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[kokushibosbestie]

pt.1 here!!

Everywhere Yuji went, he couldn't stop thinking about you. God, your smile was just...so pretty. He was starting to believe you just weren't real. And your laugh was adorable. He made it his goal to make you laugh every time you two hung out and he achieved that goal every single time. The way you purposefully sang horribly when you both sang songs together in his dorm just because he was a horrible singer and you weren't was so cute to him.

Oh.

Oh...

Right.

You two didn't talk anymore.

Because of a slip of his words.

But now you two were in the back of Ijjichi's car, driving to a mission's location. And you had sat on the other side of the vehicle instead of next to him like you usually did. Even that little change hurt his heart.

You leaned on the car window, looking at the grey sky and raindrops falling harshly, just like the day he'd spent crying over you in his dorm. Days like these were either the best or worst days.

Once you arrive at the destination, Ijjichi lets you out of the car and tells you exactly where the curse should be. You silently lead the way while Yuji follows quietly behind you, hating this silence and himself for ever saying anything. The cold air felt like an insult on its own, making everything feel more...crisp and whispy.

He was sure he loved you, even if he'd never been in love before, he knew this was it. But in his head, he believed that he would never be good enough for you. He didn't hate himself for telling you, he hated himself for having these feelings in the first place.

Nonetheless, you both find the curse and very easily exorcize it without saying a word to each other. You didn't know how to feel anymore. Liking Yuji romantically had never been a thing you'd thought about or even wanted. It was always Megumi on your mind. Even if he was kinda a bitch, you still liked him. But for what?

Why couldn't you make up a reason why you couldn't like Yuji?

He was perfect in his design and he had just confessed to you, whether intentionally or not.

So why didn't you like him?

And that was the question both of you'd been asking yourselves silently for the past few days.

The forest area was gloomy with only little rays of dull sunshine forcing themselves through the bushy trees while the rain continued to berate your heads as if mad.

Yuji pulled up his hood as you walked back, though it didn't seem like a way to protect himself from the rain. It looked like he wanted to hide himself from the world. Curl up into a ball and break down again. He never looked so...lifeless before. His eyes were dull and the lack of his usual pretty smile made everything feel so much worse.

There goes that guilt. The way your stomach fills with a sort of emptiness and your throat feels smaller tells you might've not been the only one wanting to break down.

But why did you feel that way?

You wanted to say something, just to ask if he was okay. Of course, you could tell he wasn't, but you still wanted to try. You just couldn't find your voice as the corners of your eyes tingled with emotions you couldn't understand.

And Yuji...poor Yuji. He'd never felt so alone. He talked to Nobara about it and that was the first time she hadn't yelled at him in a conversation in a while.

"I just...want my best friend back. Without the whole feelings thing." "Well, you can't control how you feel. And you don't know how they truly feel either. They decided to shut themselves away from everyone, but they never directly stated what they felt for you or Megumi or anyone else." "But-" "Itadori. You know I'm right." "Yeah, I guess...but how would I even bring that up? I've already ruined whatever we had and made it weird." "No, you didn't. Ask them what they want and if it's really worth all of this sneaking around the problem." "..." "And Itadori, it's not your fault. I might not be an expert, but I know that you're not half-bad as a friend and I'm sure you'd be great to them if you ever got the chance to be more."

Yuji had been thinking about that conversation ever since. Nobara seemed right, and he thought about doing as she'd told him, but he was scared. He didn't know why he was scared. He'd already made a fool of himself, so why not do it a little more?

But then, what was there for you to cry about?

Maybe those unrequited feelings about Megumi.

Or were they really ever about him in the first place...?

- pax <3

Tagging: @moonchhu

[kokushibosbestie]

Let's be honest, Yuji is one of the sweetest—if not the sweetest—boys you'll ever meet. And you love him for that. He is that way, no changing him. You didn't want to, though. He's a great listener.

And so when you call him to talk, he knows what it's about. Who it's about.

Megumi.

You've had the biggest crush on Megumi since you started at Jujutsu Tech. And Yuji was the first to know. He swore he wouldn't tell anyone and he surprisingly kept his promise. But there was just one problem. No one would listen to him.

And so when you start gushing over Megumi while in Yuji's dorm room, sitting on his bed together, he knows how he feels.

Yuji had the biggest crush on you.

But he's still the best listener ever. He's still the kindest soul you'll ever meet. He'll still has the brightest smile that is so contagious and you can't help but smile too even if it has no context. He'll still ask you if you want to go to the movie theatre with him. He'll still blast Olivia Rodrigo in your shared Airpods while you sing along off-key on the beach, watching the sunset together. He'll still laugh the hardest at your stupid jokes. He'll still ask Gojo-Sensei privately to go on missions with you so he'll know you're safe. He's still going to hug you a little too tight when you come back from a mission that he wasn't allowed to go on with you.

And he'll always be that way.

Yet you don't see it. You think it's just a friendship that would last forever. Is it because you'd only ever look at Megumi that way, who doesn't even look your way? Or is that because you've embedded that into your head?

The way you talk about Megumi is so loving and so caring. You never knew if anyone would speak about you like that, though. You didn't think you were enough for such praise and care. Not even from Yuji.

Until the day you realize that he's had feelings for you since the beginning.

That's when he'll mess up everything.

And when he feels that burning hole in his chest while you begin avoiding him, when he stops asking for two tickets when he goes to the movie theatre, when he stops texting you in the middle of the night for no real reason and you stop replying, he finally breaks.

He finally stops trying so hard.

But when he finds out you'll be going on a mission together again—and a possibly dangerous one—he smiles at you like nothing happened. Like he didn't sob into his pillow with his Airpods in, playing Reckless by Madison Beer, while the rain tapped his dorm window last night.

Over you. Always over you.

Always trying to get over you...

Like Yuji always does.

- pax <3