#pete wentz kills me daily

[tombstoneswerewaiting]

infinity on high, 2007 vices and virtues, 2011

[earthtothemourge]

okay so BASICALLY the petekey lore is that pete was in love with mikey way but mikey way had mixed feelings/didn’t like him back. Pete would write about it on his blogs, talking about his feelings about an unarmed person (mikey)

pete and mikey met around 2003, both being bassists, they had a lot in common. not much is said of this for a bit.

Sometime in 2005, mikey way was seen watching fall out boy play, and he was wearing the great white jacket that pete wentz also wore. He also had a gang with mikey called “sweet little dudes” which only consisted of them two..

again, in 05. FOB was playing at the same festival MCR was. Pete later wrote on his livejournal:

“hot and bothered”

1. having a crush on a person I speak to near daily

2. White denim jackets

(white denim jackets?? interesting..)

warped tour 05. reported hand holding. mikey way sleeping on the FOB bus. all i have to say about it

and this photo

AND THE PETE WENTZ “I WISH YOU WERE MY BASS NOT MY FRIEND” POST.

im not quite sure what mikey was to think of this situation, but the most famous blog post was tuesday, june 28, 2005. pete wrote: “Amazing new mexico sunset. I’m hanging on a bridge with my friend mikey way from my chem. Its all orange and pink above us. We went to another waterpark again. Totally back in love.” (LiveJournal)

this is one of many odd posts he would create in the future. Thus leaving the average emo to wonder, “what the fuck is he talking about?”

let me explain.

July 19, 2005:

“wrote you a goodbye note (you just wrote me off) on your arm when you passed out. bestfriends, exfriends- better off as lovers not the other way around. racing through the city in the back of yellow checkered cars. the takeoffs are the worst but the skin from your shoulder to your ear makes it all worth it. and im sorry the way my moods flicker on and off like old light on your porch, but i know you wouldn’t have it any other way. sneaking in your window instead of out. the way you hold a cigarette cause you don’t know what to do with your hands when we are sitting this close. the way the waists of pants feel better at the ankles. the way you always were my best excuse for calling in sick on everyone else. i miss you.

petey”

based off of past evidence, you can guess who i think this is about. This later became the iconic song “Bang the doldrums” (my fav)

Because i don’t feel like explaining EVERY single love letter pete wrote (because it’s a lot) im going to put some prime examples down:

“i guess my point is, you make me want to fall in love and get stuck - haha.”

“lately i’ve been into believing fictional stories like the ones about me and you being happy. they’ve gotta be science fiction cause how else can you have a monster fall in love with a boy with no heart? actually i’m pretty sure you have a heart, but i’m just as certain it’ll never be mine. i can tell you’re willing to be loved somewhere on the inside but that doesn’t do me any good when i’m still seeing things through thick curtains over windows and padlocked doors on the outside. bitter regrets, predictable forfeits. we lit a fire that was nothing but smoke and hot air. ashes. my hands are empty and you hold all the cards, kind of funny how you don’t even want them/me. the final nail in my coffin stabbed me in the heart - from my back. you once made my heart skip a beat, now you make it want to skip this. you’ve got salty mails ripping my wounds open that you’re telling me to let heal. love is a mirage, you only think it’s there for so long..til you either wise up or die of hydration. love is the way to blow your brains out minus the gun, i swear. it’s the stupidest form of suicide cause you don’t die. and whatever doesn’t kill you only laughs at you for coming close enough to. sorry, it’s just the bitterness talking. ignore it/me. i’m just loose words hanging on the ends of your lips, even looser when i’m anywhere near your hips. poetry written from blistered fingertips and sleep deprived eyes that was better before the ink dried. he said, "i should have stayed with her,” and i should have stayed away. held together by paperclips and lies, a part of me is still trying to pretend i was (mis)hearing things but even the voices in my head aren’t that mean to me. and them “i’m sorry,” too late, i’m a better (re)actor than the one you’re being to convince me. i’m just convinced that telemarketers are the only people with more hangups than me. you called this before you knew the number, and hung up before you got a responce. tell me any of this will get me somewhere worth being without being left behind. i tried, i gave it/you my all, but all i can do is give up. i don’t tell you my insecurities so you can use them against me, but help me get over them. instead you said and did the worst thing you could do. worse than cheating to me, i hope you know. but whatever i don’t even know, i guess sometimes it takes losing what you had to see what you didn’t.

sooo yeah, this is where i actually admit i’m tired, and i go to bed. sweet. goodnight.”

“i wrote you a letter a few hours ago that i never intended to give you in the first place and then ripped it up and threw it away cause it’s much too personal to say on paper. even over a phone. the words i said in it i need to say to you in person. i guess it felt better to write it all out. it’s easy to say “i only need 5 seconds with you than a lifetime with someone else” than it is to live it. to be honest, i’m dying from it. “kiss me electric” vs “kiss me at all.” and when you do it’s just a kiss off. i’m really not ready for what you want from me, but with how you’re never around it makes me wonder what you really do want from me. honestly, it sure doesn’t feel like much. i said i’d be fine if you gave me a little note or a call once and a while, once a day even, just something to keep hanging onto, but you can’t even do that so yeah… i don’t know. am i being ridiculous? it’s just hard for me to keep going like this… my heart is lots easier to fool than me. i think that’s what makes this so hard.”

BASICALLY he gets his heart broken.

“IM SORRY. EVERY SINGLE SONG IS ABOUT YOU”

there’s so much more to say to this. twitter tweets, stealing eachothers clothes. but i have an actual essay to do in 30 mins so…

SUMMARY: Pete wentz is head over heels for mikey way but gets his heart broken so he makes songs about it..

ok thanks bye

can i rant about petekey some one say yes

[lookwhatilost]

cool, i have an hour to kill so im jst going to answer this dumb ask meme that i saw on my dash under a cut, bc i definitely do not have enough followers to engage w stuff like this the normal way

