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jesskasb · 7 months ago

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i ffeel like no finals week period has hit me quite as hard as this one. i literally dont remember what i was doing around this time last semester but rigjt now i feel like im about to suffocate in quicksand

#at least i finished my perceval dossier. but i dont even feel relief bc i still have some overdue assignmenrs from that same class #still in arthurs armpit but at least now i can see the light i guess. 3 assignmenrs left. and then i can be free and my professor can retir #then i have a poetry portfolio and a close reading which shoule both be easy #and then sparkle on raven powerpoint which should ALSO BE EASY! i just uave to. lock in #tomorrow. tomorrow magic will happen #or ill die of a heart attack #much to think about #alexchanting

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halorvic · 5 months ago

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#sars cov 2 #covid 19 #i've interacted with 4 different friends/acquaintances in the past month alone who have all been hospitalised after having a stroke #(and in one case multiple strokes)#one who i visited in hospital over the weekend had a (unmasked) nurse coughing up a lung in her room 👍#and one of them who had to undergo surgery also had to be moved to a different hospital #bc the ward they were keeping him in was full of confirmed covid patients 👍👍#idk how many times it needs to be said before it gets through people's heads but VACCINES ARE NOT ENOUGH #and encouraging ppl to rely solely on them when there are already plans to jack up the prices so you have to KEEP PAYING for boosters #for an ONGOING mass-disabling event is so laughably unrealistic and absurd and flat-out demonic #you need to mitigate the actual spread of covid by WEARING A MASK + fighting for CLEAN AIR/proper ventilation in public spaces!!!!!!#ppl are so eager to forget the whole 'break the chain of transmission' thing and how effective masking is and so this is where we're at #'i got infected and infected other ppl who might die or become permanently disabled but it's no big deal bc no one else wears a mask #so if /i/ didn't infect them someone else would have anyway so it's not my fault and really its got nothing to do with me and my choices'#if everyone is responsible then no one is responsible - that's how it works right?#it's no wonder some ppl go rabid at even the sight of someone wearing a mask and minding their own business #ppl seeking treatment for unrelated conditions/illnesses and then dying from covid caught in hospitals #due to lack of npis/basic mitigation measures - no regulations no accountability #we truly live in a hell (''new normal'') of our own making #anyway none of this is new news at all i mostly thought it might be good to share the info graphic abt signs of stroke #covid has been given free reign and chances are increasing as to how likely you'll encounter it happening to someone you know at some point #also heart attacks and pots and alzheimer's etc etc etc

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10piecechickenmcnugget · 2 months ago

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being an mcyt fan is scary

#10pieceart #soupforeloise keeps showing up in my comments…. scary #i can never get twitter if i have to deal with more frequent notices ill die of a heart attack

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laurelindebear · 18 days ago

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I've been very unwell today and my queue is pretty short at the moment, so I might go quiet for a bit. Honestly I might end up in hospital again. I've been struggling for awhile and it's gotten worse, and I'm about past my limit of managing.

Take care of yourselves. xo

#personal #mental health #mental illness #anxiety #panic attacks #lowest I've been on the MH pain scale all day is 7 or 8 #gallstone levels of distress at the moment #tempted to call the crisis line but I'm not sure they'll have resources to do anything #it's not like my panic is irrational or catastrophising #it is very possibly the end of the world #pretty sure anxiety and wanting to die is an appropriate emotional response #I'm being stupid and histrionic I guess but I'm not ok #nothing happening is about me but i still can't bear it #i can't focus or think about anything except dread #I've tried meditation and 3 3s and tensing all my muscles and then letting go #I've tried distracting myself with games and tv #nothing is working #heart palpitations high bp tinnitus hyperventilating nausea tightness in chest crying all day on and off #i can't feel like this for the rest of my life #i can't feel like this for another two weeks or another two days #and i don't see why i should have to #might have to go completely offline on a permanent basis but then I'm without my social contacts or my job so #take care of yourselves and each other #maybe i can get sedated or something

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gingerbreadmonsters · 7 months ago

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not even panicking . idek what ur saying why would ever be worried abt this

#head in hands #trial practice for tap class is in about 20 minutes and im just about remaining sane #GAHHHH this is so stressful #they do not really speak english and i do not really speak japanese so this will be exciting #plus the class is like..... 2hrs long lol #BUT WE FUCKING MOVE OK IM BEING SO BRAVE #IM GOING TO GO TO THE CLASS AND SEE WHAT ITS LIKE #ITS GOING TO BE FINE IM SURE THEY WILL ALL BE NICE AND LOVELY #tap people generally are i find #i will go to the class and do some tap and not die of a stress induced heart attack because ITS SOMETHING I LOVE #AND ILL DO IT #and if it sucks and i hate it then fuck it. i never have to see these goddamn people ever again if i don't want to #hopefully i WILL want to. bc its gonna be great and im gonna love it #I HAVE FAITH #I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE 😭😭🥳#i will update u guys when i get back 🫡#if its fab i will recommend it #and if it sucks we will roast it mercilessly #either way i am being very brave today and i am sharing this bravery with u as well 🫶🫡#the little gay people in my phone believe in me and i will not disappoint #just the same way that i believe in you too ✊🥳

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spotsupstuff · 1 year ago

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Now Pebbles and Zephyr live rent free in my head too. God that interaction is so heartwarming and sad and AHHHHHH!!!!

