#or... you know... suffer from the angst 😇

[wield-the-mighty-pen]

Okay, time for me to share the playlist I haphazardly wrote on my notes app

these songs all have to do with Adrien's relationship with his father, with Ladybug, with others, and with himself (at least they do in my head)

Angstdrien Playlist:

Trauma by NF

Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray

Silence by Marshmello ft. Khalid

Sign of the Times by Harry Styles

The Prophecy by Taylor Swift

Something in the Orange by Zach Bryan

Falling by Harry Styles

A Little too Not Over You by David Archuletta

My Blood by Ellie Goulding

Cough Syrup by Young the Giant

Let it Go by James Bay

Vienna by Billy Joel

HELP- Someone has to stop me from making an Adrien angst playlist hjskshshabsc

[anon-e-miss]

Ex Aurae has me by the THROAT, it's so good. I love the trauma and the angst. It's delicious. I can't help but think about what a hot angsty mess it will be if Jazz and Prowl ever 'face, because you have Prowl who is VERY aware of how much power he holds over Jazz even if he would never abuse him in that way. And you have Jazz who is traumatized by all of the things that have been done to him by Praxians. Plus his trauma from Free Wheeler. 😈 There's no winning for Jazz. If he spikes Prowl, he's 'ruining' him and runs the risk of sparking him up, which would no doubt send him in a spiral after what happened with the Twins and Free Wheeler. If he takes Prowl's spike, it's just another bad time after thousands of bad times... Which would be the perfect time to finally knock him up, finally being calm and welcoming Prowl's spark in, accidentally doing what Roadrash tried so hard to do and failed. Mwahaha.

You are the master of their suffering and I love it. Thank you for sharing it with us! I can't wait to find out what happens to them. Smokescreen is going to be SO upset. Love it. Please keep up the amazing work.

The only spoiler I’m giving for this, because it comes up a lot.

I will NEVER write Jazz being the one sparked up.

I have a very visceral hatred for the dynamic. It’s very much yick for me.

Totally not shitting on anyone preferring it. I know I’m in the minority which is why I stopped reading fic and stick to writing.

Technically a second spoiler… there will be a sequel. 😇

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

I don’t know if it’s just because I’m aroace myself or because it’s the effect your writing has on me but stsg x aroace reader has been on my mind NONSTOP 😭 what have you done to me. This is literally just my idea and take on it feel free to ignore my silly little ramble I’m actually insane <33

I feel like dynamics where there’s some obstruction of sorts from it being just a regular happy healthy relationship is my fav ever because. It means there’s so much more yearning and pining involved and it’s so much more emotional I LOVE ITTTAUGHH and aroace spec reader is a great example of that. I feel like the main kinda reasoning (“obstruction”) would be how reader views the relationship they have with stsg and how they feel about it, the way it’s supposed to be just a regular platonic friendship but there’s so much unaddressed care and deep rooted love (that maybe reader doesn’t want to address) and it’s just a confusing mess of emotions. Reader being hesitant to accept that maybe it’s more than just a friendship because they aren’t 100% sure what those complex feelings that undoubtedly come with being ‘friends’ with stsg are. AND aside from aroace reader, a reader with intimacy/trust/abandonment issues or trauma that hasn’t been unpacked (take your pick!!) while it is the same kinda theme (basically just reader’s hesitance to have to face and attempt to understand their own emotions) it’s just. AUGH!! It’s such a yummy idea to me there are so many scenarios. Maybe reader just doesn’t want to be helped or is too untrusting/scared to open themselves up and be vulnerable with people again, is kinda introverted maybe, just generally like. Lost. almost as if they don’t really have a place anywhere? They don’t feel particularly special and they’re just painfully conscious of their own negative emotions + their own loneliness?? Are you seeing what I’m seeing. The type of person that could be in a room full of people and still not feel any less alone. In a way they’re a lot like sugu!!! OHHH HOW IT WOULD BREAK SUGUS HEART I ALREADY HAVE A VISION!!!! Him seeing himself in reader. Dear lord. The understanding that bond would create and him slowly coaxing reader into becoming more emotionally open because he gets it, sugu is so special because there’s an unspoken understanding between him and reader that they’re kindred spirits. as I’m writing this I am literally imagining reader and sugu sitting by the sea late at night. The sea is where lost doomed people that are overwhelmed by their own grief belong!!!! Can you hear my heart shattering and can you tell how much I love angst 😇😇😇 takes a deep sigh and leans back in my expensive chair as I dramatically overlook the city below me. Another day of being a stsg fan forcing everyone else to suffer with me because nobody in the jjk fandom will ever feel joy again

OLLIE MY DEAREST ohhhhh reading this made me so :(((( so so emotional AND I AGREE COMPLETELY what if i told you this is literally exactly what i had in mind………… we’re so connected fr

(this got Very long 😭😭 you have been warned!!)

FIRST OFF it’s crazy that you specifically mention The Sea bc !!!!! when i thought of the aroace!reader stsg fic i immediately envisioned them sitting by the sea under the stars :> i might’ve mentioned that but i don’t Think i did …… IT REALLY IS THE PERFECT PLACE FOR LOST SOULS DOOMED SOULS GRIEFSTRICKEN SOULS ETC ETC IT’S TRUE IT’S TRUEEEE i think it’s perfect for sugu/reader especially !!! T_T more on that later tho…

but okok let’s get into this I’M OVERJOYED THAT YOU’RE INTO AROACE!READER/STSG BTW I THINK IT’S SUCH A TASTY CONCEPT ….. from one aspec to another i am equally insane abt them i just. think there’s so much potential there…..

some of the things i love writing about most are 1) the blurry lines between platonic/romantic love (one of my gojo fics was actually written w a qp relationship in mind :33) and 2) the difficult parts of love/the fear of intimacy in general… it’s something i like exploring because it’s interesting + i don’t see it in fanfic often and. idk!! i just think it’s important to me that i depict a kind of love that’s very tender and healing and careful. especially since i literally only write for characters who have intimacy issues themselves LMAO

I feel like dynamics where there’s some obstruction of sorts from it being just a regular happy healthy relationship is my fav ever because. It means there’s so much more yearning and pining involved and it’s so much more emotional I LOVE ITTTAUGHH

LITERALLY THIS you put it so perfectly ollie.. T_T love with obstructions is alwaysss most interesting to me …. AND I AGREE!! if i ever end up writing this fic the focus will definitely be on reader and how they view love!! being on the spectrum is genuinely so isolating sometimes and i feel like that’s comparable to the kind of isolation stsg carry with them :’3 none of you can fully understand the others’ individual hardships but with a lot of understanding and respect i think it would go well.

