#or if you're looking for something in particular i didn't mention just dm me!!! <3

[draculagerard]

unacceptable. i ADORE talking to you and seeing your on my dash/in my inbox

You're SOOO funny. like a broad range of humor imo. you're sometimes a silly goofy little guy, sometimes you're my friend teasing me (in a way that's never hurt my feelings!), sometimes you're a tired babysitter (cough, cough, randy's sticks). you get the beat that goes with humor and ur jokes always at the very least make me smile

you're SOOOOOO nice. not just to me. it makes me SOOOO happy to see you interact with other mutuals (or ur mutuals sometimes) because you're always super fun and sweet. and then when i'm in that seat i'm always super at eas because yeah this guy's not gonna like. be a dick :3. he's super nice actually! also this is like, normal and expected, but i feel like i can talk to you and change the subject when talking to you (which why is this important? it's just one of my insecurities and my irls aren't the best at letting me talk so that fact i feel alright with talking to you is rlly nice :3)

small mention that you're like super creative and skilled and you get colors and pacing and all that super well. ur art, ur amvs, hell ur theme rn are always BANGERS and i'm so happy to see them

i love when you ramble to me about any of your interests! even if you're telling me something that isn't particularity wild. maybe it's just be i adore listening in general but your way of talking (well, typing but. blah specifies don't matter) keeps my attention well and makes me happy to see you in my dms. and while i may bully you a bit for your interests they're always pretty uhmmmm enthralling? feels weird to use "interesting" to describe and interest because like yeah that's the point

as far as i know you're such a good person!!! not only because i like..agree w/ u about everything. but just bringing back the point of "sweet" with this but you just seem so kind!!! and very smart! i think you can be very media literate but also have fun with fanon and shit which i admire (i wonder why.......[looks at block list])

uhmm i don't mean to like. repeat myself but really the fact that i don't feel judged by you is fantastic. i rlly struggle with the idea that i'm annoying or like. "cringe" but like even if i didn't think you were like. also weird i think i still wouldn't feel judged uhm. in summary ur rlly nice and kind and funny and smart and i love seeing you on my dash and there's plenty of other things i can list if i gave myself more time to think but i've been ignoring the fact i'm hungry rn so cutting it short to eat. yadda yadda your great and i think you deserve a lot more in this world and so stop being mean to urself that's my friend that i'm fond of. blah. uhmm uhh derri already claimed kuromi so this is us

also other ppl are fond of u btw. i find it hard to believe that you don't make a lot of other people smile. also a tip!! try looking at yourself like you're not yourself y'know? i'm under the belief we're all always so mean to ourselves because it's easy to not feel guilty about it. but like if you were someone else and you called that person a friendless burden then you'd feel bad because nobody's a friendless burden y did you do that. y'know??????? also this is rambley because i'm hunger personified rn, bye bye :3

LOVE YOU HAZ…..

[wimbledon2008]

I get into football every four years just for the drama of the world cup lmao any suggestions as to where I should start this year?

if drama is what you're after then i have great news

we're still three months out and this wc is already messy. in addition to the (very valid) protests and boycotts over qatar hosting, all the domestic leagues have condensed their schedules to accommodate a winter wc, which is going to result in a lot of exhausted and injured players, and probably some very unpredictable fixtures. as a football fan? i'm horrified. as a lesbian? horrified. as a lover of football drama? i'm a little excited.

right now the best place to start watching would be club football. if there's a player you remember liking from wc18, figure out what club they play for and tune in. or pick a league and watch the weekend matches (english premier league has been silly lately, italian serie a is always wild). or just watch whatever is available on the streaming service of your choice lol. maybe you'll find some favorite little guys and can root for them and their countries.

if you don't want to bother with club football (fair), then it's just a matter of waiting for november to roll around and see who shows up. the qualifying rounds are over and the 32 teams have already been sorted into their groups.

unfortunately (for me) we lost some very sexy soldiers during the qualifiers (rip colombia, italy), so the choices do leave a little to be desired. but still, it's always fun to just pick a team or two from every group and cheer them on. if you're asking me for recommendations, i'm partial to senegal, denmark, croatia, and brazil this go-around.

in the end watching football is really just a game of hot or not, so see who you vibe with and which poor little meow meows speak to your heart, and you'll be set. the first matches kick off on november 20!!!! i will be here and girlblogging about it all!!!!!!

