#or chuuya used to rave about him all the time and now that dazais back technically hes back at the complaining

[tittysuckersworld]

why are you, as a man, bringing up a man thats not related to the conversation that youve only seen twice since he dissappeared for 4 years. why are you bringing him up? to angrily ramble about him? when hes not even in the conversation? when hes barely related to the topic? is it cause hes on your mind? huh?

[the-silver-peahen-residence]

||An Officer's Corruption part Thirty-one||

Hello there dears, Peahen mom here but it's time to add another part to the Officer's Corruption series. <3

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((Your reading part thirty one))

||Drabble Summary||

When Oblivion gets the information update about what was explained, she now awaits a phone call from them. Now she was worried to what she will find out. And it's not good. Meanwhile, more events have happened in the Northen State Pentiaterny and what of Yuu? What has the Hero Public Safety Commision done? Read to find out.

||Warning||

~An Argument is noticed in this drabble

~Dark themed memories are noticed in this

~Forced drug use is mentioned in this drabble (You were warned)

~Trauma events or flashbacks are present (You were warned)

~Dark Nsfw is present in this. It involves Vomit warning, blood warning.

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Rave"Oblivion" Daitengu and anyone else mention belongs to my amazing Rp partner @demon-blood-youths While Matt Knack with his Lovely Horrors belong to the sideblog @lovelyxhorrors that is run by demon mun.

Luna so-yeon koboyashi, Yuuka Nakano and others mentioned are my OC's and belong to me. Terry Mcginnis belongs to and is from batman beyond but also me due to having him as a muse. While Dazai Osamu, Chuuya Nakahara, Ryuunosuke and Gin Akutagawa from BSD series are mentioned in this but are rped by me as my muses.

((Note: Their will be grammar mistakes and errors in this drabble as others have this warning. But like I state before, this is written for fun. So I hope you like it and my friend too. And again for this part, theirs a part that's a bit dark, if your not alright with this please don't read. With that, I hope you Enjoy.))

During all this, Oblivion was sitting down looking at the notes she was given from both Sai and Terry. Even now, she was really worried about her. This was a lot more worse than she thought it was. Given the shots just aggravating her quirk or making her worse. Biting her bottom lip, she couldn't imagine her going through something so horrible like this. Or something worse.

'Yuu..I will help you. I will. I know your suffering right now but It hurts to see you like this. I know you are angry and hate others..but please know others care.'

She closes the folder but closed her eyes to sigh, covering them with one hand. Thinking about this really upset her but it almost reminds her of herself. Someone with a similar dream but her story was different or..maybe not. She imagines what it would have been like if they met under different situations? She would have been happy and her regular self. Seems she even liked to make friends given from the report of her old self. Someone bubbly but showing a sweet smile at the same time.

"........." However, now, it was shattered. Oblivion knew things back at Yokohoma has changed given the thoughts of her own father that was released for false arrest but she became a officer to steer away from the hero life. That dream was shattered for her years ago. As of right now, she wanted to help Yuu..no matter the cost. She'll see her later on that next day due to still being on her sick leave.

When holding up her cell phone, she checks her contacts and finds her uncle's number. Selecting it, she waits for the other to pick up on the other line. It rings for a few moments before someone picks up.

'Hello Warden Dazai Osamu's office speaking. May I ask who is calling?'

"Hello this is Officer Seon."

'Officer Seon? You must be Warden Osamu niece..' Sid said.

"Yes. That's me." Oblivion mutters but Sid remains calm.

'I see. Well, hello to you. What can I do for you?' she asked on the phone.

"Well, I was hoping to speak with the warden about something important." Oblivion said hearing some things in the back ground.

'I see. Well, right now he's attending something important Officer Seon correct? He did wish to pass a message to you.' Sid said but Oblivion blinks.

"A message?"

'Yes, he said he will call you later tonight so you and him may speak. I already got informed of this and I hope this is alright?' Sid asked.

Hold on, what could he be doing that was really important? Well, knowing him he tends to be always doing something in that prison. But she never questioned it.

"I guess that's fine."

'Alright. I'll be sure to inform him so you both can speak later tonight. Was their anything else?' Sid asked.

