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I caught up on chainsaw man last night and GOD I need to read something lighthearted soon
#please just let denji be loved i am begging you#i keep thinking about how pochita loves denji and wanted to give him a chance at a happy life#but didn't realize or maybe understand the negative impact their contract would have on denjis life#or maybe he did idk he is still a devil but im choosing to believe otherwise#also uh yoshida. tf is up with that dude
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Toon Quest Theory PT.1: Who is Pib and the meaning behind the Book of Life
okay so I know @toontails announced their return (idk your pronouns im sorry!!) but I recently reread thru the Toon Quest story and Iâm finally clicking some stuff together that Iâve been wanting to maybe throw out there!! Please guys listen to me i have been thinking of this for weeks, TQ has so many open ends and mystery that itâs not even funny. Iâm a person of wanting to understand things so I made this post to share my thoughts with you guys, and yes I did research donât make fun of me!!!
so, to start off first and simple. I wanted to get down to the point where the Book of Life is first mentioned, AA mentioned that the Book of Life dosenât randomly select its holders which makes sense because the book is a lingage and it somewhat of a heirloom (ok probs not the best wording but still) it was also mentioned that the Book of Life chooses its holders like I said, generational wise but also because of the attributes that the subject brings to the team. I couldnât find the screenshot but AA answered an anon ask at one point stating that. Now if we look more into the team we can understand why exactly they make up the team they are now, instead of a group of goofballs we actually do have a pretty well looking team.
Oswaldâs attribute would be his luck. Which is seen in the first chapter when he managed to save everhine in the van from the semi truck crashing into them, which follows with him cheering that he still had his luck.
Bendyâs attribute from what I can assume, would be the fact that heâs a demon, and from what AA has stated/revealed the strongest one on the team (though Bendy himself might not know that) Iâm taking it that in this AU, Bendy isnât created from the ink machine but as it was said from AA he was accidentally taken from his home and placed on the surface (I canât find the screenshot of the authors confirmation but trust me!!) I say that because Abel is after Bendy, which was also stated. And Iâll also go into why he might be after Bendy in my next post. But bendyâs attribute would be his strength and the fact that heâs basically inhuamne. Not to mention toons are hard to kill as is and since heâs a toon demon, itâll take a lot to really kill Bendy and Iâm sure weâll see more of that in detail with future chapters.
Donaldâs attribute would be his bad luck, which may be bad but is actually a good thing as in one of the chapters his bad luck basically murked the spirit spider that was chasing after them in the cave sequence.
His attribute clearly comes in handy when itâs needed. Not to mention it weighs out Oswaldâs good luck with his bad luck. Creating a balance.
For Cuphead and Mugman, it would have to be because they harness power to shot their peashooters, and because as stated they defeated the Devil some years ago. Though with their character turnaround with tagging along with the TQ gang, this makes them a great advocate with knowing some plans about the opposing team.
And Panchito would have to be for his intellucal integrity as he himself was the one to even put the band together to begin with. Traveling overseas just to find one of them. His morals seems to be very strong and I believe thereâs more to his character as he was the first one to recive the book and get any sort of information about it, as he claimed that the thought of the book came to him in a dream that he has had for years. Which would make sense why the book would go to Panchito first out of everyone because his person is uplifting, loyal and fairly responsible (in a way)
the book clearly harness some spiritual power as AA has stated. Itâs not just a book, so I believe the book is what sent Panchito these visions. Also heâs good to and that itâs clear heâs a sharpshooter. Maybe even as good as Bettigan.
And moving onto Y/n. Her attribute, as we all know. Is undetermined because sheâs a human. Not a toon. She dosenât have any cool tricks, she dosenât entirely have magic as it was said that she was supposed to, but lo and behold. She dosenât. And she never will, as AA has confirmed. But inside the story it was say MULTIPLE times that the reader was supposed to be given a power to help her.
itâs refered to as a mark and how it was supposed to be given to Hector, but because of time and how he and his group couldnât successfully go on with the plan of figuring out what Ruby Falls was (the death of his friends) he came to a witch in the woods to send a message to Y/n about how her having a mark would help her defend herself from darkness and save mankind.
But as we noticed, Y/n has no power and so far has been fighting and defending herself based on her agility and luck. As itâs seems multiple times, sheâs not very good in combat unless the other toons are with her to back her up. But by herself on a 1 on 1 combat, she fails exceedingly bad at defending herself, which I wonât bash her too much as sheâs just a teenage girl whoâs revealed to be a homebody with no friends, fighting against various combative individuals who clearly has more training and knowledge in the ring than she does. Youâre not gonna wake up one day and be able to take down Batman. But there is one thing about her that I will point out. That sheâs very observant and can very much tell when things are off in certain situations. As stated by AA.
Reader is indeed a fast learner as when Ruck was teaching her archery, she was able to develop a knowledge on how to properly use a bow and arrow. And I must say. Archery is very much a tactile and difficult field to get in as it takes a lot of body strength and muscle strength, but with little time she had. She was able to adapt very quickly as seen with her being able to successfully get bullseye during the Warrior Falls contestant picking for the finaleâs.
Though that dosenât mean weâll run right over the fact that Y/n dosenât have magic as states as she was suposoed to have. It even concerns her to a point of questioning why she dosenât have it. Does the book decide not to give her magic? Does it often happen for these quirks to just not show up. It was clear that someone or something is suposoed to give them these quirks as Hector denied wanting to have it as he stated he would save it for Y/n. Which also comes into play that this is probably a one time use.
So where is it? And who has it? Well. Who else is the only one in the series that has magic? Well, we have Bendy. Whoâs able to bend liquids (which from what I see itâs preferably ink) and he can also make portals.
But this can also be because of the fact that Bendy is an actual demon and harness power that not any ordinary toon can. But that also makes me say. Do you know who else has the ability to create rifts and portals?
And yâall look at this FUCKING KEY WORD!!! PUDDLE
I swear this is not a COINCIDENCE!! I make this side by side comparison because at some point it was mentioned that Bendy would be the one prone to betray Y/n. Now I donât wanna point fingers, but I believe Bendy may be a reason why Y/n is powerful. Or 1 of the many reasons. Because my second reason is going to be Pib. As it was said that Pib plays a big role and sort of a fairly meaningful role to not only Y/n, but to everytbing. Now, I donât wanna be that guy but I really do want to say that Pib is actually a good guy and Y/n is a bad guy. AA did at one point said that Y/n is morally grey and that she dosenât really care to be a hero, meaning that Y/n dosenât wanna put her life in the line for just the sake of it.
which may seem like a bad thing but, honestly? Weâll probably get more into why the reader may feel this way and why she may essentially reach a point where she feels this isnât really fit for her. Pib isnât exactly a bad guy because their only objective to them is to kill Y/n. Thatâs it. They donât care for the book. They donât care for the situation or who has the book, but itâs just to kill Y/n.
and the opposing team also wants Y/n dead as well. And only her. They donât care for the others but just wanting her dead
Iâll get into later why I might think why they want Oswald out of everyone. But thatâs besides the point, I find it concerning that Y/n has such a large bounty over her head when she hasnât done anything to anyone or from what we know and have been seeing sheâs pretty much innocent. Before I get into Pib, I also want to put on the table why I may think everyone wants Y/n eliminated first.
Iâm chapter 5, Argus states that when she kills Y/n, the book will be in her possession.
She claims that when Y/nâs dead her bloodline will be no more, now I want to say sheâs refering to Y/n being the last of her generation to hold the book in her possession, but now that I thought more on it, maybe when Y/n dies, the book just automatically releases its hold on the others making it accessible to anyone. So in some sort of way, Y/n has to be a key, a valuable key and asset to keeping that book locked. Whuch can explain why Ruck is trying him damn hardest to teach Y/n under the time he has to defend herself properly seeing she has no power to properly do it. Because if she dies. Everyone is shit out of luck, anyone in the world can just access the book. Which can explain why the villians want Y/n dead so bad. if break the lock. You have access to the riches. Now thatâs if the others will still be there to defend the book from being taken still.
which moves back to Pib. Now we all know. The books signature glow is a yellow/golden light or aurora. It helped them navigate where to find eachother. Certain locations and even a piece to Rubyâs Heart. This book is basically its only navigation. But who else has that certain golden glow to them.
In the recent sneak peek, Pib was able to tug some hair from their head and use the essence of it to creating a golden line to lead them to where the TQuesters are. The same navigating line that they used many times to help them travel around. And Pibâs glow is yellow and golden. A color that's assossiated with the book. Maybe Pib is also a keeper of the book, and maybe the magic that was supposed to be given to Y/n was handed to Pib somehwere along the line. But who would have given this power to Pib. The only other person I can think of, would be the main villian. The man in the trenchcoat. As he was the sole purpose of all of this happening to begin with. Though he has little screentime. Itâs clear that heâs going to be a big problem. Pibâs power was also stated that itâs just about as strong as Bendy and Abel. Abel being a literal arch Angelâwhich is mentioned that Abelâs sole purpose on earth is to kill dark magic thatâs located in the Shadow Realm. A split between physical world and the spiritual world. Which I can assume is where Bendy came from as well as Zip and Zot as they were confirmed to be from the shadow realm. I belive the things from this world are dangerous and cannot be contained. Which is why Abel is even present to begin with. Heâs role is to destory anything thatâs from that world. Including Bendy. Now why he has such a hatred towards Bendy, I donât know.
Not to mention Abel is at the top of the list of things that is very hard to be defeated so itâs safe to say that the book refering to angels being able to banish darkness, Abel is what itâs refering to.
Pib and Abel works hand in hand because they both have the power to do a lot of damage. Iâll make pt2 going over more bc I need you guys to hear me OUUTTTTTTTTTTTT
@toontails I WILL NOT BACK DOWN UNTIL I FULLY UNDERSTAND
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Jeff Buckley Anon here again-
I'm do glad you enjoyed the recs and will explore more. If you don't mind, and don't feel like you have to answer this quickly b/c I know you must be busy, but I was wondering... why do you think fate chose Eren? He said himself he didn't know why he wanted to destroy the world and start clean. Do you think it was Ymir? It reminds me of the scene with Kruger and Grisha when he says that he isn't sure what was guiding him either. You know...after he said something about saving Mikasa and Armin? It makes it all so much more tragic and Idk...im tearing up thinking about it. Beautiful isn't the word I'm looking for. But for some reason I like that Eren didn't know either because it let me know that even though he had the worst ultimatum (sort of like making a deal with the devil) this wasn't his will. He never wanted to kill all these people.
But why was he chosen? He couldn't have known his father said he was free as a baby. Not until that last panel (oh excuse me memory shard) was shown to him. It might be easier to understand if there was a time loop but there wasn't. So did Ymir start his path from birth knowing there was something about his nature, his tenacity that she could use?
Eren accidentally lead Dina to his mother, so that couldn't be the thing that started this. This is really the only thing going around in my head! Sorry if this sounds jumbled.
PS "Black" by Pearl Jam is Eremika all the way. Except the part about finding someone else. I just don't think she has a mind to and never will. I COULD BE WRONG but from my pov, being married...I just don't want anyone else and don't think I need to move on to someone else in order to be fulfilled. You never know, but their love was so tragic I just don't see Mikasa having anyone else. She will have a beautiful fulfilling life and pass on to be with Eren I again. But that's just my inflated two cents!
And thank you for the post connecting the lyrics to the song. You're awesome!
