#para: Saturday Chats

[hellyeahscarleteen]

A Guide to Our Direct Services

Got a sexuality, gender, sexual health, or relationships question? We got you!

We have four free, direct support services so you can get one-on-one help if you can't find what you need on the website, if you you need or want more information, if you need help understanding something you've read here, or when you want support, help, advice or discussion from our staff, volunteers or peer community.

Our message boards: you'll need to register if you're not already registered for the boards; you can do that here. (We welcome contributions and responses from community members!)

Our SMS (text) service: you can text us at (206) 866-2279. The SMS service is free, but message and data rates apply, just like with any texts you send or receive to or from anyone. Per mobile restrictions, the SMS service is only available for users in the United States.

Our online chat (does not require registration): During chat times or with appointments (see under the cut).

The advice column queue (does not require registration)

(Not sure which you should choose? Find more information under the cut)

Scarleteen is a diverse, inclusive space where we are strongly and actively committed to making and keeping a space that feels as safe as possible for everyone, and which honors the diversity of human sexuality and identity. We welcome users of all gender identities, belief systems, ethnicities, economic classes, relationship constructs, and languages. We ask everyone here to work together to co-create and help nurture such an inclusive space, where often very loaded topics are discussed, by following and respecting the user policies and guidelines.

Which of our services should you choose?

The message boards:

Use for: Almost anything, be it simple questions or in-depth, involved discussions over time. This service is also best for when you want both staff and volunteer engagement AND discussion with peers, or primarily peer-to-peer discussion.

How fast will you be answered? Anywhere from a few minutes to within 24 hours. If you're a brand new user, your posts will not show up immediately on the boards: they go to a moderation queue staff review for a little bit first, so we can better screen for trolls or spammers.

Hablamos español: Tenemos voluntarios disponibles para los usuarios de habla hispana.

The SMS service:

Use for: Help finding content on the site to answer your questions, referrals for in-person local services like sexual or mental healthcare, or a referral to our message boards or live chat when you can't figure out which service is best for you. The SMS service is not intended for answers that can be found in our site content, or can be answered or discussed on the boards or via the live chat service.

How fast will you be answered? Within a few hours to 24 hours.

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The chat service:

(A real-time popup chat window, staffed and seen only by you and our staff and volunteers. It works like an IM conversation or Facebook chat.)

Use for: Sex, sexuality, sexual health and relationship questions, help, support and referrals. This service does require your immediate and full attention, so if you want to be able to come and go throughout a conversation, especially with lapses of several minutes, hours or days, or want to multitask, the boards or SMS service should be used instead.

Monday: 10 AM - 1PM PST and 1 pm-3 pm PST 

Friday: 8:30 - 11:30 AM PST

Saturday: 8 - 10 AM PST

If you want a chat at a time it isn't scheduled, you can always come to the message boards and see if any staff are available and ask. We're currently in the midst of making some changes to our schedule, so the current schedule should be considered temporary. You may also sometimes see the available chat icon -- a red S in a small yellow circle floating over the lower left of every site page -- outside of chat hours if and when staff are available for chat at times other than our set hours, and are welcome to come into chat anytime you see that icon.

The advice columns:

(The index of the advice columns is here, to give you a sense of the kind of engaged, professional and in-depth answers it provides.)

Best for: More involved, complex situations where you want a longer, in-depth answer, but can wait days, weeks or even months for your answer.  Questions and situations which are NOT time-sensitive (like pregnancy risks or scares, current health problems, or help you need to find as soon as possible). Questions and answers you are comfortable having published widely for all to see (even though they should not ever contain any identifying information where anyone reading could know it was you asking).

How fast will you be answered? As noted on the input form, most advice questions will never be answered, particularly if we've already written a column that has already answered a question. Otherwise, the wait can be anywhere from a day or two to several months. The advice column is intended for longer, in-depth answers to issues that are not particularly time sensitive or immediate. It is acceptable to leave your question in the queue, but then also bring to another of our direct services for a more immediate and guaranteed answer.

[cagenewman]

You are cordially invited to the wedding of Cordelia Browning & Cage Newman, taking place on October 19, 2024 at 2PM EST at their home in the countryside of Merrock.

in character date: Saturday, October 19, 2024

out of character date: October 16-20, 2024

location: Cage & Cordelia's home in the countryside

dress code: semi-formal (dresses, suit jackets or button-downs)

invited: all in group; kids are welcome!

Wedding time! Everyone is invited to join us for Cage & Cordelia's wedding in the countryside, at their newly renovated farmstead. Whether you know the bride and groom, one or the other, or are just a local looking for a good time, please feel free to get involved, everyone is welcome!

We will have food, drinks and music, with tons of information to follow when the event kicks off. Interactions are welcome to take place on October 16 - 20, the only thing that we ask is any major or dramatic plots be run by us, to be fair to the event and the time and work put into planning IC and OOC. Obviously you are more than welcome to interact any way you see fit (although attendance is in no way mandatory) with GIF chats or paras, we just want everyone to have fun!

