as he brung you up the stairs.

"hm~" never unlocking his lips from yours, as he responded breathlessly. "We- we ca- ah" Easily getting more and more entranced in his touch; not wanting to give in until-

'He stopped?' He brung you to the top of the roof, your guy's movie spot. Todoroki plopped you down on a few layers of comfortable blankets with a sly smile looking like home on his face.

"What, you looked like you were hungry? I simply gave you a taste" that sly asswhole "Shouto! I just wanted to watch the movie and then you pull tha-"

Your pouting and whining was cut off by another one of his melt worthy kisses; sliding his tongue on your bottom lip as a tease. You pretended not to notice but your face betrayed you, as many shades of red reappeared.

Your boyfriend left you to pick a movie while he got the forgotten snacks. Picking the movie, he came back just in time. It was colder than most nights spent up there, so you begun to regret your clothing decisions. That is until Todoroki brought your favorite hoodie and pulled it over you; surprising you of course.

"Thanks, Sho" you said as your pale skin glowed against the moon light, the movie beginning to play. Your boyfriend sat down on your right side, as always and grabbed your hand. Something of which was new. Looking over to see his flushed face, he looked at your hand as they intertwined with his.

Cuddling up to his arm, you both stayed there till early morning since there was no school the next day. Shouto rubbing your knuckles, only really fixated on your hand, he began to trace your palm. He's never held your hand before, so he was taking it all in; as if he wouldn't get another chance.

Pushing small little kisses on each finger tip, counting each one, comparing his hand to yours and how his dominated it. It was like a child playing with your hand, but it was more than okay.

"Hey, y/n?" You hummed as a response, still paying attention to the movie. "I think- uh no, I know I love you~"

Your heart stopped, as neither of you have said these words to each other. Feeling warmth in your chest and butterflies in your stomach. You had taught Todoroki on how to not second guess himself, like he used to. So you know this was true, and with a gentle and genuine smile-

"I love you, too~"

➩End➩

I hope you enjoyed reading! If anyone has constructive criticism, I'll be glad to listen and take note.

Again, this was a request from @simpgameplays and I hope you liked this most of all! 💜💖

[scripttorture]

Hi, lovely to send an ask to your blog. I have a character who's been kidnapped and kept in a cell for an unspecified amount of time. The cell is the size of a spacious room, with a mattress, sink, and toilet, the victim has access to move about as he pleases. The abductor kept my victim well fed, didn't physically harm him unless he had to (ie. Victim tries to escape, attack, bite back with words), he wanted him in good shape. (A)

