#or maybe im just projecting onto this 60-something man

[roguekaiju]

I know we all talk about how Lawrence was barely holding it together all conclave but I gotta give him credit if I decided to speak from the heart and a hundred people including my close friend misinterpreted it as a power grab and didn't believe me when I said it wasn't I'd crash tf out

[arkus-rhapsode]

Rhapsode Rambles: Why Deku is not a Reflection of Spider-Man

So this is one of my off the cuff posts that I’m really only writing because I read this article talking about how characters in My Hero Academia reflect iconic American superheroes. Which you can read here.

But it makes a comparison of Deku to Spider-man, that I’m frankly sick of. Mainly in terms this article and it’s false equivalency. In the article it states:

That’s just fundamentally wrong about both characters. Neither were naturally gifted with an extraordinary abilities. Both gained their powers from an outside source. But Peter Parker and Miles Morales never wanted the spider bite. There was no inner aspiration to become a hero. The story of spider-man is how when you have great power thrust upon you, you use that for good.

Deku wanted to be a hero. He wanted to fight crime, but lacked the power to do so. So he wanted All Might to bestow power onto him.

Now, the power that can mess up their body is also only really tangential. Deku’s power really hurts his body and that is an overarching narrative about growing to the point he can handle it. But the spider-people, maybe in their first appearances and movies they struggle with control. But for the last 60 years, Spider-man’s struggle hasn’t been about how his powers hurt him.

Its about how his powers hamper his average joe life and how he manages that social life with the life of a hero, compared to heroes like Iron Man, Thor, the Fantastic Four, etc. While in the world of MHA, that’s not a concern for Deku. Most in his social circle are all heroes and the world doesn’t care if people are masked crime fighters. There’s no media calling Deku or any other hero a threat or menace.

Speaking of which, the comparison of using to help people who hate them is more a Spider-Man thing. Unlike the world of MHA, you have a public who don’t trust super heroes. Who see Spider-man as a danger to society. With that all in mind, Spider-man still goes out of his way to save individuals like Jameson or Flash Thompson because when you have that great power, its your responsibility to protect a public that might hate you from threats far greater.

Not something Deku has ever dealt with. At most he has to deal with Bakugou who is a jerk to him. But the idea is for Deku to grow stronger and surpass Bakugou. There was the save Bakugou from the League of Villains, but the Heroes were gonna do that already. The important thing for Deku and the others was making the conscious decision to disobey their teacher and try and save Bakugou on their own. But those are all character conflicts. NOT societal conflicts.

Only one I can really think was maybe Deku and Gentlee. And how the fight with Deku forced Gentle to think over his life and how he initially wanted to do be a hero. But that’s a stretch.

There’s another comparison to Batman in the article:

That is just so nebulous a connection. A lot of MHA characters use strategy in their fights when outclassed. You could say that about Kaminari, Momo, hell even Stain. Stain is more like batman because he has a higher reliance on his physical aptitude and external weapons.

But this was about Deku and Spider-Man.

Look, I understand why fandoms like to compare Deku and Spider-Man. They’re both the flagshit character of their works, as well young characters with quirky and geeky personalities. Who deal with high school drama as well as superhero drama. Both have a single parental figure and are considered the “cinnamon rolls” of their fandoms. Especially with things like MCU Peter or Spiderverse Miles. And also with MCU Peter, the idea of being a huge fanboy for heroes.

And no one is wrong for thinking that. If you like that sort of character or draw that parrallel, I’m not criticizing that. I love Deku, I like Spider-man both in comics and movies.

Im just saying Deku the claim that Deku is reflecting Spider-man is a disingenuous comparison.

Looking at who Deku is, someone with a body weaker than most, dealt with bullies, but desired to be a hero, then under went an external process that can make him into one of the best heroes of the world. That’s Captain America.

Like, Steve Rogers was a weak boy with a frail body, who despite that and constant harassing by bullies still wanted to be a soldier and hero. He under goes project rebirth and is reborn as Captain America.

Sure, Steve doesn’t face the same body horror as Deku and his uncontrollable power. But that’s not something common amongst western hero limitations. And there really is no one to one comparison.

Like Deku is not particularly a patriotic character, but the story of someone becoming the pillar of society like Deku is also closer to the tales of Captain America.As well as commentary on that society.

