#or at least like rent/own a condo or something

[horrorlesbians]

Congrats on the job I’m excited for you!!

thank you!! i accepted the job offer today and will start next month, i also told her i go by helena now and she was supportive so im very just ⬇️ rn

[katsumox]

"the roomate."

~1k words. jason todd x reader.

there's so much sexual tension here it should be illegal. anyway..

“Fuck you, Jason. Literally fuck you,” you shout, stomping into the shared apartment.

It was the third argument this week. It's been two months since you moved in, and the two of you have been arguing ever since. You found Jason's apparent severe dislike for you confusing, as you'd been nothing if not outright kind to him. At the very least, you've been an amicable and considerate roommate.

Time after time, Jason Todd found ways to get under your skin in the apartment you shared with him, Roy, and Kori. Though you were a new addition to the trio, you meshed extremely well with everyone, except Jason, of course. The two redheads were quick to tell you that Jason didn’t get along with many, but he didn’t mean any harm. Nevertheless, The four of you began renting a condo for the sake of cheap rent when the going got tough.

Something about you seemed to fundamentally irritate Jason. Maybe it was the fact that you didn’t have a perpetual stick up your ass, unlike him, or maybe it was because he had a natural aversion to anything happy or remotely nice. Perhaps it was the way you found reasons to smile and laugh obscenely hard at jokes his male friends say, but somehow find Jason entirely unfunny. Or perhaps it’s the fact that you don’t immediately shut down Roy’s frequent flirty jokes and offers for dates.

“Oh,” he drawls, eyes widened. “Didn’t think good girls like you cursed,” he mocks, following you into the shared living space.

You roll your eyes, kicking off your heels with a little more malice than you probably should.

“Just because you make it your life’s mission to be the meanest, most inconsiderate son of a bitch on the planet,” you snarl, stalking towards your room, “doesn’t mean I have to deal with it. Be a fucking cunt on your own time.”

“Fuck did you just say to me?”

You whip around, tired of the back and forth. “You heard exactly what the fuck I said.”

The smell of his cologne mixed with gunpowder all but invades your senses as he storms toward you.

“Fuck you,” he sneers, eyes narrowed. His hulking form towers over you, his neck craned down to see all of you as he backs you into a corner. At nearly 6’4, a literal wall of muscle and angst, he towers over you, posturing.

His near-permanent scowl hardens as you refuse to break eye contact, despite something in you begging to. Jason's always been pretty. If not for his attitude, you'd find him incredibly attractive. In fact, you think, mentally frowning, you find him attractive despite his cold demeanor. Maybe even because of it.

The rough timbre of Jason’s voice wakes you from your silent stupor.

“Tell me to leave,” he murmurs, pressing himself closer to you, lips just barely ghosting your own. He pulls back, realizing the desperation in his voice in tandem with his proximity to you is maddening.

“Tell me to get the fuck out," he says, breathless. "To stop touching you,” his hand now lightly squeezing your jaw, keeping you in place. Keeping you from avoiding confrontation.

His focus flickers between your lips and your eyes, taking labored breaths.

You part your lips, as whatever thought you began to formulate dies as you realize the proximity of Jason’s lips to yours. You take a shallow breath again. You could count every one of his dark, long eyelashes from here, you think. Every one of his sun spots and freckles, and scars.

“Tell me not to. Tell me now,” he rasps, blueish-green eyes half-hidden by low eyelids. Something unspoken passes between the two of you, neither of you saying anything, yet saying everything all at once. You take a breath, hoping your words won't fail you for a second time.

"…Fuck it."

Suddenly you both are on each other, kissing, clawing, and caressing all the same.

A groan rumbles in Jason's chest as you paw at him. You've been enveloped by him in all his entirety; his smell, his taste, his sounds. You press at his chest, a solid wall of muscle, hoping to push him blindly, to where you think the couch is. The man smirks at your initiative, taking the hint.

He taps your ass twice, but you're too distracted by the taste of him on your lips.

"Be good f'me, doll. Lemme lift you,"

You hum, more concerned with the mountain of a man in front of you. He lifts you with ease, sitting you on his lap as he resumes his mission to make you break. Your nails scrape down his chest deliciously, drawing out another low, needy noise from the man. Jason takes note of how freely you let your hands roam, ghosting over places that haven't been touched in a long time.

"Eager, aren't we, sweetheart?"

"Shut up," you say at full volume, caught off guard by the nickname and forgetting where you are.

"Shut me up, then," Jason quips, pulling you up toward his face for another dizzying kiss. His kisses move from the corner of your mouth down your jaw. Featherlight touches follow him down to your collarbone, where he lightly nibbles at you.

You let out a strangled, needy noise, one far too loud and embarrassing for the time and place the two of you find yourselves in.

"Shh, shhh. 'S okay, baby," Jason coos, a devilish smile creeping up on his swollen lips. "Wouldn't want the others to hear you, would we?"

You hum and shake your head, dazed, as the man deftly rubs circles into your hip with his fingers.

"Guess we should take this to a more private place, hm, pretty girl?"

You nod emphatically, chasing his lips as he moves you off of him.

"So," he pauses, catching his breath. His black hair is tousled, his lips pink and swollen, and his pupils blown wide.

"Your room or mine?"

[givethemsmut]

Dom Mysterio x Reader

Chapter Two | Where it all started…

Shorter chapter incoming…

Expect some time jumps

Don’t own anything WWE 💪🏼

In no way, shape, or form do I edit. This story is for fun and entertainment purposes.

“Two days. Our flight is at 4 AM. Gives you time to dump the flavor of the week.” The bitterness in his voice hurt. 

“Dom. What we did- I’m sorry. Every second felt amazing, I just couldn’t commit. I was scared.”

“I haven’t been pinning, hermosa. You moved on and so did I. No hard feelings.” He was distant still, cold and vicious.

I knew about the other girls. All of them. He had made it his mission to parade them in front of me. He wanted to make sure I knew he had gotten his dick wet after me.

“No hard feelings? Tell your slut of the month to keep it down this time.” I said walking past him in my bikini as I climbed out of the hot tub. 

I wanted him to see every part of me he could. Dom followed me inside, dry as can be. “It’s not going to work, whatever bullshit you have planned. Parading around in practically nothing and rubbing your boyfriends in my face. It’s not going to make me feel bad.”

“Feel bad? We fucked, Dom. That’s not my fault you can’t get over it.” I shouted back. 

“You’re a fucking bitch for that. You wanna play games? We’ll play. Don’t come crying to me when it finally hurts the same way you hurt me.”

We had taken one leap forward just to hustle back to cruel. 

Dom had no idea there hadn’t been anyone else. No one. He just knew what it looked like and it looked like I was a slut but in reality those moans were faked and nothing went past feeling me up.

I deserved his cruelty tho so I took it like a champ.

Rey had got us a two bedroom condo only this time we didn’t share a bathroom. Dominik was kicking off training and everything WWE the very next day.

The frost melted between us enough for us to eat pizza in our mess of boxes. I wanted to badly to apologize but nothing could take back how I broke him heart.

Eventually we got over it, slowly and started being friends again. I even went to his practice matches and training sessions to support him. Our hormones and not having to share a bathroom truly helped, suddenly we could deal with that tension much easier.

I got meaningless jobs, here and there. Enough to pay for  living, rent if Rey would ever take it from me, which he declined more than once. Every penny I had went to stocking the fridge for Dom who was eating his body weight in food with the training burning extra calories.

We got extremely close again, inseparable most days and boundaries of friendship that made people uncomfortable. It made relationships hard to have and harder to keep. We both went through a period of less serious relationships with minimal risk to our friendship again.

We did have one slip up our twenties after getting drunk. None of it planned and all of it something that didn’t please his fling of the month. 

It was Randy Orton’s birthday, something we never thought we would be invited to but a lot of the roster was so we went. Dom hardly knew anyone and I was just as invisible, only I had boobs that distracted everyone. Least the horny men traveling almost the whole year. No one expected Dom to have anyone with him. He was new, inexperienced, and hadn’t paid any dues in their eyes. It was bullshit. He was the hardest working man I knew who wasn’t letting his dad’s legacy determine anything for him. If I could do anything it was making people believe he was someone before they knew him.

I put in a skin tight dress, a black thong and jean jacket that all fit every curve of my body perfect. Linking arms with Dom I could feel the respect climb the more people saw my hand in his. “Just trust me, okay? You’re gonna leave this party a superstar.”

“Why am I scared right now?” He laughed and smiled but held me closer.

Laughing into his chest I handed the bouncer our invite and breezed by without stopping. That was the night I met Randy, who was married still and raising a toddler. I had no business entertaining his flirting. I had no business letting myself be turned on by the entire night enough to convince Dom to fuck me for the second time.

The head of WWE made his way over to us, extending his hand and introducing himself. “Vince, who are you son?”

I stepped in, “Dominick Mysterio, future of WWE, respectfully.”

Vince laughed placing his hand on my arm and I was prepared to valid every rumor if it meant Dom’s hard work was paying off. “You have balls.”

“Enough to convince you to see what he can do? He’s not his dad, he’s better.”

Dominik’s hands smoothed around my waist, nuzzling his face in my hair, finding my ear. “Mi amore, he’s the owner. Slow down.”

“No one is gonna hand you anything, Dom. You have to want it enough to take it.” 

I smiled, forcing him to talk shop when his hand smoothed down my ass before squeezing. “Remember that later.”

