#other anon i so agree but im not posting bc i already feel like im swinging a bat too close to the hornets nest if u know what i mean😭

[jefferythejelly]

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[slightlysaltysometimes]

latest jay post got me thinking: i went on these one depression meds and theyre the only ones who worked and i started eating more cus i felt well enough too but put on weight and immediately dropped them. or like im so busy working in the medical field and with adhd i just often dont have time, so imagine moving in with jay and he cooks for you and makes sure you now have a good eating diet instead of few snacks and ton of caffiene for the day so naturally you put on weight and he just is FROTHING at the mouth.

this ask has me frothing at the mouth. i’m going to marry you anon

reader starting to gain weight bc jay cooking for them…

(content warnings for weight gain, AFAB body but no pronouns or gender mentioned, dress used as a plot point, swearing, 2nd person POV, very suggestive near the end, pet names used: ma, sweetheart, baby)

Starting to live with Jason is a dream.

You thought he was a near perfect boyfriend before (well, at least perfect for you), but now?

He’s a househusband. You mean it in the most affectionate, positive way possible, but he genuinely insists on cooking and cleaning entirely by himself. You compromised with him by agreeing that you’ll put away clean laundry when it’s done, but he doesn’t allow you to finish any more domestic labor with your work keeping you so busy.

It’s been a long shift, being on your feet and working for almost 14 hours. So, getting home at 8:39 PM, you expected Jason to have just ordered some takeout or pizza for dinner due to your absence.

Your keys jingle as you unlock the front door to your shared apartment, yawning as you step inside and toe off your shoes. “Jayce, I’m home!” You call out, hanging up your keys and setting down your bag.

But he doesn’t come out of his office our your shared bedroom. He’s in the kitchen, an apron around his waist and a grin on his lips.

“Hey, ma.” He murmurs as you drape yourself over his back and nuzzle between his shoulderblades. “Long day?”

“You have no idea.” You grumble, pressing the smallest of kisses to his spine. “You’re cooking? You could’ve just ordered takeout earlier, you didn’t need to wait up for me.”

“I wanted to.” He replies, almost scoffing. “I’m not gonna let you eat a granola bar and call it dinner.”

You can nearly feel your heart melting in your chest.

“You really didn’t have to.” You reiterate. “But thank you.”

You two haven’t said ‘I love you’ yet, but you’re incredibly tempted. Jason is so easily spooked by love. So you show him with your actions, instead. The gentle kisses and caresses, the gentle nights and even softer mornings.

And by the way he cooks you your favorite foods after long shifts and hard days, you’d wager he’s doing the same.

———

Recently, you’ve noticed a small trend in your clothing.

Some of the smaller items you have are a little too tight lately. Plus, you can’t wear your bra on the tightest setting anymore, and your usual hole on your belt is a little too restrictive when you fasten it.

Jason is helping you clip your bra when he notices.

“Don’t you wear it on the other hook?” He murmurs, clipping it on the second. “I know I’ve helped you with this before.”

You hum, turning around and pecking his lips as a thanks for the assistance. “Yeah. I might be gaining some weight recently, it might be the new medication I’m on. Might need to do more cardio or something.”

Jason frowns. “You’re already doing more than you should. You are not gonna try and push yourself even more.”

You roll your eyes, huffing. “Whatever. I probably won’t gain much more weight, anyway.”

———

You were such a fool.

Over the next several months living with Jason, you’ve had to go up a clothing size, up a bra band size, and up a half-size in your shoes.

But every time you bring it up with Jason, he brushes it off, just reassuring you that it’s normal for hormones to cause weight fluctuations and that you’re perfect the way you are.

Finally, you’re trying on an old dress when you can’t quite fit into it, and you break. You can’t just let him ignore it anymore.

“Jason.” You sigh, calling him into your bedroom. “Come here.”

Jason is there in just a few seconds, grinning when he sees you in the dress. “Hey, baby. Feeling nostalgic or somethin’?”

You roll your eyes. “Try and zip it up.”

He quirks an eyebrow, but he does. And it doesn’t get any further than your mid-back.

“This fit me fine a few months ago.” You say, sounding equal parts confused and annoyed. “Loosely, even.”

The rest of your words fade into the foggy background as Jason’s mind runs wild.

You only notice when his hands move and he starts to unzip the dress, then slipping his hands into it and caressing your sides.

“You’re so beautiful.” He mutters, voice thick with… Something. “Look at you. You were so thin before, remember? You didn’t even eat two full meals a day. Maybe 1000 calories on a good day.”

“That’s an exaggeration.” You scoff.

Jason noses against your neck, mouthing at the soft, sensitive skin. “Barely. Fuck, you’re so pretty. Stunning. I love cookin’ for ya, you’re actually eatin’ right now. Your body is catching up. Your metabolism is slower ‘cause of your diet before, and now you’re actually getting the shit you need.”

You sigh, realizing he’s right. “Damn it.”

He frowns, biting gently at your shoulder. “This isn’t a ‘damn it’ moment, baby. Look at you.”

His hands start to wander. One caresses your stomach as the other wanders up to your chest. “Fuck. Sweetheart, haven’t you noticed? Your bra’s too small.”

You frown. “No it’s not, I just got a new one.”

He smirks, thumb ghosting over where your chest almost spills from the cups. “Yeah, it is. You went up a cup size.”

———

After that day, every time you tried to start a diet or new workout routine, he would vehemently disagree until you gave in.

This morning, though, he’s staring.

You’re in just your underwear, and he’s staring as you stretch and dig through your wardrobe for something to wear.

“You’re off today, right?” He asks, voice rough from sleep.

You don’t even hear him until he’s right behind you, his large hands on your hips.

“Yeah, I’m off.” You respond, suspiciously eyeing him when you turn around.

He’s shameless in his ogling, not even bothering to warn you before he picks you up effortlessly.

“Wha- Jason!” You exclaim, holding tight to his shoulders. “Put me down!”

He smiles wickedly, plopping you down on the bed and pulling you flush to him as he leans down and captures your lips with his.

“Fucking gorgeous.” He murmurs, biting your bottom lip and making you gasp. “You’re so soft. You know how hard it is to stop myself from practically groping you all the damn time? Your hips, your thighs, your stomach….”

You don’t even have the opportunity to think before he’s squeezing your hips and pulling back to look at you properly. “Can I have you, ma? Please? I’m hungry, baby, and I really want those pretty fuckin’ thighs around my head.”

These changes to your body are new, but maybe not as bad as you thought.

