#oversharing tw

[castielsprostate]

i am SO angry right now

[dumblemonchickenwing]

mysogyny tw, vent

Mysogyny is probably in small things, at least in my life. If I just sit and someone asks me "have you experienced mysogyny?" I'd probably doubt it because I can't give a proof that would convince people.

But when I look at all the small details in my life, it's sprinkled all over: I have an obligation to do my brother's chores. Which means that he has less responsibility than me, because aside from that we are on equal footing. We both work a full time job.

I have an obligation to do overall chores and look after the apartment, where 5 people live. If I forget or am not feeling up to doing it once, I get yelled at by my mother and I face dire consequences. ANd the argument is always "you're a girl! Girls are supposed to be tidy and take care of the house!"

When my parents discuss their old age they always look at me because they expect that I will be the one who will take care of them when they will have dementia. In family my brother is supposed to be the person who "continues the bloodline" which implies that his life is his own, and I will take on the responsibility for the rest.

I am not allowed to have a PC. I tried to talk about it with my parents and they forbade it, with a very negative reaction. I have a laptop that can't handle videogames, especially games that weigh a lot. This is part why I only draw, because I have no other option. I only play games through my brother's switch, which means, again, the only reason I can enjoy gaming is because of my brother. My parents wouldn't allow that.

My brother has the technology, he buys new things, while I wait until my old and rusty keyboard and mouse, laggy laptop break down completely, so that I'd be able to get something new. And all of that is normal.

Not to mention how much more hostile my mother is to me than toward her son (my brother). And I've already shared about how she gave my phone number to a woman I didnt know behind my back, without discussing it (a procedure where one family hands down their daughter to the other so their son would meet her). But we never really discuss anything because my parents always decided things for me without my opinion.

I've occasionally had talks (which mainly was them talking and me listening) about me marrying someone, and it was always presented in a "if you do X thing no man will ever marry you" and presenting it in a way as though I hold no value unless I have a man to look out for or take care of.

The reason my mother gave birth to me was for the sake of my brother , so I kinda see why I get this attitude.

I admit I am used to it. But if I am writing this, then this means I'm not actually okay with it.

[cubbihue]

Does Mr. Turner like rubbing his “son’s” successful career in Dinkleberg’s face??

He does! He brags about Timmy's success to every person within the neighborhood's vicinity. Mr. Turner loves how successful his son is! It really secures his reputation at the neighborhood HOA meetings they host at their house.

Timmy's worked very hard to gain more successes than failures. The more successful he is, the greater his family's social standing!! And the less he gets to overhear his dad ranting to the neighborhood about his failures.

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[hanasnx]

ppl who support AI tell on themselves man. “i’m sick and tired of treating people sub-human and acting like they’re content machines and they actually get mad at it! so i’ll just do it to this AI instead!” / “i don’t want to pay for the real and valid labor of art and instead just want to steal it and i think i should be praised for that!” / “i’m so happy i have an AI girlfriend so that i don’t have to put into the work of a real human girlfriend. could you imagine? me putting in the work of a meaningful and real relationship? ha!”

if you use AI chat, AI art, chatgpt, AI anything to write/roleplay/draw you’re pathetic for sacrificing other people in order to get what you want. stepping over thousands of hours of real individual labor to support companies that want to exploit them too. you disgust me, and i don’t want you interacting with my page.

[michmastkillhimself]

okay, so i’ve got three vids. first one? i’m doing kinda fine—stomach’s just starting to grumble a bit. second one? things go downhill fast. i had to unbutton my jeans ‘cause i knew the bloat was coming, and my stomach’s making all these wild gurgling noises. by the third vid? full-on balloon mode. bloated, gassy, and my stomach’s straight-up throwing a rave.

tw emeto: so, uh, i threw up a few hours ago—don’t ask what i was thinking. my stomach’s basically packed with chips, fatty dairy, and way too much coke zero (seriously, maybe that’s the culprit?). pretty sure there’s still some seafood leftovers in there from earlier, so… fun times.

after the last vid, the nausea hit hard. like, i grabbed a bucket just in case, but idk if it’s gonna happen. i really don’t wanna drink water (my usual “get this over with” trick), but omg this is unbearable..

do you need other videos?

