#ough i Know there's more in forgetting but this is what i have so far

[heavenlyyshecomes]

using tumblr as a notepad to keep a list of books revolving around writers and scholars and their obsession with other literary figures, mostly fiction

possession, a. s. byatt

my death, lisa tuttle

the extinction of irena rey, jennifer croft

the long form, kate briggs

the guest lecture, martin riker

forgottenness, tanya maljartschuk

paul celan and the trans-tibetan angel, yoko tawada & susan bernofsny (translator)

[another-day]

its time for to review something i’ve been waiting for for four years now

finally, i am very happy to say, we have EPISODE IN REVIEW for the fresh new episode of SEASON TWO EPISODE 15!!!!

spoilers ahead if you haven’t watched it already!!!!

i feel like i knew where this episode was going from the start, but we’ll get there ;]

first off; taco was such an interesting character in this episode, and i’m really glad they took the time to flesh her out!!!

obviously yeah she has a whole song about her desires and all, but even through dialogue and interactions she is taken care of very well and i really appreciate that!!

her desires are still humanised even though she’s the anti-hero of the season, and i think it really shows you that she was a contestant too at one point, and she had a negative experience with the show. does this mean i don’t think she was totally manipulating the final four? not in the slightest, but its still peculiar.

this time skip had me a little confused, because from paintbrush’s statement in regard to lightbulb “missing a lot”, one can assume that season three already ended

i’m hoping this’ll be explained at some point but i’m just confused!!!

i could essentially guarantee she was going to be eliminated from this line alone, probably by her own choice. lightbulb has a tendency to fixate somewhat on things she finds important in sentences, so i knew from here.

LOOOOOK AT HIIIIIM HE’S HERE!!!!

okay but for real; this was a masterful song, and i absolutely adored all of the musical progressions and just EVERYTHING. Rheagan Rizio’s vocals were amazing and the song was totally captivating, i love it.

this scene was incredibly interesting to me, this being the moment after suitcase says she genuinely befriended balloon and didn’t do it out of spite.

its like taco forgets people have different desires, and almost believes them to reason things the same way she does, because she knows that if she were in suitcase’s situation at that point that she would’ve done it out of spite, SO INTERESTING!!!!

this was one of my favourite scenes by far, because it brings to light an underlying storyline that has been there since the beginning

knife has been trying to be a better person throughout season two, and this is where that kind of comes crashing down for him. its something so rarely brought up, but bringing it into fruition like this was a fantastic choice, especially when his beliefs of “getting better” are immediately brought down, because his “better” may not be what actually is “better” overall.

ough,,,,,, season two episode twelve parallel save me i love these two so much i had to include it

i had a feeling after episode 14 that lightbulb would be out in this episode, because she was mentally at the weakest point she’d ever been in, but now i can see how much mental strength it must’ve taken to leave behind something that has been such a constant in her life for something that she found mattered to her much more.

she’s such a wonderful character, and i know people will be upset, but she’ll be far happier like this, and that’s already made very clear in later scenes

and to finish, there he is again !!!!

i’m so happy they’re canonically friends too!!!

but overall, taco’s development has been so interesting this episode. i really think she’s starting to fully understand what she wants now, and i suppose now i can only hope she’ll actually talk to them about it next episode

i freaked when i saw this

its not the fact that mephone has his name saved only as steve cobs, but the fact that he has it saved at all.

i understand that this could just be an embedded contact from creation, but i still feel that cobs wouldn’t just put his name in as such, and that mephone wouldn’t have just deleted it by his own accord.

also the fact that COBS is calling HIM. steve cobs has been shown to show little to no interest in mephone following season one, rather focusing on his newer phone models, so what triggered this? if the timeskip is correct, then i’d like to assume its the prime shimmer that influenced him to call mephone. i dunno why, but its a thought yknow!!!

but in conclusion, this was a spectacular episode. a friend of mine screen recorded the entirety of taco’s song so i am very excited to listen to that again, and i hope to see you all next time oooooon… episode in review!!!!

[welcome-to-roomba-fazbender]

HAPPY 5TH ANNIVERSERY TO

CHARLIE THE CURSED PHONE GUY

MAY HE STAY WITH US FOR ANOTHER FIVE AND BEYOND!

and now a special message from the man himself.

"Well, Well, Well... look how far we've come huh? Genuinely, honest... And Truly."

"Five years ago I was made and cursed the world of tumblr with my presence, time sure does fly! I've lost a few friends, but gained plenty more in return!"

"I wouldn't even be here today without them, now granted I'm not gonna name EVERYONE! But I am gonna name a select few and tell you how they've impacted me... AHEM..."

"First and foremost the man the myth and the legend the one who is the reason behind everything, the man where if he didn't exist I wouldn't exist!"

"Henr- ... we all know I don't mean him we're talking about real people."

"If your name isn't listed, it isn't because the mod dosen't care but it's because he's a dumbass and these are the ones that came up at the top of his head when writing this post, totally not a forth wall break."

@directdogman

"The Creator of the DSAF/Dayshift At Freddy's Series Direct Doggo himself, sure okay I was a late edition to the fandom.

but it is fully thanks to DSAF 3 and him that I even exist, what can I say about doggo other then what has been said before one thousand times? He is a man of many skills and many talents."

"He is creative, smart and genuinely an inspiration to everyone in the community of both DSAF and Dialtown... no matter how much time has passed, I will personally continue to respect the man I owe everything to him. So thank you doggo genuinely for your support and your amazing games."

@cook-ie-chip

"One of my oldest friends in the community, I've known you since almost the start! we have alot of memories together, some laughs, some cries! you also created my blue prints

(though in lore they were written by henry and will) let's look past that! You remind me of how things used to be a long time ago, and I'm glad to still know you even now."

"and with any hope I'll curse you for many years more."

@lazy-charlie / @chuck-the-fanboy

"I remember how we met, you found me and we both realized we had the same name, and so I decided to charge you extra for like a pizza party lmao."

"But ever since that day we have only grown closer and closer... to the point your apart of the roomba fazbender family [no you will get no discounts] ..."

"You've done so much for me over the years though, you helped create the Roomba's we have here today, you drew some of our lovely walrus friends!"

"AND ... ough... Okay Okay I'll be honest you made Chuck The Fanboy originally a joke just to tease me with, but over the years he's grown on me... DO NOT LET HIM HEAR ME SAY THIS, but he's like a lil bro... and if anything happened to him I'd be devastated."

@clownsuu / @not-robert

"... well well well if it isn't the shadow in black and the big buff zombie, what can I say about both of you?"

"Hmm... Clownsuu here teases me, has DRAWN ME MPREG, HAS DRAWN ME EMO, IS THE REASON WHY THE EVIL VERSION OF ME EXISTS!..."

"and yet life wouldn't be the same with out him, jack is... an anomaly someone I met because someone thought he was stealing me! HA no one can steal this perfect face~"

"Gotta say though, all jokes aside... life just wouldn't be the same without him, alot more boring you know? I must admit he is someone I will never forget, you've also drawn photos of a few of my walrus I still have hung up in my office, I appreciate you for absolutely everything you've done."

"And don't get me started on Robert that big buff baby, I've put him in just about every costume under the sun, and yet he still puts up with me and stays still no idea why. But it's because of him my restaurant has expanded so much, from a bowling alley, a karaoke bar and dumpsters full of meat."

"Don't tell Robert this he'd likely call me an idiot, but guy's one of my best friends genuinely thankfully he's immortal so I'll never worry about losing him but ... the thought still scares me."

"Never change Robert."

@weirdozjunkary

"You turned me into a furry... I got nothin else to say I just had to point that out."

"..."

"..."

"Okay, fine you did alot more then that, you introduced me to bedlam someone who can FINALLY truly be a sponge to my cursed and chaotic behavior, honestly I'd hope so considering he's the god of chaos."

"I only met him recently but I'd fuken fight his version of god for him ... seriously don't tempt me I will kick that old man's ass."

"I'm glad to have bedlam in my life and hope I know him for many years more."

@an-artist-place-for-extra-art

"you simp for the evil version of me I..."

"I have no words for you..."

"I just question... why?"

"though honestly? never change, I care for you just the way you are, your amazing."

"Alright, Alright enough of the mushy stuff and forth wall breaks it's messing with my circuits and servo's ahem..."

"The most important thing about this day is one..."

"I'm so fucking cool"

"two"

"I AM NEVER GOING ANYWHERE HATERS, FIVE MORE YEARS AND BEYOND OF ME!!!"

"and three... and most important lore wise"

"HAPPY 50TH ANNIVERSERY TO ROOMBA FUCKING FAZBENDERS!"

"50 YEARS THIS PLACE HAS BEEN OPEN WITHOUT ANY DEATHS JUST A FEW INJURIES AND I'LL TAKE THAT WITH STRIDE!"

"AS THE ULTIMATE FUCK YOU TO FREDBEAR'S AND FAZBENDER ENTERTAINMENT!"