… honestly i hc both gojo and geto as being on the spectrum themselves LMAO but maybe i’ll avoid those hcs to make the fic more interesting 😭😭 ace demiromantic gojo + demisexual sugu are soooo real to me they’re my pookies <333

it’s supposed to be just a regular platonic friendship but there’s so much unaddressed care and deep rooted love (that maybe reader doesn’t want to address) and it’s just a confusing mess of emotions.

OLLIE I SWEAR WE’RE CONNECTED THROUGH THE AROACE HIVEMIND BC THIS WAS EXACTLY MY THOUGHT PROCESS TOO 😭😭😭 it’s just such a tasty scenario because i feel like stsg would be in denial about their feelings at first, but then (once they’ve come to terms with it!!) approach reader immediately… i kinda pictured it as stsg already being a couple, and then confessing to reader with the hope of them joining their relationship……… and it’s so difficult because reader doesn’t really know where their feeling lies between platonic and romantic, don’t really care about the specifics, they just know that they love them and cherish them but now they feel pressured to put a label on it and i think that would just make them panic.

and it’s not at all intentional on stsg’s side !!! they’re half expecting reader to reject them, but they’re just so sincere and tender about the confession. and i think that they just won’t be able to understand reader’s feelings even when they try to explain it :’3 because reader does like them. love them. but they don’t know if it’s romantic, and they don’t really want to know. and even if they knew for sure, they might not care for a standard relationship anyway!! it would just take a lot of understanding and support from stsg to even have that conversation without reader running away, but i think they’re both so gentle when it comes to you :(( they’re always willing to hear you out, and even if they don’t understand all the aspects of being aroace, that doesn’t mean they won’t support it.

…. tbh i’m not entirely sure how it’d work out 😭😭 i think it’d have to be kind of vague but i can picture the three of them living together, going grocery shopping and cuddling and whatnot, and there aren’t really any labels there. not for reader anyway. but they all love each other and that’s enough <33

i love how we both started ranting LMAO this concept just means a lot to me so i can’t help but ramble a bit T_T BUT BUT BUTTTTT we still need to talk abt stsg with a reader that has intimacy issues/unpacked trauma… ollie literally every single part of ur ask made me feel insane in the head this is another concept that means a lot to me and i’m SOOO excited that i get to talk abt it with you!!!! :’3 i think i’ve already said this plenty of times but i’ll die on this hill: stsg would be PERFECT for this kind of reader. so loyal and understanding and accepting. they’d be so, so patient because both of them really only care about your happiness!! that’s all!!!!

and tbh i feel like no matter what kind of issues reader has specifically, it all boils down to them having difficulties with vulnerability!! showing it and seeing it and just embracing it as something important and healing. AND that’s perfect for stsg because they’re literally the same LMAO…. and in this case i think that would benefit the relationship as a whole!! it’ll be bumpy at first because i feel like all three of you would encourage the other two to open up, express themselves etc — but then not return that vulnerability. and that just wouldn’t work out!! and i think that would force you to open up, if only so your partners will do the same. same for stsg!! and it’s just soooo tender and raw :(((( but so important!!

i can honestly imagine suguru having the most trouble opening up, even though he’ll be the most insistant that you and satoru do so 😭😭 he’s a big ol hypocrite is what i’m saying. but i can see him dipping his toes into that vulnerability for you, because he knows you won’t get anywhere otherwise and he wants to be a good example for you to follow. it’d make things so much easier for reader because they aren’t the only one who’s having difficulties !! it’s all three of you!! you’re all learning and growing and loving each other so delicately :’3

now on the topic of sugu….

OHHH HOW IT WOULD BREAK SUGUS HEART I ALREADY HAVE A VISION!!!! Him seeing himself in reader. Dear lord. The understanding that bond would create and him slowly coaxing reader into becoming more emotionally open because he gets it, sugu is so special because there’s an unspoken understanding between him and reader that they’re kindred spirits.

THIS THIS THISSSSS OLLIE OUR BRAINS ARE HOLDING HANDS YOU GET IT YOU GET ITTT this is SUCH a great scenario AND IT’S SO REAL TOO… i think sugu would be the mvp in helping reader (NO DISRESPECT TO SATORU i think he would be vital in other ways!!) because like you said!! they’re the same. there’s something so soft and tender in that dynamic :’3 them talking by the sea… about their own loneliness and difficult pasts……. i 100% hc sugu as having had a rough childhood so if reader also did it’d just strenghten their connection even further. i think that what suguru needs more than anything else is understanding, so to receive that from reader, while also being able to give it in return……. yeahhhh. he’s whipped. you’d be talking by the sea looking up at the stars and he would already be thinking of marriage LMAO he’s such a sap to me 😭😭😭 he just has this moment when he realizes that he wants to Protect You Forever and it’s so special to him. he’s your pillar and you’re his anchor. (<- slowly spiralling as we speak I LOVE THIS MAN SO DEARLY…..)

OLLIIIIIEEEEEE THIS MADE ME FUCKING INSANE I’M SO SERIOUS I ALMOST CRIED both these concepts are so good T_T….. i can’t thank u enough for sharing them w me <333 YOU’RE ALWAYS WELCOME IN MY INBOX ILYSM!!!! i really feel like we see stsg the same way i swearrrr it’s the aroace hivemind…… anyway i am looking out at the city right with you………… drinking a glass of orange juice………… pondering stsg…………… they make me so sad/happy/other emotions that i don’t think human beings are supposed to feel 😔😔😔

[thewulf]

Hey my dear. I'm so in love with your stories. Thanks for making soooo gorgeous stories out of my two requests. Well I already threatened you that I've got a lot of story ideas and now I'm brave enough to send you another request 😇 but let me know if you don't like it😉 as I said one to many times I'm a sucker for hurt fics, but also friends to lovers, I know it's a trope that's a lot of written about but I can't help myself.