Dom was a flirt, a great talker, dedicated to making it in the same industry his dad did. I was proud of him. 

Talking him up to everyone I let him touch me like I was his at least for the night. When we went back to our condo it was hard to turn it off when he cradled my hips asking me, “Why do you believe in me so much?”

“Because I know you. No more deserves it more.”

The way his mouth covered mine, determined to take me right along with his dreams felt out of my control. I wanted him even tho I shouldn’t have. 

Yanking my dress up to my waits he dipped down to his knee in the middle of the living room. Draping my leg over his shoulder I whimpered in desperation. “Dom. We shouldn’t.”

“Don’t say it. I already know. It’s a mistake. No one finds their soul mate at fourteen. I’ve heard it. I’m not asking you to marry me. I’m asking you to fuck my tongue.”

That’s all he had to say for me to melt and make that mistake all over again.

[cor-lapis-candy]

I wanna hit you all with more shady scumbag landlord Diluc, maybe he owns multiple bars across town and has a couple employee lodgings for like uni students or trade college students to live in while they study and work for him.

You're one of those students, working every few days at one of his bars/wine tasting joints, dressed in the black and white uniform most evenings and not once have you seen your top boss or landlord, not even on inspection or maintenance requests. The red head is a mystery to you, hell you only know he is a red head due to a picture in your bar proclaiming who he was, if not for that you would never have known what he looked like.

And yet as of late your neighbours, some rowdy boys or something, had begun moving out, the floor out were on becoming more and more silent, soon it was you and some elderly couple that helped keep the building up to scratch and that was it, so when you heard clamoring noises and banging or renovations being done what could you have thought but someone new moving in.

You were correct but it was less someone new and more your landlord and boss taking over most of the floor, the two apartments beside you had become one sprawling condo, housing none other than Diluc Ragnvindr, the red headed mystery and now your neighbour.

Correction, now your living next door nightmare.

The smallest of noises after 9pm had him knocking, no banging on your door to tell you to keep it down, you set off the fire alarm and he had simply unlocked your door and walked in, turning the device off and scolding you for making him waste his time. But the real hassle began when you fell behind on rent, between your classes and the fewer shifts you had been given you had been like a hundred and sixty under but nonetheless you had fallen behind.

With your boss and landlord next door it was inevitable when you sent the rent you had that he would be there, at your door right after he received a note that it was under, but not twenty minutes after you had sent the transfer he was unlocking your door, waltzing in and sprawling himself across your sofa.

"Any particular reason for the rent being short? Or are we just not cut out for adult life anymore?"

Walking into him being a brute with his blunt demeanor was not at the top of your Thursday evenings plans, the top was in fact the shower and cry but exception must be made and today's seemed to be hearing out your landlord and he wholeheartedly pushed through any formalities and barrels straight into some very interesting and scummy territory.

"You know if the bar isn't good enough my brother has a much better establishment for you, that mouth of yours could make rent in a single night if you acted right..."

You had met his brother or well ex-brother before, he had been drinking at your section of the bar and been very vocal about shit clients and them not paying their dues on commissions, you had thought he was a salesman or broker but now you knew better.

Perhaps you would steer clear of him next time you saw him...

"...or maybe I should make you pay the remainder back in that fashion. He charges about that much for 20mins after all, so are we going to pay our rent in full here and now or are we having a shadow for the next few days? I would so love to watch how the staff of your particular bar actually work."

Now comes the stomach turning choice, debase yourself to pay rent and do... Something to or for your landlord or put all your struggling coworkers under the owners eye until you had paid back why you owed.

Sure your hands might shake and your eyes may be watering as you lower yourself before him, black shirt and white waistcoat wrinkled from your shift, knees heavy as you shuffle closer to him letting him take your limp wrists in his hands before being guided down to his belt, but at least you knew you wouldn't have this debt hanging over your coworkers...

For now, that is, there is always next month's rent to be paid...

[sybaritick]

In response to recent posts I've seen discussing "people on tumblr lying about being working class when they're clearly not/people on tumblr claiming they're regular middle class when they make 200k a year": it's true this is extremely annoying, but i really think this problem exists on EVERY website and also in real life (feel like one can meet working-class-larpers at every US university, but more so the more elite the university is).

People build an identity around an image of their social class, both current and past, and that can be for political reasons (they're a leftist and don't want to be one of the bad rich people) or just because they want to have a bootstraps success narrative around themselves or whatever else. But that identity they build can be completely disconnected from the material reality of their upbringing.

My parents were definitely well-off: my dad was a software developer and my mom also had a tech-adjacent job. Because we lived in a very expensive area, people still made fun of me for class-related reasons as a kid and my parents struggled with financial stuff at times (like having to move out of the house we lived in and switch to renting a smaller condo). However I would still never make the claim I am just some average American, because as a kid my family's income was definitely in the top ~15% in the US.

The thing is though... I think some people either 1) Solely base their perception on the people around them, and if you do that you'll probably think of yourself as average, or 2) have a load-bearing element of their personality that depends on them having been working class background or at the very least have come from an "average" background.

I think the problem here is people building their identities so hard around what their ideology "demands." It's not easy to solve but it's something you have to be honest with yourself about. There is a huge strain of online Tumblr-type-leftism that demands you perform a sort of victimhood/background of oppression or be considered inherently a bad person, and the result is that some people will fake it, but they might not even believe they are faking it, it's part of their self-image.

Don't buy into this idea that victimhood is virtuous.

The first step is do not apologize for any advantage you have and do not feel guilt over any advantage you have: the advantage is good. it lets you do more, gives you power, gives you time or money or connections compared to the average. Everyone has at least some advantages in life, even if they are as simple as "It's an advantage that I was born in at Western country," or "it's an advantage that I'm not blind or deaf." You will never accomplish anything useful, politically or personally, by feeling bad for these things. (You cannot give another person your advantages, or remove your own advantages, by feeling guilty. you CAN use your advantages to help disadvantaged people-- but not through guilt or performative hand-wringing!)

You should feel good and happy about the things many on Tumblr call privileges, because they mean it will be some amount easier for you to get further and climb higher and do more. I love being American. I love being able to do this many pull-ups. I love being male-passing. And I love money. Build from there.

[deathofpeaceofmiiind]

high infidelity | twenty one

"I rent a place on Cornelia Street", I say casually in the car. We were a fresh page on the desk, filling in the blanks as we go. As if the street lights pointed in an arrowhead leading us home

*Ellie's POV* A few days later…

I was finally back up in Vancouver and with Liam, I missed him so much and being with him gave me a sense of stability. Tyler put the house up for sale and it sold on the same day which was incredibly lucky but very normal for Vancouver real estate. Liam and I have just been staying with my dad for the time being, which my dad enjoyed. Danielle even found me a condo and I was getting ready to move into it already. I had to admit this transition period in my life was going a lot easier than I expected. I had such an incredible support system that made it even better.

“I can’t believe this place is mine.” I mused as I walked around my new home. It was right in the heart of Vancouver, bright open layout, lots of windows, a large patio, and even better it had three bedrooms so Liam could have his own space and I could still have a guest room. Danielle looked over at me at smiled, “It’s all yours babe, time for a fresh start.” “Absolutely.” I mused, still not believing I was finally out of that house and didn’t have to walk on eggshells. I could decorate it the way I wanted, adopt a cat if I wanted, put my Christmas tree up early without someone bitching in my ear. Hell I could drink wine and dance around naked if I wanted to. “When does the furniture arrive?” “Tomorrow.” I had taken some of my money from the house selling to get new furniture, cause I wanted nothing from the house in here besides Liams room. Danielle and I were gonna mirror it to his old room to help him with the transition. “It was nice of them to leave this couch.” “This couch is fucking sick.” Danielle agreed, it was a giant cloud couch that almost wrapped around the whole living room. I couldn’t wait to have Noah and the guys up here to hang out and have family dinners or even football Sunday’s with them. I went to check on Liam, but as soon as I did my phone buzzed, it was a text from Noah. “Special delivery at your front door.” I raised my eyebrow and walked towards the door. My footsteps felt heavy the closer I got, I checked the peephole, but he wasn’t on the other side of the door. Filled with confusion I swung the door open and saw a giant bouquet of ivory roses. My heart skipped a beat, they were my favourite. How did he know?

I grabbed my phone and face-timed Noah, he answered and saw me with the flowers,“Congratulations on your new home baby.”