Again, this is not me telling you, you can’t say Peter and Deku have similarities. And you shouldn’t make art or fanfiction about them having the other’s power. I’m saying that the usual comparisons talking points are not all that substantial of drawing such a comparison as “Deku reflects Spider-Man.”

[mooncleaver]

oh my god this is the best fucking thing i've read all night. i was screaming crying shouting sobbing at the 3/4 mark of this story like you really put all your courtforshortussy into this

i don't even know where to start with this fic. firstly, i love this trope in pics bc I feel like it can get so much character vulnerability out of it and that's such an angst mine. you really did this shit justice oh my god im gonna not stop thinking about it for the rest of my week. like the storytelling is so good you really got me immersed into everything. i lveo love love the way you zoomed into little moments and details that contributed to the eventual confrontation of reader's feelings. like it was not just something that happened like BAM but it was built up in a way that was so effortless to follow. it was too easy for you to hurt my heart. i like how you highlighted on these factors like the ladies and the bar or how emily mistook karen for matt's gf and yet you didn't fail to write exposition and parts that made everything cohesive. the descriptions of their faces, their gazes and everything. even if they didn't have any dialogues i can already feel the judgment rolling off of them. it hurt me, so so much, in the best fucking way.

not to mention, i love how realistic this is. i think what made me so sad after reading this is the way this insecurity is so real in a relationship. it's like how much society plays into the way we perceive things.. AND THAT WAS SO REAL OF YOU like i was EATING this shit up and feeling it deep inside my heart. maybe this is just me being nit-picky, but i love how despite how much the reader may want to hate karen, emily or the ladies at the bar, she never outright projects that anger and sadness onto them. i think it's beautiful the way you wrote how she bottles up her emotions; i like seeing how we can be fragile and hurt but at the same time still be considerate and emphatic to others. it hurts me too, knowing that my insecurity might hurt matt if i tell him and i would never want to make him feel that way.. see what you did there? my bff that was your power making me feel every emotion known to man. we went from 40 to 60 to 10 to 100 and back to 10 again. i had to take a break in the middle of reading this just to cry bc it was a little too much like...

THE FUCKING CHARACTER DYNAMICS i live for it. im gonna write more about matt and the reader, but i love how even though foggy and karen aren't the super main main focus of this story, the friendship between them and the reader is still so evident. like the way they told Matt about what happened at the party.. it was so good. and when I read the jokes and dialogues from foggy, it was like a breathe of fresh air from the sadness. speaking of side characters, i appreciate so deeply how you maintained their characterization. especially for foggy. it still gives them individuality and the tones for the dialogue is SO GOOD. i can feel your effort from a mile away

oh lord.. lord my savior I can not even speak about matt and the reader. i really commend you for maintaining this idea and characterization of matt, never straying away from it. I feel that when he loves, he loves so passionately and so gently; the way you reflected that into his actions and his words were absolutely wonderful. I really enjoyed when you wrote parts about how he would notice literally everything, even if it were only 1% in the wrong place he'd still know.

It actually…it actually hurt you,” he says

i really like this bc for me, it was refreshing. i think im so used to characters being brash, and maybe its bc the way they are, but this just shows me how level-headed matt is and how he'd rather die than intentionally hurt the reader. he considers my feelings, he listens to me.. he goes above and beyond to make me feel loved.. this is why i can't have nice things. this is why the standard is so high. matthew murdock the man that you are today. also he's so logical here and that's yet again how you keep him in character. no joke im OBSESSED with this version of matthew murdock.

You try to twist out of his grasp, but he doesn’t let you. He presses another kiss to your forehead and asks the question again, softer this time.

OH MY GOD IM ROLLING ON THE FLOOR. I CAN LITERALLY FEEL AND IMAGINE THIS SCENE.. LIKE I WAS THERE! I WITNESSED IT! he's so gentle with the reader and it's so sweet. he's holding her as if she's a piece of glass that would break under the faintest cruel word.. i think i fell in love with him all over again.

