#platonic kunidazai

[skkfujoshi]

It’s so quiet here and it feels so cold,this house no longer feels like home

Dazai felt something bitter and disgusting at the back of his throat as he came back to consciousness.He wasn’t quite aware enough yet to pinpoint what it was from,but he mentally noted that vomit was,according to memory,pretty similar.

He felt a couple light slaps against his cheek as the migraine came up,blearily opening his eyes only to make out a pair of slightly tightened concerned lips,a high collared shirt and a start of a tie.

“Ango…”Dazai muttered”I think I may have drank too much…”

In hindsight,maybe this whole redemption thing was a mistake…It sure felt like it with his brain taunting him with the day he realized he was into Chuuya…

Weakly,Dazai glared at the ceiling,putting up a middle finger.Serves the universe right,he thought.

The person’s lips tightened further and they lowered themselves into Dazai’s field of vision,the shock doing a great job of sobering him up 

Atsushi stared back at him,eyes concerned and smile small and weak.

“Yeah,you definitely did…”he muttered.

Belatedly,a few facts began to come back to Dazai.

He was no longer a nineteen year old out on a drink binge after realizing he made his partner and first love into a murderer.

He was employed with a reputable agency and was probably gonna be the talk of the town if anyone saw him or Chuuya walk out of that hotel last night.

And his poor protege probably had to deal with drunk him the entire night and morning.

Dazai threw his arm over his face with a groan.It was rare he felt any shame but if anything could do it…

“Yeah…Yeah,for sure.Sorry for the trouble,Atsushi.” “It’s fine.You’re okay and that’s all that matters.”the boy said brightly 

Dazai shifted his gaze to the ceiling.

“I suppose you’re right.Being an example of that poor judgement yourself.”

“Stop playing martyr.It looks terrible on you.”

“You know…Maybe it isn’t that I changed too much.Maybe it’s that you changed too little.” 

“You don’t feel sorry,do you?”

“Just…Just say you’re sorry, ‘Zai.” 

“Yeah,just fine.Just peachy.”he said,voice hollow

-

Atsushi frowned.He didn’t have to be a genius to not buy that.If Dazai’s almost completely monotonous affect and the empty,flat look of his eyes hadn’t undermined his statement,the choker clutched in his hand would’ve.

It was Chuuya’s choker,Atsushi knew.He might not have seen the man often,but the few times they had encountered one another,that same choker had been around his neck.

And if that photo Dazai had was any indication,Chuuya had had it for at least four years.Atsushi swallowed.

Must’ve been a nasty fight.

“You got quite feisty over it.”Atsushi began awkwardly,pointing at it

Dazai still stared at the ceiling,not saying a word.

“Birthday gift?”he asked,trying again

And again,no response.Atsushi sighed.Obviously he wasn’t getting any information out of his mentor.But that was okay.He’ll share it when he’s ready.

Still,anything was better than dead silence,so Atsushi kept talking,even though he knew he’d get no response.

“I think you should let Yosano give you a check up.Not right now,but like in an hour or so.The woman who called me sounded really worried.”the boy said,trying not to shudder at the memory 

The woman’s almost manic voice over the phone,the thick stench of sweat and alcohol that  hung all over Dazai,the squelching,drippy sounds as he vomited over and over and over again…

“You threw up a lot.So your liver’s probably not in the best shape.Lucky that phones sort alphabetically huh?You got one person who can barely sleep at night to pick you up.”Atsushi said with an awkward laugh

Dazai was still silent.

“I’ll go get you some water.”the boy said beginning to stand up

Before he could stand to his full height though,Dazai took his wrist.

“Mind getting me some aspirin too while you’re at it?”

Atsushi smiled and nodded.It wasn’t much,but it was a start.

“Sure thing.”

-

It was just a normal headache,which took Chuuya by surprise.For the past four years,since he’s been able to talk to Ahrahabaki,the god would act up by making his hangover migraines even worse.

Chuuya suspected that after he had stopped ignoring him it was less to get Chuuya’s attention and more to punish him for sleeping around.

He whined as he thought that it was odd how often him being drunk and hooking up with skinny brunettes intersected.Maybe he should try picking someone up sober and see what happens.

He let out a small whine as he peaked through his eyelashes,spotting a black haired figure clad in high collared black coat fiddling at Chuuya’s desk.

“Dad…”Chuuya muttered confused

The migraine came back with a vengeance,Chuuya shutting his eyes in the face of it as he heard the figure’s footsteps become louder and louder.

A cold hand gripped his,another brushing his bangs aside.

“Chuuya,your father’s been dead for two years,you came back home drunk last night,you’re in your bed and this is Akutagawa speaking.”Rūynosuke said calmly and slowly,giving his hand another grounding squeeze 

Chuuya peaked up,Akutagawa’s narrowed eyes staring down at him,his lower lip bitten raw.

“Rūyu…I’m so sorry for-“

Akutagawa held up two fingers.

“How many?”he asked curtly “Huh?” “How many fingers am I holding up?” “Two.”

Akutagawa nodded and tilted his head in the direction of the nightstand.

“There’s your aspirin and water.Yumeno also got you some rice crackers.”

If Chuuya wasn’t ashamed of himself for leaving Akutagawa to take care of him drunk again,the mention of Yumeno seeing him like that certainly did it.He flushed in shame.