YEA YEA YEA FUCKIN HRHGHRHGHRH

back like. a month or so ago when that chancla post was happening? i kept thinkin about a scenario where Zeph hints at her whole intention of completely disregarding the Great Problem and focusing on the iterators themselves (her whole!!!! plan is called Mission Self-preservation!!!!!!!!) around the group and Suns, the usually apathetic brick of a fucker, just shoots up and attacks her about it n starts an argument

and as they are arguing about it and Zephyr's whole point of view is more n more revealed, Pebbles in the back starts shaking about it as if he's on the verge of crying and when the two arguing notice they stop and Zeph asks "...you know what i mean. don't you...?"

BECAUSE YES HE DOES. HIS RAGE IS A VALID ONE. ITS AGAINST SUCH A BLATANT INJUSTICE AND INSTEAD OF HAVING THE PERSON HE LOOKS UP TO A LOT AGREE WITH HIM OR TRY TO SEE HIS POINT OF HIS VIEW AT IT HE GETS TOLD THAT HES SUPPOSED TO JUST *ACCEPT* THIS UNFAIRNESS. that its Okay and How It Is Supposed To Be- them dying for this. them suffering for this. but its fucking *not*, nobody should be suffering like that ever

and here comes Zephyr- someone who understands even better than he understands himself right now in this. she Gets it and she's the first and she won't ignore this pain and anger. she wants to hear about it, she wants to guide him through it and offer him the hope that things can be alright yet

#Spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #id fuckin strangle suns myself if i could. Mother Fucker.#pebbles would give zephyr like 20 heart attacks per second the day he comes to the Lets Kill Me conclusion #its like that one meme. Zephyr: Live :) | Pebbles: DIE >:D #she stops him by pulling out ''wouldnt it be nice to spite our creators by living our lives to the fullest without fear ?'' n hes like-#-''o yeah actually maybe alright? ill give it a shot i guess.''#its. more complicated than that but yanno in a nutshell #i aint explainin the whole thing in tags thats... bothersome but yes. they mean a lot to me. pebs means a lot to me.

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sl0wdiver · 1 year ago

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I'd like to speak to whoever scheduled Liverpool v West Ham and Arsenal v Spurs on the same day to inform them that I will be filing a lawsuit in due course on the grounds of permanent, long-lasting damage to physical and mental health.

#and theyre both at 2pm???#like?????#guess ill die #heart attack imminent #west ham #arsenal fc #tottenham hotspur #liverpool fc

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saltysatellite804 · 2 years ago

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How the fuck does everyone NOT have health anxiety. How the fuck do you exist not being hyper aware of how fragile you are??

#health anxiety #im having an anxiety attack rn #my heart is pounding #which is of fucking course making me worry about my heart #i hate my brain #i want to be normal #i want to feel healthy #would not wish this mental illness on the worst human being on earth #its 3am and i really need sleep #but i cant fucking stop worrying that im gonna die young from a undiagnosed disease

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side-of-honey · 1 year ago

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sighhh.

#I'm so bad at video games it's sad GJAKJSFKHKGJ #one of these days ill die of a heart attack from like. roblox or smth. and everyone will laugh at my funeral #RamBEElings

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pekodayz · 1 year ago

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right after i ordered dd. got notif. stared at it, felt tears on my face. duffleeeee?!!!! ty so fucking much for the beautiful gift of my idiot , aini @duffledunce

#SHAKING U #I NEED TO CALM DOWN OR ILL GETBA HEART ATTACK?!!!!!#i already went insane in dm but fr ty so so so so so so so is so sososososososososososososos much #it was like static in my ears and the only thing i could hear was my heart beating #me and the phone were the only 2 in existence #holding my head idc if my food gets cold ive been staring at this f #THANK U SOEEEE MUCH #LOVE #THANK U DUFFLE AUGHHHHH #i didn’t even know what to do after like do i pace around the house 1 lap or just die #boxofgoodies

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tipsywench · 10 months ago

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once again having to figure out wtf to do with my life and its like maybe I should just quit chasing a degree and career and go become an old chain-smoking prostitute or something i dont know anymore

#im really tired and nothings worked out for me #maybe ill just die of a heart attack at the rammstein concert in june and that'll resolve that matter lol #or like maybe till will trip and ill be the 1 fan who gets burned to death by his flamethrower during mein teil #i think thatd be a really funny way to go despite the ptsd itd give literally everyone and the band #'she died doing what she loved: screaming the lyrics to a song about cannibalism'

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slutdge · 1 year ago

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my entire body decided it hurts and doesnt want to work properly today so i will just be laying here pathetically all day ig

#my back is killing me but also my sternum aches and my hips are awful and it also feels like i got punched in the kidneys real hard #at least i didnt have work today #every once in a while my qhole body just shuts down like this for no reason #im starting to think because im in a high stress situation 24/7 for. my entire life basically. it just does that every once in a while.#ill probably die of a heart attack before im 30 at this rate

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the-gayest-sky-kid · 1 year ago

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okay we're good now 👍 im gonna go like have a panic attack or something for the next couple hours and when i come back we can go insane ^^

#personal posts and stuff idk #aethers rants #cw vent #this is a cry for Help i am not making it past today besties!!!!!!! we're soooooo unbelievably dead tomorrow #like honestly i might as well climb the fire escape and jump so dead #i just. im not gonna make it another year i cant. i dont know how im even going to go in. or make it outside. or get up and ready #or not immediately have a heart attack and die rn!!!!#so like we're gonna spend the next. checks clock. 3 or so hours crying and wishing we were dead or smth!!!!!!!!!!! yahoo!#or maybe i can actually start rereading 15 and be more ill abt it #if i pretend tomorrow isnt happening then its not happening nods nods #suehehajsdjcjvhcnmdms #kill me #oh uhm #cw sui ideation #ig

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