#otp: life is cyclical

[metamelonisle]

Our circle of shared instrests is limited ao uhhhh the ask thing for rosalina :)

im gonna assume this is the rosalina from super mario galaxy who i think about a normal amount (lie)

sexuality headcanon: asexual

otp: N/A

brotp: Lubba. they used to be star sailors back in the day and they still have a strong bond with each other that persists even now. they're like old friends. rosalina sees most of the lumas as her children, but polari is more like her uncle, and lubba more like a brother or old friend

notp: N/A (anyone)

first headcanon that pops into my head: because she left earth so early into her life she barely remembers what's normal for humans at this point but she's so stoic and serious all the time that she will say the most out-of-pocket shit without knowing why people are choking back laughter

favorite line from this character: just. her entire speech about the cyclical nature of the universe at the end of the original Super Mario Galaxy. it's beautiful. it made me cry.

one way in which I relate to this character: obsessed with space and eats weird things off the ground sometimes without hesitation

thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: being pigeonholed as the "third princess" which is something she did not ask for or even want. she's literally just an astronaut AND a milf

cinnamon roll or problematic fave?: cinnamon roll. people only hate rosalina to be a contrarian and we all know it

[devittprinces]

seth believes

[wychelm]

Julian and Thomas for the ask game :)

Hell yes, thank you!

Julian

A song that reminds me of them:

Right the normal answer would be Asphyxia by The Network or Everywhere I Go by Hollywood Undead but I'm not feeling normal tonight, so:

Leaving New York by R.E.M.

"You might have laughed if I told you You might have hidden your frown You might have succeeded in changing me I might have been turned around It's easier to leave than to be left behind Leaving was never my proud Leaving New York, never easy I saw the light fading out

Now life is sweet, and what it brings I tried to take But loneliness, it wears me out, it lies in wait And all not lost, still in my eye Shadow of necklace across your thigh I might have lived my life in a dream, but I swear it, this is real Memory fuses and shatters like glass Mercurial future, forget the past But it's you, it's what I feel"

This song just, like, kills me. Kind of cheating because it's also a Julian/Cap song for me (the one I've been listening to on repeat to get through a certain scene in Termites). The crux of it for me is Julian being utterly incapable of staying in one place, he just runs away from everything, all the time! Runs away from affection, from his family, from home; he's always leaving.

Sorry to be wanky but there's this bit in D. H. Lawrence's Studies in American Literature that I read at uni that really really stuck with me, where he talks about Melville & running away:

"As a matter of fact, a long thin chain was round Melville's ankle at the time, binding him to America, to civilization, to democracy, to the ideal world. It was a long chain, and it never broke. It pulled him back.

By the time he was twenty-five his wild oats were sown; his reckless wanderings were over. At the age of twenty-five he came back to Home and Mother, to fight it out at close quarters. For you can't fight it out by running away. When you have run a long way from Home and Mother, then you realize that the earth is round, and if you keep on running you'll be back on the same old doorstep - like a fatality.

Melville came home to face out the long rest of his life. He married and had an ecstasy of a courtship and fifty years of disillusion."

I am just really obsessed with this sort of cyclical tragedy of characters trying to run away from home/comfort/love/family because it's dull, but "the earth is round" so they always come back to it eventually. But they also keep making the same mistakes (cheating on Margot, spending Christmas getting fucked with strippers instead of being a father to Rachel) because the allure of them is ever-shiny and exciting, but ultimately they're unfulfilling.

Anyway, Julian is always walking away from things, I don't think he knows how to stay, even when he wants to or knows it's the right thing to do, because he's just sort of going through the motions automatically, playing the role he knows how to play. And I think on some level he's so terrified of being left that he makes sure he's always the one who leaves first, which I guess is what the song is about: what might have been if you could bring yourself to stay, but you can't stay, because it's not who you are, even though you want to stay, you want to be the kind of person who stays.

(And the Julian/Cap bit comes from breaking this cycle! "I might have lived my life in a dream, but I swear it, this is real / Memory fuses and shatters like glass / Mercurial future, forget the past / But it's you, it's what I feel" :idk:)

(Typing this out made me feel like a fucking headcase lmfao)

What they smell like:

Awful cologne, sex, champagne, stale sweat, hair gel, plus whatever Lindsey smelled like

An otp:

Julian/Cap!!!!!

A notp:

I guess like Julian/Kitty?! Other than that I enjoy him whoring himself out to the whole house

Favourite platonic/familial relationships:

JULIAN AND PAT, obsessed with them. Literally nothing in common except for being on planet Earth at the same time (along with several billion other people), but in the afterlife that extremely nothingy connection becomes HUGE

A headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that I disagree with:

I guess I don't really agree or disagree with headcanons because they're headcanons, idk. I'm a gay!Julian truther I guess

The position they sleep in:

He can sleep in absolutely any position, but the more it resembles being passed out on a stranger's bathroom floor, the more comforting he finds it. And with a partner, I imagine he's always the one sprawling all over them and clinging like a limpet haha

A crossover AU I’d love to see them in:

I honestly can't think of one but I do want a TTOI-style sitcom about Julian & co in the 70s/80s/90s tbh

My favourite outfit they’ve ever worn:

Okay, well, I'm a big fan of the classic Nakey Legs look, and I've always hated the one he wears outside the club in the Christmas ep, but upon rewatching recently.......... I'm so far up this man's ass that unfortunately I'm starting to enjoy it, especially the top few buttons being open, woof

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Thomas

A song that reminds me of them:

You Have Killed Me by Morrissey

A little on the nose, but here you go:

"I entered nothing and nothing entered me 'Til you came with the key And you did your best but As I live and breathe You have killed me You have killed me Yes I walk around somehow But you have killed me You have killed me"

Thomas having no experience, no relationships that amounted to anything until Isabelle, and there was so much potential, but then! Well, he dies, so :/

What they smell like:

Ink, blood, horses, grass, wine

An otp:

Julian/Thomas is very good, and I like to think about Thomas/Byron in the abstract but I find it quite hard to visualise

A notp:

I'm not sure I mind any of them? Kitty/Thomas maybe, though I do want them to have a closer relationship. Just not... like that! Also Alison/Thomas.

