#oversharing tw

[castielsprostate]

i am SO angry right now

[dumblemonchickenwing]

mysogyny tw, vent

Mysogyny is probably in small things, at least in my life. If I just sit and someone asks me "have you experienced mysogyny?" I'd probably doubt it because I can't give a proof that would convince people.

But when I look at all the small details in my life, it's sprinkled all over: I have an obligation to do my brother's chores. Which means that he has less responsibility than me, because aside from that we are on equal footing. We both work a full time job.

I have an obligation to do overall chores and look after the apartment, where 5 people live. If I forget or am not feeling up to doing it once, I get yelled at by my mother and I face dire consequences. ANd the argument is always "you're a girl! Girls are supposed to be tidy and take care of the house!"

When my parents discuss their old age they always look at me because they expect that I will be the one who will take care of them when they will have dementia. In family my brother is supposed to be the person who "continues the bloodline" which implies that his life is his own, and I will take on the responsibility for the rest.

I am not allowed to have a PC. I tried to talk about it with my parents and they forbade it, with a very negative reaction. I have a laptop that can't handle videogames, especially games that weigh a lot. This is part why I only draw, because I have no other option. I only play games through my brother's switch, which means, again, the only reason I can enjoy gaming is because of my brother. My parents wouldn't allow that.

My brother has the technology, he buys new things, while I wait until my old and rusty keyboard and mouse, laggy laptop break down completely, so that I'd be able to get something new. And all of that is normal.

Not to mention how much more hostile my mother is to me than toward her son (my brother). And I've already shared about how she gave my phone number to a woman I didnt know behind my back, without discussing it (a procedure where one family hands down their daughter to the other so their son would meet her). But we never really discuss anything because my parents always decided things for me without my opinion.

I've occasionally had talks (which mainly was them talking and me listening) about me marrying someone, and it was always presented in a "if you do X thing no man will ever marry you" and presenting it in a way as though I hold no value unless I have a man to look out for or take care of.

The reason my mother gave birth to me was for the sake of my brother , so I kinda see why I get this attitude.

I admit I am used to it. But if I am writing this, then this means I'm not actually okay with it.

[cubbihue]

Does Mr. Turner like rubbing his “son’s” successful career in Dinkleberg’s face??

He does! He brags about Timmy's success to every person within the neighborhood's vicinity. Mr. Turner loves how successful his son is! It really secures his reputation at the neighborhood HOA meetings they host at their house.

Timmy's worked very hard to gain more successes than failures. The more successful he is, the greater his family's social standing!! And the less he gets to overhear his dad ranting to the neighborhood about his failures.

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[hanasnx]

ppl who support AI tell on themselves man. “i’m sick and tired of treating people sub-human and acting like they’re content machines and they actually get mad at it! so i’ll just do it to this AI instead!” / “i don’t want to pay for the real and valid labor of art and instead just want to steal it and i think i should be praised for that!” / “i’m so happy i have an AI girlfriend so that i don’t have to put into the work of a real human girlfriend. could you imagine? me putting in the work of a meaningful and real relationship? ha!”

if you use AI chat, AI art, chatgpt, AI anything to write/roleplay/draw you’re pathetic for sacrificing other people in order to get what you want. stepping over thousands of hours of real individual labor to support companies that want to exploit them too. you disgust me, and i don’t want you interacting with my page.

[griancraft]

I'm struggling to word this but I'm finally ready to talk about it and I want people to listen.

I've noticed a type of racism in leftist communities I don't see talked about a lot. I am Quarter Japanese and I am visibly mixed, but a lot of leftists see "quarter" and assume that I don't have the right to an opinion on issues that effect me. The sentiment I've gotten from mostly white leftists is that I'm not "POC enough" for a lot of discussions.

There's this weird thing in a lot of leftist spaces where your appearance and percentage, not your experiences based on your race, are considered above all.

Meanwhile, in reality, all aspects of my identity are affected by my race and my family's experience with Japanese internment. An event which stripped them of any wealth they had acquired since moving to Canada over 50 years before the war.

An event that cause the intermarriage rate of Japanese-canadians and white Canadians to be over 90 percent post internment because we viewed proximity to whiteness as safety. An event which left them in severe poverty until my dad and aunt worked their asses off to get a degree. The generational trauma goes so deep my dad didn't want me transitioning because he was worried about what the government would do to me.

Because of my race I experienced negligence from authority figures related to pretty severe racially based bullying at 12. That negligence could have killed me. I've had to deal with microaggressions and straight up racism related to my last name on multiple occasions.

One time I was out with a friend and he grabbed my arm tight and dragged me to walk faster. A man wearing a white lives matter T-shirt was standing in the middle of the path looking directly at me when I turned around.

I'm pretty sure this wasn't based on me being feminine and goth that day, I live in a city with a decent amount of people in alt subculture and my friend was way more gothed up and queer than me. I was barely passing as a guy at that point so it wasn't because I was a man in a dress. I know this is a weaker point, but it made me realize just how unsafe I am in my own community even though I'm a mixed person in a heavily multicultural city.

Obviously, this isn't on the scale of someone who is less white passing than me and/or has more compounding marginalizations. However I've found that the fact I'm mixed race has been used against me to devalue my experience and knowledge regarding what it's like to be a POC in Canada.

