#opp. muse: nathaniel lee

[divintiies]

" why are you so gentle with me? "

and, oh. nath is so pretty as he looks at him, eyelashes casting shadows on his cheeks. his hand rests on jaewon's wrist, feather light, as if he was afraid to apply any more pressure. as if he could break him. as if, somehow, he was the dangerous one. a finger drags along the area where his pulse should be, tracing the blue veins almost in a trance. it's quiet where they are, standing in the middle of nathaniel's bedroom, the curtain drawn just enough to let a sliver of moonlight in. enough to cast a shadow on the mortal's face, his eyes dark but attentive as they stare into jaewon's own.

nathaniel wondered if jaewon was even aware of his own desire. the way his form trembled in his hold -— a shaky, subtle thing that had the vampire's lashes fluttering and lips torn to shreds by sharp canines -— drove him crazy. there was an intoxicating cocktail of innocence and need that surrounded him like a pheromone, casting a spell that had all the blood he held in his form rushing south. he can hear the click of his throat as he swallows the saliva gathering in his mouth, then speaks: " ...'cause you deserve to be treated gently. You deserve to be shown how special you are. "

he then moves in closer, as if he can't help it. his eyes land on those same lips, his own parting slowly as if to mimic the beautiful way they are spread. " Can I show you? Will you let me? "

it was as if jaewon couldn't help the hitch of breath at the way nath speaks to him, gentle and honest. he wants to turn away, shy in a way that he shouldn't in anyone's presence after almost decades of being on earth. being told he was deserving, that he was special was almost overwhelming when every other obstacle in his life called him an abomination. he can't cry but he feels himself choking up, unable to speak in return. the surge of emotion overwhelms him, intensified by their bond. he ducks his head down as he tries to collect himself. it's too much.

"i'm sorry if the... if the imprint is making you say these things. i don't want you to feel obligated to anything because of the blood bond. i can't..."

' Will you let me? '

his head snaps up quickly at the question, and nathaniel is so much closer now. he's watching jaewon with such intensity, as if he looked away jaewon would disappear. there's nothing but honesty and unbridled desire in nath's eyes as he looks at him. a vicious wave of want takes over him, and he reaches out to take the other man's shirt in his fists before realizing it. the motion grounds him. he's never wanted another person so much before in his life. not mortal or immortal.

he speaks before he can stop himself. "please. please show me."

nathaniel watches and waits with as much patience as he can, unable to keep his hand from exploring the expanse of pale, unblemished skin that jaewon's arm offers. it has only been warmed from the shower he had taken, giving the illusion that he was thrumming with blood in his veins. he tracks every minute movement with his eyes -— how stands of damp, dark hair sticks to jaewon's forehead as he looks away ; how he hunches his shoulders, appearing smaller in nathaniel's too large t-shirt ; even the way his lips purse as he tries to form an apology that was sure to fall on deaf ears.

but when he turns his gaze back upon nathaniel, it's like the rapture. big, cat-like eyes stare deeply into his own, nothing hiding the lust and desire that they hold. nathaniel lets the plea wash over him, allowing himself to become intoxicated at the feeling of how jaewon finally folds into the feelings that he's held back.

fingers gently tangle into the damp strands at the back of the smaller mans nape and brings him forward, allowing their mouths to slot together in a kiss so bruising it almost had him buckling his knees.

jaewon hesitates for only a heartbeat as nath stares him down, gaze intense. then, he feels a hand on the back of his neck and his eyes are slipping shut as nathaniel kisses him as if it was the last time he ever will get the chance to. it's heavy from the start, full of passion so intense a moan startles out of him. he pulls himself closer, closer, closer. he wants to burrow himself into nath and make a home there. to keep away from the world outside of the passion they both share.

he wants so much his gums ache with it, fangs gently scraping against the plush of nathaniel's lip. he wants to drink into him again, both in desire and of blood. wants to consume every part of him so he could keep him close. he wants so much more then he's ever allowed himself to before.

nathaniel's blood sings louder and louder with every beautiful sound that jaewon emits -— a symphony for their ears only, playing off the four walls of his room and amplifying the notes. he eases them back towards his bed, motions gentle as he gives only a few moments of repose to let the other lie down. he is everything nathaniel has ever dreamed about, spread on his covers and looking every bit as the muse he couldn't replicate on paper.

and jaewon looks like a painting come to life underneath him ; as he cages him in with his arms, there's a shadow that softens the room and raises the temperature between them. " Thank you. " he speaks it into the air thick with their shared desire, searching jaewon's eyes as he does so. " Now... " he leans in slowly, maintaining their eye contact until his kiss - swollen lips press against the vampires neck almost tenderly. " I'm gonna show you how special you are to me... " a heart beat passes before he whispers, " Don't hold back. I wanna hear you. " his hand eases lower until they caress soft, mournfully unblemished skin. then, they slip under the thin material of jaewon's boxers and finally touches him where he's been craving all night.

jaewon doesn't know where he starts or ends, everything so overwhelming and intense he can't keep a single line of coherent thought going. all he could focus on was nath's lips on his and how right it felt to be pressed against him. he was so wrapped up in his want and need that he was startled when his knees hit the edge of the bed, gently falling backwards onto the other mans sheets. he lays there and watches nathaniel watch him, their gazes intense as it holds. he feels safe caged in between the human's arms, hair spread around him like a halo and shirt lifting up ever so slightly to expose his abdomen. he felt desired in a way he hasn't before, much more carnal despite the softness it was nestled in.

then, nath thanks him. his eyes widen as he feels the shyness creeping back up, wanting to turn his head away as if he could escape. yet the gaze holds him in place like a invisible hand. he watches without blinking as nathaniel leans in closer, until lips press to his neck. his hand shoots with lightening speed to clutch at the other mans shoulder, wishing teeth would sink into his skin and break the flesh. instead, he exhales harshly, lashes fluttering shut as more desire, far more intense this time, surges through him.

he barely has time to process the words nathaniel speaks before a hand slips into his boxers, causing his back to arch off the bed and a sultry moan to rip from his throat. "nath-!"

" Just like that, " nathaniel murmurs against his throat, allowing himself to succumb to his own desire as he gently flicks his wrist, already slick with jaewon's essence. " You sound so pretty baby. I wanna taste you, " he whispers next, before widening his mouth and sinking his teeth into soft flesh with as much force as he could muster.

"oh, fuck," he finds himself cursing as nathaniel touches him just right, unable to contain any sounds of pleasure he feels despite the mortification of it happening. then, teeth sink into his neck and he's all but screaming in pleasure, the feeling of his human wanting him so much he would want to taste him again after the first time causing a sob to leave his throat. the feeling crests as nath's hand speeds up, movement sloppy but no less wonderful.

he realizes that this was what madame had warned him of. the intoxication of forming the blood bond, of the imprint. but he realized with startling clarity that it didn't scare him. no, he wanted it so intensely he could bend to its will. and as nathaniel's lips slick with his blood searches for his and they bring their mouths together for a kiss so intense he feels himself succumbing to every want he's ever known.

and that, he would realize later, would be the start of their downfall.