I blushed as I stared at the screen, he was sitting in his home studio as his favourite Naruto hoodie hugged his body. “Thank you these are gorgeous.” “I thought you deserved a house warming gift.” “I’ll never say no to flowers. Are you happy to be home?” I replied as I sat down on the floor in my empty bedroom, completely consumed by Noah’s voice. Funny how a few short years ago I found comfort in his voice on Twitch and now he’s FaceTiming me daily, it was something out of a teenage dream. “I am.” He replied as he scanned his room. “It’s just missing something.” Rolling my eyes, already knowing the answer, “hmm, what could that be?” “You, obviously.” His smile faded and turned into a small pout, “I miss you so much, Ellie.” My heart sunk as it hit me that he really wasn’t here with me, but he was in another country. At least we were in the same timezone but it still wasn’t enough. “I miss you too, Noah.” “I actually have a question for you.” He started. “We upgraded to a bigger venue tomorrow and the remaining tickets sold out quickly so we added a second show the night after. I was wondering, if you’re able, do you want to come down for the second show?” “I’d love to Noah.” A smile appearing on my face, “I want to see what your life is like down there. Only thing is, I’d have to fly down the day of the show. Liam goes back to his dad’s tomorrow after dinner.” He smiles at me through the screen, “Works for me.” “I can’t wait to see you.” I stopped myself, every cell in my body wanted me to tell him I loved him. I wanted to tell him, but over the phone just didn’t seem right. “I can’t wait to see you either.” He was cut off by his doorbell ringing. “What are your plans tonight?” “Inhale this ramen that just arrived and watch more Demon Slayer.” His dark eyes burned a whole into my heart as he looked at me, “Isn’t your boyfriend so exciting?” “Very.” I chuckled. “I can’t wait to see you.” “Once this tour’s over I’m coming up to stay with you with no interruptions okay? I gotta go though, Jesse might steal my food.” He replied, referring to his roommate Jesse Cash, who was also in a band called Erra. Noah started to walk out his room and I could hear him yelling at Jesse to not go to the door. Jesse told him to get fucked and went anyway. “Goodnight babe.” I hung up and I just sat there, feeling tears in my eyes. How can I have so much going for me but I feel deflated? I didn’t want to feel like this. I didn’t want to be this attached to him this fast but he made it impossible, especially with how he’s been so devoted to me. This felt like the cruelest way to fall in love, but I knew it was something I would have get used to with his career. “Mama?” I looked up, Liam walked into the room and towards the flowers. I smiled at him as I wiped the tears from my eyes, he caught me and walked over to me. It amazed me that even at his age he felt my sadness and wanted to make me feel better. He crawled onto my lap and hugged me, putting his head on my shoulder. I held him close to me as I felt more tears escaped my eyes. It can only get easier from here…right?

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

based on his track record, i’d say they’re definitely cohabitating or nearly living together by now lol

I don't think they're living together lol. Apart from the fact that it's way too soon, he hasn't lived with anyone since Emma, and the halsey news that they moved in together were fake, just because one time they left her house together. He probably rents a bnb or something lol

i mean, the same was true with emma. he lived with her for the most part, but maintained his own condo that he also lived at.. he just spent most of the time at emma's place 😭 i'm sure it was no different with halsey, and to be fair.. i mean, evan living the way he has is an anomaly for a hollywood celebrity. both emma and halsey had big, luxurious homes and weren't going to go rough it out at evan's depressing bachelor pad condo, so he spent much of his time at their places. fran was a pandemic girlfriend and between the two of them obviously evan's place was optimal, so that's where they spent most of their time . per fran herself she didn't full-time live with evan, but it was basically a second home. she'd go there and do IG lives, bring her bunnies over, all that. now with natalie, i don't believe evan bought a home in NY because i've seen no proof or indication yet.. at least for now. he's likely renting unless he's still staying with jeff, but either way, i wouldn't be surprised to find out they were living together lol

[burritosandpeppermint]

Buying A Home Is Renting Space In My Head Again

This is more of a rant than anything, although if anyone has any advice/suggestions I won't turn them away.

I own a decent chunk of my company's stock. Nothing huge but more money in anything than I've ever had (except when it was soaring about two years ago, damnit) and the stock price is increasing again (whoo!). In my mind it's enough for a very good down payment on a home. Nothing extravagant, likely a $200K-$250K condo, one bd, one br, hopefully at least a small deck, you get the idea. In the past I thought I'd never buy, but I also really, really don't want to work until I'm dead, paying rent to some management company for the rest of my life. That being said, I also don't want to get a 30 year mortgage at 45.

I think I'm just trying to work out how to:

Retire before I die

Not have housing anxiety after I retire

Not have our savings wiped out if something needs repair

There's a part of me that thinks "This is America, so that may not be possible for people like you anymore" and that may be right, I think I'm just looking at the possibilities and dreaming.

[ofgentleresolve]

( reposted from sideblog on january 11th, 2023. )

@mythvoiced sent in: MORE NELL, MORE NELL~ What are ways for her to wind down after a tough day/night? How does she feel about tough life decisions, avoidant or 'better get this over with as fast as possible'? What's her dream home? Ideal date? 👀 Does she prefer working in silence or does she like ambient sounds or maybe some tunes playing in the background? What's a supposed work 'for children' that she'd thoroughly enjoy as an adult? One work of fiction that feels like home? What are her high fives like, soft, loud, two hands, one hand, is she one of those people that holds your hand a little when your palms connect? ALL THE LOVE, FERRE~ || lena back at it with the WONDERFUL QUESTIONS 🥺

She has to look twice at this curious bystander because most of the time, she’s the one who ends up asking the questions, not the other way around. Between her, Alfred, and Myungdae, she has the least to hide…if one does not count the illegal hacking Nell used to do on the side.  But in her defense, it was a side gig,  the rent in London is always going up, and her employer at the time definitely didn’t have any intention of matching her salary with inflation rates. Hand momentarily off the keyboard, she points to herself, mouthing ‘me, right?’

Yes, they are talking to her.

Her hands go back to the keyboard- wireless with tactile switches; perhaps getting one with linear switches would be better since they make less noise and require less force to press down on, but the sound of typing is so ingrained in her ( and the other two for that matter ), it feels wrong to switch to something else. “I’m a simple girl. Give me my Do*ctor Who marathons and a tub of pistachio ice cream and I’ll be there. Not that any other flavor is worse, but you know…we all have our preferences, don’t we? Myungdae’s got his red beans and Alfred, he’s pretty BASIC. Don’t tell him I said that.”

Chocolate, she means. Not that basic is necessarily bad in this case.

She gives a nervous laugh though, glancing over at her screen. Alfred and Myungdae still haven’t arrived yet. “This…this isn’t an interrogation is it? Not that, I’m implying that you are, I mean, why would you need to, I’m just…working on work, filing for the shop, you know-“ Oh wait, she never answered the question, did she? Maybe the way she’s reacting, answers it all too clearly- if she can, she’d rather avoid the hard decisions…even if that ends up biting her in the arse later. She sighs. “Well…avoiding them doesn’t usually solve them, does it? It’s not like he's able to…”

He, as in the Black Knight. Well, the image of the Black Knight- she’s not actually him, himself. That’s Myungdae’s role, but then again, when you’re constantly with people like Myungdae and Alfred, people have been plunged into the deep end with no life vest available and yet they’re still swimming in spite it all, it makes even the worst of problems seem…bearable.  Avoiding her problems almost feels like an insult at that point. Or maybe something about being the Black Knight makes her want to be BRAVER.

 The next question is, thankfully, less probing. “Does it have good wifi? That’s all I really need to be at home. Well, a high end condo wouldn’t be terrible- I’d love to have enough space for both windows and my screens. If it’ll let me have a smartscreen installed, I’d take that to. It’d have to have an elevator though. No stairs, if possible.” That would be for her mother, the woman who raised her all on her own. Isn’t that why Nell went into hacking to begin with- to pay her mother back for all the years put into raising her daughter? At the very least, if god forbid, something happens to her, at least her mother will be comfortable. The back of her neck suddenly grows terribly warm though-not from the sentimentality or worry, but rather from-

“D-Date?” She chuckles nervously. “T-That’s a bold question, wouldn’t you say? Not that, I’m not flattered, but-“ Well, it’s a bit difficult to maintain a relationship let alone go on a date when a. you don’t know the language well and b. most of your free time is being used to be the Black Knight’s tech support. She coughs into her hand- a classic movement picked up from Myungdae. “Take me to dinner and talk to me about D*octor Who or any of my favorite TV shows. And don’t just tell me who your favorite characters are- I want to go into the meta territory.” There’s a reason her favorites have always been the long-running shows…cartoons ( St*even Uni*verse especially- if only the real world worked the way things did in there- by talking things out, no violence necessary! ) are included, even if Alfred tells her they’re for kids. It’s her free time; she’ll be using it the way she pleases, thank you very much!

“Don’t tell Alfred this, but if neither of them is in the base, I’ll put music on- with earphones, of course.” She pats her bag that holds her trusty air pods….thank goodness for wireless headphones and keyboards, she can’t imagine returning to her days of detangling wires! That was a university thing. “What? It gets boring after a while.” Not while they’re in Black Knight mode, of course, but for all the other times, seeing that the basement of the clocktower is one of the few places she can really be herself…if it weren’t for the fact it’s also where she works, she might consider hosting a marathon or two there.

( Little does she realize Myungdae has caught her once or twice jamming out to her music…he doesn’t mind, not at all. As a matter of fact, it can bring a small smile to his face in those moments, where she’s completely caught up with the present moment. )

A work of fiction that feels like home though? “Gotta be D*octor Who for sure. I remember when the reboot first started up- I was a tween- one with not a lot of friends mind you so I was always looking forward to going home to watch the new episode on the telly. And the old ones too. Mum used to yell at me for spending too much time looking at screens.” She laughs, albeit sadly. It’s been THREE YEARS since she’s seen her mother- since that day she had to go into hiding. The last thing she told her mother was that she was going out to get milk.

She wonders if her mother is still waiting for her to come home. With milk. She rubs her hands- last question. “Hm…actually I haven’t given a high-five in a while. It’s not exactly a thing, we- you know.” Most times when there’s a victory within Team Checkmate, it’s acknowledged briefly before they move on to the next topic. “I guess it would depend on who I’m giving it to? Myungdae’s not a huge fan of pain-“ So she’d probably hold his hand in a gesture of victory than high-five. “And Alfred’s on the rougher side.” Which means her palms will inevitably sting.