Hello, again!Â
I think itâs time to touch this topic, because I really wanted to write what Erenâs motivation was after all and Iâve waited to see Erenâs POV on the things happened around him.Â
From my personal observations that Iâve made during rereading and writing analysis on Erenâs character, I noticed that he has never stated why exactly he is doing everything. I mean, yes, at first Eren was motivated by revenge, but the fire of his revenge calmed down after he found out that he is also a titan and he generally became more focused on his dream with Armin about seeing the outside world. Then, of course, this whole âthe world is our enemyâ thing kicked in and everything slowly resulted in rumbling.Â
However, I would like to say...Many people forgot that Eren was never a rational person. Eren always acted as he feels like and he is highly emotional. Undoubtedly, he came to controlling his emotions, which I actually tricked many people (*cough* dudebros/AnR enthusiasts *cough*), but as Eren himself said in ch.121, he was always the same. The only thing that has changed in him was his approach of reaching goals, because Eren understood that in order to make people believe in his âbig badâ persona, he has to become who he was this whole arc, a cold and âseriousâ person.Â
If we look back, Eren activated the coordinate simply because he wanted to protect Mikasa. He drank the spinal fluid (?) that gave him crystallization/hardening, because he wanted to save his friends in the crystal cave. Eren has turned himself into a titan, because he didnât want to die in Trost without accomplishing his goal (this hits very hard right now). There are many examples of Eren acting simply based on his feelings, but I think you got what I am talking about.Â
As for why did Ymir choose Eren...She knew that he is the best option to carry out this mission that followed every Attack Titanâs holder (Grisha and Kruger). I believe that the Attack Titan was the embodiment of Ymirâs desperation for freedom and this spirit followed each of the users.Â
Eren was the person she was looking for, because he is very determined and selfless. I believe that Ymir can see when the new Eldians are born, because the coordinate looks like a tree and she can see the new branches being added (since they are her subjects and each of them is related to her). She knew that Eren doesnât necessarily need a rational reason for the mission as long as it gives him the right emotions to keep moving forward (for example, anger).Â
I donât think that Eren actually intended to kill Carla, but it was the result of the (unconscious) choice he or Ymir did. If Bertholdt wasnât saved on that day, Armin would die in the future and the conversation between him and Zeke wouldn't happen etc. Ymir needed Eren to continue guiding Mikasa to him and keep her making choices until they meet.Â
So was Ymirâs goal = Erenâs goal? I donât think it was solely because Ymir wanted him to do these things. Erenâs feelings were also included into the mixture. He wanted to erase the world, because he saw the âenemiesâ as an obstacle of reaching his nonexistent concept of âfreedomâ. But...again, Eren didnât exactly knew why he needs this freedom. Maybe it was because the thought about the outside world inspired him, but then gave the sense of unfairness and anger. Perhaps, he was scared for his friends and their future. Maybe that was simply what he wanted, but that didn't really matter to Ymir, because no matter what he did, it still would depend on Mikasaâs choice.Â
P.S. âBlackâ is so nice. A perfect song to listen in chill summer evenings.Â
#eren jaeger#mikasa ackerman#eremika#ymir fritz#attack on titan#shingeki no kyoujin#t-talks#ask#song reccomendations
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so now that weâve had a few days since the syndicate stream, i think ive managed to cool down and step back to look at it more neutrally. ended up long and pretty rambly since its all pretty flow of consciousness so its under the cut, but heres some thoughts on the syndicate (and a bit on c!techno, since hes the originator)
in universe, techno has only just heard a new place was made. he doesnât know jack abt it, so he goes over to check it out and learn whats happening. he meets w tubbo, who explains they arent a gov, and accepts it then goes. hes hesitant abt the nukes, but frankly? also understandable, they are nukes. any kind of mass weapon of destruction is something to look out for, same as if tubbo revealed his own wither vault.Â
i think the reason that i, and many other ppl, had such a NEGATIVE reaction to what is a mainly harmless and completely reasonable interaction is. well, bc weâre the audience. we KNOW more than c!techno does. we know that snowchester very explicitly was formed without a government because theyâre afraid of techno attacking. we know that the nukes are made to defend them, based off what happened to lmanberg. we know that ranboo joined partially to try and spare snowchester if worst came to worst.Â
the reason we the audience were afraid of him going is bc we feared what would happen if he DID deem it a gov. bc we know the effort theyâve done to NOT be one, bc we have a connection to the town that c!techno doesnt.Â
after then came calling the syndicate/techno tyrannical. after all- if they strike down every government then they are forcing ppl to follow their beliefs under threat of destruction or death. which is uhh pretty fucking tyrannical.Â
the thing is that in the end the syndicate hasnt even done enough for us to like. KNOW if thats true. techno himself said hes totally fine w just group of people living together, hell hes in a damn SYNDICATE. you can def argue in general abt what gives the syndicate the right at all to decide if a gov deserves to exist, if being ââthe decidersââ makes them inherently hypocritical. (this also is pushing that âthey decideâ bc, well, w the exception of tubbo now, theres very little chance the other ppl would win against techno and crew. it Would just be decimation. if they attack, theyâre destroying it all).Â
after all, they preach abt giving ppl the right to choose but then dont let them choose to form a gov. paradox of tolerance i suppose, since in anarchistic views there isnt like a ânon-corruptâ government so every government is worth dismantling. (note, this is all based off my p limited understanding of anarchy theory and also Very Simplified for ease of speaking)
another reason we the audience may have been so afraid is bc, historically, techno doesnt lose. he may suffer personal losses and feelings of betrayal, but narratively hes won every battle hes really been in. its the status quo, so any possible conflict in the future you kind of expect the same. we were afraid of any kind of conflict starting.Â
i think this stuff does kinda work in character too. c!tubbo admits himself he doesnt rlly know government stuff, and he doesnt seem to really know what techno would or wouldnt DEEM one- thus he has a similar fear to the audience of being struck down for it. ranboo, like stated before, partially joined bc he was afraid FOR snowchester.Â
again i get that anarchy is against that greater establishment, but theres something to be said for the fact that. well. this is a block game. its systems work a LOT differently than real life, and real life anarchist theory may not transfer over well. there are a lot of good posts ive seen recently analysing lmanberg (specifically early lmanberg) and like. it genuinely worked to protect its citizens. they were able to pool together their resources and man power and protect each other from outside threats that would overpower them seperately. there IS no big overarching societal and deeply built in system to overthrow like in real life, if anything âhaving a governmentâ IS the new system trying to form instead of anarchy (bc, to my knowledge, lmanberg was the first real âgovernmentâ and the dream smpâs gov kinda formed as a response) it could def be another reason so many ppl are against enforcing anarchy-- this isnt the real world, and being in solidified groups could help the weak. without that, instead its the strongest survive and thrive while everyone else suffers.Â
(then again to devils advocate my own point, a lot of times theyâre referring in those posts to a time where wilbur, who was actually âin chargeâ wasnt around a ton, so there was less of a power structure in place. also, you CAN still have a group of ppl without being a âgovâ (like snowchester or the syndicate) but then we get back to âwhat is a gov by the syndicateâs standardsâ as well as if they want to remove a gov at its start or JUST when it seems âtyrannicalâ (so if they believe a gov is inherently tyrannical). like if i started a direct democracy gov and explicitly called it a gov, do you take it down? its taking the opinion of all citizens and allows everyone equal power. is that corrupt just bc its ALSO a gov, or does it get to stay? where is the line? idk man maybe give the gov like a free trial. if it starts being corrupt then step in but if theyâre vibin theyâre vibin. chill w the anarchy /lh /hj JFKDLSJF)
idk man this isnt fully conclusion imo i just wanted to long think abt this. also fuck this block game for getting into legit political theory and ethics and shit. âis someone valid in doing something for another person that they believe will help the other person if it limits their personal freedomâ (or, is techno correct in enforcing anarchy bc he believes it is the best form for ppl, EVEN at the cost of their personal freedoms to make a gov) is too deep to be asking for a fuckin block potato pig. this is why i dont do a ton of discourse im just stupid and it starts getting philosophical at some point FDSKLFJ
yall can respond w your own thoughts to this if you want, even debate it!, but idk if ill respond bc uhhhh Brain Empty fdjsklfj i just wanted to ramble and sort out my own thoughts on the matter now that im not uber pissed at c!techno JFKDLSJFKL
#dream smp#mcyt#techno#its not really critical??? but like you Could take it that way#i try to be more neutral#or like. less anti-techno bc i know the day of the stream i was PISSED fjdsklfj#idk man this block game conflicts start coming down to real ass philosophical debates and i op out#'was techno valid in destroying lmanberg?' no bc i liked it :(( THERE discourse ended im right /lh#og post#(jeb bush voice) please clap
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TALK ABOUT AMERICAN HEALTHCARE I HAVE AN IDEA OF WHY IT'S THERE BUT I WANNA HEAR THE EXPLANATION ALSO THE ONLY HOUSE THAT"S NOT ON FIRE (YET) FOR THE SAME REASON I JUST WANNA SEE THE ANALYSIS:TM: IF U WANT I WANNA SEE IF I GOT IT RIGHT :D
Hi :DDD. Thank u for asking,,,, I have many thoughts. I am sorry in advance. This is one of those things I will put under a readmore because I am into rambling. IT GOT A LOT LONGER THAN ANTICIPATED IM SORRY. Like. a lot. It was 4 pages in google docs because i dont trust tumblr to save my drafts
Okay a lot of my Ranboo thoughts are about the syndicate / boreal trio / peerpressure duo. But youâre probably aware I am a Them enthusiast first and both a dsmp enjoyer and person second. Because. I really like the syndicate. I also donât have too too many thoughts on the more recent lore past the experiments. Once the in character monologues stopped, so did my brain. I communicate through monologue to monologue communication.
American Healthcare is actually gonna be the main reason why this is so long bc it works Very Much for like three different reasons. One sorta niche and abstracter reason is a stream that was basically never elaborated on back in March, either the day after or very close to the peerpressure Egg confrontation stream. The egg called him a coward (for some reason my brain can Only come up with the âstop saying i look like chicken little. heâs dumb, and a coward, and i am NOT a cowardâ vine), and he is not a coward, so he decided to make an action plan to bring the server together by acting as a mediator for all parties and try to make sure that everyone is happy, because heâs the only one that can see all sides, or something. This was where he said the big happy family⢠line but other than Ranboo Become Dream?? analysis nothing else really happened and everything went along as normal.
(I also always held a little bit of suspicion on this stream actually and thought it might be the influence of the egg, because it says it can give one whatever they want, and ranboo wants to make everyone happy and this was a totally foolproof way of doing that. Sort of in a similar way that BBH is convinced that his plan will totally make Skeppy happy. But also Ranboo is just like that, but this felt a little more on the nose than usual and he did fall into the egg and made his decisions after being egged on by it, buT WEâLL NEVER KNOW, WILL WE?
⌠also I really wanted to see more egg conflict at the time. Peerpressure rlly got involved in the egg plot for cameos at the banquet and nothing else. I do not blame anyone and respect the ccs for all of their attempts to weave plots together but also. alsoâŚ. we.. we coulda had so muchâŚ)
That was a little off topic from the point, but⌠he really just thinks he can save the sick⌠he can see that everyone on the server is unwell and is wrong but, yâknow, look inwardly, the unwell is coming from inside the house. And an inherent problem of the way that the server runs. And if this is still lowkey in effect or not (idk man a) ranboo has monologued a lot I simply chose a one off from march to grow emotionally attached to and b) i think that my brain has shut off once ranboo stopped solo lore streams), it would probably go the way that most choosing to change the system from the inside goes. Which is the point of the song and stuff! He will inevitably decide whatâs too far, whether he will either admit itâs a choice or just feel that itâs what he has to do. The, uh, dealing with the devil, to be polite.
in conclusion (but we are not close to done here iâm holding you for a bit longer), i think a lot about that stream and i think that shows what he wants to be, at the very least, and continuing down that path would definitely go into being far more trouble than just a noble goal of wanting to help people, from negotiating with corruption (The lobbyists, the Congressmen and lies bit) and that the server canât really be brought together and saved like that (When things are more and more this way / Sometimes it's like they'd rather die)
THE LESS. vwoop why have you written an unnecessarily long post about one stream in your playlist character analysis reason is both more literal and piece by piece and also Syndicate, My Beloved, you know the drill. We are going line by line because I have a lot of feelings about American Healthcare, apparently.
