#please i know most of these aren't even that surprising but ive been observing them like lab rats for YEARS

[kevindavidday]

What’s your favorite Kevjean quote(s) (from any book)

Currently my absolute favorite has got to be from TGR:

In quiet French he said, “I should not be here for this.”

Kevin put his hand over Jean’s to hide the half-moon marks Jean was tearing into his skin.

“Stay with me,” Kevin said, just as soft, and Jean forcibly relaxed his death grip.

But I kid you not, every single interaction starting from the first book to TGR is embedded in my head, so excuse me for the long ass list of quotes/scenes below. I have never been normal about them :D

TRK:

"Hello, Kevin."

"Jean," Kevin said quietly.

Jean's smile was lazy, but the look in his gray eyes was ashen ice. Neither of them had anything else to say to each other, but they stared each other down unblinking.

Kevin finally found his voice. "They know how I feel, but words alone won't fix anything. A team that needs this much work requires a larger commitment than that."

"You won't stay," Jean said.

TKM:

Neil considered that, then said, "Good thing you're not there anymore."

"Jean still is," Kevin answered, and Neil knew better than to comment.

"He isn't safe with us," Kevin said. "I won't give him false hope."

"Some hope is better than none at all," Renee said.

TSC:

Kevin caught hold of his face with both hands, forcing Jean to look at him when Jean tried to turn away.

“Breathe,” Kevin said, from a thousand miles away.

“My place is at Evermore,” Jean agreed, “but you did not have to slit my throat on the way out.”

“I’m sorry,” Kevin said quietly.

He held out his hand. Jean glowered at him for a moment, but Kevin was willing to outwait him. Finally Jean relaxed his grip and set his hand in Kevin’s, palm-up. Kevin curled his fingers gently around it so he could turn Jean’s arm this way and that.

“Your blind loyalty to those clowns is exhausting.”

“Some of them you like,” Kevin reminded him.

“Don’t you dare,” Jean warned him, unamused.

“You have a choice,” Jean insisted. “Kill me and let me be done with this.”

Kevin’s expression was forbidding. “You made me a promise.”

“Fuck you. You have no right to hold me to it.”

“But I will.”

“Jean.”

“If you tell me to follow his lead, I will cut your throat open with my teeth,” Jean said. “Go away and don’t come back.”

Jean knew how every shade of fear looked on Kevin’s face, or so he’d thought.

“You did this to us,” Jean accused him as Kevin finally pried his hands away from his face.

“I don’t trust you that close to West Virginia.”

“It’s not your call to make,” Jean said.

“I made it anyway,” Kevin said, unrepentant. “Talk to him.”

“I—” Jean started, but Kevin hung up before Jean got out the, “—won’t.”

I'm sure there's a lot more from TSC but I can't remember them all right now.

TGR (my beloved):

"When did you learn how to cook?” he asked.

“Cat is teaching me,” Jean said. He could have left it at that, but after a beat, he admitted, “I like it. It makes everything else go away for a while.”......Kevin offered Jean a second arepa, waited for Jean to reach for it, and said, “I’m glad.”

Jean went still with his fingers on the dough.

“He was not my partner. It was not his job to protect me, and I didn’t want him to. I just wanted him to die.”

“Our damage control needs damage control. I will never do an interview again.”

“Don’t lie. You like the sound of your voice too much to give this up.”

Literally every single conversation between them when Kevin was in California. If I put it here it'll get too long, but trust all of it was like drugs to me 😭😭

“You are supposed to be better than this,” Jean said, a quiet accusation.

“You have always known what I am.”

[verobatto]

Destiel Chronicles

(Vol. V)

It was a love story, from the very beginning.

(4x01/4x10/4x15/4x16/4x18/4x19/4x20)

"You fascinate me."

Hello my friends!! Here I came with a new volume from this project, thanks to @agusvedder for making the gifs in this meta, if you need some gifs, ask her, she is amazing! And also, she helped me a lot to analyze "The Rapture", bc this is one of her favs episodes! Thank you girl!! 💕💕

This volume is very very Dean and Cas POV, we are going to travel through their fascination for each other, before we enter in the finale volume and talk about Castiel's fall.

Dean's fascination for Castiel

Dean was afraid from the very beginning, but also, so attracted and fascinated with this powerful supernatural been. Castiel's aura full of security, power, beauty, purity, innocence and strength, it was beyond his human understanding. And the fact that this angel had saved him from Hell, giving him a mission, it was too much for him.

It took just a couple of seconds for Castiel to understand the most deepest fears and weakness inside Dean's soul. Dean was captivated, but at the same time, he was insecure about the message. But then this angel went with that thing he said...

Gif ser credit @magnificent-winged-beast

This was and this is still the thing with Dean Winchester. And CAS saw it from the first time. A broken human. And Dean should be surprised bc no one ever could find out this.

In their second encounter, Dean felt the powerful energy from this angel. He experimented just a little of how BAMF could be Castiel... Fear/attraction/intimidation/fascination, as I explained before, in that scene in the kitchen, full of sexual tension.

Then... The heart to heart talk in the park. This angel wasn't so unreachable as he looked... He had doubts too...

Castiel said to him, he was special, important, he had a mission, that was a bunch of huge things to process, knowing nobody never had told him such nice things. And that will continue till now.