But speaking of which, she notices them from the other end of the room. Alfred is waving her to join them. Closing her laptop, she gives the curious soul a tight smile. “Sorry, I’d love to chat more but uh…my ride’s here. And they don’t like it when I keep them waiting.” Standing up, she tucks her laptop into her bag along with the keyboard. “Maybe we can meet up again some time? It’s hard making friends you know- well, maybe you have better luck than I do, but that’s not your problem so much as it is mine and it’s probably my fault anyways-“

She takes a deep breath.

“Anyways. I’ll see you around. Try to stay out of this side of Itaewon tonight for me, okay?”

[starliiqhts]

Ⅰ

birth name: fox gibson vincent birth date: may 10, 1990 current age: 34 zodiac sign: taurus sun, scorpio moon, aquarius rising (x) alignment: true neutral gender: male place of birth: las vegas, nevada ethnicity: ashkenazi jewish, german, english education: he went to public school for a few years before switching to home schooling, up until he went to college. he graduated from school of visual arts in 2012 with a degree in fine arts. occupation: vfx artist

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positive traits: creative, easy-going, realistic negative traits: stubborn, self-indulgent, jealous biggest fears: elevators what’s more important- sex or intimacy: intimacy thoughts on true love: he believes in it, and he thinks you’ll know it when you feel it. he hasn’t felt it yet. ever been in love: no leader or follower: leader. whether it’s his personal life or work, he likes carving his path and doing things his own way. he isn’t bossy or demanding, but he has a set vision and knows what he wants. dealing with stress looks like: some alone time and a couple cigarettes, and he’ll be able to face it and get through it. morning person or night owl: he’s a morning person. he’s notoriously always the first one leaving a party to go home and go to bed at a decent time. he’s not anti-social, he’s just tired. he likes an early night, and being able to wake up in the morning feeling good.  spontaneous or always needing a plan: he doesn’t need a strict plan, but he’d like a loose one at least. 

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eye color: blue hair color: brown height: 5’8 weight: 135 tattoos: he has a few minimalistic tattoos scattered around his body, most of them in dedication to some of his favorite horror movies, such as the house numbers of the main address in a nightmare on elm street on his hand. piercings: ears

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sexual orientation: heterosexual relationship status: single past relationships: he’s had a few serious relationships, and a couple not so serious ones. he didn’t date until he was a little older, with his first real girlfriend - a fellow art student named kelly - at the age of 20. they only dated for a year and a half. with his inexperience, he just wasn’t ready for something too serious or long term. with his next relationship, he didn’t want to jump into anything too fast like with kelly, so it wasn’t for a couple years. he was 24 when he began dating an actress named toni. they dated for almost three years, breaking up after things fizzled. it wasn’t anything either of them did, it was just distance and lack of time together taking it’s toll, and they parted ways amicably. his only other long-term relationship was from the ages of 30 to 32, just under two years. he was with a girl named becky, a novelist. she was a little older than him - okay, a lot older - and as into each other as they were at the start, they quickly realized that the age gap did matter. they were at different places in their lives and weren’t ready for the same things. she made the call to end things officially, and he was mad and hurt at the time, but within a few months, he realized it was the right call and they were never going to work or last. thoughts on marriage + kids: once he settles down with the right girl, he’d like to get married and start a family, but he’s not in a rush and doesn’t want to do it just to do it, or do it with the wrong person. 

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class status: upper-middle financial status: he wouldn’t say rich or wealthy, but he’s not living paycheck to paycheck or struggling. home description: he’s gone back and forth from new york to los angeles ever since college, but recently, he’s been based in los angeles. he’s been renting the same condo since september of 2019. it’s a simple one bedroom home, but he doesn’t want a bigger space than he needs. through his front door, there's his bathroom and laundry room, and a hallway that leads past his dining table, into his kitchen, and to his living room. rather than a wall, there's a divider in between the living room and his bedroom. the building he lives in gives all residents access to a rooftop pool, lounge area, and basketball court, as well as a gym inside the building. family life: he is the youngest son to dawn vincent. dawn is 55 and resides on a commune in colorado, where her children were raised for a large part of their life. she previously lived in las vegas, where she was working as a showgirl at the age of 19 when she met the man she’d go on to have her first son with - a boy named arlo, who is now a director. two years later, she had fox. they were born to different fathers, and while arlo’s has been in and out of the picture, fox’s hasn’t. all fox knows about his dad is that his name was greg, and he was a banker in vegas. he’s pretty sure that he’s aware of fox’s existence, and was aware of the pregnancy, but didn’t have interest in being in his life. fox didn’t need him though. even though their upbringing was a bit unconventional, fox always felt loved by his family. his mom adored her boys, and fox felt like his brother was his best friend. and he still does. they were home schooled on the commune, where fox genuinely liked living as a child. as he got older, he was ready to leave, but he never had bad feelings towards it. it got the word ‘cult’ thrown at it a lot, but he never saw it that way, and still doesn’t. it was a very warm place, and it makes his mom happy.  pets: he doesn’t have any pets at the moment, but he loves animal - especially dogs.

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diet: he doesn’t have a strict diet or any sort of routine. he just eats what he wants, when he wants, when he’s hungry. he’s usually hungry first thing in the morning, and he tries to eat before he has coffee because he typically feels better when he does. his breakfast depends on what he’s craving or what he has in the house, sometimes it’s just cereal or sometimes it’s eggs and toast and some bacon. he does have a bad habit of not eating during the day if he’s on set or working, because he’ll lose track of time. he’ll just have a huge dinner when he does that, plus a lot of late night snacking. drinking + drug habits: he smokes cigarettes, two or three a day, and will smoke a joint about every other night or so. he’ll drink socially, but he rarely ever has alcohol in his house and doesn’t drink alone. religion: he identifies as an atheist, but understands why some religious people like to believe. he’d never look down on someone for it, unless they use it to be hateful, and then he’ll start judging. health and disorders: he has adhd and is on medication for it, but wasn’t for his entire childhood. it wasn’t until he was in his early twenties that he got diagnosed and medicated. 

[alsjeblieft-zeg]

097 of 2024

1. Were you named after anybody? Kind of, after my grandpa.

2. What is your gender? Male.

3. What country were you born in? Belgium.

4. How tall are you? 5'11 = 180cm.

5. Eye color? Grey, but actually more hazel.

6. What year did you or are you going to graduate high school? I graduated in 2009.

7. Energy drink, tea, or coffee? Neither, caffeine triggers my neurological disorder.

8. What is one thing that annoys you? Two-faced people.

9. Do you prefer even or odd numbers? Even.

10. What is your spirtuality/religion? I'm agnostic, always looking for answers.

11. Do you have any pets? One cat. Used to have more in the past.

12. Do you own or rent your own place? Rent, unfortunately.

13. Are you right or left handed? Ambidextrous with some left hand preference. Plot twist: my left hand is disabled.

14. Alt-rock or hip-hop? Hip hop. Or metal, not really rock.

15. Phone games or video games? Phone games.

16. Snapchat or Instagram? Instagram. I have an account dedicated to my photography, but it hasn't been updated in a while.

17. Long or short hair? Long. I have short hair, but I used to have long hair and I'm thinking of growing it back.

18. How many pillows do you have on your bed? Three for me and one for my husband.

19. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No, I don't. Never did.

20. Flip flops or runners? Neither, really.

21. Do you work out at the gym? I used to, but as a form of getting back to mobility.

22. Pen or pencil? Gel pen please.

23. How old are you? I'm 34.

24. Do you like Harry Potter? Never had much interest in it, and I lost my respect for the author anyway.

25. Netflix or TV? Both. I love British TV.

26. Favorite ED movie? None, I'm not a movie person.

27. Fish or meat? Fish, 100%.

28. Do you sleep in silence or do you need something on? I need the TV or at least the radio. I hate silence.

29. Are you afraid of the dark? Kind of. Not really afraid, but I find it kinda unsettling.

30. Day or night? Day. Particularly mornings.

31. Coloring or drawing? Drawing, but I'm not that talented.

32. What is your favorite past time? Shortwave radio & signal identification, and photography. Also trainspotting.

33. Do you own a smart watch or activity tracker? No, I don't.

34. Do you wish you could be taller? Yes. I think my height is rather average for a man.

35. What is one thing you really want right now? To go on a road trip with my husband. No chance, though :P

36. Do you like dollar stores? I think we have only Action, Zeeman and Wibra, and I only go to Action.

37. Do you prefer online shopping or shopping in stores? Online, especially for clothes. Groceries I like to do in person.

38. Have you ever broken a bone? No, never. My bones are ridiculously strong.

39. Do you make friends easily? Nah, I need time to trust someone and to call them a friend. Quality over quantity, too.

40. Texting or phone calls? Texting, but I hate both.

41. Do you have a tumblr? Yeah, I do. Three blogs in total.

42. Do you prefer e books or actual books? Paperback books. I only buy ebooks if I cannot find a paperback anywhere.

43. Poetry or prose? Prose.

44. Can you sing well? I can sing somewhat, but if it's good or not, I have no idea.

45. Do you like cleaning? Nah. Only some chores are doable for me.

46. Do you have a skin care routine? Currently I only put special antiperspirant cream on my face as a 7 days long therapy.

47. Do you miss being younger? Yeah, I do. I miss being a teenager.

48. Did you/do you do well in school? Yes and no. Best grades from the subjects that are interesting to me, barely passing the subjects I find boring.

