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sorry to be dumpy downer on main all the time , no ones ever obligated to respond or like my posts, infact i find it hard to reach out to ppl personally and feel burdensome so i put shit where interaction is completely optional
#anyway#dont expect this to change bc i dont think a therapist is going to help us at this point#not anti therapy here but its like given us maybe 3 useful tools after a lifetime of bouncing between therapists#otherwise its just talking to some stranger we dont trust about problems they dont care about šš»#like again there are rlly good and compassionate therapists...somewhere#but for real? huge waste of time and money for me. a random older adult with a psych degree will not help me undo#a lifetime of violent and furious self loathing and abuse šš¼ like i dont know you at all and you dont know me#whatever. going back to work
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I found these questions and I'm bored. ā 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 2. Are you outgoing or shy? - shy 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 4. Are you easy to get along with? - I really dont know. I would guess yes. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? - I think so, but if I'm drunk there's a fairly high chance she is with me. 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? - Kind, loyal and honest people. 7. Do you think youāll be in a relationship two months from now? - Well I hope so š¤ 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? - Depends on the person and if its online where nobody really knows you or face-to-face 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? - "Goodnight, I love you too! š¤š¤" 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? - Bausa - Baron Written by Wolves - To tell you the truth Deadmau5 - Pets 5Haus - Shapeshifting EXGF - We are the hearts 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? - Again, it depends on the person. If its my gf I have absolutely no problem with that, if its my mother I have a huge problem with that 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? - The "sciency-guy" in me tells I dont, while my feelings tell me otherwise. 15. What good thing happened this summer? - This summer was shit tbh. Jakes 7th anniversary and Chesters death... 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - ABSOLUTELY 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? - Yes. Its dumb to believe that we are the only "smart" species in this world. I also think that its possible that they arent carbon-based 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? - Nope 19. Do you like bubble baths? - Kinda 20. Do you like your neighbors? - They dont bother me, so thats nice 21. What are your bad habits? - Eating when frustrated or sad. 22. Where would you like to travel? - New York, New Zealand, Japan, Ireland (again) 23. Do you have trust issues? - Yep 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? - Looking in the mirror and realizing that I'm a huge disappontment. Jokes aside that would be the moment when I come home and my dog greets my as if I was away for years. 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My stomach 26. What do you do when you wake up? - Dressing, washing, brushing my teeth 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? - I dont care 28. Who are you most comfortable around? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n, and my best friends 29. Have any of your exās told you they regret breaking up? - Nope 30. Do you ever want to get married? - I dont really care. 31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? - I dont think so. Its fairly long for a man, but not long enough for a ponytail. 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? I think Jennifer Lawrence would probably be in there. Third person-??? 33. Spell your name with your chin. - Mika 34. Do you play sports? What sports? - Does eSports count? š¤ 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? - Without TV, definitely 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? - No 37. What do you say during awkward silences? - "Ok, I'm sorry" 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? - The candy store. For real: probably a vans store 40. What do you want to do after high school? - I already have a training space, after that I think Im gonna study 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - Most people do 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? - Probably that the situation is extremely awkward or uncomfortably for me, OR that I'm really enjoying the moment 43. Do you smile at strangers? - Sometimes 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? - Space 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? - Knowing that people would be disappointed even more if I dont succeed in school 46. What are you paranoid about? - Losing the ones I love. Also I hate when people are behind my back. I just feel watched, so if I turn my back to you that means I really trust you 47. Have you ever been high? - One week ago 48. Have you ever been drunk? - One week ago 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? - well kinda 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? - Black 51. Ever wished you were someone else? - yep, I mean who doesn't want to be the president or Elon Musk? 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? - Reduce my body weight 53. Favourite makeup brand? - š¤š¤š¤ 54. Favourite store? - The music store 55. Favourite blog? