#or feel awful or somethin but thats for them. I want a hug or jus someone

[thebuttsmcgee]

Anyway howdy yall. Its a very tiresome day I'd say. Nothin to worry bout but Im really tired

[voidwizerd-archive]

[[ (not yet) moirail to the rescue phew!! ]]

vvestigialvvoltage wwiz did somethin happen i aint gotten much through my dash yet but somethin feels off

vvestigialvvoltage wwiz ?

wiz-texts ....sorry

vvestigialvvoltage are you okay wwhat happened

wiz-texts i dont think talkin to me is a good idea right now. i jus did somethin awful n i have no idea why

vvestigialvvoltage wwiz please tell me wwhats goin on

wiz-texts i wish i could blame th anons for everythin but... all they did was present th option. im th one who took it

vvestigialvvoltage wwiz can you come here

wiz-texts they said they could take th scars away. forever. but th price would be forgettin Kankri .... i dont remember Kankri someone else had to tell me who he was

vvestigialvvoltage wwiz please come here

wiz-texts what good would that do

vvestigialvvoltage it wwould make me feel better please

wiz-texts im sorry im sorry now im hurtin you too

vvestigialvvoltage im not hurt im wworried

wiz-texts im hurtin everyone i hurt SUGARY n i dont even know her!!!

vvestigialvvoltage an you shouldnt be alone like this an i cant come to you

wiz-texts i should be alone. i already fuckin did that to myself

wiz-texts th others say its gonna get better n i know they wouldnt lie but *how*

vvestigialvvoltage wwiz

wiz-texts everythins gone i keep goin through all my tags n th messages n i cant remember its gone all of it is gone its never comin back

vvestigialvvoltage WWIZ

wiz-texts what!!

vvestigialvvoltage just come here

wiz-texts no

vvestigialvvoltage i cant help you through the connection

wiz-texts no one can help with this i dont think

vvestigialvvoltage an i think i havve somethin for you but i cant open it

vvestigialvvoltage i dont knoww wwhat it is but it says its for you wwhen i try i dont knoww wwhere its from an its scarin me a little

wiz-texts .... its your chip though i dont understand how someone else could get a file onto it without you noticin

vvestigialvvoltage i dont either thats wwhy its scarin me

wiz-texts i dont.... i dont wanna leave this room im sorry i cant

wiz-texts but fuck im sorry im bein a goddamn coward

vvestigialvvoltage its okay im just im really wworried

wiz-texts i know i know im sorry im bein a shit friend

vvestigialvvoltage its okay wwiz

wiz-texts no it isnt no it fuckin isnt .....n i still aint moved an inch. fuck this. fuck thisssss

vvestigialvvoltage wwiz just can you find somethin to focus on

vvestigialvvoltage um try makin somethin maybe somethin complex

wiz-texts cant think dont want to

vvestigialvvoltage okay then make somethin that feels nice instead

wiz-texts what if it blows up that happened once

vvestigialvvoltage reall ?

vvestigialvvoltage wwhat happened

wiz-texts yea i tried to make somethin that could guide me home u remember how my arms look ...looked well it was from that

vvestigialvvoltage okay wwell maybe that wwas just not specific enough ?

wiz-texts i dont fuckin now there aint exactly nothin to b specific with???????? transportalizers dont go there that was th first thing i tried

wiz-texts i dont wanna talk bout that its makin things worse

wiz-texts i wanna be alone i should be alone just leave me alone ......

vvestigialvvoltage im sorry

vvestigialvvoltage > The next thing you know, you're in Wiz's room, slightly dizzy and still shivering from the voodoos that moved you here.

wiz-texts > All the furniture in your room has been shoved to block off the windows and door.

> You don't notice any arrival. You're huddled in the very back corner of the closet, past the mirror, buried under blankets and curled in as tight as you can. You've long since cried yourself out and now feel sick and numb.

vvestigialvvoltage "....Wwiz...?"