[xnchxntmxnt]

hihi!! i saw your event and i love the theme jdbsjs <33 also happy (early?) birthday to both you and koi!!

can i request a 4 star pull for genshin impact? the trope would be they forgot your birthday (hurt/comfort pls) ☺️☺️ with xiao, diluc, and gorou?

thank you so much!! if i didn’t request correctly pls feel free to dm me :,)

when they forget your birthday...

etc: established relationship, modern au![character] x gn!reader, gn pronouns used (they/them/mx.), food mentions (not descriptive), probably very ooc i'm sorry

notes: the favoritism is real in this one :,)

reblogs > likes ! <3

preface: he gets home late from his work and has yet to say anything about it being your birthday. reasoning that he has a surprise for you, you decided to stay up. but as the hours went by, you drift asleep, the creak of the door when he finally returns waking you up. pretending to be asleep, you could barely contain your excitement. he whispers your name, but no response (you have to commit to the act after all), so he showers and gets ready for bed. as he gets under the blankets, he pulls you closer and kisses you goodnight. yet there's still nothing about your birthday...

xiao

doesn't realize until he sees his reminder too late

it's already the morning after: he wakes up to find that you're not in bed but hears the kitchen sink running so he assumes you're doing the dishes 

picking up his phone, he notices the notification he had failed to see the day before "y/n's birthday - yesterday"

sits up in a panic, thinking back to see if he had even wished you a happy birthday (he realizes that he did not)

he even goes so far as to remember how sad you were that he was scheduled to work on your birthday (but you brushed it off, saying that as long as you could spend some of it with him, it'd be alright)

he scrambled to throw some clothes on (he has not checked the time yet but it's 11:48am - he doesn't wake up early, anything before 12 is a miracle)

reasons that he should at least get you something, so he thinks back, desperately trying to remember anything you stared at for too long or tried to subtly hint that you wanted (he knew what you were doing and always tried to keep a mental list of everything)

remembering something, he rushes out (you don't hear him as you were listening to music as you were doing some house chores to keep yourself distracted)

makes it to the store with the item still in stock (it was the last one) and immediately buys it (doesn't even look at the price tag, just shoves his card at the employee - but politely because he's not rude)

notices a flower shop and stops by to get you a bouquet of your favorite flowers (he asks the florist for the prettiest and best arrangement they could make, assuring them that he could pay for it and not to worry about that)

when he gets home, he notices that you made him lunch when you didn't have to since you were bound to be at least very upset with him if not extremely (his stomach growls, he's used too much energy on an empty stomach)

he's not the type to make lame excuses, he gets straight to the point, apologizing that he forgot that it was your birthday and asking if there was anything in particular you wanted so that he could make up for it

also hands you the gifts he got for you, noticing that you're trying to fight back your smile (he thinks the way you're trying to keep up your anger is adorable, but he knows that now's not the time for that)

does absolutely anything and everything you ask (within reason of course), treating the day as if it were your actual birthday

finally earns a thank you kiss from you at the end of the day and lots of cuddles 

diluc

is up before you (he has to supervise today)

but is most definitely stalling, savoring the time that he gets to see you as he gets ready to leave

kisses you softly, whispering that he'll be back soon and not to miss him too much

doesn't realize until one of his employees mentions it casually ("oh, mr. diluc, what did you get mx. y/n for their birthday?")

he freezes, like actually freezes and is like "what did you say?"

never once has he forgotten your birthday, and to think he's started now makes him literally sick to his stomach

he's demanding to know the day and when he learns that he indeed did forget your birthday, he flips

gives everyone the day off and puts up the closed sign

he makes lots of stops afterwards

the first is the jewelry shop (he decided last year that he was going to get you a ring this year, and so he does)

despite being in a rush, he takes his time with his gifts - he's looking through all of the displays, finally deciding on what he deems the most perfect and purchases it

next is the supermarket, he's going to make you your favorite so he takes his time to choose the best ingredients

third is a flower shop to get you the basket of flowers you had always wanted (yes he remembers even though you mentioned it once on your first date together)

his final stop is the bakery to choose out the best cake and if there wasn't any, he would go to each bakery within a 10 mile radius to find one

it's later than he had hoped when he returns home to you - he finds you sitting on the couch hugging a pillow and watching a show on the tv

whether you noticed him or not, he didn't know, so he set everything on the kitchen table and walked up to you, hands gently holding yours as he pulled you into a hug, burying his nose deep into the crook of your neck, whispering how sorry he is for forgetting and promising that it would never happen again

he then takes your hand again and leads you to the kitchen to give you all the gifts he had gotten you today

he spoils you a bit more than he usually would but he doesn't mind, because the smile you give him afterward makes it all worth it

gorou

is tossing and turning as he slept - something itching the back of his mind kept him from sleeping peacefully, as if he were forgetting something

shoots awake as he looks at the time (03:17) when he notices the date too

is flipping out and he looks at you with your back turned to him, the steady rise and fall almost lulling him back to sleep, tempting him to fall back into his pillow and cuddle with you until he fell asleep again - almost