Favourite platonic/familial relationships:

We were talking on the disk hoard earlier about how Thomas really doesn't have m/any friends, even within the ghosts :( but I want him to get closer to Pat and Kitty!

A headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that I disagree with:

I honestly don't think I keep up with the Thomas side of the fandom enough to know any headcanons for him!

The position they sleep in:

Foetal position, curled up like a spindly newborn deer

A crossover AU I’d love to see them in:

Best I can think of is a Jonathan Strange and Mr Norrell crossover, where Thomas knows Lascelles and Drawlight (because socialites; he doesn't actually like them) but meets Jonathan Strange through them and kind of falls madly in love and starts writing all this dope poetry about magic and romance

My favourite outfit they’ve ever worn:

He's worn it in his head so it counts: the double denim with aviators!

[sporesgalaxy]

Bill Cipher?

AH…..THE FUCKO

favorite thing about them: Im a SUCKER for characters who weild incredible universe shattering power with all the reverence of a clown weilding a bottle of seltzer water!!!!!! Sure characters who can be straightforwardly scary are intimidating, but whats more horrifying than knowing that youre so inconsequential to someone threatening your life that theyre treating it all like a joke? He’s a high energy slapstick take on Lovecraftian Horror and Im obsessed with it to this dayleast favorite thing about them: Mmm it wouldntve really fit into the main story of the show so i rlly dont mind much but I wish there had been a little hint somewhere alluding to the origin of his highly nonspecific reality bending powers just a TAD more. Id just Like To Knowfavorite line: Bill is hilarious and I will quote everything he says but it’s hard to top the raw horrific hilarity of “RACE YOU TO THE BOTTOM OF THE STAIRS!”brOTP: Bill and the Henchmaniacs are such a fun squadOTP: nonOTP: yeahrandom headcanon: if he had taken over the universe undefeated, Bill would eventually damage it to near collapse with his partying (logically a universe wouldn’t be super stable if you BROKE THE LAWS OF PHYSICS, BILL.). He’d need to find a new dimension all over again, dooming himself to endlessly, cyclically persue freedom that’s always going to inevitablly lead to a new entrapment of his own poorly thought-out design, in decaying dimension after decaying dimension.unpopular opinion: Dont think theres any scenario wherein the Pines couldve safely and healthily redeemed Bill in any way. The Axolotl is the only being powerful enough to force a weakened Bill to face the consequences of his actions.song i associate with them: Besides the very canon We’ll Meet Again, my fave is Anything Goesfavorite picture of them: OBSESSED with every drawing of Bill by Robert Ryan Corey, but especially this one

[devittprinces]

See, this is what I mean when I talk about Finn being the first healthy relationship Seth had in years after the Authority fucked him up.

They are friendly by this moment but not...super close yet. They just tagged together in a match everyone thought was going to be a disaster.

It wasn’t.

It wasn’t because their style matches perfectly, because Finn brings out Seth’s competitive side but not the unhealthy, all consuming one. The “Everything you can do I can do better” one, the playful one.

Seth steals the last tag from Finn after an exhilarating match. A match where Seth laughs and shows off.

It’s a test. It’s a dare. A “What are you going to do about that?” type of challenge.

Seth wants to see just how far he’s going to go before Finn snaps. Before Finn yells. Before Finn attacks and betrays. Cause everyone does it, right? That’s what he’s been taught.

But Finn doesn’t. Finn just looks at him, fondness admiration softening his features. He applauds Seth’s way of thinking.

And all the tension in Seth’s face suddenly disappears.

Oh, he thinks.

Oh, maybe...this can work.

And it does. Week after week after this moment.

Because Finn thinks that Seth’s hard edges are what makes him the way he is.

And Finn likes the way Seth is. A lot.

seth rollins & finn bálor + wwe raw, 3/5/18

[sourwolfstories]

Hey!! Can you rec some of the most famous sterek AUs in the fandom please? Btw, I love your recs. Thanks :)

The Comic-Con Incident by raimykeller

Stiles and Derek are actors on the same show, but secret boyfriends in real life. What happens when Stiles accidentally spills the beans at Comic-Con?

Starstruck (Or Not) by literaryoblivion

Derek takes his daughter Lia to a convention of her favorite TV show because he’s a good dad (and can’t seem to tell his daughter no) and ends up meeting a special someone.

#OTP: Assholes in Love by stilesanderek (minxxx)

After being outed as bisexual in a sex tape scandal by his ex-girlfriend Kate, Derek struggles to find an acting job until he finally lands a promising role in an HBO supernatural show called Shapeshifters, in which he plays the main character. Derek instantly falls in love with the cast, with whom he has immense fun with, especially Stiles, whose relationship with Derek consists of mainly sarcastic and teasing remarks.

Which is why when Jackson shows him a fanart of Stiles and him having intense sex he gets confused and doesn’t understand this whole “Sterek” thing Jackson is talking about.

Hiding in Plain Sight by inmydreams

Popular talk-show host Stiles Stilinski has to interview movie star Derek Hale live on tv. The only problem is they have been in a secret relationship for the past couple of years and they have to get through the interview without anyone finding out.

Here’s to the Static by matildajones

Stiles spends most of his college break in a coffee house where he stares after Derek Hale. For some reason, Stiles is unaware of the fact he’s quite the musician, and Derek amuses himself at Stiles’ obliviousness.

soulmates tbh by bleep0bleep

“It’s been five months,” Derek says darkly. “Why am I still getting these proposals? You know these are probably all fake marks.”

Five months since the paparazzi had snapped that photo of him with the overzealous fan tugging at his shirt, five months since millions of people on the Internet realized that the birthmark revealed was in fact, the mark, five months Derek was inundated by claims from people who desperately wanted him to believe that they were his soul-mate.

How The Light Gets In by dryersheetz

A Teen Wolf / Notting Hills AU

Stiles Stilinski’s life as a comic book store owner in Beacon Hills, California had been satisfying enough, but he’s been inevitably becoming increasingly bored and antsy with the cyclical nature of his life in a smaller town.

Enter Frame: The famous Hollywood bad boy and contender for Sexiest Man Alive, Derek Hale, who proceeds to turn his world upside down, but somehow brings him closer to the things he knew were most important he had lost sight of along the way.

