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thezombieprostitute · 4 months ago

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The Arrangement - Chapter 3

Summary: Jake's done a lot of things to keep his sister, and then his niece, safe from his parent's influence and manipulation. If he wants to keep them safe, he has to marry you.

Warnings: Bad parents, Implied physical abuse. Let me know if I missed any!

Chapter 2 -- Chapter 4

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You spend the car ride in silence. If your brother taught you anything about angry men it's that you don't speak to them without permission. You wince at the memories of his wrath which you saw matched in the eyes of Jake, your husband, throughout the wedding. So you keep yourself quiet and small, dreading your wedding night together.

Jake kept himself silent. He could feel your disappointment with him as your husband. You were likely plotting how to control him, make him miserable. He'd let you have the control if that's what you wanted. He can play the role as you need, or as your families need. But it was the private stuff that had him wanting to break. Would you let him play his video games? Would you constantly make fun of him, like so many others, for being himself? How much of himself will he have to sacrifice for the safety and security of his real family?

He pulls into the underground parking garage for the penthouse and parks. Not wanting to get lectured so soon, Jake is immediately out and going to open your door. He doesn't know that you only didn't open it because you weren't given permission. You step out and keep your eyes down so as not to anger him. As much as he's not looking forward to a life with a woman who drains his soul, it still hurts that you're so disappointed in him you can't even look at him.

The elevator ride is worse than the car ride. At least in the car you had buildings and people you could look at. Now it's just you and your eyes on the floor. You should be grateful he hasn't tried to touch you, but the fact that he puts as much distance between the two of you as he can speaks volumes. Jake tries making himself small in the hopes that you won't yell at him for taking up your space. The fact that you refuse to acknowledge him tells him a lot. When the doors open, Jake rushes into the entryway of the penthouse, the silence and tension was suffocating him. You hide your wince and try to make yourself smaller so you don't make him angrier at you than he clearly is.

Clay is waiting for the two of you in the entryway. He smiles, "good to know my pinto's got better speed and mobility than that fancy model they got you driving." Jake scoffs as he unlocks the door, using a keypad with the code he wants to change but knows he'll never be allowed to. Clay turns to you, "I know we were introduced earlier, but the whole thing was rather rushed. I'm Clay, Jake's boss, for lack of a better term." He holds out his hand and you shake it, you try to smile so as not to appear to be rude, but the day is weighing heavily on you.

Jake holds the door open for the two of you.

It's your first time seeing the place and you're immediately saddened by how much of it looks like your mother's tastes and preferences. It's overly crowded with useless, gaudy, overpriced things. You want to throw it all out. It's supposed to be a space for you and your husband, but it's just another reminder of how much your family still controls you. Jake groans as he looks around. Pulling out his phone, he quickly finds several "Internet of Things" devices that are easy to hack. Of course his parents would put in the fanciest refrigerators and thermostats without caring about the security risks. Jake doesn't need his refrigerator to connect to his phone, dammit!

Jake's groan makes you freeze. Clay asks, "what's wrong now?"

"I gotta do some serious cleanup for the sake of security," he grumbles. "Gotta make sure no one else actually gets to set the temperature of the thermostat, that I don't get text messages from my fridge, that my damn toaster doesn't get hacked!" He looks at you, "if that's okay with you, of course." His tone is bitter because he hates that he has to ask your permission for something so basic.

You nod, "of course." You keep your voice small, afraid of angering him any further. He really must hate you.

Clay looks at you, "how about you make yourself comfortable, little lady? I know it's your honeymoon and all, but Jake and I need to talk and who knows how long he's gonna be fixin' this internet problem y'all got."

You look to Jake but he's still on his phone so you ask, "is...is that okay with you?"

He gives you a confused look, "of course."

You make an internal note that, whatever Clay says goes. He's Jake's boss so you're best bet is to keep him happy to make Jake happy.

When you're out of sight Clay turns to Jake. "You best be gentle with that one, Jake. I think she's been through her own kind of hell."

"She's the spitting image of her mother, hasn't said a single word, can't even look me in the eye," Jake grouses. "She hates me and I'm likely going to spend the rest of my life never being good enough for her."

"I ain't so sure about that," he muses. "I get the impression she's afraid of you."

Chapter 2 -- Chapter 4

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Tagging: @alicedopey; @ashdoctor; @delicatebarness;

@ellethespaceunicorn; @icefrozendeadlyqueen; @ronearoundblindly

#jake jensen #jake jensen x reader #jake jensen x female reader #arranged marriage au

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watermelon-jooce · 3 months ago

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OKAY dont flame me for this, but heres a Saiki K hot take that I think shoukd be talked about more.

I feel like people REALLY have to start taking what Kuusuke did to Toritsuka more seriously, because its pretty bad the more you think about it.

⚠️Large TW for emotional manipulation and gr00ming undertones. ⚠️

(‼️if you're gonna debate please read all first‼️)

I can't find the specific panels, but what Kuusuke did to Toritsuka was taking advantage of him, he pried on his insecurities.

Kuusuke was seen telling Toritsuka how much "better" he is than Kusuo, how he has better powers, how he should be put on a pedestal instead of stupid old Kusuo.

Toritsuka is seen before hand disliking his own powers. He want's more from them, he wants them to be less useless. Kuusuke knows this, because Toritsuka is honest and probably told him.

Instead of offering help, he pried in on that insecurity. By telling Toritsuka that he's better than Kusuo, that he's more important, Toritsuka was drawn in so quickly. He'd never really been told or praised for his power before, most people not believing him for being a Medium or others saying his powers are useless.

When Toritsuka was finally told by Kuusuke that he was better, that someone finally believed he was better than the person he always compared himself to.

Toritsuka seems easily impressionable, we don't get to see his father much if at all, and we haven't heard about his mother at all. Im assuming he lives in the temple with little to zero family, being raised by the temple instead of his own parents.

He probably lacked good life lessons, Toritsuka always goes to others for help, he begs because its all he most likely knows how to do.

Kuusuke knows this, and he uses it against him. He knows Toritsuka has a grudge against Kusuo for his powers, he knows Toritsuka is insecure about his own, he knows Toritsuka is vunerable with this information.

And what does he do? He emotionally manipulates Toritsuka into helping him attack Kusuo with the Cat Tank.

Yeah, you could be thinking, well Kuusuke is a bad person mostly in a whole(I could go on and on about why he is the way he is), and that he's bound to manipulate others into doing what he wants, but when you really think about it, Kuusuke is an 19/20 year old adult that took advantage of a 16 year old kid.

Could it be considered that Kuusuke technically groomed Toritsuka? Grooming is not always 'adult takes advantage of a child for something explicit', grooming can be taking advantage of a child for something in return. It's not always for the other, much worse, option, I'm not saying Kuusuke is a kiddy diddler, im saying he groomed Toritsuka to get what he wanted, which was to attack Kusuo.

I have seen someone talk about this before, I can't remember who but someone had mentioned the gravity of it and the strange undertones of what Kuusuke did to Toritsuka, finding a child and taking advantage of his insecurities to get what he wants through emotional manipulation.

I know you could say that 'Kuusuke is about only 19/20, he's not much older than Toritsuka who is 16/17' But that is heavily, heavily besides the point. The point is that Kuusuke is still an adult. Kuusuke is known to be one of the smartest people to live. Toritsuka is a child, and Toritsuka is still in school.

Again, please understand I'm not saying Kuusuke is a kiddy diddler. I don't want people to flame me for 'thinking that.' Kuusuke obviously has a lot of problems of his own, and emotional manipulation is something he is used to doing and probably doesn't even realise he's doing it because it helps him get what he wants.

I can see how its just emotional manipulation, and I am willing to hear anybody out on this and debate(politely), and if i'm wrong I will admit I am wrong.

But AGHH this has really been eating at my brain. Kuusuke manipulating Toritsuka using his insecurities and stuff to get what he wants is just super weird to me. Kuusuke is obviously a more creepy character, and I believe if the anime were more serious it would play a lot more on that fact.