Bradley's longterm best friend (they know each other as long as they can think) moves to fightertown, now that her best friend Brad is permanently stationed there and she finished University. She is happy that she finally has her best friend near her, after her mom died and her step dad takes out his anger on her (both physically and mentally) there was nothing in her hometown keeping her from moving away. Bradley couldn't be happier to have her near her and be able to protect her (he doesn't know that her step dad was an abusive asshole). The whole squad welcomes her and she's finally living a happy life. But being with Bradley, old feelings bubbling up inside her. And also Bradley's long buried feelings for his best friend are visiting him. (soorry it's the typical pining best friends to lovers but I have a bit of drama and angst on the way). The whole squad notice their hidden feelings, from being Brad a little bit too protective and her being always near him seeking his safety. As Jake once more is trying to convince Bradley to admit his feelings he makes a very bad decision. He flirts with the first woman at the Hard Deck just to keep a little distance to his best friend and when a guy hits on her during a night out Bradley convinces her to date the stranger. Despite Jake who says thats a bad idea cause these guy is a creep she gives him her number. (of course her heart is broken that Bradley so easily tells her to date a guy). The date goes terribly wrong when the guy gets handsy... He spikes her drink. She notices that something is wrong, in her drugged state she tries to flee and alert Brad but he doesn't pick up his phone. One last try she calls Jake who picks up, but the guy follows her into the parking lot catching her on the phone. He gets aggressive and beats her up. On the other end Jake hears the commotion and her screams and whimpers for help. Instantly alerting Brad.....

Soooorry it's as always way to long. So I don't fill the spot from the guys driving to the parking lot to finding and her bringing her to the hospital. But maybe at the hospital when the doctor tells Bradley her condition he also tells him that she has some old fractures in her ribs, arms etc. and asks if she has a history with domestic abuse....so her step dad story is revealed.

You know I'm living for hurt and sick fics, so maybe if you like you can add some details, like she suffers from asthma and having panic attacks because of the harassment of her step dad?! So we can see some protective Bradley and Daggers?

I hate myself for annoying you with this loooong request, I am so sorry.

I hope you doing ok. Send you love =) 🤍🤓

Ahhh hello again! You always give the best requests!! I love a good beat friends to lovers trope! I also haven’t given Bradley a fair shake, tend to write more Jake than Bradley so I’m def going to have fun with this one!!

I’ll probably make the hurt scene a little more PG and might change a few things around that so it’s not graphic or uncomfortable to people!

I’ve got two requests ahead of this one but I’ll def get right on it once the other two are done :)

I’m back from family vacation on Monday so I’m hoping to start cranking these out after that! Might be about two weeks after editing and making sure it’s good enough to post :)

I’ll make sure to tag you as well!!

[idyllic-affections]

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, ALL THE DRAGON KID-FRIEND-SIBLING HUGS FOR FURINA.

It bugged me so god damn much how we never actually apologized to her at ANY POINT for what happened. Yes, it needed to happen, yes it was something that was absolutely inevitable if we wanted to save Fontaine from the wrath of Celestia, and finally free Furina from her torment. But we still manipulated, lied, and put her in an extremely uncomfortable position to achieve that end.

You'd think the least we could offer was a brief "I'm sorry."

🐉Anon

JUST LIKE. IDK. I NEED TO HUG HER SO FUCKING TIGHTLY DUDE SHE DESERVES SO MUCH AFTER EVERYTHING SHE SUFFERED THROUGH. DID ANYONE EVER SAY "I'M SORRY"?? NO. AND NOT EVEN A "THANK YOU"...... BRO THESE PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKED UP, DIDN'T EVEN THANK HER FOR NOT GETTING THEM ALL KILLED, BUT SHE LOVES THEM ANYWAYS AND STILL THINKS THAT THEIR ANGER TOWARDS HER IS VALID AND JUSTIFIABLE 🙏🙏🙏 GOD. MY ROMAN EMPIRE FR. FONTAINE IN GENERAL IS MY ROMAN EMPIRE NOW. I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HOW INHERENTLY TRAGIC ITS STORY WAS. YES FORCING FURINA'S HAND WAS NECESSARY, BUT GOD??!?!???? YOU ALL COULD, IDK, APOLOGIZE?????? EVERYTHING SHE DID WAS FOR THE PEOPLE OF FONTAINE. EVERYTHING. AND YET YOU ALL THINK YOU JUST GET TO MOVE ON? NO. APOLOGIZE. RIGHT FUCKING NOW 🗣🗣❗️❗️❗️❗️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

idk man. just imagine. perhaps neuvi's child was born shortly after she was instated as the "hydro archon," or perhaps slightly before. it really doesn't matter. the point is that they've known her all their life. she's like family to them at this point (Umm. something something a dragon's possessiveness of their loved ones..... Yeah) and to see how literally no-one has bothered offering her an apology or a thank you for her efforts makes something unidentifiable burn in their chest. i choose to believe that neuvillette apologized 😇 or we could go with canon and say he didn't, and you know... slight father/child angst. anyway. so, when seeing how no one has apologized and thanked her, they decide to do it themselves. they get her address from their father and show up to her home with a lakelight lily and one of her favorite cakes (they remembered, of course they did, she's their best friend, why wouldn't they remember?). and when she invites them in, because... they're probably the first person to come seek her out, you know? she would miss them after moving out. :( they quietly set down the gifts they've brought for her and just squeeze their arms around her. and quietly apologize to her and tell her that all of her efforts have been acknowledged (by them, at least), and they're so proud and thankful because fontaine would literally be gone by now if it werent for her.

idk i am so normal about furina i promise (is lying) 🙏🙏

[kneelingshadowsalome]

GIRLIE I LOVE YOUR WORK ESPECIALLY THE ONES ON AO3!!! IM TRYNAA BE LIKE YOU BESTIE, PLEASE CAN I HAVE SOME WRITING TIPS/111!!!!???

(btw i really love man-sized, just finished it a couple days ago and AAAAAAAAA ITS SO GOOD I SWEAR!!!! LIKE MARRY ME PLEASE?!!?!)

Oh my goodness. You must be what they call a pookie 😘❤️ (I will marry you or adopt you, there's no middle ground.)

Thank you so much, you're making me blush!

I'm probably not the best person to give advice because I don't really know what's going on with my writing… It's a godawful mess. But I'll try!