but he shakes you awake, "let's go somewhere"

you're both in your sleep clothes as you walked around the neighborhood, making it to the street lamp where you both had shared your first kiss

his heart always beats a little bit faster whenever he passes by this street lamp, lips tingling as they remembered the feeling of yours on his 

he spins you around before his hands find their spot on your waist, and as he gently pulls you in, he whispers “sorry i’m late, happy birthday, my love”

and of course he kisses you (you’re literally at the place where you shared your first kiss with him, why wouldn’t he)

he’s tempted to make it a tradition now (but on time obviously) so he does

next year, you can expect him to pull you out of the comfort of your shared bed, walking through the neighborhood to the lamp

but today he calls in sick (he told you that he was lovesick, and therefore needed the day off to spend cuddling with you - he didn’t tell his boss that of course)

would also vow to himself to just take the entire day off on your birthdays from now on as to not let this happen again

love, koi

p.s. ALSO I DON'T HATE GOROU OR ANYTHING I SWEAR it's just that i got super carried away with xiao's and diluc's :,)))))))) thank you miso so much for joining!! <3

[honey-tea-and-cookies]

hiii, how are youu? ♡

i saw you've been doing astro observations and was really interested of your opinion on this placements:

sun, venus, mars, all in scorpio in 4H

mercury and jupiter in scorpio in 5H

and sagg moon in 5H

thank you in advance, hope your having a beautiful dayy!! <3

Hi honey! I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to answer. You're very sweet<3

Since you mentioned the astro observations, I'll write this in the style that I do those (kind of light-hearted, from a more personal POV, and short paragraphs) but if you want something else, let me know! Also I'M SORRY SOME OF THIS CONTENT IS SO DARK AND INTENSE, I'M SO SORRY IF IT TRIGGERS YOU! I put clear trigger warnings so absolutely feel free to skip over that if you like.

Astro Observations 3!!

- First off, Scorpio in 4th?? Baby come here lemme give you a hug :(. TW: Family issues, addiction, anger issues, abuse, drugs, death, alcohol, gross sexualisation stuff (incest/pedophilia?). Almost similar to Lilith in 4th (my placement, heyo!) your family probably sucked a lil bit. Possibly addiction problems (in particular drugs and alcohol, but not necessarily). Did you have a weird uncle growing up? Got drunk and made weird passes at you? Me too, don't worry sweetheart. Some family members could've been abusive in some way, or had anger issues. Perhaps it wasn't taken out on you, but you probably heard and saw some stuff that someone your age should not have. Also, did a family member who was important or close to you pass away? Once again, me too sweetheart, don't worry. TW: Over. I'm sorry if any of those things have happened to you. I love you, and it's okay to distance yourself from people that hurt you. My DM's are open if any of y'all need to talk. Also if you have this placement and I've been way wrong here, GOOD! I don't mean to demonise Scorpio at all, this is just how I read it and how it's been for everyone I know with this placement.

- Sun in 4th (in Scorpio). You really love your family huh? You probably really struggled whenever there was arguments of any sort, you just wanted everyone to be happy and love each other :(. You're probably quite proud of where you come from, or how far YOU'VE come. As you should be! You're amazing honey. Your family probably didn't struggle much for money. You're quite attached to your parents (particularly your father or father figure) in one way or another. Your dad might be kind of loud, actually. Not in a bad way! He's just very outgoing, friendly. Maybe a little egotistical, but he's a good guy. Perhaps you didn't see him much as a kid, or he passed away, but I think you hold a lot of respect for him in some way.

- Venus in 4th (in Scorpio). You love the way your parents (and other family) showed you love. If your mother always made a certain dish when you were sick, you do that for the ones you love. If your grandmother always sung a certain song, you probably sing it when you think of her. Just little things like that, you know? Your home may look similar to your childhood home, or to your dream house when you were a child. You love to decorate in ways that make your place feel comforting and welcoming. You might really enjoy baking, or have a sweet tooth. Your love language could be quality time. You always remember small details about your lovers. You are wonderful at listening. To you, one of the greatest feelings is knowing your partner trusts you. Absolutely adorable placement, 10/10.