"THE GUY WHO IS A LITERAL ELDRITCH HORROR AND EATS SHOES WITH HIS BOOTLEG RESTURANT LASTED LONGER THEN ALL OF YOU SUCK IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!"

"... thank you... genuinely out of pocket with full seriousness..."

"thank you everyone for sticking around none of this would be possible without you, and I HONEST AND TRUELY can't wait for another five amazing years."

Moderator Monnie: And happy anniversary to everyone from me to all of you!

Have a fantastic day! and thank ya'll for reading!

[soloavengers]

Pawn Behaviors - Beyond the Rift

𓆩 Thorne 𓆪

[template] - [winterheart’s]

❖ BEHAVIORS & HABITS: 

➵ COMMON: 

Complaining, a lot.

Good luck trying to peacefully walk past enemies when he’s there.

Battle is fun!!

➵ UNCOMMON:

Collects parts of monsters the others don’t think of gathering, for whatever reason.

A joke in someone’s expense is how he shows his love, (they get a smirk with a wink and/or an elbow poking at their side.)

Loudly laughs if he got as he gave.

As a Hawker, he’s also a merchant. Friends get discounts and other types of deals, (if they buy one thing but he previously noticed them eyeing another as well — “Oh! I haven’t told you about this deal…” There was no deal, it’s really just a gift.)

Talks about how he can improve when he feels like he’s done a mistake.

He hovers around companions after battle or during long travels, before gathering the courage to tell them of something on their armor / cloak or even face — blood or dirt. If familiar with them, he’d fix it himself.

➵ RARE:

Randomly gifting.

“Peeled this apple for you, Arisen.” <3

➵ DRAGONSPLAGUE: 

Absolutely no awareness or acknowledgment of his wrongs, if the Arisen knows him well enough this is a big, big tell that something is wrong with him.

More protective of the Arisen, to the point he doesn’t think clearly and can instead compromise them.

I see the “headache” animation as pawns having a tiny moment of resisting. For Thorne he feels an uncomfortable familiarity and it leads to a lot of confusion, and a bit of lucidity. As he holds his head, he’s very quietly begging just “Pleasepleaseplease-” over and over until he feels good again.

❖ THOUGHTS & OPINIONS: 

➵ THE ARISEN:

The Arisen needs to look presentable at all times. He would take care of cleaning their armor and whatnot, if he must.

His second Arisen, adventurous and caring Sylvas won him over far too easily. Being so clearly different from his tyrannical first Arisen, it wasn’t so hard to break Thorne’s (admittedly slightly thin) walls.

Thorne is very glad of having an Arisen who actually needs him, (instead of one that treated him as disposable as his dead brother) so he is dutiful and proud of it.

He’s always quick to consider others a threat to the Arisen, mostly because he worries Syl can be a bit gullible at times. Odd how some Arisen have their hearts lead the way when they aren’t even in their chests! He’d say.

➵ OTHER PAWNS:

Thorne is rather bossy with other pawns, but not beyond the rift — except during rough battles, he slips back into an old mindset.

Most pawns Syl hires are pawns Thorne met beyond the rift. Friends! Pawns which he already trusts to watch his back, and more importantly his Arisen’s.

The Arisen’s pawns need to look presentable as well.

➵ WORLD:

He may point at different environments and mention which monsters, from other worlds, would have occupied it were they to exist in this one.

Sometimes he nicely asks the Arisen if they could camp somewhere further down the road just because it has nicer surroundings or a view.

➵ BATTLE: 

One more time, bossy.

Thorne may compromise himself to watch the Arisen’s and other pawn’s backs when they’re vulnerable.

Alternatively, he tends to get so lost in the rush of battle that he forgets to keep an eye out on the Arisen’s back.

He’s more than happy to avoid fighting hostile bandits should the Arisen wish it, but if they harm them he will not hold back — as much as he hates shedding more human (& beastern) blood.

➵ NPC's: 

Thorne is so fond of Beren, the soldier in him really respects the man (though in more of a fanboy way, hilariously.) He also thinks his childhood home is so inviting and he’s always excited when Syl decides to give him a visit.

➵ QUESTS: 

Syl telling Thorne that he will be pretending to be a pawn to see what the deal with the Phantom Oxcart was causes an argument between them. Thorne would stay behind not because the Arisen asked him to, but to sulk.

➵ BONUS: 

Ough. Okay, About to write something horrible that I know I won’t write anywhere so I’ll get it out now — warning for War and Death /murder of children.

Years back as his first Arisen’s War General, Thorne was instructed to kill, and order to kill indiscriminately. Full on massacres every campaign. One day Thorne heard that killing children was a horrible, terrible, awful thing. He would then make the conscious choice to spare some children during the next campaign, they were hiding, only he saw them, he told his soldiers no one was in the room and they moved on. He felt pleased with himself.

Unfortunately, this would backfire and lengthening the campaign. The Arisen summoned Thorne and punished him for “developing a conscience.”

Thorne would be forced to go back to killing indiscriminately because he cannot refuse the order, but it was no longer without guilt.

Sorry.

This lead to Syl having to explicitly tell Thorne that ‘No, children aren’t to be considered a possible threat.’ And more. This took a huge weight off Thorne’s chest, and told him much about his new Arisen.

[bulbasaur-gone-rogue]

I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT MY BLORBOS SO Y’ALL GET IT

(For reference. This is for Aiden and Lambert from the Witcher 3: Wild Hunt. All of these can be read with pretty much no knowledge. I went into these freaking blind off of… somewhere. I don’t know. I found them somewhere and went down a rabbit hole.)

I’ve been through all 58 or so pages worth of fanfiction in their tag. Lore-wise, we literally only know a name and vague affiliation on one of em. They’re my poor little meow meows. My silly rabbits.

I went through all those fics and I got like. Six recommendations. These all made me feel some kind of way, or I read them more than once. IN some ORDER!

1. Where I Stand by LadySesame.

Status: complete

Ohhhhhhh what if we were lovers and I thought you were dead and then you got dragged into my home (that I never quite had the courage to invite you back to) completely feral and with clear signs of torture and me n my bros and my (kinda shitty dad who I fight with a lot but he’s genuinely trying but also he’s fucking it up) and one of my brother’s weird boyfriend (who was kind of the only one who knew you existed and mattered to me in any way) had to figure out what the hell to do about all this. And then it gets better but worse before it gets better.

Vampire hunt flashback cool. Dynamic immaculate.

2. The Kaedwen Wolves by Kaerith

Status: incomplete, has not updated since 2021.

HOCKEY AU HOCKEY AU

Hockey aus really have it all. The banter. The rivals. The “we’re just homies. What do you mean I’m sending mixed signals.” The inherent homoeroticism of hockey. The “fellas is it gay to get in a fight on the ice so fast you forget to take your gloves off because some guy called your Good Friend over there a slur and like. I’m not gay or anything but also-”. And also men with muscles and a couple braincells but those only work occasionally. The chemistry.

This one would be tied for first but it’s still really early on and hasn’t updated in. A while.

3. Out of the Night That Covers Me by inexplicifics

Status: complete

Ough we love hurt/comfort and being kind in a world that is determined not to be. I love. Kind men with massive muscles who are so so so self-aware (but sometimes also stick their foot in their mouth real bad) And also terrifying women. I love terrifying women. Uh. Modern au. Everyone’s alive that I can think of.

4. Four Chambers by GilliganGoodfellow

Status: Complete

This one harmed me. It’s the accurate portrayal of grief. Warning for my homies. The Cat stays dead in this one. Had me wrecked for Amounts of Time

Rest of that series also bops and slaps. While I do love Complicated Feelings Towards Vesemir (he’s trying. He was part of an institution of child abuse. He didn’t have power to change anything. He was still part of it. He did the best he could. Maybe it wasn’t enough. He tried. Trying only gets you so far). Papa Vesemir ALSO has a place in my heart.

5. Denial by tnico

Status: complete

Author knows more weird little facts than I do. Scratches my brain. All of their works that I’ve read are stupidly good.

6. A Beginner’s Guide to Exploiting the Kaedweni Tax Code for Fun and Profit by heronfem

Status: incomplete, updating

You know.

[swagglessmoth]

Fic rant

I gotta be honest guys, I don’t have much hope for things to get better 😔

Like, I really want team Minato to stop Kakashi before he goes off the deep end. But ohh, that’s just not gonna happen is it 😭

What really cemented this were these lines from chapter 4

OBITO WDYM BY THAT

I understand regretting meeting Sukea, bc that’s pretty much one of the primary things that made him spiral. BUT «The future enemy of the world» WHAT. WAS HE NOT GONNA CHANGE THAT END-OF-THE-WORLD THING WITH KAGUYA?? WHEN IS HE GETTING RID OF HER 😭

Kakashi, boy, I know you like this whole thing of following Obito’s script, BUT YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO ACTUALLY CHANGE THINGS ☠️

And he HAS changed a lot, which made me forget that he still plans to go after the jinchuriki ☠️ LIKE, WTF IS HE TRYING TO DO?? “Oh yeah, I’ve been controlling everything behind the scenes this whole time 😈😈 I reformed and entire country and now they’re extremely happy, jk loll I’ve been evil the entire time! I stopped a clan’s genocide, it doesn’t help in my plan at all, but hey I’m so evil. Haha stop me haha”

And yeah; I know he’s not gonna tell anyone that he’s from the future, or what could’ve happened if he hadn’t been there, bc he’s trying to go the ‘I’m the big bad ooo’ route. But pls I need other characters to find out he’s from the future PLS 🙏 at least if they saw how the other world turned out, we could reach an understanding.

