#please just unfollow so i don't have to keep feeling the need to apologize all over the place
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Because it seems like it needs to be said...
First, this is going to be quite long, so my apologies in advance, but I think it is important to address and explain these things and there is simply no way to make it shorter.
Since over the past week, the same person who has been bad mouthing me since february 2023 (as already mentioned here: Goldie — In relation to this post: I know I've already...), apparently felt the need to dig up things from the past again (including old screenshots which funny enough have never been a secret to begin with), I feel like I might should elaborate a few things.
First things first: As already mentioned before, the whole thing started back in february 2023. At this time me and this person used to be mutuals and although we didn't interact much (just a few asks here and there etc.) the few interactions we had have always been positive.
Now some of you maybe know that around this time a certain pc game named Hogwarts Legacy was released and some people were posting about it, sharing their first impressions of the game, sharing screenshots etc. And for me who has been a fan of the Harry Potter franchise since childhood, those were interesting news - not because I wanted to buy or play said game, I'm not playing video games except for sometimes The Sims when I feel like it, but simply for the nostalgia it gave me. You know, I read the first HP book back when it came out in 1998, I was 8 years old at this time and I didn't like to read, I didn't like it at all. But then I read this book and it changed little me's opinion about books forever because I truly enjoyed it, so of course when the following books of the series came out, I read them as well, just like I watched all the movies (which back then was especially fun because just like everyone my age, I had the benefit of being the same age as the characters). So yeah, I think you can see why seeing the screenshots of the game felt nice and so it happened that I reblogged some of them, simply for the nostalgia. I didn't know back then that the author of HP (Joanne K. Rowling) was (and still is) engaging in very discriminatory behavior towards trans people, as I have never been on twitter (which as I learned later is apparently her number 1 platform to spread her harmful opinions) and I'm also not someone who keeps up to date with celebrity gossip, because that's simply not something I'm interested in.
So I had no idea and because of this I was very surprised and confused when shortly after reblogging the Hogwarts Legacy pictures, I received a very rude ask in which someone was demanding that I tag posts related to this game, claiming that it was "transphobic" and "antisemitic", as well as some insults directed at the author of HP. This ask was on anon, it was not signed in any way, nothing. Therefore I had no idea who sent it. All I knew was that this situation (receiving a rude anon like this) brought back bad memories because only a few months before I had a similar thing happening when an anti sent me an anon ask, demanding a nsfw tag for a slightly suggestive selfship post of mine and how me responding to it back then, resulted in being harassed for 5 days straight by antis. I didn't want something like this to happen again, so instead of answering the ask, I deleted it and made a short info post for my followers in which I asked them to please don't send me asks demanding specific tags for my posts/reblogs, and that if someone doesn't like the content on my blog, they could just unfollow and/or block me.
The next day when I logged into tumblr, I was basically greeted with a bitchy post from said mutual on my dash, complaining about me not answering their ask as well as about the info post I made instead, which was how I even found out that it was them who sent me the ask. Apparently they didn't thought I would see their post since back then, their selfship blog was a sideblog and so while they apparently blocked me on their main after reading my post, they forgot to block me on their sideblog as well and their bitch-post about me showed up on my dash. And now I made a stupid mistake, annoyed by their behavior, the rude ask, the public complaining about me, I reblogged their post and commented it with "Oh okay, now I know who the idiot in my inbox was" That was unnecessary and I shouldn't have done this, but right in this moment I wasn't thinking much of it, especially since I already wasn't in the best state of mind at this time due to other reasons (the situation with the antis mentioned above, a fallout with my best friend, as well as my late grandfather's death of cancer only two months before). Short: I wasn't doing well at all and I guess that's why I simply didn't have the patience for something like this on top of everything else. Of course that's not an excuse, but that's how it was and I won't pretend otherwise.
Either way, this little incident between me and this person would have been nothing more than exactly this - a little incident - if it was up to me. You know, something that might annoys you for a little moment, but then you shrug it off and move on. Little did I know that this was just the beginning of a much bigger issue. This user spent the rest of this day with making multiple bitch posts about me, freaking out way more than what would have been reasonable for this kind of situation and then a few days later they started their slander campaign against me, spreading rumors about me being a "transphobe" and "ableist" (the latter apparently because during our disagreement I said that if they freak out like this because of a picture of a castle and some landscapes, they probably got some bigger issues to work on), which resulted in people harassing and attacking me repeatedly, anons flooding my ask box with insults, calling me a "transphobe", a "terf", a "bitch" a "cunt", telling me I deserve to die, that I should kill myself etc. Let me tell you, it was no fun.
But I gotta be honest, I didn't made it better because since they kept bringing up HP / JK, acting like enjoying the franchise I grew up with was suddenly a crime - all of this without ever showing me any proof of their accusations against the author - I simply decided to react in a spiteful way by purposefully reblogging posts about not only Harry Potter, but also the author, fully convinced that she - the person who created this amazing story - would never engage in the kind of behavior those people were accusing her of. After all it goes against everything she wrote in her books....
So for the next weeks it kept going on like this - for every hate anon I received, I would reblog more posts about her, kinda as a big "F*ck you" towards the people harassing me. Then one day when I reblogged another post from a person expressing their support for JK, it happened that the op started to follow me and after a few interactions I followed back. A couple more interactions and he DM'ed me, started a conversation with me and for the first time since my fallout with my ex friend (more to this later), the thought of someone new trying to become friends with me didn't felt scaring to me. There was something about him I can't quite explain but it made me feel safe and comforted and so me and him became friends rather quickly and although I saw the red flags (they were hard to miss ngl) I ignored them, grateful to finally have someone around on this website again who was nice to me, someone who was there for me through this situation and who protected me, or so he said....
He started to openly attack people who would give me trouble or say something bad about me, which of course only made things worse and I asked him repeatedly not to do this, to just let it be but it always resulted in him either ignoring my words, or agreeing just to go right back to it 1 - 2 days later, always emphasizing that he was just "trying to protect me" which put me in a situation where I felt like I owed him something, so I started to make open excuses for his behavior, backing him up no matter what he said or did and just displaying my loyality to him since I knew that's what he expected from me. During this time, he would also target the ex mutual who had started the rumors that caused the whole mess in the first place a few times and because of the trouble I had to endure thanks to this person in the past, I was more than happy to join in, viewing it as some kind of "payback". I'm not proud of this, yet it happened and I would never deny it.
Things got really bad and of course our behavior only provoked the previous harassment I had to endure to escalate even more and at some point someone even made a whole blog about us, screenshoting our posts etc. This went on until one day my friend decided to write a public apology to the people he attacked during this time, to end this whole mess and make people leave the two of us alone.
From there on things finally improved, we parted ways one month later and another month later my ex friend @moss-selfship who couldn't be more different from him came back into my life and it was also him who, when I asked him about it, showed me actual proof for JK's harmful behavior, which was a very shocking and disappointing thing for me to see and of course, it led to me deleting everything I ever reblogged about her, as I'm not willing to support this woman in any way and I feel stupid and ashamed for ever doing so.😦 I also deleted every interaction with this former friend, as well as every other memory of this time, not to hide anything (as the ex mutual mentioned above was accusing me of lately) but simply because I don't want to have these things on my blog, since they were part of a very bad chapter of my life I don't want to have anything to do with anymore. Yet I never tried to pretend it didn't happen and I never would. The blog which was screenshoting all these things back then does still exist until this day and as you will see here, it was also where this person took the screenshots from when they tried to call me out about these old things a few days ago:
Just like they also decided to bring up the old fight between me and @moss-selfship to make distasteful comments about it, although this is something that's not only between us but also something we fixed and left behind us long ago
(Details can be found here: Goldie — As my friend already said (and as you can see here...)