“Shit…How bad was it?” “…Nothing worse than your usual worst to be honest.” “…I’m sorry.” “Don’t apologize to me,I’m not the one who’ll feel sick the rest of the day.Or week.”Akutagawa said curtly

Chuuya sighed,popping in the aspirin in before getting up.Akutagawa reached for him,but Chuuya held his hand up to stop him.

“We already established I’m not dizzy.Tell Yumeno I’m fine if he asks you once he wakes up.You have the next two days free.Could you pull out some clean clothes from my closet and leave them on the bed while I take a bath?”

Akutagawa blinked at him and then furrowed his brows.

“If you’re bathing I think I’ll stay.” “You don’t think-“ “Indulge me,boss.”his protege retorted sharply 

Chuuya xhaled deeply and walked past him.

“Fine.Stay.We’ll talk after I finish.” 

-

Akutagawa tossed periodic glances to the bathroom as he picket out some clean clothes for  Chuuya to wear.

“The door’s ajar,Rūyunosuke.I can see you peering over your shoulder.”Chuuya drawled in annoyance

Well,seems so far everything was fine.A relief.

Akutagawa rolled his eyes and turned back to the closet.He let out a soft exhale as he pulled out a washed out band T-shirt and sweatpants.Not Chuuya’s usual preference but if Akutagawa was right about why he’d gotten drunk last night,definitely the right choice.

He glanced at the bathroom again.

“Chuuya?” “Still alive.” “Good.”

The boy placed the clothes on the bed and sat down on it with a sigh.

He hadn’t lied to Chuuya,not exactly.Technically last night was a lot easier to deal with than the last time Chuuya had been this drunk.

Chuuya would usually be very rowdy when that inebriated,shouting insults and struggling against hold like a petulant child being dragged off of the playground.

The insults had frightened him at first,having never heard Chuuya shout that loud or at him before.But after a few times,with Kōyo’s and Hirotsu’s help he learned he had nothing to worry about.Those insults weren’t aimed at him and Chuuya was just being bratty.

But last night…Last night had been different.Chuuya had been damn near unresponsive aside from a small whine here and there.He only spoke when Akutagawa and Hirotsu were putting him to bed.

Only one sentence and it sent him into a tailspin.

“I don’t need your help,Dazai.”Chuuya had whined,glaring straight up at him

So,if Akutagawa called Chuuya one more time,he wouldn’t apologize.

~

“Dazai?” “Yes.We had a big fight.”Chuuya said nibbling at the cracker

Akutagawa looked at his bare, chokerless neck.

“You don’t say.” “Don’t tease,Rūyu,please…Can I ask something of you?Two things,actually?” “Of course.” “Don’t ask me for more details and don’t utter his name in my presence ever again.”

Akutagawa blinked at him.

“What!?Why!?I-“ “Just…Just do that for me.Please.”

After a few moments,Akutagawa slowly nodded.

“Consider it done,boss.”

-

“Dazai,you bastard!What were you thinking calling Atsushi in the middle of the night!?What did you do this time!?Toss yourself down the garbage incinerator!?And don’t even try to play dumb because Kyouka…Oh.”

Whatever rant Kunikida had had in mind seemed to have fizzled out in his brain as soon as he properly laid eyes on Dazai.

The brunette almost laughed.If that didn’t confirm he looked like shit right now,he didn’t know what would.He gave his partner a small wave from the futon,as Atsushi walked out of the bathroom with another glass of water.The boy smiled apologetically.

“I’m sorry for the confusion,Kunikida.I should’ve called in ahead of time.You see,a woman called me-“ “Because Dazai got drunk,I can tell.You can go.”Kunikida said sternly

Both Dazai and Atsushi blinked.

“What?” “I’ll take it from here.” “But your schedule-“Atsushi began “Has enough space in it for me to take care of my partner.As I said I can take it from here.You go.” “But-“ “Go,Atsushi.In fact both of you can go back to work,I’m feeling a lot better.”

Kunikida didn’t respond,merely fixing him with a glare to shut him up.Atsushi placed the glass next to Dazai,before awkwardly shuffling towards the door,tossing the two one last glance before shutting it.

As soon as the lock clicked closed,Kunikida’s shoulders sagged and his face became more neutral.He walked over to Dazai and ran a finger over his forehead.

“So,what’s the sitch doc?” “Sweaty.” “Ah.” “Take off your clothes.”

Dazai gave a theatrical gasp,before giving his sweetest smile and wiping away fake tears.

“Oh Doppo…I knew you’d come back to me eventually.” “To take a bath,you freak!”

Dazai sighed in feigned disappointment,but obeyed nonetheless.As he followed Kunikida to the bathroom though,he considered what he had said.Would it really be that bad?

Granted,he’d be lying to himself about his interest in Kunikida,the depth and nature of it and he was sure that Kunikida would know that at least on some level.But if they both just ignored that,would it really be so bad?

It would be better than getting with some stranger at least,considering their history.

“Hey Doppo?”he mumbled as Kunikida let the bath fill “Hmm?”  “What if we got back together?”  “What?” “You heard me.” “…Dazai…”Kunikida warned “Oh come on.You wanna.A little bit.”Dazai teased,turning to face him

His deadpan face kinda made Dazai doubt that.Not fully,but certainly not insignificantly.Kunikida crossed his arms and raised a brow.