This also comes back to that everyone on the server is doing Really Badly, all of the time, but mostly his time in LâManburg. For one, he is pretty complacent in everything and doesnât really accomplish much in terms of actual change, so like Well people die every day / I wouldn't have it any other way / I just think they should feel good while they are alive. An example of this is Exiled Tommy â who Iâd also metaphorically put as the dead man just for funsies, since Tommyâs whole exile thing was one of the first things Ranboo experienced on the serverâas he did try to be friends with Tommy and keep him company with his letters, but he still has no power over the actual issue at hand. Just trying to make it a bit more bearable. Similarly is Techno, while Ranboo still participated in the butcher army that was trying to kill him, he helped in the meantime until he âdiedâ.
And then itâs the Realization that participating in the system doesnât really help much, and the subsequent Everything. It could be getting mad at the whole government system and that he didnât mean to contribute to the harm, or how he fought with Fundy using hs ideology but not in the way that Ranboo thought. It could also be standing up to his hallucination Dream, in that he doesnât try this hard to be a good person just to be accused of helping with all of the things that he may or may not have helped with. (That is⌠a discussion for not right now, I donât know.) And I think this sort of area is also where itâs like theyâd rather die is also relevant, cause Doomsday. Nobody could just set aside their governments and just get along, though Ranboo had his own solution to fighting and things.
And then he joins the Syndicate! And the lyrics of the song are directly Government Bad, because government bad. Canon anarchist, has done things that heâs not proud of as a part of the government. The lines it was the government / ⌠It got louder over the years / Until all that I could hear was flies and all.
But honestly I think in the Syndicate heâs still trying to âsave the sickâ! Because the Syndicate donât All fit eye to eye either. Heâs the token pacifist, and a vote against violence whenever it comes down to it. Not all anarchists are violent but Techno and Phil will probably react strongly when provoked, due to All the past events, and I live in a world where their trauma and issues get talked about as much as everyone elseâs. Since everything is decided by vote itâd probably be split between them and Ranboo + Niki, who is in her healing/no longer resorting to murder arc. Heâll help them negotiate and then everything will Be Okay, ideally.
(Also I just like the idea of Ranboo believing that he is helping the people heâs living with because canonically cc!Ranboo has said he just really cares about his family and the syndicate are included in his family shut up but they also just believe theyâre helping him and yes itâs self indulgent. I care them. Particularly Endduo, actually, or whatever they're called, I am not bold enough to think Ranboo looks at Techno and thinks I Can Fix Him, but. Philza Minecraft will one day talk about his feelings. One day.)
Thereâs also radioduo and beeduo as of recentâ really Iâm just saying I think that Ranboo constantly has a Need To Help People, believes he can do it, and it will come back to hurt him in the end (except for the Syndicate because Iâm in denial. The Syndicate canât fall out if they never stream together :) ).
THIS CONCLUDES THE AMERICAN HEALTHCARE PORTION OF OUR SHOW.
The Only House Thatâs Not on Fire Yet !! I like this one. This is also blatantly there cause Syndicate. They are the only faction that is not actively falling apart, and this could absolutely be because they never stream together. But I do not care. However we are also going to go through this one piece by piece because weâre nearing 1500 words here and I might as well embarrass myself more. I am writing an incredibly informal essay about Ranboo My _Beloved (i assume his middle name is My, and heâs just one of those people who write his full full name) and this is the third page. If youâre still reading this, Iâm sorry. Here we go.
There are lines that just seem like an unwell but recovering person, and I like to sort of think that way about Ranboo in the arctic during the down time. âI feel knotted up today / But in a most exquisite wayâ and âI feel strangely regular / But honestly I prefer it to / The usual bizarreâ are just! Heâs just hanging out. Heâs doing good. There is the acknowledgement that heâs usually not doing well, and all of the episodes that heâs had in the past, and itâs probably strange to be doing well in the midst of everything, and thereâs probably something impending, but now? Heâs doing good!
The verses directly after both of those ones are about uncertainty and trust and such, and I feel like thatâs not necessarily about just One relationship but all of them. Will cause problems as long as he has an accomplice. He is not confident but he trusts and loves people.
âThis suit doesnât fit me / I made it conterfeitlyâ I just like to think about Ranboo in his fancy suit, but itâs just a little wrong because he actually has no idea what heâs doing. I also like to think about Ranboo in a cape to fit in with boreal trio and later the syndicate, and emerald duo had matchy blue outfits from the Antarctic Empire⌠and trying to fit in with themâŚ. or maybe They make him something.. You know. Much to think about.
âKilling me with dĂŠjĂ vuâ I think is like. A little less fun, because despite how well things are going, the enderwalk is still not resolved and he had even less answers when I started thinking âthis is a ranboo songâ. Just as it relates to having a strange sense of reality and stuff, which goes into specifics of enderwalk headcanons, which would make this far longer. Even though Iâve framed it as a negative, there is also the more positive note of âOh! I just thought of how to change all the hate / Into love with the old switcheroo / Dancing in my dĂŠjĂ vu / You'll be dancing tooâ which Iâd rather explain broken up but I feel like as itâs a full verse it should be together. The first part is connected to my general thoughts of him explained earlier tbh, heâs trying Very Hard to make everyone happy and fix things. And adding the second part to it is just like! He is trying to make sense of everything, and itâs not so scary as time goes by. Since the experiments where heâs been (questionably) trying to be more comfortable and get more answers.
This was very long. I am sorry. I am ending it here and probably not going to do much formatting to make it readable because it is very late oâclock and also this is four pages and 2000 words I am so sorry. But if you read this far then. Uhhh thank. ^v^.
#asks#vwoop.noises#âgraphiteâ#Reader. graphite in particular. i am so sorry.#this is. kind of just embarassing actually#if you notice a tone switch at the end its cause i got tired and didnt want to finish this in the morning#and look at my past sins#2k words of analyzing r*nboo in the direction of some internet songs. not. the thing you want to think hard abot that when you wake up#ok i fell asleep looking at the post page. 10/10#but uh otherwise thank u for asking (. â á´ â.)
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So since I didnât catch that we finally got Book XXI - The World until now... Iâm doing my usual first impressions of playing through and my thoughts. Since (I think?) this is the end of Nadiaâs route, I believe Iâll do an overall thoughts in a different post later on when Iâve digested everything.Â
Both my thoughts on the Upright ending and Reversed ending are under the cut. I play through Nadiaâs route only. But this is a much longer than normal post. And it goes without saying, but a lot of spoilers under the cut.Â
Upright Ending
- ITS FINALLY HERE?!?@?!??@~
- Backroom of the shop but in red... okie
- oh is this uhm.. when the apprentice first got revived?Â
- snow
- oh what did nadia legit visit the apprentice when.. wait...Â
- okay so basically you can only pick âyouve come to the right place!â even though theres an option for âwait this isnât right.â
- YoUâRe hEr FiAnCe!!!
- NO YOURE PERFECT FOR HER
- is it going to be the fool card???
- ok the high priestess, I can accept that
- THE LOVE OF MY LIFE (can you hear me screaming irl)Â
- this is all the devils fault so âthe devil will pay for thisâ
- aw nadia gushing about the apprentice is so cute
-Â âIâll always find you.â fuck ye
- uhm.. apprentice wise probably âid turn into a phoenix.âÂ
- lived on the moon.. âiâd live there too.âÂ
- it was cheesy but u loved it anyway
- im actually squealing irl about nadia
- winkie sprite again ;0
- back where it started then eh
- âit has no powerâÂ
- renovating it would be a nice touch i think
- deathÂ
- âthis IS a pickleâÂ
- a ruse cruise l0l
- âyouâre rightâ canât believe iâm taking advice from death
 - letting go of the past
- i donât want to worry u queeeen
- this scene is familiar from asras route i think though i didnât play it to this point, just have seen screenshots of it
- aw nadia
- that âback off zombieâ option just reminds me of that heath inspector spongebob episode for some reason, but iâm going with âi wouldnât say thatâ
- you could but u wonât
-Â âemotionally traumatizing zombie cardâ lmao
- ooo his thone room is kinda cool art wise
- i still love the devils art even tho i kinda hate him
-Â âdo you ever stop talkingâ theres no other option to choose obviously
- nadia lecturing the devil is everything
- mortals but the apprentice is basically the fool so idk how true that exactly is
- WE WON
- what kind of person exactly WAS nadia if her family is this shocked that she wants them to visit, jeez
- fashion show lmfao
- natiqa gunna stay oo
- aw muriel and asra is still cute as fuck
- awww the baker getting to be procurator. thats also cute as fuck
- volta as official taste tester l0l
- portia totally has a crush on nahara and no one can convince me otherwise
- âiâm not ready to leaveâÂ
- i swear they keep mentioning things on fire and although shes prob referring to the one we were there for, theres always so many stories involving the satrinavas that include setting things on fire and i want to hear all the stories
-Â âlets bother valeriusâ we owe him for it still
-Â âhe deserves itâ my thoughts exactly
- YOU BET I REMEMBER IT
-Â âwhat weâve done!!â
- sprite artttttttt
- eeeeeee.
I do feel like the ending is somewhat anti-climactic. I would have loved to see the wedding and all that cute shit, but perhaps it could be a tale later on. Or it also gives fandom creators some room to let the imagination run wild and thatâs always a positive thing as well.Â
I havenât looked around much, but i think theres some discourse about the endings, though when is there not discourse in the fandom lmfao. I will say that i think this does really play into what I said before that the upright ending and route playthrough is all about change. This is the person Nadia is capable of being at her best and her reversed ending the person she could be if she had stayed on the path she was set on. (or at her worse, if you prefer that).Â
as said, I think Iâll put an overview thoughts in a different post, but I think book XXI was a pretty decent wrap up, though obviously I wish there had been more of it.Â
Reversed Ending
- Iâm still like.. not as mad about the reversed ending as a lot of people seemed to be, but also i agree with the apprentice. PANIC
- okay im really keen on domination and shit but being a possession of another person is really a no-no for me. but i get it nadia... this isnât ur best u
- the devil really has a fetish for red, donât he
- I think this place is never gunna let u go anyway tbh
- learning more about the devils nature and knowing that nadia is eventually gunna be the devil is just like... why.
- âwhich would u preferâÂ
- u bet im gunna be fucking cheeky
- âill obeyâ ig. idk what the âright answerâ is so...
- say nothing
- nadias eyes are fucking creepy like what
- tbh i canât believe this somehow backfired on the devil like... i didnât think he was actually this stupid
- âits beautifulâÂ
- okay her devil sprite is hot asf. i admit it.Â
- âof courseâÂ
- so valarius rules vesuvia now?