As you already know, I did apologize to this person months ago, with help from my dear friend @moss-selfship who was the one who reached out to them and back then they promised to them that they would stop messaging people to as they like to call it "warn" them of me, but they didn't. From february 2023 when me and them had this "tag disagreement" until this day they kept slandering me and yes it is slandering since the "Goldie is a transphobe" lie they keep clinging to, has never been true at all. Same goes for the accusation of me being ableist, as well as some other things they said.
I spent the whole past year trying to make up for my previous mistakes and working on myself, trying to be a better person but thanks to this person it never stopped being very hard to just having fun on here and enjoying interactions etc. as they would always keep seeking out people I was interacting with to badmouth me, but you already know this from the post linked at the very top of this post here, so there is no need to elaborate this any further.
The only thing I wanted to make clear here is that:
The things they tried to present as something new, are things that happened long ago.
They have never been a secret to begin with, as the "phantom blog" has always been there, freely accessible for everyone.
I never tried to deny them in any way and I never would.
And this is all I have to say about this matter. If you read till there, thank you for taking the time and again, my apologies for it being so long. If you have any more questions about the things showed here, be it the old screenshots you can find on this blog or anything else, please do not hesitate to DM me and I will happily answer your questions.
Have a nice day.💖
#i admit that wasn't easy to write as these are rather unpleasant memories yet i wanted to do so#because i stand by my mistakes and i don't let anyone claim otherwise
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Okay, I don't wanna spam my blog and this will be deleted anyway, just another psa. Sorry. 🥹
I'm starting to miss the times when I had less followers 🥹 I'm not gonna bother answering more asks. I noticed that out of all the authors posting here, I'm the only one apologizing all the time, either for the content I post or for being unwell.
Guys, if it bothers you that I'm taking too long with the requests, or that I'm tired, or if my personal updates bother you, please feel free to unfollow me or block me. I tried really hard to keep my mouth shut for a long time. Plenty of bad things happened in my life and I haven't shared 90% of them here because I do not wanna fill this blog with negative things, I want it to remain a safe space.
However, it's not "negative" to struggle; it's normal. Writers are people, and this isn't even our job. Fanfiction is just a hobby that we invest our time and energy in for free. As much as I want this to be a safe space for others, it is a safe space for me too. Let's not pretend everyone around us knows all our secrets, the blogs we have, the things we read and write. This is the only place I can come to talk about certain things and I don't wanna keep feeling bad about it. Not to mention I see so many of my mutuals and followers struggling too, and everyone chooses to stay quiet most of the time because it seems so shameful. Well, I don't wanna stay quiet, I'd rather have someone know they're not alone, and that it's okay and normal to struggle. I'm sorry. I love and appreciate you all, but if you're looking for a literal writing machine, I am not one. 🥹 You don't have to care about my problems - obviously, I'm sure you have plenty of your own and I'm sending you all my love. To many of you I am just a kpop profile picture, a blog that posts yandere smut, and that's more than fine. But there is no need to get rude either. Thank you.
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𝐁𝐇𝐀𝐀𝐋𝐒𝐏𝐖𝐍𝐄𝐃. private & selective blog for omen, aka, the dark urge / durge from baldur's gate 3 ; written by fable ( she / they ).
stats & biography. memes. playlist. pinterest. the other dark urge.
rules below !
hi!! 👋 i'm fable, i'm 23 years old, my timezone is est, i've been in the rpc for ~10 years, and you could pour soup in my lap and i'd probably apologize to you. if the way these are worded makes me sound a little harsh, it isn't meant to come off that way!! i've just been in the rpc for too long to be vague or lenient. that said, a few common sense rules before we get into the lengthier ones that may need a lil explaining:
— don't follow me if you're a dick towards any group of oppressed people. — mun =/= muse, i don't condone everything my muse does or has done in the past, you get the drill. — vagueposting / guiltposting is an instant block from me. direct communication is free.
anyway !!
[ 1 ] for blogs that i can’t see myself interacting with, i will soft block you to keep my followers clean ( unless your rules specify that you prefer to be hard blocked ) and i ask that you do the same to me so that i don't accidentally send memes or whatever to someone i'm not mutuals with. personal blogs will be also hard blocked immediately unless a sideblog is attached to it and i can easily see that. also, do not unfollow and follow again and again to get my attention. i will just hard block you and call it a day.
[ 2 ] i will only write with 18+ muns. if you follow me and are a minor or your age is not listed clearly on your blog, i will soft block you asap. do not lie to me about your age, you will be hard blocked if i find out.
on a similar but less serious note, i also don't follow if i can't immediately see an alias. just...kinda wanna know who i'm following, is all.
[ 3 ] i get that plotting is kinda important for some people!! however, rarely will i ever fully plot a thread, and i heavily prefer using memes to start interactions unless we're comfy enough to where i can just hop in your dms with an idea. now, plotting for the general vibe of the thread and dynamic between characters? absolutely!! but frankly, if i relied on completely plotting threads, i'd kill my creativity and get even less done than i already do. i'm here for a fun time, not a stressful time.
[ 4 ] speaking of relying on memes, feel free to send me several at a time! there's no pressure, of course, but you're more likely to get a timely response if you give me variety to work with. if i get a meme i don't think i can work with, i'll probably just send several back to you to make up for it, but please let me know if you would rather i not do that!!
also, memes i reblog never "expire". if i reblogged a meme six months ago and you wanna send something from it, have at it!! just. maybe like the post at the same time or something so i can check the context of it, if it's important lmao
[ 5 ] i am 23 and omen is very much an adult, so nsfw content is likely to show up here in some capacity, but mostly through headcanons and musings. when it does, it'll be tagged as "nsfw //" ( or "suggestive //" if it's only implied ). however, i'm only going to write those topics with people i'm close to, and even then, very rarely.
[ 6 ] i love shipping!! i am the least picky person i know, omen is kissable, and chances are i'm gonna be down with anything as long as we've talked about it a little ooc and the muses have chemistry and it's, you know, legal. i am down to explore all possible paths of a dynamic ( platonic or romantic ), so literally anything is a-okay if we talk it over first.
[ 7 ] anon hate is cringe, so if you send it, it won't get a response from me unless it's to make fun of you. at this point i expect most of us to know not to answer it seriously otherwise the sender is just being encouraged, so if i keep seeing it being answered / talked about on the dash ( unless it's being poked fun at ), i'm probably just going to soft block for my sake because. y'know, you didn't wanna get the negativity, i don't wanna see that negativity, etc.
on that note, untagged negativity will also lead to me unfollowing. untagged posts in general will lead to me unfollowing if it's a frequent thing, honestly.
[ 8 ] if you need something tagged, tell me! i’ll do my best to remember to tag what i need to, but please remind me if i happen to forget. my memory is genuinely so bad, i promise it's never intentional if i leave off a tag. the system i use is just "trigger //", and as for what i need tagged, all i ask is that visuals of sunflowers and ic detailed descriptions of terminal illnesses are tagged, specifically cancer. i'm not gonna get on anyone's case for not tagging either of those or anything, it'd just be nice <3
[ 9 ] obligatory "let's just have fun" rule here, we're all on this godawful site to write our silly little guys, it really isn't that serious. just be decent, and we'll be chill!!
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Hi Sarah, I probably should just unfollow you and keep curating my experience here, but you've been one of my fave blogs for years so I'm gonna try to explain it just in case it helps. The reason why I'm leaving and other people I know have left is because your blog is so draining... Obviously we don't know you personally or how you behave on a day-to-day basis, and it's not all your fault since 80% of your blog is usually asks of people complaining, but do you really not realize this? I remember that you said once during your hiatus that you were going to focus on enjoying things and getting rid of the negative vibes and stop responding to asks that only created drama. That felt so refreshing and good for you, but it keeps getting worse now. And if it feels this way to me and others, I can't imagine the weight that you must carry every day from the moment you log in... I'm telling you this because I don't consider you a toxic person and I think that you'd like to know if someone perceives you the same way as you perceive that one blog you hate (only in your case, it's the other way around) because to be fair the differences are not that huge... Obviously you're the opposite, but in terms of behaviour and perception as a whole, the vibes are there. I'm sorry if any of this has offended you, you're free to ignore it, keep feeding your anons and move on. I know it feels like an attack and that you losing one or two of your followers that you don't even know isn't gonna affect you at all, that's not the meaning behind this. I say this because I genuinely care as I know how toxic these apparently harmless environments can be to your own mental health. You are so much better and clever than that. Anyway, I wish the best for you, maybe I'll be able to follow you again some day. Good luck and please take care 💕
You know what. You’re right. Obviously you can unfollow me no matter what that’s your choice but I’m going to be honest, I am really tired.