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?  spotify

is your room messy or clean? messy

what color are your eyes? brown

do you like your name? why? i’ve hated it for as long as i can remember. thinking it’s jst the combination of it being an unusual first name, being picked on for it a lot bc kids are mean, and having everyone around me insist that i’d love my name come adulthood bc it never ended up happening. i still want to change it legally but i have to figure out something i won’t tire of. “jackie” is working for now but idk abt committing to that one

what is your relationship status? disinterested

describe your personality in 3 words or less turbulent

what color hair do you have? dark brown

what kind of car do you drive? color? blue honda civic

where do you shop? forever 21, h&m, a few places online

how would you describe your style? trying too hard

favorite social media account i like kbnoswag on twitter lmao

what size bed do you have? queen

any siblings? jst col and my two step sisters

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? probably anchorage bc it’s scenic, the housing/rental market is abt the same as it is here, but the wages tend to be higher

favorite snapchat filter? when they make special versions of the dog filter for different holidays... i love those

favorite makeup brand(s) nyx mainly

how many times a week do you shower? i do it every day but if im in a shitty place mentally, i wont on my days off

favorite tv show? bojack horseman

shoe size? 9

how tall are you? 5′7″

sandals or sneakers? sneakers

do you go to the gym? i work out but i dnt go to a gym bc i’ve always had exercise equipment at home and my apartment has a fitness center, so i cant justify paying for a membership

describe your dream date i dream abt other things

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? $70

what color socks are you wearing? blue

how many pillows do you sleep with? 4 bc i love only using 2 and then kicking the other ones off my bed somehow when im asleep

do you have a job? what do you do? yeah, i’ve been doing hair for 4 odd years now

how many friends do you have? a decent handful but i only consider myself very close w two of them

whats the worst thing you have ever done? a lot probably but nothing rly sticks out to me as the objective “worst”

whats your favorite candle scent? yankee candle makes one called “golden sands” and i like that one a lot

3 favorite boy names/3 favorite girl names for various rzns i’d rather not answer the baby names question. pass

favorite actor? i can’t think of one off the top of my head, but i like jim carrey a lot

favorite actress? amy adams!

who is your celebrity crush? i’m not invested in famous ppl like that, but if you asked me this when i was 12, i’d have said pete wentz lmfao. probably my only one ever

favorite movie? this is hard lol. arrival, interstellar, and gone girl come to mind, though

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? i do. difficult to pick favorites bc i like more nonfiction stuff... i liked a brief history of time a lot

money or brains? brains. i have my own money

do you have a nickname? what is it? jackie is technically a nickname i guess. fati calls me “salvadore” and i hate it w a passion

how many times have you been to the hospital? a lot but i’ve only stayed there for an extended period 3 times

top 10 favorite songs stop they’re all special to me in different ways... 

do you take any medications daily? i did for a while

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) oily

what is your biggest fear? nothing that hasn’t already happened lol

how many kids do you want? none

whats your go to hair style? i cut it into a bob periodically and let it grow out until it annoys me, rinse and repeat til i die

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) average?

who is your role model? no one. all people are jst people

what was the last compliment you received? probably someone calling me smart or something. i hear it a lot but i dnt rly believe it

what was the last text you sent? “yes binch”

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? probably pretty young if i was ever lead to believe it period. i dnt remember ever having any faith in that

what is your dream car? i had my dream car and it was more of a hassle than anything. a good metaphor for life, probably

opinion on smoking? cigarettes? do whatever you want. weed? do whatever you want, but stop saying it cures cancer. meth/crack? maybe you should chill

do you go to college? that didn’t work out

what is your dream job? being able to sustain myself without one

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? suburbs definitely. lived in rural areas before. driving 30 minutes one way to the grocery store is not something i ever feel inclined to experience again.

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? depends on what they are

do you have freckles? yes

do you smile for pictures? only when my mom makes me

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 2377

have you ever peed in the woods? no

do you still watch cartoons? i mean bojack is a cartoon. but ones for children, no

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? stan wendy

Favorite dipping sauce? chick fil a sauce

what do you wear to bed? long old tshirt and this jacket i have from middle school typically lol. i have 3 actual pairs of pajamas though

have you ever won a spelling bee? i’ve never had an opportunity to even enroll in one. my schools never ran them

what are your hobbies? i read and write a lot, still trying to kill the rolling stone 500 albums list, i paint sometimes, jst general Bitch Desperate For Escapism things

can you draw? i used to a lot more than i do now but i’m still halfway decent at it

do you play an instrument? guitar & bass. i’m better at bass. i’m better at guitar hero but that dznt count

what was the last concert you saw? fall out boy i think? i’m having trouble remembering if that was before or after roger waters

tea or coffee? both but tea is a little easier to make so i drink more of it

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? bux. jesus christ

do you want to get married? not planning on it

what is your crush’s first and last initial? i’m too disillusioned to feel that way abt ppl rn

are you going to change your last name when you get married? definitely not

what color looks best on you? pastels

do you miss anyone right now? yeah but it dznt matter

do you sleep with your door open or closed? closed

do you believe in ghosts? absolutely

what is your biggest pet peeve? when customers make a scissor cutting motion w their hands when they’re describing their haircut to me. it’s sooooo weird and stupid and idg why so many people do it

last person you called` ian

favorite ice cream flavor? mint chocolate chip

regular oreos or golden oreos? regular

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? i hate sprinkles bc they are pointless

what shirt are you wearing? a tank top

what is your phone background? my lock screen is a pic i took of the lacey street theater in fairbanks the first time i was there. my background is a pic i took in denali when i was there w ian

are you outgoing or shy? i want to socialize but i dnt know how. shy i guess?

do you like it when people play with your hair? no, honestly i find it rly unpleasant

do you like your neighbors? katie and alexis are the best drinking buddies anyone could ask for. isaac is great. everyone else i could take or leave

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? yes and both

have you ever been high? yeah

have you ever been drunk? constantly

last thing you ate? 1/2 of a jimmy johns veggie club

favorite lyrics right now uhhhh idk i dnt get stuck on music like that

summer or winter? winter

day or night? night

dark, milk, or white chocolate? i dnt rly like chocolate

favorite month? october

what is your zodiac sign gemini

who was the last person you cried in front of? ian

[shark-myths]

My Versailles

This is an *ultimate* Tryst Theory jam. Thank you, anon, for giving me the excuse to shout about:

 Fourth of July

Insane lyrics meta screaming below the cut!