I really have no idea how the switch-up’s gonna go. Is he doing all this in Kiri so that people are indebted to him and follow his plans blindly? How will he handle the Akatsuki, now that the ame trio has relatively friendly relations with team minato? What about the other members?? I know once he reveals how much he’s been controlling shit and that he has two stolen sharingan, people will be jumping to kill him, no question. Not to mention the jinchuriki stuff and how much it’s gonna rile up all the villages. I know he can, and will, pull it off, but it just feels like he has too much on his hands. The plan isn’t just getting the death penalty in all villages, he needs to actually unite them, or else the peace won’t last.

His plan is much more complicated than Obito’s. Bc instead of getting rid of all his obstacles (Minato, the Uchiha, the ame trio once they’ve fulfilled their role, etc.) he’s intentionally keeping them alive, so that in the end they go against him in the final battle .AND he still has to change the shinobi world while having everything and everyone under control. AND figure out what to actually do about Kaguya. He’s been doing all this ‘play’ for her, but will she be satisfied with just that?

Stuff’s gonna get COMPLICATED BRO. And there’s not even the possibility to be spared from all his crimes by helping fight against a greater evil, BC HE PLANS TO BE THAT GREATER EVIL ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Everyone’s just gonna conclude that he’s too dangerous to keep around and kill him, I know. But I’m too deep in denial at this point, I’m still hoping he magically gets a happy ending. Bc getting a second chance at life and fucking up all the same is a possibility too devastating to consider. AND I DONT EVEN WANNA THINK ABOUT THE OBKK OUGH. You can’t just go and give them a sad ending twice, pls RK7200 have mercy pls 🙏🙏

Idk how far in the timeline this fic’s gonna go, or if there’s gonna be some sort of time skip. But I guess the final battle will come around the same time as the Fourth war in canon. If that’s the case I’m putting all my bets on Naruto and Kushina (bc Hound saved her and she wants to know who did it) 🙏 save that man guys, I believe in you. Oof, Kakashi’s heart would break if he were to be talk no jutsued ❤️‍🩹

And to end this rant: I also hope that “enemy of the world” thing won’t be to the extent of og Obito’s. It just meaning ‘being a mayor threat to the shinobi world’, not being the cause for the end of the world, you know?

[hikennosabo]

trimax vol 10 random thoughts (ch 5-8)

part 1 here.

okay, time for part 2. i don't want to do this, i have a pit in my stomach.

chapter 5:

destroying razlo's punishers... a good strategy!

getting leverage to jump by stepping on his leg, i love it

you could say he. he was. *wheeze*... i guess you could say he was... ...disarmed... [a comically large hook drags me off the stage]

wolfwood and razlo just met today (not technically but y'know), but he can read razlo so well already, taunting him like this.

THIS FIGHT...!!! it's reminding me of vash vs knives in the finale of the 98 anime! one black gun and one white gun, and them being on even ground, making the same moves...

they're an even match when they're just whaling on each other, but wolfwood has tactics that razlo doesn't. also this is an insanely cool move.

chapter 6:

^ how it feels to read trigun maximum (said again)

^ how it feels to read trigun maximum (said for a third time)

he knows wolfwood is dying. we know wolfwood is dying. he can't do anything to stop it. we can't do anything to stop it. (except for refusing to keep turning the pages, i guess)

THEY HAVE NAMES?

vash can't do anything to stop wolfwood from dying, but he can help wolfwood go out on his own terms...

PLEASE, HE'S ALREADY DYING, WE DON'T NEED YET ANOTHER DEATH FAKEOUT FOR THE BOOKS.

livio interfering... i'm not an expert but this is not how DID works. but sure. the drama carries it.

WHY AND HOW IS CHAPEL STILL ALIVE FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

razlo realizes very fast that chapel never cared. despite his verbal denial, i think he was realizing way before this.

DESERVED!!! YES.... KILL!!!!!!

of course razlo can only attack. attack, like how he killed livio's parents. not that chapel doesn't deserve it, but this is the only thing razlo knows how to do.

ough. livio apologizing... "i'm okay now"...

so is razlo just gone now? like i said, i'm not a DID expert, i know re-integration(? not sure if that's the correct term sorry) is possible, but i don't know if this is how it works...

honestly, i feel bad for razlo. he only knew a life of violence, he was manipulated and indoctrinated by chapel, all he wanted was to be needed but his last experiences are finding out that chapel didn't care about him and then livio telling him he doesn't need him anymore. poor guy.

chapter 7:

oh, no, i don't want to read this chapter again. don't make me read this chapter again.

the difference between this and tristamp... stamp had the orphanage much more directly tied to EoM, and a bunch of guys in suits came to pick wolfwood up. this scene is a lot more "normal," a lot less obviously suspicious. idk if i'd go so far as to say stamp!melanie was in on the whole thing, but she doesn't look happy about wolfwood leaving... i do wonder how stampede will handle all this... ANYWAY!

"six years"... lmao. now i understand what people meant when they said the timeline is confusing. it's killing me and i hate it, actually?! nightow ALL you had to do was NOT specify a number!!!

the coins... i constantly forget about them and i find it funny whenever they're brought up... they were so clearly meant to set the ghg up as a shonen battle enemy-of-the-month type thing but then that got thrown off the rails when the magazine ceased publication and everything got turned upside down. yet the coins persist. what are they all for in the end.

also i'm sad. this is wolfwood's paltry attempt at pushing vash away. (also he's been carrying rai-dei's coin this whole time?! lol?! that's also sad... just waiting to give it to vash i guess...)

"this is the way you want it? are you sure?" i'm just fucking inconsolable at this point.

of course this attempt at sincere emotion is deflected. you boys are so, so, so, so, so stupid.

i can't do this man. i can't review the couch scene. i'm crying too much.

the prayer. this especially is getting to me. we've seen wolfwood pray a few times, but now it's vash's turn to pray. we've never seen him do that. and while vash was there to answer wolfwood's prayer... there is no one to answer vash.

what if i climbed into the microwave right fucking now.

ourgh. out of all the images in this chapter, this is the one that stuck with me the most. even more than the couch images. ugh, i can't even fucking write.

chapter 8:

i don't know where else to say this...? lol but livio's personality is different, he's cute now. is this because he broke out of the EoM brainwashing or because he integrated with(???) razlo? (once again: IS this how this works???) or is it both? either way he's a lot more expressive than he was before...

other people have already talked about how we didn't see the burial. i'm also thinking about everything else we didn't see. vash buried wolfwood, and he also cleaned up outside, brought livio in and laid him down, gathered ingredients and started cooking...

how long did he sit on that couch for before he moved. how much and how hard did he cry. we didn't see that either. we don't need to.

knives. he's smearing blood on his face again.

his laughter... i don't think he finds this funny like "haha funny" necessarily, i think he's just losing it.

vash defends the orphanage and knives doesn't even push it. he just moves on. hmm, i'm trying to articulate this... vash's display of power used up more of his life, which knives noticed obviously, and vash is willing to go that far to protect the orphanage... knives still doesn't want vash to die, and... he's laughing out of disbelief, or something like that. i don't know.

vash and livio sharing a meal together is... it's nice. but vash is still clearly very angry. with livio, with razlo, with himself too probably.

i don't know. i'm not angry with livio or razlo at all. they were both victims of chapel same as wolfwood. this is all chapel's fault in my mind, lol.

oh.

we're gonna see this in stampede too, aren't we. wolfwood will die for a third time and we're gonna see vash holding the punisher.

the fact that this volume doesn't even have the goofy author extra... we're just forced to sit with this. man. the book club wasn't kidding, it's so much worse the second time around. the first time i cried a little but i was mostly just taking it all in. the second time i was like actually heaving and sobbing. reading this volume twice within a few days was a BAD IDEA.

AND WE STILL HAVE FOUR VOLUMES LEFT. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO ON AFTER THIS. four entire volumes without wolfwood...

[xenonsdoodles]

felix h. fraldarius

FELIX!

    First impression:

Swordguy!

I’ve been informed by multiple independent sources that I am going to like him and I don’t get a choice, so like, let's see how that turns out

Asshole (affectionate?) (maybe?)