But yeah, this is what I believe what happened. Again, its a really heavy topic so if you guys wanna tell me im wrong you can tell me im wrong and I will hear you out. I was just thinking about it and after seeing one person mention it a while back its been in the back of my mind for a while.

Not saying its wrong to love Kuusuke, I know the fandom is split on him. I personally don't care about whether someone loves him or not, cause one side you can say he got his freak off to his brother, but the other side says he was just excited and not doing anything weird. Kuusuke is a really interesting character and I really wanna do a big essay on him like this soon.

But yeah thats all I had to say, just remember if you guys wanna tell me im wrong you can tell me im wrong and I will hear you out.

(can you guys tell i dont wanna be destroyed)

#saiki kuusuke #kuusuke saiki #reita toritsuka #toritsuka reita #saiki kusou no psi nan #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k.#hot take #please dont hate me #lmao #saiki kusuke #kusuke saiki #the disaster of psi kusuo saiki #saiki k #saiki no psi nan

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hyog-blog · 2 months ago

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Fangs of Fortune (ep. 33 - ep. 34)

Okay, I might need therapy after this show now, but oh boy, did they end on a hopeful note (I mean that sweet special episode that made EVERYTHING better). I almost don't want to recount the torment that was the last few episodes, but it was pretty. And all of them are incredibly beautiful sufferers D:

Li Lun had a spectacular, albeit short, redemption arc, sacrificing himself both for Zhuo Yichen and, most importantly, Zhao Yuanzhou. LL and ZYZ are especially tragic if you come to think of it. They've both lived 30,000+ years, can you imagine the amount of cycles their relationship went through? They could have been enemies just out of boredom, and then lovers again, and then friends, and then whatever. They both don't pose as very sociable beings, so I imagine having each other in their lives was pretty important. Thus, losing the other one was pretty much unbearable. It's akin to losing a part of yourself, of your body and soul (once again, the TORMENT of Li Lun dying and what ZYZ was going through was palpable).

"I can't stand seeing him so useless."

And that moment when Zhao Yuanzhou needed to kill the phoenix but he couldn't utter the goddamn spell because Zhuo Yichen was in there, too, and he could have been killed. Gosh, give that old demon a break, hasn't he suffered enough already? (Mr.Guo says: nope, not nearly). But that handshake was hotter than a kiss, I swear :)

That moment when Zhao Yuanzhou was going to his death, leaving Wen Xiao behind and breaking A LOT at the passageway, realizing he wouldn't be able to keep any of his promises - to her and to him, that was almost worse than the death itself. Hou Minghao played it so well it physically hurt to see him like that.

Don't get me even started about Bai Jiu and how he held onto Zhuo Yichen's hair bells for strength and courage D: In the end, he was the one who saved everyone. A baby boy who was scared of everything.

And what a day it was for Wen Xiao to lose both her stepfather and her loved one. Zhao Yuanzhou did sacrifice him for her (otherwise she would have done it as a goddess for all those people), but a small evil voice in my head (probably Li Lun's XD) whispered that it's just one city, how many ppl could the Chongwu Camp have infected? Screw the city, save Zhao Yuanzhou XD Well, I'm obviously biased, so, yeah. One Great Demon saved the day, finally realizing his deathwish, which was no longer there.

Zhao Yuanzhou and Zhuo Yichen during the killing - it was just pure heartbreak. ZY manned up (if it's even applicable here) and did the deed himself, not waiting for ZYZ to go full-on Ying Long on him. Instant depression for the whole Demon Hunting Bureau, whoever was left there still. But kudos to our boy for saving a part of Zhao Yuanzhou's soul - just like Bing Yi did. And not only that, he went looking for it. I have no idea what you could do with a particle like that (can you grow him back? I'd like to think so, although Ying Long was kinda stuck and didn't seem too happy, hmm).

Also, the last person Zhao Yuanzhou saw was Zhuo Yichen D;

But still, that ending in the special was hopeful. Instantly made everything somehow less dreary and lonely. Zhuo Yichen's character growth was IMMENSE. Our boy went from hating demons who killed his family, then getting to know so many of them, and one especially well, and even to becoming one himself. And in the end, he refused to give up on Zhao Yuanzhou, saying he'd be guilty for the rest of his life if he didn't find him. Well, maybe that, but also because of their love, which was HUGE.

I like how the show explored different types of love - friendly, sisterly, brotherly, m/m, f/f, and everything in between. Unrequited love, platonic love, the whatever love - it's all been there. Pei Sijing's face said a lot when Wen Xiao told them she was also leaving - to stay in the Wilderness. It's not-really-funny how without Zhao Yuanzhou their whole team broke apart (well, some died, but each of them went their separate ways). I kind of hopefully imagine that if he came back, he'd probably want to spend a small eternity with Zhuo Yichen or Wen Xiao (or more likely both) and that could be a whole new adventure for them.

I sacrificed my night's sleep for this, no regrets whatsoever XD Not nearly enough kittens in the world to heal after this, though. But the show is so-so good.

#fangs of fortune #i'm really not well about all of this #which was expected but still #what a ride it's been #I need to bathe myself in kittens now XD #fof #zhao yuanzhou #zhuo yichen #zhu yan #li lun #neo hou #hou minghao #yan an

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daughter-of-sapph0 · 4 months ago

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what do you gain from sending cruel anons? satisfaction? approval from others? does someone pay you to do it? I never understood why you freaks do that bullshit. it's useless anyway.

I'm not publishing your anonymous ask. no one deserves to look at that slop.

it doesn't even hurt me. nothing you say to me can be worse than the pain I've already felt. your words mean nothing to me. you can tell me to kill myself all you want. you'll never be louder than the voice in my head who almost convinced me to do it.

I've already reached my lowest point in my life. I've gotten better. I love myself too much to let you take that away from me.

you, on the other hand, are sitting alone in your room and copypasting the same generic message to random trans people you see online, because your life has literally no value, because you will never do anything of note, because you're unworthy of any sort of affection from others, and you will die alone, unhappy, unfulfilled, unaccomplished, and your last dying wish as you sit on your death bed surrounded by no one is that you could have spent more time being a cruel heartless bigoted irredeemable cunt to people online.

meanwhile I'll be living my best life. I'll forget about your entire existence later this afternoon. I'll continue to spend time with the people I love, and help spread positivity to people who need it. I will outlast you. I'll live my life to the fullest while you rot in your isolation. I will outlive you. my legacy will continue after I'm gone while people will try and pretend that your ilk never existed. I will outlove you. I will be a reminder that your negativity and hatred is but a momentary stain on existence that will be washed away by unconditional love and support.

I'm no longer speaking to that anonymous asker. instead I address this to my followers, as well as anyone else who may see this post: do not answer anon hate ever. it's not worth it. those people do not care about your response, and only receive gratification from seeing you suffer.

I know a lot of you weren't online in ye olden days. but back then, we had rules for the internet. and one of them is to never feed the trolls. feeding the trolls mean they win. somewhere along the line some of them managed to convince people that blocking the trolls means they win. that's not true. blocking means you win because you'll never have to see their disgusting horrendous comments again. the block button is your best friend. use it.

if you get anon hate, delete it. block the sender (which I'm pretty sure now ip blocks whoever sent the ask), and if it continues, turn of anons, or even turn off asks in general. do not let them hurt you. do not engage. do not respond. do not answer them. they aren't looking for a debate. and you won't change their mind. answering their ask just exposes their slop to all your followers. and none of them want to see that shit.

remember that for every hateful anon message you get, there are 100 people who love you unconditionally and care about you. do not let the loud hateful minority win.

maybe what I'm doing counts as feeding the troll. I'm not directly answering their ask, but I'm still getting involved. but fuck it. I'm turning their hate into positivity. I'm using this as a moment to spread awareness to others.

if you're a person on the internet who's received hateful messages, especially if you're trans, I promise you that you're not alone. ignore them. find people who care about you and love you. I promise that the small annoying obnoxious voice does not represent the opinions of society as a whole. I promise that nothing they say is true. I promise that you are loved. unconditionally. forever. simply because you are you.