And how I can said Dean was fascinated with CAS so early in the season? The Rapture 4x20 is the proof.

The Rapture showed us how Heaven punished Castiel when they discovered he had helped Dean to stop Sam to kill Lilith, by telling him about Archangel protecting prophets. And he was trying to reveal Dean their plans, THEY WERE BEHIND THE APOCALYPSE CONSUMPTION, AND THEY WILL USE DEAN AS MICHAEL'S VESSEL. So Castiel, already with his doubts and free will on his door, he decided to help Dean. But it was too late... They took him to Heaven and let his vessel alone.

The scene in the pier, inside Dean's dream was short but very significant...

Gif set credit my friend @agusvedder

CASTIEL : "We need to talk."

DEAN : "I'm dreaming, aren't I?"

CASTIEL : "It's not safe here. Someplace more private."

DEAN: "More private? We're inside my head."

CASTIEL: "Exactly. Someone could be listening."

DEAN: "Cas, what's wrong?"

CASTIEL: "Meet me here."

Castiel knew they were being observed by Heaven, and he had very huge news for the Hunter.

But when they went to that place, Castiel wasn't there, but Jimmy Novak.

And here we had two differents attitudes coming from Dean. First of all, he empathize with the poor Jimmy, and wanted to help him to come with his family, but Sam had another plans...

But after meeting Anna on the car (thanks Agus FOR helping me with this thing 😘💕) things changed...

Anna was worried bc Heaven had took CAS, Dean thought that was something good, but Anna said... "No. That's a very bad thing. Painfully, awfully bad. He must have seriously pissed someone off."

And since then, knowing Castiel has something huge to tell him, trying to help him, Dean began to feel worried about the angel. Cas was being punished because of him.

And there we had the switch in Dean.

We had this scene too.

At first I thought Dean is feeling pitty for him again... Maybe is thinking the poor Jimmy has to let his family behind to protect them... But then we had this scene...

That's still Jimmy getting shot, why do they have to show us Dean's face?? Not Sammy, not demon!Amelia, but Dean's face and in such desperate expression. That wasn't Castiel, but it was his vessel. Dean was becoming familiar with this angel, even if the vessel hadn't any magnetism for him, Castiel had. Because it's Castiel's magnetic and mysterious aura, full of power and sexiness, and innocence, his intense gaze, the way he talks and moves, who made Dean feel so attracted to him. But even so... This was his vessel and it was very strange to see him getting shot, maybe if he dies Castiel wouldn't come back?

Then my head came back again to the hug scene between Jimmy and Amelia. And was the same energy. Dean knows he isn't Castiel, but it was weird for him watch his vessel hugging a woman...

Yes .. Dean can properly said... He was fascinated with Castiel, the angel, and not his vessel. It was obvious that Jimmy Novak was a very handsome man, but without Castiel, he was just that. Castiel presence gave him the perfect mix. Beautiful for the outside, and beautiful inside. With the entire description about his aura I already wrote... Perfect combination.

Castiel's fascination for Dean

Castiel felt attracted to Dean from the very beginning. He saw through Dean and found a broken man. A bright and beautiful soul, but broken, he didn't have faith, and he didn't love himself...

In episode 4x07 Castiel was looking at him with such an intensity and curiosity in his eyes. Watching the way Dean Winchester wanted to go against Heaven's orders and follow his own decisions was fascinating... Even if Heaven's orders were to follow Dean's decision, even so, the bright light of FREE WILL in this human was irresistible to him. If Anna represented his doubts and rebellion, Dean will be his teacher in Free Will.

Now, let's focus on 4x20, "The Rapture".

When Castiel came back from Heaven to help Jimmy Novak's family, he took his vessel back, and now BRAINWASHED BY HEAVEN, he avoided Dean's gaze, and he was about to leave without saying a word.

But Dean wanted to know what happened, and what was CAS about to tell him before all this mess.

Agus pointed me Castiel's attitude when Dean called him ...

He didn't want to have to speak with Dean... Bc Heaven had made him suffer and this time they brainwashed him, and strictly put in his head HE OBEY TO HEAVEN. AND NOT GET "CLOSE" TO THIS HUMAN, no more... That's why we had this, Castiel turned around to see Dean, he didn't want that. He didn't want to confront this human that had fascinated him so badly to the point of considering disobedience.

And he repeats then his lesson, learned with blood in Heaven...

DEAN: "Cas, hold up. What were you gonna tell me?"

CASTIEL: "I learned my lesson while I was away, Dean. I serve heaven, I don't serve man, and I certainly don't serve you."

Dean blinks full of confusion, he doesn't understand why Castiel is acting like that... And again that distinction between HUMANS/MAN and DEAN. Is because of Dean, again.

To conclude:

Castiel and Dean were fascinated with each other from the very beginning.

Dean was a mix of fascination, fear and attraction and Castiel a mix of forbidden feelings unexplored.

Heaven acted like a boundary between them, trying to separate his soldier from Dean.

The recurrent assistance from the angel to Dean obligate Heaven to be more rough with their punishment for Castiel. This time Castiel learned painfully his lesson... But not for so long... Because we all know he has this crack in his chasis...

I hope you liked this meta! C-u in volume VI!

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If you didn't read it...

Vol. I

Vol. II

Vol. III

Vol. IV

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