    Impression now:

OUGH he’s a mess and I love him a lot. His personality reminds me of my horse and I think he’d hate to hear that but I mean it as a compliment (specifically that he’s a loyal, intelligent, determined and extremely trustworthy friend who is no less a rude and stubborn little bastard man for it). I frequently wish I could hug him even though I do not think he would let me, realistically. Half the time when I start talking about him I make myself sad but that’s just how it is with bitches from Faerghus :)

    Favorite moment:

I think it’s funny that almost every time he actually tries to be nice (or at least not openly rude) to someone for the first time, the person he’s talking to is like “what do you mean. you bastard. you evil little man. what ulterior motives do you have.” Annette, Bernie, Lysithea, it keeps happening.

Alternatively, the time in my og run when I had him solo the Fraldarius soldiers in that one training mission while everyone else just followed him around cheering him on the whole time. I like to think he knew a lot of those guys and it was very satisfying to beat some of them.

    Idea for a story:

Same one I mentioned in the ask about Dimitri. dies

    Unpopular opinion:

 I could pick him up I bet. idk I don't know what counts as unpopular

    Favorite relationship:

Ok I feel obvious saying Sylvain but they really are very extremely. I’ve gotten two of their endings so far. One of them made me die (positive) and the other made me die (dead). I’m also, maybe predictably, compelled by whatever the hell his situation is with Dimitri (side note, in my first run I kept putting them on stable duty as the Get Along Or Else activity and they kept getting perfect results and he complained every time, which. yeah). I love his Sword Bros friendship with Byleth. And I did not expect it, but his A support with Dedue was one of my favorites in the route… him being all “you shouldn’t risk your life because strategically etc etc etc” and Dedue like “love you too” lmao get read idiot

    Favorite headcanon:

I sometimes forget he isn’t canonically a trans man. Relatedly, I think that Glenn helped him pick his name not long before he died—Felix chose it himself, of course, that was important to him, but Glenn gave him suggestions and talked through it with him while he was working on it. I also think Rodrigue wants to accept him as his son, but Felix has a pretty clear mental image of the kind of man he thinks his father would respect and he Does Not Want To Be That. And sometimes when he looks in the mirror he looks more like Glenn than he did the last time. And it’s a mess. :)

it's him .

[oleander-nin]

OUGH FAV OLLIE PIECE? DON'T MAKE ME PICK-

Regarding that reblog, I'd say almost anything from horrortober is just ashsjdjsksb oh my god,, I reread them frequently /gen

I can't think of what my favourite one is because it changes depending on my mood (??? Idk either don't ask-) but judging on how many times I think I've reread certain ones, then I think my favourites are probably these in no particular order:

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

The Weight of a Letter (TWOAL)

RAGAGHHSSH I KNOW IT'S ON HIATUS BUT I LOVE IT SO FAR- AND I DON'T WANNA PRESSURE YOU TO WRITE MORE SO PLEASE!! HEHE I WANNA REREAD IT it's such daydream fuel <3

Mark - also yan rise Donnie <3

I know yandere stuff is NOT good irl, and I'm not condoning it obviously. But there's a small weird undertone of comfort I like in this one? I don't know how to explain it- dontjudgemeidontknow

Run - yan rise Donnie <33

I love this one when I'm crazy. Simple as that. No undertone of comfort like that last one, it's just that sometimes,, I am insane.

Taken - yan rise Leo (because I currently really like him)

Idk why I like this one so much actually tbh,, I just do (also he feels so in character here)

Also, honorary mention:

Stress Mess - rise Donnie

I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHY I LIKE THIS ONE I just think it's so realistic lmao. Like I can so easily see this happening and I've actually daydreamed of this exact scenario lmao. (LOVE IT WHEN I WANT FLUFF <3 SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA COMFORT HIM-)

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

Anyways- uh it's been a while since I left a long ask here lol. I meant to just check up and send a quick "hi ily" kinda thing but ended up spending half an hour recalling my favs of yours and writing this lmao

Speaking of- HI ILY <33 YOU'RE SO COOL AND AWESOME DON'T FORGET THAT

(Not bothering to reread this for mistakes like I usually do because it's like 2am and I simply can't be bothered. If I made typos or didn't make sense uhh pretend it was fine please-)

sorry this took so long to respond to

<333333333333333

thank you so much😭

I'm glad people still like twoal, I really need to get on that-

"But there's a small weird undertone of comfort I like in this one?" - Yeah I totally get you on that. Sometimes you can take comfort in the deranged.

Run is actually partly an inside joke w/ a friend on mine lmao. Very glad you like it.

Thank you sm for the ask and the list, I appreciate it a lot. I hope you have the bestest week<333333333333333

[thatcheeseycandle]

//WAKE UP YOU LOT TW FOR MAJOR SPOILERS ON IPOS'S CHP. 35 BLUE PETER ITS TIME FOR A READING

Ogdkayahahhaaa OFHHAHgAHANAHAHZHSBSXUGCGDAGCSKHVSBVS

YOU ANEKAY

THE SUMMARY IS ALREADY FRYING UP MY THROAT

wait WIA TWIA TIAUJAIAIAA OLIVA REAT UP FOR GODS SAKE

OLIVIA DO NOT NO NO

North NORTHHRHAHAHDHDVAHAHHAJAAOAOOAOAOA NORHTA REASEARCH

HIS RESEARCH

I TAKE BACK WHAT I SAID OLIVIA GO THROIGH THEM FILES

Wait WAIT. PEONY JUST- OH YEAH THAT MAKES SENSE NGL

STILL NOTING DOWN

Wait A HOUSE??????? WDYM AT ROOSTERA FARM. OKAY YEAH. CONAIDERING A LOT I'D HAVE TO STRETCH OUT A GUESS THAT THIS IS WHERE GNSJOURNAL TOOK PLACE WITH THE LIGHTING

But like I said THATS A FAR ATRETCH SO YEAH COUGHA YEAH

Wait AY AY WAIT. IM GUESAING THAT WAS POLLY NGL YEAH. YEAH THAT WAS POLLY DEF DEF

OKAY I GOTTA SPEEDRUN YHIS READ ITS NEARLY DINNER FOR ME RN AS OF WRITING THIS YEAH THIS SENTENCE

Ay AY. I

I newd I NEED. TO NOT. SCREAM. Give me a sec

Okay I screamed MYAHAIAAAAAAAA MU GOSH

I

I SCREAMED AGAIN WHAT AY AY AY AY OLVIAII OLVIAIA SAAN KA NAAAAAAAA

GOOD GOSH- THIS IS WHY YOU WRITE DOWN ADDRESSES PEONY THIS IS WHY

Ay AYAYAYAYAYAY KING GEORGER CORBYN AYYYYYY

Oh. Oh right Merfyn and his uh COUGH COUGH. BLACK SMOKE. Ah.

Wait so- WAIT. OH THAT LITTLE SHIT. SO WAIT HE MEANT ALL THAT THE ENTIRE TIME. THAT LITTLE PRICK I SWEAR

Oh OH??? WELL DANG. AT LEAST HES BETTER AMIRIGHT-

Well crap thats THATA GONNA BE A SHORT ATORY ISNT IT

Blue pink?? TV GIR- NO NO NOT A TV GIRL REFERENCE DW

Woah WOAH WE GOING ALL NUMBERS NOW AY? THISLL BE INTEREATING NGL

I. Yeah uh COUGHS. A CERTAIN CAPRICORN WILL NOT BE PLEASED AT THAT MERFYN (the names are starting to confuse me IM SORRY)

ah gosh I GOTTA GO EAT SEC

AAAAAAAAA AI HAVE NEVER EATEN DINENR THAT FATS OGAHHSHS MY STOMAVH YEAH ITS GONNA EXPLODE

RIGHT BACK TO YEAH

My goah GOOD GOSH- MERFYN????? YOU PRICK YOUR LITERALLY MORE THAN A PRICJ NGL

Oh OG???????? NO WAY NO WAYAYHABDHDHDHAHAHHDDH

TAKE THAT KING II

Ah gosh KING GEORGE YOU DID THE ONLY THING YOU COULD DW

WAIT. LET ME PROCESS ALL OF THAY PLEASE

AY AYAYAYYYYYY BLUE PETER

HEREA TH MAN OF THE HOUR LETS GO LETA GOOOOO

Oh. Right good gosh- RIGHT. I KEEP FORGETTING THAT. OUGH. IT HURTS

WAAAAITYTT

I JUST SCREAMED IM SO SORY BUT GOODF SOH

STH AND EMOLY

Insrrt me reading all fo this wjusy speechless until-

"I just don't know! I'm confused, alright! What is this, a therapy session?!" I JUST. I BURSTED IM SORRY

THATS WHAT EVERY SCENE LIKE THIS FEELS LIKE GAGAHAHAHDGDHDHDH

IDK WHY I JUST BURSTED INTO LAUGHTER FOR THAT LONG DHFJFHJSHS

BACK TO SERIOUS MODE

Insrry me getting up and just ranting and rambling and sayung a kot after reading that yeah the thing Blue Oeter asked being "Are you offering mr a place on Sodor, sir?"