I kind of have begun to dread looking at my inbox in the morning because of all the negativity and while I agree with a lot of it, it gets so repetitive. I have been trying to practice not answering the worst ones because my god are they bad and I’ve been doing a good job at just deleting them but there’s so many. I honestly just don’t want to not answer people, so many people have told me this is safe space for them and when they’re venting to me I feel like I have a responsibility to reply and have them feel heard, and I have thought about how it must feel to follow me and have to deal with all these asks.
It’s also really hard to get out of. Like every time something happens I get 20, 50, even 100+ asks about it and I feel like I have to respond. And that’s not even including the insane amount of troll asks I get, it’s exhausting. And I don’t wanna sound ungrateful, people have been so nice to me and appreciative. But for the past week or two, I’ve been wanting to just turn my inbox off because of how bad the troll asks have gotten and how I dread seeing more complaints first thing when I wake up but I’d feel so guilty taking the space away from people.
I feel the need to apologize but I don’t really know what for, the negativity I guess. I do not like what my blog has become to be honest. I think I’m gonna take the day and think about some stuff. Thank you for sending this in such a respectful, constructive way.
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How I Use My Following/Mutuals List
Although I celebrate the growth of my Followers list as much as the next blogger, my Following list is much more valuable to me, and I try to make it so that my Following List = Mutuals List. (Except for a select few blogs I follow for "business" reasons, such as graphics, artist/image resources, etc.) In an ideal world, my Following list would be the same size as my Followers list too.
I try to Follow mostly just blogs who follow me back, not because I think it's some fancy VIP list, but because interactions and developing actual friendships with Followers matters a lot to me. I regularly browse my Following list to check on blogs/people I haven't touched or interacted with recently, and I make an effort to make some sort of contact if it's been a while. I actually try to keep tabs on Mutuals! That is more difficult to do if there are a 100+ blogs/bloggers on the list that have barely interacted with me and are kind of just sitting there. So I don't follow back those blogs.
I understand that not all Followers want to chat or get chummy, and that's okay! But "silent" interaction is shown through likes and reblogs, and those matter to me too. If you are a Follower, please show up on my notifications and give me some sort of sign that you'd genuinely like for me to follow you, too!
On the other hand, if I started Following you (cause I do make the first move sometimes), and you're not hitting the follow back button to make us Mutuals, that's totally fine! But if enough time passes and the engagement/interest is starting to feel just too one-sided, then I might eventually unfollow--no hard feelings!
I will never unfollow the blog of a Mutual, even one that's gone inactive. Once we become genuine Moots, it's for life, baby!
I WOULD LOVE TO BE MUTUALS WITH YOU and interact with you and your blog.
I just need some sort of sign that you want the same, thus the word, "Mutual". <3
I just completed a "clean up" of my Following and Followers lists, which included purging suspected bots, following back followers I have missed doing so before, and unfollowing blogs that almost never engage with me or just never followed back. I hope I haven't mistakenly unfollowed someone I wasn't supposed to, but if I did, please forgive me, and if you can please let me know, I will correct the mistake!
Disclaimer: Side-blogs vs main blogs make this whole Following thing pretty tricky, so if that causes me to screw up my own Follow-back protocol, I apologize! Again, please feel free to reach out and give me a heads up on which blog I can/should follow and reach you at!
I love you, Mutuals!
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the past month has been really incredibly draining and my capacity for creativity has been pretty low. i know i don't need to apologize for, you know, having responsibilities off the internet and treating this hobby like a hobby, but ya girl grew up ✨catholic✨ so she feels unnecessary guilt!
the important things to know:
my astoria blog & vex blogs are still active and i'm regularly trying to keep them up & running and with good activity. my rowan blog is still active, but that remains low-activity, and i'll be there when i'm inspired. my multi is moving, and i've put diana back on my multi.
if we were talking before and i vanished, please message me again. it genuinely slipped my mind with everything. if we were plotting, if it was ooc, doesn't matter. i want to continue our conversation! i just have untreated adhd & a lot of stress so my memory ain't great rn.
i have unfollowed blogs that are inactive, archived, or where we just weren't engaging. if i missed a move announcement, or you do want to write or chat ooc, please nudge me!!! i'd love to engage with all of you and i don't want to miss anybody or anything because my brain's all over the place.
i miss writing. i love writing. astoria is my pride and joy and i have never felt better about her character. and i'm hoping that this time next year i'll be saying the same thing. i turned thirty a week ago and i'm kind of loving it. i got a new tattoo that's really the start of a sleeve. i'm working on some personal projects. it's good. at the same time, as i've said before, i have close family undergoing cancer treatment, and am a part-time caretaker for a grandparent with pretty serious dementia. i'm therapying hard because it's very necessary at the moment. i feel lost in my professional life, i feel lost in my personal life, and there are moments when i feel a little bit like i'm hanging on by a thread.
and overall i'm okay? but the sheer amount of stress i'm constantly under means that my body is starting to feel it. i keep getting sick, i never get enough sleep and when i do finally manage to fall asleep i wake up all the time, my focus is absolutely shot. and like... the truth is just that i'm wiped the fuck out all the time. i'm exhausted. i come on here and manage a couple of sentences and then lose my focus. any cr stuff i've managed is because i'm watching cr constantly and even that takes ages to actually make remotely coherent.
the gist is: i'm working on it. i'm working really hard on it. it's not easy nor is it like, a steady progression anywhere. but i'm working on it !!!
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Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatahu sister. I must say I am very proud of you and your team to keep growing in this particular platform. I used to be your very old follower and I have also sent you a few anon asks. I appreciate for your patience and sorry for my rantings. I appreciate for your replies to my every ask. 🤍 It fills me with joy to recieve a big-sissy-kind-of advice from you. My mumma is too an admirer of your beautiful knowledge despite your age. I previously deleted my Tumblr account because I was in my low point of life. And again created a new one just to thank you, I realised I was ungrateful for such a blessing. Subhanallah! I am an adult and in my college. I often spend my time alone because sadly my Muslim University doesn't have much practicing friends from my department. I am no one to judge but I know things won't go right if I join them. I always fantasy to marry a man of my dreams and probably a best friend would be a bonus. So I make dua in tahajjud everyday and ask Allah a number of things. I ask him from A to Z and I don't compromise in asking cause I know he is the Giver and the Provider. Buuuuuuuuttttttt as I make these duas I get constant bad thoughts in my mind and start to doubt Allah's power to fullfill my duas. I start to doubt to a point where I get demotivated to even make one dua. I rush my prayers, I rush my dhikr, I rush in everything and I get impatient to get my dua accepted. I have seen a lot of YouTube videos where muslimah just posts how their tahajjud duas got accepted few days ago, some said next hour. It baffles me and I ask myself, "how come my dua doesn't get accepted?", "How come they get everything they want whereas I don't?", "Did I commit too many sins to even get any dua acceptance?" And so I tried saying Astagfirullah 200 times after each 5 prayers. Sometimes I miss them due to classes. I have also recently unfollowed a muslimah social media influencer who never attended any University and is of my age. She has got beauty, health, weath and support. She vlogged her whole life for 3 years and showed how she got engaged and married and even gave birth few weeks ago. I was like, "woah! must be a true believer" and I almost start to cry over my life problems and sufferings and all. And I know this too that usually social media doesn't show the reality but sometimes it hurts so much that I tend to see what's really in front of me and not take a deeper look into it. Please help me how should I overcome such negative thoughts and feelings. And what else do I need to get my specific duas accepted in tahajjud? I'm not ungrateful, I am just impatient. How do I master patience? P.s: some of my duas got accepted and I am grateful for it. But negative thoughts just kicks in you know. 💔😢 The devil doesn't take a break.