Attire is up to you -- the usual wedding stuff is great, so dresses, button-downs, suit jackets, but no one is going to get kicked out for not following a dress code (there will be a build-your-own cowboy hat station, in case you want to get fancy). Kids are welcome, though we'd prefer if the pets stayed at home to avoid any altercations with Beanstalk or the chickens roaming about. You do not need a date. Come stag if you would prefer, or with your friends!

No RSVP is needed, and again, everyone in the group is welcome to get involved! If you have any questions, please contact us anytime, we're happy to help out. xx

[carpediem-celebrpg-events]

Everyone is invited to the Elevate Lounge on Saturday, October 26th for a halloween party! The party will start at 7pm PST. Please come in costume!

This is a mandatory event for at least one celebrity per player. You can start paras and chats on the 25th and they can continue until the 31st!

Please use the tag cdcrpghalloween24 for gif chats and paras. And the tag cdcrpghalloweenoutfit24 for your Halloween costumes!

there will be two costume contests that will be going on. A couple costume and a singles costume. If you want to participate in those, your costume must be posted in the tag by 10/26 @ 5pm PST! A poll will be posted on 10/26 and members will vote!

Please give this a like once you've read this!

[itwasthisorthemilitary]

May 22nd, 2024

Oh hey, hello. Are yall concerned? Or pissed off that I’ve been dodging your calls and texts because I don’t like talking about rough times until I’ve figured it out for myself 🙃 This makes me laugh because my therapist reads my blog (Hi Francesca!) and sometimes i sit and think to myself hmmm what would Francesca say about______. Someone asked me “why are you doing this if you’re not enjoying it” and i started laughing hysterically. Never did I think this was all gonna be easy peasy, can’t quit just when things get rough. For example, do i enjoy hiking? No it fucking sucks like 80% of the time, and then you get back to the car and you’re like omg that was amazing i love hiking✨⛰️

Moral of the story: I’m not enjoying myself but if I were living in Massachusetts crippled by financial anxiety would i be enjoying myself there? Absolutely not. Grass is always greener.

ANYWAYS

•Rainy season likes to outdo itself everyday by somehow raining harder than the day before.

•My boss came yesterday to my town to have a chat with my host mom about my health situation. Essentially by process of elimination the rash is stress induced eczema most likely caused by such a drastic change in diet. Entonces, i have to eat wicked strict for the next month to get myself back to a baseline. This is Perfecto para mi porque the Peace Corps decided that it’s unrealistic to ask my host mom to adhere to my new dietary restrictions so oops! Looks like i HAVE to move out 😈. She was pissed it was great, she didn’t believe that I hadn’t orchestrated this whole thing (smart lady, I totally did). Now that I’ve gotten what I wanted, I’m super stressed about what this means. Living alone?? How/where/what the fuck am i doing? So supposedly I’m moving Saturday into my two room wooden shack, but it’s MY two room wooden shack. So TODAY I’m in Chorrera buying a new mattress, a stove, and the connector thing for the stove to the gas tank. This has been stressful because how the hell do I bring a mattress back to my town…no clue. But apparently the Chiva driver is going to help me. I’m just gonna act stupid and confused (it’s not hard) and hope someone helps me. I also bought, one plate, one bowl, silverware, a mug, a paddle, a pot, and a roll of toilet paper. It’ll take a while getting settled into the new house because I can only buy as much as I can carry back on the chiva. So on Saturday Sam is gonna head to my town to help me move everything and then it’ll take some time to get settled. Anxious about everyone asking questions about why i moved early and if i hate Elena. I have to handle it delicately so the official story is that my health situation is complicated and i need to be able to control it on my own.

•So far in the month of May I’ve read 12 books. Most of them weren’t good! But these two were very good. Shoutout to everyone who has in one way or another gotten me books😘

[tinseltownevents]

WEEK WEATHER FORECAST

EUREKA SPRINGS, AR - SUNDAY, 10.27 to SUNDAY, 11.03.

Post tweets, gif chat starters, open paras/f2f.

Please tag EVERYTHING ttownhw24.

Please @tinseltownevents​ for all gif chat starters and open paras/f2f.

ARRIVAL - SUNDAY, 10.27

DAY: Partly cloudy. High 76F. Winds light and variable.

NIGHT: Mainly clear early, then a few clouds later on. Low 57F. Winds light and variable.

MONDAY, 10.28

DAY: Sunshine and clouds mixed. Very warm. High 83F. Winds S at 10 to 20 mph.

NIGHT: A few clouds from time to time. Low around 65F. Winds S at 10 to 20 mph.

TUESDAY, 10.29

DAY: Mostly sunny skies. High 81F. Winds S at 10 to 20 mph.

NIGHT: Mostly clear. Low 66F. Winds S at 10 to 15 mph.

WEDNESDAY, 10.30

DAY: Partly cloudy early. Scattered thunderstorms developing in the afternoon. High 79F. Winds S at 10 to 20 mph. Chance of rain 50%.

NIGHT: Thunderstorms in the evening, then cloudy with rain likely overnight. Low 51F. SSW winds shifting to WNW at 10 to 15 mph. Chance of rain 90%.

