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when i'm joking around with my dad about something to do with the government and he starts blaming it on socialism and i can't tell if he's joking anymore
#i hope he is#otherwise he's going to be mad when i get bored at family christmas and start ranting about karl marx and animal farm
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Fishing fanatic
My father is a fishing fanatic. Half of the flat is littered with fucking fishing rods, it's horrible. Roughly once a month someone steps in a hook lying on the ground and have to go to the hospital cuz they're barbed at the end. In my 22 years of life I had this procedure done 10 times. A week ago I went to get some random checkup done and when the receptionist saw me she immediately told me to take my shoe off cuz she tought that it's the hook again.
The second half of the flat is fucking packed with Polish Fisherman, World of the Fisherman, Super Carp etc (polish fishing newspapers). Every week my father drives to every kiosk in the town to get every single weekly fishing paper. I was foolish enough to teach him how to use the internet cuz I tought that we would save some money on these papers, but now not only he buys them, he sits on old fishing forums and spins shitstorms with other fishermen over the best bait etc. He can scream into the monitor or throw the fucking keyboard out the window. One time he made me mad so I made an account on that forum and I started trolling him writing in his threads some random bullshit like "Carps eat shit". Mom wasn't cooking hunter's stew fast enough for him to calm down. Oh, and on that forum he has the CATFISH rank, for making 10k fucking posts.
When it's warm he fucks off to fish every weekend. For 5 years, every fucking sunday, I eat fish for dinner and my father yaps about how beneficial eating these watery fucks is. When I got into college my father kept saying that it's because of these fucking fish, cuz they have phosphorus in them and my brain works better.
Every week he and his friend Mirek wake up the whole family at 4 AM cuz they make a ruckus packing fishing rods, making sandwiches etc.
While eating he always talks about motherfucking fish and everytime the topic eventually comes to the Polish Fishing Association, dad keeps getting more and more mad and gets unreasonably angry "hurr durr they don't put enough fish they only steal hurr durr", he gets all mad with all of this and gets up from the table cursing, and goes to read the Big Encyclopedia of River Fish to calm himself down.
This year on Christmas he bought himself a pontoon. Of course he couldn't last until the 24th so he unpacked it yesterday and inflated it in the living room. He dressed up in that whole fishing outfit and sat in it the whole day, in the middle of the flat. He ate dinner (carp) in it too.
If they let me near every fish in Poland at the length of an arm I would fucking kill them all.
Some time ago, in primary or middle school, on my birthday, my father, as a present, took me fishing. Great fucking gift.
We went somewhere way off, far away from the city, we get closer do the lake and my dads eyes are already glistening and he licks his lips in excitement. He unpacked all the gear and we sit at the water and look at the bobbers. After five minutes I got bored so I turned on my discman and my dad fucking bashed me on the head with a fishing rod, because "the fish can hear the music from my headphones and are scared". When I wanted to scratch my ass he started screaming in whispers for me to stop moving cuz the fish can see me move from the water and are running away. I had to sit in complete silence and no movement for 6 fucking hours and look at the water like in some fucking Guantanamo. My birthday's in November so on top of all of that it was cold like a motherfucker. At some point dad got up, walked a couple meters into the forest and farted. He explained to me that you need to fart in the forest cuz otherwise the fish can hear and smell.
I mentioned that my dad has his friend, Mirek, whom he goes fishing with. Some time ago his fishing buddy was Zbyszek. A man the shape of a ball with a mustache, wearing a BOMBER vest 365 days of the year. They were like brothers, him and dad, he would come with his wife Betty to us on Christmas etc. One time on my dad's birthday Zbyszek came over to hehe "drink". They got piss drunk and, of course, talked about fishing all the time. I was sitting in my room. At some point they started fucking screaming over which is better, catfish or pike.
-DON'T FUCKING PISS ME OFF ZBYCHU, HAVE YOU SEEN THE TEETH OF A PIKE?! CHOMP, ARM GONE!
-FUCK OFF TED, CATFISH IN POLAND WEIGHT 80 KILO, YOUR PIKE CAN SUCK THEIR DICK.
-WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING, TALKING ABOUT CATFISH, WHEN YOU CAN BARELY PULL A BLEAK OUT OF THE WATER. THE PIKE IS THE KING OF THE WATER, LIKE THE LION IS KING OF THE JUNGLE!
And it ended with them wrestling on the living room carpet and me and mom had to separate them. From that point onward they lost contact. Last year Betty called to let us know he passed away and that she's inviting us to the funeral. Mom picked up, said her condolences, put the phone down and tells about it to dad, and he replies:
-That's fucking fantastic
That's how much he hated him over that catfish.
I also mentioned my father's archnemesis, that being the Polish Fishing Association. It became his utter obsession and when, for example, they talk about some earthquake on tv, he always says how they should say something about those motherfuckers from the PFA. He stopped reading non-fishing newspapers too because he got mad that they're not writing about polish fishing or any PFA affairs.
The head of the local PFA branch is mr. Adam. For my dad, he's the epitome of evil done to all polish bodies of water by the Association and father had a war with him for several years. One time he went on some fishermen meeting where mr. Adam was and father came back home with a ripped shirt cuz they had to remove him with force, that's how much of a problem he was causing.
After loosing in hand-to-hand combat with the private militia of the PFA dad started a partisan movement online by insulting the PFA and Adam on the forums of local newspapers. He was spewing some bullshit like how Adam was a secret UB agent (communist group, kinda like the FBI), or how he saw him scratching someone's car with a nail on the street etc. I didn't teach my father how to use TOR so cops were called and father had to pay Adam 2000PLN.
When he was paying that he was unbearable for a week, father kept insulting the corrupted courts, the PFA, Adam and the whole world in general. I could deduce from his ramblings that the PFA are some kind of fucking masonry that rules the whole country, pulls the strings and has their people everywhere. He counted that 2000 in fishing rods, hooks or boats and got an absolute headache over , for example, how much vanilla bait he count buy for those 2k (a couple hundred kilo).
Last year father said that we absolutely need to have a fishing boat because apparently renting is too expensive and everyone wants to scam him.
"sonny, on the water is where the real ones fish! That's where the element's at! (it makes no sense in original text either)"
But he couldn't afford it nor did he have a place to store it and he wasn't some hehe loser, so he wasn't gonna pay someone for keeping it, and so he met some local fishermen, they bought a boat together, it's gonna stay at some dude's place, because he has a house and not a flat like us, on the driveway on this guy's trailer and they were to share the boat or fish together.
At first this cooperation went well but one weekend father got sick and couldn't go with them and had a temper tantrum over this. To top it all off, his friends called him to say that fish are catching like crazy so my dad was just lying there, crimson red from anger on the couch and kept panting like an animal. The worst part was that he had no one to blame, like he usually does. Finally he came to the conclusion that it's unfair that they're fishing without him because they bough the boat together and saturday evening, when these dudes came back from their trip, he suddenly left the home.
He comes back an hour later and tells me to help him with something in front of the block. I go outside and I see our car with the trailer and boat. I asked him where did he get it from and he replied that he fucking stole it from that dude's house because they scammed him and told me to grab the boat and bring it into the flat. My explanations that it's gonna take all the space in the living room were fruitless. Luckily the boat couldn't even fit through the door to the staircase so dad decided to just leave it in front of the house.
Using some chains that he found on the boat and my bike lock he chained it to a lamp post and satisfied with his work he wants to go back to the flat when suddenly 2 cars roll up, with co-owners of the boat inside, because they put 2 and 2 together and realized where their property might've gone. An unreal fight started, co-owners are screaming why did he steal the boat and to give it back, father's screaming that they scammed him and he payed 500 PLN and didn't even swim this weekend. I tried to calm them down so that dad wouldn't get beat up because it was really close.
After several minutes the situation was as follows:
-My father lying on the ground, clutching the trailer and screaming that he won't give it back
-Co-owners screaming that he has to give it back
-One co-owner has a broken nose because he tried to pull father away from the boat by the leg, and he got kicked with the other
-Two officers are pulling father by the legs and saying that he's going to the station cuz he beat someone
-Neighbors are watching from every single window around
-My mom is crying and begging father to leave the boat and the policemen not to arrest him
-Me sadfrog.psd
Finally cops ripped dad away from the boat. I gave the co-owners the bike lock code and they took the boat, throwing 500PLN at dad and saying that he no longer has any right to the boat and it's better for him not to meet them on any fishing trip. Mom managed to convince the cops not to arrest dad. The dude with the broken nose said that he's not wasting his fucking time walking to police stations and that he doesn't care, he just doesn't want to see father ever again.
Dad to this day is spinning shitstorms on fishing forums because they made a thread there where they warned everyone about making any deals with my father. I was following that thread and watched as my father ineptly made troll accounts.
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This thread was made by morons! I know user anons_dad for a long time and he's a great dude and an incredible fisherman! They want to slander him because they're jealous of his catches!
Later he would use these troll accounts to stalk his old boat buddies. When one of them made a thread he would fucking burst in on that account and say that he catches shit fish and everyone can see that he can't fish.
From the same accounts he would post replies to his own posts
"well catch! I see you're an experienced hunter!"
and then he would get all happy and force me and mom watch how they cherish his presence on these forums.
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If you love me, let me go
a/n: itâs for @mrzweasleyâs writing challenge and iâm so sorry because i got a huge writerâs block
warnings: sexual tension, kissing, injury
word count: 1.2k
summary: draco decided to let you go from an arranged marriage
draco malfoy x pureblood!slytherin!reader
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No one wants to marry a Malfoy- at least none of your family does, right? but your financial problems are telling otherwise. When you were a kid, your family and the Malfoys had a deal to restore your familyâs fortune. If you and Draco come of age, youâre going to marry each other
That âageâ is certainly near from now that you both are by now fifteen, You have to put a smile on your face every time youâre having dinner with them even if your blood is boiling. You couldnât imagine marrying a pureblood supremacist like him and you donât want them to hold the future of your soon-to-be family
âwhy canât you just accept that Iâm going to be your husband,â Draco said, his cold ring is sending shivers through your spine while he grips tightly on your waist and his other hand is rested on your cheeks. Youâre standing in a dim-lit deserted corridor with him
ânever,â you spat angrily, containing your serious face so he canât hear the loud thumping of your heart. He scoffed cockily as he tightens his hold
âWe all know you canât escape,â he muttered eagerly as he slowly leans his face towards yours, his hot breath is fanning your lips. You pushed him aggressively, he lost his tight grip on you and started to chuckle
âin your dreams, Malfoy,â your voice echoed, you ran away from him leaving him empty. Heâs not going to lie, he kinda likes the way youâre playing hard to get but his feeling are only growing deep inside and he couldnât accept that his presence is always making you mad
Christmas is one of the holidays you hate, not because itâs boring or unhappy but because of the fact that itâs either youâre going to spend it at Malfoy Manor or Dracoâs going to spend it at your house
âAre you two doing well with each other?â here you are again, in the Malfoy Manor and all you can hear is the clanking of fork and knife when no one is speaking
âyes father,â Draco said maniacally as he roughly holds your free hand and shove them on the table âand she wanted a beach wedding,â how did he know that you like a beach wedding? Youâre not telling that to anyone
You widened your eyes in shock as you shifted your gaze from your food to him
âPlease can you just let me go?â you plead with him, youâre standing beside your bed while heâs looking at you standing leaning his back on the door frame. He just laughs a bit
âand why would I?â he asked furrowing his eyebrows
âI donât love you!â you spat hardly making him jolt a bit but didnât show it. Although heâs hurt, he tried to act threatening and dominate you. He walked forward to your bedside and hold your arms a bit rough
âoh yeah?â he spoke, his hot breath hitch whiffing over your ears âI know you do,â his lips started to travel from your ear to your bare neck, his other hand is holding the small of your back and the other is still holding your arm
His deep mysterious thick voice spoke again âand you will do. Foreverâ you let out a small whimper and instantly regret it because he heard it, he smirked. Youâll be lying if you said that youâre not enjoying every second of it
âlet me go!â you whisper playing hard to get, but his lips landed on your unclothed neck and suck it harshly to make sure he would leave a mark. Tears flooded from your eyes, not from dread but from pleasure
You used that tears to beseech him âplease stop it, Dracoâ his gaze soften and started to loosen his grip from you
âIâm sorry I-â he stated as if the demon inside him got out âif you wanted to cancel the wedding I will tell mum,â he said softly, so different from the blond Malfoy boy a minute ago
âthank you,â you donât know if youâre thankful that heâs not going to be your husband or you regret it a bit because you have to admit it, you already developed some affection for the boy and you just donât want it to be huge
After Christmas, your father disappointedly said that his partnership with Malfoys was cut off and the marriage is canceled. Now youâre starting to regret it, your fatherâs face caused you to pity him because his business is everything for him. Lucius is too cold-hearted to let Narcissa meet your mother even for one dinner together
Going back to Hogwarts was too hard for you, Draco is ignoring you every time you tried to talk to him
You never imagined that youâre going to be jealous every time Draco talks to other girls, but whatâs your authority to get jealous when youâre not his fiancĂŠ anymore? Is it wrong for you to envy your own friend, Daphne every time heâs with him?
âYouâre going to watch Quidditch?â Daphne asked happily after bidding goodbye to Draco and the rest of the Quidditch team
âwhy would I? I have no one to support anyway,â you said bluntly rolling your eyes at her
âyes you have,â she said, smile not leaving her lips as she holds your left hand and starts walking outside the pitch. Your face frowned in confusion âDraco,â
âfor Salazarâs sake Daphne, how many times do I have to tell you that our marriage is canceled?â you said rapidly defending yourself guiltily
âoh yeah? Thatâs why youâre glaring at us when we were talking?â Daphne teased, still holding your hand and sitting on the chosen bench
âIâm not!â before Daphne could answer you, Lee Jordan spoke loudly from the commentatorâs box indicating that the game is already starting
You saw the Slytherin and Ravenclaw team flew above the field, your eyes are constantly landing on a certain blond Slytherin boy who seems to gander around the pitch to find the tiny golden round object
â110-170 Slytherin on the lead,â Lee Jordan announced after saying jokes after joke which pisses Professor McGonagall off
All you can hear is the voice of all the students cheering for their house âMalfoy caught the snitch,â said Lee Jordan but before your eyes land on the boy, you heard some studentsâ gasp. You saw Draco was falling from above the pitch
He landed with a loud thud, you canât think straight, and started running down from your sit
âwhat the hell, Malfoyâ tears spilling from your eyes whilst hugging the boy âyou couldâve killed yourself,â you continued, his eyes slowly dripping close but he still manages to laugh
They brought him to the Hospital Wing and all day you stayed beside him âwhat are you doing here?â he asked softly
âwaiting for you to wake up, and tell you something,â you replied irritably but with a hint of a smile
âtell me that you love me?â he teasingly said
âI do, but Iâm here to tell you that donât ever put yourself in danger again,â
âyou really love me?â he asked ignoring the last paragraph you said instead he focused on the words âI do���
âI said what I said and Iâm not going to repeat it,â instead of replying, he grabs your hand and pulls you closer to him, and smashed his lips to yours. The pleasure, the love, and the butterflies youâre eager to feel is already happening but this time, no arrangements and pretending, your lips danced together as if youâre in a cloud 9, he pulled away and rested his head to yours began smiling
âI love you too, dumbassâ
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yandere dabi with an s/o who likes to be touched (i loved the last one so much, i just want more please) p.s. youâre an amazing writer. literally my favorite mha blog.
So Iâm gonna do a combination of these two for your Christmas gifts! You guys won second place in the vote so congrats and merry Christmas!! Thank you so much for your kind words!
TW: ABUSE, BLOOD MENTION, BODY HORROR, NON-CON MENTION, R*PE MENTION, MENTAL ILLNESS, STOCKHOLM SYNDROME.
READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION.
Dabi never touched you anymore. When heâd first taken you away from the comfort of your family, he always seemed to invade every crevice on your being with a wicked and toothy grin plastered on across his scarred lips as his face fell apart at the seams, wiping his blood on you like finger paint. You screamed, cried, and begged him to stop, causing him to shriek as loud as his lungs would allow, so close to your face that you thought he may bite you.
âYou scared? You fucking scared of me? Good! Tell me how horrible I am and cry harder!â
But now... he never smiled. Whenever he was in the same room as you, heâd stare at you with a tired, withdrawn expression yet he never said a word. He just sat there and looked at you as if he were waiting for something to happen. This put you on edge and made you feel very isolated. At the beginning, you would have given anything just to make him stop but now you wished he would just touch you again to give you some kind of human interaction other than a never ending staring contest. You hadnât had a conversation with another soul in ages and you missed your friends. You wondered what must have changed to make him be so cold to you so abruptly. Was it something you did? Was he mad at you? Did he get bored with you?
Unexpected hurt bubbled up in your chest as you considered the latter explanation and your loneliness began to constrict around your throat. You turned a shy, panicked face towards the direction where Dabi was leaning his body against the counter, scoping you out from across the room with his arms folded over his chest. When your eyes met each other, he squinted his. You wondered if he was suspicious of you or if he was trying to focus in on you. Either way, the tension that always seemed to fill the room was unbearable. You decided to be courageous and break that tension âUh..â
He quirked an eyebrow in interest and waited for you to continue.Â
âUm... Can I hug you?â You inquired, your voice trembling as you swallowed the lump in your throat.Â
You could sense him immediately start to scrutinize each and every one of your words as his otherwise static expression became more tense and his eyes seemed to bulge out of his head. He stayed motionless for a few seconds before his wide eyes narrowed and a frown pulled at his staples around his mouth. His voice croaked from lack of use â...You gone nuts or something?â His tone was harsh and it stung.
âNo...â you almost whimpered. You cringed at your own tone that almost sounded akin to a whining child.
Dabi scoffed as he looked away from you for the first time in weeks, pointing his icy glare to the floor. He looked almost... bashful? How odd.Â
The tension in the room resurfaced as neither of you moved but it was a different kind of tension from before: A kind of feeling you never thought youâd ever feel in emanating from him. You thought he hated you.Â
Your face flushed from fear and your legs felt weak as you slowly picked yourself up from your seat and crossed the room to where Dabi was resting his hips against the kitchen countertop. His head snapped up in panic the second he saw you shifted your body. He looked like an angry and frightened animal. You wondered if this was a good idea as you planted yourself next to him to prop yourself against the bar.
âItâs okay if you donât want to. I just miss you.âÂ
His saucer-shaped eyes twitched at this as he furrowed his brows âDonât say shit like that if you donât mean it, y/n.â His jaw clenched in fury and he seemed to bare his teeth at you. Every instinct told you to drop the subject but you couldnât hold yourself back as tears escaped your eyeline.
Your words seemed to pour from your mouth before you could stop them. âI do mean it. Iâm so lonely and I love you but you wonât even talk to me anymore and I donât even know why you hate me. I donât know what I did wrong!â you blubbered like a child. How pitiful.
Dabiâs breath caught in his throat and it looked as if he couldnât breathe until he started to hyperventilate. Youâd never seen him panic like this before.
âDonât say that!â he shrieked. âI love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I lo-â
He ceased breathing all together when your arms wrapped tightly around his chest. He stayed frozen in place as you gently pressed your lips to his face.Â
Dabi clutched to the back of your shirt so tightly you feared it would tear as he gradually let his knees buckle to the ground to settle in a sitting position, making you stumble and landing directly in his lap.
For hours, the two of you held each other on the tiled floor with you in his lap, paying special attention to each and every inch of his beautiful discolored skin. He couldnât let go of you as he gipped your body close to him and burrowed his face into your hair, breathing your scent in.
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Merry Crisis (a.i)
Pairing: Ashton Irwin (ft.5SOS) X Fem!reader (Dad!Ash)
Summary: Shopping is always stressful, but when you have a baby on the way... it can become a chaos, especially when you have 3 crazy best friends with you.
Warnings: Language. Fluff and some crackhead moments. Reader uses she/her pronouns. Mentions of Birth. Some grammar mistakes (English is not my first language, sorry)
Word count: 4.5 k
Authorâs note: Hello! This is my first Holiday fic with 5SOS and itâs Ashtonâs turn to shine (even tho each boy gets their moment) This was so fun to write, I did it on my sociology class (so maybe itâs not that perfect) and I love it very much and I hope you do too! Reblogs, feedback and comments are always welcome and encouraged! Support your writers! â¤ď¸ Hope you like it and Happy Reading đŚâ¤ď¸
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Twas the evening before Christmas, the streets were filled with Christmas lights and the chill air of Los Angeles made everything cozier as families gathered around the fireplace and enjoyed the most peaceful of timesâŚ
This statement does not apply to our favorite band, tho.
Our four Australians were not enjoying a cup of hot cocoa with their families as they were supposed to, oh no. They were doing the most dreadful thing a person could think of doing the night before dear Santa came to visit: They were Christmas shopping.
In their defense - or at least Calumâs, Michaelâs and Lukeâs defense, this was all Ashtonâs fault for he was the one that dragged them to the crowded mall in the middle of one of the busiest days of the year. And, in Ashtonâs defense, it was not his fault that the store had called him in the middle of a recording session to tell him that they finally had the only thing he wanted for Christmas: A music box.
He just had to get it before everyone else.
âWhy did we come all over here for a little music box?â Asked Michael as they stood at the end of the line for the register. How could they only have one register open? Itâs Christmas for fucks sake! but then again, itâs Christmas for fucks sake, so they know that people should be with their families instead of working a poorly paid job.
âIt was the last one!â Ashton claimed, admiring the little circular box in his hand âItâs a limited edition and I just had to get it for Y/N and for the babyâ
His eyes lit up when your name escaped his lips. Not even a year ago did he officially make you his wife, but now you were carrying his child! People might think it was rushed, but for Ashton it was the complete opposite. He had his life made when he met you, knowing that he will marry you as soon as he could⌠he had to wait a few more years to do that, but he was extremely happy, more so now that your little family was expanding. He loved you and your child with all his heart, and the boys all knew that so they can't even be mad about it, even if he kidnapped them to the mall with the promise of some cinnabuns later.
âShe had one of these when she was littleâ Ashton continued as he admired the little hand painted details of the box âIt always played a little lullaby to help her sleep. But it broke a few years ago and she always complained about not having one like this for her kids one day⌠But now she will!â The black haired man smiled.
âShit, thatâs actually pretty sweetâ Michael commented âOkay, youâre forgivenâ
âI donât know if I want to hug you for being the perfect husband, or to kick you in the balls for being the perfect husband and making the rest of us feel badâ Luke chuckled.
The four boys laughed at the comment and started talking about their plans for the Holidays as they waited for the line to move. The problem was, it has been fifteen minutes and the line has only moved once.
âHow long is this line anyway?â Calum said, peeking over the side, furrowing his eyebrows as he noticed at least thirty more people waiting in front of them âShit, this is going to take a while. That man has at least twenty plushies and eleven race carsâ
âI donât know how people could leave this kind of stuff for the last minuteâ Ashton huffed, earning a death glare from each of his friends âThis one is different, tho! It was the last one!â
âIâll give you a hundred bucks for that!â Someone said behind Luke, making him jump at the sudden surprise.
âWhat the-â Luke said, placing a hand over his heart.
It was a short man in a trench coat who pointed to the music box in Ashtonâs hand.
Ashton furrowed his eyebrows and said to the man âUh, not a chance mateâ
âTwo hundred?â
âNopeâ
âFive hundred?â The man would just not cave and Ashton was getting fed up with it, luckily Calum noticed and hurried to say something before his friend started a scene.
âHey, mr. Devito wannabe. He said no, so just go bother someone else. Okay?â
The man scoffed and turned his face to the side, stating that he was offended. The four Australians rolled their eyes and turned their backs to him once again.
Another fifteen minutes passed and the line barely moved. The guys were not talking anymore, running out of things to say past the twenty minute mark. Each of them were bored out of their minds, well all but Ashton at least, he was still gleaming with pride as he looked at the music box and created scenarios in his head and thought about the joy that would be mirrored in your eyes once you open it tomorrow morning.
After a few more minutes of silence, Luke was the first one to break it âI think Iâm just gonna get a coffee and wait in the car. These boots are killing me todayâ He looked at Ashton as if to ask permission, but the dark haired man just shrugged and nodded, asking him to buy one for him as well and to leave it in the car.
Michael then added âYeah, I think Iâm gonna go and check the electronics this store has. I think I saw a new camera that would be perfect for my streamsâ
And that only left Calum and Ashton waiting in line. But about five seconds later, Calum opened his mouth.
âYes, you can go explore, tooâ Ashton said with a sigh before Calum even got a chance to ask.
âCoolâ The curly man said, patting Ashton on the back before muttering a âIâll be right backâ Leaving him alone with the music box.
Ashton didnât mind. In fact, he kind of enjoyed this time alone. It gave him plenty of opportunities to imagine a new future for the both of you next to your little baby boy or girl. He catched a glimpse of families walking around the mall, buying gifts or eating a snack as they smiled at each other. He couldnât wait for that to be his new normal.
He remembered the time when you told him you were pregnant. You gifted him a special baby bodysuit that said âMy daddy is the best drummer in the world and there is nothing you can do about itâ next to your positive pregnancy test. Ashton always wanted to start a family, especially if it was with you, but he never expected it to be so soon. Yet, once he held the test in his trembling hands, he knew that this was the best thing it couldâve happened to him. He remembers how tearful he got the second his brain processes the information, quickly running up to you and pressing an earth shattering kiss to your lips, promising you and your baby that he would be the best father in the world.
And, as he held the little object in his hand, he already thought he was doing a pretty good job. He smiled to himself and thought about calling you. Not only did he want to hear your voice at this moment, but also because he wanted to check up on you. You were having tea with your best friend at the moment, but the pregnancy hormones were hitting pretty hard lately and he wanted to make sure you were doing alright.
But as soon as he got his phone out of his pocket, your name started glowing on the screen.
âBaby! I was just about to call youâ Ashton said with a smile, loving this little coincidence.
âAshton, is coming!â You said in an alarming tone. Ashton, however, did not understand what you meant.
âYeah? Iâm coming home soon, why are-?â
âNo!â You cut him off âThe baby, Ash! The baby is coming!â
Ashton laughed âHa, ha very funny Y/N. But the baby isnât due until three weeks from nowâ
âASHTON FLETCHER IRWINâ You yelled through the phone, making Ashton pull away from the phone for a second âMY WATER BROKE AND THE BABY IS COMING NOW. SO GET YOUR ASS TO THE HOSPITAL BEFORE I-â A sharp pain ran through you as you were experiencing the contractions. Ashton could hear your distant groan and immediately went pale.
The baby was coming and he wasnât ready.
âAsh, hello?â Your friendâs calm voice came from the other end âIâm gonna take Y/N to the hospital right now. I need you to meet us there, okay?â
âFuck, okay. Iâm on my wayâ He rushed to say before he ended the call.
âHey, dude. Whatâs going-?â Michael said as he approached the black haired man who looked like he might throw up.
âThe babyâs coming!â He said, trying to concentrate on his breathing before he hyperventilates.
âWhat?!â
âHey, Mike, is everything-?â Calum came next, worried about his friendsâ weird behavior.
âTHE BABY IS COMINGâ
Michael.
The guitarist started wandering the electronics and new technologies hall. He was secretly glad he got away from waiting in line for what it looked like another hour, but at the same time he was glad he decided to accompany Ashton in his little quest.
The moment he knew you were pregnant he set himself to be the best uncle that little kid will have. He already knew that you and Ashton were going to be great parents, with the way in which you love each other it was hard to think otherwise. Michael was always up for anything you guys wanted to do for each other, from secret dates or help you sneak out after a concert, or even to plan gifts! He always took pride to know that he was part of your epic love story, even if it was with just a little favor.
Michael stepped into the videogame aisle like he usually does, but this time he went directly to the kidâs section, knowing that eventually your baby will want to play videogames with uncle Mikey and he will have to be ready with the most family friendly games he could find.
He started grabbing a few of them and reading the little summaries they had on the back, eventually deciding that he did not understand anything about childrenâs games and that he might have to ask around in order to find the best ones.
He went back to the electronics aisle and something caught his attention.
âIs that a real megaphone?â He asked one of the workers there âI havenât seen one since 2014â He said, remembering the last time the boys ever let him play with one of those in the Good Girls video.
âYeah! Itâs the new modelâ Said the teenage boy that was in charge of that seccion that day âWanna try it out?â
âBefore that, can I go and show it to my mates? I wonât be gone for long, they are just down the checkout lineâ
âSure!â The young man smiled and gave him the megaphone.
Michael had a big smile on his face as he started walking towards Ashton to show him what he found. But his smile dropped the minute he saw Ashtonâs face grew a thousand times paler.
He carefully walked up to him and asked âHey, dude. What 's going-?â
âThe babyâs coming!â Ashton said, trying to catch his breath.
âWhat?!â
Calum.
He hated the mall. He really did. There were always too many people, too much noise and the prices were always exaggerated. But he knew that he was here today for a good cause. Calum was not going to let his best mate down.
Ever since you came into Ashtonâs life - and the boysâ life for that matter - he could tell that you were special. Not only because of the way Ashton talked about you all the damn time, but because of your energy, your passion, your kindness and obviously your undenying love for the drummer.
Calum was always the protective friend, always keeping his guard up for any new companion they boys might have. But with you it was different. The first time you two met was the day you instantly became best friends. He knew he could trust you to keep Ashtonâs heart safe, and he knew that if Ashton ever broke your heart that he was going to have to kick his ass for being that stupid. Luckily, he wasnât.
He was the first person (after Ashton, of course) to know about your pregnancy. He swore to himself that he would not let anything happen to his future godson/goddaughter. That baby was going to be the perfect mixture of his best friends, there was nothing in the world that could stop him from loving them just as much as he loves all of you. He even got them toys so they could play with Duke when theyâre older! Needless to say that he was very, very excited.
As he wandered through the halls of the store he noticed a commotion next to the toys section.
A line of kids accompanied by their parents awaited in front of a huge chair decorated with fake snow and candy canes. Santa Claus was going to be there.
âOh my godâ A female voice said behind him âYou are Calum Hood!â
Calum turned around and was faced with a young girl dressed as an elf looking at him like he hung the moon or something.
âThat I amâ He said with a smile âHello, nice to meet you!â
âM-my nameâs Lizzaâ The girl blushed âIâm a huge fan! Is it okay if- I mean, could I get a picture? Please?â
Calum smiled âSure!â
Lizza squealed âOmg, okay. But, can we do it over there? The kids arenât supposed to see me yetâ She said, pointing to a corner with a curtain and some costumes, presumably Santaâs and his elves'.
Calum nodded and followed the girl, catching a glimpse of the Santa Claus outfit âDo you think I can wear that for the picture?â He asked. Honestly, he just wanted to know how it would feel like to dress up as Santa, knowing he would one day have to do it for your child.
âOf course!â The girl said, taking her phone from her purse and giving it to another elf so he could take the picture.
Once the picture was done, he started to strip off the big red coat, the white beard and the hat when suddenly he had an idea âIs it okay if I borrow this for a while? Maybe five minutes? I wanna prank some friends that are at the check outâ
âUhhâ
âIâll give it back, I promise,â He said with a smile.
Lizza sighed âSure! We have another one for emergenciesâ
âCool, thanks Lizzaâ
Calum walked away with the fake beard, the warm coat and the hat, feeling cheeky as he approached the line.
âWhat?!â He heard Michael yell. And although Michael always yells, this one seemed important as his voice sounded concerned.
âHey, Mike, is everything-?â Calum said, approaching his friends with a very confused face. But before he could even finish the question, Ashton looked at him with fear in his eyes.
âTHE BABY IS COMINGâ
Ashton.
This was not good. Not good at all. His wife is at the hospital about to give birth and he is still in the line of the fucking mall.
âOh shit!â Calum said, looking frantically over the line that was still too long âOH SHITâ
âOkay calm dow- Is that a Santa costume?â Michael asked.
âCalm down?!â Calum said, panicking âMy best friend is having a baby and you tell me to CALM DOWN?!â
âIâm having a babyâŚâ Ashton said in a whisper, not really paying attention to what was going on around him âIâm having a babyâ
âNot you!â Said Calum âWell... also you but I meant Y/N! Sheâs the one pushing it mateâ But Ashton did not listen.
His whole world paused in that moment. Too many thoughts were running through his head as he tried to formulate a plan, any plan that would get him the quickest to you.
He thought he was doing a good job, he thought that he was going to be the best dad ever and now he was going to miss the birth of his first child because the line wasnât fucking moving.
âAsh?â Michael called, but he wasnât listening.
How could he screw this up so early in the game? Your baby wasnât even born yet but he swore he could already feel their disappointment.
âAsh..â
And you! How could you ever forgive him?! You will surely file for divorce once the baby is born.
âAshton!â
âWhat?!â He yelled, looking at Michael who was shaking him by the shoulders.
âFucking breathe man! You almost turn purple thereâ
Michael started breathing at an even pace, motioning Ashton to breathe with him and so he did âItâs going to be okay, donât worry about itâ
âHow can you say that?!â Ashton almost cried âIâm not even a dad yet and Iâm already screwing up! Who doesnât show up to the birth of his child?â
Michael rolled his eyes, knowing his friend was just talking out of fear than out of reason, and shook him by the shoulders again âListen to me, you are already a great dad! You were a dad even before Y/N got pregnant and you are not going to miss the birth of my nephew or niece. I wonât allow it. But first I need you to calm the fuck down!â
Ashton looked at Michael and swallowed the lump in his throat âWhat if Iâm not ready? What if weâre not ready?â
Michael chuckled âYou asked me the same question when you were about to walk down the aisle a year ago. You were ready even before you knew you were and this is not differentâ
But before Ashton could say something, Calum walked up to them again.
âThere are fourteen people ahead of usâ Said Calum, who had just run up to the start of the line âIf we asked them to move, we might get there in timeâ
âOr maybe you could leave the music box to meâŚâ The man with the weird vibe intervened.
âFuck off DeVito!â The three Australians yelled.
Suddenly, a lightbulb got turned on on Michaelâs head âI got an idea!â
A panicked Calum dressed as Santa and a very panicked Ashton watched as Michael ran out of the store for a second, only to come back pushing a Target cart âGet in!â He said jumping in the cart and motioning to Ashton to follow him.
Ashton jumped inside without asking any questions, not even when Calum started pushing the car or when Michael turned on his⌠was that a megaphone?!
âAttention ladies and gentlemenâ Michael said through the megaphone, making every single person turn their heads towards them, as if two large Australians standing inside of a shopping cart being pushed by a very tattooed Santa Claus wasnât stiking enough âWe have a man thatâs going to become a father at any moment now while his wife is in the hospital! Please let us through!â
Ashton does not know if it was the weird scene they caused, his desperate face or Christmas magic that made everyone on the line take a step back as Calum pushed them through the checkout.
Once they got there, the cashier took his money, too shocked to say anything else as Ashton yelled âKeep the change!â As they rushed through the doors and towards the parking lot with Calum pushing the cart at a great speed with all of his energy as all the other customers looked at them and wondered what the hell was going on.
âMommy?â A confused random kid asked âWhy was Santa pushing those men on the cart?â
Luke.