- its kinda of sad to see her relationship with the high priestess gone
- okay, also a hot CG
-Â âgimme!â tho iâm sure shes gunna make me beg or something wild
- âlet me thank you properlyâÂ
- kiss every inch of her
- thats kinda sweet in a weird sort of way
- âyoure mineâÂ
- they fucked didnât they
- youre going to free her... >.>
Okay, i have... thoughts. While Iâve said that I do believe that the Reverse ending is supposed to be Nadia as the person she was at the beginning of the story (or at least in some ways with some of her less desirable traits amplified to the max), this just seems... weird after playing the Upright ending.Â
Obviously this makes sense if you played the route as a reverse ending. The apprentice is super dedicated to Nadia that theyâll follow her blindly, even if it means harming other people. You fail to see her faults and instead just tell her that people who criticize her are wrong. But like I said, I think the Devil honestly being that idiotic that he actually gave her the power to defeat him is just wild. In a way where there has to be a lot of suspension of disbelief for that to be a thing. But okay. This is where we are.Â
I do think a lot of the domination/physical scenes with Nadia were super hot and wish we had gotten a bit more in the Upright ending, but since I have both endings, I can live with getting the emotional lovey stuff in one and the steamy physical stuff in another. THatâs fine. Also, I really do love Nadiaâs Devil sprite. The art is great for it.Â
Anyway, those are just some thoughts I had on my first play through. Iâll probably do a full reflection tomorrow when Iâve sort of had more time to process my feelings. As for what Iâll do with the Arcana now that Nadiaâs route is over... Iâm not sure. Iâm not super hot on Portia, though I like her. Just not in a âI want to romance her way.â Maybe Iâll play through Muriel since I think heâs sweet and I thihnk his story will be super interesting. And As much as I hate Lucio in this route, Iâm kinda of interested in how theyâre planning on writing his route.Â
#the arcana#the arcana spoilers#nadia satrinava#nadia spoilers#first thoughts#upright and reverse endings
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HI IM BACK AND GET READY CAUSE IM ABOUT TO GO OFF. Starting with last chapter..So as we are aware of past standing & how theyâre both toxic Iâm so fucking mad at both. OC never had the right to treat tae like that but tae also never should have blamed her because he LET her believe the past. Iâm not saying what she was doing was ok but it makes sense she would have trust issues when it comes to him. Taehyung should have definitely not even hurt her in the first time they were together+
***THE V2 SERIES SPOILERS BELOW THE CUT!!!!****
That being said he was the first to fuck up. Now, in current times i understand the fact that they are not together & he can mess with whom ever he wants while oweing OC nothing. Sheâs in REALTIONSHIP given that heâs a asshole & should leave him. Thatâs another case but tae has all the right to be mad because he wants her & she has the chance once again but she wonât try it. Iâm just mad at the way they both went at it+
But tae full on doing all those pictures on social media and maybe ending up with that girl OC was paranoid about is such a low blow. He did it with suelgi & now with this new girl. He has no right to pretend like heâs the one hurt when all he does when he comes around is destroy OC. OC is still toxic to him!! She needs to learn to love herself once again & leave hangbin. God itâs scary how OC & tae realationship is so toxic still the healthiest one they have+
But i canât help feel more for the OC because tae did this to her. He created this whole situation he canât just act like sheâs the only one to blame!!! I just want to fight him. Plus it takes two to fuck up!!! He was fully aware of being with OC while sheâs with hangbin. He canât blame her (cheating isnât okay i hate that shit) but hangbin cheats to in some ways and i hate him the most. Taehyung really knows heâs left OC hurting again & here he is living life. Heâs fully aware of +
What heâs doing all over again. Iâm not saying they belong together. Iâm just saying he brought it all up. I wish OC would just leave both hangbin & tae to focus on her. Yeah, life & leaving comfort for something unknown is beyond terrifying but she should choose to be happy. Neither of the men in her life deserve her all she does is cry. I just want them both to hurt like never before. I want OC to never turn back & leave tae behind. I want to see tae hurt +
And sometimes i feel bad for tae but then i remember he did this to OC. Heâs doing it again. He should hurt like she did. Anyways Iâm sad because he didnât even show emotion in his eyes when he saw OC. Nothing. I wish OC would do that to him. Wow Iâm sad and mad
I guess you could say Iâm a little biased towards OC but Iâm fully aware sheâs not in the right either. What she was doing to tae and stringing him along like that was in no way ok. Just cause he hurt her doesnât mean she should repay him. Idk man theyâre both messy and i want them far away from each other to never meet again.Â
So first, Iâm absolutely TICKLED that the V2 series has sparked such a long, detailed inbox message!!! Secondly, Iâm totally going to play devilâs advocate in my answer because I feel a lot of hatred for Taehyung in this askâŚ(which is totally okay!!!!):
Remember that Taehyung technically didnât post anything that was out of the ordinary on his social media. He posted a pic of himself with Yeseul tagged in the captionâto anyone BUT y/n, this would look totally normal! It was y/n doing her jealousy sleuthing that she stumbled across Yeseulâs pictures of Taehyung, not the other way around :â)
Iâd also like to point out here that Y/N is TERRIBLE at expressing her feelings, which you probably already know. She was terrible in high school when she blew up and cut ties with Taehyung without actually hearing his side, and she still is now when she wonât figure out what she wants moreâTaehyung, Hongbin, or to be alone. She doesnât let anyone in. She doesnât know how Taehyung feels about her because she wonât talk to him about the status of their relationship. (Remember, she said he was her âbest friendâ in FFBB. Like, y/n! WTF!) Additionally, Taehyung doesnât know how SHE feels about him, because she doesnât discuss it, but he can kind of tell from the way she wants him around all the time and of course, because theyâve been in a secret relationship for years with no label on it. So a lot of this hurt that y/n is experiencing comes from her own stubborness and unwillingness to figure out what the fuck she wants and express that to other people. Hence, everything blows up in her face. And what does she do? Sulk. Cry. Pout. Become a hobbit.Â
AGAIN, Taehyung is not completely blame-free in this situation at all! He does hold a guilty conscience for helping y/n cheat for years, but he secretly despises Hongbin so I can see why he would be okay with hurting him like that. He sees this as a situation to where he gets y/n even a LITTLE bit, and so heâs okay with it. Of course, it hurts. Of course, it sucks. Of course, he wants more. But Taehyung is somehow satisfied because itâs better than going withoutâOR, it WAS until he realized how much of his life he was wasting being y/nâs side piece and blew up in FFBB. y/n hurt him a lot with that âI wish it could always be like thisâ line. Like, it TOTALLY could, but again, y/n is selfish and doesnât want anything to change but taehyung does. Itâs a flaw of human nature lol.Â
In my very honest opinion, I think that Taehyung deserves this little bit of get back that happens in Stitch. For years heâs let y/n control him and kind of hover over his every decision since he moved near her, and I think seeing her squirm a little bit when he doesnât come crawling back to her is good for him. Itâs helping his self-esteem (which he should have a lot of, because V2 Taehyung is kind of a good guy!!!! imo)
I agree. They are both messy. But I think the clean up lies in Y/Nâs hands. She started this whole thing again. In Donât You Need Me she kissed Taehyung and then freaked out but guess who was apologizing in the end? certainly not y/n for her own actions. It was only Taehyung. And then who came back and said âI need you aroundâ? Yeah, y/n has a lot to do to make this better. I think the cards are in her hands, and the perfect time to start would be *cough* during the party at Yeonwooâs because *cough* Yeseul isnât coming and neither is Hongbin *cough cough*Â
Thank you so much for this ask!!!!!!!11 I had so much fun typing all this out lol :â)))))
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đ˛ raelynn && carson
WHEN: january 25th-27th.
DESCRIPTION:Â the saga of carson and raelynn over the past few days - in text message form.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: angst, sex mention, death mention
@carsonreyes
carson
uhhhh I think we should talk
raelynn.
who is this?
carson
itâs carson, raelynn.
raelynn.
idk what we have to talk about.
i haven't even seen you in idk how long.
carson
so then whatâs the issue.
raelynn.
the same issue as before.
carson
then letâs talk
raelynn.
what's there to say that hasn't been said
carson
canât we move past this
raelynn.
idk can you undo all the damage you left?
carson
can I try
raelynn.
You don't even know me anymore.
carson
then Iâll get to know you again
raelynn.
That's if I let you.
carson
youâre really just going to let us hate each other
weâve both grown, cmon
raelynn.
i don't trust you.
carson
thatâs valid
thatâs why Iâm trying to fix it
raelynn.
why now.
carson
I just got back
raelynn.
yeah but you always had my number, apparently
carson
actually
I had to ask for it
raelynn.
who gave it to you
carson
Uhm
next question
raelynn.
was it delilah.
carson
no
It was wessy
raelynn.
ew
whatever i can't be mad at him
carson
so
are you gonna let me get to know you again
raelynn.
do i have to decide today
carson
yes <3
raelynn.
that's not fair.
carson
neither is calling me out in the gc
raelynn.
you can't compare that to cheating on me for months and then dumping me for the other girl
carson
it wasnât for months
and it wasnât for some other girl
raelynn.
choose your words carefully bc if you say that i was the problem and the reason you cheated on me / broke up with me i'll block you.
carson
no I take full responsibility for the cheating and being a dick
raelynn.
yeah, and i was the last to know, and then you broke up with me and you were all over social media with that girl like days later.
carson
it wasnât days
and you were the only one to know
raelynn.
you're right i think it maybe was only one day
carson
it was like a month
raelynn.
still too soon. still sus. still dated me and said you loved me and wanted to marry. me for 2 years.
carson
I did!
raelynn.
and you cheated on me, so none of that was real.
carson
I did really love you raelynn
raelynn.
you don't do that to someone you love.
you don't lie to them and make them look stupid
carson
I know I know
raelynn.
so did you just. stop the minute you decided you wanted to fuck her.
carson
no I was just stupid and not thinking
raelynn.
you really messed me up like permanently i'll never be who i was again.
carson
Iâm so sorry
raelynn.
so do you get why it's not fair to ask me to decide today whether or not you can be in my life?
carson
oh cmon it was a joke
I wouldnât actual expect that of you
raelynn.
i never know what to take seriously with you honestly
carson
Iâll wait as long as it takes, raelynn
raelynn.
to what end?
carson
wym
raelynn.
what's the goal
carson
whatever you want
raelynn.
that's too vague. there has to be something that you want. otherwise you wouldn't bother.
carson
I just want to make things right
Iâm not the devil
raelynn.
i mean, they do always say that the devil doesn't always have horns and shit. they say he's got gorgeous hair and piercing eyes, and he lures you in.
carson
oh come on raelynn
raelynn.
see that, that was a joke.
carson
wyd tomo
raelynn.
whatever i want during the day and then work in the evening.
i'm a cage dancer, tips are good.
[...] why
carson
do you wanna get coffee
raelynn.
is there a particular reason you want to?
carson
just to hang out we dont have to
raelynn.
I don't know.
carson
that's ok
raelynn.
But maybe.
You're not trying to mess with me?
carson
no
raelynn.
it's just that the last time we sat across from each other you were breaking up with me.
carson
i can't break up with you rn
raelynn.
i know. that's not what it's about.
carson
well
raelynn.
it's just. that's how little trust is here, carson.
carson
idk what im supposed to say
im gonna give you space
raelynn.
you're supposed to just say what you mean .
carson
i am!
raelynn.
[...] I'll meet you. But just coffee. Not coffee and then my place, not coffee and then your place, not coffee and a kiss.
carson
i just said coffee
raelynn.
I know what you said, I just want to be as clear as I can be.
carson
crystal clear
raelynn.