THURSDAY, 10.31 - HALLOWEEN

DAY: Partly cloudy skies. High 66F. Winds N at 5 to 10 mph.

NIGHT: Mostly clear during the evening. A few showers developing later during the night. Low 47F. Winds light and variable. Chance of rain 30%.

FRIDAY, 11.01

DAY: Cloudy with a few showers. High 67F. Winds E at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 30%.

NIGHT: Mostly cloudy with some showers late. Low 54F. Winds ESE at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 50%.

SATURDAY, 11.02

DAY: Scattered thunderstorms in the morning, then variable clouds during the afternoon with more showers at times. High around 70F. Winds SE at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 60%.

NIGHT: Overcast with rain showers at times. Low 58F. Winds SSE at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 60%.

DEPARTURE - SUNDAY, 11.03

DAY: Considerable cloudiness with occasional rain showers. High near 70F. Winds SSE at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 60%.

NIGHT: Cloudy with occasional rain showers. Low 56F. Winds light and variable. Chance of rain 60%.

[hiddenwashington]

"goood morning dc!! we feel like we can finally say that, wow. i think it's time to take a deep breath as a city, and relax as the investigators have finally caught those monsters who were attacking our city. it is a beautiful, sunny saturday morning here and we are so looking forward to a normal weekend here now that our beloved city has been returned to its rightful glory. our thoughts are still with the families affected, and we wish our government a smooth transition during this time, but all in all, we think dc really came out on top-- now here's michael with the weather--"

well, investigators, you did it!!! you ended the killings before we lost any more members of our community, and we believe that those responsible are finally free of whatever magic possessed them. the pride that we had is just beyond words, seeing how much love, dedication and teamwork went into the last two weeks. the admins, for one, could barely look away from the clue chats to see you all working together, to see all of the jokes and laughing and bonding coming from the general event chats, and we hope that you guys truly did love this as much as we did. we hope that this event has strengthened the bonds within our little family, and maybe even formed new ones. but with that being said, another event here at hiddenwashington has come to an end! time for those we have loved and lost to begin to wake up, to find footing in their new, or newly reclaimed, lives, and for the city to return to its normal pace. please, from this point on, DO NOT POST ANY NEW CONVERSATIONS regarding the event ( new starters, or replies to OPEN event starters )!! that being said, YOU MAY CONTINUE TO WRAP UP YOUR EVENT CONVERSATIONS, put a nice ending to them, find a good stopping point, or adapt them to work outside the event!! we are also willing to allow you to keep writing any closed self paras that you may not have gotten a chance to complete throughout the event, just in case they're still in your head. from here on out, the dash will be going back to it’s normal interactions, and feel free to start writing accordingly!! to make that transition easier, each mun will be allowed ONE free starter, just like the start of the event, for the next 24 hours only! after that, our rules go back into place full force! remember that is ONE STARTER PER WRITER! NOT PER CHARACTER!! along with that, please remember your prizes, starting now, our BOGO on applications will begin for 24 hours, and end on sunday 6/25 at 11am est! if you have any question about the prizes please refer to this post here!! a quick reminder as well that activity has begun again, and we will be having our first check back on WEDNESDAY JUNE 28TH! please don't be on it, friends!!! but again, we just want to thank you all for the support of this event, for all the hard work, the memes and edits sent our way, and the outpouring of love and excitement that was felt for the past two weeks. we're sad to see this one go, but we are so thrilled to know it was a success and to introduce you to our next events later this year! we cannot wait to see where hidden's deadliest event leads your characters in the coming months !!!!

please give this a like once you’ve read it entirely, thank you!! have fun and happy rping!!

♥- the admin team

[sunb0rn]

andito nga ako ngayon sa Taguig dahil kung uuwi ako at babagyo hindi ako papayagan umalis, eh I have AHEB tix na. gusto ko pumunta siempre at sobrang nakaka hiya sa ang treat sakin lalo na ang layo ng panggagalingan nila.

bali thursday night ko pa ito na plano, sinabihan ko si rem that I have to tell the parentals na magkasama kami sa apartment kasi negats yon kung ako lang mag isa. nagplan na din kami to hangout over the weekend- friday and/or saturday (but kahapon ang natuloy was dinner with 3 other workmates). bali later nalang pag uwi ko.

kahapon ko lang nasabi sa bahay na di nga ako uuwi, sobrang anxious ko pa niyan. what he really pushed me eh nung around 3 pm ba yon na panay kulog kidlat at nadilim. bukod sa bagyo, kailangan ko pa sabihin (idahilan) na request nii rem magpasama just to make sure na di ako sasabihan na umuwi nalang.