So, writing tips under the cut ->

1. This might be boring and said a 100 times before, but... Show, don't tell! Obviously, I break this rule all the time when I go inside my character's head and explain how they feel and not just what they see, smell, hear, and touch. But if you're writing angst or fluff like I am, I'd say you must go inside the skin to dig into the character. (Also, f* the rules 😇)

2. If you don't know where to start, start with the dialogue. Even if it's just 4-10 sentences per scene. Then you can fill the gaps with some action, emotion/sensation and worldbuilding. But dialogue is actually the heart of your story and it creates some of the best tension; treat it with respect! Also: less is more with dialogue. Not always... but usually is.

3. Write from your own experience. We all have something to draw from, even if it's something as simple as how it feels to skinny dip in a cold lake. Or a hot bathtub. How does it feel to wake up from a nightmare or kiss someone you love? Like, truly feel? Don't tone it down!

4. If you want to sound more poetic, use metaphors and symbols and mythology. If you want to sound original, use history and culture and simply anything you have up your sleeve. All the "useless" knowledge: bring it on baby! When used sparingly, these can add to the depth of your storytelling.

5. Sculpt the paragraphs, then focus on the sentences, then hone single words. Whip out a goddamn dictionary. Search synonyms online (Thesaurus etc). Work with the words until they sound right for the story you wish to tell. Choose words that are most "alive" in your story's context, words that inspire feeling and stir emotion.

6. Read your story out loud or at least inside your head. That way you'll notice the errors and can fix the flow and rhythm of the story. Everyone loves a well-paced story! Sometimes just moving a sentence to a different paragraph or deleting it entirely can resolve an issue.

7. If you write a long fic, establish a core problem in the first chapter and remember to solve it before the story ends. For example in Man-sized, I presented an issue of trust. It was heavily inspired by my own lack of trust in men and the fear of getting played. Again, don't be afraid to draw from your own experience!

8. Music can help set the mood and bring out your creative flow. I have numerous playlists for writing or create a new one for the particular story in mind. If I want to write some heavyweight yearning, I'll blast some heavyweight yearning songs while I write. I don't know if this works for everybody; some people might need silence and space for creating.

9. The most important tip: WRITE FOR YOURSELF. Write the difficult, the overwhelming, the taboo. Write the most self-indulgent, shmexy scene ever! Or the fluffiest meet-cute that puts a smile on your face.

And if you're one of those writers who are not happy with their writing... write some more. Play with it, just don't give a shit. Let the inner demons give you courage and inspiration. Write about how shitty it feels to feel inadequate. You might find you just wrote some good poetry on suffering.

It's always better to write from love and joy instead of fear and shame – besides, life is too damn short to feel ashamed! Live a little and enjoy what you do, let writing be your escape. It's supposed to be a shelter where you can flee to when life is dull and hard and unfair. If other people's writing inspires you to write, then read. If other people's writing puts you down, save yourself some heartache and don't engage: just mind your own business and do your own thing.

Hope you found some of these tips helpful 💕 Much love 🩷💋 and happy, reckless writing!

[blucassiopeia]

hi! so in your main fic masterlist the preludes have a star next to each spinoff BUT Kuroo and Osamu have two. Osamu’s prelude is a two part story DOES this mean Kuroo has another part -yet to be released- too? 🤔🫣

also in the chapters list, after ch15/ch16 (don’t remember) all the preludes boys are listed: does it mean that’s where part of all the preludes stories take place (chronologically speaking)?🤔🫣🫢 Is that chapter Ran’s wedding?

i have yet to read Osamu’s prelude, but excluding Kags’ and Sakusa’s ones, Ran’s wedding day is one of the main topics on the spinoffs…

does it make sense? i dont know how to english anymore 😑

Also, while reading the warnings/tags i saw something interesting 🤨: Ran’s illness(?)…Is that why Kuroo is going to be up Ran’s ass so involved in Ran’s life even after she’s happily married with kids? at a certain point in her life, Ran was/is/will be ill 😷

im the anon that a while ago sent a long ask about the spinoffs and i was lowkey happy to see kuroo suffer 🤭

…so, im about to get - once again - in my kuroo angst hole 😬😬

reader (kuroo’s story) is not dying, bc you said she won’t. but she will get into an accident (saw your ask about your 2nd fic + the ideas you have for the plot - kuroo’s war flashbacks 🤭🫣). In the end of the kuroo spinoff i got a feeling that he realised he MIGHT be a little too late in accepting his own feelings towards reader (that’s why i thought she was dying) like they were already there but he REFUSED to accept them and at the same time by being so present in Ran’s life he kept fuelling his one-sided love towards Ran EVEN tho he knew from the beginning that he never had a chance with Ran (he asked this question to kenma if im not mistaken)

so giving my two cents to this 2nd story: the main couple is going to be kuroo x reader and time wise is going to be AFTER reader’s incident and we (readers) are going to know what happened through flashbacks (possibly from kuroo’s pov bc he saw with his own eyes what happened to reader) 🫣🤭

last thing: gut feeling (don’t know if it’s because you have hinted something/replied to someone) but Kuroo not so lowkey hates Osamu. Imagine if Ran got ill bc of Osamu 🤔🫣 like what has Osamu done to make him feel so guilty and wanting to redeem himself towards Ran 👁️👁️

sorry for the long ask

ps. wishing all the best to canon!Kuroo BUT the kuroo in your universe deserves all the angst until proven wrong (just bc he make reader suffer) 😇

oooooHhh the starss, you should listen to them, those are the soundtracks i listened while writing the preludes. you noticed the c2:saitama skies? it also has one already too.

the boys are listed because they'll be playing a big part of that scene after what happens there (also in Ran's life hskshwkhl), it'll be like a "breather" because the following chapters are heavy angst so i needed my readers to relax a lil bit then hit y'all in one go. noticed the last one being still empty? that's ran's hubby's special chap. so the scope of those chapters are from the moment they met ran, to the present [5 years after she got pregnant and got married].

yep, ran has illness, you should really read sakusa's prelude to give you a heads-up 🤣 and yes, that's one of the reason why kuroo's so involved, and i mean all of them too. but that's just not all of it. you'll know sooon.

OKOK, ill make myself very very clear, maybe i said kuroo's yn will die or she won't, just y'all to keep thinking about what i truly mean in that last scene of kuroo's. that last scene is in the last chapters of the fic. it'll be branded heavy angst so you should expect some.. ykyk.