#dostxt

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skunkes · 7 months ago

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I hope this question isn't out of line, but I'm curious what you would say Al's biggest flaws are! Talon's flaws are very front and center in his characterization (in a good way!) and I feel like Al's are maybe more subtle or he's better at hiding/managing them 👀

i feel al's flaws seem very like, job interview "oh my biggest weakness? Ummm i work Too hard" if just listed in bullet points, but it fits for him. he's actually had a pretty secure upbringing with only a few outlier incidents

The working too hard is/was one, as he's worked through it but the capacity for such a thing is still there, he's the kind of person who will get tunnel vision over something, big or small, and "finding it easy to prioritize everyone but himself" is another constant and strange mix.

There have been points of his life where knowing him was like dating a surgeon, and you wouldn't hear from him for very long since he was constantly filling any amount of free time in his life with Something to do so he could have some alone time (which was the opposite of what he needed at the time due to the event that caused it) so that he wouldn't have to think about himself or taking care of himself. This would be any and everything, excessive activity and unhealthy amounts of exercise, odd jobs, meticulous hobbies in isolation. Stopping/relaxing for even a moment would mean it would take longer for him to be Useful to others again once he "got over" what was happening to him, though all of this also made him not want to be around others for long

Once that has been managed it's still easy for him to prioritize others because he's a caretaker at heart....he loves being a safe familial figure to everyone. The mom friend, the dad friend. This alone isn't bad but it is when paired with all the other stuff. I've talked before about how he was bullied by a teacher in his childhood for being the biggest (height and weight) in his class, and made an example out of for being "potentially dangerous" because of this, in order to keep his classmates in line.

This is partially why he struggles with putting himself first and also leads (more "led" bc it's gotten better but the potential for it to get bad again is still there ykwim) to him bending to the whims and needs of others because well if he stands up for himself people will be Scared of him, the big, tall, inherently dangerous (<- instilled in him as a child) man. He loved caring for others even before his bad schooling experience but it made it worse with "if im nice enough to others and do whatever they want nobody will ever see me as dangerous. And also without Taking Care of Others or putting myself to work I'm kind of a useless person, my worth is what I give to others."

He has also gotten better with this and it's easier to spot and intervene before he dips too far into that mental pit. I hope dis all made sense wrt the question, it felt important to mention it vs just being like "ummm workaholic sometimes, cares about others TOO much"

#long post #anonymous #skunk mail #oc text #it also connects like told he was inherently dangerous as a child and the effects of dis is what leads to him #staying in a very harmful relationship because he doesn't want to be seen as the big abusive monster compared to the much smaller #partner that's hurting him -> occupies himself with anything and everything #so he doesnt have to think abt what happened and so that he can still be of use to SOMEBODY #and be somebody's doting boyfriend after he Gets Over It #but he isolates himself (so he wont be a burden) and it takes longer for him to ''get over it''#and him taking long to get over it makes him feel bad bc he's no use to anyone like dis etc

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misspelledwordswizard · 4 months ago

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Chapter 8 - I'm a terrible liar, I admit it.

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I saw Wind and Sky in the distance, the others were right behind me, as I excitedly ran towards the two who seemed to have just woken up. They saw me approaching and waved at me, I finally reached them, bending over and gasping for air, my face must have been red by now.

— Hey, look what the boys made for me! – I said excitedly as I took the sword off my back and handed it to Sky so he could see it better.

— Wow, that’s really nice, nice work Four! – The blacksmith thanked me as he began to explain his work in a more technical way, Sky and Wild were paying close attention, and as interested as I was, I couldn’t keep my attention due to a nudge on my arm.

When I turned to see what had touched me, Wind was looking at me with a serious expression, but at the same time he seemed hesitant.

— You called me Link. – He spoke softly, so that only I could hear, and all I could do was look at him with a confused expression. – Yesterday, when you said good night to me, you called me Link. – He explained. Holy shit, I hadn’t noticed.

— Hm? Why would I call you Link if your name is Wind? – I played dumb, but I feel like this isn’t going to fly. He didn’t seem convinced at all either, but I decided to insist a little more. – Did you get confused? The two names sound very similar! Or did you have the hero of Hyrule in mind? Do you admire him? – I tried to tease him in a friendly way, but he didn’t seem very excited, he just stared into my eyes for a moment that seemed to last na eternity.

— Okay, I must have just misunderstood... – He said and walked away, ending the subject. I fucked up, I made a mistake, my chest tightened at the idea that the sailor might not trust me anymore, or worse, end up finding out that in my past life I was from a world where his and his brothers’ lives are games and they are not seen as real people with real experiences, and that until I reincarnated I also thought that way and then he will hate me and see me as a horrible person, he will tell others who will also hate me and call me a traitor, they will all abandon me and never speak to me again and I will be alone having to deal with Dark Link who is after me for some unknown reason and then I will be captured by him and he will see that I am useless and worthless he will throw me away too and then my parents will disown me and I will spend the rest of my life alone working in a stable and cleaning manure.

Or I’m just worrying too much. That’s na option too.

My attention returned to the boys’ conversation, which Wind was now part of, they were debating about where Time and Twilight could be. I approached to join the conversation, even though I had nothing to add, and Four returned the sword to me.

— Do you think they’re still sleeping?

— No, those two are the ones who wake up the earliest, maybe they went out to patrol the area.

— In Kakariko Village? I don’t see any reason.

The general chatter was interrupted by the voice of the Twilight Hero right behind us, near one of the village entrances.

— What are you guys arguing about so agonizingly? – He and Time approached, it seems they really were out of the village for some reason.

— Where were you? – Warriors asked curiously and slightly worried.

— Just on a morning walk, also to scout the area before we started walking again. – Time replied calmly, reassuring the others. My mind was still distracted, but I tried to focus, taking the opportunity to show the sword to the two.

— Look at the sword I got from the boys! – I tried to act excited and not show my internal discomfort. It seemed to have worked.

— And do you know how to use a sword? — Twilight asked suspiciously, for good reasons.

— Does that answer your question?! – I exclaimed as I carelessly swung my sword with not a shred of technique against absolute nothingness.

— Yeah, we have a long job ahead of us teaching you.

I laughed and straightened up, putting my sword away again to avoid any possible self-inflicted injuries due to my stupidity. The “olders” and Wild got together to discuss which way we should go to leave the village, a subject that currently didn’t interest the others, including me, so we just got together to talk about what each other did yesterday or random things, just to distract ourselves.

— I managed to catch all the Cuccos yesterday, only to wake up today and find them all gone again! – Wind looked frustrated, making a comical expression. – Too bad for them, I’ll have to chase them all again!

— I can help, I’m good with birds, I’m sure the work will be much easier. – Sky offered to help, which the sailor readily accepted.

— Can we eat something? We spent the whole night working on this sword, I barely slept and I didn’t eat anything either. – Legend complained, it seemed like his bad mood was greater than usual, which made sense considering his state now.

Before anything else could be said, Time approached, but he seemed to be focused only on me.

— There’s a serious matter we need to discuss before we leave. We’ll be leaving early tomorrow morning, so be ready. Have you bought the missing things yet? – He asked directly, and I just nodded. – Good. I want everyone at the great fairy’s fountain in an hour, where we can have a little more privacy.

He left without saying anything else, looking very serious. I was worried, this all obviously had something to do with me, fear set in when I knew I would get a scolding from my mother, even though I knew I hadn’t done anything wrong. Did I do something wrong?

Well, it wasn’t time for that, the mood became more serious among the boys too, they seemed as lost as I was, but if the whole situation required even a greater level of privacy then it was certainly something important. Well, I have na hour until then, I’m too anxious to do anything else and the others seem busy, I watched as they split up, each going to do their own thing. I think I’ll read something at the inn until na hour has passed.

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It didn’t work. I spent an hour thinking about all the possible possibilities about what this meeting could be about, that is, I was anxious the whole time without being able to concentrate on a single sentence of the book I was reading. Now I saw myself going to the fountain of the great fairy, I had never been so punctual in my entire two lives. On the way I met others who also seemed curious or worried, it seems that besides Time, the only ones who knew what this was about were Warriors and Twilight.