- Mars in 4th (in Scorpio). Did you argue with your family a lot? Maybe you've spent a lot of time being angry at them for some reason. Your family may not have allowed you a lot of independence, or you spent a lot of time out of home as soon as you could. As you grow older, you may find yourself working so hard at your career that you push your family away. A lot of your money may go into your family, whether that be the one you were born into or the one you create. I think you're extremely protective of them, either way. You're the only one who's allowed to bully your siblings, am I right? This is also kind of a cute placement <3

- Mercury in 5th (in Scorpio). Good for you for speaking your mind! Maybe you've had to work on that, but that's okay. Honesty is the best policy. You could be a writer, or find writing cathartic for you. You don't talk about your achievements much, but you should. You've done a lot, very impressive! I know you might not have a lot of people in your corner, but I'm with you. I'm proud of you :)

- Jupiter in 5th (in Scorpio). Oh you TALENTED talented. You might be really good at writing dark stuff. Or like, creepy things. Are you a horror move fan? I see you. Bestie you better KNOW how awesome you are, okay? I know you believe in yourself, you know you can do it. Just in case you don't though, this is me telling you. You are one of those people who are good at everything, and it's very cool. Please teach me your ways. I want to be like you when I grow up fr. Also if you want kids, they might be super cool too. Just sayin. Anyway all in all, you're awesome, please share your work with the world <3.

- Sagittarius Moon in 5th. Please love yourself :(. Baby you're gorgeous :(. Also you're so funny what. Gimme a break man. You seem like the type of person to make up a secret handshake with your bestie idk why. Also kids definitely like you. I'm not sure if you like them (I think you do but idk I don't live in your head), but they like you nonetheless. You are DEFINITELY the cool aunt/uncle/family member. If you have kids, you will be so fun and doting. Education will be a huge priority for you in regards to your children too. Mad respect.

This is all I have for today! Thank you so much for sending this in. I hope you enjoyed! Let me know how on or off base I was with these. Thank you reading :). Sending everyone lots of love <3

[monstas1ut2]

(3/3) Eren Yeager

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ

Send a DM just to trap me (damn)

Threw your bitch in a taxi (taxi)

Wanna get drunk and nasty? (Nasty)

It was inevitable, of course he was going to find out.. Now here you are, sitting in your mothers house trying to figure out what you could've done differently. It's not only embarrassing but it sucks because that's your father, he's your everything , he's the man who adopted you. All you had to do was stay away from Eren.. though you couldn't even do that..

"Cheer up, here.. I got watermelon and pineapples.. I know it's your favorite.."

The woman with glasses, your mother handed you the soft bowl that held your favorite fruit. Her eyes staring at you softly as you were sitting on the floor. It was like you felt like you didn't deserve a bed right now.. In all honesty though, it wasn't fully your fault.

The soft, warmth that you had from the strong arms that touched you in ways... that night had kept you asleep. His hair fit his face so well and he said so many things that night that was hard to pass by. It wasn't a joke, Eren knew what he wanted.. and that was you.. and still is.

The many missed calls from him was ridiculous and the texts were everlasting. He figured he'd messed up, that or you were maybe drunk last night..? You didn't seem drunk.. that's just because you weren't.

"I should've stayed away from him..."

"Cupcake, you can't keep blaming yourself. Shorty-pants tends to be that way with Eren because of their past. There's nothing wrong with Eren technically, he lost his parents at a young age, in front of his eyes.. so he's a bit mental from that.." the words came out of Hange's throat and you nodded slowly. The thought still edged you on though, why did Levi want you away from him..?

Just because he has mommy AND daddy issues? That is a bad sign for sure, but at the same time.. Eren has done nothing but shown you his kind side. As well as his sexual side but we ain't gonna talk about that.

"So why... did dad kick me out... because of that..? Or cuz of their background together..? Eren is nothin but nice to me.. I would've backed off otherwise I ain't stupid to stay wit a nigga that beats on me.."

These words spat out in direction of no one in particular since nobody is here.. but it hurt. You wanted to scream so badly but what good would it do anyways.. Slowly slipping a pineapple chunk in your mouth. You watched as Hange was conflicted on what to say.. which is odd.

She has known Levi longer than anyone.. but Levi is still a mystery. So all she could do was direct this somewhere else...

"He'll be fine later okay? Don't worry... just.. eat your fruit, someone's comin to see ya in a little bit.. mkay?"

It's almost been a month.. and you didn't see Levi becoming fine any day now.. from what you could see, you were abandoned just like whoever your real parents were..

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ

Standing outside to get some nice air, your eyes watched the car in the driveway pull off. It was Hange's bmw. Her mission was to get Levi to straighten up and fly right, but you told her there wasn't any need. The damage was done already.. right?

Hange does tend to make things right though, she's just that lovable of a person..

Letting out a sigh, you'd decided to finally turn your back and try to go back into the house but your ears were kinda deceiving you. Your head whipping back towards the driveway as you saw the car that was there. It wasn't Hange for sure, though that black, porche was nobody's but..

Eren's...