Assalamualaikum habibty 🥹🥹🥹💗
MashaaaaaAllah such a long multidimensional ask :') where do I start?
First of all, I would like to apologize for the delayed answer, as you may know, the genocide happening right now in Gaza is taking a toll on all of us and our mental health, I am trying my best to deal with my survivor's guilt and find strength to function as normally as possible. Allahu al mustaān.
With that being said, thank you thank you thank you for the kind words, may Allah swt bless you and your momma, and grant her good health and happiness ameeeeeen !! I appreciate your words habibty, Jazaki Allahu kulla khayr 🤍 Sometimes I forget that we have been doing this for a while, and that our posts and answers have helped sisters through different periods of their lives, it helps to be reminded, alhamdullillah 🤍
O Allah swt make me better than what they think of me and forgive me what they don't know about me :')
Now let's talk about your negative thoughts. Those are basically shaytan trying to pull you far from Allah swt and distract you habibty. As we know, shaytan's biggest promise/challenge is to distract the slave of Allah from their worship. So whatever you are focusing on, shaytan will come and try to pull you as far as possible from that. And the harder you stick to that act of worship (in your case duaa and Tahajjud) the harder shaytan will try and fight you. But you have to put in mind one thing: Allahuma barik laki, you are already winning by waking up and praying Tahajjud, you are already winning the Love of Allah swt. Tahajjud is not for everyone, it is only for the brave hearts and the pure hearts, they say that Allah swt invites his beloved slaves for Tahajjud, it is like a superpower, so you should know, waking up for Tahajjud is already unlocking doors for you and taking you up many levels in Jannah in shaa Allah, regardless of whether the duaas are accepted or not. And that is one thing you should be comforted by I hope.
As for duaas being accepted, there are a lot of lectures online by expert shuyookhs and imams who talk about this matter. What they have almost all agreed upon is that making duaas is in itself a beloved act of worship to Allah swt and you'll be rewarded just for that. Then Allah swt has three ways or responses to your duaas: 1) yes, now. 2) yes but not now, later. 3) no that's not good for you but I have something better for you.
And we don't interfere with Allah's timing my dear. All you have to do is ask and leave things in His hands. It is a matter of faith. It is sufficient that you truly believe that Allah swt knows what's best for you and when is the right time to give it to you my dear. You just have to believe that and be at peace with not knowing, and be at peace with waiting. You did mention Sabr, patience, which is crucial in waiting for our duaa response. Prophet Yaqub (as) waiting his whole life for Yusuf (as) to come back to him, he knew in his heart that Allah swt will reunite him with his son, and he never despaired. It took years and years but he never lost hope, or felt frustrated. And that's just one example.
But anyways, if you need to strengthen your chances of your duaas being accepted, you need to start and finish your duaas with sending salaams and prayers upon Prophet Muhammad ﷺ, and you need to ask Allah swt with His specific names, so for example, if you are asking Allah for forgiveness you need to use His names that carry the meaning of forgiveness ( Al Ghaffar, Al Ghafour, Al Ghafir..) and if you are asking for rizq in marriage, ask Him swt by His names Ar-razzaq (the provider/ sustainer), Al-Wadud ( the loving one) .. Al Fatih (the opener).. Al Aleem (The knower of all..) etc.
+ about the topic of rushing after prayer, I do struggle with the same issue sübhanallah, and here is a personal hack that helps me with it. I am a visual person I need visual reminders, so what I would do is make notes on papers, I would write the after-salah adhkar, some duaas, tasbeeh.. and stick them on the wall in my salah corner so when I finish my salah it is right there in front of me I can't skip it. But if you're rushing to go to class then stick to the bare minimum: Ayatul kusee after every fard (obligatory salah) and on your way to class say Sübhanallah x10 Alhamdullillah x10 Allahu akbar x10, and you're all set in shaa Allah ��� See, Islam is beautifully easy and simple if you want to simplify it. Sübhanallah, our deen is that of ease 🤍
To conclude, I don't want to make this any longer for you, for the negative thoughts keep in mind that it is from shaytan and he is only trying to distract you, whenever you feel like you're slipping into that hole pull back by saying I seek refuge in Allah swt from Shaytan, say la hawla wa la quwwata illa billah x100 a day if you can as well.
I will leave you with this simple but powerful duaa:
Allahuma aenee alaa thikrika wa shukrika wa husni ibadatika : O Allah, help me with remembering you, thanking you, and well-worshipping you.
I, from the bottom of my heart, pray Allah swt grants you ease, relief and comfort habibty. May Allah swt grant your heart its biggest wishes and reward you with an immense joy that makes you burst into tears, soon ya rab ..
Fi Aman Allah my precious one 💗
- A. Z. 🤍🍃
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#𝙵𝙸𝚂𝚃𝚂𝟺𝙾𝙽𝙲𝙴 : a fandom - less portrayal of archie andrews, inspired by ethel cain's preacher's daughter and removed from canon. often dc based, but very crossover friendly ! extremely personal + original take on the character, re - written as fandom - less and very headcanon heavy. sb to enslaughts.
a study in broken promises and fallen pedestals, bruised knuckles punching in the wind, hero complexes, lost childhood and butterfly nets, grief as anger, healing, what it means to have a body, and to not. 𝟶𝟼/𝟸𝟸/𝟸𝟹. re - imagined by jean, 23, they/any.
notes. prompts.
dash rules.
you do not need to be following my main to follow and interact with me over here. however, i do require that i be following you from there before interaction.
000. . . disclaimer.
the rpc's distancing from riverdale is very much understood, however, my portrayal of archie is incredibly personalized and wholly adapted to a personal trajectory of mine over the last half a decade. inspiration is taken from the cw show for his backstory, but my default verse for archie is only vaguely season five - like, but that's about it as far as similarities go. this character is a comfort muse unfortunately and incredibly comfortable for me to write simply because of how long i've been doing it. if you hate riverdale, i promise i've heard it all before and am not here to hash it out, but to write what's practically become an original character for me. if you don't wanna be here, simply scroll or block, beloved.
001. . . activity.
i'll be frank : i write pretty sporadically, and this goes for ic and ooc interactions. i can get overwhelmed juggling responsibilities often, and socializing is one of the first things to go. i un / fortunately work 40 hour work weeks, and only get every other weekend off, so my schedule makes consistent activity difficult on top of my focus. if i can successfully plot something with you, i find my muse is sooo much more involved, but i'm contradictorily bad at it due to the reasons above ; it's truly hit or miss, and i understand if that becomes frustrating for any of my partners. sometimes i’ll be able to get out a couple drafts a week, others merely once, or not at all. if i haven’t replied or answered something in a while, please know it’s nothing personal, i’m just taking my time until i feel good about what i can put down. writing is a hobby i enjoy, but if you're looking for a blog with any sort of regularity, this isn't the one for you. i have other rp blogs i try to run as well, therefore i might be very slow on this one at times. i can be quite the flaky rp partner, so i apologize in advance for that and completely understand if my antics [ or lack thereof ] result in an unfollow. if i go longer than two months without activity, i'll try to make a hiatus notice.
002. . . following.
because of the previously stated, i’m also highly selective with who i rp with. i want to not to bite off more than i can chew, and for the sake of pacing myself, my activity will be reserved for mutuals only. if my thread count gets too high for my liking, it's not uncommon that i drop threads, but i will absolutely try and let you know if that happens. duplicates are always welcome <3 [ let me know if you need me to tag same - muse posts and i’ll be happy to ! ] i regularly go on softblocking sprees to keep my follower count semi - low, but do feel free to re - follow if you feel like the stars merely misaligned for our first bout of mutual following and i'd be very down to give it another shot. on that note, it'll take me a week+ to follow back sometimes, as i like to read through not only rules, but dossiers and verse pages, especially for ocs, so it can take a hot minute.