"No, thank you." Oblivion said before hanging out when Sid did too. She lowers her cell phone but sighed wondering if he will but he should. Or in that case.

~~~~Meanwhile back at Northen State Penitentiary~~~~

All the prisoners here were now in their cells speaking about the crazy fight in Area E. It was wild yet dangerous at the same time. Others have been spreading the news all through the prison but it was the talk of the day right now. Other guards were confused hearing this but seeing that some seen the fight, it was true. And it was normal for that to happen. Right now, Sid was heading into Area E but saw Charlie in the same area seeing the mess.

"Geez..."

"..Seems the rumors were true. Another bloody fight and kills happened again. What do you make of that, Sid?"

"Same as the last few that happened." Sid sighed looking around with some cleaning up the area. Yeah, what a mess indeed. She pushes her glasses up to see this but she remains quiet.

"Hey by the way..."

"Yes?"

"Were you able to give Prisoner Nakahara his few minutes of calling a lawyer?" she heard Charlie asked who was getting something from the main room as Sid sighed pushing up her glasses.

"Yes. He told me got the time he needed for that one phone call to speak to a lawyer. Though, he didn't say who the lawyer was. All I know is something if true should be coming later on in the week to help him out with his case or bail. Though.....that might give him time to stop shouting like he lost his head." she mutters but her mind still thinks of when he called her pretty.

"Hmmm, I see."

"Then what of the others? Like the Akutagawa siblings?" she asked Charlie while she sees some taking the cut up body parts away but looks to Sid.

"I don't know. Right now in our section, Area D. Those females are behaving a bit better. I'm still given orders to keep a eye on Wong. Shea. Pratt. Flowers. They behaved so far but that was ruined when she started another fight and was sent to the isolated cell again." she said.

"Oh again? Hmmm....seems she was a lot more violent than we thought.." Sid said. "Then what of Pete? We haven't heard from him in a while...." Sid said seeing other guards walking by or dragging things along the ground.

"I heard Pete in Area C had to stop five fights between Foster. Durham. Mullen. Kelly with the other inmates. Those guys really must love to start things. Though, I hear his baby brother Yumeno is helping him out as well knowing he's good at helping him. He's really adorable even if he's grown up a bit."

That was true, Sid and the others had met the him when he was a little one but he was sweet indeed when growing up. Even when Pete save his life from a horrible child kidnapper and took him in as his own baby brother.

"Then what about the others?" Sid stood to get some coffee.

"Shrika is fine from what I heard. She had to put two men down due to them acting like wild animals earlier today. Though, I heard Willie almost strangled Grimes due to him taking ill of her. Their taking a break right now in her private quarters so it's fine. Though, McEarl. Kim and Rojas are behaving in Area A. I also know Charle, Valdez and Leblanc in Area B are behaving since their scared of anger Willie like the other idiot." she takes a sip of her coffee but Charlie didn't know that. But Willie did have a temper on him.

"And of Matt?"

"I hear he's taking care of something important right now. So he will be back later this afternoon. Though, Akutagawa is out cold. Seems like he did have fun though. Right now, I think he's in the infirmary after the fight or it tells me this is going to happen a lot more now."

"Is that so?" Charlie said.

"It is. Ryunosuke I believe his name is already hates Matt that he wishes to rip his throat out. Though, I know Matt can take care of him like any other prisoner in this place. What got me curious is what he said to him." she mutters and yet Charlie believes her.

"Well, I'm sure we will be fine given the thought. For now, both of them goes ahead with getting back to their stations. Right now, Charlie goes to her area knowing the female prisoners were out and about or so. In a moment, both heard running foot steps to turn seeing Officer Woofhees.

"Geez, what the hell happened here!?" Jason asked.

"It's a long story but we can just give you a short answer: Matt challenged the hellhound and won but it was all due to a inmate that disabled his collar. Which resulted in him killing some of the prisoners before Matt challenged him."

"I...damn.."

"Though, I heard you also had a situation happen in your area too?" Sid said seeing Jason sighed.

"Ehhhh you can say that.."

~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~

"Hey, are they still behaving?" Jason blinks hearing this but he sighed to look at Charlie.

"No worries, they behaved so far when you were gone. However, Akutagawa was released from her cell." he said seeing two guards opening the door and seeing Gin walking in as the door closes behind her. She sighed looking left and right but the other female prisoners were grumbling again looking away from her but Gin didn't care.

She goes to take a seat and look bored now and yet, Wong was near as she glares. She hated her so much but she didn't say anything when one looks to Gin again. That same prisoner goes to look annoyed at Gin.

"Look who's back. Did the officer let you out for good behavior little baby?" she asked but Akutagawa looks away not really caring about her. Right now, she was trying to be 'good' but it might be hard to do that.

"........"

"What? Got nothing to say bitch?" The woman said trying to get her attention but Gin rolls her eyes not wanting to be bothered. This made her angry only to grab her prison shirt. "HEY! STOP FUCKING IGNORING ME!"

"...Look, I just got out so unless you want me to stick a knife in your eye and rip it out, fuck off." she growls that both Shea, Pratt, Wong, and Flowers heard this but they see the female shove Gin back looking annoyed.

"........The fuck you say to me you bitch? Oh wait..I think I should be saying doggy. Why? Your all bark but no bite now? I still haven't forgiven you for the last time you made fun of me."

"Hmm? Oh you mean beating your ass for being stupid? I'm so sorry that your not as smart as being fucking stupid....maybe if you learn to be smart then maybe you can do better." she said seeing the women's eye twitching.

"........Hey, behave down there!" both heard Officer Gallows at them both seeing the two quiet. However, the female snarled at Gin to look at at her. She was not in the mood to deal with her right now so she gets up.

"I'm going to do some exercising..Move." she warns shoving her out the way to walk off. Seeing Gin ignore her, this only pissed her off that she walks over and grabs her shirt. "???" Before speaking, the female prisoner threw a punch at her showing blood. Gin falls on the ground holding her nose as blood shows through her mask. She sees the other woman panting holding her fist up as Gin tastes the blood from her nose.

"What? If you don't have shit to say..then fucking get up and fight me you son of a-" Suddenly, Gin got up and tackles the female and started throwing punch after punch at her. the female prisoners shouted and chanted, "Fight, fight, fight, fight, fight!" seeing blood flying as the woman kicks Gin off right into the tables. She crashes into them before the other rushes over holding a knife trying to stab Gin!

Being quick, Gin even seeing her mask slip off but quickly grabs the female's wrists only to break her wrist hearing a pained scream before stabbing her right in the eye pulling her eye out.

"Aaahhhhh!! FUCK M..MY EYE! YOU TORE OUT MY EYE!" she screams.

"What the hell!?" Officer Gallows saw but sees guards trying to break it up only for Gin to punch two away from her but she shows blood running down her nose now growling at them.

"HEY HEY HEY, CUT IT OUT!" Officer Woofhees said jumping over the railing to stop Gin. She feels him grab her wrist again but she headbutts him as he staggers back. He shook his head but she now tries to attack him even if he grabs her wrists again, he noticed something. canine fangs? Wait..what!? He sees this but she kicks him back as he skids across the ground. Charlie now was tying up whoever was close but he had to stop Gin before she started another close Riot.