His favorite Christmas playlist was playing in the car. He loved the holidays, but he hated Christmas shopping with his life. So he was very thankful that Ashton could understand this and let him wait in the car.
As he hummed through the song âHis Favorite Christmas Storyâ he thought about the gift he got to your little unborn baby. As soon as he found out you were pregnant, he knew he had to spoil that kid rotten. Well, not that he knew he had to, but he wanted to. You and Ashton were the best people he has ever met, and he knew your little baby was not going to be different, so whatâs wrong with giving that child the world they deserve?
A few months ago he talked to a friend of his that made customized presents made of crochet, so he asked if they could make a baby mobile to put over the crib. He also made sure to ask that the animals that were to adorn the mobile were yourâs and Ashtonâs favorites, and also throwing a little kangaroo in honor of their fatherâs homeland and a little penguin in honor of their future favorite uncle.
He smiled to himself as he thought he couldnât wait to meet the little pal and how he couldnât wait to start a family of his own. But his daydreaming got cut short when he heard a commotion coming from the mallâs doors.
Sirens were ringing and a lot of people stood and watched at whatever was causing the disturbance. He even had to take a double look because he thought he just saw Calum dressed as Santa Claus pushing a shopping cart with Ashton and Michael inside, the latter speaking with a megaphone in his hand. And indeed that is what he saw.
âLUKE START THE CARâ Michael yelled from his megaphone. And Luke, being the smart man that he is, did not ask questions as he did just that.
Soon enough, Calum Santa Claus was jumping inside of the car, followed by Michael and Ashton, who just sat in the front seat.
âWhat is-?â Luke tried to ask, but his three friends were quicker as they all said at the same time:
âThe baby is coming!â âWe needed to get the music boxâ âThe line was too fucking longâ
âHurry up, dude!â Calum said, giving Luke a pat on his shoulder as he stared at them, very confused.
âWhy didnât you just leave the music box with one of them?â He said, motioning to his friends in the back âI couldâve come back for them after I dropped you offâŚâ
The three Australians all looked at eachother like they were the most stupid people on the planet. Until Micahel turned on the megaphone again and said with a defeated voice: âJust driveâ
The ride to the hospital was silent as Luke drove through the streets of LA at full speed. Michael even turned on the siren of the megaphone to make way across the traffic jam. How the hell they didnât end up in jail? A Christmas miracle if you ask me.
Once they got there, Ashton was the first one to jump off the car, followed by his best friends as they ran through the hospitalâs floors.
âIrwin!â He said, once they got to the maternity wing âY/N Irwin! My Wife-â
Luke followed, almost knocking down Ashton as his boots slipped on the floor âHis wife!â He said, almost out of breath.
âHis baby!â Calum added, almost falling to the floor as he tripped over his foot.
And last but not least came a small âHelp?â From Michael who was completely out of breath as he sat on one of the chairs in the waiting room.
The nurse, apparently not taken aback at the sudden outburst of three grown man and a Santa Claus in her waiting room, just smiled at Ashton and said: âOver here, Mr. Irwin. You are just in time, she just started dilatingâŚâ
But Ashton didnât hear much as he walked behind her, anxious to see you and see your baby. Breathing heavily as he tried to calm his nerves before he got to your room. He gave one last look to his friends and smiled at them.
âYou can do it man!â Michael said, giving him the thumbs up.
âYou go Poppa!â Luke cheered.
âWe will be here!â Calum said, feeling tears of pride gather up in his eyes as he watched Ashton turn into another hallway, ready to become the dad he always knew he could be.
âDid you actually steal a Santa costume?â Michael said as the other two sat down next to him.
âAnd you stole a cart and a megaphone so shut upâ
A new family.
You watched with tired eyes as your husband held your baby girl in his arms.
âShe is so tinyâŚâ He said with fresh happy tears falling rolling down his cheeks. Ashton started crying as soon as he saw her little face and heard his heart shattering cry.
You almost thought that he wasnât going to make it in time, afraid that you were going to have to get through the birth of your child all alone. But he came through the doors just in time and he did not let go of your hand for a second, even when you knew you were crushing it as you pushed.
âI love you so muchâ He said, just as heâs been saying for the past hours since he got here âI love you so much and I love her so much I- Thank youâ
âWhy are you thanking me, love?â
âFor giving me the best gift of allâ Ashton said as he laid next to you with your daughter curled up on his chest âYou gave me the family I always dreamed of. I could never thank you enough for itâ
He slowly lowered his head and pressed his lips to yours, showing you all the love that he could in only one simple kiss.
âWell, itâs not like you didnât help on making this, you know?â You teased, making him chuckle âI should be thanking you, Ash.You and her are the best thing that has ever happened to me, I love youâ
âI love youâ He said, capturing your lips in another kiss as you let the music box play in the background, filling the room with the notes of your favorite lullaby.
âShould I let the boys in?â He asked as he passed your daughter back to you. You just nodded, not wanting to let your friends wait a second longer to meet your baby. âOh, and just a heads up, Calum is dressed as Santa Claus and we might never be allowed on the mall againâ
You laughed âI canât wait to hear that storyâ
Ashton smiled as he got out of the room and walked towards where the boys were sitting. Once they saw him walk up to them, they immediately got up, all of them smiling proudly at the new - official, father of the band.
âBoys, come and meet our baby girl: Jane Elizabeth Irwinâ
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a drop in the ocean â sirius black
pairing: sirius black x female!reader
summary: sirius teaches reader that love isnât all itâs cracked up to be.
warnings: cheating, swearing
a/n: this was inspired by the song âa drop in the oceanâ by ron pope! this is a little different from what i'm used to since the overall theme is a lot more ??? mature ?? i guess ?? i kind of stepped out of my comfort zone with this but i hope you guys like it :')
It's bizarre how much pain can change you.
You become this entirely different person. You look the same on the surface, but somewhere deep inside you, you're someone else. You're stronger. Everything that has happened to youâall the tears you've shed, the people who have hurt you, the pain you've enduredâall of them shapes you into something more. Something better.
And one day, you will wake up, look back at everything that you have endured, and you will smile. And it will feel like the puzzle pieces of the world have fallen back into place againâand maybe it's been that way for a long time. Maybe you've come so far in terms of healing and you're only just now starting to notice.
[Y/N] [Y/L/N] wakes up one summer morning, when the sun is warm and promise of a new day looms above her head. She swings her legs over her bed, pads over to the window in the corner of the room where sunshine filters through, draws the curtains open. Here she takes a deep breath, closes her eyes, and justâ
Remembers.
And this time, it doesn't hurt anymore.
â
Sirius Black was a charmer.
He wasn't just handsome; he was attractive. He knew exactly how to get people to swoon over him without laying it on too thick. He'd send a quick glance over anyone's wayâone that made them feel as though they were the only person on earth he could seeâand that person would fall.
They'd want him, fooling themselves into the belief that they were different. That they were special in a way that none of Sirius Black's previous flings were.
They'd end up with their hearts broken, of course. Shattered to bits and left at their feet for them to clean up on their own, because Sirius just couldn't bother.
It would happen within a month or two. Some much less.
But [Y/N] lasted the longest.
She was in Ravenclaw, and had caught Sirius's eye in her sixth year. She wishes she could say that she was differentâthat she hadn't fallen for him the moment he'd gone up to her in the Great Hall and steered her away from her friends, asking for her nameâbut she wasn't. She'd taken one look at Sirius's eyes, seen what seemed like genuine sincerity in them, and felt her sixteen-year-old heart doing odd little flips inside of her chest against her will.
Sirius Black liked her.
It took a month before he asked her out. Made it, as some would say, "official". A part of [Y/N] knew that it wouldn't last long, but she would enjoy thisâenjoy himâwhile she still had him. She'd never felt this way for anyone before, and despite her brain telling her that Sirius Black was trouble, her heart said otherwise.
A month together turned into two. And three, and then four, five, and suddenly the rest of Hogwarts was wondering when Sirius planned to break things off with her.
[Y/N] wondered it, too. But Sirius still looked at her the same way he had done all those months ago when he'd asked for her name, like she was everything in the world he'd been hoping forâlike she was different. Like he actually held real feelings for her and not just the kind you try out one second and then get bored of the next.
She wanted to believe that look in his eyes, but she'd heard the rumors. and on top of that there were her friends' warnings, telling her that Sirius was no good for her and that he would break her heart one way or the other.
One day, while they sat at the balcony of Ravenclaw tower during one of the many times she'd snuck Sirius into the common room, she glanced at him.
They were sitting on the floor facing each other, legs crossed underneath them. Sirius's hands were in her own; her fingers played with the rings decorating his, turning them over and over.
"I like this one," she murmured, her touch lingering on the silver one on his middle finger. It was elegant, contrasting beautifully with his pale skin, simple and with what looked like a crest emblazoned on the middle. She looked up at him and found him looking at herâgaze intense and yet somehow also gentle, like he was memorizing every last detail of her face and committing them to memory. Softly, she asked, "Does it mean anything?"
Sirius made a small sound of confirmation, eyes leaving hers to look down at the ring, watching as her fingers grazed over it. "Yeah," he said quietly, blinking, lashes dusting pale cheeks before he was looking up at her again. It took a while for the rest of his words to get out of his mouth; he looked as though he was in deep thought, watching her with something unreadable dancing just behind his eyes.
And then Sirius was clearing his throat, shifting on where he sat. When he spoke next, his voice was oddly soft. Sincere. (And again [Y/N] found herself wondering: are you pretending?)
Because it was during moments like these that made her think that what Sirius felt for her was real.
"It's from, uh," he cleared his throat again, and [Y/N] didn't fail to notice the sudden rigidness of his shoulders. His gaze was skittering away, looking instead at the scenery below them instead of at her. "It's from James's family. The Potters. I.. ran away from my family, see, about a year ago."
As [Y/N] listened to him speak, watched as his eyes grew hard and he swallowed with difficulty, she realizedâthis was something important to him. He wouldn't lie about this just to get closer to her; he was laying part of himself bare to her that very few people had ever seen.
"They took me in," Sirius said quietly, still not quite looking at her. "When I had nowhere else to go, they let me stay over at their place. And that same Christmas, they gave me this ring to.. welcome me to their family, I guess." Emotion tugged his lips upwards at the corners. "I'm grateful for them," he told her, nodding a little to himself, and then he was looking up at her, meeting her eyes.
He was relieved to see that there wasn't any sympathy in them. justâand Sirius found it suddenly very hard to breatheâlove. Pure, unadulterated love.
"You deserve to be happy," she told him, tone just as soft as the gentle smile on her lips. She pressed her palm into his, fingers slipping into the spaces between his own and squeezing. He squeezed back, still staring at her, and wondered if his lungs had forgotten to stop breathing.
[Y/N] leaned in, lips feather-light in how they ghosted over his cheek, and then she was pulling away, and Sirius's heart was doing something weird inside his chest. "I'm happy you're in a better place now."
Sirius couldn't breathe.
He surged forward, capturing his lips in her own, and at that moment both of them knew this was different; it felt different, more than just a press of the lips, more than just a kiss. Sirius pried her lips apart with his own, taking his sweet, gentle time, and it shot sparks across his body like he'd never felt before. They kissed slow like melted honey, tender and thorough and just a little overwhelming, and Sirius was dizzy with itâhe felt like he was drowning.
He was drowning, but he loved every second of it.
â
A few months turned into a year, then two, and before anyone knew it, they were graduating. And still, as they left the gates of Hogwarts to venture out into the world waiting for them, Sirius and [Y/N] were still together. It went against everyone's expectationsâand truthfully, [Y/N]'s ownâbut it made her happy, being with him. and she could only hope that she made him just as happy as he did to her.
They moved into a flat of their own in the outskirts of London. It wasn't anything grand, but it was cozy and clean and it only took a few months for the building to become something of a home to both of them.
[Y/N] loved every moment she spent with Sirius. All their shared smiles, their little, subtle moments of intimacy, the fleeting kisses, waking up in the morning with him by her sideâeverything.
She loved him so much that it hurt.
Three years into their relationship, as she lay in bed with Sirius, their entire bedroom dark and quiet save for both of their rhythmic breathing, she told him.
"I love you," she whispered into the skin of his shoulder. His arm was draped lazily around her, and she was curled up at his sideâand everything about it was painfully familiar. The way his chest rose and fell. The way he stroked at her hair. How he shifted down just the tiniest bit to press a kiss to the crown of her head.
She loved Sirius so much that she didn't even realizeâor maybe didn't careâthat he never said it back.
â
Maybe it was something that was just ingrained into him. There could have been a million other reasons that all pointed to it not being her fault, but still, for the longest time, she believed that it was.
Sirius was seeing someone else, and he wasn't doing a very good job at hiding it.
One of her friends had told her that they'd seen Sirius in Diagon Alley with another woman at his side. [Y/N] had been angry, but not at Siriusâno, she'd lashed out at her friend, calling her a liar, saying that Sirius would never do something like that.
It's bizarre, the things you do for love. how much you hurt yourself in the process.
Only a week later, she found a letter tucked into the pocket of one of Sirius's coats. It was addressed to a name she did not recognize, and written underneath it were sweet, sweet words that [Y/N] could remember Sirius telling her once or twice before.
you make it hard for me to breathe
everything about you drives me absolutely mad
meet me tomorrow night at the leaky cauldron and
[Y/N] stopped reading. Her hands were shaking too badly; the letter fell from her hands and onto the floor. There was bile rising in the back of her throat.
Her knees went weak underneath her. She leaned on the bed for supportâthe same bed they'd laid in just this morning, the same bed he'd murmured the very same things written in that blasted letterâ
"Oh, God." She let out a ragged, broken sound, hands clutching at her own chest as though it would help ease the pain. She couldn't breathe. "Fuck. Fuck."
[Y/N] Â didn't know why, but when Sirius came back home that night, claiming that he'd gone over to James and Lily to say hi, she didn't bring up the letter right away.
"How's Lily?" she asked, not looking up from where she sat on the couch, instead pretending that she was invested in a copy of the Witch Weekly magazine in her hands.
"She's doing fabulous," grinned Sirius, shrugging off his coat as he made his way over to her. "Her belly bump's getting a lot more noticeable. James is seconds away from absolutely losing it. He's always franticâI swear he thinks the baby's going to pop out out of bloody nowhere."
[Y/N]'s senses weren't working properly. She hummed something inaudible in response. A single, painful thought was wafting around her headâa question that she now knew the answer to perfectly well.
Sirius strode over to her, draping his coat over the arm of the couch before moving around the coffee table to sit next to her. He was smiling. "But how was your day, love?" he said, and then he was leaning over, reaching out with one hand to tilt the side of her head towards himâ
You're pretending. Always pretending. As soon as he made contact with her skin, she was flinching away, and Sirius knew that something was wrong.
"Is everything alright, doll?" he asked, brows furrowing into a frown of concern. His hand hovered somewhere next to her face, still, fingertips just barely ghosting her cheek.
Before Sirius knew it, [Y/N] was standing up and flinging the daily prophet onto the coffee table. There was something swimming in her eyes that he couldn't quite pinpoint, but he felt something stirring in his gutâsomething like realization.
Something like guilt.
He reached out and grabbed her wrist, holding her in place. "Doll," he said softly, and to him, it sounded like damnation.
And then [Y/N] said something that made his intestines feel like they were twisting into knotsâ"I know," [Y/N] said, without looking at Sirius. "I know everything."
Sirius blinked.
His grip on her wrist faltered, hand falling into his lap. There was a moment of thick, heavy silence. The temperature in the room seemed to have dropped by several degrees; Sirius felt cold sweat trickle down the side of temple. The space around him suddenly didn't seem to have enough oxygen.
And yet he let out a choked laugh, if only to quell the storm within his heart. "I don't," he began. His voice was unstable. "I'm not sure what you mean."
She was making her way to the door, but her movements were hesitant, like she didn't quite want to goâor rather, she was unsure where to go. She paused halfway to it, hands curling into fists at her sides.
"Just stop," she said. Resignation etched her voice. She leaned a hand on the wall, back still turned to him as she muttered to herself, sounding as though she'd lived entire countless lifetimes and had had enough, "Stop with the lies, Sirius. I'm done."
Sirius's limbs were getting up of their own accord, approaching her where she stood. But even he knew that he wasn't allowed to have her anymore, not at this momentânot at any moment, not everâso he halted a few feet away from her, hand reaching out as though he wanted to touch her, gather into his arms and pretend like none of this had ever happened.
That he hadn't done anything wrong. But he did, and now he was paying for it.
When she spoke again, her voice was thick with emotion and there was undeniable pain in her eyes; âI'm only going to say this once,â she said, the lump in her throat audible. She turned around, meeting his gaze, anyone could tell that she was trying to sound strongâtrying to sound like all of this didn't hurt her as much as it really didâbut all of her walls were crumbling down on her, and it didn't sound like she'd be able to pick herself back up.
She swallowed with difficulty, blinking rapidly as though to fend off tears. âThis is the last time you will ever lie to me again."
She looked up at him. Sirius's breath hitched in his throat. âIâm done,â she spat. âIâm done pretending like Iâm okay with all of your crap. Iâm fucking done.â
Sirius opened his mouth. There were a hundred explanations resting on the tip of his tongue, but all of them sounded like excuses, and he knew that was the last thing she wanted to hear.
And Sirius was the last person she wants to see.
He watched, with gut-wrenching guilt swimming in the pit of his stomach, as she wiped aggressively at her tears with the back of her hand and sent him a look of the utmost loathingâbut Sirius saw right through it. He saw her pain.
Pain he had caused. Pain he knows he still caused.
âI hope youâre fucking happy,â she choked out, meaning to sound angry, but all Sirius heard was pain.
As she slammed the door shut on her way out, Sirius wondered to himself, as his knees buckled and he leaned on the couch for support, if [Y/N] would ever be the same again.
He'd made a mistake; a terrible one. And there was no going back from it now.
â
She did.
That isâshe healed. It took her time, of course. Quite a lot of it.
Years passed by in a hazy blur. There were people who grew close to her, people who promised her the same things that she believed in so long ago. That she would be loved by them unconditionally if she just let her walls down and gave herself a chance to try and trust someone again.
It was difficult. She'd loved Sirius as though he were everything in the world that matteredâshe had offered him all of her despite knowing that every moment he spent with her was a lie. every kiss, every promise; lies. All of them.
And yet she'd loved him, and when you love someone, you don't care about anything else but them. You don't listen when all of your friends tell you that he isn't good for you, and you don't care when he climbs out of bed in the morning, not quite meeting your gaze when he tells you he's going to visit a friend.
If you love someone, you don't care about all of that.
Or at least you tell yourself that, until you realize that you do. You do care.
[Y/N] realized it far later.
It was that that gave her the strength to walk away from him, despite her heart telling him that it's okayâwhy should it matter if he doesn't love you back? As long as you love him, it's okay.
It wasn't.
God, it really, really wasn't.
So [Y/N] lived on, not because she wanted to, but because she had to. And it's funny, how pain changes you. At first you think you're never going to be the same againâthat you will be heartbroken forever, wallowing in your own self-pityâbut the more time passes, the stronger you get. You don't feel it right away.
But one day, many, many years later, when her heart has healed, and she wakes up and realizes that she is loved by people around her and by herself, the way Sirius Black had never doneâshe realizes:
She is strong. So much stronger than the person she was before.
For the first time in a very long time, when his name wafts back into her head again, she doesn't feel pain.
Instead, the corners of her lips tug up into a small smile.
Here, in front of the window, with the warm sunlight painted across her face, her lashes flutter open.
I'm done pretending.
And now, there is no more pain in her eyes.Â
There hasn't been for a long time now.
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Mistletoe and Pining
@hrmdream Ho Ho Ho, it is I your Secret Santa! The Barden elves and I have been hard at work in the workshop to bring you your Christmas gift and weâre very excited for you to read it! Have the best holiday period, and I hope you enjoy your present!
Mistletoe and Pining
Rating: G
Words: 6.6k
Pairings: Bechloe
Summary:Â When Chloe panics and tells her mother that she's dating Beca so that she doesn't set her up on yet another disastrous Christmas date, both women have to try and navigate the holiday whilst harbouring their own feelings.
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Chloe paced the floor of the studio apartment, running her hand through her hair, biting her lip. Why had she done this? This was perhaps the single most stupid thing she had ever done. There was no way Beca would agree to this. Oh god. What the hell was she going to do?
âYo, dude, I got the groceries we needed on the way home!â Beca called as she let herself into the apartment, âAlthough they were out of that yoghurt you like-â She stopped as she saw the look on Chloeâs face, brow furrowing in concern, âWhatâs wrong?â
âItâs nothing.â Chloe forced a smile, trying to adopt her normally breezy demeanor as she looked at Beca.
âNice try Beale.â Beca raised an eyebrow, âHow long have we know each other now? I know when thereâs something wrong.â Beca went and set the bags of groceries on the table before turning back to Chloe, âCâmon. What is it?â
âI- I told mom we were dating so she wouldnât invite someone over for Christmas dinner to set me up and now sheâs insisting I bring you for ChristmasâŚâ Chloe knew there was no point dancing around the issue. Better to rip the band aid off now.
Becaâs jaw dropped, but she quickly recovered, shaking her head a little as she tried to keep the idea of dating Chloe out of it. Now wasnât the time for that, âYou⌠told her we were dating?â The brunette asked slowly, an amused smirk on her face.
âItâs not funny!â Chloe exclaimed as she saw the look on her friendâs face, âI panicked okay? She always picks the most boring people to set me up with, and I just didnât want another Christmas of awkward flirting and trying to let them down easilyâŚâ
Beca could see that Chloe was starting to spiral a little, and she reached out and put her hands on her shoulders, âHey, itâs okay. I get it. Of course youâd pretend to be dating me, Iâm delightful!â She grinned as Chloe giggled a little, shaking her head.
âYou donât have to come, I know you were gonna go and see your dad, and Atlanta is way warmer than Portland at this time of year.â Chloe smiled reassuringly, âI can make an excuse for you.â
âAre you kidding? A chance to see where Chloe Beale grew up? Iâm there!â Beca was still grinning, her mind racing with possibilities, but the one that stuck out most was that this was probably her only chance to date Chloe. Even if it was all pretend.
âBeca, you donât have to change your Christmas plans just for me.â Chloe shook her head. Itâs not that she didnât want Beca to come for Christmas, itâs just that something felt⌠wrong about lying that Beca was her girlfriend, especially when she wanted it to be the truth.
âI know. But otherwise itâs dad and the step-monster trying to turn us into some perfect sitcom family, and that feels more painful than this.â Beca let her hands drop from Chloeâs shoulders as she started to unpack the groceries sheâd brought home.
âAre you sure?â Chloe asked, heart beating a little faster as she thought about the prospect of having Beca there on Christmas morning.
âCertain.â Beca flashed her a grin, âSo when do we leave for Portland?â
âDay after tomorrow.â Chloe smiled. Maybe Christmas wouldnât be so bad after all.
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AUBREY: YOUâRE DOING WHAT????
CHLOE: Itâs fine Bree, itâll be fun!
AUBREY: Fun??? Fun??? Youâre taking Beca, a woman I once saw eat spaghetti with her hands, to meet your family, who use more knives and forks than even my parents do, and youâre lying to them that the two of you are dating WHILE hiding the fact that you have a raging toner for Beca. Youâre right that does sound fun!
CHLOE: Itâll be fine.
AUBREY: Who are you convincing here Chloe, me or you?
AUBREY: Honestly youâd have been better off saying you were dating me, at least I know how to mingle with that crowd!
CHLOE: Oh, so youâd have left your pregnant girlfriend to come spend Christmas pretending to date me?
AUBREY: I typed yes but Stacie smacked my armâŚ
AUBREY: Just be careful Chloe⌠I donât want you getting hurt
CHLOE: I know. Itâs gonna be fine, Beca knows itâs not real, itâs just to get my parents off my back
AUBREY: Is it?
CHLOE: Yes.
So now Chloe was lying to her parents and to Aubrey. Brilliant. Chloe set her phone down as she carried on with her packing. Beca was finishing up her shift at the record label, and Amy had already left to spend Christmas with her mom in Australia. She sighed as her phone pinged again, picking it up to see another message from Aubrey.
AUBREY: Does Beca know who your parents are?
Chloe didnât reply to that. Aubrey knew the answer. None of the Bellas knew that Chloeâs parents owned the biggest digital processing unit company in Oregon, a family business that, once her brother took over, had four generations of Beale men running it. Her family were basically royalty in Portland, but Chloe had never told anyone, except Aubrey of course, but that was only because sheâd come to stay with them over the summer their freshman year at Barden.
Chloe had always been determined to be her own woman, and her family had respected that for the most part. Given that she was the youngest of her three siblings, her father had paid relatively little attention to her compared to the others and had opted instead to just throw money at her. It wasnât that he didnât love her, Chloe never doubted that for a moment, it was just that he focused on her older brothers more, the heir apparent and the doctor. She didnât mind, not really, but as she got older, she found herself never wanting to have to rely on her parents for anything, including money. Although they had insisted on paying her tuition fees for every year she was at Barden, and Chloe was never going to argue against not having a student loan.
She was worried that once Beca found out about her trust fund and the money that her family had, sheâd be mad at Chloe for not getting them a nicer place to live in New York, or for not getting her a nicer birthday present. Three people in a studio apartment was difficult at the best of times and knowing that Chloe could have changed that might make Beca mad, especially as it would have meant that she had got her own bed. The redhead sighed again as she sunk onto the end of the bed, head in her hands. Why had she made this all so complicated?
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It was Christmas Eve and Chloe was pacing again, this time outside the airport in Portland. Beca watched her with a mildly bemused look on her face, but inside her heart was pounding. She hated Chloe being stressed out, the redhead usually the more optimistic of the two of them but watching her like this youâd think the world was ending.
âDude, itâs gonna be okay. Itâs just three days, and then weâll be back in New York.â Beca tried to reassure Chloe.
âYeahâŚâ Chloe mumbled, pausing her pacing as she looked at Beca. Their eyes met, and Chloe felt that connection that she had felt ever since their eyes had first met at the activities fair all those years ago. The connection that convinced her, on occasion, that Beca might feel the same way about her, but she was too much of a coward to do anything about it.
Chloe opened her mouth, intending to tell Beca about her parents whilst they waited, but at that moment a town car pulled up, the brunetteâs jaw dropping not for the first time that Christmas period.
âUmâŚâ Beca started, âIs that⌠is that for us?â She frowned slightly.
Chloe could feel her cheeks blush as an older man got out of the driverâs seat, dressed in a suit, a warm smile on his face.
âMiss Beale, Iâm so glad you came for Christmas. May I help you with your bags?â He had a light English accent, every bit the stereotype.
Beca stood with her mouth agape as Chloe returned the warm smile, picking up her bag herself.
âMe too Arthur. Iâve got them, thank you though. Arthur this is Beca Mitchell, Beca this is Arthur Wallace he works for my family.â Chloe introduced them to each other with a grin. As bad as she felt about not telling Beca about her family before now, she was enjoying the lock of shock on her face.
âItâs nice to meet you Miss Mitchell.â Arthur nodded politely in Becaâs direction as the brunette just stood there, gob smacked, âMiss Beale perhaps I am overstepping a little here, but surely you should tell your friends about your familyâs business before you bring them here?â
Chloe giggled a little as she loaded her bag and then Becaâs into the trunk of the car. She turned to Beca who was still trying to figure out what was going on.
âDudeâŚâ Beca started, finally finding her words again as she looked to Chloe, âAre you loaded?!â
âMy dad is Portlandâs leading data processing unit producer. Itâs a family business, he does really well from it.â Chloe shrugged, sheepishly rubbing the back of her neck.
âWoah...â Beca managed to squeak as Arthur opened the rear door for Chloe and Beca to get in.
Chloe thanked him, Beca nodding as she clambered in next to the redhead, still trying to figure out just what was going on. She was thankful that the dividing window between them and Arthur was up when they got in the back of the town, swallowing hard as she turned to Chloe.
âExactly how posh are your folks?â She asked nervously.
Chloe smiled softly, taking Becaâs hand in hers to give it a reassuring squeeze. It was a familiar action that seemed far more intimate than âjust friendsâ but that fact seemed to pass both of them by.
âTheyâre gonna love you Beca. And theyâre not that posh, itâs going to be fine.â Chloe could see the gears in Becaâs brain working overtime as she tried to take in all this information, âIâm sorry, I shouldâve told you about my family before we came.â
âWhy didnât you?â Beca asked, a soft frown on her face. She thought Chloe trusted her with everything.
âI didnât want you to be madâŚâ Chloeâs voice was barely more than a whisper, âI didnât want you to think I was hiding money from you or something, because Iâm not. My family has money, but I donât use it unless I have to. Sure thereâs my trust fund, but I donât touch that, Iâm saving it for the future.â
Chloe was starting to ramble the way she always did when she was nervous and it caused a smile to form on Becaâs lips in spite of everything, âChloe.â She interrupted, âItâs okay. Iâm not mad, why would I be? Itâs your money and your family, whatever you need to do with it, itâs your business.â
Chloe just smiled gratefully, not taking her hand from Becaâs as the car headed for her parentâs house. Deep down, she supposed she knew that Beca would understand, complicated family wasnât exactly a new concept to the short brunette.
âSo how are we doing this?â Beca asked, âDo you just want me to follow your lead with it?â
âYeah. It shouldnât involve anything too intimate so donât worry about that.â Chloe was conscious of Becaâs issues with people in her personal space, so she was trying to accommodate for that, âAnd my parents are insisting we sleep in different rooms, despite the fact that Iâm nearly thirty. But itâll be fine, itâs been a while since I had a bed that I didnât share with a starfish!â
Chloe giggled at the look of mock outrage on Becaâs face as the brunette raised an eyebrow, âWell at least I wonât have to wrestle someone for the blankets anymore!â
Chloe just rolled her eyes, already feeling more at ease than she had when the plane had landed. It wasnât long before they pulled onto her familyâs estate, Becaâs eyes widening as she looked out of the window.
âYou guys have a whole forest?! Thatâs so cool!â Becaâs eyes were wide with excitement as she watched the winding road take them up to the Bealeâs house.
âItâs not a forestâŚâ Chloe laughed, âItâs just a few trees. In a group. Okay so maybe it is a forestâŚâ She conceded with a thoughtful frown.
âWhoaâŚâ Beca exclaimed as they pulled up in front of the house.
House might be the understatement of the century. It was easily twice the size of any house Beca had ever lived in, more akin to a mansion or a small castle to the short brunette. Waiting on the front steps of the house were two people, red hair like flames against the white walls, older than Chloe or Beca, but as the car pulled to a stop in front of them, Beca could see the family resemblance and knew they had to be Chloeâs parents. She put her hand on the handle of the car door to open it but was stopped as Chloe placed her hand quickly on top of hers.
âItâs dumb, but you have to wait for Arthur to open it.â She smiled softly, âFirst impressions and all that.â
âOh.â Beca pulled her hand away from the handle, turning to look at Chloe again, âSorry. Theyâre gonna hate me arenât they?â
âNoâŚâ Chloe took her hand in hers and gave it a tight squeeze, âNo theyâre not. Theyâre gonna love you.â She smiled warmly, âJust like I do.â Chloe added silently in her head.
Beca bit her lip as she looked down at herself, at the flannel shirt and pants that she had travelled in, and suddenly feeling like she was incredibly under dressed. She wished she could believe her, but her heart was pounding a mile a minute.
âItâs going to be fine Beca.â Chloe reassured her as she saw Arthurâs shadow fall upon the door, âJust take my lead.â
Chloe stepped out of the car first, Becaâs hand in hers as she let Arthur shut the door behind them, warm smile on her face as she led the brunette to meet her parents. Beca was trying hard not to think about the fact that she felt so out of place here, or that her hand in Chloeâs felt like the most normal thing in the world, but honestly what else was there to focus on? None of this was a situation that Beca was used to.
âHey mom.â Chloe grinned as the older women quickly and easily wrapped her in her arms, Chloeâs hand dropping from Becaâs as she hugged her back, âMerry Christmas!â
âMerry Christmas sweetie, Iâm glad you came!â Chloeâs mum hugged her tightly, her daughter the spitting image of her mother and definitely every bit the hugger she was, âWeâre so happy you could make it, we really missed you.â
Chloe pulled back from the hug with a wide grin, turning to her dad and giving his hand a firm shake, âHi dad.â
âHi Chloe. Merry Christmas.â His smile was wide and warm, and his eyes had the same twinkle that Chloeâs always had, âAre you going to introduce us to your guest?â
âOf course!â Chloe grinned, taking Becaâs hand again, the brunette shuffling her feet awkwardly, âMom, dad, this is Beca Mitchell, my girlfriend.â The word girlfriend rolled off her tongue with surprising ease, her heart leaping a little even though it was a bald-faced lie.
âHi.â Beca forced a smile, anxiety making her chest pound as Chloeâs mom pulled her into a hug, âItâs really nice to meet you both.â
âItâs really nice to meet you too! Chloeâs told us so much about you, it wasnât that much of a surprise when Chloe told us that you two were dating.â Chloeâs mom grinned broadly as her daughter blushed furiously, Becaâs grin genuine when she pulled back and looked at Chloe.
âReally?â Beca asked, mischief written in every line of her face as she looked at Chloe. She turned to Chloeâs dad, shaking his hand as it was offered to her, âItâs nice to meet you sir.â
Beca hadnât meant to call him âsirâ but her brain was in overdrive as she tried desperately to adjust to the unusual situation she found herself in. It seemed to be the right call though as a smile of approval crossed his lips, returning the firm handshake. Beca mentally thanked god for her experience with meeting new clients at the label as the experience seemed to be paying off.
âItâs nice to meet you too Beca. Our daughter speaks very highly of you. Arthur, bring their bags up to their rooms please.â Chloeâs fatherâs tone was warm but still commanding as the older man nodded.
âOf course, sir.â Arthur smiled as he went to get the bags from the trunk.
âDad, Beca and I can manage our bags.â Chloe frowned a little at her father as she moved to go and help.
âChloe, whilst you are here you get the same luxuries as everyone else. And Iâm sure your friend would like to experience them as well.â The look from Chloeâs father was a little condescending and Beca bristled slightly but said nothing, not wanting to cause a scene.
Chloe opened her mouth to argue but seeing the look on her fatherâs face she new it was futile. Instead, she followed him and her mother inside, her hand slipping into Becaâs once more. It took all of Becaâs self-control not to let her mouth hang open again as the short brunette stepped inside, the interior of the house looking like something out of a fairytale. The large staircase in the hallway (if you could call the cavernous room they were in a hallway) had green and gold tinsel twisted around the banisters, and a huge tree stood pride of place next to it. It was the biggest Christmas tree Beca had ever seen, dwarfing her as she gazed up at the gold and silver decorations in wonder, feeling a little like a child again.
âChloe! You made it!â A cheerful voice echoed through the hallways as a young man, perhaps two or three years older than Chloe came into view.
Beca was still in a trance looking at the Christmas decorations as Chloe let go of her hand, allowing herself to be swept into her brotherâs arms, laughing as he spun, hugging him tightly.