AND OHHHHH, the 2nd fic [EIGHT] is relatively different. it's apart of the 1st fic in some sense but still connected. it's not a continuation of falling stars. you shouldn't confuse yourself with that for a while. we still have 20ish chaps before that. 🤣

[1st fic] i might've mentioned kuroo being on the same stage as osamu. so that's maybe a hint of what really happened/will happen. both of them deserves all the angst i have. ✌🤭 if you ever read vanilla twilight, you'll have a huge idea what their relationship with each other and with ran is.

about EIGHT [2nd fic], it's still ran x her plushie, but in a diff sense. kuroo and the others will still be there, and kuroo and osamu will still play a bigger role than the rest, and some of the characters too.

and kuroo hates osamu because of something that i made a fic about......... or something 🤭 and i just answered something related to this. osamu made a grave mistake, and kuroo knows about it, shirabu knows about it, tooru too, and maybe yuki too. the last line in osamu's prelude is a hint. and noooo, ran didn't get ill because of osamu 😭

you'll know in the ficcc, i'll be back after 1-2 months because i'll be away with no wifi access with me so....

thanks for collating your queries agaiiin. i had fun answering and spilling some infos for ya guys ❤

[veephoenix]

DAY TWELVE REVIEW BY VERONICA - UNIVERSITY OF TUMBLR - FANFICTION DEPARTMENT - APRIL '24 - Words: 1.6k

I always have so much fun writing these things, but also I put myself through suffering because I have to reread all the angst, which I also love. Do I make sense? no.

Listen

OLIVER SAID THE THREE MAGIC WORDS!!!!! HE SAID I LOVE YOU!!!! AND I KNEW IT!!!! I LOVE MAKING ANALYSIS AND FINDING OUT I'M RIGHT!!! (I feel like I should keep writing in caps to convey my feelings but I also feel it might be too much, so switching back to small).

This was the most dreamed cliché scene ever, and I don't mean it in a bad way. A decade ago, whenever I read stories or watched movieS or wrote stuff myself, I always pictured this moment between the two main characters when they would finally sleep together and they would confess to each other. It was the climax of EVERYTHING. I feel like we all lived in that moment for a while, didn't we? when we thought that love was always sweet and blablabla. Now it's more like just spank me and call me good girl, you can make me breakfast in the morning and then profess your love with your mouth full of pancakes, but anyway... We didn't ask but YOU DELIVEREDDDD I needed this scene and I wouldn't have had it any other way!!! IT.WAS.PERFECT. I had butterflies in my stomach the whole time. It was all I ever dreamed of as a reader ten years ago with the level of maturity, highs and lows, that we didn't know back then but that WE STILL NEED NOWADAYS AS FREAKING ADULTS BECAUSE WE'RE HOPELESS ROMANTICS. Am I making sense? I'm just writing all these things without going back to edit, so I hope you get what I mean.

Moving onto the next thing:

He said I love you while being inside of her 🫠

Oh, I'm still stuck in that moment. Okay.

“Again,” I demanded.

“I love you.”

I would have been as shocked as her, and demanding the same thing over and over again. 😇 oli loves aubrey. national bank holiday please

"Oli avoided the playful slap coming his way, catching onto my wrist and pressing a kiss on it before letting go again." hot? better: HOT AND SWEET 😙

He sighed in mock annoyance. “You’re really going to make me go all sappy here, aren’t you.” Dude we love it when guys get sappy, so start talking

“I’m not letting you out of this bed until you do.”

“That’s not as much of a threat as you think it is.” I knew he would say this 🤭

“You don’t need to say it back,” he mumbled, stroking my hair in such a delicate manner that I wished I could purr to convey just how perfectly comfortable I was. He was trying to be brave. As if it was okay for him that he’d just bared his soul and I’d simply taken it all with open arms and a smile. As if he didn’t need to hear those words just as badly. That he could accept if I didn’t feel the same." L, your ability to make me go from BUTTERFLIES, FLOWERS, RAINBOWS, to my heart breaking is absolutely sensational and also dangerous. I'm scared of you now, and considering there're just a few chapters left... Please, be gentle with me 😔

The whole scene in the bed, so many i love yous, so many kisses... i'm on the floor and i will continue writing this review from there.

What I said about you putting me in a rollercoaster: one minute they're talking so softly and concerned about Noah, and then they're giggling because they realized now they're boyfriend and girlfriend. I need to do some meditation after each chapter of this fic, I swear.

Not Ruffilo writing his full name on the message 🤣

“You’re my girl for, what, four hours and you already leave me for another band!” He exclaimed, approaching me with long strides, hands immediately on my bare ass. He had only just managed to put on a pair of clean boxershorts and I repaid the gesture by letting my fingers trail down his chest. “Unbelievable.” Such a drama queen, jesus christ

“I kind of need to run an errand before bus call anyway.” 👀 I know from experience when writing about this guy that he's always up to something when he says things like this.

Another I love you! 😻 I will scream every time they say it to each other.

"But toward the end of the night he kept babbling about how he just wanted to talk to you, again and again.” come here, cupcake, you can talk to aubrey anytime you need to, we all want to help you <3

“That’s very sweet, but not answering my question,” I chuckled, enjoying the softness of his strands on my palm. “I hope they didn’t stress you out too much?” I really like the way Aubrey interacts with Noah, how she's so concerned about him and keeps checking in on him whilst letting him fuck her 🤭

He lied! I knew, you knew, we all knew. I'm so glad they're slowly coming to terms with their own feelings and learning about what they want.

"But the idea of anything more than that terrifies me.” we love and adore a brave and honest cupcake

“Now I can’t stop thinking about being on my knees for him all the time and letting him do whatever he wants with me.” 🫠 will i make it to the end of this fic? probably not

“Yeah? Is that what you want? For me to tell Oli to do you however he pleases? That you… want to be a good boy for him? Be told what to do? And you’d let me watch, too? Maybe get a little involved?” i just... can't.