actually even without the "request ni rem" part wala naman ako natanggap na side comment. sinabi lang ni mamy na sabi ni dady okay lang basta may kasama, kung wala at di pa naulan umuwi ako. halos sabay pumasok yung reply na yon at yung dagdag ko sa paalam. no, hindi masarap sa feeling na mag sinungaling sa kanila, kaso ang problematic talaga kung uuwi ako. :(

tbh I knew na papayag/wala naman sila magagawa dun palang sa paalam ko na mag stay dahil sa bagyo, sobrang naguguilty nga ako don sa "request ni rem" especially nung gumaganda panahon. like tang ina, uwi nalang ba ako para makapag paalam ng maayos? pero yon nga ang unpredictable ng season/bagyong ito; wed and thurs, naabutan ako ng malakas na ulan pauwi from gym pero kahapon kung kelan sya mas ineexpect, wala naman. nanghinayang nga ako na hindi ako tumuloy mag gym dahil baka magkasakit na ako pag naulanan nanaman.

feels.

napapagod na ako sa palagi akong nag wworry sa pagpapa alam sa kanila, na most times unneccesarry;

papayagan at ramdam kong okay lang talaga sa kanila yung lakad,

pero kapag nangyare yung worry ko ang lala din

that Movements concert na pinush kong magpaalam ng maayos kahit mag isa ako tas Sunday night pa;

naka alis ako pero napag sabihan na ang inconsiderate ko and all. imagine yung umiiyak ka nag aabang ng jeep imbis na excited makapunta ng concert.

that at lahat ng hang ups, frustrations, traumas na nag resurface.

mas malala pa dito mangyayare if umuwi ako ngayon at pinilit makaalis kahit may bagyo o nagbabadya.

sakit ng dibdib ko even while typing this,

ayoon. sobrang aliwalas ng panahon ngayon, still we don't know yung mamaya lalo sa hapon :(( nag chat na din mom ko ngayon ngayon lang (6:35 am) pinauuwi ako para makapahinga sa bahay at di ko pa alam ano irereply huhu di ko alam paano rereplyan :((

ingat lahat today lalo mga nasa affected areas.

[amused-bouche]

Guidelines

You can call me Ace. (She / They)

33.

I'm in the Central time zone.

I’ve been RPing on other sites and tumblr collectively for well over 10 years. I’m mostly multi-para, but I do not mind shorter responses either. I’m very much quality over quantity. You can always feel free to reach out to me OOC via the ask box, tumblr IMs, or Discord (given upon request to mutuals.) I’m open to chat about RP or anything else. It is not required, I just find I write better with with people who I can chat with.

P.S. I’m always on throughout the week, but my replies are normally written on Fridays, Saturdays, or Sundays. Sometimes I can get to them throughout the week, but I have the most energy on those days. I’m always open to plot and chat any day of the week! I do throw things into a queue if threads start to pile up, which isn't always the case.

My guidelines are simple:

Please only follow me if you are 20+. I don’t like to interact with minors / people who are under age. It’s not about your writing skills, or anything personal. It just makes me feel a little creepy with that large of an age gap. I like to play it safe.

If you RP off a sideblog and you follow me with your main / personal, that’s fine! Just please please please let me know which sideblog you intend to use with me so I can check it out. My IMs and askbox are always open.

Please check the bottom of my muses’ bios for their AUs and if they have any established AUs. If you are from a particular fandom, I may already have an AU for that. If not, it’s easy to make one!

Communicate and be honest with me. If you have a problem with me, a thread, muse, anything, talk to me. If you want to drop a thread, that’s cool, just give me a heads up.

If you follow me first you have two weeks to contact me after I follow you back before I unfollow. Similarly, if you follow me back and I message you, you have two weeks to respond before I unfollow.

If I reach out to you multiple times and I receive no response, or the conversations or threads are constantly dropped within one or two responses, I will not be reaching back out to you. I am not chasing anyone down to plot / RP with me. You either want to or you don't. If this persists over a long period of time, I will unfollow. You want to write after that? You can contact me. It's not my job to babysit.

I don’t write smut, that doesn’t mean my characters aren’t sexually active. I just prefer not to write it out. The writer is Demi-sexual and leans more Ace than anything else on the spectrum. I don’t mind writing some foreplay stuff if I’m comfortable with the mun, but any further and I would prefer to skip to after the fact.

If you decide we don’t mesh well enough to rp, that’s fine. Please unfollow me. I’d like to know who I can come to for RP and plotting. I don’t like wasting my time.

I will tag what triggers I can. If you let me know, I will do my best to keep up with tagging them. I use “tw: insert trigger here”. Ex. tw: blood

I will not RP the topic of abortion. Further more, I will not talk about it ooc. It is a topic that makes me extremely uncomfortable and can sometimes make my physically ill. Do not bring it up.

Try to avoid ooc drama.

Do not godmod.

Try to be a decent person and let’s have fun, alright?

Memes? They don’t expire here. Just let me know which meme it was if it’s been a while. I love memes.

I don’t send passwords, but I always read everyone’s rules.

[merrock]

Merrock is a small town, original character Tumblr roleplay with the goal of being a fun, diverse, laidback space for you to develop characters, make lasting connections, and enjoy our little community! We allow all types of roleplaying: long para responses, short GIF chats and anything in between, and aim to have an easygoing, comfortable dash for all.

RESIDENTS: 71

WRITERS: 23/20

BONUS SPOTS: 2/5 open

APP COUNT: 0

RESERVES: 0

bios for: Kaiser (due November 28).

accounts for: none.