âHey Ben! Of course I did, wasnât going to pass up a chance to see my favourite niece was I?â Chloe grinned as he put her down, their matching blue eyes both sparkling with excitement.
âSheâs so excited to see you, Jenny took her to do a little bit of last-minute Christmas shopping, they should be back soon.â Ben beamed as he looked over his sisterâs shoulder at Beca who was still looking at the decorations in wonder, âDo I get to meet your girlfriend then orâŚâ
âOh, of course!â Chloe beamed, a soft laugh on her lips as she tapped Becaâs shoulder to pull her out of the trance she seemed to have fallen into, âBecs?â
âHm? What?â Beca shook her head a little as she came back into the moment, a light blush on her cheeks, âSorry.â She mumbled with a sheepish grin.
âThis is my brother Ben; I think you guys met actually a few years ago? After the ICCA finals in your first year?â Chloe grinned.
âOh yeah, I didnât recognise you without all the eye makeup and the earrings!â Ben teased, sporting the same infectious grin his sister always did.
âYeah, the earrings make security at the airport a nightmare.â Beca shrugged, grinning in spite of herself, âItâs nice to see you again.â Beca couldnât remember him for the life of her, but in all fairness most of that night was a blur thanks to the adrenaline of winning and the less than legal drinking after their performance.
âThere she is my baby sis!â Another male voice made both Beca and Chloe turn their heads as the oldest of the Beale children joined them, grinning broadly as he gave Chloe a tight hug.
âRob, I missed you!â Chloe grinned, hugging him back just as tight. Once they broke apart, Chloe turned to Beca again, âBeca this Rob my oldest brother, Rob this is Beca.â
âHi.â Beca grinned as she shook his hand, âItâs great to meet you.â
âWhereâs Laura?â Chloe asked, looking around for her sister-in-law.
âRight here!â A woman, about five years older than Beca and Chloe walked into the room, a wide grin on her face, blonde hair tied back into a loose ponytail. Chloe gasped in delight as her eyes fell upon the unmistakable bump of a pregnancy.
âOh my god, youâre pregnant?â Chloe grinned, going to hug Laura as she laughed.
âYep! We figured it would be a nice Christmas present for you all if we just didnât say anything.â Laura giggled, hugging Chloe back.
âThis is so exciting! Iâm gonna be an aunty again!â Chloe was beaming from ear to ear as Beca watched fondly.
Watching the redhead surrounded by her family, all of them so happy to see each other gave Beca a warm comfort that she hadnât really experienced before. Being an only child of divorced parents meant that she had never really experienced a Christmas like this. She might be there under false pretenses, but Beca was glad that she had decided to come.
âLaura this is Beca.â Chloe introducing her pulled Beca from her thoughts, âBeca this is Robâs wife Laura.â
âHi.â Beca grinned, âCongratulations on your pregnancy!â
âThanks!â Laura beamed as Rob wrapped an arm around his wifeâs waist, âWeâve been waiting a long for this.â
âAUNTY CHLOE!â A loud voice rang through the hall as a small bundle of winter wear barreled its way over to Chloe, the young redhead beaming as she bent down to scoop her in her arms.
âMonkey!â Chloe grinned, spinning her niece in her arms as the young girl giggled gleefully, âOoo Iâve missed you! Youâve gotten so tall!â
âMummy says if I keep growing like this, someday Iâll be as tall as Uncle Rob!â The little girl grinned.
âWoah, thatâs so tall!â Chloe gasped in amazement as the young girlâs mother joined them, dark hair a little windswept as she set a few shopping bags down, âHey Jenny, merry Christmas!â Chloe beamed at her other sister-in-law; arms currently wrapped around the young girl.
âHi Chloe, merry Christmas.â Jennyâs smile was easy as she moved her hair back from her face, âDid you guys have an okay flight?â
âYeah, it was fine.â Chloe set her niece down and turned to Beca, âYou guys havenât met Beca before right?â
âHi.â Beca gave an awkward wave as she smiled.
âHi! Iâm Ellie!â The young girl beamed, sticking out her hand as Beca squatted down so they were the same height, shaking her hand.
âHi Ellie, itâs really nice to meet you.â Beca smiled warmly, the young girl reminding her of her aunt a little.
âYouâre aunty Chloeâs girlfriend?â Ellie asked, eyes wide, âBut youâre nearly as small as I am!â
Chloe laughed as Beca blushed furiously, Jenny shaking her head, a little mortified with her daughter.
âEllie, grown ups donât have to be really tall!â Jenny gently chided her daughter, âIâm sorry, it really is nice to meet you.â She smiled apologetically as she turned to Beca who had stood up, still sporting a smile.
âItâs fine.â Beca shook her head, âIf I wasnât used to short jokes by now thereâd be something wrong with me.â
âWhatâs that saying? All the best things come in small packages?â Chloe grinned, arm easily and naturally slipping around Becaâs waist as she chuckled, the brunette feeling her heart pound, ready to leap out of her chest at how natural this felt for two people that werenât actually dating.
âAlright, how about you two go and unpack and freshen up, weâre having lunch in an hour.â Chloeâs mother beamed at her children, happy to have a house full of them again.
âOkay.â Chloe grinned, âWhich roomâs Becaâs?â There was a hint of annoyance in her voice at the idea that (even though they werenât actually dating â Chloe had to keep reminding herself of that -) her mother didnât trust her with a partner in her room.
âThe one opposite yours.â Chloeâs mother smiled warmly, âI know youâre both grownups, but still you know the rules of this house Chloe. No guys OR girls in your room overnight unless youâre married to them.â
âI know, I know.â Chloe mumbled, taking Becaâs hand and leading her up the stairs.
In the back of her mind she was cursing herself for wrapping an arm around Becaâs waist like she had, it had simply been a spontaneous moment, the redhead caught up in the charade and how easily Beca fit into their family dynamic. Once they were upstairs and had reached the room that Beca would be staying in, Chloe quietly shut the door, turning to Beca with a guilty look on her face.
âIâm sorry. About the arm around your waist thing, I got in the moment and-â Chloe started, the beginnings of a nervous ramble starting to talk form before Beca cut her off.
âItâs fine Chloe.â Beca grinned, giving her a reassuring smile, âYou told me to follow your lead, so I am doing.â
âI know⌠I just donât want you to feel uncomfortable, I know how you feel about people in your personal space.â Chloe gave her a small smile.
âItâs really fine.â Beca reassured, âBesides, when itâs you I donât really mindâŚâ The words were out of Becaâs mouth before she could stop them and she blushed deeply, red with embarrassment as looked at her feet, at the bed that her bags had carefully been placed on, at anything but Chloe.
âOh.â Was all the redhead could think to say, âW-well thatâs good! Um, the bathroom is the second door on the left as you head back down the hall, if you want to shower or something, and Iâm just across the hall. Iâm gonna go unpack.â Chloe hurriedly left the room, heart pounding as Becaâs words bounced around her head. She couldnât have meant them in the way that Chloe had heard them right? That wasnât what she meant.
âCool it Beale. This is all pretend remember?â She thought as she stepped into her room with a sigh. Maybe asking Beca to do this had been a mistake. Maybe Aubrey was right, this was going to be too painful. But it was too late now.
Beca sank onto the edge of the bed, head in her hands. Why the hell had she said that? How much of a dumbass was she? She had been so swept up in the warmth of Chloeâs family, of the residual feeling that had been caused by the arm around her waist that had placed there without a second thought, that she hadnât thought before sheâd opened her mouth.
âDammit Mitchell.â She whispered, shaking her head, âJust be cool for once in your life. This is just a temporary thing, a favour youâre doing for a friend.â
âA friend youâre in love with!â Her brain unhelpfully responded as Beca groaned softly. Why the hell had she agreed to this? Chloe was her friend, thatâs all she was, and here Beca was letting her ridiculous unrequited feelings get the better of her.
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Christmas Eve with Chloeâs family was far easier than Beca had thought it would be after what she said in the guest room. The way Beca slotted in the Bealeâs family dynamic was effortless, almost as if she were meant to be there all along. It was a weird feeling for Beca, to be waited on rather than helping with the food and serving it, and there had been a couple of awkward exchanges that Chloe had quickly helped her figure her way around, but that aside it had gone off without a hitch.
They had bid the family good night and walked to their rooms, hand in hand as if it were the most normal thing in the world (although that didnât stop a tingle in Becaâs hand every time she felt Chloeâs hand pressed against it), stopping only as they reached their doors.
âIâm really glad I came Chloe.â Beca said as she turned to her with a smile, âI know that Iâm a little awkward with all the posh stuff, but Iâm having a great time.â They were stood usually close, even for them, but neither of them seemed to notice.
âIâm glad youâre here too.â Chloe grinned, âLike really glad. Even if it were just to pretend I was dating someone, Iâm glad the person I picked was you.â Chloe had imbibed three glasses of mulled wine, and Beca was starting to have flashbacks to the hood night party of her freshman year as the redhead pulled her close, âIâd always pick you Beca.â
âThanks ChloâŚâ Beca whispered, a little tipsy herself but having drunk less to make sure that she made a good impression on Chloeâs parents (which seemed ridiculous considering they werenât actually dating, but nonetheless she preserved with making a good impression).
âGânight Beca. I think Santaâs gonna leave you some really cool presents tonight.â Chloe winked, her face mere inches from Beca as the brunette giggled softly. In a daring move that caught Beca completely off guard, Chloe closed the gap between them, pressing her lips to the brunetteâs.
Beca forgot how to breath, how to move, how to do anything but stand there as Chloe kissed her. She knew that Chloe was a little drunk, that this probably didnât mean anything other than to steer her clear of the mulled wine tomorrow, but god this was Chloe Beale kissing her and it was all she had ever wanted since sheâd started college.
Chloe pulled away, smiling warmly as she waved her fingers at Beca and disappeared into her room, sighing happily as she flopped down onto her bed. That was the best Christmas Eve ever. Having Beca here only made everything better, Aubrey had been wrong. Stupid Aubrey, how could anything that had happened hurt her friendship with Beca?
It was 5am when Chloeâs eyes snapped open, her chest clenching as she sat bolt upright with the answer to the question that had been on her mind as she fell asleep rang around her head. She kissed Beca. She kissed Beca. She kissed Beca. Oh god. Scrambling out from the sheets and blankets that sheâd tangled herself in, she immediately went to Becaâs room. Sure it was 5am and the brunette would almost definitely be asleep, but everyone else would be up at 7am and this conversation couldnât wait.
Opening the door to the guest room, a small smile crossed Chloeâs lips as she saw the brunette splayed out across her bed, starfishing, her mouth hanging open a little. Tiptoeing, Chloe walked over to the bed and sat on the edge of it, gently shaking Becaâs shoulder.
âBeca? Beca I need to talk to you.â Chloe whispered, her tone soft but urgent.
âHuh, wha⌠what time is it?â Beca grumbled as she stirred, frowning a little as she rubbed at her eyes.
âFive am. Iâm sorry.â Chloe winced a little as Beca groaned, flopping backwards into her pillows dramatically, âItâs just we need to talk about what happened last night.â
Becaâs eyes snapped open, heart pounding in her chest. She didnât want to have this conversation, didnât want to hear Chloe call it a mistake. But here they were, and this was a conversation they had to have.
âI uh, I shouldnât have done that, Iâm sorry. It was the mulled wine, I guess I just got caught in the moment.â Chloe blushed as she rambled a bit. She wanted more than anything to tell Beca that, yes she hadnât meant to kiss her, but god was it the best thing sheâd ever done.
âItâs fine.â Beca forced a smile onto her face as she sat up, âReally. Youâve always been a little handsy when youâre drunk.â
Chloe couldnât help but giggle a little as Beca teased her even as she felt her heart break inside as Beca blew it off so off handedly. Part of her wanted Beca to tell her it wasnât nothing, that it was something she had wanted all along, but here was the definitive answer: Beca didnât feel the same.
Beca thought she saw a flash of disappointment in Chloeâs eyes and took a deep breath. Sheâd been thinking about this all night, sheâd been thinking about how Chloeâs lips felt against hers, how it felt like electric coursing through her every nerve, how she hadnât kissed her back. Seeing the look of resignation on Chloeâs face made her wonder if the redhead felt the same way. All too quickly the moment was gone, as Chloe got off the edge of the bed.
âRight, Iâll leave you to get some more sleep then.â Chloe smiled breezily, trying to hide her heavy heart as she left Beca alone again.
Beca couldâve cried as she laid back in her bed, hands on her forehead. Why was this so complicated? God, the look on Chloeâs face⌠it was playing in her mind over and over. Right. Thatâs it. Beca sat up, swinging her legs over the edge of the bed, throwing her hair up into a messy ponytail before quietly tiptoeing down the hall. She frowned as she entered the kitchen, trying to figure out where things were so she could do this properly. A big gesture. Thatâs what she needed.
âCan I help you Miss Mitchell?â Arthurâs voice made Beca leap three foot in the air, spinning around as she spun round to see him stood at the entrance to the kitchen.
âJeez dude!â She exclaimed, getting control of her breathing again as she shook her head.
âMy apologies, I didnât mean to scare you.â Arthur had a bemused smile on his face.
âItâs fine. I really could use some help though, I- Iâm trying to do a big gesture, but I suck at this sort of thing.â Beca smiled sheepishly.
âFor Miss Beale I assume?â Arthur entered the kitchen, taking a couple of mugs out of the cupboard, âTo show her you donât want to play pretend anymore?â
âHow did you?â Beca gasped, mortified at the idea that they hadnât be as convincing as she thought they had.
âThe barrier between the passengers and I in the car is not soundproof⌠itâs a very common mistake.â Arthur smiled again as Beca blushed.
âAh. Yeah that makes senseâŚâ Beca grinned sheepishly, âAlright, so big gesture, how do I do this?â
âHot chocolate.â Arthur started, âThere are mini marshmallows in the pantry and whipped cream in the fridge.â
Beca quickly rushed to get them as Arthur heated the milk, ready to melt the chocolate into at as she returned. There was a quite pause before Beca asked him the question that was on her mind:
âWhy are you helping me?â Beca didnât look up from her hands as she asked the question, âI know you work for Chloeâs family, but you have no reason to help meâŚâ
âI have known Miss Beale since the day she was born.â Arthur was dedicated to his task as he gave Beca the answer, âShe is like a daughter to me. And I have never seen her look at anyone like she looks at you, or anyone look at her in the way you do. I want her to be happy, and I believe you would make her happy.â
Beca sniffed slightly as she grinned at him, âIâm really going to tryâŚâ She promised.
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Chloe lay back on her bed, frustrated and sad at the way that this had panned out. God she should have listened to Aubrey, because this really hurt. She was sad, and her heart felt heavy, and Beca hadnât kissed her back. And now? Now she was stuck spending Christmas pretending to be in a relationship with someone who wasnât in love with her, which wouldâve been fine if she wasnât so desperately, pathetically in love with them.
A light knock at the door paused Chloeâs spiral as the redhead got up, a soft frown on her face before she opened the door. Stood in a Santa hat that she had purloined from god only knew where, a mug of hot chocolate in each hand and a soft smile on her lips stood Beca. Chloe stood there for a moment in shock, not understanding what was happening.
âHere. Take these.â Beca grinned broadly, waiting patiently as the redhead took the mugs from her and set them down on a table, âItâs the proper stuff, hot milk, melted chocolate, cream and marshmallows. Yâknow the kind you drink when youâre sad because it reminds you of being a kid at Christmas.â
âHow did you-â Chloe started, trying to figure out what had happened in the half an hour since she had left Becaâs room that had got them to this point.
âYou told me once. You were drunk, youâd failed your Russian Lit midterm in our senior year, and I asked what I could do to cheer you up, and you said proper hot chocolate with all the trimmings, because it reminded you of the happiest times in your life.â Beca grinned broadly as Chloe just opened and closed her mouth like a fish.
âBeca, whatâs-â Chloe was struggling to find her words as she looked at the big grin on Becaâs face, her heart pounding as her brain worked overtime.
âLook up.â Beca said softly, biting her bottom lip a little, nerves making her heart pound right out of her chest.
Chloe looked up, gasping softly as she what was fixed (a little haphazardly admittedly) above her head. A tear slipped down her cheek as she lowered her head again, a soft smile of disbelief on her lips, âMistletoeâŚâ She whispered.
Beca nodded, saying nothing more as she leaned in, closing the gap between them as she pulled her close, pressing her lips to Chloeâs, one hand on her hip the other on the back of her neck. Chloe closed her eyes as their lips connected and lost herself in the feeling on Beca kissing her like this as the short womanâs tongue slid across her bottom lip, the kiss deepening far quicker than either of them couldâve imagined it would. The redhead wrapped her arms around Becaâs waist and lifted her upwards, the brunetteâs feet not touching the floor as she just grinned against Chloeâs lips, taking advantage of the new angle to press her tongue against Chloeâs in a way that made her let out a soft groan.
Eventually, the need to breathe broke them apart, a little breathless as Beca stood in Chloeâs arms both of her arms now draped around Chloeâs neck.
âThatâs what I should have done last night.â Beca whispered, forehead resting against Chloeâs as she grinned.
âYeah, you really shouldâve.â Chloe teased gently.
âMerry Christmas Chloe.â Beca grinned as she kissed her again, chaste and soft.
âMerry Christmas Becs.â Chloe mumbled, grinning from ear to ear.
This really was the best Christmas ever.
#merry pitchmas 2020#bechloe#beca mitchell#chloe beale#pitchmas#pitch perfect fanfiction#fake dating au#fanfiction#fanfic#my fic#pp#pitch perfect
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let me be your shelter
CHRISTMAS FIC CHRISTMAS FIC!! Chapter one is here--many many days after I intended it to be up. Itâs not exactly what I want it to be. But I hope youâll find it enjoyable all the same. Chapter two is coming, I promise :)
âCome on, dads!!â
Calling from far ahead of them, Emma races through the snow, braids flying behind her in the bitter cold wind. Not that she seems to mindâaccording to the past week of dancing around the kitchen, marking the days off with big red xâs on their wall calendar, and reminding her dads over and over again that this Friday is the dayâthis was set to be the best day of her twelve-year-old life yet.
âCome on!â
âJust slow down a moment, Em!â Jon calls with a laugh, brushing a wayward curl out of his eyes. âYouâre missing a lot of good ones!â
Itâs trueâshe had, in fact, been flying so quickly past the rows and rows of Christmas trees, ripe for the cutting, barely brushing past on her search to find just the right one. That of course, Martin had to remind her could only be so tall, could only be so wide if it were to fit in their flat. And naturally, it didnât seem she was going to listen.
âI want to find the biggest one!â
âI know, habibti,â Jon calls back. âBut remember what Dad said, right? Martin?â
At the sound of his name, his eyes snap to Jonâs, brows lifted as if slightly alarmed.
âWhat Iâsaid?â
âAbout the tree, darling,â Jon mutters, slipping his double-gloved hand around Martinâs bare one, grounding him.
This time of year was always difficult for himâthe darkening of the sky casting long shadows over his thoughts, which already fill with fog far more often than makes Jon comfortable. Even if he does have a sun lamp at home, something to drive it away for a bitâit has been abundantly clear that the past week especially has been a struggle. Today, however, things had seemed a bit lighterâor at least, so Jon had thought.
âOhâright. Right, darling, weâve got to get just a medium-sized one, yeah? Otherwise it wonât stand up straight!â he says, a ghost of a smile playing across his wind-flushed face.
âUgghh, fine,â she laments, rolling her eyes as far as they will go and widening the gap between them in frustration.
âIs it storming up there, love?â Jon asks quietly, squeezing his hand and trying to catch his gaze with his own.
At the familiar metaphor, Martin obligesâsmile drawn up so his cheeks just touch the edges of his glasses, hiding the deep bags that had only just begun to fade from the depressive episode of the past weeks.
âJust overcast, is all. Iâm fine,â he assures, squeezing backâand Jon raises an eyebrow in question, doubtful of Martinâs definition of âfine.â
âNo, really, I am,â he laughs, bending down to press a quick kiss to the top of Jonâs head. âPromise. Thank you for checking.â
Supposing that would have to do for now, Jon decides to let the matter goâlooping his arm through Martinâs as they keep walking down the snow-dusted path.
âAlright,â he whispers, brushing his lips against Martinâs shoulder. âLet me know if the weather turns.â
âI will. Donât worry, love.â
Of course I will. Always.
âHere! Iâve got one!â
Shouting excitedly from up ahead, Emma waves her gloved hands around in the air, before diving right into the branches to hug the trunk of the tree that was, objectively, the best of the lot. This pulls a true, gorgeous bit of laughter from Martinâthe first time Jon has heard it in weeks.
To Jon, there could not be a single thing more lovely.
âThatâs a good one, Em,â Jon praises as they reach her, trying very hard not to think about all the sap likely to stick in her newly-plaited hair. âWhat do you think, Dad?â
âHmmâŚâ
Feigning a moment of deep consideration earns him an intense doe-eyed, pleading look from his daughter, silently begging. As if he could truly refuse her.
âWell, by my calculations,â he says, winking a bit at his husband, who rolls his eyes fondly. âThat should do just wonderfully.â
âYES!!!â Emma shouts, immediately releasing her hold on the tree and wrapping her sap-laden arms around them both. âThank you thank you THANK YOU!!â
âMerry Christmas, sweetheart.â
Itâs the first time the fog has truly cleared from Martinâs eyes in month, and Jon smilesâchoosing to cherish it dearly.
â
âLittle bit to the left, habibi.â
âAw, Boss, I didnât know we were on that level!â Tim grins, helping Martin to straighten out the tree in the corner of their flat. âShould have said something sooner, habibi.â
âShut it, Tim.â
The winning smile he flashes Jon at his coveted prizeâa bit of exasperation from himâsends a pang of warmth spreading through Jonâs chest. Even if itâs been so many years now sinceâŚeverything, he still feels so lucky to be on the receiving end of Timâs smiles again. And a bit undeserving, if heâs honest. Theyâve talked about it, of courseâmany times, in factâbut Jon has long since been forced to accept that things will never be quite like they were before.
Though that does mean that things have the potential to be better, and for thatâŚfor that, Jon is grateful.
âCould we focus please?â Martin pants a bit irritably, as he bears the brunt of the treeâs weight. âIâd rather not be squashed by this thing.â
âSorry, Marto! Left it is then, habibi.â
âStop it.â
âNever.â
â
A few hours later finds them settled around a lovely fire, steaming cups of tea in their hands, courtesy of Martin. Sasha has joined them now as well, curled up with Tim on an armchair with Emma sitting at their feet. Beside him on the sofa sits Martin, his arm wrapped lightly around his shouldersâand as heâs done every holiday since the rebirth of the world, Jon finds himself pondering the fact that he never would have thought this possible. Certainly not for him, for any of them, really. They should, all of them, be dead. Or worse. And yetâand yet. Here they are, making amends. Making their home together.
A family.
âEm, you would not believe the kinds of things your Baba and I used to get up to,â Tim grins, the bit of wine heâs had over the course of the evening painting his cheeks rosy. âBefore he became my boring boss, that is. Heâs absolutely mad.â
âTimââ
âYou hush,â he bellows, still laughing. âEmma deserves to know about the time we got trapped in that apartment complex, do you remember?â
âYouâve just told me to hush.â
âHush, Jon, Iâm telling a story!â
Rolling his eyes, Jon picks up his own glass again, taking the opportunity to sneak a glance at Martin in the meantimeâpleased to see the bit of ruddiness masking the lightest of his freckles, a whisper of a smile planted on his face as he listens to the conversation. Nothing cloudy in his eyes, no fogâjust Martin, his Martin. And in Jonâs opinion, that more than warrants the small kiss he presses into the line of his jaw, just beneath his ear.
âHmm, whatâs that for, darling?â Martin asks, turning towards him.
âOh, nothing,â Jon hums against him, Â âJust you. Just this.â
âWell, you wonât hear me complain.â
âEww, dads!!â
Alas, theyâd been caughtâa disapproving Emma wrinkles her nose at them from her spot on the floor, Tim and Sasha muffling their giggles behind her.
âSorry Em, sorry,â Martin laughs, untangling himself a bit from Jon and reaching for his own glass of wine. âHave to forgive us old and gross people.â
âYou donât have to be gross just because youâre old!â she insists, pointing a finger back at her aunt and uncle behind her. âUncle Tim and Auntie Sasha are old too, but theyâre not gross!â
âHey!!â
Sashaâs look of incredulousness is enough to set Jon into fitsâbut something seems to catch a bit in his chest as he does, a vise clamping down over his ribcage.
Damn it damn it
His next inhale brings him no relief, merely tightening the grip, everything in his chest folding in on itself as he finds himself in the throes of once again gasping for air. Distantly, he rather thinks the wheezing sound of his breath to be embarrassingâbut there is little on which he can focus other than keeping his vision from narrowing, narrowing.
âJon?â
âM-Marââ
âAre you panicking, love?â
Air air need air
âCanâtââ
Heâs cut off by the closeness of his own airways sending out his breath with a fit of coughing, harsh and painful andâwell, there goes his vision again.
âHere, Jon, your inhalerâs right hereââ
Air air need air
Canât breathe
Wrapping a shaking hand around Martinâs, Jon takes as deep of an inhale of the medicine as he can, holding holding holding his breath until it hurts, before letting it outâbegging everything not to close again before he can get something up to his starving brain.
âTake it again, Jon. One more, come on.â
It comes just a bit easier this time, the gasping just a bit deepened, letting him pull it deeper into his lungs, opening everything enough to start his vision returning to him again. Even so, it takes a few minutes of just breathing, the room around him uncomfortably silent, save for the fading whistle of his chest, before he can even think about picking up his head again from where heâs braced it against his arms.
ââalright? You with us?â
âSorâsorry,â he pants, still a bit breathless, shaky, heart racing uncomfortably as it always does. âDunnoâwhat happened.â
âAlright, Baba?â
Emma rests her hand gently atop his knee, looking quickly between himself and Martin. Lord knows heâs scared them enough times; caused them enough anxiety over his health that the guilt weighs so unbearably heavy on him in moments like this. When his daughter has to be his comfort. When he knows it ought to be the other way around.
Burden burden terrible father burden burdenâ
âSorryâhaâEm,â he gasps, offering her a tight smile and a nod. The best he can do for now. âFineâmâfine.â
âWas it something I did?â an unusually quiet Tim asks from across the room, hesitant to even draw his attention.
Damn it damn it
Of course Iâve got to screw things up again.
When Tim had first reentered their lives, they had found it difficult to process on both sidesâthe grief and anger and distrust layered up with trauma had proven to be a difficult thing to break down. Unhelped by the panic rising unbidden in Jonâs throat every time Tim had raised his voice, even with friendly teasing at first. Though he would never say, Jon knows how deeply this had wounded his friendâand Jon could certainly understand how upsetting it is for your own voice to become anotherâs nightmare.
Theyâd worked on it, just like everything else. Nothing of the kind of panic Jon once felt upon hearing an increase in volume has happened in years at this point, but stillâstill, Tim is afraid. Afraid of how fragile, how stupid, how unforgivingâ
âN-no, no. Promiseânot you,â he is quick to assure, snapping his head up to meet Timâs eyes at once, desperate for his trust in this. âNot you.â
The quiet grief in the darkness of Timâs eyes betrays his doubt.
âWhy donât you stay here and recover while I finish up with the cooking, love?â Martin offers, already rising to do just that.
âOhâno, Martinââ
Heâs tired heâs tired heâs already tired and spent and still recovering
You make everything worse
âItâs alright,â he smiles down at him, still lined with well-hidden exhaustion. âIâve got it. Just take a minute, okay?â
âIâll help,â Tim offers at once, following him into the kitchen. To get out of his sight, just in case he was making things worse after all. Just in case Jon was lying.
Damn it damn it
âIncoming!!â
From behind him, Emmaâs voice rings outâand the cat is dropped unceremoniously into his lap, giving a soft mrrow of indignation at such treatment. As soon as Jon gives a small smile and a laugh, however, the Duquessa (for she must be properly titled) begins to purr at once, kneading his thigh a bit before draping herself across his lap.
âThere you are, Jonâyouâre healed!â chuckles Sasha as she stands, coming to sit beside him on the sofa.
âQuite.â
â
âAlright, love?â
Words a bit muffled by the toothbrush in his mouth, Martin gazes down at him with furrowed brows where Jon sits on their bed, lost as usual in the thickest, driest biography Martin has ever seen.
âMmm.â
âJon.â
âHmm?â
His attention is caught at last, reluctantly tearing his eyes away from the hungrily-devoured words and toward his husbandâhair a mess, in just boxers and a t-shirt, a bit of toothpaste splodged around the corners of his mouth.
âSorryâsorry, what did you say?â he asks, unable to hide a fond smile as Martin rolls his eyes, turning around to rinse out his mouth and set down his toothbrush. When heâs finished, he meets Jonâs questioning look with a smiling shake of the headâbefore pulling Jon in to melt into his side, pressing a kiss against his hairline.
âI asked if you were alright,â he repeats, letting his lips linger longer atop Jonâs forehead this time. âYouâve been sniffly.â
âHave I?â
âYou hadnât noticed?â
âNot particularly.â
It is the truth, although a bit maskedâif he is, indeed, sniffly, it seems likely to have contributed to his lingering shortness of breath that evening. Not that he had found it especially necessary to mention this to Martin. No reason to worry him needlessly, after all.
When Martin fetches him the box of tissues from the living room, however, he finds himself grateful. Something certainly seems to have built up in his sinuses, and though eased a bit by his ministrations, it seems to be something of which he cannot entirely rid himself.
âAw, darling,â Martin tuts with concern, pressing the back of his hand against Jonâs forehead, just to check again. âAre you getting ill?â
No no no no
Canât be ill
Canât worry him
âIâm sure itâs nothing,â he assures, offering Martin a bit of a puffy-eyed smile. âProbably just from being out in the cold.â
âHmm.â Worrying at his lower lip, Martin sweeps his eyes briefly over the rest of Jonâs body. âWhat about your joints? Are you alright?â
âYes, Martin,â Jon chuckles, rolling his eyes and fondly pressing a kiss against his husbandsâ cheek. âNo need to fuss, love. You need to get some rest.â
âFussing is my specialty, though.â
âDonât I know it.â
A small, lopsided smile spreads across his faceâand Jon finds himself flushing at the gentleness of it.
Gorgeous.
âAlright,â Martin murmurs, tenderly tilting Jonâs chin upwards and into a kiss. âIâll quit fussing, then. If I must.â
âYou absolutely must. Or weâll never get to sleep.â
âIâll do my best, habibi.â
â
Click.
At the soft noise, Jon bolts awake, heart already poundingâfrom the shock of being startled awake, or POTS, he could not be sure. Perhaps both.
All he knows is that his heart is racing, and Martin is gone, and he canât breathe.
Fuck fuck fuck
His lungs are at once too full and desperately emptyâuseless, vision tunneling as he pants into the darkness, reaching out blindly for his inhaler on the nightstand. Shaky, he nearly loses his hold on it twice before bringing it to his lips, forcing as much air out as he can before drawing a shallow breath of the medicine. But he cannot hold it, cannot keep it in long enough for it to work.
Help. He needs help.
He needs Martin.
âMâhaâMarââ
He cannot choke out the words, not around the closing up of his throat, forcing him to cough without air. Without the ability to breathe back in. Dizzy, dizzy, canât breathe, breathe breathe help Martinâ
âJonâoh, shit shit shit!â
Distantly, he hears the sound of running feet retreating from the bedroom and back down the hallâbut his vision is starting to grey out, heart pounding out of his chest, and all he can focus on is donât pass out donât pass out donât pass out.
âAlright, here, hereâI got the nebulizer, shit. Christ, Jon.â
He loses time for a few minutes. Nothing remains in his memory but a swirling, spinning picture of the room around him, the feeling of something being placed over his mouth and nose. And when he comes fully back around, itâs to the feeling of Martinâs strong arms bracing him forward, keeping his airways as open as possible while the medicine has been allowed to work. To Martinâs shadowed face, bruises ever-deepening beneath his eyes.
Jon does not need the full powers of the Beholding anymore to know that Martin has once again gone without sleep.
âMâsorryââ
âHush, Jon, just hush,â Martin reassures, rubbing his back when the coughing starts up again, nearly hard enough to vomit.
He wonât be trying to speak again any time soon.
âYouâre alright, Iâm here.â
As the minutes pass, the breaths come more easily, returning Jonâs awareness more fully. Now that his vision is no longer swirling, he takes stock of the pulse ox clipped on his finger, Martinâs eyes anxiously watching it, the mobile grasped tightly in one shaking hand, ready to call 999 at any moment.
âMartinââ
âHush, Jon.â
âMâsorry.â
âNothing to apologize for, love.â
But there is, isnât there? Worry, worry, always worry over him. Deepening his husbandâs exhaustion, burden, anxiety.
It seems to be his lot in life to make things worse.
âDoing any better?â Martin asks as the wheezing fades from his exhales, though he wouldnât dare remove the mask for a few more minutes at least.
âBetter,â Jon whispers. âDunnoâwhat happened.â
âItâs been a while since youâve woken up like this,â Martin worries, brushing a stray lock of hair out of Jonâs eyes and tucking it behind his ear. âThought we were managing a little better lately.â
âSo didâI.â
With a long, concerned sigh, Martin shifts to sit just slightly behind him, pulling him back to lean against his chest. For onceâfor onceâthe warmth and comfort of it all outweighs the guilt of its necessity.
âWeâll figure it out,â Martin assures, the slight tremor of his voice belying his uncertainty. âWeâll get it sorted, love.â
âMâsorry.â
âShh. Just be still, Jon. Just be still.â
Though neither of them may be able to sleep that nightâ there is a certain rest to be found in just holding each other. And for nowâfor now, that is enough.