I can assure you I am aware of how bad it is, and I am aware of how good I have it. I also want you to be aware that it's not all sunshine rainbows and bunny farts to be more white, it doesn't make the racism go away. It often just makes it more covert and easy to explain away because I'm "not really Japanese"

[jolalibrary]

today is a really special day for me (not my birthday, don’t worry), but a few years ago, on the fourth of the fourth, was the first day I got to write in my mood-diary that I felt good, happy, like myself. four has also always been a lovely number for me, and I remember being giddy telling my husband this, that the clouds parted on that day. I still remember the relief on his face that I was smiling.

for anyone with a mood disorder/anxiety/depression, you know what a long road it feels like to get to that point. I’m so proud of how far I’ve come since then, the milestones I’ve ticked off, the things I’ve done for myself and chosen too. but, im also so thankful to be here—to have a place to share the stories I make up in my head and know people I call friends. past jo would never believe that present jo would have this, but god is present jo so happy that past jo told her to be fearless, even if it terrified her.

so, happy fourth of fourth, from me to you. if you don’t often choose yourself, try and do so for me today 🩷

[salemoleander]

Have eaten some weed-infused honey and am now in a race to finish making quesadillas before that kicks in

[humanpurposes]

At this point I'm only here for Aemond crumbs and dragons. That being said, I actually liked this episode!

Vermithor and Silverwing are SO COOL, that whole sequence was great. I love how distinct all the dragons are and the differences in how they bond with their riders. Silverwing has no standards but ykw, nor do I, we're soul sisters. And then Aemond and Vhagar doing a little spot check to be like "ah fuck... Rhaenyra has more dragons."

Rhaenyra was actually interesting to watch in this episode!! To me, this is the most in-character she's been all season, she's assured of her own claim, she's entitled and she's ruthless. Rhaenyra is still a Princess who comes from a family who consider themselves genetically superior to the people they have power over, but she's been written as if she's the embodiment of progress and tolerance for the sake of emphasising double standards and misogyny. Sure would have been great if we could have had this from episode 1 though instead of stalling the plot :))))

And god, her conversation with Jace!! She really screwed her Strong boys over from the get go, because if Jace's legitimacy can be questioned then it can be challenged. He relies upon the fact that he has a dragon to justify his position as Rhaenyra's heir, but what now that other Targ bastards have claimed dragons (that are older and larger than Vermax)? Maybe Jace appreciates that Rhaenyra loved Harwin and the role he played in their lives, but she's set him up for failure, especially since she's had two legitimate sons with Daemon. I don't think I've given Jace much credit but actually, it's been interesting seeing his confidence grow as he takes on his responsibilities as heir this season. And I like that he's questioning her, then seeing his internal struggle of "I love and respect my mother but I'm frustrated with her decisions."

Not enough Aemond or Helaena. Also I miss Otto :(

[deancrowleycas]

I am stressing the heck out. If I don't find a proper job that I can live from 'til the end of April I have to move back to Germany to live with my grandparents but idk how I would even do that without a car or a driver's license and doing it all alone? I really fucking need a job. I feel so fucking useless. It brings back all my trauma of my mom kicking me out as a teen overnight. Sometimes I think I'm better off dead let's be real then I wouldn't be a burden for my family and also I wouldn't have to worry about my future anymore. I mean moving back is so not the end of the world and I feel like I'm being a brat. I just feel so useless. A total failure. Exactly what my mom told me I would be. I don't really see a perspective for myself idk

[jellysquiddles]

Okay wanted to put my two cents in on the Anissa situation… I don’t want them to cut Mark’s assault Robert Kirkman has never been one to shy away from a sexual assault storyline and I believe it does make a huge impact on Mark’s character especially his relationship with Eve. Kirkman laid some decent ground work for the show’s writers to really hammer in sexual assault is too often used for shock value in comics and it’s time to start treating with the care it deserves. Despite how a large portion of the fandom may react it’s important that we let these stories of sexual assault truly shine through and impact the people its meant to impact. It’s important that victims of sexual assault know that there’s people out there that will take it seriously even if there are some who won’t. We just have to louder than the imbeciles making fun of it.

[lunar-years]

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[oydis]

» Indefinite break «

Due to personal reasons I’ll be taking an indefinite break.

Billing on patreon will be paused every month until I’m well enough to create again.

⤷ scroll through my cc posts ⤷ visit my downloads page

This blog has been a part of my life for over 3 years already, and it honestly breaks my heart that I can’t find the strength to keep it running with the usual monthly releases right now. Since creating makes me happy I tried to hold out, but I have simply too little energy left at the moment. Could be a few weeks, could be a few months. In the meantime I’ll still be around and I’m looking forward to when I’ll be back making cc again 🦋🖤

I debated on whether to disclose details on my current situation. If you want to venture there I’ll just spend a few words under the cut, to avoid exposure to potentially triggering content (specific triggers mentioned below).

I’ll try to be as short and delicate as possible, but please beware of potential triggers such as abuse, trauma, and depression.

I chose to trust the person I was dating, but he was manipulative and deliberately hurt me to an extent I didn’t even think possible instead - both physically and psychologically. I went through a truly painful experience, and I’ve been feeling utterly miserable since.

I sought professional help and I’m currently in therapy: little by little it’s helping me battle self-blame and this boundless sadness. It will probably be a long and difficult journey but I hope it will eventually help me overcome this trauma, enable me to trust and open my heart again, and also teach me how to protect myself better from people who only want to take advantage of me.

[lifewaster-imdanger98]

Fact: it's not over sharing if it happens on Tumblr

[haruchiyos]

Cold blooded monster bf that constantly clings to you for warmth

[hanasnx]

i don’t personally write incest but that doesn’t mean i think less of people who do. if anything i fight for their right to write fiction however they want bcos it’s fiction. but i just want to let other ppl know that no amount of “why do ppl write incest 🤪��� it’s so gross, you’re so gross for that. idk what’s wrong with you” posts will stop ppl from writing what they wanna write. it’s laughable even. so let’s stop subtweeting incest writers and let’s start healing

[adamarks]

I am once again asking for raising a teenager to be easier