Good. Um. Noonish?
carson
noon works!!
raelynn.
maybe the starbucks around the block from wes? I go to that one a lot. The staff is nice.
carson
sure, sounds good!
raelynn.
and carson? i literally am gonna ask just one single thing of you, okay?
carson
yes maam
raelynn.
don't screw any of my friends.
carson
idk who ur friends are
raelynn.
ugh.
carson
give me names, raelynn
raelynn.
i'm an extremely popular woman!
carson
bruh
raelynn.
well, there's delilah even though she and i aren't speaking. there's lana, there's niamh, roman, landon, ivy (i hope, soon), spencer, echo, rue, jules. if i think of anyone else i'll let you know.
also wes, wes is my friend, he counts.
carson
ok spen and i have been friends way before
and im not gonna fuck wes
or delilah
raelynn.
you don't get to argue with my list, carson.
carson
ok
raelynn.
you wanna fuck spence or something?
carson
i didn't say that
i just said we were friends!
raelynn.
okay.
i swear to god carson, you've aged me 50 years.
carson
oooh 75 yrs old
that;s hot
raelynn.
hate you
carson
<3
raelynn.
...don't
carsonBOT01/25/2021
</3
raelynn.
you don't even mean that lmao
carson
says u
raelynn.
it's not like you came back for me or whatever
carson
carson: i came back because i wanted to
raelynn
yeah i figured.
carson
carson: and i had to
raelynn
you had to come back or you had to leave?
carson
both
raelynn
so why did you leave?
carson
uh idk if you wanna know that
raelynn
did you run away with the other girl.
carson
no
raelynn
so why.
carson
my mom died
raelynn
[...]
carson
so i went to stay with my dad
raelynn
shit. i'm sorry.
carson
an awakening of some sort
raelynn
i really loved her.
carson
 i did too
so yeah i went to california. saw my dad. lived out there
raelynn
and you had to come back because...?
carson
someone had to do something about the apartment and house
plus wes was practically begging me to come back home
raelynn
yeah i get that.
marie
but Iâm here now
raelynn.Â
did you miss me.
you don't have to answer that. it's stupid.
carson
of course I did
raelynn.
okay. idk why i wanted to know.
carson
idk either
raelynn.
idk it's stupid
[...]
carson
Iâm so sorry
I have a meeting at noon I forgot about
raelynn.
if you're backpedaling just say so.
carson
Iâm not
raelynn.
so why should I believe you when you texted to cancel 15 minutes before?
carson
I have one brain cell and itâs my dadâs assistantâs
raelynn.
Was Delilah just making fun of me in that chat for not remembering ivy
carson
what does this have to do with me
raelynn
bc if so, it looks like you joined in.
carson
again, what does this have to do with me
raelynn.
Bc you can't act like you wanna fix things with me in here and make fun of me out there. Doesn't work like that.
carson
Iâve only told Delilah to fix things with you
what are you talking about !!!!!
raelynn.
The fight yesterday! When I said I dont remember fighting with Ivy and everyone shat on me. Delilah was making fun of me when she was talking about not remembering anyone.
carson
yes, I am that cruel and think that deeply into things
raelynn.
I know exactly how cruel you can be dude and I may be a dumbass but I didn't forget that.
carson
it literally wasnât a dig at you
I was mocking Delilah
raelynn.
Do you swear on my tits?
carson
Iâm not doing that
raelynn.
No matter whats going on with us i know you wouldn't risk them unless you're lying.
carson
oh my god
raelynn.
yeah I guess you're regretting this decision now
carson
you literally make me regret opening my mouth jfc
raelynn.
You don't have to talk to me if you don't want to.
carson
fine!
raelynn.
Fine.
carson
read
[...]
carson
hi
đđśđđđđđ
hi.
carson
im sorry
đđśđđđđđ
for?
carson
being dumb
đđśđđđđđ
i don't want to play games anymore. i'm a grownup.
carson
i thought we were 12
đđśđđđđđ
carson
carson
raelynn
đđśđđđđđ
can you be serious
carson
how serious
i would like to not be serious rn im trying to figure out this living situation
đđśđđđđđ
like above the age of 12 serious
carson
how's 16?
đđśđđđđđ
gah, ok
carson
<3
đđśđđđđđ
i told you not to do that
carson
</3
đđśđđđđđ
and you're not heartbroken so that's just a lie emoji
carson
dont tell me how im feeling
đđśđđđđđ
fine, you're not heartbroken over me
carson
don't tell me tht
đđśđđđđđ
but it's the truth, isn't it?
carson
no
đđśđđđđđ
i'm going to be very honest. if you are messing with me i cannot handle it. it hurts. so if you are messing with me right now, don't. ok?
carson
why would i be messing with you
do you want me to try to make things right
you can tell me no and ill quite literally just fuck off
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[...] you can try.
carson
ok
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...ok?
carson
im trying!!
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your ok texts are just weird omg
carson
it's literally an ok text
what would u like me to say
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i'm not mad or anything
about that
carson
please
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pls what
carson
im trying so hard right now
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okay, okay.
i accept your apology. For being dumb.
carson
thank u
one person has today
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who else did u piss off?
carson
you still live at the same place
have u eaten
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i moved but not far.
why?
carson
i was gonna send u dinner from that italian place
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Alfredo's Pizza Cafe?
carson
yes maam
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that would be nice.
do u remember my order?
carson
yes
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*drops pin*
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this is where i live now. it's slightly bigger than the old place. i have space to put my shoes finally.
carson
moving on up
it should be there in 10
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thanks, all i had today was hot chocolate and gum.
carson
why
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you know how i sometimes get an anxious tummy
carson
yeah :/
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yeah i was feeling queasy
but i'm feelin a little better.
carson
thatâs good </3
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you don't gotta broken heart emoji about it, really.
carson
</3
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well i see your broken heart emoji and raise you a *peach emoji*
carson
are u working tonight
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yeah
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Why?
carson
do you want to grab dinner before?
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are you sure?
carson
yes, no meetings
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then yeah, okay. I go into work at 7. So whatever time works for you before then probs works for me too.
carson
okay! 5 work?
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yeah that'll be fine, where should i meet u?
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I picked a table towards the back I hope that's chill.
carson
yes!
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ok see you in a bit.
[...]
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is it true.
carson
is what true
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what sabrina said.
carson
yes
I wish I was dating my king
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idk what the second part means but that's all i wanted to know. bye.
carson
I just wanted to fix things I never said anything about getting together
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i didn't say i wanted to?
carson
then why are you upset
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bc i knew something like this would happen but i didn't think it would happen literally the week you came back. i'm blindsided. you could've said something to me last night.
carson
we talked after
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but i still didn't get like a text or anything? i had to find out from the chat as if we didn't decide to work on this. and it feels shitty.
carson
why would you get a text
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because we were allegedly friends.
and you were gonna be honest with me.
but in any case, it doesn't really matter. i sincerely hope that you're happy. i'm gonna take some space for myself for right now, though.
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GET TO KNOW ME!
I was tagged by the lovely @otsukaresope thank you!(and yes, I copied and pasted yours and changed my answers too)
Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people. (lol you know iâm not tagging that many people)
THE LAST: 1. Drink: Mango Juice 2. Phone call: My dad 3. Text message: My dad again 4. Song you listened to: There Was A Rapper by Dizraeli & the Small Gods 5. Time you cried: looooord I have no idea, I cry all the time.. i think it was like two or three days ago..
HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: No 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No 8. Been cheated on: Not that I know of 9. Lost someone special: Hasnât everyone? 10. Been depressed: I guess 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Yes, only once, I learned my lesson.
LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Blue or any variation on it 13. Yellow/Orange 14. Very dark pink/red/purple kinda colour if you know what I mean
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Yes, surprisingly 16. Fallen out of love: lol iâve never even been IN love 17. Laughed until you cried: Probably yeah, i used to do it a lot more than i do now though sadly 18. Found out someone was talking about you: I found out a guy wouldnât shut up about me because he liked me if that counts.. 19. Met someone who changed you: I donât think so, no 20. Found out who your friends are: I already knew who my friends are 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Yes
GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them Iâm pretty sure 23. Do you have any pets: Omg, yes! I have two cats, a dog, two budgies, a bearded dragon, a tortoise and two chickens! 24. Do you want to change your name: When I was little me and my best friend went through a phase of wanting to change our names, but of course we never did. 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: My family all came to see me and then my parents took me out for a meal in the evening. 26. What time did you wake up: Ugh 7am to pack up from camping and come home, itâs the earliest Iâve been up in ages! 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Messaging my friends and trying to sleep. 28. Name something you canât wait for: Hixtape of course and also to get my flipping uni accommodation confirmation so I can start planning my room! 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: About 30 seconds ago, sheâs in the kitchen 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I wish I was more confident and sociable (Iâm a lot better than I used to be but itâs still something Iâm working on!) 31. What are you listening to right now: Nothing, although Iâve been recently rediscovering Yoongiâs mixtape, specifically The Last... Itâs making me emo af. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yeah I know of so many Tomâs 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My menopausal mother (sorry mum) and my over helpful, dithering grandmother (put them both together like now and i want to take a long walk off a short pier)Â 34. Most visited website: I guess here or youtube
LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: A few like flat big freckle ones but none that i would really call moles because they arenât raised?? How do you even know whatâs a mole and what isnât? 36. Mark/s: oh man my knees are basically made of childhood scars, I also have a big scar on my arm from when i broke it, and various other tiny scars across my body, and a few bits of discolouration on my back from when i got sunburned really badly once 37. Chilhood dream: I wanted to be a vet 38. Hair color: My natural hair colour is like a light mousey brown, but at the moment itâs henna red 39. Long or short hair: uhh short i guess, itâs in a bob thatâs grown out a lil 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Not really 41. What do you like about yourself: I like my long, naturally curled eyelashes, and that I am quite an accepting person (at least i like to think i am) 42. Piercings: One in each ear, and my nose 43. Blood type: I have no idea, i tried to find this out before i went to korea as they believe the blood type=personality traits thing, but it seems to be actually quite hard to find out if you donât already know.. 44. Nickname: Meg, v occasionally Meggie or (if youâre my mother and trying to annoy me) Meggie Moo 45. Relationship status: Single 46. Zodiac: Aries 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV show: Gosh I donât know anymore, I donât watch as much tv as i used to. I recently finished binging Skins (uk) though because i never got into it when i was a teenager 49. Tattoos: No, but i would like to get one one day 50. Right or left hand: left handed! (fun fact a lady i used to work with told me this is a sign of the devil and looked at me reproachfully lol) 51. Surgery: No cosmetic surgery, but i broke my arm pretty badly when i was 9 and had to have two surgeries to fix it and i still have a numb section down my right arm to this day from nerve damage! 52. Hair dyed in different colors: I have only ever dyed it red/coppery either with henna or proper dye 53. Sport: man i am the least sporty person you will ever meet! I was pretty good a hockey in school though and i enjoyed tennis and badminton too. 54. Thereâs no question here so fun fact: I currently have diamond shaped sunburn patches all down my arms from a lace-up armed top i was wearing yesterday, iâm such a fool. 55. Vacation: I would literally love to go anywhere and everywhere in the world, but right now Iâm kinda feeling either Hawaiâi (blame bts) or Florida 56. Pair of trainers: Do converse count as trainers? Because I live in my converse.
MORE GENERAL:
57. Eating: Nothing Right now, but i need to go make myself some lunch. Â Â Â 58. Drinking: Again nothing, someone get me some tea!
