#our dog is dead and all i got is this fucking blog

[diduthinkihadforgotten]

i keep telling people i’m evil for what i did to you. really, all we did was slowly pick each other apart and mix and match pieces. the visual of two skeletons switching their bones comes to mind.

i keep thinking about our fright nights. we’d sit at the top of the driveway under the stars and talk about constellations. we’d kiss under the falling stars in that meteor shower while i pretended to know anything about astrology. we’d go inside and watch whatever dumb horror movie.

it was never about the sex. sure, it helped. we would’ve been the same without it. maybe a tad less affectionate after everyone got drunk enough that we could play like we were just tired. we weren’t exactly subtle either way.

playing beer pong on their table and always, immediately being team mates. that day we went to the lake and you told me i looked good in green. you’d always find some excuse or another to be wherever i was, and vice versa. nothing was ever unintentional.

i remember catching you staring from across their tiny balcony. every secret code and inside joke they’d never have a chance at understanding. you truly were my partner in every crime. today, i text you about job postings like nothing changed.

we still speak conspiratorially. once every few days about something barely consequential. i don’t tell you about the bad days or worse nights anymore. you shrug off that heavy cape of misery we both know will never leave.

you told me once- for creatures like us there is no fairy tale ending. no lasting happiness, just contentment; and that, too only in the most fleeting moments. but i swear it felt like heaven when id wake up to find you drooling on my pillow with your hand holding mine.

you taught me a lot. about myself, about you, about living life as a pseudo-vampire. i took some of your skillset and i know you’d be proud of how i use it. i hope you learned something from me, too.

how funny is the thought? you and me. locked in a seemingly endless cycle of waiting and learning and grieving.

i wish we’d stayed together for the kids. i wish i’d kept my promise. i wish i could’ve seen you again before it all really and fully fell apart. i’d still give up more than i’d like to admit just to spend one more night on their floor staring up at the ceiling in that comfortable almost silence.

[autisticshadowthehedgehog]

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got held up in traffic today cause some noob couldnt drive the fucking loop-de-loop. lmfao fucking coward

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he's literally a war criminal can we NOT do this tumblr

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that you know of

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saw sonic the hedgehog irl once. he showed up at my village, released 30 feral pickys in the town hall, paid the ice cream vendor roughly a thousand rings for a single chili dog, told me not to waste my life worrying about the little things, and then caused a fucking tornado

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sucks that sticks the badger hates all technology you know she would do NUMBERS on here

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being a chao be like "chao chao chao chao chao"

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what the fuck is a public school

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OP'S WHAT NOW

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THE DEVIL???? FROM THE BIBLE????

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[boolger]

A lapdog at a farm - chapter 2

<-former chapter ~ AO3 link ~ next chapter-> I will block any ageless blogs. Call of duty. Explicit, 18+, minors do not interact. read the tags. wc: 6181.

Farmer!John Price x Hybrid!Reader, hybrid! Kyle Gaz Garrick x hybrid! Johnny Soap MacTavish x hybrid! Simon Ghost, John Price x Nikolai.

tags: Rape/non-con elements, dub-con, dog!hybrid!people being kept as pets, alternative universe - farm, dark, farmer!John Price, working-dogs, punishments, mating cycles/rut/heat (no omegaverse), the dove isn't dead but its dying, reader is a brat, knotting, animal tails and ears, mentions of trauma, violence, angst, hurt/comfort, collars, rough sex, breeding kink, biting, threesome, foursome, everyone is fucking your honor, enemies to lovers, chubby reader, reader has a pussy

Author's note: reminder that reader is kinda a bitch at some points, thinking mean, unjustified things about our 141 once in a while. Unreliable narrators, my sinner. Apologies for any grammatical errors , the bad russian and such. So uh, this got waaay longer than intended so here you go. It will be a couple of days before the next chapter, so enjoy this snack for u all, my sinners.

chapter 2: Delivery from the Hybrid's Den!

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“I have a friend coming over for a while,” John softly said next morning, hand resting on your head, fingers stroking your long ears now and again,, “to help us with getting the boys settled.”

You were on the floor, half way beneath the kitchen table, snuggled up against Price’s leg, feeling much more needy, knowing the ‘boys’ as your owner called them, would be delivered later today or tomorrow. They needed to be chipped and Price had asked for a full health check from his vet, as well as vaccinations and dental care. John was a caring owner; the mere fact that he did this from the get go was proof of that. He had done the same when getting you, made sure that any recent wounds or scarring were taken care of - getting your teeth fixed and your nails checked.

You didn’t have much of your fangs left when he got you; your earlier owners had taken those, the memories still haunting you once in a while. They had done it without anesthesia, not even by professionals. Same with your claws, that wasn’t beneath your nails anymore, thanks to former owners as well. Price had gotten the wounds cleaned and fixed up; they had almost grown closed by now. For most of the time that you lived with John, he had made sure your nails were always done nicely, however you wanted them.

John was a good master. You loved him, more than you knew you should, desperate for his attention, acknowledgment and praise. You didn’t want to share him, not with these hounds he had decided to get…

… not with this apparent friend.

You didn’t answer with anything but a displeased sound, tightening your grip on Price’s pants; when he offered you another piece of sausage you were quick to eat it, licking at his fingers while he chuckled. For a moment your tail wagged, eating the food and pressing against his hand.

He couldn’t be serious - abruptly changing so many things? and you were just supposed to accept it? Finally, you replied.

“Do I know your friend?” You didn’t bother to seem excited in any way, your skepticism seeping into your voice like poison. Price took another sip of his tea, not commenting on it.

“You’ve met him before but it’s been years. First year I had you, I reckon. Remember Nikolai?” 

Nikolai. Nikolai. Different faces flashed for your eyes, trying to pinpoint who you had met that bore that name. 

“No,” you finally admitted.

“Can’t blame you, lass. You were a little mess when you met him.”

You let out a huff at his words, embarrassment making your toes curl. It was true, your mind was muddled when it came to the first half year or so together with Price. You had been wary of every single person, desperately acting out and having to wear a muzzle, slowly getting used to the gentleness and rules of John. How he was fair and didn’t change his rules, didn’t punish you without reason.

You heard the front door open, ears peeking up a little, a small bark leaving you on instinct.

“‘Morning,” Laswell called out, making you settle again with a huff. While Laswell was strict and sometimes a meanie, she wasn’t a threat. Only to you and John’s private time.

“Good morning,” John called out, “I’ve made coffee.”

“Ugh if I wasn’t a lesbian I would marry you,” Kate groaned happily, by now so comfortable with John that she simply moved to take a cup in the cupboard, helping herself to the coffee and some food. They had known each other when younger, that was all you knew. Their stories always changed when you asked.

“Morning puppy,” she greeted, leaning over to give you a small pat that you leaned into, tail wagging once more, “are you going to misbehave again today?”

“Hopefully not,” John hummed, picking up his tea cup once more, “Nikolai is arriving in a couple of hours.”

“Ah, your old crush,” Laswell mused happily as she sat down across the table, once again making you wonder how long they had known each other, “going to pull yourself together this time?”

Wait. Crush… crush? Your head whipped up to look at your owner and oh fucking hell, John fucking Price was blushing. You huffed, clearly not pleased at all with this new knowledge.

Wonderful, wasn’t that just fucking wonderful? Now he was going to abandon you fully, to run around being a lovesick puppy and playing with the new hybrids.

“Don’t tease me,” John answered, clearly embarrassed, a rare sight indeed, “that’s none of your business.”

Kate just laughed. You let out a grumble, trying to snuggle even closer to Price, practically clinging to his leg by now. Price returned his hand to your head, petting you once more, looking down at you. You returned his gaze, doing your best puppy eyes, letting out a little whine. He smiled at you, his other hand scratching you beneath your chin.

“It’s been years,” he mused and you were pretty sure that he wasn’t even talking to you, “he had to return to Russia. His mother passed away.”

Russia? A memory appeared in your mind. A small party. Champagne, treats. Praise from Price’s friends and colleagues, attention and love that you had basked in. Other hybrids that sent you longing and lustful looks. A tall, broad man with a loud laugh and a strong accent. Wearing a gold chain. Long hair, rough hands when he scratched you. He would almost make your owner shy with his teasing but he would shower you in love.

“Did I meet him at a party once?” You asked, “big guy, strong accent ? Wearing a gold chain?”

John laughed, “yes, that would indeed be Nikolai.”

Huh. It was not much you could remember about him. You remembered liking him, but despite that, you weren’t really interested in him getting here.

“He is going to help with Soap, Ghost and Gaz,” John then said, almost as if to convince himself that was why he was here. You rolled your eyes at their names. Not that you had any say, you were usually just called different pet names, but you no longer bore the name your mother had once given you. It wasn’t unusual for pets to get their names changed with every new owner. Your legal hybrid name, with John, was Daisy, even though the man rarely ever called you that. He called you so many other names, Princess, Darling, Sweetheart, Birdie and so on. But apparently he had decided not to change these working dogs’ names.

“Sure,” Kate answered with amusement in her voice, taking another sip of the coffee before adding, “whatever you say.”

Price didn’t answer with anything but an annoyed grumble.

“Those are stupid names,” you muttered. A sharp tug on your ear made you yelp, one of your hands grabbing onto his wrist to get him to let go of your furry ear. 

“Be nice, Princess. You’re going to behave, am I understood?” You didn’t meet his eyes, a little whine merely escaped from you.

“She just needs to be shown her place,” Laswell carefully said, John not letting go of your ear, much to your dismay, but he didn’t tug on it - just kept it there as a warning, “maybe they’re better at that.”

“Hopefully they’ll be better at it than me,” he muttered and you whined - the grip didn’t loosen and he didn’t look down at you.

“Nikolai is going to help with that too?” 

“He had ideas, at least.”

Fucking wonderful.

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Nikolai was the first of the four men that you already hated, to arrive. 

You stayed inside the house, watching John appear from one of the stables, almost lighting up at the sight of the man who exited the car.

He still looked like the old memory you had of him; big, long black hair and a grin on his face. He was taller than John but not by much, Almost seeming completely opposite to your owner. While John wore working clothes, a grey T-shirt beneath his blue flannel, dirt on his pants, Nikolai was wearing a pair of blue jeans, white T-shirt and leather jacket.

Even inside the house, you could hear the booming man that was Nikolai - he greeted your owner with a loud “John!”, before hugging him, even spinning him around. You couldn’t help but stare; John was far from small but the other man had swung him around like he had been a teenage girl. 

John was blushing like one too. The sight made you curious - just like you wondered how he and Kate met, you wondered how this Nikolai met your owner.

You couldn’t help but wag your tail at how happy they looked. Despite how you hated the idea of the man staying here, even just for a little while, you liked seeing John happy like this.

Then two pairs of eyes suddenly looked directly into the window, both staring at you. It made your ears tip back a little. Your tail kept wagging, eating up the attention. 

When they moved, you moved too - rushing towards the entrance, stopping in the doorframe to the living room. 

“My my, if it isn’t the famous puppy,” Nikolai mused, his Russian accent strong, eyes almost twinkling as he looked you up and down, “up to trouble, da?”

You huffed, crossing your arms, though you felt your tail betray you by wagging a little, “I’m never up to trouble.”

Both of the men laughed, making you growl a little. 

“Unruly - just like last time I met you!” Nikolai mused, looking over at John by his side, “you gave up on training?”

John shook his head, “don’t even get me started, mate.”

“You told enough over phone,” Nikolai answered, waving his hand at John while pushing his shoes off with his feet.

Ah. So he had talked about you with Nikolai already? The fact made you scrunch your nose a little. Maybe Nikolai was just as stupid as John when it came to realizing why you were upset.

Nikolai stepped into your personal sphere with no warning, almost backing you up against the door frame, making you panic and growl a little. Tail no longer wagging - you could see John tense up in the corner of your eye, but you were too distracted by the stranger.

“Nik—“

A part of you expected him to hit you - you had met plenty of strangers with your former owners, who didn’t even let you sniff their hand or anything. Some hurting you and —

He offered his hand. It didn’t hit you, but raised to your nose instead. You squinted at him, before taking a couple of sniffs, still not quite sure what to make of him.

“Don’t like you,” you growled in warning, showing your teeth a little, not even attempting to be polite. 

“You don’t like farm life yet, puppy?” He asked, tipping his head to the side, voice demeaning, stupid smile still on his face. You wanted to slap it off his face. “Stupid little puppy.”

Instead you chomped down on his hand, Price instantly scolding out your name, moving to drag you away. But Nikolai didn’t even flinch - didn't move besides laughing again. 

It made both you and John confused.

“If you want to hurt me, you would have to bite harder, Princess,” Nikolai crooned, “now let go.”

You wanted to piss in his shoes and rip his socks to pieces. Maybe scratch up that leather jacket of his. Yet you found yourself letting go of him, your teeth barely even having made a dent in his skin.

“Get your ass into your room,” John hissed, a redness in his skin that you weren’t sure came from embarrassment or anger from your action.

“No harm done, John,” Nikolai laughed; he scratched you behind your right ear, just a tad to the left and it was like your brain melted for a couple of seconds, your body reacted on its own, tail wagging and right leg moving as well, “she just attempt to be dangerous no?”

John let out a small sound that you weren’t sure  what to make of before he grabbed you by the collar and dragged you away from Nikolai, “and that’s the kind of behaviour I don’t want.”

“He was being mean,” you whined in self defense, unable to not follow the hand dragging you into the living room, “he almost dared me to!”

Perhaps an overstatement, but you already knew what was going to happen the moment that Price pushed you over the armrest of the couch, “I bit him to defend myself!”

“You will not, and I repeat myself, not bite my guests,” he pulled up your skirt and down your panties with such a quick movement that you didn’t get to point out that you didn’t care, one hand grabbing your tail; his other hand collided with your ass cheeks, once, twice and then a third time, before he snapped out, “got it?”

A defiant bark left you, because while you knew it was bad behavior, you also wanted to prove that you weren’t afraid of this Nikolai. You twisted a little, knowing your ass and pussy was basically on display for both men. 

The grip on your tail tightened making you cringe with pain, jaw tensing.

“Apologise.”

