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fairyniceyeah · 7 months ago

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⌛ATEEZ Headcanons - Headaches & Migraines

🐿️ Hongjoong

Started developing migraines around the time he joined KQ and was prescribed medication pretty early on

Sometime around “Answer” he didn’t get one for nearly eleven months

Just as he thought he was maybe better Maddox had to call an ambulance for him

During production he suddenly lost most of his hearing, his vision got fuzzy and his neck turned stiff and he started vomiting

Maddox thought he was having a stroke at first - but turns out silent migraines are a thing

Basically all the neurological symptoms but no pain - barely makes it better

When he subconsciously started rubbing his neck the members know he is going down and will have him in a safe, comfortable environment with Seonghwa and Jongho

“Seonghwa-yah, don’t freak out.” Yeah, these words would immediately calm Seonghwa down. Especially after knowing that Hongjoong was supposed to be at dance practice like half an hour ago and none of the members had been able to reach him, Maddox or the manager.

“What’s going on?”, Seonghwa asked Maddox over the phone, fear seizing his chest in a tight hold, “where is Joong-ah?”

“We’re at the hospital”, Maddox said the dreaded words, “it’s nothing bad, Hongjoong just has a silent migraine and I freaked out.”

That didn’t explain anything, did it? Seonghwa told the producer as much and got a sigh in reply.

“Before I tell you what happened, know that Joong-ah is going to be fine. His manager is currently working on his release papers.”

“Okay, that is good”, Seonghwa agreed, nervously biting his lip. The kids were all staring at him with various degrees of concern.

“So: let me explain:”

(5 hours earlier in the studio)

“Hyung?”, Hongjoong asked out of a sudden, eyes wide. Maddox looked up to find the younger man looking a bit pale. “I … I don’t feel so good.”

In all the years they had worked together Maddox had never heard Hongjoong sound so scared and he had never before admitted to not feeling well. A wave of panic washed over him but he tried to stay calm.

“What’s wrong?”, he asked gently. Hongjoong was holding himself stiffly, a hand rubbing at his neck. Something was definitely off - he wasn’t looking at Maddox at all. Well, it looked like he was trying but he was staring at a spot beside Maddox’s head instead. His voice was surprisingly loud.

“My vision is really blurry and … uh, I can’t really hear well.” The slightly slurred words at first didn’t even register with Maddox, then he was out of his seat to squat down in front of the younger.

Hongjoong was slow to look at him and Maddox could see the panic on his face. As the older producer tried to get him to follow his fingers with his eyes Hongjoong failed badly.

“I’m scared”, Hongjoong whispered, “what is happening to me?”

“I don’t know”, Maddox said shakily, lying through his teeth. He could only hope Hongjoong didn’t pick up on it, not wanting the younger to guess what he himself was afraid of. “I’m going to call an ambulance just in case, okay?”

Hongjoong tried to nod but winced as his neck cramped.

Quickly Maddox gave their details to the emergency line before sending a quick message to Hongjoong’s manager.

“Hyung? I don’t …”, Hongjoong whispered before he broke off with a gag, spilling his lunch all over himself. Maddox couldn’t do anything but to brush his hair back and pray.

⭐ Seonghwa

He regularly started getting headaches when his hair got longer

At first they didn’t connect the dots but it’s all the pulling his hair into a bun/braid/ponytail

Stylists are now very careful now to pull it not to tight

As he prefers not to take medication he will just power through and mostly not mention anything

Hongjoong does see the lines in his face though and will convince him to let his hair down

Running his hand through Seonghwa’s hair calms both of them and the members have found them asleep on a couch with Hongjoong’s hand still in his hair multiple times

Don’t tell them but the blackmail pics are so cute

Wooyoung squealed when he saw

Seonghwa launched himself on top of Hongjoong’s lap. The captain had sat down on the couch to play some sort of mathematical game that Seonghwa didn’t even try to understand. They were just done with their part of the M/V filming but had to wait for Yunho and Jongho to finish up.