~~~~~~~~~

"And that is what happened after everything but.." Jason looks to Sid that looks to Charlie.

"it's true.."

"Hmmmm....goodness can't the females behave themselves for once? They'll end up getting killed by Gin if this keeps up. Even so, good job on stopping it." Sid said to the two.

"It's fine...it would have got bad if we didn't." Charlie said.

"Yeah....." Jason said but he was trying not to think of what happened between him and Gin. He wouldn't let her win this game! Though, he was worried about it and her effect on him.

Sid too notice. "You alright Jason?"

"Yeah I'm fine...anyway, I hope the cleaning crew can get this cleaned up before later." he said seeing this but the other two watches with Jason being lost to his own thoughts.

'Damn it..this might be harder than I thought. I'll have to stay strong..or I might break...'

~~~~~~~~~~

Some of the guards said nothing seeing Ryu knocked out in the infirmary right now. Though, seeing someone that disturbing was pretty scary. He went all out killing the inmates and going head to head with Matt. If that don't tell anything then this should. As he lays there on the bed, they wonder what he'll do if he wakes up.

"Hey don't worry so much. After that blow to him he won't be getting up for a while. He won't end up killing anyone." Cobin said checking some medic charts right now. He seems calm right now and this got some wondering.

"But you heard about the fight right? That was-"

"Something normal here in the prison. Remember, this is normal here." he said not worried about it.

"......" He sighed to set the folder down before standing up to check the time. "Though, given the fight, he's out cold for a couple hours like I said."

"Hmmmmm..that still sounds like he would have done something." A guard said to Cobin that looks in his direction adjusting his own glasses to wonder.

"And that isn't a problem to you is it?" another asked.

"No." Cobin said walking by the two with him looking ahead. "Besides, given his medic records they are pretty interesting. Even from his health, he's still a dangerous to everyone here." he explains with eyes closed.

"Ummm, how dangerous are we talking here?"

"Dangerous to kill anyone on sight or dangerous that only Matt can restrain him. Want more proof?" he said as the two guards got nervous to hear that. Yeah, that explains a lot.

"I know right now the rumors are spreading through the prison right now involving the fight. Though, others that see how 'cute' Ryu is might end up wishing to either break him down or own him? I don't know..it's a unknown suggestion."

"That sounds messed up." They said with Cobin sighing.

"That's normal but again, lets just see how it goes. I know Matt is happy giving he found a new challenge that can keep up with him unlike the other idiots that challenged him. This should be something."

Looking to Ryunosuke, he was knocked out but clean of blood on him. He will be sure to treat his wounds in the future but for now, he will let him rest.