You shook your head in defiance, ears hitting your face. Price leant over you a little, hissing out, “I would advise you to apologize, princess. Now.”

A part of you knew he was upset because he liked Nikolai. If he actually had feelings for him, as Kate had pointed out and several things pointed towards, you knew he wouldn’t like being embarrassed too much. Your ass still stung a little.

You were the actual victim here, weren’t you? It wasn’t your fault he decided to change everything you loved and then accept that he had his lost love over, who immediately tried to push your buttons.

“‘m sorry,” you mumbled after two seconds.

“Louder.” John demanded, straightening up, so that you were no longer hidden.

"I'm sorry."

There was silence for a moment - then the sound of a lighter and as you dared to glance over at the bigger man, who was leaning against the door frame, you saw him staring right back at you, a lit cigarette now between his lips.

“Is okay, Lapochka.” He said, stupid smile still on his face.

With that John finally let go off your tail, pulling up your underwear and your skirt down, ignoring your whine. He didn’t even touch your pussy! Didn’t even give you some love!

You pouted as you looked over at them, sliding down from the armrest of the couch, hands going beneath your skirt to rest against your warm skin on your cheeks.

“Sorry Nik,” John once again apologized - as if it was him who John had just spanked! The audacity! You let out a little displeased bark.

“She usually doesn’t bite people,” he continued as he ushered Nikolai as if you weren’t right there, needing love and attention.

“Is okay,” Nikolai answered with a shrug, casting one last glance over at you, smirking for just a second, “some of it was my fault - wanted to see what she would do.”

Asshole.

“Room, princess - now.”

“But he literally ju—“

“I said now.”

“You’re being so fucking mea—“

“Crate then.”

“I’m going, I’m going.” You might have slammed the door to your room, growling as you plopped down on your big fuzzy dog bed. 

It was about 30 minutes later than you dared to wander from the room to the kitchen again, standing in the doorway, watching the two men talk. Eyes moved to watch you again, as you whined and got on your knees. crawling to the two men, shamefully settling between Price’s legs on your knees - tail carefully wagging, sending your owner a pitiful glance.

“‘m sorry,” you whimpered, knowing John was easy to sweeten up, “‘m sorry, sir.”

A hand moved down to scratch you, though it wasn’t John’s-  you carefully licked his hand, a pleased rumble leaving the guest.

“Smart one,” he muttered, giving your cheek a little pinch, “knows how to be sweet, da?”

���Always,” John answered, looking down at you with his usual loving eyes, “soft lass is hard  to stay mad at.”

“Perhaps you need some more company,” Nikolai pointed out, “I worked with military pets before, they’re much different than you, milaya.”

“We don’t need them,” you whined, having no idea what Nikolai had just called you, “John will forget about me, will be too busy, he –”

John’s foot ever so gently pushed against your stomach, “don’t start that again.”

“Just insecure,” Nikolai suggested, making you huff.

“Am not,” you argued, but you still nuzzled closer to John, starting to move your hands to his inner thighs, moving to look up the best you could, looking from under the edge of the table, sweetening your voice a little, “It’s just a mistake, that’s all.”

“Spoiled, that’s what you are, darling,” John pointed out, but he still reached out to gently pat your head, “however, the boys will be here in a couple of hours and there is nothing you can do about it.”

You whined pitifully at his words, upset that your clear dissatisfaction with them joining the farm wasn’t clear. It was like John didn’t want to realize at all that he didn’t need to stay out on this farm. He needed to go back to the city, to the fancy penthouse apartment, to the parties that lasted out to the late hours of the night, where you could gossip with all the other hybrids.

“Milaya,” Nikolai repeated again, rustling with something in his jacket that hung over the back of the chair he was currently sitting on, pulling a little package from it. You watched curiously, though trying to seem disinterested. That was until he opened it and the most wonderful, mouthwatering scent you had smelled in a while appeared and you instantly moved from between John’s legs to Nikolai’s, making your owner chuckle.

The piece of jerky looking meat that Nikolai held in between his thumb and pointer finger, looked simple but oh the smell of it made it known that it was good.

“You behave and let us look through papers now, da?” 

“Yes,” you said, unable to look away or stop your tail from wagging, “I’ll behave.” 

The moment Nikolai offered you the piece, you were on it, barely missing his fingers with your teeth as you stole it from his grip. Nikolai was chuckling, putting the bag back into his jacket, while you chewed, a pleased moan leaving you as you settled beneath the table. 

Hopefully these mutts would prove themselves too difficult - so that John would send them away again. You would happily wave goodbye to them. 

With the sweet aftertaste of the meat in your mouth and their soft voices discussing fences, you closed your eyes.

You weren’t going to help with the pack settling in - that was for sure.

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You barely got used to your owner’s crush, before there were once again new things happening. Kate appeared, greeting Nikolai like an old friend as well. You hadn’t figured out much about the man, other than he had worked with a lot of hybrids throughout the years. And with helicopters. However that all fit together, you didn’t know… didn’t really care.

The big truck that arrived a couple of hours later, stood out against the farm houses; a colorful logo was painted on the otherwise steel gray vehicle.

THE HYBRID’S DEN! helping owners find their perfect hybrid pet since 1960!

You remembered seeing their logos everywhere when you were sold to the auction, years ago. The auction houses and facilities had often felt like an intermission from your former life to your new; never knowing what was going to happen, treated with the minimal care, but kept healthy enough for the auctions. 

The staff wore the colorful logo on their black uniforms, exciting the truck a few moments later. You almost wanted to tell them to ‘get the fuck back into that truck and drive off’ again, but you figured it wouldn’t result in them actually doing so.

You kept your distance, standing on the steps of the front door - strategically keeping Nikolai between you and the closed metal crates that were inside the truck. There were nothing more than a few air holes in the boxes, from where some different sounds appeared. Barks and a growl or two, though they all sounded a little slurred. Nikolai moved, giving you a better look at them, as he joined John who was nodding along to some of the information, while looking through and signing some papers. Though you were mostly distracted by the crates, you could hear some of their conversation, catching words like sedated, muzzles, stressed. Your own trip hadn’t been nice either but a part of you wanted to point out to your owner that this only proved your point of this being a bad idea.

Some of the auction workers helped move the crates to one of the bigger empty sheds that Price had apparently been renovating without your knowledge. So apparently not so empty any longer. Not that it had been hard to do that, you ignored most of the different renovating and building jobs that both John and the helpers did.

Still… he could have told you. God, did your master tell you nothing anymore? It didn’t really help your mood, your growing annoyance clearly amusing for Nikolai if his smiles back at you were anything to go by.

Despite your repeated frustration with this entire situation and these new hybrids’ mere existence, you followed along inside the shed. It was nice… Isolated, with a tiny bathroom, an area padded with mattresses, which was clearly for them to sleep together, pillows, blankets… you wanted that too. Sure, you had loads, but this only made you want more, want more from Price, so that he could prove he still loved you. 

There was a radiator, several windows, lamps and electricity outlets. You scrunch your nose with displeasure. They didn’t deserve that. At least they weren’t inside the main house. 

There was a little notch in the other corner opposite the bed area, almost like a tiny expansion, another door next to it; it was almost like a small horse stall - a deep layer of hay covered the floor. You didn’t even step into the place, but you knew the hay would itch.

You wanted it. Not the itching of the hay, but the entire place, simply for the sake of having it, so that they couldn’t. Speaking of them, you watched from the main entrance as the metal boxes were opened.

The Belgian malinois and German Shepherd mix was the first one to stumble out of the box; he fell two steps later, directly into the hay, a deep sigh leaving him, eyes darting around. You could barely see him from the amount of people inside the stall. 

“It’s alright, Gaz,” Price comforted, while you stayed in the door, keeping his distance to the hybrid, “You’re okay, boy.”

Gaz didn’t answer, just panted a little, ears tipped backwards - his eyes looked a little blown from what you could see.

“When will the sedatives wear off?” Laswell asked one of the workers, but you didn’t look at them, eyes instead at the other hybrid. 

When you had arrived, you had been scared and angry, drugged as well. But you had been alone. While you grew up with your parents, in a nice enough place, you hadn’t seen them for years - and while you had befriended a lot of other hybrids throughout the years, you had never been a part of a “pack”. You were alone — but this Gaz wasn’t and a part of you envied him, even for that.

“In an hour or two,” the worker replied, pulling you from your deeper thoughts, “they weren’t too happy to settle down before we left. It was necessary.”

A small bark left the man in the hay. It was answered by the two other hybrids, who still hadn’t come out of their respective boxes. Nikolai gently tapped on the top of one of the boxes with a knuckle.

“Come join your friend,” the Russian suggested, voice not as loud as earlier.

A moment later the border collie mix, Soap, crawled out of his box, eyes instantly on Gaz, letting himself lay halfway on top of the other. A little growl leaving him, muffled from behind the mask. Not even a second later, Ghost got out of the last crate. The Great Pyrenees almost got on his legs, growling despite the muzzle and swaying from the drugs.

You watched the staff pull back the metal boxes, letting the hybrids get some space. Ghost didn’t stay on his legs for too long, eventually sitting down next to his pack mates, the lower half of his face hidden from view as he looked around the shed.

His gaze stopped at you; you were unable to sense the reaction from seeing you again, if there even was any.

“We’ll let you have some minutes, okay? Then we’ll take the muzzles off.” John gently offered, pulling the giant from the moment, so that he looked away, giving Price a small nod. Your owner was at the edge of the hay filled area but he didn’t step into it.

You stepped back, letting the staff members from the auction pull away the boxes, Laswell and another farm worker helping them. Nikolai looked from the pack, then over his shoulder at you, barely even trying to hide a smile.

Then he winked. You sent him an unimpressed look back, tipping your chin up a little, looking away from the three hybrids in the hay, pretending you weren’t curious about them.

Some more rustling in the hay and then a half croaked, “mah held hurts,” left Soap, voice a little slurred - you couldn’t help but look over at him. His accent was weird. His ears were tipped down, some hay already stuck in his hair. With the pathetic look on his face you didn’t understand how he was supposed to be a big bad soldier.

You weren’t being petty at all.

“It’s the sedatives,” John calmly answered the hybrid, who let out a big breath from behind the muzzle.

“If I take the muzzle off, will you behave?”

“We have water for you,” Nikolai added, keeping his distance - you kept him in between you and the dogs, not risking anything. You trusted the men to be able to defend themselves. But with no claws or fangs, you weren’t a fighter - more a runner. Even if you didn’t like running.

The two muzzled ones, Soap and Ghost, sent each other a look - but it was Gaz, half hidden beneath Soap, who let out a tired “please.”

Ghost gave a small nod then. John stepped into the hay, unhurried as to not spook them, and it was Ghost who tipped his head down first to let Price open the lock with a small key. The moment he was free, he smacked his cracked and dry looking lips. 

Clearly, the man had never heard of chapstick.

Though, much more apparent, where the colony of scars on his lower half of the face. Trailing from around the lips, one over the nose as well - cheeks and chin. As he smacked his lips, you saw he had lost a fang in the bottom of his mouth. It wasn’t just sanded down like yours, the tooth was fully missing.

Price repeated the action with Soap, the hybrid instantly opening his mouth wide with a yawn, his jaw even making a popping wound.

Nikolai appeared with three bottles of water from a little cooler in the shed - you didn’t have your own cooler, which meant you would be demanding one… not that you needed it but still — giving the hybrids each one, that was always immediately opened. Gaz pushed Soap away and sat up too, while John backed away.

“My name is John Price -we met shortly at the auction. I’m the owner of the farm and you will all answer to me. Got it?”

“Yes sir.” For a moment you were impressed with the three hybrids’ synchronized answers. Only a short moment however. They were probably just beasts trained to answer like that. Yeah, yeah, you could do that too, if you wanted. But you didn’t.

“This is Nikolai, my friend, he will stay with me for a while, helping you all to settle in properly. You will follow his orders too - as well as a mean looking woman, Kate Laswell, who will appear at some point.” Humour tipped into the last part making Soap snort and Gaz give out a half-slurred giggle, while Ghost just let out a grunt.

“And this,” Price suddenly turned over to you, looking a little amused from the distance you kept between all of them, “is my pet, Daisy.” 

“Well hellooo, bonnie lass,” Soap said, his tail immediately wagging, grinning at you, as he slurred, “aren’t ye a sight for sore eyes.”

Nikolai and John dared to laugh at his words, his rather pathetic attempt at being charming, while you growled, watching Soap get an elbow in the side from Gaz, while Simon just stared, almost differently than the scot, like a hungry beast. If you were fully inside the shed, you might be able to smell if they were turned on. Disgusting. 

“Come’ere, sweetheart,” John crooned, clearly pleased with the reactions from the men, while you scrunch your nose, tipping your chin up a little - giving it a shake to reject the command.

“Do not be like that, milaya,” Nikolai suggested, “thought you were going to behave, no?”

You just growled a little again, unable to help your tail go between your legs a little; you didn’t really want to be spanked again, but you didn’t really want to become acquainted with these hybrids either.

“My princess isn’t too pleased with you lot being here,” John calmly explained without taking his eyes off you - they were still all staring at you - as John raised a hand, making a ‘come-hither’ motion that had you swallowing some spit, “but she isn’t going to chase away any wolves, are ye, pet?”

You huffed, crossing your arms before stepping inside the shed. The scent in there was nice and clean, even with the vague scent of the newcomers, and you walked to John, stopping halfway hidden by him.

However, as John’s arm snaked around your soft waist in a strong grip, you whimpered as you were pulled forward a little, unable to hide behind him. Both Gaz and Soap were wagging their tails at you, while you tried ignoring the scent of the room the best you can.

“I’m expecting you all to get along - and not hurt each other too badly, understood?”

While the others answered in agreement you just hid your face in his shoulder, twisting a little in his grip.

“No playin’ too rough,” Nikolai added, “Puppy isn’t used to other hybrids.”

“I am!” you snapped, “Just not…”

The shed was quiet for a moment as you mulled over your next words. What to call them. Military dogs. Strays. Mutts, un –

“Not what?” Nikolai almost seemed entertained by your declaration and you looked away, before finally mumbling.

“... working dogs.”

Simon huffed. You shot him a sharp look that he didn’t really seem to be affected by, in any way.