#cw asthma attack#my writing#I hope there aren't too many mistakes here#I didn't get to meticulously edit!!#but I hope it's enjoyable all the same :)#and merry christmas eve if you celebrate!!#if not I hope you're having a wonderful day all the same and you're safe and well <3#emma
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updated intro / jack 101
Is that JACK KELLY? Wow, they do look a lot like VAN MCCANN. I hear HE is an NINETEEN year old FRESHMEN who are studying AEROSPACE ENGINEERING Â at Luxor University. Word is they are an ARISTOCRAT student. You should watch out because they can be PHILOPHOBIC and INSINCERE, but on the bright side they can also be WITTY and IMAGINATIVE. Ultimately, youâll get to see it all for yourself. [YUNI, 21, GMT, SHE/HER]
 the other two got updated intros n rat man felt left out
basics
full name: jackson noel kellyÂ
nicknames: jack (does not answer to jackson)
date of birth: december 25, 2001
zodiac: capricorn sun, leo ascendant, sagittarius moon
nationality: dual uk and us citizenship
sexual orientation: straight but will try anything once
course: aerospace engineering
appearance
faceclaim: van mccannÂ
voiceclaim: van mccann
ethnicity: white (english, irish)
height: 5â˛8 / 173cm
weight: 58kg / 127lbs
eye colour: blue
hair colour: brown
distinctive features: freckles (many), left ear pierced, scars on his wrists usually covered by long sleeves, northern english accent
clothing preferences: jack prefers to only wear black, or at a push grey, although heâs slowly improving and will Occasionally mix it up with ... navy. his style is pretty basic, usually just a sweater, jeans, and beat up black converse or doc martens depending on how emo heâs feeling. the sheffield united hoodie makes an appearance every time someone forgets precisely which uk city jack is from.Â
personality
overview
positive traits: witty, imaginative, perseverant, passionate
negative traits:Â philophobic, disloyal, insincere, callous
mbti: entp
religious beliefs:Â atheist
description
the first side most people see of jack is the side he wants you to see. a total asshole. itâs not an exaggeration - heâs pretty much infamous for flirting with everyone, dating anyone and as a serial cheater. heâll actively try to worm his way into your life, and then just when you start to care, he does something to hurt you. heâs strangely persistent, probably helping him to push people even further, until they snap. there is nothing which satisfies him more than managing to wind people up to the extreme, get them to the point where they give up. adopted parents, friends, nobody is immune to this side - he even tries it on the people he genuinely cares about, as if just to see if heâll still be able to push them away.
the second side, which most people donât see, is that at heart jack is a kid. heâs the type of person to ask if owls have ears at 3am, or get some childlike joy out of dumb jokes. of course, this is the side nobody but a very small number of people see. and even if you do see it, it never lasts long. he keeps his true personality under wraps even amongst those he does like, and it only slips out if heâs extremely comfortable with you. otherwise, heâll go straight back to being a sarcastic, flirty piece of shit.
biography
jackson noel kelly was born in hell on ironically christmas day to his father satan......
jk
jack and his older half brother finn were born in sheffield, united kingdom, to a single mother. a drug addict, she was notorious among social workers for neglecting her children and as a result jack shuffled between foster homes and his motherâs home during his first ten years of life, with finn, less than four years older than him, being his primary carer even when he was back with his birth family. this cycle finally ended when jack was ten and he was permanently removed from his motherâs care, and placed in the first of a series of foster homes which didnât last particularly long.
the thing was, jackâs remarkably good at pushing people away when he wants to, and as he got older his talents only increased. running away, wreaking havoc, insulting anyone who tried to get close and anything else he could possibly think of meant that for three years he lasted no longer than eight months in any one place. in fact, he frequently took himself back to live with his birth family until social services came to drag him out again. this lifestyle continued until he was fostered by his now adopted parents, claire and george, at thirteen.
much to jackâs dismay, no matter of hell raising would push these newest set of parents away. in fact, they seemed absolutely set on raising him as Their Son, even as his attempts to get them off his back got more and more extravagant. they removed him from his previous school, transferred him to a fancy private school, put him in therapy and tried their best to help him get through all of the issues developed through his slightly fucked up childhood.
the thing was, jack loves his mother. he still refuses to see her as being in the wrong, no matter what people tell him or what he himself recalls, in his mind he has one mother and thatâs his birth mother. so he did not take kindly to attempts by his foster parents to become his ânewâ family, because in jackâs mind? he already had a family. and even though they were actively encouraging him to continue contact with his brother, he couldnât help but see them as trying to replace his birth family.
jackâs fifteenth year pretty much became the year when all of these issues finally came to a head. he was adopted legally by his foster parents, who had now been fostering him for two years - which should have been a happy occasion, but for jack represented the final loss, the final betrayal to his birth mother and brother. then shortly after his fifteenth birthday his brother went to prison at eighteen for grievous bodily harm, having glassed another boy after an argument.
of course, it would later be revealed that in actuality the assault had been committed by jack. and that finn was simply covering for him. (they looked alike enough that questions were not raised, it had happened so fast.) but in the eyes of jackâs adopted parents, finn was now a dangerous offender and jack had to be protected from him. so he was then isolated from his brother, his mother had relapsed and his continuous guilt over being adopted played on his mind, culminating in a suicide attempt in march 2017.Â
of course, he wasnât successful, but this was the final straw in the minds of his adopted parents. they felt jack needed a fresh start, away from the people who had defined his life prior to that point. so by his sixteenth birthday, jack had been moved to the united states to be near the family of his adopted mother, and subsequently enrolled in luxor academy.Â
where he continued to be a menace :))
although it did appear, for some time, that jack was showing signs of improvement. sure, he was still wreaking havoc at luxor. but at home, he had calmed, even showing signs of affection to his adopted family. until his mother overdosed suddenly and died when jack was eighteen and things started to immediately go straight downhill again.
he canât help but blame himself, for allowing himself to be moved. for the move being his fault, if heâs being honest. and if the honesty continues, jackâs got a whole lot of other stuff to blame on himself. (see: ruining his brotherâs life.)Â so now heâs just taking shit out on everyone to try and make them a fraction as miserable as him.Â
npc connections
birth fam
finn kelly / fc: jake bugg / b. may 10 1998 / taurus sun, gemini ascendant, pisces moon
finley, who also refuses to use his full name, is jackâs older brother - same mother, different father. jack thinks heâs boring because he doesnât raise hell with every opportunity. finn calls this âbeing a sane person.â went to prison for jack and regrets it. pastimes include crying over murakami books and trying to look shocked when jack tells him about the newest crisis heâs having.Â
lauren kelly / fc: elena tonra / b. february 20 1983 - d. april 1 2020 / pisces sun, aries ascendant, leo moon
jackâs birth mother, who was still a teenager when he and finn were born. she was an on again, off again drug addict and had jack removed from her care when he was ten due to continued neglect. instilled in him a love for oasis and a hefty number of mental health issues. looked pretty much exactly like jack.Â
jordan taylor / fc: alex turner / b. october 12 1984 / libra sun, leo ascendant, virgo moon
jackâs birth father, who he knows little about. not for lack of trying on his fatherâs part, who was prevented from seeing jack as a child by his birth mother and blocked from trying to make contact by jackâs refusal to interact. he keeps trying to message jack and jack is running out of daddy issues memes to respond with. finn thinks jack should give him a chance to redeem himself. jack thinks finn should fuck off.Â
adopted fam
claire fielding / fc: julia roberts / b. may 12 1964 / taurus sun, cancer ascendant, leo moon
jackâs adopted mother. loves him very much and is convinced he is a sweet boy who just needs love and help. has written a memoir about adopting jack. jack is mad at her constantly. when he is not mad at her, he is embarrassed by her existence. honestly deserves better.
george fielding / fc: timothy olyphant / b. november 6, 1963 / scorpio sun, capricorn ascendant, virgo moon
is proud of jack, but very deep down underneath a strong layer of calling jack out on his bullshit. has some loud ass shouting matches with jack. also really wishes jack would sort his hair out and maybe not look like a cheap liam gallagher. jack honestly just winds him up constantly and he knows jack is doing it but goddamnit itâs so hard to not be mad at the little rat.Â
other
maisie adeyemi / fc: yewande biala / b. january 6, 1997 / capricorn sun, sagittarius ascendant, aries moon
finnâs fiancee. her goal in life is to try to get jack to ruin finnâs life at least 70% less often. she has yet to achieve this goal. her love language is setting finnâs phone to silent when he goes to bed to stop jack from phoning in with some sort of random crisis at four in the morning because the little shit forgot timezones exist. finn will never find out. maisie is grateful that men have no brains.Â
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Nightfall (CH.16)
Synopsis: Pre-Resident Evil 1, slight-AU/Canon Divergence. Claire Redfield comes home to visit her  brother Chris for the holidays but gets caught up in a dangerous game of  cat and mouse with Albert Wesker, the Captain of STARS, after stumbling  upon dark secrets. She canât call the law; Wesker is the law, and she  canât tell Chris. She is trappedâŚClaire/Wesker & Slight Chris/Jill (Thereâs Wesker & William Bromance too lol). Rated M for smut, language, violence, adult content.
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Okay, she knew her luck had taken a big dump recently, but this was ridiculous! If she thought the university job was difficult, she promptly changed her mind. That was a walk in the park compared to this. Claire stared at all the people. The exquisite party was happening at the ritzy Orient Restaurant on the second floor of the most luxurious hotel in the city, Central Hotel.
There had to be close to a hundred people here! The whole restaurant was closed to cater for the invitation-only event. Why did she even assume this âChristmas Partyâ was going to be just a group of rich, old dudes bragging all night? With how her luck has been, she should've known better!
Claire gaped at the man beside her who was unfortunately the closest thing she had to a friend at the moment. She recalled Williamâs little âbriefingâ on the drive over here.
âThe partyâs not gonna be that big. Just a simple âget in, get outâ. Youâll be home in no time! Actually, youâll probably be at Alâs home in no time!â
He was still rubbing his arm where she decked him.
âThis is nothing like how you explained it!â she hissed.
But the mad scientist only half-heard her, his eyes lit up as though he was a kid about to enter his very first amusement park. Something in here was on his kill list because Claire overheard he wasnât a stranger to parties, at least not to parties like this that could get him something he wanted.Â
William was actually quite handsome all cleaned up in his suit. Claire had grown accustomed to his usual disheveled appearance that made him attractive in his own way.
He grinned slyly. âOh relax, sweetheart. Youâll be fine. Most of these people are total boresâŚlosers just out trying to feel important. They got nothing on you!â He winked at her. âYou know what to do, who to find. Adaâs on your earpiece and Al and I are here to watch your back. Donât worry. Al _definitely _wonât let you out of his sight. JustâŚdonât distract him too much. I need him focused tonight.â
âAre you fu-â
âErica!â William nearly squealed, waving both arms and abruptly abandoning her. âIs that gown designed by Brocaâs aphasia? Because Iâm speechless!âÂ
Claire glared at the fickle bastard as he ditched her to join some other people standing around talking and drinking. She was on her own for now.
âForget about him, Claire. Just focus on getting to Bennett. Best not drag this out longer than we have to and risk exposing ourselves,â Ada said on her earpiece.
âOkay,â she mumbled, and got into character, her natural Redfield bravado and assurance making it easy to stroll through the party like she owned the place.
It was a beautiful Asian restaurant. Most of the dark tables were accented with candles and glasses. The lounge-like chairs were colorful and comfy, and the tall ceilings gave way to soft LED string lights, oriental paintings and sectioned lattices. In warmer seasons, the same kind of setup could be seen on the massive balcony, but it was currently closed off.
She felt many eyes on her as she started her objective. But she only cared about one set of eyes as she discreetly scanned the place for them.
This many people here was both a blessing and a curse for her mission, and it could go either way real quick at any time. More people meant no room for mistakes, too many eyes. But on the other hand, this many people distracted amongst themselves could make it easy to get away with nearly anything.
Claire soon found the eyes she had been seeking, felt the familiar, pleasing burn on her skin they always caused. She traced them to an area with more people, where a grand, gold statue of Lord Yama sat. Directly in front of the god of death, Wesker was encircled by a small group, mostly beautiful women, and he charmed them effortlessly.
The younger Redfield had to keep herself from staring, also charmed by his chameleon smile, good looks, and striking black suit. Her nerves tingled from simmering blood. She couldnât believe it. She was actually jealous?! Claire was angry with herself. How could she possibly feel anything of the sort over the man that was blackmailing her?
Besides...she knew Wesker well enough by now to know that it was all pretense. She was sickened and enthralled by how easily he could deceive and influence people. Ada was right. His calculating mind, his clever tongue, those were his deadliest weapons; not his hands, not his gun.
The statue of Yama was simply a backdrop to the true god of death in the room. His admirers probably had no clue and listened intently. The women batted their eyes, pushed out their chests, even the ones who had dates. And those men did nothing about it, perhaps too enthralled themselves or maybe it was the fact that Wesker had an uncanny ability to make most men around him submissive.
He may have looked like he was paying attention to them, his eyes concealed behind black shades, but Claire knew he was watching her. All of her. Every breath, every step, he was in complete tune. Something about that lit a fire in her belly so fierce, she trembled.
The jealousy she felt instantly crumbled. It didnât matter if those women were rich or prettier or dressed in nicer dresses. They meant nothing to him. Not like she did.
And why was that, exactly?
Claire frowned, faltering mid-step, eyes still locked on Wesker across the room when she should've been moving on. She had some suspicions, if her gut and Ada and William were anything to go by.Â
More importantly, why do you care?
âClaire?! Earth to Claire, hello?â
âHuh?â
âYou arenât exactly being inconspicuous staying in one spot drooling over Albert.â
Claireâs face flushed and she briskly walked away with a huff. âIâm not drooling!â
The first place she needed to check for her target would be the bar. Typical. It was in the back of the restaurant, low-lit, a massive, semi-circled bar with a marble countertop up against an airbrushed wall depicting a dragon floating through the clouds.
âWhatever you say, hun.â
Claire bit her tongue, taking a deep breath. âI was just happy to see him chatting up other women. Less problems for me.â
Ada sighed. âClaire, fishing is beneath you. First, they arenât his type. More importantly, Albert detests easy women.â
That wasnât her intention. âI wasnât-â
âUnfortunately and fortunately for you, you are his type and are as difficult as they come. I probably shouldnât be saying this, but youâre as close to obsession as heâs going to get romantically.â
The only fortune she could come up with was that it was unlikely Wesker would kill her. But obsession through people with sociopathic and psychopathic tendencies like Wesker were never a good thing. Her life might be spared at the end of all this...but at what cost?
Claire briskly pushed that thought aside, something cold and heavy dropping in the pit of her stomach. She needed to focus on finding Bennett and getting this over with. That was her excuse. After all, she wasnât ready to acknowledge that her own growing infatuation would likely veer her into her captorâs arms for good.
She looked around the bar area. There were all kinds of high-status people attending Bardâs Christmas party. Doctors, politicians, city officials, even Mayor Warren and Chief Irons were here.
She recognized Mueller from Raccoon University having a casual conversation with the man that had to be her target. A picture was never granted, but a detailed description allowed her to quickly analyze him. It had to be him. Tall, average build, auburn hair and an anchor beard. He chatted with Mueller with a drink in his hand.
Just as Claire stepped their way, a strong grip snatched her wrist. She was spun around, coming face-to-face with Nathaniel Bard. He looked fine since the anaphylaxis she put him through with the shrimp, but the creep wasn't happy one bit with her, still keeping a painful grip on her arm.
"I knew I'd see your face again, girl. What happened at the university is all your fault."
Claire glared at him. "You're gonna be hurting more if you don't let me go right now."
The music and all the guests chatting around them helped conceal her threat from eavesdropping ears but the Spencer Memorial doctor heard her clearly.
He considered challenging her, lips pursing, but soon let her go after his eyes scanned the numerous faces within the party. "I know you're working with those two bastards. You have no idea how much harm youâve caused me and several of my colleagues. Lowery was a good man, understand? He had a family. And now Iâm trapped doing those two psychosâ bidding.â
âMaybe you arenât the only one who is trapped.â
âWell then thereâs more to your pretty face, isnât there? They wouldnât risk it otherwise.â
Who the fuck did this guy think he was? Claire clenched a fist, as it took all of her willpower not to break his damn nose. She had a job to do here. If she caused a scene in the middle of this party, especially with the man hosting it, then she could kiss her freedom and potentially Chrisâs life goodbye.
She did let him in on what he was narrowly missing out on by grabbing his hand and twisting it slightly, squeezing hard on a pressure point. Just enough to make it really hurt, just enough to get her point across while looking like she was just holding his hand to nearly everyone else. âIf my life didnât hinge on fulfilling this job, youâd be on the floor with a broken fucking face, do you understand me?â
âDamn, Claire. I like your style,â Ada chimed in.
The younger Redfield ignored her and smiled, showing the guests they were having a pleasant conversation. Bard hissed in pain, quickly nodding. Claire released him and he jerked his hand away, shaking it off with a grimace.
âListen, Iâll make the job easy for you. Just...do what you need to do and get out of here. Take those assholes with you. And never show your face at one of my social events ever again.â
âIâd love to, but itâs not my call. But...I have a feeling you know exactly who you can talk to about that.â
Bard scowled, rubbing his injured hand. He muttered something under his breath and motioned her to follow him, heading towards Bennett and Mueller in the back of the bar. âCâmon, and follow my lead.â
âUgh, he better not screw this up.â
Bard put on a welcoming smile once they reached Mueller and Bennettâs table. Mueller recognized her, but didnât say anything. She barely got a momentâs glare from him before he flashed Bard a guarded look, as if asking âwhat are you up to now?â The two men stood and the doctor shook their hands.
âMr. Bennett! I trust you are enjoying the party? What kind of host would I be if I was neglecting my honored guest?â
He looked to be in his thirties maybe. His smile was warm as he nodded. He noticed Claire nearly right away, and there was a definite reaction of some kind. Attraction, she guessed, immediate infatuation. GreatâŚ
âOh yes,â he said in a European accent. âI am grateful to you and Gregâs hospitality. Youâve made being so far from home much more bearable.â
âGood, good! Itâs a shame your business partner couldnât join us this evening. But Iâm sure he had his reasons. You two are busy men, after all!â
Bennett nodded, composed yet amiable. âThat we are. Iâm sorry, but I have to ask, who is this beautiful young lady you have with you?â
Bard didnât skip a beat in his front, presenting her with a grin like she was a piece of treasure up for auction.
âI know, stunning right? This is Elza. Sheâs one of my...assistants.â
The European man held out his hand with a handsome, friendly smile. It couldâve fooled anyone, and it almost fooled her. But her gut constricted at the last moment, her first indication something wasnât right about this guy.
He took her hand and kissed it softly. âIt is my utmost pleasure, Miss Elza. Iâm Stephan Bennett. Please, just call me Stephan.â
Claire put on the sweetest smile she could muster, batting her lashes. âThe pleasureâs all mine, Stephan.â
He looked her over, and although he was an attractive man, it made her skin crawl.
âHas Greg taken you up to your suite yet?â Bard asked cordially. âIâve left you a little treat as a thank you for choosing to stay the night in Raccoon Cityâs famous Central Hotel!âÂ
Bennett ripped his eyes from Claire and shook his head at the host. âNo, sir. I got the keycard to the room earlier, but wanted to check out the party before retreating for the night.â He presented a friendly, almost sheepish smile. âHonestly, Iâm still a little messed up with the time zone changes. I didnât think it would affect me this much.â
âThatâs not a problem. My assistant and I will escort you up there. Thereâs a little bit of business Iâd like to discuss with you anyway,â Bard replied.
âWhat about your party?â
âEh, theyâll entertain themselves! Greg will take care of things while Iâm gone. It wonât be but a few minutes.â Bennett glanced at Claire, expression unreadable, and Bard quickly added. âMy assistant is completely trustworthy, donât worry. She knows about our research.â
Bennett nodded, relieved. âAlright, lead the way, Nathaniel.â
Claire was uncertain what to do as Mueller shook hands with Bennett and bid them good night before heading for the bar. Her job was to stick a bug on the European businessman, probably so Wesker and William could track him straight to Aaron Roth. Leaving the party just tossed her whole plan into the garbage. This just got way riskier.
Nothing like winging a mission where my lifeâs literally at stake. Whatâs the worst that can happen?
âGreat,â Ada whispered in her ear, not helping Claireâs gut feeling. âWeskerâs watching and listening through your piece. He says itâs fine. Just get that bug on Bennett without him knowing.â
Was that supposed to make her feel better that Wesker said it was fine? And how exactly was he able to do that anyway? That just made her earlier conversation with Ada a lot more awkward...
With a slight tick of her jaw, Claire composed herself with a friendly smile and followed the two men out of the restaurant and into the fancy, historical hotel.
They went to the lobby, a grand room with high ceilings, bright lights, and expensive carpet and decor. The elevator ride to the fifth floor seemed extra crowded, even though there were just three of them. Bard and Bennett chatted normally about their lives and careers. Claire didnât like the frequent glances Bennett gave her. She waited for an opportunity, stayed vigilant with that inkling sprouting in her gut.
It got worse when Ada told her she lost visual on her from their location.
Weskerâs making you do this alone because he wants to see how you do, said a small voice in the back of her head. She didnât have proof, but she wouldnât put it past him.
She gave vague answers when Bennett asked her something, either curious and flirting or digging and deceiving. She wasnât exactly sure.
Bennett scanned his card and held the door open to the big, two-bedroom suite. Bard strolled right on in but Claire hesitated, not wanting to put her back to these men. When she did, she felt his eyes all over her, and when he closed the door, he purposely brushed her to get by.
They stepped into the spacious living room first, accented with a bar and impressive kitchen. There was a home theater set up in the den, opposite a wall of glass that displayed downtown Raccoon City. Dark buildings silhouetted within soft glows of lights of all colors. Speckles of white rained down softly outside.
âYou meant it when you said this suite had a view,â Bennett stated, drawn to the panorama.
Bard gave her a look, dipped his head in the direction of his âguestâ, as if urging her to get her business done. Claire glared at him as he turned off to the bar instead.
âYes, I did! And over here, something just for you, Mr. Bennett. Your favorite wine. All the way from home!â
âI donât like this. Are you okay? Cough if you are.â
âHow thoughtful of you, Dr. Bard. Thank you. Youâve gone out of your way to make me feel at home here.â
Claire didnât like it either. She looked around, keeping up her appearance as she joined the men at the bar. She didnât see any danger, but something like it was lurking about. Whatever it was, she was fine for now.
She coughed. âOh, excuse me.â
Bennett watched her more than Bard, but she still couldnât read his expression. Bard took the fancy bottle out of the container of ice. âShall we have a glass while we talk?â
âYes. Iâd like that.â
That clicked an idea in her brain. Claire put a hand on Bardâs arm, mustering up the realest fake friendly smile she could handle, looking between the two men under thick lashes. âHow about you gentlemen take a seat, get comfortable? Let me serve you.â
Bennettâs smile held something darker, but it was gone in a flash. Bard looked at her funny, but composed himself and slowly put the wine down on the counter. âOf course, Elza! Youâre always the sweetest thing! Come, Stephan, over here.â
âWhat do you have planned, exactly?â Ada asked. âUgh, I hate going by sound alone.â
Her cohorts had lied to her, she realized. William promised Wesker wouldnât let her out of his sight and Ada said she would watch over her. Wesker didnât say much to her before the party, but disclosed if she did what she was told, she would be fine. She was alone here and certainly felt something other than âfineâ was coming her way.
The doctor and his guest went to the lounge chairs nearby, sitting across from each other. It was the perfect way for Claire to bug Bennett without him knowing. She opened the white wine and poured their glasses, giving them time to get settled in their seats and start talking. The more distracted they were, the better. It also gave her a moment to get the tiny tracking device ready.
The younger Redfield served Bennett first. She caressed her fingers up his arm, across his shoulder, stopped at the back of his neck, squeezing his collar gently. Her flirtatious smile was enough to distract him from Bard when she handed him his drink. She didnât remain long, crossing to Bard and giving him his drink with the same smile, the same caress that made her skin crawl. She left them and returned to the bar, gathering up the wine bottle and ice bucket and placing them on the table in between the two men.
Claire eavesdropped on their conversation, but a lot of it made no sense to her. Big research, Sheena and Rockfort Island, Roth, Ashfords, prototypes, T-series. All similar topics that Wesker and William discussed and were involved with.
âYou know, itâs strange how all of our business associates keep coming up dead or missing since weâve been in town,â Bennett said after a long sip of his wine.
Bard grew quiet, confused, his fingers clenching around his wine glass. âWhatâŚdo you mean?â
The European man looked at Claire, like he knew all of her secrets, not near as charming now. âYou know what happened to them...donât you, Miss Walker? Or should I call you Miss Redfield?â
Claire stiffened, nails digging into the chair arms. She dared not blink, glaring at him, keeping calm, but reeling underneath on how to react. He knew her name. Her _real _name.
Shit!
âShit!â Ada echoed in her ear. âClaire, donât do anything rash. Hang in there.â
It wasnât as though she had much of a choice. She was on her own. Bardâs alarmed face told her everything. He was just as surprised as her, but would be too much of a coward to help her.
Claire took a deep breath. âI donât know what happened to them.â
âI think Dr. Lowery would say otherwise.â
âHow do you know my real name?��
The European businessman crossed one leg casually, swishing the wine in his glass, sharp eyes on her. âAll it took was a little digging. You really shouldnât use your motherâs maiden name as an alias, darling. Especially one as unique as hers.â
Cold steel bumped the back of her head. A gun.
Wesker had told her the same thing. Warned her.
She was careless to use it after not being prepared at the university. Now she was in real danger. The other wolves that Wesker claimed he was protecting her from had stalked her right into a corner. Then again, maybe he wasnât expecting _this _pack. Or maybe he had and was ready to give her up as tribute for his own motivesâŚ
âUh, Stephan, whatâs going on, is t-this necessary?â Bard asked.
âQuiet, or youâll have one to your head also.â Bennett motioned for Claire to stand. âMy business partner, Aaron, would like to speak to you one-on-one, Miss Redfield. You have the time, right? You can help fill the gaps on whatâs been happening to our dealings. Weâre getting warm, but it seems as though everyone is too afraid to give us answers. Whoever youâre working for, weâll cut you a nice deal if you expose them.â
Claire kept his gaze, defiant, silent. She had no choice but to comply. She had no weapons on her, no way to hide one in this dress. She slowly moved her hands down to her sides, preparing to push herself up, and felt it. The cold, metal coil of a corkscrew. She forgot she had brought it with her while serving the drinks.
Snatching it up between her fingers, she stood. The man who had the gun to her head pulled her out away from the chair. Bennett rose from his seat, finishing his drink and setting the empty glass down.
Bard shot up as well, looking between Claire and his guest, panicking. âWh-What are you doing?â
There were two other men in suits now. They mustâve been hiding in the suite this whole time. Although they didnât have weapons drawn, they were probably packing like the one behind her.
âNathaniel, lying to me that she is your assistant? After what happened to Simon, Iâm shocked. Someoneâs got you cowering and afraid, just like Greg. Just like our friend the Police Chief.â
âI-Itâs n-not what you think.â
Bennett nodded to the other men. They grabbed Bard by the arms, containing him. The European man pulled a gun equipped with a silencer from his suit jacket.
The doctor fought his captors. âWait! No!â
Claire stabbed the man behind her in the groin with the corkscrew. He cried out as she spun, disarming him and shoving him away where he tumbled to the floor. She grabbed the bottle of wine and threw it at Bennettâs head just as he switched his gun on her. The bottle shattered on his face.
She didnât get far with running. Not in that dress, not in those heels, before she was snatched by his men. A bash above her temple instantly made the world spin. Still, she fought, as weak as she suddenly felt.
Bennett was soaked, his face earning a few gashes from broken glass, blood mixing with golden-colored wine. He cursed, wiping his eyes with his sleeve. He grabbed her neck, squeezing hard.
âYou little bitch! Youâre lucky Aaron wants to speak with you, or youâd be dead!â
Thatâs when his arm snapped. Like a twig. He screamed. Claire, her vision still hazy from the blow to her head, realized he was attacked. His men were attacked; she was let go. A few blinks and she saw Wesker using some sort of martial arts to swiftly dispose of them. Not Bennett though. He raced away to his escape while holding his limp arm that flopped uselessly as he ran.
The STARS Captain had killed the other three. In seconds. With his hands. He paused, looking to the door where Bennett had fled, as if deciding whether to pursue him. He was over it in seconds though, grabbing her and pulling her to him. Not as rough as she had expected, but gentle wasnât really in his nature.
âHold still,â he commanded. She felt his hand on her head. He mustâve been examining the clout she had received. âAre you alright?â
There was some blood on his hand when he withdrew it, and she felt it trickling in her hair. It mustâve been just a small cut, otherwise it wouldâve been all over her face by now.
âYeah,â she said. And she was. It had only made her light-headed for a minute or so.
The nearby chair squeaked as it scooted on the carpet, and a muffled curse came from the other side. Wesker finally looked away from her, jaw clenching. He marched over to the furniture and kicked it. The chair crashed and skidded several feet away. Wesker seized Bard by the collar and picked him up, slamming him into the nearby bar counter. The sound his body made hitting the granite countertop made her flinch, and Bardâs yelp confirmed it.
âWesker, wait, please! I d-didnât know! I didnât! I swear! He was gonna kill me too!â
âHe was,â Claire confirmed.Â
She had no idea why she defended the asshole, especially when he didnât offer her any help before. But she could tell he was telling the truth. Wesker paused, but didnât look at her, probably contemplating what to do with the doctor as he shuddered in his hands.
âConsider your...contract extended indefinitely,â Wesker growled, and shoved him over the other side of the bar. He put a couple fingers up to his ear, the same hidden piece she had. âAda, William, weâre finished here. Ada, track Bennett. William, tell Irons he has a mess to clean up with Bard and Mueller.â
Bard got to his feet, shaken, his surprised eyes finding hers. The younger Redfield glared at him, a silent message he understood. She had spared him a cruel fate from the Devil. But she wouldnât do it again.
She returned her gaze to the three bodies around her feet. The one she stabbed with the corkscrew had a snapped neck. The other two looked as though they had suddenly dropped dead, nothing to attribute to the hands of the STARS Captain. But she had seen it with her own eyes. And although it shouldnât have, it lit a fierce fire in her lower belly, spreading when his arm wrapped around her waist and pulled her towards the door.
The flames were fanned when he whispered in her ear, his hand squeezing her hip. âYou did exceptionally well, dear heart. You make me proud.â
When Ada told her Wesker would want to take her home after seeing her in her dress, she had denied wanting him to, denied she wanted to go home with him willingly. But after what she saw, how he held her close to him like she was his, and his alone, how his breath upon her ear titillated her, made her receptive to him only, she could no longer deny it.
Claire wouldnât be able to stand the drive there. She wanted him. Wanted him to take her. She was a liar; it wasnât just a one-time fling or a mistake. It was going to happen again. And she wanted it to, and would do nothing to stop it.
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A/N: my baby @shepherald... grazie mille my dear one! iâll never be able to thank you enough for what youâve done for bb, and iâll never be able to put into words how much you mean to me! i love you so much! thank you!
A/N2: so, this is it! last chapter of bb! it honestly doesnât seem real, and iâm so sad i have to let painter!harry go cos iâve grown quite fond of him the year iâve spent thinking about him and this fic! what bb represents is what makes this fic so special to me. i - a plus size woman - never felt like i belonged anywhere. i assumed i was unloveable from never seeing a bigger person like myself in a book or a film where that person was deemed attractive. they were always the clown, or âthe fat characterâ, or their entire storyline was based around them needing to lose weight. iâve gotten pretty fucking tired of never seeing myself represented properly in fiction or irl or ANYWHERE for that matter, so i decided to take matters into my own hands, and i cannot begin to tell you how LIBERATING and AMAZING it felt! to each person who reached out to me saying bb made them confident, made them feel like they werenât alone, opened their eyes to what life as a bigger person is: i love you all. this is the exact reason why i wrote bb. fat doesnât equal ugly, it doesnât equal unloveable, it doesnât equal any negatively charged words. fat equals beautiful, it equals human. and anyone who ever tries to tell you otherwise can choke lmao. enjoy this last instalment of bb, i love you all so much x
Sunday, 1 March 2020
Y/N had always thought that the biggest changes were those you didnât pay immediate notice to. Like the changing of the seasons, aging on your birthday, when the clock struck 12 and a new day began. Changes that were caused by time; that could not be prevented. Loads of changes couldnât be prevented, but it was impossible to escape time. Manmade to make life simpler to live, and yet itâs what kills us in the end. However, Y/N had come to learn that some changes â the biggest and worst of them all â pained you so much, they didnât fully leave your body. Like a volcanic eruption, theyâd come every now and again, but would leave you scorched and burning for days. She chose not to think about those changes.
But it was hard when she was out shopping with her younger sister and said younger sister would not stop bloody chattering. The first day of spring had brought nothing but clouds and the occasional fall of some rain. Y/N wasnât impressed. Wasnât a new season supposed to bring something else? So far it just felt like any other winter day in south England.
âY/N?â
âYeah?â
Looking up at Portia, it was painfully obvious Y/N hadnât been paying attention to anything her sister had been saying.
Portia raised her eyebrows. âAre you taking the mick right now?â
âWhat?!â
âYouâre not even listening to what Iâve been saying.â Portia scanned her Oyster card and walked on into Haggerston station, leaving Y/N sighing behind her. Y/N scanned her own card and followed, knowing that her sister would not stop being annoying unless she asked what sheâd been talking about. The second she began talking again, sheâd forget Y/N wasnât listening to begin with.
The two were on their way to Victoria Station, Portia was going back home after having stayed with Y/N in her shared flat in Hackney for two weeks, having had some modelling jobs to attend to. And now that she was done, she would be going home to their mother and staying there for a week until she had to come back down to London for some more jobs. Y/N was getting rather sick of her little sister staying with her when she could easily find her own flat, but she figured sheâd bring that conversation up another time. A time when she hadnât pissed her sister off already that day.
âTia,â Y/N said as they reached the Southbound platform, the windy remnants of the storm that had just been making it freezing to be taking the Overground and wait outside for the next tube to arrive. âWhat were you saying?â
âDo you even care?â
âYes.â
âI donât believe you.â
Y/N rolled her eyes. âFine.â
âThis bloke Iâve been going on dates with while Iâve been here, right,â Portia started crossing her arms over her chest as the tube started approaching, knowing that a gust of wind would accompany it. âHeâs got this friend thatâs been eyeing me up the two times Iâve met him. Heâs fit and everything, but Iâm seeing Azeem, you know.â
âTell Azeem his mate makes you feel uncomfortable and heâll do something about it till next time you meet.â
âBut he doesnât make me feel uncomfortable, thatâs the thing.â Portia sighed as the two girls walked up to the yellow line, waiting for the train to stop so they could get on. âI just think itâs annoying.â
âThat men find you attractive?â
âThat the fit oneâs are always the ones I canât have.â
âOh, my days, Portia.â Y/N mumbled, getting on the Overground and sitting down in one of the orange and brown seats. Portia sat down next to her, putting her bag on the ground beside her feet.
âWhat, Y/N?â
âYou just sound like a bellend.â
âHow?â
Y/N gave her a look.
âHow?!â
ââThe fit oneâs are always the ones I canât haveâ? At least youâre dating someone, and theyâre interested in you.â
âAnd Azeem is delicious, but his mateâs gotâŚâ
âGot what?â
Portia sighed. âGot nice arms.â
Y/N leaned her head against the wall behind her, it swayed with the moving coach.
âI know itâs not all about looks.â
âIt really is not.â
âBut I still canât help myself.â
âYouâre such a prick.â
âDonât be rude.â Portia nudged her sisterâs shoulder. âIf youâd just go out and date people as well, youâd have the same problems.â
Y/N huffed, looking at Portia. âDoubt it.â
Portia rested one leg on top of the other, examining her nails. âYouâre so boring sometimes.â
âCheers.â
âNo,â Portia glanced at Y/N again. âBut isnât it boring to just be sat inside all day?â
âOh, itâs incredibly boring to get an education.â
Portia rolled her eyes.
âGo out of my mind going to lectures, writing my dissertation, doing other assessments, and applying to thousands of jobs a day.â
Portia crossed her arms, looking ahead.