003. . . etiquette.
the basics ; don’t be an asshole, any transphobia, biphobia, homophobia, racism, whitewashing, pro - shipping, incest, etc, will be blocked on sight. no godmodding, please cut your threads, continue asks in new posts, etc, and no stealing of any personal concepts of mine. loose inspiration is fine, but if i see repeated similarities, i may or may not approach you about it. formatting - wise, here is an example of my prose style. i primarily use big ol’ text and static or no icons, beta editor + xkit rewritten, but feel free to format however you like and i’ll try to match you somewhat. since my concussion, however, i will no longer be threading with super small text or anything heavily formatted, as this can strain my eyes and make headaches worse, even with my glasses.
004. . . shipping.
i’m all about exploring meaningful dynamics, whether they be platonic, familial, antagonistic, pre - established, etc, so feel free to shoot me a message if you’d like to plot something out between our muses ! while the mun of this blog is 18+, smut just really isn’t my thing ; referenced ‘ offscreen ’ as it were is fine, as are nfsfw headcanons and such, maybe fade to black / time skips, but for the most part, you won’t find any roleplayed smut on this blog. this of course is muse dependent and does not apply to any underage muses. romance is fine to some degree, but again, if they are a child, anything beyond lighthearted and innocent experiences are off limits, no exceptions. if i see you’ve aged up a minor character for shipping purposes, it will result in an instant unfollow. if at some point i flesh out adult verses for them, these shipping rules will not change. on that note as well, i do prefer to rp with muns who are also 18+. i don’t see your age somewhere in your rules or pinned, it will affect my willingness to follow.
005. . . memes.
memes from anyone, anytime, for the muse or for the mun, are always welcome, and often a go - to ice breaker of mine since starter calls make me nervous. please don’t hesitate to send a good handful since i try not to cage myself into answering ones i just don’t have muse for. i find if i force stuff, i’m just less likely to ever actually get it done, so don’t feel like you’re overwhelming me if you send more than just a couple for me to choose from. please remember to specify which muse your asks are for unless it’s to one of my sideblogs. if you want to start a thread from an ask, i greatly encourage it since i try to write most answers as potential starters anyway ! lastly, any memes in my tag aren't expired. if i don't want them sent in anymore, i'll delete them from the tag.
006. . . triggers.
this blog leans horror - adjacent in many ways, and this blog will be portraying that accordingly, including trigger - heavy content such as : depression, ptsd, panic attacks, body horror / issues, violence / injury, horror elements, parental death, smoking, religious imagery, as well as past statutory rape, but i will try to tag it as ‘ trigger // ’. on that note, please do keep in mind : any abuse present on my blog will be in headcanons or backstories, never actual threads. if i’m writing with villain muses, physical harm may be present, but i refuse to roleplay any domestic / animal / harm or abuse in any form. my personal triggers are visual eye gore, visual self harm, and visual vomit. please do feel free to say something if i forget to tag a post and i’ll try to tag it for you right away !
whew. all that said, i'm jean, 23, white, and i use they/any pronouns ! thank you for taking the time to read my rules, and rest assured if i follow you, that means i’ve read through yours as well <3 discord is available for mutuals upon request.
007. . . blogroll.
enslaughts. a medium activity horror - heavy multimuse. dvrast. a selective jesper fahey. low activity. follows from enslaughts. wolfsp1der. an original spider - person. low activity. wayfares. a selective western multimuse. hiatus. greatloss. a selective slow five hargreeves. hiatus. clericlost. a selective slow william byers. hiatus. mindsflayed. a selective slow mind flayer + vecna. hiatus. follows from clericlost.
#navigation.#fandomless rp#dc rp#dcu rp#apocalypse rp#tlou rp#marvel rp#mcu rp#superhero rp#supernatural rp#western rp#yellowjackets rp
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𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐃. private, selective, and low activity blog for xerkses, the dark urge from baldur's gate 3. written by fable ( she / they ). strictly follows a redemption route.
stats & biography ( wip; temp bio here ). memes. playlist. pinterest. the other dark urge.
rules below !
hi!! 👋 i'm fable, i'm 23 years old, my timezone is est, i've been in the rpc for ~10 years, and you could pour soup in my lap and i'd probably apologize to you. if the way these are worded makes me sound a little harsh, it isn't meant to come off that way!! i've just been in the rpc for too long to be vague or lenient. that said, a few common sense rules before we get into the lengthier ones that may need a lil explaining:
— don't follow me if you're a dick towards any group of oppressed people. — mun =/= muse, i don't condone everything my muse does or has done in the past, you get the drill. — vagueposting / guiltposting is an instant block from me. direct communication is free.
anyway !!
[ 1 ] for blogs that i can’t see myself interacting with, i will soft block you to keep my followers clean ( unless your rules specify that you prefer to be hard blocked ) and i ask that you do the same to me so that i don't accidentally send memes or whatever to someone i'm not mutuals with. personal blogs will be also hard blocked immediately unless a sideblog is attached to it and i can easily see that. also, do not unfollow and follow again and again to get my attention. i will just hard block you and call it a day.
[ 2 ] i will only write with 18+ muns. if you follow me and are a minor or your age is not listed clearly on your blog, i will soft block you asap. do not lie to me about your age, you will be hard blocked if i find out.
on a similar but less serious note, i also don't follow if i can't immediately see an alias. just...kinda wanna know who i'm following, is all.
[ 3 ] i get that plotting is kinda important for some people!! however, rarely will i ever fully plot a thread, and i heavily prefer using memes to start interactions unless we're comfy enough to where i can just hop in your dms with an idea. now, plotting for the general vibe of the thread and dynamic between characters? absolutely!! but frankly, if i relied on completely plotting threads, i'd kill my creativity and get even less done than i already do. i'm here for a fun time, not a stressful time.
[ 4 ] speaking of relying on memes, feel free to send me several at a time! there's no pressure, of course, but you're more likely to get a timely response if you give me variety to work with. if i get a meme i don't think i can work with, i'll probably just send several back to you to make up for it, but please let me know if you would rather i not do that!!
also, memes i reblog never "expire". if i reblogged a meme six months ago and you wanna send something from it, have at it!! just. maybe like the post at the same time or something so i can check the context of it, if it's important lmao
[ 5 ] i am 23 and xerkses is very much an adult, so nsfw content is likely to show up here in some capacity, but mostly through headcanons and musings. when it does, it'll be tagged as "nsfw //" ( or "suggestive //" if it's only implied ). however, i'm only going to write those topics with people i'm close to, and even then, very rarely.
[ 6 ] ships! i love shipping!! i am the least picky person i know, xerkses is kissable, and chances are i'm gonna be down with anything as long as we've talked about it a little ooc and the muses have chemistry and it's, you know, legal. i am down to explore all possible paths of a dynamic ( platonic or romantic ), so literally anything is a-okay if we talk it over first.
[ 7 ] anon hate is cringe, so if you send it, it won't get a response from me unless it's to make fun of you. at this point i expect most of us to know not to answer it seriously otherwise the sender is just being encouraged, so if i keep seeing it being answered / talked about on the dash ( unless it's being poked fun at ), i'm probably just going to soft block for my sake because. y'know, you didn't wanna get the negativity, i don't wanna see that negativity, etc.
on that note, untagged negativity will also lead to me unfollowing. untagged posts in general will lead to me unfollowing if it's a frequent thing, honestly.