Regarding discretion, it seems that Cotera would be na exception to the privacy rule, for some reason it seems that whatever is said is nothing new to her, even though she will not participate in the conversation. At least that is what Wars told me. Finally, we arrived at the place, where Time was already waiting thoughtfully.

— So, what is all this about? – Hyrule took the words from my mouth, drawing the hero of time’s attention to the group.

— Boys, this won’t be about anything new for you, this is nothing more than a conversation so she knows everything. We can’t leave her in the dark. – Time looked serious, obviously talking about me. The others relaxed when they understood what it was about, only to tense up again at my future reaction, while I just looked confused. – First of all, know that this is all very serious and important, please don’t go spreading this around, it could end up causing panic and confusion among the common people.

It was obvious that now he would only be talking to me, his instructions and explanations would be directed to me, so why would he call the others too? Unless... okay, I get it, he’s going to tell the truth. But why? Is it really necessary for me to know his secret, even though I’m traveling with them?

— You may have heard of the Legend of the Hero, you most likely know the hero of your time-

— Yes, Wild. I mean, his name is Link, everyone knows that since he defeated the Calamity. And I had also seen him in the stable before, that’s why I recognized him. – I interrupted him, I couldn’t pretend to be a complete layman, it would be strange if I didn’t know who Wild really was.

— Okay, I expected you already knew. But about those who came before him, with the same name, his past incarnations. They all lived a long time ago, some of their adventures were told as legends, although many have been lost over time, they all had the spirit of the hero that connected them. – I knew that very well, I knew where he was going with it. – We are those heroes.

I tried to pretend to be surprised. It didn’t work. Everyone expected some reaction from me, maybe disbelief, curiosity, anything, but I couldn’t fake it, that was a kind of lie I wasn’t used to.

— Oh, wow, the heroes of Hyrule? From different eras and... Yeah, I already imagined it. – I gave up pretending and just assumed the truth, or part of it. I received some looks of surprise, curiosity or distrust. Except for Wind, his expression said “I knew it!” – Look, I’m sorry, but from the moment I recognized Wild, it became easy to imagine just finding out a little about you. I mean, you all look so similar that you seem like brothers, you are all experienced heroes like you’ve never seen in a common adventurer, you all use strange nicknames including the one I already knew as Link. From then on, and from some whispers that you thought I didn’t hear, it wasn’t hard to assume this possibility. Of course I wasn’t sure, it seemed absurd, but time travel would be much less unrealistic than if all of this was just a big coincidence, let’s face it!

Everyone looked at me surprised, shocked, I think Legend was even a little offended that I had, theoretically, discovered them so easily. Well, I already knew long before, but I think I would have noticed it even without memories of my last life. Time seemed a little suspicious when I started talking, but he just sighed and accepted it.

— Well, I guess that makes our job easier then. – Wild’s voice, which seemed to be trying to smooth things over, caught everyone’s attention.

— I knew you called me Link! – Wind exclaimed victoriously. – You’re a terrible liar, you know? But that’s good, at least we know we can trust you. – My heart sank, oh, child, if you knew, you might never forgive me.

— But that’s not the only matter to be discussed. – Everyone’s attention returned to Time, who seemed even more serious. – The real problem is about our current mission, we can’t take you with us without you knowing the dangers you’ll be exposed to. – The atmosphere became tense again, once again everyone knew what it was about, but now I really had no idea.

— We didn’t meet by our own will, we don’t know how it happened, portals simply started appearing and when we went through them we found each other. The problem started when that shadow you met appeared. He’s a different enemy than we’ve dealt with before, and it seems the goddesses are telling us we need to work together to deal with him. – Warriors said, which helped to alleviate the atmosphere of a father’s lecture that was present when only the Old Man spoke.

— The problem is that our last attempt to face him only resulted in a seriously injured Twilight and the enemy recovering after we believed we had defeated him. This shows that the situation we’re in is dangerous in many ways. Going with us means being aware of the risk of getting hurt. – Wild was the one who continued the explanation. This was all new to me. I didn’t know what to think.

— But not going with you means being totally vulnerable to this shadow that may or may not come after me. – I said thoughtfully. Of course I wouldn’t choose to be in danger voluntarily, but in this case it’s a possible danger or an almost certain death.

— There’s the other problem too. – Twilight mentioned, drawing attention to another point. – The portals appear out of nowhere, and they seem to be related to which era the shadow is in, which forces us to go through it when it appears. But this also takes us to different times, different Hyrules, and we never know when we’ll be able to return to our own. Going with us also forces you to go through these portals, running the risk of all of us being trapped in some random time. – The atmosphere became even more tense. It seemed that this was a sensitive topic for everyone there, after all, they were also running this risk, one that they had no way of controlling.

The idea of perhaps never seeing my parents again made me want to cry. This was a terrible possibility, even more so because I had no way of contacting them and explaining everything. What if they thought I had abandoned them? But then again, what choice would I have, stay and die or go and try to survive and return to my family, both options were bad, but one was still bearable.

— What choice do I have? At least if I go, I can fight to survive and return to my family. Even if there’s a chance I’ll never return, it’s still better than the possibility of ending up dead without even trying. – The urge to cry must have been visible in my voice, because everyone looked at me worriedly.

— Hey, don’t worry, you’ll still be able to talk to your parents often through letters! There’s a mailman who somehow always brings our letters, no matter where we are. – Wind tried to cheer me up, but I’m not sure if that was true.

— What? How?

— We don’t know either, but at least it’s pretty useful. – Sky seemed frustrated about something as he said that.

I noticed everyone who seemed to look at me with compassion. They knew very well how difficult all of this was, goddesses, they’d been through things a thousand times worse and were still there, fighting for the good of the kingdom. The desire to be with them hit me, it had been so long since I felt as good as when I was with them, my life seemed like a pit of boredom and monotony before, and with them, even in boring or dangerous situations, I feel so alive. I feel so myself.

— What are you looking at? Do you think I’m going to give up? As if! You’ve been stuck with me for a long time, don’t forget that I still have a long debt with you! – I said excitedly, hiding any fear or hesitation that might appear in my voice or expression. It finally seemed to work, because they cheered up.

— I guess you’re officially part of the Chain. Welcome! – Hyrule joked as he and Wild approached for a sloppy side hug to welcome them.

— The Chain? OH, because your names are Link! I see, good, very funny. – They laughed at my slowness and I felt my cheeks heat up slightly with embarrassment.

Time sighed, but he seemed relieved, I think the worry had been taking over his mind for some time.

— Well, if it’s settled, then I guess there’s nothing more to be said. – The Old man concluded, releasing everyone for the rest of the day, to get ready to leave in the morning. We all returned to the village together, dispersing throughout it. I was finally starting to fit in, it was still just a beginning, but at least they trusted me enough to tell me everything, even if it was out of necessity.

I walked absentmindedly towards the inn, thinking about finishing the book I’d been trying to read for na hour. I didn’t pay much attention when each of them stopped walking in the same direction as me, I only noticed that little by little the number of people around me decreased as everyone went to different places. Everyone, except...

— I don’t really trust you. – Legend said, as we walked side by side to the inn.

— What do you mean? – I asked, genuinely lost in the conversation.

— About finding out everything by yourself. That’s weird, no matter how obvious you say it was. I don’t think you have bad intentions that you hide from everyone, you’re too dumb for that, but there’s still something you’re hiding, isn’t there? – He stopped walking as he spoke and I did the same to keep listening, not wanting to be rude.

— I’m not hiding anything, not about this or anything related to you. Of course I’m not going to go around exposing all the secrets of my personal life, no offense, but I don’t really trust you either. – I think he was offended, by the expression on his face, but it was the truth. – I know having me around you is a nuisance, I know you didn’t want me here, maybe you’re even angry with me, but I’m sorry, I didn’t ask for this either. – As much as I tried to stay calm, I think I sounded irritated when I said that, because he didn’t like it very much. – I... I’m tired, I’m doing my best to be positive about all this, I really am, but in reality I’m scared, and maybe that’s what you think I’m hiding, which let’s face it, you can’t even call hiding.