 (You and I were fire)

This opening alone tells us about the intensity, vibrancy, heat, and all-consuming nature of the relationship. I hear this song as a retrospective on the pre-hiatus trysting that the Petericks got up to. This is one of the songs that was instrumental in convincing me of Tryst Theory, actually, instead of just Star-Crossed Queerplatonic Soulmate Longing. Trysting that each of them pretended meant nothing outside of sex, because each of them were so deep in their own issues that they thought the other would never possibly want more from them than that. (And Pete especially would never ask for it: he believed he would ruin Patrick, like he believed he ruined every other thing. And Patrick? Well, Pete Wentz will kiss anyone. He’ll do anything on stage, say anything to scandalize reports. He lives on rumors about himself, the nastier the better. He’ll touch anyone, say anything, spin any sincerity and fling it like a weapon, like a show, out into the audience. Pete Wentz is the King of Doesn’t Mean It.)

 It was the Fourth of July

You and I were fireworks

That went off too soon

And I miss you in the June gloom, too

The time anchor of summer is meaningful, I think: summer is the time of touring, especially in early days when they slept in vans and had to work around school schedules. Summer is used often by Pete as a metaphor that encompasses the ease and liminality of Van Days Peterick. Summer, too, is holy to us—a time when things don’t count, don’t have consequences. The free-for-all before autumn’s reset. Holy, and inevitably short-lived.

But more meaningful than summer is the concept of what a firework is. Bright, intense, thrilling, dangerous. A man-made explosion of pure entertainment. A firework that went off too soon, then, is Pete saying—we were perfect together and we didn’t know it. I was too much of a mess back then, and you were too insecure. If we went off now, we would be a showstopping fucking finale. We would tear the sky apart. We’d be the new sun. But instead our bodies found each other when we were too young to bear the meaning of it. We went off too soon.

It was the Fourth of July

You and I were fireworks

I said I’d never miss you

But I guess you never know

May the bridges I have burned light my way back home

On the Fourth of July

I love the play of ‘I said I’d never miss you/but I guess you never know’ because it shows us so many complexities in such an elegant, concise lyric. 1) Pete believing and NEEDING to believe, telling himself like he’s telling Patrick, that it means nothing—that he’ll never miss it. The act of I said and how that doesn’t mean I meant. 2) Pete saying it as a true prediction but being wrong—I guess you never know how these things will play out. 3) Pete saying it and knowing it was a lie, and Patrick being the you who never knows. Aaaaah, this song is so crunchy and good.

And these burning bridges—this is not the first time Pete’s written about them! (Tell That Mick: Stop burning bridges and start driving off them; I’m A Lawyer: I’ll take my last chance to burn a bridge or two. And let’s not even get into his mentions of the burning of cities…) It is amazingly restorative here, though, and a tell that the song is written by post-hiatus Pete: he’s using the bridges to find his way back to that which is most important to him, that which he attempted with his bad behavior to scorch off the face of the earth. He’s invoking a prayer, here, that he finds his way back to Patrick. Because Patrick is his home.

I’ll be as honest as you let me

I miss your early morning company

If you get me

You are my favorite “what if”

You are my best “I’ll never know”

‘I’ll be as honest as you let me’ shows us so, so clearly how much of the enforced secrecy around trysting, and how much of Pete’s perception of why the trysting was secret, is tied up in Patrick’s shyness and the ‘no-homo’ that appeared some time in between Van Days and Meteoric Rise To Fame Days—Patrick went from being comfortable with jokes about queerness, about him and Pete, physical touching, and styling himself with certain queer elements, esp. with effeminate physical postures and things like the infamous Guys Gone Wild shirt, to being markedly uncomfortable with those things. Like the scrutiny of sudden fame or feedback he received from their management indicated something about these expressions was unacceptable or frightening. Anyway, it shows that Pete has been holding his tongue in part because he doesn’t think Patrick would want to be seen with or associated with him in that way. That Patrick has been the onus for secrecy. And Patrick, meanwhile—he may have just been thinking none of it was real to Pete.

‘I miss your early morning company, if you get me’ is pretty obviously about waking up next to your tryst-partner. What-if/I’ll never know kills me, actually physically kills me, on a daily basis. It highlights how they never tried to have a relationship for real, never gave it an actual honest-hearted try. They just fucked behind the scenes when they could and pretended it meant nothing to either of them. I’M NOT CRYING, THERE’S JUST SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY CONTACT LENS

This configuration speaks to other lines, too, like favorite mistake and you were my picket fence.

And I’m starting to forget

Just what summer ever meant to you

What did it ever mean to you?

It feels so real in the moment, but as soon as they’re apart, it’s easy to doubt that the other person was sincere. That they were present emotionally. While they’re together, Pete is so, so sure Patrick feels it too. That it’s love. That it must be love. Then, in the after, Patrick is so closed-off and distant, Pete convinces himself he was imagining it all. Here’s posthiatus Pete, saying: it meant something to me. Did it ever mean anything to you? Were we ever friends, or were we always more?

Oh I’m sorry, I didn’t mean any of it

I just got too lonely, lonely

In between being young and being right

You were my Versailles at night

‘Oh I’m sorry, I didn’t mean any of it’ could be posed conversationally—as another speaker giving an answer to the last verse’s question. Pete does this sometimes: Alone Together and Twin Skeletons are two immediate examples that spring to mind, where the songs are framed conversationally and could be heard/read as call and answer. He does it quite a bit in Van Days writing, usually framed conveniently in actual quotation marks, too. So he could be quoting Patrick back to himself here.

It could also be Pete trying to walk it back, voicing again what he said then to minimize the impact of the trysting, to give Patrick an out if posthiatus Pete is overwhelming him. He could be talking about ending the tryst and the resolution that they could never be together and indicating that that is what he didn’t mean any of. Or he didn’t mean it all the times he said it wasn’t real, that it was just fucking.

My Versailles at night, though—that is. That is some unequivocable queer-ass, decadent devotion. That is some Oscar Wilde level bullshit. I could do a whole post of screaming just about that, gilt and gold and impossible and unfair, a shame and a glory of historical proportion. It pulls up the masculine-gendered ‘mon cherie’ that appears elsewhere in the album. It lets us know this is the same person Pete’s writing about through the album. And Patrick speaks French, guys. That masculine mon is not a fucking mistake.

My 9 to 5 is cutting open old scars

Again and again ‘til I’m stuck in your head

This is pretty clearly about Pete’s job of rehashing all his old pain to write songs that get stuck in our heads. It’s also in conversations with you were the song stuck in my head. It’s a clue that he’s digging into the past, as he so often is in his amazingly recursive relationship with himself.