"I would say maybe I’d consider it if you stopped clutching your ex’s jewelry,but I’m not a liar.”

He sighed.

“Listen,Dazai,whatever brain eating parasite compelled me to find you attractive has long since abandoned the premises.”

Dazai gave him his sauciest wink.

“Are you sure?” “Quite.” “Darn.” “Besides,even if it hadn’t,I wouldn’t settle for being a replacement.Not again.”

Dazai leaned his head against the lip of the tub with a deep exhale.It was rather selfish wasn’t it?

“Fair enough…I just…” “Want a distraction?” “Something easy.” “Wow thank you…”Kunikida said sarcastically “…I’m sorry.”Dazai muttered 

He ran his hand through the water,the two silent.Dazai closed his eyes and smooshed his cheek into the lip of the bath.

“He hates me,Kunikida.Actually despise might be more accurate now.” “From what I’ve gotten so far,seems like you two argue a lot.He might get over it.” “Considering that I tried to kill him in his sleep…Doubt that.”Dazai said peaking trough his eyelashes 

Kunikida took off his glasses,rubbed his temples and took a very deep breath. 

“What?” “Look-“ “You tried!?Again!?” “Hey,be accurate.Last time someone tried for me.” “Regardless!”Kunikida yelled 

Dazai shrugged and gave him a small seemingly apologetic smile,causing his partner to bury his face in his hands.

“You’ll be the death of me,I swear.”

Dazai chuckled,but it died quickly on his lips.

“Maybe it’s for the best.” “What is?” “That it ended like this,you know?Me and Chuuya,Double Black,whatever you wanna refer to it as.It had to go,for both our sakes.Now it’s put down for good and we can both go our separate ways.”

Dazai propped his head up with one hand using the other to turn off the faucet.

“Even before I left,I always felt…We were too different.I mean,you’ve seen him.He’s stubborn,reckless,loud and-“ “What you want.” “Sorry?” “He might be all those things but you still want him,don’t you?” “I’m not following.”

Kunikida cleaned his glasses against his vest as he spoke.

“Remember that masquerade party you managed to convince me and the president to let you tag along to?At the home of that lawyer we saved from being assassinated?It was…on March 3rd I believe,round two years ago.” “What are you aiming at?” “I had this huge sense of deja vu while talking to Motojiro.His hair reminded me of something but I couldn’t quite place it.” “…” “Turns out it reminded me of a man I saw being dragged away from the drinks table that night.Asked him about it and he confirmed that was him.Apparently he was there with Chuuya.That very same day Chuuya faked his death.” “…” “I do wonder…Who was it that gave him that tip about how long it takes to issue a death certificate?” “Let me guess, ‘Maybe a man who faked his own death?’?”Dazai said doing his best Kunikida impression  “I don’t sound like I have a stuffy nose!” “Beg to differ.Anyway,what’s your point?”

Kunikida pushed his glasses up on his nose.

“My point is,he might just be the love of your life.”

Dazai nearly flinched at the accusation.It was a big thing to claim,a huge assumption,something that Kunikida had no right to say in his place.

He opened his mouth and tried to deny it,yet…Nothing came.

“Even though you didn’t know if he had become like his father,you still carried that torch for him.I mean you can’t really deny it with the picture and all.”

Dazai stayed quiet,which if the slight curving of Kunikida’s mouth was any indication his partner took as victory.

Dazai wasn’t going to agree.Yes it was true he was in love with Chuuya for a very long time.That most likely he’d bear some kind of affection for Chuuya until he dies,hopefully sooner than later.

That didn’t necessarily make Chuuya the love of his life,having baggage over a crush did not by default a lifelong love make.

However…Him not being able to put the good of the world above Chuuya by not being able to kill him might.

“Even if he was,what does it matter now?Did you miss the part where I said he despises me?Where I said I tried to kill him in his sleep?” “No,I got it.I just I don’t think he’ll hate you forever.You tried to kill him once before.And all he did was rough you up a bit.” “Yeah,but then I didn’t try to stab him in the heart with his dead father’s scalpel after we had drunk make up sex.”

Kunikida very slowly blinked,proceeding to swallow before nodding in acknowledgment.And then he smacked Dazai in the head.Hard.

“…Can’t lie.Deserved.”he muttered  “Still…I think you already put him through the worst of it when you left.” “He told you?” “After a fair bit of prodding and leverage.How you made him think he’d hallucinated you that night,how you lied to his face,blew up his car…You know all the things.”

Dazai nodded along.He noted the kiss was excluded,but he probably would’ve done the same to spare his own dignity if he was being honest.

“Was really annoyed and bitter about it but you know what he said at the end?” “That he’s glad I’m not his problem anymore?” “I suppose in a way of speaking,he did.He said that despite all that he’s glad you ended up with us,even if it won’t last.”

Dazai scoffed.

“Kunikida,I don’t need my feelings spared.” “I know,and I’d never dare to.He genuinely said that.” “Oh…”

The worst part was that it wasn’t even a hard sell.He could see Chuuya saying,or more accurately,grumbling something of the sort under his breath easily enough,especially with the comment he made about Dazai being a hypocrite.

Damn…

“I really fuzzed it up,huh?” “What?” “Just something me and Ango use to say.Don’t worry about it.”

Kunikida sighed and took hold of Dazai’s shoulder,giving it a light squeeze.