59. Iâm about to: Go say hi to my grandma who has just turned up, then maybe go over to my dadâs and watch game of thrones with him 60. No question here either so another fun fact: I have hypermobility in some of my limbs, just like Jin does (his wiggly fingers) so my knees bend backwards (i think Jinâs knees do this too actually), which freaks some people out! The downside is apparently itâs awful for my joints, Iâm such an old lady! 61. Waiting for: My uni accommodation! 62. Want: So many things, love, money, a job, MY UNI ACCOMMODATION 63. Get married: Eh, maybe if the right person comes along, although i think it will be v different from a traditional type of wedding eg i hate how traditionally the bride is given from man to man and takes the husbands name, I would like to mash our names together to make a cool new name for us both... idk i guess i would just have a more feminist/egalitarian version of a marriage/wedding if i get married. 64. Career: Uuugh I donât even have a job at the moment, and i doubt i will even when i finish my degree lol oh the hopelessness of adulthood
WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs 66. Lips or eyes: Both?? I guess lips if i HAD to choose. 67. Shorter or taller: It doesnât make a difference to me bc im short as hell anyway so anyone i date it always gonna be taller than me no matter how short they are... 68. Older or younger: i would prefer older but i guess so long as itâs not too much younger i wouldnât mind so long as they are mentally mature enough. 69. No question here: Then youâre gonna get no answer. 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: nice arms i guess 71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship preferably, but all i ever seem to get are hook-ups! 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Â I guess troublemaker so long as itâs not damaging
HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: Yes 75. Drank hard liquour: Yes 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I lost a pair of sunglasses recently.. 77. Turned someone down: Yes 78. Sex in the first date: I havenât actually properly dated anyone in ages.. 79. Broken someoneâs heart: Not that i know of 80. Had your heart broken: Yes, but not by a romantic partner, just a best friend, they can do that too unfortunately.. 81. Been arrested: No although apparently i once when i was 16 i got blackout drunk and started hammering on a police car door (with the policemen inside) and they had to get out and tell my friends to take me home or they would arrest me (im so goddamn embarrassed about that)Â 82. Cried when someone died: Of course, who doesnât? 83. Fallen for a friend: No
DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: i have nothing else to believe in so, YES 85. Miracles: I donât think so 86. Love at first sight: Again, I donât think so 87. Santa Claus: Of course, what are you saying?!?!?! 88. Kiss in the first date: Yeah why not if i like them enough 89. Angels: No
OTHER: 90. Current best friendâs name: I donât think i have just one, but i guess my oldest friend and friends i se the most are Jenny and Hannah 91. Eyecolor: Green/blue/turquoise, it depends on the light (yes im THAT white girl, fight me itâs a thing) 92. Favorite movie: Ah man i couldnât tell you i just donât know sorry!
Tagging: @aw-yeah-jimin @grandpa-yoongi @sopehope @seoulsistersopi and i guess anyone else that wants to do it!
#you obvs dont have to do this if you dont want to guys!#also i messed up the formatting somewhere in the middle of this so it looks a bit of a mess lol
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I WUV U!!!!!!!!
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?uhhhhhhh my irl friend i think2. Are you outgoing or shy?UH!!?????!!!?!?!?!?! both3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?my wonderful boyfriend sorey!!!!!4. Are you easy to get along with?uhh my friendz said ya soo5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?i wouldnt b drunk but ????? idk???6. What kind of people are you attracted to?sorey7. Do you think youâll be in a relationship two months from now?ya!8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?no one9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?uhhuhhuhuh idk10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?uh sorey probably11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?âim gonna take a quick nap wake me when the dryers doneâ12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?not in any order butlo-fi children by wild partypay no mind by madeonno culture by mother motherback to front by early hourseverybody come outside by the pomegranates
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?ya!14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?uhh sometimes??????15. What good thing happened this summer?i got a wonderful beautiful boyfriend who i love very much!!!16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?theres no one to kiss!17. Do you think there is life on other planets?ofc!!!!!!!!!!!!!18. Do you still talk to your first crush?sdfds no i only crushed on him cause other ppl in my class were getting crushes and i wanted to be a Cool Kid19. Do you like bubble baths?ya!20. Do you like your neighbors?uhh never met them but i like their dogs21. What are you bad habits?i pull on my hair and pick at my nails a lot22. Where would you like to travel?netherlands23. Do you have trust issues?ooo ya24. Favorite part of your daily routine?this sounds gay but msgsing sorey25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?uhhh m chest26. What do you do when you wake up?msg my palz n pm sorey27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?idk its fine as it is i think28. Who are you most comfortable around?sorey29. Have any of your exâs told you they regret breaking up?i think bt it ws complicated30. Do you ever want to get married?well me n sorey r p much already there31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?nope!32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?hhh idk i dnt kno much abt any celebs33. Spell your name with your chin.l,ersttg34. Do you play sports? What sports?i h8 sports!!!!!35. Would you rather live without TV or music?tv36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?ya37. What do you say during awkward silences?\nothing i leave it38. Describe your dream girl/guy?sorey!39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?thrift shop also like any decor store i luv homesense40. What do you want to do after high school?uhh well im there now and im jst working on portfolio41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?nope42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?i jst dont have uch to say bt i also might b depressed u never kno im a suprise!43. Do you smile at strangers?i try to bt only if we accidentally make eye contact44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?SPACE the deep sea is scary45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?sorey46. What are you paranoid about?everything!47. Have you ever been high?no!48. Have you ever been drunk?no!49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?uhhh i dont think so???50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?grey n black i think51. Ever wished you were someone else?uhhh i dnt understand th question 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?2 many things to name one53. Favourite makeup brand?uhsduhfui idk54. Favourite store?homesense55. Favourite blog?ilovemikleo1 hes a cool guy56. Favourite colour?pink! but i also rlly like blue and purple!n red an aaa i cnt pick57. Favourite food? sweets58. Last thing you ate?all dressed chips59. First thing you ate this morning?cherry gummies60. Ever won a competition? For what?i once one a ssb competition @ a friends bday party and normally i suck at smash but the prize was two (2) cosmic brownies and i Wanted them61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?nope!62. Been arrested? For what?i hav not63. Ever been in love? eheh yes64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?didnt happen!65. Are you hungry right now?not rlly66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhyahhhhhhhhhh67. Facebook or Twitter?i dnt use either bt twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr?twitter tumblr is the devil69. Are you watching tv right now?nope!70. Names of your bestfriends? sorey bt also uhhhhhhhhhhhhhall my friends!!!!!71. Craving something? What?i jst want more chips72. What colour are your towels?they vary cause i have many bt rn yellow72. How many pillows do you sleep with?1.573. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?ya!74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?100000075. Favourite animal?crows n also ravens dont ask me 2 choose76. What colour is your underwear?skipping ths77. Chocolate or Vanilla?vanilla78. Favourite ice cream flavour?strawberry!79. What colour shirt are you wearing?mahogany80. What colour pants?black81. Favourite tv show?uh!!?!?!?!?!?!?!82. Favourite movie?the secret of kells83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?never seen mean girls 284. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?never seen 21 jump street85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?dont have one86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?dont have one87. First person you talked to today?sorey!88. Last person you talked to today?m in a call bt sorey ws th last person to say smthn89. Name a person you hate?uhhhh i do h8 someone but i cnt say who they r90. Name a person you love?SOREY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MY BF SO MUCH!!!! and m friends91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?see #8992. In a fight with someone?not atm93. How many sweatpants do you have?like 294. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?2 many95. Last movie you watched?i dont rememberr96. Favourite actress?dont have one97. Favourite actor?dont have one98. Do you tan a lot?no i just burn99. Have any pets?i have a dog!100. How are you feeling?uh?101. Do you type fast?kinda102. Do you regret anything from your past?living103. Can you spell well?no but i thought this said \can you cast a spell wellâ and i got excited104. Do you miss anyone from your past?ya .105. Ever been to a bonfire party?nope!106. Ever broken someoneâs heart?mayb107. Have you ever been on a horse?ya108. What should you be doing?art109. Is something irritating you right now?not rlly110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?ya111. Do you have trust issues?ya112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?sheep!113. What was your childhood nickname?didnt have one114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?ya!115. Do you play the Wii?yup!116. Are you listening to music right now?nope!117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?ya!!!118. Do you like Chinese food?depends what it is119. Favourite book?haunting violet by alyxandra harvey120. Are you afraid of the dark?sometimes121. Are you mean?i think i am bt ppl say no so uh122. Is cheating ever okay???!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?idk123. Can you keep white shoes clean?sometimes124. Do you believe in love at first sight?mayb125. Do you believe in true love?ya!126. Are you currently bored?a lil bt not rlly127. What makes you happy?sorey!!!! and my friends!!!!!! and vampiresâŚâŚ128. Would you change your name?im tryin 2 do it129. What your zodiac sign?cencer130. Do you like subway?its ok131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?ths wouldnt happen bt if it did id ignore it132. Whoâs the last person you had a deep conversation with?sorey133. Favourite lyrics right now?âim like a bull in a chinda shop knocking off an knock offâ frm no culture by mother mother134. Can you count to one million?no i dnt have the patience for that135. Dumbest lie you ever told?uhh idk136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?closedd137. How tall are you?5â˛5âł138. Curly or Straight hair?curly139. Brunette or Blonde?i hav brownish hair bt i like both140. Summer or Winter?summer141. Night or Day?night142. Favourite month?julyy143. Are you a vegetarian?nope!144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?all!145. Tea or Coffee?coffe146. Was today a good day?idk it ws jst ok147. Mars or Snickers?mars148. Whatâs your favourite quote?uhfdsfuishfui idk149. Do you believe in ghosts?ofc!150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, whatâs the first line on that page? âhe was dressed impeccably and properly, no matter the hourâ
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here are my collective thoughts on my first listen at b.andstand on broadway. a lot of comparisons are gonna be made to papermill just because iâve been listening to it for like six months straight waiting for this transfer, so itâs the version iâm used to. this post is NOT spoiler free, by the way. alright, letâs do it.
opening/just like it was before:
totally new arrangement from what it was at papermill, but i still really like the song
lyrical similarities right off the bat to âright this wayâ
âiâd like a good nights sleep, is that too much to ask?â
âthe cream always risesâ hmmmm, i see what yâall did there (see: donny novitski)
âyou talk in your sleepâ âi should have warned yaâ
why is this score so lit
âif i canât play, then whatâs the point of making it back home?â have i mentioned today i love donald novitski because i feel like at this point i need to say that
that last harmonizing note fuck fuck fuck
donny novitski:
pretty much entirely the same as papermill
donny has some serious animosity at frank sinatra
i like hearing this song with the full orchestra though itâs lit
âdonny needs something to block all the memories and break his insomnia spellâ again, hello, i love donald novitski thanks
corey cott could kill someone with that last note his vibratto is killer
scene before i know a guy:
âweâre not open yetâ âyour back door isâ
THEY GAVE NATE HOPKINS APPLAUSE AFTER HIS SAX SOLO IâM SCREAMING
i still canât believe they call michael ârubberâ through most of this show
i know a guy:
the âdrivinâ me nutsâ joke is still hilarious
JIMMY YOU SKINNY SON OF A BITCH
why is nick radel me
âhow do you miss a b flat? itâs a b flat trumpet!â
THAT LITTLE JUST LIKE IT WAS BEFORE REPRISE
why did they skim wayne and johnny shy though like we got full scenes with davy, nick, and jimmy why not them too??