OHMYGAHAHAHAHAHGDJDUDDH

I COULDNT CONTAIN MYAELF I HAD TO I NEEDED TO JUST LET OUT ALL THE WORDS ALL THE SVREAMEA

MY GOASYJAJAJAIDH

I

IK SAINT MUNGO IS HAVIGN FUN WITH TORNADO AND CHARLIE

BUT GOOD GOSH HE NEEDS TO GET BACK TO BLUE OETER RN

RN. AS IN RN RN.

"AAGUWUAHABAAAAA MY THROAT" -what I just screamed out

Ay AY AY AY ITS THE BTI

WE'RE FINALLY HERE WITH THE AUSSIES LETS GO

Oh gosysb GREY GREY NONONOONONO

INSERT ME JUST AAYIMG VARIATIONS OD NO DONT DO IT IRL YEAH

OH THANK YOU PENDENNIS THANK GOD AND ABOVE GOSH

Ay ay AY AY

RIGHT TRURO- RIGHT. GOD UH. RIGHT

Bittern OFUJDDHDH I LOVE YOU GOOD GOSH FINALKY SOMEONE SAYING AOMETHING LIKE TGAT

"Course not! He's out in his human build right?" gREY MY GIRL HAGSHDHDH GOOD GOD

HDFHDJSHSH YEAH JUST CASUAL CASUAL

Ah God whos gonna tell Pendennis HAGHAGAHAGSHSGD

Insert me standong up just saying variations of oUGFFHHF and just irl jeyboard smashes

Insert me just being shocjed and hust rambling lshocked at what Horatio just did and how he looks

OHNSFAJAGAHAHHAHDD

PAUSE. SIT. CALM. I NEED TO PROCESS THAT

SERIOUSLY I MEAN. CONSIDERING HOW EXPOSED WE, THE READERS, ARE TO GDCS ALREADY I MEAN YEAH I WAS NEAR THE LEVEL OF SHOCK-NESS GREY AND GOLD HAD

Look LOOK IK ITS BEEN SAID LIKE HEY YEAH GDCS ARENT MUCH NORMAL AND YEAH MOST ENGINES ARENT AWARE OF THAT YADAYADAYADA YKNOW

but sraly I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS THIS SEVERE

Wait. QUICJSILVLERR?????

JAQUELINE- JAQULEINEGSHAJAAAAAAAAAAAA

OKAY IM YEAH YEAH

WDYM HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITG HER PAST??????

.

WAIT

HOW ON EARTH DOES JAQUELINE KNOW THAT. WAIT- IS SHE OKAY????????? NAH NAH SRSKY IS THIS WOMAN OKAY LIKE GOOD GOSH.

WDYM YOU JUST KNOW??????? WDYM. LIKE

WDYM RAT OUT TO THE GOLDEN ORDER???????

I

WHAT

WHTAAYAUAAAAAAAA

INSETRRYREY ME HAVING A HEART ATYACJ OHGMAUAUAOAB MERRY IS JAQUELINE BUT EAIT HOW I MEAM HOW HOW I JSYTS DID SHE DIE OR DID NORTH WHAT HUH WHAT HAPPEHHAJAAAAAAAAAA

[sherwoodknights]

SP 1999 EPISODE 1 LIVEBLOG

Opening titles slap pretty hard

Starting with a flashback, nice

IS THAT MARGUERITE AND ARMAND'S PARENTS? DID THEY SOMEHOW MANAGE TO MAKE ST CYR EVEN WORSE THAN BEFORE? WHAT THE FUCKKKK

"Learn from this!" Sir this is going to bite you so hard in the ass its unreal, and you deserve it

Why are they putting down newspaper lmao

Oh that's why okay

Is he a league member that theyve captured? Are the French actually semi-competent in this adaptation?

YOU DO NOT IMPLY THAT CHAUVELIN HAS BEEN RIPPING OFF TOENAILS AND THEN CUT TO THE NEXT SCENE WHATS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE

HERE COME THE LEAGUE LETS GOOOO

*does a gay little run that pisses you off*

Emilia fox will you marry me

OH MY GOD IT WAS ARMAND DOING THE GAY LITTLE RUN, BBC ARE FUELING MY GAY LITTLE ARMAND THOUGHTS

Excuse me bbc it has been almost 10 minutes and I have seen no Marguerite at all, you are depriving me of my wife

FUCKING HELL THATS FULL ON TORTURE THIS IS DARK

Richard E Grant you smooth mfer

They weren't joking that man really has no toenails left jesus

Forget my earlier comment, the French are still incompetent I guess

Oooooo chavvy wants to go to englandddd

Does this mean we get Marguerite soon? Please say we do

NOOOOOO DONT ARREST ARMAND LEAVE MY SON ALONE

DAMN ARMANDS GOT BITCHES

At least they're letting him get dressed before they arrest him

Awwwww he saved her, that's my boy

GET YOUR HANDS OFF THAT LITERAL CHILD YOU GROWN ASS SOLDIER FFS

Mr No Toenails is so gonna die

"Don't trust her" STOP BEING SO FUCKING OMINOUS BEFORE YOU DIE

MARGUERITE!!!!!!!!! Ough she's so gorgeous I want to dieeeeee

Oh fuck he totally took the guys words as "Don't trust Marguerite" goddammit

OH YEAH PERCY HOW DARE YOUR WIFE WHO YOU MARRIED WANT TO DANCE WITH YOU WHAT A TERRIBLE INSULT

Suzanne and Andrew <333333333

Percy Blakeney making sex jokes is something I never knew I needed

Marguerite St Just I would die for you

The only version of the pimpernel poem that rivals the musical in campiness

Chauvelin has no rizz, no matter how hard he may try

NOT PERCY SPILLING WINE ON CHAUVVYS CRAVAT

Percy basically just said "the cravat is the powerhouse of the cell"

Man's just wrote a dissertation on cravats

Ooooooooo the Prince is sassy

WHO JUST SLAPPED MY WIFE WHO DO I HAVE TO KILL

ANGELE ST CYR? OH FUCK THE GIRLS ARE GONNA BE FIGHTINGGGGG

Not this guy challenging percy to a duel while his voice sounds halfway to cracking through the whole speech

I could watch Richard E Grant's Percy all day oh my god

The guy they're about to guillotine looks like a sad puppy

Sleebpy Marguerite

They are literally so close to actual communication and talking through their issues that it HURTS, STOP BEING IDIOTS AND GET OVER YOURSELVES SO YOU CAN STOP BEING MISERABLEEEEEEEE

Ah here comes the Armand blackmail

Oooooo they're letting the marriage issues out at parties

HERE COME THE CHAMBERTIN JOKES

They're being so mean to him and its amazing

HOLY SHIT THEY HAVE HER TELL PERCY ABOUT ARMAND AS PERCY AND NOT THE PIMPERNEL! GO BBC YOU DO THAT FUNKY FAITHFUL ADAPTATION STUFF WE LOVE TO SEE IT

ST JUST BACKSTORY HAND IT OVER I CRAVE ITTTTTTT

PERCY YOU FUCKING LOSER HELP YOUR WIFE UGH YOURE SO MEAN TO HER

(I know he's going to do something but still I wish he could just tell her)

You go babygirl rip that letter from your husband up

Chauvvy with the hair down and morning hair <3

Get Chambertin's ass, Margot

MARGUERITE NO DONT TELL HIM THE HIDING PLACEEEE

Is she figuring it out? Did the injury give Percy away to her omg

SHES GOING TO THE STUDY BOYS SHES GONNA FIGURE HIM OUT

SECRET PIMPERNEL COMPARTMENT LETS GOOO

And that's where the episode ends!

So far I'm loving the show, following the book pretty comprehensively, and has managed to get plenty of the plot into a single episode, can't wait to see more

[2n2n]

Don’t you think Tsunene kiss is a bit early? Like Nene-chan barely KNOWS Tsukasa at this moment, she never questionned what happened in the Red House… I think I’d like to have seen it in volume 22 or later, when she was "more interested" in him. Nonetheless it’s freaking interesting because she knows he’s a Yorishiro, so maybe he will try to convince her to destroy him……: so many possibilities

Why does Nene-chan need to know much about Tsukasa in order to be kissed by him? He's a social reject undead 13 year old ... While I understand if it is outside of your taste, it makes typical sense for a pairing in this manga, specifically. I'm not sure how much you think Hanako knows about Nene-chan, early manga, when he begins flirting with her… ? Doesn't our manga OPEN with Hanako doing some quite out of pocket things, drawing Nene-chan into being confused & questioning of his intentions towards her? She questions his sincerity all the way up to the Far Shore ... the Yugi man... you're asking too much for any twin to do things in the right order at the right time.........

Hanako, day 1 meeting Nene-chan, asserts them as a 'couple',

and QUICKLY sets into AGGRESSIVELY flirting with her! He admits to not caring about her life at this point-- this is purely physical ... (the sincerity comes later.)...

Amane wastes no time "getting to know" or "becoming interested in" Nene-chan, he does not give her much time or opportunity to "get interested in" or "get to know" him.