“Look,Dazai…Usually I wouldn’t do this-“ “Tell me to get with a criminal?” “Quiet.However…I know what it feels like to live with the regret of a road not taken…With the what if’s…And that’s something I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemy.” “I’m your worst enemy?Why,Doppo,I’m flattered,I never-“

Kunikida put a hand over his mouth.

“I said quiet.Listen,Osamu…I can only assume how much you’ve lost,coming into…all that so young.Don’t make yourself lose him too.”Kunikida beseeched

Dazai’s shoulders sank as Kunikida uncovered his mouth.

“And if I already have?” “Unlikely,but if true…At least you can say you gave it the old college try and we’ll make sure to stop you from doing anything too stupid.”Kunikida said with a small smile

Before he could think better of it,Dazai wrapped his arms around Kunikida’s neck,pulling him close.

His partner briefly stilled,but hugged back a second later.

“What did I do to deserve a friend like you?”Dazai said with a sigh “Simple.You were the best partner I ever had.”

Dazai squeezed him tighter,with a long,deep sigh.

“…Would now be a bad time to ask for a week off?” “Take all the time you need.” “…Damn,maybe I should get my heart broken more often.” “Don’t test me or I drown you in this bathtub.” “Dully noted.”

-

“What the hell are you doing!?” “Just…taking care of…something.”Chuuya panted out,as he stopped hacking at his and Dazai’s old bed

He exhaled and wiped his forehead.

“Wanna help?”he asked,turning towards Kōyo

In response,she took a deep breath and walked over to him,before gently squeezing his wrists.

“Kōyo?” “Drop the knife,Chuuya.”she said firmly

He blinked at her,furrowing his brows.

“What?You don’t seriously think I’ll try-“ “I’m not taking any chances.” “I’m not gonna do something that stupid!” “You already have.Drop it.”

Chuuya lifted his chin.

“Or what?” “Or I twist your wrist till you have no other choice from the pain.” “You wouldn’t.” “Try me.”

They glared at one another in silence for a while,neither making a move.Then with a heavy sigh,Chuuya relented.

The knife clanked to the floor and Kōyo pulled him into her arms,smooshing her cheek against the top of his head as she pulled them both down onto the floor.

Her hand moved to cradle the back of Chuuya’s head,undoing his halfassed ponytail from last night as she let out a long exhale.

“What happened?” “You can figure from what Hirotsu told you.” “Was Dazai really that bad in bed?”

Chuuya sighed,half exasperated,half amused.

“Oh.That good.”she teased “Stop.”Chuuya said with a tired,breathy laugh

She squeezed him tighter.

“Well if you don’t tell me I’ll just never know which one of those answers is correct.” “…It wasn’t the sex.It’s what came after.” “Hmm?”

Chuuya swallowed.His throat felt  itchy as he spoke.

“…He tried to kill me.With my father’s own scalpel.A stab in the heart,at that.Gotta give it to the guy,he has a knack for pathos.” “Bastard…How did you avoid it?”  “He gave up.” “What?” “He gave up.I heard him toss the scalpel and gloves as I was waking up.I called him out mid sob.”

And there was the kicker.Dazai gave up,not because Chuuya figured him out but because he couldn’t go through with it.

Everything could’ve been fine.They were so close to being okay.

“I asked him to say sorry and he just…couldn’t.Two words.Two damn words that’s all,but no.Of course not…He couldn’t even give me that…”Chuuya remarked bitterly 

Kōyo was quiet as Chuuya cleared his throat,stroking his hair,seemingly content to just listen for now.

“I-I need to destroy that bed Kōyo.I’ll never be able to sleep again knowing anything of his is still here.I already tossed the rest of his shit two years ago,this is the only thing left and the sooner I’m rid of it the better.”Chuuya ranted

Kōyo hummed,hands slipping to Chuuya’s shoulders as she leaned away.She appraised him with sad eyes,looking him up and down.

Then with a short exhale,she spoke.

“I understand your point,but…Where would the cut off be?” “What?” “Most of the furniture in this room is just as much his as it is yours.You might as well wreck the whole room and what sort of pointless sinkhole of money will that be when we need it for something later?” “…” “Destroy your office and your own bedroom while you’re at it too,since those were supposed to be his.And let’s not forget to toss Akutagawa out onto the street as well,since you two shared him.” “Your point is?” “…You’ll always find something that reminds you of him,Chuuya.In your mind if not in your surroundings.” “Wanna bet?”he challenged  “…Chuuya do you think that leaving the mafia would make you forget any of what you’ve been through?”

He blinked in confusion.

“I…It’s-“ “Yes or no.It’s that easy.” “Listen-“ “Look me in the eyes and tell me.Yes or no?”Kōyo asked grabbing his jaw

Chuuya opened his mouth a couple times,the comforting lie on the tip of his tongue,but just refusing to get out.Around the fifth attempt he sighed and just shook his head.

Kōyo let his face go,hands falling on top of his.

“…Remember our first sparring session?”she asked “Yeah,you kicked my ass in almost less than a minute.”

The woman let out a chuckle.

“To be fair,you were eleven.Doubt you would’ve lasted long even if you came out of the womb with a drop kick.”

She let out another chuckle.