ALSO THE ANGST. like adding onto that, the literature slay that this is?? you know just when to put certain one-liners that hit people HARD. the word choices and the imagery in here are gorgeous, by the way. it feels like im hit by a war canon whenever i think things are dying down and then you pull up with some shakespearean type shit and it's like my eyes are wide open again because they're absolutely beautiful. whether in a gut-wrenching way or in a you-have-a-way-with-words way

But Emily isn’t looking at you. She’s looking at Karen.

FUCK THIS SHIT IM DONE IM LITERALLY OVER IT AFGJEF56789

“I am yours in every single way. And whatever you need from me to help you believe that, say the word and it’s yours.”

GO TO PRISON LITERALLY. shut up right now or im gonna start crying at your feet groveling for you to be real and love me. can i just say how much i lvoe the ending of this story and the conversation they had about her feelings. i actually don't have anything to say bc that's how SPEECHLESS i am after reading that scene. that was absolutely the most perfect moment of vulnerability. IM OBSESSED I COULD WRITE A DIFFERENT ESSAY SAYING EACH AND EVERY LINE I ENJOYED. the way she said it was SO REAL the tone, the language, the honesty, the pauses, the gestures and everything. like when she covered her face with her hands not wanting matt to see her face.. the cues were all so fucking right it made me sob. fucking fuck like the dialogue is what has me coming back to this story again and again. and this too is how i think for me it was relatable. she's not screaming or shouting or breaking apart, but she sounds so defeated.. and i think that hurts a goddamn lot more than being angry. THE WAY SHE WAS HUGGING HERSELF TOO?? that was so cathartic to me. it hit me so hard bc i feel her hurt and i feel her sadness.. gosh when i tell you you TRANSCENDED me. i felt like he was THERE holding me as i fell to the floor and cried. and through all this matt still feels sorry excuse me sir??? you are too good for this world.

Green is the Color

Pairing: Matt Murdock x FemReader

Word Count: 7,200

Summary: Karen Page looks flawless next to Matt in a way that you don’t. Insecurities and jealousies were bound to pop up at some point.

Trigger warnings: None. Just some angst with a happy ending.

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Okay so I just... After all these cute dad posts especially with Nines I MAY have gotten carried away with a small imagine which I would like to share. It's just an imagine, for fun and I picked a name arbitrarily. I'm not a writer, but here we go: RK900 has Ivy. She's his pride and joy and if anything happened to her this man might actually commit a felony. He's not the least bit embarrassed about being overprotective but he would never admit that it's because of what happened to Cole. 1/??