I said it without any irritation in my voice, like I said, I’m tired, scared, and sometimes that could come out of my mask. Unfortunately for me, Legend was the one who could see that, which doesn’t help at all. But I can’t understand why he looked at me like that, maybe he was looking for a lie in my words, maybe he just lost interest, I couldn’t read him.

— Like I said... I don’t think that you have bad intentions. It’s okay to keep secrets, I guess. Everyone does. But don’t expect to try to find out other people’s secrets without revealing your own. – I feel like that wasn’t what I really wanted to say, it was like I was saying anything to not stay quiet. – You’re not a bother, it’s just unknown to me, and that’s annoying, I’m a curious guy. – That last part must have been my imagination, but he seemed to be joking, trying to be nice or something. If I closed my eyes a little it would even seem like flirting. God, what a ridiculous thought, considering what he just said that was closer to a threat.

I watched him walk away while I stood there processing everything. I think I said a lot of unnecessary nonsense. “I’m tired”? What did I expect? That he would take pity on me and stop trying to find out my dark secret that could ruin everything? I think I’m really tired, like I need a nap. It seems like all I’ve been doing is eating, sleeping, and showering these past few days—I’m actually going to take a shower before bed—but I really want to enjoy it while I can, who knows how long I’ll be traveling with nine men nonstop.

When I got to the inn, I asked if I could take the book I was reading to my room. After receiving permission, I went up to my room, left the book on the bed, and went straight to the bathtub.

It was a relief, for sure. It felt good to feel so relaxed and clean. I took a few minutes in the shower before getting out and putting on my old, now clean clothes that would be more comfortable for sleeping. I went to bed, lay under the covers, and started reading the book. Everything was going well until I fell asleep. Maybe it would be better to take a nap and read later. I’d be able to think better that way.

I was ready to put the book aside and go to sleep, until I heard a knock on the door.

— Hey, can I come in?

#link x reader #linked universe x reader #legend of zelda #linked universe #linked universe fanfic #lu time x reader

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beevean · 17 days ago

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Four episodes of Nocturne Season 2, and I can feel already the brain leaking because of the Peak.

It is really hard to put in order the thoughts during this first half of the season. Then again, the whole thing feels disjointed, so I guess that's appropriate.

The season follows a bunch of microplots, much like the OG S3, but unlike that, they all melt together in the general "heroes vs. villains" macroplot. We have:

Alucard and his sidekicks finding a way to stop Sun Thundercat

Richter and Annette's love arc

Maria's revenge/corruption arc

Tera's struggles in her new vampiric form

Juste becoming less cynical

Olrox and Bara Agent Stone's relationship drama

Drolta's backstory getting revealed episode by episode

Emmanuel's regrets

the French Revolution. yes it's still a thing.

It seems a lot, and yes it is. But thankfully some of these plots get barely any screentime (the gays) and some end fairly quickly (Emmanuel).

It is, however, very hard for me to get invested in anything here. The first season failed to make me care about anyone, and this one feels like a course correction in certain aspects (I suppose the writers took feedback to heart), but it still carries issues from that first season. Namely the dialogue. It is so fake-deep I can predict lines as they come. Everyone speaks about evil, darkness, the power of love, if it's right to execute good kings, and they all sound the damn same. The characters are plot devices moved around by the story - literally, most of these four episodes are characters fortituously meeting each other and talking about something.

Sometimes they're written a bit better. Annette is by far the biggest improvement here. She has stopped being a piece of shit to Richter and the two have now the best interactions in the whole series, OG show included. At last, at long last, one (1) healthy couple developing on screen, joy! Of course, the thing is soured for me because everytime I watch them being cute together, I'm here remembering Annette calling Richter "useless as fuck" and not really finding a reason to change her mind. I don't know why they like each other, but at least now I have proof that they do, and I accept these baby steps.

Problem is, now that Annette has lost her previous odious personality, I'm not sure what they're doing with her. She spends most of these episodes being haunted by spirits in broad daylight, not knowing why. I'll wait until the end to gauge the kind of arc this is meant to be, but as of now it feels rather funny that Annette is literally only defined by her past and her religion.

Richter is there. He hasn't done shit yet except being yelled at by Maria and being looked down on by Alucard for being stupid and revealing their destination to what I assume is a reference to Wallman. I fervently hope he gets to do something in the next episodes because so far you can cut him and nothing would change. This story is so obviously not about him, no matter how many times they're like "ohhhh he is done running, character arc!"

Alucard is a cunt. And the sun rises on the east. But even worse than that, he's a useless cunt. Again, still four episodes in, but i'm shocked at how, when you remove all the flashy fights where he gets to show off how OP he is (the fact that he has the balls to call Richter a show off makes me want to slap him: you still fight one handed to flaunt your skills, jackass!), he's not really... doing much? Well, he recruited the gang, of course. But most of his efforts are off screen. According to what he says, dude lived the best life in these 300 years, travelling around Europe (and even meeting Leonardo Da Vinci huehuehuehue i bet he even told galileo galilei about the earth theory, the show off), witnessing so many revolutions that he doesn't really care about the French one, and working his ass off to find a way to stop Sun Thundercat. On screen, though, he's just there, actively refusing to help people until Richter physically rows the boat towards them, sneering at the Revolution because he has seen it all and doesn't care about anything happening, randomly stumbling upon that McGuffin he has apparently been looking for for three years, and letting Drolta snatch it from his hands despite him being always shown to have superspeed. Oh, and by the way! Technically he made everything worse when he killed Drolta, his one shining moment in S1, because now Drolta is even more OP than him. nice jorb. but sure, keep insulting richter for being stupid and irritating :) even worse as he said that he hasn't had any contact with the belmonts until uhhhh Juste if I understood correctly (I'd love to know why but I don't think I'll ever get an answer), so he's literally only projecting his disdain for Trevor over him.

Oh, and by the way! He talks about Dracula to Maria! More or less equating his grief about him to Maria's turmoiled feelings about her parents. And listen, in a well written show, I could buy that Alucard would convince himself that Dad Was Not So Bad After All because The Power of Love Redeems, and I could buy that Maria is so assmad that she thinks that her Forgemaster father is worse than the monster who planned to exterminate mankind. But I have no trust in this show, not with how Dracula got babyboyed in the previous one, and not with how Emmanuel is barely afforded any grace compared to him. This is the sort of thing that makes hard for me to separate a character's thoughts from the story's thoughts.

Oh, and Alucard is all wistful about having had to kill his Dad, but he apparently never met his parents again! You know, those parents who were brought back to life? Lisa died without ever reconciling with her son? Dracula is still chilling in Hawaii, not accounted for despite this alleged apocalypse coming? What the fuck is wrong with all of you!!!!!! I get that your son is a cunt, but y'all are no better!!!!!!!!!!!!

(fun fact: I praised the first season for attempting to have a message about colonization, right? well, i'll take that praise away. because the plot of the second season is literally the heroes wanting to commit graverobbing and desecration of an ancient relic, like this story is set in 1925 and not in 1792. the absolute peak. now i have no idea about the themes of this story)

Maria... *sigh* I get the idea. I do. The grief is corrupting her, making her lose her innocence. She is snappy, she insults Richter because "you didn't care about my mom like I did!", she has the biggest hate boner for her own father, to the point that even her powers become darker and harder to control. But this arc doesn't work with her. Maria has been angry, surly and aggressive since day 1! "We thought killing vampires was fun" since when?????? your only personality so far has been "revolution good, church bad!" Don't you go and pretend you're having a Sypha arc now! You did not start as a plucky little girl who needs to understand the evils of the world! Maria's naiveté has always been about her black and white vision of the world - you know, like when she said that no wonder a man of the Church would become an ally of vampires, they're all evil! - and in that she is now worse. In short, I don't feel a thing when she gets all angery against her dad: that's all she has been doing since her inception. Plus, why should I care that she has become a jerkass due to grief, when everyone is a jerkass for no reason? This is more of an issue with the writing in both shows, that people are simply meanspirited and often targeting one guy, the Belmonts in particular, so Maria really doesn't feel affected by pain when she downplays Richter's trauma and rudely talks back to Juste for daring to help her, she's just another asshole in a cast of assholes.