“I still remember you crying like a little baby.” “Hey!” “…I honestly thought that would be the end of it and you’d stop bothering me.But sure enough,next week,you came back and tried again.And then three years later…I was looking up at your annoyingly smug face after you beat me.” “…” “It was a hard road Chuuya,but you kept at it.And you made it through to the other side.You’ll make it through the other side of this too.I know you will.”she said squeezing his hands 

Chuuya let out a hearty exhale,pressing his forehead against hers.

“So what I just…Mope?Abbandon my duties to just-“ “Chuuya.”Kōyo said firmly “If you want me as your successor surely you believe that I can handle your obligations for a few weeks.” “You shouldn’t have to.”  “Just because you have that stupid scarf now doesn’t mean you’re not my little brother anymore.”

Chuuya allowed himself a small smile before kissing her cheek and burying his face into her neck.

“Thanks sis.I really owe ya one.” “You owe me a couple,but it’s alright.Buy me another penthouse apartment and we’ll call it even.”she joked

The laugh Chuuya let out at that managed to sound a bit more genuine.

First overall Au info post

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A/N:Tge fic’ll be going on a short hiatus before season four,so I can finish the first draft of my novel.It won’t be a long hiatus as I was 85% percent done anyhow,just thought I’d mention it.

[chr0n1c-ag0ny]

I need more platonic kunikida and dazai softness actually.

kunikida who calls dazai a few times every day, especially if they don't see each other at work, and can tell just by the sound of dazai's voice that he's not doing well.

kunikida who rushes right over, regardless of what he's doing or his schedule to be by his partners side.

kunikida who sits on dazai's crummy couch and watches his sappy dramas or childish cartoons for hours, just holding his hand, cause theres nothing else he can do.

kunikida who washes dazai's dishes while he sleeps, tidying his apartment, making a grocery list, doing laundry, or whatever else needs doing so dazai won't have to worry about it.

kunikida being the person dazai calls when he knows he's not doing well and needs help. who calls him when he wants to hurt himself, when he wants to fall asleep and never wake up.

kunikida who holds onto his partner as he cries, pained by the weight of simply existing, as if to take on some of that weight for himself.

kunikida who spends every few weekends force-feeding dazai soup and rice or gently, oh so fucking gently (cause he's terrified dazai will shatter one of these days) throwing his partner in the tub, barely undressed, eyes blank, so he can wash his hair with careful hands.

kunikida who keeps the spare room in his house free, just in case dazai needs a place to go.

kunakida who complains about taking on a lot of dazai's work, but 9 times out of 10, doesn't mind cause he knows dazai needs the help, and its the one place he actually asks for it.

dazai who always wakes up first after long nights cuddled on the couch, waking at an ungodly early hour, making sure to tuck a blanket around his partner before laying back down against him.

dazai who calls kunikida over to eat shitty take out and binge a new season of a soap they've been watching.

dazai who, no matter how much he complains about him to his face or to close friends, is always admiring the other man, making sure anyone who doesn't know him face to face knows how amazing he is.

dazai who trusts kunikida more than he trusts anyone else, who lets kunikida see his scars, who lets him closer then he lets most other people.

dazai who had kept a count of every debt he owes the other man that he hopes to one day repay. who makes it up by remembering which teas he likes or what books he's been meaning to pick up for the library and leaving them on his desk anonymously.

dazai who sits on kunikida's counters as he stress cooks, tasting and gossiping and being a nuisance (he gets kunikida to smile).

dazai who sits next to him while he's having a breakdown of his own, not being anywhere near as skilled as kunikida is in terms of handling someones failing mental health, but trying his damndest to help.

dazai who worries about his partner in the field.

[zukkaoru]

it burned my soul to see

Chuuya looks peaceful like this, Dazai notes absently. Their thumb finds rest in the center of Chuuya’s palm, and they press down just hard enough that it triggers an instinctive reaction; Chuuya’s fingers curling inwards. Almost like he’s holding them back. It’s close enough. It’s more than they deserve.

five times dazai admires others’ hands + one time they finally see the beauty in their own

❣️ 3.5k words || dazai-centric ft. skk, kunidazai, kunichuuzai ❣️ written for @bnesszai <3

[lotus-pear]

cant believe there are kunikida and kunidazai haters in the world . disgusting .

REALLLLLLL BITCHES FORGETTING THEIR ROOTS💔💔💔 … U ARE FUCKING LYING TO ME IF KNKDZ WASNT UR FIRST BSD SHIP IDGAF IF IT WAS ROMANTIC OR PLATONIC I KNOW EVERY SINGLE ONE OF U SHIPPED THEM OR FOUND THEIR DYNAMIC FUNNY…..REMEMBER UR ROOTS GIRLIES…..OR I’LL HELP YOU REMEMBER 👹👹👹👹👹

[just-a-dinosaur-i-guess]

hiiiiii okay!!! for the five sentence thing ummmm idk exactly what you ship super well yet, so forgive me!!! what about kunidazai + … idk my first thought was “i am filled with calculust” lol

or maybe like platonic nikolai & sigma + “what’re we gonna do, storm the palace?”

(sorry my go-to is musical lyrics lol)

KUNIDAZAI <3 also oouuh platonic nikosig,,,

Dazai poked Kunikida. Once. Twice. Thric-

"Would you knock that off??" Kunikida batted at his hand, and Dazai grinned, having finally got the attention he craved. Kunikida sighed.

"What do you want, Dazai?"

Dazai giggled, leaning into his ear. It was a slow, slow day at the office and he, frankly, wasn't having it.