not to be dramatic or anything but this is the only thing keeping me together while im going under my yearly february/march mental breakdown & it’s so perfect im not even sure i could add something meaningfulfirst of all, ivy is the sweetest name ever, it doesn’t exist in italian and it’s a shame!!!he’s the most overprotective dork ever and that’s a FACT doesnt matter what AU we’re in. with a baby? DOUBLE the overprotective if that’s even possiblealso his partner is probably someone a bit bubblier so the cutie def took after them! AND THANKS i would like to add because the last thing you need is this insecure big giant with an as much insecure baby (the fact that it’s mostly because of cole is,,,, heartbreaking, everyone is probably afraid to drive in bad weather conditions after that)can we talk about him crying everytime he thinks about being a dad? because this man goes from having one (1) certainty in his life which is not being able to ever find someone to love and to be loved by in return; no family, no kids, no shared house, no pets, no christmas together, no laughs, no weird relationship’s routine, nothing. just work, work, social awkwardness and to be made fun of. from having a partner who absolutely adores him, praise his efforts, cuddles him, moves in with him and do whatever a normal person does but to RK900 this is all new and he’s loving every second of it. so to have a baby. gosh. that would nearly kill him. he wouldnt believe it until he sees it.ofc he gets a lil jealous COME ON he’s a dumby!the first laugh!!!!! the first giggle!!!!!! if he misses it because he’s a work he sulks two whole weeks or at least that’s what he would do but this cute babby keeps smiling nonstop even when he’s at home and HOW can he resist how!!!!also yes,,,, he has tons of e-books about babyes and how to care for them so he tries to help with tiny exercises! if some coworkers saw him playing with such minuscule creature they would turn pale that’s so off-character for him but they know nothing about his big heart :’(co-sleeping can sure be dangerous for health problems but let’s be honest we all know he’s the type to be so weak that when ivy is 4, he (almost 2mt/6ft, broad as an ikea four season closet) can and will fit into a tiny kid’s bed to read goodnight stories and fall asleep in the corner of the mattress because that’s his cute baby and she’s scared of monsters!!!!!OKAY gavin’s not allowed to call her princess but he does regardless and 60 is so fucking annoyed by this!!!! HE’S THE UNCLE!! THE BEST UNCLE EVER!!!! HE SHOULD BE THE ONE TO CALL HER THAT!!! also maybe her dad but,,,,connor lowkey enjoying this office blood feud since it’s the only amusing thing happening and secretly calling ivy the most precious petnames (literally nobody knows, he either whispers them to her or say them when no one’s around, tho he rarely gets time with her, less and less time alone with her)she fucking waves to everybody and it terrifies him because of kidnappings and because people approaches him thinking he’s a single dad and he has to TALK and maybe they flirt too and it’s the worst HELLO? he’s married he has a ring!!!!!tall, strapping, sweet, tired RK900 is *weird hand gesture emoji that express i want to fuck & protect this man vibe*idk if play dates are a us only thing or they exist here too but im just baby ignorant BUT fuck that would be extra nice and im??? RK900 finally finding some inner peace because protected environment? baby safe company?? giggling and playing?? that’s the shit man, that’s all he needs. also Damian being a bit older and acting as this cute brother for pea-sized ivy? *crying from joy emoji*her and fowler totally happened at one point and RK900 cried no police related jobs young miss!!!! yep he’s not the best at speaking & being empathic but he learns. he tries to understand a baby’s logic and gently and patiently explains everything. if she cries he’ll make sure to help her calm down. his perk is the inability to get angry and lose control in normal situations.the lasts two,,,, hurt so much,,,,connor feels out of picture, and yes, he doesn’t get along with his brothers but he naïvely never thought of them having a life of their own, and for RK900 to have a family is,,,, to be also reminded of cole every single damn time. that’s just cruel on his brother’s part. he attempts to keep his distances from ivy but. it’s impossible. because she (and RK900 alike) doesnt want to and because she’s too sweet and he can’t help project a little of cole onto her. it would visibly improve connor’s&RK900′s relationship and they could even get on an ‘okay level’ but who knows. it’s difficult.tho she secretly already did every of these things bc 60 got to spoil her before connor.

[donttellpeterparker]

Helping Hand

Summary: Who knew that being saved by spiderman would start a blossoming friendship... or maybe something more?

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Helping Hand

You sat at your desk, currently immersed in the project you were currently working on for biology. Unfortunately for you, you were left with a useless partner... again.

You held the pen angrily in your hand, almost wanting to just destroy this project so your so called partner will get a zero. But that wasn't an option, it was a joined grade so if he failed unfortunately so did you. 

*knock, knock* 

You were too busy focusing on your current formula to notice the faint knock at your bedroom window. Pushing the glasses further up your nose, you crossed out a few equations that wouldn't work and decided to make a new one, but this time you weren't just going to find a solution to the problem, you were going to figure out how to prevent the problem from even happening in the first place.

*knock*

This one was louder so you heard it pretty clearly. You spun your head around to see a guy in a red and blue spandex... not again.

You shake your head and get up, walking over to your bedroom window and flip over the switch. You lived in a set of apartment blocks so to even get to your windows you had to climb the fire escape 20 stories up. 

You opened the window, noticing that 'Bug Boy' was again... injured. 

''What am I going to do with you...''

~Few months back

To say that walking this late at night back home wasn't at least a little bit terrifying would be a lie. Though you have done this many times, it still wasn't safe. This was Queens in New York city but still you were in the city, the crime rate at least being 60% higher than surrounding suburbs. 

You hugged your black coat closer around your body, it was just the beginning of winter which meant the winds suddenly felt like ice particles scraping against your skin. How can it seriously get so cold so quick? Global warming probably. 

You rounded the corner, with a little hop in your step you saw your apartment block just at the end of the road. 

''Help! Please someone help!'' You halted. You glanced left and right, wondering were the shouting.. screaming was coming from. 

''HELP!'' This time you started to move, closer and closer to the source of the sound. Pretty stupid idea isn't it? Call the cops and let them handle this? 