[inchidentally]

unfortunately i feel like the whole “heart-eyes piastri” thing’s been … rampant enough for it to have Reached him (or reach him eventually) and im just curious if you think it’s something that he would step away from (or if he even could ?? since it genuinely seems so involuntary to me personally) once he’s like. exposed.

going on a tangent now but i wonder if the drivers had a part to play in mclaren moving away from their long-from content ? or if it’s like. just something their team Decided

this is a good place to just quickly reiterate this since Lando and Oscar are so much more relaxed and have clearly gone to a new stage in their friendship:

FANS SHOULD NEVER EVER BRING UP RPF OR SHIP RELATED STUFF TO LANDO OR OSCAR ABOUT EACH OTHER. ALSO DO NOT ASK MEDIA OR THE TEAMS TO BRING IT UP TO THEM. IT WILL END VERY BADLY AND UNCOMFORTABLY AND POSSIBLY MAKE THEM WITHDRAW EVEN MORE FROM FANS. THEY DO NOT DO BROMANCEY STUFF AND ARE FAIRLY PRIVATE WITH THEIR DOWNTIME TOGETHER. PLEASE KEEP LANDOSCAR RPF IN FANDOM ONLY*

anyway I fully get what you mean anon and it's part of why I've always wanted to keep the types of 'rpf is real' and 'if it weren't for those pesky gfs these men would be together' ppl awayyyy from landoscar bc Lando and Oscar are not knowingly playing into any PR bromance or engagement with fans - so it's hard when we get this great content bc it's so sweet and there is a genuine fondness and gentleness to them that is so !!! but there also isn't the same kind of like agreement that the bromance guys all have with fans. the group padel pic in Monaco is a great example bc it was well coordinated, a joint instagram effort, all those guys play up the bromance stuff for fans with various drivers - so while it's fully legit friendships and guys bein dudes, it's also expected that fans will freak out and therefore has a side benefit of being great publicity. that's the norm for most drivers tbh!

whereas yea things like Lando and Oscar simply looking at each other in sweet ways and giggling at things we either aren't allowed into or jokes that are only funny to the two of them, and spending downtime together playing padel just the two of them or with another set of drivers or hanging out in hotel rooms or chilling casually at the palace in Bahrain - but not posting about it is a very clear message of while they don't mind that fans know about their time together (there's no crazy secrecy) or that we comment on their dynamic, they have also chosen to not cultivate that PR relationship with us beyond what McLaren and sponsors require. again, not in some crazy secret thing! Oscar isn't crazy secretive about Lily or his family, but he also doesn't encourage or engage with fandom about them beyond very surface mentions.

which is more than fair and there's another anon I'm gonna reply to about how I've always suspected this was a choice of some kind between Lando and Oscar based on strengthening their relationship as teammates as well as friends - even if it wasn't necessarily a spoken agreement.

ANYWAY back to your point about the hearteyes, I will at least say that this has been talked about by fans in public spaces pretty much since the start of his time at McLaren and definitely since the finish the lyrics video. so I'm sure he's already seen it and would've altered his behavior by now if it really bothered him that fans comment on it!

but I definitely agree that in general fandom needs to observe the very obvious boundaries of Oscar being a quiet, private guy who doesn't even like discussing his relationship with his girlfriend in super emotionally revealing terms let alone have fans or the media poke and prod him about the fact that he looks at Lando a certain way. tho I do think he'd wisely sidestep somehow and bring up Carlos or Daniel again. and I absolutely think based on his social media history he's very consciously rerouting fan attention when he does that. esp the fact that he chose to interact more with Lando's merch company when he was a fan and not a fellow driver in the same formula, it's similar to how they talk to fans about landoscar and carlando etc which is kind of a filtration system so that Lando's mentions don't take the brunt of fandom. but that's even more of a reason to respect Oscar's space and not put him in those awkward positions either.

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*and honestly even with guys who are fine with it and encourage it, it's still not advisable bc this sport exists in extremely conservative spaces and these men will only want the gay jokes and bromance bits to go so far.

[petruchio]

ahhhh im so embarrased lol. fully sent an ask to another user thinking it was you. in my defense i remember ppl by their profile pics and i kept looking for the britney profile pic and then when i couldn't find that, i started searching up thg on both profiles hoping for like a post/meta/a set of tags that i remembered lol. unless the britney profile pic was also not you.... in which case im going to go crawl in a hole and scream. anyway, what did you think about sotr!!! imo she made a lot of Choices in the books that i didn't personally care for. haymitch eternally mourning his teenage love being one of them. i remember reading about his geese at the end of the first trilogy and being so happy?/proud? that he found a way to cope. only come to find out it's just another way he reminds himself of lenore dove????? thank god these books have been out since 2010 and idc if god himself said that this is correct interpretation of haymitch's story. you will not!!! take away my decade and a half long hcs away from me. idgaf.

onto the good!!! effie.... wow. they've known each other since his first games...... 25 years..... twenty-five years..... the big two five...... twenty-five years of watching children die together. twenty five years of effie watching haymitch sink deeper into his alcoholism...... two and a half decades of knowing each other and then she has to call his name for the 75th games..... twenty five years of hand in unlovable hand..... you are coming down with me. also very me and my husband coded. at least in this lifetime, we're sticking together.... me and my husband we're sticking together.

ohhh head in hands head in hands. somebody fucking SEDATE ME!!!!

tldr; idgaf what collins wrote. i've spent a decade thinking about this dude. i'll probably just take the parts that i like and move on with my life lol. would love to know what you think about it!!! and if you've already made a post about that and i happened to miss it, then so sorry for word vomiting in your inbox.

sending lots of love <33333!!!!

LOLLL but anon who is the other me 👀 it's actually funny you say that because i was thinking about changing my icon today but didn't commit but i feel like i was britney for SO long that even when that pic isn't my official icon it's still ~me~ (bc like. dump him!!)

ANYWAY you asked me about sotr

ummmmmmmmm, how do i put it lightly, i didn't like it haha. i have a tag here you can check out and i've been trying to tag everything as sotr spoilers too -- i answered a couple asks right after reading it so those are in the tag if you want to read. i was fairly negative but well. i didn't really like it at all tbh.

and i agree about the geese, i don't know -- i just don't feel like everything needed a backstory that tied back 25 years, i think it was fine that haymitch just raised geese. like i think it was sweet. i didn't think it needed to relate to his teenage girlfriend haha. like i actually think that cheapens it.

and yeah i just simply don't really see the character we met in sotr as haymitch if im being honest. like he just doesn't feel like the person we meet in thg, and i don't mean that in the sense that "he's younger" i mean that it genuinely doesn't feel like the same character to me, even if you add ALL the context of the years of mentoring and having to perform a role for the capitol and drinking it just. it doesn't seem like the same dude if im being honest. haymitch always seemed to me -- at least in the original trilogy -- as someone who's kind of too smart for his own good, someone who would've looked at the arena and said well, if i can't win, i might as well try to make something interesting happen and tried to find the edge just to see if it was possible. that was his motivation and it made sense and seemed in line with the character as we meet him in thg -- he was just messing with shit to mess with it. that's the vibe i always got from the character. not ... whatever tf was happening in that book.

i'm happy that you liked the effie cameo, if im being honest it annoyed me... the effie revisionist history has driven me crazy ever since the first thg movie because to me she! is! annoying! and that's not to say she isn't a very REAL character, one that could just as easily be, like, your annoying coworker or your cousin's weird friend or someone you know in real life -- but i also don't think she needed a backstory or motivation outside of: this is a woman who was willing to do the job of "escort" and bring two children to the captiol to be killed every single year. that's all we really need to know about her motivations in my opinion! (it also makes the line in the first book where katniss says she's just waiting to get promoted to a better district make no sense and seem kind of crazy, bc if she's been sticking by haymitch for 25 years out of loyalty or compassion or something... i feel that her vibe would be markedly different in the original trilogy. but that's just me.)

