#peterpanrewatch

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On today's rewatch, I am stuck on this scene (i'm putting a breakdown because it's too good to just land on one frame):

Look at the difference between these two dorks trying to find each other

He's looking for her at the edge of the room (see the curtain on the right side?). She's looking for him next to the entrance (like the way you subtly wait for the person you like while in a party-- near the entrance so you can see them first and compose yourself before letting them see you).

This is actually the frame that I got stuck on. You can't easily see it on this gif (and I tried so hard to zoom it in but it made it so grainy) but looking closely, you can see this minuscule tug on his lip and the shine on his eyes when he spots Pen (can you be less obvious, sir???)

And then these affectionate smiles come out?! Please, sir, ma'am, you're supposed to be just friends.

Another one of them Polin soulmate gaze

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on today's rewatch: Colin's death stare [S3E8: Into the Light]

I need a great big distraction right now as I'm going through something personal.

And of course, my great distraction is my sweet soft boi, Colin Bridgerton, giving a death stare and was ready to kill anyone if someone had made a comment right after Pen's LW reveal and before Philippa called in the release of the bugs.

People can be quick in saying that Colin didn't even move to join Pen on stage...that Philippa had to rescue her. But, I've always had this head canon that Pen asked him to restrain himself because she didn't want him and his family to be caught in between the issues of LW. But we can clearly see here (and the subsequent speech and reconciliation) that Colin wouldn't have cared if he was caught in between. He was already carrying her burden with her and for her without realising it and hence why he always wants to rescue her (boy needs to work on his tunnel vision though).

Did he fumble around a bit? Of course. A broken heart can do that to you. But-- this season gave us two people who we saw work hard on themselves to be whole for the other.

It's why it was so easy for him to say "But you are my mess."

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on today's rewatch, this is where i'm stuck on

this little Polin soulmate gaze

looking at each other before going in for another kiss. the way both of their eyes dip longingly at each other. Pen and Colin's first kiss will forever give me goosebumps.

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*We are back on regular programming*

On today's rewatch (actually from a few days ago), I got stuck on this beautifully cheeky scene (I'm going to put 3 frames for comparison).

Look at this cheeky girl:

Is she smiling because he's saying sorry or is she amused that he's there in her garden trying to apologise or is she happy that he's there in her garden, wanting to right his wrong?

I fear we have not nearly talked enough about the garden apology.

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on today's rewatch: S3E5 [Tick Tock]

i'm seeing a lot of chatter about the awards season and how both my faves are submitted for it. to be honest, i'm making this post because i love Luke newton and i want him recognised. i'm not sure if this adds to anything for it but i want to do my bit anyway.

today, i offer the way Luke has distinguished the way he has Colin call out Pen's name.

Prime example:

through Polin, i discovered that i have a kink and it's an aural one 😏 i like listening and understanding the way people talk and the certain inflections they have a strong preferences to. it's why i admire actors who can do great accent work-- one that doesn't just reflect the place they're supposed to be from but giving a personality to their way of speaking.

if you have time to rewatch, try to catch the way Luke portrays Colin calling Pen's name. There is always a catch-- a beat before he says her name as if it's caught up in his train of thoughts. As if saying her name always has this weight that he needs to carefully carry. i don't know when i started to notice these pauses/beats but i think Luke evolved this way of calling Pen's name from S2. it's the groundwork for Colin's growing feelings. i mean, it's so subtle, so nuanced that it's easy to miss. quite frankly, a lot of people probably missed it.

i read the pauses/beats as a way of reverence. as if, if i say your name, may it always come out of my mouth with the utmost care and love. i should probably also explain that i am particular when i say someone's name. i can't just say it because i am a complete introvert and if i address someone by their name, then it means i mean to grab their attention and the subsequent conversation i'll have with them bears significant meaning to me.

that just sounded as if i'm projecting my personality to Colin but i do identify to him the most and i just love that even these small things were considered by Luke.

don't sleep on him guys-- HE'S ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE

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on today's rewatch: just Polin on S2 [S2E7: Harmony]

I don't know what I did but I'm in a puddle of tears staring at this gif.

I was editing some stuff, landed on this scene, and then tears started and are still streaming down my face.

Their concern for each other? The chemistry coming out of them just by looking at each other? I just... I'm just running out of words how much I love these two 😭

I'm still HERE.

Bonus: this is one of the yellow dresses that I like on Pen.

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On today's rewatch, this is the scene i'm stuck on:

This my favourite LW insult out of all the LW insults I've seen on this show so far.

and her writing this while feeling unwell? Pen has her priorities straight.

I researched what succubus meant and it is a diabolical insult. Adding in first water meaning of the first quality means that she's saying that Cressida is the evilest succubus demon to ever exist.

Succubus: a demon assuming female form to have sexual intercourse with men in their sleep

and saying all of that while looking this pretty.

They could never make me hate you, b**tchy Pen/LW. Such a shame that she never got to publish this issue

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My laptop finally came 😭 I can finally make gifs again-- the one beautiful gift that Polin gave me aside from being the best season ever.

I give you on today's rewatch (from a couple of weeks really):

This literal Featherington race happening on Ep1 (I'll put commentary and try to make it like they do on the races 😂).

And the Featherington ladies are off, crossing the gate as they start this thrilling race. Philippa and Prudence starting off tight!

But what's this? A strong contender catches up in the form of the youngest daughter, Penelope!