Hanako, meanwhile, he is quite immediately captivated by Nene-chan at first sight…

and binds her to him quickly. And that is a beautiful/romantic thing for our fated lovers.

Not long into their friendship (which can only exist in the brief hours between and after classes, give or take some spare moments), Hanako is kissing her …

How much does Nene-chan know about Amane, here, in volume 2? Any more than she knows about Tsukasa, right now? Arguably less???

Amane at age 8 is flirting with Nene-chan and asserting she is his type in, oh surely only an hour at best, of knowing her… he's a kid, his feelings are simple…

This isn't bad writing or something, it's just AidaIro's preference for romance; quite instant. Sumire did not know anything about Hakubo, when meeting him, but he was a handsome guy, she childishly and immediately is in love, and is in love for good! Who is to say a quickly-and-stupid-onset-romance can't become something earthshattering and beautiful? Who is to say a childish, impulsive start, ignorant of each other, is sloppy or 'too quick'? That's just an odd criticism to me, as a fan of all the pairings in this manga. I think KouMitsu is THE slowest individuals out here, and legitimately it's so slow for me it's unromantic fkldsfjslgg.glkjkljl.... meeting someone, forgetting about them,, keep forgetting about them,, have other crush, is like, ough its a struggle for me. Not how MY romance worked LOL!

While it took a long time for HanaNene to kiss on the lips, that has a LOT more to do with AMANE's specific hang-ups about vulnerability, fear of being attached, avoidance to take things seriously… his concept of 'having no future' and etc !! THINGS TSUKASA DOES NOT HAVE… as Tsukasa is not repressed, like Amane! I think if Amane was true to his heart, he'd have kissed Nene-chan full-on much sooner, but he's naturally avoidant of confession and earnestness!!! Amane would wait for the other party to confess, rather than confess himself! Amane is defensive and rude!!! Tsukasa is simply the type to not hide anything he's feeling. So a mouth kiss is easier for him to, do.

By comparison to Amane, in some respects, Tsukasa has been quite slow and observant… lol. I would argue Tsukasa has offered her more information & background on both himself and Amane in his forays with her, leading her to the bookstacks, to nowhere, meeting her at the Red House... though he has had less two-sided conversation, less time. These are interesting differences. I don't see how one is worse or more rapidfire. Amane hides his truth & lies a lot. If not for Tsukasa, Nene-chan would not know enough about Amane to fall so hard for him, perhaps. Through Amane's romance with her, Tsukasa gets to see quite a lot of Nene's personality. HanaNene in this way fuels TsuNene, and vice versa.

I think Tsukasa has observed Nene-chan quite a lot, is childish, and has precious little social connections at all; I think Nene-chan stands out A LOT! We know Tsukasa observes a lot of what goes on, truly at an unknown frequency. I think he could know as much about Nene-chan as Amane does, though as mostly an observer ... though, we don't know what sort of development they could have when Tsukasa is 12 (: Tsukasa's timeline is funky ! Disordered !!! He can't act normal, haha.

Tsukasa is childish… for Tsukasa, I think the kiss makes sense. I'm only shocked that little guy can really just up and kiss a girl ... I feel like it's taken him quite a long time .... she made her first impression when he was 4 ... much to daydream about, that mysterious girl.

Nene-chan had been lost & confused the entire early portion of Amane's pursuing of her... I'm afraid these Yugi twins both have poor romantic candor. They're quite insistent, aren't they? You have no idea if they like you or not, you get harassed, you get grabbed and pulled around and kissed willy-nilly with no explanation at all, you get suddenly claimed as property and made to follow commands … ! I'm afraid both Yugi are like that to Nene-chan, so I do not see why Tsukasa is unbelievable or too fast with it…!

Criticizing the trajectory and then immediately thinking of the destruction... I'm not with you anon, as much as I think Tsukasa being open to Nene-chan destroying him is in and of itself huge and romantic of him, a beautiful display of trust, placing her into the same position he would place Amane in.... I would like them to finally talk, alone, especially given time is frozen, and Tsukasa has longer than the duration of a school day ... I hope he can take her someplace the frozen clock can't effect... she has so much to process hahahaha ... she just starts accepting one Yugi twin likes her, and here comes the other one kissing her without a proper explanation ....

[get-your-fuckin-star-bitch]

[WRITER’S NOTE: This has been sitting in a Google doc for almost two weeks now, so not all information is still relevant. Namely, Michael actually went out to get info about the End avatar that was killing people using their dreams.]

[Nevertheless, here you go. Have fun!]

Hospital visit probably happened because of an encounter Michael had with whatever would have attacked Gertrude? (M87?)

It’s literally the only statement she recorded post-twisting. Idk why. Actually, I could be completely wrong- I’m going to check.

It is.

So why hadn’t she gone out and done it herself….?

What was she doing instead? The twisting didn’t work anyway, is that why? Is she starting to get conflicting feelings about what she’s been doing?

I mean, she obviously hates that Michael’s wrapped up in this. The pain coming from her whenever she talks about Michael is palpable.

She’s guilty. (“I’m so sorry” started playing. Yep.)

Shame about having almost let Michael get killed to stop a ritual that wouldn’t have even worked is… holding her back. Significantly.

I’m not sure it was the thing that attacked Gertrude that got Michael hurt. I think he was trying to help with something dangerous cause- well, y’know. Worrying about her well-being and all that.

He “wasn’t going to use the knife”, though..? Why not? What was it that he went after- I’m gonna look through statements and see what happened around that time.

OK - Gertrude might have been worrying about whether or not to even try and pursue Manuela Dominguez’s threats. Michael, meanwhile????? Buddy what were you doing?????

OOHHHHHH

OKAY

GERARD DIED BEFORE THAT DATE

So Michael had already discovered the Book of the Trapped Dead- could be seen as him taking initiative, I guess, but I’m PRETTY sure he’s just flat-out freaked out and trying to maybe do something about it?

Oohhhhh wait-

Dark ritual.

Possible that he went after it to try and fix stuff?

(Nope.)

(What was it then-)

(Not stranger, not flesh)

(??!?!??? Spiral????? Not intentionally?)

Ohhhhhhh what if he was trying to confront whatever attacked his friend- and something tried attacking him?

And THEN he fell on the knife?

Wouldn’t that have been too far away for him to be able to get to the institute in time?

OUGH- ‘Kay, too much info at once. Whoops.

Think he thought he saw something, had the knife ready, and then got scared and accidentally stabbed himself?

Attempting to confront Gertrude????????????????? No, Doesn’t make sense.

Need to unscramble the events.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Ok. Fuckit. I think this was supposed to have happened sort of shortly after Gerard died.

NOT on April 4th. Because THAT doesn’t make any goddamn SENSE. (Apparently that’s unimportant oh well)

Michael Wasn’t going to give a statement… eventually sort of started to, but then got really nervous and asked to leave. (Feeling like he was being watched/judged)

Methinks elias doth watch too much :(

Though… perhaps Gertrude might think that she could use that?

No, apparently she doesn’t know.

Michael HATES the feeling of everything he does being watched and scrutinized. And he has to work there all the time- Elias’s probably having a fucking FEAST. I hate him.

Michael finds out a few more things (dunno what)

Then dark week happens?

Elias tries to get rid of Michael and Gertrude in one fell swoop. Secretly makes sure Michael “forgets” something at the office, then causes him to pass out somehow and lights a fire before coming down to meet Gertrude.

But the distortion saves Michael, though probably unintentionally.

OOH THE BOOK COULDN’T BE BURNED JUST LIKE HOW THE DOOR COULDN’T BE BURNED

Gertrude still had the map, I’m sure-

UNLESS SHE LOST IT

FROM FALLING OVERBOARD

OOOOOOOOH

Anyway

Michael the archivist — what will he do? Not be happy, for starters. He doesn’t know that Gertrude wanted Sasha for the job, because he and Gertrude hadn’t been talking that much shortly before everything happened.

But because he’s supposed to be supervising/working alongside people, he ends up awkwardly befriending Sasha and Tim (properly this time).

Jon’s almost always working, but Michael feels like he’s actually able to “get” him a little better than the others most of the time. He’s just less… confusing, more obvious about his intentions, and doesn’t do that frustrating double-meaning thing that other people do that makes him feel stupid. (Autism autism autism autism autismmmmmmmmm) Plus, Jon reminds him of Gertrude a lot, which is oddly comforting. (Platonic. Michael, as far as I’m aware, is aro/ace.)

Michael probably says something about worrying that they could lose the statements to another fire or something, and Jon, of course, suggests recording them onto a “less flammable” medium.

But Michael can’t record the statements, cause every time he starts to, he gets that feeling like something’s watching him, and nearly has a panic attack/nervous breakdown, forcing him to stop.

He doesn’t know that Jon’s been recording some statements himself, he just notices that Jon seems a little more high-strung than usual (and is trying to hide it.)

The door can enter the archives, but only ever does it when no one else is around (attempting to get Michael to believe that he really IS going insane)

Eventually he can’t take it anymore and just leaves his office and asks Jon if he can just do his work in Jon’s office.