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 56. Favourite colour? - Black, dark blue, orange 57. Favourite food? - Pizza, Ice cream, Cookies 58. Last thing you ate? - Some candy 59. First thing you ate this morning? - A little piece of chocolate (I was already awake for more than 4 hours at this point) 60. Ever won a competition? For what? - I think two for "bike racing" and 2 for rc car driving 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? - Not from school 62. Been arrested? For what? - Not yet 63. Ever been in love? - Yes 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? - I rather dont 65. Are you hungry right now? - Not really 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? - I dont really have friends on here. My gf is using tumblr too, and obviously I know here 67. Facebook or Twitter? - TWITTER 68. Twitter or Tumblr? Twitter for memes and shitposting, tumblr for serious stuff 69. Are you watching tv right now? - Nope 70. Names of your bestfriends? - Amrei, Robin, Arnim, Svenja, Eva 71. Craving something? What? - A hug. A long, tight hug. 72. What colour are your towels? - Blue? 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? - A lot. 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? - Yep, I have a few that are as old as I am 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? - around 200? In my bed i have around 5 or so 75. Favourite animal? - Black panther, cats, dogs, snakes and spiders. I also like big cats like tigers and so on really much. Also wolves. Wolves are wonderful creatures. I like animals in general! 76. What colour is your underwear? - Pink/white I think š¤š¤ 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? - Chocolate 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? - Chocolate 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? - Blue 80. What colour pants? - Black 81. Favourite tv show? - Elementary, Scorpion, Bojack Horseman 82. Favourite movie? - Star Wars 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? - Wat 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? - Wat 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? - Wat 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? - The doves. MINE. 87. First person you talked to today? Sadly my mother. 88. Last person you talked to today? My wonderful gf 89. Name a person you hate? - Hate is a strong word. I dont hate many people, but my parents are two of them 90. Name a person you love? - @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? - My parents 92. In a fight with someone? - My parents. Constantly 93. How many sweatpants do you have? - 6?7? 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? - Too many 95. Last movie you watched? - Before the flood 96. Favourite actress? - I dont know 97. Favourite actor? - I dont knoe 98. Do you tan a lot? - No 99. Have any pets? - A cat and a dog 100. How are you feeling? - "Meh" 101. Do you type fast? - Pretty fast, but there are definitely people that type faster 102. Do you regret anything from your past? - a lot, but then again no. Because my faults from the past lead me to this point in life which is good 103. Can you spell well? - w e l l 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? - Yes, Jake 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? - Kinda 106. Ever broken someoneās heart? - I hope that I didnt 107. Have you ever been on a horse? - Yes 108. What should you be doing? - Right now? Probably sleeping 109. Is something irritating you right now? - No 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? - Kinda. 111. Do you have trust issues? - Again, yes 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - My gf 113. What was your childhood nickname? - Mika 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? - Yes 115. Do you play the Wii? - No 116. Are you listening to music right now? - Yes 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? - Yes 118. Do you like Chinese food? - YES 119. Favourite book? - The boy in the striped pajamas. 120. Are you afraid of the dark? - Just a little bit anxious 121. Are you mean? - I think that I am, but I really dont want to be 122. Is cheating ever okay? - In games under some circumstances, in a relationship no way 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? - No 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? - Yes 125. Do you believe in true love? - Yes 126. Are you currently bored? -Yes 127. What makes you happy? -Being around my favourite people 128. Would you change your name? - I would delete my second name 129. What your zodiac sign? - Capricorn 130. Do you like subway? - Yes 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? - Cry, then talk with them about it, cry more 132. Whoās the last person you had a deep conversation with? - Still @danc1ng1nth3ra1n 133. Favourite lyrics right now? - "You're too good for me 134. Can you count to one million? - Probably if I really wanted to 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? - In a police control "I have never done drugs" 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? - Closed 137. How tall are you? - 1.90m/6'2"-6'3" 138. Curly or Straight hair? - i dont care 139. Brunette or Blonde? - I dont care 140. Summer or Winter? - Winter 141. Night or Day? - Night 142. Favourite month? - i dont have one, but I really like november 143. Are you a vegetarian? - Nope 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? - Milk chocolate 145. Tea or Coffee? - Cocoa 146. Was today a good day? - Kinda 147. Mars or Snickers? - Twix 148. Whatās your favourite quote? - "Remember to look up at the stars and not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious. And however difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at. It matters that you don't just give up." - Stephen Hawking. In my opinion this quote is just inspiring. 149. Do you believe in ghosts? - Not really 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, whatās the first line on that page? - "Die Fenster der Kaserne sind leer und dunkel" which means something like "The windows of the barracks are empty and dark" If you still have questions, ask me! C:
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ace hang invites more people to fuck around on youtube
THE REAL VAMPIRES OF RC | Interview with Adrian from PerpetualThirst!
