#paradospariah

[betteporter28]

Hey howdy! Not to be all you-saw-Portrait-and-speak-french, buuuut I was really curious about something- it wasn't until I saw the movie without the English subs that I realized marianne and heloise use "vous" throughout the film?? I was wondering whether that was noticably jarring in french...? Because I had just assumed they MUST'VE switched to "tu" before my second viewing but uhh they didn't?? Does it feel normal? Formal? Like an inside joke? Or just...a very elaborate sciamma screenplay??

Hey ! Don’t worry, that’s my whole identity these days haha 

The fact that they use the formal you is to be expected because it is a period film, even though they could have changed to the ‘tu’ when they are in a relationship. But I think that Céline had some fun writing these kind of dialogues because things are ... Idk ‘enhanced’ ? that way ? She said that there is a certain charm in using this kind of language in romantic relationships. 

So yeah, it does feel very formal, but also normal. And it is all the more charming, and gives a grandiose dimension to the story because it is a reminder of the time it is set in, and of the fact that we have (almost) never seen such a relationship pictured that way

[goodobservationshirley]

most people today, probably: it's thursday me: FINALLY IT'S TIME FOR PORTRAIT-BLOGGING !!!

hahaha well i might have started on wednesday because i’m a lesbian with no self-control

[pensoakspaper]

Thank you to @tresvagas and @holyterrortomboy for this fun tag!

rules: tag 9 people you want to know better/catch up with and then answer these questions!

last song: Good People - Jack Johnson

last movie: [home] If These Walls Could Talk 2 (2000) dir. Anne Heche, Jane Anderson, and Martha Coolidge [cinema] Bad Boys For Life (2020) dir. Bilall Fallah and Adil El Arbi (listen, I got to cheer up a friend)

currently reading: The Second Sex (Volume II) by Simone de Beauvoir (I WILL finish you before portrait’s wide release anniversary on 18 September)

currently watching: Our Planet dir. Sophie Lanfear

currently craving: Apple Crumble

no pressure! @morningmightcomebyaccident, @mlleclaudine, @ladyonfire28, @bereaving, @unfumble​, @justanotheruntitled04, @tonovember, @hochobo,  @jennylouwho81, @alterocentrist, @portraitdelajeunefilleenfeu, @thexfridax, @empressofkalumina, @paradospariah​

[chlodines]

Omg hi howdy! gal looking for A Gay Walkthrough of lost legacy here, thank you so much for sending the link!! Saved my weekend ✊😎

np, hope u hv a good time!

[itsperfectlyreasonable]

Post 10 gifs from your favorite movies, without mentioning them, then tag 10 people!

I was tagged by @acosineofmadness​ about... 10 years ago at this point, to keep with the theme of 10 so, that works, right?

in no particular order:

i.

Originally posted by gael-garcia

ii.

Originally posted by helenamanning 

iii.

Originally posted by maggiecheung

iv.

Originally posted by orwell

v.

Originally posted by dailyaliens

vi.

Originally posted by in-the-pale-gloom

vii.

Originally posted by kryzx

viii.

Originally posted by strangershames

ix.

Originally posted by ghiblipic

x. 

Originally posted by mikaeled 

Tagging @dreiser7, @paradospariah, and anyone else who wants to do this. 

[camille-abilys]

I love it when people reblog these ask things, wish there was a real life equivalent to randomly inquiring about these.. That said, 2, 4, 12, 15, and 52? Feel free to skip of course, if you don't feel like answering :D

haha I don’t know and I’m the wrong person to ask about social interaction

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?I don’t know, almost certainly an internet friend since I hardly ever say it IRL

04: Are you insecure?one time I was seated next to the window on my bus home but i was so stressed about bothering and attracting the attention of the person next to me that i got off 6 stops later so you tell me

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?lol yes. Haven’t done it in a long time since my treatment makes me exhausted by 9pm but yeah i’ve done it lots of times.

15: Have any pets?not really. My parents more or less have 3 cats now even though they’re still technically strays. But I mean they sleep and eat at our house so at this point I guess they’re ours

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?No. Not in a predetermined, faith, etc. kind of way anyway and I hate the concept. If this means “everything that happened shaped who you are today” then yes.

[asynca]

Hey Asy! So I am not necessarily the best at providing feedback, but when I opened tumblr today and the first thought I had was "wouldn't it be incredible if the 2nd chapter of SFI was out already?" I knew I had to say something! There's something deliciously infuriating about being so excited over a book that's only getting updated once a week. I wish you the best on your newly begun journey and I will soon be joining an emotional support group, just in case ;D

Hah, I wish I could write that fast! 7-10k words a week is enough already! I’m still organizing when I start my one day off (I haven’t receive the KS money yet, so I’m hesitant to sign on the dotted line before it’s in my back account), so I definitely couldn’t churn out another chapter in 2 days. I do three drafts of every chapter ;D Sorry!