Had my doubts, but I let them out

You are the drought

And I’m the holy water you have been without

REMEMBER IN THE KIDS AREN’T ALRIGHT WHERE PETE WRITES, ‘stay thirsty like before?’ REMEMBER GUYS DO YOU

It also says: I don’t doubt anymore. I do love you. Holy water, guys. Altar boys. The thing that saves you. The pure thing. The only thing to quench that thirst. Uggggggggh. The Save Rock and Roll vid shows us all we need to know and more about Pete’s idea of holiness and how the band fits into that.

And all my thoughts of you

They could heat or cool the room

And no, don’t tell me you cried

Oh, honey, you don’t have to lie

Running hot or cold on someone, the trysty flip-flopping of I love you I can’t live without you/it’s cool bro it’s just sex it doesn’t mean anything. And it shows how at that time, and through the writing of this album, Pete doubted whether it meant anything to Patrick. Whether Patrick was there with him, inside the feeling, or if he was alone.

I wish I’d known how much you loved me

I wish I cared enough to know

I’m sorry every song’s about you

The torture of small talk with someone you used to love

This is it. This line is the real fucking killer. This is the final nail in my tryst theory shaped coffin. ‘I wish I’d known how much you loved me.’ This is Pete acknowledging, finally: I think it did mean something to you. And I was so wrapped up in myself, my own performative suffering, my own myth, that I didn’t even care enough to see it. I was just convinced someone like you could never love me, that I’d hurt you if you did, that I’d ruin you. I was so obsessed with myself that I didn’t see it, didn’t know. How different I would have been, had I seen it.

(Remember that interview where Pete says “In my twenties I was the most selfish person I’ve ever known” [paraphrase]? Hahahahahahaha so many cries)

And then: ‘I’m sorry every song’s about you.’ This alone gives so much weight to the idea that tryst theory is supported. Who else in Pete’s life has he been writing about all this time? No matter how intense his young relationships were, do we really think he’s still writing to some ex-girlfriend all these years later when he’s so happy with Meagan and has such a beautiful family? No, he’s writing to someone close to him, someone he cannot and will not forget about. He’s writing to the same person he’s always been writing to, on one level or another.

He’s writing to Patrick.

‘The torture of small talk with someone you used to love.’ Because isn’t it killing him, to carry on everyday, to pick up the phone during the hiatus and call Patrick, to carry on like he hasn’t finally grown and matured enough to be able to make good on the wild bets of his young heart? To act as if he isn’t in love with Patrick. To act as if he never was. Isn’t it torture?

ISN’T THIS ENTIRE BAND AND THIS ENTIRE ALBUM ABSOLUTE T O R T U R E

  And that is the Official Tryst Theory reading of Fourth of July! I hope it satisfied your angst-itching needs. What’s next, True Believers? I need something to rant about so I don’t dry up and die before Mania drops.

THANK YOU LOVE YOU BYE

[brebop708]

joshler au #-22

(prompt: story must include a necromancer, gold, and a typewriter. savannah’s au following the same prompt is #22)

tyler joseph is the writer of the next great american novel. he has everything he needs in order to craft the next great story that will make him kurt vonnegut junior: a small apartment in new york city, a string of one or two manic pixie hookups he can lament about if he reaches a writers block, some whiskey from trader joes, and a vintage inspired typewriter he bought from amazon.com, part of which with the $25 amazon gift card he got from his aunt for christmas.

tyler was doing good until he started getting complaints from his neighbor. it started with little notes slid under his door like “hi, it’s your next door neighbor- the walls are very thin so if you can move your typewriter(?) to another area that isn’t the wall conjoining our apartments, or refrain from typing at 3am, that would be greatly appreciated. thank you!! :^) -av” and notes of similar natures continued to be slid under his door over the course of eight months

however, tyler could not do that for if he were to craft the next great american novel then he could not force inspiration to strike, he would let it strike when it struck; for example, at 4am after he makes his semi-regular midnight smoothie that he likes to call “the Joseph” and passes out, only to wake up at 12:10 with multiple ideas and then writes nonstop until 9am, then passing out again

THE JOSEPH

ingredients:

-4 bottles of “five hour energy” -gatorade -mountain dew code red -strawberries -daily multivitamin he forgot to take -some advil -cut peaches -whatever gelato/ice cream he has in the freezer -whatever coffee is still in the machine -lots of ice

steps:

-blend until smooth -drink in under a minute and then pass out -write the next great american novel

due to his intense writing process, his neighbors notes went from “please stop typing so loud -av!!” to “i’m literally going to murder you. this is a literal death threat”

tyler couldn’t let that happen. so he looked up in the yellow pages for a “pete wentz” whompst he met at a bar once and drunkenly told him that he could “call whenever he wanted for like whatever” before promptly vomiting on his own shoes and bursting into tears. upon calling pete, who did not remember who tyler was, but was friendly none the less. upon tyler saying that he’s in a pinch of trouble due to his neighbor trying to kill him so he would like to disappear” pete said that his friend could potentially help, so tyler wrote down the address pete gave him and went over to the address immediately.

tyler was surprised to see that the address he was given was a store called “gold 4 ca$h” which was a gold and pawn shop store that he would occasionally see infomercial style ads for at 2am when he stared into the on but muted TV directly in the eyeline of his writing desk. he entered to see a vaguely punk guy manning the counter of the store, reading a cosmopolitan.

“excuse me” says tyler, “im looking for a josh?”

“i am josh” says the guy, not putting down his cosmopolitan magazine. the magazine was from march 2008. “would you like to trade gold for cash? perhaps that gold chain you are wearing, or that stupid pinky ring?”

“pete said you could help me? said tyler. “my neighbor is going to kill me i think?”

josh finally looked up from his cosmopolitan. “i can help you. follow me,” said josh, who then lead him behind the desk and into a small little room off of the employee lounge, which was filled with drippy candles and a bunch of old stuff that looked vaguely menacing.

this is when josh told tyler that he ran a little necromancy buisness on the side, that would involve some slightly illegal acts. tyler was to allow josh to marry him, then take out a life insurance with pete (who was apparently a life insurance agent who hated his company) and list josh, his now spouse, as the receptor of the money should tyler die. once his neighbor kills tyler and is satisfied knowing she saw the life fade from tylers eyes, she would back of suspicions of him being alive. then josh would stage a funeral, grieve, move all his stuff into storage and collect the life insurance. after josh was able to receive the money, he would take a portion of it, give tyler a new identity, collect his belongings from storange, and then allow him to move to cuba, like tupac shakur and all other people whompst’ve successfully faked their own deaths.

tyler knew this all to be perfectly sane, because if he were to write the next big american novel no one, not even his neighbor, could get in the way of him and success.