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current starters.

CURRENT TASK: task #23: thankful. CURRENT EVENT: Railway 5K (November 23rd).

upcoming event(s): Winter Market (December 14-21), New Year's Eve Party (December 31).

upcoming mini event(s): black friday (November 29), small business saturday (November 30).

Acceptance days are Tuesdays & Thursdays, from 5-10PM EST, and on weekends when admins are available! The goal of Merrock is to create a laidback, welcoming, inclusive atmosphere for all writers, whether you want to tackle novels or one liners, and everything in between. Everyone has a home here in Merrock! xx

[aricastmblr]

Felicitaciones a Jungkook por su cumpleaños 1 Sept.2023 pr medios, cuentas en las que ha estado (soloalgunasfuerondemasiadasXD)

bruontheradio ig stories sale jungkook repost a thebrushow JUNGKOOK

thebrushow ig sale jungkook HAPPY BIRTHDAY #JUNGKOOK @-bts.bighitofficial

BruOnTheRadio twt 31 ago. Happy Birthday #JUNGKOOK @BTS_twt @ bts_bighit https://twitter.com/BruOnTheRadio/status/1697340237834571779?s=20

SiriusXMHits1 1 sept.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNGKOOK

BBCR1 twt 1 sept.

happy birthday jung kook!!!!💜 bts_bighit

AskAnythingChat Youtube

Happy Birthday Jung Kook [Ask Anything Chat]

AskAnythingChat twt 1 sept. (portadadevarioscortossubidosantes)

as we celebrate @bts bighit's #JungKook's birthday today and get ready for his @AskAnythingChat saturday with @MostRequestedLive...from 2019 here's the full version of their  @iHeartRadio chat with @onairromeo https://twitter.com/AskAnythingChat/status/1697553936729718834?s=20

FallonTonight twt 1 sept.

Happy birthday, Jungkook!@BTS_twt https://twitter.com/FallonTonight/status/1697602708423970976?s=20

BBCTheOneShow twt 1 sept.

Happy Birthday to #JungKook from bts_bighit

https://twitter.com/BBCTheOneShow/status/1697628779437334796?s=20

SpotifyMexico twt 31 ago. felicita a jungkook y jimin por la foto de ig pone link de jungkook spotify

El cumpleaños es de Jungkook, pero el regalo fue para nosotrxs

GRACIAS JIMIN HAPPY JK DAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNGKOOK https://twitter.com/SpotifyMexico/status/1697345772881072160?s=20

[kimhortons]

On a Peaceful Sunday Morning.

I remember kasi nung namatay si mommy, first and last iyak ko lang nung nag chat yung kapatid ko na wala na si mommy. kararating ko lang sa work non, Sunday. ang peaceful ng paligid. nag my day pa ako non “sana laging Sunday” wala rin kasing traffic at yung tugtog sa uv non ay mga genre ni Bryan Adams na favorite niya. nakita ko pa siya that morning when i woke up na nanunuod ng mass sa TV. I never thought na yun na pala yung huling moment na makikita ko siyang nasa bahay.

night before that kasi, may outing kami non sa shop na pinag trabahuhan ko sa ate ni Mitch, birthday rin ng anak ng ate niya non kaya andun din family nila. i dunno kung nakwento ko na ‘to dito, (oo yata) before ako umalis nung gabing yun—Saturday. naprepare ko na pati uniform ko kasi balak ko sana dumeretcho ng work kinabukasan from there. as usual ang daming bilin ni mommy non, mag ingat, yung mga gamit ko etc. nilagyan niya pa ako ng bimpo sa likod hehe. sobrang good vibes din ng energy non sa bahay, humihingi pa sana ng kiss si papa para sakanila ni mommy bago ako umalis. pero I just shrugged it off kasi like hello, tanda ko na. ganon lang inisip ko non. napa ngisi lang si mommy nun sa reaction ko, pero ang peaceful din ng awra niya that night.

so nung nandun na kami sa venue, after few shots and kain, videoke and after maglublob sa pool, bigla akong nag decide na uuwi nalang ako. I dunno bakit bigla nagbago isip ko nun—premonitions siguro. around 12am nakauwi ako, gising pa si mommy, parang inaantay niya ako. then natulog na ko after. tapos yun na, kinabukasan mawawala na pala siya. pati si papa nun, hindi sumama sa outing ng mga kapitbahay namin, sabi niya nun gusto niya lang mag stay sa bahay. so wala yung mga tito at tita ko nun, ang nandito lang nun si papa, kapatid ko at yung pinsan kong nagpaiwan din.

umiyak lang ako nun kasi naalala ko yung sinasabi niya noon na kaya niya hanggang 80 years old. e 62 lang siya. yun lang yung first and last time na umiyak ako the moment I found out she's gone. tapos nung pag uwi ko sa bahay, nakatunganga lang sila, di alam gagawin. ako naman kumilos agad, sinamahan pa ako ni Anthonette—yung childhood friend ko—na maghanap ng isusuot ni mommy. ako lahat nag asikaso, kumuha ng death certificate niya, nag asikaso ng mga requirements ng funerarya para maiburol siya. hanggang sa mailibing, ako lahat naglakad, mabuti nga't kasama ko si J non.