~~~~~~~~~Back to Eclipse prison~~~~~~~~

"Thank you for taking the time to speak with us Mr. Yokumiru Mera. I know this is at a short notice but thank you for that."

Luna was speaking to the head leader or the acting president of the Hero Public Safety Commission. Yokumiru Mera is a lanky middle-aged man with beige, chin-length, and messy hair. He is dressed in a formal black shirt with a white undershirt; his shirt is followed by equally black pants. He wears a loose tie and black shoes. He completes his look with a microphone for general speeches and commentating.

His eyes are framed with small but noticeable bags caused by a lack of sleep. Today, Luna asked for a request to speak to him about their request of getting Yuuka off the drugs due to the effects it's had on her. For now, she had to know what the status was.

"It's fine Warden so-yeon but given how you said this was important I don't mind the time I can give." He was sitting in the main desk looking at a video screen with her and Swan there at her side.

"Now, what was this about your request?"

"Well, my officer Swan sent you a request involving a prisoner here at Eclipse prison. I was hoping you took the time to look at the request involving the help she was getting.." she said seeing him think about it but Yokumiru looks at some documents to open it up seeing the information.

"......."

"Sir?"

"Sorry miss Luna. But yes, I believe your speaking about Nakano right? Haven't heard anything of her in a while." he mutters flipping through the pages.

"Yes; it's been some time but we were told that you and your accountants were looking at the request we sent that would help with the drugs or medicine she's been given due to her-"

"Quirk I remember. I heard someone told me of your request and it was looked through already and voted on." he said closing the folder to sigh.

"And what is the status of it?" She asked only for Yokumiru to open his tired eyes looking down at her.

"I'm afraid it was decline Miss Warden So-yeon." he said simply.

Wait..Declined!?

"Declined?! What do you mean Declined!?" she said now a bit angry but calms down to hear him speak.

"We know and heard of Miss Nakano's case and what her quirk is like. It's too dangerous for her to be off the drugs given the fact it keeps her under control. Right now, we already have sent new orders for her medicine to be doubled due to the information from the other doctor we have working there. He gives us information about her status and I don't see anything else wrong with that."

"What are you talking about double the medicine and the shots!? You don't understand sir. This treatment you have under order is not helping her. It's making her worse and worse. We want to help her but sending her to prison like this isn't the answer!"

"I assure you Miss Luna this is needed to keep the public and that woman safe. We know what we are doing given the number of ideals and what she can do. We need to be sure she stays docile."

"But Mr. Mera. She's speaking the truth. Prisoner Nakano is getting worse by the day the more she gets that shot. I understand the people are scared right now because of her but it's not her fault. She went through something horrible and is having bad reactions to it right now. Please, if we can just stop with the medicine-"

"I'm afraid I can't do that Miss Swan. As of right now, she is to still be under your care and the medicine isn't stopping. We know what we are doing. This is to help her and her future. I know it's nothing bad but this will help."

"Sir please, you don't understand doubling the strength of the medicine might do more harm than good. Please, if you just listen-"

"I believe our meeting is done miss Luna. I have other things to do right now. As I said, your request is denied but again trust us, we know what we are doing. Good day." he said before the call ended leaving Luna and Swan alone.

"...........Luna?"

Luna said nothing but she closed her hand into a fist before hitting the wall. Damn it! Why wouldn't they listen to her. Even when hearing about her getting a double strength of the shot and medicine she fears of what it might do. She didn't know if they were going to hurt her or just paralyze her!