#tw emeto #bloatcore #stomach noises #coke zero regrets #dairy disaster #body horror but make it real #food baby chronicles #nausea vibes #overshare central

[stellar-solar-flare]

Hi everyone. Sorry I've been so AFK, and thank you to everyone who has reached out during that time.

A family dog that is very dear to me was given a diagnosis with no cure that'd help his quality of life. As he'll be heading to the Rainbow Bridge very soon, I went to visit my childhood home and spend time with him.

Today I hugged him for the last time before hitting the road. It's been quite a week.

[jellysquiddles]

Okay wanted to put my two cents in on the Anissa situation… I don’t want them to cut Mark’s assault Robert Kirkman has never been one to shy away from a sexual assault storyline and I believe it does make a huge impact on Mark’s character especially his relationship with Eve. Kirkman laid some decent ground work for the show’s writers to really hammer in sexual assault is too often used for shock value in comics and it’s time to start treating with the care it deserves. Despite how a large portion of the fandom may react it’s important that we let these stories of sexual assault truly shine through and impact the people its meant to impact. It’s important that victims of sexual assault know that there’s people out there that will take it seriously even if there are some who won’t. We just have to louder than the imbeciles making fun of it.

[grabby-smitten]

WHAT DID I MISS??? HELLOOOOOOOWWWW

I learned two things in the last few days. it’s easy to take out the iv thingy with one hand… like zaaaz and whispering through a megaphone is funny.

Lost my voice (well almost) and I was given a megaphone to speak at work so I wouldn’t strain my throat so much. My friends had a good laugh with me walking around with that and the iv pole. I’m such a complicated person. When I’m told to stay at home and rest, my body and mind do the complete opposite.

Sick but still working aesthetic

[salemoleander]

Have eaten some weed-infused honey and am now in a race to finish making quesadillas before that kicks in

[jesse-pinko]

Did anyone else have that one childhood friend who developed serious behavioral problems that were clearly a result of severe trauma and every adult around you HATED them sooo much and acted like they were the plague and only ever focused on how inconvenient and socially inappropriate their pain was and it forever changed the way you looked at the adults in your life and from then on you kept waiting for them to discard you as soon as you became a problem

[michmastkillhimself]

Aww omg yes post all the videos you have such a cute belly

didn't think this was a good idea, but since people keep asking, lol…

so i cut out the sound in some parts because you can hear my moans and sighs, and at the very beginning, i pressed on my stomach too hard and burpedi 💀 just want someone to give me a belly massage and whisper dirty things about it in my ear… :( honestly, i'm feeling so bad in this video that i'm not sure i wouldn't puke on your shoes in this state.

in that other post, i mentioned that i was super nauseous and even brought a bucket… anyway, i ended up falling asleep, but i woke up in the middle of the night because my stomach was the size of the moon and twisting like crazy. i was literally drenched in cold sweat. i thought about going to the bathroom, but as soon as i stood up, i started puking hardcore-thank god the bucket was nearby. i'm still bloated :(

honestly, i have no idea why i'm even into this, but if anyone wants to talk about it, my dms are open-don't be shy.

[daddydaichis]

I’m just a teeny tiny bit tipsy and it’s making me think of how my faves would deal with me.

Kakashi has me over his shoulder on the way to bed in an instant, he’s ready to wipe off my make up for me and wash my face.

Erwin is chuckling, pressing a loving kiss to my temple whilst he gently takes the wine glass from my hand.

Daichi is encouraging me to drink water and pretending he isn’t already half hard at how handsy I am being.

Kafka suggests a greasy takeout to soak up the alcohol but we end up making out loudly as we wait, making everyone else insanely uncomfortable.

[stellar-solar-flare]

TW: chronic pain, chronic illness, self worth issues, mental health struggles.

I am exhausted to the bone. It feels like all the health crap and the never-ending pain have ground me to dust and left me at rock bottom.

I can't keep up with anything, not with updates or correspondence or comments or anything else, and I'm not feeling like I have anything of value to contribute to anyone. That I'm a constant drag on everyone's energy and too negative with everything I have going on, and I'm isolating myself because of that anxiety.