Jon initially asks why, of course, but Michael’s expression kind of conveys the idea that he a) doesn’t have the ability to explain and b) doesn’t really feel comfortable discussing it. Jon warily suggests that Sasha might be a better work companion than he is, but Michael just looks even more nervous about that idea, and so Jon allows him in.

This is when he finds out that Jon’s been reading statements.

It’s simultaneously REALLY neat and unnerving to hear Jon reading them. He only realizes he’s staring when Jon glances up and asks if he’s alright/if the reading’s too distracting.

Michael just kinda wordlessly shakes his head, though when he gets back to his work and Jon starts again, he finds himself getting lost in the words and seeing everything Jon’s describing in his head like a nightmarish daydream.

It’s… kind of terrifying- the fear of the person who’d given the statement comes through in waves from the narration that Jon’s doing. Although, once Jon’s done recording, Michael feels a bit tired, as if he’d just tried to do three hours worth of work in a single hour. He gets up, saying he’s got to go lie down because he’s suddenly tired.

He takes the handle of the door, noticing only dimly that it feels different from the one he’d walked in through — sort of gives him a tingling sensation in his hand — and without taking a moment to think more deeply about this strange feeling, he walks right in to the twisting deceit.

He doesn’t seem to realize that the hallways are wrong when the familiar turns do not show themselves along the route they’re supposed to be found on.

Or that they do not move, no matter how far he walks down them.

It is only when he stops, tries to move backwards, that everything stutters forwards, and an overwhelming dizziness knocks him to the floor.

Or- the wall? He knew he must have fallen — he’d felt it, he’d definitely fallen — but now at his back was a wall. And the floor sat firmly beneath his feet, and the hallway kept stretching… up? No, it was forward now.

He tried turning.

The hall stayed exactly where it was, in front of him, stretching far out beyond his visual range.

The growing panic in his chest crescendo’d as his footsteps began to fall upon dark, crimson lines.

At this point, he had already started to become aware of his situation, in some corner of his mind. So the scene presenting itself to him only came as salt in the wound, teasing that fear that had started to bite at his lungs.

Scrabbling, bloody hand-marks and currents of red, stretching down the hallway like a gruesomely painted pattern. At first, there were only the signs of a single person’s gruesome death at the hands of whatever this place was, but soon other shadows of nasty fates began appearing on the walls, the doors, everything Michael could see, until the entire hall was dark with frantically splattered, dripping, metallic-scented blood.

He knew where he was now, and the knowledge sat in his chest like a heavy, sharp-edged stone.

This was it.

He was going to become one of these grotesque, scared paintings on the walls.

He wondered, for a brief, painful moment, if one of these might have been Ryan.

But he knew that Ryan’s body had been found. It was not here with him.

He almost wished it had been taken into this place. So that perhaps he could at least die knowing a friend was at rest here, too, sleeping somewhere nearby-

But he wouldn’t have been sleeping soundly if he were here, would he.

Michael certainly wouldn’t be.

A small, strangled sound came from somewhere in the hall, and after a moment, Michael realized it had been made by him. There were tears rolling down his face, unnoticed by him until droplets started to fall from his chin, and with that awareness came the awareness of a horrible pit in his stomach, and the need to collapse. To sit down, on the ground, and just wait. He did not want to keep going. He didn’t want to keep moving. But the floor was too slick with gore, and every pause sent him tumbling even faster forward, and so he walked.

Every miserable step feeling automatic and monotonous.

The specifics of the surroundings had simply started to become abstractions in his mind, as he’d given up on trying to focus on or make any real sense of them, and in a way, that scared him much less. Perhaps it was just the exhaustion making his senses less sharp, but he was starting to feel less like he was losing it, and more like he was stuck in some sort of really bad dream.

Ryan had just had really bad schizophrenia, and Michael was now just dreaming, because he had been terrorized by a freaky, mysterious door, and had been lulled asleep by the sound of Jon reading those statements of other people who’d gotten similar things happening to them.

He knew this was bullshit, and so did the halls. The blood was no longer plastering the place, he now noticed, but still the hall led on. And on. And on.

Michael tried not to pay attention to the hallways as they changed… at least, not until there no longer seemed to be any there.

At this point, his mind seemed to have adapted to the overwhelming sense of inescapable doom, and a despairing numbness had settled over him until now.

For a moment, he was relieved, and began to walk faster, hoping this could finally be an exit… only to slam right into a wall.

One he could not see. And there was a reflection in it- a mirror.

Except…

…the hand in the mirror was not his.

He couldn’t seem to find the strength to scream as he pulled his hand back, away from the mirror, just as the thing’s fingers tried to close around his hand. He ran, tried to go another direction, and hit another glass wall. He couldn’t make sense of any of it, couldn’t tell where anything was. The patterns of glass and empty space between them seemed to just keep spinning and shifting, and whenever he thought he might finally understand the pattern, it would change again, and he would narrowly missed the grasping fingers reaching out to him through another mirrored wall.

He could hear the creature’s laughter echoing- no- no, that wasn’t quite right, it didn’t echo. The noise… twisted around itself, somehow- it… undulated, and split, and distorted. And it hurt. It hurt his ears and his head and every part of him to listen to.

He wanted to snap and scream for it to shut up, but he knew that would do nothing.

It is in every mirror now, Its many forms distorting and undulating in grotesque, unearthly ways, like twisting clay being molded and shaped and reshaped by some invisible hand, every single one of the shapes still laughing.

He cannot even see his own reflection, there are too many of them, and for one horrible moment, he considers that perhaps the distorted shadowy forms are simply all his.

He doesn’t look down to check and see if it isn’t true.

He doesn’t want to.

The rationalization that this might be all a dream is swiftly slipping away, and soon he can no longer keep his hold on this hope. It is all he can do to keep running. Dodging the swirling figures and their grasping, clawing hands, like lumps of clay grotesquely stretched and molded into an approximation of a human form.

And then his hand hit a wall.

There had been no warning before the thing grabbed him, only a sudden jerk, and flashing scream of pain from his arm as he tried to wrench it away, screaming for help to no one and nothing but the thick, swirling air.

It was dragging him towards the foggy glass, and he helplessly watched as his hand touched the glass… and slipped through, as though the surface was merely water.

The sensation was… unimaginable. Indescribable. And it tore through his hand, which was no longer really a hand, because it… it… wasn’t. It wasn’t anything. It was undulating, spiraling away from the arm that was being tugged through the mirror, but he could barely feel it, and yet feel all of it. All of it, everywhere around him.

The place was… it felt like it was digesting him.

But as he registered this, feeling a scream stick fast in his throat, he noticed a faint spot of feeling where the spirals did not touch. His shoulder was about to sink in, and as he felt it touch the surface and begin to unravel and spiral, twisting and turning through the halls he could not see but feel, he shut his eyes and willed every part of himself into and through the gap. Trying to keep his hold on himself for long enough and securely enough to-

And almost as quickly as it had started… it stopped.

There is a floor beneath him, but it isn’t the floor of the twisting hallways. It is solid, and unchanging, and very, very real.

His legs buckle beneath him, and he collapses to the ground, sobbing with relief as the terror he’s been locked in for what had felt like hours finally flows out of him, draining away into his surroundings.

At some point, someone finds him there on the floor, and he’s taken to the breakroom, where he gets plenty of water, not quite enough food, and more than enough questions.

He’s just relieved to be alive. And he’s too tired to answer too many questions, so they eventually leave him alone. He sleeps in the archives that night, feeling too exhausted to take a ride home.

It’s far from a comfortable sleep. But for some reason, it’s the most restful one he’s had in a while.

[flatstarcarcosa]

crawling in via your window for numbers 4 and 5 with Slade 👀

4) No couple is going to agree 100% of the time. What is the main source of any disagreement between you? Is it the same topic for all parties, or do you have different sticking points? Has this ever caused a row?

OUGH okay so i've mentioned before 'reese and lester yelling is a love language' versus 'reese and slade yelling means something is very wrong' because slade's not naturally a yeller Like That.

so that being said, one of the nastiest fights we've ever gotten into was actually about joey. (an aside for context: i follow the rebirth story as a main timeline because it's just easier, but largely pick and choose/blend what things have happened prior to us meeting)

i have a whole post about it somewhere but basically it comes from months and months of me trying to discuss with him that like hey. you're aware your son is a massive junkie right?

like i love the kid but he's Not Doing Fucking Good and the shit that he's into with painkillers and benzos isn't gonna end well. body hopping does nothing against acute organ failure because you made a Death Cocktail by accident.

and slade doesn't want to hear it he doesn't want to discuss it, frankly he's refusing to even accept it. he figures "joe's an adult and i'm not going to tell him what he can and can't do, besides he wouldn't listen to me anyway" and i'm like hmmmm no i can promise you no matter the bullshit that's gone on he desperately would want you to fucking help him.

and i'm like, "are you forgetting or just ignoring that i also know what i'm fucking talking about when it comes to addicts like the "child of addict" to "addict" pipeline is very well traveled in my household"

and he just kinda fucking snaps. and it gets. nastier from there until there's enough back and forth that it's the one and only time in our relationship where he is genuinely so fucking mad he has the gut reflex to want to hit me.

he doesn't, and i can't stress that enough, and never has outside of our mutual playfighting or genuine training.

but it's just. it's enough that he took half a step to fucking do it that it shocks him cold.

because he's spent a lot of time and years and effort into telling himself he's NOT his father and wouldn't BE his father and now at the end of it all he's having. to accept the fact that like.

maybe he's a little bit of his own father.

