#peacetime pilco for president

[godlygivenanxiety]

ugh just there could be something so sweet about peacetime au jilco still being the weird codependent mirrors of each other we know and love, but also making each other better instead of becoming and staying monsters that live and breathe and wear their trauma. tbf i do prefer them as the deranged freaks they were in canon but it’s nice to think about how soft they could be. that au is perfectly set up to give them a space where they could have a happy ending

SO REAL, I LOVE MY FREAKS!!!!!! and they do have their intimate moments (ughhhhhh baptizing scene save me) but they would be sugary in the peacetime au, in comparison

like????? silco actually letting something slip about her pretty blue eyes, or powder getting weirdly jealous bc her dad keeps needing to talk to silco when she wants to tell him about this cool new discovery she made!!!! goddamn it, dad

i reeeeeally would love for silco to encourage her to grow her hair, not like directly say it but she loses track of her hair with the projects she's starting by herself with his encouragement and he notices the length, he resists the awkward temptation of brushing his fingers through when they are talking but oh, there's this one time he finds her napping and he lets himself feel how silky, compare the vibrant blue to the pale of his skin, sometimes she's too focused on her discoveries to style her hair and with it almost falling down her shoulders.... oh, if only he knew his touch brought her from the land of dreams but she didn't dare move, felt... something good about it, his appreciative humming and soft touch, so light, it felt... different than anything she ever had.

THEY WILL NEVER NOT BE DESPERATE FOR APPRECIATION!!!! FOR FEELING WANTED!!!! sure silco is part of the family now, but it will never be the same as before with him and vander, he will always feel either self-conscious or not safe to be vulnerable, and powder will never be Understood by vander, she and silco are much more similar!!!! powder needs constant reassurance and silco needs someone to pour his love onto, someone to spark his interest and keep him out of whatever funk he puts himself in.

ill never give up on them, they are perfect for each other, whatever dynamics there are.