His head had been aching all day but now mostly alone Seonghwa allowed himself the vulnerability to lay his head on Hongjoong’s thigh. He had been contemplating taking some medication for some time now but they were done and he could relax. So here Seonghwa was in pain and holding Hongjoong hostage.

The captain sighed in fake annoyance. “And here I was, thinking I could relax for once without the kids.”

“Tough luck”, Seonghwa mumbled but then Hongjoong put his phone away and plunged his hands into Seonghwa’s long hair. His body shivered and he groaned. It felt so good. Gently Hongjong tugged the hair tie off and the pain went down a notch.

Then Hongjoong started playing with his hair for real, running his soft fingers through it and humming some song. Seonghwa closed his eyes and let himself relax. God, that felt good.

Just as he was about to drift off, Hongjoong commented: “I can see the lines on your face when you are in pain, you know. You don’t have to power through.”

Seonghwa grumbled some form of answer he wasn’t sure were actual words, then he was asleep.

He woke up an hour later to soft giggles and the sound of a phone clicking as it took a picture. Opening one eye he saw the blurry figures of Yunho and Jongho but he was too tired to figure out what they were doing. Hongjoong’s hand was heavy on his head, the comfy kind of heavy.

The captain was asleep too, then. So Seonghwa closed his eyes again, sure somebody would wake them if needed.

🐶 Yunho

Has had migraines since he was young

Regularly gets them but they are really random, seemingly following no other pattern than maybe stress

Driving for long distances seems to trigger the migraines too

Usually starts having problems speaking around an hour before they hit - he keeps slurring and mispronouncing things so others usually know before him

Then he gets dizzy

Before the pain really strikes the nausea does

Will get really nauseous but won’t always throw up if he manages to fall asleep early enough

Once he falls asleep he is knocked out until he is better which is why they try to get him to sleep as soon as possible

All members know to just give him the medication (which Mingi always has on hand) and put him to bed

Will appreciate not being alone

“Yunho-hyung, we should take a break”, Yeosang suggested, a frown on his face. The two of them had been sitting at their kitchen table for the past two hours and were studying together for Yunho’s university exam.

Well, it seemed more like Yeosang was studying for Yunho’s exam. At first the younger had been a bit annoyed - after all it wasn’t his exam and he had kindly offered to help, seeing how stressed Yunho was. Only to be repaid by a spaced out Yunho. Sure, all their schedules were a bit stressful at the moment but Yunho could have been a bit more focused on his own stuff.

But when he had managed to get Yunho a bit on track again Yeosang had noticed the older slurring his words.

That explained everything, actually. No wonder Yunho was spacey if he was about to have a migraine. That also explained why Yeosang was still waiting for an answer.

“Yunho?”, Yeosang repeated.

“Huh?”, Yunho said, eyes a bit glazed with the first sparks of pain. Yeosang sighed.

“Let’s get you medication and then into bed, hm? You’re getting a migraine, I think.”

“Oh, uh. I think so too”, Yunho agreed and let Yeosang feed him the strong pill they conveniently kept in the cupboard in the kitchen with a glass of water.

“Come on”, Yeosang said and carefully dragged a stumbling Yunho to his bedroom, leaving all the lights off. Silently he dragged the trash can over, hoping feverishly that Yunho would not get sick before he managed to fall asleep.

“Try to sleep”, Yeosang said and pulled the blankets over Yunho’s shoulders, “I will call Mingi-yah for you.”

👑 Yeosang

If it’s convenient he takes medication as soon as he feels a headache come on

But they make him really really sleepy

Probably falls asleep on the nearest member

If it’s inconvenient (during schedules e.g.) he will refuse to take medication due to the side-effects

Which ends up in the members noticing quickly how light sensitive and pained he becomes

Seonghwa will try and force him to take medication

He may be stubborn but he is also not feeling well so he is pretty easily convinced to take meds

They will find a way to work around it

If he really can’t be knocked out, he will be coddled by the members, who will do everything for him

“Take them”, Seonghwa hissed, pushing a bottle of painkillers at Yeosang. The younger felt like crying at the harsh words. Everything was overwhelming - he was in pain, everything was too loud and bright, and he still needed to work.