“Do you know if Dom’s here yet?” Why did my mind instantly think that it was one of them referring to the other as the DOM as in dom/sub 😂 i really need to go to church

“So, who here is fucking because I’m getting mad sexual energy from all of you guys.” I like him already! hahaha

“Is that what you call his dick?” Oli's charm? Not a bad idea tho

I love me some curious Noah. I think his arch in this story is going to be the best one and I cant wait to see him happy, confident, and free <3

The poor cupcake is feeling insecure, nooooo "because they’ve known each other longer and they live closer together and… yeah.”

"Unless you’re joining an existent romantic relationship, this is new for all of you and you gotta figure out how the three of you work together.” This is such a good point, actually.

“Get to know each other as much as you can and never take anyone for granted. Make the distance work for you. Get everyone as involved as you can, but remember that when someone feels left out because of things like being far away, it’s not a matter of the other two loving them any less.” we're gonna have to give Dom an award after all

"Oli and Noah on the couch kissing so softly that it almost made my heart ache. They were fully intertwined, limbs entangled and all over each other and it gave me hope like nothing before ever had. That wasn’t making out or fucking for the fun of it. This was both of them pouring the emotions they couldn’t vocalise just yet into every single movement." I will print this out and read it like the bible every morning

THE KEYS TO HIS PLACEEEEEEEE WHYYYYYYY WHYYY HE GOTTA DO THIS I'M IN LOVE WITH HIM AND THEM PLEASE I CAN'T TAKE IT

AND HE ALSO GAVE A COPY TO NOAH BEFORE HE STARTED POUTING ON THE COUCH PLEASE

L, the transition from that moment to them getting intimate was so beautiful. My favorite part of the chapter without a doubt. The little details, struggling to undress themselves, then both men being shit at unclasping a bra 😍

“I get her nice and wet on my dick and then you finish her off.” everything'sok veronicasoknoneedtowrry

"My hands immediately flew back to his head, but he only needed to look up and shoot a stare at Noah for the other man to understand." When they communicate with their looks... that's just so fucking hot. don't give me a break i want more

“You want that, don't you? You want us to push your limits.” This is FORESHADOW TO THE ACTUAL THREESOME AND NOBODY CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE

The whole lyrics dialogue was so on point like, how did you do it? it didn't feel forced on the narrative or silly dialogue. I could actually hear their voices in my head, their expressions as they teased each other.

This work is a piece of art, in case i haven't said it before.

"Perfect little pussy that's just made for us." no but when they just talk about here like this? this is what i live for bye

!But none of them made their way out of my brain as sleep took over all three of us, letting us fall asleep in a puddle of post-orgasmic haze and at least temporary happiness.!

Has anyone else noticed that Aubrey is in a roll? she's been getting the d for four nights straight now (if i haven't lost count). EVERYTHING FOR THE QUEEN

2 MORE SLEEPS UNTIL NEXT CHAPTER, AM I RIGHT? (or two more days of no sleep, i'd say). The two things i'm more excited about is noah realizing he's also in love and being told they love him, and THE THREESOME™

in love with the mess - day twelve

summary : Aubrey is going on tour and, for once, she’s decided to focus on having as much fun as possible. Oli can be a little shit but he does nothing short of adore Audrey and… well, maybe Noah a little, too. Noah likes the flirting, as long as no one gets too close, emotionally. But what will happen when the three of them take it too far?

content : smut (p in v, oral (f receiving), dirty talk, some degradation), angst, fluff, Yungblug appearance lol

length : 8.3k

tags (let me know if you want to be tagged!) : @veronicaphoenix @cookiesupplier @lma1986 @jilliemiw86 @bngurngheart @lacktoesandtoddlerants @narcissisticbehavior81 @flowery-mess @shilohrosechicken @justeli6 @starvingarsyn @floatinglikeaswan @blacksoul-27 @somebodyels3 @kageyasma @spikeisdaddy @broken0mens @sunsshinesunny

a/n : time to find out what you’ve been craving to know for a week! enjoy and leave a comment 💕💕

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day twelve

Spending the whole night talking after an exhausting show, knowing fully well we had an early bus call, a four-hour drive to London, soundcheck and another show, wasn’t the wisest decision Oli and I had ever made, but it was a completely necessary one.

Keep reading

[shuckinbeanz]

never apologized

warnings/notes: reader is preggers, angsty angst, Katsuki being an asshole, ya'll aren't good at feelings, heated argument that leads to a divorce, reader moves out to seek shelter until they can get back on their feet at the Aizawa's bc he's such a dad and his s/o is such a parent :3

I'm sorry I haven't been posting and have just been reblogging, I'm suffering from very bad writer's block and tryin to get over it 😩 its hard

His highly requested Part 2 right here that I kept forgetting to add!

Underage characters are Aged Up!

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dead inside </3

“The fuck’s wrong with you, bitch?!” he roars, despite the tears threatening to spill from your eyes. “I don’t know, that’s a really good fucking question, asshole!!” you scream back at him. “I have been driving myself insane–” “Then stop driving yourself nuts, easy fuckin’ peasy!” he interrupts, “Making a complete ass of myself!” you scream over him, remembering all those times he’d flat out ignored you. You tried to be an understanding spouse for the longest time. “I tried literally everything I could, everything possible–” “Everything possible, my ass! You just cling then nag, nag, nag!” 

You tried to give him a chance. More chances than you could count. You already had everything you owned packed and moved out. “I tried to keep what we have!” “What we have?!” he replies, incredulously. At this point, what he was doing…was neglect. He hasn’t even noticed your growing belly. “You just continue-” “Nag!” “-to fling yourself-” “Nag!” “-at your fucking work-” “Nag! See?!” he roars louder than before, and your tears finally fall.

“You are annoying! We might as well have nothing because of you! Fuckin’ crybaby, don’t know why I even married you!” he spits, venomously. Silence follows as you tremble, enraged. Crybaby. You feel scalding heat and prickling cold flow through your veins, numbing all of your senses. Crybaby. And all that’s left is your raging maternal hormones accompanying your fury. Crybaby.

Something in you snaps.

“Fine.” you agree, your voice wobbly, your tears still flowing. “Since you hate crybabies so much, you won’t be able to see your fuckin’ child, I’ll make damn sure of it!” you seethe, marching to the front of the lonely luxury apartment. You needed to get out. You refused to take any more. “I hope a villain cuts off your balls, because you’d be a worse father than Endeavor ever was!” you screech at him as you fling open the door with strength you never knew you had, “Fuck you, Katsuki! Consider us divorced!!” and shut behind you, leaving a shell shocked bastard behind. You scurry down the hallway, forgoing the elevator, in favor of the stairs. You attempt to mash in the code several times, tears blurring your sight, before the door finally clicks.