His taller form immediately moving from that car and eventually coming to face you.. in all honesty he wanted to yell and scream and do everything in the book.. but seeing your pretty eyes tear up was enough for him.

After a few silent minutes passed, the two of you were now wrapped up in each other. As close as you two possibly could be on the comfy couch. Just bathing in each other's scent and aura. It was a nice feeling nonetheless, but at the same time, Eren was confused as to why you were so quiet. Why didn't you answer his messages or his calls...

"I'm sorry... I ain't mean to ghost you like that... but, he uhm..."

Swallowing down the tears that were edging to release again. Eren's green eyes stared into yours, his ears ready to hear everything you had to say to him. He wasn't going to ignore these feelings you had.. why would he?

"He found out... and he didn't like it.. obviously. He kicked me out...so I live here now..." your words spilling out of your throat, it sounded like you were in pain. Your glossy eyes staring up at Eren, who happened to be a bit more annoyed than anything. The past was the past... he didn't understand why Levi was so strung up on him. The two never had good relations, they always hated each other... Maybe in a past life too..

"I'll talk to him.."

"N-No, do you have a death wish..?"

"For you... I'll do anything you want.. if you wanna come live with me that's aight with me..." Eren offered up everything he could think of. There's just this feeling, he didn't want to leave you... but he also didn't want you to be abandoned by your father...

Eren knows that technically, that's already happened to you.. but you grew up with Levi and Hange..

"We gonna talk to him together... he ain't gon kill you if I'm there.. even if he hates me.."

"He Doesn't hate you... not him... he just pissed right now." Eren was correct, Levi was simply annoyed at the fact that you decided to spend the night without his knowing... and at EREN's house nonetheless. Levi already could think about what happened in that bedroom... though if you played your cards right, you could probably make it seem like it didn't happen...

Probably...

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ

The paperwork continued to pile over, Hange's steps being big as she stepped over the books and papers. Honestly, this has to be the first time she's seen Levi like this. His house was a mess.

And that's something you don't hear everyday.

"Shorty! Shorty mc shorty pants...? Ah!" Hange was obviously teasing the male but she ended up tripping on one of his shoes that was in his office, man was he living in this one room?

Her glasses were put back on her face as she looked up at the desk. Seeing Levi tapping on his keyboard quickly. He himself probably didn't notice the way he was living at the moment... when he does he'll probably scold himself.

"You sir, need to get it together!" Hange spoke as she stood back up, and she earned a loud and annoyed sigh from the male.

"Look, shitty-glasses I don't have time for it right now!"

"Don't yell at me! This is about your kid wanting to isolate herself from the world because you can't stop being an asshole!" Hange quickly spoke as she then moved back from Levi, making sure her distance was far... still managing to joke in instances like this.

"Stop trying to pry them apart! I've seen Eren! He treats her like a Queen and he even gives her these looks that makes it known... he's not going to hurt her... not to mention she might hurt him first.. physically.. I've seen her throw a shoe at him once.." Hange chuckled out at her last sentence but Levi didn't seem like he was in a laughing mood.. nor was he ever...

"Fine" Hange huffed, her cheeks reddened at the fact that she couldn't persuade Levi-that's what she thought-and she immediately left his office, though came back and kicked one of the books over...

The two slender fingers he had was pinching the bridge of his nose, trying to surpass the headache that already arrived.

.

.

.

"Get out.."

"Daddy I ain't do nothin wit him, I just fell asleep I swear..-"

"I don't care!"

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ

"I'm tired.. I'm goin to sleep Ight..? Pick me up tomorrow..." your words softly sliding out as Eren stared at your soft lips. This however made you smile and wrap your arms around him. Pulling him down to your height to kiss him gently. His lips still tasting like sugar...

Today, Eren kept you company and he even offered to take you out tomorrow... so all wasn't lost..

Eventually you'd closed your bedroom door and decided to get ready for bed. Gently laying in your bed after putting a scarf and bonnet on your head. The soft pillow was cold and that only made you a tiny bit more happier...

Knock knock

As you were about to close your eyes, the sound of knocking was on your door. That could be nobody but Hange... right? Considering this is her house but normally she just opens the door... without knocking..

"Come in...?" In a bit of a confused tone, you'd propped yourself up so you could get a better look at the door.

"Why say 'come in' if you're unsure... you're going to get yourself killed.."

"Daddy!" Your voice shrilled with happiness... and all Levi could feel was that same energy.. he may not like your little... boyfriend.. but he loves you.. his beautiful daughter...

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ Masterlist 2

[mfpeace]

@justbeingedgy @weird-colombian-gurl You asked me to elaborate on the "Ches already has a kid" theory in the notes of that one mf analysis post (which I really liked, go check it out!!), so that's why I'm making this one, cuz notes are a bit too restricting for what I want to talk about!