49. House or condo? House. Preferably with big garden.

50. Any phobias? Yeah, I'm emetophobic. I also fear the sound of pendulum clocks.

[olymphianblood]

i might get a little personal here but im in a mood to yap so bear with me... heres how dip n pip are holding my mental health together atm.

okay like. this might be silly but one thing that is helping me cope with my life situation atm (got fired from my job, had a crisis, enrolled on another college and i have to move to my parents new house with them thats on a location very far away from the city) is that im relating to dnp in question of designing their new forever home. with the exception that its primarily my parents forever home but they planned it with a room for me. thing is the condo where its located at gives me such negative vibes and it makes me feel trapped (for more personal reasons i dont want to share but keep in mind my parents are very overprotective) and my depression spikes considerably and gets even worse. so i kept rebelling saying im not gonna move away with them but finding jobs was rlly hard and even more so when the pandemic started. when i got a job i got fired months later and i didnt even have enough money for rent in a new place. anyway i had to accept that i have to move with them at the cost of my mental health bc i seriously cant deal living with them anymore and i already disliked the place, but at least they said i can plan my room the way i like. so like whenever im discussing how i want my room to be and when i go in meetings with the architects and builders, im always like "omg, just like dan and phil when they were planning their house... im experiencing an adult thing..." and like its so fun rewatching videos where they share the process of their house planning and construction bc i see it in my daily life now, also the discussions of the phouse and personal decisions they made regarding room placement, decor, etc gets me all !!!! bc i have actual imput as someone observing their own parents building their home that they will share together and i get deeper insights of the human coexistence with each other and little details in living in a home that i never picked up until now... and applying that mindset to them and how they live is comforting feels like im understanding someone and just. its like im at a friends gathering at a weekend catching up in life. so yeah this situation that used to be dreadful is being shaped into a nice piece of thought where i can relate it to something that makes me feel good instead of being a triggering memory for depression.

tldr; dnp just like me fr designing their own space to their tastes and is curing me of my depression

[zeon-twilight]

Relationship Anarchy

On days I don't have a gig lined up, I try to do a few extra chores around the house. Generally speaking I make the least *Consistent* money amongst the renters, and have been given some slack in what I MUST pay into the household. When I have more money, I try to give more, when I lack money, I try to give of my labor. For the entirety of my life, I've lived with other people. When I was a child it was with my parents, and when I struck out on my own, it was with a group of friends in small condo. Part of it is pragmatic, it is easier to pay the rent if there are multiple people paying. Part of it is personal, I generally like hearing people's stories and learning what makes them tick. It's enjoyable to feel like you're helping someone in this path called life.

As a relationship anarchist, I believe that human beings connect with each other in many ways and on many levels, and with good communication, one can access the best and curtail the worst of these connections. The tricky thing is putting in the work when so many things pull at our attention, when so many things pull joy away from our hearts. It can end up feeling like the only ways we are allowed to connect are the ones that society defines comfortably for us. Don't get me wrong, there is something to be said for a mutually comfortable dynamic, a relationship with clear definition and boundaries can be a beautiful thing. Loyalty is often built upon layers of trust in another person's consistency, and when a connection is meeting or exceeding everyone's expectations it's a beautiful sight. We need connections which are stable in our lives, for a foundation.

That said, I contend that we also need uncertain relationships. Be it new connections that do not yet know us, or acceptance of those strange connections we allow to be strange rather than cramming into some comfortable box, that we observe with a sense of wonder, curious as to the next shape it may form. These are often the relationships which teach us the most about who we are, and challenge us to be who we want to be. Help us to find the boxes we actually like perhaps. Still, I recognize that I'm a people pleaser. I often stick my nose into other people's troubles hoping to find some way to help. Sometimes this trait has been overbearing, and caused harm in my relationships. Supporting others is a delicate art which requires near constant attentiveness to do effectively. Given that sometimes I've harmed others unintentionally, From time to time I've wondered if this proclivity for trying to be helpful might be secretly insidious in some way, like some kind of niceness manipulation tactic. Certainly many unscrupulous people have gotten their way through life being outwardly caring and charismatic, while secretly working only on their own agenda. I don't have an easy answer on how to tell the difference between people you can trust and people you can't. Everyone gets burned at some point in their lives, and it's up to each individual as to how they react to that, what they redefine about themselves, what changes in what they are looking for, how much they are willing to forgive, and how much they let it impact how they do things going forward. The one thing I have learned is that you have to at least get right with yourself, make sure you're carrying yourself the way you feel is right. If you can get that sorted out, often enough you'll find yourself amongst people who can appreciate that, whatever that might be. Just don't forget that you're always changing too, appreciate what you have and who you are now, because you might be someone else, somewhere else tomorrow. But it's probably worth appreciating that too. I appreciate your time, Who/What/when/where-Ever you are, ZT

[libramonthlyhoroscope1]

Budgeting for Couples: Tips on Managing Your Finances Together When in a Relationship

The Budget Solution

Money doesn’t have to be a contentious issue. Whether your marital status is “soon-to-be,” “newlywed,” or “been in the trenches awhile,” the key to handling money is having a financial agenda or budget. Budgets can sound complex and difficult, but they don’t have to be. A budget is simply a best guess regarding the amount of income you and your spouse will receive over a set time period along with how you plan to use it.

Budgeting for Couples: Tips on Managing Your Finances Together When in a Relationship

Start by sketching out a basic budget plan together. Then, once you and your spouse have a budget, following your plan is just a matter of checking in with each other on a regular basis. Ideally you will do this using free or inexpensive software to track your ongoing financial success in a way that is easy, accurate, and quick (see more on this in Step 6). Here are the seven steps to follow.

Step 1: Set S.M.A.R.T. Goals

Divide your financial goals into short-, medium-, and long-range categories to make sure you are planning for your present and your future. Your short-term, medium-term, and long-term financial goals will have a huge impact on your overall budget.

Short-term goals typically take one or two years to achieve and include things like creating a three-to-six-month emergency fund, paying off credit card debt, and saving for a special vacation.

Medium-term goals include saving for a down payment on a house, paying cash for a new car, or paying off student loan debt. This can take up to 10 years.

The most important long-term goal anyone can have is saving for retirement and that requires saving and investing for most of your working life, which can be up to 40 years—or even longer

When it comes to setting goals, many people rely on the S.M.A.R.T. acronym. The words have varied, but the ones often used for financial goal-setting are:

Specific—State your goal in a few well-chosen words. “We want to own a condo in the Bahamas.”

Measurable—How will you know you’ve achieved your goal? “How much will it cost?”

Achievable—It must be something you can accomplish financially given your means. “Can we save that much given our current and predicted future income?”

Realistic—Even if achievable, does it make sense in your situation? “What will we have to give up and is that OK?”

Time-based—Your timeline will tell you whether this is a short, medium, or long-term goal. “How long will this take?”

Use S.M.A.R.T. to test and, if necessary, adjust your goals. If buying a condo in the Bahamas is out of reach or takes too long to achieve, how about a timeshare? Or opting for a stateside beach resort instead?

You may have to set some goals aside to be revisited later—say, after you get a big raise or promotion.

Step 2: Determine Your Net Income

Once your financial goals are set, take stock of your monthly income. Gross income is the amount you have before taxes and deductions. That isn’t helpful for creating a budget, although any amount that comes out for retirement, a pension, or Social Security does come into play later so be sure to note it in the money you use to budget. For purposes of creating a budget, use your net monthly income—your take-home pay. This is the amount you receive before spending begins.

If you and your spouse are paid a salary or an hourly wage, your net income is likely stable. If either of you has irregular income through seasonal work, self-employment, or sales commissions, you will need to revisit the income section at least monthly.

Step 3: Add Up Mandatory Expenses

Mandatory expenses consist of costs you must pay every month. Examples include housing, which could be in the form of a mortgage payment or rent, car payments, gasoline, parking, utilities, student or other loan payments, insurance, credit card payments, and food. For some people food becomes “what’s left over after all the bills are paid,” but you and your spouse should have a rough idea of the minimum amount you need to spend on groceries and include it as a mandatory expense. Subtract mandatory expenses from your net income. If your combined monthly net income is $8,000 and your mandatory expenses total $4,000, for example, you have $4,000 to carry forward to Step 4.

Step 4: Calculate What You Need to Save

Refer to Steps 1 and 2 to determine how much you need to save to reach your financial goals (Step 1), as well as how much is covered by tax deductions for a 401(k), IRA, or pension (Step 2). Include all of this in Step 4 before moving on. Subtract the amount you need to save (for retirement and other goals) from the amount left over in Step 3. That is the amount available for the next category—discretionary spending.

Let's say the total amount you need to save each month is $1,600. Subtract that from the $4,000 left over in Step 3, and you have $2,400 for the next step.

Step 5: Divvy Up Discretionary Spending

Discretionary spending is just what it sounds like—spending on things you want but don’t need. You and your spouse will likely have your most interesting “discussions” about discretionary spending, so buckle up. Discretionary spending means paying for the things you do or enjoy together such as eating out, vacations, watching cable/streaming shows, or wearing matching outfits for this year’s ugly Christmas sweater party. It also includes how much you spend individually. This could include individual nights out with friends, sports (i.e., tennis for one of you, golf for the other), or any of several different types of activities that each of you do with others or by yourself. Beyond the basics, it could include clothes, electronics, and how fancy a car you drive.