âSo boring.â
âI know you pride yourself on the fact youâre gonna be a vet.â
âShouldnât I?â
Portia sighed, refusing to answer. The two kept quiet after that. Y/N knew in order to make Portia shut up, she just had to bring up her education. Portia was fully aware that Y/N was the smartest one out of the two of them â quite frankly, the smartest one in their entire family â and if Y/N rubbed it in, Portia would keep quiet. Reminding her sister how sheâd gotten into the University of her dreams and was doing great, was a low blow, Y/N knew that. But at the same time, Portia just pissed her off so much sometimes that she simply could not help herself.
The two got up as they reached their stop at Canada Water, and walked off towards the Jubilee line once the tube doors opened. Portiaâs bag kept bumping into Y/N as they walked, and though she would normally tell her to piss off, to keep her bag closer, she didnât know. Giving Portia a reason to start shouting at her in the middle of a tube station was not ideal. She was mad enough as it was.
They got on the escalator, Y/N was just about to tell Portia what direction to walk in once they reached the bottom since her little sister always forgot, but Portia gasped before Y/N got the chance. Looking up at her sister, Portiaâs eyes were wide, a small smile lingering on her lips. She pointed to the digital posters that lined the wall along the escalator, making Y/N look to her right to see what had gotten her sister all excited.
It was the colour that stood out first. She remembered the exact shade of it. The painting stood out second, then the colour of the personâs hair, the shape of their body, the shoes. The landscape, the warm colours. It was her. It was the same day sheâd found Viola. The same day Harry had supposedly⌠No, she couldnât even finish that thought. Sheâd tried not to think of him for months now. As they passed another one of the posters, she looked at it again. In white and bold letters, the text on the poster said âH. Stylesâ exclusive and limited new exhibition. 11:00-18:00. 23rd February â 1st March. Dover Street, Mayfair. ÂŁ10 admission.â
âY/N, what the fuck?â Portia said, tapping her finger against the screen multiple times as they passed yet another one of the posters. âWhat the fuck?â
The exact same statement was going on repeat in Y/Nâs head as well. Seeing the painting, seeing herself on that poster, it brought back so incredibly many memories from a time she had tried to forget.
Ever since they had parted ways, Y/N and Harry had only talked on a handful of occasions. They would text one another â very early on, Harry even called her twice (only after making sure the time zones werenât fucked and she wasnât asleep) -, and they did so for a long while, but then Harryâs answers got shorter and shorter, and Y/N felt like he might be falling out of love. She didnât want to ask him in case she was reading too much into things, afraid of what the answer might be. She was still in love with him, would probably be so till the day she died, but she didnât want to force him to talk to her if he wasnât feeling it anymore.
As time went on, their text conversations got less frequent, and by Christmas, they werenât talking at all. Y/N had tried to forget about him, thinking that he might have just viewed what they had as an intense summer romance and that was it. After all, he was a passionate and artistic man, maybe he fell in love with the thought, image, and what she represented to his summer more than her person. It all hurt to think about, which was why she rarely allowed herself to think about him at all. She hadnât seen him in almost seven months, she was terrified of what that distance had done to them. To his heart. Because hers still longed for his in every way a person could yearn for another. It proved hard living apart from a person whose name you had etched onto the organ that kept you alive.
They reached the bottom of the escalator and the two girls stepped off, Y/N blinking a few extra times because she simply could not hold tears back when she was thinking about Harry. Portia walked beside Y/N, mouth agape.
âY/N,â she said. âWe have to go.â
Y/N sniffled, pretending it was because sheâd caught a cold. âWhy?â
Portia glanced at her as if she was insane.
âWhat?â
âDonât even start, Y/N. Weâre going. I need to see those paintings and so do you.â Portia walked onto the Jubilee tube, Y/N following straight after. They held onto a pole, and when Y/N averted her eyes to the advertisement on the walls of the coach, she saw Harryâs poster again. They were everywhere, how hadnât she noticed them before?
âDover Street.â Portia said. âRight by Piccadilly, innit?â
âYeah.â
âBrill, we just jump off at Green Park and walk for like five minutes and weâll be there.â
Y/N sighed, suddenly feeling like she needed to throw up.
Portia grinned, looking at Y/N. âIâm excited now.â
âPortia, this is a bad idea.â
âItâs a splendid idea.â Portia corrected. âI need to see all the paintings. Iâm sure theyâre amazing.â
Y/N had never told Portia she hadnât seen the paintings herself, that Harry hadnât let her. But then again, there were a lot of things she hadnât told Portia about last summer and H. Styles. Her heart was beating way faster than normal, she was suddenly sweating. The notion that Harry might be there was overwhelming, that he had probably been in London for a while now but not contacted her made her entire body ache in a way it had never done before. Though Harry being at his own gallery didnât make sense on any other days than the opening one, Y/N was still sick thinking about meeting him. He wouldnât be there, but she still was wary of going.
âWhatâs gotten into you, you look faint.â Portia pointed out, raising her eyebrows.
âI think itâs a really bad idea to go to that exhibition.â
âWhat the fuck, Y/N?â Portia groaned. âThese are paintings of you. Youâre literally the star of the whole thing.â
Y/N shrugged.
âBesides, I donât think we have to pay a tenner since you literally spent all summer with him so he could paint you. Free admission equals âwhy the fuck notâ.â
Would Harry even want her there? They hadnât talked after all; he hadnât told her he was in London. Maybe he didnât want her to come see the paintings. Maybe he just wanted her to stay away.
She hated how much she was overthinking this. The last thing she wanted to do was step on Harryâs toes, especially now that they hadnât spoken in a while. Especially because she loved him and was afraid he didnât anymore. However, realising the reason she was overthinking in the first place, she took a deep breath and closed her eyes. It was because Harry meant so much to her. Never could she face him now without knowing if he felt the same way about her.
Portia dragged Y/N off at Green Park, walking towards the exit with an excited gleam in her eyes. Y/Nâs stomach hurt so much she didnât know what to do. She wanted to lay down in a foetal position and die. This was all so sudden, so overwhelming. They exited the underground, and as they reached the outside again, the sun was shining and the wind didnât seem as horrible. It didnât ease Y/Nâs nerves one bit, though.
It took them a total of three minutes to reach Dover Street, and the exhibition was one of the first things that caught Y/Nâs eyes. The entire front was made of glass, covered in a baby blue sheet that read âH. Stylesâ new exclusive exhibition.â Portia gripped Y/Nâs arm, squealing before she looked both ways and crossed the street. Y/N knew Dover Street was known for having numerous contemporary art galleries, but looking down the street, none stood out as much as Harryâs. It was impossible to view any of the paintings through the windows, undoubtedly leaving people wanting to pay the 10 quid to do just that. Y/N was torn between actually wanting to walk inside or sprint back to Hackney.
âWhyâre you hesitating? Come on!â Portia took Y/Nâs hand and opened the door with the other, forcing Y/N in first.
The reception was dark, absolutely everything covered in black from the floor to the ceiling. There was nothing on the walls, nothing that stood out. But in the middle of the room stood another black wall, covering the proper entrance to the actual exhibition. In front of it stood a reception desk in the same colour, and behind it sat an old man, but he was accompanied by a figure Y/N recognised right away. Portia walked straight up to the desk, a huge smile on her face.
âGood afternoon, miss,â the old man said, smiling right back at her.
âHi, my sister and I would love to just enter the exhibition, please.â
â20 pounds, then.â Jamie said, standing bent over a pile of papers that they were signing and reading over.
âNo, you donât understand,â Portia started, turning around and beckoning Y/N over. âMy sister is a good friend of H. Styles.â
Jamie looked up, their eyes immediately landing on Y/N. And just like that, she was brought right back to last summer and everything Jamie had told Harry on one of her last nights there. So many memories washed over her that it made her a little dizzy. The car rides where she and Jamie would sit in the backseat and discuss animals, life, or anything else that wouldâve caught their attention. The other times when theyâd wait for Harry to get ready downstairs. She didnât know how to act. Did she give them a hug? Did she smile? Did she say something? This was exactly why she didnât want to go.
âY/N,â Jamie said, standing up straight.
âSo you recognise her!â Portia was elated. âCan we just walk on in then?â
Jamie and Y/N didnât break eye contact, both at a loss for words. It was clear that something went down between them, that there was something unspoken in the air of the reception hall. Y/N looked away, not wanting to have Portia ask her about Jamie once they entered the gallery. She didnât want to tell her; didnât want to recount anything from her time in Italy.
âYeah,â Jamie hastily reached for two brochures, locking eyes with Y/N again as he handed them to her. Portia raised her eyebrows, catching on that something was going on. She looked at Y/N. âDonât take any photographs, if any of our guards see you do so, you will be asked to leave and pay a fine. Other than that, I hope you enjoy.â Y/N knew they were talking to both her and Portia, but by the look in their eyes, she felt as though they were talking to her alone.
âThank you very much.â Portia smiled, taking one of the brochures and walking away from them.
Y/N looked at the brochure, just as baby blue as the sheet that had covered the front of the gallery, the same writing on it as well. Her eyes met Jamieâs again, and there was something about the way they glanced at her that was so sad. Somewhere in the wrinkle between their eyebrows Y/N saw an apology of sorts. Regret so deep and intense that she could feel it herself. They didnât say anything, but Y/N felt the agony; saw something in their eyes that she hadnât experienced herself, but that they needed her to see. She gave them a small smile before following Portia and walking around the wall behind the reception desk, keeping her eyes on the brochure in her hands.
If meeting Jamie had her shaken up this bad, she didnât even want to begin to think what an encounter with Harry would bring. The leaflet was shaking in her hand, begging for her to open it. What would it even hold? Copies of the paintings? No, if they werenât allowed to take pictures inside, why would he have them attached in leaflets for anyone to see?
âOh, my word.â Portia said, making Y/N look up.
The entrance to the gallery had her halting. Just like everything else, she recognised it right away. All over the wall was a painting sheâd seen on her first week last summer; seen on one of her last days when sheâd shown it to Harry.
âWhen I first moved into the flat, I found a painting in this wardrobe.â She pulled it down, taking a glance at the autumn painting depicting a gravel path leading nowhere into darkness. Turning around, she walked back over to the bed, handing the painting to Harry. âThatâs only one of like, two of your paintings Iâve really seen, other was one of the sea back in your house. Mind if I ask what inspired this one?â
A projector planted it on the dark surface, welcoming the guests to the gallery. A gravel path leading off far into the dark distance, tall oak trees surrounding it, filled with the rich colours of autumn. Though it was filled with yellow and green, two colours that would normally have positive connotations, Y/N couldnât help but get quite the opposite vibes staring at it, just like all the other times sheâd seen it. There was something about it she couldnât put her finger on. Like there laid a secret at the end of the path; an explanation in the black of the unknown.
âItâs the drive to my house back in Manchester. The drive up to my childhood home, or⌠this is facing the other way.â He explained, dragging his finger gently along the gravel path. âItâs what you see when youâre leaving.â He shifted the attention of his finger to the trees of different colours. âAutumn, the dull coloursâŚâ he trailed off, as if reliving a memory heâd almost suppressed; something heâd pushed so far into the back of his head it had almost vaporised and disappeared into nothingness. âThis was when I left home, when I first moved to London.â He pointed at the darkness at the end of the gravel path. âThatâs the end of the road, I couldnât make it out clearly. My future, I mean. Itâs all supposed to represent uncertainty.â
Portia looked over her shoulder at Y/N, squealing. The darkness at the end of the painting was a hallway, a dark corridor that seemed to be leading off into nowhere. Her sister stood there waiting for her, reaching her hand out so they could walk through the darkness together. But Y/N needed to take a moment and just look at the wall, because it was one of the very first of his paintings sheâd ever seen, and now she was about to see all of the other paintings he had refused to let her see. Taking a deep breath, she walked forward, took Portiaâs hand, and the two walked into the dark hallway. Y/N felt her grip on Portiaâs hand tighten for each step they took
âWhy didnât they just put some bloody lights in here?-â
But just as Portia said that, the exhibition was revealed to them. It was black. Dim white lights lit up the room on the walls and ceiling, illuminating the floating balls that were lined up down the room. Looking at the walls first, Y/N realised the light appeared as stars. Dotted along the walls and ceiling, lighting up the room and revealing the huge round objects that appeared to be floating, but was held from the ceiling and the floor by metal poles. The first one was completely dark, and as the two sisters walked on closer, Portia gasped a little.
âY/N,â
âWhat?â
âHow many planets are there in our Solar System?â
Y/N frowned, but as her eyes met Portiaâs she understood immediately. Taking a step to the side, she looked down the room, seeing that there were quite a few others visiting the gallery as well. Harry was an immense painter, after all. Everyone knew who he was. However, Y/N couldnât focus on the other people in the room with her, she started counting the different sized round objects that were nicely lined.
âEight.â Y/N answered.
âAnd how many-â
â-Eight.â
Portia squeezed Y/Nâs hand, eyes wide with some kind of realisation. The sisters looked at one another for a minute before Portia opened her mouth to speak again.
âWhy the fuck has he done that, Y/N?â
Y/N shook her head. âDunno.-â
â-You do.â Portia said. âThatâs why that person back there looked at you all intense as well, wasnât it? What happened last summer? You never spoke of it.â
Y/N sighed, closing her eyes. âPortia, itâs⌠itâs incredibly complicated and⌠and itâs a long story.â
Portia groaned, clinging to Y/Nâs arm. âI donât care, Y/N. I want to know. For fuckâs sake, look around you,â
Y/N opened her eyes, doing as her sister told her to.
âItâs so painfully obvious, Y/N.â
 Y/N refused to believe it was. She didnât want to believe that what Portia was insinuating was true, because it would mean the last few months had been for nothing. It would mean the countless hours sheâd cried, the times she stopped herself from thinking about him, from yearning for him, from going back to a time spent with him and cursing herself for doing so; it was not worth it. Trying to forget him had meant nothing.
Portia tapped Y/Nâs arm, catching her attention. She gestured at the painting they stood in front of, giving Y/N a little smile. Y/N looked at it, and she was immediately taken back to the exact moment of it.
There was a hole in the planet in the shape of the canvas, white light washing over it to reveal it completely to the gallery visitors. Portia opened the catalogue as Y/N studied the painting Harry had never let her view. His first painting of her.
âMiss Sweeney,â Harry said, pointing at the hill. âYou-â
â-You can just call me Y/N.â
âYou need to stand far away.â
Shocking. But there was no use making that comment. She took her cardigan off, putting it along with her purse in the backseat of the car.
âYou will find a tree further down if you just walk straight ahead, itâs got a blue ribbon on it. Stop there with your back facing me. And donât move until I tell you so.â
As she started walking down the hill, she could feel Harry watching her, studying her every move and every surface of her body. She supposed he wanted to make sure she found the ribbon, as well as to see what he was working with.
An abundance of colours surrounded her; green, grey, yellow, brown. She could barely make out the baby blue dress amongst the nature swallowing her, there was no way of knowing the colour of her hair, the proper colour of her skin, or any of her characteristics. The only thing that stood out was the colour of her dress, but even that wasnât as prominent as she remembered the colour to be.
âWonât that smear the paint everywhere?â
Harry looked at her, those two familiar lines appearing between his brows. âHow?â
âShouldnât it be left to dry or something?â
âItâs dry.â
She frowned back at him. âAlready?â
âI finished a while ago, left it to dry for around an hour.â
The memory made her smile some, regardless of how infuriated she remembered being. It was the fact that they had started out like that; polar opposites with absolutely nothing in common. Two people who couldnât see eye to eye on anything. That fact was easy to note in the first painting, seeing the insignificant role she played in the actual painting. The Tuscan landscape couldâve done fine without her presence in it, she wasnât even placed in the middle of the painting where nature parted to reveal Fosdinovo, but somewhere to the right of it, in the middle of the trees.
Portia tugged at Y/Nâs sleeve, motioning for her to follow her to the next painting behind the first one. It was the same as the first one; a rectangle shaped hole in the dark planet, lights surrounding it to show it off. She smiled again.
âItâs beautiful here.â
âDo you see that rock over there?â
She rolled her eyes. âYes.â
âSit there facing me.â
She knew there was no use saying anything back, so she simply walked over to the rock and sat down like he wanted her to. It wasnât comfortable to sit on, and she didnât think sheâd be able to sit there for two hours straight. Then again if she decided she needed a break, the painter would undoubtedly show his annoyance in some way. He instructed her to straighten her legs, crossing them at the ankle, leaning back on her hands. He said he wanted her to âbe looking directly into the sun.â
âThat could literally ruin my eyes.â
âArt goes beyond comfort.â
âI want to be able to see said art.â
Y/N felt like she was transported right back to the moment of the painting, like she could feel, see, smell everything. Though she had known that would probably be the effect once she saw the collection, she hadnât been aware it would be this intense. The notion Harry had painted these of her; that he had painted them before, during, and after everything happened between them, it struck her. Heâd been working on these for so long; she had been a forced part of his life for so long. Maybe that was why theyâd stopped talking. Heâd gotten tired of her. Gotten enough of her.
The colour of her dress was the same as the previous painting; it stood out, but not in a contrasting way like you thought the colour of baby blue would when surrounded by woods. The white sunlight lit up most of her surroundings, making them blend well with the dress, but then again, she could recall quite clearly how bright the sun had been that day. Though she had hated the heat of the Italian weather in the beginning, towards the end sheâd gotten kind of used to it. It was almost cold coming back home to a normal British summer.
Y/N groaned, positioning her head like he wanted her to. âWent to this baker Wednesday.â It just slipped out. She had genuinely not meant to say it, but now that sheâd already mentioned it, she might as well go all the way.
Harry didnât respond.
âSaid you were known around town as the grumpy Brit.â
She didnât see him stop painting, but she could tell he halted a little. âWho said that?â
Trying not to smile as she had somehow managed to capture his attention. âDoes it matter?â Y/N didnât know why people wanted to know what someone else thought of them. It was out of their control. Then again, she supposed, sheâd brought it up so it was partly her fault he asked in the first place.
Harry huffed.
âWhat?â
âHm?â
âWhat was the ââ Y/N imitated his exasperated huff.
âWhoever said that,â Harry said, bending down a bit and disappearing completely behind the canvas. âTheyâre a fucking knobhead.â
Y/N nodded her head, pursing her lips before she clicked her tongue loudly. Harry glanced up. âGreat argument.â
It was weird how there had been a time prior to how she was feeling now. That at the time of this painting, she hadnât been in love with Harry. The hands that had created this artwork hadnât yet touched her; hadnât yet loved her. She wanted to reach through the glass that separated the canvas from them; wanted to feel the paint and the memories that came with it.
But Portia was impatient, having already started walking around the planet to the next one. She looked down into the brochure, a furrow to her brows and concentration on her face as she read something on it before taking in the third painting. This was the one Y/N almost remembered best. This was the one that changed her and Harryâs relationship in a way neither of them was made aware of till after. You donât realise the pivotal moments in your life till after theyâve happened, but as theyâre happening, you donât understand their incredible impact. Harry nor Y/N knew how big of a role Viola would play in their lives. What her presence would do to them.
âIs that a smile I see?â she teased. âYou got a rise out of me, and now youâre pleased with yourself?â
He bit his bottom lip, shaking his head without looking away from the painting before him.
âRight then.â Y/N said, eager to get the conversation going again. âWhatâre you best at? Thereâs a lot of stuff you can do with gymnastics, innit?â
Harry wasted no time. âSwing bar.â
Y/Nâs eyebrows immediately shot upward. Trying to be subtle, she let her eyes fall to his muscular arms, his broad shoulders and the curve of his slight biceps. The tan heâd gotten did wonders to the outline of his muscles. Stop, stop, stop-
âExplains the arms.â
Oh. My. God. Immediately she felt her cheeks heat up. And her blushing got worse when Harry looked up at her. He huffed.
âIf I didnât know better, Iâd say youâve been checking me out.â
She rolled her eyes. âI have not.â
She walked closer, feeling her bottom lip start to wobble as she saw the painting. Harry had depicted the cliff, the ocean, the forest, the atmosphere of that clifftop perfectly. It was exactly as she remembered it. Just looking at it brought her back to finding Viola, to watching Harry pet her to calm her down, the closeness in the back of Gioeleâs car. How willing Harry was to help. How good heâd smelled. How hot his skin had been against hers. That was the first time sheâd ever seen him smile; first time sheâd seen him happy. It was the first time she saw him show compassion; saw him worry. She hadnât known then, but she knew for certain now, that if Viola hadnât stepped out of the woods at that second on that day while Harry and Y/N hadnât been talking, then none of this wouldâve happened.
âWhat?â His voice was a whisper, the small word leaving his lips like a simple puff of air that hit her jaw, sending a storm of goosebumps up and down her back.
âYourâŚâ she started, swallowing thickly before looking down at the cat in her arms. âYour moped.â
âIâll get it later.â
She hated that he sounded like he wasnât faced by the close proximity at all.
âWhat if someone steals your painting?â
Looking up at him, she realised once again how close they were. They might have been close earlier when he helped calm the cat down outside, but this⌠this was close. She felt his hot breath against her lips, in her nose; felt his eyes on her like there was nowhere else to look in the car; felt everything too much. He was⌠so handsome. So incredibly good looking. There was undoubtedly sweat along her hairline and cupid bow, but she literally could not reach up to remove it right now. She was unable to move, not only because of the cat, but because of Harry.
âDonât worry about it.â
âY/N,â Portia said, pointing at the painting. âWhatâs that?â
Y/N walked over, looking at what Portia had asked her about. Though she didnât see it at first, having mistaken it for a dark rock or something alike, Y/N gasped a little when she realised what it was. Small pointy ears, fur a dark brown with some striped black and desert brown and a tail swaying upward. The cat was so tiny, hidden amongst the tall grass by the forest, looking at Y/N with big pleading eyes. Y/N had almost forgotten what Viola looked like, but seeing her on the canvas, it was like being back in Fosdinovo, walking the cobblestoned streets with the little kitten following her every step.
âViola.â Y/N answered, blinking a few times as her eyesight started to blur.
âWhat?â
âA cat.â
âA live one?â
âI, uhh,â Y/N nodded. âThe day of that painting we found an injured cat in the woods and brought her to the nearest vet so I could help nurse her. Sheâd broken her foot.â
Portia looked at Y/N, raising her eyebrows. âAnd you called her Viola?â
âYeah,â Y/N didnât take her eyes off the cat. âShe stayed with me the rest of the summer.â
Portia turned to face her sister. âWhere is she now?â
âDunno.â Y/N sighed. âI⌠dunno.â
Y/N looked at Portia, giving her a little smile before walking towards the next painting. Looking at Viola and knowing that sheâd left the cat in Harryâs house in Fosdinovo, also knowing Harry had most likely moved out of the Italian mountain village, it hurt. She had no idea what happened to the cat after she left. Absolutely no idea of how she was doing or who was taking care of her now. There were many times when Y/N had cursed herself for not bringing Viola back home with her. After all, they had created a little bond between them that Y/N now realised would stay with her forever.
Walking up to the fourth painting, Y/N felt herself halt some, watching as Portia walked right up to it to study it properly. Y/N wasnât sure if it was because Harry had taught her about how he painted during the summer, if she was getting an eye for these things, or if she was just that observant, but she could swear there was something about this one that set it apart from the other few sheâd seen up till now.
It dawned on her that for each painting, her figure had gotten closer and closer to Harry. As if the focus shifted from the nature around her to her alone. From far away in the first one, to taking up the whole lower half of the canvas in this fourth one. Her figure was the first thing you saw. The baby blue dress that only barely covered her bum, her bare legs, her white knee socks, her white docs.
âDonât bend your knee that much.â
Y/N readjusted her knee.
âNo.â
âThen how?!â
The grass shifted behind her, and looking to her right, she noticed Harry walking over. For some reason, Harry getting closer got her heart beating so hard she heard it in her ears and her muscles tensing. He sat down before her, a concentrated furrow to his brows that wasnât at all intimidating. He just looked focused, deep inside his own head, constructing and planning his new painting.
For some reason, she hadnât thought of the reason for Harry coming over, only that he was. So when he reached for her leg, she almost jumped.
She blinked as she remembered the first time Harry touched her willingly like that. How he had barked orders at her in the beginning, to coming over and moving her leg like heâd done. It made her thigh seem very cold all of a sudden.
âYouâre not being serious right now.â Portia hissed, sliding her finger in the air along with the outline of the mountains at the far back of the painting.
They were dark against the pink, orange, and blue sky, so was the forest, making Y/N stand out majestically against everything else. The hint of a small white outline in the sky showed the presence of the early moon, welcoming the oncoming night. Y/N couldnât remember seeing the moon that afternoon, but then again, she didnât remember much besides the fact that she laughed with Harry that day and he touched her bare thigh. But Portia had miraculously seen what had captured Y/Nâs attention as well. The landscape in the painting, though it wasnât blatantly obvious, it resembled her figure. It swayed where her hips did; dipped where her legs did. It did so in a natural manner, Harry had made them seem like actual mountains and not just a replica of her curves, but Y/N couldnât see anything else.
âThe blue,â Portia said, pointing at Y/Nâs dress and then at the slight streak of blue in the sky. âKinda looks alike, does it not?â
Y/N didnât pay much attention to it. She started walking away, eager to see the next painting, which she knew was a very special one because it might be the one she remembered the most clearly. As she rounded the planet and started walking toward the fifth one, a huge white orb caught her attention. The detail in all of Harryâs creations caught her off guard, but the moon she was looking at right now looked so real it took her breath away. She saw herself standing in the water; saw the baby blue dress; the knee socks and her Dr Martenâs in the sand. It all looked like a photograph, only the moon was abnormally big. But all his paintings looked so real it was almost like if you stripped the display of the glass protection, you could walk right into the world heâd created on the canvas and live there forever.
âWhat about you?â he asked again, voice low like a mumble.
Y/N hoped he couldnât tell how fast her heart was hammering, how every nerve in her entire body was on high alert, how every cell was screaming for him to get closer. âWhat about me?â
âYouâre never as alone as your head makes you believe. The moon is always there.â He said, eyes searching her face. âWhat about you?â
âWill I always be there?â
He just looked at her, clearly thinking that his look was answer enough.
Her breath hitched somewhere in her throat, and she hoped the rush of emotions that was running through her didnât show on her face. Portia looked at her with an open mouth before taking in the fifth painting. Y/N knew exactly how her sister was feeling; that overwhelming need to ask herself and everyone else in the room if this was an actual painting, or something from someoneâs most desired fantasy captured exactly as it was and printed onto canvas. And maybe it was. But Harry had taken days, weeks, months to finish these paintings, Y/N knew. She remembered those times when sheâd watch him paint and heâd refuse to let her see them. She didnât know why he didnât want her to see them.
It was so beautiful it was hard to believe someone had made it; it just seemed too celestial for it to be real. She wanted to touch it where Harry had touched it, feel the strokes heâd made, the lines of paint. There was something about this one that sent a shock of pain through her heart no medicine could cure.
âIâd stay up only to get a small glimpse of you.â
She balled her hands into fists, digging her fingernails into her skin to hold herself back from crying. Because all she could remember was how fast Harry had kissed her back when sheâd kissed him, the feeling of his lips against hers, and the taste of peach tea on his tongue. His hands roaming her body, gripping onto her thighs as she hooked her legs around his waist. His body against hers, their cells mingling, the moon shining her white light down on them, and the ocean swaying around them.
Portia walked around the planet and onto the next one, and giving the moon one last glance, Y/N followed her. Y/N couldnât even remember this one. Maybe it was because everything that happened after the wedding blurred together, or maybe sheâd just not thought about it enough for it to take up space in her head. But as she got closer, the idea of her being a model for this painting seemed unlikely.
The canvas was black as night, a huge moon in the centre of it like the one before. A figure was floating in the middle of the white moon, a baby blue gown clinging to its form and floating up behind them like they were sinking. As she got closer, Y/N saw that this wasnât her. All the other paintings were of her, but this one wasnât. This was Harry.
His arms were floating at an almost 90-degree angle, the baby blue gown hovering behind his arms and torso, just barely covering some of his thighs and crotch. One of his knees was bent a bit more than the other, and the tattoos he had up and down his muscular legs were very visible, making Y/N think back to a time sheâd been allowed to touch them. His neck was craned backward, eyes closed and mouth parted ever so slightly, bubbles of air leaving him and making a hasty return for the waterâs surface. She remembered his fright of the dark, how much he hated the ocean, but his facial expression showed one of peace. He didnât seem afraid; didnât seem like he dreaded any of it. It seemed like he was okay; ready to reach tranquillity and the ultimate meaning to life. He was surrendering himself, it seemed.
âY/N, I swear to you,â Portia said, pointing at different places on the painting. âLook.â
âAt what?â
âYou mean you donât see it?â
âSee what, Portia?â Y/N knew she must sound irritated, but with everything going on and all the emotions she was feeling at once, she simply could not hold her anger back.
âThe painting,â Portia directed Y/Nâs attention back to the canvas. âDo you see?â
Y/N took a closer look.
âDo you see all the blue?â
And it was like her little sister flicked a switch, and suddenly, Y/N saw it. Blue. Baby blue. It was hidden in the waves along the top of the painting, in the shadows of the water, in and around the moon, in his hair, his body, his gown. Taking a few steps back, Y/N wondered how she hadnât picked up on the blue right away. It was all over the painting. Most of the details on that canvas were baby blue.
Quickly, Y/N walked all the way back to the first painting. Portia just watched her, unsure what was going on, but not wanting to interrupt something if Y/N had come to some sort of realisation.
The only blue in the first one was her dress, in the second one, the sky resembled her dress some. In the third, the sky, ocean, and a bit of the grass surrounding her held the same colour as her and her dress, and in the fourth the landscape swayed along with her form, the sky, the woods, and certain highlights were the exact colour of the dress. How hadnât she seen it all the first time around? Because once she took a few steps back, the baby blue stood out starkly against everything else. Marching straight past the fifth and the sixth, Y/N wanted to see the last two. Because the second to last put the finishing touch on everything.
The entire canvas was baby blue. Her form was outlined in white, but none of her features were shown. Her breasts, face, or any other part of her body was not included. But Y/N would remember that exact pose till the day she died and long after that also. Because it was the one where Harry had drawn on her; her arms above her head, her knee bent, leg resting over the other. She wondered if this had been the one heâd painted when she laid on the floor of his loft, but why had he been so incredibly detailed when he painted on her if he was just going to erase it forever? Not include it in one of his masterpieces? It didnât make any sense.
âYou let him draw you like one of his bloody French girls.â Portia hissed, about to burst out laughing when she stopped herself. The room was silent as people walked through the exhibition, neither of them wanted to be thrown out or something to that effect.
Y/N looked at her sister. âYes.â
Portiaâs eyes got wide. âShut the fuck up.â
âHe painted on me.â
âShut. Up.â
Y/N glanced at the painting again, noting that the only thing on that canvas was the very careful outline of her.
âExactly how well did you fuck him for him to do that?â
âPortia!â Y/N hissed. âLeave off.â
âIâm serious, Y/N, this seems like the summer of your entire life.â Portia smiled, raising her eyebrows suggestively. âDid he do you good at least?â
Y/N only gave her a look.
âOh, come on.â Portia pouted. âI just found out my sister has been shagging with my boss all summer, I want the deets.â
âCan that happen another time? Iâm a little busy-â Y/N gestured around her and Portia nodded, clearly eager to be done here so she could hear Y/N explain everything to her over the phone on her commute home.
âYou know,â Portia started, holding up the leaflet. âIf youâd just bothered and taken the time to look in the brochure, thereâs a lot of information about all the paintings.â
Y/N frowned.
âI kind of had my suspicions about the two of you before you even said something just now.â
Y/N looked down at her brochure, reading the front of it again as she walked toward the last painting. She wanted to go through everything one more time and read the leaflet, she needed to know all the details and all the reasons why Harry had done what heâd done. When she glanced up again, the first thing she noticed was how the planet surrounding the canvas was glowing. A dark golden colour, looking a little like the moon, but as if it was on fire on the inside, the surface of it pure gold. She turned around and looked down the row of planets, meeting Portiaâs eyes right after.
âThe first one is black,â Portia said. âAnd the last one is golden.â
Y/N felt her heart hammering faster, felt herself begin to sweat.
âWith each planet, you slowly fade into-â
â-Venus.â She finished, looking at the last planet sheâd been named after. Y/N Venus Sweeney. She was so overwhelmed she felt a little faint, though she hadnât known what to expect from the exhibition, this â all of it â was not it. She didnât want to draw conclusions and think this whole collection was about her, but right now, looking at everything around her, it was hard to think anything else.
She still had one more painting to go, so she grabbed the leaflet and walked to stand in front of it. Instantly, she remembered it. Sheâd seen this one before. It seemed like ages ago, but she had seen this painting. It was the same one Gioele had stolen from Harryâs house and given to Salvatore and Carina as a wedding gift. Y/N had no idea why that one would be in the collection, what had made Harry put it there. She was just about to open the brochure and read what it said about this particular one when she heard a commotion behind her. The screeching of joggers against the floor as if someone was running, some gasps, Jamie shouting something.
Y/N turned around, and she recognised him right away. Her heart immediately started screaming his name. He walked down the row of planets in a haste, frantically scanning the crowds surrounding each quickly till he came to the last one where she stood. He stopped abruptly as his eyes landed on hers, a sigh of relief leaving him in between pants for air. Had he been running? Quickly, he swallowed, trying to regain his composure before he did anything. While he did that, Y/N took him in.
His hair had grown, he mustâve trimmed it some since last summer, but his curls were lush, his hair thick, and just as brown as she remembered it. He was wearing a colour-block patchwork cardigan with all the colours of the rainbow, a white tee shirt with some blue artwork printed on it, washed denim jeans, and his signature pink Converse. He looked healthy, maybe not as tan as she remembered him to be, but he looked good. He looked like the same Harry she had fallen in love with back then; it was still him. He was here. Right before her. After months apart, he was here.
âY/N.â He said, voice faint as he took a reluctant step forward. It was like he realised what he was doing â getting closer to her when he had no idea if she still wanted that - and was almost about to take a step backward again but stopped himself.
She was unable to say anything at all. One second she had been about to take in the last painting of the collection, and the next Harry had rushed into his gallery and now he stood right in front of her. It didnât seem real. The months they hadnât talked, the months they hadnât seen each other. They all hung in the air between them, pushed them apart from one another; demanding them to keep separated. She wanted to defy their distance, wanted to fling herself into his arms and melt into him like she had done so many times before, but the uncertainty, the separation, and the many curious eyes watching them stopped her.
Harry was about to say something else when his eyes fell on something behind her, clamping his mouth shut.
âHi,â Portia said. âDonât know if you remember me.â
âI-I do, IâŚâ Harryâs eyes fell to Y/N again as he trailed off, glancing back at Portia after clearing his throat. âPortia.â
âAnd youâre H. Styles.â Y/N could hear the smile in Portiaâs voice, and Y/N knew instantly she was taking the piss, telling Harry she knew exactly who he was and why he was here. Whispers were heard, as if the visitors all suddenly realised who they were looking at. Someone gasped and someone on the other side of the room started walking closer. Harry looked around him as if he just understood what heâd done by coming here. Their eyes met again, and Harry let out a sigh.
