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abyssalpriest · 1 year ago

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Like I know what he's telling me to do (or at least what direction he's nudging me in) wrt to the whole merge it together make it parallel stuff but man I'm like. Grr. I'm not good at reconciling paradoxes Grr

#Wow the Outskirts God Rudra wants me to follow a nonlinear abnormal off the beaten path uh. Path. Balancing nature and civilisation #and being a complexity on the outskirts of spirit and human who helps people navigate it without declaring themselves an authority #who would've thought....... I mean I didn't know half that until I just was told to say it but ok #ANYWAY. this is years away #ramblings //#Diary //#There's a difference between being a priest as in a - what the fuck. I just saw someone walking in the lounge room hello??????#Difference between being one of a community's spiritual consultants/ a medium between lands that struggle to communicate. And being an #outsider imposing themselves on a community as a leader and self-declared only source of information/access to the off-plane+#? Not plus. ?#IDK I have years of getting over myself and discipline to do before I actually consider this I have spent enough years of my life in #a cult to accidentally get myself into another one or hurt anyone else in that way. Which I KNOW is a huge overreaction but like #I have years of purging and self discipline and regulation to do

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