(B)Whenever my victim acted up, other than sometimes having tophysically restrain him (roughs him up in a corner and leaves), hepunishes him by turning the electricity off, leaving the victim inpitch darkness and icy weather, and with no sound source but his ownbreath. Regularly, the abductor comes at least once everyday (or asoften as five days a week), sits with the victim for a few hours, andeither talks about his life, tries (and fails, at the time) to softenvictim's heart...(E),...left him food and left. Either until he got bored, or when victimcracked and broke down begging for any stimulation and company. Themental breakdowns increased in intensity when the victim lost accessto the TV, he'd unconsciously hurt himself, cry and scream until hepassed out, refuse to eat or move from his spot in fear of themonsters lurking in the pitch blackness in the room, and will justsit stuck listening to his violent hallucinations until the abductorput mercy on him.(F)At the end of the abduction time, Victim starts to show new symptoms,he rather becomes"animalistic" in someway, he loses(forgets temporarily) the ability to put words together, so hesnarls, whimpers, acts physically his needs, becomes very aggressiveand uncooperative, lost a drastic amount of weight, refusing food,tried on multiple occasions to hurt himself for the sake of feelinganything but the emptiness of his cell, and in a psychotic outburst,destroys the TV, and...(G)(oh man I forgot where I left off... please bear with me if I mistookthe paging) He spent the next few days mourning the TV, missing thecharacters he used to obsessed over as much as the family he slowlystarted to lose memories of. It was a pitiful sight. Since thebeginning of the abduction period, the abductor has been feedingVictim lies, from the reason he kidnapped him (preserve his amazingabilities, keep him safe from others who were after his skills, noone appreciated his...(H)His skills as much as he did, and it was obvious b***) but the damagecame when he gradually convinced him his family didn't care, that'swhy he was trapped for so long. And victim was convinced his familyloved him above all else, but as time passed and hallucinationsbegan, he lost that conviction, not at all helped by abductor'sconstant false reassurance. Abductor also lied about the time frame,coming down with cake to celebrate their one year anniversary whenit's been a few months.  (I) Little did victim know, his family werekilled the night of his kidnapping. Finally, at the last day, or afew days after he lost the TV, abductor has moved the broken pieces,only to miss one screen glass shard that victim hid under hismattress. And it happened as victim tried to stab his abductor, inself defense, the abductor threw the victim off, and his head hit thesink. Cue panic stricken abductor, not thinking straight with theamount of blood, and wrapping the victim up...(J)... wrapping him up and throwing him in an alley across the citybefore fleeing the country. Now my biggest dilemma lies in twothings! One: I need him to have amnesia for plot related reasons,very important, but I'm afraid that will make all of what he wentthrough redundant, so the list of after effects I made him have is..Severe anxiety, depression, anger management issues, avoidance ofdark places (full blown panic attacks if forced into an sort of darkroom)… K) Vague, abstract night terrors, extreme loneliness even inthe company of friends, and fear of neglect. He has a few namelesstriggers, any show on TV like the shows he used to watch, not feelingclean, showering more than once a day as he lost that privilegehaving to use the sink to clean up, horror movies for all thereasons. Two: how does the state (any) and hospital actually dealwith this situation, I realize this is out of your expertisepossibly, but I'd appreciate a nudge… (M) A new cycle of abusebegins between him and his boss, manager and unit mates, but I'llleave that for another ask ^^; This got so long, I'm sorry, but I'dlike your criticism and input on my story so far, it actually takesup two other victims of abuse and my MCs road to recovery. I'm veryadamant on making this right. Thank you!!

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This is a follow up to a previous ask. Honestly- I’m still finding the question a little confusing. I’ll answer to the best of my ability but I may well have misinterpreted it.

 That said- I think you need to do a lot of reading and completely rewrite your story if you really do want to make this realistic and respectful. At the moment I think it’s a very long way off.

 I think I said that last time so this time I’m going to be blunt. I do not think you are ready to write torture.

 Firstly, specify the amount of time this character is held. Decide. Don’t keep things vague in the hope that it’ll seem more realistic.

 You don’t have to tell your readers the detail of how long your character is held or every detail of what happens to him but if you don’t know then you can’t work to show the effects realistically.

 I can’t decide what your plot should be for you. And if you’re unwilling to define what you’re putting your character through and for how long I can’t give a reasonable estimate of how likely he is to survive.

 Memory loss in torture scenarios does not work in the way you’re describing. That kind of ‘amnesia’ and losing old, established memories of family members does not happen. Not without significant, disabling brain injury that effects other things like being able to move and breath.

 If you want to know what memory loss in torture survivors is like I have a post here that covers it.

 Torture survivors do not regress into some sort of savage ‘animalistic’ state. They do not forget how to speak.

 Frankly I think these kinds of unrealistic tropes are incredibly insulting to survivors.

 It’s saying that torture has ‘made’ the survivor dangerous and unreasonable. Those are exactly the kinds of arguments people use to stop survivors getting treatment in real life. Don’t add to that.

 Hallucinations in solitary are not common.

 They become more likely if a person is held for a long time (over a month), but since you are not giving me a time frame I can’t say whether this is likely or not.

 If the character is held long enough that hallucinations and a psychotic break become likely then- given the conditions you’ve described, the character is likely to die from cold, starvation or disease before the captor dumps them outside.

 People can die from the cold very very quickly. If the character is repeatedly subjected to freezing temperatures for a long time then they are probably going to die of hypothermia.

 Additionally the phrasing throughout this sounds as though it’s taking the abuser’s ‘side’ over the victim’s.

 No one ever ‘has’ to abuse anyone else. It is never necessary.