Mama Featherington coming in with advise for the two eldest as Penelope races behind them, bobbing in an out of view. Prudence and Philippa are still tight as they come near the next gate.

But what's this? The youngest overtakes! Penelope coming in hot, with determination and wit, she overtakes her eldest sisters, as the only one who understood what Mama Feathers were talking about.

AND PENELOPE CROSSES THE FINISH LINE WITH NOTHING BUT WIT AND SASS!

Congratulations, Pen! Don't you worry, Prudence, her husband's just on his way from taking his blinders off.

Bonus analysis: Doors/gates/archways are a recurring theme on this season and that's how I found this little gem (cause I was looking for material for one of the other series I would like to start).

So good to be back 😭

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on today's rewatch: this out of whack representation of timelines through Pen's dresses on S3Ep1.

If the dresses show some semblance of how time passes in the Bridgerton world... then can I say that it took 3 days before coming back to London for Pen to see Eloise and Colin again?

Somebody explain to me how time works on Bridgerton because I feel like it's nonexistent.

Side note: all these dresses look great on Pen especially the yellow/pink one on the market scene.

I want her on another pink dress please

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On today's rewatch, we are going deep.

LOL not really. I just needed an angry Colin on my dash since it's been 5 days (and a week ago) since I started writing Part 5 of my butterfly analysis and I'm still not done (mainly because of real life getting in the way 😂)

Now have a close up:

Sassy mcsassy

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on today's rewatch: S3E7 [Joining of hands]

I haven't done a good job in putting out original content for the past few months and I blame my new job entirely 😂 It's so intense, it turns my brain into mush most days.

I'm 68% functional right now so if my ramblings don't make sense, I apologise.

Today, I am thinking of Colin's retreating back after he discovered the Pen was LW.

(Colouring this gif is so hard. It's so dark 😭 I wish I was better at this.)

I don't know why I'm locked in on Colin's back.

On him walking away.

On his coat billowing as it matches the force of his steps. I have a thing for people's footsteps or way of walking because I often think about how I walk and how it represents what I'm feeling at the moment. My many, many rewatches offered me the realisation that there isn't a lot of full body shots of Luke Newton for S1 and S2 nor are walking shots. If there are full body shots, he's with Nicola so your attention is split.

I read a meta somewhere that book!Colin canonically loves walking so much so that he would endure the rain to help clear his thoughts.

I always thought that this walk was more heartbroken than angry. He walked away because his heart was breaking into pieces. But I also think that he walked away because of his love for her.

I know that the last thing he says to Pen in this scene is that he will never forgive her but I also think that he was talking more to Lady Whistledown than to Pen because at this point, they are still separate in his mind.

Clearly, this walk is the hardest to understand and has been part of heated debates of what canonically would Colin really do (this being compared to the source material aka book!Colin). I don't want to broach that debate too much because I would've done the same as Colin (as someone who is an introverted demisexual empath who value the words that come out of my mouth and actions to take but often overthinks them). And these are mere ramblings of a Polin brainrotter.

Now, there are three significant full body walking shots of Colin in S3: Colin's entrance in E1 (the faux swagger), this retreating walk in the early part of E7 (the heartbreak), and the him trying to clear his thoughts in the latter part of the same episode (the drunk, angry yet pensive one).

This walk represents the war that Colin has fought so many times. When his emotions overtake him, he finds himself walking away. I say find because I don't think Colin was self-aware nor mature enough to understand why he walked away. It's why he traveled around, it's what happened to him with Marina, and what he almost did to Penelope. In my head, this very distinctly represents Colin's trauma about his dad's death. His emotions always get the better of him.

This is another thing that I appreciate about Colin and Penelope's relationship-- they helped each other grow. If Penelope didn't have the courage or honestly, the love, to confront Colin when he was about to walk away in the modiste scene, we wouldn't have known the root of Colin's emotional trauma. Of him feeling inadequate and abandoned/betrayed by the people he loves.

On a different side of this debate, this is what separates this relationship to all other relationships that Colin has in his life-- the depth of love and understanding that him and Pen have shared gave them the the power to get out of this situation much, much stronger.

(on a side note, writing this is making me so excited for s4 even though I want to tamper my expectations)

In conclusion, I didn't appreciate the words that came out of Colin's mouth. But on the other hand, I appreciated that he walked away and he didn't do what book!Colin did. While this scene was devastating to watch, I really really appreciate how Colin spent time understanding his emotions about the whole LW situation. I know we all wanted to tear his hair out by the end but love doesn't put a timeline on forgiveness. Nor does it paint a pretty picture.

But time does help in growing yourself better.

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and the fact that she was the one who went near him?? It is absolutely my favourite thing that this little silly experiment was still part and parcel of how Penelope found confidence in herself and that it came from Colin's love belief on who she is.

On today's rewatch, I am stuck on this scene (i'm putting a breakdown because it's too good to just land on one frame):

Look at the difference between these two dorks trying to find each other

He's looking for her at the edge of the room (see the curtain on the right side?). She's looking for him next to the entrance (like the way you subtly wait for the person you like while in a party-- near the entrance so you can see them first and compose yourself before letting them see you).

This is actually the frame that I got stuck on. You can't easily see it on this gif (and I tried so hard to zoom it in but it made it so grainy) but looking closely, you can see this minuscule tug on his lip and the shine on his eyes when he spots Pen (can you be less obvious, sir???)

And then these affectionate smiles come out?! Please, sir, ma'am, you're supposed to be just friends.

Another one of them Polin soulmate gaze