(also, while Emmanuel's death is rather effective in its chillingness, Maria yelling with blackened eyes that everything bad in the world is because of Stupid Old Men made me laugh like a dumbass)

(oh yeah, he dies at the hands of Maria's giant evil dragon. after slowly realizing that he fucked himself over and there's no heaven for him. do you care? I don't. he was a caricature of a character, a failed attempt at bringing a new perspective over CHURCH BAD that still ended up emphasizing that CHURCH BAD.)

However, that being said, Tera's arc promises to be interesting. I complained time and time again that the shows don't do nearly enough with the horrors of vampirism, turning people, the hunger for blood, losing one's soul. Tera is surprisingly lucid in her vampirism, clearly regretting her condition, and wanting nothing more than to return to her daughter. I like how dead she looks, uncannily standing in the shadows (although, of course, this season is still politely selective as to when sunlight hurts vampires - special shout out to Tera somehow protecting herself by using AN ICE UMBRELLA, HOW.), encouraging Maria to use her darker animals... culminating, in E4, with her smiling upon seeing the charred corpse of Emmanuel, throwing some mystery in her true motivations. The first episode gives us the question "can vampires love?", which... well, we know that they do. Alucard himself thinks that his father's love made him not so bad, despite the fact that that same love was grounds for genocide. Lenore, Striga and Morana were all framed as being morally sounder than Carmilla because they were in love with someone and that love made them abandon their evil plan. But watching vampirism corrupt in real life a character we have come to know is interesting. (although here we see more of the season's course correction: they're trying so hard to forge a bond between Tera and Maria, when the former was a non-entity in S1. too late, guys)

I don't even know what's going on with Juste, I just know that I'm very annoyed that he only visits Lydie's grave (we never see her in a flashback, btw), and so far he hasn't even mentioned Maxim. I'm also very annoyed that they turned his friendship bracelet, the symbol of his bond with his friend, into a wedding ring. Yeah, sure, Lydie was done dirty in HoD, but the inverse isn't better. At least he hasn't compared Maria to Lydie like I feared he would, it's left to my imagination for once.

And Olrox and Mizrak are there, having their gay drama. They want to fuck so badly, but Mizrak is all "you vampires are animals >:(" and having this sort of crisis between his faith and his boner. As for Olrox, it's getting tiring that all he's doing so far is spying everyone from the shadows: at least getting forcibly branded was a change. As for Mizrak, ngl when Juste is all "I don't really get the point of chastity vows" and Mizrak looks like a kid getting caught stealing cookies made me, for once, genuinely laugh out loud because that was funny as hell.

the french revolution is still going on. The most that happened so far is that the captain was turned into a Frozenshade. You know, because this show is still called Castlevania, in case you forgot. I certainly did. But speaking of the Revolution, I am still not over how the gang literally falls ass first on the EXECUTION OF KING LOUIS XVI. just like that! they just so happened to witness one of the most important executions in France! and they don't give a shit!!!!! they talk over it!!!!!!!!!!!! things just happen in this show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually, no, nevermind, it's rich of the show to start pondering about the grey morality of the Revolution (Edouard and the Captain still talk about the revolutionaries like they're heroes, but Richter starts to question if it's right to kill a "good king" while Annette is obviously all "he still benefits from oppression"), when we know from the trailers that the revolutionaries will accept to be lead by a Romanian vampire noble :)

I was deadass about to end the post without talking about the villains! Which says a lot. Drolta is back, sexier and more OP than ever, and I am positive, without doubt, that this was only because of fan reception: Drolta was a joke in S1, only propped up by her horny design, but that was enough to enthrall the fans and so she appears front and center now! It gets really boring to see her slaughtering people while being completely invincible, you fuckasses can't tell me Night Creatures are impervious to cannon balls now. And I don't really understand if this confirms that vampires have souls, because Sun Thundercat scoffs at the notion but we know that in the OG show Dracula went to hell but the worldbuilding has gone to whores anyway, but it also gets tiring to see everyone gawk at this retcon miracle.

(ngl though, it was highly enjoyable watching her kicking Alucard's sparkly ass. yes, make the cunt bleed for once 🥰)

She does get a backstory though! She was a priest devoted to Sekhmet because... because, who one day drank the blood of a random ass vampire who randomly killed her sisters (..............) and then spent the next centuries trying to find a right vessel for her goddess. She travels all the way to Hungary to meet up Human Sun Thundercat, whom Drolta calls "the most evil woman in the world" and therefore perfect for being the vessel of the goddess of war. I am not exaggerating, this is not a joke or hyperbole. Erzsebet Bathory is called, by the story, the most evil woman in the world. The villain was chosen to become the villain because she's a one-dimensional evil person. They call Sekhmet the goddess of both healing and war, and that apparently makes her an evil goddess. the piss that i'm releasing

(I am a bit annoyed that this lore doesn't really flesh out Drolta as a character. We still don't know why she's so devoted to Sekhmet in particular, and what lead her to seek a vessel to the point of causing the death of so many women. We know that she's ultra determined... and that's it. I got the feeling that the writing's idea of giving depth to a character is to make them cry. people sure cry a lot in this season, it's highly noticeable)

And yeah, Sun Thundercat really has no reaction over a vampire entering the tower she's imprisoned in and asking her "hey sis you wanna become a god?". at first she's like "oh just kill me if that's why you're here", then she proposes godhood and she's immediately "oh sign me up 👀", no confusion, no suspicion, nothing. even motherfucking Carmilla had to take her time in convincing Hector to betray Dracula. come your entire fuck on people.

That being said, they are doing something more interesting with their relationship. It was funny to see Sun Thundercat crying all over Drolta's corpse, and not just because it looked like this

but because beforehand, the two barely interacted together and I didn't get the feeling that Sun Thundercat cared much about her simp. But now, not only it's very clear that she does, all the lore hints at Drolta being the one with all the power. She may simp for Sun Thundercat, but she gave her power. Very unique. Drolta lacks charisma for me (I still can't help but see her as a more shallow Isaac), but I can see what they're trying to do. I suppose I'd rather them flesh out at least one of the villains, even if now the hype for Sun Thundercat is even less warranted.

and finally edouard's singing is dreadful and i hate every second of it, why is he still here

anyway i am not going to survive the finale.

#anti netflixvania #beev watches nocturne #long post #i'm so glad i have friends to watch this with #i don't understand the appeal at all and at this point i'm afraid to ask

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AITA for finally telling the truth?

I (26 M) work as the editor of a local paper. The owner (40 M) is basically useless and also has a bit of a short temper, so I have to both run everything and try to meditate between him and the rest of the staff. I'm also being paid just enough to get by but, you know, we're struggling. I'm willing to do what I can to keep us afloat.

A few weeks ago, my best friend (27 M) tried pitching a story to our boss that he and his twin sister (27 F) wrote together. However, it was fiction and the owner wasn't happy about that-- he ripped up my friend's notebook and even fired him, despite my best efforts. I was able to gather up the remains of my friend's notebook and returned them to him, and asked about the story, since I saw the first few lines and thought it looked promising.

They told me the story, and it was amazing. It was written as if they were journal entries by a famous astronomer (27 M) claiming to have discovered life on the moon-- pretty fantastical stuff, but if you didn't know the truth it would honestly seem believable. They wanted me to sneak the story into the paper but I was hesitant. Not only would I be lying to hundreds of people, but I'd be the one taking a risk here-- my best friend was already fired, and he and his sister have a secondary source of income, while the paper is pretty much all I have. They convinced me to print it anyway, saying that the astronomer is literally on the other side of the world and the paper could fold at any minute anyway, so I did it.