 On a related note- I think you’re severely underestimating the damage caused by beating. It is very easy to beat a person to death. The way I’m interpreting the question it sounds like the abuser beats the victim when he tries to escape. It sounds like the abuser beats the victim until he stops moving every time this happens.

 There isn’t much difference between beating someone unconscious and beating them to death. If the character is regularly being hit until he passes out then he probably wouldn’t live for more then two weeks.

 Which is not long enough for the extreme effects of solitary confinement you’re describing.

 I think this scenario is a very strange mix of treating people as too resilient and too fragile. The physical abuses you’re describing seem really like to kill the character. At the same time the mental health issues you’re describing are completely unrealistic and-

 Well honestly? As a mentally ill person I think this depiction of mental illness is insulting. It is degrading. It shows no understanding of mental illness and no compassion for people who are mentally ill.

 I struggle to speak sometimes because of my mental illness. It does not make me an animal. It does not mean I can not think. And it certainly doesn’t mean I can’t describe what I was going through when that moment has passed.

 The list of ‘severe’ symptoms you’ve given isn’t what you’re actually describing the character having. Your description does not sound like mood swings, anxiety and depression with a few triggers.

 If you were writing these symptoms accurately I would tell you that your list is not enough. If I was just relying on that list I would suggest more symptoms and writing them to a greater severity.

 But I can’t just rely on the list. Because your description of the character’s mental state and what he goes through contradicts your list. Which suggests to me that you either haven’t decided what symptoms the character should have or you don’t understand what mental health problems are like.

 I do not think you are ready to write mental illness.

 I could go into more detail. But I don’t think it’s going to benefit either of us if I go through this and tell you why every single detail here is wrong.

 My job here is not to write your story for you. And it isn’t to make moral decisions for you either.

 If you are serious about writing torture or abuse respectfully then for now you need to stop writing. Instead I need you to do some reading. Because if you want to do this ‘right’ then you need to gain an understanding of what torture is, what it does to people and how they cope with it afterwards.

 So I’m going to give you a reading list. I think you should read each of these books carefully.

 Why Torture Doesn’t Work by S O’Mara

The Question by H Alleg (if English isn’t your first languages this is available in other languages, pick the one you’re most comfortable with)

A Darkling Plain by K R Monroe

A Sourcebook on Solitary Confinement by S Shalev

To the Kwai and Back by R Searle

 I think you should also read Black Jacobins by C L R James.

 Take your time. Make notes.

 When you’ve done that I think you should go to Amnesty International’s website and look at their recent interviews with torture survivors. Pick two or three large studies. Read detailed accounts from at least fifteen different people.

 Then I think you should come back to the story and completely rewrite it based on what you’ve learnt.

 I am not saying that you should never write torture. But it’s obvious from the plot and characters you’ve proposed that you don’t know enough to write it well yet. Take the time to gain that understanding before you write. You will write a better story for it.

 If you don’t want to do the research don’t write about torture.

 It’s a difficult topic to engage with. If you try and fail then that isn’t your fault. Reading about torture is upsetting. Not every one can deal with it in depth. That isn’t anyone’s fault or failing.

 But if you can’t cope with reading about the reality, if you can’t educate yourself, then you can’t speak on behalf of torture survivors.

 If you can’t listen to them then you simply don’t know enough to tell their stories.

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Mighty Thor in Thor: Love and Thunder rant

Seeing Natalie Portman returning to reprise her role as Jane Foster, nevertheless wielding Mjolnir, finally getting the treatment this character deserves, was surreal to say the least. I had just started reading Lords of Midgard, the 8th issue of Mighty Thor (2015 - 2018), and had fallen in love already. But I didn't suspect at all that Taika Waititi would pull this card in Thor: Love and Thunder, considering Jane was barely mentioned in Ragnarok. The news about my favorite actress portraying one of my favorite characters coming out of the blue - you can imagine the excitement. Alas, I quickly remembered what the fandom thought of that comic (at least on tumblr) and imagined it now growing tenfold, cuz not everyone in the MCU fandom reads comics but pretty much everyone wants to watch another Thor movie. And yes, many fans weren't ready for this step, still recovering from Sam Wilson getting the shield in Endgame. Which is completely fine. We're not obligated to like everything Marvel throws in our faces, we're allowed to criticize and express our opinion on the internet or wherever. What is not okay is mindlessly hating, and even worse - using false facts to support said opinion.