“i’m going to write the next great american novel,” said tyler.

“great,” said josh.

josh said that he needed to collect something as “collateral,” until tyler was able to pay josh for his services, something important. tyler agreed to give josh his typewriter. tyler pawned his gold chain for another louder one that josh had on hand, which would hopefully speed up the murder process; they did not have much time anyway, upon josh seeing the increasingly angry notes from the neighbor. they called pete (who was also registered online to be a minister) and were married in the middle of the pawn shop right there. tyler pawned his pinky rink in exchange for a wedding ring, and also bought a bluetooth speaker so he could record his typing sounds and blast it 24/7.

it took a short 2 days for the preparations, and a short 3 days for his neighbor to come and kill him. after she stabbed him repeatedly in the chest and was content with her job, she left and enjoyed a solitary moment of bliss, of peace and quiet. then josh mourned and held a funeral, before collecting his belongings and relocating to cuba.

josh revealed to tyler that he could be continuing on to cuba with tyler, because the house that tyler wanted for writing his novel was too expensive to live in alone, and the necromancy community was growing in cuba, and josh had always wanted to live there. they started as roommates (josh slept with noise cancelling headphones anyway, his roommate in and out of college, also pete, played in a metal band so he formed a habit) and then eventually, beauty and the beast style, their relationship grew. tyler finally published his novel, which the huffington post called “not horrible, but still pretty bad.” josh consoled tyler over this and they instead went to go pick up shells on the beach and relax as tyler talked about his ideas for his next novel, and josh starting on his next “”vintage””’ woman’s magazine.

the end

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ryden fic rec list

ahh so over the years i have read some AMAZING ryden fics…and some not so amazing ones. here, my dear friends, is a masterpost of some ryden fics that are definitely worth reading. make sure to read the warnings that the links give before reading please!! (there are 41 as of now, i update it like once a month)

 ♡ = favorite

one shots:

1. Falling is Like This: So, Brendon is madly in love with a boy from the candy shop. The boy from the candy shop. There’s only one. 

“I bet he’s sweet,” Pete cracks, and Brendon rolls his eyes and groans.

ryan is so cute in this. and the story line is so fluffy and adorable i mean,, c’mon. 4,571 words.

2. let the good times roll: A college/barista AU. 

ryan’s kinda obsessed with fall out boy. i love how this ends. also slight joncer. 3,650 words. 

♡ 3. Love, Sex, and Parachutes: Spencer owns Decaydance Skydiving and employs many of the bandom boys. 

this fic is kinda like the office and it’s so funny and i love it okay just read it. lots of ships. 3,847 words.

4. Purple Is Not A Christmas Color: KID!FIC Brendon has a problem with the fact that Santa put Ryan on the Naughty List.

i live for kid fics and this one is no exception. so fluffy. 5,657 words.

♡ 5. If I were stalking you then I’d know your favourite cookie flavour (Oatmeal Raisin, by the way): Spencer’s a video game addict, Jon’s kind of an ass, Brendon’s in Fall Out Boy and Ryan, uh, well he has a stalker.

ryan and jon work in a coffee shop. brendon’s kinda creepy but he has good intentions. trust me, it’s good. 6,011 words.

6. Sleepover Princes vs. Goodnight Girls: Ryan totally has a thing for Pete Wentz. Brendon should be happy for him, right? 

ryan’s a slick motherfucker and brendon’s a jealous one. 5,487 words.

♡ 7. Love In A Letterbox: AU. He’s always found a sanctuary in books, a protection almost. A world of your own where no one else can change things you don’t want to be changed.

so deep and well written. really cute library au. 6,007 words.

8. From A Pretty Mouth: “Are you wearing lip gloss?” Spencer asked as he passed by the two boys right when Brendon pursed his lips in the mirror. “Damn right I am!” Brendon exclaimed, and grinned at the drummer.  “It tastes like strawberries.”

ryan has a brendon’s lips kink. hot make outs. really short though, 2,000 words.

♡ 9. This Is Halloween: Brendon turns into a four-year-old just before Halloween.

the CUTEST. baby bren is so so great and has a lisp when saying spencer’s name. 2,981 words.

10. Candyboy: There is an urban legend about how a boy can get the most spectacular and orgasmic kiss of his life, if he dares to try it. 

this fic is pretty hot with an interesting story line. i’m pretty sure it’s a crack fic. 1,700 words.

11. Like A Magic 8 Ball, But You Can Only Ask One Question: Jon has the power to know whether someone’s gay or straight or somewhere in between.

jon saved everyone’s lives. just like irl. 3,689 words

♡ 12. Every Night You Stay: It wasn’t Ryan’s fault that Brendon had, apparently, taken everything he said to heart and decided to make Jon his new best friend and secret boyfriend. 

ryan is so weird, jealous, and hilarious in this. i felt so bad for jon hfshjfsdj. it’s by one of my fav authors. 5,342 words.

♡ 13. Best Laid Plans: Brendon had a three-step plan to make Ryan Ross fall in love with him. He didn’t write it down or anything (and if he did, the tiny, shredded pieces of paper were scattered across some highway between Wisconsin and Indiana, so no one could prove it), but it was a very specific plan. 

THIS IS HILARIOUS. i love this fic sossoso much cause brendon tries so damn hard to get ryan. featuring octopuses playing pianos (it’s not crack i promise) 4,600 words.

♡ 14. The Theory of Infatuation: Brendon’s the drama geek with the voice of an angel, and Ryan’s the socially crippled boy on the newspaper staff who loves him.

o!!!!m!!g!!!!!!!! the perfect high school au, ryan is too cute for his own good.  5,896 words. 

long fics:

♡ 1. Eccentric Times At Barrington High: The Office/High School AU: For some odd reason, a documentary company decides to document the daily lives and struggles of the teachers and students of Barrington High.