5) Your FO has upset you (perhaps because of the above) and now wants to make amends. How do they do it? And has this changed over time as they’ve gotten to know you better?

barring the above singular big ass fight there's times where his method of showing he cares backfires. sometimes it really feels less like caring out of love and more like lecturing for the sake of lecturing and sometimes he's bad at parsing if i'm whining about it for The Bit or if i'm genuinely bothered until i'm Genuinely Fucking Upset about it.

also, the hilarious-in-hindsight plan he concocted to try to get me over my money trauma by just letting me go shop and pick out things on impulse but then i started hemming and hawing and second guessing and it just ended up with me sobbing in the middle of target.

it's funny in hindsight but at the time it happened because of too many things causing me to get overstimulated and my brain to shut down and me getting upset and loudly announcing that this wasn't fun anymore because "I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE RIGHT FUCKING ANSWER IS AND I WANT TO GO HOME"

which prompted him to realize he took it too far, and a very soft "oh, honey-"

[todayisafridaynight]

NO LITERALLY SGKSDHGSK ME @ YOKOYAMA RN

I know Arakawa's thing is just a flashback (similar to Kazama in K2, I guess) but since it's still a new cutscene... what are we cooking here... and what ARE we cooking with Jo...

Jo still Gets Me because Yes I Revel In His Misery And I Love His Hair but also because of how long Arakawa withheld from even writing to Ichi, let alone EVER visiting, despite how much it was killing him not to. And I imagine Jo probably encouraged him not to on top of him already feeling like he shouldn't, if Arakawa ever confided in him about some of the stuff in his letter (and. y'know. he seems to confide almost everything in him).

Like empathizing, feeling at least A Little bad, but not having anything to say except to just forget about Ichi because that's how he's always dealt with things. And Arakawa going along with it like okay :(... I guess you're right :(... (not indefinitely though. also I am fully aware I am just making shit up but Please Bear With Me Is It Not Plausible)

So for Ichi to talk to Jo just 5 years later (at most)... even if it's just for plot reasons, like if Jo has Important Info... I'm still OUGH. Especially because the only prison visitations I can even recall outside of Judgment are Kiryu seeing Kazama and Daigo seeing Kiryu (in RGGO), both father figures.

Also here is the rest of Super Salaryman! Subs are in folder; a little less convenient than being able to stream but. Y'know. It Is An Option

thinking of the period where masato's sent to america and ichi's spending his first few years in prison ALWAYS guts me, especially if we wanna accept the possibility of jo going to america as well as more likely than not

in the event jo does stay behind, that's GOTTA suck especially: even if jo himself isn't amiable with ichi, he undoubtedly knows how much arakawa cares about him. it's one thing if arakawa is holding himself back from seeing ichi, but if it's jo stepping in to stop arakawa from seeing someone he undoubtedly loves, it's just more salt in the wound (extra bonus points if at this point jo has the vague idea ichi is arakawa's kid, or at least knows arakawa treats ichi like a second son. something something 'how would jo feel if he was being kept from seeing masato' something something). especially when jo isn't even equipped to properly consolidate how arakawa would be feeling: he only knows how to rationalize the need to stay away, he doesn't know how to emotionally take care of him

alternatively- if jo is ALSO gone and it's just arakawa and his duties/himself stopping himself from seeing ichi- it's even worse. of course, he has the arakawa family to keep him company, but his own personal family's so far from him now: there isn't really anyone to comfort him the way only close family could, not when his whole family has to be away from him because of one incident

SO TRUE in that the only prison visits in rgg really are only between father figures and their children (sin shinji in 1 but he was delivering an excommunication notice alright…… we get one exception)… i WILL take the semblance of familyhood between jo and ichi like Again they'll never be as close as arakawa and ichi were but ill take the bittersweetness of it all.. its good for the heart me thinks..

OH AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE SS SUBS !! anythings better than nothing in my book so i definitely appreciate the effort done to get these ♪(´▽｀)

[natsubane]

it's been a month since i finished days. whoops!

i already had super high expectations for days because mage had been whispering in my ear about it, and i'm still working on the secret reports for this while i don't have a ton of time on my hands but god i fucking enjoyed days. i think it's now been too long since i played it so it's not fresh any more but i still should talk about it before i forget so.

the story makes it so easy to care about the characters and i think it brings out each individual personality very well! roxas is a really interesting narrator to watch the developments with because of how he doesn't know anything and doesn't even have memories, and also how easily influenced he can be by the other org members because of it... and also watching how he grows while knowing where he ends up in kh2 just. hurts? you see him being happy and hanging out with his friends and then you remember that he cannot win his fight with sora for his right to be himself... (maybe this is also influenced by the awful /pos posts i see often about roxas and resentment and just in general how little the narrative cares about what he actually wants. but. yeah)

i remember talking a bit about unreliable narrators while i was reading the story? i think it's an especially enjoyable experience because of what we've learned about nobodies in kh2 (like how they supposedly don't have hearts? i went through a lot of days knowing that the nobodies do feel emotions and hearing them repeat that they don't have hearts to feel with over and over they don't when you can see roxas clearly having feelings more and more as time passes... is a compelling argument for the unreliability of the knowledge you get, or at the very least this specific statement) and how biased sora is against them in comparison (to go as far as antagonising them on the spot, which is one thing i didn't exactly like when i was playing kh2... i really wished we got to see them integrate the org into the story better and understand them before we take them out). in that sense i'm really glad that days gives you the opportunity to actually get to know the nobodies, especially the ones that you don't get to see in depth in com! (this is how i ended up getting interested in demyx? the fact that apparently we don't know anything about him still also bumps my enjoyment of him up quite a bit? he's so funny. tell me more about him.) (i'm also glad we got to see their side of their goal and the justifications they have for pursuing them...! even if they sound like a fucking cult!)

anyway, roxas not knowing anything and the org deliberately keeping him in the dark about everything was really fun to read because. you can tell all he wants is to chill out with his friends and eat ice cream after missions and instead the people around him treat him like a tool and have plans for him and xion and keeping him in the dark so that they can use him better is just the best way of handling things to them... you really can feel how frustrated he is by the end and how he's doubting everything he's been taught because of all the times he's been brushed off and not been told the truth. and you can see the moments when the carefully constructed and curated web of (rather, lack of) information around him (and xion, too) starts to crumble and he starts fighting to get out... even at the end after he decides to choose his own path and be willing to fight for it (while being able to see the consequences of xion fighting)... without truly finding out who he is or being able to find his own purpose or anything, he ends up immediately getting violently thrown into a situation completely out of his control and this time it feels like the world itself is straight up poking fun at him? and still nobody is telling him anything? and when he does things he actually wants to do he ends up being punished and feeling alienated for it? like as i kept playing i kept thinking ough..... no wonder roxas is so easy to like... he's just a guy trying to find purpose and meaning for himself in a place where he isn't even allowed to want that and it fucks me up tbh

i'd heard that seasalt trio were the best-written trio friendship in the series and yeah i can fucking tell why. and you're telling me these guys don't even fully understand what friendship is? man. it was genuinely really enjoyable watching them just chill and banter over ice cream? i honestly really enjoyed the "friends are people you eat ice cream with" thing because of how sincerely it's taken and how much roxas and xion believe in it... i can still hear that "who else am i gonna eat ice cream with?" line clear as day from day 357... i also still feel ill about the line namine says about not expecting them to try so hard to become their own people... in the end neither of them end up being allowed to become their own person after all... ough......

also now knowing how roxas left axel by the end makes me feel even More ill about axel dying before he could see roxas again properly... i liked seeing the contrast of axel with roxas and xion, and seeing how they bring out a more caring side of him even if he ends up doing his tough love thing... but he's still the one who brings them together by saying that if they remember each other they'll always be together... and he's the one who says they're best friends... i'm glad we get to see him and understand why he was so desperate in kh2, i'm glad we get to know him... i can tell there's still a lot to uncover about this guy but he's a fun guy... i want to see him again.........

i've probably forgotten tons of points i wanted to say here but it was a fun game!!! i enjoyed the gameplay as well and i enjoyed the perspective it gave on the previous games! i'd really like to go back to kh2 prologue and also com to better understand what happened there as well, but since i'm kinda gauntletting these games and i'm pretty busy recently it's hard to find time for it... i will do my best to enjoy the games as much as i can......!