I have seen some people using the argument that it is one of Marvel's worst selling comics. Which has already been proven wrong by multiple sites, including Comichron, just Google it, as I did myself. I read multiple posts, ones saying how good Jane is doing as Thor in sales, others disproving this, so I checked for myself the numbers at the site mentioned above month by month to be sure. The comic truly had its downfalls as the story progressed but in my opinion it's normal for the 1st issue to have more sales than the 21st. If we compare it to Unworthy Thor, which started running a bit later and followed the now unworthy Odinson, the data shows the latter had more sales. But then again, while Might Thor was at its 17th issue, Unworthy Thor was at its 2nd. Also, they later crossed paths, shared comic issues, it's fair to say they go hand in hand and Jason Aaron, the author, probably doesn't want us to compare them, as they complete and compliment each other's stories. Still I decided to check the comic that made Thor unworthy in the first place - Thor: God of Thunder (2012 - 2014), which seemed to me more "comparable" to Might Thor (2015 - 2018). *I keep putting the years it was being released so as to not be confused with previous Mighty Thor issues, whole Odinson was still Thor, please bear with me* So yes, the numbers were pretty close, but from what I saw, Mighty Thor had the upper hand if we compare first issue to first issue and so on. (In defense of Odinson, we have to take into account that this data is only from the US and does not include digital sales. Also, he's been around since the 50s. We could argue Jane was a breath of fresh air that some Marvel fans were indeed ready for. As a non-American, and also a person without a hint of knowledge in economics I cannot take into account inflation and whatever else has prevented or enabled Americans to get their hands on the comics or has affected prizes through the years. Bear that in mind.) Moreover, from what I saw on Comichron, both comics had much competition - God of thunder was released along with Avengers vs the X-men, the Uncanny X-men, pretty popular at the time, and the Goddess of Thunder faced Civil War 2 and DC Universe Rebirth (yes, DC is in the game too), also dominating with tremendous sales for the longest time. Yet I stick with my original statement - both Thors are valid and shouldn't be put against one another regardless of profit. Because at the end of the day what will matter the most is the story. And boy, what a story it is.

Now, I haven't read the Thor: God of Thunder, but as I was doing research I found one very well written summary and explanation of Thor's arc and his becoming unworthy and I will post a link below, because I honestly feel I wouldn't be doing this comic a favor by describing it without having read it. Which I plan to do in the future, tbh. It's a fantastic prelude to the Mighty Thor (2015 - 2018) that I've come to love. First, I'd like to ask you all to stop hating on the comic without having read it first. It doesn't make any sense and being petty for the sake of being petty won't benefit neither you, nor anyone, really. Now, about the comic itself - the art is magnificent. It's just gorgeous. Mighty Thor isn't , thank all the gods, sexualized, she is pretty buffed and generally looks like a warrior. As it is with the other characters, I dare say. The background truly captures the essence of every world Jane finds herself on. Action scenes are just the right amount and balanced with dialogue well. On a side note, it's pretty funny to read/listen to in your head the Shakespearean English cursive in which Jane talks as Thor. The plot line branches beyond this comic, starting from Thor: God of Thunder and leading to the War of Realms. And it is elaborately built in every issue. You don't know what to expect, yet it makes sense when it happens. Which leads me to the characterizations. My God, what a treat Loki is in this. Clearly, my opinion is kinda biased, since he's my favorite character, but you never know which side he's on. What his motivations are. And it just feels so... Loki. His writing is brilliant. Almost makes me forget what the MCU did to him. Also, he gets some daddy time with Laufey (not as kinky as I make it sound). Frigga/Freyja is just as awesome as in the MCU, even more, at least in the comics she calls Odin out on his shit, who btw is I guess an asshole in every version and universe. Malekith, the main villain, is unbearably despicable, I want to tear every page he is on. He really was mishandled in the Dark World, if you want some true action with the dark elves, you are welcome to enjoy. I saved the best for the end - Jane Foster/ Might Thor. Now, if you think Dr. Foster spends her time boasting about her worthiness and how Odinson is just called Thor, but she is Mighty Thor, you are horribly wrong. She just... does her job. Because the hammer chose her. Because there's no one else to do so. That's it. If you think there's some feminism involved, yes, there sure is, but it certainly isn't the reason Jane became Thor in the first place. It was not the creators going SJW because it's trendy, as such a mindset is honestly offensive to any descent creator with any self respect, but a well thought out story arc, which, I repeat, you have to read the comic to understand. Jane is not at all whiny about the hate she gets in-universe, not only from foes like Odin and who-not, but from Shield and generally people whose asses she's saving. Her having cancer is not something they pulled to provoke sympathy and make her look like a victim - on the contrary, she is a damn hero and a victor. I don't want to give out spoilers, but her being Thor is actually a giant sacrifice that no one really appreciates (both in-universe and in the fandom). She is not Thor to prove she can be, or just to prove "women can be heroes" - she doesn't have to. She is simply needed by the realms and so she does her job, even though she is called a thief, persecuted and generally hated. All that matters is that the hammer finds her worthy - the beauty and simplicity of that fact you will find out, for the last time, if you read the comic.