(OR: Music teacher Patrick Stump is hopelessly in love with his best friend trademark emo English teacher Pete Wentz, valedictorian William Beckett may or may not have had sex with the new Spanish teacher Gabe Saporta over his summer break in Jersey, pretentious and Coldplay-addicted Ryan Ross hates the lively and optimistic music teacher Brendon Urie, and more scandalous and weird things happen)

oh. my. god. this fic made me laugh so hard. mikey way is kind of an asshole and the description isn’t exaggerating when stating “Coldplay addicted Ryan Ross” because he honestly is. I’m pretty sure he fantasizes about Chris Martin on a daily basis. tyler and josh are the camera men. oh yeah, and halsey is in it. they are teachers except the tai guys and halsey. 75,032 words. 

2. Two Weeks In Hawaii: After being left at the alter the night before his wedding to Pete-fucking-Wentz, Ryan cashes in his honeymoon tickets to Hawaii where he finds that maybe not all men are complete assholes. – features pretty much every relationship ever, tons of characters, a bunch of relationships, and more butthurt and angst than any one story should. 

william is so great in this story. brendon’s such a sweetheart too. the beginning is so sad. i may have hated pete wentz for three days after reading this fic. lots of drama and angst. 112,075 words.

♡ 3. Two Vatos Locos Full of Carnalismo and Inamoratos: You dream with your soulmate. That’s how you learn who you’re meant to spend the rest of forever with. It’s simple, really, almost too easy. There’s no struggle unless your soulmate lives miles upon miles away. At least, that’s what usually happens. At first, Ryan thinks he’s sick. That he’s messed up or broken– maybe that’s why he didn’t dream with his soulmate for so long. But then he does, and fuck. Of course his soulmate is a fucking trauma case.

WARNING: WILL FUCK YOU UP. i’m not even exaggerating. it’s so angsty and sad and perfect and i love it so much. also, please read the tags before deciding to read this fic. some include: abuse, alcohol, suicide attempt(s). this isn’t the full thing so please take care and read the tags. 207,878 words.

♡ 4. Our Eyes Shine the Brightest When Our Faces Are Covered in Dirt (sequel to Two Vatos…): “Life isn’t a Disney Movie, and the world isn’t that generous. Sometimes, a story ends with an unsatisfying fade to black, and that’s all you have.”

Ryan struggles to teach his students this after taking a university teaching job to distract himself from his absent soulmate and his dying friend at home. He begins wonders if the ring on his finger means anything at all to Brendon.

read Two Vatos before reading this one. this may be even more sad and angsty, if that’s even possible. i cried a lot while reading this & the prequel. keep tissues handy. 104,062 words.

5. The One Thing I Never Expected: Ryan is Brendon’s best friend, they grew up together. But Ryan is different. An accident when he was a child left him deaf. Brendon has always taken care of Ryan, but now he’s starting to care for Ryan in a different way.

this is one of my all time favs. there’s a rape, suicide, and alcohol mentions. this is so cute and yes, they do have sex eventually. high school au. 91,000 words.

6. Star Shaped: Brendon’s not having the best holidays season ever.

you may want to read Forever, Now before reading this fic for it to make more sense. it isn’t ryden, but the story will make more sense if you do. 54,593 words.

7. Brilliant Smiles and Barely Scraping By: Brendon’s holding something inside of himself. It’s far from his heart; that’s where his favorite songs are kept. What he keeps secret is held in a place that Brendon himself doesn’t even want to try to find.

If Brendon couldn’t fight battles, Ryan was more than ready to fight for him

so so sad and worth reading. highschool au. there’s mentions of abuse and is quite angsty. this fic made me really angry. 73,600 words.

♡ 8. Rock Band Is (Not) A Synonym For Love: A mall AU. Pete’s head over heels for an oblivious Patrick, Gerard’s running out of ways to tell Frank he won’t date him, Ryan’s successfully trying to ignore his feelings for Brendon, and Spencer’s trying to make ends meet even as he slowly falls for Jon. On top of all that the big mall celebration is coming up and there’s all kinds of trouble keeping everyone on their toes.

so so cute. all your fav ships in one: peterick, frerard, joncer, and ofc ryden. pretty funny as well. 45,000 words.

9. Freaks: An accident lands Ryan in the hospital, and he meets Jon, who tells him of a mysterious patient on their floor.  There’s something not quite right about him, but then again, there’s something not quite right about Ryan as well.

ryan is so self concious and kinda an ass. jon & spencer are the best. 46,000 words.

10.  I Don’t Have a Library Card… But I’d Love to Check You Out: AU college. Brendon is close to flunking out of college, and his roommate and partner in crime, Jon, is not helping. He seeks refuge in the school’s library and finds a little more than a place to study. This is a story about finding love, taking chances, and being true to one’s self. 

ryan is adorable and sarah may seem like an ass at first, but she’s not. oh, spencer and sarah are siblings. 46,500 words.

♡ 11. How To Kill A Straight Guy: “Have fun eating your once-living flesh! I’ll be in here masturbating to girl magazines I got from my pot-smoking friends!”

the summary above is just for the first chapter. this fic is AMAZING and soooo much angst. it’s unbelievable. you will probably end up crying. it has a kind of sad ending, just warning you. 75,766 words. 

fics that are too long to be one shots, but too short for the long fics:

♡ 1. Just A Dash Of Fairy-maldehyde:  Brendon had never expected to even meet a real nymph, let alone fall for one.

so so so cute!!!!!!!!!!!! the story line sounds weird, but honestly it’s not at all?? the author totally works it. ryan is flustered so easily and it’s adorable. it’s written by the lovely @buttercupross give her a follow and check out her writing! it’s amazing, and so is she. 14,914 words. 

♡ 2. What We Invented: Now Brendon really doesn’t mind having boys in his bed, especially pretty ones and the one currently occupying his sheets seems quite pretty. It’s just…he likes to know who the boys in his bed are and he has absolutely no idea who this boy is.

ryan is so strange in this but it’s a good strange so it’s okay. the joncer is also so cute like? bill beckett is ryan’s roommate. 7,411 words. 