âCan we talk?â he asked, eyes big and pleading. âPlease.â
Y/N looked at everyone around them, then back at Harry, hoping heâd understand that she didnât want to do it in front of everyone else. Taking a few steps backward, Harry began walking towards the exit of the exhibition, making sure Y/N caught up with him before he started walking normally. Y/N glanced at Portia over her shoulder, but Portia was grinning so widely Y/N knew her sister was okay with her leaving her behind for a bit.
The next room they entered was just as dark as the first one, but the paintings were huge projections onto the walls, ceiling, and floor, showcasing all the details each of them portrayed. Harry walked quickly through the room, having seen this multiple times before â having created this -, but Y/N slowed. The attention to detail was incredible; it looked so real, yet it still looked like art. She was never able to really put her finger on it, but then again, she supposed that was what creativity was. The lines between what was certain and what was a craft from someoneâs imagination, blurred to the point of doubt, yet itâs human nature to find an explanation for everything; but in art we find an excuse not to have one. Maybe that was what drew people to it; it was real, but not real enough to need reason.
He held the door open for her, leading her to a smoking area in the back of the gallery. Two trees rose up, some dead grass sprung up between the stone flooring, and, thankfully, no one was there. The sun was still shining, and somewhere not too far off, an ambulance siren was going off. It was weird to be with Harry in an environment other than quiet, warm, rural Fosdinovo, it was almost as if she associated him with the peace of the Italian countryside now. But she didnât mind having him here in London. Not in the least. In fact, she liked it very much.
âY/N,â he repeated, almost as if he didnât really know what else to say; almost as if he had to repeat her name over and over and over again to tell himself that she was really here. He just looked at her, studying her intently, probably to make sure she was okay.
âI didnât knowâŚâ she started, blinking a few times. âDidnât know you were in London.â
âIâm in London.â
âBut I didnât know you were.â
âBut I am.â
âYou didnât tell me.â
Harry sighed. âNo.â
âWhy?â
Harry opened his mouth but hesitated. âI⌠I just⌠Itâs not as if IâŚâ he ran a hand through his hair, sighing again. âI didnât know if you wanted me to.â
She frowned. âWhat made you think that?â
âWe havenât talked in a couple of months, have we? Maybe youâd forgotten about me.â
âYou think Iâd forgotten about you?â Y/N crossed her arms. âIâm not the one who got disinterested and pulled away.â
Harryâs face screwed up into that familiar scowl she had seen so many times before. âI never bloody lost interest, whatâre you on about?â
âSeemed that way over text.â
âThose are text messages!â Harry gestured with his arms, very obviously frustrated. âHow much can you tell from a text?!â
âA lot!â
Harry groaned. âY/N, please.â
She stood her ground, looking at him and waiting for him to say something that would change her mind. How had they gone months without talking, months before that with barely any communication, and he didnât think sheâd be annoyed at him for that. She was annoyed at herself, too. It takes two to communicate.
âI donât want to fight.â He said. âI⌠I just⌠I donât want to fight. Can we just talk?â
âWeâre talking.â
Harryâs eyes fell to the ground, nodding a bit before he dared look up at her. âWhatâve you been up to?â
Though she wanted to yell at him, tell him that sheâd been busy writing and researching her dissertation, that she had been busy missing him, she composed herself. She might be frustrated, but Harry was trying, so she should as well.
âUni,â she simply said. âAnd you?â
Harry let out a short breath through his nose. âFigured, stupid question, really.â
She couldnât help the slight tug at the edge of her lips.
âBeen travelling the world, showing off the exhibition.â He gestured back at the gallery. âItâs been wonderful, but Iâm glad itâs over now. Can relax for a bit before I start painting for clients again.â
âItâs quite the exhibit.â
Harry nodded.
âAlmost a little too extra.â
He let out a chuckle, eyes falling to the ground again. âYou think?â
âWasnât it hard travelling around with all of that?â Y/N asked, thinking about the huge planets â or rather Venuses â back in the exhibition. Seemed unlikely that they travelled far distances with all of that, but then again, what did she know, she hadnât talked to him in a long while. And when they did talk, it wasnât about the transportation of his collection from country to country because he never talked about it.
âNo, we drove around most of the time, then by plane when it got to travelling from continent to continent.â
She nodded. âFair enough.â
His eyes flicked between hers, inhaling slowly. The sun hit the top of his hair, making his locks shine like gold, and Y/N remembered the countless number of times before sheâd seen his hair like that in the early morning light, or a bright sunset. Memories are supposed to bring you joy, especially those remembered with fondness, but those are also the ones that hurt the most to relive.
âAre we really gonna chat about anything but what we want to chat about?â Harry asked, face very serious all of a sudden.
âWhich is?â
âUs.â Harry said, something in his throat making the word almost sound choked. âAnd⌠andâŚâ
She waited, feeling her heart beat harder in her chest.
âAnd us some more.â
She let out a small chuckle.
âWhat?â
âStart then.â
She could tell he wanted to frown at her, as if he wanted her to have a certain reaction. But he didnât, instead he let his shoulders fall a bit, taking her in for a few moments more before he decided to start talking again.
âI thought youâd forgotten about me.â
It hurt every time he said that, as if he didnât believe that what sheâd felt this summer wasnât half of what he had.
âTortured me to think about you.â
She took a little step backward, not wanting to listen to him talk on about how sheâd hurt him.
âBut the thought of you also brought me peace, as it always has. Brought me inspiration and motivation.â He took a step closer to her. âI miss you. Iâve missed you since the day I was brought into this world, I never knew I did till I was without you.â
Those three words radiated throughout her entire body, her heart screaming them right back at his. I miss you I miss you I miss you I-
âPlease donâtâŚâ he trailed off, balling his hands into fists as if he was mad at himself for not finding the right words for what he was feeling. âDonât leave.â
She swallowed, not wanting the hundreds of butterflies and warm feelings in her chest to get the better of her when she answered. âDonât leave⌠now? In general?-â
â-Donât leave me. If not as a lover, as a friend. I need you in my life to some capacity.â
âHarry-â
â-Iâm in love with you, Y/N.â His voice was so soft, yet urgent. He needed her to feel the same way, to understand what he was talking about. âI love you.â
Every cell in her body vibrated with the effect of those words, telling Harry she felt the same. In every way one person could love another, she loved him.
âIf you even feel a fragment the same, please tell me.â His eyes were so big, pleading with her.
She felt so much all at once, finding the right words â finding words at all â was difficult. Every single part of her tried, her brain working hard and fast so she wouldnât leave him hanging. But that was exactly what she did. So overwhelmed with absolutely everything today had brought, she couldnât do anything but feel.
Harryâs jaw visibly tensed with the lack of response. âOr donât.â
She opened her mouth, brain working a hundred miles a second to find words for him.
âIf you donât, then thatâs fine. I wonât pretend itâs not gonna hurt and Iâll need some time to come to terms with it.â He sighed, eyes falling to the ground as if he couldnât look at her now. âI⌠I was terrified this would happen.â
She couldnât just stay fucking silent, she had to say something. Speak you bloody nonce, donât do him like this. âHarry-â
â-What Iâve been most scared about since we stopped talking is that I played an insignificant role in your life, when you played the most significant in mine.â His eyes were still on the flooring, gripping the ends of his colourful cardigan. âA part you wonât talk about with others, that you keep a secret.â
âIâm not ashamed of this summer, Harry-â
â-I feared youâd never need me like I need you.â He said, voice thick with something resembling torment. âBecause I just⌠I know we have no power over who we end up loving, you meet someone and before you know it, theyâre so important to you that imagining a life without them in it is like staring uninspired at a blank canvas. But Iâve chosen to pour every ounce of my love onto you. Iâve chosen you, and Iâll continue to choose you without hesitation and without fail, for the rest of my life.â
She felt her eyes sting, fearing that sheâd start crying if he continued on talking. Why was it that before their first kiss, Harry hadnât been one for talking, but after it he hadnât dithered? Everything heâd told her since had been so heartfelt and true, she felt like he was putting words to her very own feelings.
The right words wouldnât come, and she felt like the longer she left him standing there in silence, the longer she let him ramble on, the more catastrophic this would get. Because she felt the same for him, but what she felt was so enormous and she was afraid sheâd never find words for it. She wasnât one for art or expression. She studied science and medicine and animals, she knew all that, but she didnât know how to tell someone like Harry what he wanted to hear. Most of the time, at least before, he didnât need her to say anything. Her presence, her touch, her comfort was enough for him. He never expected anything else from her but to reciprocate his feelings. Which she did. Oh, did she love him. More than she thought possible.
âI-â she started, but cut herself off as she didnât know where it was going. Harry looked up at her instantly, instant hope in his eyes. âYour exhibit.â
Not the appropriate thing to be talking about right now, she thought to herself, but better than nothing.
âCould you explain it to me?â
He blinked. âExplain it?â
âYes,â she said, feeling every surface of her body heat up. âBecause I knew you were painting me, but I didnâtâŚâ
His eyes lingered on her lips for a second, but he quickly composed himself, a slight redness appearing along his cheekbones. A wave of goosebumps ran up her spine.
âI didnât expectâŚâ
âDidnât expect the whole exhibition to be about you?â
She just looked at him, biting her bottom lip.
Harry let out an amused chuckle. âYouâre the smartest person I know, thought you might get it right away, to be completely honest with you.â
âIt took me off guard.â
âRight, should I walk you through it, then?â Harry gestured at the gallery. âWant to see it?â
She sensed irritation in his voice and sighed. âYou donât have-â
â-Donât fucking say I donât have to. You asked about the exhibit. You donât understand, even though I just made it very clear for you. So, let's.â
He walked toward the door, flinging it open and beckoning for Y/N to walk through it first. Walking first, he stomped straight through the entire exhibition, right past people who were leaving. They all looked over at Y/N and Harry as they walked the opposite way, a few raised eyebrows and some whispering. Portia still stood in the first room with the eight planets, looking up as Y/N and Harry came back. A smile first graced her features, but seeing the look on Harryâs face and how fast they were both walking, she quickly pieced together that something was happening.
âThis,â Harry said as they reached the reception, pointing at the wall with the projection of that painting Y/N had found in the flat in Fosdinovo. The drive to his childhood home in Manchester. âYou recognise this?â
âYes.â
âGood.â
She gave him a look to tell him she didnât appreciate his tone. He didnât seem to care.
âTold you the path leads to uncertainty, hence the darkness at the end of it. I didnât know where my life would lead me and I was terrified. Now,â he pointed to the dark corridor. âWhat does that lead to?â
Y/N blinked a few times, looking up at Harry when he didnât continue talking. But he was already glancing down at her, raised eyebrows and a stoic look on his face. Though she was tempted to tell him to shove it if he was going to keep that attitude up, she didnât. She needed to tell him how she felt, that he wasnât alone in wanting more. She needed to find the right words. But right now, knowing Harry, heâd just get furious with her if she told him now that he was putting the effort in and showing her what everything meant.
âThe paintings.â
âIt leads to the exhibition.â
âThatâs the same thing.â
Harry didnât respond, he just walked towards the corridor without looking back. Y/N felt her anger bubble up, but she tried to control it as she followed him to the first room of the exhibition.
âHope you know what the solar system is.â Harry shouted back to her.
She dug her nails into the palm of her hands, gritting her teeth from responding. Portia was standing at the other side of the room, watching them with wide eyes. Everyone else had left, she realised. The gallery was closing, and Harryâs exhibition needed to be taken down so the next one could be put up. This was his very last day showing his collection. Y/N gave her a look to keep quiet, the last thing Harry needed now was Portia intervening.
âOur solar systemâs got eight planets-â
â-I bloody know how many planets there are in our solar system-â
â-But to me and my life,â Harry walked to the side of the room, pointing down at the last planet. The full Venus. Her plant. âIn my universe, thereâs only one.â
She didnât know what to say to that.
âThey each fade more and more into Venus. Notice how the first oneâs black.â
âLike the end of the painting I found in Fosdinovo.â
Harryâs arm fell to his side, having proven his point on why heâd chosen space to be the theme for his exhibition. He walked on over to the first painting; straight past Y/N, jaw still tense and the look in his eyes enraged. She realised this was torturing him. Going through everything without knowing how she felt, and probably fearing â and believing â the worst. She had to say something.
âThis one,â he pointed. âWe can barely see you. You were a fucking pain in my arse.â
âHey!â
âThereâs only one dot of baby blue, youâre far away from where Iâm standing.â
âIf you donât-â
â-Next one,â he walked onto the second one without Y/N even having reached him and the first painting. âYouâre closer to me, still not very close, still not a lot of blue. Only some in the sky. Didnât do it on purpose.â
âHarry, slow down-â
â-Third,â it seemed he was on a mission, wanting this to be over with as quickly as possible. âYouâre close. You can see baby blue in the sky, ocean, your dress, some in the grass. Still not doing it on purpose.â
She jogged over to the fourth as he did, really wanting to take a grip of his arm and tell him to calm down. But she had no right. Not now. But she was still getting annoyed with him.
âFourth is when I start doing it deliberately. Realised I caught feelings for you, and you can see that in the landscape, how it follows the outline of your body.â Harry pointed just as the lights inside the planets went out. âThereâs baby blue in quite literally everything.â
The lack of lights to showcase the paintings didnât stop him, Harry walked on. She ran after him, about to tell him to slow down again when he walked right past the beach painting with the huge moon.
âThe night you changed the moon for me forever. Now I do as you said you do; I talk to her. Every night.â
Y/N felt her heart ache. She wondered, if they were both talking to the moon at the same time, if they were talking about one another, why didnât the moon whisper Harryâs words into her ear and hers into his? Why didnât she help them?
âYouâre further away in that one âcause I realised Iâd have to let you go at the end of the summer, didnât want to get too attached.â A dry laugh slipped past his lips. âLook how well that worked out.â
They stopped in front of the second moon painting, where he was floating in what looked to be the middle of a huge and dark ocean.
âYou once told me the moon knows all your deepest secrets and biggest desires,â Harry pointed at himself in the painting. âHereâs me surrendering myself to her.â
âWhyâre you in the ocean?â
Harry chuckled, running both hands over his face as if he couldnât believe her.
âWhat?â
He looked at her for a few seconds while clenching his jaw. âI used to be terrified of the dark and the ocean. You taught me monsters wonât magically appear just âcause you canât see. Theyâre just as likely to show themselves in sunlight.â He glanced at the painting again, blinking a few too-many times as he looked away from her. âIf you take your time to understand and truly look at this painting, youâll understand it.â
She was about to open her mouth when Harry said, âAnd donât use your âI only know science, I barely know how to interpret artâ rubbish.â
âWell, itâs true.â She mumbled, but Harry only clicked his tongue, disinterested in her insistence on not understanding art. He walked on to the next one, the one that was completely baby blue, where her body was carefully outlined in white.
âHere you can clearly tell-â
â-I have a question,â Y/N said, making Harry shut up. âThat painting of me⌠the one where Iâm⌠Whereâs that one? I meanâŚâ
Harry stared at her for a few seconds, waiting for her to continue, but when she never did, he mumbled another question right back at her, âYou think Iâd put a painting of your naked body on display in my exhibition?â
She just looked at him, seeing something in his eyes that was vaguely familiar but too far away to fully grasp.
âIâm keeping that one-â he stopped himself, swallowing hard. âItâs private.â
She nodded.
âAnyway,â Harry went back to the painting before them. âYou represent baby blue to me, so hereâs your colour â you -,â he paused for a second. âBecoming everything.â
She looked at him, feeling everything within her wither and bloom at the same time. The painting seemed to take him back to a time long ago, every urge he had to do this as quickly as possible seemed to leave him when he looked at that painting. They still had one left, but he forgot about that, losing himself in a memory. And Y/N lost herself in him. Suddenly, proper lights lit up the room and the stars that had illuminated everything prior, disappeared.
âHarry!â
Harry didnât meet Y/Nâs eyes as he stepped away from the row of planets, looking up at Jamie how had shouted his name.
âClosing time. We need to pack up, mate.â
Harry nodded, looking over at Y/N who suddenly felt her heart pick up speed.
Jamie clapped their hands together. âCome on, you lot, you need to leave.â
For a few moments, it was like the two of them moved in slow motion. Harry took a few steps so he could face the other way, ready to leave through the backdoor, not breaking eye contact with Y/N. Once they looked away from one another, the rest of the world would resume being and they had to leave. Y/N had to say something, she had to tell him. But everything was clogged up somewhere in her throat, she wasnât able to say anything. This whole exhibit⌠it was about her. Harry had cared so much about her and he still did. But she couldnât find the right words. She had to say something. Had to let him know she felt the same way.
Harryâs jaw clenched again before he looked away from Y/N and started walking back down the way heâd taken Y/N before. Everything inside her went into panic mode.
âHarry.â She said, but he didnât turn around. She started jogging after him. âHarry.â
âY/N-â
â-Just a sec, Portia!â Y/N continued to follow Harry through the now lit exhibit. âHarry!â
He didnât turn around still.
âHarry, please.â She took a grip of his arm.
Harry stopped, dragging his arm out of her grip. âY/N, stop.â
The force of his words took her off guard and it took her a few seconds to compose herself. âIâm sorry.â
Harry nodded, looking behind Y/N at the closing exit door. âWhat?â
âI⌠I need to tell you thatâŚâ she swallowed, feeling her palms get clammy. âYou said earlier thatâŚâ
Harry looked at her expectantly, something in the frantic way his eyes moved over her face and the quick breath he took made her think he detected reciprocation in her voice. âYes?â
Her mouth opened, but no words came out. Her heart was beating hard and fast, she was beginning to sweat.
âWhat, Y/N?â
âI canât, I-â She ran both hands over her face, frustrated with herself. She groaned.
âWhat?â
âI know how Iâm feeling, but I donât know how to say it.â
Harry took a small step towards her. âSay what?â
âHow I feel for you.â
He let out a small breath. âAnd howâs that?â
âJust how you feel about me.â
There was a single second when Harryâs eyes were filled with elation; like he was ready to embrace her, kiss her, and never let her go. Wanted to become one with her right then and there, to never leave her side again. A ghost of a smile grace his features and his shoulders lowered; his entire composure seemed to relax. As if all the anger heâd been carrying around with him in the gallery disappeared. But the next second, realisation sunk in and he glanced away for a second.
âNeed to hear you say it.â He said, voice weak. âKnow you say youâre not one for words, but there are moments in life when words are everything.â
Y/N felt a drop of sweat run down her back. Her head was spinning.
âI deserve to hear you say it yourself.â Harry said.
âI know! Thatâs why Iâm trying so hard to say something!â
Harry nodded, eyes falling to the floor. âYouâre not ready.â
Y/N frowned, sure her panic showed on her face. âI am ready. Thatâs why I followed you out here, isnât it?â
âNo, Y/N, youâre clearly not. You might feel it, but being vulnerable is hard for you. Admitting to being vulnerable isnât something you know how to do.â
Y/Nâs mouth fell open.
âYour whole life youâve put up this cold and hard exterior to protect yourself from feeling too much. Youâve had a hard time receiving the love you needed while growing up, and youâve been burned in the past-â
â-Donât psychoanalyse me.â She pointed a finger at him. âYou know I have a hard time opening up to people completely.â
âYou have a hard time admitting to letting your guard down. You do it willingly, but thereâs a part of you that just doesnât want to admit it.â
âI said donât psycho-â
â-I know, Iâm sorry.â Harry took a few steps back, as if getting ready to walk away from her. âIâll wait.â
She blinked. âFor what?â
âYou.â
âMe?â
Harry nodded, just about to turn around and leave when she called his name again.
âYou just begged me to tell you I felt the same way, and I did.â Y/N said, taking a few steps toward him, but stopping herself. âI told you.â
âThat you felt like I did.â
âExactly.â
Harry let out a small chuckle and though it sent a swarm of butterflies straight to Y/Nâs stomach, it also hurt because she knew the next few words would send her into a panic. âAnd thank you for that, but I told you how I felt. Now you need to tell me. Physical show of affection is nice, but proper verbal confirmation that someone loves youâŚâ he trailed off, looking at her in silence for some seconds. âItâs key.â
âHarry-â
â-I love you.â
She fell silent, taken off guard. But the words warmed her so that she was sure sheâd never freeze again. He started walking away.
âIâll wait, you need to figure this out on your own. I know,â smiling he continued, âNow I need you to comprehend.â
Mouth falling open as she tried to force herself to say something, she cursed herself over and over again for having built up that humongous wall around her. Being vulnerable was like admitting that you were weak, and she knew those two werenât the same thing at all, but sheâd associated them with one another her whole life. She needed to stop.
âIâll wait for you.â
And just like that, Harry left her this time. She was tempted to run after him again, but to what purpose? To have him tell her yet again that he needed her to tell him she loved him when she couldnât bring herself to? To hurt him again? No, she was going to deal with her struggles to admit vulnerability herself. He deserved to hear her say everything heâd just told her and much more. And hopefully Harry would still love her the way he did now by that time. How terrified she already was that he didnât.
But if that was the case, at least sheâd have taught herself the importance of vulnerability.
Thursday, 10 September 2020
âSmile, baby.â Elaine brought her phone up, snapping a picture of Y/N with her diploma in hand, standing in front of her University.
It was a nice day; the sun was shining through a thin layer of clouds and the temperature was high, but not so high that Y/N was struggling to breathe. All her course mates were milling around behind, beside, and around her, saying their last goodbyes before everyone was to part ways after this. It had been bittersweet saying goodbye to her mates. She knew she was going to see them again and knew she would be happier now that she didnât have to care about uni, but it would be sad not seeing them and not knowing when she would meet them next. Though she hadnât really been close with any of them, she still counted them as her friends and would miss their time together.
Portia stood beside Elaine and gave Y/N a little applause, grinning from ear to ear as her sister walked over to them again. âLook at you, all smart.â
âYes,â Y/N said, doing a little dance with her diploma. âIâd like to think I am.â
âLook,â Elaine begged Y/N over so she could look at the pictures sheâd taken of her. âYou look lovely, donât you think?â
âYeah, the lightingâs amazing.â
âSo peng.â Portia said, zooming in on Y/Nâs face.
Y/N playfully hit Portia in the head with her diploma, making the two sisters chuckle before they turned back to their mother. Elaine smiled at Y/N, there was a look in her eyes Y/N wasnât accustomed to seeing on her motherâs face when looking at her. It was something she often directed at Portia, but Y/N rarely got this. Pride. It almost made Y/Nâs eyes sting with oncoming tears.
âCome on, girls,â Elaine said, taking each of her daughtersâ hands. âWe need to celebrate. Whatâs a good pub around yours, Y/N?â
âHmm,â Y/N thought for a few seconds. âThereâs a Greggâs two minutes away.â
âSausage rolls!â Portia exclaimed.
âWeâre not celebrating you getting a degree at bloody Greggâs, are you dim?â Elaine huffed, unlocking the car once they reached it. âWe need to get a pint each, and a fancy dinner later.â
âReckon we could afford a fancy dinner in London, Mum?â Y/N sat down in the car, putting her seatbelt on as Elaine started the car. âIâm skint.â
âWell, youâre not the one paying for the dinner, are you?â Elaine raised her eyebrows at her, driving away towards Y/Nâs flat in Hackney. Portia reached into the backseat where Y/N sat, squeezing her knee before she sat back and focused on the city they were driving in. Y/N leaned forward and squeezed Portiaâs shoulder.
âThank you for coming, P. Know you have a lot going on at the moment, but it meant a lot to me that you bothered to come.â
Porta looked over her shoulder at Y/N, studying her sister for a second before she smiled. âMight be busy, but itâs your graduation. Itâs important to me.â
Y/N felt her cheeks heat up a bit, something they always did when she managed to discuss her feelings. âThank you anyway.â
âYouâre very welcome.â Portiaâs smile widened, and she grabbed Y/Nâs hand, kissing it before turning to look ahead again.
Y/N smiled herself, sitting back in her seat and looking out the window.
Sheâd never really gotten attached to London. Maybe it was because she didnât really have anyone she was close to, or the constant fast-paced lifestyle you had to lead to live there. Y/N had always preferred a slow life, like the one she had grown up knowing in Maldon. Essex was calm, it was what sheâd known her whole life and what she wanted to know forever. Regardless of where she wanted to live and where she felt she belonged; sheâd gotten a job at North London Veterinary Clinic so she didnât really have much of a choice in where she could settle down for a little while. North London wasnât as busy as Central, so she wouldnât be as overwhelmed as she usually was. Sheâd have to move and though the thought stressed her out, she was ready for a little change. It would be good for her.
âDo you remember that guy I was chatting to for a little while?â Portia suddenly asked, snapping Y/N out of her reverie.
âDrake?â
âNo.â
âThat Felix lad?â
âNot him.â
âEzra?â
Portia shook her head.
âJackson-â
â-Oh, for fuckâs sake, Y/N,â Portia turned around in her seat. âDo you have to rub it in?â
âThat you date a lot of men? I donât have to do that; you know it perfectly well yourself.â
Portia rolled her eyes. âAzeem.â
âAhh! Azeem!â Y/N nodded her head, giving her little sister a smile. âRemember you talked about him, yes. Ages ago, though.â
Portia seemed to think back to the time she was talking to Azeem, getting lost in her own thoughts for a few short seconds before she blurted out, âAnyway, I met him on a night out like two days ago.â
âYou did? Whatâd he say?â
âJust that it was nice to see me again.â Portia said. âTold me I looked good. And then he walked me home.â
In an attempt to come to terms with how she was feeling and letting other people know, it had been one of the first things Y/N had done. She sat Portia down when she came back to London, told her she loved the fact her sister came down and that they got to spend time together because it brought them closer â and she wanted to be close to her sister since theyâd struggled being just that growing up -, but Portia needed her own place. If she was going to spend that much time in the capital, she might as well move there permanently. Elaine had struggled to come to terms with the fact that her youngest daughter would be moving out, especially considering how much time and resources sheâd put into Portia and her career. But both the sisters had convinced their mother that this was what Portia needed to do. She needed to become independent. And besides, Portia wouldnât be alone in London, Y/N lived there as well.
âAndâŚ?â Y/N urged, raising her eyebrows to show she was eager to know what happened next.
âHe asked me out on a date.â
âHe did?!â Y/N grinned. âWhy did you stop seeing each other in the first place?â
Portia sighed. âIt was hard to not see him very often, we lived far away from one another, and all that. But now that I live in London, maybe itâll work out.â
âIs he a decent bloke, Y/N?â Elaine looked in the driving mirror back at Y/N. âI wonât take Portiaâs word for it. You know sheâs blinded by a good shag when sheâs got one.â
âMum!â Portia exclaimed. âDonât say that! Youâre not allowed to say that!â
âSay what? What you always tell me? You talk about lads and your sex life constantly.â
âI do not! Oh, my God!â
Y/N laughed, zoning out as her little sister and mother started arguing in the front. They soon reached Hackney and Y/Nâs flat building. It felt weird knowing that Thursday next week, sheâd be moving out of this flat and into a new one. Though Hackney wasnât the nicest place to be living in London â or the nicest place to just be walking through â it had been Y/Nâs home for five years now. Sure, she spent loads of time in Maldon and Essex, but this was her place in London. But soon, Hampstead would probably be it. It wasnât that the commute would be horrible from Hackney and up to North London, but she would rather have a stroll to work in the morning instead of using public transit. It was bloody unbearable on the tube in the mornings sometimes.
They exited the car and Y/N rummaged through her purse for her keys, giving them to Portia when she reached her hand out for them.
âThanks, babes.â Y/N said, getting her diploma out of the car seat before closing the door and letting their mother lock the car.
Portia glanced at Y/N for a little while, a grin spreading out over her lips.
âWhat?â Y/N asked, gesturing for her sister to unlock the door so they could walk on in.
âDunno,â Portia shrugged, putting the key in the hole and turning it. âYou never call me âbabeâ or anything like that, but youâve started recently.â
âBeen watching too much Love Island.â
Portia laughed, holding the door open for her mother and sister. The lot of them walked up the stairs to the second story, about to let Y/N change out of her heels so they could go have a pint and then go out to dinner. Though she wouldnât look as smashing as she did with her heels on, they would ultimately kill her feet and she was not about that life today. Sheâd just gotten a degree, she was going to feel good all day. So fuck heels.
They reached Y/Nâs door and she let Portia unlock that one as well. Her flat was as simplistic as always; one single room with a small kitchen, a bed, a desk, and a door to a small bathroom. Elaine walked over to the desk, sitting down in Y/Nâs office chair while Portia bent down and picked up something behind the door.
âMail.â She said, giving Y/N a few envelopes.
âThanks.â Y/N took it, looking through the envelopes to see nothing interesting. A couple of bills, some rubbish, andâŚ
âWhere are we going after this then?â Elaine asked, looking from Y/N to Portia. But Y/N didnât hear what Portia was answered because she was too busy reading the small slip of paper that told her sheâd gotten a parcel. Everything that was too big to slip through the mail slot was out into a cupboard on the outside of Y/Nâs flat. Beside her front door was another, smaller door where her electricity metre was. If she wasnât in to receive the parcel herself, sheâd written on her mail slot to just pop it in there.
She put all her mail down on the kitchen counter before walking outside to check the cupboard. Upon opening it, she saw a single brown parcel, though it looked more like a gift than anything. She reached for it, bringing it out into proper lighting. She read her own address on the front, and when turning it around, she found it a little hard to breathe. Had heâŚ
Y/N walked back into the flat, closing the door behind her and placing the package on the kitchen counter so she could unpack it. She knew Elaine and Portia were talking behind her about something, probably where they were going to go have their pint, but Y/N could not focus on anything but what was right in front of her. Ripping the paper off, a sea of colour was revealed to her and she recognised what she was looking at right away.
âA sunny morning in Essex.â Y/N smiled, looking at him. âThe most beautiful sight in the world, if I may say so.â
âOh, is it?â he asked, putting the brush away and placing his hand on her thigh, turning to face her.
âUh-huh.â Her smile widened some as he moved closer to her, brushing his nose gently against hers.
âI can think of more beautiful sights than a sunrise in bleeding Essex.â
She ran her hand over it, feeling the strokes of paint sheâd put there with Harryâs help. It wasnât nearly as beautiful as the paintings in his collection, but it was the most breath-taking creation sheâd ever laid her eyes upon. It was something sheâd made with Harry. It was art. Picking it up, something fell to the kitchen counter. An envelope.
âWhatâs that?â Portia asked, but Y/N couldnât answer.
She put the canvas back down on the counter and reached for the envelope, tearing it open. It was his handwriting and she suddenly longed for him again. Months had gone by, but she thought about him every day. He was always with her, always motivated her; made her want to be better. And seeing something the two of them made a year ago, reliving the memory of them sitting close and creating something beautiful in the warm Italian summer night, it made her yearn in a way she never had before.
âComplimenti per la laurea, celeste.â
Looking down on the canvas again, she suddenly recognised it. The landscape resembled the one in Tuscany, the one she had walked through and lived in all last summer. And in the corner was a white house, almost like a mansion of sorts, but not as big as some of the houses sheâd passed on the countryside. She didnât remember painting that. In fact, she barely remembered painting anything but the colour of the sunrise. Orange, yellow, blue. Harry mustâve completed the painting after she left.
âY/N,â Portia said, now standing by her sistersâ shoulder. âIs that one of his paintings?â
Y/N just looked at he canvas, unable to say anything.
âIs that one of his fucking paintings?â Portia gasped, looking at Elaine and back at Y/N. âImagine how much that is worth!â
âIâm not gonna sell his painting, Tia.â
âNo, but-â Portia gestured at the artwork, squealing. âWhatâd the card say?â
âThink heâs congratulating me on graduating.â Y/N put the card down, looking at the painting again. The room fell silent as nosy Elaine probably didnât know which of her questions to ask first, Portia looked dumbfounded at the canvas, and Y/N yet again lost herself in daydreams of Harry. He knew she was graduating today. Sent her their painting. He congratulated her on finally getting her degree. He was still thinking about her like she was thinking about him. One of Y/Nâs fears with taking so long to figure herself out, heâd somehow move on. But she believed in him enough, knew how she felt well enough, to know that theyâd see each other again.
âYou have to leave.â Portia said. âY/N, itâs been six months.â
âI know.â
âYou have to go to bloody Italy right this second.â Portia looked around Y/Nâs flat. âWhereâs your bag?â
âWhat about my life here? Iâm starting a new job next week, Iâm moving.â
âFigure that stuff out next week.â Portia smiled. âYouâve grown so much in the last few months, Y/N. Youâre softer now, not so prone to fighting people for not having the same opinion as you, but you listen and youâre willing to change. Not for the world, but for yourself. Harry didnât tell you to embrace tenderness just so you could admit how you were feeling about him, but also so youâd be nicer to yourself.â
âBut I already am.â
âI know, but he wanted you to allow more love into your life. By seizing love and allowing yourself to feel, not only self-love, but the love of others, you allow yourself to live fully and completely.â Portia squeezed Y/Nâs shoulder. âWithout regret, without apology.â
Y/N smiled a little at her sister, studying her face. âPortia Cressida, when the fuck did you become so wise?â
âCanât let people know I know shit or else Iâll ruin my dumb image.â
The girls laughed, and Portia rested her head on Y/Nâs shoulder, glancing at the painting Harry had gifted her sister.
âGo, Y/N.â
Saturday, 12 September 2020
She remembered Italy to be hot, but something about Italy in autumn was almost unbearable. Everything was still a lush green, nothing had changed outdoors since last year it seemed, everything still looked the same. But Y/N wondered how that was possible when she wasnât even in the southern part of Tuscany anymore, she was in Veneto, a county further up north. North-west Italy looked as summery in autumn as Y/N wouldâve expected it to, and she loved it. Though she didnât like the sun much, sheâd come to appreciate it more than the rain of England. Besides, she could stand the heat if it meant meeting Harry again.
Sheâd called Jamie yesterday, asked them where sheâd be able to meet Harry. She knew she couldâve just asked Harry, but she also wanted to see the surprise on his face when he saw her on his doorstep. So, she hadnât told him she was coming. Which could either end with them living happily ever after or him saying he didnât feel the same anymore. Thinking about the latter gave her a panic attack.
She hadnât brought much with her, just a small bag as a carry-on and the clothes she was wearing. A see-through red, yellow, white, and pink tie dye crop top, showing off her cute black bralette underneath, a washed-out pair of high-waisted boyfriend denim jeans, and a black pair of Dr Martenâs. Though it had gotten a bit chilly on the plane, she knew Italy would be hot, and she had been very right about that. Besides, she needed to look extra cute now that she was seeing Harry again for the first time in six months.
The bus ride wasnât as bumpy as the one sheâd taken to Fosdinovo, the bus was new, and she trusted the driver to know if something was wrong. She hadnât trusted Gioele to know the same, which she applauded herself for in retrospect. The bus was fairly new and the road to Padua, Veneto was nice. Sheâd done some research and figured out the reason why Harry mightâve moved up north and close to Padua. It was a city known for art; spectacularly pretty and often overlooked by Venice, a mere hour-drive away. Knowing Harry, heâd probably walk through the quieter streets of Venice to get inspiration or sit on a corner cafĂŠ in Padua to people-watch. She knew he wanted to get out of Fosdinovo, but he hadnât been able to remove himself entirely from the Italian culture he had immersed himself in. His love for that country was too great for him to ever truly leave.