[ 8 ] if you need something tagged, tell me! i’ll do my best to remember to tag what i need to, but please remind me if i happen to forget. my memory is genuinely so bad, i promise it's never intentional if i leave off a tag. the system i use is just "trigger //", and as for what i need tagged, all i ask is that visuals of sunflowers and ic detailed descriptions of terminal illnesses are tagged, specifically cancer. i'm not gonna get on anyone's case for not tagging either of those or anything, it'd just be nice <3
[ 9 ] not really a rule, but a disclaimer: i will go radio silent at random sometimes, hence the low activity. i am not ignoring anyone or on hiatus unless otherwise specified, i am simply a poor unmedicated clown with very little energy. please bear with me, i'm trying 💚
[ 10 ] obligatory "let's just have fun" rule here, we're all on this godawful site to write our silly little guys, it really isn't that serious. just be decent, and we'll be chill!!
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heya ✌️ i'm tav / fable, i'm 23 years old, my timezone is est, i've been in the rpc for ~10 years, and you could pour soup in my lap and i'd probably apologize to you. if the way these are worded makes me sound a little harsh, it isn't meant to come off that way!! i've just been in the rpc for too long to be vague or lenient. that said, a few rapid-fire rules before we get into the lengthier ones that actually need explaining:
— don't follow me if you're any sort of phobic towards any group of people. — mun =/= muse, i don't condone everything my muses do, you get the drill. — vagueposting / guiltposting is an instant block from me. it's not cute. we're all adults here, let's communicate and act like it. — don't rush me for replies, period. rushing me for a thread at all will result in me flat out dropping it.
[ 1 ] for blogs that i can’t see myself interacting with, i will soft block you to keep my followers clean. personal blogs will be hard blocked immediately unless a sideblog is attached to it and i can easily see that your personal blog is a hub. note that it will take me a little while sometimes to decide if i want to follow back. give me a few days at a minimum. do not unfollow and follow again and again to get my attention. i will just hard block you and call it a day.
[ 2 ] i'm neutral on callouts. if i see them and think the proof provided in it is actually valid, then i'll reblog it under my psa tag and leave it at that, no further discussion. it will not go under "drama tw" or anything of the sort, because if it's serious enough, it isn't petty drama. it's a genuine warning passed to other members of the community so they can make their own opinions about. that said, i also believe people can change. if there is proof of that, then i see no reason to hold past mistakes over someone's head.
[ 3 ] i will only write with 18+ muns. if you follow me and are a minor or your age is not listed clearly on your blog, i will soft block you immediately. do not lie to me about your age, you will be hard blocked if i find out.
on a similar but less serious note, i also don't follow if i can't immediately see an alias. just...kinda wanna know who i'm following, is all.
[ 4 ] i get that plotting is kinda important for some people!! however, rarely will i ever fully plot a thread, and i heavily prefer using memes to interact. now, plotting for the general vibe of the thread and dynamic between characters? absolutely!! but frankly, if i relied on completely plotting threads, i'd kill my creativity and get even less done than i already do. i'm here for a fun time, not a stressful and / or long time, so please be aware.
[ 5 ] speaking of relying on memes, send me several at a time! you're probably more likely to get a response if you give me variety to work with. if i get a meme i don't think i can work with, i'll probably send several back to you to make up for it. just so things don't feel lopsided or something.
[ 6 ] i am 23 and valynn is an adult ( even though elven ages are... a little weird ), so nsfw content is likely to show up here in some capacity. when it does, it'll be tagged as "nsfw //" ( or "suggestive //" if it's only implied ). however, i'm likely only going to write those topics with people i'm close to.
[ 7 ] anon hate is cringe, so if you send it, it won't get a response from me unless it's to make fun of you. at this point i expect most of us to know not to answer it seriously otherwise the sender is just being encouraged, so if i keep seeing it being answered / talked about on the dash ( unless it's being poked fun at ), i'm probably just going to soft block for my sake because. y'know, you didn't wanna get the negativity, i don't wanna see that negativity, etcetera.
on that note, untagged negativity will also lead to me unfollowing. untagged posts in general will lead to me unfollowing if it's a frequent thing, honestly.
[ 8 ] with how difficult tumblr has made it as of late to properly source things, i have become significantly more lenient when it comes to people reblogging memes and musings from me, as long as it isn't like several posts in a row. that said, i expect this understanding to be mutual. i'll always try to reblog from the source if i can, but if not, it'll just have to come from whoever slapped it on the dash.
[ 9 ] if you need something tagged, tell me! i’ll do my best to remember to tag what i need to, but please remind me if i happen to forget. the system i use is just "trigger //". now, if you use fancy tags for nsfw posts or posts that otherwise need a trigger warning and refuse to adjust if confronted about it, that's getting a hard block. it isn't difficult to be respectful of what people need tagged. the refusal to do so for your aesthetic is kinda fucked.
as for what i need tagged, all i ask is that visuals of sunflowers are tagged appropriately. i would also appreciate detailed mentions of terminal illness being tagged, specifically cancer, but that's more of a squick than a trigger, so that one is less of a problem.
[ 10 ] obligatory "let's just have fun" rule here. we're all on this hellsite to write our silly little guys, it really isn't that serious. just be decent, and we'll be chill!!
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Sorry for the brief disappearing act, frens, but I finally managed to get the footage I need to finish my Mass Effect: Andromeda vid and I'm putting the final touches on it! 😁
You know, I keep trying to get back to writing things for my own enjoyment again but I can truly say that this vid was made just for me. I wanted my love for this couple to shine through and I think it does. Or maybe I just love them and it makes me happy to see my bbs being happy. I don't know. It doesn't matter. The thing is that making this was a very positive experience and sometimes those are few and far between these days. 😐😉
Anyway, thanks so much to everybody who has tagged me in things, I'll be happily working on them in the next day or so! I love getting tagged and I'm really going to try to, you know, pass that feeling along instead of just vague!tagging like I've been doing. 😶
By the way, if you don't like getting tagged in tag game-ish things, please let me know. Also, if you do but I don't seem to be tagging you in them, also let me know! When in doubt, I don't tag.
I also realized that I've repeatedly tagged a few of my mutuals who are actually not mutuals any longer and that made me feel like a jerk. I just didn't realize they unfollowed me at some point and then here I am, apparently Really Not Taking The Hint, oops. Apologies for that, even though, you know, they won't be reading this because they're not here anymore. But still. Just putting that out there into the universe and all that.
Okay, back to finishing up my vid then hopefully posting it tonight! Then it's back to finishing up my final 2 romance playthroughs before NaNo begins. I wasn't originally planning to Romance Everybody but I find it fun to try out different powers and combat styles while advancing the main missions in order to advance the romances. Though I'm making Scott a terrible Pathfinder by ignoring all of the side quests and non-romance loyalty missions. He even forgot to visit his comatose sister and mannnn, she read him the riot act when she woke up!
Eobard: "And then Sara looked something like this when Scott walked in the room after ignoring her most of the game..." 😡🤬
I honestly enjoy most of the missions and fights in the game and the ones I don't are pretty easy to avoid now that I know where they are. I even found a couple of missions I'd missed and that was really cool!
Welp, I'm outta here!
(I seriously cackled when this happened to poor Emile in Halo: Reach! It was so random! I actually have gotten killed by one of the Banshees getting shot down and crashing on my head, though, so clearly it's a hazard! 😯😂😉)
Love you, frens! 🤗🤗🤗
#ais is vidding#i liiive#lol#tell me if you don't like to be tagged in tag games#also tell me if you do and i haven't been tagging you#though *boops your nose politely* is TOTALLY meant as a tag if i didn't call you by name#ageless aislynn
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heya ✌️ i'm tav, i'm 23 years old, my timezone is est, i've been in the rpc for ~10 years, and you could pour soup in my lap and i'd probably apologize to you. if the way these are worded makes me sound a little harsh, it isn't meant to come off that way!! i've just been in the rpc for too long to be vague or lenient. that said, a few rapid-fire rules before we get into the lengthier ones that actually need explaining:
— don't follow me if you're any sort of phobic towards any group of people. — mun =/= muse, i don't condone everything my muses do, you get the drill. — vagueposting / guiltposting is an instant block from me. it's not cute. we're all adults here, let's communicate and act like it. — don't rush me for replies, period. rushing me for a thread at all will result in me flat out dropping it. — there are both irl and animated faceclaims to be found here. if you aren't chill with that, don't follow. — if you ship kaeya and diluc or are otherwise "indifferent" to it / people who write it, that's also a block. let's not be gross, please.