“I’m sure you all will get along,” John just mused, before looking down at his watch, “A certain princess has become too bored now we’re no longer in the city -” he ignored your mutter of ‘have not’, “- and I can’t entertain her all the time. Mentally or sexually.” 

You whined with embarrassment, a little angry growl seeping into it, but Price didn’t really react, barely moved as you twisted in his grip, ignoring the grin of the several males in the house. 

“ - Now, I will leave you three to get acclimated a little. But, there are a couple of rules that I expect you all to follow, if not there will be punishments.”

Synchronized nods. You still twisted, digging your fingers into his arm to no avail - then a hand snagged onto your collar from behind, choking you shortly as you were pulled back, Nikolai pressing against your back. Now free, Price pointed to a little map over the area, that you hadn’t noticed on the wall.

“Your jobs will essentially be to help keep the place safe. We have had problems with wolves and foxes, and so has the neighbors, since there lives a bunch in the area. You three will help keeping them away and Soap will help around my sheeps and goats in particular, given you’re a herding dog–”

Soap nodded, tail wagging, all three dogs staring at the map intensely.

“- I will find other things for the two of you to help with as well, but your main focus will be on keeping the animals - and the rest of us - safe. One of the neighbors got some horses stolen not too long ago. I would like to avoid that as well.”

You didn’t even know that. What you did know, however, was the heat of Nikolai’s body behind you, keeping you close and tethered so that you couldn’t run off.

“Most of the wildlife will go away if intimidated, but at times you might need to attack them. I am not going to give you any firearms yet though,” John looked over at them, his voice  firmer than you usually heard it, “That will come along the way, if needed. We can discuss other weapons later on.”

The mere idea of John giving them any kinds of weapon made you want to throw up - or throw a fit. Had he gone fuckin’ mad?? giving them guns? They were going to shoot everyone, going to kill John and you. You really didn’t want to die.

“My farm includes these - and these fields. You will not and I repeat not, leave my land without a valid reason. There will be punishments if you do - you will all be given collars like another certain puppy–” all eyes watched you for a moment and though, you wanted to hide  your face in your hands, you didn’t, merely crossed your arms, ignoring the low laughter from Nikolai behind you, “that are fitted with trackers, so I will know if you do.”

Great. So hoping for them to run off wasn’t a possibility for now.

“Biting or attacking my staff in any way will result in severe punishments. You will lose privileges if you don’t do as told, without a valid reason. Is that understood?”

“Yessir.” 

“Good boys. Now, these upcoming days you will most likely be following me or Laswell around, while we get you in on all these. All dinners will be eaten in the main house and you will be given keys once I get them made one of these upcoming days. I will give you a couple of hours now –” Price looked down at his wrist watch, “Then call you in, an hour or two before dinner, so that you all can shower. Any injuries, allergies or anything that the Hybrids’ Den didn’t write down, that I need to know?”

They all shook their heads, behaving like synchronized swimmers in your opinion. 

“Good. You’re all free to relax here or explore the farm if you wish so, when the drugs wear off.” 

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As you entered the farm house, you shrugged off your jacket and abandoned your shoes in the entrance, not caring to clean up after you, ignoring John’s irked huff.

“Insane!” you declared, walking further into the house, “You’ve gone insane! You’re all going to forget about me and those horny knotted mutts will be all up in my business!”

You flopped down on the couch, face first, continuing your ranting into the fabric.

“I might as well barricade myself inside my room - Because I dont have a tiny house!! but guns! SURE ! give them guns!” Your voice was muffled, but you were, perhaps a tad dramatically, loud in your ranting. You could just make out whispering between the two men but you didn’t care… not until you were forced to, quite literally.

“Little puppy,” Nikolai’s accent was heavy - his body even heavier as he settled on the back of your thighs, a fist coming to rest next to your head, that kept his full body weight from you, “Throwing a fit again, da?” 

You could feel the slight bulge against your fat ass, making you swallow - and tail wag, hitting Nikolai against the thighs, making the man chuckle. John as well, who settled down with a cigar in one of the arm chairs opposite the couch. You didn’t even need to look to know that he watched as Nikolai tugged at your skirt.

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Long time follower and I just wanted to gush over June, I love her so much and your explanation of Strawberry Moon's title! It has another special meaning I read in for my own cultural reasons. Tsalagi folklore associates strawberries with love and the themes of self-love vs self-loathing really seem to jump out in your work with her.

All this to say, I love watching your creative process and I'm so excited to see what you make next. And also I hope this Dog person chokes please go out and touch grass and not a keyboard > - >

That's so cool and fits in wonderfully with the theme of her story (no spoilers but oh man that's legit gonna make me cry that's so sweet thank you so much for sharing ;o;)!!!

She really a labor of love and I feel that so much when I get to doodle her and share more about her. When I'm in a more stable space I 100% want to commit to making a webcomic + some short animations of the major scenes. Initially, I was planning to pitch Strawberry Moon as a limited anthology series to [insert streaming service] while leaving some details about her story/development hidden on my blogs for any additional context. Details that I assumed would be cut from her story by an exec. Like ngl, Dead End: Paranormal Park gave me a bit of hope but it was canceled so suddenly that I was like, I do not want her left in the hands of people who will cancel the production for tax write-offs let alone any other dumb reasons.

It's funny, but Dog did help a lot in ways she absolutely did not intend to. I got a LOT of writing and character development done with June's partner Zoey which was VERY needed. And, because we were making our own indie studio, I knew I was free to let loose with my writing and add/develop all the things I was hesitant to add in the pitch bible due to censorship. Like my studio was to start as a small collaborative effort among a "core" team and then once we were comfortable and reasonable established/funded, invite other creators in to work on their own projects or do crossovers/collabs with other dev teams (I want my House of Mouse/Cartoon Cartoon Fridays/Jimmy-Timmy Power Hour level universe crossovers dammit!!!)

But seriously like, I haven't been able to keep up with all sweet and kind and encouraging messages about June/Strawberry Moon. It's overwhelming in the best possible way ;-;!! Dog was draining to be around and wore me the hell out, but like fuck is she gonna stop me. I've been more motivated than ever to tell June's story <333

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This blog *-* Can I have a headcanon for Price ? The ones for Soap and Alejandro are ghgffhh <3

Hello there! I'm really glad you like my blog, thank you! Here are some headcanons about our favourite Captain :)

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General John Price headcanons (Pt.1)

Warnings: slight mentions of PTSD, depression (?), smoking, canon typical violence

A/N: This turns pretty grim by the end, but I hope you still like it!

• This man watches football whenever he can and he's been at matches quite a lot in his life. He took Gaz with him a few times, even Laswell once

• Sometimes he snores like a dad and Gaz needed several days to get used to the sound in order to sleep when they started working together

• Tells horrible dad jokes all the time and he knows most of the guys hate them, but won't stop

• Coughs like his lungs will collapse but somehow he's healthy

• His knee always crunches like it's about to break

• He's mostly unperturbed by all the carnage and violence by now, but he saw a baby being born once and almost fainted and threw up

• In full honesty he doesn't mind cheaper cigars, but he likes to fuck with everyone by acting like he hates them

• The smell of the smoke on his breath/clothes is really noteable but he doesn't care

• Has a high alcohol tolerance. The only way you will know if he's getting tipsy is by noticing the subtle change in his accent to deeper and more slurred words. If somehow he's really gone, then you will know by the little red tints on his cheeks (which are mostly hidden by his facial hair, but you can see it up close)

• Not an early bird. He tends to be grumpy in the mornings, but if you give him coffee it's gonna be fine

• Which reminds me: his preferred drink will always be a good whiskey, but he usually downs anything he has to (coffee, tea, those horrible protein shakes, vitamin mixes and so on)

• Occasionally reads, mostly classics or novels

• Prefers salty food over sweet

• The secret of the facial hair? Patience and genuine care about his appearance. He shaves for like an hour every time because he doesn't want to ruin his mustache/beard (Alex is the same damn way I swear)

• He likes jazz music and 80's rock. Sometimes he blasts those horrendous English raps too because he knows the others hate it (sorry if I insulted anyone lol)

• Thinks pineapple on pizza is hideous (Soap loves it lol)

• He's had so many broken bones in his life, he has no idea if there is any in his body that he didn't destroy at least once yet

• He doesn't really like action/military based movies because of the unnecessary violence in them. They remind him of things he doesn't want to remember too much. He'd rather watch shitty romantic movies or even comedies, but he won't be caught dead while laughing at them. He also tends to laugh while watching horror movies, but the heavy gore can remind him of bad memories

• He doesn't care about social media or any of that stuff really. Sometimes Gaz shows him stuff like cat videos because he loves them. Everything he knows he got it from Kyle tbh

• He has no fashion sense whatsoever. Outside of work he either looks like a dad on vacation, or still wears too much stuff similar to his gear that he seems to be going back to work in 10 minutes

• He likes fuzzy socks btw

• Adores big dogs, he can just wrestle with them and when they lay on him it makes him feel centered and comfortable thanks to their weight

• Unreasonably good at poker and he has the highest record with like 2 wins behind Laswell (who he just can't beat)

• He can handcraft a bunch of stuff if you give him a piece of wood and a knife. He made little figures for Gaz and the guy kept them as lucky charms over the years

• He doesn't fuss around too much about food and he's not picky. Whatever he gets, he gets, and that's fine by him (he used to live off worst stuff anyways). He loves meat though, a nice steak always puts him in a good mood. Also probably makes mean bbq

• Drinks beverages like orange juice or even milk straight out of the carton

• He's a man who always keeps his promises. Not one to lie or feed half truths, he always straight up says everything he has to

• Has a collection of weird/dumb looking beanies he has received over the years from his team

• He met Kate's wife once and she made him feel like family in the best way possible. He was glad his best friend had such a great person in their life that they could go home to

• Very protective of his men. He has lost too many friends and doesn't want to lose anyone else

• His biggest fear is ending up alone, watching everyone he loves die

• Every man he has lost weights heavy on his shoulders. He remembers their faces, but not all their names which makes him feel even more guilty

• Tends to bottle up his emotions and act like everything is fine. Sometimes he breaks down seemingly out of nowhere, but only when he's alone

• Kate is his closest friend and when it gets really bad, she's the one he seeks out

• He has occasional nightmares just like everyone else, but feels like he's dealing well with them (mostly he does)

• He has a watch he got from Soap as a birthday gift once. He only wears it outside of work because it's too important for him to get it damaged in any way

• He rarely has free time or time away from work, but he gets the most out of it. He has a few safe houses, but prefers to spend his time in one in particular because it has all his personal belongings he has left

• At first he thought the "you're everyone's father" was a joke, but then he realized how genuinely they meant that and he kind of broke down. He didn't think he deserved that amount of deep affection and what came with a title such as that, but it made him feel unexplainably happy at the same time

• He's not sure if he ever wants a family. He knows the military is his life and would never leave it behind, unless he has to retire because he can't keep up anymore (even then, only if they force him). The idea of having someone who loves him waiting at home brings warmth to his chest, but he's not sure if he deserves it. He doesn't want to taint anyone with his hands that hold so much blood on them

[thvnkpink]

OOF

Sooo, time for Envy's every six months check in. Contrary to popular rumors, I am not dead! ( There were no rumors ). I don't really even know where to begin -- I went through a really vile depression episode for several months and was trying to get out of that so the urge to write was just not there. Several other events occurred that were minor and made the episode worse so I withdrew further.

The massive 'fuck you, Envy' icing on the cake was a HUGE fight I got into with my mom caused by the stress of our elderly dog randomly falling ill ( she's okay now 👍 ) and having two molars that need dental surgery! My top one is broken and the bottom has a massive crack in it and is beginning to break. There's potentially more teeth that need to be taken care of because of severe gum pain and bleeding.

During the stress of all this -- another tenant in my apartment building has been randomly trying to start something with me by leaving rude notes on my door about the smell of my apartment due to me trying to finally catch up on cleaning and carrying massive, really horrible smelling bags back and forth. Mainly just causing anxiety rooted in the fact that she threatened to call our apartment's management on me and try to have them evict me which could've been a real possibility due to the state of the apartment. I'm basically stressed about trying to clean while preparing for a minor oral surgery and not being able to clean while I'm recovering.

Basically, I don't know when I'll be back, I don't really know HOW I'll be back ( continuing this blog/moving/*shrug* ). I appreciate the well wishes from people who've been chatting with me and helping me cope with this truly HORRENDOUS year. ❤️

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Human Valentino and Vox. Broken Verse Velvette, Ostello, and Chazz's Brother. Overlord Travis.

I Know A Place Where The Grass Is Really Greener Warm Wet And Wild There Must Be Something In The Water (єяαѕмσ)

I Like Men On Their Knees Praying Up To Their God Seein' Visions Of Me (¢ℓємєит)

I Eat Boys Like You For Breakfast I Chew And Lick Your Bones (gσввℓєттє)

Every Version Of My Dead And Buried In The Yard Outside We'd Sit Back And Watch The World Go By (ℓσωєℓℓ)

I'm On A Sugar Crash I Ain't Got No Fuckin' Cash (мι¢кєу)

The Devil Taking The Lord's Name In Vain All These Thoughts Pollute Your Brain (вσgαят)

PET TAGS

‘Cause Everybody Needs Someone That They Can Trust In (fαт иυggєтѕ)

So Get Off My Back 'N Get Out My Face 'Cause I'm Mean And Green And I Am Bad (мєѕ ρєтιтѕ ¢нσυχ)

How Can He Keep Up His Tail Perpendicular Or Spread Out His Whiskers Or Cherish His Pride? (яєgισ)

Baby Shark Doo-Doo Doo-Doo Baby Shark (ναяк)

Manta Rays Above Us In The Open Sea I Wonder If You Think Of Me (νєαтвαℓℓ)

NPC/GUEST MUSE TAGS

Never Tasted As Sweet A Poison As You Have You're An Urge That Can Never Be Cured (αитσи)

I Know It's Difficult So I Will Be Patient (αяια∂иє)

It's High Noon When You Step Into The Pit It's A Monster's Ball And They're Digging A Ditch (вяι¢к)

I Never Learned To Read And I Never Learned To Cook (¢нαѕтιту)

Strip Off The Weight Of Mortality And Check It At The Door (fαвιєи)

I Don't Think I'm Right And I Know It's Not Fair (ιмєℓ∂α)

I Won't Miss This I Won't Blow It You Know It! (мαяαвυѕ)

This Ain't Build A Bitch I'm Filled With Flaws And Attitude (мιѕѕ qυιqυι)

Girls Get Angry Too I'm A Samurai Princess I'll Smash You (иιкινα)

Smoke And Mirrors And Everything Nice (яσ¢к)

VERSE TAGS

V: No Matter Where You've Been Or Who You Are If It Doesn't Kill You It's Sure To Leave A Horrible Scar - Human/Pre-Death Verse - This applies to the demons as their Human Verse and the Sinners as their Alive Verse.

