#petrusha i love you so much but i fucking hate you

[deimosatellite]

i know this is super obvious probs but do yall ever think about how the reveal from pyotr of having murdered shatov was what really cemented kirillov on following through with his plan. because hours before he had just felt for the first time a hope for the future in which he and shatov could be close again and raise his son together and he realized theres something worth living for in that but then almost immediately that's all taken away and he realizes he never had any control in his life and this situation, his last semblance of control being in the very act of ending his own life for pyotr. and the way pyotr didnt tell kirillov that he was going to kill shatov until it was already done because do you think he knew that would be the proverbial and literal final nail in the coffin. lol im so okay