[ 1 ] for blogs that i can’t see myself interacting with, i will soft block you to keep my followers clean. personal blogs will be hard blocked immediately unless a sideblog is attached to it and i can easily see that your personal blog is a hub. note that i rarely follow first ( unless you're someone i'm already comfortable with ), and it will take me a little while sometimes to decide if i want to follow back. give me a few days at a minimum. do not unfollow and follow again and again to get my attention. i will just hard block you and call it a day.
[ 2 ] i'm neutral on callouts. if i see them and think the proof provided in it is actually valid, then i'll reblog it under my psa tag and leave it at that, no further discussion. it will not go under "drama tw" or anything of the sort, because if it's serious enough, it isn't petty drama. it's a genuine warning passed to other members of the community so they can make their own opinions about. that said, i also believe people can change. if there is proof of that, then i see no reason to hold past mistakes over someone's head.
[ 3 ] i softblock liberally if i feel it necessary, but "necessary" never means i have a personal problem with you, promise. that's reserved for hardblocking, aka personals and the exceptions. on the off chance you think maybe tumblr has un-mutualized us because there was a rare glitch in this perfect website's code, feel free to follow again or even just ask me about it, i don't mind.
[ 4 ] i will only write with 18+ muns. if you follow me and are a minor or your age is not listed clearly on your blog, i will soft block you immediately. do not lie to me about your age, you will be hard blocked if i find out.
on a similar but less serious note, i also don't follow if i can't immediately see an alias. just...kinda wanna know who i'm following, is all.
[ 5 ] i get that plotting is kinda important for some people!! however, rarely will i ever fully plot a thread, and i heavily prefer using memes to interact. now, plotting for the general vibe of the thread and dynamic between characters? absolutely!! but frankly, if i relied on completely plotting threads, i'd kill my creativity and get even less done than i already do. i'm here for a fun time, not a stressful and / or long time, so please be aware.
[ 6 ] speaking of relying on memes, send me several at a time! you're probably more likely to get a response if you give me variety to work with. if i get a meme i don't think i can work with, i'll probably send several back to you to make up for it. just so things don't feel lopsided or something.
[ 7 ] when sending in memes, remember to specify who you want. if you don't specify or don't message me somehow to let me know who you want for that ask, it will not get answered.
[ 8 ] i'm not going to pretend like there aren't people who i will prioritize responses to. that's not me being "clique-y", that's me being comfortable with people i've known for ages. if you think otherwise or have that jealous roleplayer mindset, leave. leave so fast. yikes.
[ 9 ] i am 23 and all of my muses are adults, so nsfw content is likely to show up here in some capacity. when it does, it'll be tagged as "nsfw //" ( or "suggestive //" if it's only implied ). however, i'm likely only going to write those topics with people i'm close to, and even then, very rarely.
[ 10 ] anon hate is cringe, so if you send it, it won't get a response from me unless it's to make fun of you. at this point i expect most of us to know not to answer it seriously otherwise the sender is just being encouraged, so if i keep seeing it being answered / talked about on the dash ( unless it's being poked fun at ), i'm probably just going to soft block for my sake because. y'know, you didn't wanna get the negativity, i don't wanna see that negativity, etcetera.
on that note, untagged negativity will also lead to me unfollowing. untagged posts in general will lead to me unfollowing if it's a frequent thing, honestly.
[ 11 ] with how difficult tumblr has made it as of late to properly source things, i have become significantly more lenient when it comes to people reblogging memes and musings from me, as long as it isn't like several posts in a row. that said, i expect this understanding to be mutual. i'll always try to reblog from the source if i can, but if not, it'll just have to come from whoever slapped it on the dash.
[ 12 ] if you need something tagged, tell me! i’ll do my best to remember to tag what i need to, but please remind me if i happen to forget. the system i use is just "trigger //". now, if you use fancy tags for nsfw posts or posts that otherwise need a trigger warning and refuse to adjust if confronted about it, that's getting a hard block. it isn't difficult to be respectful of what people need tagged. the refusal to do so for your aesthetic is kinda fucked.
as for what i need tagged, all i ask is that visuals of sunflowers are tagged appropriately. i would also appreciate detailed mentions of terminal illness being tagged, specifically cancer, but that's more of a squick than a trigger, so that one is less of a problem.
[ 13 ] obligatory "let's just have fun" rule here, we're all on this hellsite to write our silly little guys, it really isn't that serious. just be decent, and we'll be chill!!
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PLEASE READ!!!
I've been hesitating whether or not post this because I am a people pleaser and have a lot of anxiety when it comes to social media in which I don't have any friends in but:
My blog will not be centered around Spiderverse forever, I will not post fanfics or headcanons every day, and sometimes I just need to rant about my other hyperfixations, university and my autism. The fact that my headcanons always blow up and have a lot of notes make me feel bad about not always sticking to spiderverse but I need to understand that it's my blog and the sole reason I created it was to have a safe place for me to be myself and not care about people I know seeing it and judging me for it.
I try not to look at the number of notes my posts have nor look at how my follower count shoot up since the first headcanon. So please, if you're here just to see stuff about spiderverse and will get mad if I post something about Fnaf, TMNT, animation in general, autism, horror videogames (with trigger warnings beforehand and nothing explicit, probs just ranting about how I love them), Percy Jackson, and so on; just unfollow me please. I don't want to end up spiraling in an endless hole of posting about the same thing over and over just to gain more followers. If you'd like me to tag you whenever I post spiderverse hcs you can just send me an ask and I'll tag you so you don't have to follow me but will still get notified if I post something about it!
This is all slash genuine and light hearted, I won't get mad if you guys unfollow me! Actually it's the other way around, it's what's best for you and for me.
Also! Asks are open too, so if you have any ideas or requests I can post a drabble about it! Just look at my boundaries beforehand and keep it sfw and nice!
That's all for now, thank you and I apologize for all this mess. Have a cookie 🍪 or an ice cream 🍦🍨 if you don't want a cookie
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I completely agree with your post about Tom. People’s entitlement over their favourite celebrities goes to far. And tbh I really hate when fans act like they know for sure how he feels and what he’s thinking based on very ambiguous “evidence”. This is usually done so people can align Tom’s views with their own which requires most of the time someone else to be villanised. What I mean is that fans have no actual proof that the writers, producers and director of Loki are bad people and that Tom is unhappy with the directions the show took. There is usually nothing to be inferred about who these people are beyond their merits as professionals. But fans present their assumptions as facts anyway and that has evolved into actual harassment of the production team. All the while piggybacking on this idea that Tom thinks exactly what like them. And I am saying this as someone who hated TR and thinks Loki was deliberately made weaker/less important so Thor could shine more. And someone who hates pretty much all of Mike Waldron’s previous work on Rick and Morty. But is still feels very presumptuous to act like these people deliberate compromised the their own work because they hate Loki and his fans. And that they are filled with every prejudice know to man. And it’s also very demeaning to victimise Tom in the process. Of course some of the people involved suck but most of the time these assumptions have no basis whatsoever. And there is also an over-identification going on between some fans and Tom which isn’t healthy for anybody.
Sorry it took me several days to get to this, anon. It took me a minute to get my thoughts in order. But in a nutshell, yeah, I agree with a lot of the things you pointed out here - especially with fans acting like they know for a fact what he's thinking or feeling.
Under the cut for length and a bit of wank and disagreement w/ the "Marvel hates Loki" discourse so please skip if you don't want to see it.