List all potential discretionary spending and categorize it as “joint” or “individual” spending. Discretionary spending typically is its own mini budget, created monthly based on available discretionary funds. In the example above, you have $2,400 left over for discretionary spending. That will not likely be the case every month, which means you and your spouse will need to negotiate discretionary spending with each other monthly. This will often require sacrifices from both of you. If you both accept an equal amount of pain, conflict can be minimized. And despite the need for negotiation, marriage does tend to have a positive impact on your financial picture.

Step 6: Select Your Budgeting Software

Now comes the fun part. Armed with your basic budget, you’re going to look for budgeting software that meets your needs and that both of you feel comfortable using. While almost any budgeting software program or app will work, some have features that are specifically designed to be used by couples. Three are described here.

You Need A Budget (YNAB)

You Need A Budget (YNAB for short) is designed around the zero-based budgeting principle that requires you to “give every dollar a job.”1 It works best for people who are willing to be involved in their finances and change old habits in order to make the system work.

YNAB runs on Windows and Mac computers and via Alexa. It has both iPhone and Android apps available, making it a true cross-platform system. The software connects to bank and credit card accounts but does not track investments. YNAB budgets can be shared among multiple users and the YNAB site even offers information on how to budget as a couple. Designed for budgeting beginners, the platform features tutorials, videos, and a weekly podcast. YNAB comes with a 34-day free trial, after which it costs $11.99 per month (or $84 for the whole year).2

Honeydue

A budgeting app specifically designed for couples, Honeydue includes a feature that lets you and your partner decide how much you want to share with each other. This allows for the tracking of shared expenses as well as individual spending. The app is available for both iPhone and Android but has no web or computer version so everything must be done on a smartphone.

You and your partner can set monthly limits for each spending category, chat within the app, react to transactions, and ask each other about questionable spending (from a shared account). More than 10,000 U.S. banks support the app, and best of all, Honeydue is free.3

Goodbudget

Goodbudget, formerly known as EEBA, uses the familiar envelope budgeting system that requires you to divide monthly income into virtual “envelopes” for each spending category. When the money in an envelope is gone, that category is closed for the rest of the month. All budgets are synced between devices, and the web version, which can be viewed on any computer, makes this program (like YNAB) cross-platform as well.

The paid version of Goodbudget automatically adds transactions from multiple accounts. With the free version, everything must be entered manually. Graphs and reports of spending help reinforce the easy-to-understand envelope concept and Goodbudget’s Getting Started tutorial makes setup easy.

The free version of Goodbudget allows you to create up to 20 categories or envelopes on two devices with one bank account. The paid version, which runs $7 per month or $60 per year, allows unlimited envelopes and bank accounts on up to five devices and provides email support.

[365daysofj2]

Sweet as a Hot Cocoa Bomb (Factory Boys, 5/?)

Jared wakes up at 4:15pm on Christmas Eve. He stayed up all night after he left Gilligan’s so he doesn’t get totally off his night shift schedule. He’s meeting Jensen at the house he rents in Hummelstown, not far from Jared’s own condo just outside the Hummelstown Borough line. He’s dropping his stuff off there so he can spend Christmas Eve night and Christmas Day with Jensen. Jensen’s taking him to the 7:00pm church service, and then they’re going to have hot cocoa and watch a movie. Where it goes after that…well, Jared has a few ideas that will definitely land him on the naughty list. 

Jared showers and packs up some comfy clothes for Christmas Day: red plaid flannel pants and his ugly sweater, which looks like an elf outfit and has actual bells hanging from the collar. He also packs a regular black t-shirt for underneath. Then he packs the shorts and Penn State t-shirt he sleeps in, as well as the phone charger he keeps on the nightstand. He washed everything overnight, since he had to do something with his time. He gathers together his toothbrush, razor, hairbrush, and deodorant, figuring he can just use whatever toothpaste, body wash, shampoo, and shaving cream is at Jensen’s house. Then he’ll smell like Jensen—and Jensen always smells amazing, so clearly he has good taste. 

Jared eats a frozen burrito bowl for dinner and brushes his teeth. Then he puts all his bathroom stuff in his gym bag. There’s still about half an hour until he has to leave for Jensen’s house. Jensen only lives about 10 minutes away from him. He lives across the street from the Hummelstown library, which is down by the railroad tracks. It’s a little annoying to get to from Jared’s end of town because of the one-way streets around it. But that’s a small town for you. 

Jared doesn’t know why he’s feeling a little anxious. It’s not like he has to impress Jensen’s parents or anything. He’s just spending the night with the man he’s head over heels for. Jared guesses he’s just nervous because he hasn’t been with anyone in a couple years. He dated a fellow plant worker, Genevieve, for a while, but she broke up with him to pursue a security guard that she’s now engaged to. 

Jared has the impression that Jensen hasn’t had much luck in the romance department either. He’s never said anything, but he’s awfully shy, and he hasn’t mentioned any recent relationships. Jared wonders whether his strict religious upbringing, which probably required him to at least act straight, is responsible for that. He did mention that the church ladies were trying to fix him up, but he didn’t say that any of them were successful. So Jensen’s probably at least as nervous as Jared is, maybe more.

Finally, Jared gets to leave for Jensen’s house. When he arrives, the street is nearly parked full already. He ends up parking a couple of houses away. He wonders which car is Jensen’s.

He knocks on the door of Jensen’s house. Jensen answers almost instantly. “Jared! Hey, I’m glad you found me.” He steps aside to let Jared in and closes the door behind him. The living room is small and neat, with two overstuffed gray couches and a black leather recliner facing the adjacent wall, where the TV is. 

Jensen motions to Jared’s bag. “You can put your stuff in the bedroom.” He gestures for Jared to follow him upstairs. There are two bedrooms with a bathroom in between, and Jensen points into the one on the left. Jared sets his bag on the bench at the end of Jensen’s bed. The room is medium size but sparsely furnished, and there’s a blue plaid comforter on the king-sized bed that takes up fully half of the room. 

They go back downstairs, and it’s clear that Jensen’s pretty nervous too. “Do you want a drink or anything?” he asks. 

“Some water would be great, thanks,” says Jared, just to give him something to do.

Jensen pulls a pint glass out of the cupboard. It has a Rubber Soul logo, which is the craft brewery in town. He fills it with ice and water from the dispenser on the fridge and hands it to Jared. “You look really nice, by the way,” he says with a small smile.

Jared’s wearing the best church clothes he could find: a gray v-neck sweater over a black button-down, and gray checked trousers he last wore when he interviewed for his current job. He smiles and sips the water. 

“Thank you. You look really great too.” Jensen’s wearing a dark green patterned shirt that makes his eyes look gorgeous, with neatly pressed black trousers and shiny black boots. 

Jensen’s cheeks color. “Thanks. And thanks for agreeing to come with me. I hope you don’t feel like I pressured you.”

Jared reaches out and squeezes Jensen’s shoulder. “I don’t, at all. I know it’s important to you, and I want to support you.” 

Jensen nods, but he doesn’t seem convinced. Jared smiles widely and takes Jensen’s hand in his. “I promise you, it’s okay. I’m not offended, and I don’t feel pressured. I want to share this with you.” Jared takes a deep breath. “You’re not the same as your family. I know your intention is pure. Please stop worrying.”

“You’re right,” Jensen replies softly. “Thank you. I just—I guess it’s just habit.” He glances at the clock. “We should go.”

“After you,” says Jared, letting go of Jensen’s hand. 

Jared follows Jensen to his car, a green Subaru Forester, which is parked halfway between his house and the neighboring one. It doesn’t take long to warm up, and they head toward Hershey.

The church parking lot is full when they get there, so they park in the municipal lot next to it. Jensen leads Jared through the back door of the church and up the stairs to the sanctuary entrance. They hang their coats in the coatroom first, and Jensen is warmly greeted by several parishioners. A couple of kids are darting about, weaving through the small crowd, but no one seems to mind. 

A petite elderly lady walks up to them and says hello to Jensen.

“Hi, Kathie,” Jensen replies warmly. “Jared, this is Kathie. I used to work with her at the museum.”

“Nice to meet you,” says Jared. 

“She sings in the 8 o’clock choir,” Jensen tells Jared. “They did a really nice job at the early service.”

Kathie smiles. “Thank you.” She gestures to the doorway, where ushers are waiting with programs. “We should go in. I think Greg’s about to start the prelude.”

Jared follows Jensen and Kathie to the sanctuary. He accepts a program and a candle from the elderly usher. He and Jensen sit in an empty pew several rows back from the altar. The middle-aged woman at the other end greets Jensen. She’s sitting with her teenage daughter, who appears to have some sort of developmental delay and is wearing pink Christmas pajamas. 

The organist starts playing, and Jared glances through the program. There are prayers written down on both pages, and there are hymns listed with page numbers. Jared can’t sing to save his life, so he hopes Jensen isn’t expecting him to sing along. There are prompts for the audience to stand in a couple places. 

The pastor steps up to the altar and asks everyone to stand. She reads a prayer, and the audience recites the response lines printed in the program. Jared joins in and tries not to feel awkward. 

Immediately afterward, everyone starts singing “O Come, All Ye Faithful.” Jensen gets out the hymnal and tilts it toward Jared so he can see. Jensen’s singing voice is pretty damn good, which just makes Jared feel more out of place than ever. He sings along as quietly as he dares, following the tune  as best he can. After that, there’s another communal prayer. 