Adrian: So being a vampire... itās like, you know, being gay. Not that youād understand since youāre not gay. Well, Iām not either, but Iām a vampire.
Lily: O...kay?
Adrian: Like, no one chooses to be a vampire. Itās just a thing that happens. Like when youāre gay. And you can tell because you have these huge pointy canine teeth and you really want to drink blood. Kinda like when youāre gay, and you want to fuck people that are the same gender as you.Ā
Val: Heh. So do people like, want to kill you for it or something?
Adrian: Yeah, Iāve gotten arrested once or twice for like, just trying to get my fill. Itās really hard. People just arenāt willing to donate their blood anymore. So, like, you have to take it. Sometimes by force. Using a knife.
Lily: So youāve actually attacked someone for their blood?
Adrian: Yeah. Itās normal.
Val: ...
Lily: ...
Adrian: You know how the cops used to attack gay people for being gay? Itās like that.
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BUSINESS LADY | Interview with some business lady!
Amelia: So tell me about this... YouTube.
Lily: Well, itās the only major and general platform for sharing video with the general public. Well, notĀ āonlyā, more likeĀ ābiggest and easiest to useā.
Amelia: I see, I see. So, what other platforms exist?
Lily: Uhhh, Twitch?
Val: But thatās more livestreaming stuff, and itās gamer-oriented. Oh, and DailyMotion. And Vimeo.
Lily: But DailyMotion is laggy and annoying, and Vimeoās geared towards professional animators and stuff like that. And weāre just regular olā kids who edit videos of us gaming.Ā
Val: But YouTube has its share of problems. Like demonetizing videos that contain otherwise nonoffensive words likeĀ ālesbianā orĀ āgayā or stuff like that. Like, now theyāre demonetizing everything. And for people who basically make a job through this service, itās absolutely devastating.
Lily: Yeah, and YouTube also does nothing for content creators that actually ruin the system for everyone else. Iām sure youāve heard of the PewDiePie scandals.Ā
Amelia: Thaumas?
Thaumas: *offscreen* A very popular YouTube star has made a number of antisemetic and racist remarks in the past.Ā
Lily: Oh yeah, and then there was the viewcount drop for whatever reason.Ā
Val: Is that even over?
Lily: I have no clue.
Amelia: Ah, interesting. I know there are parts of my company which use this platform to... train others. So, what is the relation of this platform, to say, consumers like you? If you do view videos.
Angel: *offscreen* Ms. Fisher, the tea is ready.
Amelia: Does he know you run this channel?
Lily: Of course he does. We even had him show up in some of our videos.Ā
Amelia: Can I see?
(Lily and Val exchange worried glances)
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UP TO YāALL | Talking Asexuality w/ Straight Ass Narin!
Narin: So, like, what if you four were stuck on an island together? Would you, like... fuck?
Arthur: No.
Narin: But youāre asexuals, which means you donāt necessarily dislike sex. You just... donāt want to fuck people on sight. Right?
Lily: No one fucking touches me.
Val: I donāt really care about fucking.
Brid: Itās not like I want to screw strangers.
Arthur: Iām uncomfortable with the idea.
Lily: Besides, I feel like babies would be a bad idea on a desert island. And maybe they have STDs, I donāt know.
Narin: But couldnāt you fuck Brid?
Brid: N-No! I mean, Lilyās just... sheās not someone I really like...Ā
Lily: Brid could have a yeast infection or something!
Narin: Just use condoms or something.
Lily: On a desert island?
Narin: Make your own!
Everyone: ............
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THIS GAME IS SATAN | Doki Doki Literature Club w/ Clubs and Hearts!