A lot of the Loki series wank is rooted in whether or not Tom actually likes the series and significantly contributed to it, or if he's just saying what he has to say for publicity and his ideas and contributions were largely ignored. None of us will ever know for sure, bc none of us are Tom and none of us were directly involved in the series, so it's moot speculation, really. But it seems to basically come down to people trying to reconcile their feelings about the show with their feelings about Tom.
I don't necessarily think there's anything wrong with believing that Tom's hands were tied to an extent and/or he just says things that he has to for promotion, but I also don't think that it should be treated as fact and then used as, like, ammunition against other people working on the show. I personally have not seen anyone I know or am friendly with taking their complaints to the level of harassment of actual people irl (that seems to be more of a twitter thing, as far as I can tell, and imo comes from an entirely different place than just hating the show [I think there's an inherent meanness in people whose instincts are to harass and bully bc they want to actively make others feel like shit]) but I do see it posted as fact, time and time again, that the showrunners had a personal vendetta against Loki and were intent on making the series as bad as possible, and that Tom was helpless to do anything about it.
Which I get, in a way, bc I personally believe that the Russos had, if not a vendetta, an active dislike of Loki and a vested interest in getting him "out of the way" in a manner that would make him look pathetic in IW - but, I certainly can't say that's the case for sure, and I also think it's a little different bc Tom's contractual obligations for his film appearances were likely very different than what he (and/or his people) negotiated for the show.
That's neither here nor there but my point is, I can understand where the theories come from but I just don't think that's the case here, and seeing it so often makes me feel kinda uncomfortable (for a lot of reasons but also) bc, imo, it undermines Tom's autonomy for fans to act as if he's little more than a puppet on a string, just saying whatever he has to say to please the powers that be. Like, yes, there are legally binding contracts that probably limit how candid he can be, and we all know that he sugarcoats things and never says anything bad about anyone, which can make him seem like a bit of an "unreliable narrator" when he gushes about the show -
- but, he's also a big name celeb (I mean, the studio has always banked on his name being attached to the project bc he's the one who would draw in the most viewers). He's got clout (is that the right word?) to back him up - they wanted him, specifically, to play Loki in this series. Without Tom, there's no show. So why would they want to alienate him, silence him, or dismiss him when he comes to the table and says "here are my ideas"?
My point is, it's unfair and, yes, demeaning to act as if Tom is this voiceless, powerless victim who has no choice but to act in a series he hated that was purposefully trying to destroy his character, and then to turn around and mindlessly sing its praises while promoting it.
I think that the truth is somewhere in the middle - Tom's creative control was likely limited bc he wasn't the director and wasn't the showrunner or head writer, and no one person is ever completely in control when it comes to the end result that we, the audience, end up seeing on the screen anyway. He may not have been entirely happy with every writing or directing choice that was made. But it's also very unlikely that he had no say at all or that any input he had was dismissed (or 95% of it, as it were); again, the series is banking on his name being the draw and he has the advantage of being an authority on Loki while also being intelligent and eloquent enough to convey his perspective on the character. I think that the real issue is that Tom's current perspective and/or interpretation of Loki no longer aligns with his interpretation of OG Loki from 2011-13. Which is, admittedly, a very hard pill to swallow.
Anyway, this may have veered off in another direction and idek if you wanted this answered or to have a conversation or maybe you were just venting - but, here we are.
To make it less about Loki specifically and more about Tom in general, though, yeah, ultimately I just wish his fans wouldn't feel so entitled toward him and his opinions, or his career choices, or his love life, or his clothes. I was browsing one of the Tom ask blogs (or maybe it was a Zawe one, I don't remember now) the other day and I find it really creepy, for lack of a better word, at how invested people are in Tom's, like, day-to-day whereabouts. Someone saw him at a restaurant in NYC - I wonder if he's still there today? Where's he staying? Is he there as a tourist or for work reasons? Who could he be meeting with in New York? A producer? Another play? Will he host SNL? Is Zawe still with him or did she go back to London? etc etc like, it really goes back to my original point in my original post which is, basically, who caaaaaaaares, why are you investing so much of your day trying to figure out what Tom is doing with his?
Now I'm just venting, but yeah ... shit's weird.
#asks#a nonny mouse#charlotte replies#tom hiddleston is my favorite unicorn#disclaimer - i know a lot of my mutuals feel this way about tom and my disagreement with those takes is not meant as a personal attack#but again if my opinions hurt your feelings or make you feel like you can't trust me#please just unfollow so i don't have to keep feeling the need to apologize all over the place#for shit i post on my own blog#long post
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#.txt#i want to apologize to anyone who's been disappointed if i haven't been making gifs of busted / the cbx reality show / just gifs in general#i don't know if anyone realized but i'm working full time as a pharmacist now#so i've already come to terms with the fact that i will almost never be able to gif things live#and i don't see the point of making gifs for things that someone else has already giffed unless it's for my sideblog#so idk i just wanted to apologize if any of y'all think i'm a bad exo stan or stan in general or anything lsdkmglaskfsad#to be honest?? yeah i'm still deep in exo and kpop land#but as a 20 something year old adult i have responsibilities i want to fulfill#and exo and my other faves are the ones who keep me going!#plus i was so d*pressed last year just because of something stupid like gifs#don't want it to become something i hate so i'll only gif when i can yeah#and dump a lot of stuff on my sideblog#also i know this will definitely offend someone out there but i am going to start making suju gifs as well#starting tomorrow since they are giving us a preview of super tv 2#if it offends you please blacklist or unfollow me ;;;#tbh i am heavily yesung biased but i know there are plenty of people out there who hate suju#i won't force my opinions on you so please just unfollow if it makes you uncomfortable :(#also i hope everyone won't mind if i make gifs of other groups like suju or idle or blackpink or whatever ;;;#idek why i feel the need to apologize for all of this#but yeah#i just feel like i've disappointed a lot of people lately#but things have changed since i'm a full time working adult now...#hope you all will understand my decisions#i'm actually very happy now because just making gifs for fun on my sideblog releases stress related to notes and followers for me#i still love my faves!! but i don't have to do it for notes and followers!!
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basically one long apology for not writing and some personal updates <3
i really want to apologize for not writing anything recently. i've really burned myself out with writing a novel this month and i think i worked myself a little too hard in october and haven't gotten back on my feet! i see all of your requests and want to do them desperately but i feel really awful and unable to write anything good enough for them so i just end up getting really frustrated and giving up. i feel like ive lost my grasp on steve and eddie a little and combined with tumult in my personal life and the wider world, i find it harder and harder to get into the headspace to write them.
that being said, i promise to get the 12 days of christmas fics out in december as i planned and then i think i'll be taking a break until the new year (or at least trying to be kinder to myself about not writing). so you will see me sporadically, and probably doing a lot more reblogging than anything else! you're all lovely for being so patient with me and i hope that's okay! if it's not, that's also fine too, feel free to unfollow me. thank you for making it this far!
additionally, i'm going to be on vacation for a week starting on tuesday so i don't know how much i'll be around! if you have recommendations for london or Edinburgh send them my way <3
throughout the next few weeks (and forever) please feel free to come chat with me, send me thoughts or just things to chat about! i am going to close requests so that i stop disappointing people by not doing them but you can always come chat to me about steve or eddie or anything you see fit.
i feel really really grateful and lucky for this little blog and for all of you and it's hard not to beat myself up for not enjoying it as much as i used to. but i hope trying to relax a little and get back to a place of enjoyment will be good for me! i know that there really isn't any need to apologize because this is my life and my blog but i really do want to properly attribute much of the joy from this summer/early fall to you all and this space. so, that's why you're reading this post.
i can promise that i will keep this blog up even if my activity wanes. i anticipate falling back into these characters at some point and i am really proud of what i've written so far for them and i don't want that to go to waste. so, regardless of my presence, this blog will always be here! <3
anyway, if you read all of that, thank you! i love you very much.
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