#pjm:slice

[luaspersona]

ok, so. well. how should i start this?

i'm actually staring at my phone for around 40min trying to come up with words cus i actually teared up reading this — and although i am very emotional, your writing just stabbed me in the chest istg 😭🔪

so, out of words, i decided to try and understand how you did it. how did you fit seven months worth of intimacy and comfort into 3.5k words? how did you fit an eternal goodbye into 3.5k words? honestly this was devastating and i don't know if i should thank you for sharing such a sincere and genuine work, or scream at you for writing such a sad piece

it all began so softly, so sweetly. we are allowed within their domesticity, the easiness with each other, the reading emails while the other is arranging flowers (and omg if namjoon doesn't fit among flowers 😭).

oh and i really liked namjoon's profession too, never thought of him as working with oceanography, but it suits him a lot now that i think about it. also kuroshimae is such a cute pet name?? so sweet, so unique, want someone to call me that 😭

but i was so wrapped by the initial fluff and...

now i'm like—

i thought it was nice that, since we experience it through jimin's perspective, we see the difficulty of ever framing namjoon's job offer as a good thing. how can something that takes away love from you be good? like sure, it's what namjoon wants but not what jimin wants, and things that make jimin sad should be illegal honestly, i dont even care, just criminalize everything this man wants 😭🤧

and you actually reveal and depict with perfection the heartbreaking moment you realize that the best thing for someone is the worst possible for you. having to say out loud that you wouldn’t want that person to stay "just for you", when that's actually all that you could possibly ask for. you want to be selfish, to not let the person go but... you love them to much to even consider it for real.

and the worst part of it is that it's much easier for namjoon. he got his dream job in a new country: everything is new, his mind will have a lot to digest and understand, but for jimin? the only new thing he has to familiarize himself with is absense 💔

thinking about it, i think that what broke me the most was the memorization part: will jimin be able to remember namjoon's hand? will he be able to survive with the ghosting feeling of namjoon's lips? the soft kisses that lingers forever but never lasts enough... yeah, you effectively broke me, i hope you're proud of your self 😭

i wanted to talk about some interesting writing choices you made, that i think helped a lot with the effect the fic provokes.

for example, i liked how you decided to write it in past tense (don't know if it's a commom thing for you, but it definitely makes sense here). it creates the impression that it's all already a memory, already vanishing, not present anymore and grasping for integrity.

because of it — and im not sure if it's not just my pessimist self — i tend to think they won't work out. the ending, to me, seemed to hint at it too: the doubt you create with the letter: was it just delayed... or did namjoon forget? i'm not the biggest long distance relationship believer so... yeah 🥲

also i think you were able to bring forward the gut wrecking, heart clenching feeling of the inevitable goodbye. the good thing in your life that's too good to not try, but too good to not break you when it goes away, and even though you know it's temporary, you'd still rather have it. it's so hard to deal with this things because time seems nothing but against you on those moments, and we can feel thet here because you were able to emulate the sentiment with a lot of accuracy (im not sure that's a good thing for readers though, lol 💀)

on that note, i especially liked your management of pacing here. the way you narrate fleeting moments of a goodbye, the way time seems to slip away and how fast it goes when we most need it to stop, it was all really well depicted by your pace 😮‍💨

anyway

it was my first time reading something of yours and I'm just sad i didn't find your blog sooner. you have a delicate and thoughtful prose that invades you in the most subtle way and... well, before we know it, we're crying at one in the morning

Let You Fly [Namjoon x Jimin]

Summery: Namjoon and Jimin have been together for only 7 months and it’s been near perfect. The two fit together wonderfully. All changes when Namjoon’s dream job offer slides itself into his inbox. He’d been eyeing the position in Japan for years… It wouldn’t be fair to Jimin to pack up his bags and join Namjoon, but it wouldn’t be fair to Namjoon to try to force him to stay. Instead, Jimin must let him fly.

Pairings: Namjoon (BTS) x Jimin (BTS)

Rating: E for everyone

Warnings: None

Word Count:  3.5k words

Genre: Angst, A touch of fluff

A/N: A big thank you to @bluewhale52 for betaing! Your feedback was soooo helpful!!!!!!!

A/N2: This fic is part of @bangtanwritingbingo​’s summer bingo! The prompt for this is “Jimin x Namjoon”!

Song inspiration: Let You Fly by Sunshine State

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