Hongjoong came over to them, apparently noticing the rising tension. Wooyoung came up to them as well, wrapping his arms around Yeosang’s middle and hooking his chin over his shoulder. Yunho and San were standing to the side, quiet but watching. Mingi and Jongho were yet to arrive from their individual schedules.

“What’s going on?”, Hongjoong asked, sounding unimpressed. Yeosang sighed and leaned back against his best friend. Seonghwa sighed too and explained: “Yeosangie has a headache and refuses to take his meds.”

“I will be totally knocked out if I take them. We need to record. Besides that’s rich coming from the guy who rather nearly dies of coughing and inhaling instead of taking cough syrup”, Yeosang countered, angry. He just wanted to be left in peace with his pain and get through the recording so he could lie down in the dorm.

Now Hongjoong sighed as well. He placed a gentle hand on Seonghwa’s arm and beckoned him to leave to calm down. Seonghwa ducked his head, slumping into himself but let Yunho take him outside.

“Sang-ah”, Hongjoong started, placing his small hand against Yeosang’s cheek, “you don’t have to suffer through this, you know? Let Wooyoungie take you home. We can record your lines tomorrow too, we likely won’t get through everything today anyway.”

Wooyoung nodded and pressed a sweet kiss against Yeosang’s hair. “Please, Sang-ah, I hate seeing you in pain”, he whispered.

Defeated, Yeosang nodded. Truth be told, he did not want to work with the way his head was pounding and everything was aching. Laying down in a dark room with Wooyoung for once quiet sounded like a dream.

“Thank you”, Wooyoung said and gently led Yeosang out of the studio, where they immediately stumbled into Seonghwa and Yunho. The eldest looked shaken and crestfallen and he nearly teared up when he saw Yeosang.

“I’m sorry, Sang-ah”, he said with a wobbly voice, “I didn’t mean to yell or be hypocritical. I am just so worried.”

“It’s okay, hyung”, Yeosang said and buried himself into the taller’s chest. At least there it was dark. “I wasn’t nice either.”

“Get well soon and let Wooyoungie spoil you, okay?”

⛰️ San

Doesn’t get migraines but really really bad headaches that have him unable to function anyways

They hit pretty sudden - one minute he is fine the next he feels the pain start sparking

Usually lasts around half an hour before he has to admit defeat - he can’t concentrate, his eyes and ears hurt, he gets nauseous

Mostly tension headaches, so he lies down in a dark room with a heating pillow under his neck/shoulders and an ice pack over his eyes

He’ll take the pain medication that leaves him shaky for hours afterwards without complaints

Is really insecure about the headaches - they aren’t classified as migraines so he hasn’t got it as bad as Jongho, Yunho or Hongjoong, right?

“Hyung, I have a headache”, San whispered, sitting down in the kitchen while Seonghwa was preparing breakfast. The oldest abandoned his pots and pans at once, coming to stand beside San. The dancer tiredly leaned his head against Seonghwa’s stomach, staring up at him.

He despised getting headaches this early in the morning. He hadn’t even done anything that could have triggered it. It was annoying. But he really didn’t feel good.

“Go back to bed, San-ah”, Seonghwa said sympathetically, running a hand through his hair, “we only have practice today and you can afford to miss a day. I’ll bring you pain meds soon, okay?”

“Hyung, I can try to push through”, San said, doubting his own words. But it wasn’t that bad yet.

“Mingi-yah”, Seonghwa asked their third roommate who had just come into the kitchen, “can you make sure San-ah gets back to bed? Headache.”

Mingi nodded and San was wrapped in a tight hug before the younger pulled him into his side to guide him to his room. San was deposited on his bed while Mingi plugged in his heat pillow. It was basically just a small, flat rectangle with a heat spiral going through it but it helped the headaches a lot.

