#person on internet complains and complains about drawing tableettt ouuhhhh booo hoo!!

[suitcassidy]

personal ramble/vent (??) incoming !!

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have you ever felt troubled about not having made any content for a show or book series you really love and then it's like "well, it's ended now. what can i do?" or felt something along the lines of that??

that's me with ii currently .. it's finally about to end off with season 2 and i've barely made any actual.. good fanart for it on this account. mainly because of the lack of a drawing tablet. i know i've made a couple of osc art related posts on here but they're all from me drawing vertically on my phone with my fingers (YES, I HATE IT!!) yeah, they've came out pretty decent looking (some others, definitely not) but it's really hard... and harrowing getting all my lines right and trying to make my art come out the way i want it to. probably not a big surprise to anyone else who has tried this. unless i'm just very.. bad. at it. unlike others..

i'm just. nervous about the timing of when i finally get a drawing tablet and when inanimate insanity will finally end. will i get my tablet before ii ends? will ii end before i get my tablet? will the fanart i make even be relevant if the latter happens?? i have so many ideas of fanart i want to create of .. things. character interactions. fanart based off of scenes. but what if it's outdated by then? old news? no one wants to see fanart of that anymore. that idea is always in the back of my mind nowadays.

yet i always tell myself, "cass, it depends on how it ends! there very well could be a good normal ending. everything goes back to normal, i can draw any character interaction i want. the fandom will still be very much alive afterward too most likely." yeah.. yeah maybe. but i'm still nervous. scared? sounds really pathetic. i dunno

anyways, this was my little ramble, rant, or vent whatever you wanna call it .. hopefully i don't run anybody away with this dumb post lol. but thanks for reading if you've actually managed fo get this far. i was just yearning to get this off my chest for some reason and have somebody.. i don't even know?? reassure me? just.. look inside my jumbled mind for a moment??

sorry, this is so dumb umehhuurr CASS OUT! *a white cloud of smoke surrounds me for a moment before it dissipates to show me lying in a heap on the floor*