ainât we proud:
still a catchy song but not one of my favs
NICK GOT APPLAUSE AFTER THEIR SOLOS HECK
corey fucking cott teaching himself piano for this show and you wouldnât have even guessed what a fucking champ
post-ainât be proud, pre-who i was:
i love johnny simpson more than anything in this life i will choose his happiness over mine every time
âhow much slower will you get, will they put you in reverseâ FUCK
you can hear johnny mumbling âsunday.... sundayâ before he asks what day of the week is sunday i swear to god i would die for him
âthe high balls are on meâ âi donât get itâ âwell see, griaffes are really tallâ
âhow bad was it?â âfriendly fire got himâ âwere you the friend?â what kind O F FUCKING FORESHADOWING
âarenât you a little old for ding dong ditchâ julia,,,,,, julia,,,,,,,
i donât like that they have that interlude and have julia invite him over a different day instead of just inviting him in right away. i feel like that could be cut out honestly
âi just want to know what happenedâ âwhat will that get you?â âi donât know, sleeping through the night? closing a chapter? maybe just getting out the door?â juliaaaaaaa iâm a fucking wreck itâs fine
who i was:
AHHH I LOVE HEARING THIS SONG WITH THE FULL ORCHESTRA
the dinner scene:
âyou look prettyâ âwell, turns out thereâs better cosmetics than cake flourâ Me: Fucking Squints(tm)
MRS ADAMS USED TO PLAY THE PIANO
THE DEVILED EGGS
âthe top of the paprika shaker fell offâ iâm
oh shit since they took donnyâs parents out of the beginning number from papermill, his mom died when he was thirteen
julia crying while they go through the pictures iâm fine
JULIA ENOUGH WITH THE Â CON DOM JOKES
âyour daughterâs voice is beautiful, itâs really highâ my god donny
just like it was before (reprise):
the chorus of âdonny noâ and âwhat are you doing?â from julia and wayne when he tells julia to come sing with them iâm shrieking
âwait, i gotta transposeâ JOHNNY
first steps first:
itâs a bit different than what it was but gd iâd still die for laura osnesâ voice
âno need to be so shy, take reassurance i know how to guide you through the worst steps, first steps firstâ uh more foreshadowing re: donny
âwhy donât you kick it upâ âoh, thank godâ DAVY
oooh yeah i like this new arrangement
âyou want a drink?â âoh i hardly ever drinkâ âyou wanna trade liversâ davy please
âthe best i could hope is to teach the kids choir at churchâ âDONâT. TEACH.â i love nick smÂ
JULIA ASKING ABOUT WAYNEâS KIDS IâM SOBBING OH MY G OD
JULIA TROJAN IS THE LIGHT OF THIS ENTIRE WORLD AND I WOULD DIE FOR HER
their names are emily and grady btwÂ
âas far as iâm concerned iâm one of the lucky onesâ âyes you are, you made it homeâ âno, lucky i donât rememberâ again, i would die for johnny simpson too
god damn juliaâs voice is so soft and sweet iâm dying. the voice laura uses is even softer than her ella voice i just wanna hug her
heck they kept the âparents warn their kids about people like youâ line god bless
âoh a wise cracker! you might be watching too many picturesâ uh ya did you not get the âavid cinephileâ line, donny?
âi donât need to be rescuedâ ur goD DAMN RIGHT JULIA
âiâll give it a thought but there are a lot of things i want to know about michaelâ âfirst steps firstâ oh fuck i see what yâall did there
breathe:
âstop touching my stuff with your sweaty handsâ this is literally a band full of five year olds
??? this song doesnât really do anything ???
they could easily cut this song tbh
itâs pretty much just like them rehearsing for you deserve it
you deserve it:
DID YOU MEAN MY FUCKING JAM SECOND ONLY TO âNOBODYâ? YEP
this song didnât change pretty much at all and itâs still a bop
CAUSE WHEN YOU GOT THE CALL YOU STOOD UP PROUD AND TALL AND YOU DESERVE IT
post-you deserve it/pre-love will come and find me again:
donny and julia bonding over music iâm shook
âmichael is buried in some place called manila, i'll never get to manila, i never got to say goodbye. a lot of things just vanish with not explanation and i wanna know. if-if he was in pain, i wanna know how his hands were folded in the casket and if-if his uniform was pressed and his hair was combed right and a million other things that keep me up at nightâ iâm sobbingÂ
julia takes no shit and i love her so much
âi survived mustard gas and pepper spray, i guess that makes me a seasoned veteranâ davyâs jokes oh my god
JULIA BREAKING UP THE FIGHT BETWEEN DONNY AND NICK
âWALK ME HOME, DONNY, COME ONâ
awwww juliaâs poem
âdonât stay up all night reading them, get some sleepâ âeh, gave up on that a long time agoâ :////
THE LITTLE REPRISE OF WHO I WAS
âwhen i lost him it broke my soul. who knew my voice could be one part of the whole? well... perhaps someone doesâ fuck
âgershwinâs got nothing on youâ MRS ADAMSÂ
âiâll stay up all night, iâm good at thatâ again iâm ://///////
love will come and find me again:
laura osnes could step on me and iâd thank her
nothing has changed with this song but fuck itâs so good
right this way:
âbayer-FUCKING-asprinâ
holy fuck this song might just win corey cott a tony nomination
ACT TWO
nobody:
AKA MY FUCKIN JAM AGAIN
literally the same nothing changed itâs still a bop
NICK ASKING WAYNE TO MOVE IN W/ HIM
âI JUST GOT A LIVE IN MAIDâ JFC
i got a theory:
LAURA ON THE UKE
nothing much changed with this song either tbh
JIMMYâS GAY AND HE LITERALLY WATCHED HIS BF DIE WHEN HIS SHIP EXPLODED FUCK THIS SHOW
i said it probably like twice already but i love johnny simpson
julia still having her moment of trying to convince davy to stop drinking ://///
post-i got a theory:
âwas it quick? did he suffer? was he trying to save someone?â âyou donât wanna knowâ Â âfor a year and a half itâs all iâve wanted to know. was he scared? what was the last thing he said? were his eyes open?â AND D ONNY SNAPS AT HER IMÂ â
JUST STOP ITâ
âiâm still waitingâ
oh myg od
they changed michaelâs entire deathÂ
donny had accidentally dropped a grenade while they were in a trench and couldnât find it. he tried to tell michael to get out and he didnât make it and fuck heâs crying telling this to julia what the fuck has this show done to me
everything happens:
âIT WAS HIS FAULTâ JULIA JULIA JU L I Â A
i love mrs adams so much
what would julia have done without her
welcome home:
JULIA AND MICHAEL LITERALLY MET IN HIGH SCHOOL DOING THEATRE FUCK ME UP
âyou know the first thing he said to me? donât sing because you need to get the lead, sing because you just need to sing. you know what he said next? the girl who got the lead stuffs her bra with so much kleneex, one cigarette act and sheâll go upâ no wonder julia wrote poetry for this guy he was smooth as FUCK
âstop picking up my clothes, if i wanted them in the drawer, iâd put them in the drawerâ nick relax
donny singing welcome home iâm in tears
HE ENCOURAGES HER TO WRITE WELCOME HOME AS A LOVE SONG IF MICHAEL HAD COME HOME FUCK THIS ENTIRE SHOW
âsometimes i just think, maybe the wrong guy came homeâ again, fuck this entire show
a band in new york city:
THE GUYS AT THE VA PAID FOR THEIR TRIP SO PURE
this song is still a bop too
this is life:
idk i like this song but i think i almost prefer âgive me a reasonâ
this also hasnât changed at all from when they sang it at broadwaycon
but holy fuck do corey and laura sound incredible together
welcome home (reprise):
jimmy campbell: the real hero
âwe came, we saw, we said fuck itâ DAVY IS ME
THIS IS LIFE REPRISE FUCK F UCK FUCK
WHAT I FEEL FOR YOU JULIA IS TRUE. NO MATTER HOW TOUGH IT IS, NO MATTER HOW MUCH TIME IT TAKES, I NEED TO BE WITH YOU. AND THAT IS TRUE.
IâM SERIOUSLY HOPING THAT THE CROWD CHEERING IS BECAUSE THEY KISSED BECAUSE FUCK YOU GUYS IâM CRYING THAT WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN JUST THEÂ âI LOVE YOU JULIA TROJANâ FROM PAPERMILL HE WAS LITERALLY CRYING AND IâM LITERALLY CRYING
the lyrics changed a bit to welcome home and it still breaks my heart
finale:
awwwww sweet betsy oh my god
donny inviting her and her family backstage to meet her father who served iâm sobbing itâs fine
itâs literally just a reprise of nobody oh god
it could have been a little longer but !!!!!!
okay, so overall holy shit. a lot changed from papermill. dialogue, songs, you name it. i think the book needs a little re-writing and there are a lot of pointless interludes between scenes that could be cut but!!!!!!! holy fuck overall i love it so much. i canât wait until we get a video boot i need to see this choreography and ESPECIALLY this is life and before welcome home
#this took so long but fuck i have so many feelings#it's completely different from papermill and i have so much to update re: julia#â && â âEXIT; PURSUED BY A BEAR. ( ooc )
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i was tagged by @adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy & @fairylightsstyles !! love u binches đâ¨
Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, you choose 25 people to tag! (lol yikes iâm a loser on here so idk abt that)
THE LAST⌠â¨1. Drink: to be real with u i donât drink much and when i do itâs at high school parties but i did try a lemon drop when i was in europe last summer and my cousin sneaked me in to a club & it was pretty above average đ¤ but ig the last âdrinkâ was a coke w coconut (idk either??) vodka and that was a wild night lmao
2. Phone call: my (kinda) mans?
3. Text message: my friend chris
4. Song you listened to: wild thoughts đđ
5. Time you cried: uhm i think it was wednesday it was v dramatic
HAVE YOU EVER⌠â¨6. Dated someone twice: this dude in middle school lmao we dated for like a hot minute in 6th grade and then rekindled our love on the class trip in eighth grade aw young love
7. Been cheated on: yeah:/
8. Kissed someone and regretted it: truth or dare games fuckin suck
9. Lost someone special: my grandma was my best friend and i didnât talk to anyone for a solid month when she passed
10. Been depressed: when i had anorexia but that was a pretty long time ago so :)
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah blackout drunk doesnât sound appealing
LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS: â¨12. lilac
13. forest green
14. gold
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU⌠â¨15. Made new friends: yes lmao i dropped so many friends last year so i had to make more AND my groupchat homies that i luv dearly
16. Fallen out of love: yes
17. Laughed until you cried: i surround myself with good vibes so yes many times
18. Found out someone was talking about you: oh my god rumors spread faster than wildfire at my school yes
19. Met someone who changed you: changed me? i guess they made me a better person but idk about changing me
20. Found out who your true friends are: my friend group collapsed last year and i figured out who was still around after that
21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: who uses facebook anymore
22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i deleted my facebook like freshmen year so ?Âż
23. Do you have any pets: oh my god 3 dogs and 2 cats itâs like a zoo of fluff at my house
24. Do you want to change your name: nah iâm cool
25. What did you do for your last birthday: my friend max threw me a surprise party and it got wayyyy too lit to be honest
26. What time did you wake up: today i woke up at 6 to see the sunrise bc my kinda mans has a balcony in his room with a good ass view for that
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping lmao iâm a grandma
28. Name something you cannot wait for: my shawn concert!!!
29. When was the last time you saw your mother: tonight when she exposed me so iâm currently not speaking w her lmao
30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: maybe if my parents could be home more, theyâre not really around much sometimes and that kinda sucks
31. What are you listening to right now: this weird ass netflix movie that my little cousin is forcing me to watch bc nash grier is in it kill me now
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: my friend abigailâs dadâs name is tom and lemme tell u heâs lowkey a dilf đ¤đ
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: this netflix movie itâs so cringe
34. Most visited website: snapchat i think??
35. Elementary: worst 8 years of my life
36. High School: finally almost done
37. College/university: im going lmao
38. Hair colour: blonde
39. Long or short hair: my hair was down to my butt and i just chopped it all off (yes, i pulled a harry styles) to my shoulders to donate and i honestly really like it short!!
40. Do you have a crush on someone: :-)
41. What do you like about yourself: i think iâm a pretty nice and chill person like iâm totally bragging here but i was voted funniest and nicest junior this year for the yearbook and like :D thatâs just a nice feeling and it was validated !!