"FUCK!!"

You could hear him roar--crashes and angry explosions following as you push open the door, hurrying down several flights of stairs and to the vehicle that would take you away, adrenaline rushing through you, with only one goal in mind; to get as far away as possible from your shattered home.

You stride through the reception hall, pushing open the final doors, trembling and sobbing. It was raining, absolutely pouring, but you could see a familiar dark figure ahead on the phone, standing beside his vehicle, waiting for you.

You make the last paces, all but plowing into him, earning a grunt from him. "They're here." he says to the person on the other end, hanging up on them and wrapping both arms around you for a brief, tight squeeze, as you sob. "I got you, now, problem student." he tells you comfortingly. He reaches to open the back door of the car. "I'm taking you home, alright?" he says, coaxing you into the vehicle. Once you're seated, a soft and grateful "Thank you, Aizawa-sensei..." passes your lips. His eyes widen momentarily, a soft huff escaping him as he smiles fondly. "No problem, kiddo." he says, then closes the door before getting in, himself. Seats are buckled, the engine is started, headlights are turned on...and he begins the journey to where you will call home until you get back onto your feet. He and his spouse agreed to help you out after you broke down confiding to him, however long you needed.

You stare out the window at the passing buildings. Even though your marriage with him was as good as over forever, you still couldn't help but remember.

When did everything go so frigid? You couldn't help but remember...the beginning.

The pouring rain brought back those memories. The good ones.

He was so warm. You remember every single one of his expressions. The way he'd pout, face pink when you got the upper hand over him. His wide grin as he'd laugh along with you. The soft smile as he held you close.

You remember him being far more nervous than you were when it came time to meet the parents. Trust me, you were a nervous wreck when you went to meet his parents. He'd nitpicked about every little thing. Everything had to be perfect, he insisted, despite your constant reassurances.

When he proposed. The wedding. The blissful years after, then...

When did your marriage fall through? Honestly, you might not be sure.

You could feel your eyes stinging from crying, desperate for sleep.

You thought he loved you. He was your only.

Against your wishes, they begin to close.

You just want everything to be...like it was, before.

But you knew that was impossible...so you dream.

[baeshijima]

hello soph and followers of soph! bubbles anon finally resurfaces to continue the war path of angst! ❤️😇

and victim today… ZHONGLI! muahahahahha- and a bit of childe, but that comes later

okay so, we do know zhongli‘s aka rex lapis‘ sob story with guizhong. well, let‘s make it soulmate au 😆 so, guizhong is rex lapis soulmate, bla bla, they love each other very much, are happy even tho there is a war. well, thanks to this war and some gods who are very mad at rex lapis, they curse guizhong right before she dies. (yes, the abyss is now my place for hell, it isn‘t canon abyss but she still suffers)

her soul doesn’t rest, it is sent right to the abyss. which means, guizhong is still alive. now in this soulmate au, if one dies, the other doesn’t live very long and dies shortly after too.

rex lapis doesn’t 😇

he doesn’t know what happened to guizhong‘s soul and how she suffers. he thinks something is wrong with him and this leads to self hate. he tries to kill himself, several times, but he is now truly immortal. a soul in the abyss can‘t die, it‘s cursed to be there forever.

rex lapis is now known to be the undying adepti. celestia is intrigued and they give him the geo gnosis, thinking of him the perfect geo archon. in this au, rex lapis is much more fierce and blood thirsty, truly a dragon. he protests his folk, his adepti and people and if one dies on the hands of other gods- well, prepare for hell on earth, it was nice knowing you 🫡

now, fast forward to canon time, rex lapis slowly calmed down but he is still the most feared archon in teyvat. liyue is very proud of their god and their power they got from his reputation and actions.

zhongli still exists, but he is a well known figure. people suspect he is an adepti, and lady ningguang ‘accidentally’ confirms it. he holds political power too and is something… like a bridge between the adepti/rex lapis and the mortals of liyue.

when zhongli hears how the tsaritsa prepares dor war, he sends her a warning, a few fatui heads in liyue to her palace and tells her to keep away. he doesn’t want war, not with celestia nor the other archons. he is content how he is right now. but tsaritsa still wants his gnosis and this why she sends childe.

childe, this stupid man, falls in love with zhongli. and zhongli? he humors the mortal who fell into the abyss. childe truly thinks zhongli likes him, maybe even loves him, even if he knows they are not soulmates. but it’s not abnormal now to find love outside of soulmate bonds and this is why childe has hope. childe has hopes, hopes that someone finally loves him how he is-

said hopes gets crushed by the geo archon himself, who reveals his identity with a cruel smirk, while the well known spear pierces his chest.

“oh dear ajax… did you truly think i would let you steal my gnosis? truly? a mere mortal? it’s almost funny, don’t you think?”

but is childe dead? no, zhongli doesn’t kill the harbinger, not when this would be only an excuse to tsaritsa. no, he has something far more sinister in his mind.

this zhongli is just unhinged, he has no compassion for anyone who is not part of his nation. he will go over corpses if it means to keep his nation peaceful, to keep his last promise to guizhong

zhongli erases childe’s memory and strengthens his feelings for the 'adepti zhongli', slowly erasing childe’s loyalty to tsaritsa and making him his. but he is not truly his, childe is still shneznayan, not from liyue and this is why a part of zhongli hates childe.

and guizhong? guizhong’s soul still suffers, mad from the thousands of years in hell, mad with grief, with pain- and zhongli slowly forgets her, burying her memory deep and without remorse. he finally accepted her death, she won’t come back, there is no reason to hold hope for her to come back.

this is why they say rex lapis has a heart made out of the hardest stone, to anyone who is not his subject and under his protection.

bubbles anon 💕 god damn, this is definitely the longest thing i wrote and i’m not going to proofread this, hope my mistakes aren’t to bad lmao

once again bubbles nonnie, why. /lh

UR ANGST IS SMTH ELSE WHAT GOES ON IN THAT WONDERFULLY SAD BRAIN OF URS 😭😭

[taegularities]

n, q, r, x

Because 😇

hello there 😌

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

ugh, yeah the ghibli fic i'm working on rn. for some reason, i'm having a super hard time writing it, someone take the burden off my shoulders LOL