(Title from the Leonard Cohen Poem)

Play Crack the Sky by WeAreTheCyclones

Excerpt from “Hale Pulls the Plug on the Future of Rock,” Rolling Stone, Issue 1203 – Oct. 2014“Fans and music industry vets alike are left reeling in the wake of bassist Derek Hale’s sudden departure from Smokes for Harris. At a time when the foursome from Beacon Hills, California seems to be on the cusp of rock superstardom after just one double platinum record, Smokes has everything to lose.”

Excerpt from “Smokes for Harris: Gladiator,” SPIN.com – Feb. 2015“Smokes for Harris gives in a little to the pop punk of yesteryear in their sophomore effort, but rather than pandering to fans of a lost era they elevate the genre in a way that hasn’t been seen in quite some time. Frontman Stiles Stilinski works double duty as singer and primary songwriter and proves that he can handle the task even without former bassist Derek Hale.“

Trust Fall [Into My Bed] by ofherlionheart

Stiles’s eyes light up. “Did you see him, though? No wonder the dude is an Oscar winner. He’s amazing. I mean, I’ve worked with, like, Liam Neeson and Natalie Dormer. But Derek is something else – I don’t know, I can’t describe it. There’s just this, this thing about him, when we’re in a scene together, it’s so easy to just click with him, and you know some people hate how much I improvise, but Derek just takes it and rolls with it and adds stuff of his own –” He breaks off when he finally notices Lydia smirking. “What?”

“You’re rambling,” Lydia observes.

“And?”

“I guess you aren’t too tired to talk about Derek.”

—

In which Oscar-winner Derek Hale and sidekick-to-the-top-guns Stiles Stilinski are thrown together to star in a new, powerful film. Mix in feelings, long days, late nights, terrifyingly omniscient agents, the Hale clan, Canada, and some UST, and come out with a long story with liberal amounts of UST and fluff.

Sourwolf Candy by relenafanel

When the Sourwolf Candy franchise offers a $10,000 annual scholarship to the school of the winner’s choice, Stiles jumps at the chance to enter. It doesn’t matter that the other prizes are a day with one of the Hales and a lifetime supply of Sourwolf Candy. The sacrifices are worth it, because if there’s one thing that Stiles hates more than Sourwolf Candy, it’s Derek Hale.

So of course he has to spend a day with the guy who made the catchphrase ‘Don’t be such a Sourwolf’ popular: Sourfaced Derek Hale himself. If he doesn’t, he doesn’t get his scholarship money.

Derek just wants a little sugar. Or a lot of sugar, as the case may be.

A whole case of sugar.

(He stress-eats sugar, ok?

If We Could Match by forestofbabel

As Stiles waits behind the camera during an interview, he thinks he should maybe quit. Because, in all honesty, despite the charming smile the actor is pulling out for EW, Derek Hale is kind of a jerk.

my heart’s been offline by thepsychicclam

31/M/New York. Rich, lays in bed all day, likes to read (aka Derek Hale, son of an Oscar winning actress, brother of one obnoxious reality star and one rebellious fashion designer, hates the paparazzi so much he’s a recluse)

26/M/California. Boring office job, likes to read (aka Stiles Stilinski, co-owner of a 100 acre organic farm with his dad and two best friends, writer of obits for a newspaper, has absolutely no life)

Or, where Derek and Stiles meet online, and Stiles has no clue Derek’s part of a famous family.

[gffa]

I know you love the sequels (you've said it before) but since you dont talk about it nearly as much as you do the prequles, do you mind me asking generally what you think about the sequels? Like, what you think of the characters and the ships, whether you ship anything or maybe everything, etc. Love to hear your (positive as always ofc youre great) thoughts on it and your love for sw! ❤