Though next time think twice before asking me to talk about something I'm interested in, because you never know when you're gonna wake up lovecraftian horrors!! :DDD you'll see what i mean when you press read more :))

So, I'll say it right now - this post is largely inspired by the second story highlight of this Instagram user (sorry, I don't know their name, only that their Instagram handle is dee_girl_metalfamilyfan), it's in Russian though, so keep that in mind

Alright, so I'll break this theory into two parts: the first one will be all about Ches, and the second will be about his potential child (spoiler: you might've seen her!)

Without any further ado, let's get to the Ches part:

1. The creators said that they're gonna explore Ches' character in the second season. Obviously, it doesn't mean anything on it's own, but just wait.

Dima: Let's talk about the second season a little. Of course, the seconds season will show development of the old characters, as well as new ones. That's in short. As you see, Ches looks a bit different here.

Alina: Yeah, we'll show a bit more about Ches at the ages of 18 to 20. His past. We'll reveal a bit more about his complex character, as much as it's possible.

(The source of the translation) Also I think they also said at one point that adult Ches will get some character development too? But that's probably a given, considering that we wouldn't see his youth if it wouldn't have affected him in the present, flashbacks without any relevance to the overall story don't sound so good

2. Not sure about this one (we don't know how much in character it was) but I can't not mention it.

Alina: Actually there was this one fanfic that I really liked. I don’t remember what it was called, but it was about Ches having a daughter, which is a cool topic. It was relatively in character and truly interesting. It’s great when people focus not just on sexual relationships of the characters, but also try to look at their development. That was a really interesting one. That’s it.

(UnityCon '19)

3. This one's a pretty big one, in my opinion. So, this is what they said on ArtWave '19:

Dima: Ches also has flaws.

Alina: [to Dima] Don’t spoil stuff.

Dima: His flaw is that he's very... irresponsible, let’s say.

So, maybe, just maybe, Ches does have a child but he, you know... left them? As the Instagram highlight from the beginning say: "he might be irresponsible enough to leave his child, and he's probably irresponsible enough not to use any contraception" (rephrased, not the exact quote)

4. Alright, so, the only mention of this one I can think of right now is the aforementioned Instagram highlight. The Metalfamilyfan says:

I contacted Korg/Корж, (admin of @ metal_yama [and I believe one of the organizers of the Metal Family Meetup in Moscow]) and she asked Alina on one of the meetups: "if Ches were to be a father, what kind of father would he be?"

And she said: "The kind of that would say "kid, look at that birdie over there!" an then he would run away"

Someone's words are not the perfect source, but they did tag Metal Yama and from what I know they didn't disagree with what the author of the page said. if anyone has anything to say about this (disprove or definitely prove what I said) feel free to do so in a reblog, notes, DMs, send me an anonymous ask, or in any other way you feel comfortable with

5. Ches has literally been through the same thing, and we know how important the theme of the cycle of abuse is in Metal Family (or, in this case, the cycle of neglect? Abandonment? Idk)

You managed to hide your PREGNANCY from me! AND you've been hiding the child from me for a whole year!

YES, because you would've insisted on aborting him!

AND NOW I'M INSISTING ON PUTTING HIM UP FOR ADOPTION! OR I'LL LEAVE RIGHT NOW!

6. Here we can see Ches with a blonde girl. Nothing too special, probably just a one time hook up. He doesn't seem to be interested in her, and she seems to be annoyed with him.

But wait...

What is this?

Like, it doesn't even matter if there's actually a punk/rock/whatever band named MOM or not, I just think it's pretty weird to put it in this particular drawing of Ches and this random woman who is implied to have slept with him. It's not integral to Ches' character as, for example, Korol i Shut is. It's just... there. For some reason.

------------

Alright, now, finally let's get to the second part of the theory: who is, exactly, his child?

The short answer is, according to this theory, her:

First, let me list every single instance of her appearing in canon (and by canon I mean everything made by the creators. Even with this definition of canon it's not much, I promise): The screenshot you can see above on the left (it's a screenshot from the second season and it appeared here), an instagram story posted by Alina (above, right), and two drawing with a lot of characters where you can spot the girl which I'm gonna call her PinkHair or PH for short, I'll mention them later I feel like I should mention this, comparing the sources of the images and the dates when they were posted, it's safe to assume that the screenshot in the classroom has the latest and final version of her design. The red hair most likely doesn't mean anything

1. Alright. So. we've seen Dee and PinkHair in a classroom together, so they're most likely related in some way, or at least they know each other. Their exact relationship doesn't matter here, because all that matters here is that they're related story-wise

Let's look at the first image. This is the banner of the main Metal Family channel. Ches is near Heavy (they get along quite well and I'm sure Heavy aspires to be like Ches in many ways), Dee (we can see his classmates/friends near him, they're all about his age), and we can see people related to Glam on the left side of the image (including Ches!), and Vicky's - on the right side (notice how the hell sign is also there)

Now, I'm not absolutely sure about this one, but it's still kind of weird - look at the image on the right (it's from ArtWave 2021 btw) - wouldn't it make more sense to put PinkHair near Dee? Also, Curiously enough, not only is she not close to Dee on this image, but she's also standing next to Ches.