So that's exactly what you did. You reached inside your pocket for your iphone and began to dial 911. 

''Drop it'' You froze, you could feel cool metal pressed against the side of your head. Gulping nervously you began to let the phone slip through your fingers. 

''Hello 911, What's your emerge-'' The sound of your phone being crashed into a million pieces. Sure enough the guy to your right had stomped on your phone causing it to shatter. 

What were you to do in this situation? You've done what he says now what? 

''Move'' wow this guys vocabulary is so extensive. 

Without hesitation you did as he said, you began to walk slowly. 

''For fucks sake'' You could feel the cool metal pressed against your head replaced by a firm grip on your upper right arm, he was literally now dragging you along with him. To say it hurt would be an understatement this man had an iron grip but you weren't going to complain. Not unless you wanted a bullet planted inside your skull. 

He pushed you forward into a dark alleyway where you could see a women being held by her throat against the wall. You took a deep breath, not wanting the reality for your situation to sink through. This is just a dream, this isn't real, you can wake up now Y/N.

Without realizing it you've stopped moving, causing the guy to become more irritated with you. 

The girl or... woman who was held again the wall turned her head slightly to face you, tears streaming down her face along with blood which seemed to be from the wounds across her face.

''Keep it moving Missy'' Your eyes began to become blurry with tears and it wasn't until now your heart was starting to beat at an alarming rate. You were too in shock to notice you were literally in a life and death situation. 

''W-what's happenin-n-ng" You stuttered out. 

You were patiently waiting for a response from the guy holding onto your arm- wait a minute. You glanced to your right to see that the guy that was holding you was now in fact gone.

''What the hell!'' You turned in the opposite direction to see the guy now.. tapped? across the wall. Wait tape doesn't look like that. 

You heard a grunt and turned around again, seeing the guy that was holding up the lady in a choke hold now lying on the ground in pain. Without thinking about it you walked closer over to the woman, making sure she was alright. You helped her back up to her feet, while letting your eyes rapidly search the alleyway for who just saved your life. 

''Y-y-your h-i-i-im" Once you had your arm firmly wrapped around the woman's waist you looked up to the guy who originally held you at gun point stutter. 

It wasn't till now that you saw who your savior was.

''Spiderman"

~Present

After that he used his webs as mode of transport to take the lady from your arms and swung her back to safety. 

''Stay here and don't move'' All you did was nod.

Sooner than later he in fact came back, making sure you were alright and wanted to take you home. You shook your head saying to him you only lived down the road and instead of replying he just lead the way. You guessed he was taking you home. 

Ever since that night you thought you would never see him again or at least kinda hopped... seeing you didn't feel like being in a life death situation ever again. 

Though not two nights later you found him at your bedroom window, the one he took you in so you didn't have to wake your parents and explain what had happened. 

You were surprised to say the least but didn't hesitate to open the window. 

''You wouldn't happen to have a first aid kit on you by a chance?'' He spoke out through heavy breathing, obviously in pain. 

Little did you know this would be the start of your guys little rendezvous. 

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A/N: part two??

[s-nnyd]

hey. all of the qs from the ask meme that apply to you. have fun

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

oh boy well with my dad most certainly not theres a lot situations where its been made obvious that im not the son he wanted but he’ll still use me as an example to show to my lil bro and also like theres a lot of cockiness too and with my mom i love her and i know she loves and supports me but a lot of that is because im her daughter  and id say id have a decent relationship with my mom and i do love her

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

lmao it was you

03: Do you regret anything?

oooooooooooooooooo boi man i been thinking and like ive thought about if ive regretted ever being friends with angie and id like to say that i dont cause shes done a lot and shes given a lot to me whether it be good or bad and ive grown a lot from it and i think that if i completely erased that then i wouldnt be able to work through the things i have and like in other aspects i regret not saying “i think youre cute” to movie girl and knott’s info boy like my goodness they were both so damn cute and i really shoulda said something

04: Are you insecure?

hell yeah i am

05: What is your relationship status?

single right now and i do want to eventually date someone and have that sort of closeness and that sort of relationship where i can feel at peace and rely on someone but i honest to goodness don’t think there’s anyone for me just yet and i don’t think im in a place really to be dating anyone cause i need to resolve things before i try to start something new