I'm not making you read the comic or watch Thor: Love and Thunder. I myself don't know what to make of this film yet because there's barely any information about it. I only know it will be based on the comic so that's a reason for my hopes to be up already. On the other hand, since I didn't like Loki's characterization in Ragnarok, I'm not sure what to expect from Taika. There are valid reasons to not like the idea of Jane returning to the MCU as Thor, which you are entitled to. However, reasons such as "why does everything have to be political these days" are not. Because if I had to make a list of everything politically related in the MCU, it would take forever. Steve Rogers kills nazis is the most blatant example. Make of it what you want. But I think we're far enough into the 21st century to realize art and real life are not that separable. It's undeniable that art affects people and that is to say, people everywhere. And they all have different opinions and aren't gonna like everything media is offering to them. And I wish I could simply tell you not to watch the movie but I'm a Marvel fan too and I understand that I can't just take away Thor from you because I want Mighty Thor as well. But none of us can stop Marvel from producing it. So, to quote an image I saw recently, I don't know how to explain to you that you should care about other people. Let the rest of the fandom enjoy what they want to enjoy. Yes, ik I can play around with the tags and avoid posts that unnerve me but, for example, I'm looking up Mighty Thor fanart, which obviously isn't anti-Mighty Thor, yet I get attacked in the comics for anticipating a movie that doesn't even have a full cast yet. Ik I'm not asking for too much when I wish to get the same internet experience (not only tumblr, but also insta, YouTube, Twitter, any site) as the Thor Odison fans, for example. I'm aware I cannot stop all the toxic fans and the trolls but I hope this post has inspired those of you who simply can't envision Jane as Thor, or don't like Natalie Portman in the role, or whatever eles personal preference that doesn't involve political issues and isn't harmful to the community, not to attack every post on your dash with hate. The movie is called LOVE and Thunder, for God's sake. (on a side note, is a franchise that is too afraid to show LGBT characters for more than 1 minute so as to not lose profit from China, THAT politically correct)

Anyway, that was a veeeery long rant, sorry to whoever reads this but, like, please, I put effort into this, hoping this time around I won't be the only positive reviewer of a movie, like I was with Solo: a Star Wars story (yes, I'm still bitter about this), which was boycotted for no apparent reason but was a decent film in reality, and I'm only bringing it up because it has a similar experience to Love and Thunder for getting hate before even being released. I'm not defending a billion dollar company that flopped in box office once, I'm defending the viewer's right to media they are interested in. If you don't like the character, remember - that's your opinion, not a fact that the character sucks. Kudos.

Not very easy to navigate, I advice you to do the research month by month individually for comics you'd like to compare. Also, if you happen to find more reliable data, pls say so in the comments.