V: Got No Money But It's Always Always Sunny Honey - Younger Verse - Child/Teen Verses for my muses

V: I Was Made For Loving You Baby You Were Made For Loving Me - Ostello Lives Verse. Ostello and Valentino are still together, and Ostello lets Val do as he pleases with other people as long as he comes back to him at the end of the day. Their marriage is open and Val is free to do whatever he wants for the most part.

V: Says Now We're Having Fun Give Me All Your Love I'll Never Get Enough - Broken Verse - Tino is not in charge of anything, and is kept as a pretty pet in this verse. He travels dimensions.

V: I Am A Hostage To My Own Humanity Self Detained And Forced To Live In This Mess I've Made - Fallen!Adam AU - After he was killed by Niffty, Adam was thoroughly made unholy by his actions both leading up to his death and in Heaven knowing what he was doing behind the scenes in secret. He appeared in Hell unrecognizable enough that he can skate by without being noticed, but he is one of a very select few Sinners with wings that resemble angelic (but frayed) wings. VERSE DEPENDENT: He crashed, fully on fire, into Lucifer's living room when he spawned in Hell.

V: Tell Me Which One Is Worse Living Or Dying First? - Godhood AU - Valentino and Velvette-centric God AU based on This

AU Verses With @strangeandun-muse-ual

V: You Hate 'Cause I'm A Rockstar A Pretty Little Problem - Rockstar AU

V: I'll Be Your Cheap Slut Savior - Scamverse AU

V: He Is The Drug That You Hate To Crave And I Am The Liar You Made To Praise - Crime Husbands Good End AU

V: Under These Circumstances Every Heartbeat's Criminal - Crime Husbands True End AU

V: I Wanna Give You My Heart So You Can Beat It Up - Crime Husbands Bad End AU

V: Do You Love Me? Yes No Maybe I'll Be Seeing Hades Soon - Voxdes and Persephetino AU

V: Haunt Me Haunt Me Like You Used To I Love You Most When You Scare Me To Death - Ghost Husband Verse

V: Sin Was On His LIps As He Twisted His HIps - Incubus!Valentino Verse

V: The Smell Of Flowers Was So Thick And Sickly Sweet I Felt Like I Might Choke To Death - Hanahaki Variant Of Mainverse

V: Girls With Tattoos Who Like Getting In Trouble - Genderbent Verse

V: Took Them By Surprise Worked My Way Uphill - College AU

V: Sharks Green With Envy They Wonder What You See In Me - Mermaid!Valentino AU

V: Every Kiss And Every Word They Were Bullets Spraying Hazardly From Lips - Royal AU

V: If I Had Something To Say To You I'd Whisper It Softly - Smut Writer!Era AU

V: Bleed The Neon From The Bite Marks - Werewolf!Emil/Vampire!Era Verse

V: I Know My Girlfriend Is A Witch - Summoned Chaz/Human Velvette Verse

V: Do You Wanna Party Malibu Barbie? - Sugar Baby!Valentino Verse

V: I'm Going Crazy Little Tiny Hollywood Baby - Actors VoxTelloTino AU

V: I Tried On Your Lipstick I Thought I Looked Pretty But You Didn't Care No 'Cause You're Always Busy - Actor!Val, Producer!Vox Verse

V: Cast Into Darkness They Would Be Damned For Being A Man Holding Hands - Fallen Angel Adam AU

V: Push Me Along And Leave Me So Desperate And Ravenous I'm So Weak And Powerless Over You - Mobwife Valentino AU

AU Verses With @dont-take-shxt-from-other-demons, and @strangeandun-muse-ual

V: The Successful Removal Of You Would Probably Kill Me Too - Vox Dying Verse

V: Everybody Needs A Little Trouble - "Teenverse"/Humanverse

V: Tell Me Tell Me That We Will Never See Tomorrow - "Teenverse"/Humanverse Zombie AU

AU Verses With @dont-take-shxt-from-other-demons

V: A Psalm In Napalm Abandon All Hope But Try To Stay Calm - Velvette Abducts Lucifer Verse

AU Verses With @erthlyheavn

V: I Go Out Of My Way Everyday Just Hoping That I'll Catch You Walking Down The Street - Human Verse MothMaid AU

V: It's Not A Love Song But You're Alright - Human Verse

AU Verses With @helluvaxhazbin

V: I'll Tell Uncle Rocko To Call Off The Guys With The Crowbars - Moxxie stayed with the mob AU

AU Verses With @seven-circlllxs

V: Gotta Get Your Fix Down In Hollywood - Splitscreen Verse

AU Verses With @voxiiferous

V: See Every Time You Turn Around They’re Screaming Your Name - Modern Human AU

EVENT TAGS

E: On Thursdays We Break Up - Extended Break-Up Event With @strangeandun-muse-ual's Vox and Valentino

E: Down With Vox - Event Thread With @strangeandun-muse-ual, @winters-club, and @infernal-feminae

E: Aggressive Positivity - Flash Open Event With @dont-take-shxt-from-other-demons

E: The Great Moth Off - Should Valentino or Mothman be @voxiiferous' boyfriend? Open Event

MY BLOGS/MUSES TAGS

Say What You Wanna But I'm Here To Stay 'Cause I'm A Mean Ole Lion (Cash & Barbie)

It's Never A Whisper It's Always A Scream A Promise We Made To Kill The Time Between (Valentino & Legiondario)

I Hate The Way The Townspeople Gather Outside They Hang On Every Breath (Vick & Valentino)

They Let Ole Al Out Of The Jail And The Man Who Paid His Bail Was Waitin' On Al To Chop Some More (Alastor ♡ Angel Dust)

The Dinosaurs Will Turn To Dust They'll Die Because We Say They Must (Alastor ♡ Nifty)

There's Someone Lurking Inside Of You That Someone Is Me (Alastor ♡ Valentino)

I'll Be Damned If I See You With Some Other Man If I Cannot Have You Then Nobody Can (Athan ♡ Ozzie)

Candlelit Loneliness I Lay On Your Side Of The Bed (Baetyl ♡ Andrealphus)

We Keep The Party Moving Till We Drink The Last Drop (Beelzebub ♡ Ozzie)

Eat With Your Hands It's Fine I'm On The Menu (Beelzebub ♡ Valentino)

Just Try And Nibble On My Biscuits And My Rainbow Cake (Beelzebub ♡ Velvette)

She's Like What'd You Say? We'll Just Let Our Bodies Translate (Chazz ♡ Barbie)

The Whole World Was Watching And Laughing On The Day That I Crashed And Burned At Your Feet (Erasmo ♡ April)

Wait Your Turn You're Greedy I Hear You (Mammon ♡ Fizzarolli)

Don't Use Him Or You'll Always Need To Feel Ozzie's Loving Little Lamb (Mammon ♡ Ozzie)

You Give Me Your Number I Call You Up You Act Like Your Pvssy Don't Interrupt (Mammon ♡ Valentino)

But The Best Story That I Could Ever Tell Is The One Where I Am Growing Old With You (Ostello ♡ Valentino)

She Says She's Gonna Break My Nose If I Don't Behave Next Week (Paimon ♡ Barbie)

My Baby's Got A Fucked Up Head It Doesn't Matter 'Cause He's So Damn Good In Bed (Summer ♡ Valentino)

The Pill I Keep Takin' The Nightmare I Wake In There's Nothin' No Nothin' But You (Valentino ♡ Angel Dust)

Erase Me So You Don't Have To Face Me Put Me In The Ground And Mow The Daisies (Valentino ♡ Chaz)

Don't Take It Personal You Know It's Just The Way I Roll (Valentino ♡ Nifty)

You'll Fall Down A Hole That's The One Place In This World That We Both Know (Valentino 💔 Ostello)

Just Your Typical Hardcore Casual Sex We're Single But We're Lovers Crazy For Each Other (Valentino ♡ Ozzie)

Let's Dig Up My Ex (Velvette ♡ Ian)

You Will Pace Around Your Cage And Wait For Night To Come (Velvette ♡ Valentino)

You Provide The Envy And I’ll Provide The Spite (Velvette ♡ Vick)

He's Sweet As Pie But If You Break His Heart He'll Turn Cold As A Freeze (Vick ♡ Valentino)

Cocaine Can't Do It Like You Do It To Me (Vick ♡ Velvette ♡ Valentino)

Darling You Love All The Drama 'Cause You're Never Bored I Am Forever Yours (Vox ♡ Valentino)

& TAGS (SPECIFIC)

Friendship Tags With @trumpet-hah

DGAF's And No Regrets Happy Hour Starts At Five (Barbie & Fizzarolli)

Friendship Tags With @strangeandun-muse-ual

Just Tell Me That You Need Me And Stay Right Here With Me (Erasmo & Missy)

History Shows Again And Again How Nature Points Out The Folly Of Men (Zeezi & Vox)

Friendship Tags With @hisslord

Yes I Know Who You Are But I Just Don't Care (Alastor & Angel Dust)

Do Not Befriend Your Food (Alastor & Vaggie)

We Are More Alike Than We Think We Are (Angel Dust & Vaggie)

A Motherly Instinct (Mimzy & Vaggie)

She May Be Crazy But She's Fine To Me (Nifty & Vaggie)

Friendship??? Tag With @spidrboots

I Don't Want Your Cruel Melody (Valentino & Angel Dust)

Friendship Tags With @seven-circlllxs

Our Soul Is The Whole Of The Law (Adam & Lute)

SHIPPING TAGS (SPECIFIC)

[the-silent-windchime]

Midwest/Southwest Gothic

Here’s a list of things I associate with my particular brand gothic horror

My dad took us out to Oklahoma once to visit the house he grew up in. When we got there, we found a cracked concrete slab supporting the skeleton of a few crumbling walls and a nearly intact red brick chimney. There was the hollowed-out shell of an old VW Bug sitting on cinderblocks in the overgrown yard, and a barn that swayed every time a strong breeze picked up. The house, like a concerning amount of the childhood houses in my family, had burned to the ground years ago, and the title to the land was lost in the system. It’s unclear who now owns the land, and by extension, the house, or what they intend to do with it, but someone had zip tied a piece of cardboard to the fence that said “do not trespass”. There was a horse standing in what used to be my dad’s room.

One time I was riding my bike to work and happened to go past one of the town’s most notorious meth houses. They had a dog, and I’m not good with dog breeds but this one looked like it had been bred to be mean. It pulled its lead from the ground as I biked past and chased me all the way down the street, managing to bite me in the leg. Every time I tried to speed up to outrun it it got more agitated, so I just stopped. The dog stopped too, and just watched me from across the street, refusing to come any closer or let me approach. After a little while it wandered right back to the meth house and curled up under the saggy front porch. That dog was gone the next day.

Corn fields are spooky, but nothing is scarier than being in the woods by yourself at night.

Animals just wander into your space all the time. They have no concept of civilization vs wilderness. We would get deer, turkeys, coyotes, moles, groundhogs, and even once an entire family of black bears. There was a stray cat in the neighborhood that we never once saw, and only knew existed because it left dead mice on our back patio when we started leaving the door to the shed open at night.

Nothing, and I cannot stress this enough, NOTHING is more terrifying than turning on your brights when driving at night and suddenly seeing a crowd of deer standing on the side of the road, watching you as you drive past.

Cars coming on the opposite side of the road will sometimes flash their headlights at you as a warning about something, usually a cop. One time I was driving up the side of a mountain and a car coming down flashed their lights so frantically that I just found a place to turn around and went right back down. I passed someone else going up and gave them the same warning without knowing for sure what I was even warning them about.

My blog name is actually based on an item I pulled from the detritus of an old hoarder’s house I was helping clean out. The guy must not have liked the sound of the windchime, because he’d glued cut up bits of pool noodles to it to silence it. This one is less Midwest gothic and more what the fuck went on in your head dude

My grandparents have lived in the same trailer park for all my life. It’s a nice little place out in the middle of nowhere in Kansas, all the neighbors keep their places clean and quiet and they were all polite on the few occasions I interacted with them. It is Kansas, though, so the only way to get to the park is on the one cracked up old road that goes out of town and cuts through miles of nothing as far as the eye can see. And as someone who grew up mostly in urban areas, it’s a bit strange to see the plumes of smoke that go up every couple couple of days when people burn their trash (my grandpa is big into recycling, so for the longest time my grandparents used the inside of an old washing machine as a burn barrel)

Flea markets.

Pawn shops (bad and evil, full of weird taxidermy, walls of scratched up DVDs, and guys who are way too obsessed with guns)

Casinos were The Backrooms before The Backrooms were cool, and it’s completely by design. Manufactured fucking liminal space, baby

The weather changes on a dime. Sometimes after a few days of really warm weather the clouds will just close up like a trapdoor and turn the sky white instead of blue. And sometimes after a storm the clouds will blow away and the sky will be so blue it almost hurts to look at.

These were all the ones I could think of off the top of my head. I mostly did this because the search results for “Midwest gothic” were a lot of abandoned houses in the country and weird, decaying religious signs. And yeah, there’s a shit ton of that stuff in the midwest, don’t get me wrong! But that’s not all there is.

[blush-and-books]

I posted 1,823 times in 2022

313 posts created (17%)

1,510 posts reblogged (83%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 1,291 of my posts in 2022

Only 29% of my posts had no tags

#stranger things - 301 posts

#jopper - 167 posts

#all of us are dead - 74 posts

#stranger things spoilers - 68 posts

#halsey - 57 posts

#pride and prejudice - 48 posts

#jatp - 43 posts

#taylor swift - 38 posts

#steve harrington - 35 posts

#house of anubis - 35 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#if a queer man did it to other men then they would be called predatory. even if a queer woman did it to other woman. why is this different.