The pastor asks them to sit, and then there’s a lot of music and kids’ pageant stuff. Jensen rests a hand on Jared’s knee and gently nudges Jared’s shoulder with his own. Jared looks over to see Jensen smiling encouragingly. “You’re doing fine,” he whispers as a group of young girls in angel costumes recites Scripture.

After the pageant and the sermon, the whole church prays the Lord’s Prayer, the offering is taken, and then the lighters come out to light the candles they each hold. An usher lights the candle of the person sitting on the aisle, and then the parishioners pass the flames to one another.  Jensen lights Jared’s candle with a small smile. There’s another call and response prayer, and then the lights go down. The whole assembly sings “Silent Night,” and it’s rather moving. Jared finally feels at ease, like he actually belongs here. Jensen sings beautifully next to him, and he’s content to just listen to him and feel the love that seems to fill the darkened sanctuary. 

After that, the lights come up and the praise band plays another song. They all stand, and Jensen presses himself into Jared’s side. His fingers lightly brush Jared’s, and Jared grins. Jared intertwines his fingers with Jensen’s for a brief moment. After that, the pastor bids them farewell, and the organist starts the postlude. 

“See, that wasn’t so bad, was it?” asks Jensen.

“No, it wasn’t.” Jared follows Jensen to the aisle. “It’s just been a really long time since I’ve done any of this.”

“You did great,” replies Jensen with a smile. He takes Jared’s hand as they walk down the aisle to the back of the sanctuary. The pastor is speaking to an elderly couple, but she waves to Jensen as they pass. Jensen waves back and grins. 

They retrieve their coats from the coatroom. Jensen waves to Kathie but doesn’t stop to talk, for which Jared is grateful. It’s clear that everyone really likes Jensen, and he’s happy that Jensen fits in so well here. Jared just doesn’t think he ever will. 

It’s really cold as they walk to their car, and it takes forever for the heat to warm up. “Thank you for being such a good sport,” says Jensen as they head down Chocolate Avenue. “I’m sorry it was so awkward for you.”

“No, it’s not your fault,” Jared assures him. “I mean, I went to church as a kid, but I didn’t go to one that was so…interactive. That’s just not my thing.”

“Well, I appreciate you making the best of it.” Jensen grasps Jared’s hand and squeezes it. “I promise I won’t make you sing for the rest of the weekend.”

Jared chuckles. “I guess I should have warned you that I can’t carry a tune in a bucket.”

“God doesn’t mind,” Jensen assures him. “And the rest of us don’t, either.” He smiles. 

When they pull up to Jensen’s house, his parking spot is still open. Jared’s a little surprised. They get out and go into Jensen’s house, which is fully dark. Jensen takes him into the kitchen, where he puts some milk on the stove to warm up. He grabs a Hershey Company tote bag from one of the dining chairs and takes two hot chocolate bombs out of it. “They handed these bags out last week with all this free candy. It’s a pretty decent selection.” He sets a bag of Christmas Rolos and a Reese’s Pieces filled candy cane on the table. “Help yourself.”

Jared’s not really hungry, but he takes a couple of Rolos anyway. Jared knows they were run in September, but he doesn’t mind. Some of the line workers refuse to eat any candy unless they can get it straight off the line, but that’s pretty hard to do. The stuff in the candy store comes from the warehouse, not straight off the line, even though that doesn’t make a whole lot of sense. 

Once the milk is heated, Jensen pours them each a mug and drops a chocolate bomb in. The bombs have mini marshmallows in the middle, which bob up to the top. Jensen hands a navy blue mug with writing on it to Jared. He glances at it, but he can’t understand what the words say. Jensen chuckles. “It’s a Shakespearian insult mug,” he explains. “The English honor society sold them as a fundraiser.”

“Were you an English major?”

Jensen shakes his head. “No. One of my roommates was. I majored in occupational therapy and minored in religion.”

“Interesting. Why didn’t you get a job in that?’

“I did,” replies Jensen. “I worked as an in-home OT therapist. But I kinda burned out, and I stopped working full-time. I applied at the museum because it was a nonprofit and I was trying to get my student loans forgiven, but they didn’t give me enough hours. And the church doesn’t either, but at least it pays better.”

Jared notices that Jensen looks uncomfortable, like there’s more to the story that he doesn’t want to talk about. So he decides to change the subject. “So, you said we were going to watch a movie. What have you got in mind?”

Jensen motions for Jared to follow him to the living room. They sit down on one of the couches and Jensen turns on the TV. He pulls up Netflix and turns on The Christmas Chronicles. Jared doesn’t really plan to watch the movie, and he hopes Jensen doesn’t either.

They finish their cocoa by the fifteen-minute mark, and Jensen takes their empty mugs to the kitchen. When he comes back, he runs a hand through his hair a little nervously before he sits down.

“Look, we don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do,” Jared assures him. Once Jensen sits down, Jared reaches over and rests a hand on his knee. “I’m happy just to spend time with you.”

Jensen leans back against the couch cushion and takes a deep breath. “I just—I haven’t done this since college. And it wasn’t exactly romantic.”

“Man, Christian colleges are a lot different than I imagined,” says Jared, mostly to break the tension.

“Hey, I’ll have you know that I played Rocky in the Rocky Horror shadow cast four years running,” says Jensen with a smirk. “My roommate was Eddie and he dragged me into it. I sort of accidentally stole Riff Raff’s corset.”

Jared frowns. He’s seen RHPS, of course, and he knows that Riff Riff never wears a corset. 

Jensen clocks his confusion and chuckles. “Etown has a 75% female student body. Riff Raff and Frank were girls. And Brad was a girl once too. We were very progressive for a Christian school. But actually, the administration was really supportive. Except for the time they tried to put a transmasc prospie in a girls dorm. But then, it was the early aughts.”

“Yeah, that’s not cool,” Jared agrees. “But I love that you were in a Rocky Horror shadow cast. I went to all the midnight showings in University Park and I knew all the lines, but I was never brave enough to join the shadow cast because I can’t sing for shit.”

“You coulda been a Transylvanian,” says Jensen. “Or don’t you like drag makeup?”

“I act about as well as I sing,” replies Jared. “That’s why I did debate instead of theater.”

“So you were a nerd and I was the lead in West Side Story.” Jensen grins. “I don’t think we’d have been friends in high school.”

“I was a mathlete too,” says Jared. “And Science Olympiad. I don’t think we’d have been in the same social circle.”

“I mean, I was a male cheerleader,” admits Jensen. “But I played baseball, so that helped.”

“See? You were a jock and I was a nerd.” Jared chuckles. “I’m man enough to admit that.”

Jensen laughs, and the corners of his eyes crinkle up in the cutest way. “Does it help if I learned to knit so I could help with the LGBT Allies fundraiser? We used to knit scarves and sell them at Homecoming, and the Residence Life admin who taught us to knit would give us stuff to raffle off at Rocky Horror.”

“That’s fucking adorable,” says Jared with a huge grin. He can’t help himself, Jensen looks so relaxed and happy that Jared surges forward and kisses him. Jensen seems taken aback for a split second, but then he relaxes into the kiss. Jared stretches one arm across Jensen’s back and uses his other hand to card Jensen’s hair. The corners of Jensen’s mouth turn up, giving Jared tacit permission to go deeper. He thrusts his tongue deep into Jensen’s mouth, pressing against Jensen’s own, and Jensen hesitates for a second before responding. 

Jared runs his hand down Jensen’s neck to his shoulder and pushes him down onto his back. He swings one leg over Jensen’s and straddles him. He can feel Jensen’s half-hard cock pressing against his thigh. Jared’s almost completely hard already. 

They kiss for another long moment before Jensen pushes him up. “Not here,” he breathes, gesturing at the front window and the open blinds. “Upstairs.”

“Lead the way,” murmurs Jared. 

They go up to Jensen’s bedroom and shed their good clothes. Jensen makes sure to neatly lay Jared’s nice clothes flat on top of the dresser before covering them with his own. Then he pushes the comforter down to the end of the bed, revealing light blue sheets. Jared decides to show off a little. He scoops Jensen up in a bridal carry and lays him out prone on the unmade bed. 

“Holy shit,” gasps Jensen, now flat on his back and fully hard. “I didn’t know you had enough free time to work out.”

“I don’t,” says Jared, smirking. “That’s just from lifting machine parts on the floor.” He nods at Jensen’s nightstand. “You got stuff in there?”

Jensen nods. “Yeah, lube and condoms are in there.” He gives Jared a coy smirk of his own. “I stocked up yesterday on the way home from work.”

“Well, safety first, you know,” purrs Jared. He pulls a condom and the bottle of lube out of the drawer. He’s achingly hard and already leaking. Jensen looks really fucking good naked. He’s slim, but he doesn’t have a six-pack or anything. Jared really doesn’t give a shit. He’s an office worker most of the time—he’s allowed to not be built. It’s kind of adorable, actually. 

Jensen’s face falls. “Jared?”

“I’m sorry, I was staring,” Jared explains. “Sorry, I’ve just been dreaming of this moment, and now…it’s actually happening. You are so fucking gorgeous I can’t even think, baby.”

Jensen’s cheeks color, and he slowly breaks out into a smile that lights up the whole room. Jared is awesome. He rolls the condom over his cock and flips open the top of the bottle of lube. He coats his fingers with it and delicately slides his index finger into Jensen’s hole. “This is all about you.”

Jensen’s breath catches. “Shit, I haven’t done this in…God, like a decade.” 