I personally LOVE web series myself - I’ve read fanfic like that for like 20 years, and I used to love the comic strips and things that would come out weekly. I love not being able to know what comes next, agonising over it and imagining it! :D

Glad you’re enjoying the story so far, though :3

[goodobservationshirley]

paradospariah replied to your post: i always forget i can’t say “fucking” in the tags....

you can’t say WHAT in the tags???? what happens if you do?? Hypothetically….speaking…….

your post can’t be found in the search (nor tag search). so it’s still fine for reblogs, as far as i know it has no consequences there. but you can’t swear in the tags of your original posts if you want them to be found. which i have to say feels like a personal attack against me as it’s precisely where i feel the most like swearing

[goodobservationshirley]

I just wanted to pop in and say that you have a renault clio and that is very gay of you. I don't make the rules, renault's ad people do!

what can i say. i aim to be as gay as possible in every aspect of my life

[goodobservationshirley]

Maaaaa'am???? What are these coley taylor headcanons, could you share? The public demands it! (if you'd like to ofc)

Oh boy. Two (2) of you actually asked for this so faced with this overwhelming demand i can only oblige.

Look. The thing about Coley is that we only know her through Cam, and Cam is ridiculously in love with her. So there is a lot that is up to interpretation.

What we do know is that her experience in dealing with her feelings for a girl is radically different from Cam’s. I’m gonna talk a bit about Cameron here because i think it sets a nice contrast for trying to understand Coley better.

Cameron never really rejects who she is, despite where the story takes her. In a way she’s a really comforting narrator to go through all these things with, because she’s really confident in who she is. Yes she feels a lot of shame, but most of it is linked to her parents’ death and how it was unfortunately associated in her mind with her experimenting with a girl for the first time. And yes she probably doesn’t FEEL all that confident for most of the book, but in the end she always sticks up for herself and accept her feelings in a way that i think Coley wouldn’t be able to. Cameron understands very early on that her feelings for girls are not what they’re supposed to be and even after her parents’ death, she still looks for people like her. In movies at first, then in real life. She very clearly seeks to explore her feelings for girls and even being sent to God’s Promise never really manages to make her want to shut down that part of herself (unlike say, Mark or even Erin).

Coley however, I doubt that she even had feelings for girls before Cameron. Or if she had she probably never acknowledged them as such, I don’t think she even let herself think too much about what she was doing with Cameron. She did it because she couldn’t help not to. Coley could have never looked for representation the way Cameron did, because she would have never admitted (even to herself) that she was LIKE THAT in the first place.  Coley has a lot of expectations on her shoulders (from her family, from the whole town) and as a result she has a very clear image of who she should be. That image does not include fooling around with Cameron Post. The only way she can rationalize it, other than just by avoiding thinking about it altogether, is by labeling it as sin. Coley Taylor does not in any way shape or form have feelings for girls, but Coley Taylor can be weak and susceptible to Sin. That’s something she can deal with.

When they get caught and Coley’s brother blames everything on Cameron, I think Coley embraces it completely. And not in a “yes that’s a convenient way to save my neck” kind of way. I think she truly does believe the explanation he provides (aka Cameron corrupted her) because it fits with who she (thinks she) is. Finally, finally an explanation to something that doesn’t make sense.

And if there’s a small part of her that knows this isn’t the truth, a small part of her that knows she, Coley, was the one initiating things most of the time because she WANTED to, well i think she didn’t acknowledge that part for many, many years.

I think Coley would have stuck very tightly to people’s expectations of her after this. And probably she would have married very young, because she would have wanted to prove this short mistake was behind her.

I think Coley in her twenties would keep such a tight control on herself that she probably wouldn’t develop feelings for another woman in those years. But I also think 30-something Coley Taylor would relax enough, thinking this all behind her, that she would inevitably start having crushes and feelings for women in her life. I think she would start thinking about Cameron sometimes. Thinking back on their time together more honestly than she ever did until then. Hopefully she would have gained enough confidence and enough love for herself by then to finally start the process of understanding and accepting this part of her.

But yeah Coley Taylor is a beautiful disaster and it’s hard to imagine a road to self-acceptance for her that wouldn’t take decades.

[goodobservationshirley]

paradospariah replied to your post “hey les gens qui parlent français, vous interprétez comment les...”

This looks like a job for *cracks knuckles* not-me! Also now I'm trying to figure out if there are any...implications here...like help for what? HELP FOR WHAT?

[goodobservationshirley]

paradospariah replied to your post: you know me so well, piece of paper towel that...

you know things are going great when you gotta divine your mood from fallen paper towels (that stay fallen) ��

a new kind of leaf reading

[betteporter28]

yeah yeah keep laughing! Not everyone's mother tongue works in their favour when it comes to french movies.... xD

No but it's actually so great to have this version xD YOU'RE the lucky one here !

[goodobservationshirley]

Rules: name your top 10 favorite characters from 10 different fandoms and then tag 10 people

In no particular order:

1. Donna (Halt and Catch Fire)

2. Rey (Star Wars)

3. Joan Watson (Elementary)

4. Elise Wassermann (The Tunnel)

5. i love the four leads on Batwoman equally, i LOVE them.