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I actually cannot fucking believe that we got a Joyce tending to Hopper's injuries scene, a sexually charged changing clothes scene, not one but two kissing scenes, Joyce SAVING HOPPER from a demo dog, the family reunion, literally this is what fanfiction is made of

648 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

#4

something i haven't seen mentioned about the Baymax + Sofia episode (and the final episode about finding Baymax) is the way they depict Sofia's ability to talk about her period!! When her best friend Ali, who I believe identifies as a guy, comes to check on her in the bathroom, instead of her blushing and freaking out and being like "it's girl stuff you wouldn't understand!!" - which is an incorrect and very Disney channel response - she's like "dude I have my PERIOD I am IN PAIN and there is stuff COMING OUT OF ME" and he is like "whoa dude I'm sorry but also cool!! I remember when my sister got hers!!" And then she brings her period up to Hiro later when she meets him!! And it's like yeah this is how friendships should be and how periods should be talked about and treated in our day to day lives without shame or embarrassment

713 notes - Posted June 30, 2022

#3

i love taking uquizzes because the results are like. i am in love with you. you worry you're going to die alone. you're a badass confident bitch. will people remember your name when you're gone? do you have a legacy? you have no idea who you are. you are a god. your head is in the clouds and your life has no sense of direction. start letting people in. you're so hot

1,769 notes - Posted April 5, 2022

#2

thank god for lupita nyongo for having a genuine reaction to the thing between will smith and chris rock because i was convinced it was a joke but her reaction was tooooo much. im in debt to you babe

1,840 notes - Posted March 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

it is extraordinarily terrifying that a main reason listed on the scotus roe v wade opinion to explain why it's been overturned is simply just "the constitution has no mention of abortion." if this is their reasoning for every decision they are going to make, then all of us are in danger.

11,108 notes - Posted June 24, 2022

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January 2005

January 2, 2005

the dog update. so alot of people seemed concerned about marley and that made me feel better. he puked every five minutes for a day or so and then went to the emergency vet. there they injected him with saline solution that made his back feel all bumpy when you petted him. now he's doing better. thank god i don't have to punch anyone cause i'm pretty little and don't like to get punched back. marley is doing pretty good now too. he's not bumpy anymore so he's back to his handsome self. all the chick dogs think he's super hot, trust me. my other dog pandora tries to hump him all the time. it's pretty gross you know. but you can't fault them for being in love. like that one disney movie lady and the tramp.

i got a new years wish about you.

- petey

January 6, 2005

chicago to los angeles survival guide: uncrustables, XOskeletons, capri suns, seinfeld seasons 1 and 2, the weakerthans, etc.

how about how the transformers was supposed to take place in 2005.

now it's here. where are all the fucking autobots.

love peter

- petey

January 7, 2005

“you are the tiny in my heart”

i haven't "blogged" anything in here in quite some time. i guess first off i must adress that i had loads of fun on our last five day stint with the midtowners, acadameisters and the gym class-o-sauruses. seeing all the people there at the shows caring about us and being totally rad and cool and awesome makes me smile from the left to right. no half smiles here. it was an awesome time for sure. anyways, im home now. it snowed tons the past few days here. i had to shovel at least a foot of snow off my car yesterday just so i could get groceries. i framed a star wars poster for my room the other day. im really happy with how it turned out. nothing else really going on. just been spending time with some friends and seeing my family. ive seen my dog a little. he's big. quite large in fact. im sorry this is a short and crappy entry but i have to go to the bathroom so bad. ill make a better one later. i promise.

January 9, 2005

“wake the dead”

i promised a more well written journal entry, and one shall be written, right now. first off, ive been home since decemeber 29th and i must say i'm lovin' it, much like the people who gorge themselves with the royal with cheese while shooting hoops. but in all seriousness, ive been hanging with my friends, seeing my family, watching my dog pee on the carpet, and it's all good. so i ate a lot today. sue me. that's right, i said sue me. just like you used to in 5th grade. and you know what? i'm still freakin hungry. i'm sitting here at my apartment, it's quarter after 5 am, theres a scary looking corpse-like women on tv telling me how to discover free money, and i have to be up in less than 6 hours for a fun filled trip with some of my friends to the field museum, or as it should be called, the natural history museum. i'm going to touch dino bones. i cleaned out my car a few days ago to find nothing of interest except i guess i spilled some coke everywhere and forgot to clean it up and my car was very syrupy. ew. funny thing happened today, i was leaving to go to my friend's place to play some card games and enjoy spicey chinese food that made my tounge cry, when this awesome homeless couple was hanging out by the garbage can in back of my place. they were really cool. they gave me one of their beers which i think i left in my friends fridge, and we talked about my car for a while because they were suprised someone had a black toyota rather than a white or red one. they assumed i had a black car because i wore dark clothes. they also thought i was a "computer whiz". i just nodded. they were really nice. i felt bad i didn't have money to give them. i also felt bad taking a beer, but i wouldve felt just as bad turning it down. it was kind of awkward. but none the less very pleasent folks. so im putting some cds on my computer to put on my ipod. im gonna continue on that path and then head to the resting place. nights.

currently enjoying:

music:

m83-dead cities, red seas and lost ghosts

the dears-no cities left

nick drake-pink moon

darkest hour-hidden hands of a saddist nation

(sorry, nothing new)

dvd:

the micheal gondry. chris cunningham, spike jonze dvd set

south park season 3

garden state

books:

none my friend

other:

-cooking steak

-putting up my empire strikes back poster after i framed it

-playing apple to apple

-having ipod parties with my one friend who would hit me in the goods if i said his/her name, so we'll just call this person 'sanders'

January 10, 2005

“its funny the way people only say stuff like "you could never be replaced" right before they replace you”

the sky is out again. i let myself get drawn into airing the dirty laundry in this funny place we call the internet again. and as much as i say "never again"- i am sure it will happen. once again proof that i am just as flawed, if not more, than anyone else. that being said. i feel happy right now- okay, like sunny and 75 degrees. thanks for that. we've got all kinds of plans that no one knows about. go listen to the new academy is song over at www.purevolume.com/theacademyis

what it looks like from the valley: Its been pouring rain here for four days straight- this isn’t a metaphor for a thing, It’s just how it goes. Even the sewers are sick of it- they’re spitting water back out. the city’s in a suspicious green light not quite haunted but definitely considering it. The boarded up windows aren’t for keeping anything out, they’re for keeping secrets like treasures inside. The basement window is cracked like a spiders web only without the queen in the middle. I pull it up and slip inside. Breathe in a hundred years of disappointment in the form of dust and water stained paper. These places are never quite like in dreams or movies but they are gold none the less. What the fuck could a kid like me ever know about LOnelyS ANGELES. I just want you to know the only reason I ever had double standards is because I cant stand the thought of just one of anything, it just feels so lonely. Pull the chain on a light that doesn’t work- pretty much that sums it up. Climb creaking stairs to rooms that used to be alive. The sunlight cuts in green-white between boards on the windows. We’re not getting out of this one. Its times like this that feel safe to be all alone. Because its my choice. I am the boarded up windows. I am the old man asleep on the porch across the street, dreaming in black and white. take a screwdriver out to fix all the bad habits that I had foolishly broken in anger- There is a chest in the corner. I crack it open and it breathes deep like it has come back to life. i read "There are two sides to digging up the past- pros: you remember things you had forgotten about, cons: you remember things you had forgotten about". Sit here on the floor barely breathing in all the dust hanging in the air like gray and brown stars. Think about the way none of these stories are finished ever because that’s how I am. I cant close the door on a thing. I just sit back in the cut and wait to be called out. never putting down the last period. Never signing off.

you feel like a new sweater on the first day of school- perfect but nervous-and tonight is just off of rocket sHIPS.

January 11, 2005

so we heard that the fob xmas cards from the tour are being sold on ebay. we think that is bullshit. they were always meant to be free for our fans and friends. we have some left so if you send a self addressed stamped envelope to korean tom cruise he will send you one. head over to his livejournal for that. www.livejournal.com/~asiandan

do not pay for them online! 

p.s. today i told patrick he needed to turn down the patitude.

- petey

January 12, 2005

ive got my stitches stitched, ive got my fixes fixed

so an actual update. so pretty much our dates consist of: i dream. i wake up at around 10 and watch lifetime movies for an hour. then i yell into patrick's room cause i am pretty much his mom out here. we then get into the car, not talking because we're both kind of grumpy in the morning. luckily the oldies station is badass out here and we become best buds again when we sing along to UB40's "i can't help falling in love..." and tony bennet's "it's not unusual" or whatever it's called. the car pretty much becomes this sweet vegas lounge. when we get to the studio, i go right to computer and pretend to work on lyrics but pretty much just play this game called runescape where i get to kill goblins and barbarian women. patrick goes and works on guitar. we eat deltaco which is like taco bell only better (if thats even possible). we then go and work on vocals whcih mostly just consists of me and patrick making fun of eachother and doing imitations of eachotherback and forth. we have some cool guests on the record, some suprises. one is flying in from chicago tommorrow, we are pretty excited. we finished a song today called "my name is david ruffin and these are the temptations"- you either get it or you don't. the record is gonna be called: from under the cork tree. again, it refers to something we think is pretty amazing. i need to get back to eating burritos and killing goblins.

peter

January 13, 2005

“bass boost”

my friend drew and i are sitting here on seperate computers. im typing a lot and drew is messing with his ipod. i got the newest mos def cd finally and i love it. i also got the todd barry cd which comes with a dvd. its extremely hilarious. on top of that, i rewarded myself with season one of x-files. not much else to report. all i have is jibberish. we both know it. im sure you feel the same way, but unfortunatly you are hungry for more words and i have the ability to feed them to you spoonful by spoonful. im worried im getting lazy. ive been sitting around and thinking about it, i recently finished doing my part of the record, and we did our 5 day tour, and that was all amazing. by the way, someone asked on our messageboard (yes i read it), what me and andy are doing in the studio. we finished tracking our stuff and are at home playing eachother in nhl 2005. anyway,now i have nothing to do, and thats cool for a while, but now im extra lazy. i mean, ive been sleeping until 5pm soley because i wouldnt know what to do if i woke up any earlier than that, so i stay up extra late so i sleep extra late. thats gonna fuck me over soon. i am excited to go out to la again, even if its for a few days. that should be nice. at least the weather will be a redeeming quality compared to the current downpour chicago is enduring. i dunno, im not bored, just worried im getting into a habit of laziness. i hope not. im gonna go to bed in 4 hours. bye!

January 14, 2005

i cant stop/stand myself

new photos and love

January 16, 2005

“in a world of sluts i keep the wet dream alive”

sorry the lj is over for now. i read everything you liked/disliked about yourselves so i feel like it went out really well. thank you for sharing that with me. though towards the end there was too much fighting and ridiculous stuff being said- including calling my friends sluts and all. i can'[t control anonymous posters except by deleting the entire thing- and you've heard it before you can say whatever you want about me but as soon as it involves my friends, i wont deal with it. it's just not what i want to read- instead i am going to read: the stranger by Camus- i'd recommend it to you. on our messageboard recommend one to me and then go outside and play in the sun or the snow depending on where you live.

cause you aint got nobody and i aint got nobody either- so lets be alone together.

January 17, 2005

“namedropper namefucker”

on my daily quest to find idiocy in human nature, i have come to a final conclusion: that many people out there are just vegetables and do not take the time to think or learn, but rather to repeat hackneyed concepts and thoughts that they have heard from a much wiser being. and usually these versions of what they have heard are botched and have been through the telephone game so many times that by the time they repeat them themselves, they come out usually as fart noises. i guess im just in a bad mood. but the only things in life i find to be genious are george lucas, jrr tolkien, morrissey and david cross. and if you think the new star wars movies suck, why don't you try and come up with different worlds, a complete history, and array of creatures and characters, and everything else it takes to make such an elaborate world that star wars is. im sick of people hating on phantom menace and attack of the clones. i cant wait until revenge of the sith comes out so everyone watches and just gets the shit knocked out of them. seriously, if the force and lightsabers arent good enough for you, then you seriously need to re-evaluate your life. anyways, i love you all and this is has nothing to do with you. it just has to do with the haters and the half-glass empty assholes who want to make the world a bummer.

January 19, 2005

“your lack of faith is disturbing”

if anyone is complaing about the "corny" level of star wars episode 1 and 2, watch episode 4,5 and 6 and try to tell me mark hamill wasn't pretty much the cheesiest dude on earth. plus, let me relay this harrison ford/carey fischer conversation at the end of empire strikes back that even though it's cool, harkens back to the essence of cheese: leia "i love you", han, "i know". i rest my case friends. cgi's aside. and no one is arguing that jar jar was awesome, but no one ever brings up the gay droid marriage between c3p0 and r2d2. im not trying to compare jar jar, but just think about it. take care!

January 20, 2005

“more…”

im quite bored and im going to continue with this. this is in response to our beloved message board. first off, someone mentioned that the original star wars weren't corny at the time of their release. just because something is corny doesn't mean it isn't good. original trilogy was delightfully corny by past and present standards. talk to my parents, they saw all three in the theaters and will tell you the same. second, qui-gon jinn was totally undeveloped and one of my least favorite jedi to grace the films. hayden as anakin rules cause he's super pissed off and he's totally gonna flip out in episode three. look at his huge flip out in episode two: when he went on a tusken raider massacre. that was excellent. anyways, i cant wait for lightsaber technology. sign me up for the testing. cut my arms off, i just want to see that thing in action. am i a big enough nerd to sit down and figure out the star wars theme? yes. well, most of it. i could probably play it with my vader mask but that thing is a bit to small for my head and makes my face sweaty. my big nose makes it hard to wear. oh, and thank you liz for the info on darth tater. im gonna have to pick that guy up as soon as it hits. its darling. i do lots of bad lightsaber and spaceship noises when im bored or when i space out (no pun intended). i have a list of star wars things that ive been compiling in my head for everyone who likes star wars, minus the obvious ones like watching the trilogy:

-check out imdb.com and search under the star wars movies and check out the trivia, really interesting stuff about people they were going to originally cast, original versions of charcaters and such

-if you're into video games, most of the star wars games out there are really lackluster but there are a few that i love. both knights of the old republic and knights of the old republic II: the sith lords are totally amazing. they are sort of prequels to everything that happens in the first three episodes of star wars and there are no familiar characters whatsoever. those are probably some of the most addicting games ive ever played. also, star wars battlefront is awesome. it has sort of a halo aspect to it and takes place both during the clone wars and during the rebel/empire wars and you can play on both sides. i also sort of liked the jedi academy games but the controls suck and action games get really boring.