ANYWAY. sorry for being such a dark cloud about the book but it just did not hit for me... i'm with you in the sense that I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS DUDE FOR LIKE FIFTEEN YEARS and i will just choose to adopt whatever new bits of the canon i feel like adopting and pretend everything else was just a fun little fanfic project that suzanne did or something.

IDK GUYS. i feel like everyone else had a much better time reading this book than i did haha. im sorry my opinion is such a downer, i just didn't feel like it built on the world in any justifiably interesting way (like tbosas did) and i also didn't feel like it made sense given what we know about basically every character that appeared! so it frustrated me. <3

lots of love

[ipusingularitae]

https://www.tumblr.com/darklinaforever/773894578801639424/im-so-angry-how-come-orlok-gaslighted-ellen-so?source=share

just letting you know that your post made it to the shippers and this particular account throws a fit anytime someone says something even slightly not nice about Orlok

(i yapped and this ended up being big sorry anon)

which is funny bc I'm not shipping or appreciating their dynamics less or denying that victorian society manipulates Ellen into thinking that her experience is lesser then. this is all true. i agree with that.

what I don't agree with is the plain simple "they're bound by destiny", not because I don't like it, but because i feel like it takes away details that 1) we don't and won't have because Eggers won't reveal the fold 2) deepens Orlok's past lore. may i remind that this is a loose adaptation of an old movie, which by itself is a loose adaptation of a book, they could and they did add new things.

people's influence and impact in Ellen's experience, from close relationships to doctors, this is all happening on the screen. I'm talking about interpretations, what happens between the lines, from the details, the elements in the scenario. this is a gothic story, and as someone who loves gothic stories, gothic studies, I'm very invested in understanding all the little things Eggers has put in this movie (because historically he does that) to catch a glimpse into what we don't see explicitly, what they don't say. like, someone around tumblr has already talked ab Orlok's mustache, i loved that post. we don't have confirmation from Eggers' that that's what it meant, but i liked it

so, OP (the person who printed my post and blocked me), I'm not fighting you, I'm as invested in Orlok as you are. I'm just curious ab the past things he did because as far as folklore and myths go, and the type of things Knock was doing in his office, the symbol in Orlok's coffin (and many many other stuff I'm sure I don't even know yet), he probably did made a pact with the devil. and that's okay for me, I don't like him less because of that, i like him just the same if not more. as i said, we like fucked up characters and stories, i just want to see the other details and elements and don't deny that he is, in fact, fucked up.

as for the guardian angel thing, again, it's an interpretation. Ellen didn't know what she would get and as far as anyone knows, based on the fact that biblical angels are scary as fuck, she might not know that he was specifically Orlok. she acts in despair, she's begging but not for him, but he repeats again and again that this was something she wanted, like she wanted him specifically. Knock keeps acting like Ellen's situation is a fate, is providence, while in the beginning it was Orlok answering a call that didn't have his name on it. he tricks Thomas into giving up Ellen (which is a very misogynistic and fucked up act in treating her like a property Thomas can pass on through a contract) and then tells her her husband purposefully sold her off. he acts like her spiritual sensibilities are directly connected to him, while we don't know that, Ellen doesn't know that (and she says she has had this weird situations since she was a child), he's the one treating it this way. he's a creep who then lurks into her friend's life, kills the children (which btw omg the girls saying there was a monster under the bed and that they hear it breathing??? that's even before Thomas going away) and puts on her responsibility when talking to her. Ellen is seeing everything falling apart around her, everyone will die unless she sacrifices herself and she does that tricking Orlok to suck her blood until the sun shines and the roosters crow.

by saying that I'm not thinking "eeeeewwww he's sooo bad i hate him" I'm thinking "omg this fucking weirdo... how was your pact, how and why did you answer her calls, could something/somebody else have answered her instead?" i wanna know more about him. he's a creep and i expect him to be that way, not less. again, it's a gothic story, i expected him to be a fucked up character and weird and a dark sorcerer - because he is. and a bunch of other ppl around Ellen did terrible things, but some of them were generally consonant with the time, no one did a pact with the devil except for Orlok (and Knock i guess? but I'm not sure if it's a pact with Orlok only or with the devil too, if someone could clarify I'd be grateful). he's a vampire and through folklore and myths he is supposed to do weird and scary things, it's not a "oh vampires exist how exciting and romantic, he wants me for eternity or something" story, it's a "there's this evil lurking in my life wanting to suck my blood and kill people around me and/or me and I'm spooked, having nightmares and having hysterical and melancholic symptoms according to those around me" story. which i absolutely love btw. there's a fucking ton to investigate here and I'm excited as hell and i want to eat up every 10+ pages long analysis i can get my hands on!!!!!!

(edit: btw, I'm not locking and saying that this is the true and that in right and that i can't change my mind after seeing other interpretations! if i read stuff and my opinion changes, it changed, and that's great! I'm just curious to know more ab the shit he does. and about ellen, I also absolutely want to know more about the interpretations concerning her role in all of this, i just don't think him being a dark sorcerer is forgettable. i saw a post about Ellen being Nosferatu and I'm like "fuck yeah". it's supposed to be fun, it's movies and stories and art)

(edit 2: after reading some more posts, i absolutely love the fact that Ellen is acting in a level without even knowing, and that's why Orlok's words sound cryptic at first. the way her spiritual/magical sensibilities and abilities manifest aren't something she knows how to control because she doesn't have language or knowledge, because people constantly put her in a illness place, because the way they manifest are seen as hysterical and melancholic. her being Nosferatu, her being the one causing all of this doesn't negate that on a surface level, to her, for more than half of the movie, this was never wanted. she doesn't know it consciously, it's through her sleepwalking and dreams and episodes that she has contact with these forces. and the reason why she repressed and didn't have contact with her desires is because she never had access to the knowledge that could make her a full force consciously at first. i think she wants more than one thing, is acting unconsciously to get one of them which negates the other, and because she doesn't have the proper apparatus to do it in a way that would cause less damage, it became all of this. but in the end, she gets what she wants) (the posts: 1 2 3 )

[ofbreathandflame-archive]

Why you care so much about what feyre and her stans are doing🤔

you know, im actually very glad you sent this in anon, though i know it wasn't sent in good faith. when i say feyre 'stans' - i am being 100% sarcastic. my argument is that i don't believe the people who peddle the idea that they hold feyre to be first actually believe that ideal. i also believe they end up purposely derailing actual conversations about abuse, feminism, and racism bc they don't want to actual critique rhys, so they end up selling much more intentional bs to avoid the conversations all together,

as to why that matters - i can explain.