"Iii am filled with calcul-"

Kunikida smacked him off his chair.

-

my brain went immediately to ttrpgs for this one . bram did not agree to gm.

"What're we gonna do, storm the palace?" Sigma crossed his arms, glaring at Nikolai across the table. "We're barely level two!!"

"We can take em!!" Nikolai grinned, "Cmonn, don'tcha trust me?"

"No!!" Sigma leaned closer, "You come on, you always do this!! We just die!"

"it'll go fiine- Braaam, Bram, can I drag him to the palaceee?"

"Nikolai no-"

[caffeiiine]

OK ok

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Your bsd

Ships

uhh i don’t ship much, a majority of mine are platonic but i like:

atsulucy

suegiku

kunidazai

siglai

ranpoe

tachigin

and a few others i can’t remember rn :)

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bsd spoilers

given their past (and chemistry), do you think Fukuzawa x Fukuchi counts as an honorary soukoku duo??

For those missing context, I made a tiktok about pairings within BSD that lie along the Soukoku spectrum, because though we only have three canon SKK pairings, there are many others who just fit the bill.

To be named an honorary SKK duo, the characters within the pairing must be "very different" but actually similar, hence the name "Twin Dark" or "Double Black." They must also fit into the yin/yang symbolism we have going on (which I explain in more detail here). Here are some pairings I suggested in the video:

Rimbaud + Verlaine (rather different personalities, but make up for it with tragedy)

Yosano + Ranpo (platonic)

Sigma + Nikolai (platonic?)

Tecchou + Jouno

Tachihara + Teruko (platonic)

And because I like sharing pain, here are some non-BSD ships I consider SKK-coded:

Denji + Power (CSM)

Maki + Yuta (JJK)

Hange + Levi (AOT)

Wei Wuxian + Jiang Cheng (MDZS)

Inosuke + Zenitsu (KNY)

Fukuzawa and Fukichi do make a good potential SKK pair, especially because of the angst. I think they would sit a little lower on the spectrum, though, because while they had similar beginnings, they are now incredibly different people, and they have different goals. The most important aspect of a Twin Dark pair, in my mind, is having similar (if not the same) ideals, motives and goals. That's why I didn't list Kunidazai, Atsulucy or Fyolai (all popular, wonderful ships) as SKK pairs.

[knockyasocksoff2022]

Kunidazai

@wildroserogue has inspired me to write some Kunidazai even though I don't really ship it that much. It certainly does have lots of potential.

I have a few ideas (all crack), they'll probably be able to be read as platonic or romantic.

I might possibly do some relationship reveals though, just because I love writing them so much. (probably going to be Dazai being a lil' shit (TM) and blabbing about their relationship in front of the ada)

[soulless-bex]

kunidazai (qpr) headcanons!!

(they/them pronouns for dazai and he/him for kunikida)

dazai moved in with kunikida a few months after joining the agency. it had been decided, as a team, that they were unable to take care of themself on their own, and thus the roommate solution

dazai didn’t share their pronouns with the class for the longest time, because they thought (wrongly) that it didn’t matter. for their defence tho, they only figured out that they were nonbinary shortly before leaving the mafia, and with the following two years of isolation, didn’t really get to establish with themself that it was important. oda would have done it for them, but alas, couldn’t. anyway, when kunikida finally figured it out, he felt like shit for misgendering them for so long and dazai was confused as fuck

they actually didn’t get together right away. for a while, their relationship in their shared apartment was more of a ‘you’re my responsibility’ kind of thing, until kunikida got the (platonic) feels for dazai. then, their relationship involved a lot more of late night cuddles, trust building and tentative vulnerability

kunikida is a lot more lenient with dazai here. he understands that they have bad days (which are honestly most days) and tries to help them get better. he helps them a lot with the paperwork, not by doing it for them, but just by sitting beside them and pointing out stuff they forgot and humming approvingly when they do something correctly or even better than kunikida himself would have done it. it’s a system that involves a lot of rewards and breaks

dazai gets to have someone they can trust! sure, they don’t spill all of the tea right away, it actually takes a kidnapping (you know which one i’m talking about) and a mental breakdown for them to admit to having been in the mafia, but they’re getting there and kunikida is being really patient

kunikida grows extremely overprotective of dazai. the moment they disappear without mentioning it before hand he’s worrying about dazai’s safety. he knows they need their space and independence, but that doesn’t stop him from worrying. and the moment chuuya and dazai make a move to start dating again, he’s already out there threatening chuuya against harming dazai in anyway

kunikida actually trying his hardest to learn and understand dazai’s trauma. and identifying any potential triggers to be the best partner he can be

cue to kunikida holding dazai’ hand during their doctor appointments. yosano sees it but says nothing about it. she’s just glad they found a way to get dazai through their appointment without them trying to make a run for it

if kunikida has a detailed plan to murder mori in his notebook then it’s no one’s business

[eldritchpedia]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dazai Osamu & Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs) Characters: Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs) Additional Tags: Autistic Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs), Comfort, Insecurities, Repetitive Eating Habits, Stim Toys, canon typical bickering, Dialogue Heavy Series: Part 5 of autistic kunikida Summary:

dazai pesters kunikida about a mysterious string around his neck.