Q: How do you feel about collaborations?

ohhh, i love them when the energy matches. like @hoebii and i find it super easy to collab bcos we work really well together. idk about other people, but after the fic i'm working on rn, i'm gonna take a BREAK (phew) anyway

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

answered in another ask but: yeah there def are people who've been an influence for me from the beginning (and i think they know)

X: A character you enjoy making suffer.

i'm an angst maniac. i make all my characters suffer :') but after all the pain, they mostly get a (semi-)happy ending, cos hurting them hurts me too :]

[shuckinbeanz]

Did I?

warnings/notes: ayyy inspo came up after hours of spotify lmfao i hate writer's block 😂 reader has a sweet li'l tot, inspired by a song, this is a few years after divorce, reader is a BAMF, reader may or may not have a piece 🥴, C/N = child's name, angst with a soft ending of the start of reconciliation? or not! up to ya'll 🥺

Underage characters are Aged Up!

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tags: @jazzylove

did i? did i?

Only a few years old, but damn, your kid was protective, and you were proud of them. The ever observant tot noticed an unfamiliar hulk approach you, and waddled up to cling onto your leg protectively, craning their head up and bravely giving the man the cutest glare.

The man-your ex-husband, stared back down at them, and the contest continued before your fellow side-kick approaches. He was a sweet young man, helping you out with your kid, sometimes. "Hey, can I--ohh." he speaks up, immediately recognizing the harsh pro-hero, shrinking somewhat under his glare. "Nah, I'm fine." you give him a sweet smile, and he smiles back. "Alrighty, I'll take Totter, then. Upsy-daisy, baby!" he says to your kid, bending and hooking his hands under their arms, hauling them up and moving them to settle on his hip as he closes in to whisper to you. The moment they are picked up, they start throwing an angry tantrum; somewhere along the lines of they were so close to chasing off the scary man! "Call if you need me, yeah?" he whispers, and you giggle. "I know, hun." you reply, the nickname heating up his cheeks. But it's long forgotten by a sudden punch from the toddler who was now near-tears, and he's off bouncing your kid in his arms, attempting to soothe them.

You wave your hand in front of a livid Katsuki's face, noticing his glare at the younger man. "Don't glare at him." you say once you gain his attention. "Who is he?" Katsuki growls. "I don't need to answer that. Touch him, and you're dead to us." you snap back calmly, despite the anger bubbling up in you. Who did this asshole think he was, getting jealous after everything he put you through?

He narrows his eyes down at you, clenching his jaw. You take a deep breath and sigh. He approached you on his own, so he probably wanted to speak to you. Some of this anger simmers, and you open your mouth to start.

"I'm sure, you've got a lot of things to say." you speak up, knowing that look in his eyes. "I know...you had a lot of things on your plate." you grind out. "But..." you trail off, stopping yourself from calling him familiarly. "But that doesn't excuse what happened." you tell him firmly, and he averts his gaze. "Remember when you promised you'd always be there...for me? By my side, and all that?" you say, your heart thudding-and not in a pleasant way-at the memory, noticing he was looking towards your child who was now happily preoccupied. "I told them the truth." you tell him, and your words make his gaze lift to yours. "Daddy got so busy, he couldn't keep his promises." you say, striking a chord in him. You could tell by they way he'd winced, wearing a pained expression.

Why did he look so hurt, when he hurt you most?

You snort, feeling a few tears begin to gather at your eyes. "Did I hurt your feelings when I went through that door?" you ask. "What I said, I meant it." you tell him. "Did I hurt your feelings movin' to the Aizawa's for a year? Not letting you see me, not answering your calls?" you ask.

His pitiful look only made you angrier.

"Did I hurt your feelings when I moved out, not leaving a fucking trace?" you ask. "I hope you fucking suffered." you tell him. "Did I waste my fucking time...trying to keep what we had afloat?" you ask him, "Y/N, I--" "Yeah. Yeah, I think you were right." you interrupt him, "I wasted all those years, and that's on me." hitting the nail in the head.

'You are annoying!'

"You can try to say you didn't mean it." you interrupt him again, not letting one excuse in.

'We might as well have nothing because of you!'

"Try to say there was nothing behind it." you say.

'Fuckin’ crybaby,'

"Every fucking word. I know you meant every fucking word, Katsuki." you pin him with your words, leaving him defeated.

'Don’t know why I even married you!'

"I know you." your voice wavers. "Even if you don't mean it now..." you trail off, a few tears falling. "You meant it when you said it." you say. You fish a pocket mirror and some wipes from your bag, thankful you didn't go too heavy on the makeup today, and there were only a few things to fix.

There's a short few moments of silence, even after you've finished touching up, his eyes guiltily lingering on your child. "One chance." you say, and his crimson gaze lifts to you once more, the hopefulness in his eyes making your stomach lurch. You sigh softly. "One chance. You'll get one chance with C/N. Fuck up, you'll never see them again." you warn him, "Wait here." turning on your heel to make a detour. You had to calm yourself down-you had to be your usual self, after all. You didn't want to scare the apple of your eye.

"I'm sorry." you hear his gruff voice uncharacteristically waver as you walk away.

You couldn't forgive him, yet. But if your baby was willing, you'd give him one chance.

One chance, and just maybe, the scars will heal over.

[baeshijima]

pain is the only thing i can feel

also, angst is basically the only thing i can write. and crack. but no fluff or anything. kust these two things. so you‘ll have to suffer 😇 when i share brainrots 😇 of genshin men 😇 probably and definitely most times angst 😇😇😇

arranged marriag au‘s just hit different. want another one? but this time… this time kazuha.

and not you. nu huh, no it‘s tomo, the dead friend 👀let me know if you want to hear abt it 💕

bubbles anons promising another round of pain

the way i felt that on a spiritual level

bdnndkdn nO BC??? i swear everything i write eventually becomes angsty one way or another (or at least has underlying tomes of angst ;w;), so sometimes in my writings i have to cut it off before that point to prevent it but sometimes… sometimes its just too late…

i have also long since accepted the fact im a masochist for emotional pain from fictional ppl 🐥

NOT TOMO PLS 😭😭 but do tell—