(1) i think a lot of people who work under the idea that they like feyre 'first' believe that a female perspective = feminist. in theory, i believe a lot of rhys stans subconsciously (or consciously) understand that his actions are villainous (to some capacity). like they do understand that there's only so far they can actually support sexual assault. i think a lot of people use feyre to circumvent this issue: if feyre agrees or even likes the abuse, then it cancels out the implication of the it. and this partially because the book flocks to do the same thing - it never introspects about what x character's actions say about them as a character. think about it - even if we work with the idea that rhys doesn't enjoy the abuse he put feyre through, going as far as to reiterate that he feels shame -- we have to question why the story responds to that with plainly stating that feyre actually enjoyed the abuse and/or felt genuine attraction rhys in those moments. because then it (a) removes the idea of moral-greyness; rhysand never has to reflect because the story always believes he secretly justified. (b) there should still be a conversation about what that means. the mating bond operates as both a justification and a rebuke of feysand's actions (c) it puts into question what the story is actually arguing about feyre's trauma from utm. if feyre always secretly wanted rhysand utm...so much to unpack there. we're not genuinely rebuking abuse. and that's fine if you're drawing a scene or simply entertainment - it becomes worrisome when we considered that there is a lesson being put forth.

(2) people who use feyre as the scapegoat to often time sidestep conversations. feyre's narration is only considered when it validates rhysand's abuse - other times, the idea that we should consider canon wholly (analyze the information we're given v. what we're told) becomes nonexistent. so even though feyre has reiterated her boundaries to rhysand (and even though rhys is already aware of those boundaries via his mental snooping), there still this need to 'hear things from rhys side' - even though we know what feyre choice would have been. we know that feyre would have never wanted that information kept from her. its literally been her only consistent trait- don't lie. and as i said in this post: even the act of creating the intervention undermines three books of feyre's narration cementing her boundary.

(3) 'feyre stans' often hijack the conversations; the conversation about racism (and rhys's absue) always stalls because -- AGAIN -- there's only so much analysis they can happen before you realize the problem is both sjm's ideology and her obsession w/ rhys. at some point they always end up defending sjm (and her racism and misogyny). there's a struggle between actual unpacking rhysand's action and what that means for him as a character. they do want to have the serious conversations, just not in a way that detrimental or all-encompassing. selective reading, plain and simple.

i also believe thats why there so much overblown hate for tamlin (that in my opinion, backfired terribly esp over the last three years) is merely insecurity about the problems w/ rhys's charcater. morally, there only so many conversation we can have before the weirdness rears it head. we can't argue tamlin is abusive and then in the same breadth argue for the neccessity of the same form of abuse. we can't argue that rhys is morally-grey and then ignore the greyness area. we also cannot say rhys grows as a character if we argue that he never grows from the person we met utm. we can't say that we 'recognize' he was wrong, but then constantly uplift those very moments as moments of love. we can't say sjm has racial/moral in her story and then remove how that effects more favorable characters.

[yuukei-yikes]

OK OK DIFFERENT ANON but i hadn't seen that other post before (where you talk about shipping the 4 of them) and i absolutely love being delusional about these guys (however i have pretty low knowledge about the recent canon stuff and novels. it's mostly osmosis at this point but that's ok i think) so im here to . humbly place my two cents in your mailbox and scurry away

putting harutaka and shinaya aside for a moment because those are pretty well established already i think— that leaves:

shintaro & takane: i like to think they have like the Strongest platonic relationship on earth (in the long run. i imagine there's quite a bit to unpack and process and work on in order to get there that requires quite a bit of emotional vulnerability that neither of them are good at. but IF THEY GOT THERE like. i can very easily see them ending up in a position where they are definitely one of each other's most important people). like just quintessential Bros. neither of them talk a lot to each other but they both know that the other would drop everything to come help them if they got in any trouble. bordering on qpp with the levels of devotion but it's strictly platonic still. this is probably one of my favorite ships and there's a lot of posts of yours with this dynamic that i think about regularly bc i love them so much.

ayano & takane: completely agree that this requires quite a bit of delusion & extrapolation since there's very little in canon, BUT i think they Could be good friends . in my mind takane's internal register of Information About Ayano has like maybe 3 bullet points and mostly she just sees her as like That Guy That Shintaro Likes. i think ayano's cadence is kind of foreign to her and as a result takane only really feels like she knows her on a very surface level at first. but i think with haruka and shintaro slowly explaining how they feel about her and letting takane build up a "translator"/"model" to understand her behavior over time, she could come to respect her. my ideal endgame for this relationship is ayano helping takane feel more comfortable confronting and processing her feelings and sensory overwhelm because she's just a very emotionally supportive and caring kind of person, meanwhile takane helps encourage ayano to stand up for herself more. and cuss more. ayano texts shintaro something completely OBSCENE one day right after hanging out with takane and shintaro IMMEDIATELY knows it was her. anyway i like this a lot and i think it could be really good in a casual queerplatonic way, but it requires so much work and circumstance to set up. like this is an outline for a hypothetical 50k slow burn fic in my head

shintaro & haruka: tbh i don't really.... know what to do for this one. i think shintaro kind of sees haruka as mostly his brother-in-law or something. i think he doesn't really Get him though he does respect him and doesn't dislike him or anything. i personally just can't think of an interface to click them together 😞 i think they could be casual friends pretty well though.

ayano & haruka: i think they are mall buddies. self identified girlfriends. they get along SO well and are so bubbly and noisy together but they're not particularly intimate with one another, they're just like. bffs with 12 friendship necklaces and bracelets and matching shirts. they do each other's nails i think. i think they really love hanging out and gossiping. send each other memes and uquizzes constantly. 50 cat photos in their chat history in the past 12 hours. i don't know what you would call this relationship but i think casual queerplatonic might be a good tentative label for it??

sorry to dump an entire post in your inbox . i just got excited about the quartet. i hope you have a great day!!

sorry so old i feel so guilty i prommy i read my asks sob sob sob.

anyway im guessing this was in reference to this ask i answered about my thoughts on other yuukei quartet ships. opinion in the link still stands and i have to say i totally agree with u hehe. since u didnt read the novels u probably dont know haruka and shintaro are actually good friends, but it is true pre over the dimension the consensus on haruka and shintaro was pretty much what u described. like they didnt partícularly care about each other and shintaro especially didnt give a fuck LMAO

but shintaro and haruka's friendship is kind of everything to me even if i dont care for the ship. idk if it's because of the harutaka in my heart because i do smile with other takane ships but other haruka ships to me are like... eugh he would not fucking say that. LMAO IDK WHY. but i think shintaro would be a little gay with it and haruka's like totally uninterested. this one comic i made...