kaya siguro di ako nagkaron ng time na magdalamhati dahil busy at ako rin nag eentertain ng mga bisita. parang pinipigil ko maiyak non kasi ayaw ko makita ng mga tao. baka sabihin nila ang ipokrita ko naman, e lagi nga kaming nag aaway noon, di ko rin siya masyadong naalagaan, feeling ko non wala akong nagawa for her nung nagkasakit siya. hanggang libing pinilit kong hindi maiyak, kahit nakita ko non yung kapatid kong lumuluha habang inaayos na yung pinaglagakan niya.

kaya ngayon siguro ako iyak ng iyak sa tuwing maaalala ko. iiyak siguro ulit ako sa New Year. parang si J last year nung nag bagong taon ako sakanila, sabi niya nalulungkot siya at namimiss niya yung ate niya. hay. ang lungkot, but life goes on.

[jimhair]

9 am Sunday, January 21, 2023 St. Johns Bridge Sand Pebble Snow Granizo de Nieve I’m freezing in the wind and waiting for the MLK, Jr. celebration march to begin, thinking I’m getting too old for this, and it would be great if someone stopped by just to chat, but who would be that crazy… So this being Portland after all, where many weird dreams come true; I’m joined by Lalo, a surfer from Oaxaca, Mexico, and admittedly in some disbelief, I said I grew up in San Diego and he proved my doubts wrong as he listed all the surf spots I knew, from Sunset Cliffs to Black’s, and then said his dream is to surf Maverick’s. I told him I’d send a copy of the photo, but my pen had frozen, so he suggested I make a photo of his IG page. His avatar is a photo of him surfing. 9 am domingo, 21 de enero de 2023 Puente de San Juan Arena Guijarro Nieve Granizo de Nieve Me estoy congelando en el viento y esperando que comience la marcha de celebración de MLK, Jr., pensando que me estoy haciendo demasiado mayor para esto, y que sería genial si alguien pasara solo para conversar, pero quién estaría tan loco... Entonces esto es Portland después de todo, donde muchos sueños extraños se hacen realidad; Me acompaña Lalo, un surfista de Oaxaca, México, y admito que con cierta incredulidad, le dije que crecí en San Diego y demostró que mis dudas estaban equivocadas cuando enumeró todos los lugares para surfear que conocía, desde Sunset Cliffs hasta Black's. y luego dijo que su sueño es surfear Maverick's. Le dije que le enviaría una copia de la foto, pero mi bolígrafo se había congelado, así que me sugirió que hiciera una foto de su página de IG. Su avatar es una foto de él surfeando. by Google Translate @abelardo.garcia.756 on the Bridge, Portland, Saturday, January 21, 2023 🇺🇦💔🌎💔🌏💔🌍💔🇺🇦 #earth #america #human #family #photographer #documentary #stjohns #mlk #street #celebration #portrait #photography #schwarzweiss #blancoynegro #blancinegre #bnw #mediumformat @ilfordphoto #film #blancetnoir #白黒 #Hēiyǔbái #siyahbeyaz #shirokuro #blackandwhite #pdx #portland #nw #northwest #oregon #photojournalism 230119 HP5 1963 Crown Graphic 135mm Xenar Press https://www.instagram.com/p/CnuuIMWSwKU/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jww-archive]

WHAT COWBOYS DO / self para where / fort worth stock show and rodeo, fort worth, tx when / saturday jan 28 - feb 8th featuring @vannrichmond

June was surprised when her phone rang in the middle of the day. Even more surprised when it was Vann. “Hey baby,” she said, adjusting her AirPods as she walked with Beau. 

“They’re here.”

Cryptic, just how she liked it. “…you gonna explain or am I supposed to know what that means?”

“Your parents. They’re here.”

June stopped walking for a second. Well, that was a shock. “Both of them?”

“Your mom hugged me,” he said, his tone sounded like he just went through a whole war and was now calling from the frontlines. 

“Dad there?”

“Yeah. Yep. He’s here. He nodded at me.”

“Huh,” June said. 

“Huh.” He mimicked, in her tone, poorly. “I’m out here, dealing with your family reunion, trying to win a rodeo, and that’s all you’re saying?”

“Guess you’re the favorite now, baby,” June said, her tone flippant. 

“I don’t want to be the favorite, I don’t want them here at all.” He sighed. She could almost hear him scrub a hand through his hair, annoyed. Her lips twitched with a smile, because he was really acting like he lost a limb and occasionally Vann’s dramatics made her just grin away.

“You know they came — he came — as his way of saying sorry, showing he supports,” June said, it slowly sinking in. There wasn’t even anything else to watch that her father would have cared about. All the good horse events happened at the beginning of the stock show, and the rodeo was at the end. June wasn’t even singing it. She was still in Iron River until the last of the week. The rodeo was ten days long, and she’d come for the final rounds.  