"Swan come on, were going to check on her!"

"R...right!" she said as the two rush out.

~~~~~in the medic room~~~~~

Yuuka was laying down sleeping right now but the two guards already given Yuu her daily medicine shot while being knocked out a few hours ago. Now, a nurse is watching over her for the time being. She was looking tired now curled up but she was dreaming of her life before being caught. She could see she was little and happy with her mother, father, and siblings. Having dreams of being a hero to prove she was going to do right even with her quirk. It was a nice dream she was happy and felt like nothing was wrong.

~~~~In her dreams~~~~~

It seems her dream was nice and peaceful before that calm dream changed showing her own subspace being at peace. Though, Yuuka was nervous almost like something else was here in her dream with her. That's when she saw some mirror in front of her. The body was coated in gold and wood, a nice finish touch. She walks over seeing her reflection in it before seeing her self.

She saw her self when discovering her quirk that made her nervous. From whatever got close would be poisoned by her by mistake. It got her feeling scared but she tries ignoring it. That's when she sees herself crying when accidentally poisoning her siblings by mistake.

She didn't mean to do it. She didn't! It was a accident and yet, others were scared of her quirk. Yuuka sees the mirror but she saw some cracks forming now.

"????" her fingers touch the surface of what she saw in front of her as it cracked more and more. That's when it shattered making Yuu's eyes widen.

'What is this? What is happening!?' she thought in her dreams seeing more memories again. Then she saw the same one now turning to a nightmare. She looks around in her dream seeing the same scary faces and familiar laughter.

'N..No...No no no......not this again..' she thought scared now seeing familiar faces hidden in the dark.

'Don't worry it won't hurt..'

'Just open up and take your medicine..'

'Stop squirming! Your nothing but a dog remember!? take your medicine!'

She covers her ears trying to block out the voices but she was shaking as they were either coming through clear as day. She hated hearing the voices, the noise of trains and the heavy smell of chemicals.

'No...please stop...stop it already. I don't want this....I don't want this!'

'You don't have to be afraid...'

'It's alright..just give into the drugs piggy. It's going to be alright..'

'Stop fighting it! Stop fighting us!'

The voices got louder and louder as they were now almost shouting at her to make Yuuka start crying but feel sorta off. Almost like she was sick right now. She grips her arms but her hand was scratching where she felt like the injection remains. Their was already scars from her healing but fresh ones were being made by her in her dream.

'Give in...give in...give in..give in...GIVE IN...GIVE IN...GIVE IN!!!'

'Stop it please..please just stop already! Stop!! Stop!!'

Their voices boomed in her ears, her head felt like it was going to split apart. The voices sounded like hammers hitting nails into wood but she only grips some of her hair hearing the shouting get louder.

'BAD DOG!'

'YOU BETTER TAKE YOUR SHOT! STOP FIGHTING BACK YOU WORTHLESS WHORE!'

'BE GOOD AND DO WHAT YOUR TOLD! YOUR NOTHING BUT A MONSTER TO THEM NOW!'

"No! No! No! NO!!' she screams in her dream only to feel hands reaching about to grab her when suddenly-

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Suddenly, Yuuka shot up screaming in fear panting heavily in a panic. Her eyes were wide gripping her shirt and the blanket over her as sweat was heavily coating her skin. She had a horrible dream but she suddenly felt woozy and dizzy.

The nurse guard heard but goes to check. "Miss Nakano?! Are you alright!?" she asked but she only held her head trying to stop the headache but her stomach felt horrible too. Right away, she tries to get out of bed to head to the bathroom but she was too weak only to fall on the ground.

"Miss!" she goes to try helping her but Yuu moves away from the guard but pushes her back. She falls on her hands and knees but looks down panting as she was sweating. Something was wrong. Her stomach was doing flipflops only to cover her mouth quickly.

"!!!!"

In that moment, the guard rush in only to see Yuu vomiting on the ground. They tense seeing her get sick, coughing with tears in her eyes. However, she was panting for air only to look down before vomiting again. Everything she ate today came back up within the bile while she was throwing it all back up.

"Hey, easy now! It's going to be alright. Just take deep breaths.." the guard said but Yuu hits them away as they see her look away.

"Don't touch m..me! Just leave me alone!!"

"Prisoner Nakano please, you need to calm down!"