BUT like yeah even though haruka and shintaro best friends forever.... shintaro and takane BEST BEST friends forever. like u know damn well im obsessed with their friendship. they're THE best friends ever. and to me ayano is so jealous she so wants to have an hegemonic cuteful girly friendship with takane. she'd try so so hard to win her over but takane's scratching her ass staying over at shintaro's place for like the third day in a row. im obsessed with the quartet fighting over her basically because takane is the best character in kagerou project this is a real unbiased fact

i think a good layer of messy friendship group shenanigans post str is shintaro sort of... being closer to haruka and takane than ayano is. ayano feeling left out of the quartet. i love this drama especially considering a shinaya breakup situation because like. shintaro gets harutaka in the divorce🫤💔

[kickasstorrents]

OMG I FEEL LITERALLY EXACTLY LIKE THAT ANON TOO i never talk abt it bc im an artist and i try to make my blog as inoffensive as possible bc i want to sell art teehee but yeah like ppl will rip your throat out just for saying that sentiment at all and theyll be like WHAT you want PEOPLE to DIE bc of your SILENCE??? bro i might lean left but i don't think a furry account on tumblr with 800 followers posting the same thing everyone else already said on here is changing literally anything . . . Also i just dont agree with how anti nuance a lot of ppl can be here LOL but ueah i thought i was the only one. i just do not engage w it at all tbh im only here to chill

RIIGHTT like why do we always gotta be fighting each other over politics its not like any of us are in positions of power to change stuff caus if we were well the world would probably look alot different loll.. Lots of people have just become so intense abt everything it feels like. which has a lot to do w/ the like current political climate in the world but also remember not everyone has had the exact same experiences to reach the exact same conclusions as u.. sorry i had2 beer so im a bit rambly but i just want ppl to like try & understand other people w/out the frameworks of like their ideologies & stuff like just chill & like, be with people, you know..

[ficyorick]

"the original ending to the ch3 looked like this. before the very painstaking edit process the whole HL-on-Butchers-lap scene was WAY more... you know. more handsy. i decided to downplay it considerably bc I felt i was jumping the gun too early and im glad i did, i prefer butcher more tortured about the whole thing"

Would you ever consider posting this version on your tumblr? It seems interesting though i agree it would probably be too early

hi anon! i wish i could but unfortunately this wasn't the case of me just cutting out a bit and moving it to "deleted scenes" folder, this was a thorough re-edit, meaning i had to change multiple parts, multiple sentences or just a few words there and there... basically a lot of small changes that aren't as easy to save as a whole scene getting cut . the best i can do is post some excerpts that are from the pre-final edit version of the chapter which is after some editing already :( sorry if there's errors or even editing comments from me to me HEHE i tried to remove all of them

Butcher put out another cigarette in his old drink and patted Homelander’s knee then his own. 

"C’mere." 

"No." A whine. 

"Come sit on my lap." 

"Sssicko." 

Butcher grabbed his arm and pulled him with force. Another hand on his hip, the cheap costume rustled underneath his grip. Homelander made another undignified noise but he was so pliable, it felt like moving a big pillow on top of him. He was straddling his thighs, hands hanging loose from his sides, far away from Butcher. His eyes were closed as if he couldn’t stand to look at what was happening now.

"You’re ssso sick." Homelander protested but he could only sway back and forth.

"What did you say to her?" Butcher asked, looking up into his face. His heart was beating fast now. The main event. 

"Who…" 

"Becca."

"Oh Jesus…" Not this again, said Homelander’s tone. He took a deep breath. "Just do it…" 

"Do what." 

"I dunno, whatever it is you’re going to…." The colorful mess in his lap was slightly swaying back and forth, unable to find balance. Then all of a sudden, he tried to get away but Butcher grabbed him by his hip again, forcing him down. A little gasp: "You’re sick. Sssick." 

"Are you scared?" Butcher asked through his clenched teeth. 

Homelander shook his head but something wet clung to his lashes anyway. 

"I’m not gonna hurt ya." Butcher’s hands moved from the hips to his thighs. A strangled keen from Homelander. "I just want you to feel what she felt." 

He shifted his palms further in, moving to the inner side of the splayed, costumed thighs. Homelander tensed up, as much as he could while pumped full of booze. Only one of his eyes was open, peeking at him underneath clumped lashes. He was breathing fast. Butcher huffed out a hot breath of his own that couldn't stay in his lungs anymore. Homelander flinched as if the sound itself was enough to send him into a panic. The palms on his thighs moved up and down, going deeper, further up, with each shifting movement. Butcher absent-mindedly noted that the hands pressing into the cheap fabric didn't even feel like his anymore. The swaying man on his lap was still now, leaning back unnaturally. He was still watching him with just one eye, the other one blind to everything that was happening.

"What are you thinking about?" Butcher asked, no tone, no inclination to his voice. Just a neutral command. 

"Wish I could… choke the life out of you." Homelander confessed.

Butcher kept his hands where they were, his fingertips pressed into the spot where the thighs met the pelvis. He wasn’t sure if Homelander could even feel his touch through the foamy muscle padding, but judging by how frozen he still was, he could feel it. Every second of it. 

"Okay." Butcher canted his head. "Go ahead. Give it a try."

Homelander didn’t move but Butcher heard him inhale. 

"I mean it. Do it."

Suddenly, a pair of clammy hands was closing on his throat. A familiar Homelander snarl rang out above his head. The grasp on his neck didn’t obstruct his breathing in any way, it was struggling to even fully squeeze at him. All it did was make him laugh in a slightly strained way. HLs hands cant even fully close around his throat

"C’mon, put your back into it." He groaned out.

Homelander sunk his fingertips as deep as he could, putting on claw-like pressure. That, he could almost feel. 

"There we go, good lad." Butcher grunted and smiled at him.

"Want to kill you so bad." Homelander whined out, his breathing devolving into an open-mouthed panting. "So, so, so bad." 

"You can’t. Not anymore." Billy laughed. His hands moved from Homelander’s thighs to the wrists. He could feel zip-tie scars underneath his palms and he swiped over them with pride. 

"So bad…" Homelander’s grip was waning, there was no strength left in his drunk arms. He kept slurring words out, just one eye open, his pupil completely blown out: "Kill you so fuckin’ bad… rip your head off… then crush… it."

Butcher grinned, wild-eyed. He was untouchable and the scared little cunt in his lap couldn’t even do anything to fight back.

A hiccup interrupted them and just like that Homelander's entire body wobbled and he collapsed to the side like a felled tree, letting go of Butcher’s throat. 

"Fuck…" He complained. 

Butcher shoved the limp legs off his lap and got up from the couch. Homelander’s knees were on the floor now and he stepped away from him like he was on fire. Homelander was face down on the green fabric, looking like a doll abandoned mid-play, its limbs bent at weird angles.

"You can’t do anything anymore, cunt." Butcher fumbled for his cigarettes, basically smashing one of them into his mouth and lighting it up. He had to do something with his hands, his limbs were like a live wire now. One puff, two puffs. Fuck. 

_____

there was more stuff that i removed... there was actual groping i cut out, i think the choking scene had HL moving closer to Butcher, huffing and puffing at each other and then during the bathroom moment Butcher had more sexually charged revelations about how vulnerable and utterly his HL is and how THAT was making him even more into everything that was happening but i chose to replace all of that with Guilt.