Hi!  Thank you for such a sweet message!  I’m definitely into some parts of Star Wars more than others, but I don’t think there’s any era that I’ve outright hated, even if I’ve had my troubles with them.I’m middling-to-frequently-pleased about the sequels!  They’re not really ever going to be the Star Wars of my heart, but I like them well enough!  Generally, I find that I like them more and more once the extended canon (novels, games, comics, etc.) starts coming out, even while the movies themselves are fairly low on my list of “favorite SW stuff”.  I do have a lot of issues with the writing not being that well-thought out at times (if we’re meant to see Holdo as a good leader, she should have realized the mutiny that was stirring under her watch, the lack of explanation about what the FO was in TFA, etc.), but my overall feelings towards the sequels are positive!For me, it comes down to:  I have spent a lot of time talking about TFA and TLJ, I’ve written a lot of meta, I’ve consumed a lot of the surrounding media, I’ve had a lot of thoughts and feelings about it!  But I don’t feel the urge to rewatch/reread much of it.  I wrote probably 15k worth of meta about TLJ overall, but I feel no urge to go pick the movie up again and see it another time, despite how thoroughly I combed through it, the novelizations, and the comic adaptations of it.  I don’t feel a driving need to seek out more understanding about the finer details of how things work, because I don’t feel that there necessarily is enough of that thought being put into it yet.In contrast, I am ALWAYS ready to go rewatch the PT and OT movies and TCW. I’m always picking up new things in the movies/tv shows themselves or just having more feelings about them!  Part of this is that those characters are my jam, but part of it is also that I think George’s overall story creation was more engaging for me, it kept me coming back to re-comb the stuff he was directly involved with, instead of always needing new material to keep my interest.This isn’t to say that I don’t love the sequels, because I very much do!  These characters are wonderful, getting to see any kind of progression (even if it’s not enough yet, I will still celebrate the steps forward we’re taking) is so meaningful to me, and I very much like a lot of the surrounding novels and games and the world they’re building.  It’s just not quite as solid-feeling to me as George’s was–though, I like to think that will change with time.  Already, TFA was made a ton better for me through the extended canon explaining what the First Order was.  Now, if we had any idea how the rest of the galaxy was dealing with the First Order (are they still outsiders coming in to take over? have they already done that? like, I don’t really get the relationship they have to the rest of the galaxy), I’d be more onboard!  If there was a stronger sense of the movies being connected to the established GFFA (see: my rant on the lack of pretty much any recognizable aliens in TLJ the movie), I’d probably feel less like they were disconnected.I definitely feel the crunch of how they can’t really do much with backstories and the spaces around the ST movies, because they’re presumably waiting for IX to finish so they don’t contradict anything.  Once we can actually know the arc of the characters’ lives (like what happened after Ben killed the Jedi apprentices and burned down the Temple? just how much was Snoke an influence in his life/when did that start? what’s Finn’s origin story or his point of view on escaping the FO? etc.) I’ll probably come around more!Rey is my favorite (I AM SUCH A JEDI NERD ♥), I want sooooo much of her interacting with pretty much EVERYONE, but especially her Jedi lineage!!  I also dearly love Finn and Rose as well, I’m hoping that they get further expanded stories once IX is out and they can really do more with their pasts and their futures, too!  I like Kylo well enough, I especially like his relationships with Luke and Leia (my faves from the OT!), and I once upon a time shipped Kylux and probably still vaguely do.  (I like my snarling villain ships sometimes. XD)  I ship Finn/Rey kind of a lot, but in a way that I’m content with whatever happens in canon happens.  I could be convinced to ship Rey/Rose and Leia/Holdo if someone did the heavy lifting for me in fic!  I’m fine with all the other ships, I hope people are having a good time with them, but they haven’t sparked an intense interest in me yet personally.After that, I’m probably most interested in the Rebels crew, I really came to care about them!  I ship Kanan/Hera as a diehard OTP but I’m content to be casual about it, Zeb/Kallus is one I get a hankering for every so often and deeply love, I’m super into Sabine/Ketsu but they’re such a quiet ship.  Ultimately, though, my heart is with Kanan’s path to finding his way back to the Jedi path and Ezra coming into his own and the difficult choices he faced and the found family aspect.I really loved Rogue One (I shipped Baze/Chirrut and Cassian/Jyn) but without deeper history on the characters (TELL ME ABOUT WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A GUARDIAN OF THE WHILLS, LUCASFILM???) or a stronger connection to the rest of the GFFA, I’m content to just remember how much I enjoyed it from afar.I loved Solo, it’s a movie that I don’t have a lot of deep investment in (maybe that will change with the novelization? those often do a lot for me) but I absolutely could watch it again!  I definitely shipped Han/Qi’ra for what it was, but they weren’t meant to be.  I like Han/Lando as a banter-filled ship along the way!  But Han/Leia is still an unbreakable ship for me.  I REALLY loved the new characters (Qi’ra and Enfys Nest especially) and all the tie-ins to the rest of the GFFA, oh MAN I want to know about Lando on Felucia or whatever happened with Beckett and Aurra Sing!  But I’m fairly low-key about that desire for more.TL;DR:  I don’t feel like the sequels have done as much to establish themselves and a fair chunk of what they did do felt like throwing the OT characters under the bus to promote their new characters (I have come around to how Star Wars is cyclical in nature, so the rise of the FO is part of the storytelling structure of SW, as well as Luke’s characterization in TLJ is built A LOT on the parts of the OT that we tend to forget about, like his impatience and anger, but there’s still a lingering bitter taste about how hard the OT worked for their happy ending and the only got to enjoy it for, what? 20 years? how I never got to see Mark Hamill as my Badass And Centered Jedi Master for more than just a couple of minutes) so they have an uphill battle with me, but that doesn’t meant they’re not doing it and that I will grow more invested as more and more connective tissue is put out in novels and comics and games.  There are many things I love about them, I’m glad to see fans who are so passionate about the things they love with them, a lot of the books and comics and games have been great, and I love the characters themselves!

[aldebaranarfeiniel]

Biggest SHIPS that made my LIFE❤️

Not ranked, only listed. OTPs that returns cyclically to ruin my life.

1. Rhaegar x Lyanna (R+L) from A song of ice and fire (Game of thrones) ❄️🐺/🔥🐲

2. Lucius x Narcissa Malfoy (Lucissa) from Harry Potter wizarding world🐍🖤

3. Charles Xavier x Erik Lehnsherr (Cherik) from X men Verse 📡👋🏻🧠

4. Lantis x Eagle Vision from Magic Knight Rayearth 💫🔥🌊🌬

[devittprinces]

i did and it’s the cutest most wholesome thing ever???? seth loves and supports his boy SO MUCH

Just ignore me over here in the corner shaking and crying.

@devittprinces FRED! Did you see this?!?!

[devittprinces]

“I know it’s cliché to say but I believe in Finn Bálor.”

[femslashreviewfest]

Femslash Review Fest - Day 4

A fic for your OTP.

Going back to an old but good anime ship! I can ship Utena and Anthy with other people, but I don’t want them to end up with anyone but each other.

Title: Forever doesn’t end (but it changes) Author: tofsla Fandom/Pairing: Revolutionary Girl Utena; Utena/Anthy Summary: Anthy knows the script. Utena doesn’t. Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No AO3 archive warnings apply Submitter Notes: I really love this. It feels true to the artificial, cyclical nature of Ohtori’s world. Anthy’s resignation and ambivalence, the way she doesn’t want to let herself feel hope or love, are painful in the best way.

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Title: Awakening Author: Stealth_Noodle Fandom/Pairing: Revolutionary Girl Utena; Utena/Anthy Summary: When she opens her eyes, she sees the sky. Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No AO3 archive warnings apply Submitter Notes: Fic where Anthy and Utena find each other again after the end of the series is one of my favorite things. This one is beautiful and moving. I like how it emphasizes the strangeness of resuming a life outside Ohtori after spending so long in the illusion.

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Title: Untangled Author: emilyenrose Fandom/Pairing: Revolutionary Girl Utena; Utena/Anthy Summary: “Rapunzel is lost to you. You will never see her again.” The king’s son was beside himself with pain, and in his despair he leapt down from the tower. He escaped with his life, but the thorns into which he fell pierced his eyes.

Anthy searches the world for Utena Tenjou.

Rating: Teens Warnings: No AO3 archive warnings apply; referenced underage rape and incest Submitter Notes: Another post-series fic. As opposed to the fic above which is more sudden, this is a fic that slowly grows. Anthy and Utena meet again, but Utena doesn’t remember Anthy or anything that happened. I really like how Anthy starts rebuilding her own life before finding Utena, and how Utena once again becomes the catalyst for change in Anthy’s life. I love the emotions when Anthy is longing for Utena to remember her but trying to resign herself to never having her back completely. The happy ending feels earned.