[chr0n1c-ag0ny]

[lowkey-yyy]

Slams back in with a hc

100% Dazai is the clingiest most physically demanding boy to be close with but, also is terrified of being touched, hugged or cuddled because he has never had that before. If he wanted a hug there was no one to hug for his whole childhood until Chuuya came a long but even then how is he supposed to communicate he wants human contact? He refuses to be weak enough to appear hurt and he won't touch Mori or any other older member of the mafia since it is a risk so he has no experience other than being hit or kicked. So he just doesn't seek the physical affection he craves and just protects himself. Dazai also felt that perhaps he was dangerous to touch, his ability posed risks to others and he worried that was why no one ever held him, he must have been doing something wrong after all

Years later he still doesn't quite understand it, when Atsushi hugs him he still finds himself going stiff waiting for the pain and when Chuuya comes near him he is immediately on the defensive even if he trusts his friend with his life he doesn't trust the friendly affection. Dazai despises this unsettled feeling he gets when this craving for affection is filled, he doesn't know how to react or what to say. It is like this until Kunikida, while Kunikida can be rough with him when he is soft the other doesn't expect reciprocation and realizes when he is overwhelmed and backs off but the offer is still there, he feels safe laying against Kunikida on the train and in the car during long rides.

Kunikida is surprisingly patient with him and never uses these affectionate movements to change them into harmful traps, Dazai feels reintroduced to learning how touch works. He can hug Atsushi back (somewhat, its still a work in progress) and Chuuya is still rejected but the redhead notices a change in Dazai's reaction to general contact, he isn't as off put by it and he notices that his former partner clings to his new partner rather often. The two are noticeably closer and Dazai is always holding onto Kunikida with a smile on his face.

When Dazai and Kunikida officially fall for each other the two are almost inseparable, Dazai refuses to let go and Kunikida is soft for the attention knowing how long it took to get this far so he tolerates it with a soft flush and faux annoyance although he will actively ignore the teasing remarks as to why he isn't dragging the brunette off, and when they are alone Dazai drapes himself over Kunikida and just wants to be as close as physically possible, clinging like a koala and nestled up like he is desperate for Kunikida's body heat and will in fact die without it.

Chuuya noticed the two were in love before anyone else and that was fair due to the countless years he has known Dazai and this was the first time he had seen the bandaged man desperately fall in love, he thought it was kind of adorable and he found it amusing. It was all too tempting to torment Akutagawa about how hard his former mentor had fallen for Kunikida of all people but he resisted opting to wait for the oblivious kid to finally realize it on his own. Chuuya eventually got to the point that he could touch Dazai's shoulder without recoil and Akutagawa was extremely jealous, he wanted the attention and affection too! Some day he would definitely get a hug, he was determined after seeing Atsushi get one.

Bonus :

I feel like the first time Chuuya ever tried to hug Dazai (perhaps after seeing Dazai become unsettled) that Dazai just freaked out and left as fast as he could, then proceeded to ignore and avoid Chuuya for like a week. He doesn't get how Chuuya could so easily hold him like that when obviously something was wrong with him (even if it was just in his head) and poor Chuuya had to see his only friend literally breakdown and avoid him because he tried to hug him once and is very confused. Chuuya sees it as a comfort and safe thing but for Dazai he wants and craves it but is terrified he will just get hurt instead.

Also Kunikida hugging Dazai after a tough case where Dazai could have died and just bawling over how scared he was for him, Dazai finally realizes Kunikida won't hurt him like this and he is safe and man just looses all tension to the point Kunikida freaks out thinking he broke Dazai by just holding him while Dazai having no idea what to do but wanting to stay like this is just limp and safe in Kunikida's arms. He is like a ferret, wiggly, limp and snuggly.

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If this is bad blame it on my 2 hrs of sleep ok

[zukkaoru]

can i please order a uuhhh

bloody kiss + skk

And/or

Platonic/romantic pairing of your choice + forehead kiss

yes you absolutely may <3

skk + a bloody kiss

Chuuya laughs, gleeful and borderline manic, and Dazai wants to die. Blood is splattered across his face, flecked in his hair and staining the collar of his white shirt. He’s beautiful. Dazai wants to die.

They don’t realize they’re staring until Chuuya turns his gaze on them and raises an eyebrow, a grin still gracing his features. He wears blood so prettily. Dazai wishes they could do that, but the blood on their skin merely stains and blemishes.

“Something wrong?” Chuuya asks.

Dazai puckers their lips. It feels more like a pout. “Stupid slug made a mess,” they grumble, as if that’s something they’ve ever cared about before. As if they don’t thrive in bullet wounds and bloodshed.

“Hey, don’t act like you didn’t help!” Chuuya saunters up to them. Joy still shines vibrant in his eyes. Dazai doesn’t understand how he does it, doesn’t understand how someone can be so beautiful and hopeful even washed in darkness.

Without thinking, Dazai reaches out. They swipe their thumb through the blood on Chuuya’s cheek. They pretend not to notice Chuuya’s breath catching in his throat at the moment of contact, pretend not to notice him leaning into it.

Dazai brings their thumb to their mouth. Their tongue darts from their mouth, dipping into the blood. It’s metallic and bitter. They would lick Chuuya’s skin until it was clean, if he asked.

“You’re disgusting,” Chuuya says, the ghost of his laughter still laced through his voice. Then, he tugs Dazai closer by the collar of his coat and presses his lips to theirs.