-the clone wars comics are totally awesome and tell you whats going on between episode 2 and 3.

-theres also lots of star wars books, but a lot of them aren't great.

-the clone wars animated series vol 1 is being released on dvd in march. i liked it a lot. also, episode 3 comes out in may and the episode 3 game, which looks cool as hell, comes out in may as well, about 4 days before the movie.

im a nerd for real. most of my opinions are really biased. dont be like me. go outside and go sledding or learn to knit or start working out. bye!

January 24, 2005

“isn't it messed up, how i'm just dying to be him”

sometimes i look back at the things i write and just want to throw it away. its like when it gets kind of bad the words just fall off my tongue and fingertips. but when it's at it's worst- its just contrite and cliche. not that any of this matters. but when posts are disappearing it's just me realizing i am being overdramatic. we're looking in mirrors and laughing cause we're in on it (princes of the scene, makeout queens).

you're making it okay: uncrustables (strawberry only), tiny hoodies from the little boys section of thrift stores, new bright eyes, this movie windy city heat- i swear to god it is the funniest movie i have ever seen, elliot smith "from a basement...", chocolate cake milkshakes, full moons, 80 degree weather in january, catcher in the rye (almost as cliche as me, but its the best there is, its safe), stealing clothes from photoshoots instead of doing laundry (never should have let us try on the clothes hahaha), the san diego zoo, bob for buying me an electic scooter-FBR tour is gonna be radical, new panic at the disco song, patrick laughing at me trying to squeeze into hilarious jeans- i promise you it's gonna happen, champaign for my real friends- real pain for my sham friends.

i think you're gonna like the new record, it's like a day away from being finished- at least the recording part....

as for the internet drama. its over. we're all friends- and fob fans are way cooler than any other bands. you are the only thing that makes it worthwhile.

"it feels like the first day of my life, glad i didn't die before i met you".

peterabbit

January 25, 2005

“technology doesnt work”

so i just wrote a really really long entry on this thing using my sidekick. hell, i even referenced sanders. yea thats right sanders, whatcha gonna do about it? nothing cause your hands are too small to punch a hole through my gut. so anyway, my sidekick took a crap on it. so now i have to write a WHOLE new one. ugh. the things im compelled to do. first off, what the hell is with celebrity weddings and e! thining we give a fuck about them? seriously, i dont care what slutty dress barbara walters is wearing to trumps wedding and i dont care about trump and his lackluster combover. he spent 35 million on his wedding. what a moron. seriously dude, spend 100 bucks on a vegas wedding, put the rest on black, double your money, buy some of those sick wrap around oakleys and do a bachleor walk down the street telling everybody that you're hot and these babys aren't even close to street legal, and refer to your awesome thighs when you say that because you know youll be wearing bike shorts. So I want to own a bear that rides a motorcyle with a shark on his back. Seriously, that dude would be like "I'm sort of in your face, I don't mean to be, but I'm a little in timidating. Please, stop making fun of us because we do two on one cycle here. Its how we like to ride. Its comfortable that way." And then he'd be like spear spear spear spear victory ride! so im excited to get home, see the folks, see the friends, see the woodsman, study on some boron, just get all the things done i need to. allright, this is my entry substitute. the other one was better but i forget most of what i wrote.

January 27, 2005

holy fuck.

please be my date to this [link to corpse bride trailer]

Oh yeah and "the boy with thorn in his side" is now available in all hottopics. Thanks to you guys for bugging em to get it in... Now pick up a copy there!

Peterpan

January 29, 2005

we have finished recording our new record and have a couple of weeks of mixing before we head home to chicago. just to let you know this was one of the hardest and most important things i have done in my life. i spent hours and hours trying to think what words would mean the most, what we had to say.

i am listening to the rough versions of the songs.

i hope that when it's finally said and done it means as much to you as it does to me.

p

- petey

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

Genuine question coming after I saw you commenting on a STAs post, but how exactly is the 🗿 emoji a nazi dogwhistle? Like afaik it's used to represend someone is "stone-faced" or unamused, you mentioned something about it being used a lot on YT or xitter to signal someone believing themselves supperior in an argument, but idk that's not really enough to call it a dogwhistle? It's just a meme used in discourse and online figths the same way people use 💀 to show they're "dead" or cringed (it's based on a berserk meme) or the 😭 because they saw something embarrassing or ridiculous and are cry laughing

no no it’s usually used like this

“🤓 the (dogwhisle) are not as good as (dogwhisle)🗿”

it’s usually used with another dog whistle, and not just by itself.

it’s why I said “🫵 petite bourgeois 🗿” was a dog whistle. (I got sent this lol go have a look in our asks if you wanna see it)

alot of people who don’t know much about our blog think we are Jewish lol, so we get a ton of different more modern dogwhisles.

this is a 2 in one, because they are implying that I am a capitalist In a antisemitic way and also signaling to other people that they are a neonazi/alt right/other.

that’s why it’s a dogwhistle only people who look for it notice it, like I’ll get you some proper examples when I get them I usually don’t screenshot them.

Like I’m not sure how to explain it properly, but anyone who uses the stone face emoji you should be wary of because genuinely so many fucking bigots man and Nazi’s like most of the young ones use this as a dog whistle for some reason.

I said it initially as like a “the person thinks there in the right” thing but I had limited space in the comments and stuff.

but no it’s just a straight up nazi dog whistle, it’s just popular with the neonazi’s and very young alt right.

No joke every time I see this stuff and I check the replies oh look Nazi’s.

like I don’t know when exactly it changed but it is a dog whistle same way as soyjack and others are dogwhisles.

usually not, but mannnn the amount of actual Nazi’s and alt right people you would not believe.

if you’ve been on here long enough you kinda just figure out what to stay away from fast.

I didn’t know it wasn’t exactly well known that it was a dogwhisle over here everyone in my other spheres knows it pretty well lol, since they are queer and POC and get absolutely harassed by random neonazi’s all the time.

it’s a pretty common thing on YouTube because it’s the most relevant one out of the social medias I still use. since I hardly use TikTok and twitter or anything these days.

I hope I explained it well, I just woke up so I’m a bit sluggish.

[theuniverseawakens347]

You gotta be fucking kidding me. You paid ppl off to not say anything and then got Malcom and Alissa and Ian and julian and CASY to hack their accounts to take back the money put it in an account for me these last..til January and then act like nothing ever happend and I all of a sudden get married to Tristan’s and start my new life … and then basel pressed a lawsuit on her and Therese bc their accounts got drained by those dummies up there Alissa siae Malcom and Ian McDowell can ATest w Julian Harrell for crypto.. whatever day I wrote about her trying to “help me get my life together while AGAIN sending me mental warfar” and I went to the psych to talk and relieve my head …that’s the day basel called her WITH EVIDENCE and she DIDNT say anything to Howard.

And then the day I came over talking about I’m on 5 spiritual retreats they all lead to ONE PERSON ONLY AND OUR FAMILY BEING TIED TOGETHER AND KNOWING OUR SPIRITUAL TRUTH.. TRISTAN❤️❤️ ..THATS the day she then what …wanted to admit the bullshit to me but then found ways to further gas light me about what my ex’s had done and then build a case in HER HEAD why I was unfit STOOPID excetera to think neffi would come back bc Daniel said she attacked his dog and he had to put her down per Lee request …so then decided fuck I gotta build a FAKE MENTAL CASE ON CASHAY SO SHE DOESNT KNOW HER FAVORITE THING NEXT TO TRISTAN IN THE WORLD IS DEAD 🤯 bruh u gotta be so fucking for real. THIS WHAT I BEEN LIVING W?? Then put the fucking crazy rollercoaster of bullshit on me …cause what I put on the blog about AFTER THE PLAY OF 44 THANK I BRODY FOR SPEAKING THE TRUTH TO ME THRU VIDEO CLIPS OF OUR ACTUAL HISTORY… 👽tology ..hit me with a “wise words of wisdom” the VERY NEXT MORNING AFTER READING MY BLOG WHILE DOING MY HAIR …then watched law abiding citizen knowing that was going to be her truth ..and the fucking psycho nurse my truth 🤯🤯🖕🏽🙂 ..reverse that. The right ones get it .. basically admit THRU MOVIES THIS SHIT IS REAL AND IM ADVENGING MY OWN FUCKING FAMILY FOR THEIR MURDER OF MADS DESTRUCTION ON HER HANDS …and then something happened w Vivicca me admitting Tristan and I been talking TELLATHICALLY .. told her I had a message / package from him cause she was suppose to turn me over to him by then and didn’t decided to send me to Vivicca to let someone else care for me while she cleaned up her fucking mess.. but me saying me n Tristan been in communication and HOWARD backing her up saying no you had not just what ..fuel for more fuck shit to prove I’m crazy and she’s sane 🤯🙂🖕🏽 that’s retarded as fuck Lee. I CLEARLY FUCKING KNOW / KNEW. And ur FURTHER helping me prove EVERYTHING I OUT ON THIS BLOG. Alissa morris did some fuck shit to Lee garlington and wants to get back at her…they in a weird tit for tat …Alissa got her government official computer breaking into our house and Alissa did all the nudes to the White House the day vivcca and I came over to speak to her and Howard ABOUT THE INDUSTRY TRACKING / SHIT BOYFRIENDS that came by way cause Lee + Alissa fucked all of them ..so ur telling me Alissa is a miniature terrorist w Aja and they’re getting back at u w Tony .. THIS AINT TRUE AT ALL U LYING ASS SHIT. U PAID THEM OFF TO DO THAT DUMB SHIT W MALCOM AND THEY ALL TOOK PARRT AND IAN WAS THERE TO KNOW THAT U THREATENED THEM ALL W BIG MURDR CHARGES OF PAST MURDSERS .. like wtf kind sense does that make Lee . UR A REALLY WDIRD FUCKING PERSON IN THE HEAD AND UR STILK HOLDING ME HOSTAGE BC U LEGITIMATELY WANT TO KILL ME OUT OF THE FACT THt u WONT BE THE LFIRST LADY IE KAMALA HARDIS .. sorry fucking the spelling. This sooooo childish u gotta be fucking kidding me … and yall nighas say i got adult issue ain’t no fucking way this what’s been going on in ur brain and u just been keeping cool.. or this bitch real life lost her rockers when I started awakening the first day she seen me at st Francis psychward .. the condition in which I was in.. this bitch really made At herself for failing as a fucking mother when she worked sooooo hard to prove she’s a good mother .. like what was the point of the planned breakin .. that’s what happens when u don’t know pol in yo circle .. u got extra weirdo ppl around u looking for a hand out u gon say someone Ian took over and did things his way to prove I’m not fucking crazy and ur a shitty ass fucking mom because nighas been watching this blog and watching me on my fucking growth ..so u know Howard paid these ppl off to stop the fuck shit but nighas h4_eazy still did the weird shit and stole my laptop til Ian told him put it back then stole Howards.. that had child pornography on it of me as a minor .. ALISSA IR FUCKING WEIRD U TEO CONSPIRING RN W MALCOM AND NICKI HOW GO GET OUT OF THIS SHIT INSTEAD OF ADMITTING YAL ON WEIRD SHIT .. as pissed off and upset as I am w Howard rn Zfor not STANDING ..

[feuqueerfire]

A Killer Paradox Live Blogging

Might be ill-advised to start this right now because there are 2 days and a few hours left of March and I'm someone who wants to finish series that month I started them/not have carry-over. I also have a bunch of stuff to do this weekend, so might not be able to watch 8 hours of show rip.

I've been anticipating this since early last year back when it was Murder Dieary and I heard about it on Certified Noonas 2023 show releases where they mentioned it's by the same director of Strangers From Hell, which I really liked. I've heard meh things about it though, so I'm trying to keep my expectations low and hoping to be surprised lol

Ep 1 (Mar 29)

I too feel directionless and aimless is life <3

ah, parallels before he hammers that man's head

the blind woman walking by and not realizing why her dog is behaving strangely since she can't see the dude or the dead body was really good

fun to make him be a cheater and a thief who's used to getting away with his misdeeds or crimes

oh, another person died that night? is it the old man?

are we gonna have a killer and a detective sort of dynamic? Love that

so the dude that our guy Lee Tang killed first hit that old man in the head with a brick or whatever? Makes sense since I think the synopsis was that Lee Tang can tell who is evil or something

ohhh Lee Tang killed a serial killer mans. I knew that from the synopsis but didn't expect it to be some guy with a hidden identity lol

I was not expecting to see sex and topless woman in here

that was so disgusting with the hands

dog and hammer

So the insect over the hammer meant that the detective didn't see Tang take it out right?

Ep 2 (Mar 29)

hearing people be glad that the man he killed is dead, even hearing his mother say that the murder was "God's retribution" oh

omg ?! so the girl with the dog wasn't actually blind and indeed was Lee Tang and the murdered guy?

Is he gonna kill her?

Detective Jang is trying to find the police officer who killed his father (I'm guessing his dad was a cop too?)

So that hammer is with the woman, I was wondering what's up with that but I guess she came back and picked it up?

oh, she's so fucked up and fun, I love her

ah, as expected, he aims to kill her

but extremely little planning my guy, doing this in broad daylight and leaving evidence like fingerprints in blood. that's not surprising though, he's clearly in a tight spot

she was doing research on Lee Tang, ig it'll help the Detective make the connection

and she also had a body in her backyard wowie (as the synopsis said he had a knack for killing evil people)

I like all the little scenarios of him imagining different situations or him seeing his victims' faces/bodies

ah, dog licking over all the blood really saving Lee Tang's ass rn ig?

ahh the other friend did know Tang stole his iPad

he killed the two teenagers by himself and dragged them to that pit or what?

oh somebody else helped him? Telegram OnlyForHeroes?