[asgardian--angels]

Kindly answer 1, 11, 21, 31, 41, and 51 please

Sorry for the wait on these! Thanks for the questions :)

1. What was the first fandom you got involved in?

My first fandom was Loki/Tom Hiddleston. And look, it’s coming back again after Ragnarok, all things are cyclical..

11. Who is your current OTP?

For the past couple years now it’s been Angbang, which is Mairon (Sauron) x Melkor (Morgoth) from the Silmarillion. I think I’ve reached peak dumpster fire with this one so I don’t see how I could top it really. 

21. What was the first fanfic you ever wrote?

oh bOY, that’s going back… mmmm… 5 years maybe? Let’s check my Fanfiction.net account shall we? 

*five minutes later* that was a trip down memory lane.  It’s this, a Supernatural fanfic from 2013. I wrote mainly for Supernatural, with a ton of WIPs I never got around to finishing, and then never managed to complete anything else until I got into the angbang fandom. I am very glad to take up writing again, it is a passion of mine. 

31. What’s the nicest thing someone has ever said about your writing?

I’m very touched by all the supportive comments I’ve gotten on my angbang fanfics. But I think I get the most satisfaction when folks call me Satan. Means I’ve done my job.

41. List and link to 5 fanfics you are currently reading:

Ahhh I wish I could. I don’t actually read much fanfic anymore (I used to read a LOT in the supernatural fandom, but I’m so picky about angbang that well, there’s only a handful I’ll even look at).  The ones I have read before are as follows tho:

FOLLOW YOU DOWN - by our own @swilmarillion. 

Feeding the Sheep is Prohibited -  by Vampiric_Charms 

a little trouble - by finalizer 

…these are all AUs, funny.. 

51. Rant or Gush about one thing you love or hate in the world of fanfiction! Go!

hahahah h a  h   a  lmao no uhhh, I really think fanfic focuses way too much on mature content, fandoms in general but esp fanfic. It seems like few people write fics without explicit content and even fewer want to read fics without it, and since I rarely see mature scenes for my otp written with the characterization I prefer, I end up not reading a lot of fics. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever read a fic that writes my otp being intimate in a way that doesn’t make me scrunch my nose in distaste (sorry yall). I don’t come here to see or read about my favorite characters bang yo, there’s more to life than that. But if I do, maaaaaan can’t I get any where it’s not rough...

[narkik]

slightly long but relevant explanation of why naraku LOVES kikyou, how she is literally the center of his entire world, how his life is meaningless without her, bc tbh its been 2 years & it blows my mind that some ppl still don’t see this and i am t i r e d

(summary @ the bottom for ppl who don’t wanna read the whole rantTM. if anyone doesn’t understand why narkik is shipped , pls, pls read this)

first and FOREMOST,, i’d like to reiterate that oNIGUMO IS NOT NARAKU. they are 2 entirely different people. kikyou is a different person than kagome, right??? right !!! i could go on about how kagome/naraku parallel one another and how kikyou/kagome & onigumo/naraku are textually compared in literally every fucking way, but that’s whole different discussion

anyway: naraku loVEs kikyou. naraku. all by himself. ??? why??? bc , kinda like how kagome is different than kikyou and loves inuyasha for her own reasons, naraku fell in love with kikyou for reasons entirely beyond onigumo. kikyou lived her human life with as much agency as a human could have. but naraku was literally born for her?? his . literal. entire. body. would not exist. if not. for onigumo’s thirst. in fACt, that was part of the bargain he made w/ the demons !!! like “hey guys, i’ll let y’all eat me alive if you give me a new body, so i can grab the shikon jewel & grab me some kikyou ;)))”

the problem?? naraku was a person of his own. thats why he had 0% issues w murdering kikyou in s1 episode 1, then frolicked around feudal japan for 50+ years w/o worry.

THEN. SHE COMES BACK . suddenly naraku’s Thirsty Human Heart is fuc kin racing, making his hands sweat, shoving warm fuzzy feelings down his throat whenever kikyou makes some snide remark about his body, etc. and he’s like??? “fuck fu ck cfuCk fu Ck” for CHAPTERS ON END. it pisses him off that she has that effect on him, it pisses him off that he can’t just stab her 10 million times, it pisses him off that she Turns Him On even tho she’s made of clay. every cell of kikyou makes him wanna die and he Hates Her Entire Ass. its incredible

fast forward a couple chapters: naraku finally removes his heart. hurray !!!! right ??? n  o p E !! he learns p quickly that the human heart that loves kikyou is the LITERAL GLUE THAT HOLDS HIS PHYSICAL BODY TOGETHER. just !!! let that sink in !!! w/o that love, his bod y actually f cukin cant keep itself together,!!!

thats?? not even the best part???? whats even better is when round 2 of this happens, onigumo’s human heart doesn’t love kikyou; the infant says himself that he did not possess the love for kikyou which caused naraku so much suffering. i think its at this point where these feelings become naraku’s; they’ve evolved from onigumo’s own. bc, a few chapters down the line, naraku realizes that. he doesn’t know what he wants to do w the jewel after its completed. therefore he has no DriveTM to complete it. and the jewel couldn’t have THAT

so naraku has to take back his love for kikyou. why??? bc the bitterness, hurt, and anger that he felt because of it fueled his actions. ALL OF HIS ACTIONS. kagome points this out later -- how he makes every1 suffer by breaking human bonds. the agony he felt from unrequited love fueled everything he did, up ‘til he made his wish on the jewel, whICH WAS FOR KIKYOU’S HEART!!! not for the chance to feel her up, not to fcuk her 5 ways to sunday -- he wishes for her heart. on tOP of thaT, he laments about how they could never be together: not in this life, and not in the afterlife (bc ,, like.. even he knows he’s gonna burn in hell 5ever lmao). idk about y’all, but if i lust after some1, the first thing i ??? dont think of?? is their heart?? or the fact that we couldn’t /be together in life/??? just !! sayin !!