“I’m gonna lose now,” Vann groaned. “Don’t be alarmed when I call from the ER.”

“Vann, do you want me to fly out tonight instead of tomorrow?” June asked. “I can intervene.”

“No, it’s fine.”

“You’re not gonna lose, you’ll do fine.”

“No, I’m gonna lose now, and he’s gonna be in the stands, and —”

“Baby you are being so dramatic,” June said with a smile. “I can fly down, it’s not a big deal. Especially if you’re hell bent on getting an ER trip and last place.” There was a few more back and forths between them before they exchanged their I love yous, even if Vann’s was clipped with annoyance.

—

Like it always did, there was something of a crowd around her while she clicked around the Dickies arena. Dressed to impress was her usual status, and she was wearing a more casual dress with a worn jean jacket that had Richmond embroidered down the back and little pearls and stitched into the shoulders. She wasn’t really paying attention to the crowd that was snapping photos as she made her way into the stands where she spotted her parents. 

Sneaking up on them, if it was even possible, her father’s eyes went to her and she saw the ghost of the smile. Asking, “What are y’all doing here?” Her voice made her mother’s head turn around and McKenzie beamed at the sight of her daughter. 

“Watching our son in law clean up at this rodeo,” her mom said with a smile. “I hadn’t forgotten how good he is at this.” Her mom seemed to puff out her feather with pride. June bit her lip, because while her father wasn’t a Vann Richmond fan, ever, her mom just adored Vann. McKenzie’s eyes went back to Dalton and then June. “It was your father’s idea.” 

June’s eyes when to her father, who was standing, arms crossed, just watching his daughter and wife chat and then eyes going back to riders warming up. 

“Hey, Daddy,” June said. It was the first time she’d talked to him since their fight last year.

“Hey, Junebug,” he answered back. He paused for a moment and then shifted. “We should probably, go somewhere to talk, June.” His voice was mellow. June nodded. Her father showed up, this was his way of coming to terms with it. 

They started to make their way down into the pits, and June flashed her pass to the security who knew her entirely too well already. Vann was doing his own thing, this was his job and she tended to just come say hello and then leave him be until it was time to be around. “Tried to not bother him much,” her dad said after a minute of walking slowly down through the stock area.

“It was your idea, then?” June asked, her head tilting to look up at her father.

“Yeah,” her father said with a slow drawl. “Saw he was on the bracket, figured I’d come on up here and watch my son in law do what he does.” He paused for a second. “Tried to call him. Wanted to... you know.” Apologize, June thought to herself, even the word was hard to say for her dad. She was looking at her father, and again she was hit over the head with how similar her husband and her father where with holding a grudge and being stubborn about it. 

“He isn’t the type to pick up the phone for people he doesn’t want to talk to,” June said. 

Her father grunted in agreement. 

“Dad, I...” June sighed. “I’m not sure he’s gonna ever forgive you or like you.” Actually, she was sure he wouldn’t, but she was hopeful he might come around in a decade or two.

“Don’t need his forgiveness.” Dalton said and leaned up against a stock fence, looking at some of the bulls. “I do need my daughter’s forgiveness, though. I’ve missed you, Junebug.”

June gave him a look. “You really miss me or did Mom threaten you and complain so much that you’re tired of it.”

Her father coughed a laugh at that, and he nodded, “Both. Even if your mother is always the driving force to makin’ me do things I mostly don’t wanna do, but things that need to be done.” He sighed again, getting more serious. “I don’t want her to miss things... I don’t want to miss things, important things, that are happening in your life because of... a mistake that I did.”

June stayed silent for a long minute. There wasn’t going to be an easy fix to this, or ever a fix. Vann didn’t like and wouldn’t ever forgive her dad. There was nothing that could be done to make that better, and her father wasn’t the type to really consider Vann’s cold indifference toward him as a slight. He liked to not be talked to or be forced into conversation, and he only liked to talk about the ranch, cows, and horses. 

“June,” her father looked at her. Her eyes went back to him instead of staring at a bucking horse. It wasn’t the one Vann drew. 

“Yes?”

“I just want you to be happy,” he said. “I thought I’d know what would make you happy, I thought I was gonna... not make you go through what your mom had to go through with me, but I just want you to be happy. I’m sorry I got into the middle of it. I shoulda... trusted you. You’re like your mother, she’s always been smarter than me.”

June smiled softly. “Thank you, Dad.” 

“You know, he’s uh, he’s pretty damn good at all this,” her dad said with a smile. “Can’t believe you didn’t tell me how good he was at it,” he said with a small smile.

“Oh my god,” June said with a roll of her eyes. “You think he just like, lucked his way into the NFR?”

“I just always thought you were the better half of him, so I just attributed it back to you,” he said with a slight laugh and a shake of his head. 

“He says the same thing, but not when it comes to this. This is all him, I like how he gets when he’s here. He’s happier here, he’s always been ambitious, so he’s just...” June didn’t know how to describe it. Vann needed a goal in front of him, and he was hyper focused on the comeback this year. “He’s just kicking ass,” June said with a laugh.