I read some people's opinions and people were saying it's slow and also gets sadder + some other old guy is introduced? idk but so far, I'm quite liking it and it's not that slow for me for now (esp cuz I'm watching 1.1-1.2x speed lol)

Ep 3 (Mar 30)

Yeo-ok backstory woah

oh, those fuckers who Tang killed raped that girl who then committed suicide? and his mother godddd what a fucking useless pos, was making a scene at the girl's funeral? kys

plss not the female part-timer being like yep Tang broke the "welcome!" sound thing at the door when she even told Tang that if it breaks one day, know that she herself did it loll

how does the detective who quit and his family relate to this? Also, Nan-gam? Is the name of this show smth Nangam?

oh this Telegram Heroes was also helping the girl's father to kill these high school fuckers?

The times where the reality blends with imagination or memories is so good

The bag with hammer and evidence got thrown into the river by the thief?

I stopped watching this last night with like 8 mins left of the ep lol

nooo man don't kill yourself, you're supposed to give Tang answers

oh the pit was just on the other side

whoo is this batman/hero telegram guy

Lots and lots of shows have a story of a young girl being raped, not seeing justice as the law is useless, and committing suicide and then having a (usually male) relative take justice into their own hands (most recently, the Sign with the brother aiming to avenge her). I get why they do it, it's a scenario that's very easy to empathize with and the first part of the scenario (girl is raped but the perpetrators get off scot-free) is very common but it's so sad every time.

Also... I wish the girl wouldn't kill herself every time... like the pattern being that she's sympathetic because she was innocent/pure/naive and also died too soon is like yes true, but girls and women who are sexually active/not "pure" or "good" still deserve empathy and the only action after being raped isn't that they must take their own life

Ep 4 (Mar 30)

I read 1 line about ep 4 from the on-air and it's that the detective gets fired or smth

Heroes killed some office dude, I guess he'd done something bad

wait what? the batman shirt guy, is it the same as guy who was wearing glasses + batman shirt during convo with the father? but he was doing a broadcast discussing the cases or whatever, I don't think the real Heroes dude would do that... who is this guy and how does Detective Jang know him?

what does Detective Jang know about this batman kid?

So much mystery around Batman and Detective

and is the helmet guy with Batman in any way related to the helmet guy who stole Lee Tang's bag? don't remember his face

next up on this Batman's hitlist: Detective Jang wtf this beating

but also Detective seems to know about Batman getting other people to do murders? (like urging the father to kill those boys)

lol hidden cameras

He says he's Roh Bin (Robin) but he's posing more like Batman

Lee Tang has already met the second person who worked with Roh Bin (the father? he's dead now tho) and he says they should hope to never meet the first person...

he's just talking around with the OnlyForHeroes sweater?

oh this is kinda fun, I didn't realize it was actually Lee Tang who killed the prosecutor in the beginning of the ep but I guess he's listening to his powers now

bruh, wait, was it Lee Tang who came to Roh Bin's house with the helmet? I'm so bad at recognizing faces since he didn't have his hair down the same way...

oh I just rechecked and indeed it is him...

so Jang is kicked out (what's his first name even) and also he has the dog who might lead him somewhere

and Lee Tang is going around killing people

Song Chon cop - I guess this is the new guy people mention when being like they didn't care about the old guy's story in the second half

So I'm guessing the first person who worked with Roh Bin is also the person (cop?) that Detective (well not anymore) Jang is searching for

I feel like the story in the next 4 eps is just supposed to be about Lee Tang murdering people, Jang doing some shady stuff to chase him because he's no longer a detective + also trying to uncover the cop who maybe did something bad to his father (he's bedridden in hospital now), and ig Song Chon is also pursuing Lee Tang from the cop side (unless idk, Song Chon is the missing cop who was Roh Bin's first partner and is the dude Jang is looking for). So idk how it goes sideways enough for people to say it's bad writing or whatever. we'll see ig

Ep 5 (Mar 30)

oh same florist girl as before?

is she paranoid that all the men have seen her video online?

what's gonna be her place in this story? Is she the one who got pregnant with the prof or was that a diff person? Is the person/people who are putting up her video gonna be murdered? Is she gonna be a love interest?

my facial recognition is so bad bruh, so the guy who was writing in the diary is the same guy she saw today (+ is he suspicious... idk). is the fiance of the dude who he was on a date with the same as Lee Tang's sister or anything? i guess not since he's having dinner with her in Busan while Lee Tang's sister was giving some info to the cops in Daejeon or wherever

so is this friend really also having his videos spread? is he being genuine? i'm suspicious of him...

ah, indeed, seems like he's got some other motivations aghhhhh

I hope Lee Tang's gonna kill him soon, please, I can't deal

Lee Tang being more and more haunted by his murders

noooo "fall in love" ?!?! D: Gyeong-a no

auughhhhhh fuck

that motherfucker killed her fr?!?!

parallels of opening the doors and such but also can't believe the other 2 cops just let Song Chon just walk past them when he must have exited out of the apartment they just came out of, like what???

Ep 6 (Mar 30)

there are just so many open threads, like Lee Tang (+ Roh Bin) vs suspended Detective vs ex-cop and the guy in the elevator as well

this Song Chon isn't like as fun to follow because he's just a dickhead, like why is he terrorizing the rude teenagers like that, they don't deserve this

I guess the point of him is that like we're gonna want to take him down more than we hate either of the other 2 main characters?

Who are the people Roh Bin is working with? people granted by the grandfather of the girl who was killed?

oof, Lee Tang crying, saying he's scared

what even happened this ep? I'm okay with a slow ep where we explore the characters more or find out more but it feels like we barely learned anything except for Song Chon's tendency to just murder ppl and like i don't care about him enough, you know

Oh, now I get that the book is apparently significant because the mosquito drank blood from the prosecutor and Lee Tang killed it in that book (+ probably has his own fingerprints in that book?), so the prosecutor and Lee Tang would be connected that way. I wouldn't have realized w/o the r/kdrama on-air comment tbh.

Ep 7 (Mar 31)

Song Chon is arrested but will he remain that way? like idk what the actual point of this show is, is it too early for him to be dealt with? bc the focus is so much on him, I can't tell if they want to bring him back later for most Song Chon vs Detective or if we're supposed to finally turn out attention back to Lee Tang

nvm, he's already evaded the cops as expected useless fucks

agh, I get why the story now has the two of them as Wanted in relation to Song Chon but it's still frustrating

the way i like don't care about what's happening like this storyline just isn't the reason I came into the series for and although that can be fine (story doesn't have to focus on only 1 aspect or character), this isn't hooking me

Ep 8 (Mar 31)

It just seems like Roh Bin is gonna die and I saw a comment in the on-air that Detective hides Lee Tang's location or something

so did Detective end up shooting Roh Bin? Or was that Song Chon's gunshot?

lol good thing Song Chon killed the Detective's dad what an evil pos

0.1 second of Roh Bin mourning

woahh Roh Bin you're my fave character and what a mastermind after all, fr had plans A - Z

Lee Tang's luck to have a blank shot him

Ah, poor's Roh Bin corpse getting caught up in the fire

Lee Tang's luck that the book with his fingerprints also burns away

Ah, Lee Tang got cleared

oh, Lee Tang's back to killing?

Pretty good last episode actually since all the storylines merged and a satisfying enough ending.

Overall:

Really enjoyed the first few episodes (up to ep 4), then eps 5 - 7 were kinda meandering and it felt like not much was happening (that I cared about anyway), then ep 8 was engaging again. In the second half, we focused a lot on Song Chon and his story to me wasn't as engaging as Lee Tang's and we also strayed away from Lee Tang and his thoughts.

I liked the fun shots and the imagination scenes, it was interesting.

I feel like the show didn't have many twists and turns, like it was all a bit anti-climactic, which dampened it.

From a comment on the On-Air thread, I learned that apparently he's also part of the Wooga squad and I searched up the rest of the people and I've actually watched 1 thing from each actor: Choi Woosik (A Killer Paradox), Park Seo Joon (Midnight Runners), and Park Hyun Sik (Happiness). I didn't watch Hwarang so technically haven't seen V act but I did stan BTS in 2017 so I'll count it. Don't know who Peakboy is though lol

Had high hopes because of the concept + Strangers From Hell director but that show was a lot more atmospheric and insular and the character focuses were more engaging.

Rating: 6/10

[benis-chillin]

Gaming Backlog 2023 lookback

2023 has ended, and 2024 is upon us.

And honestly? Fuck 2023. Garbage-ass year, and its shit stain is gonna remain on my life for at least a bit longer. I was already having a rough first part of the year, then two of my dogs died within a week of each other due to a bad batch of Purina, and while me and my mom are still not over it, we did have to introduce a new puppy into the house since the one remaining dog was getting really depressed, so that's been a handful. Everything else is too personal to get into, but I'll just say that I'm REALLY hoping my 26th year of life is at least MARGINALLY better than 25.

But I did set out a list of games for me to try and complete, and I got very little of them done. However, the list is only meant to be a loose guide on where to go next alongside anything new I may encounter, so it's okay if I need to reshuffle some things. Devil May Cry, Batman Arkham Asylum, and Resident Evil 2 I just didn't have time for, and I kinda fell out on Hollow Knight, so I'll have to try and restart that at some point.

But hey, talking about the games I DID play before listing the ones I PLAN to play means free content for the blog, so let's get into it.

Sonic 06-Silver's story and final story(PS3)

This one is the holdover from the year prior. My first playthrough of Sonic 06, as a whole, had some major rough patches, but I'd say I overall had fun with the game. If you're not a hardcore Sonic fan, though, just look up Windii's translation of the Japanese cutscenes.

5/10.

Metroid Prime(Gamecube)

A fairly solid entry into the Metroid franchise, but I have my quibbles with it. They have implied lore for the Chozo in this game, but all it really boils down to is, "Bad guys are bad, and the bad guy juice is driving us crazy. I sure hope our child implied to be Samus will stop it after we fucking die." And sure, that WORKS, but other games, Super Metroid in particular(since they religiously played that for this game, apparently), had a lot more meaning to their narratives, and to Samus' continued connection to her adopted people even long after they were all dead. The atmosphere for the environments is strong, but they need the narrative to elevate that atmosphere, and Prime just doesn't have it.

Gameplay is also mostly fine, but enemies can kinda become hit sponges at points, and the lock-on system only helps so much with that aspect. In addition, them respawning whenever you leave was a massive mistake, since it makes backtracking tedious and annoying.

And speaking of backtracking, this game has some of the worst backtracking I've seen outside of MAYBE Samus Returns? Though that at least has a teleportation system. I legit got blindsided by the Artifacts quest at the end, having only randomly encountered ONE beforehand, so I basically just had to do this massive quest through these areas I had already been in, bloating my 12 hour playthrough to 15, and REALLY exposing how confusing the map system in this game is.

All that just to access a final area that annoyed the shit out of me(FUCK FISSION METROIDS), and a final boss that was…Okay? I almost wished I'd put the game down right there. Would've had the same amount of narrative payoff.

So overall, while I can't say I DIDN'T have fun with the game, I do have my problems with Prime, and vastly prefer 2D Metroid. Maybe the sequels are better? Time will tell.

8/10

Spider-man(PS1)

A fairly short entry, beaten in under a week, but kinda what I needed after Metroid Prime took forever. Played it around the time that new Spider-man game came out, and man, what a contrast.

The biggest flaw with the game is how stiff some of the controls are, and Spider-man's absolutely ass running speed, but the game's simple charm and cartoony sense of humor kinda pulls it through to the end. Plus, fire webs are a thing.

Definitely gonna try for a What If mode playthrough at some point.

7/10

Non-list entries

Things I ended up playing this year that weren't on the list, but may have been new to me. You can't fully guide what you wanna play, it's just meant to focus it a bit, so here's the extras.

OctoDad: Dadliest Catch(PC)

Played this with 3 other friends back in January(though that feels like 3 years ago now, geez), and had a blast. Did it all in one session.

9/10

The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog(PC)

The surprise, free release of this on Steam made this a must-play for me on launch day, and after a 2-hour playthrough, I finished the game and loved it. I'm very happy to be living in the era where we all embracen Sonic's stupid friends with open arms, and the finale having actual emotional weight to it, unlike certain games in the 2010's, was SO satisfying. You can put Sonic and his friends into a more comedic situation without completely tearing out their personalities, and this game proves that beautifully. Only flaw is some very noticable grammatical errors in the dialogue, mainly in the late game. Been considering trying my hand at fixing that myself via a mod, but I don't have the time for that just yet.

Easy 9/10

The Batman(Jakks Pacific, Mame)

Mainly played this for a let's play that'll be coming to my YouTube channel soon, since it's actually a game I played back in the day before it, like many plug and plays back then, got busted, but this was my first time completing it for myself, so let's add it to the pile.

It's VERY simplistic, with missions either involving being a side-scrolling beat-em-up, running through buildings doing detective work, basic platforming, or messing with some type of vehicle. You do directly fight SOME of the villains, but that's kind of a rarity. The game isn't BAD, but its main appeal is in how relatively obscure it is. It emulates well in Mame if you know how to navigate it.

5/10

The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild(Switch)

Nowhere near finished this one, and probably won't for a while. Mainly played it since my brother gave me his old Switch games when he learned I had one. I had a decent bit of fun with what I played, but the constant loss of weapons to enemies FAR more powerful than myself just burned me out on it.

6/10(so far)

The Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past(Switch)

Played this while I was trying out Switch Online. Didn't manage to finish it before my brief subscription ran out, but I got fairly close to the end. My save file should be intact on my system, so I should be able to get back to it and finish it at some point. Only flaws were, "Old game is being old game."

7/10(so far)

Pokemon Sword(Switch)

Another one I have from my brother, and only occasionally play when the lines run long at my plasma donations. I know this is apparently one of the bad ones, but I'm having fun so far as a non-Pokemon fan. Don't know if I've played enough to give it a ranking, though.