"Stay back! Get away from me!" she screams but as she did, she felt something running down her nose to stop talking. "......." Shaky fingers reach up to feel it was from her and touches where it was felt. When she pulls back she saw red to look scared.

'I..Is this m...my.....'

"Miss Nakano?" a guard asked seeing her being quiet.

Yuuka was shaking but blood was running from her nose heavily as she was starting to freak out.

'M..my blood..I'm having a nose b...bleed? W..why? Why am I having a n..nosebleed?!?'

She looks at her hands trying to stop the bleeding but it only got worse that she saw something else. Her purple eyes widen seeing things crawling under her skin in her vision. It was like the bugs were trying to get out of her that she was shaking. This made her horrified thinking it was the 'worms' again.

'N..No..not again...not again! Their st..still inside of me!! Why are they still inside of me!? I thought i got them o..out..did they get worse?!?' she freaks out trying to dig her nails into her skin drawing blood. However, she felt sick right away to cough again crying worse.

'I have to get them o..out..get them out!' She screams in her thoughts that she suddenly vomits again to fall on her side. She was freaking out seeing the 'worms' that she was sobbing.

"Get them out!! Get them out of me!!" she cries hugging herself but her hand was clawing at her arm again where she was scratching in her dreams. This was getting worse hearing Yuu scared voice before seeing her throwing up more in the room.

"Calm down!" One guard said but Yuu kicks him away only for the others to see her move away but was holding her head.

"Leave me alone! Their all under my skin..i..it's scary..their eating me from the inside out! I have to get them out of me!" she cries scratching her upper arm showing blood once more. Heavy breathing was heard from her like she was hyperventilating.

"What are you talking about!? Theirs no worms in y-"

"Yes their is! Get them out! Get them out of me!!" she said in a panic shaking but the other guards were lost on what to do! Even the collar was beeping out of control due to her mental state.

"WHAT DO WE DO!?"

"WE NEED A DOCTOR IN HERE NOW!"

"SOMEONE CALL 911!" another shouted seeing her laying on the side shaking now. However, they could tell she did get her shot but it was the new recommended one. The double dose shot. Right now, she was crying feeling worse but she was just laying there hugging her stomach sobbing. That's when Luna and Swan show up.

"What the hell is going on!?" she said but Swan gasped seeing inside. She saw the puddle of vomit and drops of blood. What did happen!?

"Hey, what is going on!" Luna asked a guard.

"W..we don't know! We came here when hearing the scream. We just showed up to see this!" he said as Luna and Swan pushes through the officers but stops seeing. She looked to have gotten sick on herself and the floor. Even blood was noticed as well around her and saw it was coming from her nose. However, sobbing was heard that worried the two.

Did she already get her double strength of the shot? Looking worried, Luna looks. "I need you guys to get her cleaned up and clean this. We need to calm her down." she said.

The officers were nervous touching her but they tried to go to her, about to touch her but right away, they shout from being burned.

"I SAID DON'T TOUCH ME! YOU FUCKING DAMN POLICE FUCKERS!" she screams about to burn them.

"Swan!"

"R..right!" Swan quickly had golden feathers show to quickly fly in the room around Yuu. She got nervous seeing them but that's when she felt suddenly sleepy. She tries to shake it off but it was too heavy and soothing to make her see her vision fading away. In that moment, she slips to the floor knocked out with a thud as the officers were worried.

".........."

Luna and Swan said nothing but Luna was quiet. "Give me the time stamp of who gave her the shot tonight. NOW!" she said.

"Y....Yes ma'am!" two officers said scared and rushes to go do that.

Yeah, Luna was not happy right now. However, she goes to check on her, seeing Yuuka not moving. The blood still shows from her nose as her pools of vomit too. Being careful, she goes to check with Swan seeing she was knocked out asleep so she was docile for now. She'll have to be moved to another room till this one was cleaned up. For now, this might have gotten worse now.

'I'll have to tell Oblivion about this. I don't want her to get too worried but...tch, those guys don't know what they are doing. How is this even going to help her?'

Luna sees the guards carefully pick up Yuuka's knocked out body but goes to set her in another room to be cleaned up and changed. However, she could see her lips moving with soft whispering in her sleep saying 'n...no..no..no..no....no...no...'

Though, the puddle of vomit and blood from her nose were being cleaned up. Even if some was disturbed from what they just saw just now. Swan was going with the guards to help with cleaning Yuuka up. However, Luna sighed remaining where she was.