They had started to walk back toward the arena already. 

“He’s gonna win this thing, I think,” her dad said with a nod. 

“He’s gonna win the whole season,” June said with a nod. “No doubt about that.”

[1d1195]

Hiii Sam!! It feels like it’s been forever omg😭😭 I will try my best to respond without it being so long lol

I think by now all the guys have posted about it and ngl that was brutal for so many reasons! I didn’t even know what Louis had to go through and now with this it’s so :( and it’s okay! I feel like we all have para-social tendencies especially if we’re fangirls or whatever. But it’s understandable since you basically grew up with them and they were your everything at one point! and for better or for worse knowing about his own grief and how he deals with it is expected.

We did talk about it! And it is cute that people took the time to check in! I think it took everyone by surprise so of course checking up on friends who were/are in love with them seemed like a nice thing to do! Oh I definitely don’t agree with the stamens that you’re forgettable!! I think for the people who take time to know you, like actually know you, to them you are more than just a girl who loved 1D!

Sadly no new hot TA updates 😔 though he did come with his shirt basically it buttoned again one day so YES THIS MF KNOWS WTF HES DOING!!! My first thought when I saw him that day was “whore” BUT I MEAN IT IN THE MOST LOVING WAY😭 And I know I’m not the only one who thinks he’s hot like I’m sure I overheard a convo while going into the room lol

I LOVE when you ramble!! Even if they don’t make sense, they make sense to me!!!! I think you did mention the series!! DID YOU GET THAT NEW BOOK?!? HOW IS IT?! Will it replace the current book bfs?! Or will he be a new one on his own??

How are YOU doing though? I think the last time we talked you mentioned being busy and just not feeling good. Are you able to take a bit of a break for yourself? Please do so if you can!!

I’ve missed you so much it’s crazy😭 met someone from Boston last weekend and their name was Sammy??! So my brain immediately thought about you and how lame it’s been not being able to chat 😭 it’s been so busy these past two weeks I can’t! I simply don’t have time :( School is crazy like midterm season is here and I can’t lol I haven’t even been able to read your newest story yet😭 definitely a priority when i hopefully have time!

Missed you so so much my love!! Hope the week is treating you well! ILY!!-💜

OMG you lapped me in messages 😭

This week absolutely curb stomped me. But it's over. It’s fine. I was really overwhelmed and had a couple REALLY long and not so great days. Very drained. Slept a lot Friday into Saturday so I’m hoping this means I’ll be on the mend. I didn’t get to take a break for myself. but I DID read the book even when I had a 100 other things to do. It was good, but I liked some of the others in the series more. It was a little lackluster for me. Still sweet and I enjoyed it but the others deserve more hype than this one.

I know EXACTLY what you mean calling your TA a whore hahahahahaha he sounds pretty slutty to me tbh 🤣

I'm doing okay about Liam for the most part but I see some sad tiktoks. One that really got to me was a pic of him on the first slide and then the second slide is a picture of 1d when they were babies in 2012ish and the song in the background is "you start to wish you could've been 16 forever, cause you know your favorite band ain't getting back together" which is just gutting really for obviously 100 reasons. It's just so sad and I guess it's good I had such a bad week and a million other things to do so I could distract myself from how sad it is and not listen to this sad fucking song 😭

I'm sorry you've also been so busy! I hope you're taking time for yourself. Don't worry about reading, ever. I know you like to but it's not like the stories are going anywhere 💕 I know you're going to do well on your midterms and I hope you're not too stressed 💕 Sammy from Boston! How funny! I assure you it wasn't me as I wasn't near the west coast last weekend hehehehe

I'm excited to read what you wrote about the story, I hope you're having a great weekend 💕

xoxo

[unsent-unspoken]

i'm supposed to be doing my assignment para sa development of psychological thought. it's due on wednesday and i don't even know where to start. but i have to start. i'm going out ng saturday and i have to at least get ahead while i still can. after all, meron pa akong mga work output for TOP na need din gawin. i just finished my assignment with stat and na-drain na ata ako. i even took a break kanina before diving into another assignment. so, yeah. i'm supposed to be doing something productive, but, here i am, wasting time missing you. hindi ako makapag-focus.

a part of me still waits for that call at the end of the day. a message to let me know that you're home safe. isang chat to ask me, "how is you?" a part of me still waits and its breaking my heart.

i cried to bed last night. well, technically this morning. i slept at around 3am and i couldn't stop the tears. kahit ngayon. parang tanga pa ring naghihintay sa'yo...

i'm trying to keep myself busy. i took the job kahit shifting, i'm taking up masters, if i have "time" (or at least the illusion of it) nagyayaya akong lumabas either si dane or sila nics at rach. i try not to stop and pause and give my mind a break. it's just that, whenever i do stop, everything would come crashing down like a wave and i might not be able to stop it. i try not to stop para hindi ka maalala. i try to fill every second of my day with everything else but you. i don't think i'm doing well though...

i miss you. and i can't stop thinking about you. i wish it was as easy for me as it was for you. i miss you, bal. 🐳

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