Mega Man 1-3(Switch)

I'd view Mega Man 1 and 2 as perfectly solid games for their time, though I did accidentally play 2 on hard mode since that was the Japanese version. I have to use the rewind thanks to my weak-ass skills, but the platforming is very tight and snappy, to the point where I kinda wish the bosses weren't there to interupt that action. 3 was just a slog the whole way through, though, and 4 isn't looking much better.

7/10 on 1 and 2

5/10 on 3

Sonic Origins Plus(Switch)

I've technically played all of these games before, but these were mostly new versions, so eh, why not?

Sonic 1's remake was just as bad as I remembered. An almost input delay on the controls, more jank than even the original game, and the downright broken Springyard boss.

2/10

Sonic CD is about the same as always, you get what you put into it, which for me isn't much.

4/10

Sonic 2's remake, while not technically bad, still bothers me with the small differences that I notice more as someone who slays pussy at the regular game. However, I did find this version of the remake to be the most tolerable of the versions I've played.

5/10

Sonic 3&K was always somewhat uneven to me, but I gotta admit, the Origins port is the first one I technically beat legit. The biggest obstacle besides the horrible Lava Reef Act 2 boss was always Doomsday Zone, and its incredibly imprecise missiles, which seems to have been fixed for this version. I also hoarded coins to get the Chaos Emeralds in this game only, and it did gangbusters for me.

5/10

Sonic Frontiers: The Final Horizon(PC)

So my initial experience with Sonic Frontiers was pretty magical for me. A friend of mine bought it on Steam before launch, and let me play it through library share. And since it came out just two days before my birthday, that meant I could have a blast even despite some technical limitations that mods later helped mitigate. It was great to play this game that took a little bit of everything from across the franchise, and used all of it so meaningfully, both in gameplay, and story. Heck, I even liked Cyberspace as these quick, fun little challenges to beat purely through skill. The ending hit somewhat similarly to SA2's, having this somberness to it despite lacking much of the narrative complexity SA2 had. Sonic sacrificed himself for his friends, they sacrificed themselves for him, and Sage sacrificed herself to let such friendships continue, having realized the power they held. And sure, her being alive after the credits mitigated that impact, but the emotional stakes were there! And the updates just helped refine everything.

THEN UPDATE 3 CAME OUT, AND SHAT ON EVERYTHING.

First of all, I had to wait a week before I could even TOUCH the update, since Sega broke the game on computers with integrated graphics cards, making it unable to go full screen, and leaving the framerate in even the MENUS stuck at 1 FPS. And the only reason I played it within that week was because of a fan DLL that disabled the mod loader, so any and all optimizations came from sticking the files from the Switch conversion mod up the game's ass like an unruly lover.

So yeah, not a good first impression.

Gameplay wise, technical hiccups aside, it'a just okay. Knuckles outright sucks, even after the latest patch(how hard is it to just do SA2 Knuckles again!?), Amy is…Not much to write home about, and while I like how Tails' flight works, along with the ability to use the SA2 Cyclone, they only have fairly bare-bones platforming to do, unless you wanna challenge the enemies they are nowhere NEAR powerful enough to actually fight, and you're very likely to miss any other content that isn't REQUIRED to finish the campaign. I only ever encountered Sage once as Amy, and then never again with any of the new characters, so narrative cohesion is a lot lower than the base game. In addition, Cyberspace is ruined, given these unnecessarily difficult challenges with no checkpoints. I only did two of them before just giving up and getting all of the look-out Koco in the open zone(not hard to do, btw. I unlocked the first three towers, and most of the fourth before I even knew what they were for). And Sonic's trials were either way too easy, or way too difficult. I couldn't even do the penultimate one before that last patch, I had to do some save file fuckery for that, since the Titans, with their BIG wind-ups, weren't designed for the new parry. It felt like the creators were mad at someone in particular with some of these, even on easy mode. All that for a new final boss that is perfectly cool, but not worth what was sacrificed for us to get there.

Speaking of which, the story. Wow, this is bad.

It's not 2010's level of bad, since everyone is in-character, at the very least, but from a meta perspective.

1) Sonic's friends sacrificing themselves loses all meaning when they're back like, 5 seconds later.

2) Sonic's cyber corruption means nothing when it can just be gotten rid of in a few conversations.

3)Eggman and Sage's arcs are incomplete without her death, even if they did chicken out of it originally,

4)The new ending has zero weight to it.

They try to keep the tension going by giving Sonic's friends their own Cyber Ligma, but I'm sorry, this new ending stinks. The original ending was a bit rushed, sure, but the rest of the game was a really tough act to follow, and it still resonated emotionally with me. This one just takes away the good parts in an attempt to "fix" the ending, when I would've preferred it be sequel content. Let's pitch it, Sonic and friends get rumblings that the End is back, so they go back to Starfall, meet up with Eggman and Sage(they weren't surprised about her being back in Murder, despite Sonic naming Frontiers as his last adventure in that game, so it would work), and Sage offers the plan for everyone else to get the Chaos Emeralds while Sonic allows himself to be re-corrupted in order to gain the blue eyes and new parry. Simple, effective, leaves everything intact, and doesn't change much.

Most of this section was written before the patch, but I felt it important to leave it mostly intact as to properly explain the absolute middle finger this update was. The one I was anticipating the most might've ruined the game permanently on my current hardware.

Like, here's some examples of pre-Update 3 screenshots:

And this is how the best settings now look after the patch:

Yikes.

Basically, this update just kinda soured me towards Frontiers a bit, and I really hope Sega learns the right lessons from it.

3/10.

In conclusion, this year sucked, and my hobbies have only done so well because of that fact. Hopefully, 2024 will have me get more off of the list.

And now, my list.

Holdovers from last year:

Metroid Dread(Switch)

Devil May Cry 1-Switch if I can manage to buy it there, PC if not)

Resident Evil 2(Leon's story)-Gamecube

Batman Arkham Asylum(PC)

And the new entries are:

Sonic 4 Episodes 2 and Metal(PC)

Toy Story 3(PS2)

Spider-Man 2(2001, PS1)

Bionicle the Game(Gamecube)

Metroid Prime Hunters-DS

Halo: Combat Evolved(PC)

Fallout New Vegas(PC)

Lot of PC in there, I'll admit, but I have a few I need to get to on there.

Additionally, I have Sonic Superstars on my Switch, but I still need to finish Trip's story before I write about it. Expect it in next year's post.

Remember, I don't need to get to EVERY entry on here within the year, but my goal is at least half of them. Might also try for a TV shows watchlist goals, but that will be a separate thing.

Previous list

[itsnotresilience]

Sorry Voice of Reason, Predni-monster is Uncaged

Since I have been discharged from the hospital by Dr. Dude, who will definitely get his own super special blog post once I’m filled with hulk level rage, I’ve been mainly in our bedroom with people coming to see me for meals or other random things. This allowed for the majority my emotional outbursts related to medication, life drama, and not feeling well, to be in private.

Friday was the first time I was in the family space, positioned on the chaise of the couch. That day, it was mainly my boss and I, who had come to visit with lunch and watch “What we did on our Holiday”. My Puggles came to visit, who I’d missed since my Father-in-Law has been taking care of them on the basement level of our three level house. It was lovely seeing them but instantly overwhelming so only visited with both of them briefly, deciding to crate the puppy to spend more time with my older Puggle and “nurse dog” Nina.*this also isn’t the post to argue or discuss people’s belief systems when it comes to dog training.* Anyway, my boss is incredibly soft spoken and showed me amazing kindness and care. It was a fairly mellow day. It gave me hope that my plan for being down in the family space Saturday for a friend who was planning to visit for some sci-fi movie watching was going to be ok.

Although my friend was not able to make it, an old friend of ours stopped by to check-in on us. I definitely wasn’t prepared for 4 people besides myself, the dogs and the cat and all the encompassing noise, chaos and decisions that come. I love to have people over to our house and right now, these people offer comfort to me and a chance to give my other caretakers a break to do other things they want to do or also even something else to talk about other than my health situation.

The first almost meltdown happened because the TV was too loud. I hadn’t watched much TV since the hospital because I’ve been struggling with a lot of headaches. I closed my eyes and then thought about putting my headphones on and shutting out the world but then the drama became the headphones were drained and we need to charge them and why can’t fuckers make charge cords the same for shit.

For awhile, it felt like every discussion or decision was difficult. I was still incredibly agitated, trying my best to breathe through almost every conversation. To describe how steroids feel internally, it can range from a constant rage stream to a dammed up extreme (insert societal “bad” labeled) emotion waiting to break through at any moment at any random thing or even a thing that could sadden or madden you normally but you’re gonna be turned to 11, instantly.

I won’t talk about my fabulous family here. They have done amazing and are stretched emotionally and physically. I’ve been reaching out on their behalf to get their own support. I’ll just say I feel bad they have to put up with prednimonster and after yesterday, I’m tempted to hide from everyone.

We will call meltdown one “Pulmicort”. Pulmicort is a steroid inhalant (yay more steroids) that I take twice a day. It’s been out of stock since I got out of the hospital and why the fuck they just can’t give you the scripts out the door when apparently they can get all the things super easy and the rest of us have to pass through an American Ninja Warrior obstacle course to get stuff? Anyway on the pharmacy app I was able to see that I could get it sent to another store so I pressed the little app button and moved on. Fast forward an hour later and all of a sudden it’s showing out of stock at the place I ordered from. I flipped out. Just like that. Told Eric to call. Call them and “figure it the fuck out before I drop dead because I can’t breathe”. I then realized I had an audience- my friend, my husband, my FIL, my stepson. I instantly felt shame so intense I wanted to runaway but collapsed going up the stairs and then crawled to the top and cried it out. I had to have my stepson help me back downstairs because I was dizzy and out of breath and needed to lay down.

The second story to illustrate the point was around trying to plan the best place for me today. And talking about how it was for me to be around everyone versus by myself was really hard. I am a people person. I love people. But right now, I don’t want people seeing me like this. This isn’t me. This is awful. And I am hurting people and apologizing and feeling “tolerated” and “difficult” and “exhausting”. As I told my voice of reason last night, I wish I had a “predni-panic room” or a “it’s not you, I’m on prednisone” or could just lock myself in a dark room until whatever this is is over so I can stop disappointing people and pushing people away.

I feel it coming this mass exodus of love from this unlovable predni-monster. I feel the coming loss of job opportunities or the stagnation of my career forever. I feel the endless hours of work and determination it took to rebuild from my last major illness (over a decade) stacking on my shoulders and pushing me into the ground.

The worst part of of this is these drugs that turn me into the most awful version of myself is that they also aren’t making me any better. Voice of reason - I want to shut myself off from everyone and just give up! People say I’m a bad ass bitch! Everyone says I’m strong! I’m weak right now. I want to give up.

It’s easy to read this and not understand why. This drug touches on the absolute most dangerous parts of my mental illness along with a deep rage that I use to fuel so many things in life that basically is now unleashed on whatever and then I instantly panic about abandonment and feel shame.

The predni-monster is unleashed and is so afraid of destroying everything she adores. She may lock herself back in her upstairs cage.

[the-ultimate-pie-family]

Bloods encounter with sniperjackpart 3 yay

"3 weeks went by sniperjack has yet to accept blood offer of making her a new shotgun arm but something will change her mind hopefully"

Sniperjack: *was being annoyed by one of bloods kids*

B: Miss Jack, why don't u tell our dad u don't need to be escorted all the time?

Sniperjack: i never really asked him. *looks down at her nub of an arm signing* damnit......

B: Then answer me this, then why not get a fresh new arm?

Sniperjack: i want to have my shotgun arm back, not no fancy new one

B: How do u know it'll be a new fancy one? Because my dad makes all his weapons from nothing

Sniperjack: So?

B: So, my dad can make u a personal one for u to ur liking? Get it?

Sniperjack: No, now buzz off twot

B: that's it I'm tired of ur fucking pitty ass attitude *pops out her glass eye throwing it at sniperjack*

Sniperjack: Huh? *turns, getting the glass eye busted on her face, getting glass in her face* ahhh i-i.....

B: *blasts sniperjack in her guts, then knees her in her bleed face* I'll show u to have respect for my family. We have risked our lives for u for our dad

Sniperjack: *tries pulling pieces of glass out of her face* ah damnit....... fuck ur "she got kicked hard busting some of her teeth out"

B: wat does my dad see in u......ur not our aunt......

Sniperjack: *spits blood in B face* because I'm better than ur AJ

B: *goes to deck sniperjack hopefully killing her*

Blood: *stops B exploding her turning to sniperjack*

Sniperjack: *beraly stands ready for a fight*

"Sniperjack goes to swing but passes out, but she didn’t know she was poisoned by a demon assassin"

"Sniperjack was in limbo, but she noticed something different she saw a vision of her training, but she didn’t know why, so she shouted, hoping blood could hear her but no response then the vision turned to her back in hell back in a cage like a dog being killed over and over again"

Sniperjack: ..........they did save me.......they could've just left me there too... but why me? I'm not special.......

Pinkie: That's not how the mane 6 works, AJ u may not have had us as friends, but deep down, Jack, u know u have us by ur side even if we r not their

Sniperjack: But.....

Pinkie: shhh, Jack, it's fine after u wake up. If u still feel like u wanna leave, my son will accept it

Sniperjack: .......i wouldn't mind forgetting everything about u guys, but.......deep down, I'll have doubts if i would've made the right choice

Pinkie: well AJ watever u pick, i'll tell my two sons to leave u alone, i Pinkie, promise

Sniperjack: *nods* but miss pie?

Pinkie: Hmm?

Sniperjack: wat was bloods AJ like?

Pinkie: fearless brave risked her life for her family she was respected everywhere she's one of the reasons my sons r alive today. *starts crying a little* im sorry...

Sniperjack: "she felt herself like bloods AJ was like her." Miss pie, as long as i am here, i will follow in ur AJ hooves

Pinkie: wat no no no ur gonna get yourself killed if bloods and our realm AJ enemies find out theirs another one of u oh no

Mod pie: i can't keep my eyes open anymore miss/sir @asksniperjack . If u have read any of the parts, let me know wat u think, and let me know if u want more goodnight and fuck off