“Take off your shirt and lay down, hyung”, Mingi said gently. San did as asked, a bit dazed. His ear hurt a bit from the sound and he longed for sleep. But they had a schedule today. He knew he could miss it, might even be able to join them in the afternoon but guilt gnawed at him. Hongjoong, Yunho and Jongho often pushed through their migraines and here he was, flat on his back for just some minor pain. (Which he knew wasn’t as minor as his mind whispered at him).

“I’m sorry”, he mumbled. Mingi sighed and sat down at his side. Apparently he knew what San was talking about.

“It’s okay, Sannie-hyung”, he soothed with his deep voice, “you’re in pain. Maybe not as much as some other people might be but pain is different for everybody. Besides, if I am correct, your eyes and ear hurt and you’re a tad nauseous.”

“Yeah”, San sighed, letting Mingi stroke his hair back.

“Here are the pain meds”, Seonghwa said, carrying in a tray with tea, water, a cup full of crackers and the medication, “I already called Hongjoong. He said you can rest as long as you need. Also, Yunho doesn’t have a schedule this morning so he is coming over to check on you. If you give him your puppy eyes I’m sure he will even massage out some pain, hm?”

“Okay, thanks”, San mumbled.

🐣 Mingi

Despises getting headaches

They hurt and he can’t deal

Likely seeks out Hongjoong’s studio because it’s dark and quiet and the clicking of the keyboard is soothing

If he’s at home he will still go to Hongjoong though - it’s like he is pulled to the older man who is so fond of him

Hongjoong knows to abandon everything if a pale Mingi appears because Mingi will cuddle or cry

Members choose cuddle of course

Always has medication on hand - the problem really is until they kick in

After that he will be fine

Hongjoong turned around in his swivel chair as the door to his and Seonghwa’s shared room opened. Seonghwa was out, as were all the other kids but Mingi.

The captain had decided to go live earlier and he enjoyed the interaction with ATINY a lot but now seeing Mingi’s pale face he regretted that particular decision. It was clear something was up, especially since he knew Mingi had thought about going out on a walk earlier but had stayed in.

“Hey, Mingi-yah”, Hongjoong said, conscious that thousands of people were watching, so he raised an eyebrow in a ‘follow my lead’ gesture. “Are you here to talk about the new song?”

Mingi, while sometimes clueless, caught on quickly. “I am, hyung. If you are busy with ATINY though…”

“I’m sure ATINY are looking forward to the comeback”, Hongjoong said and turned back to the screen. Comments flooded the section at top speed. The captain winked at the camera. “Well, ATINY, if you want an amazing comeback I need to go now. Please stay healthy!”

As soon as he turned the camera off his attention was all on the younger. “Headache?”, he asked tenderly. Mingi nodded, biting his lip.

“You didn’t have to end the live though, hyung”, Mingi said quietly.

“It’s no trouble, I will go live some other time. Did you take some meds?”, the captain asked, opening his arms for a hug. Mingi nodded.

“That’s good, baby. Now, come on, let’s lie down and cuddle, okay?”, Hongjoong suggested.

“Okay.”

Five minutes later Hongjoong held a deeply asleep teddy bear that was bigger than him by a lot in his arms. Oh, well, work could wait.

🦊 Wooyoung

He doesn’t get headaches

How? Every other member is really envious

Until he did and it was bad

At first couldn’t even understand what was wrong until the pain hit badly

Started crying in fear and everybody was tripping over themselves trying to figure out what was wrong

Since he sweated and cried so much San and Yunho tag teamed to calmed him down with a hot bath

“What’s wrong?”, Yunho asked Wooyoung. They, together with San, were working on a choreo together but Wooyoung had been silent and - Yunho hated saying this - useless most of the time.

Wooyoung looked up at him with teary eyes. “I don’t know”, he whispered, causing alarm bells to ring in Yunho’s head. San stopped the video of the choreo he was watching to wrap Wooyoung in his arms. The younger immediately sunk into his friend’s embrace, burying his face in his shoulder, crying softly.

Bewildered, Yunho and San stared at each other over the crying second maknae’s head.

“Baby, can you tell me what is going on?”, San said, “what are you feeling?”

