#ough they're angry! they're angry that they stopped being cute and someone out there just put them in the box bc they're not cute anymore

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Well here goes episode 9 👍

-The fact that this episode opens by showing the end of the trainstation scene again already makes me want to break down

-Oktavia!!!!!!! Fishy!!!!

-One of the things I love about the sheer horror of Oktavia is the fact that she screams, and it's still in Sayaka's voice and you can hear that horrible mix of despair and all kinds of emotion.... god.

-Kyoko's refusal of abandoning the body. Man.

-Connect still slaps by the way

-That pure... detachment in Homura's voice is so fucking sad man. Because like she cares, she does care so very much, and Rebellion proves that but she lost all of them so much and oughhhghg *head in hands* Homura....

-Stan Kyoko 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

-Kyubey. (derogatory)

-I need him dead so badly, I need his entire species to pop at once like a bunch of balloons

-*points* the chairs!!!

-Kyubey calls girls "females" and that alone is the only red flag you need to know he's bad news

-God the fucking nerve of him to say "If you feel like dying for the universe call me :3" like how about you choke on a dick you piece of garbage

-Kyoko making sure the body's in prime condition,,,, so much for using her power only for herself,,,, FUCK.

-Wait are those the horse and mermaid windchimes they've mentioned on the wiki once- Okay. OKAY.

-Sayaka is the one who reminded her of why she became a magical girl,,,her hope,,,her reason to fight,,,, don't look at me I'm soft

-I'm in fucking tears and this was just Madoka and Kyoko talking ffffffffuck

-"Aren't you friends?"

"Not really"

*head in hands*

-The little kissy face by the entrance is genuinely so cute though fkdkfjsl

-Damn Kyoko what happened to only caring about yourself? First Sayaka and now Madoka?

-Anyways god. The hallway with the posters and the "Look at me"... that and the entrance really add emphasis on Sayaka's yearning for someone to love her and pay attention to her, even if it's a curse now...

-SYMPOSIUM MAGARUM MY BELOVED HEHEHE

-It's hard to see anything in that memory-hallway but one of those seems to be Madoka, Hitomi and Sayaka on their way to school while other is Kyoko with the bag of apples... facsinating

-Wait I never noticed how the memories stop being shown when Oktavia realizes they're there. Kinda feels like a strange kind of closing off one's heart... which would fit considering the pain of past rejection and memories make sure she can never move on and get what she longs for the most... or maybe that's me

-I LOVE THIS FUCKING THING. THE TAVI.

-I'm still in love with the fact that Symposium Magarum doesn't just perfectly capture Oktavia's despair and suffering, but also Madoka and Kyoko's desperation to try and get Sayaka back.

-It's how Kyoko says, payback. Someone who's hurt and now lashes out everyone and everything, hellbent to spread her curse.... man. MANNNNNN.

-That fucking sihoulette moment that turns into a heart is fucking evil

-There it is... Kyosuke who lost his hand, Sayaka who wondered why it wasn't hers, and now Oktavia who's lost hers.. goddamnit.

-On a different note: Remember how the Anthonies referred to Gertrud as the queen of the labyrinth? The fact that Oktavia bleeds blue blood kinda fits in with "Witches are seen as queens of their little kindoms" thing lol

-The happy dream thing is just, god, so much. Because like she calls being by Sayaka's side and fighting with her a dream in Rebellion and that shit fucking broke me the first time (still does)

-Fucking Violin boy.

-There's something so... so ough idk what to call it but the "You gotta focus on the one thing that means the most to you and protect it to the end" line is just. A lot. And it also makes me so horribly emotional about Ophelia again because in that outcome Kyoko failed to do that again and breaks under that, abandoned by everyone and everything she loves and I'm normal I swear I am-

-That promise to never abandon Sayaka... even as a witch, even when she's a monster so angry and hurt Kyoko chooses to stay with her because she believes Sayaka still is worthy of love, attention, care and kindness and it's all Sayaka wanted from all this and if that isn't love then I don't know what is.

-Die Kyubey.

-And they're home... their party for broken hearts....