[nicegaai]

Su-san anon here I love you and your opinions sm. SuIce is so tasty I agree, personally I think Ice should have the most embarrassing daddy kink known to man and Swe should be eaten up by remorse bc of how much he enjoys little Aisu-kun calling him that when they fuck. When they're done Ice feels mortified and wants to hide from the world while Swe feels nauseous and thinks he should hand himself to the police. But they end up fucking again regardless lmao. This is my ideal dynamic for them, I'm afraid.

im holding your hand and we're skipping thru a beautiful meadow...

this boy needs a father figure so bad!!!!! dare i say ice has preexisting issues about den in this scenario ...

aikun and susan are the two most repressed gay men in the subarctic and i need them to bond about it So Bad i dont care HOW but i want it to GET WEIRD i need sweden to be the only one who rly listens to him and is a supportive mentor who sees himself in ice, and ice can look up to him like the father he never had (sorry den u werent very present..) and a role model and they both develop a thing for each other that they try and mutually keep repressed ...

and at first sure they have their cute little affair sans daddy kink and its already on the edge of appropriate. they can justify a few encounters and just not want anyone else to know — norway and denmark would freak out, swedens kids dont need to know hes getting laid, iceland is not universally recognized as an adult and thats problematic, its just casual and theyre private people... whatever reason. swedens into younger men and icelands into older men and there was a lot of lowkey sexual tension and now theyre fucking and its great.

im obsessed with the extreme guilt angle youre giving them though, ughhhh thats absolute kino. i have no idea how the daddy kink would START but i just KNOWW that their communication skills are rough and post coitus they wouldnt talk out their guilt/shame/embarrassment very well. they each retreat to stew in their mental illnesses... neither can confide about this in anyone else either, theyll hold their problems inside until they die. OR until theyre horny enough to go back for more, which im sure is what their love life relies on anyway... and then the cycle continues........... hot. option 1, ice coming back to apologize really flustered and asking if that was wayy over the line.. OR option 2, sve coming back like umm heyy...(sexual intent) like hes decided that if ice was into it then its ok, and ice being like d-d-dont look at me ..... and then they fuck.

anyway i went looking for every time they interact for Evidence

hes docile because he's daddy svi's little boy and he cant be mean to him.. he'll be getting a reward for good behavior laterrrr

look at that physical contact theyre basically canonically in love. also the size difference ....... think about it...

i dont know how to end this post. suice forever

[inkykeiji]

Is it okay for me to take the 🌱 (sprout) emoji ? bc I will definitely be hanging around to ride this Sunday ship to the ends of the earth

Also also alsoooo since im already unhinged. Can you imagine the discussion when robin flies back home?? How she left two siblings and is now meeting this established MARRIED couple. I low key see Sunday in all his fanfare almost shading the siblings from each other. Like always supervising conversations and never leaving them quite alone. Bc listen he put in all this work to make you the most dutiful, satisfied and content wifey. And he loves robin yes, but she went off and made her life and he won’t let what he built at home crumble. So he sits there, smiling and comforting when robin tries to ask if youre happy and comfortable. And I imagine her getting frustrated when Sunday delves in to explain on your behalf that yes you are quite happy. And robin is just getting so frustrated and youre just smiling up at Sunday oblivious with nothing but admiration and I just. Phew. I have sooooooooo many thoughts about this man. Pls how he’s with you in bed??? Boy just the experience to tell 

absolutely bb of course you can!!! welcome to the anon club wooo 🥳🥳 hehe <3 i am v excited to have u here with me to scream over sunday!!! any sunday pieces i write will be posted over on @inkyajax! c:

tw: incest / pseudo-cest

oh robin is 100% like what the fuck sunday??? but in her polite, cordial robin terms :) it’s the absolute last thing she expects to arrive home to, and it sends her for a fucking loop initially, sputtering on her response the moment she hears her precious baby sister call their elder brother husband, quickly and efficiently choking out her surprise to be demure and discreet, just like her brother taught her. but then she takes a moment to truly reflect on it, meditating on the situation as she stares up at the glowing plaster stars still smattered across her childhood ceiling—didn’t sunday promise he’d finally have those removed?—and she can’t believe she didn’t see it coming sooner. 

she can’t believe it blindsided her. i mean, really, what more could she expect with sunday? he’s always been over-protective, over-possessive, and entirely overbearing with his need for complete control—thinly veiled ownership of his siblings. and, suddenly, robin feels immense guilt. she should’ve known better, should’ve tried harder to shield you from him, shouldn’t have turned a blind eye and gone off to selfishly chase her own dreams (and, oh, if she ever discloses these thoughts to sunday, you know he’ll agree with her, using her compassion and culpability as a weapon to hurt her more, to break her down and rearrange her views and opinions his way). 

as disgusted and disappointed as she is with her brother, robin still tries her best to keep the peace as best she can throughout these increasingly infuriating interactions, smiling and sweet even as she begins to spit certain words through clenched teeth, even as her body continues to coil with every instance of sunday cutting you off mid-sentence. 

it would be especially wise of sunday to mediate all communication between his two sisters, easily ensuring all interactions flow through him. he is, by all intents and purposes, a filter on you and your words. it’s hard for robin to trust what either of you say when you’re around each other. robin knows this, because sunday has done the same with her, several times throughout their life, overseeing her responses to reporters and fans alike. as such, you can bet your ass she’ll be attempting to devise some sort of plan to get you completely alone so she can interrogate you honestly and properly—now, whether she actually succeeds at that is another story entirely. 

what’s worse is the precedence sunday still rules over her with. sure, she can recognize this is wrong, and yes, she can feel as guilty and remorseful as she wants to, but can she resist sunday’s clever, covert manipulation? the same manipulation that she’s been eroded by, poisoned by, for her entire life? the same manipulation that has kept her unwittingly trapped beneath her brother’s thumb, tail feathers pinned under his nail? 

probably not. 

how effortless it would be for sunday to consistently and continuously chip away at robin’s resolve, at robin’s logic, to convince her that no, truly, this really is what’s best for their dear baby sister, sunday swears it. who better to take care of you, to nurture and love you, than your righteous older brother? who better to anticipate and fill your needs than your own flesh and blood, just as he always has, just as he always will? 

no one, that’s who. and robin knows this, deep down, too—sunday just has to ensure that she realizes it. 

please sprout don’t even get me started on sunday in bed i fucking black out at just the THOUGHT of that man fucking you ooohhh my god

[chamiryokuroi]

ok but what abt the art u posted with the scratches on his back or any of the other stuff youve said or how quick u were to jump to making that panel w/ bernard boxing abt him being sexy. im not talking abt 1 thing im talking abt a pattern of a 30 yo being weird abt someone who wouldve been abt 10 when you were in college. but the opinion of a grown adult woman is more important than someone whos actually bernards age and a gay man bc ofc it is. it doesnt even matter what else i say bc youre gonna ignore me so you can stand on your pedestal and preach instead of taking 1 sec to realize you might have made a mistake. and ofc im on anon when u have an army of people who would happily harass me if i wasnt XD none of you wanna discuss it u just wanna stand there and pat e/o on the backs when youre ignoring the entire point of this thing to defend the fact that youre old and in fandom. nobody cares if youre old online but we do care if youre old and sexualizing people who wouldve been in diapers when u were in middle school. would u hit on a 20 yo rn?

You’re young, and you feel unsafe, and no matter what I say you have already created an image of what I am like in your mind, because to you I am just a degenerate and it won’t change. You will take all I say and twist it to fit your narrative.