naraku wishes for kikyou’s heart because it’s an echo of what onigumo wanted, yes, and onigumo’s feelings are the reason his Whole Entire Life started. BUT he wishes for her heart bc he realized that he had no other purpose on planet earth other than to love her after completing the jewel. naraku himself loves kikyou bc she fleshes out his existence -- he literally doesn’t know what to do without her. after finishing the jewel, he has no other p ur p o se than to love her. kagome, who asserts her identity beyond kikyou through her love for inuyasha, is able to free herself from the jewel -- but naraku could not. even though he himself fell in love with kikyou, it was in accordance with the circumstances of his creation. inuyasha says “kagome was born for me & i was born for her as well!!” guess what my guys??? naraku was born for kikyou. she’s the literal core of his existence. and they hate each other bc the shikon jewel needed it to be that way. neither of them had any choice in that.

this isn’t even incLUDIng the actual literary narrative structure that parallels inukag OR the fact that narkik is the cyclical repeat of midoriko/magatsuhi a la the jewel’s manipulation OR how the overall theme of ~~humanity vs. monstrosity~~~ rumiko makes in the text is in accordance w/ the fact that naraku is so haunted by love, a human emotion?? i mean !! god !!

anyways , to summarize , can you fucking believe naraku’s entire existence revolves around how he’s supposed to suffer, how his love will never be returned, how he Has No Other Purpose on god’s green earth than to love Kikyou + be hated by her + complete the jewel 2 trap them both inside it???? can you belie ve that naraku was his own goddamn person, tried his hardest NOT to love her, but like how kagome was ~~born for inuyasha~~, naraku was born for kikyou, and had no fucking way out of the fact that he loved her just bc he happened to be the person born via onigumo’s thirst???? bc the shikon jewel squished him into a role and didn’t care about how he was his own person??? and can you believe that in sPITe of all this , naraku fell in love with kikyou for the fact that she grounds his very bEING, that his love for her is the only thing he knows, that at the end of the day he still wished for her heart ??

and no it’s not healthy love, it’s not functional love, it’s by no means good reason to love anyone at all. but naraku’s love is what differentiates him from onigumo, and it exhausts me when i see them being lumped together bc everyone remembers how kagome was different from kikyou?? rumiko’s Whole Entire Point w/ so much of the series was that people are not defined by their heritage, that they are not defined by the people who preceded them, that every1 is their Own Goddamn PersonTM even in the face of some(thing)one reducing you to a role just bc you have similarities to whatever they want to see. naraku was his Own Damn Person, yet he still fell in love w/ kikyou , he wouldn’t exist w/o that love, those inescapable feelings for her define his life, & idk about y’all but this is why narkik is my otp?? i will never be over it, not for as long as i live, and i still can’t believe the most academically consistent/intricate story i’ve ever seen is from a fcukin 90s anime

[storytime-reviews]

Teen Wolf Review-Riders on the Storm

I really enjoyed the latter part of this episode, however I found a lot of the first half to be a bit of a mess regarding what was happening, and I didn’t feel that the storyline had much of a pull or tension. Even then, there were some great moments throughout the episode that I loved, and the ending in particular worked so well. I might even argue that this episode could have acted as a series finale (just as I believe the season 3a finale could’ve). Because of this, I don’t feel as if my review can possibly fit into neat little sections, hence I will split my review into what I enjoyed and what I disliked.

What I enjoyed:

-I really loved the important reunions with Stiles. The brief reunion between Stiles and his dad before they had to part so that Stiles could escape, leaving the Sheriff to hold off the Ghost Riders was really emotional to watch. Especially because the Sheriff has only just come to remember Stiles, it’s like he’s seeing him for the first time. I especially loved his reunion with Scott, and that the first place Stiles goes once he is back is to Scott’s house. For me at least, Scott and Stiles are the most important relationship on this show, and so their reunion was pretty beautiful. And like many people, I also enjoyed the Stydia reunion, and that both Stiles and Lydia now appear to be on the same page regarding their relationship. They both know how the other feels.

-I loved Stiles’ dramatic entrance, hitting the Nazi Werewolf with his bat just as the Nazi is talking about adding a True Alpha, werecoyote and banshee to his supernatural army. Of course this is nothing new, we’ve seen plenty of villains over the years lusting after the powers of various pack members. And after his reunion with Scott, I loved the moment with Liam, who embraces Stiles quite eagerly. It’s quite an adorable moment actually. This was quite a humourous entrance.

-I loved also that Stiles is the one who realises how they can stop Parrish advancing on them, through using the fire extinguisher. After all, he has always been the ideas man in the pack.

-I did enjoy that the pack members were in different places throughout the episode and that we got to see them all doing different things in their separate groups. It was a fun way of doing things, rather than having two separate narratives.

-I love Peter so much, so I was glad he was back. He’s honestly such a fun character to watch, and I really enjoyed watching his fight scenes with the Ghost Riders. After all, if anyone stands a chance against the Ghost Riders, it’s the ruthless, homicidal Peter.

-I absolutely loved watching Chris take on the Ghost Rider and win, in a scene reminiscent of westerns. Because Chris Argent has been a force to be reckoned with from the very beginning of Teen Wolf, so it was awesome to see him fight the Ghost Rider in true Argent fashion.

-Stiles acting like Liam’s father when Liam just ran off instead of talking over plans with him and Scott was hilarious. Especially when Stiles asked Scott if they used to be like that, and of course they used to be worse. And then Scott and Stiles saying they would never again split up was just heart melting.

-I loved the end of the Ghost Riders and Nazi Werewolf. It was fitting that in his attempt to take leadership over the Ghost Riders, Nazi Werewolf becomes one, and it was great to see his end. I love that we saw the Ghost Riders moving on after the fight with Scott and co, as the storm moved on.

-I loved that we got to see some more of Lydia’s banshee powers, but at the same time there was much less than I was expecting. I thought that we’d actually get to see Lydia taking down a good amount of Ghost Riders, rather than just a few moments of protecting Stiles. Her powers are constantly underutilised on this show which is disappointing.

-The scene towards the end of the episode at the lockers was a great reminder of just how far these characters have come, and what has changed over the years. In a way, both Stiles and Scott are right. In some ways Teen Wolf, and the characters, seem the same, particularly evident in the friendship between Scott and Stiles. At the same time however, so much has changed, from the significant part that the supernatural plays in their lives, to the new friends and changes in relationships. As many others have stated, this scene also brings to mind Allison’s words to Lydia.