Reaching Padua, Y/N got off and got a taxi right away. She told the driver where she was going, and though it was a bit out of town and onto the countryside â not to Y/Nâs surprise, Harry liked quiet after all â he agreed to get her there. It took them about 30 minutes to reach the house, and when they did, it was a simple gravel path. She obviously had to walk for a bit to get there, but she was glad she got to take in Harryâs new residence in the calmness that was the outskirts of Padua. She could make out the white house at the end of the road, the newly sown trees that lined the path, and knew when they had grown to their full height, they would envelope the drive like a tunnel of green leaves and nature. Y/N smiled a little to herself as she imagined it, knowing that Harry most likely had the exact same thought in mind.
It was nice seeing how he decided to live now, especially after everything that happened in Fosdinovo. Secluded, but a couple of neighbours a few minutesâ walk up or down the cemented road sheâd just been on. It was undoubtedly his new paradise. And by the looks of it, the closer she got, it seemed he was still working on the house. White and grand, with huge French windows and sheer curtains on either side of them all, there was still some construction work going on on the outside, though the workers werenât working today it seemed. It was only 12pm, but maybe Harry wanted them to take the day off to relax. Sheâd ask him, she told herself, because she was now in the driveway, viewing the red front door, looking in through the windows to see if she saw him. Her heart was hammering so fast in her chest that she noticed her tie dye top vibrating with each beat.
Reaching forwards, she pressed the doorbell, taking a step back so the door wouldnât hit her in the face when he opened it. Nearly as quickly as it had gone off, she heard something very familiar inside the house. Spending time around animals nearly all the time, Y/Nâs puppy radar went off when she heard the tiny barks of a baby dog inside. Immediately, her mouth fell open, and she walked to the closest window to look inside.
Down a white tiled corridor, the light from the massive windows on the other side of the house shining down on him, a puppy came running down on his big paws, his tail wagging so wildly his little bum moved with it.
âHi.â Y/N cooed when he reached the window, standing on his back-paws to get a better look of her and bark some more. âWhoâre you then? Whatâs your name?â
He sniffed the glass as if trying to get a sniff of her, but he whimpered when he couldnât. And as Y/N got a good look of the little guy, she realised something very quickly that made her almost fall backward onto the gravel of the driveway. A Scottish deerhound.
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â Y/N said under her breath, walking back to the front door and ringing the doorbell again. Why was it that Harry had trouble answering the bloody door every time? She stood her ground this time, the puppy still barking at her and watching her in anticipation, ready to jump onto her the second Harry opened the door. But he didnât. So this time she knocked on his door with her fist, not about to wait around for hours. She knew he was in. A puppy couldnât be left alone in a big house like this, heâd either have to put him in a cage or take the pup with him.
With no response, Y/N decided to explore the outside of his house. Giving the pup a little wave, she stepped down from the front step, taking in the marble pillars on either side that held a small roof above the front door. The house was incredibly elegant and new. Had he built it himself? She walked around the side, admiring the huge garden and the tall stone fence that secluded it from everything else. There were a couple of trees that stood around a tiny pond, and it seemed heâd taken the time to put a grey stone bench beside it. The rest of the garden was newly trimmed and grand, though pretty empty still. There seemed to be the start of a pretty big doghouse beside another tree, and something else that might be the start of a veranda. Maybe heâd just about moved in. It would explain why everything looked so new, anyway.
It felt like Harry, though. All of it. Elegant yet simple, big but not too much. He was a simplistic person who loved grand things. The thought of him moving into a new house, probably a little anxious to meet new people and to get acquainted with his new life in a new town, it made her smile. He was restless and would move in a few years, but for now, this was exactly what he needed, she knew.
Faint, but Y/N still heard it with every single part of her being, a meow sounded from behind her. Turning around, there stood a striped cat looking over at her. She hesitantly moved forward and Y/N felt like breaking down crying.
âViola,â Y/N hunched down. âHi, baby.â
The cat made her way over quite hastily when she recognised who the person was, rubbing herself against Y/Nâs outstretched hands. Sheâd grown, yet Y/N would know this little creature anywhere. Sheâd often wondered what happened to Viola, because when she left, she assumed Harry would take care of her till he left. But here she was. Had he brought her with him everywhere? She reached down, pressing a soft kiss to Violaâs forehead like she always did, and the cat meowed in response. Y/N giggled, the feel and sound of Viola brought her right back to her time in Fosdinovo. The cat had been there for her every single day, putting a smile on her face. They gave each other a home for a month.
Thinking she might explore more of the grounds, she stood upright, and Viola immediately perked up, ready to follow Y/N wherever she decided to go. Her eyes suddenly landed on a glass house attached to the mansion, and then on the figure standing by the open door leading into it. The inside of the winter garden was fully furnished, unlike the rest of the property that lacked the same attention. She couldnât believe this. Not only was this Harryâs dream home, it was hers as well.
Their eyes met, and a jolt so intense rocked through Y/Nâs body that it shook up everything. She fell in love with him all over again, seeing him there, looking right back at her with a look of startlement and longing and relief. She couldnât wait any longer, she had to be close to him. Taking the first few steps, she felt the inside of her tummy vibrate as the butterflies inside her came to life again. The closer she got to him, the more every single part of her body tickled, itching to hold him again. And when it seemed to have dawned on Harry that this wasnât a dream, he started walking toward her as well. The closer they got the more they picked up the pace. It had been too long, they had taken too much time, they had worked on each other for one another and for themselves.
Y/N threw herself into his chest and Harry wrapped his arms around her so tightly she was sure sheâd fade into him. Though it had taken them so much to get to this moment, it had taken them a while for a reason. People needed to work on one another and for each other to make a relationship work, it didnât just magically happen. And sometimes people need to be apart for a little while to gain perspective and mature enough to return. Harry needed someone who could be as open as him, and Y/N needed someone who wasnât afraid to be himself to the fullest, without apology.
They broke apart, eager to look at one another again. Harryâs eyes moved over her frantically, taking her in again. He was wearing another silk shirt, tucked into high-waisted washed out denim jeans, and barefoot. Something about his bare feet was adorable. And the fact they were basically wearing the same jeans made her stifle a laughter.
âHi,â she said, unsure how else to greet him.
He chuckled. âWhat the fuck, Y/N.â
âWhat?â
âYouâre here.â He said, smiling at her. âI⌠I had no idea. But youâre here.â
âIâm here.â
He took her hand, squeezing it, looking her up and down. âHere.â
She smiled as well, feeling her hand heat up here his skin met hers. When he looked up at her again, eyes glistening, face lit up more than sheâd ever seen before, dimples as deep as ever, she felt like tearing up. This was the man of her dreams; the man she wanted to spend every day with till death. And even after that sheâd find him in their next life, or sheâd find him in her afterlife, or wherever else theyâd end up. There was no one else. Would never be anyone else.
âThis is a big place.â She said, gesturing at the house and the rest of the estate.
âYeah,â Harry nodded, still looking at their joined hands. âStarted building it back in March.â
âBig place for a big lad.â
Harry laughed, looking up at her again. âNeed enough space for Viola and Gopher to wander.â
Y/Nâs heart did a dreamy sigh. âGopher?â
âOh!â Harry pointed behind him at the house. âHe was the one barking.â
âThe puppy?â
âYeah.â
She bit her lips together, looking down at their hands. âYou adopted a puppy.â
Silence for a few moments before Harry said, in such a soft voice she swore it felt like a caress, âHeâs been waiting for you.â
She glanced up again, happiness so overwhelming filled her to the point that she felt like flying. Eyes landed on the house and then back on Harry as he ran his thumb over her hand.
âDonât you remember that day in the car last summer, when you first met Jamie?â
She didnât at first, but it hit her like a truck and she almost gasped out loud. Harry only smiled a little at her, having remembered her words this whole time.
âA Scottish deerhound.â
âTheyâre quite big, arenât they? Canât remember how they look, but I think I know.â The phone was in Jamieâs hand, typing the name of the breed into the Google search bar.
âIâve always wanted one. Always wanted to move to the outskirts of Maldon with two deerhounds. Thatâs where I want to settle down, I think.â She said. âWith a winter garden and a big property so the dogs can run freely.â
She shook her head, not wanting to believe Harry had done this.
âHarryâŚâ
âItâs not Maldon, or Essex, or England for that matter,â he said, stepping aside so she could look at the house. âBut I tried to make it like you said, with some pieces of me in it, if thatâs okay.â
The resemblance it held to the last painting of Harryâs exhibit was incredible, the same painting that had been stolen by Gioele. The painting Harry had an emotional attachment to of sorts. It was because it was this. It was the house. It was the place he hoped sheâd settle down. With him.
âWanna take a look inside?â
She smiled at him. âPlease.â
He smiled back, letting go of her hand so they could walk into the winter garden. Viola followed them, strolling in through the door before Harry closed it. He took her into his arms and walked over to the door that led into the house, opening it and letting Viola walk away before closing the door again. They were left in silence, a few of the windows were open to let some air in or else the room would undoubtedly get incredibly hot with the sun shining right in. The roof was shaped like a spire, the whole glasshouse a half-circle, and green plants lined the window wall. Vines hung gracefully along some of the stiles, and in the middle of it all stood a big blue velvet ottoman. The whole place had a gothic feel to it and Y/N absolutely adored it. When sheâd pictured a winter garden, sheâd just wanted a place she could relax outdoors during wintertime, but this was something else entirely. It had a Harry feel to it, but it also felt like her.
âWhat do you think?â Harry asked, leaning his back against the windows.
âItâs amazing.â She mused, looking around. âHarry⌠Iâm speechless.â
âTried to make it into something that I knew youâd like. Thatâs why I painted it first and had an architect sketch the outline of the house after.â Harry explained. âHope it falls into liking.â
She looked over at him, for the first time in ages, seeing the hint of doubt in his eyes again. Simply not able to help herself, she walked over to him, hesitating a bit before placing a hand to his cheek. He leaned into her, closing his eyes for a second and letting a sigh of relaxation leave his lips.
âI love it, I havenât even seen the inside of the house, but I love it.â She told him, studying his dark eyelashes against his cheekbones. âAnd I love you.â
Harryâs eyes shot open, looking straight into hers. The absolute joy in them made the colour of his irises more radiant, and it was almost as if the sun shone a little brighter. As if the world fell into place; like how it was supposed to be all along.
âI love you.â She repeated, softer this time around.
âYeah?â Harryâs voice sounded like a whisper; a plea for her to really, really, really feel it â what was between them â like he did.
âIâm in love with you, Harry.â
He grabbed the back of her neck, swallowing hard. âI love you, too.â
She couldnât help it when the sides of her mouth tipped upward. âI know.â
Harry smiled. âSmug bastard.â
She laughed, leaning her forehead against his, feeling his fingers stroke her scalp tenderly. God, it felt good to have him touch her again. It felt good to be close to him. It felt good to not be ashamed of saying âI love youâ. It felt amazing to let someone else know how deeply you cared for them and see them light up in response because they felt the same way.
âNow fucking kiss me before I go out of my mind.â Harry said, an undertone to his voice that made a hot tingle run up Y/Nâs spine.
âHow about you kiss me?â
Harry frowned.
âAfter all, if I hadnât kissed you in the ocean that night, would we even be here?â
âYou take pride in that, donât you? I wouldâve kissed you eventually.â Harry said, and Y/N raised her eyebrows at him. âI wouldâve!â
âYeah, alright. When? The opportunity presented itself a couple of times, but you only had the nerve to kiss my hand.â
Harry gripped her hair hard in his hand, bringing her lips to hover above his. She gasped, looking down at his lips and then feeling it against her thigh. Very quickly, she felt hot all over, and the need to be closer to Harry grew so fast it made her dizzy.
âGot the nerve to fuck you good now, donât I?â Harry said, voice so deep she felt it vibrate through her bones.
Y/N bit her lip. âWhat gentleman talks like that to a lady before heâs even kissed her for the first time in a year?â
âYou want a gentleman?â
She ran her hands down his torso. âDepends on the situation.â
Harry kissed her jaw, leaving wet kisses down her neck. âHmm, does it now?â
âWant a gentleman to walk the little puppy with, to make breakfast with, or to take me out for dates.â
âDo you want a gentleman between your thighs, baby?â
She closed her eyes at the feel of Harryâs lips on her, bit her bottom lip as he pressed her body closer to his. âDepends on how well that gentleman knows how to treat a lady.â
Harry chuckled, the feeling of his laughter against her skin was like heaven. âIâll be a gentleman, the devil, an angel; Iâll be whatever you want me to be.â
She huffed. âThought we were doing dirty talk, and here you go turning it romantic.â
âI need you to shut up,â Harry said as his lips hovered above hers. âBecause Iâm about to kiss you and then fuck you on that sofa.â
She grinned, tilting her head to fit perfectly against his. âKiss me.â
And he did. Hard and passionately. They wasted no time, slipping their tongue into one anotherâs mouths, clinging to one another, touching all over. They tasted the other, felt them right there. There were some birds singing outside, rustling of some leaves, but the two of them didnât care. Harry pushed her backward till her legs hit the couch, but she stopped herself from falling back into it. Instead, she turned them around, pushing Harry back onto the ottoman.
âLet me show you how much I love you.â She said, and Harry let out a shaky breath at her words.
He quickly undid the buttons of his silk shirt, threw it somewhere behind him before he leaned on his elbows. âNothing youâve ever said has turned me on more.â
She giggled, taking her jeans and knickers off and straddling his lap. He sat up, attaching his lips to hers once again, grabbing onto her bum, begging her to grind against him. They both wanted some friction, and she knew that if he pressed her harder onto him, there would be wet marks from her left on his jeans. But in the moment, neither cared. They just wanted to be as close as humans could be, wanted to feel ecstasy. She buried her hands in his hair, dragging out the tongue filled, wet, lustful kisses. It was excruciating, and the heat between her thighs got more and more intense the more time went on. A wave of excitement and adoration ran through her as she felt Harryâs hand run up her back, reaching for her bra. He wanted to see all of her.
She let him, throwing her shirt off and letting her bra fall to the floor. Harry kissed her the second she was done undressing, moaning her name against her lips. She felt her centre ache, reaching for the zip of Harryâs jeans as quickly as possible. She couldnât bare it any longer, she needed to be skin to skin; soul to soul. Y/N found that the people she had sex with, she formed an emotional attachment to them in a way that was unexplainable. There might not even be real feelings there, but youâd shared an intimate moment with someone, and it was a moment neither of you would ever forget. But with Harry, it was more than that. It wasnât just a single moment she shared with him when they were like this; it felt like sharing an entire lifetime. It felt like happiness; it felt like the rest of her life. And she knew she was right to have spent time away from him, because she would tell him this over and over and over again, and she wouldnât be ashamed or feel weak for admitting how much she loved him.
They got Harryâs jeans and boxers off, and as she took a grip of his cock, Harry stiffened. Their eyes met.
âA condom.â He said, reminding her what they were about to do.
She shook her head. âItâs fine.â
Harry gripped her thigh, squeezing her.
âYou pay for the pill.â
He smiled, kissing her for a long time. âFuck me, please.â
Slowly, she sat down on him, gasping at the familiar feeling of him inside her like this. Harry didnât take his eyes off her the entire time, mouth opening wider for each centimetre he moved inside her. Positioning her feet on the floor, she started moving her hips over him. He instantly moaned, not able to help himself because it felt so good. He moved his hands up her thighs, her sides, her back, wanting to feel every single little part of her. Wanted her to know how much he appreciated every little thing about her. There wasnât a single part of her body, of her soul, of her existence he didnât love. She felt all his emotions in his touches, in the kisses he left along her collarbone, in the soft way he moaned her name.
She tried to push him down onto the ottoman, wanting to have him watch her as she rode him, but Harry stopped her. He shook his head, curls tickling her jawline and cheek.
âNo,â he simply said, wrapping his arms around you. âIâm staying right here.â
And though he hadnât meant it that way, Y/N still took it as him telling her heâd stay with her like this forever. After all, sheâd been the one to leave him in the first place, but they were here now. Never was she going to leave him. He was the best thing that had ever happened to her, the truest thing in her life, and her best influence. Had she ever been happy before sheâd met him? Had she known true happiness till now? Because right now, feeling Harryâs bare skin against hers and hearing him repeat her name, she wasnât so sure the happiness sheâd felt before him could be counted as just that, happiness.
Harry squeezed her hips. âLike that,â he moaned, burying his face in the cook of her neck.
Nothing mattered besides the magic they were creating between them; nothing mattered but Harry and eternity. The soft skin of the inside of Y/Nâs thighs against Harryâs hips and sides, pressed to him, sweaty. His tattooed body against her bare one. Heavy breathing, the occasional moan.
The burn in her core was really starting to build up now, and she knew it would burst any second. Harry moved his face so it was right in front of hers, studying her moving form above him. Her sliding hips, her desperate hands, her exclamations of pleasure. The butterflies in her stomach went crazy, all of them flying wildly in a single circle to intensify the oncoming orgasm. Harryâs hips moved more with hers, staring at her as she closed her eyes, digging her nails into his shoulders.
âYouâre so fucking beautiful.â Harry said, hands trembling against her back.
She didnât know why that almost brought her to tears, but it did, and she bit her bottom lip to stop herself from crying. No one had ever made her feel as stunning as Harry. Though she was confident in her body and on her own, being with Harry made her feel on top of the world. His love, his encouragement, his compliments, it all made her feel so incredibly good about herself in a way nothing ever had before. She had no idea how she could ever thank him for that.
Their hips moved rhythmically, hard against one another, desperate for release. Everything felt electric, everything felt hot. Y/N wanted to melt into him and have the two of them sitting like this forever. Wanted to feel him close, feel his love, feel his skin. Having him inside her like this, feeling him grip her hard, whimpering against her lips, moan her name; she felt powerful, beautiful, strong, and so so so good.
âHarry,â she moaned, looking into his eyes. âI love you.â
âI love you too, baby.â He said, bringing her closer. He reached between them, knowing that in order to come properly, she needed him to flick her bud. âLet me watch you come.â
âOh, God.â She gripped his shoulders harder, moaning loudly as he rubbed her clit like he knew she loved so much.
âYeah?�� He watched her, flicking her faster. âCome for me, baby.â
She came hard. Harry watched her intently, clearly holding back his own release till he knew she was completely done with hers. She grinded on top of him, looking deeply into her eyes as hot flames lashed threw her body, rocking up her entire reality. She gasped for breath and moaned and repeated Harryâs name over and over and over again until it let like it was the only word she knew. Her legs were shaking, and it was hard for her to move properly so he could come to.
âSay it.â Harry said, his neck vein about to show and his face reddening with the oncoming climax. âTell me.â
She knew exactly what he needed to hear. âI love you.â She whispered against his lips, pressing a tender kiss to the side of his lips as she continued to rock over him. âEveryday, for the rest of my existence, Iâll love you.â
âFuck.â Harry moaned, not able to look away from her. âY/N. My love.â
She held his face in her hands. âNever leave me. I love you too much.â
âNever.â Harry said, a moan escaping his lips. âShit.â
He came, not looking away from her. A furrow appearing between his brows, lips parted, and Y/N had never seen anything so hot and beautiful. He stilled, neck vein showing, and he moaned and moaned and moaned. She watched him till he came down, feeling his cum inside her, feeling his breathing against her, his arms around her.
âYou need to go meet Gopher now.â Harry said after a little while.
âMy puppy.â
Harry laughed. âWeâre gonna have a house filled with fucking animals, arenât we?â
âAnd what about it?â Y/N smiled. âDonât you want to see me happy?â
Harryâs eyes softened, smiling slightly up at her as he took her hand, bringing it up to his lips. He kissed her hand, then her palm, then the pulse of her wrist. âFor the rest of my life, celeste.â His smile widened as he felt her beating hearts against his lips. âMy baby blue.â
the BIGGEST thank you to all my beta readers! you lot have saved me and helped me more times than i can count! love you!
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and thank you to you! thank you for reading baby blue! thank you for the love sent both mine and bbâs way! thank you for letting me tell you yet another story, the fact that you sit down each sunday (or whichever day tbh) to read bb and immerse yourself in the bb-verse means so much to me!
as for what iâm gonna do next cos iâve gotten quite a few questions about that! i wonât be posting writing on tumblr or wattpad till may, but in the meantime iâll be over at patreon posting! thereâll be a poll there where some of my patrons can vote for what they want me to write next and iâll post something every week!
my next fic will be announced sometime in april (tho iâve talked about what itâs gonna be multiple times lmao), and the first few chapters will be available to read on my patreon before it starts posting on my other platforms!
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itâs true lads, i have actually written something
(this was a prologue of a long canon fic that iâm writing/on hiatus on (oops) but i was thinking of changing the pov of it, so this doesnât fit in it anymore) i may end up finishing the canon one, but it is long, so it probably wonât see the light of day, but weâll see
anyway, hereâs the ao3 link if you would like to read it on there: https://archiveofourown.org/works/31116254
a tragic twist of fate:
summary: the lupin family are enjoying a quiet evening, when an unwelcome visitor shows up, changing all of their lives forever.
word count: 1.6k
The sun was setting, casting a burning haze across the sea, and subsequently over the unsuspecting cul-de-sac in the Gower. The pebble-dashed bungalows that hugged the road were quaint and uniform, with a meagre patch of grass out the front that barely constituted as a garden. All things considered; it was a very normal street. There were the Jones', with their tiny Yorkshire terrier, which was small in size but easily compensated with its tremendous bark. The Thomas', who were always out the front regardless of the weather, observing the street's comings and goings. The Liu's, whose windows were constantly filled with an assortment of different lights, illuminating the street, making it feel like Christmas every day. Opposite them, were the Lupin's. There was Lyall, who has a mysterious job that no one is quite able to figure out exactly what it entails; his wife, Hope, who made sure that the whole street was well and truly fed; finally, their 5-year-old son, Remus, who's usually found playing out on the empty street.
Remus, as expected, was having a game of tag with Julia from across the road when his mother called out from the front door. She had thick blonde hair, slightly greying at the crown of her head, which was tied up into a loose bun, the fly-always whipping the side of her face, which was covered slightly with gravy.
"Remus, it's time to come in now. Your father has just gotten home, and dinner's almost ready."
"But Mammy! I'm not even tired," Remus pleaded, shouting back, a little breathless. "Can we have a few more minutes? Please?"
"It's okay, Mrs Lupin." Julia panted, brushing her dark fringe from out of her eyes, it was a miracle she could even see. She was a few years older than Remus but was still somehow shorter than the boy (who was only slightly tall for his age). "I think my parents want me back soon anyway." She turned to Remus and smiled, "We're going to go out and play again tomorrow, arenât we Re?â
"Yeah, okay then. I'll see you tomorrow! Bye!" Remus chirped back, with some newfound energy. He then proceeded to hurtle up the driveway and stumble through the front door.
âNot even going to give your old mammy a cwtch?â Hope laughed, following her son through the door, shoving her hands into her pockets.
He clambered onto his chair at the kitchen table and watched eagerly as his mother took a roast lamb out of the oven and began to dish it out on to mismatched plates. There were roast potatoes, which were crispy on the outside, but still fluffy and buttery on the inside, peas, carrots, and parsnips - that were roasted to perfection, and it was all smothered with thick gravy that was laden with salt and had the potential to clog up your arteries â but if itâs bad for you then that meant it would probably delicious. Remusâ mouth was practically watering.
"Now, as you've been running around all afternoon, I'll give you the extra roastie, how about that?" Hope smiled down at Remus, scooping a roast potato onto the plate.
Lyall stooped into the kitchen at that moment, placing his tattered briefcase down onto the splintered wooden counter and bent over to kiss his wife on the head. He was tall and lanky with brown curly hair that was just starting to thin. He wore deep navy robes over the top of a well-fitted suit, looking as if he had just walked out of a very important meeting. He could have been a very intimidating man if it weren't for the way his eyes lit up and his mouth formed a crooked grin when he looked adoringly across his small family, with an immense sense of pride.
"This looks wonderful, darling. What did I ever do to deserve you?" he laughed as went over to his son and ruffled his hair. "According to Mrs Thomas, you've been charging up and down the road all day! No wonder you look knackered." He fell into the chair next to him, as Hope brought the dinner over.
The family ate with easy conversation. Hope explained how she had heard from Mrs Thomas that Mrs Jones was apparently putting empty wine bottles into her recycling bin and Lyall explained his new case at work, but it seemed boring, so Remus didn't pay it much attention. He wolfed his food down so quickly, barely stopping for a breath, his poor mother thought he might end up with indigestion.
"Stay in your own lane, Lyall, that's what they said," Lyall explained in between mouthfuls, gesturing at no one in particular with his fork. "They won't believe me though, and that Greyback has been released again, the man makes my skin crawl." He used air quotes when describing him and huffed, as he took another bite out of his roast. "It's madness, I told them that. Did they listen? No. Cases of lycanthropy are going up and it's because of creatures like them. String 'em all up for all I care. Bloody werewolves.â
"Not at the table Lyall," Hope piped in, sensing that her husband was about to go on another one of his world-renowned rants. "I understand it's a pain, especially if no one listens to you at work, but let's keep dinner time a happy affair, don't you think?"
"Yeah, no, sorry love" he gave her a sweet smile, which she returned. "Anyway. Did you have you had fun today, Re?"
The boy looked up and nodded quickly. "Yeah, me and Julia played lots of games. We had a race to see who was faster. And I won!" he exclaimed, talking at the speed of a hundred miles per hour, he spread his arms for dramatic effect and sat up higher in his chair. "She said I was cheating, but I wasn't, I promise!"
"No, of course, you weren't." Lyall laughed and looked down at his son like he was the most precious thing in the world.
After dinner, the family were positioned around the small-rickety fire pit that was positioned in the corner of the patio, made up of broken slabs of concrete with weeds emerging like great vines through the gaps. The fire crackled and spat, specks of charred wood and the burning flame releasing swirling smoke into the atmosphere. They sat on wobbly wooden chairs, that they had gotten from the charity shop, which were starting to rot and covered in splinters. However, Hope had made some colourful and slightly garish cushions, so it was incredibly comfortable, despite the small risk of the chairs collapsing from underneath them. Hope was sat with a pair of knitting needles in hand, focusing on the burgundy jumper that Remus would undoubtedly get for Christmas in a couple of months time. Remus sat opposite and was looking eagerly at his father, who was making the little old wooden figurines of soldiers that Hope collected do an Irish jig across the uneven stone.
Then, there was a rustling in the undergrowth at the far end of the garden. The birds that had nested and settled in for the evening took flight, flying off into the rising moon, bright and beautiful.
"What on earth could that be?" Hope wondered out loud, staring out into the distance, squinting her eyes.
'I'll go check it out.â Lyall chuckled as he pushed himself out of the chair. "Probably just a fox, I shall go shoo it away."
He wandered to the end of the garden, managing to avoid the snail hotel Remus had built a year ago. He lit up his wand so that he could see at least three steps ahead of himself.
It was a surprise that it remained standing, despite the howling gales and torrential rain it had to endure, it stayed. For as long as he could remember, Remus looked after the snails in the hotel, gave them any leftover lettuce. They were his favourite magical creatures. It fascinated him, the way they could stick to the walls and go upside down, the only way that was possible, Remus decided, was magic. Lyall didnât have the heart to tell him otherwise.
"Ah, Lyall Lupin. Just the man I wanted to see." An unfamiliar voice snarled. The voice was deep and ragged as if it had been strained from screaming too loud "Fancy seeing you here."
âFenrir.â Lyall cut back, voice curt but contained a small tremble. "Leave me and my family alone and take your unpleasant business somewhere else." He straightened his jacket and stood rigidly, making himself taller. But the figure, Fenrir, stood a head above him, despite his hunched posture.
"I don't think that would be necessary." He countered, his voice becoming more and more menacing. "How is your family? I'd love to meet them." He shoved Lyall out of the way, causing him to lose balance and he stumbled into the hedge.
âHope! Remus! Get into the house and lock the door!â Lyall shouted, desperately, unable to keep up with Greyback, who was striding across the garden.
Hope quickly grabbed her things and ran, pushing open the back door with a creak.
âRemus, come on lamb, into the house.â Hope coaxed from the door, trying to sound as calm as possible.
But Remus stayed rooted to the spot, unmoving, fixed and waiting, staring into the monster before him.
Fenrir Greyback was a giant of a man, towering easily over 6 feet tall. He was unkempt and greasy, covered in black matted hair. His deceitful yellowing eyes emitting nothing venom. Remus scrambled off of the chair and edged slowly towards his mother. It was too late.
Their eyes locked. A deal had been struck.
Under the silver moon, Greyback's manic grin turned pointed and wider. Bones cracked, twisted, and popped. Hair became thicker, wired, and coarse. Tortured hands and feet transformed into gnarly claws. His previously crooked nose became a leathery, wet, snout.
Barring his teeth, Fenrir Greyback took a couple of paces forward, crushing the hotel under a monstrous paw, towards a terrified Remus Lupin.
And pounced.
#remus lupin#hope lupin#lyall lupin#fenrir greyback#young remus lupin#marauders era#marauders fic#hp fic#cait has actually written something#(don't worry i'm as surprised as you are)#sorry this is quite sad
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This is totally up to you if you want to answer this ask: What were Nesta's parents like? Their names, personalities, jobs, where they came from etc. Also curious about Nesta's aunt and uncle too :)
Okay, I SWEAR, I was gonna try and keep this brief. I literally whisper-screamed said to myself, âKeep it brief, Cara.â
Nesta, Elain, and Feyreâs Parents: Tim and Ines (neĂŠ Afonso) Archeron. Tim was a third-generation native Californian, Ines was, as we know, from Portugal đľđš
Archeron Grandparents:
Timâs dad Rick was an attorney (and an antisemtic prick, see Nestaâs mention of him in Fucking Lawyers for an example).
His mom Marie was a housewife.
Rick was a functional alcoholic âbig drinkerâ and died when Nesta was 14, Marie died while she was in college.
Afonso Grandparents:
Inesâs father SebastiĂŁo was a professor of Antiquities at The Univeristy of Coimbra
Her mother HeloĂsa worked in her fatherâs butcher shop until she had Ines (she a dope cook, yâall).
SebastiĂŁo died two years before In Vino Veritas starts. HeloĂsa is the only of the four grandparents still alive.
(SIDENOTE: can we fucking TALK about what sheâs gonna say when she meets tall dark and gorgeous Portuguese-speaking wine expert Cassian??)
HeloĂsa: *in Portuguese* Amorzinho, why have you not married this man yet?
Nesta: AvĂł, stop!
HeloĂsa: *still in Portuguese and well within earshot of Cash* If I was forty years younger I would marry him myself!
Tim & Ines (background):
They were both lawyers, they met in law school at Stanford (high achieving runs in the family).
Tim was worked as an M&A (mergers and acquisitions) attorney (can be boring shit but a lotta moneyyy). Ines was a special prosecutor trying drug companies for malpractice and fraud (social justice warrior FTW)
They both worked a LOT, especially when the girls were really little, so the girls were raised by a nanny named Benigna (Beni). Ines had insisted on a nanny who spoke Portuguese, and Beni was from Brazil.
Beni got unexpectedly sick when Nesta was 10, and she died after a too-brief battle with breast cancer.
It was Nestaâs first real experience with loss and she was inconsolably heartbroken, making Tim and Ines realize that theyâd allowed their children to be almost completely raised by someone else, and that the girls had basically just suffered the loss of a parent.
At that point Ines decided to cut back to working half time to spend time with the girls, who were 10, 6, and 4.
Between losing Beni and her parents having been gone so much when she was little, Nesta was incredibly anxious to please her parents and make them proud. She was involved in a lot of activities and was very hard on herself, especially for a child. She was serious and dedicated, and though Ines tried to calm the best of Nestaâs outward fretting, she didnât know how to cope with the more deeply-routed issues of Nestaâs compulsion to be the best. Instead she wrote it off as Nesta being incredibly bright and kept signing Nesta up for activities and paying for any private lessons, competitions, workshops etc. that Nesta expressed interest in. (Look, Nesta had to have something to tell her therapist about)
Starting the year Beni died, they began to take trips to Portugal every summer to see Nestaâs avĂ´ and avozinha.
before that, theyâd only gone a handful of times, and Sebastiâo and HeloĂsa were thrilled.
Tim wasnât close to his parents because of his dad was verbally abusive and his mother was permissive and enabling, so Nesta and the girls were much closer to her avĂ´ and avozinha.
Her grandfather spoke English but her grandmother didnât really, so they spoke almost exclusively Portuguese when they were there (Tim was just sorta...j chilling with his incredibly mediocre Portugueseâhe only usually stayed a week anyways, and he worked the whole time).
At home they spoke a mixture, Ines often spoke to the girls in Portuguese and they replied in English unless she insisted otherwise.
Family Ties...
Timâs closest friend from law school (and the best man at his f*cking wedding) was Beron Vanserra.
Ines was not really a fan but she just sort of tolerated Beron for Timâs sake, and Beron was clever enough to mostly behave when she was around, though he was definitely the friend who was always trying to coax Tim on a coke-filled bender to Vegas every time her back was turned
Whereas Tim and Ines had children later in life (Ines had Nesta at 35, Elain at 39, and Feyre at 41), Beron married his college sweetheart right out of law school, popped out two boysâAugust and Adrianâand fucked off for a younger wife. They got divorced without kids after like...a year
His third wife, Flavia, became good friends with Ines. She had her first boy, Eris, three years before Ines had Nesta. They were both pregnant around the same time with their seconds, Lucien and Elain.
The two couples were close and they took vacations together etc. AKA...the kids played together a lot as kids.
Tween/teen Nesta had an ENORMOUS crush on Eris. A senior in HS when she was a freshman, he...did not give a shit. When they ran into each other three years later (Nesta: 18 and two years into raising her two tween sisters and Eris: 21 and a swaggering senior prick at USC) and he hit on her that she was decided she hated him, lol
When Nesta was 14 (Eris: 17, Elain/Lucien: 10, Feyre: 8), it came out that Flavia had been having a longgggg term on-again, off-again affair with her college sweetheart. Screaming matches and paternity tests ensued...and it came out that Lucien was not Beronâs
Ines supported Flavia when Beron filed for divorce and came after Flavia with a VENGEANCE. Ines got Flavia a sick-ass divorce attorney, and sis cleaned up in the divorce 𧚠𧟠𧽠đľ . She and Beron had a very strained custody agreement, where Lucien mostly lived with his mom and saw his âdadâ (Beron) only occasionally. Eris, who was about to go to college and was mad at his mom for this embarrassing secret, lived with Beron.
Tim, put off by how Beron handled Lucienâs paternity, distanced himself from Beron, and they were never close after that.
When Tim and Ines died, Flavia was one of the people who stepped up the most to help. Nesta was fiercely independent about the whole thing, but Flavia did babysit for Nesta when she had her own activities, and sometimes she would fill the Archeron fridge with groceries or do the mountain of laundry or take the younger girls back-to-school clothes shopping. Still, she was quiet about it knowing that Nesta considered herself a failure for any little thing she couldnât do for her sisters.
