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30 day Hyeongjun Challenge: Day 29

♥️Day 29: To me Hyeongjun is…?

I thought hard about this question and I was going to use another word that would define him specifically but it would also mean the other members don’t share the same thing..and they do, so I’m going to use a word that I had always used when defining the type of person he is and that is Hyeongjun is “Valiant”

the literal definition of Valiant/ or to do something valiantly, means to act with courage and determination. I have said since Day 1 that it was something about his courage that drew me to him, being scared and still persisting forward when it is not the easiest thing to do and act in a situation you have no control over. I still believe that he will continue to be determined and courageous in the hurdles coming forward. I used the word hurdles because his journey has just began, I don’t know how its going to end in 5 years, he may come out as a different person in the end and I am a little worried and excited to see that happen. 

the worries come from the fact that this is an industry that will constantly say “ No” to you, meaning it is full of rejection and criticism, and people will tell you what you do is never good enough. If you take those words seriously then you may fall victim to your own depression and negative thoughts and we all know that there is certain point where social media can be toxic and competitive/ too negative and it can really affect you if you aren’t careful.

But what i do like about what he has is a good support system, people like jinhuk and wonjin and minkyu in his life where he can have a real conversation with and support him when he’s not at his best. It is very important to have people that you can trust and tell you that what you are doing is enough. I’m very grateful that he has people like them in his life, because i didn’t really have people like that in mine in the early stages of my life and I wouldn’t have struggled with anxiety as much. also worried that there might be people out there who just want to be close to him just to hurt him…that may sound a little weird, I know that most people are nice but there are seedy people out there in this industry that you think are nice at first but it will turn out that they are not, It’s not that I feel like he should be protected from them, I just hope that he is cautious enough to detect that for himself and can protect himself against it… I mean who does not want to protect this kid? look at him…

the human mind is riveted to what is real, and we all know in our minds when someone is trying to sell us something…versus being genuinely interested…if that makes sense.I just hope he has some sense in him to see that and guard against it.

So what I am excited for is how he is going to change and get better in his skills as an artist, 5 years is a long time to grow and he has already been steadily going forward, despite the hate that gets from people who just want to get a reaction out of him, I still feel like he himself is he biggest critique and he wants to rush and be at a certain place because he feels like he’s not achieving anything. I hope he can just relax and take things slowly and don’t worry about what is an what isn’t…you have no control over it..you have no control over peoples perceptions of you and that should not matter. what’s most important is to put your best self forward!

I watched a clip of their concert end yesterday and the part where he just takes in all of the people around him really spoke out to me. He is genuinely very grateful for everything that happened to him, he did talk a little about his past when he wanted to attend a dance academy but his family situation did not permit that, meaning they might have not had the money for it, or maybe his parents didn’t want that for him, whatever that may be his sister was the one to convince them to let him attend, maybe she saw how much he really wanted to be there. I feel like he fought a lot of battles to get where he is now and being around a full stadium is surreal to him.

I’m glad he took the time to take everything in, some people just forget to smell the roses sometimes…lol. so to speak. But just watching that video clip made me really think that he is a very gracious person that genuinely loves the people around him, I hope he does not lose that side of him and this industry doesn’t  make him hate the very thing he’s worked so hard for.

Judging from what i have seen so far he’s looked more confident and comfortable being himself and really showing who Song Hyeongjun really is to us his fans. I am proud of his valiant nature and sweet personality and really happy I chose to support a person that displays so much love to not only his peers but to people around him, in his letter to his fans he said “ i’ll take care of you” I feel like I can believe in those words. 

This is the second last post of this 30 day challenge and I thought Id make it a long one, I hope you guys enjoyed reading and hopefully you share the same thoughts about him as i do. disclaimer, none of these photos belong to me. I am just using them as references to get my point across in this blog. I will be back for the last post tomorrow so please look forward to the end!

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30 Day Hyeongjun Challenge: Day 21

♥️Day 21: First impression of Hyeongjun

oh..we getting to some deep stuff I see..

like I have previously mentioned in the Day 1 post, I didn’t have much of an impression, unlike how others were immediately gushing about how cute he was in the live auditions, Let me just say I’ve seen too many guys that looked cute but have no definite personality or something that attracted me. 

is he cute? well…yeah. but what else is there? is the question I was asking myself, the dance teacher that wanted him to free style said that his dancing was really good and he wanted to see more…but what was shown was just a small snippet of his dancing and I didn’t really think it was impressive to be honest. Maybe it was the song they chose to do. Even going back to his own audition when he performed girl group dances, it was good, but if you watched a lot of dance cover groups on Youtube like I do, a lot of guys perform to girl group choreography these days, maybe it’s because of my american mindset, I’ve just seen so many already that it was not impressive to me personally. 

I guess when they announced his rank and he though he was going home, He looked as if he thought ‘ I really messed up…they gave me a chance to prove myself and I blew it...’ maybe that was when I felt sympathy for him, because its a feeling I can relate to constantly. I actually let my friend watch that audition and told her not to judge him because of this ( at this point I watched up to episode 4) and she saw that part and said “ come on kid, you can do it! “ and ended up slightly disappointed when he got really scared in the end. which was a little like how I felt, but I know how difficult it is to put yourself out there when you are not feeling the most confident. In the end i just kind of forgot about him, till episode 2 when they were practicing for the re-evaluation of their ranks, and I saw him dance for the very first time really and I was like why is he here? then realized it was the kid from the audition…lol. Then I just honestly couldn’t stop looking at him, and you all know the rest of the story…(refer to day 1).

I think i honestly started to like his personality when he saw how minkyu was volunteering to go first for everything and I guess he was inspired by that and decided to take up the part of being leader..which i’m sure in his mind he still thought ‘ why am I doing this? i’m going to fall on my face and fail…’ but also ‘  you know what ? I’m okay with that…cause I want to try…’ and although he was reluctant to take on that role he knew that he was the only one who can do something about it and that is the most courageous thing imaginable. 😍 this is a person that I thought I should keep an eye on.

so that is all I have to say about first impressions, He knows the way to my heart, and i’m proud to say the things that i do about him. onto day 22 for another variation of this question. I hope you are all enjoying reading these posts.