-I love that there is a symbolic handing over of the leadership of the pack by Scott and Stiles to Liam and Mason, as the alpha and number 2, respectively. Liam of course is adorable in how he states he’s not an alpha, and I love that Stiles makes mention of how important Mason is. Because as we’ve seen since Liam and Mason first showed up, they were portrayed as the new Scott and Stiles, and Stiles simply emphasises the role Mason plays. Of course we’ve seen this for a while, Mason has often been the brains of the operation, so it is fitting.

-I absolutely loved the ending of this episode, and in many ways this ending felt like a series finale ending. I’ve mentioned before that for me the season 3a finale was one of the best series finale-like endings I’ve ever seen, and this episode had some of the same hallmarks. It’s fitting that this show that began with the close connection between Scott and Stiles ends with it as well, with the two of them driving off together. And not only that, but this supernatural journey that began with a body in the woods also ends in this way. It’s a beautiful reminder of everything they have been through together, and the cyclical nature of life.

What I disliked:

-I felt that this episode began quite all over the place, and lasted at least for the first half, and I found it really hard to be interested in this episode at first because of this.

-I felt that this episode started off a bit slow, and I didn’t enjoy how everyone kept getting caught and then escaped, and then caught again. It was just too much in my opinion.

-I don’t know if it was just me, but I felt uncomfortable with Malia being forced to call Peter ‘dad’ in order to save everyone. Because she has made it quite clear that she is not ok with this, that she doesn’t see Peter as her father, and given how much of an asshole Peter is, no-one can blame her at all. I just felt that surely there could’ve been a better way of writing that scene.

-I’m sorry but I can’t get behind Chris and Melissa together. I love them both, but they have no chemistry, and the Sheriff and Melissa will always be my number one OTP on Teen Wolf.

-What I’ve disliked this season is how the pack’s powers are constantly diminished by the writers in order to make their opponents seem more formidable. We actually got to see a few more good fighting scenes towards the end with Scott, Peter, Malia and Theo against the Ghost Riders and Nazi Werewolf, but in a sense it was too little too late for me.

-I loved the ending, but I must admit I’m not exactly happy about the idea of Scott and Stiles living so far apart!

[kelasparmak]

001: Vorkosigan Saga. 002: Charles Gunn/Wesley Wyndam-Pryce.

OH MAN THIS GOT LONG

Vorkosigan Saga:

Favorite character: Hmmm, tough one. No, just kidding, everyone who’s ever met me knows Bel’s my favourite, hands down, no contest.

Least Favorite character: I mean, there are a lot of baddies to pick from. Ryoval, Ser Galen and Bruce Van Atta all rate highly.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): This one actually is tricky, since I really really like a lot of the canon relationship dynamics. Byerly and Ivan definitely, Aral and Cordelia (and Oliver Jole, though it’s Aral and Cordelia’s dynamic that I’m particularly fond of), Ethan and Terrence, Simon and Alys, and I think Miles and Bel. (Honourable mentions go to Bel and Nicol, Ivan and Tej, and Elli and Elena, which is a pairing I’d not actually really considered until I got desperate for Vorkosigan fic and ran the Russian works on AO3 through Google Translate and found some really interesting fic.)

Character I find most attractive: My mental images of book characters are generally super vague and I’m eh about attractiveness anyway, but thinking about it I’d probably say Rish, Taura or Dono Vorrutyer.

Character I would marry: I’d be quite happy marrying an awful lot of them, really. Bel, for preference, since I’m practically in actual bona fide love with it.

Character I would be best friends with: I’d like to say Bel, but I don’t think I’m exciting enough. My actual best friends through life have mostly been more like Tej or maybe the younger Kareen, so maybe one of them? Tej and I could definitely bond over language learning. (I would also love to be best friends with Byerly, but again, I don’t think we have the same idea of a good time.)

A random thought: The first thing that springs to mind is my fascination with the fact that Bel and Jole had a fling back in the day. When was this? How (hilariously) would Miles react? I would love for Bel, Nicol, Garnet Five and Corbeau (since he’s the Barrayaran Imperium’s ambassador or attache or whatever to Quaddiespace) to visit Sergyar and pop in on Miles, and have that awkward ‘yes, we’ve met’ conversation when Miles tried to introduce them to each other. Well, awkward for Miles and Jole, at least; Bel and Cordelia would no doubt find it hilarious.

An unpopular opinion: Iiiii don’t really like that more or less everyone ended up paired off to an Appropriately Gendered Spouse, with a bureaucratic position and babies ever after. I mean, that’s an oversimplification and there are exceptions (like Elli, or Ethan and Terrence, though that’s implied rather than explicit and since Athos is men-only it feels a little ‘for lack of alternative Terrence might end up with a guy and if he does it’ll probably be Ethan’) but that’s how it feels to me. I don’t know how unpopular that opinion is, though.

My canon OTP: Aral/Cordelia

Non-canon OTP: Byerly/Ivan (I mean, we’ve essentially had this question already)

Most badass character: I think Taura or Elli, probably? Miles is definitely a contender too, but I suppose because you see him wallowing in self-pity or making it up as he goes or doing extremely silly things pretty often the overall effect is perhaps diminished a little. Though I think overall the sheer amount of obstacles, self-imposed as well as external, that he manages to overcome, might put him at the top of the list.

Pairing I am not a fan of: Leo/Silver, probably. I don’t think it was very ethical for Leo to get involved, at least not at that point - I’m not sure if she was canonically a great deal younger than him or if I’ve just imagined that, but there’s a huge gap in terms of life experience, and I think that given the way Van Atta had exploited her very very recently, Leo should have given her some space and time and the tools to figure out what she wanted before he got involved with her.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): Bothari’s portrayal made me pretty uncomfortable at times. Not sure if it was necessarily a screwup because she writes other mental illnesses pretty well, at least as far as my understanding of them goes, but I felt like with Bothari there was a very fine line being tread between a very complex depiction of schizophrenia (specifically traumagenic schizophrenia) & cyclical abuse on the one hand, and the ‘dangerous and barely-human crazy person’ stereotype on the other.

Favourite friendship: So many. In the interests of not just repeating myself from the shipping questions, though, I really like the development of Miles and Ivan’s relationship from not really Getting each other at all in the first book (and Miles in particular being pretty contemptuous of Ivan), to a close (if constantly mutually exasperating) friendship once they’re a little older.