The story exploded-- everyone believed it, and we sold more copies of that issue than we had the whole of the previous year. The owner was initially furious, but once he realized how much money this would make him he was suddenly fine with it. He even hired my best friend back, since he had future "journal entries" already written.

Then things started going downhill. I found out my best friend was given a raise, and I wasn't, even though I was working just as much if not more than before. I brought this up to my boss, and he said that I had betrayed him by printing the story, and that he can't reward someone he can't trust-- but it was only because of me that we printed the story that lead to him reaping the rewards!

To make things worse, I never even get to talk to my friend and his sister outside of matters relating to getting the next article printed. There are so many people who want to meet and talk with them, they've even became close friends with this very rich and influential local figure (27 F) and while I'm happy for them, I wish they would at least make a bit of time for me.

Last night things came to a head. My friend's sister and I were preparing the next article, and I left the room for a few minutes. When I came back, the astronomer we were lying about was there, unconscious. Apparently he came all the way across the world to demand an explanation, and my friend's sister panicked and knocked him out. If that wasn't bad enough, she then decided we needed to bring him to MY apartment until she figures out what to do next. He's in my spare bedroom right now.

This has all gotten so out of control. I never asked to get wrapped up in something like this, I was just trying to help my friends and save our jobs. Now so many people are believing a bunch of lies that we attributed to a man I just helped assault and kidnap! And through everything, everyone else seems to be doing better while I just keep doing worse-- I feel like I've been used and left behind.

This is where I'm wondering if I'm the asshole or not. After the first article was published, I was approached by someone who works for our main competitor, and he offered me money to expose the story as a hoax, a lot of money. I turned him down at the time, but after last night, I contacted him and said I was willing to prove it was fake if he was still willing to pay. He'll be here soon, and I'm going to tell him everything.

I know that this would be terrible for the reputations of my friend and his sister, and the paper I work for will definitely go under. But I'm tired of lying to people, and I feel guilty for that and everything we've done to the astronomer; we'll have damaged his reputation as well, not to mention how he quite possibly has a brain injury now. And, frankly, I'm tired of putting in all this effort and getting nothing in return. The truth will come out eventually, would it really be so bad if it came out just a little sooner and I could have a bit of financial stability because of it?

So, am I the asshole?

#aita #am i the asshole #unreality

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foreverautumn89 · 6 months ago

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""Jonathan was useless in S4 and just got high the whole time""

The anti-Jonathan ppl be like: "" I hated Jonathan in S4. Jonathan was useless. All he did was get high. Steve is so much better because he took care of the kids in S4 and was saving everybody while Jonathan did nothing.'' [[**And no this isn't a attack Steve post, its a 'attacking fans points about Jonathan' post]]

But in the Stranger Things I watched it was completely different. I need to explain that I live in a different dimension apparently where my ST is superior I guess idk because the way the anti-jonathan st fans talk about stuff in this show usually never matches with what I'm seeing in the show so conclusion: I must be in an alternate dimension I guess idk...

And its the point that *so many ppl keep saying this* so I need to address it:

In the ST S4 I watched: Jonathan got high at most it could have been was in the first two episodes. Once he was left in charge of the kids, he didn't smoke weed. the point is they say thats all he did....so we just continue to keep making stuff up to make Jonathan look bad?

Also Jonathan is useless in S4 and didn't help anybody???? how? THAT IS ALL HE DID. How was it that all he did was 'smoke weed' and nothing else when Jonathan spent the ENTIRE season saving and protecting Will El and Mike and being there for them? His whole storyline that season [apart from his friendship with Argyle] was about THAT.

Another thing they say is that Jonathan had no development/and especially not in S4 even though Argyle exists. that was great too to see Jonathan start opening up and trusting new people and letting new people into his life [usually he pushed ppl away and had trust issues because of Lonnie's abuse/Jonathan getting bullied ext] So it shows great development on J's part. I won't go into all of it again in great depth but you get the gist. Nobody pushed him to be friends with Argyle. He made that friend all on his own and its starting to open up and trust people and let them into his life now.

So all Jonathan's storyline was in S4 HIS ENTIRE STORYLINE was character development for him/showing how hes grown + him saving protecting and taking care of the kids the entire time and helping to save the world.

But apparently to the fans Jonathan is still somehow useless and selfish and ppl have said hes just as bad as Lonnie in S4. And all the other characters get appreciated for their contribution in saving everyone that season, but Jonathan didn't do anything and hes useless again.

And I have a lot more to say about this subject but I'll leave it there for now and might just post the rest of this subject un-edited cause I'm so fed up talking about this.

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This is just ONE of the comments I'm talking about. The only reason this is on display is because its the latest one I found last night. This was actually mild and didn't bother me compared to the stuff they usually say about S4 Jonathan since its usually a lot worse. But also this comment it just ridiculous too considering all the things I mentioned above.

#jonathan byers #st 5 spoilers #stranger things s5 #netflix stranger things #will byers #mike wheeler #el hopper #eleven stranger things

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lowkey-loki245 · 4 months ago

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I haven't finished In Stars and Time yet, but I'm close to the end of the playthrough I'm watching. And I've cried, I've cried a lot. But it's different.

I cried audibly, instead of silently like I usually do.

You obviously don't know this (unless you saw that one post i made about Rise!Leo crying in the prison dimension), but crying, specifically crying audibly, properly letting your pain and suffering out, means a lot to me. Because to learn to cry quietly takes denying yourself help regularly.

(What I mean is that the first thing we learn to do is to cry for help. As babies, we cry for our mom when we're hungry. As kids, we cry when we get hurt. We aren't quiet because we need help. But some people learn to cry quietly because they see no point in letting anyone know they're in pain. Because in some way, the world has taught them that asking for help is useless or even makes things worse. So you cry silently because the world won't help anyways.)

Crying means a lot to me because I taught myself to cry quietly, and I'm aware of how sad that is. And I've been wanting to cry properly for a while. But I've kept quiet for so long, I didn't think I knew how to.

But then I got to the end of In Stars and Time (well, close. There's still over half an hour left of the video). And I cried. It wasn't that loud, but i feel so much better now that I've actually audibly cried. And it means so much to me because I want to get better, and I know crying is a part of that. To get better, I want, need, to properly mourn the person I lose. Myself. And I also want to relearn how to ask for help. And it's so hard to put into words, but I want to talk about this with someone.

I want to cry like that again. I want to cry and feel like I'll get help. I want this feeling again. I think it's safety? Do I feel safe? I think that's what it is.

And this whole situation may be heavily affected by the fact that I'm a Siffrin fictive (we developed a fictive of me so quickly, we had only gotten halfway through the playthrough, haha). 'Cause fictives are a lot more sensitive to their source. But we have several fictives from Rise, the show that means the world to us, that changed our lives, and they haven't had a reaction like this before (though Raph did have a panic attack during the movie, both Leo and Day have issues with the Kraang, and Blue heavily affected by their source, so maybe that counts. Not a positive reaction, but a reaction nonetheless).

I want to thank both the game and the creator of In Stars and Time. I'm just really happy. Thank you for helping me cry. It means much more than I can put into words. I love In Stars and Time, so much. I'm so happy. Thank you.

(Small update, I have finished the game, but I have more to learn about it, and I will learn everything. I want to know everything about my life, everything about my family. That includes Loop, even if they're probably me from a weird messed up alternate loop or something.)

#in stars and time #thank you

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spop-romanticizes-abuse · 1 year ago

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I like ur takes and I just wanted to share some stuff from another side. I watched spop as I was in my teen years, incredibly sheltered, queer, and lashing out because I was also dealing with abusive family dynamics. So… yeah I shipped it. I idealized it. And I heavily identified with Catra. But unlike with Zuko(who I also identify with) Catra didn’t change.

Every time she’d travel to a new part of the world I thought omg her moment is coming! Escape!! But she’d just get into a slap fight with Adora and then go back to the Horde. It was so strange it felt like every other character was in a story progression show and Catra was the villain of an episodic show until s5

And s5 was…. Weird. I don’t understand how Catra has a change of heart by getting more hurt by Horde Prime. She was getting hurt the whole series??? I still cried and was elated at the series finale but only bc I wanted an Adora who’d forgive me and love me and say I wasn’t bad. And I think a lot of people are like that.