Tim and Ines (personalities):
Tim
Tim was easy-going and fairly mild.
Of the three girls, Elain is most like him in temperament.
Like his dad, Tim was a total workaholic. He loved his daughters a lot, always bragging about them to colleagues and friends, but he wasnât really around enough to really show them.
As a result, his main role as a parent was spoiling them with things.
Timâs dad had been the diciplinarian, so Tim hated âbeing the bad guyâ and was thus incredibly permissive. On the rare occasions that he was in charge of the girls alone for a weekend, there were...literally no rules.
Had he been alive, Tim would have strongly encouraged Nestaâs decision to pursue law school. He likely would have been more skeptical of Feyreâs choice to pursue fine art.
Ines
Ines was more type-A in her personality
Of the three, Nesta is most like her
As the daughter of a classics professor, she had a great love of classical art and music. She would have been pleased that Elain planned to be an academic like her AvĂ´. She also highly encouraged Nestaâs pursuit of opera even though HS Nesta secretly would have rather done musical theatr (like literally any other teenager?)
Ines had been very close to her parents growing up and had planned to return to Portugal when she graduated law school; even though she loved Tim, she was sad when that didnât happen
She was very nurturing with her girls, but less tolerant of them acting out. Appearances were important to her, and she expected her girls to be well-behaved.
Nesta, always desperate to please, was praised by every adult who ever met her for being perfectly well-behaved
Elain, easy-going and somewhat shy, was quiet and complaint by nature. She never caused problems and rarely even cried
Feyre, a fiercely independent spirit from day one, did not give a FUCK about making a scene if the need arose. Oh, itâs Christmas and MamĂŁ bought Feyre a pretty dress to wear in the Christmas photos? Who cares; not Feyre! She wants to wear her Jasmine costume from Halloween, and if MamĂŁ says she canât, Feyre is PERFECTLY happy to make a good huge scene in the middle of the bougee photography studio...
OKAY FUCK THIS IS WAY TOO LONG BUT REAL QUICK THE AUNT AND UNCLE
Ines was an only child, Tim just had the one younger brother named Mike. Mike was the âdisappointmentâ according to Rick, because he chose to major in communications and had no interest in law school.
Mike is incredibly unassuming and lived in Timâs popular, affable shadow. Not lame but definitely unremarkable
The Archerons grew up in the affluent Beach town of Santa Barbara, but Mike was so vexed by his parents he move 385 miles away to Sacramento (if you know California, WEIRD flex on Sacramento of all places, but you do you Mikey)
He married a very sweet middle class girl named Linda and got a job in Insurance
They never had kids of their own, and though he and Tim were friendly, they didnât really get together much because they just had vastly different lives/lifestyles
Mike and Linda were shocked and sort of bewildered when Tim and Ines died and they were awarded custody of the girls (literally do you not really know what it is to agree to be someoneâs legal guardian, Michael ???) and they sort of started haphazardly making plans to move the girls up to Sacramento, even though every time Nesta called they werenât much farther on arrangements.
Elain and Feyre FREAKED out when they were told theyâd be leaving home and their friends and moving to Sacramento with Uncle Mike and Aunt Linda (10 yo Feyre: I HATE Sacramento, itâs a shithole!) and when Mike and Linda still didnât really have any helpful insights on schools, etc (the Archeron girls all attended private school) Nesta decided the move made no sense.
She basically announced that they werenât gonna move and that she was just going to handle the girls. Mike and LInda sort of (vaguely) protested before being like âyeah you right, we suck at thisâ. They still controlled Tim and Inesâs estate and helped Nesta deal with all that, but she took it over the MINUTE she turned 18 and they didnât really have any part after that besides sheepishly calling like âso...hows everything going? Are you liking school okay?â đ¤Śââď¸
Nesta tried to make an effort to be closer with them when they were all younger but like...as adults the Archeron girls have sort of tacitly agreed that Mike and Linda are sweet and theyâre family but like...they arenât that much fun to be around. Theyâd much rather go to sushi and get drunk on Christmas Eve rather than go to Sacramento and force polite conversation with their aunt and uncle
Okay so yeah! There is a far too detailed thing about her parents, hope you enjoy!
#fanfic friday#feathery answers#In Vino Veritas background info#Archeron parents#Archeron Family History#feathery researches#research#Archeron Sisters#In Vino Veritas
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( PART THREE HERE )Â &Â ( PART ONE HERE )Â here are NINE MORE CHARACTER BASES ( label & background & personality ), all of whom i have played out in the past. they expand beyond â the fuck boy â and â the arrogant rich kid â because i think as a community weâre all tired of the cliche bull, so have some of my most fun & most subversive times. these are for inspiration purposes as well as admin purposes. if you are going to use these in an rph setting, i request credit, but otherwise, itâs not necessary. ( all details viable to change ; pinterest board links available for all of them - if you are interested in my characters, see my muse page ) Â TW : violence, alc, drugs, ( parental ) emotional neglect, death, blood, homelessness, police
001. Â THE WITCHÂ â you are in the second generation of witchy women in your family. youâre not meant to misuse, youâre meant to give back, your mother tells you. nature loves you but nature holds grudges, your mother tells you. you are not you but we, your mother tells you. you will not heed her advice. age six, you learn how to make the tea boil in seconds just by whistling, even if you know that itâs not necessary. age ten, you make the kids who say bad words to you trip on their way up the stairs, leaving them with bloody noses and mouthfuls of curses. age sixteen, you fall in love with a girl who loves you like sheâs going to lose you, who makes you forget why your parents crossed continents and why your blood sings a song of violence and why you stand unflinching in the eye of loss. you and your friends get into bad things when you start to get old enough for people to notice you. their eyes always go to you first. you and your dark eyes. you and the furrow in your brow. you and your lesson in awakening. you adopt another stray emotionally compromised teenager into your friend group and she tells you breathlessly, reverently that youâre the most beautiful person sheâs ever seen. and it makes you mad, but maybe not at her, because you can recognize the good and bad people like a lie detector thatâs seen too much and knows in details what a long night is because theyâre all you have. youâre powerful in a way that they donât seem to understand and maybe, you will take a lesson your mother. youâre powerful and you wonât let them see.
002.   THE PROM QUEEN â the oldest by eleven minutes, you grow up trying to be everything your little siblings need. your parents are twisted but you learn to see them through rose-colored glasses instead of living in pain. when your siblings fall, you feel it, too, and when they cry, you cry too. itâs too much responsibility. your parents feed and clothe them, but you hold their mental health in your hands and the truth is youâre no better. you just got so good at hiding behind your mask that you canât seem to tell the difference between you and party favor anymore, and the fact of the matter is that while theyâre quiet and just so different in a way that your parents feared they would be, you blend in like a chameleon. youâre class president and prom royal. thatâs the way itâs always been. but all the makeup in the world canât hide the fact that youâre no better. the older you get, the more they can see. your grandmother, first. then your little sisterâs best friend. your first love. everything you try to hide sits in your lap and you try to wrestle it into submission and sometimes it wins. they know you but you donât. your eyes flash golden sometimes when youâre mad enough that you remember that youâre the one who put the burn stains on the wood floors of your familyâs old penthouse, but youâre more human than anyone can ever even imagine.
003. Â Â THE UNAPOLOGETIC SLOTHÂ â youâre the small-town preacherâs child who comes out with a slam when you turn ten years old. youâre burning your clothes in the basement when your mother comes home from book club. youâre looking for a way out, but all she wants to know is if you want to do it in the expensive fire pit outside instead. they call you their golden child but no one else shares the sentiment. youâre lucky that your group of friends ( they donât look like you exactly or act like you exactly, but you all know what itâs like to feel like youâre alone in the world, or you did until you met them ) likes the way you bite back even if your grandmother doesnât and neither does she come over for christmas dinner anymore and it tears you up inside until you bleed an angry and violent storm and trail curses ( against anyone, against god, if there is a god at all, if you even believe in a god at all ) down the creaky wood stairs from your room all the way into you momâs lexus. youâll come back but for now, you are a tempest and you are only beautiful when youâre burning. youâre not the type to bend yourself out of shape for people who wonât look back at you. youâre happy with yourself in a way that most people wish they could be, most people who spend nights drinking or turning in bed or smiling. youâre happy because you couldnât care less.
004. Â Â THE PYROMANIACÂ â the child of two famous superheroes, youâre the picturesque image of your mother. you only have your fatherâs mutant blue eyes and you think that youâll curse your mother with unhappiness for it until she gives up on you like you want her to. you hate her for her giving you everything you have. your powers, your hair, your two good hands. you love your father more than you love anything. it starts when youâre still little. lying about your powers, saying you have your fathers. your parents canât stop it. the therapists certainly canât stop it. not even your classmates' jeers can. the fires start in your teens around the time you start sneaking out at night. your mother with her kind eyes ( not yours, which are an icy and violent storm that everyone needs to seek cover from ) and tired crinkle in her forehead, who loves you even if the only time she gets your affection is at the request of your father, asks you about it and you donât answer, look at her with contempt and a scoff. she knows the answer anyway. youâre the angriest kid she knows and they all wonder where you got it from as you project the worst pieces of your parents. your father's arrogance. your motherâs envy. by the time you turn eighteen, youâve been arrested six times ( your party stories are to die for ; arson & assault & arson & underage drinking & arson & disorderly conduct ). youâre so hilarious, so famous, that they like to forget that you are also lethal.
005. Â Â THE PRINCELY POLYMATHÂ â you donât grow up as a person. the only child of one of the richest men the world may yet see, you come out of nowhere. bright hair and brighter eyes, you look and act nothing like your father. it takes you many years to find out that the only reason youâre surrounded by people is that they want something from you. the anxiety develops around the same time. coils into you and holds you tight. you cover it up poorly with anger and insult. itâs a bad look on you and it makes you bite your tongue hard enough to draw blood but itâs better than the alternative. youâre still going to get followed around. youâre still going to have callers. because youâre attractive and youâre devastating and youâre one of the brightest minds theyâve ever seen. you try not to let your father find out that under that mop of blonde curls lies a brain that canât be matched, but he does when the maid returns from your room with empty vodka bottles and books on aeronautics and too-tiny baggies and sketches of architecture. your iq test makes the news, but you just wanted something of your own. your new school is just as fancy, but now you donât have to hide the fact that youâre bored and unchallenged. when youâre fourteen, your starlet mother, who your father never forgave you for resembling, will overdose on pills in a bathroom in ibiza as you take the sats. youâre not allowed to be sad. you havenât seen her since your fifth birthday. thereâs nothing for you here. you wonder when there will be.Â
006. Â Â THE BEST OF THEM ALLÂ â for as long as you can remember, youâve been the nicest kid anyone has ever known. a candy-sweet smile and you really mean it, too. people marvel at the way you carry yourself and the hpw you can speak to people, but theyâre always looking over your shoulder for your brighter, more reckless friends. youâre in the instagram posts but youâre no oneâs first choice, and itâs okay because youâre used to it. youâre still going to be there when they fall down and cut themselves on the sharp edges of others that you told them with a wavering voice to watch out for. you keep a shovel in your trunk and your ringer on. because youâre that good. you wonât survive this kind of disregard but you think youâve known this from the start. youâre not the protagonist in this story, but maybe you should be. people like to hear about warzones and long nights with longer bottles but the fact of the matter is that youâre not the kind of kid. youâre warm hands and a down looked smile. you wonât stand on the edge of the mountain but youâre happy to use your first aid kit to patch up anyone who does.
007. Â Â THE ACTIVISTÂ â your mother never wants to be a mother and your father isnât the kind of man sheâd trust with her heart, let alone you with your chubby hands and big eyes. giving you up is the right thing to do. you run away from foster homes left and right. eventually, they stop looking for you, and you move from state to state, a rolling stone of your own. you find a person of your own. you call them your twin, but the facts donât line up in a way you wonât realize for a very long time. eventually, you find your place with a microphone in hand and a shoebox under your feet. you care about everyone but yourself and youâre pretty okay with that. youâre a survivor, you always have been. when youâre fifteen, the peaceful protest you organized gets interrupted by local police who ask for a permit thatâs not there. the noise ruptures your eardrum ; the crowd, the riot guns, the yelling. you never get back all your hearing but it wonât stop you. youâd never let that happen. you keep going, just different and with the help of friends. when youâre sixteen, youâre moving through a crowd, doc martens ahead of you when you stumble into a strong chest. an older man with a kind smile. when he offers to walk you home, asks if youâre parents know where you are this time of day, you laugh, but heâs serious. ( youâve never met someone kind over the age of twenty. ) he adopts you in the spring and your platform is larger now, but youâre still the same old kid with fire in their heart and no chip on your straight shoulders. thatâs the year you track down your biological mother. sheâs apologetic and kind, but honest with you and you forgive her. she thought she was doing what was best for you and you think, despite the grim, and the scares, and the bad parts, that she did. you grow up, move from smartphones to tv screens to podcasts. you make a difference.Â
008. Â Â THE PSYCHICâS DAUGHTERÂ â youâre never going to be your sister, and eventually, youâll be able to live with this fact. sheâll know of a father, a man who has dark hair and dark eyes and a dark heart, but you left him breathless and unhappy because he, like you, is a fighter. the worst person you know has your last name and your lips. your mother. she is what someone would call a powerful woman. she opens up a business of psychic women, trademarked under your last name, and you know itâs going to haunt you until the day you die. you know they have no power. you know theyâre a trick of the light or a flick of a card or a bag of sequins. they teach you one thing. if you say anything with enough confidence, someone will believe you. you donât know why you never say anything, but you donât. you wonât. you will never reveal their secret. itâs not yours to tell. when youâre sixteen, following after your sister with big puppy dog eyes as she speaks gold and weaves silk with her steps, she will beat a girl half to death on the football field. she never tells you why and it seals the fate between you, but the truth is that youâd never be able to forgive yourself if she told you. ( she did it for you. the unloved child people whisper about under the bleachers. the psychic's youngest. youâll curse them, they say. ) you are not your sister and youâre certainly not your mother. youâre dramatic, earnestly so, not with an outreached hand but with an open heart. and you may never recover from spending your days in the dark house at the end of the block, but it wonât hurt to try.
009.  THE BACKGROUND CHARACTER â your small town chokes you from a young age. you grow up as one of the cool ones in that big squad of pretty, rich kids that everyone wants to be apart of, but you never asked for entry. your motherâs a bird who breathes down your neck, pecks at you for answers that she will never get because youâre too stunted, too angry to really be the child sheâd always dreamed of having, and you find that kind of funny because youâre a lab baby that cost more than her car. youâll try for her, but not for anyone else. they know that your âweâll seeâs and your âmaybeâs are really just your fun way of saying you donât want to hang out. youâll try for her because she gave you everything you have ever had, but all they give you is migraines. too loud and too inconsiderate, you think. youâre a harsh judge on people, but they know what they bought into when they invested your sour apple self. you watch from the windows and thatâs how youâve always liked it. youâre safe there. they canât hurt you. youâll sleep with one every other month, or attend a party or two, but youâre too fast and too much of a whim for them to even know you before youâre gone.
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Of Drinking and Being Drunk
Summary : It only takes Christmas Eve, Denmark, and alcohol to strip Alice bare.
"Ugh, I miss Denmaark!" Alice suddenly whined on one cold December night, flipping the magazine randomly in front of the fireplace.
Ryo, whose thigh becoming her pillow, looked slightly at his missy, already used to her sudden remarks. "Hmm."
"What? You don't wanna come with me?" Alice glanced up, paying attention to her aide's expression.
"I do. But as much as I want to, I have nothing left there. The old man whose pub I used to work at had died. I have no family, relatives, whatsoever. I have no reason to go back. " He answered nonchalantly, still focused on reading some articles. Â
"You have me." Alice cut him short.
Ryo sighed, his eyes met hers. "And you're here."
"Mou, I mean, go with me Ryo-kun! I don't wanna go alone. That'd be sooo boring! What if some thugs appeared and laid their hands on me?" Alice pouted.
Ryo shrugged off his shoulders. "I have no other option, ain't I?"
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Denmark, December 24.
"Milady, it's Christmas eve but here you are stucked with me. Don't you have any family dinner or such?" Ryo asked Alice who was busy playing his video game.
They were now in Ryo's apartment, not far from Nakiri Mansion. Despite having his own room in the residence, Ryo thought having an individual unit was necessary. Other than he could have some quiet time alone, it's also a good property investment, since the location was far from being remote and cannot be said at disadvantage. Though by far, Alice never let him be alone more than 3 hours long.
"It's blizzard outside, if you forgot. I'll excuse my self to warm up here. Christmas dinner is tomorrow, you should come along!" She chimed in, not even looking at the dark-haired boy. "Argh, I almost win!" She yelled.
"I'd better stay here. You rarely get chance to be alone with your family." He answered her remark.
Alice looked up from her game. "There's no way I left you here alone. Christmas is supposed to be celebrated together."
"It's alright. I'm gonna be okay."
"Okay, let's do a shokugeki. If I win-" Alice stopped in the middle of her words. "Right, we agreed to that."
Alice and Ryo had come to agreement of no shokugeki during their time in Denmark. Alice persistently said they're going for a break, though wherever they went, it's almost impossible to do that. This time, she pushed the boy to agree by winning a shokugeki before they went off. Therefore, his bandana was hers to hide until they're back to Japan.
Ryo brought a plate full of grilled crayfish with spicy garlic butter he made before, along with a bottle of akvavit. Without his bandana, Ryo was still a good cook, only less vigorous and fiery.
"Since I don't have my bandana, I couldn't think of anything to cook." He shoved the plate to her.
Alice beamed at the sight. "Whoaa Ryo-kun! This is more than enough! You sure know what to cook here! The Danish we are!"
Ryo's lips slightly curved upward. He poured the akvavit to both her glass and his own.
Alice lift her glass up, eyes twinkling with joy. "It's been so long since I have a glass of this. SkĂĽl!"
Ryo mimicked his missy. "SkĂĽl!"
They enjoyed the food and drink cheerfully. Alice couldn't stop talking about their old days. How they first met, how Ryo ignored her, their first shokugeki, the difference between having Christmas here and Japan, and so on. She kept on going, and on and on. Ryo, on the other side, was listening to her attentively. He always loved hearing her talk, without a reason. No matter how noisy and repetitive the story was, he always found himself as a good listener.
More than half bottle of akvavit later, the white-haired girl started to ramble on. Her alcohol tolerance was definitely lower than Ryo's, though she always insisted otherwise.
"Milady, c'mon we need to get you home." Ryo tried to get Alice stand, but the latter refused to do so. "It's cold outside, Ryo-kun. I'm staying here tonight."
"You're drunk. Besides, I only have one bed here."
"It's okay, I can sleep with you. And I'm not drunk." Her voice was hoarse and her head already leaned on her aide's shoulder.
"You could even barely hold your head up, and you said you're not drunk?" Ryo chuckled.
"I'm not~ Try to listen, I still can remember the face you make when you lose to me. You looked soo upset but couldn't find a way to run from your words. A man of words, I see." Alice flashed a little smile, even with her eyes closed. "I was very happy to have a friend back then, you know? I always wanted to meet Erina, yeah you know the story. And then you came with me, though involuntarily at first. But as time goes by, I really hope you stayed because you want to, not because I forced you to. I'm alwaays thankful to have you here, Ryo-kun." Hik! She hiccuped before she continued. "Do you remember the day when the old man death news came? For the first time in years, I saw you got more upset than ever before. I don't know if it's because the old man could no longer see your cultivated cooking skill, or because you couldn't show me that you're sad and you held them in, or other reason. But the only thing you should know is, I'm your friend too, Ryo-kun. You could get upset, sad, and happy in front of me. So please, in the future, do tell me all of your feeling. Not as my aid, but as the real Kurokiba Ryo. You know, I always prefer you not wearing the bandana."
"Why?" Ryo asked faintly.
"I don't know. I just think.....you looked more like you."
Ryo swore this girl could be the death of him. He was at a loss of words upon hearing Alice's rambling. He couldn't believe she could get this honest when she's drunk. There's no way in hell she would talk like this when she was sober. Her pride was on cloud nine.Â
"C'mon, time to sleep." He lift Alice up in bridal style, bringing her to his room. He put off her shoes and covered her in blanket. He wanted to lay on the sofa but Alice's hand clenched tightly at his tshirt, didn't let him go.
"Milady, I'm going to sleep over there." He tried to shake it off, but she didn't budge. Ryo sighed in defeat. "Alright, I'll sleep here."
They used to sleep together, when Alice stubbornly wanted to camp outside but had no heart to do it alone. Or when she trembled in fear after reading volumes of Goosebumps series. Ryo was there, witnessing all of her fake courage acts. Alice was never like Erina, unless her stubbornness. She was more expressive and pompous, yet a big crybaby. She was insecure and felt inferior to her cousin, though she never blatantly showed it. Ryo knew, he always knew. But to think his missy observed him as much?
"Ryo, thank you." He heard Alice whispered. "For being here and there. For everything."
Ryo stared at the beauty before his eyes. He leaned closer, for a split second doubting something he was about to do, but then he pressed his lips on hers. Just a chaste kiss, yet it sent shivers down his spine. He didn't even know why.
"I'm the one who should thank you. Thank you for persistently coming back to challenge me back then, Alice."
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Alice woke up with a light headache. She spotted Ryo lying next to her, trying to remember what happened last night. She could only remember talking about the old days. Did she get wasted last night?
"Totally." A hoarse voice cracked beside her. She must have voiced her question out.
"What are you doing here?! Did I do something weird?" Alice stared at the black-haired boy whose hair was disheveled after sleeping.
Ryo rolled his eyes a little. "This is my apartment milady, if you didn't remember. Also, you didn't let go of me at all last night. I was basically forced to sleep here, in my own bedroom."
"Okay.....I'm sorry. Anything else?" She asked again, as if not sure she only did as much.
"Yes. You kissed me. Hard."
".......Holy crap. I'm sorry, Ryo-kun! Don't get mad at me, okay? I'm sorry!" Alice put her hands together and shut her eyes closed. Her face turned to a total crimson.Â
Ryo stifled a laugh that sounded like a grunt. "I'm joking."
"What?! You could throwing jokes now?" Alice hit his arm hard. "It's no fun!"
It's me who did, though. But it would be a secret until.....later. Ryo thought to himself.
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A/n: Hi, itâs me again. The jobless me is jobless and somehow I came up with a random story and (seemingly) ooc Alice and Ryo. Well, I do take civil criticism, so please let me know your thoughts! And since I donât celebrate christmas, happy holiday to you all! âď¸
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Chapter 1. The Bringing of The Line
I do not own Harry Potter or the characters made by J.K. Rowling
I also added Anneliese's siblings names, ages, how old theyâll be turning next & when (plus a little bit about them if theyâre older)
(Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11, Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14 )
Chapter 1. The Bringing of the Line
Albus looked out of the window of the moving train, the words his dad spoke to him before echoing in his head. He had to get away from his family, they were being overbearing as usual. The door of the compartment opened, he looked over and saw a boy with messy dirty blonde hair and grey-blue eyes. "Oh, s-sorry! I didn't realize it was occupied, I'll go somewhere else." The boy spoke in surprise.
Albus smiled, "It's fine, you can sit in here. I don't really care." There was something about him that seemed familiar to Albus.
"Oh, okay, thanks." He sat down in front of Albus and said, "I'm Scorpius, of course you already know that."
That was why he looked familiar! He's Scorpius Malfoy, Draco Malfoy's son. "I'm Albus and don't worry, took me till you said your name to figure out why you looked familiar."
Scorpius looked surprised, "You-you don't care? I mean, you're a Potter and you don't care, I'm a Malfoy?"
Albus shook his head, "I know we aren't like our parents, besides your dad has changed for the good. No matter what the Prophet says."
Scorpius was about to say something, but the door opened again and a girl with short black hair and purple glasses looked in. "There you are Scor! Valerie and I were getting worried. But like, I don't blame you for getting out." She looked over at Albus and smiled, "Hi! Sorry, I was just looking for him, but um...do you mind if I stay here? The good ole Potter-Weasley clan are being pains." She studied Albus for a second before gasping, "Oh my god! I'm so sorry, I didn't realize you were Albus Potter."
Albus shrugged, "I don't mind and it's okay. My family can be overbearing at times. That's why I'm in here."
She nodded, "Makes since," She sat down next to Scorpius and held her hand out to Albus, "I'm Anneliese Green."
Albus shook her hand, "Nice to meet you Anneliese."
"So, you excited for Hogwarts, Albus?" She asked softly.
"I don't know really. I'm just gonna miss my little sister, Lily." He replied, he really was gonna miss Lils, they were the two biggest troublemakers ever.
"She was the one that was standing next to your parents and was upset because she couldn't go, right?" Albus gave her a surprised look since she has gotten all correct, "I'm observant. I think I'm gonna get into Ravenclaw, but then again, all my family is in Slytherin. So, the likelihood of me being a Slytherin is high. Well, besides my mum, she went to Durmstrang instead."
Scorpius laughed lightly, âYouâre rambling again. But still, if I'm not in Slytherin I think my grandfather would disown me." Scorpius replied.
âScorp, your grandfather is Lucius Malfoy, the man who thinks if youâre not a Slytherin then youâre a disgrace to the wizarding world. Itâs not think he would, itâs just that he just would. No thinking, just knowing.â Anneliese told him with a bored look.
"Oh, wow, I think the only house, even though my dad says otherwise, that I would be disowned if I was put in would be Slytherin. But honestly, him and my mother donât care." Albus replied.
The conversation just went from there. They only stopped when the trolly came around and they got some sweets. It was dark and the train was finally slowing down until it came to a full stop. They stood up and walked out of the compartment and off of the train. "Promise to be friends even if we're Slytherins and you're a Gryffindor?" Scorpius asked.
"Promise." Albus replied. He went to find Rose while Anneliese and Scorpius went to find Robyn, Rohyn, Holly and others.
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The doors to the great hall opened and everyone walked in. Scorpius and Anneliese overheard Rose Granger-Weasley talking about the ceiling and rolled their eyes, but still looked around in wonder. Albus noticed Anneliese give a tiny wave towards the Slytherin table. They stopped and looked at Professor Longbottom, "Before we start Professor McGonagall would like to say a few words."
Everyone looked over at the lady standing in the middle of the table, "I would like to note for the first years that the Dark Forest is forbidden to go to unless it is for Care of Magical Creatures. That is a class you can choose to take in your third year. Thank you." She sat back down and motioned for Professor Longbottom to begin.
"Now, when I call your name please come up to the sorting hat to be sorted into your house." He looked at the list and said, "Avery, Holly!"
The hat was put on top of his head and yelled, "Slytherin!" Quickly. The Slytherin table was yelling loudly and someone said, "Another Avery! Hell yes!"
More names were yelled, including Robyn and Rohyn Goyle (who were in Slytherin). âMalfoy, Scorpius!â The room went almost dead silent. People began to whisper. âMalfoy?â âIâm surprised theyâre allowing someone like him in.â âHis father was a death eater. He comes from a family of deatheatersâ As well as other much harsher things being said. Of course it was known what house Scorpius was going to be in according to stereotypes. And of course stereotypes didnât disappoint. He got Slytherin, and of course, the house screamed for him.
More names were called and people went to their houses. And, just like when Scorpiusâs name was called, the room went almost dead silent when Albusâs. Most of them were praises, âHe looks just like his father!â âOmg, heâs real.â âSurprised that heâs allowed to come, the Potters shield him and his sister all the time.â Of course there were some bad ones, but they were few and far between, mostly just from the Slytherin table. But Albus ignored them and walked up to the hat.Â
âAh, a Potter,â Albus jumped slightly, the voice echoing through his head, âMuch like your father, but you have much more ambition. Want to be separated from being known as just Harry Potterâs son. Willing to risk anything to be something. Better be, SLYTHERIN!â The hat was taken off of his head and the whispers picked up again. âA Potter in Slytherin?â âWonder what dear ole James is gonna take of that.âÂ
âTake that Potter! We got your younger brother!â A tall, dark skinned girl with short and curly bright purple hair, her eyes greatly contrasting against her skin as they were being an icy blue.
There were yells coming from the Gryffindor table. They didnât stop until McGonagall yelled for silence. Many had a look of fear, well, only about 50 didnât. Those 20 belonged to the Either a Weasley, Potter, or a Slytherin.Â
Albus was sitting next to Scorpius. Nothing was said. Rose got into Gryffindor, but of course that was no surprise. âLet the feast, begin.â McGonagall lifted her arms and the food appeared. Everyone began to grab as much as they could.Â
âCongrats sis, you got in. Iâm surprised. Figured youâd be in Ravenclaw.â
âYeah, at least father and grandfather wonât try and disown you.â
Anneliese rolled her eyes, âOh shut the heck up you two! Besides, father wouldnât disown me. You know that. We donât even talk about what grandfather would do.â
âAwe, câmon-â
âYou know you love us.â
âDom! Antonio and Derek are being mean to me!â
Albus looked over to where she was, he was looking at an older guy, who he assumed was probably a 7th year with unruly dirty blonde hair and deep emerald green eyes, looked over at her. âAnneliese, donât make me write to mum about you being a little brat.â
âI hate you.â She muttered slamming her fork onto the plate.
âLove you too sis.â
Albus looked over when he heard a girl laugh, âStop being a git Dominick. You wouldnât dare write to mum because sheâs still mad at you for your incident.â
âShut the hell up Genevieve. Sheâs still mad at you for trying to cover it up.âÂ
âWould you both shut up? My god, never in my life did I think I would be happy that this is my last year.â
âFuck off Aidan.â The two siblings grumbled.
âSorry âbout them, theyâre my siblings.â Anneliese sighed and ran a hand through her short hair.
He looked over at her, âItâs alright. Since I have like, fifty family members it just reminds me of Christmas.â
She smiled softly, âGood.â
âYou should see them at Christmas, itâs horrible. Them, plus the seven younger ones, plus all of the other Slytherin families.â Scorpius added with a laugh.
Anneliese picked at her potatoes, âAlbus I have 14 siblings. 7 older and 7 younger. 7 sisters and 7 brothers. 6 older brothers, 1 younger. 6 younger sisters and 1 older. Aidan, the one with short light brown hair and dark ass blue eyes, is the oldest. Heâs 17, 18 in like 8 days, and Headboy. Then thereâs Antonio and Derek theyâre 16, theyâll be 17 in May. Derek, the one with long black hair and hazel eyes, is always in detention while Antonio, the one with short dirty blonde hair and dark green eyes is usually studying and is usually fairly quiet. Heâs probably only being a dick tonight because he hasnât eaten since breakfast at 7 am. Dominick is the next in line, heâs 15, will be 16 in April and he always brags about something stupid, thinks his shit doesnât stink and that he was the best seeker ever, he also got prefect and hasnât stopped bragging since he got the letter,â
Genevieve laughed, âMum and dad were proud of him, until he broke the urn that our great-great grandmother was in.â
Anneliese laughed too, âMum threatened to write to McGonagall to make someone else the 5th year Slytherin Prefect.âÂ
Albus laughed too, âThat sounds like how my Uncle Percy apparently was when he got Gryffindor Prefect, as well as Headboy. According to mum, Uncle Ron, Uncle George, and Uncle Percy himself, he didnât shut up about it and brought it up all the time.â
âThat amazing, but anyways, next is the second set of twins, Liam and Randolph, theyâre 13 and will be 14 in October, basically a modern day Fred and George Weasley, always playing pranks and rarely getting caught. We can barely tell them apart, well, I can because Liam is two inches taller at 5â8, plus he talks a bit faster. Then there was Genevieve who is only a year older-â
â10 months sis, 10 months.â
She rolled her eyes, âFine, 10 months older than me. Sheâll be 13 in December.âÂ
âIf I didnât know that I could easily assume she was the same age as my little sister, Lily, sheâs only 9.â
âHa! You just got compared to a 9 year old!â One of the twins said, âIâm Randolph by the way.â He reached his hand out to Albus, âPleasure to meet you Albus Potter. A bunch of us are surprised that you were even allowed to go to Hogwarts. Your parents keep you out of the spotlight so much. Even more than your brother.â
Albus shook his hand, âYeah, mum and dad wanted all of us out of the spotlight as much as possible. Lily and I are faster at running and better at hiding than James. He loves the attention.â It was too obvious that Albus was trying to hide his eye roll.
âCan tell. We all got a kick out of him getting knocked out at his first game last year.â Albus looked at the other twin, âIâm Liam by the way.â
âOh wow, youâre not wrong Anneliese, Liam does speak faster.â Liam and Randolph laughed.
âTold ya so. But I still have 7 people to tell you about, if you want?â
âJust give me the ages and when theyâll be starting.â
She laughed, âAlright. So Alexa and Liana are 10, 11 in November, they start next year. Clara is 8, 9 in October, she starts in 2020. Odette is 7, 8 in like 14 days, she starts in 2021. Elina is 5, 6 next July, she starts in 2023. Eden is 3, 4 in 10 days, she starts in 2025, and Nicholas is 1, 2 in October, he starts in 2027.â
âWow, I could never imagine that many siblings.â
âTry being in the middle of it all. It gets annoying how often Iâm overlooked.â She rolled her eyes, âOf course youâre technically in the middle of your siblings.â Albus nodded.
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â5th year Prefects, show the 1st years to your common room. Everyone head up to your common room, classes start on Monday, but I still expect to see you all tomorrow. Goodnight.â Everyone stood up when McGonagall spoke. 1st years unsure of where to go they just followed where the 5th years were telling to go.
âI am Dominick Green, I am your 5th year Prefect.â
âI am Elizabeth Boles, your other 5th year Prefect. The Headboy is Aidan Green, he is also the 7th year Slytherin Prefect. Castanova Way is the other 7th year Prefect, and she is Headgirl. Lorene Pansy and Jerimiah Ecerson are your 6th year Prefects for Slytherin house.â
They followed as the two of them gave random facts and rules until they stopped at the end of a corridor in the dungeons. âHere is our common room. Yes, it is in the dungeons. If you ever get lost you may find one of us, another Slytherin, or go to our head of house, Professor Slughorn, he is the potions professor as well. Now, it is protected by a password and that password is prone to change, if it does, it will be posted on the bulletin board. But for now the password is Alchemy.â As Dominick spoke the words the wall moved to the side and they walked in.
âHere is the common room, we can hang out, do our homework, or just relax in here. Now, to the left is the girls dormitory and to the right is the guys. Girls can go into the guys but the guys cannot go into the girls. You all have a curfew of 6. So donât be out that late.â Elizabeth smirked before continuing, âOr just donât get caught.â
Dominick sent her an obvious glare, âOr just don't be out. But that is it. Do whatever you feel comfortable. Goodnight.â
They left and the crowd dispersed. But Scorpius, Albus, and Anneliese stayed together. âWell, Iâm going to bed you two. Goodnight.â She walked up the stairs and to the 1st year girls dorm.
Albus and Scorpius looked at each other, âYou tired?â
Albus shook his head, âNot really, but letâs just head up and hang up there.â Scorpius nodded and they went up. Neither went to sleep until 1 am.
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