-

kunidazai + forehead kiss

Dazai is sprawled out on the floor when Kunikida emerges from the bathroom, hair still wet from his shower. He’s not surprised, exactly, though he is briefly worried before he notes the steady rise and fall of their chest. Their cane has been abandoned nearby, and they’re staring at the ceiling, unblinking.

“Dazai?” Kunikida asks.

No response. Not even the slightest indication that they heard him.

Kunikida purses his lips. He crosses the room, then kneels down beside Dazai and brushes their bangs out of their eyes. They look straight through him, eyes unseeing.

He leans forward, pressing a gentle kiss to his forehead. “I’ll be in the kitchen if you need anything.”

He moves to stand, but before he can, Dazai’s hand darts out and catches his sleeve. For a long moment, they remain silent, though their grip holds firm.

Kunikida waits.

Finally, Dazai whispers, “Can you stay?”

He disentangles their fingers from his sleeve, bringing their hand up to his mouth so he can kiss their knuckles.

“Always,” he promises.

[arcadiianliives]

Shipping Info Meme 

Answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER?:

DR: Sondam, Soudam, Naegami, Chisa/Kyosuke, 

Noragami: Bishamon/Kazuma?? That’s about it really.

BSD: Ranpoe, Fitz/Zelda (Obvs), Kunidazai, 

Persona 4&5: Kanji/Naoto, Yosuke/Chie, Yosuke/Narukami

WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO WRITE WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING?

Just about anything other than the given no’s (incest, p*dophilia), and I won’t do any sort of smut either. Want angst? you got it! Fluffy moments that are so sweet you get cavities?? Totally!

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?

Anything 10+ years in an age gap as adults, 2-3 year gap for anyone under 20. For the age gap to be wider than 3 years, that’s when both muses are over the ages of 22.

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?

I will always give a muse a chance to ship, given that we either plot about it first or have some platonic interactions going to see how it works! I’m only super selective when it comes to OCs due to many bad interactions I’ve had in the past. 

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?

Considering I don’t really write too many “steamy” moments, it’s hard to judge? I’d say if you farther than some heated kissing, that’s my limit for me? I actually don’t know and the limit may be pushed back, depending. 

WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH?

I ship anyone with anything, just about. The only people I will not ship with anyone else is Yukine (because he’s (at least looks) 14) and Fitzgerald (because he’s married). I lowkey wanna try Alcott/Poe and Imposter/Mikan

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?:

I would say if we can see the chemistry there, I won’t mind if they start doing more shippy things (cause at worst, I will politely ask for them to not do that), but to be reassured, asking is always key.

HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP?

Plenty

ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?:

Ship more or less, it’s mainly because I value a lot of BROTPs than just simply OTPs

ARE YOU MULTISHIP?

Yes I am!

WHAT IS/ARE YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP(S) IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?:

Ranpoe for BSD, Sondam for DR, and Kanji/Naoto for P4

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?:

Just let me know?? Like if you 100% are so down for this ship let me know cause chances are I’m either all for it or willing to give it a try!

tagged by: yoinked it from @a-hell-of-a-lot-of-muses

Tagging: anyone who hasn’t done this??

[ca-3]

i saw u had a post discussing kunikidazai and i can't remember if you ship it or not, but if you do how about those goofs and 4c for that new drawing meme?

I did discuss it a little but it was really someone telling me that KuniDazai was really big rare pair and I said I ship it platonically. (I’m a Dazai/Atsushi shipper more) but I’m okay with romantic for you I guess.

But here you go. ^^

I know Kunikida’s taller but eh maybe Dazai’s on his toes??? it easier for me to leave it ahhhh

Requests are closed for now but poses are here if you wanna try them!

[skkfujoshi]

Amicable exes Kunidazai lives in my head rent free

I’m an SKK shipper,we all know this but even I cannot deny that Kunikida and Dazai probably explored one another’s bodies.

However,I do think that they broke up,cause I refuse to believe that Osamu ‘lover boy’ Dazai would ever cheat or flirt with someone else while in a relationship.And Dazai flirts with a bunch of women in front of his face in season one and I assume regularly,not to mention

All of that…

However,I do think Chuuya was the reason,cause in my mind SKK post Dazai leaving will always be the “one that got away” to one another.

How I think it went is that Kunikida was the one to ask Dazai out and Dazai,being in a bad mental space and wanting to seperate from the mafia as much as possible said yes.

But…There were moments where Dazai was distant where it seemed like he had to try harder than you usually would to be affectionate in a relationship.

Like he has to put in effort to keep it up.

Kunikida tries to ignore it,but he’s not stupid,so eventually he confronts Dazai about it.

And Dazai admits that while he does like Kunikida and loves him,yes,he’s not in love with him.And that might be because of this person he use to know.While Kunikida understands he still ends things because he won’t be anybody’s sloppy seconds.

And while it’s awkward at first they eventually heal.They’re still partners after all and nothing can change that.

But imagine the nonsense: Dazai looking at Kunikida’s options and saying “You can do better.” ”I dated you.” ”Fair point,carry on then.”

Kunikida telling Dazai that Chuuya’s too good for him after finally meeting him in season 4 and Dazai being like “How could you 😭😭😭.”

Helping the other get dressed for dates cause they know what makes the other look good.

Dazai joking about getting back together once they take Atsushi in.

Being unusually touchy with eachother,leaning on one another’s shoulders,holding hands

Love this idea sm