Whatever these guys were planning, Luna was not liking it.

[soukokuwu]

hi there! hope ur doing well esp in times like these. i must say i absolutely adore ur writing. both the chuuya angst fics literally made me cry. i never cried to any other fics before. it was amazing. may i request an angst scenario where Dazai has an s/o & a person from his past (from his port mafia days) wanted revenge on him. now Dazai is incredibly smart & manipulative & they know that (impossible to kill) so they go after s/o & kills them. i hope i'm not bothering u. have a nice day/night.

something left unguarded.

     genre. angst (dazai x reader)      warnings. death, kidnapping/implied assault      synopsis. there are times when dazai wishes he’s dead. this is one of those times.      word count. 1.8k      author notes. hi kitty! sorry this took me ungodly long, and i’m not sure if this is what you were looking for but i hope it’s okay!! <33

there’s some unspoken things that come together with love.

for dazai, that’s the slow crumbling of his walls; the surrendering of firearms. he finds himself unfurling easily at the seams, and regarding what seems impossible for the vast majority, it’s like white on rice for you. best thing is? it comes easy, effortless. you don’t try to be someone you’re not; dazai can tell. you are just unapologetically, undoubtedly you. that’s the beauty of it all, to him.

never has he felt like this, in the crack of dawn, lying next to you on the bed, the distant sounds of the birds and your breathing is all he can hear. it’s weird — he used to hear so many voices in his head, so many conflicting ones telling him to kill himself and yet others telling him to stay because there’s bound to be something that makes him want to live.

the latter is right. because now look at him. he’s not hearing whispers in his mind, the condescending, doubtful voices are gone. it’s peace.

all that fills his thoughts are you. who was he, even, before he met you? he knows, he always knows, he’s mostly self-aware. but then, he doesn’t want to. doesn’t want to remember the person he used to be, because he loves who he is now, with you. do the voices come back sometimes? absolutely. but a minor interaction with you and he feels tranquililty. and he has no doubt that you are the only one capable of such a feat.

he always thought fear was the accompaniment of walls breaking down. why did you make him feel like it was liberating instead? is it just the impossible amount of trust he’s put into you? he doesn’t have to ever ask himself anything, never does he ever feel like he needs to doubt you. ever.

you’re a peculiar little thing, always doing what you think is best for him. you rarely ever do think of yourself, do you? that’s why dazai takes it upon himself to give you what you deserve, a wholesome, warming kind of romance, even if he isn’t so sure about it himself. dazai doesn’t know romance apart from those that’s raved about in books and movies. his whole life is an endless pit of darkness — that’s up ’til the point he met you, of course.

so if the novel, theatric kind of love is the only form of romance he knows, then the least he can do is give you that.

dazai turns and watches as you rest peacefully, weaving his fingers through your hair, appreciating the patterns of your chest rising and falling. how long has it been since he’s first watched you like this before you wake? he doesn’t really recall the exact number of days, but it’s around three years? and he can definitely deal with a lot more than this.

talks about the future has always been taboo for him. not that he hates it, but it’s because he can never feel excited about it. and frankly, it’s much more of a chore than anything. so now, catching himself actually envisioning a future with you? it feels surreal.

the two of you have a routine: wake up, make breakfast, kiss goodbye before work, actually work, come home, have dinner, maybe take a bath together before you go to bed. it’s habitual by now — everything on the list. and while the morning is no different, the afternoon definitely is.

first there is the anonymous letter he finds in his top desk drawer. nothing but a blank paper with a single ominous line of “this is for back then”. nothing else. just a single line written in blood red ink. the weretiger next to him seems a little freaked out by it, so it’s easy to tell that whoever did this made the effort to come in earlier than anyone to place this in his desk. and maybe they expected to elicit some other behaviour from him. distress? fear?

whatever it is though, it doesn’t get to him. he crumples it up and tosses it in the bin. (he misses it, but it’s not like he cares.)

he goes the rest of the afternoon in ignorant bliss. he texts you halfway though, asking if your lunch today was any good.

would be better if you were here, osamu.

dazai forgets for just a moment that you usually only type out osa. because that’s what you do to him sometimes — you make him let his guard down. he wastes no time replying you.

oh yeah, why’s that, darling? ;)

the next message that chimes in has his heart take a deep dive into the ground below him. it’s a picture. of a vile, disgusting man licking the side of your head, with you tied up to a chair, unconscious.

