#open mic –– pmy

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𝒂𝒍𝒚𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒂 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒌​:

…she hummed lightly at miyeon’s disparaging words against herself, knowing better than to contradict her friend after countless experiences of hearing her speak less of herself. “ you know that isn’t true.”  aly hummed lightly, brows popping ever so slightly. “ there’s never too many people to be concerned about you.”  she paused for a moment. “ especially you. since you’re unique and special.” she teased playfully. “ you deserve that more than me, at the very least. its not as though i need much worrying for, compared to you. you’re like a mini treasure chest all over. “ she paused, peeking seriously at miyeon, ears heating ever so slightly. “ you know, at least to me.”  she huffs. “ a captain hook’s big treasure chest, filled to the brim with good things and bad things inside, which makes everything of it as a whole so much better than just having the good treasures all alone.”

“it’s not that big of a deal. it’s just me.” she muttered. miyeon stayed silent, waiting for alyssia to finish before replying. it bought her time to relax, as she was a little too aware of the fingers on her arm. she desperately wanted to return the gesture, but miyeon knew from experience not to bombard others with displays of affection. “i refuse to believe that you’re as bad as you paint yourself to be. voices are like colors in a way. they may be different, but they all are beautiful in their own way. they also can be a mood changer just like colors.” the color comparison is something that miyeon had been holding onto for a while as she grew more confidence in herself as an artist. “i think that was part of why i haven’t released anything outside of fuse. it took me some time to realize that there will always be someone who loves my voice, no matter how many people that might not always like it. the other part was because i didn’t think i was ready to take that step. it may not be all that different, but i didn’t think i could stand alone as an artist. i’ve been in a group for almost six years, and i’ve been training to be put in a group for six years before that. i had no confidence in myself, but that has changed.” miyeon had always deflected questions about solo work with an excuse, but it felt good to finally say the real reason. she did desire to release her own music, but another opportunity had yet to happen since her changed stance. “maybe in the future i’ll release something and test the waters a bit.” she was about to continue on about the chance of an album before realizing that she got distracted from what she was asked to do. “sorry, i kind of rambled there. i’m not too sure what you consider to be challenging, but how about ‘havana’, ‘full stop’, or ‘the shower’?”

normally miyeon would’ve been quick to shut down whatever opposed her, but there was something about alyssia’s words that had miyeon hooked, waiting for the next one. “i’m a treasure chest? if i’m that precious to you as you claim, then i’ll allow it. but i’m not more deserving than the next person. you would be just as deserving as well.” she couldn’t just let that comment just go by without being addressed. “it might be a bit hypocritical of me to say this, but it’s only right for others to be concerned about you as well. you’ve become a pretty important person to me and i’m sure others feel the same way too. you’re really amazing.” she pauses, biting her tongue before she scares alyssia off. she could go on for hours about how incredible the older truly was, but it was better to save it for a different day. instead, she placed a hand on top of the fingers that were on her arm and looked into alyssia’s eyes. “let’s agree that we both equally deserved to be cared for, okay? let’s be happy aly.” a moment passes before the embarrassment starts seeping in. she quickly withdrew her hand and averted her gaze. “sorry, it’s just hard for me to say things like this, but i really meant it.”

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𝒂𝒍𝒚𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒂 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒌​:

it wasn’t as though that the reason for her coming to the music hall was because miyeon was there–but really, alyssia couldn’t deny the fact that whilst her first intentions was to simply walk past the hall without any qualms of going inside, the familiar frame of the younger girl made her halt her steps, involuntarily turning inwards as she made her way as languidly into the music hall as she could, pretending to be not as intrigued as she was by what the other girl was trying to do. “ well–you look pretty too.” alyssia thought it strange that the girl was quieter than usual, the compliment burning her ears slightly as she shot the other girl a faint grin. “i…apparently am.” she twists slightly, awkward at the revelation. it wasn’t as if that being on the open mic night had been right on the top of her list–if jiah hadn’t encouraged her to do something about singing and just giving things a shot, she wouldn’t considered even fractionally as something that she wanted to try doing.