(Some jumpscare happens. Val jumps back, Lily almost screams but starts choking on her own spit and collapses on the ground, Brid looks like sheās about to have a panic attack, and Arthur looks like heās about to cry)
Lily: GAHKKK... KFFF... water... *loud coughing*
Arthur: JESUS FUCK DONT KILL ME!
Brid: OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD
Val: Iswearmyheartjustfuckingstoppedohgodmybodyscramping.... fuck *falls out of chair*
(Angel walks in. He sees the kids in varying degrees of pain. After trying to contemplate what to do for a few seconds, he leaves.)
Val: I donāt think we can move on. So thanks for watching, thatās the end of this episode of Doki Doki Literature Club. Like and subscribe, comment down below, please tell us how to get the good ending.
Arthur: *actually starts crying*
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FILMING IN LILYāS HOUSE | Danganronpa Chapter 3 w/ Not Narin!
Brooke: So whereās your sister? Iām kinda getting paid by the hour to tutor her.
Lily: Who knows. Just let us know if weāre being too loud. Silently. Weāre filming Danganronpa today.Ā
Brooke: ...what?
Val: The video game. Danganronpa.
Brooke: ... My brotherās going to pick me up, just saying. So, if you see this red Tesla out front, itās his.
Val: Tesla? Holy shit.
Lily: His nameās Grey, right? My mom wonāt stop asking me to ask him about college and shit. And then she does it herself. Oh god, he must feel awkward.
Brooke: Yeah. Heās probably not interested in you or your mom, to be honest. No wonder your sister canāt stop complaining about her... Can I take my smoke break now?
Val: You smoke?
Brooke: Oh god, not again... Listen, I donāt care if I die from lung cancer-
Val: No, weāre fine with it, just not in the house. And my dadās downstairs talking with her mom. About tea. Just not around them.
Lily: Yeah, my mom will never let a smoker in the house.Ā
Brooke: ...Thank you.
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BE A MAN | Life Lessons w/ Angel!
Angel: *addressing lily and brid* While you may receive enjoyment out of nonconformity to gender ideals, itās your conformity to various aspects that will help you rise in the educated world. For example, a woman should always be well-dressed. Never immodest, but well-dressed.Ā
(Lily blatantly doesnāt care, Bridās listening but looking bored)
Angel: A woman should also be confident in her own sexuality, no matter what society tries to tell her. When youāve ascended high enough in the social ladder, and trust me, youāll know when, you can afford to be confident in that way. Until then, you must rely on your wits. The same applies to men. They must always follow the same rules a woman does, to uphold a standard that is to be respected. Furthermore, as women are historically more fragile and important creatures to mankindās survival, a man must take every step to protect the women in his life, as well as to never hurt a woman themselves. Women should never be afraid to defend themselves, and speak the truth.Ā
Brid: Okay, I think thatās enough-
Angel: However, you may meet a man one day that you have... feelings for. Know that the hot feeling you get down there is absolutely normal for a woman your age, and is nothing to be ashamed of. You may start to crave the feeling of... something... down there. Long and phallic. While men arenāt necessary for the long and phallic nature of the object you want in there, itās perfectly normal to want something.
Lily: Okay, okay-
Angel: If you do decide to stick objects up your vagina, men would rather you keep it a private matter. I donāt mind, of course- but men in general would rather that the only thing that enter your sacred flower be their penis-
Lily: And thatās all the time we have for this episode. Tune in tomorrow for more shenanigans involving video games and sh-stuff. Bye. Like and subscribe.
Angel: And comment in the comments section! Only nice things of course!
*Brid facepalms*
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HOW TO BOOB RESPONSIBLY | Shantae: Half-Genie Hero!
(Giga Mermaid Level)
Lily: ALL I WANNA DOOO IS SEE YOU TURN INTOOO A GIANT WOMAN
Val: WITH BIG ASS BOOBS
Lily: THIS IS LITERALLY A GAME FOR LESBIANS
Michy: *pops head in* Lesbians?
Val: OH MY GOD I DIED
Lily: Big booby mermaids!
Michy: Dude, what the fuck? I wanna see!... that is one thicc mermaid
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