because then maybe she won’t be so boring like this.

not even bothering to explain, all dazai does is grab atsushi by the collar and drag him out of the agency. he’s the only combative one present currently, and frankly, if it comes to a fistfight, having him there is enough. of course, dazai is not planning to spare anyone. they dared touch you?

they’re as good as dead.

dazai never thinks letting his guard down is a crime. but he thinks the ultimate sin he’s committed? that he let himself slack on his guarding of you. because the moment he gets to you at your apartment, he realises it’s never been a race against time. the moment the picture was sent, you were already gone.

and the culprits are long gone, disappeared without a trace. except for the disgusting wet track of where his tongue traced your skin earlier. usually, dazai would go after them immediately, track them down and plan their demise.

it would have been his plan. had you been just another body, another death count. but you’re not. you’re his lady, his angel, his life. yet you’re lifeless now, your chest doesn’t rise up and down like it should. your body is dense, somewhat dry. it’s completely… not you.

atsushi doesn’t know what to do, he stands in the corner with his eyes trained on his superior who’s letting out more emotion than atsushi thinks he has in his entire life. he feels like he should console him somehow, but he knows that’s selfish thinking. dazai won’t appreciate that.

he’s right. dazai won’t. because the only person capable of giving him any sliver of hope in this god-forsaken world is gone. her body but an empty vessel, reminding him of who he once was and how he had longed to be.

and oh, how he longs to join you now.

worst part is? dazai can find no one to blame. no one but himself. not even the man who offed you. dazai recognises him, from way back in his port mafia days. which means there’s no one to blame but the person he once was, the one you made him feel like he and reprieve from.

until now.

losing you is his punishment, isn’t it? for everything he’s done. this is his judgement day and you’re another one of his sad victims. it’s your body, limp in his arms, eyes wide open and the complete stillness of it all.

and he realises maybe this is what people mean when they talk about ‘deathly silence’. he never thought that losing just the sound of your breathing would feel like this and yet here he is, with another casualty in his arms.

yet another soul he can’t save.

and dazai… despite all his attempts, is still alive.

it’s cliche, but it’s true.

the worst day of loving someone is the day you lose them.

except when they’re still around, it’s easy to take every moment for granted. because who, when they think they have everything, will think of the moment they’d lose it? sure, it may come in glimpses, but you never hover over it long enough for it to actually matter.

until it happens.

cups of hot chocolate and cuddling up to each other in the winters. words of affirmation and warmth bubbling inside chests. security of routines and safety of arms.

dazai can’t stop thinking of things that remind him of you. thinking of the good times like you’re still alive is the only thing that keeps him from breaking as they lower you into the ground.

you’re almost in there and all he can think about is the first time he tells you he loves you, the first proper time he lets his guard down. how you were on the couch with your legs tucked against your chest, misty eyes giving away just how much the whole situation means to you. you see, he always knew you had a fear of falling, but he never knew just how much, until that moment.

“you click your tongue whenever something annoys you, you subconsciously like to walk between the lines on tiled floors, you blame yourself for things that are out of your control,” dazai had told you. and he remembered the look in your eyes — that surprise, that gratefulness — because you never thought that anyone would spare you that much attention, did you? especially not him, who you knew would never spend time on anything that’s unimportant.

but he paid attention to you more than anything else.

“i love you, belladonna,” he had assured you, inching close and holding you in his arms. you always needed reassurance, and while dazai would usually think it’s a burden, nothing was when it came to you. “you may think you’re a mess, but i think you’re perfect.”

he lets your giggle be the last thing that fills his mind as they finally lowered you into the ground. and he doesn’t wait for it to be filled before he spins around and walks away. the next memory he remembers being a promise made. of how you told him not to do anything rash should you ever go first, not even in old age. (he thought it was cute how far ahead you thought of for the future — something he finds he needs now; a future with you.)

and that’s the thing about letting your guard down; you let them have a slight control over your decisions. because now, despite every bone in his body aching to throw himself off a cliff, he finds he can’t quite do so. why? he remembers the life in your eyes when he agrees to that promise, the absolute faith you have in him that he loves you that much to abide by your one wish for him. yet in his head a constant question beckons him, chants itself in his mind like a mantra.

i just want to join you, is that so wrong?

tags. @yokelish @gogolparadise @fyowyn-writes @animatedarchives