#oughhh just thinking about makes me so happy (sobs)

[pekodayz]

this is the style ive always wanted. but i cannot do makeup for the life of me (rips hair out)

[usoppinggg]

(hiiii sorry in advance if this is uhhh hard to understand? im not great at putting it into words lol,,,,)

i saw the post abt re-reading syrup village arc and it made me eager to re-read it myself and like i finished it a few hours ago and. i dont think im ever gonna get over the extremely obvious tones of like. priviledge and how it effects different ppl and how sumtimes it effects how you see other ppl and who your more willing to trust (yes this is in regards to kaya)

BECUASE. AUGH. the slap....... the moment kaya slaps usopp........... after EVERYTHING after he goes to see her day after day and makes her smile and proves again and again all he wants is to see her happy and be her friend and use his lies to weave interesting stories and be remembered. and it doesnt matter because kaya believed kuro (a privileged rich white person like her) over usopp (an under-privileged poc who was widely looked down upon in the community) OUGHHH. OUGHH..... ill never get over it,,,,,,,,,,,,, like i understand she came around in the end BUT THE IMPLICATIONS,,, THE WAY IT ALL GOES DOWN. idk maybe im just insane and projecting but its soooo fuckin. it speaks so much and it makes me just. so sad and angry and i hate her but i love her also (hate that she did that, love her generally lol). anyways i rlly love the syrup village arc it makes me fucking insane and i hope you have an amazing day<333333

Thank you for this because even before that post came on my dash I was thinking about how mad I was that all of Usopp's friends on Syrup were so quick to turn on him!

It's funny though because like, undercover Kuro doesn't even have (his own) privilege. Before his secret came out, Kuro had nothing. He ended up on Syrup with nothing but his fabricated sob story. Any and all privilege he may have had was granted to him by Kaya and her family when they took him in and hired him, and he was able to build his reputation because of that.

His image as a polite, responsible, well-off butler was juxtaposed with Usopp's reputation as a poor, trouble-making orphan. Kuro continued to sew seeds of doubt in Kaya's mind regarding Usopp's bad influence on her, which I think is what ultimately led Kaya to doubt Usopp during that dire moment.

I try to give Kaya the benefit of the doubt when it comes to her betrayal of Usopp because she was young, depressed, and manipulated, but I find it very difficult to do so. We know that Kaya has fond memories of Kuro and they presumably spent a lot of time together as he cared for her. But still, I can't imagine how that relationship could've been more important to her than her relationship with Usopp.

Usopp is her age and (as far as we know) her only friend! He came by day after day to tell her stories to lift her spirits! She was literally worrying herself into sickness, so Usopp's stories prevented her from getting even sicker. She even argued with Kuro when he spoke poorly of Usopp when she wanted him to visit! All of this points to their close friendship, and yet she was so quick to assume the worst of him when Usopp was trying to warn her of Kuro's plan to kill her. She was so angry that she slapped him. It's so unfathomable to me even now, and I remember how upset I was the first time I saw that scene. (She was able to slap Usopp when she thought he lied but was unable to shoot Kuro when her life was in immediate danger. I always found that interesting.)

Ultimately, I know that Kaya initially taking Kuro's side was all for the ~drama~ but as an Usopp stan, I can't help but be upset at her on his behalf. We all know that most of Usopp's "lies" are actually his dreams or are simply stories where he is the main character. He doesn't lie about important things. I think it's safe to assume that Kaya knew this given how long they'd been friends, and yet...........!

I'm sure that having Kaya (and the Veggie Pirates) disbelieve Usopp despite knowing him for so long was set up to contrast the way that Luffy and the others instantly knew what his plan was. But at the surface level, yeah, it just seems like Kaya valued the opinion of her privileged, fair-skinned butler over the words of her poor, dark-skinned friend, and it's so, so upsetting.

You said it well, I love Kaya, but I hate how she treated Usopp in this moment. The Syrup Village arc also makes me Insane so thank you for giving me a chance to ramble about it!

Feel free to hit up my inbox about any other One Piece thoughts, especially when Usopp is involved <3

[constellation-skirmishes]

I see you’ve been on a Crane Wives kick lately and hear me out. I raise you, The Moon Will Sing as Anidala. It’s not a perfect match, but I think it could be the two of them.

ITS IN MY REXANIDALA PLAYLIST !!!!!!!! its not perfect but its still sooo gooodddddd. i just love being angsty about them

Tell me once again I could have been anyone, anyone else Before you made the choice for me

SO PADMÉ !!!!!

My feet knew the path We walked in the dark, in the dark I never gave a single thought to where it might lead

padmé......ouuughhh.....

All those empty rooms We could have been anywhere, anywhere else Instead I made a bed with apathy My heart knew the weight Ten years worth of dust and neglect We made our peace with weariness and let it be

TELL ME this isnt ROTS

The moon will sing a song for me I loved you like the sun Bore the shadows that you made With no light of my own

N OBECAUEUHSEU BECAUE BECUSE BECAUSE i can and WILL make everything about padmé

'i loved you like the sun'.......oughhh once again everything centers around tatooine

'bore the shadows that you made with no light of my own.'

i only contest the 'no light of my own' part because its padmé and shes awesome but. i get it. for the context of canon (and not my fucked up version where theyre happy and communicate well) it works.

anakin is very, very controlling. and we know this. and with him not talking to anyone to idk, fix himself, nothing gets better. padmé is the one who ultimately pays w her life for his mistakes.

I shine only with the light you gave me I shine only with the light you gave me

head in hands sobbing wailing screaming throwing up

Name your courage now We could have had anything, anything else Instead you hoarded all that's left of me

BECAUSEEEE ITS SO. confrontation on mustafar.

Swallowing your doubt Like swords to the pit of my belly I want to feel the fire that you kept from me

hi sorry not sane about them ever.

The moon will sing a song for me I loved you like the sun Bore the shadows that you made With no light of my own I shine only with the light you gave me I shine only with the light you gave me I shine only with the light you gave me (I could have been anyone, anyone) I shine only with the light you gave me (I could have been anyone, anyone)

LIIKEEEEEEE sorry i have multiple versions of my favorite ships running around in my mind at the same time. i keep canon anidala in my mind but i have my anidala in my mind also. this is more canon than mine, but its so good.

but you know what's even more anidala? Steady, Steady

LIKE

Steady, steady, you know when you're ready It's a long road walking into the sun The heat can make you lose your head Your sense of direction Oh steady, steady I am ready to be the one I can take for better, but for worse I can't condone Most of our "for good" just makes me ache to be alone How long is forever? I'm swimming in this dress, a child in her mother's clothes This ring around my finger's like a chain around my throat Are you so sure you've tamed me? Steady, steady, you know when you're ready It's a long road walking into the sun The heat can make you lose your head Your sense of direction Oh steady, steady I am ready to run We talked about the west, 'bout packing up our lives and hopes Ain't it a shame with time our dreams turned into jokes I won't let that be us Nostalgic for the good times like our dreams walked out on us Like we woke up in an empty bed here, and now we're stuck I'll chase them down alone Don't just watch me go, you fool Run with me, keep up, keep up, keep up It's not you I'm leaving Are you listening? I just can't take the rut, the rut I won't say I do, 'til you promise me That though we're gray, we can stay young, and wild, and free Young and wild and free And if you can't, don't blame me And if you can't, don't blame me And if you can't, don't blame me Steady, steady, you know when you're ready It's a long road walking into the sun The heat can make you lose your head Your sense of direction Oh steady, steady We weren't ready

its so padme. to me. if you even care.

i love 'the fool in her wedding gown' god its such a good album