“Don’t feel good”, Wooyoung sobbed, not specifying more.

“Let’s get you home, okay?”, Yunho suggested, rubbing Wooyoung’s hip. Wooyoung nodded and let himself be lifted onto San’s back. They had wanted him to put on Yunho first but it became clear that Wooyoung would not let go of San.

Worried as hell, they hurried back to the dorm San shared with Seonghwa and Mingi, hoping that their eldest was home. He wasn’t. Neither were any of the other members.

“Young-ah, you are worrying us”, San said, close to tears himself as he watched his best friend struggle. They had all cuddled up on the couch together, hoping the closeness would help.

“I … I feel weird. My head”, Wooyoung finally whispered.

“You have a headache?”, Yunho asked, surprised. All of the members were so jealous of the young member who never ever had headaches ever. They joked that (the member who gave all of them) headaches couldn't get headaches (himself). Like he really never got a single one. And yet, here he was.

“I’m sorry, baby”, San said, wiping at Wooyoung’s tears with his thumb, “how about we get you a painkiller and then you can take a hot bath? It will relax you and help the pain, hm?”

“Okay”, Wooyoung whispered, letting San carry him to the bathroom bridal style.

When Seonghwa returned to the dorm hours later he found the three members cuddled up on San’s bed, peacefully asleep. Huh. He closed the curtains, fixed the sheets and tiptoed out. He would find out in the morning.

🧸 Jongho

Has had migraines since he was a child so he knows what to do with himself

Luckily he only gets about one or two a year

Will lock himself in a cold, dark room and pray for death

Doesn’t want anybody to disturb him - he is really light- and sound sensitive

The only time members are allowed in is if he threw up and somebody needs to empty the bucket - he cries silent tears during that

The migraine might last up to over thirty hours at times and at that point all hyungs are anxious wrecks

During his migraines all sound is forbidden - movies get watched with subtitles, music is only allowed with headphones and cooking is a no-go

It got easier to take care of him when they switched to the smaller dorms - Hongjoong will kick Wooyoung out and silently work (read: listen for any suspicious sound) in the living room

Will be shaky and headachey for a few days after but after enduring hours of pain alone he will be found with at least one other member all times

Hongjoong was worried. Really, really worried. It was hour twenty-one of Jongho’s migraine and the maknae was not doing good. Well, as far as Hongjoong knew. He had tried checking in on Jongho around four hours ago and had only received a ‘Go away, hyung’. At least Jongho had stopped throwing up at around hour ten, seeing the maknae cry in humiliation as he emptied out the bucket hurt.

There had been so much pain in Jongho’s voice when he spoke. The room itself had been cold and dark with the extreme black-out curtains Hongjoong had bought when they moved in. It was terrible knowing he was suffering on his own without anybody able to help.

Abandoning his laptop, Hongjoong pulled his knees up to his chest and hugged himself, resting his head on his knees. He was exhausted but he wouldn’t go to sleep until he knew Jongho was better. Seonghwa and Yunho had both offered to switch with him but Hongjoong felt like it was his responsibility as leader.

It was always frightening whenever Jongho had to endure a migraine, so he hoped that keeping the others away would make them able to stop worrying.

The first time when they didn’t know what to do Hongjoong had called the maknae’s parents crying and begging for any advice. They only told him to leave Jongho alone. After it was over Jongho had explained what happened - he was in too much pain to sleep, would only occasionally pass out. Medication barely put a ment in it all.

This time they had come home from an interview and Jongho had announced he did not want to be disturbed. So Hongjoong had made Wooyoung go to San’s dorm and had waited. He barely had the focus to work on music, watching a movie just with subtitles had him nearly fall asleep and anything else was too loud.

Hongjoong despised these times of waiting.

He was startled out of his thoughts by a presence slumping onto the sofa next to him. He lifted his head to find an ashen Jongho look at him, eyes still clouded with pain but much better than just hours before. He was wrapped in his blankets and he looked half-asleep.

But the migraine was gone - leaving only a bad headache behind.