42. Piercings: technically two on both ears and when i was 15 i let my boyfriendâs (now ex boyfriend lol) older brotherâs friend pierce my nose bc i wanted to piss my dad off but i donât wear anything in it anymore so
43. Blood type: o negative actually!!
44. Nickname: a looootttt of my friends call me aj (like more than my actual name) and then some just call me manda but yeah aj is the most nickname outa those so
45. Relationship status: iâm a fuckboy man idk whatâs going on
46. Zodiac sign: cancer
47. Pronouns: she/her
48. Favourite TV show: criminal minds omgggg how do you become a screen writer bc i have some dope ideas for that show lemme tell you
49. Tattoos: none but i wanna get some!!
50. Right or left hand: righty
FIRST⌠â¨51. Surgery: spinal fusion man it succckkkeedd
52. Piercing: ears
54. Sport: i started ballet when i was 3 idk if that counts but
55. Vacation: my aunt and uncleâs lake house in montana
56. Pair of trainers: they were these cute little adidas thereâs sooo many pics of me in those
57. Eating: that di⌠plz excuse me lmfao but nah iâm actually eating watermelon :-)
58. Drinking: water đŚ
59. Iâm about to: jump off a building bc i was exposed tonight by my very own parents đđź
60. Listening to: now me and my little cousin are watching captain america (only bc i saw andreaâs post and decided to try it idk why i trust trash but im)
61. Waiting for: my trust issues to choke
62. Want: mozzarella sticks idk
63. Get married: yeah one day
64. Career: something in film so like cinematography or directing or just something creative like that đ
YOUR TYPE⌠â¨65. Hugs or kisses: depends on who it is ya feel
66. Lips or eyes: eyes definitely
67. Shorter or taller: well like.. boys fs taller but girls idc ?Âż
68. Older or younger: older bc immaturity is a turn off
70. Nice arms or nice stomach: not to make everything about harold but heâs just got the perf body to me like toned arms and a soft tummy.. yes please
71. Sensitive or loud: i mean they gotta be both in certain situations but overall i guess loud
72. Hook up or relationship: iâm a fucking mess i have trust issues AND commitment issues so like.. both make death appealing
73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker fs
HAVE YOU EVER⌠â¨74. Kissed a stranger? again, truth or dare games suck
75. Drank hard liquor? once but it was at this rich white boyâs house and i deadass felt like he snuck it from his grandpaâs stash to get it and i was like ?Âż đ
76. Lost glasses contact/lenses: i donât wear them so
77. Turned someone down: i curve like 90% of the dudes hitting me up like boys are just annoying tbh
78. Sex on first date: i mean my virginal self would not kno but i have made out with a couple guys at parties or whatever so
79. Broken someoneâs heart: yes and iâm not sorry lmao
80. Had your heart broken: itâs awful man yeah
81. Been arrested: totally came close one time bc ig someone called the cops on the party i was at and police showed up and my freshmen ass ran so fast bitch i was usain bolt deadass
82. Cried when someone died: oh yeah
83. Fallen for a friend: i mean it was mutual but unfortunately
DO YOU BELIEVE INâ¨84. Yourself: i do
85. Miracles: i think some crazy things can happen that make ppl value that particular thing a lot more but idk about miracles
86. Love at first sight: lust at first sight* bc u cant be in love with someoneâs outer appearance without knowing what theyâre like as a person
87. Santa Claus: a very small part of me
88. Kiss on the first date: why not
89. Angels: definitely
OTHER⌠â¨90. Current best friendâs name: kelsey
91. Eye colour: blue
92. Favourite movie: the devil wears prada always đŁ
imma tag @ihearthemcallingxx @stylessemantics @honeyskins @moonchildstyles @hardliquorhaz @nips-and-tats @iloveyouhaz @inwhichitrytowritesomething @jadexthirlwalls @tiostyles (idk if any of u have already done this omg sry)
#this took FUCKING FORRVER but at least it got my mind off things :/#THIS MADE ME SMILE A LIL#i sound like a lowkey hoe throughout this lmfaooo#also i refer to a certain male specimen as 'my kinda mans' but plz don't take that the wrong way i'm a straight up fuckboy#personal#mentions
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1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
my boyfriend
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
im outgoing if you dont know me, shy if you have actually taken the time to get to know me
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
prince harry. dont ask questions.
4. Are you easy to get along with?
depends who you are
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
i hope so
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
green haired gays
7. Do you think youâll be in a relationship two months from now?
âplatonic? hell not platonic.â so like lets keep it that way? but tbh idk
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
hm. im non binary. oops? but like the only person on my mind rn is my boyfriend so like that counts right?
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha no.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
my boyfriend
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
âright i forgotâ typical me
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
âthis is gospelâ by P!ATD, âbulletâ by hollywood undead, âpierreâ by ryn weaver, ânicotineâ P!ATD, âgirls/girls/boysâ by P!ATD
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
YES YES YES YES YES YES.
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
*shrugs* why wouldnât I?
15. What good thing happened this summer?
i met a guy who walked in on me changing. we are now dating.
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yep
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
would be pretty cool if there were so yeah sure why not
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
actually i just came out to him as gay. 99.999999% sure that it was just a crush to make my parents believe i was straight.Â
19. Do you like bubble baths?
not really
20. Do you like your neighbors?
i dont have neighbours. like all the houses next to me are just sold and/or being torn down
21. What are you bad habits?
biting my nails. for sure. jesus christ im terrible i legit have the shortest nails
22. Where would you like to travel?
literally absolutely everywhere
23. Do you have trust issues?
of course
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
getting on tumblr
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
HAIR. MY FUCKING HAIR. and my chest. BUT LIKE MY HAIR GOD DAMN
26. What do you do when you wake up?
what is this âsleepâ you speak of
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
darker. jesus christ i am fucking bleached
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
my boyfriend
29. Have any of your exâs told you they regret breaking up?
heh heh heh heh exâs? what are those?
30. Do you ever want to get married?
yeah
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. yes. unfortunately, it is.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
brendon urie, katherine langford
33. Spell your name with your chin.
ummmmmmmmmm come again?
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
dance. dance. dance. dance. and more dance.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
without TV for sure
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
ahahahahahahahahaha of fucking course like who hasnt
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
this is usually what goes down:
heh heh heh *pulls out phone* *pulls at ponytail*
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
my boyfriend. hands down.
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
if i started typing now, i would be here until i died
40. What do you want to do after high school?
take a gap year. after that, i have no fucking idea
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
depends on what they did
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
all the emotions are just too much
or
im in love with you
or
friend crush much?
or
EMOTIONS
43. Do you smile at strangers?
ahahahahahahaha what is this âsmilingâ you speak of?
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
space cause space is cool and actually currently possible to get to
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
boyfriend. feflix. thea. OH AND GETTING AWAY FROM MY FAMILY. but mostly my boyfriend.
46. What are you paranoid about?
the real question is, what am i not paranoid about?
47. Have you ever been high?
*silence*
48. Have you ever been drunk?
heh heh heh heh moving on
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
yup
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
red
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
all the time
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
HAIR. MY FUCKING HAIR. GOD FUCKING DAMMIT.
53. Favourite makeup brand?
elf cause im slightly broke, but tarte tho wait but like nyx ungh everything at sephora
54. Favourite store?
sephora
55. Favourite blog?
yes.
56. Favourite colour?
i have this thing where im afraid that if i choose a favourite colour iâll hurt all the other colours feelings.
57. Favourite food?
ANOREXIA.
58. Last thing you ate?
ANOREXIA.
59. First thing you ate this morning?
ANOREXIA.
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
dance dance dance dance dance more dance
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
nope
62. Been arrested? For what?
nah
63. Ever been in love?
yes
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
we were walking to his house and he had been telling me that he had the urge to kiss me for like a couple days at that point and i told him that if he finished the rice krispie square that he could kiss me. then he did. 3 days later we were in a relationship.
65. Are you hungry right now?
ANOREXIA.
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
whats the difference?
67. Facebook or Twitter?
tumblr.
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
tumblr.
69. Are you watching tv right now?
does netflix count? im always watching netflix.
70. Names of your bestfriends?
feflix and thea
71. Craving something? What?
chocolate. being a fucking female tho jesus christ kill me please
72. What colour are your towels?
i have a lot of fucking towels like beyond belief. mostly white.
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
like 12
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhâŚmaybe
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
i cant count that high
75. Favourite animal?
*shrugs* never really thought about itâŚwait jokes unicorns. cause gay.
76. What colour is your underwear?
rn? white
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
um female so chocolate rn
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
chocolate. im basic ik
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
black
80. What colour pants?
black
81. Favourite tv show?
greys anatomy or the fosters
82. Favourite movie?
pride, tomboy, or the imitation game
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
mean girls
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
mean girls
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
he cannot be named. heâs just too gay to function.
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
dory
87. First person you talked to today?
feflix
88. Last person you talked to today?
my mom
89. Name a person you hate?
JAYDEN, NEVE, NOA, ANTONIA, LITERALLY EVERYONE BUT MY BEST FRIENDS AND MY BOYFRIEND IM JUST A PERSON FULL OF HATE IM SORRY
90. Name a person you love?
my sister
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
*sighs* youâre making me pick just one?
92. In a fight with someone?
define âfightâ
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
dance = literally only owning leggings and sweats
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
too many
95. Last movie you watched?
tfios
96. Favourite actress?
ellen page
97. Favourite actor?
benedict cumberbatch
98. Do you tan a lot?
yeah
99. Have any pets?
nope
100. How are you feeling?
terrible
101. Do you type fast?
yep
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
so much
103. Can you spell well?
ive been told that i can spell well. but its weird cause i cant read out loud well. which usually means that you cant spell well. dyslexia yay
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
beyond belief
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
yes
106. Ever broken someoneâs heart?
not that i can recall?
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
yes and i was fucking terrified
108. What should you be doing?
math hw
109. Is something irritating you right now?
yes.
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
*glances back at my boyfriend* yep
111. Do you have trust issues?
I ALREADY SAID YES WHAT IS THIS MADNESS
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
does like almost weeping count? cause if so like my boyfriend a couple months back. i cry alone. always.
113. What was your childhood nickname?
dâŚfeflix is going to read this. nvm.
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
all the time
115. Do you play the Wii?
used to
116. Are you listening to music right now?
when am i not?
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
yeah
118. Do you like Chinese food?
yeah
119. Favourite book?
currently? binge by tyler oakley
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
yes
121. Are you mean?
depends who you are
122. Is cheating ever okay?
NEVER. EVER.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
if i try hard enough
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
1000%
125. Do you believe in true love?
1000%
126. Are you currently bored?
tumblr.
127. What makes you happy?
my boyfriend
128. Would you change your name?
probably not? its just become a part of me
129. What your zodiac sign?
pieces
130. Do you like subway?
yeah
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
âim like really fucking gay but like okay cool you do youâ *continues trying to steal your phone*
132. Whoâs the last person you had a deep conversation with?
my boyfriend
im pretty sure i answered this
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
âdrank with the devil and forgot my nameâ
134. Can you count to one million?
ungh i could if i tried hard enough but like ungh effort
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
âtrust me. im a straight girlâ
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
closed
137. How tall are you?
5â˛0âł tiny and adorable.
138. Curly or Straight hair?
straight.
139. Brunette or Blonde?
green
140. Summer or Winter?
summer
141. Night or Day?
night
142. Favourite month?
february
143. Are you a vegetarian?
nope
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
milk
145. Tea or Coffee?
coffee
146. Was today a good day?
not reallyâŚscratch thatâŚnope!
147. Mars or Snickers?
mars
148. Whatâs your favourite quote?
âokay? okay.â
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
yep
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, whatâs the first line on that page?
âI often hated myself and tried to talk myself back into starving, but those days because fewer and father between, the longer i worked toward recovery.â
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