Though this whole thing could be explained by art theory (too many small things in one corner of your drawing isn't great composition wise lol sorry PH) but I still can't quite skip this point

2. Remember the "MOM" lady? Fun fact, she has the exact same pearl earring that PinkHair has on the screenshot.

3. I'll put all similarities with her supposed parents in this point: Mother: * She's also pretty uh.. glam? for the lack of a better word? Or feminine in a traditional sense, yeah I think that's a better way to put it. Like colors they prefer to wear for example, and jewelry. Characters like that aren't common in Metal Family * She's gotta be a blonde. I can't imagine her being anything but blonde. If she manages to maintain that hair color as a brunette I'm just straight up assuming her character arc is gonna be killing God because these kind of people are capable of anything. I fear them with every fiber of my being. * I can't say for sure because of the shading, but it seems like they both have gray eyes, and she also has darker skin compared to most MF characters. Though, it's likely that Mom just applied a lot of fake tan Ches: * We know that Ches for sure has darker skin * AND grey eyes * There's also some possible personality similarities but I'm not sure if you can compare a child to a parent they've never really known in this way

That's about it, I suppose, I hope there isn't that many grammar mistakes and logically unfinished parts and whatnot in this post I forgot to edit lol x) I'm not sure how to end this post other than to remind you guys that almost all the points in this posts are inspired by the "тупая теория" highlight on the dee_girl_metalfamilyfan's Instagram page, so go check them out and subscribe, they post Dee x The Quest Girl fanart and and always credit the artists. Without them this post would be much, much shorter.

Thanks for reading this post, please feel free to let me know your thoughts on this post <3

[delcat177]

TSWU is such a beautiful work, and I can't fully express how much seeing your journey shared has given me confidence in my own. I know I'm a little late, I'm rarely on tumblr these days but. Thanks, Del. I'm so glad you've found your freedom from this particular stage, cause I personally can't imagine confronting my abuser. Idek where I'm going but. Just... thanks Del. For sharing with us.

Hey <3 I know this is like, super late, but it hasn't not been on my mind, I've just been finding space. Thank you for your patience, Anon, I hope you still see this.

yes ofc it got long, cw abuse discussion

Thank you, for thanking me. One of the reasons I needed to find space was that I want to always be thoughtful and nuanced in my trauma work, and my first thought was

"well technically I haven't confronted my abuser(s) directly, I only went into her space and made her aware of my presence and the effect it had on me..."

...which, typing it out, does in fact sound like confrontation |,D I get so caught up on the small stuff.

I hope I can impress that facing any abuser is tremendously hard, and it's okay if you don't! There are people in my past that I don't know if I'll ever approach, if only because some webs of abuse go deeper than I can start untangling out of consideration for other people in them.

(I know what {you} did.

How fucking could {you}?)

In Lily's case, it took years to get to the point where I felt brave enough to even get close--I remember finding her on Steam and going "just talk to her, talk to her" and then realized I was disassociating horribly just by looking at the chat box I had opened. I was feeling a deep instinct to go on invisible, which I would do quite often with her, because she was so demanding of my time and attention that I had to full stealth if I wanted a break.

And I mean full stealth--I still don't have a Tumblr queue because if I slipped and posted on LJ or a friend mentioned I was talking to them while I was invisible, she would immediately DM me, and with my cover blown, I knew I wouldn't get out of the conversation unscathed. Either I would tell her I needed time to myself and she would start picking apart how I was talking to X or Y but not her, or I would give in and start talking to her. I would feel guilty whatever happened, but the amount of guilt I would have felt at the time for pretending I didn't see her was too strong.

(Every time I write something down, I swear.)

It takes time. The smallest things can spin you, and that's okay. It's proof that you're wounded. Try not to go "I'm weak", but "My leg is super broken and if it was not why am I limping?" and demand to see the leg's manager. There is pain in realizing there is pain, but it's the pain of healing. You're already taking the right steps by speaking your truth about being abused. You don't have to go there, necessarily.