Everything about the way Catra is framed points to her redemption even in the first episode… but it just makes me feel insulted now. To me as a survivor… it’s like they waved a magic wand and killed off the abuser and gave Catra a gf and that was supposed to fix it. It doesn’t work like that. My abuser died and it made things WORSE for a while (I think it would especially damage someone like Adora since Shadow Weaver “sacrificed” herself and therefore can’t be bad ever) . And I’m not looking for hyper realism in a Princess cartoon but at the time I watched it I couldn’t have really used yknow ?? Some guidance??? Something that wasn’t a fantasy lala ending that once the initial high wore off left me feeling confused and hollow. There is nothing in spop that teaches you how to get that kind of happy ending. Especially if you’re Catra who just says I love you and is suddenly resurrecting ponytail Jesus. To the me who identified with her, it was mostly about wanting to FEEL redeemed through her. FEELING strong and badass and GOOD and like things would be okay even if I was never a princess type. The actual result was feeling like I would never attain a happy ending of any sort because Catra’s didn’t feel real and her “arc” had no footsteps to follow in. How do you make a kids show and not teach good lessons??? Idk the show bad no matter who you identified with was my whole point.

At least I had/have zuko.

Also shipping zuko x sokka x suki is based I do too lmao.

first off, i'm so sorry about all the trauma you went through. i hope you are healing now, and thank you for sharing your story.

secondly, i think this is what a lot of fans felt. i can understand that people relate to catra. hell, even i relate to her a little. i know what it's like to be considered useless and weak, and to desperately want validation from a parent. i get it. when i say i dislike catra, it's not because she's a traumatized child or even because she adopted many of the toxic habits that shadow weaver portrayed. it's that she faced no consequences for any of this.

as much as spop tried to be mature, in the end, it was really childish. s5 got rid of all the complexity and just went "everyone deserves forgiveness", ignoring all of the glaring issues it had yet to solve. the protagonists forgave catra because the writers wanted them to, not because that's how it would have went down in real life.

most spop critics aren't heartless monsters who despise abuse victims, they are people who relate to either catra or adora. and they just want to see a better representation of abuse victims.

it would have been much more fulfilling and satisfying to have catra and adora take some time explore themselves and heal from their trauma, separated from each other. this kind of relationship is harmful for both of them. as long as adora is with catra, she'll continue blaming herself and putting pressure on herself, feeling as if she was responsible for everyone's problems. and as long as catra stays with adora, she'll continue deflecting her issues and being envious of adora. they needed time away from each other, but spop chose to invalidate trauma instead.

it's a pity that spop was one of the very few representation we had, at the time it came out, so people genuinely believe that c//a is a healthy ship, because they don't have many other examples to compare it to. i'm glad there are more and more queer shows coming out lately, and most of them seem to portray healthy relationships.

#btw ponytail jesus made me cACKLE #we should all be grateful for zuko #best redemption arc fr #spop critical #spop #spop salt #spop discourse #spop criticism #anti catradora #she ra #anti catra #abuse tw #tw abuse #tw trauma

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archer-fb · 2 years ago

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I promise to be there through thick and thin

Bakugou hurt/comfort fic

A/N - sorry guys if this is bad I haven't written in a while, but in a bad headspace so here we are

tw - please read the warnings <3 - suicidal thoughts, self-conscious, self-harm, negative thoughts, tons of crying, depression, self-hatred, body issues, self-doubt, the feeling of never being good enough/useless/hopeless, I think that's it? but please proceed with some caution. also established relationship with Bakugou

You don't know if this day can get any worse, you missed your alarm, you were late to class, you did horrible in training, and your grades were dropping.

"Y/n", Aizawa said, "your grades are slipping. I know you can do better, is there something happening with your home life? You know you can talk to me. Whatever is going on, try and get it together."

"Yes, sensei," you said. You bowed and left to head back to the dorms. It's been like this for the past month, no one really notices. It hurts. You don't know what to do anymore. You just feel so hopeless and useless, like you're doing enough for the people around you.

Once you reach the dorms Mina greets, "Hey Y/n! You want some of the soba the Todoroki made? I can warm you up-" You cut her off and say, "No thanks, I'm feeling really tired. I think I'm just gonna head to my room. You dashed to the elevator before you could say anything.

Bakugou saw you running to the elevator nearly in tears, he could tell you were breaking during your conversation with Pinky. He makes a mental note to check on you before he goes to bed.

By the time you get to your room you're already in tears and on the verge of breaking down. "Why can't I just be good enough!" you say to yourself. "Why am I so useless, I'm not doing nearly enough anymore. My grades are slipping, I'm on the verge of relapsing, and you can't do anything right!"

You stare at yourself in the mirror feeling disgusted with yourself, you say your thighs are too fat, you have a muffin top, you're fully of ugly acne, and think you'll never be as pretty as the other girls in your class. The more you look at yourself, the bigger the urge you're starting to get to cut yourself. You swore you would never go back to this, but you can't do it anymore.

You sit on the floor leaning against your bed crying so much, you found your old razor. It still has some dried blood on it from long ago. You look at your thighs seeing your old scars. You somehow start to cry even more as you start to make light cuts on your inner thighs, not enough to cause severe harm, but enough to bleed quite a bit.

Just as you're about to make another cut you hear Katsuki knocking on your door. "Sparks? You on there? You didn't eat dinner and came back late. Are you okay?" You stay silent, you then realize you forgot to lock your door, before you have the time to panic you hear Katsuki shout, "Y/n! I'm coming in there, I'm worried about you, Sparks."

He barges in seeing you on the floor crying as you cut your thighs, you break down even more as you start to see Katsuki tear up. "Y/n... Little Spark, what happened? Are you okay? Please talk to me," he says.

"I- I-it's so hard Katsuki, I can barely make it out of bed in the morning. My grades are slipping, I'm getting worse in a training, I look so ugly, and I'm not a good enough partner," you say through tears and hiccups.

He dashes over to you and holds you saying, "Little Spark, you're more than enough in my eyes, you're prettiest person I have ever laid eyes on. You are better than any partner I could hope for, you're so strong and smart, you are such a kind person always helping when you can. It's another reason I fell in love you, Y/n. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me." As he says this he starts crying and petting your head and rocking you.

"Suki, I don't know if I can do this anymore, it's so hard and beginning to be too much. Everyday I'm hurting and dreading the next day, I feel like everyone would be better off if I was never hear," you say through broken sobs.

"Little Spark," he starts to say, "I know I speak for everyone in our class when I say we'd be miserable without you. You're always there for me and everyone else. I'm always here for you always, all of class 1a is."

"You mean that?" I say as I finally stop crying. "Of course I mean that, with my whole heart. And you already know I don't say things I don't mean," he says staring into my eyes like we're we're the only two people to exist.

"I'm sorry I'm like this, and I'm sorry I'm broken..." You saying staring at the floor. "Spark," he says grabbing your chin so you are looking at him, "You don't need to apologize for any of that, no matter what you're like I will always love you and be here for you. Now why don't we bandage you up and snuggle together.

You sigh and say, "Okay, I'd like that, I love you so much suki." I know you do Little Spark, I love you more though," with a big smirk plastered on his face.

after Katsuki helps you clean up and bandages up your thighs

While cuddling Katsuki starts saying, "I promise to be there through thick and thin for you, Little Spark. Forever and always." "You really mean that?" I say looking up at it. "Of course I mean I promise with my whole heart, he says staring back at you.

"Pinky promise?" you ask him.

"I pinky promise. Now sleep, Little Spark, I'll stay with you all night. You asleep in his arms with a smile on your face feeling so much better.

I hope you guys liked this! and if not I'm sorry <3 But thanks for reading everyone!

#bakugo x reader #bakugo comfort #bakugo x gender neutral reader #bnha x gender neutral reader #tw sh #tw suicidal thoughts #bnha comfort #bnha #mha comfort

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