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Did not feel like I had the mental capacity to work on the book tonight, so I wrote a poem that turned out to be from the POV of a murdered corpse.

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I mean, it’s not off-brand.

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As we approach college finals in the U.S. I feel it's important to remind people that no level of school failure is worth killing yourself over. Some failures have consequences. Some failures change the course of your life. But I promise it's not over.

If a career path you wanted to follow has closed because of your grades, it's ok to mourn. It's normal to be upset that goals you had are unattainable now, especially goals you've had for a long time. But you can recover. Even if you can't try again, you can find another path that's fulfilling.

If you want to keep forging down the path of academics, I'm rooting for you. Take the time you need to rest your brain. Remember that taking a semester, a year, or a few years off is normal and often healthy. Do what you need to face the next semester you take relaxed and ready.

If you've been bashing your head against the wall that is college and can't seem to make progress, it might be time to find a different path. No matter what people in your life are telling you, not getting a college education is not the end of the world. No one's approval is worth more than your life.

Every day dropouts and D students are living a life more beautiful than you could ever imagine. No amount of academic failure can take away the joy of being alive. If you're not feeling that joy right now, that's ok, but please hold on through this difficult time in your life. Things will get better.

This is specifically geared towards college students but definitely applies to anyone younger than that as well. This is not the end.

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Some of my favorites of the night …. I love black women

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And while I’m on the topic, regarding the differences between Haymitch “here’s the entire history of every person in District 12” Abernathy and Katniss “wait there’s a revolution going on and I’m the symbol of it? Since when?” Everdeen’s narrative styles—Haymitch reads like every one of my yankee grandparents and a whole lot of older southern folks I grew up around. I have cousins I could not pick out of a lineup, but thanks to my grandfather, if I hear their names I know who their parents are, who they married, who their kids are, what they did for a living, whether or not they poached deer, which ones were mean drunks, who had beef with who, which sets of grandkids they treated as their favorites, how they did in high school, and so on and so on and so on.

In a world without the Games, I can totally imagine Haymitch sitting down next to Katniss at some potluck and saying, “All right, since your Pa’s gone and your Ma’s town, I’m thinking you don’t know how you’re related to my wife, so let me start with your great-grandmother …”

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Okay, all done, further thoughts:

- Queen of the Unreliable Narrator, Suzanne Collins, coming in to destroy our understanding of Haymitch calling Katniss “sweetheart.” That’s like three books’ worth of interactions turned on their heads. Fucking amazing.

- Mayselee Donner did not like the mockingjay pin, I literally said “Oh my god!” out loud and cracked up.

- I don’t think Ampert would have hit me nearly as hard without Jefferson White’s narration in the audiobook.

- I love the epilogue, and I am really glad it’s there because the ending of the last actual chapter was fucking chilling. Also goddamn, Suzanne.

- I am not kidding, Suzanne Collins is a helluva writer.

- She put him in a FUCKING CAGE. Fucking hell, Suzanne.

- While I would love to read something set between the 50th and the 74th Games with more of the rebellion plotting, more of how the Games and the Tributes’, like, accommodations and costuming and so on got more elaborate, I hope we never, ever find out what happened to Lucy Gray Baird. I want her to be a mystery forever.

- Haymitch says he’s just like Katniss, but there’s some Peeta in there, too. I have always liked Haymitch, and this was such a good book about him.

Listening to Sunrise on the Reaping, and my thoughts so far:

Haymitch Abernathy should have been a dad. BeeTee makes a lot more sense.

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Clearly I need to rework my Bluesky feed, as I entirely missed the Met Gala this year.

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You're about to close on your very own, suspiciously affordable and comfortable house. Just before you sign the contract, the realtor shows you the required legal disclosure: your new house is haunted by the type of presence you'll get from this spinner wheel.

Of course it is.

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Still trying to make up enough money for my myriad of deposits on the new place, as well as U-Haul costs and everything. My Ko-Fi is here:

There are zines, there is a short story collection, there's bunches of things. If you could throw a couple of bucks my way to help me figure this move out, I would be extremely grateful.

Bonus: here is a picture of my cat

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Solving the mysteries of why all these people are like they are and doing what they do. This is pretty good. It’s also like watching ‘Rogue One,’ but that’s to be expected.

Listening to Sunrise on the Reaping, and my thoughts so far:

Haymitch Abernathy should have been a dad. BeeTee makes a lot more sense.

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Listening to Sunrise on the Reaping, and my thoughts so far:

Haymitch Abernathy should have been a dad. BeeTee makes a lot more sense.

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let’s settle this shit but do NOT reblog if you’re gonna be modest about it like a little BITCH. anyway privilege check tell me which ones apply to you: hot, funny, can dance, can do math, can spell, can drive, can cook

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Little sample of my short story collection, "Variations on a Theme of Pomegranates," which is up on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and my Ko-Fi shop right now!

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can we have tv dramas set in college please. fucking nothing happens in hs man. now im in college and my friend got chased by feral hogs a week ago in the woods and its like the 5th craziest thing to happen this week

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139.

summer coming not in a blaze of sunshine or anything like warmth just a sharp and sudden increase in the audacity

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Quick what are you doing RIGHT now (besides scrolling Tumblr)

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State of the Laura: May 2025

Shameless Self-Promotion Hey, you still have time to order The Book of Rainbow Joy before it becomes a limited edition! Also, don’t forget the latest issue of FUCKIT! And, ya know, I do have two entire books you can buy, or check out of your library via Hoopla or Libby. Just saying. Onto the blogging! Hey, we made it to May! Look at us go! This is the month of high school graduation, which…

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This is the best one