I did, and I've been quiet about it since. I've had a lot to think about.

It was another couple of years before I decided to check Mastodon and found out she was the top poster in her community, and something like a week of just dealing with that reality to decide to send out the warning notes. I had spent years picturing this huge confrontation where I had to go toe to toe with her and defend myself. I still do.

But it didn't happen. She was surprised and posted about having no idea I felt like that. I was more surprised. I had never considered she might not even know I had been affected, or how much I regret and was negatively affected by the sexual stuff in particular. I don't think she knew that she made me sure I was going to Hell at 15, when I figured out that it wasn't "just words on a screen", like everyone thought it was, and quietly accepted I was doomed to do whatever she wanted from then on. That wasn't her experience. I don't think she ever questioned it. She might say differently, I don't know, I just know that I went on to write a trauma narrative down to the core and she went on to claim my OCs were hers and commission pin-ups.

(Yeah. I found another one. Cora this time. The collar is in exceptionally bad taste. Can't fault the art, though.)

It was an entire paradigm shift, and it's taken this long and then some to wrap my head around it. I've been reading the chatlogs we had, and understanding how much of it was not her, or not either of us, but a lot of fucked up environment. That doesn't let anyone off the hook, but being able to go "oh, she grew up in a chaotic household and simply didn't see any moral failing in what she thought was an equitable relationship because I also grew up in a chaotic household and toxic church environment that groomed me into pleasing people at all costs and courtship culture was especially bad, and here on page 103 you can see exhibit Q blah blah blah" has really helped me in understanding that while abuse feels like this huge, singular monster

the truth is, it's complex, it usually involves real love in with the fake stuff, and is more like a big haunted house you live in than one Big Bad you face. You don't get in simply, you don't get out simply. It takes time, and therapy...or what you can get in this climate, I'd recommend this channel, and this one, if you're also in the Swamped Therapist Waiting Room.

(This video helped me understand so much and I only clicked because I needed to make the meme. These two never don't help me, I swear.)

I guess what I'm trying to get around to is...it's hard. It is really, really hard. They get to move on and they leave you in the messed-up house, and while you're working to repaint and fumigate, you find or notice or realize that they don't even remember the cracks in the walls, and that is a tremendously unfair thing. There is not, in truth, much justice to be had, not much of a fairy tale ending. I'm sorry to say it, but to quote A Monster Calls, most of us don't get better than messily ever after.

(And we cry. And if we need to break things, by God, we break them, and we are with each other when we do. If you want me by you, I am there--along with five or six of Maxwell's finest shadows. They lobe abusers.........on toast.)

I wish I could bring you all of the peace, all of the solace, all of the closure you could ever want, Anon. You deserve it. What I can tell you is that these things do live inside of you, and as you move forward, they will find you. Write things down, keep a journal. Write down all the things you don't want to say out loud and read them back, and ask yourself if you deserved to be treated better, because the "wait, yes I did" really gets wheels moving. Here, let me start:

You deserved to be treated better.

You deserved to be treated better.

You deserve to be treated so much better, and you have the right to grieve that you were not, and you are stronger every moment.

I believe in you, Anon.

Re: you believing in me, you wonderful person gonna make me all crey in the good way:

There isn't a day that goes by that TSWU isn't on my mind. As might be gleaned from its events and my writing about it, it was severely impacted by what was going on in my own life, but so subconsciously that when I realized...well, everything...I knew that I had to make a severe impact back. But I also knew I had to do it well, and that involved a lot of planning.

TSWU is not dead, by a long shot. Almost all of the pieces are on the board at this point, and I need to get over my fear of writing again to move them, but the years of silence have not been idle ones.

I only hope other people are half as accepting of the places I have to go with this, the twists and turns I need to make, and that it will continue to be as healing as this note, the notes I get, say it is. I have long considered just killing the narrative, and it is as much you and people like you giving me this courage and hope that keeps it alive as my own dogged stubbornness, probably more.

It really does mean...so fucking much, to know that my writing does something other than hurt people.

(I still get spun over the three-page comic about Woundson hating me, yes. The people who want to hurt you, will.

For the record, the creator had a LOT going on and I've forgiven them the most of anybody, but haha ouch to the extreme, not afraid of saying it)

Thank you, Anon. Thank you, so much. You are my hero, so don't forget that, okay? Whatever you do, however you choose to be, you are my hero. It sucks, and it hurts, because heroes take a lot of damage, but then, you get to fly.

All of my love to you, and a big snuggly hug from Chessie besides. She knows what is a Nice Person and what is Not. You are.......Nice! BIG SNUGGLS.

We're all walking each other home. I'm proud of you. Thank you.