Here you have the summary and explanation of the greatness of Thor: God of Thunder, Jesus, I'll go bankrupt if I buy this one too.

Yes, I want to end the sales dispute once and for all, I'm tired of seeing it on my dash. This guy probably explains it better than I did.

@awesomejenlawrence you said you'd like to read this and I delivered

[brienneevenstar-main]

From TVTropes, on why “But Voldemort and the Lestranges are evil so it makes sense that they would enslave WoC” is a terrible argument against those who criticize JKR’s tone-deaf use of racist tropes

From my understanding, Misaimed Fandom is when the fans of a work take the opposite or otherwise differing interpretation of what the author/creator intended. One of the examples I\'ve always used is Walter White from Breaking Bad being a violent sociopath who by the end of the show is pretty much dealing drugs because it makes him feel powerful, but fans still love him anyway. (Do please correct me if I\'m wrong).

That\'s not quite what\'s going on here, and it\'s a little more complicated than I think mixtape3022 is understanding it.

\"These people are reading into the subtext and declaring racism.\" - No, they aren\'t. They\'re pointing out problematic tropes that have been employed in the past or have otherwise Unfortunate Implications. Racism can be implicit or explicit, and in this case it\'s the former. It\'s not as simple as \"ehrrrrmergerd RACISM\".

\"I highly doubt that a person who wrote novels condemning bigotry and supremacy intended her work to be viewed this way.\" - This is essentially the equivalent of saying \"I can\'t be racist, I have Black friends\", and I hope I don\'t have to explain why this is wrong. I haven\'t seen a single person who thinks that J. K. Rowling sat down to write a racist screenplay, or that she intended for all this backlash against something she clearly loves very much. What people are saying is that, despite her best efforts, the tropes she produced in her work were racist. That\'s not to say that she\'s a horrible person who should never write again, only that she should maybe do more research into these kinds of things, or think about the implications. Characters of colour - or of any minority - have stereotypes attached to them, stereotypes that are harmful, and that\'s what makes them difficult to write. For the record, I love Rowling, her books, and her as a person, and I truly think she\'s committed to diversity and representation. I just think she missed the mark here.

Onto the examples themselves. You said that people were upset that a Korean woman was cast as Nagini, and that they\'re wrong because the movie presents this as a bad thing, and that she wasn\'t caged because of her race. Which is all very well and good - except people weren\'t complaining about her being Korean exactly, and absolutely nobody thinks Nagini was caged because of her race. I don\'t even know where you got that from. The problem is that one of the few women of colour in a franchise that has been historically bad at them has her destiny tied to two villainous white men. She will then lose control of her own body, turn into a snake forever, and serve a genocidal monster for the rest of her life - until she is murdered by Neville Longbottom, who in the chronology of the book releases, has retroactively murdered a human woman who may or may not have had a choice in her predicament.

Rowling\'s problems with characters of colour have been noted - there are barely any, especially women of colour. Cho Chang\'s nationality is never confirmed, and she basically disappears after Harry dumps her. The Parvati twins also stop being important at some point, and Angelina Johnson is only important because she married a Weasley. So the idea that Nagini\'s purpose - again, despite Rowling\'s intentions - is to serve Wizard Hitler and then die are pretty bad enough. But since Nagini is now a person Horcrux, like Harry, it throws the original books into Unfortunate Implications because while the narrative acknowledges Harry\'s personhood and it\'s driven home how bad it is to make a person a Soul Jar, Nagini is treated like a just pet. We don\'t even know how she gets to that point yet. Does she have any agency, or any choice in what she\'s doing? If she doesn\'t, it\'s bad enough, but if she does, even if she is cursed, why does she stay with Voldemort? And even then, the problem is with Rowling, the producers, and the casting people seeing nothing wrong with a Korean woman being Wizard Hitler\'s pet for the rest of her life.