> You don't see them, and that worries you more. He said you'd go right to them....

wiz-texts "Go 'way," you mumble in response. You figure it's someone calling from the outside. You're not letting them in. You're not letting anyone in. You deserve to be alone.

vvestigialvvoltage > You figure out the voice is coming from the closet, and head there.

"Wwiz, it's Vvoss..."

wiz-texts > You don't respond, shuffling to try hiding yourself more. The blanket pile shuffles with you.

vvestigialvvoltage > You peer in,  pushing things out of the way.

"I'm already here an I ain't leavvin, so you might as wwell showw yourself... you don't gotta talk or anythin... "

wiz-texts > You keep trying to shrink back even though you're already against the wall. You keep your eyes shut. You wonder how he's even here, and figure Lilac probably has a hand. Why, you don't know. But here he is.

> You just want to be left alone.

"...I ain't comin out."

vvestigialvvoltage > You finally spot the moving blanket pile, and make your way over.

"Okay. Then I'm comin in. "

> And you do so.

wiz-texts > You whimper in protest as blankets are moved away and hug your knees tight, holding your head and keeping your eyes shut.

> He shouldn't be here. What if he got in trouble??? He shouldn't *be here.*

vvestigialvvoltage > You pull the blankets back over you both afterwards.  There's something calming about having them there. Once that's settled, you squirm around to find a comfortable position to wrap your arms around them.

wiz-texts "You shouldn't be here."

> It's mumbled as you stubbornly refuse to relax into his contact, and you catch yourself stupidly wishing for the older Vvoss you got to meet a little while ago. You miss the moirail you don't have yet. Ridiculous.

"Vvoss, you could-- you could get in *trouble.*"

vvestigialvvoltage "I don't care. "

wiz-texts "You should."

vvestigialvvoltage "Nah. "

> You settle yourself comfortably with your arms around them, resting your forehead against their shoulder from behind. Cling fish!

wiz-texts > You don't say anything or move for a long, long time. But eventually you unfold, and move to hug him back. Your fingers fidget with folds of blankets, forehead bumping with his as you actually open your eyes again. It's just to stare down at the floor, but still. It's something.

"...Thanks."

vvestigialvvoltage > You smile when they start to uncurl, and shift positions as appropriate to make sure you both are comfortable.

"I'd say you're wwelcome, an you are, but really you don't gotta thank me. You'd'a done the same for me."

wiz-texts > That earns a very faint laugh.

"Yeah I would've. ...How long can you stay?"

vvestigialvvoltage "As long as you need."

> The laugh makes your spirits lift a little.

wiz-texts "Careful with things like that, Vvoss, you might never come back."

> The joke sounds weak and your voice is barely there but hell, it's an attempt.

vvestigialvvoltage "An I'm sure Y wwould havve somethin to say about /that/!"

> You respond to the spirit of the joke rather than the words.

wiz-texts > You give a quiet laugh to that, absently leaving a kiss on his forehead before wrapping yourself around him in a hug. You don't exactly feel better; in fact it's hard to tell what you're feeling at all. But you don't feel like everything is on fire, at least.

"Thank you for coming."

vvestigialvvoltage > Something buzzes in your skull. Your pan aches, and you aren't sure why. Everything seems normal...?

> You push it aside and wrap yourself around Wiz back, nuzzling into their shoulder.

"Like I said before, you don't gotta thank me, but you're wwelcome."

wiz-texts > One of your hands pets through his hair. It's cool and soft and you like how it feels. How he feels. You still don't feel okay, and you have no idea how to even begin making up for what you did to Kankri, but... this is a start. Breathing again is a start.

> You're so grateful he came. You think this might be the first time Vvoss has stuck with you even when you've tried distancing yourself. Lilac does that, yes, but... Vvoss hasn't, before. He's never answered no with no.

> You're so proud he did. And so damn grateful.

vvestigialvvoltage > You purr, softly, at the hair petting. That feels nice. You're glad they're feeling at least a little better.

> Your head isn't filled with much in the way of thoughts right now - thinking was making it hurt more, and you don't want to deal with that.