“I’ll be gentle,” Jared assures him, and gently starts to open Jensen up. When Jensen seems relaxed, Jared adds a second finger and starts to scissor ever so slightly. He slides his other hand up Jensen’s belly to his chest, and circles one finger around his nipple. Teasing it into hardness, he bends down and grazes his teeth over it as he adds the third finger. Jensen moans, deep and throaty, and it goes straight to Jared’s cock. 

“Jesus fuck,” groans Jensen, his voice ragged and guttural. He drops his head back, and Jared takes the opportunity to lick a stripe up from his nipple to the hollow of his throat. He gently sucks the soft skin in between his teeth, not hard enough to leave a mark, but hard enough that his hole tightens against Jared’s fingers.

“Relax,” Jared murmurs. “This is all about you.”

“Then fuckin’ do it,,” Jensen urges him. 

Jared slicks up the Latex and does just that. Jensen hisses when Jared enters him, but Jared searches for approval in his eyes. Jensen nods and makes a sincere effort to relax. Jared runs one hand through his damp bangs and rubs his thumb down Jensen’s jaw. “You are so fuckin’ hot, you have no idea.”

Jensen just moans in reply, pressing both hands to Jared’s sweat-slick shoulders. Jared presses his lips to Jensen’s and plunders his mouth, mirroring the way his cock is currently sinking deep into Jensen’s hole. Jensen breaks the kiss a moment later and sucks in his breath sharply as Jared starts to thrust. “Jesus fuck,” he gasps. “You’re a fuckin’ animal.”

“I aim to misbehave,” Jared murmurs, grinning. 

“You are a nerd,” replies Jensen.

“Hey, you recognized it,” Jared points out, thrusting a little bit deeper. Jensen lets out a low, guttural moan and drops his head back. Jared takes the opportunity to kiss the cords standing out from Jensen’s neck.

“I’m so close,” breathes Jensen, and Jared can tell. He hits home once, twice, and on the third time he buries his cock as deep in Jensen’s hole as he dares. Jensen comes with a bitten-off shout and shoots ropes all over Jared’s belly. Jared thrusts a few more times to achieve his own release, and pulls out just as Jensen goes completely limp underneath him. Jared pulls off the condom and ties it off, tossing it into the trash can on the other side of Jensen’s nightstand. Then he gives Jensen a short, sweet kiss on the cheek. 

“Oh my God,” Jensen gasps. “You’re fuckin’ amazing, you know that?”

“You make it easy,” replies Jared, and he means it completely. He lies down next to Jensen, pressing his side into Jensen’s and throwing one arm over his chest. “I wanted to make you feel good.”

“You made me feel God,” Jensen replies, still breathing rapidly. He folds himself into Jared and tries to catch his breath. “Holy fuck. That was…I don’t even have words.”

Jared laughs soundlessly. He doesn’t care if it’s too soon, he just wants to fucking say it. “I love you.”

Jensen pushes himself up on one elbow and looks Jared straight in the eye. “I love you too,” he replies, and kisses Jared. 

“Well, look at that,” murmurs Jared. ‘It’s a Christmas miracle.”

Jensen rolls his eyes, but he’s grinning ear to ear. “Sap.”

“I learned from the best.” 

Jensen can’t argue with that. “You’re the best Christmas present I ever got.”

“Likewise,” Jared replies, and drifts off to sleep.

[melloreturn]

@mythvoiced sent in: MORE NELL, MORE NELL~ What are ways for her to wind down after a tough day/night? How does she feel about tough life decisions, avoidant or 'better get this over with as fast as possible'? What's her dream home? Ideal date? 👀 Does she prefer working in silence or does she like ambient sounds or maybe some tunes playing in the background? What's a supposed work 'for children' that she'd thoroughly enjoy as an adult? One work of fiction that feels like home? What are her high fives like, soft, loud, two hands, one hand, is she one of those people that holds your hand a little when your palms connect? ALL THE LOVE, FERRE~ || lena back at it with the WONDERFUL QUESTIONS 🥺

She has to look twice at this curious bystander because most of the time, she’s the one who ends up asking the questions, not the other way around. Between her, Alfred, and Myungdae, she has the least to hide…if one does not count the illegal hacking Nell used to do on the side.  But in her defense, it was a side gig,  the rent in London is always going up, and her employer at the time definitely didn’t have any intention of matching her salary with inflation rates. Hand momentarily off the keyboard, she points to herself, mouthing ‘me, right?’

Yes, they are talking to her.

Her hands go back to the keyboard- wireless with tactile switches; perhaps getting one with linear switches would be better since they make less noise and require less force to press down on, but the sound of typing is so ingrained in her ( and the other two for that matter ), it feels wrong to switch to something else. “I’m a simple girl. Give me my Do*ctor Who marathons and a tub of pistachio ice cream and I’ll be there. Not that any other flavor is worse, but you know…we all have our preferences, don’t we? Myungdae’s got his red beans and Alfred, he’s pretty BASIC. Don’t tell him I said that.”

Chocolate, she means. Not that basic is necessarily bad in this case.

She gives a nervous laugh though, glancing over at her screen. Alfred and Myungdae still haven’t arrived yet. “This…this isn’t an interrogation is it? Not that, I’m implying that you are, I mean, why would you need to, I’m just…working on work, filing for the shop, you know-“ Oh wait, she never answered the question, did she? Maybe the way she’s reacting, answers it all too clearly- if she can, she’d rather avoid the hard decisions…even if that ends up biting her in the arse later. She sighs. “Well…avoiding them doesn’t usually solve them, does it? It’s not like he's able to…”

He, as in the Black Knight. Well, the image of the Black Knight- she’s not actually him, himself. That’s Myungdae’s role, but then again, when you’re constantly with people like Myungdae and Alfred, people have been plunged into the deep end with no life vest available and yet they’re still swimming in spite it all, it makes even the worst of problems seem…bearable.  Avoiding her problems almost feels like an insult at that point. Or maybe something about being the Black Knight makes her want to be BRAVER.

 The next question is, thankfully, less probing. “Does it have good wifi? That’s all I really need to be at home. Well, a high end condo wouldn’t be terrible- I’d love to have enough space for both windows and my screens. If it’ll let me have a smartscreen installed, I’d take that to. It’d have to have an elevator though. No stairs, if possible.” That would be for her mother, the woman who raised her all on her own. Isn’t that why Nell went into hacking to begin with- to pay her mother back for all the years put into raising her daughter? At the very least, if god forbid, something happens to her, at least her mother will be comfortable. The back of her neck suddenly grows terribly warm though-not from the sentimentality or worry, but rather from-

“D-Date?” She chuckles nervously. “T-That’s a bold question, wouldn’t you say? Not that, I’m not flattered, but-“ Well, it’s a bit difficult to maintain a relationship let alone go on a date when a. you don’t know the language well and b. most of your free time is being used to be the Black Knight’s tech support. She coughs into her hand- a classic movement picked up from Myungdae. “Take me to dinner and talk to me about D*octor Who or any of my favorite TV shows. And don’t just tell me who your favorite characters are- I want to go into the meta territory.” There’s a reason her favorites have always been the long-running shows…cartoons ( St*even Uni*verse especially- if only the real world worked the way things did in there- by talking things out, no violence necessary! ) are included, even if Alfred tells her they’re for kids. It’s her free time; she’ll be using it the way she pleases, thank you very much!

“Don’t tell Alfred this, but if neither of them is in the base, I’ll put music on- with earphones, of course.” She pats her bag that holds her trusty air pods….thank goodness for wireless headphones and keyboards, she can’t imagine returning to her days of detangling wires! That was a university thing. “What? It gets boring after a while.” Not while they’re in Black Knight mode, of course, but for all the other times, seeing that the basement of the clocktower is one of the few places she can really be herself…if it weren’t for the fact it’s also where she works, she might consider hosting a marathon or two there.

( Little does she realize Myungdae has caught her once or twice jamming out to her music…he doesn’t mind, not at all. As a matter of fact, it can bring a small smile to his face in those moments, where she’s completely caught up with the present moment. )

A work of fiction that feels like home though? “Gotta be D*octor Who for sure. I remember when the reboot first started up- I was a tween- one with not a lot of friends mind you so I was always looking forward to going home to watch the new episode on the telly. And the old ones too. Mum used to yell at me for spending too much time looking at screens.” She laughs, albeit sadly. It’s been THREE YEARS since she’s seen her mother- since that day she had to go into hiding. The last thing she told her mother was that she was going out to get milk.

She wonders if her mother is still waiting for her to come home. With milk. She rubs her hands- last question. “Hm…actually I haven’t given a high-five in a while. It’s not exactly a thing, we- you know.” Most times when there’s a victory within Team Checkmate, it’s acknowledged briefly before they move on to the next topic. “I guess it would depend on who I’m giving it to? Myungdae’s not a huge fan of pain-“ So she’d probably hold his hand in a gesture of victory than high-five. “And Alfred’s on the rougher side.” Which means her palms will inevitably sting.

But speaking of which, she notices them from the other end of the room. Alfred is waving her to join them. Closing her laptop, she gives the curious soul a tight smile. “Sorry, I’d love to chat more but uh…my ride’s here. And they don’t like it when I keep them waiting.” Standing up, she tucks her laptop into her bag along with the keyboard. “Maybe we can meet up again some time? It’s hard making friends you know- well, maybe you have better luck than I do, but that’s not your problem so much as it is mine and it’s probably my fault anyways-“

She takes a deep breath.

“Anyways. I’ll see you around. Try to stay out of this side of Itaewon tonight for me, okay?”