Then you said that people were complaining about Leta being a child of rape and were saying it was racist, even though it wasn\'t a statement on her race. You\'re right, it wasn\'t, but again, that\'s not what people were complaining about. They were complaining because a powerful white man raping a black woman after stealing her from her helpless black family simply because he was sexually attracted to her has very, very harmful links to slavery, because slavemasters did that to their slaves all the time. There is simply no way to sugarcoat that. And that\'s before the \"Tragic Mulatto\" trope, which Leta Lestrange is a perfect example of. Her father raped her mother but he didn\'t love Leta herself, people at school bullied her for being a Lestrange, she did something that got Newt thrown out of Hogwarts, so everyone in present-day except her fiance also hates her, her other half-brother hates her too, and then she sacrifices herself to save everyone and \"atone\" for her sins. She doesn\'t belong anywhere - Grindelwald even says this in the movie! - so she dies.

Nobody thinks Rowling was promoting racism, but these tropes are problematic. It\'s not Misaimed Fandom because Rowling\'s views and intentions aren\'t really the point here, so we\'re not misinterpreting them. The plot points are not bad things in of themselves, they\'re bad because of context, the history of women of colour in her works, and the wider implications of representation. I don\'t think we should have them up there because it\'s a little silly to say \"these fans are complaining about nothing\", but then later on down the page say \"actually here\'s proof of what they were complaining about\" in the Unfortunate Implications bit. The characters aren\'t racist, I don\'t feel Rowling is racist, but these tropes are.

[ghostmaggie]

So I really liked the Nancy Drew books as a kid but couldn’t get into the show because it felt like they took a bunch of names from the books and slapped them onto a bunch of completely unrelated characters. Not that the show was bad it just wasn’t Nancy Drew at all. Did you read the books at all and have a similar experience? If so how did you get past that? The show does look interesting and I liked the first couple episodes I watched, it just didn’t feel right that it was called Nancy Drew when it…isn’t.

Hey! This sounds like a totally fair predicament to be in.

Beware that asking me questions like this inevitably sparks a novel-length reply. My apologies in advance 😂

I think I did read some of the nancy drew books growing up, but not with the level of dedication and passion and nostalgia towards them that a lot of people did. To be honest, before this show my chief nancy drew associated property was the emma roberts movie. And honestly I stand by that as a quality film lol.

But in any case, from what I recall, no, this show is basically nothing like the books. Obviously, the time period is different, which has a huge impact on a lot of things because I think og nancy is very informed by her environment and the way she acts in and out of stereotypically female spheres (as just one aspect of her character). Do I think there could be modern adaptations that more closely follow the books? Yes, for sure, but this is definitely not that series.

When I first saw ads for this show I had negative six billion percent interest in watching it, because at a glance it looked like a riverdale-wannabe grimdark bastardization of a series for children (that I liked!) just trying to capitalize both on that property and, again, on riverdale's popularity. From the little I saw of it I was like, c'mon. THAT'S nancy's situation? THAT'S ned's backstory? THOSE characters are in a relationship? THEY'RE NOT EVEN CALLING HIM NED???

So I dismissed it. It was literally only a few months ago that I saw maybe one or two folks I follow talking about it, and it made me just curious enough to give it a go. And I got hooked.

However, I got hooked on this show, not on a nancy drew adaptation.

The thing in my life that has most helped me enjoy media is to work on the ability to compartmentalize it. Mostly I use this for ignoring segments of canon I don't like (veronica mars season 4 is a prime example), but it also comes in handy for books that get turned into movies or TV shows. If I let myself compare in a critical way, it sucks the fun out. On the other hand, I can note the differences and sometimes think, yeah, the original was better, or they should have done this, or whatever, but then I have to shrug and say, but this was this project, and they didn't.

If you're not able to make that separation in your head (and it can be hard!) you probably will have trouble enjoying this show. To my knowledge the original nancy drew books were not particularly supernatural (right??), and ghosts and magic sort of become the throughline of the cw show. Which makes for a very cool and fun show! But one that is, yes, largely indistinguishable from its source material beyond the names.

This is just a theory, but I think if you gave the show another go you'd like it more the further you got in, in part because it just continues to go in a completely different direction, which really only helps the separation. But you have to be willing to accept that separation, or it will only bug you worse.

If you do decide to try again, I hope you enjoy, and please let me know what you think (good or bad)!