You have a right to feel uncomfortable with my art, you have a right to don’t like the content I create, but I do not have the responsibility of catering to you or anyone else, this is the third and last time I say this anon, BLOCK ME, for your own sanity of mind and my own.

So yes I have created “spicy” content of characters that are 20yos, and yes I might create more (tho I doubt will be posting it here anymore) but no I do not think it is sexualizing the character because I am not explicitly creating it to get off to it, and it isn’t even actually explicit content, and I’m sorry that you don’t agree, you are free to think what you want of me. I do not think I am above you, I just have a different way of interacting with a fandom, and that’s just how it is sometimes. That’s all I have to say to you.

And btw no, I do not have any desire to date a 20yo, and I don’t understand how anything in my art could had given you that idea.

[zombiecowboy65]

hey sorry, anon from earlier- i honestly shouldn’t have sent it which is my mistake. it was just grating on me every time i scrolled aftg/jerejean tags. and you can ignore this ask, but you did ask why it bothered me, so- i don’t think you’ve said anything that outright egregious about jeremy, but it’s a lot of little stuff added up that just makes it feel. Weird. i talked to some non-aftg friends ab it which is where it should’ve stayed and maybe it’s our echo chamber but there feels like a lot of infantilization of jeremy in response to people infantalizing jean instead

i will say quickly it’s the about the in-bed aspect as i think generally ppl put too much emphasis on that and though i disagree with some points that truly doesn’t matter. where i was coming from it’s just that a lot of your posts and hcs paint jeremy as one dimensional and make him seem pretty useless and incapable, similar to how the fandom made him a sunshiney twink with no other personality for years. it’s many generally little things added up but especially in comparison with what feels like a refusal to accept any of jeans inherent urge for softness just because he’s also angry (when it’s clear that he would love to also be able to feel safe and be soft). it feels reactionary to the opposite of what you dislike happening to jean, really- especially after a post u made recently that i can’t recall the wording of where you implied jean being submissive at all was feminine which felt genuinely just a sexist way to phrase disliking his infantilization. it’s not really about anything too specific but just the way you compare and contrast them. i do agree jeremy is the softer one and i like that he is, but a lot of your posts about him added up feel like that’s *all* he is on your blog, sort of helpless and given to jean to care for instead of the caretaker roll he does currently (but hopefully not once we get tgr) have but that gets exaggerated a lot in fandom instead of them being equal ever, which seems to be the kind of thing you do WANT that doesn’t get across due to the way you post about them imo.

anyway, this is incredibly long and pointless, really, when i shouldn’t have sent the first ask to begin with so i apologize for that. i’ll probably just block/filter if it annoys me again and im sorry for butting into your space like this, but i felt i owed an explanation after since you did ask for one

Hey! I do appreciate the explanation and I am gonna answer this if that's ok? bc I wonder if anyone else is feeling that way? Usually my posts are silly little headcanons, and I definitely don't mean it to come across as if I'm painting out Jeremy to be useless and incapable. The parallel parking thing was meant to be silly, the sitting on the counter just felt like something he'd do. The whumping stuff is really just to even us all out. Jean already took so many hits I think it's only fair Jeremy gets to take some, but I see how my stuff seems one sided.

As far as the bed stuff-I personally find issue in the Dom/sub stuff because of Jean's past, but on a separate note, I was just pointing out that usually ppl do use the term service top to reference a top who is submissive. It really took me by surprise that the majority of the fandom took it as Dom.

Also, my posts about Jean are usually about his rage, that's true, but I don't think he doesn't want softness, and I'm sorry if it came off that way. My issue is really with the takes that overdo it. And I do think he needs to get that rage out before he can heal properly, but I also think he wants to feel safe and be soft and taken care of.

I'm not really sure which posts of mine made it sound like I was handing Jeremy off to Jean to be taken care of (I think the punching of the brother maybe?), but l definitely didn't mean for that to sound that way either.

Also the post I think ur referring to is when I said ppl wanted him to be a woman? I'm a woman and really a lot of the fandom's portrayal of Jean recently reads to me like a damsel in distress, which of course is usually a woman. That on top of him bottoming typically = stereotypical / society's idea of a woman. So when I said woman I did not mean actual woman, I just meant that.

It's okay that u sent the ask, and I have my asks open so it wasn't uninvited, I genuinely was just confused bc I didn't think I was painting them out to be the reverse of what I was complaining about. This is getting kinda long, but essentially I do think Jeremy is able to hold his own and I think he'll probably go to bat for Jean in the press and maybe even physically. I also think Jean wants to be soft, but I also think he has rage. Most of my posts just tend to be about a few topics but I'll try to fix it? And post more about the other sides of them?

Idk. Sorry anon.

[yinyuedijun]

(HENGFENG BLEACH ANON) (*SMASHES THROUGH THE DOOR LIKE A SLEEPER AGENT BEING WOKEN UP*) I AM HERE I WAS BUSY W OTHER GAMES ASIDE HSR (we do not look at the unfinished paperwork at my desk do not perceive I will work on it once I'm finished doing my dailies) but yes. That. Mmmmh. Yes. Double Aventurine. Present and Future Aventurine. The wonderful self-cest which is somehow more fucked up than Hengfeng itself. I cannot write for shit. I do not have the time but mama Mao you must perceive my carnal vision. BUT FIRST FINISH 2.2 bc my idea hath spoilers for it so I beg of thee to FINISH IT.

Okay but the two "" fighting"" (i say that w quotations bc something about is it really a fight when you already know the outcome? :]) over you bc ofc the only time Aventurine will ever feel threatened is when himself is the opponent in question. I can see this happening when they're still stuck in Ena's dream, maybe [Aventurine] appears in [Kakavasha]'s dream with you. Where nothing had went wrong and [he] is the ideal man for you and everything is okay. [Aventurine] who mocks this idylic dream [Kakavasha] has by ntring him and with you becoming increasingly torn at who you want [Aventurine] or [Kakavasha]? (yes I wrote this w either translation mc or the casino table mc in MIND bc alpha malewaife mc would turn this soft real fast and turn it into a lesson for the two that no matter what they would love him and it becomes a threesome vanilla sex DO YOU SEE MY VISION MAMA MAO DO YOU SEE IT IM GONNA GO INSANE MAMA MAO)

ANYWAYS TUMBLR PLEASE SEND ONG

SCREAAAMMM HELLO HENGFENG BLEACH ANON I CANT BELIEVE THE SUMMONING RITUAL WORKED ??? now I know how to get your attention I simply need to post selfcest art of our faves HAHAHFDJSLSSJ

AND YES I SEE IT I SEE THE VISIONNN..... never did I think I would see ntr in my inbox I'm about to ascend godbless 🛐🛐🛐 <- fully revealing myself as a complete degenerate ig. I'm incredibly h-word over this but I'm also somewhat fascinated by the idea that Harmony!Aventurine ntring the reader and making them feel conflicted actually means that the reader kinda PREFERS how Real!Aventurine has been treating them in reality AGLFDJADJS VERY PAR FOR THE COURSE. especially casino pwp mc that one is a complete freak (I'm still not sure whether they're the same mc as translation but they're lowkey a freak too so it applies both ways LMFAO)