3. Let Me Down, Charlie Brown or How Jon Walker Saved Christmas:  Christmas time at the mall sucks, especially for those who work there. Brendon has given up on Christmas, Ryan is uptight, and Jon just wants to help. 

pete dresses up in a santa costume and patrick is in an elf one. brendon works in a pet shop and spencer always somehow always knows shit. 13,239 words.

4. Love in Bloom: Ryan Ross is a normal boy who struggles with his past. Can one rose seller at the side of the road help Ryan remember the past while still living in the present?

i’m pretty sure i had a revelation while reading this. i remember crying after reading this. a lot. 12,000 words. 

5. The Interpretation of Dreams: “I think something’s wrong with me,” Brendon tried to explain. “I basically have dreams so great that they kind of make real life pale in comparison. But not so great that I can tell the difference when I dream.” “And this… is a problem?” Spencer looked skeptical.

this fic was also really sad. very well written. so much pent up emotion. 20,000 words. 

6.  The Laundromat: Ryan doesn’t want to know the names of the people who come into the Laundromat. He doesn’t want to know what makes Tattoo Guy talk to Guy Who Never Showers. He doesn’t, but a new customer might just undermine all the work he’s done to distance himself from the world.

ryan’s names for people are pretty funny. features joncer, frerard, gabilliam, and peterick. 20,427 words. 

7. Silver Roses: Happiness doesn’t grow on trees - but maybe it grows on rosebushes. 

there’s slight william beckett/jon walker which was a first. spencer is evil. this is kinda a cinderella au. cute. 23,000 words. 

8. Brendon Urie: Pet Detective: Ryan Ross is the new kennel attendant at Thompson & Thompson Vet Clinic. When he meets his co-worker, Jon Walker, they begin to discover dogs disappearing from their kennels. When Ryan’s own dog, Hobo, goes missing, Jon Walker knows exactly who to call.

i almost gasped out loud when i found out who took hobo. pretty creative. 18,000 words.

♡ 9. Just One Of The Girls:  “Spence, I’m. Look, I’m going to prove this girl-thing to you, okay? I’m going to,” he held up his hands, “this is so brilliant, I’m going to become a girl.”

pretty hilarious. ryan turns into a girl. vicky t is amazing. 20,830 words. 

♡ 10. Every Speck of Dust Illuminated: “Z Berg.” Brendon pauses dramatically for effect. “Is a witch.”

Jon drags a spoon through the foam to draw a four leaf clover, complete with stem. Brendon admires it for a second.

“Brendon,” Jon sighs. “I know you don’t like that Ryan is spending so much time with her, but you don’t get to go around saying shit about people.”

Spine stiffening, Brendon responds as levelly as he can manage, “This has nothing to do with Ryan. Well, besides the fact that he’s hanging out with a witch.” 

Elizabeth Ann Berg is a witch. (and there is Charlotte the cat, Ryan the oblivious, and Brendon the hopelessly infatuated.)

you need an account for the link to work. it doesn’t take very long to make one and it’s free. but, this fic is pretty good and ryan is an old man. not literally, he just dresses like one. 15,931 words. 

♡ 11. For Whatever You Loose: You can’t always get what you want - unless you fish it out of the ocean.

mermaid au!! brendon and jon are mermaids and ryan and spencer are humans. brendon is so cute. 14,500 words. 

♡ 12. You’re Going to Recycle That, Right?: The one where Ryan is a hippie college environmentalist and Brendon just wants a better music auditorium. Featuring Ryan Ross chaining himself to a tree.

ryan is pretty hilarious and smokes a lot of pot with jon. the ending is really cute. 10,600 words.

13. Because You Looks Like A Jackass: Apartment AU! Basically: Brendon’s just moved into town. He courts Ryan Ross with flowery words and also a coat rack. He falls flat on his face. 

brendon is honestly so weird in this but it’s kind of endearing and cute. 7,600 words.

♡ 14. Serenade In Blue: Brendon makes Ryan stupid.

brendon likes ryan and ryan likes brendon but they both have no idea. ryan acts really weird when brendon is around and even more when he’s singing, it’s hilarious. z berg is the greatest. 8,013 words.   

♡ 15. This Happy Ending’s Just Beginning: The Disneyland parade has evolved into an all-singing, all-dancing extravaganza and Brendon wants to be part of it. Unfortunately there aren’t a lot of opportunities for the guy who sells knick-knacks by the park gates. Enter Ryan, the parade’s current star attraction, who might just have a plan to get Brendon everything he always wanted.

disney au!! my heart melted. spencer hates everyone, overall really amazing. 28,348 words.

  16. You Got A Crew? (I Got A Crew Too): AU. Every June, in the world of Las Vegas hair care, it’s all about one thing: the Annual Services Survey. Can struggling hairdresser Brendon Urie and his coworkers finally win over rival salon Cobra Starship? Shenanigans ensue as they battle it out, all while Brendon struggles to keep his eye on the prize—and away from that cute but prickly reporter.

i kept avoiding this fic for some reason? i wish i hadn’t though, it’s hilarious and the pranks are hysterical. one of my favorites. 24,000 words.

here, my friends are 41 of really good ryden fics totally worth your time. if you ever have any questions, don’t be afraid to hit up my ask box. oh, and i apologize for the sucky descriptions, i’m not good at summaries. i tried including fics that i haven’t seen everywhere, so that you can get some new fics. please let me know if the links aren’t working.

make sure to take care of yourselves and read the warnings that the links give before reading. happy reading!

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2018-03-14 16 MUSIC now

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tours announced: Logic, Fleet Foxes, Earth Wind & Fire, Wooden Shjips, more

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Consquence of Sound

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Rob Zombie begins filming Devil’s Rejects sequel, 3 From Hell

Dr. Dre joins Anderson .Paak in London to perform “Still D.R.E.” and “The Next Episode”: Watch

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Fact Magazine

IAMDDB, Objekt, Batu join Field Day 2018 lineup

Brian Eno announces Music For Installations box set

Singles Club: Sade is the queen of the quiet storm on comeback ballad ‘Flower of the Universe’

Bad Boy rapper Craig Mack has died, aged 46

FACT mix 643: GILA

Fluxblog

Took Me For A Ride

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Hopes Or Holidays

An Emotional Sexual Bender

Idolator

Madonna’s New Album Is Coming, But First She’s Going To Direct A Movie

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literally do them all lmao For the strawberry: a lizard person, a little gray alien, an orb, and the Burger King himself For mr horse: ur opinion on the Charmin toilet paper bears

thank you so much anon fuc ily 

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone? 

yikes startin out w a hard one then um when i was a kid i had such a stressful emotional time that it caused me to wet the bed until i was like 12 or 13? it was fuct up 

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be? 

probs my crush or my friend jacob bc he gives gr8 hugs ♥♥

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why? 