06: How do you want to die?

oh man duuude okay so when we read granny weatherall i legit like had a breakdown and i started panicking cause i started thinking about death all of a sudden and like there are situations where ive considered suicide and all but like there are also the times where it feels like its looming over me so much and like i get so so scared like im scared to walk down the pier at the beach at night because it so dark and the point where you look out onto the horizon and the horizon no longer exists and and its just a void and its so dark and like i think thats how i wanna die just im walking out on the pier at midnight and just im swallowed up because i think in the last moments i think i should just confront it

07: What did you last eat?

i had these hawaiian shortbread cookies that are so dang good like mmmmmmmmmmmm

08: Played any sports?

man i used to do tennis and swimming and i would love to go back to it

09: Do you bite your nails?

nah

10: When was your last physical fight?

like one where someone was genuinely hurt? like an hour ago and it was with the ground cause i got flung off my skateboard but for real i think my last physical fight was like kinder

11: Do you like someone?

skdjashjdkashd i doooo and i should noottttt and theres a lot of things i already know that its kinda like the crush is coming from the fact that there was a lot of support and general niceness and a whooollle lot of other reasons why i should not and im looking forward to the day when this goes away

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

my goodness i have and i died

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

hmm i do but i forgot who it was

14: Do you miss someone?

yeah i kinda miss my old self but for real i really miss my cousin lynnette like i havent seen her for like two years and i really needa hang out with her eventually

15: Have any pets?

dang i wish

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

at the moment? p distressed and very in my own head like i really need a break from a lot of other things but i also need a break from myself oh! ill show you my art project that were doing later when i finish it cause like we ended up havign to do an extreme emotion self portrait of how we feel at this point in time and like its hilarious cause ppl pass by it and theyre like “dude are you okay like just looking at that makes me feel bad”

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

dkjasdh i have not but i lowkey wanna just cause

18: Are you scared of spiders?

uH YEAh

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

i would i would and if it was to relive a memory definitely if it was to redo something over differently most definitely if it was to reexperience something wihtout changing something then uh no

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

hhhhhhh oh my goodness lowkey embarrassed to say it cause weve talked about places to snog a while ago and like the last time i did was like in the bushes in the sculpture garden

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

maybe working on the death of a salesman project maybe just getting some rest im really not sure im literally living day to day at this point

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

pfft man i do not wanna have any kids like at all

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

i got two but theyve closed up already since i dont use em

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

art, a bit of dabbling in math, and then also psych like i lvoed the fuck outta that class

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

oh yeah definitely and i think about her a lot i definitely miss meleana and sometimes ill go out and theres a souvenir shop and ill look at the best friend necklaces cause she always got one for us and like i have a box just full of all the halved best friend necklaces and i wonder a lot what would have happened had we still kept contact she was a big gateway to a lot of things in my life 

26: What are you craving right now?

mmm some damn relief but for real tho i want someone to run their hands through my hair and pet it and all like any of the daydreams i have are usually centered around my new haircut

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

i? dont? think? so? theres like only one of two people i know of who like ever liked me and that was jolin (the other one is this sophomore from my art class last year)

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

lol no

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

wish i could even get a date

30: What’s irritating you right now?

well i brought up the other ones in our chat and those are the main ones currently so

31: Does somebody love you?

yeah and i think in a lot of situations whether theyre friends or fam im being put on the weird pedestal

32: What is your favourite color?

OH OH OH ITS CERULEAN BLUE LIKE I KNOW ITS REAL SPECIFIC BUT LIKE THAT THAT BLUE IS SO GOOD LIKE EVERY TIME I SEE IT IN PUBLIC MY CHEST SWELLS UP AND MY LUNGS FEEL SO COLD AND THE AIR FEELS REALLY NICE AND LIKE MAN I LOVE THAT BLUE

33: Do you have trust issues?

lol yeah and in the process ive lied a lot and ive gotten so good at lying that sometimes i forget i am lying and the lines between whats truth or not get all blurry (i legit did not mean for that to come off as tumblr-esque as it did)

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

it was me just kinda floating in random space and then i was in a white room with no walls no doors no windows and i just walked around in this open blank space

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

hhhh mrs quiggle

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

sometimes i think i do

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

forgive

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

haH hAH HAH haaa.......no

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

uh i believe 13 oh wait no scratch that i was like 8

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

i needed to get the laundry so...