DYING that u immediately understood the outcome w alpha malewife even though I haven't posted the fic 💀 I agree it would end up with a threesome and ykw I think Real!Aventurine would end up being in the middle. the Harmony and alpha malewife will be tag teaming him and showering him with praise 👍

[gublersg1rl]

hey queen i just saw your recent posts and ignore that im biased for a second as a little innocent angel who sometimes posts smut but i agree w the anon i feel like you actually already don’t reblog/say much nsfw stuff and in the rare instance that you do it’s usually just really funny and makes me giggle a lot bc ur such a funny girl!!! i also don’t think anyone at all considers you to be like obsessed w sex or dirty or whatever like that’s sooo far from my perception of you i follow some blogs where it’s literally all they ever talk about but honestly you post nsfw stuff so rarely i feel like most people probably don’t even think about it if that makes sense like nobody’s like oh willow reblogged something sexual that’s weird she must be really into sex!! i feel like for being in a fanfic based community your blog is already way more SFW than like 90% of other blogs tbh i bet most of the blogs who follow u that aren’t even nsfw are like more nsfw than your blog and also idk when you do post something nsfw you do it in a rlly silly way that makes me laugh so much so i am definitely biased BUT it is your blog and if you’re not comfortable reblogging or talking abt nsfw things that’s literally so totally fair u have to do what makes u comfortable at the end of the day

(don’t count how many times i said like im serious don’t do it……)

also this probably could have been a dm or a comment idk why im doing it this way 💖💖

HI MY ANGEL BABY GIRL!! i’m out rn and a little distracted so i hope this response makes sense 😭😭honestly this made me realize i think i post about nsfw stuff more than i do i looked through my most recent posts and only saw like 2 “inappropriate” posts and like you said they weren’t serious at all

ANYWHO

it’s not that i am uncomfortable with posting about sex because since i’m basically anonymous on here it feels easier to talk about that kinda stuff tho i still try not to get that graphic and also not to get into but i just have a pretty complicated relationship with sex LMFAOOOO so sometimes i’m like kmg im so gross i need to delete my blog and start over im too graphic im too sexual and then 3 days later i reblog smut LOLLL

im just in my feelings and a sex hater rn but it will pass in a couple days and i’ll probs make a silly sex post bcuz i’m an animal 😔💘

this is probs all over the place i apologize but thank you for this my lover you’re so rational and smart this made me feel a lot better mwah mwah mwah

[golbrocklovely]

people on twitter are being so loud about things that aren’t correct.

1. people are saying that k and kat were friends up until k and sam got together but that’s not true. a shocking amount of people think that. kat was “friends” and i say that loosely because they were never close friends, with singer girl not k.

2. people are still going off on colby because of the poem mlp posted. they’re saying that colby always pretends to date these girls like mlp, stas, and amber. also not true. the only one of those girls that he genuinely pretended to date was amber for the video they did together. he did not pretend to date mlp. they all just played into what she was feeding them behind the scenes. same thing with stas, they were never more than friends but they let themselves get convinced by her that they were together. if any of those girls are hurting it’s because they did it to themselves. im so over that damn app lol.

and you’re right with the k live making fun of kat situation. it could be about singer girl (i forget what you guys call her haha) but because people are so mad at sam moving on they want her to be evil so bad. and people are already coming out saying “i never trusted those girls anyway” 🙂 laugh out loud. first of all, m has nothing to do with if k was making fun of kat on live bc she wasn’t live with her it was a different friend. and second of all, if every single time that snc has a girl around you have to say you had a bad feeling about them maybe you should look inward. maybe you should do some soul searching because there’s a pattern there that is toxic as hell. not every girl around snc is out to get them.

sorry this is so long i’m just so over this year and it’s literally only mid january😄 i never knew so much could happen in such a short time

honestly anon, you are absolutely right and i agree with you a million percent.

1. kat and k were never friends. i don’t even think they followed one another at any point. the only way they knew each other was bc of ms singer and kat being on the same label. but none of them were close or really even friends, besides k and ms singer.

and as we know now, k didn’t really even make fun of kat. fans were jumping to conclusions because they don’t like that sam has moved on to k, and colby has moved onto m, and so they take it out on the girls. i mean, they also take it out on colby because sam never does anything wrong and he’s the golden child but you know… same difference lol

2. this argument is one i don’t understand truthfully. even him and amber barely pretended to date. they teased the fandom like twice and that was it. they constantly reiterated that they were just flirty friends.

when it comes to mlp and stas… i could literally fist fight someone over the shit that was said lol jk

mlp has been airing out colby’s shit for the past two weeks bc he rejected her, finally. and ppl are trying to paint her like she is some innocent victim that got played by the evil colby brock. and look, i get that being rejected can suck and not having your feelings reciprocated hurts deeply. i know those feelings very well. but she claims that they were each others’ rocks, that they relied on each other for support and always came running to one another when things got tough. but now she’s casually telling fans in her live streams that colby has had multiple mid life crisis and he has secrets she can’t talk about. and then in her poems, which all have basically been confirmed to be about him, she talks about him having a darkness in him and that his shadows keep them apart and she was the light he needed and it’s just like………. for the longest time, my issue with her is that she has never been satisfied with just having colby as a friend. that she always needed more. but in the time frame of trying to get to that other side, they grew a deep bond. but now, bc she’s hurt, she’s just saying everything he told her. and that’s just disgusting behavior to me. you want to talk about the pain you’re in? that’s fine. but to air out shit he’s never even told us?? how fucked in the head are you to think that’s what one person should do to another? especially someone you called your twin soul? your rock? not to mention, but you’ve made it seem like he needs to be fixed and you’re the one to do it…

if he does have something dark inside of him, which to me just reads as her saying depression, you’re absolutely fucked in the head if you think someone like that needs fixing. especially by a horse girl like yourself. you still act like a high schooler and you’re 30. how about you get your shit together first, kiddo.

and then with stas, that shit just never happened lol she did the same thing as mlp: tried to plant seeds in the fandom that something else was going on with them. liked comments shipping the two of them, constantly answered questions about him. she did what mlp did but in a shorter time frame. and when malishkagate happened, and fans started congratulating the two of them for finally being together (even tho it’s very obvious that she took his phone after he filmed her and wrote “malishka” as the caption since clearly that man doesn’t know russian), that was the beginning of the end for anything they *could* have had. and then she went on her subscription service after they came home from europe and hung out with colby and friends one more time, only to tell her fans that she was going on a date and then posted colby. so… no wonder that man iced her out. i would too if you were going around and bragging to friends that you got posted on my snapchat 👀

also what i find the most annoying is that there are some fans that blame the downfall of the core four as colby’s doing……… as if a major component of the core four wasn’t a LITERAL couple that broke up. like bffr. and wasn’t stas literally complaining about being abandoned during one of kat’s streams and when she was asked about it, she just kept ignoring anything that had to do with stas?

but i guess that’s none of my business….