“ jiah said that my voice sounds nice singing and that i should try.” she shrugged, trying to seem rather blase about the situation that she was in. it wasn’t as though that she was terrible at singing, contrary to that, she was rather good at it. fantastic even, after years of her own practice, even without bc training her vocal chords ever since they decided that they wanted her to be a rapper and an idol actress instead of a singer. “but the point is, all the songs i know a melancholic songs. the mood when i sing during the open mic is gonna be so depressing.” she pouts at miyeon, puffing out her cheeks slightly in what seemed like moroseness. “you’re softer than usual.” she’s pulled out of her own sulking little reverie as the errant thought that miyeon seemed much quieter than she usually was. “is your throat sore?” she tilted her head, brows knitted together a little worriedly as she reached out a hand, almost tempted to brush her fingers against the younger girl’s throat in a display of concern.

after years of receiving compliments, miyeon never learned how to properly accept them. she rarely accepted them, saying there was someone better suited for it as they went in one ear and out through the other, but receiving a compliment on her looks while she was barefaced had nearly flustered her. “thank you aly, that’s awfully nice of you.” was that awkward? it definitely was. how would it not be? thoughts started running through her mind, worried at the way that it was received before acknowledging that there’s nothing that can be done about it now. letting it go with a sigh, miyeon ran a hand through her hair, tousling it a bit before returning her arm by her side. “really? i’ll be staying then and supporting you. it’ll be the highlight of my night.” anything alyssia did would likely be the only thing miyeon remembered. sure miyeon hasn’t been paying close attention to the other performances being put on and even zoned out for some of them already, but she doesn’t get the opportunity to watch artists live often being one herself.

“i don’t think she’s wrong. trying wouldn’t hurt, but i’m sure you’re going to do more than fine. sad songs can still be good songs to sing. if you can convey the message of the song through your voice and move people’s emotions too, then i’d say that’s a job well done. I’m sure you won’t ruin the atmosphere.” she really wanted to hear alyssia sing, so if she needed a little bit more encouragement, miyeon would provide it. “if you really want an upbeat song you can sing one of fuse’s songs,” miyeon joked, “there’s power up, umpah umpah, or even red flavor. I’ll be your backup dancer. i can even balance it out by rapping. me trying to rap again would turn it into a comedic act.” it was an attempt to make light of the situation and give alyssia that small boost of confidence. “what are you talking about? i’m always this soft.” miyeon attempted to convince the other, as the signs of concern immediately sets off the alarm to downplay it. “i’m just on vocal rest because of a slight strain. i’ll be fine as long as i don’t overdo it with a lot of singing.” if there was someone who never knew when to take a break, it was her.

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closed starter with alyssia park​ June 21 in Music Hall - Open Mic

Miyeon felt uneasy the entire retreat being surrounded by multiple idols that she was unfamiliar with. She knew a lot of people, but most weren’t people she knew well enough to relax like the companies intended. She isolated herself or hovered around the few people she felt comfortable around during activities. Miyeon came to the music hall alone, which was the main reason she felt out of place there. Going to her room wouldn’t be any better as she was feeling restless, so it was either the music hall or finding something else to waste time.

She was watching the current act when a familiar figure appeared in the corner of her eye. Elated to have seen them, she immediately made her way over. “Hey Alyssia,” Miyeon softly called out to the other female as she approached, “You look pretty. Are you participating in the open mic?” a soft smile plays at her lips as she looks at Alyssia. If the older would be performing, she’d stay and wait. “I just need a reason to stay here and not go to my room. Wish I could join in on the fun.” She would’ve participated in the open mic night by singing but was something she could not do. Her soft spoken tone was a huge indicator that she was supposed to be resting her voice, but not talking was something she had difficulty doing in the company of others.