Gunn/Wesley

when or if I started shipping it: Gosh, it’s been absolutely years since I watched Angel and I only watched it the once, so any of these answers may be completely wrong, but honestly I think it was from the first time they argued.

my thoughts: I really liked their 'odd couple’ dynamic - it reminds me a little of a much more extreme version of Eliot and Hardison’s initial impressions of each other, in that they each have a lot of preconceptions about the type of person the other is and about their worth, but pretty quickly get over it and come to respect each other and (shockingly enough) realised that it was actually really useful that they’d had such different experiences and that they worked much better together than separately. I’d have liked more episodes dealing with their very different backgrounds and attitudes in a more casual setting - I don’t remember how often that came up but I don’t feel like it was very often, or at least not often enough for my liking :P I just wish that phase

What makes me happy about them: I guess I’ve just said it. Got a bit carried away there I guess. 

What makes me sad about them: The goddamn unnecessary love triangle! And everything getting fucked up! Why did this happen! I prefer to pretend that storyline, and the Illyria storyline, and the Grimdark Wesley storyline, didn’t happen, because they were silly and unnecessary. Whedon, you didn’t even have to let my kids be happy, but making them miserable because of internal conflict that wasn’t even in-character for them wasn’t even lazy writing, it would have been lazy writing with different characters, but this required effort! To be bad! Why! (Caveat: possibly the Grimdark Wesley storyline isn’t so much objectively bad as I just didn’t like it. I don’t mind him being emo, that’s a-ok, but his behaviour toward Gunn and Fred was straight-up gross, and while I quite liked Wesley dealing with the consequences of his mistakes, I’d have been happier if he’d learned from them instead of getting worse, lol.)

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: Iiii actually have never read any fic of this series, I don’t think, so I guess I don’t know. I can imagine some things that would and that I wouldn’t be surprised to see done.

Things I look for in fanfic: Well, nothing, but I guess it would be the dynamic that I liked between them in the Good Times. Preferably a ridiculous shenanigans, some near-death experiences, actually talking about their feelings, and a healthy dose of fluff (or h/c). And Gunn being smart as hell, because he is and arguably is better at applying that in practice than Wesley.

My kinks: I am a pure and innocent soul and I don’t even know what a kink is. (Okay, but leaving out the sexual element, I guess even though I was talking about how much I hate Grimdark Wes, I’d probably be interested in hatesex fic set during that period if it was concerned with working out their frustration and betrayal rather than just uncomplicated angry sex) (Also, I can see Wesley being super into Gunn being smart as fuck generally, and specifically into his Lawyer Talk after he got essentially the entire corpus of law and G&S downloaded into his brain. In my head this is not a very sexy thing, it’s very ‘Ooh Mr Darcy’, Wesley is hopelessly enamoured and Gunn is initially bemused but flattered and very quickly gets tired of Wes swooning every time he says something smart, which is way too often for it not to have lost its effect AND YET. And especially if they’re working for Wolfram & Hart together in this scenario, in which case Gunn uses advanced legal terminology often on account of it being his job, which makes it hugely impractical for Wesley to try and jump his bones every time it happens. He’s probably just into the legal jargon and not the Gilbert and Sullivan because that would be a very weird kink and not one I can imagine being sexy at all, but now that I say it, if someone wrote that fic I would read it just out of morbid curiosity.)

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Fred! As well as each other! Guys, polyamory, it’s a thing! (If it had to be other people, I’d probably go for Gunn with Fred and Wes with either Angel or Spike. Probably not Lilah.)

My happily ever after for them: No one dies and Gunn has high self-esteem and Wesley stops fucking up everything he touches. Nothing bad happens and The Gang never have to deal with apocalypses or implausibly huge conspiracies or anything, they just hang out being supernatural detectives and doing Season 1-2 type stuff forever. Possibly they are in a triad with Fred but this is not necessary.

[malvoliowithin]

omg olivia (12th night) for the headcannon thing?? i looove your malvolio one.

Ohh thank you!

Why I like them:

I love that she’s a refined elegant woman who will take no one’s shit, knows what she wants, and will ask for it. She’s fairly young, has lost her entire family, and yet still manages her household efficiently. No one can deny she’s strong at heart, and yet, she’s also allowed to be stubborn, proud, make irrational decisions (7 year grief period what) and also be a lovestruck goofball in front of her crush. She’s very human and I love her. 

Why I don’t:

Idk she’s my second favorite character in the play? I know she’s got flaws (see above) but I love her more for them… 

Favorite episode (scene if movie):

Okay her first scene meeting Cesario/Viola was great and I love it. 

Favorite season/movie:

ALL.

Favorite line:

“This is very midsummer madness!”

Favorite outfit:

Okay this is more like a headcanon and I don’t know what, if any productions have done this but I always wanted to have her first appear in all black mourning garb and then later when she’s fallen in love and decided to rejoin society, appear in green because new life symbolism heck yeeee

OTP:

Oliva x Viola heck yeah 

Brotp:

Like everyone? 

Sebastian: I don’t see them as being in love in love (since, you know, they’re both kinda gay) but I do see them as being friends and Partners in Crime. Happily platonic married and also occasionally go to visit their respective lovers.

Orsino: I just think they’re cute as friends. Also he calls her ‘sister’ at the end of the play and I don’t think I need to expound on that cyclical narrative but it’s sweet. 

Maria: OBVIOUSLY.

And Feste. Just cause everyone loves a fool.

Head Canon:

Toby totally taught her how to use a sword and no, it’s not a ‘proper lady’ thing but Toby doesn’t care, his niece is gonna kick ass. So she can actually fight pretty well and also when she sees Viola trying to learn swordsmanship is not afraid to tell her that her form sucks.

Unpopular opinion:

She also beats Malvolio at poker, but he always wins at Hearts somehow.

A wish:

She lets Antonio move in and also she and Orsino and Viola start a method of basically just screaming out the windows of their respective houses at each other because walking is for losers.

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen:

DON’T LET ANYONE ELSE IN HER FAMILY DIE

Does she even have any family left? Oh wait, Toby. PROTECT TOBY

5 words to best describe them:

1000% done with everyone’s shit (and yet a participant in it ahahaha)

My nickname for them:

Livvy