It's so hard to find joy when everything is an uphill battle with my body and brain. I want to do so many things but I just can't. I never manage to do what I want to do. My fics are updating at a glacial pace and it feels like a miracle anyone is still waiting at this point. My comment list is probably in the hundreds right now. I just don't feel good enough at all, at anything, not as a friend or a writer or a commenter or community member or anything.

I just can't measure up to my own standards, and I find it hard to believe I'd measure up to anyone else's, either. And there's no end in sight to my illness. I don't know what to do, how to be better when I can't get better.

(This is not a quitting post, in any sense of the word. I am also in therapy for all the illness crap and related mental health effects.)

[theirlives]

birthday  tattoo  has  finally  healed  up  enough  for  me  to  share!  i  had  this  stain  covered  up  in  december,  but  it  was  a  rough  one  to  go  over  due  to  scarring  and  being  dark,  which  left  it  bumpy  for  a  while.  i’ve  spent  ten  years  hating  this  tattoo  and  the  history  behind  it.  i  initially  wanted  this  tattoo  to  represent  my  mom’s  first  battle  with  breast  cancer    [...]    as  you  can  see,  it’s  mostly  ended  up  a  blob.  that’s  because  i  had  it  done  drunk on  my  abusive  ex-partner’s  couch  after  a  night  of  him  treating  me  like  shit  because  i  wore  an  outfit  he  didn’t  approve  of.  the  'hope'  almost  ended  up  being  his  name  because  he    &    the  tattooist  'thought  that  would  be  funny'.  it  also  represents  the  month  i  fell  pregnant  and  later lost  our  baby.  every  time  i  look  at  it,  i’m  only  ever  reminded  of  bad  things.  now,  it’s  finally  gone  and  been  replaced  with  a  beautiful  lotus  flower.  i  didn’t  initially  choose  a  lotus  flower.  my  tattooist  suggested  it  as  our  best  option,  but  when  i  went  home  to  research,  i  learnt  it  has  many  meanings  including  representing  rebirth  and  rising  from  a  dark  place  into  beauty.  i’ve  spent  the  last  year  trying  really  hard  to  have  a  better  relationship  with  myself,  my  body  and  my  mental  health  by  quitting  the  shit  that  isn’t  good  for  me.  this  tattoo  is  just  another  one  of  those  things  and  the  flower  now  feels  very  fitting  for  the  girl  who  celebrated  nine  months  sober  yesterday.  feeling  a  little  emotional!  tldr:  i  got  a  new  tattoo,  isn’t  it  pretty?

[humanpurposes]

At this point I'm only here for Aemond crumbs and dragons. That being said, I actually liked this episode!

Vermithor and Silverwing are SO COOL, that whole sequence was great. I love how distinct all the dragons are and the differences in how they bond with their riders. Silverwing has no standards but ykw, nor do I, we're soul sisters. And then Aemond and Vhagar doing a little spot check to be like "ah fuck... Rhaenyra has more dragons."

Rhaenyra was actually interesting to watch in this episode!! To me, this is the most in-character she's been all season, she's assured of her own claim, she's entitled and she's ruthless. Rhaenyra is still a Princess who comes from a family who consider themselves genetically superior to the people they have power over, but she's been written as if she's the embodiment of progress and tolerance for the sake of emphasising double standards and misogyny. Sure would have been great if we could have had this from episode 1 though instead of stalling the plot :))))

And god, her conversation with Jace!! She really screwed her Strong boys over from the get go, because if Jace's legitimacy can be questioned then it can be challenged. He relies upon the fact that he has a dragon to justify his position as Rhaenyra's heir, but what now that other Targ bastards have claimed dragons (that are older and larger than Vermax)? Maybe Jace appreciates that Rhaenyra loved Harwin and the role he played in their lives, but she's set him up for failure, especially since she's had two legitimate sons with Daemon. I don't think I've given Jace much credit but actually, it's been interesting seeing his confidence grow as he takes on his responsibilities as heir this season. And I like that he's questioning her, then seeing his internal struggle of "I love and respect my mother but I'm frustrated with her decisions."

Not enough Aemond or Helaena. Also I miss Otto :(

[nobodyirlcares]

Gonna throw up from anxiety rn honestly I just wanna talk to someone and be hugged but nobody likes me so that'll never happen. Plus I'm just a horrible person either way you look at it, at least according to others.