51: Favourite food?

prolly ramen oh or loco moco cause its so good

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

mmm i think id say i do

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

i was working on my entry for the lawyer firm art contest

54: Is cheating ever okay?

hell no

55: Are you mean?

i think so cruel even just cause i know so much and i think people who know and understand and think so much are in general dangerous cause they calculate their actions and sometimes that scares me cause i cant tell if im doing it on purpose or not but just in general yeah im mean like too many shits are just not given

56: How many people have you fist fought?

like? uh? i think maybe two and both times were when i was like 8 or 9

57: Do you believe in true love?

mmm i do i do and i think a lot of that true love stems from a relationship based on communication, honesty, trust, and a really good friendship as a foundation

58: Favourite weather?

oooOOOOOO okay so do you remember that one time it was raining hard as fuck like sophomore year like i know its real vague but it was legit pouring and like it was actually so bad that everyone adn i mean everyone went into the library to get some form of shelter and there were people who were soaked to the bone and peoples umbrellas were getting broken cause it was so cold rainy and windy like that that kinda weather is my fave

59: Do you like the snow?

uh i think i do?

60: Do you wanna get married?

hell yeah

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

mmmm i get a lil weird on that but i think some of my favorite ones are like being called “love” like “whats going on love” or “you look good today love” like mmm i eat that shit up

62: What makes you happy?

man legend of zelda is makign me so damn happy rn like it legit means so damn much to me adn like theres so much i lvoe about it and i just lvoe talking about it and anything about it in general and like also skateboarding has been making me real happy lately like ive never loved getting hurt more and like that sounds really bad and like my left knee’s nerves are totally shot cause i fell straight on it and messed it up cause i was skating but like theres just soemthing about feeling more within my own body because im gettin some form of physical activity adn im getting hurt adn its like its a reality in its own way and like i really love it and i super love when i get to cruise like it feels so damn esp with my hair now and also what makes me happy is the ppl i find cute every now and then like its genuinely such a nice experience and oh oh i just wanted to talk about it jsut cause but like whenever i get a crush i get real excited and real happy cause like i love getting them gifts and seeing the surprise and the happiness on their faces cause its like oh you thought of me and oh its somehting i really love and like it makes them happy for that glimpse of a moment and like i love talking to them and like when they tell me about things they like or their passionate about its so nice to hear cause its like yes yes yes i support you and i love you i love seeing you happy and like just seeing your brightens my day and like even if i do confess and i do get rejected ive been mroe than lucky cause its like the people i have confessed to have been so gentle with the rejection and so kind with it and its like oh no!! like yes im sad that we couldnt be more but like thank you!!! thank you so much for letting me love you adn letting me give you so much thank you for brightening my days up and lettign me see your smiles and hear your laughs like thank you so much im so glad i could crush on you and like thats another thing that makes me happy and like theres probably a lot more that i could talk about but i think ill leave at that for now

63: Would you change your name?

i been actually thinking about it for a while adn in the times that i have considered it i usually use a game with the customizable name to try it out and like at some point i used Elle and then i tried Lynn and like i dunno im really not too sure and maybe if other names come in the future ill test those out cause truly it doesnt feel like my name is my own

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

mm yeah id think so cause theres stuff we were supposed to talk about that we didnt and uhh yeah

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

say “thanks im really flattered but i really dont think im in a place right now where i should get into a relationship”

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

lmao no

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

uhh the guy at the receptionist desk when i went in to submit my entry for the art contest

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

lol if what we talked about wasnt deep and it wasnt you then itd be mrs quiggle

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

fuck yeah

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

i dont think so like i wouldnt even die for myself

[roguekaiju]

this is also what strikes me so much about the "nevertheless you have it" scene. Vincent believes him when he says he doesn't want his vote, he doesn't want to be pope, he doesn't view it as fake humility or denial, he believes him and That's what makes Lawrence the right choice for him

I know we all talk about how Lawrence was barely holding it together all conclave but I gotta give him credit if I decided to speak from the heart and a hundred people including my close friend misinterpreted it as a power grab and didn't believe me when I said it wasn't I'd crash tf out