6. Cameron Post, i love that kid

7. KJ Harper (Seven Seconds), look i love human disasters ok

8. Jo from Greta’s Little Women is <3

9. Laura (Humans, before this show ceased to exist to me)

10. Root (Person of Interest, same)

i’m sure i forgot some very important characters to me but oh well

Tagged by @kmkalan, thanks pal! :)

Tagging: @rhea-ripleys  @kemlyn  @alexdumas-ghost  @i-heart-scully   @ratherembarrassing @yougotdunhammed @bloomsberries @piovascosimo @wuschwusch @dont-get-lost-tonight  @paradospariah

[goodobservationshirley]

Coffee or tea

Chocolate or Vanilla

Early bird or Night owl (definitely both)

Spring or Autumn

Silver or Gold (neither?)

Pop or Alternative

Freckles or Dimples

Snakes or Sharks

Mountains or Fields

Thunder or Lightning

Egyptian or Greek mythology (child me was really really into it, this is for you, child me) 

Ivory or Scarlet (neither.)

Flute or Lyre

Eyes or Lips (eyes would lose to a lot of body parts, but not lips apparently)

Witch or Fairy

Opal or Diamond

Butterflies or Honey bees (such a hurtful choice to have to make, i’m offended)

Macaron or Eclair (by far)

Type or Handwritten

Denim or Leather

Secret garden or Secret library (the real choice here is obviously secret library in the secret garden OR secret garden in the secret library?)

Ocean or Desert

Vincent Van Gogh or Claude Monet

Rooftop or Balcony

Spicy or Mild

Opera or Ballet

Potions or Spells

Mermaid or Siren (A BIRD WITH A WOMAN’S HEAD, a terrifying mix of creepy and funny and i love it)

Masquerade Ball or Cocktail party

Thanks @alexdumas-ghost :)

@paradospariah, @falsealarm, @wuschwusch, @ratherembarrassing, @bloomsberries, anyone that feels like doing it can consider themselves tagged by me

[itsperfectlyreasonable]

I was tagged by @luceontheloose thank you buddy!

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you want to get to know better

Nicknames: oh gawd, i’m one of those people who collect nicknames the way other people collect stamps or cat figurines or what have you. one of the earliest is ish. probably the most long lasting is pickles (don’t ask, there is literally no story behind it and i’ve spent almost a decade of my life disappointing people with this fact). scully is the most recent that seems to have stuck. 

Star sign: cancer

Height: i like to tell people 5′7″

Time right now: 10:35

Last thing you googled: JQL query syntax. it’s a fascinating world, people.

Fave music artist: i’ve been listening to a lot of alice boman, zella day, sia, and birdy as of late. also always: arthur moon, cat power, garbage, gogol bordello, the magnetic fields, neutral milk hotel, pixies, ratatat, rjd2, stars, year yeah yeahs, the xx. covers of ‘silver spring’ always welcome.

Song stuck in my head: zemfira ‘kofevino’

Last movie I watched: “wish me away” chely wright. my gf wanted to watch something “happy and gay, preferably uplifting and light hearted” and somehow a documentary about the first country singer who came out, but nearly committed suicide, seemed appropriate. i also classified orphan black as a comedy because helena is funny. no one should trust me on when it comes to these things and she should have known better.

Last tv show I watched: supergirl

What I’m wearing right now: the latest in “my office is closed but due to technology i now have to work from home” chic - button up, cardigan, and sweatpants.

When I created this blog: years ago. 

The kind of stuff I post: aesthetically pleasing images, or images that make my stomach drop. some gay shit. some political shit. fics and fandoms.  

Do I get asks regularly?: while it’s not unheard of, it’s far from the norm.

Why did I choose my url: it seemed like a perfectly reasonable url and had the benefit of being currently available at the time

Gender: nope. i don’t correct and i don’t have a preference. 

Hogwarts House: the standing wisdom on the matter was ravenclaw, however i have recently been informed by the teams i manage at work that i might actually be slytherin.

Pokémon team: mystic. 

Favorite color: greyscale. 

Average hours of sleep: hahahahahahahahahaha. oh man. that’s a statistic i’d love to see. stab in the dark: maybe 4 consecutive hours, 6 hours total.

Lucky number: in 6th grade, i decided it was 32 since, logically, my sister’s was 23. (michael jordan was big at the time and lucky numbers, where i grew up, typically what number was on your jersey.) in college, i decided to be an ass and say it was either 1072 (i had to memorize that year for some test) or the golden ratio.

Favorite characters: elise wassermann on the tunnel, hermione granger, gail peck on rookie blue, mariana almada on las aparicio, juri arisugawa on utena because i’ve always loved a “healthy level” of angst. kara danvers has been my current fascination as of late.

Dream job: well, i suppose my criteria was one with good health insurance and one that would allow me to live the lifestyle i wanted (have a studio and pursue creative pursuits on the side, travel, work from home during flare ups). the one i have now mostly fits the bill, though the health insurance is... meh.

Number of blankets I sleep with: in the winter, 2. one above, one below soi’m surrounded in down blanket cloud of soft goodness.

and by tag 20 blogs, i’m interpreting it as 2: @paradospariah @dreiser7