Without making a sound Hongjoong pulled Jongho to his chest and laid down on his back, cuddling the maknae and pulling the blankets over them.

Now they both could rest.

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nothingbeforenothingagain · 1 year ago

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Oh no I have more to say…

Maddox definitely took advantage of Data’s kindness. Data was very used to people being initially dismissive of his personhood, but eventually coming around. Riker, in Encounter at Farpoint, suggests he is uncomfortable serving with a machine and implies Data’s accomplishments are honourary rather than earned. But they end up extremely close. Even Pulaski (sorta) comes around. The end of Measure of a Man, when Maddox uses Data’s correct pronouns, is meant to imply change. But PIC S1 makes it explicitly clear that was a farce.

The fact that he designed the labour bots to have Data’s features is just… it’s so fucking gross. He is trying to create an easily definable “race” to subjugate. It made me literally so upset???

I don’t think the fractal neuronic cloning - the process through which Data’s consciousness was extracted - happened after the synth ban. Daystrom still had B-4’s body is season 1, meaning it had to have been done before. The Feds fully allowed this. Though it’s true the bulk of his work was done in exile.

I think I’m going to make a whole separate post about the quantum simulation. But my short synopsis is that Data was absolutely left to rot on a desk with no interaction except the continued extraction of his essence. The simulation was so bleak it looked like a horror movie - a mix of Chateau Picard and his quarters without any light or decor. Even the frames held all grey or black paintings - a stark departure for Data. Data was losing grip with reality and his humanity. And he knew he would never be allowed to have it back… so he chose to die.

The Coppelius androids did have yellow eyes and shiny skin like Data as an “hommage” to him but once again I think Maddox was trying to create a discernible race…

I don’t know anything about them trying to do away with sentient AI. Could you elaborate as to why? Kurtzman wanted the audience to think Data wasn’t sentient? Wtf?

Matalas actually wanted a scene with Data and Soji but as far as I understand the studio didn’t want it 🙄

My PIC S3 weird thought is that now Data is sort of Picard’s father… he remembers building him lol. I also hated how Seven referred to him as “the robot” when he is ostensibly the same thing as Picard but he’s allowed humanity? Just so strange.

Thinking more about Bruce Maddox…

PIC S1 is so foul to Data, and Maddox is particularly awful to him.

From Data's perspective, he went from living on the Enterprise a free and emotional being in 2379 to a brain box on Maddox’s desk incapable of interaction in the late 2380s. Which was basically Maddox’s view of Data when he met him - a box on wheels. (I have a whole other post half-written about this and how deeply traumatizing PIC S1 was for Data and how Maddox’s isolation of Data drove him to suicide but that’s too long for here…)

Maddox should have never kept B-4's body for research, and especially shouldn't have kept Data's consciousness for research. They should have been treated like organic people and put to rest. Data never allowed Maddox access to Lore or Lal in his lifetime, though it seems he and Soong has gotten hold of them by PIC S3.

Not only was he conducting weird experiments on their corpses, but Maddox was explicitly doing it to violate Data’s reproductive rights.

Clearly Maddox sees Data as property when he just makes him a bunch of children post-mortem without considering the ethics of the situation.

Data's children now (biosynths) aren't even remotely similar to him or the daughter he DID choose create (Lal). Maybe Data wouldn't even approve of this new direction.

If Maddox absolutely couldn't do it without Data's neural engram, which seems to be the case, it's inarguably a violation of his reproductive rights. He is using his essence to give life to more synthetic lifeforms.

At the very least, it’s like taking his organs post-mortem without consent. Worf was allowed to refuse a life-saving blood donation to a Romulan in TNG's "The Enemy," but Data's ENTIRE FUCKING CONSCIOUSNESS can just be taken for research without any regard for the philosophical implications? That's not equal treatment -- Data is still a second-class citizen in the Federation and Maddox's eyes.

And now that Data’s back in PIC S3, instead of being able to experience a broader humanity, he will be thrust into the galactic spotlight as the progenitor of a whole civilization that idolizes him. There go his dreams of getting married and building another android that is in any way reminiscent of himself.

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