Lugia bc when i was little i had a card that was all holographic and it had lugia on it. i never really got super into pokemon lol 

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like? 

oh god it would be a mess 

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had? 

honestly the only one coming to mind is the one i had as a kid where this creature opened up its head and ate my sister and im still scared of going outside in the dark to this day bc of it 

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend? 

i have multiple best friends but theyre mostly all there for me whenever i need them? like one time jacob drove from the other side of town to give me earbuds bc i had lost mine 

😘 talk about your crush or partner 

GOD my crush is a literal angel???? like????? hoy fuk i love her so much she’s so sweet and kind and caring and she just radiates light and love and i got to kiss her on new years ♥♥♥♥

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back? 

depends on HOW rude they were. like,... i was nice to my ex for so long lol 

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!) 

i like my nose, freckles, and the fact that im Nice

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it? 

well its being abandoned by everyone i love and guess what thats starting to happen and im coping lmao

🎁 what never fails to make you happy? 

this video

💙 what annoys you about some people? 

if they chew with their fockin mouth open i die 

😤 do you get angry easily? 

nope i actually am pretty slow to anger lol 

🐇 what do you always daydream about? 

do intrusive thoughts of people coming on to me count 

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change? 

well no offense but republicans would be illegal. sent off to an island not allowed to communicate with the rest of the world lol, strawberries would be in season year round, and weed would be legal bc i cant think of anything else 

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry? 

kiss: orb ♥♥befriend: lizard person kill: k i l l t h e b o r g (burger king) marry: gray alien 

✈️ what is your dream city and why? 

ive not been to any good cities so i dont know 

☕️ talk about your ideal day 

hanging out with all my friends, they dont all hate each other, we all watch movies in a big cuddle puddle and im in the middle of it ♥♥

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert? 

definitely an ambivert. 

💧 when was the last time you cried? 

fuck????? i dont remember???? my eyes welled up yesterday does that count 

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment 

in no particular order: 1. Come On Eileen 2. Insomnia (by Dirty Heads) 3. Birdhouse in Your Soul4. Ana Ng5. Moving On (by James)

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why? 

pyrokinesis so i can light all abusers on fire lol 

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say? 

Listen, kid, there’s a reason you hate yourself and there’s a reason you wanna die all the time but lemme tell you, it ain’t worth it. those hospital stays aren’t worth it. you might not believe it but you’re over 250 days clean! didn’t think you’d make it this far, huh? you also made it to 18 years of age. you’re gonna be okay, kid. 

💚 who are you jealous of and why? 

myself when i’m in a nice mood bc like??? shut yo nice ass up 

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why? 

bravery honestly. i have reasons but i dont have words for the reasons rn 

🙊 what are you ashamed of? 

um that secret i told the fuck

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn? 

i know English and tiny bits of French and i’d love to become fluent in French and Italian? 

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be? 

i wanna be best friends with mike wazowski 

☁️ talk about your dream universe. 

???????

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today? 

it’s a bit late but did do some dishes for my mom cleaned off my desk so i could start painting again :> 

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why? 

new c/r/yptid: Lance Cube.

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike 

y’know when ur eyes just start crying when the rest of u is fine?? like wow i didnt know i was supposed to be emotional but ig???? 

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately 

i’m anxious because my doctors office isnt giving my medical records to the michigan works people im working with so they cant open a case for me, making it so they cant help me find a job bc of my mental illnesses 

   🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

 i wanted to be a veterinarian but now i wanna be a zookeeper 

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods? 

i loooove peach rings and sour patch kids and !!!! strawberry shortcake 

🍑 what are you obsessed with? 

animal crossing tbh i love it so much 

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed? 

i get auditory hallucinations and i just start crying no matter what stressed mood im in. angry stressed? crying. happy stressed? crying. anxious stressed? crying 

😪 what are you sick of? 

having kidney disease??? ?

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker? 

i mean? sometimes? but yall gotta talk me into going on roller coasters 

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have? 

red beet eggs are my LIFE if i could eat them daily i would die, peppers are fucking gross, and tea is fucking gross unless its Tea 

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person? 

i like to think i am a good person? 

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies? 

draw & sing!!!! 

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself? 

You Ain’t No Saint by Aaron West and The Roaring Twenties 

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

I’m annoying. I plan on improving it by shutting my ass up 

 🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

i draw people and eyes mainly. and the occasional hand 

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams? 

i’m too shy and bisexual for this 

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you? 

fuck i dont remember i just know i have the same one as Fox Mulder and thats why it fits me lmao

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite! 

...u didnt give me 3 ppl.... 

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why? 

mothman because he’s my boyfriend 

🐴 opinion on __? (Charmin Toilet Paper Bears) 

they wipe my ass for me 

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person? 

i used to be. now im not so sure. 

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them. 

yall i’ve only read 3 books 

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

i usually mope around and sleep a lot. it doesnt help usually. 

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad? 

Death Anxiety 

🌍 which country do you live in? 

USA! 

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words 

needy, petty, and damaged 

🐵 which quotes changed you? 

“What’s your Fursona” - @thebpdevil“Your job is to break death’s heart” 

💭 do you keep a diary? 

I keep a bullet journal!! i think thats kinda similar 

💫 who inspires you? 

honestly my dad??? but also idk :/ 

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why? 

hell YES because i am one

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like? 

department store clearance section & band merch 

🎬 what are some of your favourite films? 

Heathers, Taken, Girl Interrupted, and if u watch the OA in one shot it counts as a movie i’m counting it 

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory? 

Throwing mashed potatoes at my sister. 

🐱 what’s your dream pet like? 

Cat snake (ferret) who loves to cuddle and doesnt bite :-) 

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be? 

probably???? um???? Patrick Stump or Pete Wentz honestly. 

HOO THIS WAS FUN AND IT TOOK OVER AN HOUR TO DO THANK YOU 

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Mew announce 'Frengers' 15th anniversary reissue & tour

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