#ough I'm dying

[synthshenanigans]

Chonny's very first song vs his most recent song

Instrumental Links:

backlit by moonlight. [There is no official isolated instrumental so you'd just have to listen to the song & ignore the lyrics. Blame CJ/j]

20XX

[Reblog for more of a sample size if you'd like]

[skrunksthatwunk]

thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

[princyvish]

day three! Domestic modern fluff because I cant angst for the life of me

[mulderscully]

if i come into work with my period i should be paid $10000 an hour

[eff-plays]

People: Omg Davrin is a Grey Warden who rejected his culture how very fresh and original BioWare 🙄

Davrin: Wanna come herd halla with me? 👉👈🥺

[hero-of-the-wolf]

ALRIGHT WHAT'S ON FIRE

[altruistic-meme]

well i survived the drive to work. here's to hoping ill make it through the shift 🫡

[babacontainsmultitudes]

80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.

[ribcagebonemeal]

OKAY GUYS im back with thoughts on abbey road cd, the listening was mediocre. Because I was playing roblox as well, BUT i was paying attention Trust. BUT ABBEY ROAD IS STILL AMAZING TO ME!!!! Only song I really changed my mind on was carry that weight, LOVE it now. along with basically the rest of the album. I stopped doing everything when something play though.... george harrison when I catch you...

i also listened to with the beatles again because i just had the urge to. sorry for the lack of enthusiasm last post, I LOVE THAT ALBUM!!! that's all I got actually im suffering immense pain

[chanrizard]

save me kpop boy in my phone.......

[samantha-and-her-chaotic-desires]

FIC REC!!! :D

^I've been stuck on this fanfiction for a long time. Genuinely I am foaming at the mouth on how @cappecat writes Zib's and Mordecai's interactions. The way everything just flows together coherently is a masterpiece on it's own.

OH and it's Zib x Mordecai. :3 I am a SUCKER for this pair!! Despite me only really posting about Hellerby, this ship has a soft place in my heart. Please please PLEASE check this out!!!

(also cappecat I hope you don't mind me tagging you I spontaneously combusted when I connected two and two and realized you and a tumblr /pos)

that's all from me! <3

[estellardreams]

LOOK AT THIS ITS SO COOL!!!

[lord-squiggletits]

I must admit I'm getting this horrible image in my head of Tarn as that type of creepy guy who donates way too much money to a streamer and then absolutely loses it when he hears they're not single.

That's probably accurate lol. Although unlike (seemingly) most people in this fandom, I blame Megatron more for turning Tarn into that kind of obsessed freak than I do Tarn for being a freak. I mean, my view is basically "you reap what you sow/the monster you created turned around and bit you" so I don't really have sympathy for Megatron with regards to Tarn showing up and ruining his life lol. I actually really like the DJD coming in MTMTE as basically the living embodiment of karma and Megatron's comeuppance about not being able to run away from/ignore his past.

Like blah blah "no matter how sad your backstory is you're still responsible for your own actions" but also Megatron is literally 100% the reason Tarn is Like That, and Megatron also used parasocial manipulation, propaganda, and his grandiose personality to manipulate the Decepticons into worshipping/following him without question. So like. It's fiction, I don't have to be all "well they're all problematic" I can just be like "lol, lmao even" and point and laugh as Megatron gets fucked up by Tarn and the DJD because he can't talk his way out of this problem.

[l0stw00d]

mildly despairing at how difficult it is to draw atm. i have shit thats Due soon. pls.

[petewentz-]

[elminster-big-naturals]

so i finally finished my main playthrough last night and i WAS planning on jumping straight into my dark astarion/gale game next...but durge is calling my name...but the more i hear about durge the more i wanna do durge/astarion bc their dynamic is giving me brain damage...but that means regardless of whether i play durge or astarion origin first that's three astarion-centric playthroughs and i had promised myself i would try to not limit my choices so much...but i love him...